#also if you're sending anon hate.....maybe.......get a hobby..........

[jilyawards]

I think people have legitimate concerns about the awards since every year there seems to be some kind of drama that often results in people leaving the fandom.

The responses to these anons have been passive aggressive and defensive and have only fuelled the flames without taking into account the history of these awards and the ways people have been hurt by them before. You might be new to running the awards, but the awards have a long history that honestly hasn't always been good.

As mods you're hiding behind anonymity, which I understand considering the hate that the mods have received in the past, but it does add to the level of distrust around the awards and if you're so scared of getting hate about a project that you won't put your name to it, isn't that a sign that maybe it's time to let that project go?

It also means I don't feel like I can send you a message that's not anon because I don't know who I'm speaking with and there's no opportunity for open discourse.

We understand people have had issues with how the awards were run in the past - that is an unfortunate fact we inherited when we took ownership of the blog. We can not change the past. We can only operate in the present so we did all we could within our power to make it as fair and fun a process as we possibly could:

We turned the awards blog into a year round thing, we accepted any fic that came in so long as it was Jily. We posted those recs every single month without fail.

We offered the ability to opt out - something that has been used historically - so anyone who wanted to opt out for whatever reason could. We said we didn’t need a reason, we didn’t ask for one because we respect peoples opinions and want to opt out. We even extended the branch to those who opted out last year but hadn’t messaged in this year to say they wanted to opt out again just in case someone forgot.

We offered even more categories for the chance at more opportunities to be named - so that those who write long vs short fics weren’t overshadowed. I will stand and name myself as one of the people running this year if it puts and end to this unnecessary back and forth with an anonymous person or persons. You are welcome to come and DM me.

I Ray, @charmsandtealeaves have been doing my best for this fandom for the better part of the past two years.

I’m sorry if you read our response as passive aggressive. I’ve stated that we wanted to be firm on our stance so you can interpret that as defensive if you want - because of course as one of the people behind the scenes doing all the admin hours I obviously think this venture is worthwhile. I haven’t won an award but I did enjoy the experience of seeing nominations and hyping up my friends. Which is why I stepped up when Ava left. I haven’t been around long enough to know the years of fandom drama and history behind a silly little awards thing, or who has apparent beef with whom - and frankly I don’t care. I’m here to read, write and share Jily fic.

The anon expressed concerns about people’s mental health over not winning. Mental health is a genuine concern and I am a massive advocate for it. However, I still believe if you only exist to create to win one of these awards then you’re creating for the wrong reason. And if you are upset because you weren’t nominated for an award - there is the option to nominate yourself and always has been because nominations are anonymous we don’t release how many times someone was nominated because that doesn’t matter it only takes one - if not being nominated is enough to leave the fandom over it… then I’m sorry but that’s something you personally need to work on and maybe you should start seeing this (being writing fic) for what it is - a hobby done for free and for fun.

I continued the anonymity left by Ava for this exact reason. Because no matter if I say so publicly or not there are going to be people who have strong opinions against the awards and they are entitled to them, and they are entitled not to participate. They are not however, entitled to keep sending messages that we shouldn’t exist because of something that happened years ago and because some don’t think they should exist at all. And I didn’t want that in my personal inbox but also understood that anonymous asks let people ask questions they might be too shy to ask public facing so they stayed on over here.

I’ve been the public face behind a lot of events over the last two years and that hasn’t stopped me getting anonymous messages about how I’m doing it all wrong. Or quite frankly worse ones that were derogatory and personal.

I’ve done what was asked. I addressed the concerns that came in the form of an anonymous ask politely and respectfully given this year’s history. I offered a poll as requested. If you read that response as passive aggressive well… that’s down to your interpretation. I’ve had enough of drama. And from all I’ve seen the drama stems from something I wasn’t even around for and has nothing to do with me, or how the awards have run this year. It has nothing to do with our current existence and the effort I’ve put in this year - both to the Jily awards all year, the gift exchange, Jilytoberfest, every Jilychallenge, Mystery Microfic May, jilymicrofics and the discord.

At the end of the day I’m here writing because I love Jily and I love all the people who come to read and enjoy what I put out too. But I will admit I’m tried of whatever this is.

If you want to, as you say have open discorse, my inbox is there, but I’ve said my piece and I respect their are different opinions but that’s not gonna change the awards being held this year. All posts are tagged so you can block them or this blog if you like. ~ Ray

[triaelf9]

AHAHA aww, the critter artist hater is still out there and active! I was so worried that they'd actually gotten a real hobby and that I wasn't still living rent free in their head, but looks like they're still working SO hard to send hate even tho I've blocked them everywhere LOL

Also, sweetheart, it's "YOUR art is trash and so are you" not "you art". Maybe you could retake elementary school grammar instead of being an anon troll? Anywho, glad to see you're doing okay, XOXOXO!

Remember, you can support me on p@treon & K0-fi to see more trash art! 😘

No but seriously it's okay to feel good about yourself, you don't need to shit on other people to feel better. I hope you get the help you need ^_^

[altheneum-cafe]

ALLOW ME TO INTRODUCE MYSELF~

Well hello there, I'm Flor! I'm a writer for hobby and I'd love to thank you for coming here to read this newly written introduction letter!

come down for tea and relax, won't you? maybe you can go ahead and explore around, I don't mind a thing! go ahead and feel at home. you may also like to read a thing or two of what I've written for both personal and external joys for others all around!

if you don't like or are uncomfortable with what I offer, I suggest you peacefully leave me be and not cause a ruckus around yourself. I'm sure you have plenty of better things to do than that!

☕ RULEBOARD:

~ I will not condone toxicity and hate upon this blog, this blog is to be a safe space for good and wholesome people!

~ I will not make this blog a safe space for pedophiles, zoophiles, racists, etc. get out. this includes proshipping of any variety.

~ generally, don't request for anything that's morally wrong!

~ You are allowed to send an ask without anon on, I'll just take a screenshot and answer that way

~ give yourself a name if you're in anon, just in case you come around again! you're welcomed here, think of yourself as an incoming regular customer :]

🌾THE MENU:

🧋boba tea - wholesome

☕ black coffee - angst

🍵 tea - comfort

🍋‍🟩 lime = light smut

🍋 lemon = heavy smut

🥩 hearty meal = includes blood/gore

.............................................

WHAT IS ALLOWED: Romantic, QueerPlatonic, Platonic, Familial, and Spicy requests

WHAT ISN'T ALLOWED; basic negative criteria

THE LIMIT IS; three to four drops of characters!

🍰 WHITELIST:

~ ENA

~ HFJONE

~ PRESSURE

~ PHIGHTING

~ FORSAKEN

~ BLOCKTALES

~ ROBLOX MYTHS

~ REGRETEVATOR

~ KAIJU PARADISE

~ DANDY'S WORLD

~ ROBLOX; MUGEN

~ ANIMATIC BATTLE

~ CULT OF THE LAMB

~ INANIMATE INSANITY

~ SHOVELWARE'S BRAIN GAME

~ FRIDAY NIGHT FUNKIN' (and mods)

~ CHONNY'S CHARMING CHAOS COMPENDIUM

THE REGULARS

INBOX IS OPEN FOR REQUESTS

all dividers belong to: @/ianrkives, @/enchanthings-a, @/rosaris, @/stranger-graphics, @/thecutestgrotto, @/anitalenia, @/kodaswrld, @/sisterlucifer, @/sweetmelodygraphics, @/popmilky, @/mikeybuns, @/bernardsbendystraws, @/edenspoem

[watercolor-hearts]

The Agent of Chaos told me I can answer this week's questions because they couldn't send it because my anon was turned off, so here's me yapping because I love answering questions. Long post, sorry.

The question is: “Which is your hobbies outside Racing? Mine is annoying people and flood their inbox apparently”

As I mentioned it in the “Get To Know Me” post, around the end of primary school and in high school, I used to really love makeup and I'd always go to the drugstore and check the new stuff and buy them, and after a while I started buying high quality stuff, too, mostly lipsticks, a Dior highlighter and eyeshadow palettes (my favorite brand was Natasha Denona for eyeshadow palettes). But after a while, when I felt like I had all the palettes and other stuff I wanted and the brands starting coming out with all the same things, I lost interest in makeup. (I still do it for family members if they ask me but on myself I really rarely do it anymore. I think in the last two years I only put on eyeshadow once, when I went to a Ludovico Einaudi concert a month ago.)

I also mentioned in the same post that I like to do nail art, which started with simple nail polish for me and in the last two years I switched to gel polish. Even though I'm a lesbian, and they stereotypically have short nails, I enjoy having long(er) nails. 😃 (Maybe because I'm planning to be single forever.)

In primary school I learned to embroider and bought a lot of embroidery thread only to start working on an amatomical heart and lose interest in it. But the interest came back in the first semester of my second uni year so I started working on an anatomical heart again, this time I got close to half of it before losing interest again and just using it as a dust catcher in the second semester after I realized it doesn't look like how I wanted it to look because I was using the wrong stitch. (One of the few I learned.) So that's two hobbies I got bored of/lost interest in so far. I lose interest in a lot of things after a while, sports, series, everything.

So now let's move on to hobbies I still like/do. I started writing in primary school. (It looks like I started everything there...) I think I started it in/around 2014 or something. So yeah, it's been more than ten years, which is pretty insane to me. Of course the majority of these 10+ years was spent with writing in my native language, I only started writing in English in 2022 when I joined the F1 fandom, which was kind of non-existent in my native language, so that's why you can't see that 10+ years on my English writing. I love writing and I love reading my own stories. Also, yeah, reading is another hobby of mine, before I forget to mention it. I love reading fanfics. I used to love reading books, too, but I've collected a few triggers in the past few years so I'm not brave enough to read physical books anymore. And I'm not really interested in OCs, RPF is my world.

I like braiding hair, too, and I do it pretty often for family members and my ex-roommate used to ask me to braid her hair, too. I wish someone would braid mine, too.

And last but not least, drawing. Which did not start in primary school. 😃 It actually started in kindergarten. And is still going strong, even though in the last 7 years it has become a job and not really a hobby anymore (5 years of art high school, 2 years (so far) of graphic design uni) which kinda killed the vibe. I really didn't like drawing in high school because you know, if you're in an art school, they tell you what to draw, how, when etc. and I really didn't like it. I thought in uni it'll be better but because I still had traditional art courses in the first two semester, I still hated every single moment of it because I'm mainly a portrait artist, I don't enjoy drawing buildings and cubes and stuff (okay, cubes can be fun after you understand them). The third semester was better because I didn't have any drawing-related courses, I could finally enjoy drawing my racing driver portraits again. But in the fourt semester, ✨illustration✨ course have arrived and the first assigment (character design) made things really difficult again because even though I spent 5 years in an art high school, my anatomy (and color theory application) knowledge is pretty weak because Covid was basically right in the middle of my high school studies so we had online lessons for 1,5 years and you can't really teach anatomy for artist online. Or not as well as you could in person. So yeah, I'm shit at full body stuff, hated the first assigment and struggled a lot. The other assigments were better but I was so burnt out I started crying in front of the teacher because of the last assigment. Great. But at least I sketched Pecco and Ai Ogura because the teacher wanted us to draw as many sketches as possible. And I drew a few rider portraits in the last semester, they can be found in my art tag. So yeah, I love drawing but I won't be an illustrator, that's for sure because I don't enjoy drawing characters, especially not in multiple positions for book illustrations and stuff. Drawing is kind of like a therapy for me, I like doing it because I don't really have to think while doing it and I enjoy seeing how the drawings come together.

I don't know if anybody will reach this, but if you did, thank you for reading it. Have a nice day/night. ❤

[this-is-krikkit]

Hello, Kit! I was wondering, so you have any tips for dealing with writer's block?

hey anon! sure, first off you can try some of this post's advice, i personally recommend these and would add letting go of the fic you're currently trying to write if it's one specific work you're stuck on, and switching to another. either simply to another fic (either a completely new one, or a very old idea you forgot was even in your drafts), or even to another ship or fandom! this might sound odd, but i'd also recommend doing mindless chores around the house, i've gotten a ton of ideas for writing while specifically washing dishes (and accidentally hurting myself in the process, so now i'm not allowed to daydream while handling knives anymore 🥺). rewatching canon material can be cool too, and therapeutic so you can stop lowkey hating your blorbos for not acting as you want them to in your writing and remind yourself just why you fell in love with them in the first place!

on a deeper level, maybe try and understand what's blocking you? in my case, i find it's often the fact that i compare myself to other writers, or that i think of how my writing will be received instead of actually doing it. sometimes i envision a perfect result and get frustrated because i don't know how to Get There, and in those moments i try and tell myself to stop being a snobbish asshole and expect masterpieces when i'm just a silly birl who writes for fun, not even in their first language, and all for a bunch of other mostly well-meaning and equally as in love with my blorbos lil freaks online, so like! the stakes aren't that high, you know? you owe progress to no one but yourself in your wips.

overall, i'd say remember that you're supposed to enjoy writing as a hobby and, if you don't right now, then take a goddamn break. no matter what our content-crazy era is trying to get you to believe, there is no fucking rush

sending you all the inspiration you need and the peace of mind you deserve about your writing, anon 😘🫴♥️

[spongenadey25]

Hey Nadey! I hope you’re having a better day today, I’m so sorry you’re getting anon hate that sucks dude…

I just wanted to speak on behalf of that user, I won’t mention their name or anything, but as someone who’s close to them I wanted to let you know

They’ve had you blocked for months, if not a year, after whatever incident had happened between you, they don’t use any other forms of social media other than Twitter and here, and even so, they’ve had you blocked and genuinely has no idea why they’re being faulted or blamed, they have maybe one or two mutuals that you know.

They’re NOT in the Among Us fandom

They’re NOT in the Don’t Starve fandom

So whoever is sending you hate, IT’S NOT THEM, or any mutual they have. That user has even asked their moot’s and they’re equally confused and have no idea who is sending you hate.

I’m really sorry that you’re getting hate messages, no one should ever receive that, but it’s really unfair that you are putting the blame onto someone who has had you out of sight out of mind for possibly a year, that user is staying in their lane and focusing on their hobbies and life.

Seeing your page however, I see quite A LOT of posts regarding that user, not as much now, but there was a time you were focusing a lot of energy on them, when they weren’t even THINKING of you, I really do hope things become better

But I wanted to, at least hopefully reassure you in some way, that user has NOTHING, to do with any of this, or their friends. I’m really sorry this is happening to you tho

I agree tbh... Thanks for asking too...

Around 6 pm, me and a friend of mine in Discord did some detective work earlier, and we learned that "the user" himself is innocent... But who are even sending hate messages in my strawpage?

Yes I'm also sorry on behalf of "that user" as well... I am trying to move on tbh because of how much it mentally affects me... But why am still getting that kind of treatment? I didn't even do anything fr... (Yes I know "that user" isn't in either of the aforementioned fandoms...)

For now I'm investigating what's going on here, as they're turning me into a trash can filled with hate... It's kinda unfair that it's almost exams (almost a week) then I get... That...

And as for White... She didn't mean any harm at all, but was intrusive... But obviously, it mentions "them" so I have to let her delete the video on Tiktok...

It's degrading me that all of a sudden I get those people who send me negative prompts in my strawpage... And obviously, me and "the user" are confused... Right now... And I just want to excitedly check my strawpage yesterday afternoon, then I get a frown on my face (after class while spending time with my friends)...

And as for me before about spending much energy on them... Now... never. I'm focusing on myself, family, friends (online or classmates), and my college life. It's hellish and I have to give it all for my own life...

Thanks for the anon too... I'm really wondering what kind of harsh treatment I am getting in my strawpage...

And a message for the user... Have fun (no sarcasm). Live your life to the fullest. Have your own accomplishments, have fun with your hyperfixations. I'm sorry if this happened. I had some phobic flashbacks because... "Of before"... You're innocent and we learned of it earlier... (Might need a translator for ya) Pasenyahan tayo dito dahil sa mga nang-aabuso sa akin kahapon sa aking strawpage... Nakakainis na biglaang ganoon ang nangyari sa akin... Salamat po.

[a-hell-of-a-time]

A warning for those who are tired and do not want to see any more drama: Please adhere to my tags and blacklist/block this post.

This is going to be the only post on this topic, and as explained below, anon is being turned off. You wanted to fuck around on anon? You're going to find out.

Under a read more for length and bullshit that people should be done with by now but apparently it's wank material for people who can't go outside and touch grass:

((It seems that I can no longer ignore the anons who have a hate boner for Stolas and have now decided to target me, which is forcing my hand to say something.

Note that I have been blocking and ignoring these anons for my own health and well being, and I have my own reasons for why I follow people I do. I also have had good friends harassed and bullied off this site because people cannot fucking leave Stolas alone and need to stir the pot and drag everyone else into shit despite having told these freaks that they wanted nothing to do with it.

Now said freak anons have appeared on my doorstep and I can no longer ignore this shit.

So first I want to say this: If you have any basic human decency or balls, you will approach me OFF OF ANON to discuss shit. Stop hiding behind a grey face to save your ass; if you cannot own up to the shit you're causing, then don't cause it in the first place.

To back up this point: I will be disabling anon after this post. If you still wish to start shit with me, you will have no choice but to reveal your identity, and I will be sure to report you for this bullshit because it's gone on long enough. I am a grown ass adult with chronic illnesses now and do not have the time to even be humouring this bullshit.

Now to address the anon in question:

First off: You have the balls to threaten me behind an anonymous mask, which is mildly impressive if not completely cowardly. When anon goes off, we will see just how confident and ballsy you are then, hmm?

Secondly: I am not liking to the post you're referring to because the mun in question is tired of this shit, and unlike YOU, I REFUSE to drag them into this more than they already have. Clearly you have an issue with stalking and harassment, two behaviours that I find fucking disgusting and will not tolerate. Hell, by rights I shouldn't be making this post because it's just going to fuel whatever shit you have in your mind and keep things going, but I am done being silent.

Thirdly: Just because I like a post does NOT mean I agree with EVERYTHING in it! Read this over carefully, a few times if you have to! Reading comprehension is a skill that does not come easily and takes time, so I recommend reading everything thoroughly and slowly.

Why I liked the post is because, like the mun who made it, I am tired and do not give a shit about the drama in the community and want it to stop. I do not give a flying fuck about the Stols drama and want to be left alone. That, and that alone is why I liked the post.

If this answer doesn't satisfy you and you still want to twist my words around/gaslight me like my mother's abuser does (and what you and maybe other anons have done to my friends for the past few months) then I cannot stop you, nor will I stop you. I do not have the time nor energy to do so, and this is a free hobby I do not get paid for.

You wanted my answer? You have it. If need be, I will explain myself to Stolas should they come to me and ask for clarification.

And with that, anon is now turned off and I will not be entertaining this bullshit anymore. I deeply apologize to those who like to use anon to send me awesome, funny, silly and otherwise good rp things. Unfortunately, as the saying goes 'One rotten apple spoils the bunch.'

Submissions are also turned off since I can see people trying to pull shit there too. If you have anything important to say, then you can square up and face me person to person without being anonymous.

[dogsliampaynedoesntinstagram]

Hey Ralph! I was wondering if you have any advice on dealing with the new year coming. I often get really anxious around the new year bc of all the productivity, must be better, must level up, must change yourself tremendously, must learn new things and try new hobbies and don’t quit kind of atmosphere that comes around this time of year. I hate it but fall for it every year and just feel bad about myself. I always with resolutions with things I genuinely want to do, but it always feels so daunting. I always feel such immense pressure to be better but never actually stick to it anyway so I feel like a failure. I feel like there’s something wrong with me. But I can’t accept that there are other perspectives. I also get a lot of pressure from family to get a new job, make more money, read self help books, etc. all throughout the year and it just ramps up during this time. I hate it but still feel the pressure to follow these ideas. Have you ever experienced something like this and if so how do you deal with this?

Oh anon - I'm so sorry your brain and people around you are fucking you up in this way. Sending heaps of love. Sorry this is too late to help with the specific new year's resolution question - but I hope it's helpful.

I definitely have had feelings like this, particularly this time of year. I remember a couple of years where I started feeling like things were going well and then when I hit any obstacle it felt like the entire year was ruined

You're feeling anxiety. And the thing about anxiety is that it's very easy to think that if we just do what it wants - it'll go away. But it doesn't - it asks for more. But at the same time if you fight anxiety it also gets worse. It's very easy to be anxious about something and go "I shouldn't be anxious" and be off in an anxious loop.

The goal, unfortunately, can't be to eliminate those thoughts, but to accept them and therefore minimising their power. It's really hard, and super annoying, but I do think it's the main way through.

A few bits of practical advice:

If at all possible stay away from the worst bits of social media for the next week or so (keep to tumblr where the only new year content I've seen is Virginia Wolf's New Year's Resolutions which were very wholesome). Not in a commitment to improve yourself - but just to stay away from media that reinforces your brainweasels while it's at its worst.

Create space away from your family. What this looks like will depend on what your life looks like. But their pressure will

I really enjoy Oliver Burkeman for this (this is a good sample - there are heaps of his columns at the Guardian and his book 4,000 weeks should be accessible on libby). He's a reformed productivity geek and he's providing an alternative perspective - while acknowledging their power. He has a new year podcast.

If you're thinking about New Year's resolutions next year - maybe think specifically about how to make things easier at this time of year (could you resolve to minimise your exposure to New Year content?)

I hope this help - but the important thing to remember is that you will find your way through this. It might be hard and feel hard today - being a person is often hard. But however this new year's goes, or next, you will learn how to make things work for you a little bit more.

[humanpurposes]

how did your passion for writing come about? Do you write just for pleasure or also for work? Cause you're incredibly talented and i assume, since you have a degree in politics and International relations, that you worked in journalism. probably it's just an assumption but it's a work that may fit you, i believe :)

Hi :) This is such a lovely ask, thanks for sending it!

I've been interested in writing for a long time, it's something my mum really encouraged when I was a little kid and she'd buy me blank notebooks to make my own stories. When I was in school I started to think that maybe I was good at creative writing because it was one of the few things I got good marks in without really thinking about it. And I was definitely more confident writing essays in humanities subjects over maths or science.

I've only really come into my own as a writer since I started writing fanfiction. When I was a teenager I'd have all these characters and ideas in my head, or ideas for fanfics of movies I loved, but I was never able to get the ball rolling. I'd write a few lines of dialogue then give up. Whatever it was about House of the Dragon (Ewan Mitchell in the long blond wig) just clicked for me. I started writing my first fic in November 2022 which I ended up ditching because I didn't like where the plot was going and also because I started working on Karma is a God, and decided to focus on that instead as my 'main series'.

Sadly, I'm not a professional writer (yet) but I really want to turn it into a career! It's funny, I started uni thinking I was going to go into politics or the civil service, but then in my second year I was like "actually I hate the sound of that. I want to be a ✨creative✨". It’s kinda crazy to me how much indulging a hobby completely shifted my career goals and even the way I view myself. I've always been into books, films and theatre, but now it's a whole different level. I feel so much more eager to absorb all the information and inspiration I can, and I feel so motivated seeing other people pursue what they love.

I've not done anything too interesting with my degree haha, a few internships and freelance jobs in social media and marketing. Since graduating, I've mostly been working in retail and attempting to work towards a career in acting. Acting and writing are my true loves and I figured I might as well embrace the uncertainty and the lack of job security while I'm in my early 20s and just go for it? If I don't make any money from creative endeavours I feel like there is so much I could do, writing in some form, marketing, anything in theatre or around the industry would be cool. I could see myself doing a Masters in History or Journalism actually, funny you should mention that.

At the moment, the goal is just to work. Be in plays. Be in a period drama. Write a short film. Write a fantasy series. And some kind of emotionally devastating magnum opus novel.

I've talked SO MUCH about myself, sorry 😭 But this was a really cute ask to get on a Sunday night! Hope you have a lovely week anon ❤️

[funtxmequeen]

Rules

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Do not reblog threads you are not apart of. This also applies to my headcanons, but I'm confident that the only people who reblog those are ppl who find it and don't realize this is an RP blog.

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Foxy is transfem. While I do not mind IN CHARACTER transph*bia for the sake of conflict and angst, I have an absolute ZERO TOLERANCE for ACTUAL transphobia. As such, anons who do not make it clear if the transph*bia is real or fake will be ip blocked immediately. (Ideally, send in an emoji of some sort so I can identify you, or if you're a mutual trying to stir up some drama, dm me ahead of time so we're on the same page.) Hate towards me or my muse will not be tolerated whatsoever.

IC transph*bia posts will be tagged "Transphobia," as a catch all, but if I need to make a specific tag, please tell me. I want the drama, but in no way do I want to make this blog unsafe for you. Any actual tr*nsphobic content I receive will not be posted.

If, even after all my efforts, this blog still does not feel safe to you, but you still would like to interact with me (not Foxy), DO NOT SOFT BLOCK ME! Some of you already know this, but this is not my only blog. Instead, please inform me that this blog makes you uncomfortable and you don't want to follow it. I will gladly reach out to you on my hub blog, and direct you to my other fnaf rp blogs. Your safety is more important than our hobby.

You never know what you're going to get with me. You may get a multipara starter/reply, you may get a few sentences. I don't expect you to match my length, especially if I've written a behemoth of a starter... but I do ask that you try to match my effort. If I'm writing a huge reply and you respond with something that doesn't match the setting or context, (and do this consistently,) I'm more than likely doing to drop threads, and if this keeps happening, I'll just soft block you. Yes I do this for fun, but I put abouts and rules and everything you need to know for a reason, and if you can't be bothered to put in the effort to read it, or properly read my responses, then don't even bother.

I am a mobile user. Maybe once in a while, I'll pop onto a computer at the library to fine tune posts like this, but it's hard, if not impossible for me to use the site to its full extent. As such, icons will not be used, tags will be scarce, and trimming posts will not be done the way I like.

Trimming posts are a strange area. I have adhd and autism, so the best way for a thread to be trimmed is with the last response still attached. This way I can remember what's going on in the thread, which will lead to an overall better rp experience. If posts don't get trimmed, I'll just have to make the reply and hit that big red X button that deletes everything before my response, so take that as a warning.

RESPECT MY FUCKING BOUNDARIES. I've had some issues with one individual who sucked me into this Fandom, they refused to take no for an answer, and forced me to rp an incest ship. This has scared me away from the rpc for years. If I say no, it does not mean "convince me," it means no. I have a three strikes your out policy.

I have a full-time job as a daycare teacher. I am not always online. Do not pester me for replies.

I like to talk in the DMs!! Please don't think that this is a passive aggressive attempt to get you to reply, as eager as I get, this is a hobby, and I will not rush you intentionally!! Please tell me politely if I make you feel rushed or don't want to talk via dms. (I personally just think that writing is more fun when you know your partners.) That being said, I do not want you feeling like you are responsible for my personal feelings, and vice versa. You are allowed to say no, I am allowed to say no. If you try and guilt trip me, that will count against your three strikes. (And I will warn you dw.)

In addition to this, if you do NOT like communicating via dms, please tell me, and I will stop. If you just ignore me or ghost me, I'm either going to continue to try and reach out, thinking you forgot or didn't get notified, or I'll become intimidated, and think I did something wrong. We're all adults here, we can use our words. You don't have to follow me if you don't want to interact.

I have kept up with the lore moderately well, but if I don't know something, or have forgotten something, do not bully me. I have zero tolerance for it. You respect me, and I respect you.

If you want to let me know you've read these, go ahead and like it, but it's not required, I use an honor system anyway.

[system-comforts]

sorry this feels dumb but i kind of need to vent/maybe ask for advice idk

so we're physically disabled, but we only have been for a few years, we've been a system for way longer and have had several older members be completely shocked at how much we've deteriorated in the past two years. it's been very very rapidly getting worse due to not getting any medical assistance, to a point where we're almost fully bedbound. it's been, honestly, traumatizing as hell to witness our entire body just deteriorate around us without being able to do anything about it. and because of that, we've been gaining new members like fucking crazy. we went from around ~150 to over 300 in the span of about the last six months alone.

the amount of headmates is fine, our internal functioning is fine and we're all okay system-wise. but i just. can't help but feel really really really guilty for just... basically forcing all of these people to slowly die with me. there are 300 other people in my brain that i am actively giving trauma to by introjecting them. i know we can't control new members appearing, but it just feels like I'm dragging everyone else with me to slowly rot in this body. we're only 21. we shouldn't be dying this fast. we don't even know what's wrong with us and within the span of two years we went from fully ablebodied to fully bedbound. it feels like our brain is just quicksand, once you're in you're just doomed. i don't want to put my other headmates in pain. i don't want them to be hurt or afraid. i hate doing this to them but if they went away i think I'd just stop functioning like i cant do anything without them and i love them all to death sending them away or having them go dormant or fusing just isn't an option it makes us all just want to cry. but i feel like we're all crabs and our body is the bucket. we're just trapped in here. i don't know what to do.

Hi there anon. I want to say your feelings are completely understandable. That is a very heavy emotional burden to carry, along with the physical difficulties you describe. I'm glad you reached out to us and glad you felt you could reach out to someone. I hope you can find others to share these thoughts with so you don't have to keep them inside all the time.

I think it's wonderful how you care for your headmates. I'm sure they care a lot about you too. I hope that you can continue to focus on the care you have for each other and continue to support each other. Whether that's changing front, talking things out together, sharing hobbies, etc. Systems can be difficult to have, especially in difficult circumstances, but they can also provide a lot of support and comfort. I hope you can keep in mind that comfort and support and know you have that with them.

As a final note, I want to say I hope you can feel not guilty, or at least less guilty, about the situation. Although some systems are more created, a lot come about naturally or through difficult circumstances, and it's not the person's fault for having a system. Even if you still feel that you brought members here somehow, it's important to keep in mind that you and your headmates couldn't have known the future of your body and the situation. We can only do our best with the information and resources we have at the time, and given all that, I know you did and are doing your best.

Please reach out again or to a professional if you continue to have these thoughts and concerns. I wish you the best.

-mod venus

[shokeiri]

𝐑𝐔𝐋𝐄𝐒 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐑𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐑𝐈𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐒 ! — rules.

cafe rules, necessary for coexistence.

ꕀ ‎‏‏⠀⠀⠀𝐃𝐍𝐈 — do not interact if:

dni if you’re a racist, a minor (check tags), homophobic/transphobic, xenophobic, kinkshamer, send anon hate, sexist, fatphobic, cannot sperate fiction from reality. this is a blog to have fun.

if you trauma dump on people's inboxes. i'm sorry for all the horrible things you may have been through, but I'm really not able to deal with it properly.

ꕀ⠀⠀⠀⠀ ‎‏‏𝐑𝐔𝐋𝐄𝐒 — general rules!

writing is a hobby. I will dedicate myself in whatever way I can — but still, please don't pressure me to fulfill requests or “write faster”. It doesn't make anything better and it even demotivates me.

anon hate WILL get blocked and ignored. i don't need your gratuitous hate.

at the moment, i only write for jujutsu kaisen.

i usually write for f!reader, but occasionally, there maybe be m!reader. sone of my works will also be gn!reader <3 trans!reader is never excluded, too. be it amab or afab.

i avoid giving reader specific description unless asked for in the request! my intention is for it to be something identifiable for most people and that you can enjoy reading it.

please credit if you use some of my dividers! the headers and the art on my profile photo DO NOT BELONG TO ME. but the dividers do, i make them myself. they're inspired by @/cafekitsune. it's alright if you're inspired or even use them but you should tag me for credit!

i don't mind if you're underage, as my content is more fluff oriented than nsfw oriented. although, if you're a minor, block the tag i use for smut signalization. (link to my tags HERE).

please, always check with my requests are open or closed and be sure to look at my do's and don'ts before requesting!

ꕀ ‎‏‏⠀⠀⠀⠀𝐃𝐎'𝐬 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐃𝐎𝐍'𝐓𝐬 — self-explanatory, but what i write and what i don't write for! *"(?)" means I'll consider, but i probably won't write it.

kinks: piss kink, daddy kink, dub/non-con, cnc, necrophilia, incest, step-incest/pseudo-incest(?), scat, race play, pet play, knife play, m-preg, knotting, bestiality, eating disorders, vore, rape themes, kidnapping, drugging, character x character, pregnant reader (parent reader is fine, just as breeding and lactation), somnophilia, orgies, fisting, babytrapping, rim jobs(?), age regression/roleplay, lolicon, ddlg, foot fetish, non-con recording, gang bangs, period sex, watersports, domestic abuse, master kink, wound fucking, heavy bleeding, suicide and related, teacher x student, shoe licking, high school au! setting (or related), panty sniffing, stalking.

— NOT kinkshaming people ; i just don't do well with this topics / they're disturbing or displeasing to me.

if you have any doubts, send me an ask!

ꕀ ‎‏‏⠀⠀⠀⠀𝐑𝐄𝐐𝐔𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐆 — how to request and rules.

to make a request, you simply need to drop an ask! <3 i don't take requests on DM’s and generally, i prefer that people don't DM me.

i prefer to write fluff over smut. i like smut, but some cuteness is more my area. i hope that doesn't bother people when they're requesting.

𝐍𝐄𝐖𝐒!! (wip's)

LAPDOG — shoko ieiri x f!reader SMUT

SURRENDERING — suguru geto x f! reader. SMUT

SWORDSMAN — yuta okkotsu x gn!reader FLUFF

LADIES — maki zenin x f!reader FLUFF

[ you have reached the end! <3 ]

[halfmoth-halfman]

You should respond to reblog comments more tbh. People are taking the time to reblog your stuff, and tell you how much they enjoyed it and not answering is kinda rude. I love your fics, and you seem nice and all, but I’ve seen your notes recently— they’re nowhere near what they used to be and you don’t get anywhere near as much interaction as other CoD writers. It’d probably help your blog a lot! Just some advice, but maybe think about it! 😘💖

this has been sitting in my inbox for a few days cause i've been debating about whether or not i want to answer this, but i'm 98% sure you're the same anon who's sent me a few other messages since they all use the same kiss emoji and are riddled with the same backhanded bullshit you're spewing here, and you've succeeded in annoying me so here's your answer before you get blocked. 😘

i do this for fun. writing is not my bread and butter, it's not how i make my money, it's not how i support myself. it is a hobby. i use some of my free time to write and post fics for my own enjoyment above all else. i don't give a fuck about how many notes, or likes, or reblogs i do or don't get. is it nice to see them and see comments from people who enjoy my stuff? absolutely. i'm incredibly thankful for anyone who takes time out of their day to read one of my fics and even more so for people who go out of their way to interact with me and my work, but i'm not going to worry myself over numbers, because that's not why i write.

also, i've been in fandom spaces for a long time and, i hate to break it to you, but more often than not fandoms tend to slow down and die after the initial hype. i posted my first CoD fic like a week or two after the game came out when it was blowing up all over social media, of course it got an unusually high amount of notes that were, honestly, a little bit overwhelming at the time. now it's been some time, and the hype for the game has died down, so people are moving on to different shows/games/etc. which means interaction is gonna slow down. it happens, and i don't intend to sit and worry over how many asks or reblogs or whatever i get compared to other blogs. that's not fair to me, the other authors, or the people interacting. i'm happy with where my blog is at, and the amount of interaction i get.

i've said this a few times already, but i work a full-time job and have other obligations outside of tumblr. i don't have a lot of free time, and have to plan ahead how i want to spend it. i try my best to respond to replies, to answer asks, and everything else when i can, but i am an adult with adult responsibilities and just don't have time to keep up with every single like and reblog i get. that doesn't mean i'm purposely ignoring anyone, or that i'm ungrateful, i just simply don't have the time to keep up with every single notification i get. if i had more time in the day, then i'd probably respond more and be more active here in general, but i don't.

i greatly appreciate every single follower i have, every person who likes, reblogs, comments, replies, sends asks, etc. while i write for myself, it's always nice seeing other people enjoying my work, i won't pretend that it isn't. it absolutely blows me away the amount of people who like my writing enough to tell me. i'm always open to people sending me stuff, and try to respond as best i can, but i feel it's unfair (and not just to me, but to other writers and creators in general) to call me rude for not responding how you think i should. and i think it's even more rude for you to come into my inbox (on anon of all things) to spam me with messages about how you think i should run my blog with condescending and backhanded asks that you want to pretend is friendly advice.

i think it would be good for you to take some time and step away from tumblr and go outside, touch some grass, climb a tree, eat some dirt, or interact with real people, and maybe try to realize that, outside of this blog, i am a person too and one who really doesn't need to deal with this shit.

Just some advice, but maybe think about it! 😘💖

[teacup-tai]

Tai, I'm supposed to be taking a lil break from socials right now, but I peeked at Tumblr just in time to see your weirdly rude pansmione ask and like...can I say I love that you're writing fpreg? Not enough of it out there imo! I'm a big mpreg lover so fpreg is just as nice to me.

Mpreg gets lots of hate, too, so I wouldn't be surprised if your anon took umbrage with that, too. But it's magic! MAGIC! Also: fiction. Idk how anyone's made it this far into fandom not understanding the concepts of magic or fiction but here we are...🤷‍♀️

Not to get graphic, but I can imagine all sorts of creative ways to make fpreg happen. Magical orgasms! Magical sex toys. Magical RITUALS. Lady peen. Lady parts saying hello and magic taking care of the rest. Etc. etc.

Also yeah hecka offensive to be like "why would you write...?" Cuz I feel like it. Cuz this fandom is for us and what brings us joy. And if it doesn't bring you joy it's not for you. Which is fine. But maybe mind your business and not rain on other people's parades? And "pointless"? There is nothing pointless about anyone's stories. There is so much to be gained from people sharing their creativity and perspectives, even if it doesn't speak to you personally.

Clearly I got heated on your behalf, Tai, oops. Mostly I came here to tell you how I'm personally stoked about your marriage law Pansmione. Like mega stoked. That sounds like exactly what my life needs. And I'm gonna need SOMEONE to please inform me once it's up so I can go devour it, please and thank you.

WLW 100% deserves to have all the fun, interesting, unique stories. Out there stories. Complicated stories. Difficult stories. Weird stories. Trope-filled stories. Subversive stories. Every story. Because WLW deserve that representation and variety and more wonderful stories to choose from. And we could all do more with supporting one another. Support creators. Support there being more stories of all sorts, so that everyone out there has a chance to find the right story for them. Spreading negativity does no good for anyone at all.

Love you, Tai! I, at least, am over here cheering for you!

Danni, your message felt like a big big hug. I believe that we would all benefit from some intense DON'T LIKE DON'T READ approach. Mainly, bc this is our hobby and we are entitled to write whatever we want. It's fiction. It's magic. We can curate our experience in fandom.

And we all deserve a positive, encouraging and warm place to rest our hearts and creativity.

Thanks so much, darling! Sharing your messa here in main bc everyone deserves to read your lovely reminder! Sending u loads of love!

[commaclear]

Okay. I’ve got a list

Emus are fucking freaks you’re right about that. In all honesty I can’t tell if I’m thinking of ostriches or emus but it’s like how pelicans and seagulls are the same thing. I’m sure whether I’m thinking of an actual emu or not it’s bullshit and should be killed with fire

Lucky for me I don’t eat turkey legs they scare me like how are you supposed to even bite it ???? Nah I’d start crying if I even tried

Maybe I’m jumping to crazy conclusions but idk man. Something about </:) anon is suspicious. Don’t worry I’m still interested I have loved people with screws loose before. Like I’m talking no screws even left. Negative screws. But the unprovoked speech about their distaste for emus. It’s just very reminiscent of something I’ve seen before. Something slandering slimy and scaly salamanders.

did the Pizza Hut ask send bc istg if it didn’t I’m actually quitting this inbox. How dare it. I think the hamburgler might’ve hamburgled my Pizza Hut ask. It’s just jealous that I’d rather get my Big Mac meal deal at select locations from Pizza Hut than the McDonald’s select locations.

Even if the question wasn’t directed towards me. I love geometry. I also hate it with every fiber of my being but. I really love math so I’ve learned to accept how fucking bitchy it is. Fun fact. I’ll do anyones math hw for free even if idk the math yet. Literally show me an example or some keywords and I can more than likely get it right. It’s a hobby. And an ego boost. I love math so much math is my bitch

- Quackity analysis anon

Emus a lot like ostriches, but they had have demonic eyes, a fair resistance to bullets, and natural hatred for humans (whereas ostriches are notorious for being reverse furries) which is how they won two wars against the Australians who had machine guns

You just.... take a bite???

Yeah no I didn't wanna say anything, but I've had my suspicions abt

Pizza Hut ask...? Holy shit wait- You're right! Asks did start disappearing right around the time when the Hamburglar made himself known, oh my god

I never even have to take a math class again, but if you could explain how to find the area of a pentagon to me, I would give you an award or something cuz I have genuinely never understood that shit

Idk if you saw this but it's important, and you should look at it

[imerdwarf]

You're Worth Saving

Requested by anonymous: Hello you wonderful person! I dare to send in another Buck request, because COME ON HE'S SO LOVELY! ok ok, so maybe where you're also an avenger but you are really silent and distant to everyone (not shy, but alone with your mind), so it happens that buck wants to pull you out of this hole cause he knows how you feel and in the end he succeeds and the teams sees you smile for like the first time since you joined them and they're happy? Gosh i hope this is not weird.

Pairing: Bucky X Avenger!Reader

Warnings: soft!Bucky, introvertism, happy ending 💜

Author's Notes: Hello YOU wonderful sweet anon! How are you doing today? I hope you're doing great. Thank you so much for sending me this wonderful request, I really hope you like it and please feel free to send in more requests at anytime! 💜 Please let me know if you like or hate this, I'll be happy to rewrite it 💜🥺

Divider was made by me 🥰

Your mind was such a beautiful distraction. It's a place where unimaginable scenarios would be stored just for you to be able to stare at a blank wall and dwell heavily on them. Living 99% of the time in your head became a little dangerous but it was a much happier place than reality.

The team would often find you in this daze like state where you'd just stare at the wall ahead without blinking sometimes. They would try to coax you out of it by asking a question, a question you would ignore because you didn't hear them. Their voices were silenced, a contrast to how loud they were in your head.

Nobody really knew why you were like this. It's been this way since you arrived at the compound months ago. You kept to yourself, ate by yourself, worked out when everyone else was either watching movies or asleep, and you would just keep silent. Even on missions, you never spoke a word.

The team were actually very worried about your well-being, as clearly this was not natural. For the first time since the civil war broke out, Steve and Tony were actually in agreement about bringing a psychiatrist in to help you until Bucky intervened and wanted to help you himself first.

Bucky would have considered himself a professional by now. He knows what it's like not to fit in anywhere, how easy it was to feel so out of place. He understood more than any psychiatrist what a better and safer world it was inside your mind.

"Buck you can't help them. Y/N is too far gone." Steve spoke regrettably, sadness evident in his tone. He believed they failed you from the beginning and it was easy for Steve to take the blame so nobody else would have to feel guilty.

Bucky shook his head before he ran a hand through his hair, scratching at the root before letting it drop down by his side again. "I have to try Steve. I've been there before, I know what they are going through. Trust me."

Steve sighed, knowing he wouldn't have won the fight. Bucky was determined and it was impossible to change his mind about anything.

"I do Buck. Just bring them back to us, please."

With Steve's permission granted, Bucky wasted no time in getting to work. He started off being as subtle as possible by sitting as close as he could to you on the couch. The goosebumps that pebbled your skin when his knee brushed your leg gave him a lot of hope, that you were in there somewhere.

Bucky was hopeful he was getting somewhere with you. Because each time he took a seat next to you, you'd angle your body to face him and wait for him to start talking about his favourite movies, his favourite songs, his new profound hobbies he's been getting into lately. Your eyes would glisten with hope that you were actually listening to him. And you were, you paid great attention and everything he told you, about the Hobbit struck a chord in your heart. You had felt so lost for so long that even you were worried you might not be here anymore.

Then a few days later, he started to talk to you like a normal person. He would talk about his favourite books and why he liked them so much. He loved The Hobbit series because of the adventure Bilbo goes on and how easy it was for the words to suck you into the story. How easy it was to forget how to cope with real life.

"Bilbo goes on an adventure of a lifetime and sometimes as the road gets tough, he regrets it but he knows there is something worth waiting for at the end of it, he knows there is something worth saving. He meets new friends and they stick with him the whole time." The emotion in Bucky's voice rang home for you. "There's always something to live for. Bilbo never gave up and neither should you because I'm with you till the end of the line."

You knew he was saying 'if Bilbo Baggins could do this, so could you.'

Days turned into weeks and instead of just talking, Bucky escalated his plans by doing stuff with you. He started off gently by taking you for a walk around the rose garden Tony had at the back of the compound. Bucky noted how your eyes changed, you looked at the gorgeous fruit trees and rose bushes in such awe. The flowery scent tingled your nose.

Then he would go further by taking you a few blocks away to buy you a coffee. And when New York was hit with a heatwave, he took you to the beach where he heard you giggle for the very time because of the flamingo floaties he had around his arms.

The team saw a huge improvement. They saw how you clinged to Bucky and watched him intently as he made a couple of sandwiches and some tea for the two of you to watch with a Disney movie.

And it was just under a month when he heard you speak for the very first time.

"Thank you." Even though it came out in a hushed whisper, he would take it over the deafening silence anyday.

"For what doll?" Of course he already knew, but he wanted to hear more from you. He wanted to hear your voice.

"For helping me."

Bucky nodded slowly, a smile gradually grew on his lips and he pushed just a little bit further.

That evening, you almost talked his ear off. You opened up about your feelings, what kind of envisions lived in your head and how much happier they were than real life. Bucky shared some of his too, comparing the two it was apparent he knew exactly how you were feeling and he understood just how scary it really is. For you, it felt like this huge boulder had been lifted off your chest. A chance to finally let everything out and breathe again.

"How did I help?"

"You made me realise that there is something worth sticking around for, something worth coming back to." You told him with tears in your eyes.

His hands rubbed your back soothingly, "You know doll, sometimes in life, we hit a crossroads. We don't know where we are going or what's on the other side of the road. And if you pick a path, you're going on new adventures everyday and I am right here with you." Tears shamelessly rolled down your cheeks from his words. You've never felt so safe in the whole time you've been here.

The morning after, the team were seated around the dining table eating breakfast and talking about an upcoming mission when you strolled through the doors with a grin on your face and Bucky right behind you, just like he had been throughout this ordeal.

"Holy shit. He did it!" Tony slapped a hand over his mouth, overjoyed with so much emotion. Steve nodded to his friend, proud of him that he stuck with it when it couldn't have been easy.

"Oh my god, you actually have teeth!" Sam joked which earned laughs from both you and the team.

"I do!" You giggled, your eyes squeezed shut as you laughed. It felt good to laugh. "I um, I'm sorry. I'm sorry for the distance and the silence and-"

"Listen, don't you worry!" Tony told you as he walked towards you to throw an arm over your shoulder. "We are just glad to have you here and it's a new day, we can start afresh!" Tony walked you towards an empty chair at the table and made Sam move seats so Bucky could sit down next to you. He squeezed your thigh in reassurance that he was here for you and he wouldn't be going anywhere.