#and how messy that process can be

[cherubchoirs]

im so fucking deranged because this song like. JUST came out but collared by vane lily could probably be a gabriel song if you think hard enough about it

YEA I CAN SEE IT....i mean like. much of what i read in gabriel's story is the process of coming to terms with an oppressive system of faith and the deconstruction of beliefs. i know i've talked about it plenty so i won't ramble on in-depth, but i do like the idea that gabriel has never fully fit into this system and his dedication to it is a direct manifestation of his perceived internal failures - he is a paragon in his station as an archangel to cover for his personal doubts. he proves himself in works, but not necessarily in faith. it's why i have him vaguely approached by lucifer before the war in heaven, and how that has haunted him to the current time. he knows something in him has always doubted, but it caused him to double his efforts and be ever more zealous in his condemnation of sinners, the very people he has sympathy for. and so coming off of that, he is left with so many broken pieces of a life - so much wasted time, so much abuse he went through and perpetuated, so many times he should have questioned, should have stopped, and now to sort through an entirely broken world view and schema he cleaved to regardless of his own misgivings. sometimes he absolutely does wish he had never lost his faith, he still feels reverence for god and for his kingdom in many respects, he still prays and still struggles with viewing the world in black and white. and he can't fully embrace who he is and what he wants, because the old stain of thinking in terms of sin and virtue still paint everything he does. he wants wild bloody abandon with v1, to give it and to feel it, he wants to connect with sinners, he wants to oppose what has been done...yet for some of that it's too late, for some of that it's too little, and for some of that, he feels mired in shame. sometimes falling feels pointless, like he should have just died believing in all of this, but as he grows more into a new life, he realizes how grateful he is to be given a second chance to live as he sees fit, even if that chance is small, broken, and lately come

[fernsnailz]

cleaning out the files, sonic sketch edition

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Hi! I hope this is okay but I would love to hear more of ur thoughts about the Yunmeng siblings because they are important to me and your tummy hurt comic hasn't left my brain as just,,, such good immediate characterization! ^^ Thanks!

I have too many thoughts on the Yunmeng siblings to fit into a succinct post, but I can offer you a Jiang Yanli addendum to the tummy hurt alignment.

[cayennecrush]

evangeline makes an offer... 👀 [next >>]

[uncanny-tranny]

Healing can look and feel a lot like pain, so it's hard to imagine this being a good sign. However, I think feeling like it's getting worse can be a sign that you're healing and you're making progress.

I've been noticing in myself that I feel a whole lot worse ever since I actually... acknowledged I have a lot of healing to do and that I am unwell. I actually allowed myself to entertain the idea, and it's opened the floodgates to me finding out just how bad it got. I'm grateful in a way that I'm getting worse now because I have the ability to heal.

If it feels like it's gotten worse, maybe it could be because you're making your way out of the storm. It's going to be okay.

[k1ttnz]

In honor of homeward bound almost finishing (which btw im definitely gonna cry when that happens) i decided to draw as much fanart as i could for it while i listen to it in text to speech. For @thompsborn thank you so much for writing this amazing masterpiece ily like actually

based on this excerpt

also i now realize that maybe college people dont wear backpacks or maybe they do idk hopefully they do because its too late to change the pose 😥 okay im gonna yap in the tags cause its gonna be too long of a post

[rpmemes-galore]

thank you, @staff, for somehow making the dashboard even worse. is this, like... a joke? like, are you guys actively going out of your way, snickering to each other in the boardroom, about how to make the worst possible changes just to see how far you can go? sure feels like it. 

[fragmentedblade]

I think I've become an official HI3 player. I check the HSR leaks hoping for iterations of HI3 characters now

[bunnihearted]

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[eternal-reverie]

got the posting anxiety bad tonight

[fishyartist]

think ive finally figured out a building process i dont despise. still got a LONGGG way to go improvement wise (a whole lifetime even) but the process occurs regardless :3

[eggwishing]

little peek at somethjing i am cooking up ...

[deathlonging]

kind of horrifying but also freeing how with enough time to let it simmer you can come to accept anything

[badolmen]

I think one of the hardest things for privileged leftists have to learn is that they can’t just automatically agree with the majority. They can’t just automatically agree with the opinion of the POC, the queer, the Jewish person they’re interacting with in the moment because ‘they’re the experts in their own life.’ Which is true! But there is no monolith. POC and queers and religious minorities are not some mystical pure hivemind that always agree on everything and have correct opinions all the time. People are people. What one person finds offensive another might not care about.

I feel like it’s very evident these days where you have some people of a minority saying x is bad and some people saying x is good. Which is correct? Well, you have to educate yourself and make a critical assessment of the arguments before coming to your own conclusion. But now you have leftists who are desperate to be the most agreeable person in the room with the ‘right’ opinions who waffle and fail to organize in any meaningful way because they refuse to let the subject at hand have meaning for them, personally. They’re so busy ‘listening’ to minorities they’re not actually thinking about what they’re hearing, they’re not processing the biases underprivileged people can still carry, they’re not critical of reactionary politics or propaganda so long as it’s what the people immediately around them agree on.

Grow a spine, pick a side, and actually have a framework for your political and social involvement other than ‘let’s be real niceys with everyone :)’

[crimeronan]

i'm working on the next wwaitsoatl chapter, which as i've previously mentioned is by FAR my most involved story as far as, like, technical process goes. i finished the second draft of the chapter and went "god, wow, this is all shit, this all sucks so bad, i'm never gonna be able to make anything usable out of this" and then stepped away for a few hours and now i'm midway through the first editing pass and i just keep going "oh my god. oh my god. holy Shit this is gonna bang so fucking hard once i fix it all. oh this is gonna go so hard there's so much potential. fuck YES oh my GOD my HORRIBLE LITTLE BITCHES ARE BACK-"

[lususnatura]

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a song that i associate with my muse meme!

AHH, hey, ramone!! thank you for sending in this prompt :D since you sent in three of the mic's, i shall now be treating you to three songs that make me think of blamore when i hear them / that i associate with it. an explanation of why i chose them will be in the tags <3

hozier - who we are.

icehouse - crazy.

depeche mode - personal jesus.