As Above, So Below - Chapter 4: Malum Malus
Previous Chapter: Chapter 3 - Crucible
Summary: The past haunts you, tempts you, but now you need to come to terms with it before it ruins your chances to save Hawkins from the Darkness.
Word Count: 16.3k
Pairing: Eddie Munson/Fem!Original Character (Written in 2nd Person POV - You/Your - No Use of Names of Physical Descriptors)
Warnings/Themes: Van Helsing Inspired, Religious Themes, Criticism of Religion/Catholicism, Fate vs. Free Will, Death and Injury, Graphic Depictions of Violence, Mentions of Major Character Deaths, Grief, Mourning, Yearning, Discussion of the Upside Down, Supernatural Encounters, Angst, Smut, Sexual Tension, Ambiguous Sexual Identity, Unspoken Confidence in Sexual Identity, Psychological Manipulation, Dub-Con, Non-Verbal Consent, Vaginal Fingering, Grinding/Humping, Groping, Sexual Activity with Multiple Partners, Bloodletting, Biblical and Other Literary/Media References
Note: Wow what a weird month. Remember when I said I wanted to get 2 chapters out in October? Wild. Gonna stress the importance of reading the warnings in this one. We dive into some…dicey territory especially at the end. Do not give into the temptation. Or do. That's kind of…exactly what this chapter is about. (But seriously read the warnings.)
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“If I am the chief of sinners, I am the chief of sufferers also.”
- Robert Louis Stevenson, Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde
October 11, 1987
You were filled with a horrible sadness.
Worry.
You were alone...together alone.
He'd banished the others so he could focus on this...disgusting undertaking, but he'd put an obvious distance between the two of you purposefully. So he could do as he wished without your pitiful interference.
You knew this would be good for him: a singular focus, a task, a distraction. The end result would bring him to the light...but deep down you were worried he would be tempted further off the path as he forged through the darkness to get there.
"Be careful," you reminded him as the infernal red lightning flashed overhead. "You don't know what this will do."
"This will change things," he hissed excitedly. "It'll be different. It'll be perfect."
"Please." His hunger, his desire...it was palpable and overwhelming, saturating your surroundings. "Just...wait."
"It's just a little grave robbery," he chuckled darkly and closed his eyes. His form grew, large and imposing, and his hands reached for the heavens. "Everything will work out. You'll see."
"It's forbidden. Unholy."
He rolled his eyes and grinned at the challenge.
"You'll be here," he reasoned. "If anything goes wrong...you'll be here to fix it. You'll fix everything. Everything will be better. Soon."
He threw himself at the ground and drove his claws into the dirt, reaching...reaching...until the both of you shouted in pain at the resulting surge that tore through the Upside Down.
That tore through you.
You fell to your knees as you felt it pull at your heartstrings, as it ripped through your limbs, and you prayed...you prayed that everything would work. Because if it didn't...it would kill you.
And Eddie would be lost.
"You'll see," he sounded desperate now as he willed his little experiment to succeed. "Triumph over God. Over fate. We'll be together. Forever. Finally."
October 12, 1987
Deep below the Vatican laid the skeletal remnants of the Sanctuary of the Knights of the Holy Order. It was no longer in use--hadn't been for over a century--but it was there. Waiting. Kept as a reminder that mistakes had been made and lessons learned.
It had been a barracks, a place to train and rest, and mostly, a place to reflect and pray. To know oneself was to know God, because He lived inside them all. Through Him, they could overcome any challenge they faced.
Challenges that, occasionally, lived inside as well. Conflict between what was Good and what was Right.
Because the Sanctuary had also been a dungeon. A prison. A lab.
The Friars had been tasked to maintain the Sanctuary in those early days, to create weapons to aid in the fight when the Heavenly powers fell short. But in order to defeat something, you had to understand it. Creatures of Darkness had been captured, imprisoned, studied.
All of the books about the supernatural that you’d studied in your adolescence only existed because of the Order and the Friars of the Sanctuary.
But it was soul-splitting, hardening labor, and though the intentions were good…they were unethical. Unholy. But wasn’t that the way? Terrible things done in the name of goodness…were considered good no matter how terrible they were.
It wasn't until the Napoleonic Wars--when the Knights had been the worst kept secret in Europe after the conquest of the Papal States, as they did the bidding of the insidious Emperor--that everything changed. When Pope Pius VII returned from his banishment and saw that the Knights had been used for the bidding of one over the good of all, he reformed the Order.
All the dark deeds done in the name of good were buried. All of the research and experiments stopped.
And the Sanctuary closed its doors for good...
...except to you.
Where all the other Knights were anointed under the light of the moon, under the watchful eye of heaven, and were gifted with a blessing...your forefathers...you...were banished to the depths to make your vow.
That had been your first stop after you'd left Hawkins, so you could take the Oath properly.
You'd been led down the dusty winding staircase and made to explore the dank hole that still carried the stench of corruption and failure. You'd shined a light over the centuries-old dusty tomes, touched bones of saints, and viewed the body of your ancestor--the one who had turned down the offer of penance, the one who had killed his Pope--unnaturally preserved and kept on display.
He was a reminder, for your family and your family alone, of what would happen should you fail your life's purpose.
What a jarring experience, to speak the vow and then have your hand cut open to pour blood onto the knife still embedded in his heart.
They'd left you then, the Knights who'd brought you there, once they were sure you had taken the first solid steps on the path fate had in store for you. They clapped you on the shoulder, offered the briefest of congratulatory words, and then left you to, once again, crawl and climb through dark, unfathomable depths.
In hindsight, it was just a load of shit.
But for the briefest moment, you felt right. This had been the right choice, a birthright rather than a curse, and your determination would guide you to your ultimate goal.
It was a transcendent, euphoric experience akin to the moment you had realized you loved Eddie. You felt reborn once again.
Emboldened by this newfound confidence, you took the winding pathway back and you explored. The temptation was too strong. You read the tomes, you slashed through the air with a forgotten old sword inscribed with the Oath of the Order.
And you giggled as you pushed an old door open and found what you thought was an apothecary of some sort. You shined your flashlight over a set of shelves that was stacked with dusty old specimen jars labeled in antiquated script.
Your thoughts had immediately turned to Eddie; how the two of you had spent several hours making old pasta sauce jars look dusty and crusty and filled them with cornstarch, water, and food coloring for his Halloween campaign.
Venenum. Bilis. Sanguis.
You had intended to take a closer look when you kicked a jar that had been on the ground. Old and misshapen, it rolled into the shadows and you followed it. Several yards, until it hit a solid object and stopped.
The light of your flashlight hit the label first, Phlegethos Sanies, and you reached out to grab the jar.
Then you dragged the beam of your flashlight up and up, further and further.
Until you came face to face with a hulking skeleton with a horned skull.
A minotaur.
Chained to a chair, its head tilted back and jaw opened wide in a perpetual silent scream.
It was an unexpected sight and in your shock, your finger brushed the dusty, withered limb, and you saw.
Saw the atrocities committed all those years ago, heard the endless whines and screams that echoed against the stone, felt the pain that surged through every single creature that had been set upon that chair. That had been cursed to live out their final days in this place. In the name of Good. In the name of Heaven.
Your joy suddenly diminished and dread flooded you.
You already knew that the Sanctuary brought anything but sanctity to those who entered its depths, but to see it...to experience it in such a way--
"Go," the spirits warned. They amplified everything that you had felt less-than in the two short decades of your life and made you aware that while you were here as a Knight, you were very much other. Just like them. "You don’t belong here. Go. Before they get you next."
--would last with you forever.
That memory was what flashed before your eyes now as Steve threw Billy's unconscious body into the folding chair in the garage. As he and Robin wound rope around his body, and then latched handcuffs to his wrists. As they argued between each other and then spat accusations at you.
"He was dead!"
"How the fuck is he back?"
"What did you do? How did you do this?"
Mary Victoria stood beside you resolutely, and spat sharp words right back at them.
“She didn’t fucking do anything!” She leaned closer to you and muttered under her breath. “Did…did you do this? It’s fine if you did I just…need to know if I need to kick someone’s ass if they come after you.”
“I didn’t,” you reassured her numbly.
“Ok good. Good. We can work with this,” she nodded.
You tried to feel a little proud of her. She was dealing with all of this madness with more strength and composure than anyone had given her credit for.
Did she get a little—
“Shut the fuck up Harrington, stop pointing fingers.”
—enthusiastic? Yes.
However, you had yet to check on her, and if your state of mind was anything other than WHAT it was at that very minute, you would have dragged her out of this room so she wouldn't have to bear witness to what followed.
Because you could feel that it would not be pretty; feel it in the very marrow of your bones.
Watching a man crawl from a grave...to see him reach out to you before he collapsed...and then to have to haul him back to wherever it was you had come from...had been a draining task.
Especially when you did your best not to touch his skin.
The others didn't seem to have that hang up though, as they manhandled him, seemingly debated one another over what the rest of his life might look like locked up in this garage.
"How are we gonna keep him here forever? He's gonna need food, water, clothes."
"Maybe he'll just wake up and be normal?"
"Hargrove? Normal? Pfft."
"Do we need duct tape? Just in case?" Robin asked warily, her hand going to her mouth so she could chew on her thumb nail in contemplation. "He was pretty strong last time...with the Mind Flayer and everything."
"I don't think we need to worry about that," you finally spoke up, ready to get the show on the road. "Resurrection takes a lot out of you; it'll take a good amount of time for him to wake up, let alone be strong enough to do any harm."
Of course you were immediately proven wrong as he gained consciousness with a strangled gasp and coughing fit. Everyone jumped as they startled.
"What the fuck! What the fuck!" Robin backed as far from him as she could.
"Maybe you're not the expert on this that you think you are," Steve accused harshly.
"Alright he's awake now. What do we do? Douse him in holy water? Just start asking questions?"
"Can you guys shut up," Dustin hissed from the door to the garage. "Before we wake someone up. That someone being Nancy. You know she's gonna be pissed off when she finds out about this."
"Respectfully," Mare spat. "Fuck Nancy. Who put her in charge here? I'll fight her."
"Yeah we have a literal zombie tied to a chair," Steve scoffed. Unexpectedly, your curiosity was piqued and your mind began to race. "There aren't rules for this."
"Funny you say that," you took a step forward, closer to Billy, whose head hung limply as he took calculated breaths. As if he'd never taken a breath before now.
"What, there are rules?"
"Yes and no. More like...guidelines." You waved a hand dismissively. "And I meant...more your use of the word zombie. The origin of...zombie...is--"
"Listen, you gave us a lesson in vampires and resurrection last night too. But does it really matter?" Robin questioned.
You paused and looked around the garage.
Four faces stared at you expectantly, as though they were simply waiting for the next thing to happen. No silly lore, no story, no explanation of what would come next. Dustin and Mare looked curious enough, but it had been a long day and a longer night. They didn't have the patience.
For a moment, you were transported again.
Reminded of another life. Other lives.
One lonelier, so much lonelier. Twenty-some-odd years spent so obviously separate from everyone else, mostly silent as decisions were made for you; thoughts and opinions and words buried deep that would never matter because your fate was already written. And then another, where you were seen and understood. Your silly stories were shared and embraced. Appreciated and loved. Not just by one person, by many...but because of one person.
It had been years since you had walked away from it...but had taken just as long, it took until right this second, to resign yourself that you might never have it again.
You shot a tight, apologetic smile at the others and then crouched down in front of Billy. You gently called his name.
"Can you hear me?" You asked. "Billy?"
He groaned and raised his head weakly, his bloodshot eyes slightly unfocused until they landed on you. He fought against the restraints for a moment, but you held your hands out to try and calm him.
"Don't...we have you tied up, but don't be afraid. It's just a precaution. You're safe here."
His shoulders heaved for a moment but he relaxed.
"Good. Now...we have some questions. Do you know where you are?" You looked at the others and then back at him. "Do you know who you are? Recognize anyone here?"
He stared at you.
"Billy?"
Just kept staring.
"This is going nowhere," Steve sighed.
"No, no, it's disorienting," you explained. "Give it a second. How long has he been dead for? Two years? Almost three?”
“His body doesn’t look like Barb’s.” Robin noted. "Or Heather’s or Chrissy’s or—”
“Ok now you want to hear what I have to say?" you snarked, and you almost apologized when Billy's lip quirked the slightest bit. Then it was gone.
You narrowed your eyes in suspicion.
So there was something inside--someone--with a sense of humor.
You thought back through what you'd seen in Max's memories.
Billy wasn't...he wasn't a joker. Could he be? With friends and people he felt safe with, sure. Would he laugh at the expense of people he saw as lesser than him? As a way to bolster his own confidence? Yes. And could you say that the people in this room were definitely ones he would target for his own sense of security.
But this wasn't that.
Those empty eyes--abyss-like with blown pupils--stared at you still as you shifted, they followed you...and you froze. It was microscopic, barely noticeable if you hadn't been looking right into his eyes.
You'd seen that before.
The demogorgon. How it had followed you. Disinterested in the hunt, in Wayne. Specifically gunning for you.
It had reached for you. Just like Billy did before he collapsed.
"Kas?" you questioned, and without even looking, you could sense everyone else in the room stiffen. The air grew tense; a shift in the mood. "It's you in there right? How are you doing that?"
He blinked.
Your skin erupted in goosebumps.
Not an answer, per se, but enough of one.
"That's a neat trick," you goaded, hoping to maybe get a little more than just a blink. "Can you do that to all of them? Or just this one? The empty ones."
No reaction this time.
You stood to your full height and he watched. Watched as you paced, so purposefully. In a human body once again, instead of a demogorgon, but akin to a predator tracking its prey.
In those dark depths, there was need. Hunger.
But you had a need too. Kas was challenging you, had been, and you needed to win.
You were suddenly determined to get something from this revelation. Could you get him to bend? Get him to break? Reveal his hand unintentionally.
Victory so sweet you could taste it.
"You don't like me, do you? Is that why you're sending your pets after me?" Billy blinked, his eyes widened. "You want me? You have me. It's ok, you don't need to talk. I can still hear you loud and clear."
"Uhhh..." Dustin timidly piped up from the door. "Maybe this isn't a good idea, if...if Kas really can see everything--"
"It's fine," you dismissed.
Mary Victoria huffed beside you.
"Listen, you might as well talk," she said to Billy, to Kas. "Give us something. You're not going anywhere, and it's not like we're gonna break your knees or anything."
It was a joke. Of course it was a joke, it was how she dealt with stressful situations. But...it got you thinking.
"I mean, we could," you whispered.
Robin, Steve, and Dustin all reacted harshly, admonishing you, asking if you'd lost your mind. And maybe you had. For a brief moment, the memory of the minotaur's skull, mouth open in a perpetual scream, flashed before your eyes.
But triumph was too tempting.
So you locked that memory away. Used it as a motivation even. Worse things had been done for lesser causes. This was...
What was it?
What were you fighting for anymore? For Hawkins? For Eddie? For yourself?
...this was war.
"I mean he's tied up," you gestured to him. "Just like Mare said. Might as well."
"I don't know what you are besides...absolutely bonkers," Robin dismissed you, then looked to Mare. "But aren't you a nun? Aren't you supposed to...not...commit sins or something."
"I'm a novice," Mare shrugged. "I'll say a few Hail Mary's, it'll all be ok."
"That's...it's still Billy's body," Dustin tried to reason with you. "We're not here to torture him."
"Why not, maybe he can give us answers?" Mare disagreed.
"No!" Steve immediately tried to step between you and Billy, especially as he saw your hand reach for the knife on your belt. "No torture. That's not gonna give us answers; that's just gonna hurt him."
"What do you care?" you scoffed.
"He's a person. He's innocent."
Anger burned through you at the hypocrisy. Sure Billy was innocent when you wanted to take control of the situation, but they had no problem tying him up because of the potential danger.
"Billy is a vessel," you explained through gritted teeth. "A vessel for Kas. Just a suit. He isn't in there. Do you know that? None of you want to hear my explanations...fine. But just trust me...there isn't enough of Billy left spread across the entire universe for him to be in there. But Kas is. And we need answers. So I'm gonna get them."
"Then you're gonna go through me," Steve challenged you.
"Through us," Robin agreed and stepped beside him.
You rolled your eyes and clenched your fists.
"We don't have time for this."
"What if it's just a big misunderstanding," Dustin interjected again. "What if he's trying to get a message to us."
"What kind of message?" Mare questioned curiously.
"Fat fucking chance," you scoffed. "He's killing people. You said it yourself, he wants out. He's hungry. What's he gonna do if he can get to this side? Boom. Feast."
"No, Henderson's right," Steve agreed but you wouldn't be stopped.
"You were all for hunting him down a few hours ago."
"We were going to hunt the undead. The ones attacking the town."
"One chance at guessing who sends them to attack the town in the first place."
"Maybe he's just trying to get information from us in return? To make a plan?" Robin suggested.
"Yeah," Steve snapped his fingers at Robin in agreement. "Maybe that's all it is. He wants to get a message out. Wants to communicate and get information and make a plan but he chose Billy Hargrove and he's having a rough go of it. So why don't you just...do that thing? Jump into his mind. Talk to him that way. Like you did with Max."
"M-Max?"
The tension in the room broke and everyone looked at Billy.
Something changed.
You watched the transition happen, as one pupil constricted, then the other.
"M-m-Max," he stammered.
As his cheeks flushed. As Kas gave up control...and something else gained it back.
"No," you shook your head, unwilling to accept defeat. You pushed through Steve and Robin, and dove for Billy. You grabbed the sides of his head and looked directly into his eyes.
You clawed your way in. Desperately. Savagely. As though something deep inside of you yearned for it. And you knew you could do it, because he did it.
You became Billy Hargrove, for the briefest of moments.
You had met him once.
Met was a generous term.
A halloween party Eddie had dragged you to, one where Billy had behaved abysmally and then got too drunk to know up from down. You had seen him slip in the kitchen, heard the thunk when he hit the floor, and it had only been your intention to go and see if he needed help.
But when you touched his skin...the hollowness you felt there...it shook you.
A man fully living shouldn't have been hollow in that way.
Eddie had warned you after the encounter to stay as far away from Billy as you could, some irrational fear of the danger he might bring. But your fear of that hollowness had been enough to make you agree.
He was dangerous...a man...and, you thought, a beast.
After you'd had enough time to process it though--after you'd encountered more people and gained life experience--you had come to an explanation. You likened it to scratches in wood, deep divots that had been carved out of his being, either by sadness or cruelty, his own or others you couldn't know.
He was not hollow, it was just that someone had taken a little too much of him than his being could withstand giving.
You'd met plenty of people like that in your travels. Untouched by the supernatural, simply...irreparably damaged by the fact that they were too human to keep going.
Pair that with what you'd seen in Max's head, and it was no wonder he'd been an easy target for Vecna's dark ambitions.
It was why you had been wary of touching him when he collapsed on the grave. If he was already empty before he died...what would you find?
Now though...you had touched him. Dove into the depths of his mind, in a different way than you had with Max. You didn't just brush the edge of his mind to search his thoughts, you needed to be amongst his very being.
And lo...nothing again.
In fact, less than nothing...worse than nothing.
You were empty...empty...dying. Your limbs felt heavy and weak.
Then you realized.
You weren't breathing.
You took a deep breath and it felt like your lungs had expanded for the first time in centuries. They were stiff and crackling. Even so, the dank, stale air felt like a relief to breathe.
After several breaths you took stock of yourself. Not dying anymore. Living. Again.
You looked down at yourself; you still had some visage that was your own but when you clenched your hands, you couldn't feel. You watched your fingers move, willed them to do so, but couldn't feel the movement.
You wondered if it was a side effect of the resurrection. What did the dead feel after they died? Their spirits, you knew. Their bodies, a mystery.
Until Billy.
What a curious thing though...
He had already been emptied so thoroughly before he died. What was left to put back so he could return to the land of the living? What had come out of the grave with his body? What had Kas scratched from the bottom of the proverbial barrel to put back into him to get him to rise again?
You observed your surroundings then. You were in a desolate hallway, dark and filled with doors. They were all open, broken, and hanging off their hinges. Abandoned. Empty. Akin to something twisted and surreal that Dali might have imagined.
Suddenly footsteps echoed behind you--in front of you? Direction didn't exist here--and you spun to try and find the source.
There.
An open door with a faint light shining through it. You caught the slightest glimpse of a clawed hand grasping the door jamb before it disappeared within.
Fight or flight activated, you were quick to the chase.
Kas was here. He was still in here.
The ground beneath your feet was uneven, unstable. With no sense of self, you kept faltering, and you knew you couldn't continue to exist in this place for very long.
There were no physical limitations here, however. So you could cross great distances much faster than in the real world, and you reached the door much quicker than you might have in the real world.
You were gonna catch him, confront him, kill him right here and now.
But when you crossed through the threshold, you found...yourself.
Not a reflection; an actual duplicate of you.
All of your sense of urgency and anger dissolved.
And in its place, confusion took over.
She looked worn and disheveled. Clothes ripped. Split lip. Legs shaking as though it took all the effort in the world to stand.
Both of your eyes widened at the recognition of one another but before either of you could say anything, that clawed hand wrapped around her waist and tugged her through a tear in the ether. Her mouth opened in silent protest, her hand reached out, and she was gone.
And so was Kas.
The frustration returned and you let out a roar of expletives, ready to tear the room apart.
Only for a faint sound to capture your attention.
Across from you was another doorway...another room with brighter light this time. Almost blinding. Sun shining through an actual window.
You slowly crossed the distance and found a familiar figure crumpled on the floor, breath shallow, ropes around his wrists. He weakly tried to get to his feet and you did nothing but watch.
Your focus had been so singularly on Kas that you didn't realize that Billy would be in here too. A remnant. A revenant. His spirit torn...just like your own mirrored visage had been.
You rushed to help him, and when you did, you glanced through the window and saw yourself again. Bigger this time. Time frozen. Eyes locked.
Strange.
In your arms, Billy stirred.
"Who..." he spoke weakly, head resting on your shoulder. "Where..."
"It's ok," you reassured him, your conflicting emotions forgotten temporarily. "It'll be ok."
You summoned the strength inside of you, hoping you could access your body out there from...whatever you were in here, and you poured the healing light into him, until he could stand on his own.
Until he could scream.
"Max!"
You wrenched your hands away as you were thrown back into your body. Steve and Robin grabbed you as you backed away and Billy started struggling against the restraints again.
"Max, Max,” his voice got clearer and stronger. “Where is she? Is she safe?”
He grit his teeth and closed his eyes and pulled at the handcuffs. To everyone's surprise, the metal gave just the tiniest bit.
"We really should have used the duct tape," Robin muttered.
"Billy, everything's ok," Mary Victoria stepped around you and attempted to soothe him. She shot him a gentle smile and held her hands out in front of her to show she meant no harm. "Max is alright. She's at home. Safe."
He took a few deep breaths, eyes darting between hers, before he relaxed. He hung his head again.
"I don't...don't..." He made a whining noise. "I don't know."
"You don't know?" Mare repeated. "What don't you know?"
"She cried over me. But I don't know her. Who is Max?"
Mare whipped around to look at you and you sighed wearily and shook your head. You didn't even know what to think at this point.
Clearly everything you knew was wrong.
"What do you remember then Billy?" she asked.
"I..." his brow furrowed in concentration.
Contemplation.
"Don't," you spoke up and his gaze shot to you, then to your knife, and back. You shrugged Robin and Steve off of you and held your hands out just like Mare did. "Don't strain yourself. It'll happen when it happens."
He nodded and wet his lips.
"I remember...Max hurt me too," he began. "Before. I scared her and she hurt me. Why did I do that?"
"What else?" Robin asked.
"The...I think he was here." Billy nodded over to Steve. "And I hurt him. I'm...I'm sorry..."
"Shit, never thought I'd hear Billy Hargrove apologize," Steve muttered in disbelief.
"Shut up Dingus."
"The beach. And a woman. A room...a diner. Silly Billy."
You'd heard that before too...an echo of the human parts of Billy that had been present in '84, despite the great gouges inside of him.
"She called me her Silly Billy."
"And you," he nodded towards you, and then his eyes got stormy. "And Eddie."
Mare looked to you again.
"Eddie, that's your..."
"My boyfriend, yeah," you nodded. "Halloween a few years ago. Eddie...roughed him up a little bit. Why would you remember that though?"
"Because it hurt," Billy strained, his voice hoarse. And despite the hoarseness, there was a clarity there. An understanding that you simply couldn't fathom he possessed given his state. But he did. And you know it was because Kas made him aware, and that simple fact burned you.
"What else would he let me remember?"
"What are you thinking?"
"I don't know...a lot of things."
"About Billy?"
"...no."
There was a pause and the mattress glub-glubbed as Mary Victoria shifted on the waterbed.
"About Eddie?" she asked, peeking down at you as you laid on the floor.
"No," you responded truthfully, startled that it was probably the first time he wasn't on your mind. "About Kas."
She sighed.
"Listen, maybe you need to let this Kas thing go," she offered. "Focus on fixing things here first. That was your plan right? To help get Hawkins back on its feet."
"I can only fix things here if I stop him," you replied. "Otherwise he's just gonna make them worse again. And he knows it. That's why he's after me now."
"After you?"
"You heard me before, when he was...possessing Billy. He's sending things after me. To kill me, probably. One of the vampires--"
"I thought you said they weren't vampires."
"--and then a demogorgon when I was out visiting Wayne. And now...now Billy himself."
"Why?"
"I'm a thorn in his side, why else?"
"Could be anything else," Mare offered. She was quiet for a moment, then she continued. "Maybe you think he wants to stop you. What if Dustin is right? What if he needs you? What if he needs your help too?"
"Then he could ask! What are these games, just ask for my help. Simple as that." You watched as she gnawed at her lip. "What is it?"
"I don't...I don't know. I have a theory. Maybe. I just need to think through it for a little bit. Let it bubble like a stew. Could be something; is probably nothing. But maybe this...this is all he can do. He's calling, you're just not listening."
You stared at each other for a moment, and she looked incredibly unsure of herself. You could sense the words that were coming next. Forget it, forget I said anything and you stopped her before she could.
"Maybe you're right," you admitted with a sigh. "I know I was quick to jump on the let's kill Kas train of thought. But can you blame me? There are rules. And he's breaking them."
"He probably doesn't know them."
"You're right, probably not. But neither do you." It was your turn to feel apprehensive now. Guilty. Instead of defensive; you turned into a bitch when you got defensive. "How are you doing? I haven't checked on you really. I'm sorry."
"You've only been a fucking mess yourself," Mare sniffed judgmentally and then winked. "Can't really blame you though. I'm...handling it."
"Not overwhelmed yet?"
"Most certainly overwhelmed," she disagreed. "But not enough to quit."
"Good."
"You can make it up to me next time."
"Next time?"
"Yeah...you're not getting rid of me that easily."
"And what if I die here Mare?" The words escaped your mouth instinctually before you realized they had, and you both froze. You especially, your mind going a million miles an hour. "I mean..."
What did you mean?
What did you mean?
"You know, this whole thing...this whole curse is supposed to end in fire for me anyway," you shrugged. "It could happen any time and this...Hawkins is personal. I know I'm not being as careful as I would any other time. I mean, look at me already. What if I die here?
"What if...what if your theory...whatever it is...is wrong? What if everyone is wrong and Kas just needs to be stopped and I'm not strong enough and I die?"
You said it all in one breath and heaved by the time it was all out.
"Are you afraid?" she asked after a beat. "Of death?"
"Not enough to stop doing this dumb shit, apparently."
"You said you wanted...wanted to break this curse...for Eddie."
"I do."
"So are you afraid of dying? Of leaving him? Is that why you're telling me?"
"I'm afraid..." you paused. "I'm afraid I've brought you all this way and I'm gonna leave you to fend for yourself. I'm afraid that I'm gonna leave Hawkins worse off than I found it. I'm afraid...I'm afraid of leaving him alone because losing me will hurt him more."
She reached out a hand and you met her halfway to grasp it. Tightly. Desperately.
And you thought...you thought she'd do what she had been doing. Thought that she would offer some comfort or some words of wisdom to make you feel better.
He's in Heaven and he's waiting. He's waiting for you.
"What if he isn't in Heaven?" she asked, face entirely serious. She gripped your hand tightly. "What if he's in Hell? And all of this...is for nothing? You do all of this...you break your curse...and you're still alone?"
You could hear them then, a thousand years of your bloodline screaming what should have been the answer in your ears. Your grandfather. Your father. Fuck, even your grandmother who had no curse upon her but spent her life and all her goodness to prevent your damnation.
And then you thought of Wayne…his words. The way you tried to deny them.
“Shit, what's a guitar gonna do, or snacks, or...or a t-shirt? When he's stuck in Hell?"
Your throat tightened, but the response was easy.
"I guess I'll see him in Hell then."
You'd never seen him cry before.
Well, you had.
But not here. Not in this place.
Seeing the blood drip down his cheeks shook you to the core.
"Was it not enough?" he sniffed pathetically. "Why wasn't it enough?"
What could you say to that?
There would never be enough.
Not until you could save him. If you could ever save him.
How could you fill an empty cup...when the pitcher was empty too?
He roared when he didn't receive an answer, startling you.
"What did you expect to happen?" you asked wearily. Even if you couldn't help him, you could attempt to alleviate his woes. Just like you always had. That was your purpose: a balm to his soul, a buffer. "You couldn't control the others at the beginning."
"And I can't control them now either, can I?"
"They're willful."
"Aren't they."
"But so are you." He scoffed, but you continued. "And you're cunning. You have a plan."
"You have plans. Plans that fail, if you haven't noticed." He slashed at you with his claws, lashing out, but you appeared on the other side of him instead.
"You just need to try again," you offered sagely.
"And what good would that do?"
That was when the tide changed.
You'd been through if before but...there was no before that was quite like this. Something was so minutely different this time that you didn't realize it until it was too late.
His mind raced, his mouth raced faster, as he voiced his thoughts and put them forth into this dastardly dimension. If things were better, it would have reminded you of all the times he voiced his harebrained schemes. All of the silly little plans he had for the two of you.
Instead, they began to take shape, dark tangible things that you simply couldn't keep up with. Couldn't put to sleep as fast as they were brought to life.
Further and further into temptation--desperation--he went, and the more you tried to hold him back, the more he resisted.
You thought it was him, succumbing to the darkness once again. Drifting over the edge but then the realization came.
It was you.
"Why are you still here? Why? You act like you're here to help... but you're a burden. You've...you've ruined it. Ruined everything! I have to fix it. I have to."
He slashed again and you could suddenly feel it. For the first and only time. You felt it carve through you. Not painfully, not really. But the space where he would have run you through...disappeared.
You disappeared.
You'd done it on purpose before. Countless times. Disappeared into the void of him. Back where you belonged. But this time...this time he made you go. He dispelled you.
How long had it been, how long had you tried. How much had you given to him, to sustain him, with no hope of ever getting it back. He took from you. Took and took and took. It could have been a day or an eternity.
Suddenly there's no possible way to cling onto this reality, to hold him back from careening over the edge into darkness. Because you found yourself falling as well.
Lost.
You tried to do it on your own for so long, but now it was truly the end. You'd always known it would come. You'd worked so hard, you hoped you could save him before it came to this.
You needed her now...just as much as he did.
Lost.
You reached out one last time as his shoulders heaved, as the thick red tears ran rivers down his skin. Fingers brushed over his cheeks, his eyelids, his lips.
A farewell.
You melted into him one last time; you'd wait until you were well enough to return, whole once again.
You could rest now. What a relief.
Lost.
October 14, 1987
Having an alliance with others was a strange concept to you.
Although you did most of your work alone, it was not out of the realm of possibility to have a partner from time to time. Partner. Singular. They were few and far between, though. And for all intents and purposes, in Hawkins, that was Mary Victoria.
Your right-hand-man, your conscience when you were led astray, responsible to make sure the other didn't get killed.
Now, suddenly, there was a whole team that had your back. Mare, obviously...but Steve, Dustin, and Robin too.
It felt like an episode of the Brady Bunch.
Was this what it felt like to have siblings?
"Friends," Mare rolled her eyes when you made the comment to her. "They're called friends."
For an entire day, you all lurked around the Harrington's with the acute knowledge that you had a shared secret and that you'd have each other's backs any time someone potentially came close to finding it out.
Steve was the main person to run out to the garage whenever someone needed something. It was his house, after all; no one questioned it if he wanted to roam around at will or if he wanted some areas off limits.
Food was the next hurdle; Claudia did a great job working with limited supplies to feed an entire house of friends and neighbors. But sneaking an entire extra helping was challenging. Dustin was often the person to keep his mother distracted while extra bits of mashed potatoes or casserole were scooped onto a plate. And then you and Mare brought the food out to Billy, taking turns feeding him and keeping watch.
You all had agreed that you needed to keep him tied up and in the garage. It was just too risky, especially with Kas potentially lurking somewhere deep in his mind.
But Billy barely said anything when you went to visit, barely even acknowledged someone else was there short of opening his mouth for a bite of food.
Mare wondered, at first, if that meant Kas was back. It didn't take much for you to realize that no, Billy was the only one in there. He was just...disinterested. Disoriented.
Recollecting the mismatched pieces of a puzzle that he had no idea how to put back together.
He had moments of recollection sometimes, as he began to shuffle those pieces around. He'd make...parts of a picture, but not enough to discern anything truly useful. He'd ask about people sometimes. Mostly about Max. Ask if he could see her, which Steve harshly declined.
"Not a chance," he scoffed. "You think I'm gonna let him near Max? Any of those kids? After everything they've been through? Over my dead body."
"Maybe it'll help," Mare suggested. "With the memories. To see his sister. For them to talk."
"You wanna know the first time I knew Billy was Max's brother? Hmm?" Steve put his hands on his hips and looked at her expectantly. "When he beat the shit out of me, could've killed me. Max had to knock him out with a tranquilizer to get him to stop."
"Holy shit."
"So no, even though he seems innocent...different, he's not getting near those kids."
And then Billy would go nearly catatonic once again, back to shuffling the pieces around until he could make sense of himself again.
Another meal. Another bout of silent chewing and half-present responses. Another opportunity for Mare to try and coax him out of his shell.
"It takes time," you explained.
"How much time?"
"I...I don't know. Enough."
"Well," Mare sighed and loaded up a spoon to feed him. "Guess we're just gonna have to help him get there." From that point, she always tried to get a response out of him.
Mainly, by making airplane noises as she fed him.
"It's funny," she defended.
"It's infantilizing," you chuckled from your place at the door.
"I mean...it's still kinda funny," she shrugged, sending another biplane full of pot roast and veggies onto the next mission in Billy's digestive tract.
"We don't need funny. We need him to see he can trust us." You looked past her at Billy then, realizing that he might have been sick of being spoken about as if he wasn't just sitting there. "You can trust us, you know? When you're ready."
He just blinked at you.
"Maybe...maybe to start feeling alive again, he just needs to hear our life stories too," she sat up straight and cleared her throat. "Hi Billy. My name is Mary Victoria. I was born in a small town in Nebraska--"
And on it went.
Breakfast, lunch, and dinner for two whole days.
You bounced around different topics, trying to get Billy to react to something. Anything. California, sports, the supernatural, politics, action movies, musicals. And he did. Sometimes there were just sighs or a huff that sounded adjacent to a laugh. No rhyme or reason to what it was he reacted to. Just...a reaction.
Better than nothing.
“…and then Mr. Perkins said 'nobody waves anymore' and Steve joked 'it's because we're not near the ocean.' And I thought it was funny," Mare put her hand on her chest. "But Robin just rolled her eyes."
Billy made a long-suffering sigh as he chewed his creamed spinach.
"I know, it wasn't funny," you agreed with him, then you glanced over at her. "It wasn't funny."
"It was! I like corny jokes!"
"Obviously."
"Do you think they're dating?" she asked, suddenly, out of left field. "Robin and Steve?"
"Uhhhh."
You didn't really know how to respond to that. Billy, the most reactive that he had been in the past few days, scoffed. Or sneezed maybe.
"Why do you ask?"
"I don't know, they seem close," she shrugged. You narrowed your eyes at her. "He's cute. I wouldn't put it past him to have a girlfriend or something. End of the world and all...and there's this...I don't know it's gonna sound silly."
"What is it?"
"Ok, disclaimer, I'm not going crazy." She pointed at you in warning. "Remember that. I just...whenever they're around each other, there's this string. It isn't there. I don't see it. But it's...I just know it's there. I notice it with a lot of people, actually. Especially here."
Interesting.
"What kind of answer do you want?" you asked her and leaned back in your chair. "The one you want to hear or the long one?"
Mare groaned and rolled her head back.
"Knight Lesson 102," you offered her. "Or, more fitting, like...Nun Graduation Revelation."
"But moooommmmm." She stomped her feet a little. "Can you do a worse job of reminding me that I'm not supposed to feel any kind of...attraction towards anyone. Married to God and all of that."
"You didn't take your vow yet."
"Whose. Side. Are. You. On!"
She clapped to emphasize every word.
"Long answer first," you began with a laugh. "Everyone here has a connection that spans what the eye can see. Those strings you feel, did you also feel them between Steve and Dustin? Robin and Nancy? Hell, even between us and them now, those bonds are forming.
"The Moche civilization in Peru believed that your life-force flowed through you and into others the more you shared yourself with them. And vice versa. Through conversation, through dance, through love and friendship. You make connections with everyone you meet and become a complex web of the people whose lives you touch. It's what gives us empathy."
"So that means I'm still connected with my douche ex. Great."
"Yes and no. Yes, because he's left his mark on your life and you wouldn't be you without him. But also no because you both severed that tie a long time ago."
She seemed to accept that answer.
"What about Robin and Steve then?"
"Do I think they're dating?" You asked for clarity and she nodded. "I don't know, how could I? But you can sense their bond is stronger than others, right? I thought they were siblings when I felt the connection between them. I think they just...will walk through life on a shared path for a very long time."
"Sounds like fate," she snorted. "Or soulmates or something."
"Soul..." Billy rasped, the unexpected sound causing you both to jump.
He jolted in his chair against the restraints, coughing and spitting and gagging. The convulsions lead to all manner of bodily sounds emanating from him.
"What the..!" Mare exclaimed. "What's happening to him?
"I don't..." You shook your head. "I don't know."
The anticipation was the worst. In fact, you anticipated the worst. You had thought, initially, that it was Kas trying to jump back into his body, and you could be ready at the very least. Ready to confront him, ready to jump back into Billy's mind in order to grasp Kas with your own two hands.
But you didn't anticipate nearly enough.
The food came up first. Days worth of food. It wasn't Exorcist-adjacent pea soup; it was undigested, save for chewing, and mostly whole. It spewed from his mouth violently and you both backed away as chunks landed near your feet.
"What the fuck dude!"
"Can you heal him or something?"
"I can try."
"Yes, please, try. Jesus fucking Christ."
You took a step forward, hand already outstretched so you could take a hold of him, but he spewed the last bits of foot and bile, right in your path and you jumped before it could hit you.
The dirt was next. He choked on it before he erupted.
Dust, then pebbles, then thick clumps of wet earth. It clatters and splats all around you. You dodged a hailstorm of bits and pieces, the likes of which would put the blast of Mount Saint Helens to shame, and then watched in horror as a slow, constant flow rolled and dripped from his mouth. Like magma.
Tears flowed down his cheeks and he spat to clear his airway, only for more gravel to be expelled.
"Are we sure he isn't the Antichrist or something?" Mare grabbed your arm, and pulled you back to her. To protect you or herself, you couldn't be sure.
"That isn't a thing." Although you couldn't be sure of that either.
"Then how do you explain all of this? What the hell is happening?"
You didn't know. It was beyond you.
You tried to race through everything that you'd read and heard of and seen. Dream interpretation and superstitions and cautionary tales. Your mind conjured images, interpretations of God vomiting angels and expelling them from Heaven and into Hell, another of Him spewing dirt to create the Earth itself, and a third of Zeus freeing his siblings from the belly of the dreadful Kronos.
Let alone the symbolism. You didn't have time to analyze all of it.
If you had a hundred years, if you could stop the flow of time, maybe you could come up with some idea of what this was and how to stop it.
"Help me!" He sobbed around mouthfuls of dirt and dust. "Please."
Instead you needed to act, react, as fast as you could.
"Help him!" Mary Victoria screamed.
You took the steps forward again to try and use your healing power to stop this, but you recoiled for the briefest of seconds, as Billy's eyes dilated again and blood began to leak from his dear ducts.
Kas.
But Billy wrenched his eyes shut and screamed, deep and guttural and painful.
"GET OUT!"
You didn't hesitate to take two fingers, slot them into his forehead, jamming his third eye chakra.
"Sleep," you commanded.
And his eyes rolled back in his head as his body stilled.
You left your fingers there, as the last little bits of dirt dripped from Billy's mouth and bounced down his chest and to the ground. You tried to feel him, heal him, but you felt...
Nothing.
His body was still, you couldn't fathom where the dirt and the Earth came from. There was no supernatural cause. The fragmented pieces of him remained as intact as they could be; he, for all intents and purposes, was whole. Even the connection to Kas in his mind had been severed, you felt no pathway leading to the Upside Down or its Master.
Strange.
You wondered if it had anything to do with his resurrection, if somehow the act of crawling from the ground had caused something to settle within Billy that he needed to regurgitate to finally and fully return to life. Maybe if you touched the wet earth that had been expelled from him you could feel some kind of psychometric evidence of its origins. And know what had caused it. The way God could feel Abel's blood scream from the earth after it was spilt.
Was this how Kas had resurrected all of them? Had their rebirths been just as violent?
Frantic footsteps made it to your ears then, voices clamoring over one another at the door. You and Mary Victoria turned as the knob jiggled and Dustin and Steve's voice overlapped with another.
You expected a shitstorm. An argument.
You expected Nancy.
You steeled yourself for her. Expected her. Hardened your heart so that you didn't burn with the sting of her venom.
But as the door was thrown open, all you saw was betrayal in a pair of innocent eyes.
"What on Earth," Claudia stared at the scene before her, horrified, her attention unable to fully land on one thing, "is happening here?"
And you didn't know what was scarier.
Everything you had just witnessed.
Or her disappointment.
“I’m coming with you.”
“No, you’re not.”
“Ok so maybe I'm not but you don’t need to leave.”
“I think it’s better if I do.”
“No one asked you to go. You don’t have to do this self-sacrificing thing.” Mary Victoria snorted.
“This isn’t self-sacrifice,” you retorted. Hands on hips, you turned to her. “Or have you not read the Bible. Exile. It’s kind of a thing.”
Claudia was…concerned.
Disappointed, yes, that you all had kept Billy a secret. But concern was the main reaction once you’d all sat down to explain how he came to be in the Harringtons garage.
And alive.
She didn’t raise her voice, didn’t yell. She wasn’t angry.
She wrung her hands and her voice wavered as she formulated questions and responses. Her eyes kept sliding over to Dustin, who would take her hand in his and reassure her.
It’s ok mom. We have a plan. Don’t be afraid.
Claudia looked to everyone for confirmation. To Steve and Robin, even Mare. But when she got to you, her eyes only held betrayal.
You were good at what you did. Probably, no one had really ever told you that you were shit. Cursed? Yes. A snarky bitch, a meddler, a loudmouth, etcetera etcetera. But bad at defeating darkness? Never.
You knew you could protect innocents. But what was the point if you didn't...protect innocence.
And that’s when you decided you needed to go. To give them some space without your bullshit.
“Self imposed.” Mare rolled her eyes. “Like an asshole.”
“It's really not the insult you think it is,” you explained. “I’m just going to stay with Wayne. I’ll be back tomorrow morning to take Billy on a drive and maybe knock a few marbles loose—”
“Careful. He doesn’t have that many marbles to begin with.”
“—then we can continue the work on your Knight lessons ok?”
"And save Hawkins?" she followed up and you shot her a strained smile. "Yeah. Sounds good."
"Stick close with the people we trust," you nodded towards the group of your friends who had congregated at the door to witness your temporary exodus. "Don't let them do anything to Billy, and most importantly, keep yourself safe."
"I thought you'd be back tomorrow."
"A lot can happen in one night."
You threw your bag into the backseat of your car and Mare pulled you into a hug.
"You be careful too, ok? No going out after curfew, even if you see something shiny luring you out into the woods," she cautioned.
"I'll be f--"
"You're incapable of staying out of trouble. And I know if you're not careful you're gonna get yourself killed. It's like you're tempted by danger or something."
"Who's the mom now," you joked.
"Shut up."
And then you were off. Back across Hawkins to Wayne and Lover's Lake.
You forewent the radio this time, opting to drive in silence and listen to the whistling wind and any potential wing flapping. The whole radio feedback misfiring happened twice more since the little mishap with Sympathy for the Devil and you decided that 3 strikes so music was just off the table for you for the foreseeable future. And as much as you'd like to have listened to Fats Waller crooning on that old mixtape Eddie made you, about how dark and stormy it was inside this heart of mine, you listened to the distant thunder as an actual storm moved in instead.
"Great," you muttered and stepped on the gas a little faster so you wouldn't have rain pelting you in the face, thanks to your non-existent windshield.
That was gonna be a bitch to fix.
The windshield, probably part of the frame. On top of the air conditioning was already long gone and the heat on its last leg. Power steering had gone out once as you were driving through the Rockies. That had been fun to find a place to fix.
You were just old enough to remember your grandfather bringing the car home, brand new. Of course at that time you didn't understand. You just liked standing on the bench seat with your hands on the steering wheel going vroom vroom. The whole family took a drive.
It felt like such a normal memory in comparison to...literally the rest of your life.
Then a few weeks later, he was gone. And so was your dad, replaced by your father.
Nonna wore a set of black robes that first year--from which, came the tasseled cord belt that hung from the rearview mirror--to mourn her husband and son, and then to dedicate herself to your salvation. And Mom had been the one who started taking the car out for joyrides to escape from her bleak reality instead. She’d taught you how to drive, taught you how to question your faith--question yourself--in the car.
It was a strange, contradictory symbol of destiny, denial, and devotion.
And then when you skipped town, temporarily dodged your fate, the car became your problem.
Your problem that was now navigating broken streets and taking detours to avoid another fissure that seemed to have opened up overnight.
That wasn't there a few days ago...
In fact several streets seemed to be inaccessible when they'd just been clear just the other night. And the further you got in your detour, the worse it got, until the road seemed to literally shake and split right beneath your tires.
"What the fuck," you muttered as you swerved around a crack that was actively forming beneath you. "Why do I feel like I've jinxed myself? A lot can happen in one night. Fuck me."
Your headlights flickered and thunder cracked overhead.
And as you rounded another bend, your car, quite literally, died.
It was like a wave, a tangible spark, an electrical overload. The headlights flickered, and the radio turned on of its own volition and wavered to an ear-splitting screech that almost, almost sounded like your name, and then it died. Everything died. An audible power down of the electrical system before your engine sputtered out and your car rolled to a stop on the side of the road by some trees.
You turned the key in the ignition. Once, twice, stepped on the pedal. Nothing.
Until your right hand began to tingle. Burn.
You wrenched your hand off the key and used your other hand to press down into the space between your life and head lines, trying to massage out the pain. It felt...beyond your being. It felt heavy. There was something in there. A weight. Could you dig it out? Dig a hole into your hand and dig the hot burning thing out?
You were a fan of horror movies, of action movies. Media was one of the few indulgences that you were allowed to have growing up. Books and movies instead of friends. Breaks in between learning about real life fantasies and terrors to entertain yourself with made up ones.
It made things a little boring sometimes, sure. You always knew when a jumpscare was about to happen. Could tell when the plot was about to reach a climax. You'd ruined a few movies for Eddie and the guys before. Even spoiled one for your own father on the rare occasion he'd been around.
So it almost felt too predictable that the broken ground just a few yards away from you began to split further. As the smoke emanated from it. As the gate began to pulse and glow ominously, in time with the heavy, burdensome pain in your hand.
As a clawed hand slithered over the edge.
"Well shit," you cursed through gritted teeth. You kicked open the door and rounded on the trunk. You fumbled with the latch with one hand, threw it open and then dug. You'd already fucked around with your weapons the other day when you and the others went vampire hunting and then they'd all been thrown back in haphazardly.
You needed a stake, a knife, something.
"Least if I die here in Hawkins, I don't need to get another car."
A crucifix got tucked in the waistband of your jeans. The revolver loaded with silver bullets shoved back there too--what gun safety?--and you'd managed to shove the blade of a knife between your teeth to hold for a second, when you were assaulted by a cacophony of sound.
Wings flapped heavily, a jarring screech that made your blood run cold, and then the laughter.
It was taunting you.
Heavy footsteps dragged on the pavement, one after the other. Closer and closer.
"Are you hiding from me?" the reedy voice cooed patronizingly. "That's cute. You can't hide. Not when I can feel the fresh blood coursing through your veins."
There was a deep inhaling noise; slightly slurred, like a breath taken through clenched teeth. Then a loud flapping and suddenly the voice was on the other side of the car.
"Delicious."
Your eyes scanned over the contents of the trunk, thoughts swirling as you wondered how you could cause the most damage and buy yourself the most time.
If it was cruel irony that your car would die and you'd be attacked in the middle of the forest after you told Mare that a lot could happen in one night, then this was just some kind of karmic intervention.
The jar of peppers.
You knew it was a weird, unfamiliar thing that she'd just latched onto because she wasn't used to it and it seemed funny, but superstition was real. And a jar full of peppers, garlic, vinegar and holy water--maybe some other mystical whispers from 20 years ago thrown in if you were lucky--would surely do some damage.
You were almost sad Mare wouldn't be here to see it in action.
You grabbed it and shuffled closer to the edge of the trunk, as close as you could to peek to the side and witness him stalk closer to you.
A smug, elongated smile and demonic black eyes just like the others had. His skin was grey and stretched over his bones, and the tattered remnants of a sweater vest and chinos, of all things, adorned his body. One clawed hand was pulled back, as if ready for an attack as he got close enough, as were his wings.
And most prominently, a scar stretched across one cheekbone.
"Oh Fred," you taunted around the blade in your mouth. "I'm not a cheap date."
You shuffled to the side swiftly and threw the jar at him. It shattered upon impact with his head and doused him in the spicy, spiritual mixture, sizzling and burning his skin. Watching it filled you with a sense of triumph; finally, the slightest bit of an upper hand on Kas, who you were sure was behind this whole mishap.
He definitely was.
Fred was not as fragile as Barb had been though, and he already started to heal once the shock wore off, so you knew you had to act fast to finish him off.
Bloodthirsty, the revolver was in your hand before you could stop it and you let off one shot after another. They ripped through him, tore chunks from torso and his wings until you heard the click click click of the empty barrel.
You thought--you hoped--the handful of bullets would be enough and maybe you'd get lucky and puncture his heart.
Unfortunately you were not lucky. It wasn't even luck. You were not a good shot to begin with--as demonstrated by the fucking crossbow--and even if you were pretty ambidextrous, you favored your right hand. Which, thanks to the heavy nagging pain that coursed through it, meant you were at a disadvantage.
Still, Fred faltered and roared in agony as his body expelled the bullets. He tried to flee, but you wouldn't let him. His wings flapped uselessly when it came to flight but he still used them he propelled himself through the trees, with you close on his heels.
Thunder boomed overhead as you ran and it soon began to downpour. The dirt became mud and your sneakers slid as you pivoted and turned, struggling to keep up with him.
Despite being wounded, he would have the advantage. You were only human, despite your abilities. And you were a human that hated running. So all he had to do was flap his wings a little harder, or scurry up the trunk of a tree...and you'd lose him.
You slowed your pace and came to a stop, then noticed...your surroundings seemed familiar.
You wiped the rain from your face and looked around. The trees were less dense here; actually, several had been knocked down entirely, trunks covered in deep scratches and splinters. The forest floor covered in dead leaves. And there was one tree that looked...magical in and of itself. With moss and mushrooms and an assortment of sticks and...yarn.
A shelter against the elements, almost.
You jumped as something brushed against your leg and then you laughed to find a tiny little face looking up at you, entirely unamused at your antics. Big green eyes, whiskers twitching, grey fur damp with the rain; her tail flicked back and forth curiously. This was her kingdom, after all; why were you here?
"Hello," you muttered and wracked your brain for a minute. You'd met this cat before, early on in your relationship with Eddie; he'd taken you out here to meet her and her kittens, to feed them like he did with the other resident cats of Forest Hills. You'd made a joke, thanks to all of the downed trees, that she was some elusive cryptid.
"Don't need to knock down any trees when big, scary metalhead Eddie Munson is bringing you Chicken of the Sea, huh?"
"You wanna get married or something?"
"Fuck you Munson."
Your heart ached at the recollection, at the sweet innocent declaration that...that would never come to pass.
"Lucy," you cooed, basking in that memory. "Queen Lou."
You knelt down and offered your left hand in greeting, but she swiftly dodged and pressed her head into your right hand. The heavy pain and throbbing dissipated almost immediately as she nuzzled and purred. But the pain in your heart remained.
"You out here by yourself?" you asked. You looked around in realization; the trailer park must not have been far off. "Or did you come back here to see what the commotion was? Sorry about that."
Lucy lavished in your attention for a few moments, enjoying your scratches behind her soft, damp ears and then she startled. She turned, hackles raised and you were suddenly on alert too. Wings flapped wetly overhead and she bolted to chase after whatever creature fled.
"Shit," you muttered and began to follow. You might have joked that she was a monster but she was most certainly just a tiny little kitty. Definitely not equipped to fight an...undead bat thing.
But damn, she was quick.
The trees got more and more sparse until you were in the condemned remnants of the Forest Hills Trailer Park itself.
Fuck, it was bleak.
Out of all the damage you had seen in Hawkins, the aftermath of two "earthquakes," this was the worst.
Most of the buildings looked intact just...abandoned. Doors left open and swinging, laundry left to rot on the line. The brightly colored remnants of FEMA markers spraypainted on the sides of the trailers were especially vibrant against the grey sky. The ground was uneven and cracked, great plates of earth tilted this way and that to compensate for the thick, cavernous crack that carved through the center of the park. Soil was overturned and cursed smoke bled into the sky, though the rain kept it from rising too far.
You wondered if the veil between this world and the Upside Down was the thinnest here. This was, after all, the place where Vecna first punctured his way through with his Curse.
A hiss gained your attention and you kept going, following Lucy despite the dread getting larger in your chest. Further into the park until it opened a cavernous maw that bore your heart to the world as you found yourself in front of the Munson's half-destroyed trailer.
The frame of the trailer was shorn apart, walls and siding jagged as the origin point of the gate started in what used to be the living room. Wayne had confided in you, about Chrissy; how he'd found her body, mangled in a way that would forever be burned behind his eyelids.
You hadn't realized at the time that Chrissy had been the vampire from the square. The one who had tried to carry you away. Would it have taken some weight off his mind to know she was...alive? If you could call it that? Did he already know? Or would it add insult to injury knowing this was a worse fate for her?
A soft brrr and your eyes zeroed in on Lucy sitting on the counter in the kitchen, the open mouth of the trailer exposing it to the elements. She watched you for a second before she jumped off the counter and disappeared down the hall leading to Eddie's room.
It was then that the ghosts decided to appear.
You crawled up the side of the trailer, on the half-demolished porch steps and into the kitchen. There the two of you stood, huddled next to the stove, arms around each other as you waited for the water to boil for hot cocoa and marshmallows; so stupidly affectionate after making up from one of a dozen dumb fights. The ghosts disappeared as you passed, and suddenly there was no pan on the stove. There wasn't even a stove anymore. The wall of mugs gone. Even the doors on the cabinets were half-broken.
You continued down the hall, where you could hear your own fists pounding on the side door on that fateful night. After you crawled from the Earth after the tunnels collapsed, the only place you knew you'd find comfort was here. Was with Eddie.
Was that why Kas had chosen to resurrect Billy in such a way? To mirror your own ascent, crawling from Hell? Born anew?
The phantom of Eddie ran out of his bedroom and opened the door for you, and you collapsed against him sobbing. You watched as he held you, soothed you, wiped the dirt off your skin and promised it would all be ok. And as he kissed your forehead, they were gone.
There shouldn't have been electricity, it should have been the first thing FEMA cut off...but a light flickered in the bathroom.
On and off and on and off and on.
On. Off. On. Off. On.
On and off and on and off and on.
You stared at it, felt your throat get tight.
You blinked, hard, and the bulb over the sink exploded.
It wouldn't misfire anymore.
If only you'd have investigated that a little further, just to save yourself the heartache that awaited you in the bedroom.
Because as soon as you stepped over the threshold, you became overwhelmed. This was where you spent so much time together, why wouldn't the ghost be active and abundant here?
Sitting on the floor by the stereo listening to mixtapes. Sleeping, talking, writing, laughing. There was one of you pacing at the foot of the bed. One of him running through the door with a bag of McDonalds French fries for you to share. A set of you in the bed, limbs intertwined, whispering words of devotion as your bodies became one.
You stared at them the longest, eyes burning because you refused to blink.
Once you did they would be gone and you would be alone again. Alone with the person you hated the most in the world: yourself.
The you in your mind would always have her Eddie, but the you here would never have him again.
You ached to be back there.
What you wouldn't give to be back there, back there with him. Turn back the clock and say damn Hawkins, damn destiny, damn the world. You would sooner rip out your own heart than follow Gabriel to the tunnels that night in November of 84. The words, the oath, the fire, the dirt. Why did you go there when you could have come back here?
You could hear Gabriel's stupid voice echoing in your head, words that he'd repeated too many times after you'd ask him why, when, how you could come back to Hawkins, back to Eddie.
"Godly sorrow brings repentance that leads to salvation and leaves no regret. Worldly sorrow brings death."
"Then I would rather die," you hissed now, aloud, as you watch the ghosts reach the pinnacle of pleasure and melt into each other. A great, glorious being with two heads and four arms, four legs, and one heart.
You held the tears at bay for as long as you could until you shut your eyes. The ghosts began to evaporate around you, whispered words faded into the din of the rain outside, until it was silent.
Until you were alone again.
You didn't want to open your eyes again, didn't want to face reality again, but when you did...you found a pile of cassettes on the ground.
You kicked them, gently, nudged them with your toe. Almost as though you expected them to disappear too.
And when they didn't, you knelt down and looked through them.
You should have been looking for Lucy. And further still, you should have been trying to find Fred before he healed too much and disappeared back through the gate, if he hadn't already. But curiosity got the better of you.
But no one was here to judge you. Wayne wasn't here to catch you snooping, wanting the last little remnants of Eddie that you could latch onto before you walked away and left the trailer to rot. Sure, you had asked Wayne and you could ask him more, but it was the little things that he didn't know, the secret things that were only between the two of you, that you hungered for again.
So you moved around his room and dug through the little piles of abandoned objects, blew off layers of dust, and scraped the tiniest bit of psychometric energy off them and directly into your heart.
Eddie screamed "this is music" when Robin called his tapes shit, that he needed real music. How many times had he said that to you when you'd attempt to put one of your tapes in?
A loaf of bread that, now, was just a moldy, desiccated mess. But a brush of your fingers over the plastic brought an Eddie sitting on the floor quietly tinkering away on an original song and getting hungry for PB&J.
Postcards and posters and random bits ripped out from magazines all scattered across his dresser and then tucked into the side of the mirror...two tickets.
Ozzy Osbourne with Special Guest Metallica
Tuesday April 8, 1986
7:30PM
Market Square Arena
Tears built up in your eyes as you ran your fingers over the faded ink.
The tickets being handed over to Eddie and Jeff who then started screaming on the sidewalk in front of the box office, how Eddie refused to let Jeff keep his ticket.
"Nah man, I'll keep them safe. With my life."
Talking about it to Wayne once a week, how they'd have to miss a set at the Hideout but it was ok. How often did you get to see Ozzy and Metallica?
Him practicing songs from the new album every night in front of the mirror, every night for 3 weeks since its release all while staring at the tickets and his eyes drifted up to...
You frowned, and concentrated.
Eddie's eyes drifted up from the tickets to...
You moved your hand off the tickets until you touched the glass of the mirror; something had been there.
Eddie walked into his bedroom in a daze, clutching a tiny piece of paper in his hand. No...not paper. It was stiffer...card stock. There were tears in his eyes, but a smile on his lips.
You gasped and pulled your hand from the mirror. You immediately dug into your pocket and pulled the same piece of cardstock, the one you'd fumbled with at Rick's when you didn't want Wayne to know you were snooping. It had come from here.
No.
It had come from you.
You hadn't tried to pick emotions from it before, hadn't tried to lift memories, but now you were primed for it. Images flashed before your eyes.
Of you standing in front of a drugstore Christmas card display debating yourself for the perfect one, agonizing as you sat at the little desk in a motel room wondering just what to write. Could you tell him where you'd been? How much you missed him? Beg him to wait for you, again? To keep waiting?
In the end you knew you couldn't say anything, just a heart.
Of Eddie eagerly opening the card, recognizing your handwriting and the little butt-shaped heart you drew inside. Of his hope that he poured onto the paper that you hadn't abandoned him, hadn't forgotten him. He'd just have to wait. He'd wait forever. And every day he'd kiss his fingers and strum the strings of his beloved guitar and then press those same fingers to the cartoonish little mug of hot cocoa on the front of your card.
Wayne had said he'd taken things that meant the most to Eddie when he left...t-shirts, books, his guitar...and not the concert tickets...but your card.
You thought back to a card of your own. Sent to you from your father at Christmas. The beautiful drawing of the Loch Ness monster and his pathetic "Merry Christmas, From Dad" written inside. How irrationally angry you were that he would send you a card, after he'd said such terrible words to you, after he tried to force you to accept fate when he realized he was on the path to failure. You'd ripped the card up.
Now, in this moment...staring at the card that Eddie cherished, one that you'd cowardly sent without even signing...you felt some kind of understanding with your father. For the first time, truly, in your entire life. How much you would give...for a normal life for your loved ones.
And you knew how much stronger than you Eddie was, how patient he could be...how much more love that he had to give. How much more trust and faith he had.
Tears dripped on the card and you quickly wiped them away with the cuff of your jacket.
You were loath to do it, but you shoved the card back in the corner of the mirror where it belonged. You kissed your fingers and pressed it to the front of the card, and for the briefest moment you could feel the Eddie that lived deep inside you smile.
You cleared your throat and went back to digging and you noticed, there on the bed, a book.
Advanced Dungeons & Dragons Dungeon Masters Guide
Pages were randomly sticking out of it. Just like the books that had been at Rick's. You helped yourself as you began flipping and your thoughts fondly turned back to your own long sessions ahead of Halloween, when Eddie had convinced you to join Hellfire for one night only. Character creation and the mechanics of the game. He'd told you stories of monsters and villains like Xanathar and Vecna and...
"Wait," you paused. "Vecna."
Sure, Dustin had told you that Vecna was Henry Creel. But you'd never questioned the origin of the name. Villains gave themselves dumb names all the time. Like Batman's Calendar Man or Mad Max's Lord Humungus.
You flipped frantically, page after page after page...eyes scanning over unfamiliar words haphazardly. You didn't care about hit points and spells and experience, you needed to find one thing.
One thing that was on the tip of your tongue, the corner of your mind, you knew you knew it but you didn't know where...until now.
The Sword of Kas
"When Vecna grew in power," you read aloud. "He appointed the most evil and ruthless lieutenant to serve as his bodyguard and righthand. That henchman was the vampire lord Kas. For a long time Kas faithfully served the lich but legend says that the destruction of Vecna was brought on by Kas and the world was made brighter thereby. Son of a BITCH."
You picked up the book and threw it across the bedroom, where it crashed into a lamp and fell to the floor.
You backed out of the bedroom and back down the hall, into the kitchen. The wind whipped heavily outside and you knew you needed to find Lucy and leave...go back to the Harringtons and demand an answer but...how could you face the reality outside of those walls?
You needed a minute...to process all of it.
You stood over the sink, stared at the scummy drain and the basin filled with half-decaying leaves that had blown in.
Your heart was pounding, ears ringing, and your left arm started hurting, hand stiff and tingling where you clutched the edge of the counter; it could have been a heart attack but it could also have been everything that you'd been told since coming to Hawkins had been...what...a lie?
And here you were after a week and you had to start from square one again.
"It's ok, it's ok," you clenched your eyes shut and muttered to yourself. "It's not starting back at square one. You already know some things. So what? So what? So what his name isn't really Kas; you never knew someone named Kas in town anyway, did you really think that it was a real name?
"Of course you did. So why did they lie? The kids...Dustin...he must have come up with the name because...duh vampire. Makes sense. But then why wouldn't they tell you who Kas really was?"
You opened your eyes and stared into the sink again, then off to the side, sliding your eyes along the grout lines to help you calm yourself.
You were like a ticking time bomb of emotion. The...anger and sadness and mourning and need...all churning in your body. You were being selfish; these people, your former neighbors, had seen a lot. And here you'd come into town with your...Knight of the Holy Order spiel, spouting off how you'd be here to help and so far everything had truly...truly not worked in your favor.
"It's because I'm not trustworthy." You clenched a fist and hit the counter. "I know that."
What had you done? But...kill one of their friends and do whatever you wanted, go wherever you wanted...kept secrets. That's why you left the house earlier because you needed some space. And so did they. You being right under their nose, fucking up every step of the way, wasn't gonna do anything to earn their trust.
"And if they just trusted me, then I could help."
"And who's going to help you?" came a soft voice behind you.
You jumped and turned and saw her, hanging upside down from the jagged edge of the roof. Her hair cascaded down in a curtain to the floor, all perfect golden curls with a copper tint.
"Hello angel," she said in a long, breathy, drawn-out taunt, and then in a feat of impressive acrobatics, swung her body off the roof, flipping herself to stand upright.
She was a cheerleader after all.
"Nice to finally meet you too," you greeted calmly. "Chrissy."
She looked different than she had in the square, less bat-like, less creature-like, unless that was just your imagination now being so close to her. A strange mix of unsettling monster and conventional beauty. Her limbs were still long and a little in-human, but her pallor was less...dead. Her wings dragged along the ground behind her as she took one step towards you, then another. Her demon-like eyes, just like Fred's, stuck on you as you backed along the counter.
She grinned, all pretty, pouty lips and sharp, deadly teeth.
You mentally calculated how you could defend yourself if she decided to attack you here. The knife you had...fuck it was somewhere. Had you dropped it when Lucy had shown up? Regardless, all you had left was the crucifix tucked into your jeans and...yourself. Your powers. The thunder and lightning and rain still falling outside would be an easy conductor for a some kind of defensive play if you needed to.
The gate...also was an option. Crack the earth open further and swallowed her whole. But that wasn't a route you truly wished to explore just yet.
"You're thinking naughty things," Chrissy sing-singed. "Mean things. I'm not gonna hurt you. Not like the others want me to. Why do you want to hurt me?"
"You've hurt a lot of people," you explain. "Your master has."
"Master," she closed her eyes and stopped in her tracks for a moment. "He likes that. Master of Puppets, I'm pulling your strings. Yeah he likes that."
"Yeah? Nice to know he's happy."
"See?" she held her hands--claws--out to you. "We both want him to be happy. We can work together."
"Did you lose the ability to understand sarcasm when you died?" you snarked at her. Her smile dropped and her cheeks twitched. "He's a monster. He's a villain. He's killing people."
"He doesn't like what you're saying about him."
"Tough."
"You should be nicer, after all he's done."
"I'm not nice," you spit at her.
You'd shuffled to the edge of the kitchen but when you turned to try and make a getaway down the hall, you were immediately stopped by a solid wall of muscle. Clawed hands grabbed your biceps and pushed you away, then a mouth full of jagged teeth roared in your face, spittle and blood spraying you thoroughly.
If Chrissy felt more human and Fred more monstrous, Patrick was somewhere in the middle. His jaw was still slightly dislocated, from Vecna's curse or his own lack of care while feeding, you weren't sure. He was lithe and long, like a dancer, and he was strong. He turned you back to face Chrissy, and gripped your arms tightly; you could feel his claws puncture your jacket, your skin, deep enough you were sure he drew blood.
"You can't run," he hissed. "Don't run."
"Don't fight it," Chrissy continued, desperately. "Why do you fight it? He just wants you--"
"Wants me dead," you finished for her.
"He wants you," Patrick repeated, grip getting tighter. "He needs you."
Chrissy lunged for you then, one claw coming to your throat, the other gripping your jaw. You closed your eyes and tried to focus; you needed to get them off of you, needed to...expel them. You listened to the rolling thunder outside, trying to ignore the raspy hissing breaths in your ears.
If you could just...time it right...you could strike at least one of them with lightning.
You listened to the rumble and thought about an ocean...and...sea monsters.
You thought about Odysseus crossing the strait of Messina and encountering Scylla and Charybdis. A decision similar to yours right now; an adventure led astray that led to an impossible decision. Which path could he take that would cause the least damage? Which path could you? Strike Patrick and surely Chrissy would snap your neck; strike Chrissy and Patrick would tear out your throat.
Shit, even Odysseus had a fig tree to cling to.
You wracked your brain, tried to stay calm.
Until Chrissy's hands turned gentler, filled with care. Her thumb caressed your chin, then your cheek. The claw around your throat loosened, and she cupped your face in both hands.
"I feel what lurks," she hissed, breath fanning across your skin. "In your lusting heart."
"I hope you have a heart, because I'm gonna drive a stake through it," you spat at her.
Her fingers pressed into your face, punishingly, and then went soft again. She chuckled, deeply; not like the simpering giggle she'd given before. Something raspy from within her chest.
"You're funny." Chrissy continued, but there was a rumble in her voice now. Deep and dark and secret. "Denial...not just a river in Egypt. How's that for a joke? Why did you come here? Why did you come back?"
It wasn't Chrissy anymore.
"It's personal," you told her.
"Isn't it? It's just between us."
It was Kas.
Except Kas wasn't Kas anymore he was...something. And your mind bent trying to make sense of just who was on the other side of Chrissy's mind.
You felt her get closer to you and Patrick's grip on you tighten; the metaphorical rock and hard place that you'd been considering closing in on you. Your decision gone; you'd have to destroy them both.
But Chrissy's fingers kept up their gentle ministrations. Over your cheeks, then your brow, down the slope of your nose, over your lips. And if you ignored the rasp of her claws along your skin, you could almost imagine another set of hands. Doing what they always did. Soothing your thoughts, bringing you joy and comfort and love.
And surrounded by all of the memories, all of the ghosts that lived in the walls of the trailer it was overwhelming. A tear trailed down your cheek as you thought of him.
"Shhhh" she whispered, her own mouth close to yours now. She kissed away the tear as it rolled nearby. "Don't cry. How long?"
"It's personal," you repeated, but your mind flashed to the ghosts in the bed earlier, the memory of the two of you on a rainy October afternoon just like this one.
You hadn't thought of...another person like that since Eddie. You'd only ever thought of him after you were gone, and especially after he was. It was a self-imposed abstinence, but...well shit you were grieving. For yourself, for him. Your goal wasn't...pleasure...it was...Heaven. And heaven only ever was where he was, so if he was dead, so was your pleasure.
You knew that wasn't what Kas meant.
"Three years?"
But maybe it was.
"It's personal."
"I told you, it's just between us. How personal can it be?"
You grit your teeth, and turned your head away as best you could. The hands moved down your face, to your neck, fiddled with the remnant of Barb's bite. There was a growling between Chrissy and Patrick, but Kas continued.
"You want to be here."
"I don't."
"In Hawkins? Yes." The chuckling returned. "Yes you do."
The thumb ran slowly over the bite and you shivered, each ridge tender. There was a soft tsking noise, and then kisses up your cheek.
"I'm sorry." A lick over your skin, tongue flicking at the end. "But you're lying to yourself. You want to be here. You've been thinking about it since you set foot in the city limits; you're practically screaming it. Broadcasting it for all of Hawkins to hear. You're home."
"I..." Where was the lie in that? You had thought it, the minute you'd driven in town. You were home, in Hawkins. It was your home in a broad sense. This trailer was home. Eddie was home.
You hiccuped and scrunched your face up.
"Shhh," came a soothing sound, kisses over each of your eyes, just like Eddie would when you were upset.
"Get out of my head."
"I'm not in your head. I'm here. With you." You could hear the little grin in his voice. "But you're here, with me. You give a little, I give a little. A little back and forth. A partnership; we're both familiar with that aren't we? It's been a while...but it's just like riding a bike."
The hands moved...down...down...to the button of your jeans. Soon they were open and down further still, claws rasped against skin and cotton.
"I can give you everything you want. Everything you left behind."
There was that chuckle again, from Patrick this time, who pulled you closer against him, your back along the length of him. You could feel every limb accommodate the differences in your physiology. Vampire and human, unholy and divine. He began moving against you, length hardening into a prominent ridge against the softness of your rear. And Chrissy along your front, leaving sweet kisses and caresses, her fangs dragged over your skin intermittently as Kas continued his little speech, made his offer.
"But that means I get what I want too."
But which one was Kas? Were they both Kas? Were...
You couldn't think, the hands shifted just enough to play with your folds. You'd already been thinking of pleasure and Eddie, everything you'd lost and everything that could have been waiting for you. You were only human, of course you were going to respond.
It was a physical reaction...only a physical reaction, but...a little pleasure never hurt.
You nodded and fingers dipped, played with your clit, dragged your slickness up from your weeping, wanting hole to make it as sweet for you as they could.
Your head rolled back and rested against Patrick who had started breathing heavily behind you, huffing and heaving, a whispered so good, so sweet, as he used you.
"Ah but you already said it," there was a smirk. "I want you? I have you."
You had said that, hadn't you?
You thought of...god you could hardly think, but you thought of that last lazy morning together before you left. You late to work, Eddie late to school. He was behind you, face buried in your neck, fingers buried in your pussy as you both chased a high. A game of just enough but not quite too much followed by luscious words that helped get you to the edge together. He always told you how sweet you were. He liked to...
Fingers curled within you but bent in an oddly inhuman way that still abused your clit and brought you further along. You inadvertently clenched as the claws scratched and stung, and they both froze and hissed for a moment.
"Mine," they said in tandem, and then the movement became harder.
Rocking bodies, thrusting and bucking, fingers sliding in and out of your tight slit, palm grinding on your clit both delicately and punishingly, until a single tear became a river, and the storm outside emanated from you instead. You clenched your hands as Chrissy chased your high, as she pushed you over the precipice, as she stopped focusing on your channel and only focused on working your pleasure out of you for as long as she could. Legs weak, you arched away from Patrick and he chased you as well, pistoned his hips against yours until his own release followed.
You heard a distant clang of something falling to the floor, and your eyes snapped open.
And it was like a switch was flipped.
Patrick pulled you against him and Kas was gone; only a monster remained. A hungry one. And those fangs that had roared in your face just minutes easier buried themselves deep in your neck, the good side. They ripped into you and pulled, mouthful after mouthful of blood. It was a punishing kind of pain, especially with the remnants of an orgasm still coursing through you.
Chrissy was next, the gentleness in her gone, her hand, still slick, grabbed your chin yo keep you steady and with a feral grin she dove in and tore through the partially healed bite from Barb to take her own fill.
Their arms held you still while your body got weaker.
In your hazy mind you wondered if it had all been a trap. If Kas had wanted to take you out this way, obstacle removed by way of temptation.
You thought you heard your name.
There was a rumble and an unholy screech and before everything went dark, Chrissy and Patrick both ripped themselves away from your neck. Your blood splashed on the floor and dripped from their sharp mouths as they hissed at something.
But you couldn't keep your eyes open.
You were lost.
“The only way to get rid of temptation is to yield to it.”
― Oscar Wilde, The Picture of Dorian Gray
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