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arctic-hands · 1 year

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Getting your payment a day early but being unable to pay rent that's due tomorrow because your phone is in the repair shop for who knows how long (they closed today still having my phone) and your bank's site never works on your desktop for some reason

#I messaged landlord-roommate about it and he saw but never responded #I miss my phone #it finally stopped charging all together and died this past Monday #theta was kind enough to take it to the repair shop but they had to order a replacement charging port #and because of Baltimore's ungodly delays in the mail that's warranted a congressional investigation #the part only came in today and they didn't call before they closed saying the repair was finished #hopefully it's fixed by tomorrow because they're closed Sunday #I've already had one friend contact theta in a panic because I hadn't responded to the convo in days #I'm worried my clinic has been trying to check up on me because they know I was in the E.R. last Friday night #I can't remember if theta is my emergency contact or if they'll do a welfare check on me #Also I need to ask my PCP about potentially writing a new prescription for my pneumonia meds because I ran out of one #and am about to run out of the other #and I'm still a sick. doing better tho #but we'll see how long that lasts without meds #anyway I miss my phone

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foreignobjecticus · 4 months

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Having lots of hobbies is great! No matter how much you achieve in a day, you will always also have the Guilt of 'I should be doing Other Hobby' gnawing at your insides. :)

#I fixed the bike #went for a 30mile ride #washed my car for the first time in like 18 months lol #played some bg3 after 8 weeks no play because sick #tended my darling plant children #but i haven't touched my models and resin in 8 weeks #nor written much and now I'm like -_-#i also still have mod things to do for bg3 and I want to send off a test stl for friend to try printing of Zevlor #maybe I'm feeling guilty because I worked hard to stop with the bad habits but then it all slipped while I was sick #and now I'm on tumblr rambling in the tags to avoid having a shower #dios mio! i am known #text tag #the bike is running a LOT nicer than it used to now #it's on 2600 miles now and since the winter break it's been noticably better in 5th gear #when it was new you might as well just not touch 5th. it was utterly useless #now it seems to have finally settled tho that seems a little late #I really need to clean up the bike lube it and touch up the rust where powdercoating has crumbled #absolute pile of crap but it teaches you how to deal with shit tahts' for sure lol

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chaddicus · 11 months

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sorry lol I just agreed with that post so much and it got me thinking tbh. I think a lot of us have gotten into a habit of looking at a story so critically, trying to sniff out plot holes and 'bad writing' in a way that misses the fact that the point of a story is to tell a story. I feel like people forget about suspension of disbelief in their mission to analyze a work sometimes. I do think there is a place for in-depth meta analysis of a work, I think it's just as much a worthy fandom experience as any, and maybe that post wasn't even meant to criticize people doing that sort of thing at all, but I just. I think a lot these days about how much more enjoyment I get out of a thing when I decide to watch or read or play it with the intention of just letting it be what it is and not trying to fucking grade its quality or something. you don't have to rate and review everything you do. sometimes you can go 'oh they could have written this differently. but this isn't that version of the story' and then just carry on and not let that other version of how things could have gone haunt your experience. sometimes you have to go 'wow that was kind of dumb' and then just integrate the understanding that the thing you're watching/playing/reading is gonna be kind of dumb sometimes and keep going anyway. and it won't always work out this way, but sometimes you're gonna get a lot more entertainment and joy out of a thing by doing that than by keeping score in your head of the things it's doing 'wrong' or whatever, and I think enjoying a thing for what it is can be a much better use of your time than criticizing it for what it isn't, you know? we're not all film critics. we're not all book reviewers. we don't always need to give a measurement of the quality of everything we experience. you can just experience it. you know?

#x: axel talks #idk man maybe I'm sick of looking for fandom stuff and seeing people complaining about this and that is so bad and awful and stupid and lik #you don't have to like it. but maybe you'd have a better time if you weren't going into it trying to judge if it's 'good' or not idk #was this movie good? idk but I had a good time! you know?#'wow this comic run is so out of character what garbage' ok it's ooc. I'll keep that in mind. might still be fun tho #you know?????#tbh I'm not saying don't do this ever. I just think it's worth trying out the idea of oh it's kinda bad. keep going anyway #maybe it doesn't do anything for you or maybe you get a good time out of it. idk #but my entertainment experience improved significantly when I started to just. accept that sometimes a story will do thinks in a way #that I think would have been better a different way but this isn't that and that doesn't mean I can't get anything out of this the way it i

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relnicht · 1 month

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got bumble bff now which is like 10x more embarrassing to admit than saying you're on normal bumble, tinder or grindr. I'm sure my dislike of dating apps and dating stretches to dating apps for making friends but also I don't wanna go to all these fringe shows on my own

#i actually do like grindr bc at least it's straightforward and i think apps are better suited to finding a stranger to fuck than to finding #the new love of your life #but I'm in my celibacy era now bc I'm also sick of grindr and I'm trying to focus on other things now #also grindr is good when you're kind of autistic like #tho ppl aren't as direct as they always are in screenshots like i feel like ppl still are kind of shy or euphemistic about it i think

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izzy-b-hands · 1 month

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I keep forgetting I can't seem to get the current version of xkit to work on my new laptop and going to do stuff that it let me do fjldksafjdlsaj

#text post #im p sure the mutual marker thing was a feature w/them bc i'm missing them on everyone that #as far as I know I was still a mutual with #then again I did drop like. fifteen followers over the last week #but that usually happens whenever I start actually posting my personal thoughts on my personal blog lmao #have also gotten a few messages both politely and not so politely asking me to essentially shut the fuck up re: my personal posts #idk what to tell y'all on that bc like. i have a lot of folks I follow n' enjoy who post just as much /even more than me re: personal stuff #I think im just particularly irritating even when I'm trying really hard not to be and try to edit my posts down/keep them under readmores #but im trying to be better #not trying hard enough tho apparently and this tag essay probably won't help but. idk.#i think we're all allowed to be as irritating/post as much personal stuff as we want on our blogs #but i also think im still operating uselessly on how tumblr was a few years ago. ppl don't like that anymore it seems #and that's okay but I gotta work on catching up to that and do better #anyway. it's possible i did lose most of my mutuals and tbh it's not a big deal it's just a lot of ppl at once like. damn.#makes me wonder what the last straw was just out of curiosity #bc if that's really what happened then im down to like. maybe three or four mutuals left and it hasn't been that low since I first started #on here back in like. tail end of hs beginning of college #I also keep missing the quick reblog feature which was my fave but. someday I will figure out why xkit isn't working for me #and i will fix it. at a time when im not sick and feeling cruddy lol

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gxlden-angels · 10 months

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Hello! I apologize if this is a nosy question, but what is the silly feelings wheel app you were talking about in a previous post? My therapist and I have been working on identifying feelings but I still very much rely on a list of feeling words to have any idea what I’m feeling, so it could be a helpful resource. No worries if you don’t want to share, just thought I would ask :)

It's called How We Feel! I'm not sure if it's available on all devices yet, but it's on ios and the google play store for sure.

I've been using it for about a year. It's more of a chart than a wheel but people usually recognize the wheel better so that's what I call it. When you first start it has a 10-part tutorial about emotional acceptance and regulation, then it has suggestions for each category of emotion. You can access both at any time tho after those first 10 days.

It has a share option so you can have friends, which has been great for me cause it prompts me to check on friends and them to do the same for me. It allows you to just respond with a little emoji in like a "I'm here for you" little notification to your friend, or you can reach out to your friend on your own. Its really helped me cause I'm bad at reaching out when I need support so to me and I'm bad about taking on other's problems even when I can't handle it so being able to send a little emoji instead to make sure my friends know I'm there if they need me and them doing the same has been great

#I know I sound like I'm a being sponsored by this app but it's genuinely been incredible for my mental health #whenever I get frustrated in therapy now about not being able to describe a feeling my therapist asks me to think about the chart #he'll ask me what color I feel and go 'good! do you want to narrow it down from there or continue with just that?' and it's so helpful #I have such terrible alexithymia from both cptsd and autism #it took a year of working with him to even recognize when I felt angry or hungry or sick #my friends and I check in on each other regularly now but it feels less intrusive #cause it feels like indirectly reaching out so it's less pressure to directly respond #and it might not feel the same for everyone since it could be jarring to get a notification saying friend feels miserable #but now that I've gotten used to it I don't feel like I need to solve their problems and make them feel better #Like they might be miserable because they're sick! So I check in and they say they're sick but okay and I don't feel the impulse to solve #like I would if I just didn't see them then saw them in person and saw they looked miserable #I don't blame myself or feel like I personally need to fix everything because I know they felt like that from an outside source I can't #control but I can certainly help them if they want! It's their choice tho and I don't feel bad if they don't/I can't #I feel less need to control my emotions/force them to be positive like I used to cause nobody feels positive 24/7 and I can see it #I don't feel the need to be politely content like I did in church because no one can be 24/7. I've attempted to get my family to start but #they're still stuck in needing to not be openly negative. It also helps me accept that negative feelings don't last forever #Someone feeling miserable because they're sick eventually puts they feel tired. Then chill and I know they feel better and I feel better too #Anyways thanks for listening to me ramble about my silly little feelings wheel app I hope it helps you like it helped me anon <3

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hua-fei-hua · 1 year

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it's definitely extremely funny that after i start writing a smut For Real (not clickbait) i proceed to receive. a fucking nosebleed. like this is anime.

#it's definitely Something that it also happened like. after i seem to have lost interest in writing it #BUT ALSO THE NOSEBLEED JUST LIKE. FUCKING HAPPENED???#LIKE I WAS TRYING TO SLEEP (had been for like an HOUR) AND THEN SUDDENLY. I FEEL THIS RUSH OF LIQUID OUT MY NOSE????#and i'm like 'oh it's like when i'm ill and have a runny nose.' but i also wasn't sentient enough to think 'but i'm not sick???'#however i WAS sentient enough to think 'what if it's a nosebleed? let's taste it' AS IF I HAD A NOSEBLEED IN THE LAST DECADE #and then i was like 'hmm well it's kinda thick and metally. let's turn on the light just in case.' AND WHABAM.... BLOOD ON MY HANDS #okay well that's a lie i also smeared some on my fingers n squinted at it in the dark n was like 'that's awful dark. it might be blood'#and THEN i turned on the light and saw all the blood. my sheets have tinie bloodstain on them now. and also my stuffed unicorn :c #and then it just like. wouldn't stop. but it has stopped now! huzzah #i almost went to the bathroom to get a wad of toilet paper but then i remember i still keep a box of tissues by my bedside #from my plague days when i Definitely Fucking Needed Those Things All The Live Long Day #(oh right i got vaccinated yesterday <33 well i guess two days ago now. we love inoculation!!! i'm doing my part :D)#anyway i'm now chillin in bed with the lights on and my head tilted back bc i'm worried #that if i just try to go back to sleep then my nose will just start gushing blood again #anyway i also went and got a glass of water. that's supposed to help right? right #anyway (2) we'll see what happens to that smut. i Need to be better than my archnemesis at this #tho considering she writes like Peak any two guys shit these days i imagine it would not be that hard!#花話

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transgender-catboy · 4 months

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took a nap

#feelin fresh #like. actually tho #i feel good #gonna chug some water and feel even better #i needed that snooze #now ill be able to stay up late again because they're still doing maintenance #and I'll have to be awake for around 7-8 ishhhh to let them in #now i know what you're thinking #“why stay up late if you need to be up early?”#i cant wake up early. it makes me physically sick #like barfing and stuff #but! i can stay up late like it's nobody's business #so I'm just gonna do that and be fine #👍

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despairforme · 2 years

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Man, he sure is fucking glad he never gets sick.

#[ nnoitra has amazing health ]#[ like ??? he never even gets the flu ]#[ me @ him: u lucky bastard ]#[ i'm feeling better tho! ]#[ i still have a bit of a fever but i'm sO BORED with being sick so NO MORE ]#[ i want to spend time with my muses! i want to write!! ]#[ i'll do some stuff today uvu ]#[ i'm also re-watching haikyuu so that i can write my au for nnoitra ]#[ EXCITING! ]#[ hope you're all doing good! ]#despair for me. ╱ in character.

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pls-just-let-me-marry-yeung · 1 year

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Ok, so I'm trying my luck in here : Does anyone know of any mods that replace Harvey? And I mean totally replace his character, not change his looks or gender. I've seen the Midoriya Izuku one, but I hate that character with a passion so big pass. There's also a Good Omens one, where they change him into Aziraphale, but by the looks of it is not compatible with the phone version and I'm lowkey afraid to even try and find out myself. I might end up installing the Diverse Stardew Valley one, but I was hoping for something that changes his personality too.

So any help would be really appreciated? Thanks in advance regardless.

#Honestly I'm sick of avoiding him like the plague agdhdjsj #Last time I played sdv (aka before 1.5 was avaliable for the phone app) I could find no mods for that but maybe maybe I have more luck #This time around #I'll try my hand on making one myself if I wasn't doing straight up everything on the phone lol idk if I can do a whole ass mod on this #Little shit #No hate on Harvey!#I just. Yk. Remainds my of my toxic ex. Is really easy to avoid him game tho which is how i was able to still enjoy it regardless #But man I am in better terms with Perry than him. And I hate that guy with a passion #Anyway yeah if you guys got any good ideas would really appreciate it. Otherwise I'll just keep ignore his existence #sdv mods #Stardew valley #Sdv #idk how to tag this #sdv harvey #stardew valley harvey #Pierre*#Yk what? Fuck it his name is now Perry and he's a jerk

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noxtivagus · 2 years

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#🌙.rambles #continuation!!!!!#i think. this world is lonely for people who think like me #especially since i'm still young i think it's harder for me to find people like me #wah... moments n nights like these #my whole family's basically sick at this point but we're happy #i love how i smile as you smile. how i laugh as you laugh #i love how i imagine. there are worlds in my head that only i know #i love how i write n how i'm aware of how the memories n my life n myself #n i love the way i analyze myself n others #n how my experiences have made me to be this way #i want to do a lot better tho n keep on improving myself #so i'll read! n learn! n study harder!#one aspect in my life that i've been particularly weak tho is socially #frankly idk how i'm really supposed to fix that😭 but i try #idk it's a bit hard to get closer w ppl lately when we're all busy #n maybe it's my intuition or anxiety but #i wonder if i've ever been the first choice. or someone special. maybe in a childhood friend way or the friend you can confide in #the one you go to for advice? or the one that comforts you. i wonder what i mean to others #as usual though above all i want to focus on improving myself. holistically #i still feel so sick rn wah i'm gna rest ><

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i-put-the-s4p-in-s4pphic · 2 months

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pacing my room chanting to myself to be the change you want in the world. treat others how you want to be treated. you will reap what you so. what you put out is what you will receive. karma.

be the change you want in the world

#it's literally not that serious!!!#I'm just a little sick rn (I'm getting better tho!!)#and going through some shit (it's my matric year and my dad sucks :/)#so I can feel myself slipping into old habits of like... rotting??#I mean I pull away from others and self isolate and doom scroll a litte #which 1) I don't actually wanna do that. what I WANT is to feel better and that obviously won't help #honestly it might make it worse and I'm not in too bad shape but I don't want to relapse again #2) I've actually made a lot of progress on myself that I'm v proud of :D and while I understand #progress and isn't just a straight line #I wanna put in the effort while I still have the energy/time to form new habits if things get like... bad bad #3) I feel I've connected w my friends and family recently which I'm v happy about #it's still rough some days but I *feel* closer to them. like I really do #and I feel supported and loved which is so refreshing #I'm honestly just trying to better form connections/relationships w ppl #cuz I kinda suck at that lmao. social anxiety am I right ladies /s #but everything has been fine so far.. which is ALSO good bc it proves my anxiety wrong #but mainly good bc.. it's good to be good?? wow great word choice. u can tell I write /s #but yeahh #I really should start journaling again but I keep forgetting where I put it🤡#💘. rambles

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traumagenica · 4 months

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#i am reminded of the latest of my old friends to disappear from my life #got a spam text from a local number asking to meet up for coffee and i thought maybe it was her and she just had a new number (again)#the fact that i hoped for a minute... im mad at myself for it #she blames me for abandoning her when we were younger even tho *she* was the one who fled across the fucking country without even a goodbye #changed her number multiple times without contacting me when mine's been the same since the day we met and she could always reach out #and had the gall to be mad at *me* for not talking to her #she would do one super nice cool thing for me but when i can't reciprocate because im fucking broke she'd be upset that she was #“the only one putting the effort in” when its like i dont have the same resources or connections of you i was working 2-3 jobs for years #i would send her gifts and letters and cards she wouldn't write back but if i couldn't make it to an event she invited me to the day of #she'd give me the silent treatment for months #when she sent a package it was always something more expensive than i could gift back #i was vulnerable with her and told her when i fell out of touch again that it was because i was really sick and having difficulty #leaving the house. because i *know* i tend to withdraw when things are hard and i'm working on doing better #i shouldn't want to be friends with someone like that #i shouldnt want to be friends with someone whos always had a rocky relationship with me at best #and yet...#it hurts...#she's not the first friend to leave me she's not the first to walk away without closure she's not even the most painful one i've lost #but it still hurts #it hurts so bad #admin tags >>#text post #vent #venting #friendship #friend breakup #interpersonal relationships #chronic illness #mental illness #i hate mourning people who are still alive

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link-lonk · 5 months

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Saw a photo of a slice of cake and I want cake sooooooo bad now. First thing I'm doing once I don't feel like shit anymore is I'm making cupcakes and then I'm going to eat all of them

#radiostatic.txt #yeah I'm still sick. thought I was getting better and then my body said fuck that actually #it's fine it's fine #will be going to the doctor's at some point tho #because I don't enjoy waking up and immediately rushing to the bathroom to cough up some green stuff. yay green stuff #it is not a pleasant or enjoyable experience I do not recommend

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lisztig · 7 months

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I'm into tea and coffee and have a nice set-up for each and last Christmas my parents gifted me a box of coffees from different places but it's definitely intended to be a gift to people who... like coffee. And by that I mean "like" as in "drinks one or two cups of pour-over supermarket coffee a day". Which is fine! But I like coffee in a "owns a dedicated grinder and espresso machine to make a cappuccino every morning and affogatos in the summer" way (I'm sensitive to bitter tastes and don't like straight espresso....... Yes, I know that makes zero sense). I know it sounds pretentious because it is but I like the ritual.

Anyway.

They gifted me coffee, but it's all dark roasted and bitter, so bitter that it's too bitter for me in a cappuccino 🙃 and now I'm stuck with a lot of coffee that I'll probably all hate but still I have to be GRATEFUL BECAUSE IT WAS A GIFT, RIGHT? UGH

#I'm sick of this #I've TOLD them to get me a box of cheap Milka chocolates or some Rittersport instead #but no! it's gotta be expensive coffees and a box of lindt because that's more expensive! ahh!#why would you gift me a collection of coffees if you don't know a lot about coffee but I do!!! aaaaa!#for reference I buy from specialty roasters #every year I tell them to either get me a box of the expensive chocolates I like and would only be 10-20% more expensive than Lindt #or to get me the cheap stuff I like!!!!!! it's okay!!!!!!!!!!! you don't have to spend a lot if money on me I promise you I'm BEGGING YOU #things I'd prefer to a 20€ box of Lindt chocolates: a single bar if RitterSport (1 - 1.5€)#a small box of Mozartkugeln (5 - 20€)#a bar of Zotter chocolate (~3€ I think?)#a box of Zotter chocolates (ok this one isn't cheaper but I'd rather have 3 Zotter chocolates for 10€ than a whole box of Lindt)#where was I going with this? oh yeah please don't get me tea or coffee unless you KNOW what I like 😭#tho I gotta say I'm more upset with my parents because they should know me better by now #this entire rant was brought to you by my annoyingly bitter cappuccino #it's still sitting there. taunting me.

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despairforme · 2 years

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NOVEMBER WRITING GOALS & OCTOBER SUMMARY!

As expected, I was really busy this month, so I didn’t get as much writing done as I had hoped. But! It’s all good because I had a great month, spending time with family and my s/o and exploring the beautiful nature around our home. I’m really in a good place mentally and I’m just?? Living my best life?? ANYWAYS - I wrote 21 000 words in total this month. More than half of it (13k) was for my Star Wars OC story, that I’m literally obsessed with. One of my goals was to complete chapter 4, which I did! ( the only goal I actually completed ). For Nnoitra, I wrote 5k, which is a little shy of my monthly average so far this year. Oh well! I wrote a drabble for him this month though, so I’m really happy with that! I had set myself a total goal of 30 000, and I think I would’v hit that if I hadn’t been sick for the past few days, but it’s all good.

IN NOVEMBER - I don’t think I’ll be as buys as I was in October, but still setting myself more modest goals to make it more likely that I reach them. The writing goals include writing on all my blogs ( both my bleach blogs and one piece blogs, discord and all my personal projects. Here are the November goals!

30 000 words in total.

Send 50 asks.

Finish chapter 5 on my Star Wars OC story.

Finish the starter-call I posted for Perospero and Caesar.

Write 2 drabbles for Nnoitra.

Complete the storyboard for my novel, “the Tide”.

Have some activity on each of my blogs, preferably also something queued.

Modest goals that I’m excited to complete! Happy writing in November guys! Hope the month is kind to you! <5

#[ i'm in such a good mooooooooooooood ]#[ even tho i'm still sick fjfjfj ]#[ i caught a cold so i've been having a fever for the past few days ]#[ feel much better now tho! so i'll definitely write today ]#[ a fresh new month is always exciting ]#[ hope you're all doing really well!! ]#toby post. ╱ out of character.

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