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sebsxphia · 2 years
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Does mean dom bob have his soft moments? I think a few would be
showering with him after you've gone all night; you're tired and can barely stand cause your legs are so shakey,
Waking up with him in the morning and you pepper each other with kisses
Going through a sub drop (I have this thought that Bob secretly likes to sing so he sings quietly in your ear to soothe you during sub drops while he gives back rubs)
I think another big one is when he gets deployed (mainly the night before, however when he's away and you're being a brat that's another story)
Sorry for sending so many asks, I just have so many thoughts I need to let out to someone who understands😂
🌊 (ps. I saw the polaroid Enoch took of you, you look stunning!)
my beloved anon!! firstly, do not apologise at all for sending the asks!! i adore each and every one of them and i’m in awe of your beautiful mind 🥹 i’m all ears, all of the time my beloved and i completely understand!!
secondly, thank you so much 🥹 you are so sweet and i’m sending you the biggest forehead smooch, mwah!! 💖
i absolutely agree mean dom bob has his softer moments!! that’s the beautiful dynamic of your sub/dom relationship. although he will reduce you to tears, he’s there as your lover first and foremost and if you’re not being a brat for him, he’s giving you the sweetest and softest sex you’ve ever encountered. especially the night before he gets deployed.
he wants to remember you and the last way he wants to think of that is you in tears and begging him to come. of course its a pretty sight and makes his cock hard, but he wants to remember you lovingly and sweetly moaning his name in his ear. we have to remember, he is also a pleasure dom!!
the singing quietly in your ear too?? 🥹🥹
ughhhhhh!! i could think about these softer moments forever!! thank you so, so much for this my beloved anon!! 💌🫶🏼💖
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Bestieeee I'm so late lately to read the wereroomies updates 😭 I've been so busy but it's alright now, so about the latest one:
- I've been super wrecked by Minho lately so this HIT ME SO HARD. Little wtf I keep picturing wolf minho with that long hair he has now and I GO FERAL
- Kitten with a kitten costume, I love that you did that sm euudsijejdjfyrueud he opened that bedroom door like "merry christmas to me 😛😛😛)
- but ughhhhhh poor baby worried about his rut :(((( I felt so bad for him. Miscommunication is always the worst, so I'm glad they talked it out ❤️❤️❤️
- and omg girls talk with the wolf besties, we love to see it. Poor Chris walked into his flat and was left speechless lmaooo, I laughed so hard
- and the ending bruuuuuhhh I KNEW ONCE HIS RUT HIT I'D BE SO GOOD. Like see baby you had nothing to worry about?????
Anyway I'm so soft for these two. I'd say they're my faves after Chris and his girl, but Changbin and his gf are absolutely adorable and I love how they got together. Why did you have to make them all so lovable and cute I'm loving this series so so much and I love to see so much love here from so many people, absolutely deserved 🫶🏼
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goddddd not wolf!minho with long hair, i can't unsee it now ! all sweaty with taut muscles trying to hold back AND the long hair????? bark bark woof woof
i loved writing the cat costume thing sm jksdfhskdjfh i felt jelous of minho, ngl. i'm sure kitten looked absolutely stunning in it.
awww, my heart's fluttering with that last comment, though... the fact that you find it hard to pick faves is just so 🥺🥺🥺 i'm just happy i can share this with y'all, and i love that y'all can enjoy it with me, too. it's just a lot of fun💜
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moondirti · 2 years
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Ughhhhhh as always you created a masterpiece! A Pearl was stunning! The raw emotion!! The tension!! When I get to the ending I exhaled, not realizing I was practically holding my breath that whole time!!
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and as always my dear you are the absolute cutest!! Thank you so much for all your support 🤍
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thesvenqueen · 3 years
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yeeee onto the next!!
S&B Episode 2
- Ooooo love the switch in title cards ok ok - "you break wind, you don't make it" BOI XD - ohhhh the parents are FIGHTING - ooop. already at the saying shit we regret stage huh. nice Kaz - bruh he would have the most dramatic ass tent my god - "closer" nah I'm good riiiiight over here thanks idc if you're Ben Barnes - lmao Zoya already so done with this - ok I'm loving the point of view from Mal though, makes him more likable and fully developed character than one that Alina talks about every now and again - did he really have to cut her that high on her arm though? could've just done her hand I mean lmao - Kaz, honey, you need better security for real for real - FUCK YOU PEKKA ROLLINS - DO NOT FUCKING TOUCH HIS CANE YOU PIECE OF SHIT - "have we ever made a deal before?" "you and me? Nah." lmaoooo oh Pekka that was a test and you fucking FAILED HA. - Inej can sense something is going on with Pekka, oh my queen you have no idea - Pfffffft the shots omg and Jesper's face I can't - SCHEMING FACE - Sheesh. Dirtyhands came out there for a minute there my god - also, I v much want that pocket watch fr - "the general does not make mistakes" **ME, GESTURES TO THE FUCKING FOLD** ARE YOU SURE ABOUT THAT?!?! - Awwwww Mal, honey :( - UGH this BITCH. UGHHHHHH - YESSSS SHOW ME ALL HER KNIVESSSSS - Oh damn Inej hasn't made her first kill yet, interestinggggg - J E S P E R you are a fucking dork oh my GOD - she's like a shadow hell yessss - Fedyor, you seem absolutely precious - yeah, but do you want to be feared or respected? like, some on - oh DAMN the show of Grisha power is actually really impressive - THE CUT OH MY GOD. OH. MY. GOD. - "We need a demo man" WYLAN. YOU NEED WYLAND. PLEASE. - "Handsome decoy is also not a Jesper talent." SAYS WHO?? HELLO?? it so 100% is lmao - Nah, pretty sure they're scared of the one that can bring DARKNESS tf lol doubt they're scared of someone bringing light of all things - sir, you are TOO CLOSE BACK. TF. UP. you just met her jesus. - Mal, don't be stupid. - pffft Jesper, very nice - POPPY. I ABSOLUTELY ADORE YOU. - "Dirtyhands" "Bastard of the Barrel" YESSSSSSSSSSSS - Inej has a BROTHER?!?! OH SHIIIT. - oh the struggle Inej has to kill him, bless her - ohhh the palace is STUNNING - Jessie legit is absolutely killing it at Alina wow - Mal, what did I say about not doing something stupid jfc - "when our closest friend is in trouble, we do stupid things" and that cut to Kaz, oh boy. - THE CLUB. THE FUCKING CLUB. KAZ. BOI. WUT. - them reaching for the other when they aren't there...awwww :( Again, loving the fact we see more from Mal's point of view. Didn't get that at all in the books and he feels more real, more like a full developed character than someone Alina mentions over and over. It def makes me cheer for him more than within the book because of it. I do want to know how Kaz got the club without Haskel? Unless Haskel comes into play later due to Kaz' taking the massive risk of putting the crow club up as a collateral. Either way, love love LOVE this episode. Love seeing more of how the crow's personalities.
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Five Otome/Romance Game Men I Adore
Hai hai many thanks for thinking of me for this tag game @justine-the-guillotine !!
 I always feel pressure to do these things perfectly, even though it’s just talking about things I like :’) so please bear with me in my, probably, screaming appreciation. I’ve been thinking of a list a characters for a whole day and honestly I’m suddenly blanking,,, who do I adore? lol who knows,,, Well actually you are about to know cause I am going to tell you LOL. OkAY. Enough of this blabbering, onto the list of many mens.
Please know I am excluding Lucien (MLQC) because it is obvious that I adore him to a fucking fault. If you want to see me do a whole appreciation about those him just hmu in my asks or message me and I will go on for days bby
This list is in no way order of most to least adored, I physically could not make that kind of decision jkdfjksdfh. ALSO PLS KNOW I DO SWEAR LIKE A FUCKING SAILOR AND I TALK OF SMUSHING LOVELIES OFTEN. IT”S JUST MY PERSONALITY SO SHHHHH IF YOU DON”T LIKE IT DON”T READ IT BOO, THAT SIMPLE!
Takeda Shingen (Ikemen Sengoku) - Okay, I will be honest, I was very skeptical of sengoku period romance games because I had played some in the past,,, but holy shit, Shingen blew me away. He quickly rose up the ranks of otome men in my heart, and I think about him at least once a day now. I related so much with his MC because it was so hard not to lust and swoon over that man. I have no idea how or when I fell hard for him but it happened and I am not mad at all. I self insert so much with my games,,, and it’s easy for me to slip my real feelings into my fantasies. And honestly I really wish I could have Shingen IRL, ~~though I’m sure I would absolutely freak out and hide under a rock if he ever paid me any attention. He represents the perfect man, lover, and husband to me; he’s on a god level kind of man. Shingen is compassionate, knows boundaries and has never restricted MC from doing anything she loved (without good reason), he’s reliable and strong in a way that makes my heart melt. AND  LET’S NOT FORGET HOW FUCKING BRILLIANT THIS MAN IS, HE IS SO FUCKING SMART AND I WISH CYBIRD LET US SEE HIS EXTREME INTELLIGENCE MUCH MORE,,,, He’s just so damn perfect it is near infuriating how good of a man he is. He fits my normal type so well; me saying “Tall, Handsome, Flirtatious, Sexy as Fuck and Infuriating” might of as well have been about Mr Takeda “I’ll marry you and give you everything for one smile” Shingen. I also really like characters that are loyal to their loved ones (yes in contrast to my bastard villain type kink, I also love those who show loyalty and devotion to the people they love) Shingen does more than enough of all of and I really do look up to him as a person and model for character,,,,, oh gods, and the way I imagine he would make sweet baby making love to ---*cough cough* ALRIGHT LETS STOP HERE BEFORE THIS BECOMES A WHOLE ASS SHINGEN APPRECIATION POST!!!
Sirius Oswald (Ikemen Revolution) - I’m really tempted to just insert a daddy kink meme and leave it at that,,,, He is my absolute top otome man, or rather,,, one of my top “I wish you were real and we were married” men. As much as I whore around and claim to love a new man the most (besides Lucien because they’re on the same level now) every week,,, I will always come back to Mr. Flower Daddy. He holds such a precious spot in my heart, I can only try to explain the things that he makes me feel. Like a giddy school girl in love for the first time, but in this story they end up together. High school sweetheart kind of love that lasts till they’re old and wrinkled with time. Gods, thinking about Sirius makes me sob and my wallet sob harder . I must have a thing for men who keep denying their affections for MC (aka me self insert) because of things like responsibility, friendship, being labelled an old geezer,,etc. I have played his route about eight times over (probably) by now, it’s a little upsetting that his route wasn’t as spicy as his side content. Please Cybird, let Mr. Flower Daddy be the sexy and dramatic man he can be. I love the way he cares for others, how hard he works to achieve the bonds and peace he has now for not only everyone he loves, but for the country they all live in as well. His many layers intrigue me, seeing his reactions as well ughhhh I love this man so fucking much, how do people irl deal with love like this? I’m sitting here dreaming over Sirius Oswald,,, and his,,, big hands,,, Never have I held such large and terrifyingly real emotions and lust for an otome character. The man just screams let daddy take care of you baby but also let daddy wreck your pretty whore mouth, little lady or maybe that’s just me projecting my kinks onto this pure (lol) man. Not only is his body, heart, and morals absolutely stunning, HE IS ANOTHER INCREDIBLY INTELLIGENT BEING AND I CANNOT STRESSSSS HOW MUCH I FIND SMART PEOPLE INCREDIBLY SEXY AND THE WAY HE USES HIS TALENTS TO SUBTLY AID HIS LOVED ONES UGHHHHHH I LOVEEEEEEEEEEEE. GODS PLEASE LET ME BREAK INTO THE SIXTH DIMENSION AND MARRY THIS MAN!!!! 
Kent (Amnesia Memories) - OKAY LET ME JUST SAYYYY HE IS THE BIGGEST BABY AND BIGGEST MAN AT THE SAME TIME AND YOU CAN FIGHT ME ON THIS IDC BUT HIS OUTFIT IS THE SHIT!!! FUCK YOU BELT HATERS!!! His outfit and his love slaps like the wholesome man he is. Absolutely I would love to h*ld his h@nds and give him the best smooches I can give. Because that is what he deserves. I really loved this game, growing to love Kent was easy despite his big brain fucker throwing math questions at me from time to time. I’m not sure what makes me like Kent so damn much, but I do and that’s what matters skjdfdskjfh. He is so damn precious,,, you all know those  “you so fucking precious when you smile” song video thingies? That is exactly how I feel about Kent. He’s so damn precious I want him to be happy always. And I will fight anyone who bullies him hnnn. 
Myeong Hwi aka Theodore Wilson + Lee Gun Wook aka William Harris (Mystic Code) - Mystic Code used to be one of my favs, till they did the whole updating and redoing the story thing, with no full voiced lines etc (I really hope they bring that back). But two stood out to me the most was Captain Wilson and Lieutenant Harris. Both have very strong personalities and care for the greater good, and thick as fuck lets be real with that dom energy . I adore men with strong and noble (?? is this the right word??) personalities and also possess a compassionate heart. As Theo is with the MIU team members and Will is with MC. 
Theodorus Van Gogh (Ikemen Vampire) - whoallowedthismantobethisfuckingattractiveandlegal??????  *insert his magic mike CG* I have played Theo’s route in JP a few times, once to completion but knowing him in the EN version I am already absolutely in love with this man. How this came to be? Maybe it’s his bittersweet personality, the way he cares for MC in the same way Sirius does, but he’s a bit more brash about it than Sirius. I absolutely adored his character growth in his route and as you get to know him better he opens up more and more, ahh the tsundere is quite the cute trait XD. He is strong willed and passionate, he is caring of his loved ones, he is loyal to his family, blood or found, and he is an absolutely attentive loving person. Why ask for more when you can just love Theodorus Van Gogh? He is the absolute softy packed into a large brooding and brash package with a shiny 8-pack abs that I wish to slather maple syrup on and lap up for the love of----  for someone who loves pancakes so much. And I very much admire his drive to do what he wants and needs to do to the absolute best of his ability. His will to thrive for the best he can get has me swooning. He truly is a breath taking man,,, whether that be because he is being a complete sweetheart all of the sudden or he’s whipping you some nasty insult that is itching for a rebut.
Alright, that’s it! I cheated a little lololll but there aren’t any rules so >;3c I can do as I wish. 
I uhhhhhhh don’t interact with many other otome blogs T^T (but maybe you can change that hwehwe) so I won’t be tagging anyone. However, if you do see this and want to join in and tag your friends pls do!!! Share the love, pass it on, scream about more 2D mans.
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flecks-of-starlight · 5 years
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I was tagged by @aoskirk (here)♡ thank you, jenn!
relationship status: single and idc. (i’ve been told by friends that I give off the impression that my ideals are unrealistically high and so, come off as intimidating. someone said they think my only type is someone like hanyu and that made me LOL bc i’ve never, not even once, imagined that. while yuzu’s amazing, i feel like he’d be absolutely trying as a s.o. lmao this is like literally unnecessary rambling) favourite colour: very pale dusky pink (i used to say purple, but the fact is: I don’t own a lot of things in that colour so i should be honest w/ myself) top 3 OTPs: 1. spirk atm (i’ve yeeted back into ST aos mood as of a few months ago for no discernible reason. actively reading fics for it currently. jim kirk is my FAVOURITE. ) 2. ヴィク勇/victuuri (yes, with that specific order) 3. (ditto about finding it difficult to come up with a third - for me it’s exactly as jenn puts it) i’m very tunnel-vision and can’t focus on multiple ships at once, i tend to devote all my attention to just one at a time, maaaybe two.... maybe merthur? (but tbh i haven’t read anything for this ship in a long while) last song you listened to/screamed/sang to on the way home from work: i’ve been playing my aos kirk spotify playlist (which consists mostly of songs pilfered from other kirk playlists lol) during the drive to/from work everyday without fail and I tend to repeat these two songs equally as often bc they’re next to each other on the list: 1. The Last of the Real Ones - Fall Out Boy (this seems to be the quintessential track on many ST aos playlists? i personally feel like this song absolutely screams aos kirk.... from spock’s perspective! i’m very obsessed with it rn xD ) 2. Whatever It Takes - Imagine Dragons  (this song’s like the perfect embodiment of aos kirk ughhhhhh i love it so much. it pumps me up every time and makes me think that i could totally space jump onto a drilling platform LMAO! i’m still struggling to sing parts other than the chorus bc too fast for my non-native-english-speaker tongue lol) last movie: Spider-Man: Into the Spider-Verse. an absolutely amazing and stunning movie. I haven’t felt that satisfied and high-spirited over a movie in such a long time. it was perfection. and its aesthetic is SO me.   I tag (only if you haven’t done and want to, of course~) :  @thepolomonkey @coffeeisagoodstart @morganasand @mushroomtale @onesparrow @spreaditlikenutella @kasui-kun @smut-loving-bookworm @sugarvaahto
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ok so i just listened to your song (i also left a comment, hi! it got kinda long whoops haha) and i just want to say it again - i absolutely fucking love your voice and this video and the way you sing it is so stunning like if this is what you deem as "yeaaah not happy with it" i really want to listen to stuff you are happy with bc you! sing! so fucking!! good!!! i think i'm a little bit in love now -phi
ughHHHHH this bROKE me WOW i’ll go reply to ur comment now but this is so so kind of u and like wow thank u so much to me :’)))) thank u so so much and im really glad you like it even if i dont!!! ur so nice i dont deserve this ahhhh thank you thank you thank you
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mianmimi · 3 years
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WATCHED THE TEASER TRAILER BINCH OMG. I am SO ready for this movie. The fandom has played with the idea of other universes and alternate versions of Stephen, Mordo, and Wong before, but this movie will have canon actually deliver! We may have to start thinking about ship names to differentiate one Strordo ship from another lmao I'm shipping long-haired Mordo with all the Stephen variants already tbh. Mordo looks so perfect. Forgive me for being mentally ill, but he looks so omega 🥺👉👈
This has been sitting here since the teaser trailer 🙈 Forgive me. I’ve been insanely busy.
I know, we have to start thinking of different ship names to distinguish the variant couples apart. I’m just gonna headcanon that all the Mordo and Stephen variants are fated to fall in love at some point in their lives, that’s what I believe and I will cling to it for dear life.
And YES. Mordo looks so beautiful with his long hair. His overall look just looks so….regal? Classy? Dignified? Untouchable while being approachable? Heheheh he’s just absolutely STUNNING. And yes, so very omega. If this was omegaverse…I wonder if all those layers are to hide his scent? Like a very demure way in this universe of saying he’s not available?
On that note, isn’t it pretty cool how much sexiness and beauty he radiates even though he’s fully clothed??? Like he’s got on more layers than an onion but still rocks that outfit like a boss. Ughhhhhh. Beauty and strength. How to be you Mordo, how to be you 😭😭😭
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Keep in mind that Maude is under contract with Armani. If we need anymore proof that Armani sucks ass when they style their ambassadors, just take a look at Barbara palvin who is absolutely gorgeous and stunning and has an amazing body and yet they put her in whatever it is they think is “fashion”
Ughhhhhh
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tzudism · 7 years
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Memory Lane: Maybe It’s Better
Final Bonus Chapter: The Wedding
“Don’t do it! I can’t sit here and let you go through with this! I love you too much to see you do this please, Tzuyu don’t!”
“Sana, what are you talking about?”
“Stop eating chocolate while wearing your dress! What if you drop some on it!?”
“You need to relax, I’m not gonna dro-“
Sana and I look at each in disbelief.
“SANA I DROPPED CHOCOLATE ON MY DRESS! HELP!”
“I TOLD YOU TO STOP! YOU DUMMY!”
“What’s going on in here!?” Dahyun yells as she enters through the door.
“Tzuyu dropped chocolate on her dress!” Sana yells.
“It’s because you keep yelling at me!”
“Because you won’t stop eating chocolate! Now look at you!”
“Both of you relax! I can grab some club soda from the bartender outside, relax, the stain is barely even noticeable anyway. But, yeah Tzuyu, stop eating chocolate.” Dahyun says in a stern tone.
“You sound like my mom, Dahyun.”
“Would like me to get her and show her what you did to your dress?”
“No…” I stop myself before I get into any more trouble.
“What would you do without me Chou Tzuyu?” Dahyun smiles and heads to the bar.
“Wait! I’ll go with you babe, I need to get a drink.” Sana rushes outside and grabs Dahyun’s arm as they walk away.
I take another look at the stain, and take a deep breath as I slouch on my chair. Today is the big day. I’m getting married with the love of my life. I wonder what Chaeyoung is doing right now? Is she just as nervous as I am? How funny would it be if she dropped chocolate on her outfit too? I laugh at the thought of it.
*knock knock*
That was quick, I thought the bar was on the other side of the venue? I head over to the door and open it.
“Dahyun did they have any club so-“
*SLAM*
“Hey! Is that how you treat the person you’re about to marry!?”
“Chaeyoung what are you doing here!?” My heart is beating a thousand beats per minute.
“I just couldn’t wait any longer. I wanted to see you.” She laughs.
Ugh. Her laugh is so cute. I open the door just a little.
“I’m sorry.” I say softly.
“It’s ok.” She smiles, “Let me in I want to see you!” She exclaims.
“No!” I shout.
“What!? Why not?”
“Don’t you know it’s bad luck to see the bride in her wedding dress before the wedding?”
“You know, I’m the bride too right?” Chaeyoung laughs. “Besides, it’s not fair you can see me right now!”
I was so flustered at her being her I didn’t even realize that. Chaeyoung takes a step back and spins around. I can see every angle of her suit. She was stunning.
“Ok.”
“Ok what? Will you let me in now?” Chaeyoung asks excitedly.
“Ye-“ Suddenly I remember the chocolate stain. “Yeah, just give me a second!”
I close the door and sit down on the closest chair. I tuck the part of the dress with the stain under the chair and take a deep breath.
“Ok, come in.” I say nervously.
Chaeyoung opens the door slowly and comes through with her back to me. She closes the door and turns around. Her eyes light up and she bites her lip.
“Wow. Tzuyu you look absolutely beautiful.”
“You really think so?” I could feel the red in my cheeks as I smile like an idiot.
“Of course, I can’t believe I get to spend the rest of my life with you. You’re a blessing Chou Tzuyu.”
“You better not be saying your vows already.” I glare.
“No of course not!”
Chaeyoung and I laugh at each other and she sits next to me and holds my hand.
“Are you ready for today?” She asks.
“I think so, I just don’t hope I trip down the aisle. I mean look how long this dress is! I never really realized it until today!”
“You think so? It doesn’t look that long, let me see.”
I pull out the dress from under the chair to show Chaeyoung how massive it was, until I realized…
“Is that a stain?” Chaeyoung points and laughs.
“Ahh! Don’t look! It’s just chocolate, I swear!”
I stuff the dress back under the chair, as I hate myself for forgetting why I stuffed it there in the first place.
Chaeyoung, still laughing, grabs my hand.
“So this is why I overheard Dahyun and Sana talking about a chocolate stain on my way over here. Relax Tzuyu, I don’t care about the stain.”
“It’s just so embarrassing…”
“It’s fine, it’s not the dress I’m marrying today, it’s the beautiful person wearing it.”
Chaeyoung pulls me in with her forehead touching mine, but suddenly as she leans in, I hear people talking outside.
“Wait! I think that’s Dahyun and Sana coming back from the bar!”
“Where am I supposed to go!?”
“I don’t know! Be anywhere but here!”
Panicking, I get up and toss Chaeyoung outside the door.
“Really Tzuyu!? You throw me to the one place they’re going to!?”
“Chaeyoung? What are you doing here?” Dahyun asks.
“OH! Umm…I just wanted to see Tzuyu for a second, but…she wouldn’t let me in.”
“Don’t worry it’s not you, it’s probably because of the chocolate st-OW!”
Dahyun steps on Sana’s foot before she can say any more.
“Because of the chocolate! She ate some bad chocolate earlier! That’s all. She’ll be ready for the ceremony, don’t worry about her.” Dahyun says as she makes a face at Sana for almost giving away what Chaeyoung already knew.
“Ah ok, feel better Tzuyu! I love you!” She says loud with a big smile.
“I love you too!” I yell back.
Chaeyoung walks away and Sana and Dahyun run inside the room.
“What took you guys so long!?” I yell.
“I’m sorry! We saw Mina and Momo on the way and Sana started talking too much with the bartender.”
“Hey! You’re the one that tried to find all the cameras in every room!”
“I did that just in case someone could see the stain if we can’t get it out! So don’t give me that! You and your margarita puns, they weren’t even funny!”
“Don’t lie! You always find cameras everywhere you go! Besides you’re just…salty.” Sana tries to hide her laughter.
“UGHHH.” Dahyun groans.
“C’mon Dahyun…Lime-n up!...HAHA.”
“UGHHHHHH WHY ARE WE DATING!?”
“BECAUSE YOU LOVE ME SILLY! AND MY PUNS TOO!”
“GUYS! HELLO!? THE STAIN!?” I yell to get these two to focus.
“Oh right! Sorry!” They say in unison.
Dahyun manages to dab the stain right off of the dress as if it was never there.
“See, good as new!” Sana says with a smile.
“Thanks guys.” I say with relief.
“Where would you be without me Chou Tzuyu?” Dahyun and Sana say together.
“Hey! That’s my line!” Dahyun yells.
“I know, you say it all the time, I just wanted to try it.” Sana smiles.
“You’re lucky you’re cute.” Dahyun sighs.
*knock knock*
“Come in!”
Yeri opens the door and walks in.
“Wow Tzuyu, you look stunning!” She says.
“Thanks Yeri, how’s Chaeyoung?”
“She seems pretty good, she went for a walk and when she came back she seemed happier than when she left. You wouldn’t know anything about that would you?”
“Huh? Umm no?” I try to say with a straight face.
“Anyway, it’s almost time to start the ceremony, are you ready?”
“Yeah, we’re ready, let’s go guys. Thanks for coming Yeri.” I get up and we all start to walk together.
“Of course, as the Maid of Honor, it’s my duty.” She smiles.
“Umm excuse me?” Dahyun says with disgust. “We talked about this Yeri, I’M the Maid of Honor, not you.”
“Well isn’t Tzuyu the one that proposed? That makes Chaeyoung the bride, and me the Maid of Honor.”
“Noooo, even if she did propose, Tzuyu is the one wearing the dress, which makes her the bride and ME the Maid of Honor.”
“Guys, technically aren’t they both the bride?” Sana says.
“Sana please... wait that actually makes sense.” Dahyun says in disbelief.
“You guys can both be the Maid of Honor, you two need to relax.” I say with a smile.
“Yeah besides, if Chaeyoung were a groom, Yeri would be the Best Maid!”
“There’s the Sana I know.” Dahyun laughs.
“And love!” Sana grabs Dahyun’s arm and smiles.
“Yeah yeah I know.” Dahyun smiles back.
We stop in front of the doorway and Yeri opens the door, waves goodbye, and walks through. Then Sana walks through, then Dahyun. I take a deep breath for one last time.
The door opens and I take my first few steps. I see everyone look at me and I can hear their gasps and their whispers saying I look beautiful and how wonderful my dress is. My dad gets up from his seat and takes my arm as we walk the rest of the way. I look up at him and smile and he smiles back. I hear the music playing and I can see Dahyun playing the piano in the front. She smiles at me and mouths, “You’re doing great sweetie.” knowing that would make me smile, and of course it did. I look up and there she is. The love of my life. I can feel the tears coming up, but I tell myself to calm down. My dad stop at the end of the aisle and tells me he’s proud of me. He sits down next to my mom who’s already crying. I tell myself to take another deep breath as I walk up the steps to Chaeyoung who looks even more beautiful than when I saw her before and I’m stuck here wondering how is that even possible. The officiant goes on to say how Chaeyoung and I met and I get all these flashbacks to all the things we went through. Meeting in high school, being apart, getting together, everything has come to this point. I sit here reminiscing and before I know it, it’s time for our vows. I move in front of Chaeyoung who takes a deep breath and looks into my eyes.
“Tzuyu. We’ve had a lot of ups and downs. To this very day, I regret all the bad things I have ever done to you. And you always say you forgive me, and I know you do, but I’ll never rest until I can be able to forgive myself. I always wondered, how can I possibly do that? Then I realized that the answer was in front of me the whole time. You. You’re the only thing that matters. If I can make you happy for the rest of your life, then everything will be perfect. From this day forward, I promise to never hurt you again. From this day forward, I promise to hold you dearly in my heart till the end of time. I told you before that you’re a blessing. I tell you that because it’s true. You’re a gift. You’re priceless. And I promise that I will work, as hard as possible, to be worthy of such a beautiful person. As of today, you will become my everything. My lover, my confidant, my best friend, and now my wife. I love you, and I will spend every day proving that to you.”
I can feel Chaeyoung’s hands shaking as she puts the ring on my finger and I can see a single tear fall down her face and I wipe it off as she smiles. My heart beats so fast, I can’t think straight anymore, especially after what I just heard.
“Tzuyu, are you ready for you vows?” the officiant asks.
I nod my head and take a deep breath because I can’t get myself to speak just yet. I look into to Chaeyoung’s eyes and hold her hands.
“I knew you were going to mention not forgiving yourself, you always do that. I told you, everything is ok, otherwise we wouldn’t be here Chaengie.” I smile.
I can hear the crowd laugh a little and I see Chaeyoung nod her head.
“Chaeyoung. Ever since the first moment I saw you, I knew that you were the most beautiful person in the world. You may think otherwise, but I’ll never let you change my mind. And saying I am the most beautiful person, and not you will get you nowhere. I had my heart set out on you from the very beginning. You were and still are my very first love. I didn’t know how to react. I didn’t know how to make the first move, or do anything to get your attention. I just did whatever I thought would work, thanks from a little help from Dahyun, and somehow, it worked. I got your attention. The more we hung out, the more I looked into your eyes and the more I felt you fingers interlope with mine, I knew that there was more to this, more to us, than just teenagers being young and stupid. This was love. To this day, I feel the same way. No wait, I don’t. I feel even more sure about it now, than I ever have before. Son Chaeyoung, I’m in love with you. I tried my best to come up with a more creative way to say it without saying love, but I can’t, because that’s just how I feel about you. When you hold my hand, when you look into my eyes, when you yell at me for making a mess, when you snore whenever you fall asleep on my shoulder, when you get mad whenever I make fun of you for being short, whenever you kiss me. I feel the same way every time, no matter what happens to us that will never change. Son Chaeyoung, you are my world.”
I put the ring on her finger, and now my hands are starting to shake. Chaeyoung and I look at each other and laugh.
“Do you, Son Chaeyoung, take Chou Tzuyu to be your wife?”
“I do.” She smiles.
“And do you, Chou Tzuyu, take Son Chaeyoung to be your wife?”
“I do.” I smile.
“You may now, kiss the bride.”
Today was the day, that I will always look at as the best day of my life, whenever I walk down Memory Lane.
The End
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AFTER 7 MONTHS, GOD GAVE ME THE JOB
the following is a timeline/testimony of my 7-month journey of faith, prayer, patience, and trust in the Lord for a job. I’ve also included in bullet points journal entries/prayers I’ve written from my devotionals where I felt the Lord was ministering and speaking to me regarding the job. I know it looks like a lot but I tried my best to make it as simply and straight-forward as possible loolllll. Thank you in advance for taking time to read through all this!! :) xx
January 2017: I walk into Classics to buy myself flowers (though I ended up not buying any) and hear the Holy Spirit prompt me with “Why don’t you go ask and see if they’re hiring?” I get excited at the thought of working there and proceed to ask the owner if they’re hiring. She tells me that they have some positions open and asks me to fill out an application. I AM VERY VERY SUPER DUPER EXCITED AND HOPEFUL.
February 14th: Valentine’s Day lollll. I go in to buy MYSELF flowers and also drop off my resume.
January - March: Made phone calls every week to follow up on my application, only to hear every time that the owner will call me back. The phone calls I made every week slowly turned into every other week, and then every 3 weeks.
March 21st: Holy Spirit tells me to go visit the store, so I go. I buy myself flowers and re-introduce myself to the owner, telling her that I applied 2 months ago and ask if there’s still any openings. She asks for my availability and tells me that there are morning and afternoon shifts open. I eagerly tell her I’m free & she says she’ll contact me.
End of March - Mid April: More follow-up phone calls lollzzz
April 13th: Holy Spirit tells me to send the owner an email this time - no more phone calls. I send her an email following up on our last conversation in March and pretty much ask for closure lolll. I asked if I could get a confirmed response within the next week on whether or not I’ll be hired. I was getting very impatient because by this time I’ve been unemployed for almost a year and I wanted to get a job/$$$ asap. I desperately needed closure so that I could start applying at other places if I wasn’t gonna get the job here.
April 14th: (SHE REPLIES THE VERY NEXT DAY OMGOSHHH)  “Hi Grace, I have really been considering you for a position here at the store. How many hours a week are you looking to have?”
!!!!!!!! I AM SOOOOO HAPPY AND EXCITED AT THIS POINT AHHH !!!!!!!!!!!
I respond with my availability and schedule.
April 18th: Okay backstory: from October 2016-January 2017 I interned at a non-profit jewelry company called Purpose Jewelry. Although my internship finished earlier this year, I still made myself available to volunteer for events if they needed help. On this day, I came in to pick up equipment for an event I was volunteering for and got to catch up with my old manager. She asks me for life updates & I tell her I’m trying to get this job at Classics. Her eyes grow wide and tell me that she JUST started collaborating with them & that Classics actually carries Purpose Jewelry at the shop now!!! IDK ABOUT YOU BUT THE CHANCES OF THIS HAPPENING ARE LIKE....NOT VERY HIGH LOL. I am 100% sure that this was a sign from God.
April 19th: At this point, it’s been 6 days since I sent the email and 5 days since she’s responded. Only 1 more day to make it a full week to give me closure/lmk if I’m hired or not. I am v nervous and worried. Also on this day, I attended a conference at HROCK that a friend of mine invited me to. During ministry time, I was worshipping the Lord and I hear these words from Him: “You will receive an email tomorrow.” My heart became excited and full of peace <333
April 20th: It’s been exactly 1 week that I’ve sent the email. AND SHE REPLIES JUST AS THE LORD SAID <333
“Hi Grace, I truly appreciate your patience in obtaining employment here at Classics. At this time though, I might not be able to give you 20 or more hours a week. It might be about 15 hours. Let me know if you are willing to try and we can go from there. Thank you so much!”
At this point, I am sooooooo soooo happy. I jump to conclusions and share a testimony at our church’s Bible study that i got the job lolllllll. After all, the Lord spoke to me about it and this email made me so sure that I was gonna get it!!!!
I respond saying 15 hours is perfect and ask to continue discussing the next steps.
April 21st - May 6th: No response back from her. I send 3 more follow-up emails. I am very confused & discouraged.
May 7th: “Hi Grace, I would not be able to offer employment to you at this time. I thank you for your time and patience. Some of our employees are going to be out of school soon for the summer break so I would like to offer them more work hours instead.”
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My heart dropped...like is this for real?????? I seriously thought I had it,..
I remember sitting on my bed after reading the email, completely stunned, saddened, and especially confused. I pray to Lord about it and receive comfort and peace. I reflected on the 5-month journey thus far and came to a realization: THERE IS ABSOLUTELY NO FREAKIN WAY THAT GOD WOULD DO THIS TO ME LOL. There is no way God would tell me to apply for a job, speak continuously to me about it, give me signs, and not give it to me. God doesn’t do that - He wouldn’t “lead me on.” There’s no way He would make me go through all this JUST to test my faith and patience...for everything to come to nothing. There HAS to be more to it. There HAS to be something in the end. So I continue praying & believing for the job despite getting denied by the owner.
May 17th: I send ANOTHER email asking her to reconsider lol i’m so annoying
June 10th: I’m driving home after dropping Trina off at work. Holy Spirit tells me to stop by Classics. I’m like HECK NO and drive past it. I get to the intersection of my house and feel convicted, so I turn around and drive back to Classics. I walk into the store and ask one of the employees if the owner is there and she says that the owner actually JUST LEFT (ughhhhhh I SHOULDA LISTENED TO HS RIGHT AWAY). HOWEVER...the employee recognizes me and and asks if I’m Josh’s sister. Her name is Hannah and she is Josh’s friend’s cousin lolll. Josh has been texting her here & there, asking her questions about employment to help me out. We both knew of each other though we’ve never met. We talk for a little bit & I tell her about my situation & she lets me know that she’s actually leaving the company to pursue an internship out of the country. She says to keep trying & good luck. I leave feeling really encouraged & hopeful! 
June 27th: HANNAH TEXTS JOSH AND ASKS HIM TO ASK ME IF I’M FREE TO MEET UP!!!!!????!?!?!?!?! I eagerly accept and meet up with her that day. Hannah tells me that the owner asked her about me, but she only met me once and doesn’t know me too well. Hannah asks the owner if she would like for her to meet up with me and get to know me, and the owner says yes please. And that’s why she wanted to meet up 😭😭😭  so sweet 😭😭😭  She tells me that she’s leaving the country for her internship in 2 weeks and that the owner is looking for someone to hire, so she wanted to take time to get to know me so she can refer me to the owner. She gives me tips & pointers for the job and tells me not to worry & that she’s going to refer me <3
July 3rd: I text Hannah asking if the owner has said anything and if I should contact the owner & follow up. Hannah says she hasn’t heard anything about it yet but to just wait for the owner to contact me. 
July 27th: It was the last day of Summer camp with our church and everyone is sitting in silence with the Lord. I think about the life I have to go back to and become discouraged at thought of STILL being unemployed. But the Lord responds to my thoughts by saying “Don’t worry. You will get the job.” 
Later that day when we get home, I check my email: *sent Monday, July 24th “Hi Grace, I would like schedule am interview for the job opening on Thursday or Friday from 1 PM on. Please let me know your availability. Looking forward to hearing from you.”
My heart is bursting with joy and excitement. God is SOOOOOOOOO GOOD AND FAITHFUL TO WHAT HE SAYS <333333
July 28th: I go to the shop for an interview!
July 29th:
“Hi Grace, Thank you so much for coming to the interview with Jorge! After careful considerations, I have decided to offer you a position here at Classics. Are you available to start on Monday at 9AM? Let me know if that works.  I think that you will be a great addition to our team!”
July 31st: My very first day working at Classics 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
It’s been a little over a month since I’ve been working here and wow....I am sooooo in love with my job. I applied for a simple position of a barista/server (why fight so long & hard for a job I can get at Starbucks or anywhere else you may ask), but God has already opened so many doors for me here 😭❤️ If you know me, I am absolutely head-over-heels IN LOVE with flowers. They are beautiful & delicate & one of God’s many ways of telling us “I love you.” I also have lots of experience with Social Media marketing and it’s something I really enjoy doing. The Lord has opened doors for me to do BOTH 😭😭😭  Although I have NO EXPERIENCE WHATSOEVER in florist design, the owner gave me a chance to do floral work a few weeks ago, saw that I somehow did a good job, and started training me to do work on the flower side. Earlier this week, she gave me the PW to their Instagram and allows me to post/do whatever I want. THIS IS ALL GOD 😭😭😭  I remember starting in middle school, my ultimate dream job was to be a florist. It wasn’t ideal or something I took time to pursue because I felt like it wouldn’t be stable, but God literally turned that dream into a reality for me. I definitely can feel His amazing love through this job. After every shift, I leave feeling so full of joy and gladness. 
These past 7 months have NOT been easy....NOT EASY AT ALL lolll. There were soooo many times I wanted to give up and just apply somewhere else. There were so many people in my life that I love & cherish who told me to move on, apply somewhere else, that I deserve better than this, that God has another job in store for me - all out of love & care for me. But the ONLY thing that kept me going was the Lord Himself. Yes, He gave me signs and specific words about the job, but the main anchor to my faith were those scriptures that He spoke to me week after week, day after day in my devotions. Through His word, He kept telling me to keep the faith, be patient, trust in Him, ask and you shall receive, and obtain the promises He has for me. Thank you also to everyoneeee who encouraged me & stood with me in faith! I don’t know if I would have made it through if it weren’t for your prayers & words of faith <333 God is soooooo sooooo good and faithful 😭  His timing may not be in line with our timing, but wow it’s soooo worth it. I am sooo, sooo incredibily thankful to the Lord for this journey. I learned so much about faith, patience, and trust in the Lord. I’ve neverrr been tested like this before but the Lord came through just like He always does. All glory, honor, and praise to God! HE IS AMAZING AND SOOOO GOOD AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
I pray & hope you are encouraged in your journey of faith & patience to obtain all the promises He has for you!! <333 He is faithful! 
JOURNAL ENTRIES
February 25th: 
“He did not waver at the promise of God through unbelief, but was strengthened in faith, giving glory to God, and being fully convinced that what He had promised He was also able to perform.” Romans 4:20-21
When it comes to the promises of God, believe and be strengthened that it will come to pass in FAITH. Be fully convinced that God will fulfill His promises; do not waver through unbelief! Strengthen your faith daily through the word.
April 4th: 
“Now the men whom Moses sent to spy out the land, who returned and made all the congregation complain against him by brining a bad report of the land, those very men who brought the evil report about the land, died by the plague before the Lord.” Numbers 14:36-37 
Been learning a lot about the power of our words...when you use your tongue to bring an evil/bad report about the things/promises of God, it is very displeasing to Him. May I remember to not speak death or discouraging words regarding God’s promises - that they’re too good to be true, or doubt what He has promised. When God has proven and shown me His goodness and promises, I should never doubt His plans and future promises. I must trust in Him, never doubt Him, listen and obey His voice so I can receive His promises. 
April 5th: 
“But as for me, I trust in You, O Lord; I say, ‘You are my God.’” Psalm 31:!4
Psalm 31:4
Even when David was persecuted and hated by everyone around him, his trust in God kept him going. He acknowledged the Lord as “his God” and trusted in Him despite what his eyes and ears were receiving from the world.
April 10th: 
O Lord of hosts, blessed is the man who trusts in You!” 
April 15th: 
“Watch, stand fast in the faith, be brave, be strong.” 1 Corinthians 16:13
May 23rd: 
“’Shall I yet again go out to battle against the children of my brother Benjamin, or shall I cease?’ And the Lord said, ‘Go up, for tomorrow I will deliver them into your hand.’” Judges 20:28
The Israelites inquired of the Lord what to do in battle 3 times - the first 2 times being that they lost many men in battle, wept, came before the Lord, fasted, and gave offerings. And when God told them to go to battle a third time, they didn’t hesitate to obey Him and came through victorious. With my current job situation, I’ve allowed my soul to be discouraged because I obeyed the Lord and did not receive the results I was expecting. However, this passage encouraged me and the Holy Spirit showed me that just because I obeyed and didn’t get the victory, doesn’t mean the victory hasn’t come yet - it’s all trust, obedience, and faith in the Lord and His timing.
May 30th: 
“Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, and he who seeks finds, and to him who knocks it will be opened...how much more will your Father who is in heaven give good things to those who ask Him!” 
Matthew 7:7-8;11
God has sweetly reminded me that He hears me and the desires of my heart, and He will give to me what I ask in His will <3
June 4th: 
“Oh, taste and see that the Lord is good; Blessed is the man who trusts in Him! Oh, fear the Lord, you His saints! There is no want to those who fear Him. The young lions lack and suffer hunger; But those who seek the Lord shall not lack any good thing.” Psalm 34:8-10
June 6th: 
“But when he saw that the wind was bolsterous, he was afraid; and beginning to sink he cried out, saying, ‘Lord, save me!’ And immediately Jesus stretched out His hand and caught him, and said to him, ‘O you of little faith, why did you doubt?’″ Matthew 14:30-31
Peter sank when he based his faith on the things seen, on the natural. When he saw the heavy winds, he became afraid, his faith decreased, and he began to sink rather than trusting Jesus when He told him to come onto the water and walk. “Little faith” and “doubt” is caused by what we hear/see in the natural. Faith & confidence is caused by Jesus’ word and the unseen. Don’t base things on the natural!!
June 7th:
“For God commanded, saying, ‘Honor your father and mother,’ and ‘He who curses father or mother, let him be put to death.’” Matthew 15:4 
“Then Jesus answered and said to her, ‘O woman, great is your faith! Let it be to you as you desire.’ And her daughter was healed from that very hour.” Matthew 15:25
This morning I was feeling confused and discouraged about the job situation once again. And I asked God if perhaps something was blocking the blessing? And He put on my heart that regarding my love and honor for my parents, it’s been lacking. So reading “Honor your father and your mother” in today’s reading is no coincidence. He reminded me that it’s not based on works, but it’s the heart. I must reconcile myself to them and forgive them and walk in love towards them. Also, He’s recognizing my great faith and says “Let it be to you as you desire” regarding my job <3
June 9th: 
“So Jesus said to them, ‘Because of your unbelief, for assuredly, I say to you, if you have faith as a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move; and nothing will be impossible for you.’” Matthew 17:20
June 16th: 
“Yes, the Lord will give what is good; and all land will yield its increase.” Psalm 85:12
The Lord is encouraging and speaking to me again about His provision for me with the job and finances. He gives what is good and will cause increase in my land <3
June 19th: 
“Our father trusted in You; They trusted, and You delivered them. They cried to You, and were delivered; They trusted in You, and were not ashamed.” Psalm 22:3-5
“Those who seek Him will praise the Lord. Let your heart live forever!” Psalm 22:26
I trust in the Lord, cry to Him, and seek Him, and He sees all of it. What I do is not in vain. He has delivered me and caused me not to be ashamed. God is telling me that I have been seeking Him because I praise Him. He put on my heart to seek Him first this year, and I feel that He is confirming with me that I have been seeking Him because I praise Him. My provision and job is coming...”and all these things shall be added to you.”
June 20th: 
“Trust in the Lord, and do good; Dwell in the land and feed on His faithfulness. Delight yourself also in the Lord, and He shall give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord, trust also in Him, and He shall bring it to pass.” Psalm 37:3-5
June 25th: 
“Command those who are rich in this present age not to be haughty, nor to trust in uncertain riches but in the living God, who gives us richly all things to enjoy.” 1 Timothy 6:17
“And now, O Lord, the word which You have spoken concerning Your servant and concerning his house, let it be establisehd forever, and do as You have said.” 1 Chronicles 17:25
As I put my trust in the Lord, the living God, He gives me richly all things to enjoy. I believe He is speaking to me yet again about His promises and that I am to pray as David did regarding His promises and provision for me. God has spoken to me that He will give me the desires of my heart, that He shall supply ALL my need, that whatever I ask for, I will receive, and so I must pray and proclaim that this word has been established forever and He will do as He said <3
July 5th: 
“Trust in Him at all times, you people; Pour out your heart before Him; God is a refuge for us.” Psalm 62:8
July 12th: 
“There has not failed on word of all His good promises, which He promised through His servant Moses.” 1 Kings 8:56
All the promises God has promised, He keeps them ALL. Whatever He has promised will come to pass in my life. His promises never fail <3
July 13th:
 “Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for He who promised is faithful.” Hebrews 10:23
July 14th: 
“Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of the things not seen...By faith we understand that the worlds were framed by the word of God, so that the things which are seen were not made of things which are visible.” Hebrews 11: 1,3
“But without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him.” Hebrews 11:6
Father God, Thank You for Your love, thank You for reminding me to keep the faith and keep believing for my job at Classics. Although I do not have the job in the physical realm, I’ve already received it in the spiritual because You’ve promised and given it to me. I sure am learning faith and patience. Your timing is perfect. I receive my job according to Your will and timing. I trust in You, Lord. In Jesus’ name, Amen!
July 17th:  “Knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience. But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing.” James 1:3-4
“But let him ask in faith, with no doubting, for he who doubts is like a wave of the sea driven and tossed by the wind.” James 1:6
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths.”  Proverbs 3:5-6
Father God, Thank You for Your great love reminding me to keep the faith and be patient. My faith has definitely been tested regarding the job and it has produced much patience. Let patience have its perfect work in me and I pray against any doubt in my mind and cast it down. I am a woman of faith, not doubt. I trust in You with all my heart and acknowledge You in all my ways. In Jesus’ name, Amen.
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let it happen | chapter 4
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9:40 A.M.
Lance saves the document, closes it, stares at his laptop desktop image until his eyes start to sting, groans in frustration, and slams his laptop shut. Puts it aside. He crosses his arms like a petulant child, he chews on his bottom lip, his eyes roam around his room.
He watches as the wind plays lazily with his curtains, making their shadows dance, swaying back and forth.
Something moves in his peripheral vision. He rolls his head to the side, fingers hovering over the keypad. The sight that meets him makes him pause, his fingers freeze, Keith looks so peaceful, he looks almost… ethereal. It’s kind of disturbing, yet mesmerizing at the same time.
Keith’s pale face glows a tender hue under the morning light, the sun tinges his chapped lips a deep pink, the scar under his left eye looks almost translucent.
Keith’s so… unfairly beautiful.
He catches himself tracing down the slopes of Keith’s face, the lines of his jaw, the curve of his upper lip with his eyes like a piece of chalk on canvas. He’s never seen something quite this stunning before in his life (granted, he’s only 22, but that’s beside the point), if only he knew how to draw like Keith does.
Lance can’t take this, his heart’s too weak.
He wants to bury his face in Keith’s ruffled hair, wants to breathe him in, wants to have him in his arms, wants to touch, but he seems so out of reach like this. Lance curls his fingers into fists, aching to touch. He restrains himself from charting pale, fading freckles down with his fingertips.
It… it’s very distracting, is what it is.
Keith scrunches up his nose, grumbles and throws an arm over his eyes. Lance’s breath catches in his throat.
Lance… Lance is fucked, he knows he’s fucked, he already knew that then (when Keith suggested this… arrangement), he knows that now, he’s known that for some time now, but it never fails to catch him by surprise. This… feeling never fails to overwhelm him. He fucking hates this… whatever this is, he has no fucking word for this… feeling. It claws at his throat, it kicks him the gut, it scorches his heart, it clenches his heart in a death-grip, it steps on it, it rips his heart apart.
Lance covers his face in his hands and rubs, groaning in frustration. This is ridiculous. He forces himself to look away, and focuses on drilling a hole into the wall with the force of his glare instead, running his tongue over one of his canines.
Do not distract yourself with cheesy rom-com bullshit, bitch, he scolds himself, Write. Yes, writing is good. Stressful, but good. Go back to writing. Avoid contact. Don’t look. Avert your eyes. Work. You’ve got work to do, so do it.
After about five or so minutes of glaring despondently into fucking space and hating himself for being pathetic, he does. He’s always been good at taking all his frustrations on his writing.
He pulls his laptop into his lap, opens it, double taps, and the document appears on the screen. The cursor blinks curiously at him, he blinks back, and sighs. He starts scanning it for typos, and corrects them, all the while grumbling about how fucking stupid he is, and how fucking stupid all those mistakes were.
He adds some of the worst expletives in big, bold and italic capital letters next to shitty, weird ass sounding paragraphs that don’t ever seem to get any better, even after rewriting them seven thousand three hundred and eighty-four fucking times. Doesn’t matter how many times he tries, how many times he bangs his fists on the keyboard, how hard he hits the keys, the words don’t ever seem to come out quite right.
Rinse, lather, repeat.
“¡BESA MI CULO, PUTO!” He snaps at one particularly dumb typo, and deletes its whole sentence out of spite.
Keith stirs, and groans next to him, turning his body towards Lance. Lance tenses, holding his breath and sitting very still until he’s super sure, 100% Keith won’t wake up. Keith sighs obliviously in his sleep, and turns on his stomach. Lance lets out a relieved breath, closing his eyes.
He snaps them open and shakes his head in frustration, “No seas tonto, Lance.”
He hits ctrl-z and skips the paragraph entirely, jumping to two paragraphs bellow, he reads it and gasps, “¿Qué carajo? Who wrote this? A fiveslgfjdjdfds.” A hand lands on the side of his face with a smack, smooching his cheek. Lance screams, - of course he does, how could he not. - and almost falls off the bed.
“SHUT YOUR ROTTEN MOUTH, I’M TRYING TO SLEEP,” Keith growls at him, voice raspy, and low, and terrifying. Even muffled by the pillow and drowsy, his voice doesn’t lose its aggressive edge. What the fuck.
Lance, after recovering his soul, turns his head so he can stare at Keith with raised brows, and huffs, “Hella lot of words coming from a sleeping person, I’d say.”
Keith groans and lifts his face off the pillow, glaring at him through squinty eyes, “Shut that fucking trap, you moldy piece of bread, or get out.”
“This is my fucking room, Keith,” Lance sputters, snapping his laptop shut for added effect, “you get out.”
“I’M SLEEPING, PISS OFF,” Keith kicks at Lance’s leg with enough force to bruise.
“OW! CAREFUL WITH MY COMPUTER, YOU BRUTE!”
Keith grumbles, turning his back to Lance and covering his head with Lance’s comforter. He curls into a ball, shutting Lance out.
Lance relocates his grumpy ass to the couch after flipping an oblivious, snoring Keith off.
He loves the guy, but damn, can he be an asshole so-
…Wait, did he just-
Oh, hell no.
10:34 A.M.
stud muffin so………….. do i even wanna know? probably not, but you’re gonna tell me anyway pidge, cover ur eyes
pidgeotto shut up hunk im not 5 GIVE ME DA DEETS LANCE
space boi lance AWWW MAN MY DUDES MY BROS MY PALS MIS HERMANOS
pidgeotto oh boy here we go…….. im regretting this already
space boi lance SHUT IT BIRD TURD anyway where was i before i was so rudely interrupted??? ah yeah OH MY GOD MY DUDES hes a screamer KEITH KOGANE OUR KEITH IS A SCREAMER ITS LIKE AAAAAA GUYS boi so thicc too goddem cant wait to have him up my ass honest such a nice dick 11/10 reallygreat work of art grade a AND DAT ASS!!!!!!!! GUH SO FUCKING SMOOTH he looks really nice when hes sleeping too so soft i want to chomp on his cheeks ughhhhhh how can he be so perfect its so unfair im swooning i swear to GOD he looks hot even when hes kicking me out of my own room which UNFAIR
A facebook notification pops up at the top of his phone screen in the middle of his rant.
Hunk Garrett tagged you in a post, it says.
Lance arches an eyebrow, “Huh.”
He taps it open.
Hunk Garrett is listening to the less i know the better, by tame impala i’d like to dedicate this song to my good pal Lance Martínez you know /why/ Pidge Holt and 5 others 
Pidge Holt  HOOOOOO BOY THE BURN THATS Y UR MY MAIN HO HUNK I LOVE U
Matthew Holt lol babe look at The Shade Takashi 
Takashi Shirogane Ah yes, that is indeed The Shade Of It All *scratches chin* Lance Martínez shiro i love u but dude ure embarrassing get off the internet Matthew Holt dont trash talk the baby lance Matthew Holt he’s sensitive Matthew Holt (ure adorable babe) Takashi Shirogane I take offence to that Lance Takashi Shirogane No more dog memes for you Lance Martínez NOOOOOO DAD NOT THE DOGGO MEMES Takashi Shirogane ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ Pidge Holt ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ Hunk Garrett ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ Matthew Holt ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Lance Martínez u guys are absolute TRASH
Lance Martínez the WORST I TELL U WORST
Lance Martínez I NEED NEW FRIENDS ASAP 
Pidge Holt awwwwwwww lance i love u too Pidge Holt u can tell me everything later i’ll allow it Pidge Holt bring food Pidge Holt and redbull Pidge Holt tons of redbull Lance Martínez ure… ugh Lance Martínez i hate u Lance Martínez u tiny bird turd Pidge Holt URE tiny Lance Martínez GASP U TAKE THAT BACK Pidge Holt ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ Hunk Garrett ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ Matthew Holt ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ Takashi Shirogane ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ Allura Ourania ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ Lance Martínez LULU NOT U TOO Allura Ourania ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
11:35 A.M.
He’s avoiding the huge ass, one-sided, and glittery elephant in the room, he’s avoiding the fuck out of it. He’ll avoid the fuck out of it until it goes away, until it disappears for good, until it goes to fucking hell, until it’s burning in the fifth circle of hell.
He has no time for this.
This project is worth 40% of his grade.
His prof’s a mad man, yeah, but that’s how it is. He won’t flunk this class just because he can’t control his feelings.
He can’t, won’t, jeopardize his project just because of fucking feelings.
¡No, de ninguna puta manera! 
He needs a shower. 
And a joint. 
And coffee. 
Tons of coffee. 
But a shower first, then facials, then weed, then coffee.
Tons of coffee. 
He’ll also down a shot of tequila, because he’s feeling adventurous. 
(Reckless, he means reckless.)
1:45 P.M.
Lance’s minding his own business, stirring his way into his fifth?? possibly, probably, he’s not sure, cup of coffee, and stuffing his face with ham and pineapple pizza rolls in the kitchen after smoking a whole joint by himself in the bathroom, when he hears it. It is terrifying. A dull thud reverberates through the apartment, echoed by it; the most earth-shattering, ear-splitting shriek he’s ever heard.
“LANCE!”
He freezes, his heart plummets.
His spoon drops and clatters on the floor.
“LANCE, YOU’RE FUCKING DEAD,” the deity roars.
Lance squeaks like a fucking mice, and squats, hiding behind the counter.
Run. Pack your things and go, get out of town. Flee to Europe, change your name-
He presses his overheated cheek to the counter and sighs, so good. He grins wide.
Keith’s feet smack on the floor as he stomps, over-aggressively, I dare add, out of Lance’s room, “What the fuck did you do to my ass, you rotten egg?” His voice is louder now, much louder. Lance jumps mid giggle-fit, which sets him off into another one.
“ME!” Lance peers over the countertop and raises his hand, waving sluggishly and cackling, bloodshot eyes wide. Well, as wide as they can go, which, honestly, isn’t much, considering, “I DID THE FUCK! I PUT MY DICK IN - HAH - YOUR ASS! YOU LET ME - HAHAH - IT WAS WILD!”
Keith takes a long look at him and, like a flip has switched, his scowl melts and he bursts out laughing, his nose crinkling up. It’s so fucking adorable, Lance’s heart hurts. It burns. It screams in pain. Lance laughs the pain away like the idiot he is, or maybe just because he’s high as fuck. One can never be too sure, ya feel.
“I know that, you fucking stoner, I mean THE BRUISES.” He points at his bare hips, trying to catch his breath.
Lance’s eyes travel south.
Helloooo there, legs.
Wait, he went too far.
Go back two frames.
There, hips.
Lance blinks, and tries to open his eyes further. He can’t.
He blinks again.
Oh.
Ho boy, he did a number on the guy alright.
Also, this part is super wild, bare with him, it looks weirdly… beautiful? It’s gorgeous, actually. It’s a masterpiece, Lance is an artist.
The red and purple splotches scattered across Keith’s skin are… kind of blurring together in one big ass bruise, that reminds him oddly of the Milky Way. Lance fights hard against the white urge to draw an alien-head above Keith’s hipbone. Keith probably wouldn’t mind it, though. The nerd. Lance chuckles.
Keith clears his throat.
Lance flicks his eyes up at Keith, blinks languidly at him several times. Keith’s waiting for something, isn’t he? What is it again? He rakes his brain for an answer. It beeps.
Ah, yeah.
An answer, right. He needs to answer Keith, duh.
Lance cackles at his stupidity.
“Oh, that.” Lance wipes his eyes on his sleeve in between chuckles as he finally answers, sniffing. He braces his arms on the counter and pushes himself up on his feet, winking, “I’m not sorry about that.” He lies his torso on the counter, smooching his cheek against the cool surface, and shoots Keith a lopsided smile.
Keith shakes his head, “You’re an idiot.”
“Yeah, but you looooooove me,”  Lance sing-songs, finger gunning lazily with a grin.
Keith rolls his eyes fondly, and gets closer, dragging one of the stools from under the counter, and sitting down gingerly, wincing a little. His eyes flicker swiftly to something as he settles, before they land on Lance again. Keith frowns, “Should you be drinking coffee?”
Lance frowns back, puzzled, turning his head so he can look at his mug. “Shouldn’t I?” He wonders.
Keith leans over the counter, elbows propped up, and starts picking idly at one of the pizza rolls sitting pretty on the plate in front of him, “It doesn’t affect your high?”
Lance gasps. His pizza rolls. “No touching, you fugly mullet, it’s mineeeeee,” Lance whines, reaching forward and swatting Keith’s fugly hand away. He snatches the plate from Keith and brings it closer to himself, tucking it in between his arms, away from pizza roll-thieving mullets. Lance sticks out his tongue at him, before fitting two of the biggest rolls in his mouth. At the same time. For emphasis. His cheeks puff out.
Keith ducks his head to hide his grin. “You look like a chipmunk,” he comments nonchalantly, tapping his knuckles idly on the surface.
“Nhobowdshy ashkd yuh, Puhtrish,” Lance shoots back.
Keith rolls his eyes and flips him off with both hands, leaning back on his stool.
Lance flashes him the half-chewed food.
“Fuck, that’s gross.”
“Ah.” Lance struggles to swallow all of it dry, but manages, “I forgot to - clears throat - answer, coffee doesn’t affect my high much.” He shrugs, taking a bite off one of the rolls. Keith hums.
Lance swallows, “Pass me the straw, please. The long, bendy one.” He gestures a thumb back.
Keith slides from the stool in one smooth movement, makes his way around the counter and goes for the drawers. Lance hears as it slides open, “Which color?”
“Purple,” Lance answers over his shoulder.
He stretches his arm when Keith pulls the straw out and makes a grabby hand at him.
“Oh no, you don’t,” Keith holds the straw over his head.
“Gimme, or I’ll punch your di-I-i-aaAAAAAah,” he tries to steal the straw from Keith, but loses his footing and almost dives face-first into the cold, hard floor. “¡Coño!” He fumbles to keep upright, hooking a hand on the edge of the other side of the counter. Thank fuck for long fingers.
Lance manages to get his balance back by planting his feet firmly on the ground. Keith makes his way back to his stool, and once he’s settled, he hands Lance the straw already stretched. Keith’s lips quiver in a poorly concealed attempt not to laugh, eyes twinkling mirthfully.
Lance rolls his eyes as he throws the straw into his cup, propping himself on his elbow and resting his chin on his palm.
Keith makes gagging sounds, bangs falling on his eyes.
Lance ignores him in order to bring the straw to his lips with his free hand, and suck the coffee, swallowing in an obnoxiously loud gulp.  
Keith’s nose wrinkles in disgust. “You’re gross,” Keith comments, tucking his hair behind his ears.
“Thanks, I try,” Lance grins around his straw, then frowns at Keith’s bare chest. “Shouldn’t you put on some clothes, though?” Lance asks, eyes half-lidded, “It’s freezing, Keith.”
Keith raises an eyebrow, looking down. “Off-topic, but no, Lance, it’s not,” he shoots Lance a look, rubbing the bridge of his nose, “And how would you know, anyway? You’re high.”
“What’s this jealousy I’m feeling? There’s more, you know.” He pats the breast pocket of his sweatshirt with a dopey smile, and meets Keith’s eyes as he takes a sip, waggling his brows. He swallows and winks, “Don’t need to get all broody on me, grumpy pants.”
Keith hides his face on his arms and groans. Lance can see the blush rising on Keith’s neck, and allows himself a mental pat on the back as he pushes himself upright.
“Okay, let’s go,” Lance trots towards his bedroom.
3:32 P.M.
When they sober up enough to get stuff done, they throw themselves on the couch, legs tangled because why not, right? It’s not like Lance’s life makes any sense, anyway.
Lance with the camera in his hands and laptop on his stomach, Keith with his headphones around his ears, and one of his weird, edgy sci-fi books resting on his thighs.
Lance rests his head on the armrest and hits play.
Keith’s feet tap a comforting rhythm against Lance’s.
4:02 P.M.
Keith falls asleep against the couch, mouth slightly open.
Lance does a poor job at reducing the volume of his laughter at his dramatics on video. Even though Keith’s got his headphones on, Lance still manages to wake him up, and ends up getting kicked in the shin by a very rumpled, grumpy, and over-sized baby with a fugly mullet for that.
He tries not to laugh again.
…He fails miserably, and both his shins suffer.
Terribly.
4:30 P.M.
Because Lance has shit luck, and the universe is out to get him, they didn’t manage to catch Keith’s o-face on video. Life is unfair, God hates him, Jesus hates him, even Buddha must hate him, because this, right here, has got to be some sort of twisted divine punishment. Maybe it’s Karma, maybe he was a murderer in his past life, he doesn’t know. What he does know, though, is that this must be fixed.
“Dude,” he kneels on the couch and shakes Keith’s knee to wake him up, “Dude. DUDE!”
Keith’s eyes flutter open and he squints at Lance, blinking blearily, utterly confused.
Lance sits back on his heels and he offers Keith the camera, “Look.”
Keith, while frowning up at him, sits up and takes it. He yawns, unplugging his headphones from his phone and into the camera. He hits play.
Keith snaps the camera shut after about ten minutes, a furious blush burning his high cheekbones and the bridge of his nose. He still looks mildly confused, though, and astoundingly flustered, bringing his knees to his chest.
Lance bites on his bottom lip and heaves a huge breath. “We’ll have to tape chapter 1 again,” he clarifies.
Keith lifts an eyebrow, face still bright red, “Because…”
“I can’t see your face when you’re coming, dude.” Lance explains, waving his hands at the camera in exasperation, “That’s unacceptable, you know. really preposterous. I can’t have this, I can’t WRITE like this. This is a disaster. We gotta redo this, Keith. It’s a matter of life and death.” He grabs both Keith’s knees and shakes.
“But- I’m awake now, dipshit, quit shaking me,” He snaps, batting Lance’s hands away from his knees, “But… don’t you remember my face when I was actually coming yesterday?”
So, you see… remember when Lance mentioned he has shit luck, and the universe is out to get him, and some sort of divine punishment is being inflicted upon him? There’s another reason to back up that assessment.
They not only hadn’t caught Keith’s o-face on video, but he also didn’t get to see Keith’s o-face in living color yesterday because he had his fucking eyes closed. Which rude, Lance. That is just plain rude. There’s no excuses. That’s probably why God, Jesus, and Buddha hate you this much.
Lance hangs his head. “I- I had my eyes closed,” he confesses, accepting defeat.
“You’re hopeless.”
Lance’s head shoots up and he gasps, “Excuse!”
“No,” Keith stands up abruptly, almost kneeing Lance’s nose in the process.
Lance squawks and reels back, out of reach, eyes wide, “Wha-”
“Shut the fuck up, you dry raisin,” Keith glares accusingly at him and Lance flinches, “I’ll fix this.”
“Kei-”
Keith’s arm shoots up, and he points his index finger at Lance, thick eyebrows pinched. “Stay put,” he warns, waving his finger, “don’t fucking move, don’t breathe.”
Lance is too confused to react, or even say anything, so he just gapes.
“Just… stay there, I’ll be quick.”
Keith returns buck naked, with a dildo and the lube in hands.
Lance’s at a loss, he’s a loss for words, his sass is gone, along with his ability to form coherent thoughts. Keith has that effect on him, apparently. Keith always finds a way to give Lance whiplash.  
Keith dumps the stuff on the coffee table and turns his attention to Lance, he chuckles at what he sees there, “Shut your mouth, Lance, you’ll catch a fly.”
Lance finds his voice. “Wha-” he clears his throat, and shakes his head before continuing, “What the fuck?” (Eloquent.)
Keith rolls his eyes as he picks up the camera, “You’re gonna tape me as I touch myself.”
Keith hands Lance the camera.
“I don’t…” Lance takes it, still completely dumbfounded.
Keith cuts him off, “I told you I’d fix this, didn’t I? So this is me, fixing it.”
Something in Lance’s brain seems to click.
“Oh,” he replies dumbly.
Oh no, is what he means, no fucking way. He’s gonna die today.
Yup, today is the day.
“Okay, so…” Keith claps his hands, “scooch over, I need the space.”
Lance’s eyes widen, “You really gonna do this here? On the couch?”
“Is there a problem?”
Yes. There’s a ton of problems, actually. Not with Keith doing it on the couch, but still, there’s a problem. Tons of problems. These problems have problems. For one, Lance will probably die. For two, he can’t do this anymore. He can’t but he has to, and he will because his project is worth 40% of his final grade, he will because he has to. He has the moral duty to prove to Keith, and to himself, that he, as a matter of fact, can do this, even if he’ll end up hurt. Fuck his feelings.
“No, no, nope, no problem at all. I’m all up for jerking off on the couch, sign me the fuck up. It’s just…” Lance blows a raspberry, scratching the back of his head, looking around the room, uncertain. He can’t meet Keith’s eyes, “it looks too cramped, I think? I was just, uhm, thinking that maybe, I don’t know, you’d prefer doing this on a bed?”
Keith snorts, “Nah, it’s okay.”
Lance finally looks at him, searching his face, “You sure? Like, 100%?”
Keith rolls his eyes, “Yes Lance, don’t worry, just… keep the camera on me.”  
Lance sits upright, crisscrossing his legs, and points the camera at Keith.
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