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deepestbluesky · 1 year

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hanwenzhou thought of the day: zhou zishu is some kind of fantastical creature along the lines of a siren, where he can appear to people as what they want to see. it’s a very handy quality for a spy, especially when he has such good control over how he appears that he can do it voluntarily and he can adjust the degree to which it changes him. (is he mostly him but a little altered to appeal to who he needs to get information from, or is he completely unrecognizable because he needs to sneak past a guard who is hoping to get through his shift without trouble?)

it makes it easy once zzs leaves tianchuang. no one really wants to look at a beggar at all, they practically make him invisible, leaving zzs free to do what he wants. except then he starts getting entangled in the jianghu machinations (they want to see a wandering hero) and involved with chengling (he wants to see a father figure) and followed by wen kexing (who knows exactly what he wants to see, zzs certainly pretends he doesn’t), and by the time han ying shows up in ep8, zzs is back to tailoring his appearance to whoever he’s performing for. because the thing is, he’s always performing. it’s instinct to him.

wen kexing sees his face clearly, but zzs can barely help it: of course his eyes look bigger and softer when he needs wkx to go along with what he’s asking, of course he looks taller and stronger when chengling is looking to him for guidance, of course he seems visibly sick when yby is examining him.

and i just think. what if there’s a moment. post-canon, everyone lives, etc etc, where hy and wkx are looking at him and zzs nearly breaks down because he can’t be what both of them want at the same time, he can’t be hy’s zhuangzhu and wkx’s a-xu at once, and the idea of of just being himself is genuinely terrifying for him. when was the last time he did it? does he even know how anymore? and wkx and hy are also having a Time because they didn’t realize that zzs compulsively, automatically tries to shift to match what they want from him, and they all know that they love each other truly but. that there’s always been this level of performance from zzs is painful.

#i saw an old tweet about how zzs no longer knows who he is after 20 years of being other people #and i had a meltdown #enjoy #hwz thought of the day #hanwenzhou #this is tyk vibes i think with zzs's identity crisis #but like. i don't think it's UNTRUE in shl #i think the difference is somewhat that in shl he's reclaiming an identity he abandoned #whereas in tyk he's discovering an identity he never actually let himself be before

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kibumie · 2 years

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the good part about being autistic is that we have a very vivid imagination so we can imagine or remember funny stuff and boooom we’re entertained and laughing alone like maniacs but the bad part is that we have a very vivid imagination so we can imagine or remember TRAGIC stuff and booooom crying sobbing and no one around us knows wtf is happening

#today I was at work #my stupid brain decided to imagine my bosses bullying me #and I had a meltdown #over my imagination…#aaaaaaaaaa #txt #actually autistic #neurodivergent #maladaptive daydreaming

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petra-creat0r · 10 months

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PUT IT BACK

#this is like the time my uncle painted the walls in our hallway #and i had a meltdown #aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah

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aru-art · 3 months

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sourdough rolls with homemade lemon curd what the absolute fuck man

#words cannot describe the meltdown i had over this episode #i'll be back with more art of him later #the magnus protocol #tmagp #tmagp spoilers #the magnus protocol spoilers #tmagp episode 8 #gerry keay #gerry delano #secret 3rd option fucking. gerry robinson?#gerard keay #the magnus archives #tma #my art #2024 #gertrude robinson #sorry GIGI ROBINSON #GEEGEE?#best birthday present cheers alex and jonny now i hope we never hear from him again and he remains plot irrelevant and free 4ever

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dizzybizz · 4 months

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"this is regrettably the best kiss of your life, you understand?"

#that “you understand?” kills me everytime...#i love how high condis voice got during this bit its so fkn funny DHASHGFSFGHASFhg #hi yes have the inevitable ep21 crit kiss piece except i watched ep53 today and am so 😀 im so 😀 damn i m so 😀#i love eps where they just go through so many different gimmick rooms its so fun its so fun when its not so painful 😀#happy valentines too ig #just roll with it #jrwi riptide #gillion tidestrider #jrwi chip #jay ferin #jrwi fish and chips #my art #i had a bit of a meltdown over gill through uhm... 1-3am today and i just hm #sorry to everyone in the mayors QAC uhm im not really sorry but like sorry if you could hear every msg ping uhm yeah #it was like hours of me sobbing to myself in the interests channel and it was really good for my mental health ngl like its really therapeu #-tic to just scream abt a blorbo all night #and i ended up dreaming abt infodumping to one of my brothers friends of all ppl n i got so intense abt how much i love marshall john n my #brother came into the room and dragged his friend out 😭😭😭 i just wanted to ramble abt the himbo pls.....#my walls of tags are so consistent... only consistent thing abt this fkn blog smh.

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stromer · 3 months

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go to the box, please. GO to the box, please! NOW!

#was quinn hughes silent (he wasn’t) or was he SILENCED???#the way he's so fawking annoying about it i can't stop laughingggajskdkjkjs i just Know he was tweakingggggg more than he let on #i kinda love u bad girl #its important to note that rick had himself a little smile on the bench at his captain having a toddler-esque meltdown over going to thebox #quinn hughes #canucks lb

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aphel1on · 1 month

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AURGH auwarghh the autistic parental trauma... the epi was wacky hijinks then dropped this on us out of nowhere... (sobs) laios... laiiiiooooos

#he just like me fr #dungeon meshi #laios touden #actuallyautistic #aphelion.txt #dunmeshi #laios #autism things #im definitely chewing on that marcille lore/angst too but the laios nightmare sequence hit close to home!!#dont think falin had a great relationship with their parents either #i mean aside from being willing to abandon her in the dream. idk if that's 100% accurate to how they acted.#it didnt seem like her affinity for ghosts was gonna go down real good in that flashback #also i need to write that post abt how falin has girl autism (dont ask me what that means unless you want to enter an unskippable cutscene)#actually its pretty easy to hit most dunmeshi chars w the hammer of autism laios is just the most obvious #senshi hyperfixating and having meltdowns (Waterwalk Incident.) and low empathy for people until he's gotten Attached #i need to go find that post someone made about chilchuck being the token allistic it was so fucking funny #i have like 3 more dunmeshi autism metas in my mental queue apparently. please make me shut up

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sunsetofdoom · 7 months

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You can tell Elias Mannix was a teenager in the 2020s cause he loudly states disclaimers before doing anything that could be perceived as offensive and used in a callout post

"Just for the record I am killing you because you interfere with my evil plans and NOT!!! because I am homophobic 💖 #ally #loveislove"

#bodies Netflix #this is the most commented on thing I've seen from the show but it's SO funny #I bet he had a meltdown after getting called out on twitter #never again. not even in 1890 is he risking that.#bodies

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ikarakie · 1 year

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the way my cinema GASPED at andrew, donald glover, the mcu canon reference, the venom reference AND tobey maguire .... i was close to puking i was so fucking excited

#DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED ABT LEGO SPIDERMAN #MY FRIEND AND I NEARLY HAD MELTDOWNS #spiderverse #across the spiderverse spoilers #across the spiderverse #into the spiderverse #miles morales #mcu #marvel #spiderman #atsv #spiderman atsv

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ayyy-imma-ninja · 4 months

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* Fairy Au * M-MOON? WATCH OUT

we've been here before, haven't we?

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julicity · 2 years

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... Eh?

x OVERBLOT x

#twisted wonderland #sebek zigvolt #twst sebek #twst #dmunart #*coughs*#imagine that he's using magic... since that's what causes the overblot lol #i just couldn't portray it how i wanted...#i want me some proper sebek meltdowns please #but also happiness for him afterwards #....maybe #i had fun on the expressions ;>#again thank you all for your support i love all the sebek love....#actually i think i still need more angst #sorry sebek you're not getting a break yet

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salemontrial · 5 months

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Echidna being portrayed as the most threatening condescending White Woman Talking Down On A Trio Of 12 Year Olds lady I have ever seen in all my days is a very good choice indeed very good scene all around

#she's got that smile DOWN #she's every pta mum ive ever encountered after i had a meltdown at school #pjo #percy jackon and the olympians #percy jackson #annabeth chase #grover underwood

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theartofmadeline · 11 months

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