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habeas corpus – detective comics #1086
(ID in alt!)
#loved this back up feature so much and seeing that bruce timm shit made me annoyed enough to actually transcribe it#first the way hes depicted as having to stand trial and ARGUE and fight for the rights of using the coin#rather than it just being a compulsion and something he must do before a decision....#like every time. every time when he's 'leaving it up to chance'—thats a time when harvey won. thats a time when harvey fought for the right#to use the coin and make it at least a 50/50 chance instead of 'crawling away until the hard part is done' like two face pushed for#every single time. regardless of the results regardless of knowing theres only a halfway chance of it actually achieving anything#or lessening the damage two face can/will do. every time hes fighting for and still believing in a fair trial and that everyone deserves on#it isnt him being weak. it isnt him avoiding responsibility. its him fighting and forcing and pushing for it as hes internally at war#with himself 24/7. even when two face wins he doesnt give up & continues to fight for what he believes in despite the injustice done to him#the way he tells Judge Janus that it isnt about HIM (himself!) while defending the right of existence to the jury of other societal rejects#the way he gestures to himself only at the very end. he asks the judge does that sound like anyone he knows and janus replies in two faces#voice but harvey keeps going. he keeps fighting for others. but at the end in actually acknowledging two face being part of him#(and by extension harvey being part of two face) and how harvey is fighting just as much to have a place as two face is#(but more within his own mind & upholding his belief system still despite knowing how it continues to fail them) and just FUCK#and two faces snaps! how theres no jurisprudence system above there either ! just no one will admit it!#how harvey knows!!! look what happened to him when he was doing the right thing!#look how many criminals and mob bosses paid their way out! look how the police are corrupt!#but still believing in it and how a system has to be in place despite being a direct victim of it as well and just GOD#I LOVE YOU GOOD HEARTED AND WANTING TO HELP PEOPLE HARVEY DENT YOU WILL ALWAYS BE FAMOUS TO ME !!!!!!!!#taking away how he genuinely wanted to help people and bring wrongs to rights takes away literally everything hes built on#it takes away the entire fucking tragedy of his character (and in many ways it changes how bruce himself operates and believes because#harvey WAS a good man doing everything by the books. he was trying to bring justice in the 'right way' and believed in the system. he was#what people tell bruce he should be and look where it got him. look how the system failed 'even the good ones' because the system itself is#corrupt. it isnt flawed—it was operated to oppress and thats why it cant just be fixed but must be entirely rebuilt and why bruce must#operate outside of it. it also gives more depth because harvey is one of batmans first and biggest failures. he didnt protect him.#he didnt save his parents as a helpless child (as bruce) but he couldn't save his parents as BATMAN.#it wasnt just random chance like his parents tragedy but this was calculated and something bruce didnt stop. its ALWAYS going to eat at#him if he could of prevented it by telling harvey his identity. by doing something different. by being more prepared or somehow#knowing it was going to happen. harvey is the face of tragedy in so many ways that cant fit in these messy rambly tags but its ALLL!!!!!!!#bc harv was (and still is despite it all! despite two face!) a good man!! because he originally was a glimmer of hope to bruce & the city!!
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Erm!! I did more art!!!!!! My art style is so inconsistent I want to draw more realistically but I'm goofy goober at my core....... Gehahahaha
Also???? Pony Error under cut??????? (and a few error sketches!) Hidden slightly because I'm still a bit unsure about the design RAHH
I think it'd be cool if he had strings all over his body like he was some mangled stupid hasbro official pony plushie...... but the strings were like insanely last minute LMAO so I want to redo it again with that in mind.... when the pony takes me over again.
Transcript for Pony Info (because my handwriting is a bit messy)
PONY INFO!
Strings run along entire body
Used to have a cutie mark, but the file is "lost"
Horn sparks & glitches dangerously when using magic
-> Not harmful to him, but strong emotions can cause it to flare up (basically when the horn starts fuzzing a lot you know he's close to a full-on reboot)
Whatever the hell this thing is core -> (pic of very stupid looking Hasbro official Princess Twilight Sparkle plushie with brushable hair!!!! Batteries not included)
↓ WARNING!!! STUPID IDIOT BELOW!!!!!!! 🆘🆘🆘🆘🆘���️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️☢️☢️☢️☢️☢️☢️☢️☢️☢️☣️☣️☣️☣️☣️☣️☣️🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢 ↓
#utmv#swapdream#swad sans#swapdream dream#swan sans#swapdream nightmare#error sans#gamers err.... they're really stupid!!!#I hate them so much!!!! (LIE LIE LIE LIE LIE i love them actually with all my being)#I have no idea what I'm doing I'm not used to tumblr editor#I want to make my page look cooler..... maybe 2010s theme..... can i do that perhaps?#Stupid idiots!!!! Sorry my demons#I should probably make an intro post too but idk what to say.... other than “helo i like erm. Undertale! I like..... pretty much only UTMV!#This is mostly a lie I like other things but I'm only going to be posting UTMV mainly#Sigh getting off track anyways!!!!! Idiots!!! I hate them!#Swad he's so prim and proper and completely obnoxious#I feel like with him being completely manic 24/7 he wouldn't take care of himself very well#Like if it weren't for the self healing thing he would look absolutely terrible. Rotting teeth cracked bones etc etc and he would not care#He would still prance around in fields of daisies tho he is literally too hyped up#I feel like he would chase Swan like until his body physically could take no more#One sec he's approaching at full speed and the next he shuts down completely & collapses just because his body literally ran out of juice#Error is striving for that hobocore aesthetic he will not change his clothes ever he constantly repairs the same ones#I also feel like Error would be like. insanely stinky (PEE-YEW!)#Water doesn't interact well with his body so he avoids it best he can#he can only take sponge baths for hygiene and even that is like insanely prickly for him.... Feels like pins and needles sizzling on his bo#Sighs that's it for me gamers!!!!!! Ramble in the tags over#Swad OUTTT!!!! *bursts through ceiling leaving swad shaped hole in your roof*
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Chapter 6 is up! And so is the chapter count again! (My current best guess is 8). This story will not release me from its grip and the amazing and wonderful @anxietycroissant is really the best mind-meld-bestie-enabler.
I am travelling for the next week and a half, so the next chapter may or may not be a couple of weeks out, depending on my prioritization of writing over sleep during that time.
#thh writes#things i write#sydcarmy#sydcarmy fanfic#sydcarmy fic#the bear fic#the bear fanfiction#sydcarmy fanfiction#let's take bets now...will I write over the Atlantic instead of sleep?#that would be reckless and entirely plausible at the same time#also the idea that I could finish this in the four days before my trip was truly laughable and likely resulted in the explosion of plot#oops#sorry not sorry#etc.#though I will lament the one shot I was planning on working on during my trip#FOR THERE WAS TO BE ONLY ONE BED#and CLOSE QUARTERS HIJINKS#also I started writing a side fic of something that is coming in chapter 7#because much like this story Kaitlyn will not leave me alone#or Richie either#spoiler alert?#also I keep having the insane worry that The Bear is going to film in my suburb while I am in ☘️#I deeply understand this is my own travel-related anxiety#and my lack of hinges#which these tags I'm sure have done an adequate job of exposing
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#need to clear my head;#im in such a bad mood. my face is in a perpetual angry state. im just so so bitter nd pessimistic rn#trying not to get stuck in negative chaos thought spirals nd to just take it as it come#nd be patient bc recovery takes time i know. but i havent been able to feel healthy or functional for 7 months nd i am so tired#i cant help but worry abt my health nd what kinda diet i can have nd how to work all of that out.#like the removal of the gallbladder dont ensure a good digestive system. they remove it bc it can irrepairably hurt u#also im so so stressed out abt school nd my courses. i already had to drop one last week. nd it isnt looking like i'll be able to pass my#eng class.. it just isnt looking like it's realistic at all :/ i personally dont mind if i fail. but i can get issues w my wellfare hmm#bc like im still feeling rough nd u only get sick leave for one week after surgery.. so i have to go on thursday nd friday but im gnna#be in pain plus be so hungry nd be unable to concentrate idk#idk idk!! im already willing to take out loans to finish my upper secondary school.. but i have to make it work w timing nd stuff so im not#sitting here unable to pay rent or the bills or food lmao. so idk have to fix it somehow#nd the pressure of this country rapidly declining state is stressing me tf out!! having nazi conservative rightists in the ruling is just#dreadful!!!! for many reasons but atm idek if i can do distance classes like i wanted to ://#i just.. wanna be able to go for my long walks. go to the gym. eat normally. have coffee. study nd finish highschool.#then apply for whatever program i can nd move to another calmer city. prob eventually find a path to move to another country. like norway..#im thinking too much but my thoughts are spinning nd killing me like i cant stop it im so scared nd anxious lmao 💀#im also trying to be brave and write to the psych clinic for personality disorders nd be upset nd 'beg' them for help ksksksks.#but like... the thing abt having avpd is that i kinda dont wanna bc im scared of the possibility of them helping me lol#im just in a low place nd bad headspace and it's just getring worse nd im getting more nd more tired#i dont have much more energy to keep it together nd pretend like im ok or like i have hope lmaoooo idk what to do#anyway... idk idk guess i just gotta .. keep crawling forward anyway i can
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Some Batman: Telltale thoughts
[this is a Batman Telltale critical post, ye be warned.]
So. There are perhaps no words in the english language to describe with how stupid i feel right now.
I started Telltale Batman because i thought that it's one of the more distinct unconventional Batman narratives that would let you have a more interesting, complex and nuanced relationship between Bruce and Joker— the game even lets you bring all of Bruce's sincere hypocrisy and sentimental selfishness to the surface and have him admit that yes, he can fight the rogues gallery because it takes a madman to know a madman; to love a madman. For a moment i geniunely thought that i can escape the everpresent shadow of DC hays code in the freakshow funhouse that is Batman comics, i thought Telltale had done something different.
But telltale's approach to The Enemy Within is so flaky and flimsy and timid at best— such noncommittal twist on themes of pain and grief. They take on a hefty plotline, "what does it take to actually fight through evil and be surrounded by it? How long does it take before your resolve and your selfhood cracks? When you lose the mask, which one did you truly lose— The ideal persona, the superhero, the crusader, or the person underneath, the casket that holds all your humanity and your heart and your hopes? How long can you stare onto the abyss before it stares onto you?" It's indeed a very Nietzsche approach to Batman— except that a good Nietzsche narrative takes a lot of intentional plot points and honesty of thought and of heart. And Telltale doesn't commit, not to Bruce's characterization, and not to any other character, and definitely not to Joker's journey in any variation of it. The existence of the Vigilante route is useless on every front; Joker is going to turn into a villain anyway, just with a different hello kitty eyeshadow palette and an extra bland consolation lollipop. No good choice Bruce makes on Joker's behalf affects anything whatsoever, and i particularly love the "community and friendship and sympathy do not help the mentally ill and all that ever works is punishment and shock therapy and confinement and loneliness" message the vigillante route puts on the table, charming charming status quo commandments from DC as always.
Telltale Batman could only be revolutionary if it had dared to break comic convention and let the vigillante route play out like Selina and Bruce's relationship always does; very grey morality, irrational, full of tension and trust, unstable, intriguing, inexcusable, irreversible, unavoidable and heartfelt, human. But we can't have nice things in batmanverse, so both Joker routes run on stuck gears and topple and fall into a predictable narrative hole that neither Bruce nor Joker can claim out of.
And on the predictable front? this story is too lukewarm to be a good time for me personally. When you get 84 Batman comics per minute every other Tuesday, all ending the same way no matter whatever the fickity happens inbetween, you have to pull no punches. This is my 53368532th Batman-with-tragic-batjokes-implications read of the week, say something new or forever hold your blue-balling silence, i dont care.
#Like. season 2 starts to become a fucking mess from episode 2#Tiffany?????? the Tiffany twist was so bad i can't??????#30 SECONDS TO THE END ROLLS AND ALFRED FUCKING PENNYWORTH DECIDES TO DITCH BRUCE???? LIKE ARE WE TALKING ABOUT THE SAME CHARACTER??????#I chose Bruce to leave his Batman persona behind in order to keep Alfred because 1) batworth agenda lmao and#2) i knew it'd make absolutely zero difference in the narrative like. bitch you're not gonna introduce a plot point this big#10 seconds before the game ends. you're just not doing that#that's literally 58 comic volumes worth of plot#But also I FUCKING LOST SELINA!!! SELINA MY BELOVEDEST!!!! JUST TO SAVE JOHN!!!!!#DC status quo is my villain origin story fr#tumblr made me think that in telltale batman you can actually save the Joker and have an intricate interesting dynamic with him#what with all the choices letting you bring to light how Bruce is just a human after all. like everyone else#not good by nature; but good by deed#but you will still lose the Joker no matter what choices you make. holy shit.#Someone on reddit was like “this is how Bruce feels in comics; putting all his goodness and faith in the Joker and still watch him fall''#and fucking christ i feel gutted like a good ol' wild salmon#but anyway yeah; i feel so insanely betrayed holy fucks. Telltale could understand Selina as a complex faulty villainy character#but god forbid if we try to humanise Joker.#anyway i have decided that i do not percieve Telltale Batman 😌🌸 i am at peace i do not see it Telltale Batman will be long gone#and only i will remain. (i'm keeping the batcat and the Alfred&Bruce relationship though; might replay to get the full batcat experience)#but also; IMAN AVESTA THE TRUEST MVP LMAOOO#i will have fellas know that Iman means faith in persian;#combined with her last name she's the original node to Zoroastrianism in The Eneny Within#long before Riddler's obsession with “speak no evil see no evil hear no evil'' comes to the surface#it was such surreal experience; watching her switch into persian halfway in on the call with her mother ❤️#i was like :O !!!!!!#and anyway: everything the supposed better written Villain route did Gotham fox season 5 episode 7 ''Ace Chemicals'' did better#and i'm not taking criticism 😌🌸 at least in Gotham the characters are allowed to scream and cry#Farimah talks Batman: Telltale#batman telltale critical#batman meta
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i kinda love when a character clearly needs professional help but is trying to self treat it with like crystals and essential oils and like herbals and stuff and it is Not Doing A Lot. i think largely because i was living like that for a very long time and it sucked but at least the aesthetic of plants is nice
#it was like alright i truly want to die and ive got an entirely uncontrolled life ruining brain issue on my hands#and we are treating it with ashwagandha gummies and a porridge that supposedly helps mood.#idk im sure it did something or another and ive heard of ashwagandha helping some people with ocd but it wasnt doing a lot for me#and also i like the Botanicals Vibe and also kind of making characters with the This Is Not Going To Work But Whatever I'll Take Vitamins#i remember around when my brain first broke with ocd i just could not understand why i felt so upset and freaked out 24/7#and it was december so i just started mainlining vitamin d#idk if that helped or not lol#my oc cal does this in one of his storylines. in a downward spiral but too scared to ask for help/doesnt see it as a big deal#so he smothers himself in soothing lavender oil and takes vitamin d and all that but still cant stay calm and still wants to die#and blames himself for getting worse#hm i think in another storyline he’s barely able to leave his house and has spent about a third of his life comatose/imprisoned/otherwise#not like Living#so he’s only had like 5-10 adult years living in the real world#so he’s completely overwhelmed by things like open spaces or other people. can barely handle the grocery store#since he’s so used to being isolated in a smaller quiet room#also his biology is sort of not human in this au so basically he can’t go to the doctor#anyways he’s up to here in aromatherapy and ashwagandha and whatever else
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Me: is clearly a slut for bangtan
Also me: only ever dreams of ‘Christopher’ Bang Chan
Me: ????????
#i had a dream last night#we were buds and I was crashing at his place for like ??? 7 months (and I only know that cuz I said it in the dream)#but then he got a girl and she hated me so I had to leave his place#so I was over here trying to find all my shit#and apparently I was taking to long!?? so she yelled at me#and I was like#LOOK BITCH. I LIVED HERE FOR SEVEN MONTHS. IM NOT GUNNA BE ABLE TO MOVE OUT IN AN HOUR#and chan was just sitting on the couch so uncomfortable 😂😂😂#the other dream I had of him I can remember was not very SFW but also not explicit.#idk you explain that to me.#clearly bangtan biased. only dreams of skz. like. okay!??#yoons ramblings
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incident: found a decade old unfinished angsty draco malfoy/OFC fic complete with dramatic black and white faded overlay cover that i don't remember abandoning let alone starting but is very much still up on the web under a username people associate with me to this day. ego dead, brain injured.
#there's also a spelling mistake in the edgy quasi-poem on the summary page of this story. cool dutch teen writers use english (badly)#fjdkfjdk i mean it's fine. it IS. i'm expressing all of this with so much love for teen me#i mayyy have been taking a real look at the entirety of my body of work in the dutch fanfic spheres for the first time in years#and finding a BUNCH of stuff i forgot existed. there are seven (7) tiny doctor who and torchwood fics of which i have zero memory#there's a whole LIST of fics i was writing towards the end of this era which never got finished#there is a fic that offhandedly mentions someone trying to feed a unicorn salad and it only licks the dressing from the leaves#which is happening in the background of the actual action of the scene. no wonder i vibed so hard with due south when i found it#i am. maybe. having an absolute ball with this. 2015 me was FUNNY holy fuck.#and more importantly she had found her niche and she was binge writing the hell out of it. no more 2013 het draco stuff! amazing#and SO MANY AUs. bad boys. kid fic. alternate meeting. exterminator AU. demon. vampire. bakery#and oh my. the comments. so many of them so sweet and so many of them just utterly totally unrelated to the story. the memorieeees#*
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also the favoritism thing is still making me so fucking mad and insane btw. im not jealous / resentful of my brother bc he deserves her love and is also burdened in his own ways by it and bc i think my drama w my mom has shaped my life in profound ways and given me friends i cherish and i would never trade any of that for the world but jesus fucking christ. why do i have to beg you to interact with me like a mother. why do i have to talk to me at all beyond asking me to do you 847439473 favors a day. why do i have to beg you to take an interest in my life and apologize when you hurt me and be nurturing and perceptive for once in your fucking life. like it hurts to hear her asking him about his classes and whatever bc she didn’t think i was stressed out w school but i had to talk to a ****** hotline last decemver when i couldn’t take it anymore and my mental health was crashing and burning and it doesn’t even fucking matter to her at all and she’s going to get him the nice gifts and throw him the nice parties and whatever because she hates me and my sister for… and let me get this straight… being complicated and anxious and depressed and also girls. lol!
#purrs#delete later#sorry i knowive been insane about momposting but this shit has me screeching like an ape. the way when my brother was born she decided me#and my sister would be okay with each other bc we were twins and meanwhile she was leaving my sister to have anxiety attacks and me to take#care of her and all of this happening at like 7 years old and she would come into my brothers room every single night and kiss him goodnight#and talk to him for a long time and she wouldn’t even come in and say goodnight to us. LOL. ok. like our room being a depression nest is not#an excuse. us not helping out much in the kitchen or around the house (which is bad but also we have reasons for it that i think are valid#and i only do it here and not elsewhere btw.) is not a good excuse. you can’t decide you love your one kid more because he helps out and#keeps his room clean and whatever. maybe he is normal because you made it very clear from the time that he was born that he was your top#priority and you gave him your attention and didn’t take it away meanwhile my sister and i have always had to share bc we’re twins and she#cast us aside when he was born and has fucking tormented both of us for years over who we like what we want where we go all of that shit and#then has the AUDACITY to call herself a good mother. being a good mother is more than feeding your kid and projecting your childhood trauma#onto them by preventing them from ever developing cancer to the point where they’re afraid fo like. go outside. you have to be patient and#nurturing and kind and like.. motherly. ans i know no one can be a perfect mother and she has been hurt so badly and she is dealing with a l#lot right now but COME ON. for gods SAKE. i am right fucking here. why don’t you care about me? why do you make it clearer every day?#ask to tag#like the way she would say when my sister and i were growing up and going through it that she wished she could book a hotel and live there f#far away from us and miss out on us growing up so she wouldn’t have to deal with us being anxious and hormonal because we were teenage girls#LOL. totally did not impact me at all. totally is not a wound that informs every breath i take and every thought i have. not at all#* like maybe he is normal because you uh… idk. just a guess here. actually gave him the motherlove people need to be functioning healthy#human beings? idk. just a silly thought. haha
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the funny thing about being an older sibling is watching as the younger siblings slowly realize what a loser i am
#/gen i really do find it funny#the sibling closest to my age is only 17 months younger than me#so he NEVER thought i was cool#the next youngest is 10 years old and has made the transition from thinking im the coolest person in the world#(since im allowed to go to the mall by myself and stay home alone and dye my hair and get piercings)#to thinking im a complete loser#my youngest brother is 7 years old#and he still thinks im cool#but i think hes starting to catch on to the fact that im just some guy#from his perspective i am an all-knowing deity with the most expansive minecraft knowledge in the world#as i know how to download mods and datapacks and make my own minecraft skins.#he also regularly requests that i 'take care of him' (his words) when mom has to leave before dad is home#but he also thought my eyebrow piercing was stupid#and is in general starting to realize how unbearably dorky i can be#(i finally understand why my parents are Like That. is is so fucking funny to watch kids get embarrassed because you did a stupid dance in#the bread aisle at walmart)#he also likes to call me nerd dork loser etc bc those are things i call my siblings all the time#^ not with any malice of course. being mean is my family's collective love language#it's that push and pull of being deliberately obnoxious and dorky so everyone else in the room can groan and call you an idiot yknow
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i am feeling.. so bad today to be HONEST!!!!
#bro.. help#birth control i was prescribed is 'helping' my horrible period in that i didn't have my two days of total hell#but i'm on the tenth day in total & 7th of significant bleeding#whereas i used to have about 7 days in total and only fourish of them were significant#and i genuinely don't know when this will be over because it's decreasing but not by MUCH!! feels like i'll have another three or four days#so like sure it's 'better' i can actually leave the house & sleep through the night which dont get me wrong IS nice#but this also fucking sucks. i want this to be over#and granted i was only taking it for about a week before my period started so maybe it will be better after i've been taking it longer#i feel like shit i hate it here. UGH!!!!!!! WHATEVER#chatpost
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quil. how much art did you have in your drafts.
there's actually still two left, but those are empires pieces and I'm not active in empiresblr so they can sit a little longer.
But! I like to leave long tags on everything I reblog (because I love reading tags, so I want to give that experience to the op) and I don't always have the time/energy to do that when I see cool art, so I just stockpile it in my drafts to be tagged and compliment and unleashed on the world when I do have the time/energy!
I don't reblog nearly as much art as I'd like to, so this is a newer method that I'm trying out :). We'll see if it's up to my standards!
#quil's queries#camelspit#also it was only 7 pieces! not too bad!#also I know i could do empty reblogs. this is just how I choose to do it#because I really like to compliment people. but doing so means I can't compliment as many people because it takes more time#hang on i'm getting distracted trying to justify fewer reblogs because I leave tags#*looking in a mirror* quil do you feel guilty about not being able to support everyone in the world and like you need to justify#how you've chosen to support them according to your capabilities and preferences?#and are you trying to make up for the feeling that you're not using your popularity and online presence properly?#and are benefiting from the exposure of having a bigger blog yourself without giving#enough of that back to the very community and platform that support you? and using your presence to bring attention to#and support others?#quil cut that out you're not required to give all of yourself and are doing what you can. there's always room for improvement#but you are trying and making the effort to improve and support people and share their work and efforts#and you have other responsibilities too. so maybe you could compliment and reblog a lot more. but you're human#and you have to balance. stop feeling guilty#okay cool we're good ignore the talking to myself in the third person to therapy through an unexpected bout of guilt#everything's fine now#anyway! yeah I had some art stored for when I had the mind to compliment and share them :)
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one reason i can not make a donation post: too many horrors to describe, everyone would stop reading one paragraph in
#mine#i feel like im watching everyone in my family on the brink of death. the rotting teeth. the skinny bodies. their descents into suicidalness#the neglected significant health problems. the fragility of life and health. everyone packed in a small house and forbidden to leave.#and every single one of these the CONSCIOUS WILL of one singular man. a tyrant. a monster.#forbidding us to do anything to help ourselves. unwilling to buy insurance. taking financial responsibility of 7 people.#then proceeding to ignore almost every need.#someone is going to die one of us are going to die and the rest will lose 1/6 of the only people we've been around our whole lives#negative#abuse#<for bl (boys love i mean blacklist)#I FORGOT THE DETERIORATING VISION IN 3 PEOPLE ALSO
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my new daily schedule is like. wake up whenever jiwon gets up to go to work, which is sometimes like 5:30 in the morning, stay awake for a few hours usually until the 7:30-8:30 am range, stare at the ceiling and wonder if i should try rly hard to go to sleep now or let it consume me in the late afternoon, get up, do fuck all for the entire day which includes studying korean, knitting, watching dimension 20, and taking a nap, wait for jiwon to come back, cook dinner, do dishes, annoy jiwon for two or three hours, get railed, and go to sleep at like 11:45 pm
#morning is the hardest part bc it'll be negative 10 celsius and the bed is warm but the room is not and also the bathroom is OutSide.#so the laying in bed at 7:30-8:30 part is the part that feels the longest#honestly i really probably Should leave the house in the warm hours of the afternoon and like#go to a cafe or do Something so i am not just literally inside for the 5 weekdays in a row#maybe i will wander to a cafe today to do my korean study#i accidentally bought the kiip program's textbook and workbook bc i didnt realize it was the kiip program's#its decent. rn i am just going through the beginning where i know all the grammar already#honestly this part rn is boring and easy it would probably be more cool and fun if like. i was taking the classes. and having conversations#but the classes are only once a week which means it would probably take me 6 weeks to finish what am i going to finish this week#which would drive me insaneeee#i'm probably going to try to do the 1-1 and 1-2 books on my own over the next few months and once i am at like. an 'intermediate' level#is when i will search out irl classes or tutoring in cheonan#t
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roommate currently throwing a 24 hour hissy fit bc i told her to shut up and stop being passive aggressive when she has a complaint. literally stomping around and slamming doors cus shes mad. you dont even pay for the lights bitch. anyway i maxed out the tags on this post stay safe down there
#currently our electricity bill is weird so its split 50/50 me and saturn#instead of 3 ways between the 3 of us#i hoped maybe this month it would be fixed but it wasnt#and a few days ago i brought it up to her and said i was tired of paying 50% and we should take care of it that night#and she said ‘ok also it probably wouldnt be so high if we didnt leave unnecessary lights on 24/7’#its literally Not that high its only high for me n saturn cus we have to pay 50%.#lights Arent left on 24/7 im literally a light freak#if i believe its not necessary to be on i turn it the fuck off!!#then yesterday saturn said that he was going to make a schedule for us to stay on track w taking out the garbage#because literally last week she complained that he and i dont take care of it enough#(not true. straight up not true. saturn takes care of it the most. she was just mad that nobody had tied up the full bag)#(which.. she is also… responsible for if she sees its time for it to be tied up..)#and she said ‘well thats probably something you should have talked to us about first but whatever’#(we literally have discussed creating a chore list. like. five times. and just nobody took the initiative.)#and then continued with ‘lets stop leaving dishes in the sink when the dishwasher is empty :// it looks trashy’#and thats when i snapped cus good god.#she was ONLY upset about that bc she cleaned the kitchen last week. the ONLY time shes done a full kitchen-clean.#thats not me inferring she said ‘its annoying when i do all the dishes and then when i get back from the weekend the sink is full again 🙄’#mother…. FUCKER#it wasnt even FULL there were just like two pizza pans that made it look like more than it was ??#she fr said shes the backbone of this house after she cleaned the kitchen. that was dirty from HER cooking messes#& then had the audacity to say ‘ive asked everyone and theyve all said the apartment looks like shit’#and shes soooo pissy about people ‘talking shit’ about her when none of us have ever done that and then she goes and literally just#for real talks mad fucking shit without coming to me and saturn first to clarify her expectations#like we ALL say ‘ugh yeah the apartment is a mess we really gotta take care of that’ (never takes care of it bc we are busy/tired/adhd)#my guy you cant fault an adhd household for having clutter and backed up chores.#if she started having a problem with anything all she needed to say was ‘hey can you do x please?’#not ‘we should have some day a week that we clean the common areas’ followed by never actually initiating it#like she really said we should do this as a group but then herself never tried to. make that happen when she needed it to happen.#personal
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taking funny little gposes with my wol and raha makes my little heart swell in a funny nice way ... >_<
#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚#okay im better now HELP okay i no longer have the urge to avoid tumblr w every fiber of my being but i think the underlying feelings i have#are Still There but also i get over things quickly ... i forgot that ... but also my mind is still a mess. but ANYWAYS#okay so i wont say explicitly what ive been up to since. yesterday. BUT BUT BUT BUT okay#I RESPECT POSERS SO MUCH i tried to do w aymeric and his hands look BROKEN his arms look like theyr ein SHAMBLES#and i have the sudden urge to play dragon age origins but i need to do homework and i forgor my ffxiv game is still running and i havent#showered yet oh god i am a Mess (hashtag undiagnosed neurodivgernetn detncieisioo7!!!!!)#anyways uh back on topic (another 30 tag ramble /hj). posing is hard#i took funny lil cute pics of my wol w her wifeyboy tia and ARGGHDJFJEJDP ADJUSTING IT WAS A PAIN#i saved the adjustments at the end when i was done AND ONLY FOR RAHA and i remembered right after leaving i forgot to do for my babygirl cat#the wol i mean. raha is also babygirl cat#ANYWAYS. oh its 11 pm i meant to continue with hw 30 minutes ago and i have class tomorrow#anyways good news I ALWAYS SLEEP BEFORE 3 okay thats a lie but i havent slept past 4 in ages and my average is healthy#uh. homework. i have to get to homework. oh god bye#look im not THAT super busy bcs ive finished a few for this week but its still 9 (basically... 8 actually. 7. 8. okay 8)#and i have like 4 quizzes this week! uhhh thank god we still dont have sem or quarterly tests haha bless my school#but im going to take upcat like early next year and i need to get ready for review classes idk when so AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHGGHHHHh#okay anyways cute wol npc screenshots make me happy#and doing them for my twin too#i feel like an expert (we ignore aymeric's broken back and foot)
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