#YEAH..........

[kayascodelorio]

— The Vampire Lestat

[intermundia]

I can really recommend merlin, it's great show and especially the end is supreme. In the end even the writers shiped them. "and to be fair, we did very genuinely think of the episode as a love story between two men"

hey anon? you sent this back in january, and i was like "neat, noted, not right now," not anticipating that a few months later a mutual of mine would start flooding my dashboard with merthur gifsets, sealing my fate. i decided to see if there was any good fic, and it RUINED MY LIFE. literally. why is there so much?! why is it so good?! the last few months, i have read.... thousands.... of merlin fics on ao3. i have read all my bookmarks multiple times. millions and millions of words. i'm obsessed in a way that reminds me of early days obikin. there is just Something About It, that i haven't resolved in my mind. the tragedy is so perfect and so infuriating and so satisfying. merlin and arthur's dynamic is so complex and fascinating and i can see facets of myself on both sides of it. it drives me insane because it's not fixed and settled; i only started writing obikin because i felt like i came to understand them well enough to write my own, but merthur is still Unsolved to me. i can't escape because i don't yet Understand. @merthurianity is my sideblog where i've tried to channel this energy reblogging infinite pictures of their dumb faces. it's not helping lol doubtless it's actively interfering with my writing obikin. but yes thank you im suffering and i wouldn't give it up for anything

[wis-art]

bunny suit

[rochichan]

that tarzan scene but make it guili

[pluralbyler]

would you think i was hot if i said yeah, mike had a crush on eddie cause he was a nerd that was unapologetic about his love for d&d but will had a crush on steve when he started hanging around more cause he's a dork that protects his own

[p0rchc0ll4ps3]

Thinking about fucked up angst bw Harry and Jean. Headcanons for my au, warning for suicidal thoughts and the like

Anyways they were roommates and their old roommates kicked them out bc they were just way too much so they moved into a super tiny horrible apartment bc it was all they could afford bc Harry refuses to take bribes and he's busy doing his job instead of being a good corrupt cop like the rest of them. So he and Jean are sharing this super small one room apartment with only a gas stove in the corner as a kitchen and inevitably Jean reaches his limit with Harry and can't stand him anymore so he moves out and gets his own apartment and Harry can't handle it

Harry gets all aggressive and upset and fucked up over it and all the 'of course you'd leave, everyone always leaves me'

He tries killing himself one time and it doesn't work and he just starts to get worse and deeper in the hell and completely relapses

And then he just blows Jean off entirely like I don't need you I don't need anyone I'm god fuck you fuck you fuck you

And Jean has massive guilt and super upset about it bc he feels it's his fault for ditching Harry and causing him to spiral this hard but he's done with his bullshit he's had enough he's not going to deal with him anymore

And then Harry goes to Martinaise without Jean and he gets so fucking upset like he tries to get rid of the ledger and tries to quit and tries to kill himself with the car trying to drive himself into the sea

Harry's supposed to have died multiple times. With one time when he got shot, with the hanging, with the car crash, with the amnesia, with the time he gets shot with Kim, with the alcohol poisoning being so severe, but he just doesn't die

And Jean has all these guilt complexes bc yeah he did ditch Harry in the end and he did choose the selfish path of 'I have to survive so I have to leave him behind bc he's dragging me down' and yeah technically it is his fault Harry hung himself and Harry blew him off the case and all that but also Jean is like well actually no

I worked really hard to get you better. And you kept relapsing. And you never got better.

Even though I managed, and I thought you could manage coz you're my brother basically and you're like me, apparently you don't want to live and you're not strong enough and ok fine. If you won't listen then fine. See if I care. Go and fucking rot in hell

I'm done

And now Harry's forgotten him completely and his issues seem to have evaporated and what's more this new partner of his (who Jean really sees as a better cop) seems to be doing a way better job than Jean ever could at helping Harry

So it's gonna take a LOT to mend this whole thing even if Harry does remember. Bc basically Jean and Harry go from being REALLY close and fraternal and like I'll take care of you you'll take of me etc. having both survived horrendous traumatic shit together. To just this huge rift in their relationship bc Harry just cannot for the life of him get better. He cannot unstick himself out of his rut. He just wants to keep tearing himself apart

And Jean feels hugely guilty for leaving him behind but also he just can't stand him anymore AND ALSO it's a form of self harm that he destroy this relationship further, that he completely blow Harry off. Because he knows in his heart of hearts that the closeness and brotherhood they shared before was too good to be true. That he (Jean) will NEVER have anyone who understands him on that level again AND THAT even more so he does not and never will deserve closeness like that

So yeah. Jean is basically 'go fuck yourself. Go kill yourself. See if I care. I don't fucking care. I hate you.' <- said while caring way too fucking much

[tobytost]

I want a game about rebels............. I want a game about rebels

[loveswirl]

source

[modmad]

If you get back into one piece i think youll really really really enjoy what it's at when you catch up.

oh I am Aware don't Worry

[amiracleilluminated]

Shuffle your favorite playlist and post the first five songs that come up. Then copy/paste this ask to your favorite mutuals. 💌💛

treasured mutual. songs please.

i am torn between my rcu playlists and my special adhd gay mix picking my alicealan one, since it had an affect on some ppl 🙈

war by poets of the fall

bring me to life by evanescence (yes, i went there)

no one left to love by roos+berg

all things end by hozier

black and blue by archive

[aromantyczno-liryczna]

Girl help I'm crying to kaze ga fuku machi by luck life again

[aroaessidhe]

Road of the Lost, Nafiza Azad

[kyonshii]

sometimes my bloodshot eyes shoot open as i remember i was behind the naming of tanburu

[starsnores]

Mixed Messages by Tom Cardy

It fits perfectly for Gamkar 👍

Mostly Gamzee

df;laksjafdsa yeah i see it

[lovely-v]

It’s crazy and fucked up that being yourself is actually the solution.

[stafsar]

my muse and I