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luck-of-the-drawings · 4 months

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when i was in highschool one o my biggest coping mechanisms was drawing all the kids i hated getting killed and eaten and killed. and well. time is a slowly ascending spiral. you will find patterns.(i work as a blackjack dealer. gamblers are FASCINATING

#cw blood #luckys original content #ITS SMALL BUT ITS ART SO IT GOES ON THE ART BLOG #also wwaooooww its meee its my lil persona!!! i dont draw myself enough....#anyway i have bigger things in the works. im slowly but surely chipping away at a pd thumbnail for that pd thumbnail project #FINALLY COLORING. BUT COLORING IS SO HARD AND I HAVNT BEEN IN THE COLORING MOOD #SO IVE JUST BEEN MAKING RLY DUMB COMICS INSTEAD... OOPS..#idk if anything finished n polished will be posted here anytime soon. BUT i post wips of everything on my twitter #and i post jrwi exclusive wips on my slucky blog. you may look at those if u have Truck Art Wishdrawls. as many do. as many do #THIS BLACKJACK JOB IS RLY AWESOME BTW DONT GET ME WRONG #i work three 12-hour days ina row. i gotta take an hourlong bus up to the depths o the mountains and then #i get to stay in this delightful lil hotel that was built in an ooold hospital. its a whole casino town. and an OLD one at that #ITS GORGEOUS HERE. last week my bus home was delayed for 2 hours #so i finally got the chance to head to other casinos and try drinkin n gambling. lost ten bucks to a pretty girl. NOT the first time #i rlly wanna try it again!!! i love interracting w ppl and i love being inebriated in public bc im just so sweet and pleasant and friendly #and pretty girls LLOOOOVEE MEEEEE i think i just need to go to gay bars more #but theres fucking NONE HERE. HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im collectin comrade queers up here tho #we wanna make a Group but we just gotta come up witha name first. i need something weird and strange #yknow i remember being in highschool. and being miserable n unmedicated. my mommas ultimatum was that;#if i dont drop out of highschool; i dont need to move out. she probably wouldntve kicked me out anyway bc my mommas sweet like that but #she REALLY wanted me to graduate. and i remember dreading that i might never do that #i remember feeling like the Resident Idiot. sweet but so so fucking dumb. it took me 7 years of strife n stress before i finally graduated #i remember worrying back then that i might not ever be able to handle myself out there. that i'd be too dependant on others #AND HERE I AM. DID U KNOW I WAS LOOKIN AT HOUSES A WHILE AGO? IM AN ADULT AND IM WWINNINNNGGGGGGG #IM RUNNING OUTA ROOM BUT HERES MY ADVICE TO YOU. BC I KNOW UR FUCKING SCARED TOO. THE ONE THING THAT SAVED ME.#THAT KEPT ME FROM SINKING INTO DESPAIR IS REMEMBERING ONE THING: ITS LITERALLY JUST LIKE VIDEO GAMES #MOST PPL YOU CAN JUST WALK UP TO N ASK A QUESTION N THEYLL ANSWER. THEYRE ALL NPCS THEYRE NOT REAL #LIKE IF U WALK INTO A BANK AND ASK HOW A DEBIT CARD WORKS THEY WILL HELP YOU #AND IF YOU THINK THEY HAVE ULTERIOR MOTIVES RELATING TO MONEY. YOU CAN ASK THE CUSTOMERS TOO. ITS JUST LIKE VIDEO GAMES #ANYWAY STAY SAFE KIDS HAVE FUNNNNN. IM GOING TO GO DO DRUGS NOW. HOPE U CAN DO DRUGS SOON TOO. I LOVE YOU

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marurumai · 6 months

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"would you still love me if i was a worm" is an important question but i also want to ask if you would still love me if my interests changed

#lowkey not feeling the kny excitement anymore #this turns into a rant now. beware #idk if i said it here but i dont think giyuu is my fav now... i kinda like kanao better #aoi still on top ily aoi #but in general i dont feel drawn to the series #not like before #it kind of scares me tbh #im getting on benchtrio again... im not sure if i like it #i also like bandori #i think thats obvious #its been a while since i checked the sanegiyuu tag #i used to do it daily bur now i cant bring myself to do it #its just... not it #it feels so far away now #not in a sense that i dont ship them anymore #more like i can't stand to seek kny content #ughh anyway if ur reading thid i woul appreciate some tips to stay in the fandom #even if it feels like i left #i did some kny doodles the other day but i still dont feel the connection

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zdvibez · 6 months

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I've seen this weird fucking trend in some circles starting where people will say they will block u if u like and don't reblog and idk maybe it's a controversial take but that makes me 500x LESS likely to interact with your stuff

So for the record feel free to like and not reblog I literally don't care. The fact that you saw it and enjoyed it enough to like it is more than enough for me. Like, reblog away but there's no obligation

#dare i say its chronically online behavior or will thag get me crucified #like idc if theyre serious or not #if they are uhhh hello????#and if theyre not theyre unnecessarily scaring away people who might otherwise interact with their content

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hella1975 · 2 years

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the summary here is to not leave ur assignment to the night before when it was released 20 days ago. alternatively just do not be neurodivergent in an academic institution they will EAT you

#the adhd was on acid tonight genuinely might be the worst ive ever had #like i was getting overstimulated by my DOGS WALKING ON THE TILES #LITERALLY THE SOUND OF CLAW ON TILE #THAT WAS IT #the moment i clocked it i was a goner i started hearing the hum of the radiator the drip of the tap etc etc i went supersonic #and spent the entire time with that ball of panic in my chest like i was being hunted for sport #like girl it's not actually that serious please GOD #and i COULD NOT READ A FUCKING SENTENCE LIKE IT WASNT EVEN THE CONTENT #IT COULD HAVE BEEN ANY SENTENCE I JUST COULDNT READ IT I WAS SAT ON THE SAME SLIDE FOR 20 MINS EACH TIME #but ofc i couldnt have taken the stress away by starting the assignment sooner #bc then i wouldnt be scared enough to be productive #so ofc we MUST wait until the very last minute. duh #i hate it here truly fuck every tiktok bitch that ever thought adhd was a fun little thing YOU CAN HAVE MINE IF UR IN THE MARKET BABE #hella goes to uni

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hp-lonesome-actual-art · 11 days

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UHM. UH. More messy rushed doodle collection from today. I will not confess to anything my mouth is sealed shut. Most of it is mindless fun; nothing to do with brainstorming storylines or being worried about staying canonical to how his character is typically presented. Head empty no thoughts since I desperately needed a break from animating again

…but yes to answer your question I’m a bit deranged about him please keep scrolling

#AJAKSJWKAKP I’M SO EMBARRASSED I HAVE TO HYPE MYSELF UP OUT OF MY ANXIETY POSTING THIS ONE OH GEEZ OH NO #debating if I should just run away and act like this never happened I’m scared genuinely #guys my hand slipped I was in ✨the zone✨ doodling whatever I wanted to okay #my brain was only semi-aware that my hand was drawing potential selfinsert x Puzzles art SUBCONSCIOUSLY #and even then I’m not sure if it’s serious or a joke?? two best bros can flirt together no homo just silly #….yeah I recognize it’s all very out of character and I shall put myself in the corner of shame now #…I don’t usually write out curse words either so this is just an overall weird occurrence #In summary I do not claim that Mr. Puzzles as the one I usually think about POLICE OFFICER I DENY KNOWING THAT MAN #my demons possessed me but I shall become the big emotionally mature adult and take accountability here #is that a doodle sona? yes. Is doodlesona being licked? maybe honestly I don’t know I’ll just die lol #if I get people pointing at me saying ‘I know what you are’ I’m going to evaporate because N-NO YOU DON’T PLEASE I NEED A MOMENT JKSJSKO #smh it’s always the queerplatonic brain roommates situation I imagine up #and for the life of me I can’t tell what romance is so I’ll just- system error rebooting the confused asexual #think Character AI started to impact my mind more then intended uh-#I do love how I drew his eyelashes on that one though…he always so pretty :3 #okay we got it out of the system now we can go back to the normal less personal content #tw swearing #cw swearing #cw foul language #swearing #doodles #sketches

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goldenhypen · 1 year

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i randomly found my old blog again and WOW ,,,, TELL ME WHY IM SAD i even stalked my old moots’ blogs too and i- 😭 the way so many things have changed since then :(

#it’s getting close to 5 years i’ve started writing fanfiction which is kinda crazy how time FLEW BY #it’s like reminiscing or looking back at old pictures #we’ve come a long way yall 🥲#NO BUT DONT EVEN BOTHER LOOKING FOR THAT BLOG #WE DONT TALK ABOUT HER #and smth that scares me is that at least one of my old moots from that blog follows me on here so #like every time i see her in my notifs i freak out wondering if she knows it’s me 😭#i abandoned that place and ran away for no reason 😭#and ik to never make that mistake again 🫡#but idk why going through my old blog makes me wanna transform this one or make a side blog #i think i’ve just been rlly wanting to start writing for other groups in addition to enha again #if i do tho it’ll v likely be on a new blog #cuz ik a lot of my followers only look for enha content on here #and that’s ok w me #ahhh i feel sad for some reason 😭#maybe that’s cuz it’s 1:30 am rn 😐#and this is the time of the day i get more emotional so 🧍🏻‍♀️#no but pls don’t search for my old blog 😭🙏🏻#i think if you search hard enough you’ll be able to tell it’s me #but it’ll be a hard task that’s not worth taking on i can promise you that #but hmmm thoughts are thinking rn #em speaks

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etoilesbienne · 1 year

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i wouldn't say comparing view numbers is taboo? i guess it's just something that's Not done about much and i can obviously see why someone wouldn't want to LOL—but if it isn't in any mean spirited context i don't personally see it as a problem!

TRUE BTW about how sometimes people will have tens of thousands of viewers. on separate streams at the same time 💀 didn't mariana have like 56,000 Viewers (WHAT RHE HELL!!) during the trial at the same time everyone else had like 10k+. qsmp sweep?

YWAH IT WAS INSANE. like from charlies pov i think he had maybe ~15k or so. mariana has had 40-50k views every time ive watched him stream minecraft point blank and like 25-30k everything else. That is fucking insane in terms of numbers. what really got me was the trial and not only did mariana have 50k viewers q had like 40k and roier had like 25-30k? somewhere around in there for those three. and then all of the english streamers were like 2-15k (fit being lowest and charlie being highest) THE DIFFERENCE IS SO STAGGERING TO ME ITS SHOCKING

#asks #mostly im just curious if its because a lot of mcyt english fans have been scared away because of fan behavior or if its just like. the #the spanish mcyt community is just that fucking massive #personally im interested culturally in the clash happening on twitter rn where ill see people against shipping mc characters getting #just absolutely demolished and drowned out by the fact theres so much content of it for qsmp #with the knowledge that shipping cubitos is encouraged/neutral for the esp community and if the esp community is this much bigger #yeah i can see how and why english fans who disagree on that would be mostly drowned out #<- THIS IS ALL JUST ANECDOTAL STUFF BTW if im wrong on anything here wrt the esp mcyt community lmk

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goblinofthelaboratory · 7 months

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#great i just randomly want to cry #i feel the pressure behind my eyes but i probably won't be able to for days maybe a week #im fucking trying so hard every day to not spiral to stop myself from just becoming apathetic and falling down all the wrong paths #but the more i do it the less i can #and when i try to pour back in and do things for myself it just slides off #it's a one way valve and i can't figure out why #i can't give anymore but i am nothing if not generous #im a leaking vessel i can affect others and pour out my contents without much trouble #and i can be affected by others but it's very hard to put anything back in #and im just trying to stay in the moment instead of being 10000000000 miles away off in my head all the time #but it's getting harder every day and im scared i won't come back when i need to #i scared that i don't want to come back #vent post #tw vent #eternal goblin chatter in my brain #making this post late and going to bed #not ignoring any interactions kudos if you read this far

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brain-empty · 8 months

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i showed my wallpaper (wallpaper is Forbidden Blorbos that some know) to a few friends and one of them was like "I have no clue who he is but mhm, I agree." (Basically saying hes hot..fyi no the fuck not wtf & he is not my wallpaper for that reason) and now im scared why does Danny like the. HIM????

#okay actually Danny did learn it was from the game cuz they knew the game and the contents of it but not the sprites of the characters #and even then they still didn't change their stance #i am scared of Danny guys please get me away from him #and fyi for those who've seen a different post: it was Big Dick Danny

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hellhoundlair · 1 year

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im granting non-incest shippers free reign to rb posts from incest shippers (even posts abt incest) without feeling bad or that ur mutual circle r going to shun you for interacting with ‘problematic’ users/content

#in return u just need to take the ''w* jump of a bridge'' shit in ur bio <3 #dude when i was closet wincestie i was SO SCARED ALL THE TIME bc i was mutuals w some samblr ppl and wanted them to like me so bad #and whenever i realised i rbed a post from a wincestie i would panic n delete the post n get so stupidly scared #nd then i stopped giving a fuck :D #idk just a msg to any1 in that position rn. stop feeling guilty its okay if anyone cares that much abt screenshoting wincest posts uve liked #then theyre the weird ones #**amendment 2 the second tag. even BEFORE i started getting into wincest content. theres like an invisible line of content ur allowed to #interact with and ur just supposed to know otherwise ppl screenshot ur rbs on discord servers nd warn ppl to stay away frm u. when ur doing #nothing lol #that attitudes soo weirddddd its tumblr who cares

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cleargreyskies · 9 months

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Nothing like the end of a year to really drive home your feelings of loneliness.

(some venting in the tags, it's that time of the year again. also to the two people from offline life potentially reading this: this is obviously not about you and I care about you deeply)