#This is my whole brain rn

[jamtartandsunshine]

It starts small, inconsequential really. But Roy, he knows the signs, this isn't his first rodeo, as Ted would say. That thought makes him curse beneath his breath. Sounds like something fucking Lasso would say. It makes Roy's blood boil a little. He hates that the fucking cowboy coach has gotten into his head. But the point is, Roy notices. It's small but its there. Roy notices the way Jamie tips back the protein shaker, as he stands in the locker room laughing with the boys, but the liquid inside doesn't actually seem to go down. He notices the way Jamie's hands sometimes tremble as he picks up his water bottle in the gym. Having pushed himself harder then any of the rest of them. He notices the way Jamie jots down notes in a little pocket notebook at lunch. Roy doesn't see what's in it, but he'd bet his championship trophy its that stats of whatever Jamie's eating at lunch. Its not new. Everyone has macros to track, protein goals to reach. Carefully controlled carb intakes, but there's a darkness to Jamie's eyes as he scribbles hastily in his little notebook. Roy knows that look, and a part of him wants to look away, pretend he didn't see it, pretend he doesn't know the signs for what they are. He looks around the room, everyone is eating and laughing, they don't see what Roy is seeing. Most of them barely even spare Jamie a glance. Fuck. Fucking fuckity fuck it. It has to be Roy, it can't be anyone fucking else.

[teh-inggris]

I need to chew both of them like a stress toy

[b4kuch1n]

same teacher, different lessons

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[bacchuschucklefuck]

pygmalion and galatea for aroace people

you should tell your friends what I look like, riz gukgak.

[dandelion-roots]

No matter what you do, you just can't shake him off, can you, Chūya?

[lyrics: Florence + the Machine | id in alt]

EDIT: I made a whole ass janky animatic to this song, enjoy!

[dizzybizz]

Might I request a Dan Heng please? :D

can't have shit in belobog

[rip-headphones-users]

You could just leave this here, happy and satisfied as is…

…But thats not how things get to end, right?

Maybe one day they can be happy together. But not like this. Not when Infected can barely remember who he’s with, and not when Lampert is so scared of contracting the parasite himself.

One of these days I’ll do a full summary of how I interpret their dynamic. Both as friends and as a ship. I see them as having a queer-platonic relationship for the most part though.

[gummy-worms-in-my-brain]

"77.kra" just hits different

[cornflakesdoesart]

what if we kissed..and we were both ninjas?😳

[genderkoolaid]

also hmm. im thinking maybe the cis woman resistance to a more expansive understanding of gender marginalization is out of like. the need to tie gendered oppression to womanhood?

idk if thats how i want to phrase it exactly but im thinking of how like every group or safe space for marginalized genders centers womanhood, specifically cis womanhood with trans womanhood (of all kinds) being kind of a "oh yeah you guys too". like "women and nonbinarys" has been justified by "oh its because nonbinary people are oppressed too!" but so are trans men, so are nonbinary people with no connection to womanhood, so it would make so much more sense to just refer to them as "marginalized gender spaces" and remove the central focus on womanhood/femininity

but uh oh! that would mean cis women don't get the biggest claim to gendered oppression! that would mean acknowledging how cis feminism's way of viewing gendered dynamics is inherently flawed! that would mean not just including trans people in cis dynamics but restructuring the way we understand gender! that would mean cis women don't get to position themselves as the authority on gendered oppression, the ones who get to pick and choose who gets included in women's safe spaces and who gets excluded! and we cant have that of course

[mcmuppet]

i need him in a mascara running down my face kinda way

[haunted-xander]

Haven't you heard of flying too close to the sun?

[silusvesuius]

nnnnnnnnnnnnno maa'am

[lepusrufus]

I did say there's actual plot to this AU beside shadowzel bickering didn't I

[barawrah]

been extra miserable about them this past week

[thekittyokat]

you ever just have a lot, a LOT of feelings all at once about a character and not even remotely enough words or brainpower to FORM the words to describe everything you're feeling. so it feels like you may explode. yeah