#ahhh this is refreshing haha

[collecting--stardust]

Top-5 liveries in the MotoGP paddock

Okay so disclaimer, I watched motogp before stopping in 2015 because I went to boarding school. Then I continue watching again in 2020 and has been trying to rewatch all the seasons I've missed since. But the thing is, I have shit memories so I don't really remember the seasons pre 2015 too except for 2011 so yeah, not much old liveries in this list, unfortunately :(

1) 2020 SRT Petronas Yamaha

I'm Malaysian so I may be biased but I really love the green petronas colour on the bike. The black leathers look beautiful too and I love seeing that bike on the parc ferme whenever Franky got on the podium so I have really fond memories with this livery. Hmm, I missed this livery so much :(

2) 2013 Yamaha Sepang test

I stumbled upon this picture a few moments back and like WHAT A SEXY LIVERY!!! Love love the grey black livery it makes it looks mysterious and menacing and just.. seriously what a sexy livery.

3) 2021 Sky VR46 Mugello

I know that sky vr46 has multiple tricolor liveries but last year's mugello is my favourite. I love that when the camera is from the side it looks like it's a green bike but when you look at the other side it's red. It's my first time seeing that livery so it's really cool for me haha

4) 1993 Yamaha Marlboro

So I know of this livery's existence because my twin keeps on talking about how sexy the Marlboro livery on the Ferrari during Michael Schumacher's dominance era. So I just randomly search if there's a Marlboro livery bike and voilà! Sure smoking is bad for you but Marlboro does know how to create one hell of a gorgeous livery huh.

5) 2022 Gresini Racing Misano

I love the livery it gives me a really nostalgic feeling and knowing that it's a tribute to Fausto Gresini makes it more heart warming. BUT. One of the reasons why I find it sexy is because of the leathers.

That shade of blue is so pleasant to see I was gaping when I saw it. I love the leathers so much I was low-key disappointed when they went back with the usual grey suit on the next race hmm

Honorary mention:

2022 Mooney VR46 Misano

Okay so this is a stunning livery but the first time I saw it I was like 🤨. I don't know it's just not my style but I do end up liking it in the end (before I realised it's a cursed livery). Um, that aside, it's on this list because just like the Gresini's special livery, I fucking love the leathers.

I love purple so much and so does blue. Especially that shade of purple and blue. The leathers are so beautiful and just NDHDBSJSBHDBDHDH. I love it so much I stare at this picture for quite some time because how wonderful would that be if there's a livery that use the color scheme of the top colours on the racing suit: white, purple, blue. But it doesn't happen, sadly.

[pegging-satan]

I also love Bungo stray dogs so much because now I have a TON of new authors to read, because honestly I was getting kinda fed up with just western and our own regional literature for so long. I feel like they should encourage watching this in literature classes because boy, did it pique my interest. This anime is just a giant book rec

[hunieday]

Momo i-HAKE! Rabbit TV - Part 3: Gentle Closeness

Episode 1 - Episode 2 - Episode 3

Please note that I am not a professional translator and I'm only doing this to share the side materials to those who cannot access them, if you notice any mistakes please let me know nicely. Enjoy!

Drum beats, don,don, don! KA-!

Momo: Sei!

Town People: Haa!

Nanase Riku & Yaotome Gaku: Sei!!

Town People: Haaaa...!!!

Momo: Ahaha! You’re all perfect! Thanks for joining in with the shout!

Nanase Riku: Next, let's raise our fists together!

Yaotome Gaku: Come on, keep it up...! You guys can shout louder...!

Town People: Waaaah...!!

Elderly Board Member: Haha, it's the first time we’re shouting along with the drums. It's so much fun.

High School Boy: It's like shouting at a live concert!

Female Office Worker: ...No way!? A backflip…!?

Little Boy: Wow...! Amazing...!!

Middle-Aged Man: What incredible power... I've seen a lot of performances, but this is completely new! 

Don, don, don, kakakaka...!!!

Town People: Waaaaah...!!!

Momo: Huff, huff…Thank you everyone…!!!

Momo: Our Japanese drum performance was a bit different from usual... How was it?

Town People: Waaaah...!

Middle-Aged Man: It was great!!

Momo: Ahaha! I'm glad...!

Yaotome Gaku: We consulted with the drums teacher and the youth group to add our own flair!

Nanase Riku: We wanted to bring a unique performance since we were invited to perform on this special day, it’s something only we as idols could offer. So we hope you enjoyed it!

Momo: The town's drum performance is so cool! We made sure to respect the tradition while adding our own touch!

Momo: This performance is for all the people who have cherished the Autumn Leaves Festival throughout generations...!

Town People: Waaaah...!

Momo: Thank you so much for letting us participate in the Autumn Leaves Festival...!  We'll be performing with the youth group next! Let's keep the excitement going until the very end!!

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Yuki: Momo of Re:vale, you're the best.

Yuki: I felt not just the quality of your performance, but the respect you showed for the Autumn Leaves Festival.

Yuki: The townspeople must have been delighted to have their beloved festival cherished by you.

Momo: Ehehe! Thanks! I feel like I could grow wings anytime you praise me, Yuki...!

Momo: Maybe I should open a bottle in my secret wine stash to celebrate? The delivery should arrive later.

Yuki: Sounds good. Let's do it.

Momo: Yippee!

Yuki: By the way, I haven’t been to your place in a while, it’s properly tidy.

Momo: I cleaned like my life depended on it! You said you were coming over out of nowhere!

Yuki: I felt like it. It’s been a while since we both had the day off.

Momo: I stuffed all the laundry and luggage into the closet... It was hell.

Yuki: ...Is that considered cleaning? Maybe I should visit more often if it gives you a reason to tidy up.

Momo: Ugh... I'm torn between being happy you’re here and annoyed at having to clean...

Yuki: Half and half?

Momo: ...70/30.

Yuki: And the happiness is 70, right?

Momo: ...I'll just keep visiting your place from now on!

Yuki: I knew it.

Momo: W-Wait! Having Yuki over is extremely special to me...!

Yuki: Hmm. So I'm like your personal Autumn Leaves Festival?

Yuki: Once a year is enough?

Momo: Ahhh, even sulky Yuki is handsome...! ...I mean!

Momo: Any time I spend with you is always special to me!

Yuki: Then that’s fine by me ...Hehe. Momo, you're really good at making me happy.

Momo: That's my number one best skill!

Yuki: You're good at making other people happy as well. You understand what people value and show subtle consideration for them.

Yuki: I thought it was amazing to witness in the Aihake VTR too.

Momo: ...Huh? What’s this about?

Yuki: During the drums practice. You noticed our juniors were overworking themselves and took them outside for a break because you were concerned, right?

Momo: ...No, no! I just wanted to take a little break for myself.

Yuki: But it must’ve also been refreshing for Riku and Gaku themselves. I’m pretty sure they noticed how much you cared for them.

Momo: Ahaha... Yuki sees right through me. I doubt those two noticed, though—

Ding!

Momo: ...Speak of the devil. I got a message!

Yuki: From Riku and Gaku?

Momo: Yeah. We made a group chat for the three of us during Aihake.

Momo: ...Just as you said… They said "Thank you for your consideration!”...

Yuki: Hehe. See?

Momo: Ugh! That’s embarrassing...! I thought I was subtle and cool, but our juniors noticed…!

Yuki: It's not embarrassing, it's cool.

Momo: You think so...?

Yuki: You’re cool even when you’re rough.

Momo: Yuki...! 

Ding-dong

Momo: Ah! Delivery's here! I'll go get it.

Momo: I ordered a ton of organic vegetable dishes! Eat as much as you like!

Yuki: You think I can eat this much?

Momo: It's fine, it’s fine! Let's have an especially fun time tonight!

End of Episode 3.

[soahbee]

HII GIRLS I brought the update! <3 First of all, I want to tell you how much I love you girls, that you always wait for my little stories. 💕 luv u all

So, like every year, there are university events for high school students where they can get a comprehensive picture of the universities. I also participated in this event and together with a couple of my fellow students I helped at the school's stand and handed out flyers, etc. It was damn tiring, but R was also there, so I'm not complaining, bc I could see him all day. Of course, I liked it less that we couldn't talk much, bc he was constantly talking to students or parents. (I would add that mainly women went to him, pff) but I understand that he has a strong charm that enchants people.

But it gave me a very good feeling that I could be around him and help him with his school affairs + when I brought him a coffee, he looked at me so gadly and our hands touched for a moment when he took the cup from me. AHHH

Also, I was able to meet a couple of old friends who also participated in the event representing their own university! :3 So the whole thing took quite a long time, everyone was quite tired and bored, of course nothing was mandatory, so a few students left earlier and I felt that R didn't appreciate this.

He so care about school events and the students' further education, development, etc. were always important to him. But I love and respect this person so much, I couldn't let him down, so I distributed the papers and promoted the school twice as enthusiastically, hoping that it would go well for him.🙆

So at the end I sat down on the chair dead tired but I was satisfied, I hope that our school has piqued the interest of many students and the little artistic souls will enroll with us! Since these "open days" are several days long, luckily we only had to pack a few things, but the rest of the people who stayed with us did that.

Just imagine, here comes the cute part of my story! Because while I was packing my things, R came up to me and pressed a soft drink into my hand and said:

"You haven't been drinking all day, have you? Drink it!"

It's a small thing, but his care made me so happy, so I accepted the refreshment with a smile, which I'm sure I won't throw away and will keep as a memory haha

After that, when there weren't many people around, I thought I'd talk to him a little before I left and I told him that I think many students were interested in our university today and I hope He and our school will do well on the other days as well. (unfortunately, I was only present on this day) I saw that he was also tired, but he could still smile at me so kindly that it made my stomach tingle. After that he said:

"Yes, I hope so too, I saw the potential in many students and I would be happy if I could give them something with my classes"

do you know what I said right away??

"Because of your classes, I would enroll at the university a second time"

Honestly, it just slipped out of my mouth and I was surprised, I hoped he wouldn't take it as a flirt, because I didn't mean it that way, but then I calmed down when he just grinned at me. AND!!! now comes his sentence, after which I screamed inside:

"You're sweet, thank you, it's time to go, can I take you home?"

He asked so naturally, while picking up his things, that I couldn't even react properly, I just said that if it wasn't a problem for him, I would thank him.. SO GIRLS THAT'S HOW IT HAPPENED!!! I sat in his car and I felt like a "passenger princess".

My heart was honestly racing the whole way, seeing him driving, sitting in his car, smelling his scent everywhere…it was just..I don't know, it was magical. We had such good conversations the whole way and I really feel that we have become good friends, he understands me, supports me and always makes me laugh. And now he officially knows exactly where I live (I won!!!) I felt special at that moment, because after all, he was taking me home and not others! When we arrived, I gratefully thanked him for bringing me and wished him a nice evening, but before I got out, his last words to me were:

"Thank you for being there with me all today and helping me! You did a good job. I'll see you next week! Good night"

So I barely slept all night, just tossing and turning and grinning like an idiot that he complimented me and dealt with me.

[starhvney]

honestly ik people get annoyed when fics have a lot of-all the characters fall in love with the main character/self insert, even if it isn’t a fic and is just canon in the series. but i kind of see reader as her own character because of how much personality she has (/pos! its so refreshing) and honestly. i love her. i wouldn’t mind if all the characters DID develop a crush or even fall in love with her. i was debating whether or not to rewatch the pdh series but i started reading your fic series instead and i love it sm. the way you write the characters and the relationships between all of them (not just reader’s interactions!!). your series is such a breath of fresh air. sorry for the ramble lmao idk if any of this is coherent. tldr reader x reader when?

ahhh thank you!!! this is so relieving to hear for me! i also get annoyed in docs or shows when somehow the main character gets literally everyone to fall for them? like i see the appeal but it’s very unrealistic haha! i tried just hinting at possible attraction with some of the characters, so i’m glad it’s not too much or cringe ahhh this is literally so relieving! i’m so glad you like it, thank you!!! :)

lmaoo also trying to rewatch the series and not doing it is so real. i finally got to season two and had to pause and walk away several times ahahahgfghag

[suddencolds]

my favorite writing reflection buddy, thank you so much for your help with putting that list together 🥰 truly appreciate all the chances we’ve had to be thoughtful about the process together and all your insight over the years! Ok without further adieu..

💘🤧💦🌞 (i’m limiting myself to 4 but i would ask you everything)

AHHH THANK YOU FOR ASKING!!! I was holding back on sending you the whole list truly KFAJKJFKH

Thank you for all the writing convos we've had after all these years!! I've always seen myself in your appreciation of literary fiction/prose and your thoughtfulness when it comes to writing process :') I feel like I've learned so much from you!!

Okay! Onto answers:

💘 - What are some of your favorite things you’ve written and why?

I've thought about this a lot :')

Fanfic:

Bad Timing - an allergy fic (crazy for me, I know), ft. two characters I've never written together ever again? haha. I particularly like the last scene here; I think the caretaking I write is usually more tender. Rosaria's response is neither tender nor sadistic—just detached :') The novelty of that was refreshing to me.

Pretense, pt 1 and pt 2 - This one did not get as great of a reception at the time of posting, I think because part 1 is a little boring LOL. I don't have much to say, except that it's lighthearted and fluffy!

Untrustworthy - Diluc at the scene of the crime again 😭 This was a commission for someone, and it's also one of the few fics I've cross-posted to ao3. Honestly, I write a lot of stuff like this (i.e. similar in tone & character dynamic), but within the niche of what I'm most familiar with, I especially like this piece in terms of execution.

Original:

Fool Me Twice, Part 3 - quite possibly one of my favorite things I've written of Yves and Vincent, ever (and it came so early on in the series, too!) There's a certain character moment in this one (iykyk) that I'm particularly proud of :) And stylistically (as in... prose), I think I'm happy with it too.

Foreign Home - for a oneshot, this is long, but I do like the heart-to-heart I wrote at the end of it.

The Worst Timing, part 1 - this got me through the slog (jk, it was fun when it was going well LOL) of writing the 4 subsequent parts. The entire TWT mini-series is 28k words long 😭 Part 1 I think is a solid opener; I honestly have not worked up the courage to reread much of the rest.

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🤧 - What’s your process for writing spellings?

I'm embarrassed to say that I've written soooo much snzfic in my life 95% of the time spellings are just something I write something from memory. 😭 That said, I sometimes reread other people's snzfics and with special attention paid to their spellings to expand like, my mental repository of consonant placings & pairings.

When I'm writing 2 different characters, I usually have to explicitly think through how their spellings might differ from each other before I can write them! I can suspend my disbelief if two characters from two different fandoms have similar spellings/snz archetypes, because I'll never write them in the same fic 😭 But if the characters exist in the same universe, in my head, their spellings have to have some level of distinctness/non-overlap.

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💦 - Are your favorite snz tropes to read also your favorite ones to write? Elaborate if you want!

AHH I love this question!! Thank you!!!

I think the most memorable snzfic I've consumed has been snzfic that has surprised me, either in terms of tropes or execution. When I'm reading original fic or fanfic for characters I'm not familiar with, I like reading things that feel very different from my own work—sharper, bolder in execution, unexpected in terms of direction, etc. :')

I think I have a decent sense of what I am already familiar with writing. I like seeing other people operate outside of that niche... so long as there's still some overlap with what I personally find hot. (So in that sense, it doesn't align exactly!)

That said! There are some tropes which I write frequently which are soooo hot to me that I could see them written 90580923 ways and not tire of them (eg caretaker catching the sick character's cold?? sign me up please!) 😭😭 I also think I don't care as much for trope novelty/new execution if I already really like the characters.

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🌞 - Do you need a specific environment to write? Like music, a certain time of day, a certain type of place?

The one non-negotiable aspect for me is that it needs to be very quiet :') I absolutely can't write with music on (despite being a huge music enjoyer + songwriter). I'm not good at tuning out 'unimportant' audio stimuli, so I'd rather not have music/sound fight with writing for my attention.

Aside from that! I think I do most of my writing in my room btwn like, 7pm-12am (in part because I'm a bit of a night owl, and in part because the house tends to be quieter during those hours).

[ Question List ]

[saerins]

I read 'museru kurai no ai wo ageru' bcz of you and it was sooo 😭 😭

I CAN'T TELL HOW MUCH I LOVED THAT MANGA!!!! Z(I love how you used some references in priceless)

I usually don't read romance stuff but that was 🤌

Can you recommendmsome more?

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omg you actually went to read it !! hehe the male lead was soooo refreshing haha (or maybe i haven’t read that many manga but !!) and i love how he is toward the second male lead :’) that open admiration 😭 + slight jealousy hehehe and yeah i saw those panels of him on stage and i just thought “eita” lmao :’)

ahhh omg i haven’t been reading lately so here’s a few romance ones that i’ve read before :)

megane, tokidoki, yankee-kun — i read this last time because the guy is so cute lmao & it’s been so long since i read it but he’s kinda a delinquent and very blunt and initially it’s rocky but you’ll see if you read it !!

futarijime romantic — i just started reading so i can’t say much but i started reading because the panels looked nice :’) and it’s basically about this girl who wants the ideal romance and meets with the guy who took her first kiss way back then haha

unmei no hito ni deau hanashi — this one !! i’ve posted about this before so idk if you’ve seen it but the male lead (iori) makes me squeal sooo much :’) i love him !!! this was the manga that made me wanna read more romance heh <3

i have a lotttt more in my tbr hahaha and most of those are manhua/manhwa :’) but yeah anywayyyy these are what i could remember off the top of my head >_<

[melien]

I just had an embarrassing interaction with someone that I really want to get along with and then Doris's advice she gave Milo popped into my head. That person has moved on to other things and probably isn't even thinking of it! Thank you for writing an awesome character like her, who is honestly helping me deal with my social anxiety right now! 😊

Ahhhh this is so sweet, my heart is so full right now😭😭 Yeah I would say I agree with Doris here, this definitely can be helpful to remember, people have a short-term memory most of the time. But I also see Milo's perspective, some people could indeed get a certain impression of us from a small interaction. I guess it depends, but I do believe most of the time people are focused on themselves and their own actions (probably how not to embarrass themselves haha). The hard part is telling this to our brains. I was thinking how social anxiety doesn't just come out of nowhere, it usually comes from a string of prior bad experiences and all the silly societal norms imposed on us that center around playing some fake part and not fully being yourself, so it's definitely quite hard to put yourself out there repeatedly. So I'm proud of you and your little steps! Man I love rambling about human psychology, it's one of my special interests haha and I definitely try to put those things and different perspectives to reflect on into my stories too.

But yeah, I love Doris a lot, she's the best and so mature for her age! (I think she's like 17-18 in the story and Milo is about 4-5 years older?) It's really refreshing for me that the two siblings with completely opposite personalities are trying to support each other as well as they can. Doris usually speaks from her experience as an extroverted non-overthinker, and maybe it doesn't fully help Milo immediately to internalise it and apply it to themselves, but it does make it a bit easier to see that their sister is in their corner and is trying to be so understanding and helpful. It's really valuable to have someone who is validating our feelings and not acting annoyed at our anxious brain. Ahhh I love these two🥹

[just-before-dawn]

did i ever talk about my Cats RCCL Cast 14 experience on here? i dont remember

anyway so flashback to september 2023, i went on the oasis of the seas cruiseline for the second time and ofc i watched cats ALL three times it showed on that boat (along with dragging my family along to see it with me all three times hehe)

cats rccl cast 12 made me REALLY get back into cats so me going again made my heart fucking soar!! now i knew everything!

first night, we lined up early so we could snatch the front row and i was dead center (bc at this point my entire family knows that im actually insane about this show) and not only did i tear the fuck up during the overture, SO MANY MOMENTS happened while watching!!

first show: during naming of cats, gus and i were literally having a full on staring contest. dude was UP CLOSE to my face and my fixating ass was mouthing the poem with him. my family was fucking laughing at the whole interaction. (during this, i think tantomile was scaring my older brother lmao)

the entire first show was so great, i was literally having the time of my life and trying not to tear up. its so refreshing to see the jellicle ball in full and to see the entire mr mistoffelees dance. daniel chesnut is such an amazing misto. he encapsulates that cat so well, his dancing is amazing!!

i think it was during moments of happiness or something, rumpleteazer and mungojerrie snuck up on me. rumple rubbed her head against my knee i was fr like "AHHHH" in my head.

anyway, the first show was so amazing i was literally starstruck i did not want to leave that theater 😭 got noticed by misto so many times and had an overall blast. i was shaking walking out of the room

second show, we just came back from dinner so we didn't get to snatch seats and had to sit in the balcony seats but it was funny to see misto blind everyone with the bright light during skimbleshanks when they made the train.

THE THIRD SHOW HOWEVER!!

this time we sat front house left. and OH MY GOD THE INTERACTIONS DURING THIS SHOW. AGAIN DURING NAMING OF CATS. okay so this time, misto and i were having a staring contest, mouthing the poem to each other, then suddenly BOMBALURINA POPS OUT OF FREAKING NOWHERE!!! AND SHE'S UP AND CLOSE TO ME! SHE'S IN MY FACE. GIRL WAS LIKE 3CM AWAY FROM ME, ONE FOOT ON THE CHAIR. MY HEART WAS RACING. during this, misto was like 😳 to my cousins as they watched this whole thing happen.

during moments of happiness, mungojerrie would literally not break eye contact with my cousin, it was so fucking funny. THE WHOLE NUMBER he was staring at her. mungojerrie also like fnaf 2 jumped at us during the end of the show.

DURING MR MISTOFFELEES!! after misto made old deut appear again and he was standing at the edge of the stage waiting for tugger to show old deut who saved him, he made a lil heart shape at us and i fucking died. i deceased.

he did so again a second time!! during bows and tugger noticed us as well going like "sir who tf are you making a heart at" and haha guilty :3c

but as misto left the stage, he gave us a high five and AHHH wanted to scream and die again. we literally had the most fun that night and i miss it so much 😭😭

im in such show withdrawal right now. i miss this show so much. bootlegs and the 1998 recording isnt enough, PUT ME BACK ON THAT SHIP!!

[vintage-brass-tc]

Just a little TC update!

I’m sorry I haven’t posted in a while!! I’ve just been focusing on my studies and whatnot, and for a while I have been falling out of my feelings, because I felt as if M was distancing himself from me a TON, based on his demeanor, lack of verbal and nonverbal communication between us, and because of the fact that I’m not his first pick for everything anymore. U-wise, I just thought, since I was growing less passionate for M, I’d use this opportunity to maybe pull myself together and get over my feelings for both of them in one sweep.

….Recently, though, I think my feelings been picking up just a liiiittle more. It’s funny what great interactions can do to you <3

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With M, ever since maybe November or so, I’ve noticed that M had been giving me way less attention than he usually would (or at least, as much as I thought he’d give me in a given moment), and it brought me into total mental disarray.

I thought he hated me, I thought he caught onto my feelings or something and thought I was creepy, I thought he didn’t think I was good enough for him anymore— not as much as I used to be as a tuba player— and it drove me insane. I was so insecure and with any moment he didn’t look at me or pay attention to me during a class or conversation, I was sent into spiral after spiral of panicking. You know the drill, or maybe you don’t! But these feelings were very real to me and they were not fun at all.

With U, things have been alright! It seems like he believes I’m reliable enough to lead my section in jazz band, and knows that I can count rhythms and hold myself up to a high enough standard to play my bass trombone decently in tune (though my muscle memory of the positions aren’t perfect yet, as I’m still learning)… but my improv could definitely use some work. We both know that. He’s still fairly gentle with me about it though!

We had a band trip recently, and U had been giving me the cold shoulder for a good deal of it, making me think I had done something to offend him. Just as my fears about M were brewing, I felt the ones about U doing the same, and was worried I had somehow unknowingly ruined my relationship with both of them, all based on receiving not as much attention from them as I once did.

I was certain I was doomed, but just last week, I had two of the most genuine and uplifting conversations with them, and my heart is full just thinking about them.

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First off, U.

He and I had the most casual and upbeat conversation on Wednesday, and he looked at me, listened to me, included me, laughed, and smiled so much!! AHHH it was so much fun!!! He’s seriously such a joy to talk to and I love his boisterous, albeit serious sense of humor. He curses so much when he’s comfortable, and he called the whole class “little bitches” too, haha. ❤️ Having this talk with him was so refreshing because it revealed to me that he cared about what I had to say, and the fact he was looking at ME most of the time and smiled so much when I’d laugh just made me feel so appreciated.

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And on Friday, with M, we had a heart-to-heart, and it went better than anything I’d ever imagined it could be. It seriously warmed my heart.

So, for some background, I had a sectional with M on Tuesday, and the whole time it seemed like he was just being passive-aggressive with me (though I later learned it was all in my head): M wouldn’t look me in the eye at all, didn’t include me or look at me when he was speaking to the girls in the room (4 people in a room of 18… so it wasn’t hard to just *glance* and maybe nod), until I made an exasperated comment to myself about being chopped liver because he wasn’t listening to my input… which he responded to with a certain look on his face, maybe frustrated, maybe disdained, but he didn’t drag it out any further because he moved onto the next topic pretty quick.

But it didn’t go the best at certain points, and because I focused on these points so much I let all the better moments slip from my mind, and I was crying the whole way home. All of the insecurities, worries, and hurt I felt for the past few months were pouring out of me, and I decided that I would finally make a move to resolve it after months of consideration, writing him an email that I needed to talk with him. He responded so enthusiastically, I almost felt bad :( and as I thought he would, he responded super quickly with a date and time, which would be on Friday since he was out the other two days, so there I was, left to wait.

But once the day came, as I suspected, I really regretted writing that email because the stress had always come in waves, so by that time I was kind of over it. But I knew the talk had to happen, so I hoped he would remember the appointment (because he’s forgotten three of them before) and collected my thoughts in my Notes app.

And once the when he walked into the practice room I was in… I was relieved for one moment, that he actually remembered. He was in a rush like he had been looking for me, and once he saw me, he looked relieved as well. But then the next second, when he asked me “What’s the matter?” and leaned against the table beside him, I was paralyzed, cocking my head back and forth between him and my phone, totally speechless for a good few seconds. Wanting to make it end, I told him that I had been gathering all of my thoughts on my phone, so I could make sure I was saying the right things.

Then I poured out my feelings. About the tension I felt between us. About me feeling like I was invisible around him, like he didn’t care about me anymore because he didn’t talk to me or look at me as often, about my fear that he didn’t realize just how much I respected him and how much I reflected that through my constant effort in class every day, looking up and acknowledging him when he spoke because I cared about what he had to say. At this point, there were tears streaming down my face, but I was fighting hard to keep my voice steady. I then told him that I thought I had offended him…so I asked, “Did I ever offend you in any way?”

This whole time, M was staring at me with his dark, dark brown eyes, listening intently to what I had to say. It was a lot..but he went around the table, maybe pacing a little before leaning on it and closing his eyes, looking down before admitting his own faults, his flaws that he knew were prominent and needed to work on, like not giving people enough credit for the good things and instead always focusing on the bad.

And not looking people in the eyes in fear of making them nervous or overwhelmed. And then, in response to my comment about him ignoring me and not respecting me back with his actions, and about me being afraid of there being any tension between us, he said this.

“[R]…. You’re a doll. You’re a dear. You’re a sweetie. You are the sweetest kid I’ve ever known. There has never been anything between us, ever.”

And he gave me the sweetest look in the entire world while I looked up at him with the saddest eyes. My heart burst with warmth and butterflies hearing him tell me this, and then he went on about how one of his favorite parts of his day was seeing me every day, so committed and engaged in his class.

He said, regardless of his action of making another tuba the lead tuba in our class, and choosing them for the orchestra, he truly did love my sound so much more…and it was a really, really crushing decision. (I then made an uneasy expression and assured him that I wasn’t here to talk about THAT, because I know why he made the decision— the other tuba totally deserved it for their hard work—though I did nod gratefully at his statement… and it made me feel so much better about my worth and all that.)

After all of this was said, he looked at me with a gentle, sympathetic smile, saying that he could tell, based on the tears, that I was probably holding this in for a really long time.

Looking at the floor and chuckling, I admitted that I was holding it in for a WHILE, because I didn’t want to bother him again with my problems. He immediately piped up and told me “You are *never* bothering me. Ever. Don’t do that— come talk to me right away if you ever start having that feeling again.”

Then he relayed that he absolutely loved having me around…and we only had one more year left together. He said this with a wistful look in his eye, like he was already missing me. I frowned: did he feel the same pain about me leaving as I did? Will he miss me as much as I will miss him?

He asked me if this was all I wanted to talk about, and I was like “Yeah, pretty much…” before I started sniffling. Then he smiled softly, almost adoringly, and asked with a chuckle, “Can I have a hug?” “Yes…” I began to smile and stood up weakly, and fell into his extended arms. His build felt more rigid than it did last time I hugged him. We embraced each other for a second or two, and I thanked him for everything. He said “Of course!!”

Then he pulled away, turned to walk out the door, then stopped. He turned towards me again, then he spoke,

“You are worth the whole world.”

My heart soared at his sentiment. All I could muster out in response was a shaky, quiet, “you too…” and we smiled at each other. I thanked him one more time, he returned it, then he walked out. I stared after him, feeling so, so relieved and so, so loved.

He thinks the world of me. ❤️

[akamikazae]

Sorry in advance for asking all these things 😭 but first up, your oc is cool! She’s so stylish as heck! She gives me that 80s funky/chill vibe and her hair is flawless! And I adore for bond with sasuke so much, Ahh. Would it be ok to ask about their lore together? How did they meet and bond together like mother and son? (And kakashi too! He’s papa).

Plus, I also appreciate all the Sasuke positivity so much. From your drawings to random posts. It’s so refreshing and uplifting for me. There’s to much negativity for the poor kid these days. And I greatly respect the “my son!” Feeling to for sasuke. I to get that parent vibe haha (sasuke is little guy no matter what, must squish respectfully).

And for atla, if your oc and characters you like. What benders would they be? And if they are besties with any of the Alta crew?

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P.s; i do Like seeing the snake positivity! It’s wonderful seeing that. Poor things also get bad rap as well. (I like seeing hognoses, they are cute!! Myself I wish I had one and tarantulas😭) ANYWAYS, TY FOR POSITIVE CONTENT SO MUCH. Be well and have a great day/night! Sorry again for the long ask!

Never ever be sorry for sending an ask! I love love getting them and getting to chat w lovely pals like you! So thank you for popping over to send me an ask ❤︎₊ ⊹  You are always welcome to ask about my lil fam! I will try to keep it short and sweet lol ₊⊹ Ahhh thank you so much for saying so, Akami is very very dear to me! I’m glad u think she’s got a bit of a retro vibe. I always see her fitting in well w that 90s-ish style from the 80s to the 00’s ! (I actually have a 90's au for them too)

Shisui was one of Akami's first childhood friends and later her first lil love. She goes w Shisui to meet Sasuke when she’s 13yr, he’s only a few weeks old but the second she holds him and his chubby baby hand swipes her chin she falls in love. Bc of her relationship with Shisui Akami spends more and more time around Sasuke— he’d be tagging along after the big kids, but she always made time for him. Even if it was 20 extra minutes before a mission or after a long day of training, she’d hide her injuries and play with him instead. She’s one of many Anbu called to the scene the night of the Uchiha massacre. The second she found him all alone she knew she was taking him home and she quit Anbu that night.  Akami never felt heard or seen as a child so she tries her best to make sure that Sasuke has a voice. She didn’t intend to take on a parental role; it just happened over the years. She’s always open about his family and ready to listen when he confides in her, she teaches him every single uchiha jutsu she knows (and eventually kakashi does too) so Sasuke can still feel connected to his Clan. She gets him through his nightmares and defends him tooth and nail, she teaches him how to cook and use a sword. No matter what, he's always gonna be her baby and she’ll be his Kami-chan. There is nothing she wouldn’t do for him.  Akami and Kakashi knew each other as kids, they did not get along until their traumas sort of forced them to see eye to eye and rely on each other.  But it wasn’t a friendship until their early-mid teens, even then it always felt like more. Shortly after she takes in Sasuke they start a tumultuous FWB only to realize they very obviously love each other. Sasuke approves bc Kakashi makes Akami happy and is always there for her (for better or worse) and Kakashi and Sasuke start to have a very meaningful connection well before he becomes his sensei.  Yes parent squad ! Sasuke deserves the world and I love that you love him too!!<3 In ATLA Akami would be a water bender, she’s a descendant of the Yuki clan so it just seems fitting for her heritage! Tho I’d be wary of her healing abilities, she’s more of a fighter and I would not put it past her to learn how to blood bend! (She was Anbu Root for a reason💀)  Sasuke is fire bb! Kakashi I go back and forth on but I think he would be fire too .I love love love love ATLA and have tried to make an au for her but I find it hard to imagine Akami interacting w the gang (They all just feel so young lol- though she’d probably like Suki and Zuko best) I think that she would get along really well with Piandao! June, Jet and Iroh too. She’d def feel some sort of kinship for Azula (ruthless + manipulative never taught to love, w similar mommy and daddy issues!🤝lol) Yes Yes! I love snakes, they are so beautiful !! When I made my oc I really wanted to have her be ostracized because of her father and resemblance so it’s so fun to play w both the beauty and monstrous qualities for her. 🐍Akami and her summons Ryū are based off of mangrove pit vipers and Copper bellied water snakes ! Thank you again for the ask! I could blab about them all day if my super long winded response wasn’t proof lol 💕💕Take care my dear and have lovely day and or night :)

[loverofthewindgod]

A Meal Fit for a God

Warning: (18+) Lord Fujin is hungry for something irresistibly delicious, but the thing is...it's not food 😏😏😏

"Ughhh….."

Confined in his chambers in the middle of the night, Fujin released a long sigh of annoyance and relief as he put a halt to his reading. Months of strenuous deity duties have caught up to him and he sure as hell deserved these few moments of peace. 

"Knock knock?" 

Delighted to hear the all too familiar voice he longed to hear again, Fujin turned around to be welcomed by his beloved Sienna, making her way inside wearing a navy blue nightgown with her hair tied up in a slightly messy bun, looking more beautiful than the midnight sky itself. She placed a tray of fresh wildberry tea and mango slices on the table as she greeted her lover with a kiss.

"The elder gods got you working late nights again huh?" Sienna teased, leaning back comfortably against the table.

Fujin scoffed with a soft smile. "A god's work is never done. What are you doing up so late sweetheart?"

"I noticed your lights were still on so I wanted to check up on you, and brought a little something. It's not a lot, but something." 

"Something from you is always everything. Thank you, my flower". Fujin warmly smiled as he took a sip of the tea. The taste was floral, mellow and soothing for the soul. It felt like he was relaxing in a flower field accompanied by butterflies and birds. He stared quietly at the cup for a moment before looking back at Sienna.  

"What is it? Does it taste good?" 

"It tastes wonderful. It's just that there's something I've been longing to taste again. Something more…succulent." Fujin's tone got a bit deeper and much much sexier, making Sienna blush and brush hair behind her ear to play it cool.

"Really? Well what is it my lord has been craving as of late?" 

Grasping Sienna by the waist, Fujin gently pulled her in front of his gentle, yet lust filled gaze. 

"Oh…"

Sienna couldn't keep the smile from creeping across her face. It was so arousing he way he glanced her body up and down, licking his lips while caressing her hips. His mouth watered for her the second she entered the room.

"Mmm….haaa…haaa..." Sienna melted at the wind god's touch, kisses were placed upon her cleavage as his hands dove beneath her nightgown to fondle her smooth bare skin. She leaned against the table until she was mounted on top and laid flat on her back,  legs spread wide open. Fujin frenched her inner thighs, sopping up the trails of her arousal until he stopped to gaze upon her moist pussy. The very sight pushed him past his very limit and it was time to feast.

"Itadakimasu…."

He wasted no time helping himself, greedily licking and sucking her lip. His tongue penetrated deep inside, swirling around to get a good mouthful of her delectable nectar. She tasted of pure honey and vanilla, such a natural flavor that he couldn't get enough of and he wanted more of his honeysuckle. 

"Nghhhh! Ahhhh!! F-Fujin!!" The sensation drove Sienna crazy. She tugged at his hair, her legs nearly crushing his head as she squirmed about. Fujin kicked back his chair, lifted her legs up and held her down as he picked up the pace, too immersed in his indulgence. 

"Mmm, you taste sooo good, I don't wanna stop…" He slurped and gulped her down crazily, like an animal that hasn't had water for days and comes across a refreshing river. 

"Haaa…haaa..fuck baby I'm gonna- nghhh! I'm g-gonna- AHHH! I'M CUMMMING! I'M CUMMING FUUUUCK!!" The shaolin beauty exploded. Fujin made sure to keep her hips still so he could swallow every last bit of her succulent release. Once a dazed, breathless Sienna came down from her high, Fujin towered over her with a smug look on his face. 

"Just as I remember…" He chuckled before tenderly kissing her. 

"Haaa…haha, would my lord care for a second helping?" Sienna teased, wrapping her legs around Fujin's waist. She was down, but not out…yet.

With an accepting smirk, Fujin carried his delectable damsel off the table and moved the feast over to his bed. The man has sampled many delicacies for many years, but Sienna was definitely a meal best fit for the God of Wind. 

[maxtermind]

Girl don’t even think about apologizing for your posting times (I legit had no clue you even had a schedule)

I’ll be refreshing regardless tbh just to read your replies to other asks also cuz I’m literally bored out of my mind on summer break (even tho I have things to get done 😳)

Love seeing the random thoughts of fellow readers and the diff ways we express our love for you and your writing 😂

I realized I might have been a bit heavy on the cursing in my last ask so sorry if it was a lot idk if honestly wasn’t much but I don’t want you misunderstanding my excitement as negative I legit use the word shit to refer to everything😀 I’m from nyc I can’t help it 😜

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AHHH I NEVER FOLLOW THE SCHEDULE SO ITS NO SURPRISE THAT YOU DIDNT KNOW😭😭

omg I'm so sorry to hear you're bored love, the daily posting week might have been made SPECIFICALLY for you haha

you're just like me fr😓 I looove reading every comment and ask I get to get the perspective of everyone kind enough to read instead of doing stuff I should work on😭

I don't??? remember excessive cursing. please it's totally fine dw!!!! (on an entirely different note, even my cousins would straightaway point at me if asked who curses the most LOL)

apologies for the late answer I was out all day yesterday </3

[gojonanami]

hey gorgeous!!! i’ve missed so many of your recent posts 😫😫 got caught up with uni stuff

i’ll catch up this weekend (hopefully) to the satosugu x reader ( tnx for tagging me btw 🥹🥹) and the new prof geto extra credit — i’m so excited, your writing is so refreshing to read

how are you doing? how’s the new job? hope you’re getting some rest, bb 🖤

hi babe!! completely understandable 💕 real life comes first haha - I’ve been caught up at work so I completely get it. ahhh I hope you got to read / enjoy both — you’re very sweet 💕🫣

I’m doing well! Just tired haha and very busy — the new job is great! Everyone is super nice and I have a ton of work (which has been great if not tiring) I hope you’re doing well too 💕🥹

[donuts4evry1]

First off Jellyfish mural outside

AHHH THIS IS GREAT!! ESPECIALLY THE MURAL!!!! It's so prettyyyy

Alright it's now the first edition of: Donut reviews aquariums! I'm not sure what aquarium this is but my over all impression is... it's very nice :) and well kept. The jellies look healthy and happy ^-^

Now for the bullets:

I'm still pretty hit-or-miss with my jellyfish identification but it looks like there's Atlantic and Pacific Sea nettles, and maaaybe Amakusa Jellyfish (or perhaps another morph of Atlantic sea nettle/Bay Nettle, I still have trouble differentiating between the species). Anyways this has to be the most diversity I've ever seen in sea nettles- most only carry one or two species :>

A little confused as to why the "Moon jellyfish" card is above a tank that's clearly for jellyfish that are... not moon jellyfish. What? ??? I was hoping to get some clarification ;~;;;

Also, the difference in stripes for what I'm guessing is an atlantic nettle is AMAZING. Some are thicker than others and this is a real treat for the eyes. Can't wait to see them for myself in real life, one day

AUGHH I LOVE UPSIDE DOWN JELLYFISH. When I saw them for the first time at the Ripley's Aquarium, I pretty much acted the same as I did when I first found an Emmet Cosplayer at a Con (which was uhm. trip over myself and fall onto the ground haha). Looks like this tank is getting plenty of light, though Ripley's Aquarium had an open space on the top (probably to control the temperature or something? Idk). The tank looks flat too, instead of round. Like a hole in the wall ^-^. I think its quite nice though, we should really get an upside down jelly cam one of these days, I'm tired of moon jellies and sea nettles

It might just be the lighting but there are not that many zooxanthellae tags on the jellies... I wonder why? Are these Cassiopea ornata? I typically don't see them with as many tags as I do with C. xamachana

(for reference, here is the C. xamachana featured at the Ripley's aquarium :>!)

You might notice there's a slight variation in tags too- some more "stringy" and the one on the front that actually look like "tags," haha.

For once the moon jelly exhibit isn't so flashy, haha :). I think it's quite refreshing (! Kind of weird how all the other jellies are put into circle kreisel tanks while the moon jellies are in a discrete rectangle kreisel tank. Haha.

Anyways yeah!! I give these jellyfish exhibits an 8/10. They're pretty solid and have fairly good diversity. They also did a good job of choosing pretty looking jellyfish. And most importantly, it looks like the jellies are in pretty good health ^-^!! Always a bonus :>

[rars]

eating fruit with a pit is like ahhh yum this is so tasty and refreshing :) yummy haha *accidentally bites into the pit and dies instantly*