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This Clara, she’s Dolus’ coworker they both work at the postal office :]

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Palette and roses from Lisa Sheehan's 2020 piece Untitled~ Just wanted to make something cozy ^^

[rysttle]

Part 7 !!!!

AUGH LATE UPDATE BUT HEY ahdbhs

The backgrounds are killing me hdbdjsnsj anyway

Master post link bc i finally made one ahaaa

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our flag means death S2E3: the innkeeper (seagulls on the beach edition)

[transdelgado]

hi i’m really sorry i know some of y’all are struggling w disordered eating which is so hard… and i know that thats how this blog came to be…. but i am no longer putting that part of myself online and would appreciate if ppl didn’t scroll back to find those vent posts…. i don’t wanna delete them because this blog has been an archive of my life since leaving a severely abusive home and i have no memory of a lot of it….. this blog is dead for the most part and its just a place for me to shout to the void…..

just to be clear… this isn’t an ed blog. i’m not gonna say y’all can’t interact but just be mindful please and thank you.

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"The diligent octarians recognize as friends those who look and act like them [...] Incidentelly, in the previous game, Cap'n Cuttlefish was able to investigate the Octarian Army for many years because the octarians thought he was an ally" (source)

THE CUTTLEFISH FAMILY CAN'T ESCAPE THE MIXED ALLEGATIONS!!!!!!!!!

[kikizoshi]

I think I finally figured out how to describe how I like to think of Fyodor's thoughts about Nikolai.

My Fyodor sees Nikolai as a beetle on a chessboard. He doesn't see Nikolai as a piece he can direct, or even part of the game at all. If Nikolai happens to nudge a piece in another direction or even knock one off entirely, that still doesn't really have anything to do with the game--it's not like Fyodor can change or predict Nikolai's actions (well, actually, he might be able to, but he refuses to). So, the only thing he can really do is decide what he'll do in the wake of the beetle (since he also refuses to kill Nikolai).

The reason he doesn't just manipulate or kill Nikolai is that they're friends, and the foundation for their friendship has always been mutual understanding and honouring of free will. If Fyodor were to try to direct Nikolai, he'd be breaking his trust, and therefore forming cracks in the foundation of their friendship. If Fyodor were to kill Nikolai, he'd be killing his friend, which he absolutely will never do (unless either a, Nikolai asks, or b, Fyodor succeeds in his final goal).

A reasonable question would be, then, "Wouldn't Nikolai wanting/trying to kill Fyodor also form pretty massive cracks in their friendship?" And reasonably, it would, but Fyodor doesn't actually put any blame on Nikolai for that, surprisingly. In his mind, if Nikolai manages to kill him, that's Fyodor's own problem. Though, of course, that's all theoretical. I don't think, if Nikolai were actually to try to kill Fyodor, he would just be unaffected. I think he'd be pretty upset. But right now, he doesn't put much weight in it.

I'm still not quite sure how to put this... Fyodor isn't removing Nikolai's agency from the decision, but more like... he views Nikolai's struggle for freedom as something only Nikolai himself can resolve, and only Nikolai can decide what form his 'freedom' will take. Fyodor can listen and give his thoughts, but ultimately, he can only encourage and help Nikolai to fulfill his goal. And since he wants to help, he does what he can for Nikolai (like getting him that role in the DOA).

It's a bit unfortunate, then, when Nikolai decides that he needs to kill Fyodor, because that means Fyodor can't really help him at all (well, other than talk to him about it, but since he's not willing to try to manipulate Nikolai's thoughts, all he can really do is listen and give his reflections). But it's still kinda weird to me. Fyodor can acknowledge that Nikolai's fully capable of killing him, and if he really decided to, there's actually not much Fyodor could do about it while being unwilling to manipulate or kill him. He also thinks Nikolai's probably capable of killing him, capable of overcoming the 'innate moral brainwashing' not to.

But for some reason, Fyodor just... isn't concerned. He isn't upset with Nikolai. He isn't worried Nikolai's going to kill him. I guess it kinda reminds me of Dostoyevsky, and how he never seems very upset with his father, despite, well, how his father was (taken from his letters to his brother). I've found how Dostoyevsky talks about his father similar to how Marmeladov talks about Katerina Ivanovna (obviously, without any sort of romantic element). Though, there is a pretty massive difference there. While Dostoyevsky and Marmeladov refer to these people as having a 'childlike naivety' that keeps them from changing or growing, Fyodor sees Nikolai as a mature, perceptive and capable person who has the potential to change and/or resolve his philosophical problems.

Anyway, there's something about Fyodor that makes him unwilling to negatively judge those close to him, and so he ends up not having much negative feelings towards the thought of Nikolai killing him (only some small sadness). That's my theory, anyway. All I really know is that, for some reason, Fyodor isn't upset or concerned.

And when it comes down to it, if Nikolai kills him, Fyodor finds that to be more of a failing on his part than a fault with Nikolai. He respects that Nikolai will do whatever he thinks he has to to 'oppose God', but at the same time, Fyodor himself isn't willing to die for Nikolai. But if he does die to Nikolai, that would be due to his own lack of planning, and it's not Nikolai's fault that he failed. (That said, this is all theoretical in Fyodor's head. As I said, when it comes down to the act itself, were it to play out, I'm pretty sure Fyodor would be extremely upset that he failed his goal, and a bit scared to die in general. Not sure whether he'd be willing to kill Nikolai then, though.)

[fictionkin-hell]

Hey!! Just wanted to put a liddol notice up;

The sources list has been updated. Due to Tumblr post restrictions, I had to go in and mess around a little bit with how the pinned post was formatted but you shouldn't notice anything too different. We have some additional sources in due to new mods and people getting new interests, plus a system marking sources the mods are particularly interested in at any given time.

Please go take a look! Send in some requests, we're becoming active again. :)

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Ayo finally updated the blog mascot thingy to my self insert hehehe-

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it’s 12am which means!! (throws confetti into the air) finally able to celebrate :D !!!

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Some doodles of uc characters I found in the margins of my notes

[ayakashibackstreet]

En//stars is like Tou//hou, and they're both kinda like Home//stuck

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Whoops, another wave of burnout and health hit while I was in the middle of this but hey I finally finished it. Got my first moss rain and it nearly gave me a panic attack, why the hell was Elliott so chill about it. Green!

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any time i draw characters with an ounce of body fat everyones like “oh i bet they give such warm hugs” like what if they fuck sensual style actually

[bitterpngs]

Hope your weeks going ok! What are your favourite S T S G au's ?

thank you anon <33333 i got some work done on my essay yesterday so i’m happy :] will try to continue today if i can

hmmm favorite AUs?? aahh there are so many good ones. i’ll list some that come to mind.

time loop and time travel aus!!! band aus, canon divergent, modern/no power aus (like hs/college or at some job or other typical settings), something with horror, ummm… angel/devil, vampire/vampire hunter.. fantasy… hmmm. that’s all i can think of rn, tho ik there’s a lot more. i really like aus in general tbh. i think it’s fun placing characters in different kinds of settings and situations :3

[sketchy-tour]

Redrew some of my old daycare attendant doodles as stress relief today