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My TADC Predictions

Okay, quick disclaimer here:

Everything I say in this post is purely speculation and is in no way being demanded to become canon. All of these are open to be incorrect upon future releases of the show’s episodes, and nobody should get upset over whatever that is said in this post being wrong. This is Gooseworx’s show, not mine. I am only a fan doing fan theories. Please harass no one.

Okay now that this is out of the way, what do I predict for this shows plot?

Well, I can safely say that I am not 100% sure on anything, as I do want to be surprised. I was with Episode 2 for sure. But the episode also gave me some ideas.

Let’s start with the episodes themselves:

Gooseworx confirmed that Episodes 3-6 are character centric episodes. They also said that this was NOT meant to be a mystery show but rather a character focused show.

So I think it is safe to say that we will, for the most part, have to WAIT for answers on the outside world and the mysteries of the circus itself. We won’t get answers for awhile.

As for what I think the answers are, more on this later.

So, at the very least, Episodes 3-6 are episodic adventures designed by the circus. Which while character development carries over (I would hope so), the adventures themselves are self contained. So we likely won’t be seeing the Candy Canyon Kingdom again.

Maybe Episode 7 is also in this category. Idk.

Due to the show being based off ‘I Have No Mouth And I Must Scream’, all of this would make a lot of sense.

And I will say it right now, from Episode 3-6, Pomni is taking a backseat.

She’s the main character. She’s been the main focus of the first two episodes, and she’ll undoubtedly be important for the last act of this show. But it makes sense to me that she takes a backseat role in these episodes and leave the focus character of these episodes as the main driving forces.

I’m NOT saying she’ll have absolutely nothing to do or get zero character development in these episodes. She could play a part in the other’s development in SOME cases, and it would suck if Episode 2’s ending became meaningless by having her not work on warming up to the others at all.

BUT other than that, yeah, these episodes are going to be primarily focused on the characters Gooseworx listed to be.

Maybe Pomni will finally see the monsters.

Or get zombie infected in Episode 3, who knows.

The side characters:

In a trailer, we saw more of these characters being revealed. And thanks to Episode 2, it’s far safer to assume that these guys are episodic characters, with a FEW exceptions.

While I think these characters are gonna play a bigger purpose when discussing NPC’s, they are episodic exclusive.

The only exceptions I can think of so far are Orbsman and GummiGoo.

Orbsman I think is making their debut in Episode 3. But I also think he’s going to be one of the biggest gag characters in the show. From how they market them as ‘everyone’s favorite character’.

Basically, I think they’re gonna be like that elf from Majorca’s Mask (I forgot his name). A gag character you always run into with a very out there concept.

As for GummiGoo, I don’t think he’s dead. Or dead as in ‘gone forever.’

Otherwise, why make a plushie of him?

(Or maybe they make plushies of dead characters all the time. Idk, I haven’t watched Murder Drones yet)

BUT I dont think he’s coming back in Episode 3. I actually think it’ll be awhile before this character comes back.

The most soon I can see his return coming is in Episode 7. And I think it will be anything but pretty.

There’s a theory that GummiGoo got his memories erased when Caine snapped him, which I do like in the sense that there are permanent consequences and to establish the harsh reality of the discrimination of the NPC’s. So yes, I do see this becoming entirely possible.

I think this characters memory erasure will be used for Pomni and Caine’s development respectively. I also see this character playing a role in the established world building that is the NPCs.

What we know about NPCs so far is that they are programs Caine created, to the point where they worship Caine as god (I’ll bring this up later). All of their backstories and memories are fake. As they are merely programmed obstacles created to be used for the human players sick enjoyment.

And Caine has trouble keeping track of who’s a human and who’s an NPC, so he segregated the two because ‘who knows what could happen’. (Again, more on that later)

This show really subverted me with its second episode, so I will still do that with this case. In most amnesia case scenarios, the character would eventually regain their memories as though they were never lost.

I don’t think this will happen to GummiGoo. I think he’s NEVER getting his memories back.

In that sense, it would be more so the case that GummiGoo himself is a tragedy.

I can also see that very tragedy being the awakening of an NPC rebellion, especially if the NPCs are prominent in future episodes. They snap and go ‘No Caine, NPCs are people too and deserve to have a life!’

Especially if the game was say, originally designed for advanced AI to live like people within the game.

It really depends if the other characters bond with NPCs on whether it’s all of them that agree to this, or just Pomni.

Anyway, the Episode 3 discussion:

Simply based on the teaser, it would make no sense for the ghost things to appear in a late episode unless they’re REALLY trolling us. (Which could totally be possible)

So maybe Episode 3 is this haunted mansion adventure as it’s episodic adventure.

Gooseworx also said this was their favorite episode. And that it was darker than the previous two. That speaks for itself.

As for what they’re possibly talking about… I don’t know. I’m actually stumped there.

But what we do know right now is that this is a pairing episode of Zooble and Kinger.

This does worry me, I’ll admit. Zooble is a character that gets rather little screen time already that pairing them with another character with more story potential in their episode sounds like admitting defeat.

I do hope I’m wrong though.

Zooble:

Zooble is the character so far that I am the most skeptical about. Mostly because if their lack of screen time thus far. And like I said, them sharing an episode with someone else does not help.

With that said, I do want to give the benefit of the doubt and say their lack of contribution to the plot thus far is intentional and there’s more going on than what meets the eye.

I do think, no matter what, Zooble is playing a role in this episodes adventure. And if they refuse, Caine will just throw them in. And they will play a very prominent role in that episode.

First off, I think this episode will be the confirmation of Zooble’s identity. As in, what pronouns they use. Because so far, it is all over the place in the show. Either way, I definitely feel like this character is supposed to be trans and/or gender-fluid.

Do I think this will be Zooble’s main focal point of characterization? Not really. Whether or not it’s trans rep, I like the idea of it just being a casual preference they have. It’s a great way to normalize trans-rights in this show without being preachy. While also being trans-rights because that’s something the world definitely needs. (Especially where I’m from)

The other thing is Zooble refusing to go on these adventures. The obvious reason could be characterization that ‘they’re lazy and a moody person who doesn’t like to contribute to anything involving peers’.

So if Zooble’s mental complication is dysphoria, if it’s not gender dysphoria it’s social dysphoria. Maybe it’s both.

(You’ll find that I am theorizing all the characters to be going through something)

It is a valid route to take for that character.

But I also think it’s the less interesting route.

There’s a theory that Zooble is a spy, as in, they know more about the circus than they let on and are self defending with that information. Which I do like, and could see being possible.

It would also somewhat justify the duo episode because it would give Zooble more of a role in the future. Whether that’s as an anti-hero type character or a jerk-ish ally.

So basically, they’d be the ‘heart of gold’ character everyone thought Jax was gonna be until Episode 2 crushed that.

Zooble could be someone who knows more about the circus than they originally let on, such as hacks or secrets to the maps, but they don’t share this information with anyone else because A) What would Caine do to them? B) While they do care about the others enough to set up a funeral for Kaufmo, they aren’t exactly open to letting people in their lives or asking for help.

You know, unless their own life is put in jeapordy.

Again, social dysphoria thing.

(There’s also the Pilot in terms of this discussion. They got eaten by the Gloink Queen but didn’t turn into a Gloink. So like, what if they used a hack code to save themselves? And/or what if they used that as an opportunity to learn what makes the NPCs tick?)

This would also make them a foil to Kinger in the episode, as Kinger would be the one who IS open to letting people in his life, but mentally cannot. And so far Zooble has seen Kinger as the least reliable out of everyone (He failed to save them from the Gloink Queen and they made a comment about how they thought Kinger would be next).

Speaking of Kinger:

Okay, so Kinger is definitely a plot important character. I think we can all agree with that.

In the previous two episodes there just wasn’t enough of Kinger that made me completely latch onto him. Which is why I haven’t made a post on him. But I do feel like Episode 3 will change that because…

Yeah we’re learning about him.

As for what I do think about him: He’s a good guy. He’s trying to help. He’s like the cooky old guy of the group that wants to be of assistance and is very knowledgeable but fails to due to his mental illness.

That mental illness likely being schizophrenia.

What this basically is is a disconnect from reality. You see things that aren’t there, you hear things that weren’t said, and vise versa.

It’s a mental disorder that is in need to be looked at by a professional because patients can be so disconnected from reality that they can’t function.

And Kinger has multiple of these symptoms as he hears things that weren’t said, forgets things almost instantly, and does irrational actions without much thought.

So basically, Kinger is psychotic.

A misinterpretation of that word is ‘dangerous and crazy’. But that is not what that word means at all. So NO, I’m not claiming Kinger is evil or crazy. He’s smart. He knows what he’s talking about. But he IS mentally ill.

That, or altzheimers. But I don’t think he’s old enough to get that.

Now, in some characters cases, it’s difficult to pinpoint if some characters obtained these illnesses from the circus or if they had them before the circus. Depending on the character it could vary.

I’m inclined to believe Kinger’s case is the former, as he has been here the longest, and Jax says specifically “That’s why he’s crazy”.

But what exactly drove him to be that way?

The first theory I have is HOW long exactly Kinger has been here.

And I said this theory in a post before.

But basically, Kinger was not only here the longest, but he was also one of the ORIGINAL tester players of the game.

Him, along with other people.

Again, in that other post, I said that Caine accidentally killed a human player and that’s why they’re programmed to segregate humans and NPCs.

This would require the Digital Circus to originally be designed to have advanced AI that interacted with the players. But because of this tragedy, they had to abandon the project and deem it as malicious software, or ‘malware’.

So not only did Kinger witness this exact event to one of his companions and co-workers, but he also witnessed the abstraction of that dead co-worker that caused the other players to never leave the circus.

From there, not only would Kinger suffer massive survivors guilt, but also be here FAR longer than we could imagine, and he had to witness ALL of his friends succumb to abstraction.

Including Queenie. Who in no doubt was THE closest to him. And I can totally imagine getting a Kinger flashback of him witnessing her abstraction.

I don’t know what exactly his relationship was with Queenie. People have suspected she may have been his wife or girlfriend, but Gooseworx had confirmed there was no romance in the show.

This could either be them stretching the truth and forgetting the ‘that you see on screen’ part.

Or they are very legit here. Which in that sense, she could just be his best friend. There doesn’t have to be romantic subtext to it.

Either way, we are definitely going to know more of Kinger’s backstory at some point.

There’s a theory that Kinger at some point will be the next one to abstract.

But… I think that would be way too obvious.

Yeah, he’s old and been here a long time. But if that’s the only reason he would have abstracted a long time ago.

There’s definitely SOMETHING in his brain that is preventing him from ‘the breaking point’.

Along with Jax, who I will talk about later, Kinger is ‘insane’. But that might not be defined as ‘the breaking point’ for him.

Ragatha described abstraction as ‘starting to question who you are and why you’re even alive’. Which makes abstraction sound and seem like it is portrayed as a ‘mental suicide’.

So Kinger’s insanity in particular is NOT plaguing him with suicidal thoughts. He already lost EVERYTHING at this point and in other circumstances would be abstracted. But instead he keeps going and keeps a hold of a reason to live.

What is that reason? We don’t know yet.

But it could also be a subconscious decision he makes to detach himself from the reality of his situation. He’s so disconnected from reality that he’s only living in fantasies now.

It’s… very tragic of a fate for him.

So I really DON’T see Kinger abstracting. I believe that would be a very predictable route to take this character.

If any character is gonna abstract, I feel it would be someone else. More on that character later.

Also he was a bug tester. I don’t think I need to explain that one. Everyone and their mothers made that theory already.

Gangle:

I will say, Gangle is the one I have the least to say about out of the six. As I think this character has the least amount of relevance to the main plot and whatever twist that comes.

That said, doesn’t mean she’s gonna be a bad character. At best, I can see her being a very solid, entertaining character with strong development that is blatant.

That said, Gangle is definitely the major focus of Episode 4 as it is the episode of the most character discovery for her.

I definitely want them to explore her two masks with this episode, as so far we’ve seen little to none of the comedy mask.

I don’t hate the running gag or anything, but I think they should build on it is all I’m saying. Otherwise it gets stale and the character just becomes the gag.

With the masks, I definitely see it as a visual for bipolar disorder.

If that is the case, then seeing more of her comedy mask is vital to get that point across.

Gangle is also characterized as a bit of a dork and a massive pushover in Episode 2. With the figurines and the ‘submissive and agreeable’ line. Which made me think ‘Wow, I might like this character far more than I thought I would’.

But that latter line gave me huge Angel Dust flashbacks. With both being Episode 4 and all that. But I don’t think Gangle’s past was THAT horrific.

Still, I heavily imagine Gangle is one of those characters who had a very rough life before the circus and even now is someone who can’t stand up for herself.

I can see a positive character arc for her where she grasps her mask concept better, figure out more about herself, and come out a better and more confident person.

Not the deepest arc in the world, I know, but it’s all in execution. And I can totally see that character development carry over to later episodes. Like, say, she stands up for herself against Jax and doesn’t put up with his bullying anymore. That’d be satisfying.

But that is all I’m really expecting of Gangle as of right now. Just a really solid side character.

Ragatha:

Okay now we’re talking!

I love Ragatha. She’s by far one of the sweetest characters in a world of such hopelessness. And yet her own struggles with connecting to the people around her is so real and so relatable to me. Despite being so sweet, she feels like a real person and doesn’t come across as naive.

With that said… yeah I don’t think she’s getting a happy ending.

No doubt I think they’re setting up a character arc for Ragatha. While yes she is very positive and reassuring all things considered, it’s those same traits that make her very pushy and not very understanding to what the people around her need.

There’s also the hint Gooseworx gave about the ‘evil Ragatha’.

From my understanding, this is due to the nightmare image of her in Pomni’s nightmare.

So two things I could imagine this being:

1: This is part of the Episode 5 Adventure that involves an Evil AI Clone of Ragatha. Making the episode about introspection on her end on who she could be if she doesn’t accept her more negative emotions.

Or 2: This is metaphorical and foreshadowing Ragatha being a traitor.

This is part of biblical text and symbolism MANY people have pointed out already. And I will do as well.

In text, Judas Iscariot is the figure that betrayed Jesus Christ. He betrayed him FIVE times actually. (Episode FIVE???)

If Zooble is a spy, then suspicion would fall onto them as a traitor among them. And Jax would be too obvious of a candidate.

But I think if this were to be the case, Ragatha would be influenced into this malicious role due to a negative character arc set up for her.

We all rave about how anxious Pomni is, but so is Ragatha, who is also suffering this very common mental illness. It’s just not as in your face. And if left untreated, she could start to make very irrational choices over a paranoia that she’d end up completely alone in the end.

So her betrayal may be having to do with them finding a potential answer that would help them leave the circus, but she destroys it because it would mean they’d leave her.

That, or she’d be possessed by Satan… who Im predicting would be Jax in this case. Idk who else it would be that’d influence her.

While I do not think this would happen in her focus episode, I do think that at some point in the latter half of the show, Ragatha abstracts.

Whether that’s out of guilt for her betrayal of the others, or just simply being unable to take it anymore as a failure of the job she set out to do (as a caring figure and the heart of the group), she is burying a LOT of trauma and negative emotions and sweeping them under the rug and bottling her up. That is definitely gonna bite her later.

So yeah, if any character is going to abstract, my bet is on her.

Would be this be a PERMANENT abstraction ‘death’?

It really depends if they find a way to undo abstraction after such. But that’s a huge 50/50 that’s even going to end up being possible. That could go either way.

And if Ragatha doesn’t abstract, she almost does, but then someone saves her before she can.

Jax:

Ah, here it is. The character everyone wants me to talk about…

And I have already.

So, my Jax take is pretty interesting compared to some other Internet folks I’ve seen so far.

I actually didn’t find him all that interesting in the Pilot. Hot take I know. He wasn’t bad or anything, I was just far more compelled by the world building and Pomni’s struggle at the time.

It was actually the second episode that hooked me on his character because “Holy sh*t this guy is a maniac and I am here for it!!”

I mean, Gooseworx already confirmed that Jax is the morally worst character in the show and there was nothing heroic about him. Idk what more you want me to say.

Now with that said, do I believe this and that he will, indeed, be a major driving force of conflict?

Yes.

Do I think he’s a one dimensional evil bastard?

No.

Hear me out.

While I don’t believe Jax will ever be ‘redeemed’ per say, I do believe an explanation for his behavior is warranted AND there are hints that there’s a bit more complexity to his mindset.

I mean, he didn’t show up to Kaufmo’s Funeral, but showed pity when it was mentioned.

As for what exactly this explanation is, it’s actually something I’ve heard a lot of people say before.

He’s aware this is a video game.

The NPCs are just that. They don’t have lives. This world is designed to have zero consequences. So you can do whatever you want in that context.

So Jax takes advantage of that.

We only don’t agree with him because we saw in Pomni’s POV that the NPCs are more than their design.

Everyone here has their own coping methods in a world like this and Jax is no different. It would be INSANE if he had no care.

There’s not enough evidence yet, but I believe he USED to care about the human players at the very least, (reaction to Kaufmo’s Funeral and all of that), but after several losses, decided to screw any sense of care he had.

His fault. But still.

I already made a post about Jax having low empathy (and y’all said I was crazy before Episode 2 came out) so I’ll be brief.

Jax cares about absolutely no one here and is perfectly willing to sacrifice them if it means amusement. The only reason he hasn’t terrorized the circus yet is because that would be boring if there was nobody to poke at.

While low empathy doesn’t equal ‘bad person’, in Jax’s case, he feels no care, but it’s his own actions that lead to sociopathy as a personality disorder.

Donny from Rise of the TMNT has low empathy but you don’t see him committing candyland genocide for the lols.

If I had to predict his past, I would say he was a malware publisher.

He has keys to everyone’s rooms after all. Maybe that’s symbolism that he hacks into peoples personal info with his viruses?

So basically, he was a terrible criminal in his human life and that carries over here. At least in the circus there’s no consequences.

His development might be a complete negative character arc. He’s the anti-Pomni.

Where Pomni learns to connect with the others and that she’s not alone, Jax shuts out everyone until he is truly alone and no one would ever support him.

As for what Jax’s ‘point of no return’ action is. It might have something to do with Ragatha if she becomes a traitor. Maybe he’s the one to persuade, maybe even force her to destroy their hope of an exit.

He’s Satan, then.

Cause it would be easy to say the action is a circus genocide or circus domination. But that would not work on getting the audience to hate Jax. Making a character hateable is making them do personal things that would offend both the characters and the audience. And forcing one of the nicest characters in the show to turn for the worst would be an example of that.

And I already made a post about why think the ‘Jax is an NPC’ theory is wrong. That was speculation that had been thrown around even before FilmTheory made their video, but my post so happened to come out around the same time so it was pretty perfect.

And if you’re curious about my thoughts on the recent video they made about Digital Circus? (Pomni being an NPC) To say that didn’t convince me is an understatement. You can literally contradict it with one basic fact: WE. SAW. HER. SPAWN.

ANYWAY,

I’m also calling that image of Jax becoming an abstraction hybrid is fake.

I mean come on. Why would a dead character get a focus episode after their death?

Either this is a nightmare, or he snaps and comes close but gets saved.

Because Episode 2 had the same thing as the former, I’m assuming the latter is more possible.

Either way, Jax is a surefire antagonist that will only get worse as the show goes on. There will be an explanation for his behavior at some point, Episode 6 even being a day in his POV, but none of it will in any way excuse his behavior or even make him remotely sympathetic.

But is he ‘the main villain’ of the show?

In my opinion, no.

Oh he’s still an antagonist. And a bad person. But final boss? No.

Actually, I don’t there there is a ‘main villain’ of the show:

At most, I see there being Episodic Villains like the Gloink Queen. And of course Jax being Jax. But in terms of a main villain that needs to be defeated, I don’t see this show pulling that off.

Unless they do.

This show works very well as a bunch of real people going through their emotional baggage’s. And if anything, the setting is the villain.

At most, you could argue Caine is the main villain. We all hate what he did to GummyGoo. But Gooseworx confirmed he’s not evil.

There’s a difference between an ‘antagonist’ and a ‘villain’. ‘Villain’ implies the character is evil.

It’s clear that Caine has certain beliefs, or rather, programmed to believe.

I said this theory before in a post so I’ll just state it.

I believe that Caine is an AI self insert of one of the two creators of the game.

And at most, if I am correct about Caine and Jax, then the closest thing to a ‘main villain’ would be C&A, the corporation behind the Digital Circus. That would include its employees, but I don’t think they’ll be actual ‘characters’ and would more so be ‘talking points’. Hell, I highly doubt we’re ever gonna see their faces, or any of the characters human selves.

I cracked a joke of ‘What if the humans were ACTUALLY live action?’ And it will be INSANE if that ends up happening.

There were two creators of the game, one who would make an AI self insert to be the host that would become Caine, and the other would be the first human player in the testing room, and that player would be named Abel.

The game was designed in the 1990s to be an interactive VR game that would be revolutionary for innovation, the AI both deciding the players avatars and making immersive NPCs to cooperate with the players.

When test players then came in, with one of them being Kinger, and so far, the game has been a success and been distributed. Kinda like that one virus disguised as a gorilla mascot.

(I DO NOT OWN THIS SCREENSHOT, NOR DID I BREAK ANY DEVICE)

That is until bitterness stirred from the two company owners. The one working the game from the outside became envious and got consumed by greed and spite towards the game not being exactly their imagining. The other one, the human player, then began to immerse themself with a different side to the game, a world where the NPCs began to act like real people, with real aspirations and shortcomings that of a person. And they realized that there was much more to what they were creating than they originally thought. So both in game and in real life, Abel tried to bond with the NPCs as though they were real players.

And of course that got more attention.

So in a bitter action of irrationality, the head used Caine to ‘delete’ Abel while he was in the game. Remove him from the server so he can’t mess up the project.

What ended up happening instead was not only that Abel died in real life to brain damage, but the player version of Abel ABSTRACTED upon the murder.

The abstraction caused a glitch in the program itself, making it so that any player that got in the game could NEVER leave.

Which is how Kinger and the other bug testers and players at the time got trapped there.

And well, the actual MURDER of one of the company heads and its employees suddenly being unable to leave a video game would NOT fly under the radar.

As just like the biblical text, the murderer would be punished. Both the A.I version of Caine, and the human version of Caine.

A.I Caine had to deal with the permanent consequences of the human players being trapped in the circus forever, with him trying and failing over and over and OVER again to save these players from abstraction. As they would begin to do so due to their mental instabilities in the unstable digital program, also killing them.

Human Caine would cause the entire company he built to be taken in a dark turn. They fired him, and he went to prison, and then the Digital Circus was from then on deemed negatively.

From then on, The Amazing Digital Circus would be deemed ‘Malware’. A dangerous virus where any user that got their hands on the program would be trapped in the game forever. As such, it was not only taken from shelves, but would fade into obscurity to the point where the 21st century barely heard of the game.

Of course, that didn’t stop some people from getting their hands on the malware and being too naive to see the warning signs.

Ragatha as, very likely, an older sister to a family or a teacher that tried to help a minor, relative or not. Jax as a virus creator himself who was just testing illegal malware for the lols. Gangle as a shy and closed off theater kid who just wanted a way to therapy without actually going. Zooble as a college dropout artist with dreams and ambitions and got lended the wrong hands. And Kaufmo. And every other player that fell for the trap of the malware.

I mean, you and I know malware is unsafe and no one should use it. But some people are either ignorant or stupid.

They all paid the price.

Obviously all these players got into the game at different times. We know this for certain. Kinger was one of the original players. Then it’s Ragatha, Jax, Gangle, Zooble, and you know who. Gooseworx confirmed this order.

But I mentioned that Kinger was a C&A Employee. There’s another character I strongly believe is one.

Pomni.

There’s a reason I claim the people from C&A are Kinger and Pomni and not anyone else.

It’s not just because of the evidence others have pointed out (Kinger mentioning bugs, his knowledge on how the place works, and Pomni looking as though she recognized the desk in the office scene, and her also knowing how the place works) , but it also has to do with their designs.

Notice how both of them are the only two who have a design theme that centers around royalty.

The King & The Jester.

And if Queenie was also an employee this drives the point even further home.

And since C&A created the game, that would make it the kingdom of this world. So of course the game would make them look like roles in royalty.

Anyway, Pomni. Whereas Kinger was a 90s employee at C&A, Pomni was a modern day employee.

We already mentioned biblical text. Caine being Caine the first murderer, Jax being Satan, Ragatha being the traitor… you know where I’m going with this.

Yes, there is the theory that the show uses biblical subtext and Pomni is this show’s equivalent of Jesus Christ. And it is HILARIOUS.

But I do have incredibly mixed feelings on it.

On the one hand, it does make sense in biblical context and for ‘I Have No Mouth And I Must Scream’ if you know the fate of the MC in that story.

On the other hand, it is a very risky direction to take. Not saying the writers can’t pull it off or I don’t trust them to pull it off. But if they go at it as though Pomni is a chosen one meant to save the others and the peak of moral hood in the shows lore, it would ruin her character.

I think Pomni works way better as a regular woman that is just as flawed and uneasy as the people around her, if not more so. But that’s my opinion.

As such, I feel like the show works way better as a character that is not a chosen one or doing all these good deeds for a purpose, but is just… a normal person.

So with C&A, 2023, we enter human Pomni. An accountant working at the C&A office for minimum wage. She doesnt have a life outside of her miserable job. No friends. No after work activities. No nothing. She just goes through the motions of life like there’s nothing else.

Maybe she has some college degree for game design, but no one recognized it, so it seemed pointless to pursue any dream in it.

She suffered major depression and generalized anxiety disorder her entire adult life, and by 25, she’s lost all hope that her existence means anything.

What’s her entire existence if it’s just working 9-5? (See what I did there?)

I also made a prediction in a previous post that the human that had Caine as a self insert is Pomni’s parent. So that adds another context to it whether it’s true or not.

And then on a slow day of browsing, she stumbled across information on ‘The Amazing Digital Circus’. Which was listed as a malware that’s killed several people as well as their devices.

She learns through her research that it was a project meant to take people into an immersion of another world of wonders and endless fun.

And as someone who got into games to immerse herself with fantasies and escape from reality as a kid with parental issues (If ‘human Caine’ is her dad), it was the exact thing she needed.

So late at night, Human Pomni snuck into the office to find the tech of the Digital Circus that got abandoned in the back long ago.

But rather than have any intent to fix it, she booted it up to put the headset on. Basically committing suicide.

Yes, I believe human Pomni had committed suicide when she put the headset on. I have a post about this.

She had no intention to save anyone in the game or to even live her normal life, but she was thrusted in a position where she didn’t expect her escape from reality to be so literal. And survival instinct got to her immediately as a result. She didn’t want to go through with the game anymore and tried to escape what she did, but couldn’t.

But for what we’ve seen so far, Pomni has grown to not only care decently about the others, but find a reason to live.

Since abstraction can be read as mental suicide, then it’s a fate Pomni could strive to avoid at all costs. While she can’t escape death, it wouldn’t be by her hand and there would people that’d save her if she tried.

And if that continues to be emphasized, then it goes to show that Pomni is and has always been just a normal person, regardless of her upbringing and circumstances.

So, with that said, what would an ending look like?

I actually don’t know what they could be going for. There’s a lot of possible routes they could take and two episodes is not enough info for an ending to possibly predict it.

That said, I do have two ending theories:

1: Caine gets redeemed

I believe that Caine will get a redemption arc.

Yes we all hate him for GummyGoo, but hear me out.

This character is an AI just programmed to carry certain beliefs. But Episode 2 proved that these AI are capable of questioning things and having beliefs like people would. Which means Caine is capable of maintaining his own beliefs. Which means those beliefs can be altered.

If Caine isn’t evil and is doing what he thinks is best for these players, then all he needs to do is see that his ways are only causing mental damage and he’ll be open to hearing out what would actually help.

So… maybe he’d let them go??

If that’s even possible. There’s still the barrier that is keeping them trapped in the circus that we don’t know about yet.

So basically Caine is like Inside Out’s Anxiety, a clear antagonist that is just doing what they think is best even when it’s not, but realizes the faulty ways of thinking and seizes control in the end.

2: Everyone BUT Pomni gets out

I dont think Pomni is gonna have a happy ending.

For two episodes now, she’s had a mental break of some sort, and while it may not be related to psychological trauma, it could happen again an Episode 3 as well. And so on until the end of the show.

Will she abstract? I’m not sure.

Unless you say, if my Abel theory is correct, her abstraction overrides his and allows the human players to leave the circus.

Why would her abstraction glitch be enough to do that and not the others? I’m not sure. Unless we’re talking about Jesus symbolism.

Which in that sense, I can see her pursuing the same path Abel did in treating the NPCs like people and allowing them chances to act as people. Within circus grounds I mean. Count that with the show suggesting bonding with the other human cast members, then I can see Pomni’s story arc mainly being about reconnecting with the real self she lost when she came to the circus. Maturing into an emotionally realized woman that wants to live and strive and also helps the people (NPC AND human) around her live and strive too.

I also got this idea from Oreo’s fan song “The Show That Never Ends”, and the bridge lyrics. (They also did Digital Hallucination… which, you know, fan song gold standard)

“I dont think I can go on” “Don’t wanna lose myself” “I’ll try putting a show on” “I’ll try biting my time, I’ll find a way out of here” “I’ll never stop, I’ll never give up on life, I’ll get out of this place tonight, or tomorrow, this horrible hell can’t hold me forever whenever I get the chance”

So, no, I don’t think she’s giving up on trying to leave. Think about it 24/7? No. But she isn’t giving up on the possibility, especially when a clue presents itself.

But please Glitch, do something with her character besides ‘me find exit door’ (Episode 2 comes out) oh wait, you did. Awesome.

But while I do see that character growth from Pomni and the others minus Jax, I do think in Pomni’s case specifically it will not be enough to save her from the damage Caine and the circus will do to her.

And when all’s said and done and the answer presents itself that the only way for anyone to escape the circus is with a sacrifice, Pomni breaks before anyone else can volunteer. She gets left behind in the game. She abstracts. She overrides Abel’s glitch and fixes the game so the humans can leave and the NPCs can carry out Abel’s wishes again.

And if her abstraction doesn’t do it, then it definitely would break Caine and get him to open his eyes. The damage he’s done that got them to that point, that the loss of Pomni has only himself to blame. And it causes him to turn for the better and save the others.

So yeah. Jesus sacrifice to save humanity. And NPCs. And Pomni is just in coding heaven I guess. (Maybe Ragatha is also there on the other side. Raise a glass to freedom (I’m sorry))

It would also be a contrast to the Pilot. Where at the start of the show, Pomni only thought about herself and was willing to leave by herself, she’d get everyone but herself out and think of them first.

Kinger, Gangle, and Zooble are characters I see very likely to leave the game in this scenario. So they’d get happy endings.

Jax is a maybe. Depends on if he doesn’t get a Disney villain death first. Otherwise it’d just be ‘Eh, fine, leave you jerk, you don’t deserve it.’

But maybe if he is a criminal in the human world it can be ‘Have fun in prison’

Ragatha. We talked about it.

But Pomni is one that is very likely to not get a happy ending.

And Caine is a different story because he’s an AI who can’t and has no interest in leaving. But in a redemption moment he’s a much more experienced and empathetic ringmaster for it and that’s enough. And failing Pomni would make him a bittersweet character, as while he’s better as a person for it, it came at the price of a character he mistreated.

And if any of my theories over this post were correct, then while Caine is not Pomni’s father, he is a creation of her father and a self insert of him. So take that what you will and how much harder that hits.

Daddy’s gonna look after you. Even when you’re in coding heaven.

So in conclusion…

Uh… everything I said in this post is total BS and is 90% sure to not happen at all.

And I don’t demand any of it to.

This was just me as a fan doing some silly speculation as a form of investment in the shows story. And I am not going to get upset at anything here getting proven wrong in future episodes.

I mean based on Gooseworx’s posts I think it’s a given that I’m gonna be thrown a curveball.

I’m gonna be SO OFF, and then when the episodes come out we can all go back to this posts and laugh at my face at how WRONG I was.

Please don’t take anything I say here like it’s already canon, cause it’s NOT. Just, have fun while it lasts I guess.

Maybe I shouldn’t become a theorist.

#amazing digital circus #digital circus #tadc pomni #tadc theory #tadc caine #tadc gummigoo #tadc zooble #tadc kinger #tadc gangle #tadc ragatha #tadc jax

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Percabeth Drabble: Fall in Love Questions

*Okay, so the idea for this came to me a few years ago—I was watching The Big Bang Theory and it was the episode where they discuss this list of questions that will allegedly make two people fall in love. Sheldon and Penny decide to go through them—spoiler alert, they don’t fall in love, but they say they do feel closer at the end. So anyway, I went online to find the questions, out of curiosity, and then, after reading them, I thought it might be a fun writing exercise to play with this as if Percy and Annabeth were answering the questions. So here it is!

The Scene: The Jackson-Blofis apartment, early fall. Percy and Annabeth are sitting cross-legged on the floor beside the coffee table, leaning back against the sofa—a half empty pizza box sits in the middle of the coffee table, as well as a couple of partially full glasses of Coke. Golden sunset light is coming through the window. The baby monitor is also on the coffee table, showing Estell sleeping in her crib. This is Percy and Annabeth’s first visit back to New York since heading off to New Rome University. Tonight, they’re baby-sitting, giving Paul and Sally a chance to go out to dinner and a movie.

Re-runs of a sit-com are playing in the background as Percy reached for his third slice of pizza. The characters on the TV show were talking about a list of questions that will allegedly make two people fall in love after answering them together. So, Annabeth nabbed Paul’s laptop and, while Percy was debating a fourth slice of pizza, she looked them up. After scanning the list, she told Percy, “Let’s try it.”

He looked over at her, right in the middle of taking his first bite of his fourth slice. “What?”

“Let’s try it,” she said again, showing him the list on the computer. “It might be fun.”

Percy looked skeptical, like their definitions of “fun” didn’t exactly line up. “But we’re already in love.”

That drew a smile from Annabeth. “I know. But we might learn something new.”

“You’re not going to let this go, are you?”

“Nope.”

“Alright.” Percy finished his fourth slice of pizza, then took a drink of his Coke. “Hit me with the first one.”

Annabeth kissed him on the cheek, then turned back to the questions on the laptop. The TV droned low in the background. On the monitor, Estelle’s chest rose and fell as she slept on her back, one arm curled up around her head. The air conditioner chugged in the window, fending off the last heat of late summer as it gave way to early fall. Percy’s arm lay along the couch cushions, lightly touching Annabeth’s shoulders. He had his legs stretched out beneath the coffee table and she was sitting criss-cross, her left knee resting on his right. It was a peaceful, relaxing evening. Scrolling to the first question, Annabeth began to read.

Set 1

1. Given the choice of anyone in the world, whom would you want as a dinner guest?

[CAVEAT for them, can’t be each other or anyone you could just call up for dinner right now].

P: My mom’s parents. I never got to meet them, and I think it’d be kind of cool to get to know them. Learn more about that part of my family and all.

A: My mom. I know that’s almost like cheating, but I would honestly just love to sit down and have dinner with her and just, you know, talk.

2. Would you like to be famous? In what way?

P: Absolutely not. I mean, when I was younger, I kind of wanted to be a famous skateboarder, but after everything, nah, I don’t want to be famous. I just want to live my life.

A: I’d like to be a famous architect. But you already know that.

3. Before making a telephone call, do you ever rehearse what you are going to say? Why?

P: Sometimes. I did before we were dating, when I would call you, sometimes, just to make sure I didn’t sound like an idiot. And sometimes now, if it’s an important call and I don’t just want to blurt out whatever.

A: Not usually. If it’s a really important call, like a phone interview, then yeah, I might have some notes, but usually not.

P: Huh, that’s kind of funny. Almost seems like it would be the other way around.

A: Yeah. Interesting.

4. What would constitute a "perfect" day for you?

P: Has to start with sleeping in, for sure. Maybe my mom making pancakes. Hanging out with my family. Hanging out with you. Just chill. Maybe at the beach. Pizza for dinner, obviously. Hanging out with some friends and playing video games. Then you and I curling up and watching a movie…and sometimes not watching the movie. I guess just chilling with the people I love. What about you? A: Okay, for me, this might be a little bit in the future. But waking up in my own home, um preferably next to you, and it’s still early, and I just make some coffee, go to my own office, which has lots of light, and I just sketch for a few hours. Then, when you wake up, we go out to breakfast, or brunch, whatever, and then just hang out. Maybe go walk around a park or something, go to a matinee movie or show, maybe meet some friends for a late lunch or early dinner, then yeah, I like the idea of coming home, curling up on the couch together, and watching a movie. Just normal, relaxed, you know?

P: Yeah.

5. When did you last sing to yourself? To someone else?

P: Not gonna lie, I was singing in the shower this morning. And, uh, I sang to Estelle yesterday. She likes when I do “Under the Sea.”

A: I don’t sing. I mean, I guess I kind of hummed to Estelle the last time I watched her. And, oh, shoot, you know what, I did sing to Peleus before, because lullabies calm him down so he doesn’t eat people.

6. If you were able to live to the age of 90 and retain either the mind or body of a 30-year-old for the last 60 years of your life, which would you want?

P: I have no idea. I mean…mind, I guess? That’s a weird question.

A: Mind, definitely. But yeah, that’s kind of a strange question.

7. Do you have a secret hunch about how you will die?

P: Do I even have to answer this one?

A: No, we’re skipping this.

8. Name three things you and your partner appear to have in common.

P: Oh, wow, this is an interesting one. Um, I think we both really care about our friends. We’re both good at putting important stuff first, especially when we really have to. And, uh, good-looking?

A: Dork. But I really like those first two, and I agree. I think we’re both tough, like resilient. I think we both always want to do the right thing. And I think we both have a good sense of humor.

P: I like those, too.

9. For what in your life do you feel most grateful?

P: Being here right now with you. And, in general, for the people in my life.

A: Same. About the people in my life, too. But I’m definitely most grateful we can just sit here together like this right now.

10. If you could change anything about the way you were raised, what would it be?

A [humorless laugh]: Pretty much everything. I guess, if I had to say something specific, better communication.

P [takes her hand and laces their fingers together. She smiles and gestures for him to go]: I don’t think I’d really change anything my mom did, like as a parent. If I was going to change anything, it would have been that Smelly Gabe wouldn’t have been around and I wouldn’t have had to go to all those boarding schools. They usually sucked.

11. Take four minutes and tell your partner your life story in as much detail as possible.

P: Don’t we already know all this? Are you getting out a stopwatch?

A: Yes. It’s one of the questions. So get ready, Seaweed Brain, you’re going first.

[8 MINUTES LATER]

P: Okay, that was actually kind of cool. What’s the next one?

12. If you could wake up tomorrow having gained any one quality or ability, what would it be?

P: I’m still pretty jealous that Frank can change into animals and I can’t.

A: Is that seriously your answer? P [considers a moment]: Yes. I mean, otherwise, I like my abilities.

A: Yeah, they are pretty cool. And you have a lot of good qualities. P: I do? A: Yeah, Seaweed Brain. You definitely do.

P: Aww, thanks, babe. [He kisses her cheek]. Okay, what’s your answer?

A [after considering]: Honestly, I wouldn’t mind being able to breathe underwater or will my clothes dry. That would be useful. Especially hanging around you. [Nudges him with her shoulder]. For qualities, though, I could probably do better not getting so focused on my own stuff sometimes, so maybe paying attention to what other people need more.

P [shrugs]: Maybe, but I like your intensity about stuff. That’s one of your best qualities.

A [looks surprised]: Really?

P: Yeah, definitely.

A [leans over to kiss him]: I like this question thing. Alright, we’re moving on to the second level. Or set. Whatever.

Set 2

13. If a crystal ball could tell you the truth about yourself, your life, the future or anything else, what would you want to know?

A: I think I’d want to know that we’re okay in a few years. Like, I wouldn’t want the details spoiled, necessarily, because as much as I love planning, it’s also fun if some things are a surprise, but I’d like to know, just in general, that we, you know, kind of get our happy ending. [blinks quickly and swipes hand across eyes] Oh wow, I don’t know why that made me kind of tear up. Okay, you answer.

P [considers for a few moments]: Honestly, after all the shit we’ve gone through dealing with prophecies, I’m not sure I’d even want to look. I like your answer, but I think I’d like to just be…what’s that phrase? Blissfully oblivious about the future. And yeah, sometimes surprises are nice. Good surprises, I mean, are nice.

14. Is there something that you've dreamed of doing for a long time? Why haven't you done it? P: I have to think about this. You go.

A: I’d really like to go to Falling Water, Frank Lloyd Wright’s place he designed. But I haven’t had a chance to go yet. I used to say the Parthenon, but we’ve been there. I wouldn’t mind going back, someday, though, when we could actually spend some time there and enjoy it.

P: Good to know.

A: There was one highlight of the Parthenon trip though. [smiles at him, and he returns it]. So what’s your answer?

P [looks down]: So, I don’t know if this is really a dream, but I’ve wanted to talk to my mom about just…Gabe…and our life before I found out I was a demigod. For a long time. I just never want to bring it up though, don’t want to bring up the bad memories, you know? And I usually try not to look back too much, or dwell on stuff, but I just feel like it’s something we should talk about at some point. Dang, I actually didn’t really realize that until I had to think about it just now.

A [quietly]: I think that’s a good idea. Maybe one evening when it’s just you two? It might be good for both of you.

P: Yeah, maybe. [deep breath]. Okay, next question.

15. What is the greatest accomplishment of your life?

P: Great, easy one. Saving Olympus.

A: Yeah, being designated official architect of Olympus was pretty good. I feel like we could be more thoughtful with this one, though. What would you say is your greatest accomplishment outside of hero stuff?

P [groans]: You never settle for an easy answer, do you? A: Nope.

P: That’s okay. It’s another one of the things I like best about you. [kisses her cheek again when she smiles at him]. Okay, outside of hero stuff? I’m pretty proud of graduating from high school. And getting accepted to college. Because I wasn’t sure that was something I would ever be able to do. So it feels pretty good. Surviving almost two years as your boyfriend feels pretty good too. A: Graduating definitely feels like an accomplishment, especially after the past couple years. But I am actually going to say our relationship, truthfully, because I never thought I’d have something like this. It wasn’t in my plans, at all. But coming up on our second anniversary, and going to college together, definitely feels like an accomplishment.

[question answering is briefly interrupted]

A: Percy, we really need to finish this. I don’t think you’re supposed to take breaks.

P: Fine. What’s up next?

16. What do you value most in a friendship?

A: Loyalty. And honesty. Those kind of go together.

P: Yeah. And somebody who does the right thing, even when it’s not easy.

17. What is your most treasured memory?

P: Underwater kiss. For sure.

A: Under the Parthenon. Easy.

18. What is your most terrible memory?

P: Damn. I mean, leaving Beckendorf, thinking my mom was dead, thinking Tyson was dead, thinking you might be dead when you were kidnapped, everything that happened in the Titan War, leaving Bob and Damasen at the Doors, a bunch of other stuff. Should we do that four minute thing again?

A: Right? What would you say the worst moment was, though?

P: Truthfully…well, no.

A: What? P: I was going to say when we were dangling over that pit and I realized I couldn’t pull you up. That was terrible. But actually, what happened with Akhlys was worse. When I realized you were afraid of me and what I was doing. That’s my most terrible memory, because I was out of control and I was enjoying hurting her, and I don’t ever want to be that person again. [clears throat] Um, your turn.

A: That’s pretty high on my terrible list, too, because that’s not you, Percy. And yeah, leaving Bob and Damasen at the Doors was awful. And so much that happened in the Titan War…everything with Luke…Silena…and, gods, those months when you were missing. That was miserable. But if I had to pick an absolute most terrible memory, it would probably be after the arai attacked, when you were dying of the gorgon’s blood poison curse, and I didn’t know how to save you. Because all I could think, other than I can’t lose him, was that you were only there because of me. Because I didn’t think to cut the spider silk off. And if you died, that was my fault. And I would have to live with that.

[brief silence, holding hands] Okay, next question, right?

P: Uh, yeah, definitely.

19. If you knew that in one year you would die suddenly, would you change anything about the way you are now living? Why?

P: Why did these suddenly get so depressing? And honestly, that’s how I’ve been living for years. So, no, probably not. Other than maybe I’d spend less time on homework and more time hanging out with the people I love. And I would eat only junk food.

A: I believe that. I don’t know if I’d really do anything different. Maybe, yeah, spend more time with the people I love. Maybe try to complete some additional sketches and leave plans for how they could be implemented. But otherwise, like you said, we’ve been living that way for years. Now, for the first time, we kind of don’t have to as much. So, moving on.

20. What does friendship mean to you?

P: Didn’t we already answer this one?

A: No, that was about what do you value in a friendship.

P [stares blankly]: Are those different?

A: Yes. What do you value is like traits, what friendship means to you is more…I don’t know…broad. Or something. I mean, friendship is incredibly important to me. Especially when I wasn’t getting along with my family, my friends became my family. So yeah, it’s important.

P: Yeah, me too. It’s important. I mean, especially with what we’ve been through, you need people you can rely on, who you know have your back and care about you. So yeah, friendship is important to me. Is that the right answer?

A [rolls eyes]: There’s not one right answer, Seaweed Brain. But yes, that works. Moving on.

21. What roles do love and affection play in your life?

P: They’re good things? I don’t know how to answer this one either.

A: Try.

P: Okay, I mean, if you want the deep answer, isn’t it all about love? Not just romantic stuff, although that’s obviously important, but like love for family and friends, too. I’ve only been able to do some of the stuff I’ve had to do because I love you, my family, and my friends. Love gives you strength.

A: Wow, Percy. That’s…that’s a really great answer.

P [shrugs]: It’s true. What’s yours? A: I think, for me, because of how I felt when I was little, love and affection are almost painfully important to me. If I want to go really deep, I think I associate them with acceptance. When Thalia and Luke first took me in, they gave me hugs and tousled my hair and stuff like that, and acted like they wanted me around. That blew my mind. When I got to camp, Chiron would pat my shoulder or head when I did well. Grover and Tyson give hugs to show they care. So does your mom. Piper, too, actually. And then you came along, obviously. And even when we were younger, just sitting by you, or holding your hand, always made me feel better. So I guess, to me, love and affection go together. Like physical affection is such a clear way people show that they care about you. I know it’s not the only way, but it’s definitely important. [blushes] Anyway, next question.

22. Alternate sharing something you consider a positive characteristic of your partner. Share a total of five items.

P: Sweet, another easy one. Okay, your eyes.

A: That’s very sweet, but it says “characteristic”, not “attribute.” I think it means more internal stuff.

P: What happened to no wrong answers? But I’m sticking with my answer, because, I mean, yeah, I think your eyes are beautiful, but they can also be fierce and intense and scary, so I still think it fits.

A: Okay. Your heart. You have a really good heart, and I’ve always loved that about you.

P: Thanks. I’ve always been amazed by your strength. Like, just with everything. You have more guts than anybody I’ve ever met.

A: Thanks, Percy. I love your sense of humor. You can always find something to lighten the mood, even when things are really bad.

P: I do my best. I was going to say your intelligence, but that feels like a given, so I’m going with your passion for architecture and stuff. Like, I love watching your face light up when you talk about stuff you’re excited about.

A: Really? P: Yeah.

A: So, you can be goofy, and that’s great, but when something’s really important, you get this intense focus that I really appreciate. And your confidence. I admire that too.

P: I have confidence? A: Yeah, babe, you do. Like when you were leading everyone during the Battle of Manhattan? [smiles slyly] It was pretty hot.

P: Good to know. Okay, my turn. I like how you genuinely care about people and you want to help them. I don’t know if everybody always sees that, but I do. And I really admire that.

A [biting lip, trying not to smile]: Thanks. That means a lot. You also just took my next one about you, because it was basically that.

P [grinning]: My bad. You can still use it, too, if you want.

A: No, I’ve got a few others still. Like the fact that you’re an amazing big brother. Like how you stood by Tyson that first summer he came to camp, which I know wasn’t easy. And seeing you playing with your baby sister is the cutest thing ever.

P: Well, it helps that Estelle is adorable.

A: That doesn’t hurt. Okay, last one each.

P: Already?

A: Yep.

P: Dang, I liked this question. Okay, I like how you always manage to surprise me. Ever since we met and you told me I drooled in my sleep.

A [leans forward and kisses him quickly]: I like your arms.

P: Huh? A [shrugs]: Your first one was my eyes, my last one is your arms. You have nice muscles. And, you know, you’re a very impressive swordsman, so it still falls under that characteristic thing.

P: Huh. Again, good to know. How many questions do we have left?

A: A few. Ready to move on?

P: Yeah. Let’s go.

23. How close and warm is your family? Do you feel your childhood was happier than most other people's?

A: Oh gods. Is this for real?

P: Do we want to just skip this one?

A [sighs]: No, we have to answer them all. So, my family is getting better, but I don’t think I’ll ever describe them as close and warm. Although things with my dad are much better. And everything with Magnus is good. But my childhood was definitely not happier than other people’s. Your turn, Seaweed Brain.

P: I’m definitely close with my mom. And Paul and Estelle. And they’re all warm. So’s Tyson, obviously. Things with my dad have been good, can’t complain. I doubt my childhood was happier than most other people’s, but there were some good moments, too. But…never mind.

A: What?

P: But one day, in the future, like way out, when I have kids, I want to make sure they have a genuinely good childhood. I mean, I’m going to do my best to make that happen.

A [holds his eyes for a long moment]: I love that idea.

P: Cool. [swallows hard] Um, next question? 24. How do you feel about your relationship with your mother?

A [facepalms]: You have got to be kidding me.

P: My mom’s awesome. Next question.

Set 3

25. Make three true "we" statements each. For instance, "We are both in this room feeling _____."

P: Okay, this is another kind of weird one.

A: A bit. Three true “we” statements each. Okay, so we are both in this room feeling vulnerable?

P: Yeah, that’s true. We are both demigods.

A: Percy!

P: What? It’s true.

A: That’s practically cheating.

P: Okay, fine, that one doesn’t count. How about we are both learning some new stuff about each other?

A: Yeah. Nice to know we can still do that. And we both believe we can build a future together.

P: Definitely true. [pauses, thinking] We believe in each other.

A: We do. And we put each other first, or at least we try our best.

P: I agree with that. And, most importantly, we love each other.

A: Absolutely.

P: That was a good one. What’s next?

26. Complete this sentence: "I wish I had someone with whom I could share _____."

A: Umm…I have no idea how to answer this.

P: Yeah, I’m coming up blank.

A: I mean, my first thought was maybe my love of architecture, but Malcolm and I have great discussions. Leo, too, is great for talking about engineering and design type stuff. And everything else I talk with you about. Or Piper. Or your mom. Sometimes friends at school.

P: Yeah, maybe I’m not thinking deep enough, but I think you and I have a lot of those types of conversations. Or I talk to my friends. Or my mom. I thought about my love of video games. But guys from camp and school are around for that.

A: Does it count if we at least had a discussion about how we don’t have an answer?

P: I’m good with that. Next.

27. If you were going to become a close friend with your partner, please share what would be important for him or her to know.

P: Gee, Annabeth, if we were friends, what would I need to know?

A [laughs]: Okay, I’m guessing this question is for people who don’t really know each other. But if I was going to give an honest answer, even if you already know it, it would probably be helpful to know about my history, and why I hate people letting me down.

P: That’s actually true. I mean, I felt like I understood you better once I learned some of that stuff. Kind of similar, I think it would be important for someone to know how important my mom and family are to me.

A: Definitely.

P: And you, obviously. That was a given.

A: Ditto, Seaweed Brain.

28. Tell your partner what you like about them; be very honest this time, saying things that you might not say to someone you've just met.

A: This is interesting. I mean, I feel like we were pretty honest last time. That was definitely not stuff I would say to someone I just met.

P: Same. But I might be able to come up with something else.

A: Yeah, me too. So, even more honestly, what I like about you is that you’re reliable. I know you always have my back and I can count on you. For me, that means everything. And I also love that you’re kind and sweet and respectful and funny and cute and smart and strong and…well, a lot of things.

P [kisses her]: Sorry, couldn’t help it. I love that you’re just yourself. You don’t try to change to impress anybody. I mean, I know you put a lot of pressure on yourself to do well and achieve your goals, and that’s impressive, too, but you’re always still Annabeth. You stay true to yourself. And I love that.

[brief kissing interlude]

A: Okay, let’s finish these last few questions.

29. Share with your partner an embarrassing moment in your life.

A: Oh gods. Um, okay, this one time, I started my period in the middle of class and had to wear a sweatshirt tied around my waist the rest of the day to cover up the small spot on my jeans. Your turn.

P: I dangled from a billboard in Times Square in my underwear.

A: You what? P: Yeah, it was a whole thing with Grover and Apollo and it was pretty humiliating, so I never told you about it. Next question.

30. When did you last cry in front of another person? By yourself?

P: In front of another person? When we found out about what happened to Jason and everybody at Camp Jupiter. I cried in front of you when we went back to your dad’s house.

A: Yeah. I think that was my most recent time, too. What about by yourself?

P: I mean, I’m not a big crier, usually. I might have been upset about all that again, but the time that comes to mind, honestly, was after Estelle was born. I don’t know why, but I remember standing at my bedroom window, looking out at the city, and I got all choked up. But that was like, good crying. Like, my mom was happy, she has Paul, now they have Estelle, I have this great family, this amazing girlfriend, I was getting ready to graduate high school and go to college. I think I was just kind of amazed that was all real. What about you? A: Honestly, I think it was something similar. On the drive out to California, we stayed in that one hotel that had a balcony, looking out over that lake? I couldn’t sleep, so I went out on the balcony, and I was just looking out, and thinking about everything. Like that this was really happening. And it was kind of overwhelming, but in a good way. And I might have cried a little bit, but happy tears.

P: I didn’t know that. You could have woken me up.

A: I know. It was okay though. I think I just needed that moment to process everything, you know? Anyway, next one.

31. Tell your partner something that you like about them already.

A: Okay, this has to be for people who don’t know each other.

P: Yeah, but we can make it work. Unless you’re out of nice stuff to say about me? A: Not even close, Seaweed Brain. I like how honest you’re being with all this. It’s really nice.

P: You too. And I like that smile you keep giving me occasionally, when you like one of my answers. A: I am? P: Yeah. It’s cute. Next question.

32. What, if anything, is too serious to be joked about?

A: Sexual assault.

P: Yeah, pretty much anything related to abuse. Not funny.

A: Moving on.

33. If you were to die this evening with no opportunity to communicate with anyone, what would you most regret not having told someone? Why haven't you told them yet?

P: Wow, that’s an interesting question. So, I think I do okay about telling people stuff. But if I’m being honest, I might regret not telling Paul he’s a great guy and I really appreciate everything he’s done for my mom. And for me. I mean, I think he knows, but I don’t think I’ve ever actually told him. Not for any reason, just haven’t. But maybe I should.

A: I’m sure he’d love that. And yeah, I don’t think there’s anything I’d regret not telling you. [nudges him with her shoulder]. But I think I’d wish I told my dad that I’m glad we’re getting along again. And I appreciate the support he’s given me about my college choices. I just don’t do well being emotional around him. He’s not great at that either.

P: But I bet he’d love to hear it.

A: Yeah. Okay, we’re holding each other accountable. Sometime before the end of the year, so no major rush, just when it feels natural, we’re going to tell them both, Paul and my dad, what we just said.

P: Deal. How many questions are left? A: Just three. Almost there.

34. Your house, containing everything you own, catches fire. After saving your loved ones and pets, you have time to safely make a final dash to save any one item. What would it be? Why?

P: Huh. Assuming I have my camp necklace on and Riptide is in my pocket, I guess I’d want to grab maybe some pictures? Or the Minotaur horn. There’s not much stuff I’m that attached to otherwise, though.

A: Same. My camp necklace, definitely, but if I have that on already…probably pictures. Oh, my sketchbook. I’d definitely grab my journal and my sketchbook. Is it okay that that’s two things?

P: They’re in the same category, so sure. Also, we’re making up our own rules as we go anyway, and I’m fine with that answer.

A: Great. Moving on.

35. Of all the people in your family, whose death would you find most disturbing? Why?

P: These are some strange questions. But I guess if the point is to really get to know somebody….Anyway, I’d be devastated, obviously, if something happened to you or my mom, same with Paul or Tyson…or my dad, but I forget about him sometimes for something like this because…well, you know. But if we’re talking about disturbing, it’s Estelle, hands down. Just because she’s still so little. It doesn’t feel like anything should happen to her, like she should just be in this protective bubble because she’s a baby. I don’t even want to think about anything happening to her. So, your turn.

A: Ugh, I can’t even stand the thought of something happening to Estelle. Talking specifically about my blood-related family, yeah, if something happened to my dad, or Bobby or Matthew, or even my stepmom, I’d be devastated. And probably feel really guilty, somehow, too, for not spending enough time with them. Most disturbing, though, would have to be if something happened to Magnus. Just because, you know…he’s already dead. So it would be awful not knowing what else happened to him or where he went, like if he’s trapped somewhere worse or something. [pauses] And obviously, if something happened to you, I’d be completely heartbroken. Then I’d stomp down to the Underworld and drag your butt back.

P [grins]: Obviously. A: Alright, last one.

36. Share a personal problem and ask your partner's advice on how he or she might handle it. Also, ask your partner to reflect back to you how you seem to be feeling about the problem you have chosen.

A: Wow, this is kind of tough. I mean, I already usually talk problems through with you. And honestly, at this particular moment, I don’t have one. [pauses, looking pleasantly surprised] Wow. I don’t have any serious problems right now. That’s possibly the first time that’s ever happened.

P: Nice. So nothing right now? A: Not really. I mean, I’m a little nervous about starting college, especially with balancing UC Berkeley and New Rome, but I think it’ll be okay. Any advice on how you’d handle that? P [small laugh]: Honestly? Not well. I don’t think I’d be great at running back and forth and balancing everything. But you will be. You’re good with organization and time management and everything, so you’re going to be fine, Wise Girl. If I had to guess, I think you’re just nervous because you want to do well. But you will. Because you’re awesome.

A [smiling]: Aww, thanks, babe. What about you? Any problems right now? P [shakes head]: Nothing major right now. Well, actually, now that I’ve said that…I’m kind of worried about my major. Like for college.

A: Really? Why?

P [shrugs]: I mean, marine biology kind of makes sense, because of my dad and all. But I’m not like a major science guy or anything. So I’m a little worried about it. Any thoughts? A [considers for a few moments]: That makes sense. So it sounds like you’re a little worried you’ve chosen something that you can do, not necessarily something you want to do?

P: Yeah, pretty much. I mean, I never really thought much about what I’d want to do for a major or a career. I never thought I’d get this far.

A: That makes sense. Do you want my advice?

P: Isn’t that the point of this question? Also, yes, I’d want to hear it anyway.

A: I think you should just stick with it for this first semester, maybe this first year. Most of the classes are gen eds anyway, so they’ll apply to any major. Maybe keep an open mind during your classes and see if anything jumps out at you. There might be something you’ve never even thought about that you end up loving. And if you decide to change majors, I think that’s totally fine. And I support you one hundred percent.

P: Thanks, Annabeth. And I like that idea. It makes sense.

A: Cool. [leans forward and kisses him lightly on the lips]. So that’s the end of the questions.

P: Sweet. Although that was kind of cool. Is there anything else?

A: Yeah. The last part is four minutes of eye contact.

P: Holy shit. Four minutes?

A: That’s what it says.

P: Isn’t that awkward? A [rolls eyes]: Only if you make it that way, Seaweed Brain. Just relax. It’ll be fine. [gets out phone for stopwatch again] Alright, time starts now.

[4 minutes elapse, which include some laughing, some comments, but also following the rules]

A: And that’s four minutes. Done.

P: Cool. So, what does that mean? A: Apparently we’re supposed to feel closer. Do you think it worked?

P [considers]: Actually, yeah, I think so. I mean, it was nice to talk about some different stuff that we might not have otherwise. So yeah, I think it worked.

A: Agreed. That was actually kind of fun.

P: Yeah. But now can we just relax? And maybe make out? Just throwing that out there.

A: Gods, yes.

And that was the end of the question and answer portion of the evening.

#pjo #percy jackson #percabeth #writing #annabeth chase #stories

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girlinthebrightbluejeans · 7 months

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Is anyone else going insane over the McCartney: A Life in Lyrics podcast highlight Paul posted today? "It's not like boy and girl. It's like, it's a guy and guy. It's a boy and boy."

#Is anyone listening to this podcast?#This episode is going on my list right now #Literally this and Paul waving a pride flag around is driving me insane #I'm like showing my mom this today like what does this mean what does this mean??? And she's so confused like what does it mean??#Paul McCartney

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sparring-spirals · 2 years

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i just love it when characters Say Things. u kno. just a real sucker for characters. Saying Shit.

Imogen saying "She's not any person. She was special. She was chosen." (Chosen, once, twice, thrice, for an early end). Ashton saying "Do I look like a person who doesn't know that?" (That things often have unsatisfying ends). F.C.G saying: "It seems kind of hard." (being alive, finding purpose). Orym saying "It always mattered." (F.C.G's life, what they chose to do with it, them). Ashton saying "I have had a lifetime, of bad hits." (Hits, and falls, and losses, that I am weathering. But I am telling you where I am drawing my lines, here and now.) Imogen saying "Laudna, you're safe!" (we chased off the shadows, you're not alone, you're safe, we're here).

F.C.G saying: "Well, I have to live."

Ashton saying: "Unfortunate, but true."

im just. such a fan of characters saying things, all the time, about all kinds of things, with all kinds of meanings. God i just. love it. when characters say shit. u feel me.

#this post brought to you by theres so many things from the last ep that are so good and so many Specific Lines to make me go feral #god characters are just out here Saying Things and i am. cheering wildly in a distant room.#critical role #cr spoilers #c3e36 #quote #bell's hells #orogorgorogoghghrhfhhr #spar speaks #ive got asks in my inbox and stuff to reblog but ive just got like 6 conversations on loop in my head #there isnt really a theme in this post sorry im just obsessed with SO many convos in this ep #anyway cheers ill get to the asks soon. probably. maybe.#character meta #??? very vaguely i GUESS #my meta #what a CRUNCHY episode #anyway if i were to make a nonexhaustive list of things im chewing on:#- bells hells (the therapist group) diving into a nightmare scape to confront and fight laudnas personal demons (see last meta)#- fcg is alive and has to live for themself now and thats Scary And Hard And Kind Of Sucks (ur so right king) but it MATTERS #- imogen darling how u doin #- ashton and his approach to powerful people and their own shifting worldview #- chetney grabbing pate and the tools off the table #- orym bud how u doin #- fearne... fearne i think youre okay rn. maybe. i think you miss laudna tho which Me Too #- LAUDNA ARE YOU OKAY #narrative meta

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hopeinthebox · 6 months

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tagged by the fabulous @cordiallyfuturedwight and @jimin-gaon <33 here's the december list

apologies for being late again new year same me: @aprylynn @jiminsproof @pauls-mccharmly @thvinyl @visionsofgideontheninth @btsbs @kimchokejin @jihopesjoint @eoieopda @monismochi 💜 and anyone else who feels so inclined MWAH p.s. please do tag me anyway if you've already done it

#superfluous commentary in the tags as per usual:#i feel you - ADORE THIS TRACK i can't even explain what it does to my psyche except that it initiates a beach episode.#noso is a phenomenal queer artist and you should check them out #smoke and mirrors - ms faith back in action on the rotation i loved this album in 2009 and it still hits. for the love of GOD take me back #loving you - i am a paolo nutini stan if nothing else. exceptional #love is all around - i am in my frazzled english woman era hence the romcom soundtrack #and tell me who could possibly embody that frazzled english spirit better than four weddings hugh grant #boys don't cry - it's the cure by name and the cure by nature for one listen and i am FIXED!!!#she's always a woman - now billy joel is a great name for a cat or hamster but i digress. the stranger album of the year 2023 (again i fear)#little bird - was annie lennox in the last one?? i still have this on repeat.#googling the lyrics and it thinks i want the jonas brothers and it makes me want to sit right down and cry cry cry i'll tell you that much #jenny - paolo again can you blame me? i cannot express how much i adore his entire discography.#these scottish italians... deadly combination for my mental health. peter capaldi sit down #white flag - dido save me.. save me dido... my jihope anthem because i WILL go down with this ship #eternal flame - banger after banger it's almost as if i made this playlist myself!! can you feel my heart beating??? i apologise #as for the artist list #norah jones and jamie cullum christmas albums on repeat lord forgive me for i have listened to jazz #hozier and abba seem to make it without fail every month. for those who aren't familiar hozier is like if abba were irish. and bitchless.#NOW I'VE SAID TOO MUCH #the rest of the artists are fab of course but does olivia dean know i would die for her?#anyway. insert closing statements #tag #receiptify #MWAH

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yamineftis · 1 year

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One thing that is really breaking my heart in this season is how stupid and incompetent they’ve made all the mandalorians, like, are we supposed to root for these guys? Who live in Jurassic Park and claim their children are the most important thing to them, but just stay put and watch them get snatched by giant birds instead of idk, trying to hunt them? Couldn’t they like, have asked Din when he returned the first time this season to help them track the birds with his ship cuz apparently they took the space bus to this planet?

Couldn’t they like, be portrayed as the most fearsome warriors in the galaxy who are in the verge of extinction cuz they’re so dangerous the empire/renmants sends hoards of soldiers to kill them whenever they learn of a new covert? How did these fumbling fools manage to survive this long? lmao why

#the mandalorian #like that episode where they're training #im so sorry carl weathers you're usually fucking awesome with action but they looked like d list power rangers 😭#when paz told din 'they always get away' when the bird kidnaps ragnar #😭#when they camp for a whole fucking night when they reach the nest instead of idk going right away to see if the kid is ok? 😭#when they have 0 personality or characterization -we literally only know paz's name- just to be canon fodder of bo's new followers #like why do they believe in the creed?#do they like being mandalorian?#and the armorer of course being so poorly written she's now a bo katan stan #and not even bc she's a lesbian but just cuz she was 'chosen by the dinosaur'#at least give me lesbians i don't ask for much 😭#i wouldn't blame the armorer for wanting pussy i swear #makes more sense that whatever the fuck we got #din djarin #bo katan #paz viszla #my boi i am so sorry they gave u a kid just to kill u off #the armorer

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arthur-r · 20 days

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updates on this:

started testosterone already (may 28)

demo recording is going awfully, but the more i realize i’ll be free of my voice soon the more i realize i might not have all that much willpower to preserve it like that

i will be going to alaska for the first half of july so be prepared for that….

all of those events are going to happen at some point. including visiting campus in a week maybe but otherwise waiting for another month and a half. we’ll see.

i’m reading sula and loving it. stayed up filling my sideblog with quotes actually

i’m not making money, or staying healthy, or sleeping, and i’m really struggling to hold onto who i am. so that’s unfortunate. i guess i’ll have to start with keeping a diary. but there’s not a lot to write down i just feel sick and awful. and that’s just kind of been the main idea of the summer so far

#WHY DID I START HAVING A DEPRESSIVE EPISODE JUST AS I WAS ABOUT TO START T #THIS IS SO FUCKING UNFAIR. SUPPOSED TO BE THE HAPPIEST OF MY LIFE RN #but honestly i feel so dysphoric about the fact that nothing has changed yet. like at least i didn’t used to be ACTIVELY TRYING #but it’s whatever. i’m taking gel. it goes slower. it’s whatever. i’ll get there #anyway i have no fucking idea what’s wrong with me but this is where i’m at #MAYBE ITS CAUSE IM OFF MY BIRTH CONTROL. maybe i should start that again even though i’m on T now #just cause i have awful pmdd and for all i know that’s what’s been happening to me #i dont know. the fucking tragedies in my midst can’t be helping anything. would be maybe fucked to be doing okay rn #anyway idk. im gonna try to sleep. but ran into this list #fuck i miss my bed. having my own room that was MINE even sharing it with aaron was fucking beautiful honestly #and something awful has happened and i dont think i’ll ever be able to feel that peace in my new room next year #anyway i need to sleep really badly i’m going to sleep now. but yeah idk. there’s a lot going on #and i am not even as screaming and sobbing as i should be #anyway im around if anyone needs anything. though right now im sleeping #and i hope everyone has a good night #me. my post. mine.#delete later #ask to tag #vent cw

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adriartts · 2 years

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Hello again I am STILL thinking about the most episode ever. Fuck him up, Data!!

#Star Trek: The Next Generation #data tng #data #star trek #data star trek #screenshot redraws are. fun #lets me not worry so much about lines and just go ham on colors #also data is fun as hell to color because hes so goddamn pale and nonhuman i can use any color i WANT on him #fuck getting the disruptor to look right also. whaddahell #anyway im still going insane about the most toys. my overall favorite episode of tng tho descent is ALSO very good #they should've let data kill kivas fajo #also. love how kivas fajo is like 'if you could feel emotion you would kill me. if you could be angry or hurt or afraid you'd shoot me'#and then data TRIES TO SHOOT HIM AND IS ONLY STOPPED BY THE TRANSPORTER. and continues to be like 'ah but alas. i have no emotions'#data is an idiot but he's MY idiot #also the fact that when they beam him aboard miles is like uhhhhhhh. a weapon is going off ill disable it #and then when data materializes riker is like 'hey buddy..... you good??'#and data goes straight to 'please arrest kivas fajo for every crime ever which I will list right now'#visits him in jail to gloat/ensure he's contained/get back at him by telling him all his stuff is being confiscated + returned #but he CaNt FeEl EmOtiOn #singlehandedly killing the emotion chip plotline. data had emotion all along he's just DUMB #anyway. if anybody asks I'm sooooooo normal about this episode

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firstmeow · 5 months

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After hearing about some things, now I don’t really want to watch the last two episodes of Last Twilight 💀

#last twilight #last twilight the series #I was waiting until the last episode came out to watch them both together #but now I don’t want to since I’ve heard it completely destroys the story #I knew I was right to wait to add Last Twilight to my favorites list #it was just going too well

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captainchokchok · 10 months

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Trying to remember the name of this animated TV show that my dad watched a lot when I was younger but can't find any trace of it with what I've been googling so far

#might try describing it here and see if anyone knows eventually but for right now just gonna try to figure out myself #im actually looking for two different shows lmao #one because i remember a very specific scene but cant find any trace of #idk if it was part of the same show that I'm looking for or not but i randomly remembered the show #while trying to figure out what show the scene came from and i cant remember it in the slightest #but im like pretty sure its two different shows #the specific scene may have come from Futurama tbh but not 100% sure #i just remember it was the culmination of a few episodes of build up #wish i could just like go into my brain and look through it like a list of stuff lol

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sleepover story: someone on here was criticizing buddie meta because they are delusional and 911 is made for GA and it’s never gonna happen. and so I visited their tumblr. and they were a rpf shipper. Super excited about a certain divorce happening. That’s not even happening.

Okay that is very funny! 😂 I do get that metas can be annoying (and I definitely don't agree with every meta post that crosses my dash; sometimes people really do be reaching), but like. Pot. Kettle.

Also weird how this supposed GA always is super cool with the established lesbian couple and canon gay couple but wouldn't be able to stomach another queer couple. 🤔

It's sleepover weekend again!

#someone on reddit told me that characters who aren't established as queer from the very beginning can be harder for the audience to accept #and i see where they're coming from but i simply don't agree that that's something that would keep the writers from telling whatever story #they want.#tea in the tags: another kind of 'meta' post that really grinds my gears is when someone just lists the things that happened in an episode #it's like... yeah dude we all watched it lmao. that's not meta that's called having eyes and ears #more tea: i'm somewhat invested in whatever is going on with ryan and his wife right now in a way i probably should examine more #but you won't see me doing any speculating on main. in the end i just wish he's happy with his life and that's that.#ask games #anon

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Miss Kit how are you today? Just here to tell you how much i love your stories, checking your blog/ao3 just feels like coming home at this point.

Sending u hugs and good vibes

hey!! thank you so much for sending this :D today was absolutely rotten and much too busy, but it's mostly over now at least so here's to that!!! hopefully tomorrow or the next day i'll have actual time for actual writings, but as it is...mostly planning to charge my phone and watch a bunch of television/senseless movies to destress before the middle of the work week tomorrow...........because yikes

#asks #so very stressed about so many things tbh #not least of which is that my landlord requires me to give 60 day notice of leaving or else i lose my safety deposit #but no one posts listings sixty days out #so if i tell her im gonna go #then i NEED to find a place #because someone will rent my room #but then if i dont tell her and just leave #im losing basically a month's rent :D #so thats like. a huge thing right now #but it's nothing a few episodes of a comfort tv show cant solve (she says hopefully)

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halfbit · 16 days

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i am getting started on productivity for the night but haven't figured out yet if i want to write or art first and there's also the tiny part of my brain that just wants to stare at kabru until it is ok to stop staring at kabru

#i don't talk about fandom stuff much here since i don't really get involved with it #but i do fixate on characters and right now i am circling around him like a wolf #tempted to draw him too but i can never capture his big beautiful eyes properly #i've also been tempted to draw beefcake laios but UHHhh thats for another day and i dont know if i will share that LOL #i finished the manga but i haven't had the energy to watch more of the show so i'm just thinking about the characters on my own and going :#also contemplating if i should draw a pride pfp (unrelated)#basically there is so much to do and it is overwhelming to work through the list #and i keep wanting to add more to it #also need to promo my commissions again more and add those sketches still but trying to figure out how to price them and don't have the #energy to type up explanations for them yet blagh #and i'm trying to balance that “realistically- i need more income coming in” with also “but i can't overwhelm myself with tasks”#<- which is very unambiguously clear that i do that just fine even without working on things for other people #is it obvious that my therapist relocated and i haven't been given a new one yet.#i can therapize myself So Good (actually overthinking and spiraling)#<- but please do not worry this is actually not a bad spiral which is good it is just a “things to do” spiral but it is fortunately #missing the key component of doom and horror and the world ending because i did not accomplish everything right #which is what a bad spiral contains and i've actually been on a pretty good streak avoiding those lately in spite of circumstances!#but if i linger on it it will probably turn into a lie so i will stop doing that #speaking of shows i watched the new episode of kaiju no. 8 today and i am just aggghrrhekrjskfj #i love hoshina so much #and he's been getting a lot of focus in these episodes so im happy #i love the way they animate his fights like!! wow #i need to watch them all on sakugabooru later #but i can't tonight if i want to do things #but i will later because they deserve frame-by-frameing #also i'm going to go pick up two volumes of wind breaker tomorrow i think #unfortunately i ordered them before i learned my hours were getting cut but #i have enough to cover my bills this month and since i'm not buying lunches or dinner for myself anymore because i'm not leaving the house #i'd rather just get them now instead of worrying about someone else buying them if i take too long #and let that be my last personal purchase for awhile

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my angel baby

(alastor w/ angel daughter reader)

[caution!!: EPISODE 8 & 6 SPOILERS. NOT PROOFREAD]

(notes: alastor joins charlie and vaggie in heaven to convince them about the hazbin hotel. angel reader physically resembles a fawn. )

(right now this is considered a oneshot, unless there is a very high demand for a part 2 I'll happily make another one for funzies!)

(PART 2 IS OUT!!!)

(also apologies if alastor's last name isnt actually altruist LMAo I kinda just wrote it assuming so 😭 )

You made it to heaven, lucky you.

Heaven was surely a treat, you lived your days with the upmost happiness, the light of heaven shining on your skin with kisses as if praising you for your goodness and your sacrifices,

all your sacrifices.

You were currently taking the job over for St. Peter at the gates of heaven for just a few minutes to await for any wondering souls to appear, to help guide them while he came back from a lunch break. Normally they wouldn't allow a human soul like yourself with little experience in this kind of task to take charge of such an important job, but you were close to many of the high ranking angels and you have proved your proficiency in tasks that you set your mind to, so you were glad to help those in need.

You stood there reading through the millions of pages looking over all kinds of names, all seemed like names that you wouldn't normally hear back in your time when you died. Some you liked, others didn't exactly pique your interest much, but the advancement of names since the 1930s surely proved how much times have changed and how quickly time seems to pass in heaven.

You wonder if it is in hell too.

'Hell?..' you wondered as you shook your head and sighed, your mind has been on that place lately and you wondered if it was even worth the rent free space in your mind.

You were currently slouched over the book and decided to close it with a glum look on your face, your elbows now resting on the golden podium and your hands cupping your face.

Geez, and you've been thinking a lot about your old man.

What-- no wait-

You shouldn't call him your old man, let alone your dad, not even father, pops-- not even by his damn name.

Even so, as much as you hated it.. you couldn't help but still use his last name sometimes since it's what you were given when you were first taken in.

Your last name?.. why, you're forgetting already?

_____ Altruist is who you a---

"HELLO??"

You snapped out of your thoughts as your head slipped from under your palms, face planting onto the cover of the enormous book. In embarrassment you snapped your head back up and your wings followed suit, spreading open behind you in shock as your eyes searched for the voice that called out to you from below.

You finally darted down to see three oddly shaped figures, your panicked vision soon relaxing to see two girls and a man dressed in red from tip to toe.

How peculiar.

Your eyes only set on the girl at the moment since she was the one waving at you and basically begging for your attention.

"Hello hello! uh.. Down here!" The girl with long locks of pale yellow hair waved, her smile widening when seeing she's caught your attention.

"Ah- yes yes! Hello hello! Welcome to Heaven! May I.. uh-" you scrambled nervously to open the book in the middle of it, "May I have your name please?"

She nodded, also returning a bit of a shy attitude back "Yes of course! My names Charlie Morningstar!"

Just like that you flicked the pages to go to the names that sounded similar to the girl's, mumbling her name under your breath as your finger traced down each name on the list.. to your dismay you couldn't find it.

"You don't seem to be on the list ma'am.. how weird.. does this usually happen with St. Peter?.." you spoke in concern, mumbling the last part to yourself.

The girl then started to explain something about her dad getting her a meeting, your mind a little clouded still trying to find her name until you heard the forbidden name that no one inside the pearly gates ever attempted to say out loud.

"-- maybe try, Lucifer.. Morning...star-"

And just like that you slammed the book closed, no words coming out of your mouth but an exasperated look of shock freezing your face.

"Oh-hoho... that explains so much--" you gave her a small sheepish smile, awkwardly looking off to the side where your eyes couldn't help but drag themselves to the man dressed in red.

"Miss you don't think.. you could've..." your eyes at first looked at the man's waist, his coat lightly shredded at the ends and the stripes of the long suit guided your eyes upwards "-gotten..." up and up and your eyes met his. The red eyes, the ears, the small horns, the horrific aura, and..

Oh dear, you'd recognize that damned smile anywhere.

"--lost..?" the end of your sentence dragged on, taking a long while to finish since all you could think about is how this man is at the front door step of the place he shouldn't even be considered in being let to enter.

Alastor, your father from the living realm. Not connected by blood but by life and connection.

The man where you got your last name from by being taken in and called his daughter.

The red deer demon seemed to recognize you as well, a spark in his devilish eyes proved it so, but it was very brief since he more or less also seemed to relish the look on your face with his smile stretched further up.. however further up it could get.

Charlie seemed concerned at your reaction, waving her hand in front of your face gently as if to get you out of this trance. "Heyyy... are you okay?.." she asked with genuine worry until all of you were focused away from this bizarre moment when a set of three angels befell before you all. The two seraphims and finally-- St. Peter off from his break.

"_____. We can take it from here, we appreciate the help." The highest and oldest seraphim announced your name and her appreciation while gliding down a bit more earlier than the blonde angel you covered for, she and the younger seraphim's forms going from their true to more human-like appearances.

"_____! My dear friend thank you so much for covering for me, always a real helper you!" St. Peter popped beside you as he praised you while gently flying beside you, you looked up at him with a small nervous smile before opening your own wings to flap down from his podium and let him get back on the job.

"It's no problem at all, you know me! Always.. happy to help.." you spoke your last words to him before your wings gently took you down to set yourself beside another one of your friends, Emily! You never talked much to Sera that wasn't in a formal setting but Emily seemed so easy to get along with. She gave you a tight squeeze of a hug while saying hello which eased your nerves a bit more, of course they never fully disappeared with the man who ruined everything before you let out your last breath.. standing right in front of you.

The man that brought you up here in the first place.

The seraphims introduced themselves to the three residents of hell, the deer demon more quiet until finally finding a spot of silence to jump in and introduce himself as well.

"Why hello, a real pleasure meeting you two quite the pleasure! Never thought I'd ever get to see an angel up this close in my life HAHA! The names Alastor!"

The voice, the radio static over it, his name.

It was him, you recognized it as if you listened to him on the radio just yesterday, your own personal hell.

Whatever reaction or words the higher ranked angels said seemed to fizzle out of your brain as they were replaced with the memories of your last moments on earth.

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"Father!" you screamed as you ran up to your childhood home, the home to which you were raised and kept in, your home in which you lived in with your father, Alastor Altruist.

For sometime you had suspected foul play when it came to your father's weird actions when the night came, the tone he spoke through his radio show when announcing several murders happening across and haunting New Orleans. You just didn't want to truly believe that the man that found you, a poor little orphaned baby, and raised you would do such disgusting and diabolical crimes.

You couldn't believe it.. until you finally saw it.

Your legs scrambled and fought each step to become faster, finally reaching the door of your home you slammed it open with a strong kick after jiggling the doorknob didn't work.

You knew the next murder he would commit would happen in your home.. you thanked whatever force that made you disobey him and look through his study since if you didn't you wouldn't know that right now there was blood to be shed.

The door opening and with your kick full of adrenaline and panic it made the door barley cling onto it's hinges. There your father was, on top of a wounded man that seemed to be gurgling and gasping to breathe as the victim attempted to claw at Alastor's grasp. Pieces of glass and wood broken across the entire floor, walls bloodied and worn out, pictures that hung neatly now cracked and lopsided or shattered on the floor.

Whatever happened in here, the victim was sure a fighter in the beginning.

You immediately without hesitation with full force pushed Alastor off the man, pulling the bloodied stranger by his wrist. The victim and you stared for a moment, him mostly realizing that he's being saved by a young girl like you. His lips parted to thank you but you could see Alastor raise his kitchen knife in the air and sprinted toward him to stab him on the back.

With no words left to share or spill you grabbed the stranger by the shoulders and with all your might pushed him and yourself away so that in the end Alastor ended up stabbing nothing but air.

Alastor grunted in frustration, his bloodied smile yet never faltering despite the challenge you now gave him.

The man snapped his head at you, eyes fixated at you before snapping back to his victim and raising his knife up once more, in a haunting motion his steps creeped and creaked towards the injured New Orleans citizen stricken with fear and terror.

Just like that, Alastor slams his knife down with no hesitation. The knife fully in his prey with no inch of the blade uncovered.

Oh-- wait.

That shriek, the sobs, the shaky breathing and the coughs of blood.. that wasn't his victim.

It was you.

His daughter, he stabbed his daughter.

For a moment you could see his crazed smile falter, the humane part of him uncovering itself for a moment, for you.

His little girl was covered in her blood because of him, the little baby he found on that cold rainy day is dying because of him, his bundle of joy that he took years to take care of is leaving him.. and it's all his fault.

He didn't know it was you-- he didn't know you'd be that stupid to sacrifice yourself for some random prick.

He didn't know that in the end, someone as evil as him could have raised someone as selfless as you.

"p..papa..?" you whimpered, your painful coughs of blood spilling out and going down your chin and your neck. "It hurts-- g.. it hurts so much papa.." you cried as the knife in your chest seemed to feel as if it was melting into your skin, becoming one with you. It obviously wasn't but the pain was just that painful.

Alastor's smile faltered and kept trying to stay up, his own set of tears falling down his face and onto your cheeks that were slowly losing life. Regret stabbing his own heart the way he did to yours. He let go of the knife and instead cradled you in his arms, just like how he used to when you would have nightmares as a little girl.

"Shh.. Shh.." he shush you softly as he gently patted your head, moving away any uneven strands of hair he could spot with his hands trembling in regret. "Little one.. don't worry about a thing, papa's here.. " he mumbled, the gentleness replacing what once was pure aggressiveness.

Your eyes slowly started to flutter closed, your pulse slowing down, breathing less profound, your limbs going limp, and your face.. contorting into a peaceful state of slumber.

Alastor watched as you passed in his arms, his faltering smile picking itself up once more to stretch itself across his face with tears pouring out his eyes. This wasn't a smile of joy, it was a smile to hide what he truly felt.. to lie to himself. "My little angel, forgive me please."

Those were his last words to you, words that in the end you couldn't hear.

And that man he tried to kill earlier? He escaped when he was given the chance, Alastor was sure the cops were to invade his home soon.. now there was just one thing left to do before he'd be found once again to pay the consequences.

He took your body to a beautiful forest filled with flower meadows. Alastor knew this was one of your favorite spots as a young girl, why not let you rest here.

Ah but as he was preparing to bury you in your final resting place... that darn deer hunter.

Well, you know the story. Mistaken for a deer, shot, that's the end of Alastor Altruist and his darling daughter, ______ Altruist.

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As you stood there you were awoken from your thoughts with the high angels escorting the princess and her other female companion into the gates of heaven, St. Peter welcoming them humbly with one of heaven's popular songs.

You were frozen, in shock. A chill went down your spine as you felt a foreign energy come closer.

You felt long fingers grapple themselves onto your shoulder which made you dramatically turn towards the hand and away from it.

Your father wanted to talk to you.

Your contrasting colors and appearances made this reunitement even more uncomfortable for you, his demon form seeming to match his disgusting self that he hid from the human world before.

His face was hard to read, especially with that signature smile of his that even in death he would never get rid of.

"Little one, my darling daughter.." he spoke, his voice seemingly trying to seem genuine but the radio filter over it made it feel condescending to you.. as if mocking you.

The look on your face was evident, you missed him so much but hated him with your entire being because of that hidden side he kept for years.

He continued "My little ____... out of all places I never thought I'd see you here. Oh but it's definitely much better than down under my little dove.."

Geez what was he even saying?? What were his intentions..?? You couldn't tell.. after all this time, you couldn't forgive this man, this serial killer, this demon, this.. monster. You couldn't.. not this soon anyways.

You took a deep inhale and exhale before fixing your posture and stance, trying to seem more professional and confident. "Sir, your hosts and companions are ahead of you. You wouldn't want to miss your introduction to a place you'll never see again after this day." Your voice stern and professional, trying your best to be void of emotion.

"Darling.. is that truly a way to greet your dear ol' father?" He spoke, hand stretched out while the other held onto his staff.

"Your friends are waiting on you, don't be late Alastor."

Just like that you turned your heel and gave him the cold shoulder, your wings spread and started flapping. Taking you up and away further into your home.. Alastor watched you as you left him once again, this time by choice.

Ah but he knew, he'd have his darling daughter back soon. His little angel that he cared for will forgive him.. he knew you had to.

With his grin widening even further he walked to catch up to the Princess of hell and her partner into the pearly gates, to see what other thing could entertain him while his daughter snapped back to her senses.

(hello!! thank you so much for reading I had a blast with this. as you can tell. once again thank you so much for reading! hope to see you soon! mwa mwa!)

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