#and if you want to encourage people to support causes theres better ways to do that than by guilt tripping

[rouge-the-bat]

i feel like some people forget that not everyone actually can help/engage with issues going on in the world. its great to encourage doing it when people are able to, but its not an obligation everyone needs to abide by or theyre a terrible person.

a lot of people have their own issues, and dont even have the energy to expend for activism. not everyone is well off enough to even be taking care of their own life properly. guilt tripping just causes more undue stress for those already suffering.

[a-lukewarm-take]

buddy, i understand why youre so confused. cause i am too.

i understand the whole things yeah, the 'harassing people is bad', 'mind your business', etc etc. but other than that im lost on whatever the hell this 'pro' and 'anti' stuff is. ive just been not interacting with that, i think those pro anti people call it being 'neutral' im pretty sure. anyway i think the whole concept is pretty dumb, but its the internet. i wouldnt be surprised if someone doxed someone else over ice cream flavors

what ive for the whole thing is this: pro in proship stands for 'pro' as in 'for' for shipping/ship and let ship, anti is the opposite of that. antis believe that fiction can influence people, pros dont. pros believe what you like in fiction does not dictate your morals, antis dont. etc etc

my tip is this: keep far far away and ignore everything about those two things. if you dont wanna do that, well, try not to get too lost in the sauce while listening to both sides and keep your mind open

sorry if you already knew half of this and this is just kinda null, have a nice day

I'm not big on lables. I think theres a pretty reasonable middle ground to be had but I doubt either side is going to actually listen for long enough to figure this out. It would be nice if they did but, this is the internet.

"Pedophilia is bad" 

can coexist with

 "Fictional characters aren't real and doing reprehensible things to them has no real life victims"

 aswell as

"Fiction and the way objectionable content in fiction is framed has historically been used as propaganda to enable or encourage harmful behavior irl." 

They're not contradictory unless deliberately misinterpreted and exaggerated via a bad faith rube-goldberg of causality.

Books like Lolita play with framing in a way that a lot of mainstream readers miss the point of, especially readers that expect Lolita to spoon feed them the morals as many other books would have. Whether or not a reader is aroused or horrified by Lolita has nothing to do with their own morals and everything to do with whether or not they picked up on the fact that the narrator is an unreliable monster justifying and lying to himself when it comes to the girl in the novel. 

Art is complicated and some audiences, no matter how hard the author tries, are going to interpret that art in a way the author did not intend or even pervert the meaning to support whatever worldview they had before encountering the work.

Sometimes stories show you an oversexualized and glorified depiction of a repugnant act, explicitly because they trust that this framing would make the audience uncomfortable. The titillation is intended only as a gateway to vomiting or a profound sense of horror as it highlights that not all bad things are prevented and that this world will not punish the unjust inherently. It's asking you to wallow in the tragedy. 

There are surely stories that have no such deeper meaning and are quite simply porn. The line is thin and blurry. When you censor one you run the risk of censoring them all because someone unprepared to think critically about what the media they consume is trying to say, is going to miss the point.

Censorship is a difficult thing to manage and everyone has a right to distrust the powers enforcing it. 

You can believe strongly that there is media that does more harm than good whilst also understanding that very rarely is this the direct or intentional fault of the creator or consumers of the work on an individual level. But rather cogs in a larger system to which individuals can participate much in the same way we don't blame the butterfly for the hurricane. You can fight for censorship without shaming or harassing the people who don't want it.

I'm sure someone else could explain this better than I could and I'm open to being wrong about this. I certainly don't have all the answers, that's a part of being human.

-Luke

[nahalism]

What suggestions would you have for someone who feels like they're blocked from achieving the life they want because reality seems intent on exiling them from opportunities to connect with people on their wavelength? I.e: If they are placed in a class it will be the class with poorly motivated, unambitious, introverted students while the other class has high achieving, extroverted students who go on to connect with each other and make waves in their field

hey angel. quick disclaimer, i only give suggestions i would give to myself & im aware what im about to say can easily be misinterpreted which would lead it to cause more harm than help and thats the last thing i want. so disclaimer lol, im not saying this so you feel like you brought misfortune or unfavourable circumstances on to yourself, but rather to encourage you to rise to the occasion. id rather be blunt and to the point, cause i feel like clarity is the first step to fixing things, which is a better result than me trying to pacify you with soft words yfm?

so, on the one hand, life could be handing you shitty cards, yet on the other it could be challenging you in a way that brings out character and grit you didn't even know you had. — theres a principle i base a lot on called the law of correspondence (basically, the idea that the reality we experience around us is direct reflection of what is in us). its possible that deep seated beliefs you hold about yourself, or how you perceive yourself in relation to others, are being mirrored back to you. — ill give an example to make what i mean a bit clearer— (idk what its like where you went to school) but, who's to say that despite the fact they werent in your class you couldn't have made friends with the extroverted students? or that you couldn't have exerted that high ambition and drive to make your own waves? sure the road would have been lonelier, but you may have found more people similar to you as a consequence, or experienced alignment with your goals and expression of your character. being the only one may also have been another call to rise to challenges around you. it may have made you stand out, or even encouraged you to be a leader/forerunner for your class, and in turn inspired the other introverted people (who may have also felt like you) to aim higher and achieve more.

what im getting at is that life isnt out to get you and unfortunate circumstances cant stop you being who you are. there are so many people who do great things without support, acceptance, and despite great resistance. so trust in that, trust in yourself, and dont let the fact your undertaking your journey alone deter you. go against the odds and do it for yourself. the grass always looks greener on the other side where its been watered and tended to. but rather than running over to where its already green, its good practice to take up your own tools & learn what it takes to make your own grass thrive. that way no matter the circumstances you know u can stand.

hope this helps. sending love 💌

[chaosnightmare]

i just i dont know. i don't think you should be encouraging ANYONE to reality check ANYBODY. maybe i'm projecting my experience too much but when people try to reality check me it makes everything so much worse regardless of how delicately they attempt it. even "what evidence do you have to support this belief" is upsetting, because i know i have none, which threatens the delusion, which causes me to shut down on you.

"does this affect anybody else?" of course not, this isn't either isn't about them or theyre in on it. "what else do you think might explain this?" nothing. my delusions aren't immediately responsive to new information, thats how most delusions tend to work. you can try to reason with me, but if i'm really in the thick of it, it will NOT work. "can we try to pick apart why you believe this?" why? why do you want me to stop believing in this? huh? are you trying to pull one over on me? are you afraid i'm catching on? are you trying to make a fool out of me? how does this benefit you? why are you asking me this? do you see how what you say can and will always increase my negative reactions to my delusions?

again i'm sure i'm probably projecting too much but like. at least in my case my delusions are extremely persucatory and are founded inherently in a paranoid view of the world. that's, like, really common. and i see people always trying to come up with safe ways to reality check, saying things like "oh if someone asks you to its okay", but i honestly still find that harmful. depending on how delusional your friend has gotten, you could be seriously harming them this way. its so much safer to go around a delusion than through it when tackling these issues with loved ones. ask how you can help them deal with the stress. offer to do things you know may help them feel just a bit better. offer a listening ear. i don't think you should immediately jump into trying to dismantle their beliefs even if they ask you to do so. like, keep in mind that in the trenches of psychosis you will rarely ever realize the extent to how severe your symptoms are. someone may very well ask to be checked because they aren't yet aware of how bad its gotten. its just not a safe practice and it should really just be left to professionals if ever. if you're that worried, know that lots of delusions will dissolve in time. they'll become less and less prominent until the person is finally able to approach the situation with a clear mind. this could take weeks or years and you'd need someone really seriously qualified to help accelerate that process. wait it out and help in safe ways.

i understand im sure theres at least one person out there who it really does help or else i doubt this information would be so widespread but awareness posts about how to handle a loved ones psychosis usually get on my nerves for reasons like this.

[is-the-primate-vid-cute]

i love orangutans. a chimpanzee would kill you if you look at it wrong but orangutans just seem peaceful. like they'll mess you up but at long as you dont hurt them they seem pretty nice

You're right- you would be hard pressed to find evidence of an orangutan attack.

While this is only a side-note in your ask, I want to address the statement "a chimpanzee would kill you if you look at it wrong". We love orangutans, but we also love chimps and won't take chimp slander!

A lot of people, including those who follow this blog, are prone to villainizing chimpanzees for their aggression and social structures.

Yes, chimpanzees are incredibly powerful animals who have a reputation for war and physical violence. Being fearful of them and their seemingly trigger-happy aggression is understandable given the media content and the many chimpanzees who has famously attacked in the past; but they are also so much more!

Chimpanzees are capable of empathy. They adopt orphaned youngsters, even males will adopt a baby in need (Sniff, documented by Jane Goodall). They play. They have a rich vocal repertoire, one that allows them to communicate different predator threats. They can communicate fear, excitement, and They LAUGH! They need reassurance from one another- reaching out to their mothers for support or embracing one another after a tiff. They kiss their young. They teach each other how to utilize and make tools. They routinely show capacity for commitment, trust, altruism, and caring,

And they suffer.

Chimpanzees all over the world live isolated in labs, human homes, or inadequate facilities away from proper social groups, care or quality of life. These living situations do not allow the chimpanzees their natural behaviors, or their natural comforts, leaving them overly-stressed and reactive. Their natural habitat is shrinking- with each group being forced to overlap territories; this causes conflict. The blood-thirsty reputation chimpanzees have gained is due, in full, to humans.

Who are we to pass judgement on how wild animals react to fear or pain? How can we say, "oh they should be more like bonobos and solve their conflicts sexually" Ask them to change the natural course of their lives to better suit our morals? Are we so much better at resolving conflict, as a species? Do we villainize them as a way to deflect our own violent tendencies? 

To love chimpanzees is to love them the way they are. They are exactly how they need to be! Their unfortunate violent reputation is not something we want to encourage. When we speak about the deadly force chimpanzees are capable of, we must acknowledge our own role in their lives and give the animals respect as beautiful, complex animals deserving of a healthy dose of fear and wonder.

Not only that, but remember that aggression is not species exclusive! Even the "peaceful" apes can act in ways we might not expect. Aggression can sometimes be a positive sign of rehabilitation! Orangutan jungle school graduates that have moved to free roam in forests can behave anywhere from apathetic to aggressive towards the people helping them, which is a positive sign for their survival.

This is a video I love, this newly released male orangutan is not afraid to fight for his independence! Theres another video of an adult male orangutan fending off humans here, the people have his best interests in mind but not knowing their intentions, he makes a formidible adversary.

It's easy to typecast a whole species, and we add that aggression can happen in any species not to scold but to encourage loving primates in their entirety- warts and all 🦧❤️

[1990jeevas]

I love it when people talk about things they're passionate about, tell me something cool!! Anything you want, just something you find interesting or want to talk about :D

hello anon my beloved, I am in a bad mood so you will be receiving a passionate, yet lowkey of pissy rant about why villainizing bakugou makes me wanna vomit and its NOT just because I'm a dumbass kinnie :)

tws: child abuse (emotional and physical), near death expierences, bullying, kidnapping, suffocation, lots of trauma in general tbh. if you've seen bnha then basically just keep all the general triggering plot stuff in mind incase i missed any warnings

also, note: I havent caught up on bnha in a minute, I'm at like the start of the war arc but I barely remember shit there tbh so like. probs missing new stuff. also bnha spoiler warnings lol

so, for starters, the homie bakugou has like,, a good handful of issues that come from his childhood that explain why he's an ass. he was always praised and never actually reprimanded for being a twat which led to him having a huge ego that ended up fucking him over majorly. this ego was something that his mother acknowledged him having, but literally didnt try to fix it with anything other than violence. see here:

like, instead of trying to help him, she hits and insults him, which is probably what led to his weird inferiority/superiority complex. being constantly told by others that you're outstanding and one day you'll be a top hero because you're rude and aggressive and then going home and being hit by your mother for those exact same behaviors is bound to fucking confuse a child.

so like, now that we've established that its definetly canon that his mother (parents? I think he said parents at some point but masaru doesn't seem like the type so 🤷) hits him though we don't know how much or how often (though if bakugou was as much of a little shit back then ((which as far as we've seen- he was)) then it was probably often), lets talk about how regardless of all that 1) hitting your kids as "discipline" not only doesn't work but is abusive lol like idc if it's spanking/popping them on the mouth for talking shit, slapping them across the face "on occasion", etc. shits not okay 2) hitting your kids!!!! does not work!!!!!!!! it is literally PROVEN not to work!!!!!!!! hitting a child who has done something wrong doesnt teach them to stop doing something it teaches them to be scared of you, which will cause the child to withdraw, removing part of their support system (assuming said abusive parents would even offer that up) and will most likely lead to them thinking they're a bad person, not that their actions were bad, which are two different things. so, ya know, that would clearly have an effect on a kid. like, as someone with a mother who reminds me all too much of mitsuki: I have acted like a complete shitbag and taken my anger out on people to feel better in the past because of the way my mother treated me. though it was nowhere near what bakugou did, I still know first fucking hand what a mother hitting and insulting her child will do, especially if they have no proper outlet for that (friends, a safe place to vent) which bakugou never fucking had.

theres also the fact that just talking to your kid the way mitsuki does (saying it's his fault he was kidnapped because he's weak, all while hitting him) is not??? okay?????? ive seen people arguing that this was just a joke in poor taste but like her son was KIDNAPPED and even if it was a "joke" there's literally NO WAY that would EVER?? BE FUNNY??????? she just sounds like the kind of parent who at the very least says shit without thinking that would traumatize bakugou (because being told right after being kidnapped it's your fucking fault by your mother is absolutely traumatizing) but it comes across as her being emotionally abusive.

mitsukis character as a whole comes across as a shitty mom who doesn't realize she's a shitty mom and thinks bakugou being an ass isn't at least partially her fault even though she's admitted to realizing he has always had an ego problem and doing nothing to fix it except for hitting and yelling which obviously did nothing but make him just as loud and violent as she is.

this is obviously not the entire reason why he's a dick but he was never properly taught that the shit he was doing wasn't okay and people not stopping it and/or praising him endlessly even tho he was a bully is basically the same as encouraging it, thank you very much.

moving on from that, let's talk about bakugous other traumas and how he naturally responds to them. hint: it's with either full blown panic or a fight response (verbal or physical, though usually physical. also sometimes it's the panic followed by the fight response.)

so far in bnha (keep in mind that I am not caught up, I've only read up to the beginning of the war arc and i barely remember those bits so) bakugou has...

nearly died via sludge villain (he was unable to move and was being suffocated to death- keep this in mind)

lost for the first time ever and against deku of all people (this nearly sent him into a full blown panic attack, likely because of that sexy little inferiority/superiority complex combo. think of this as like. gifted kid burnout lite. he has always been the best of the best and now suddenly he is being beaten by somebody who has always been weaker than him, which immediately makes him start thinking he was never actually that good, he's actually a fucking failure, a goddamn fraud)

won the sports festival by default (bakugou counts this as yet another failure because todoroki didnt try his best. had bakugou lost to todoroki full strength, he would've taken 2nd place with a bit of bitching, but he still wouldve taken it rather than refuse the medal as it would be a reminder that he failed. instead of accepting that like UA shouldve, the staff chained and muzzled him on live television and then had all might, his fucking idol, force the medal into his mouth. remember the sludge villain incident and how he couldnt move and was suffocating to death? yeah.)

been kidnapped because of the way he reacted to winning during the sports festival (he was aggressive and tried to refuse the medal because he felt he didnt deserve it and was then retraumatized by being chained up and muzzled. his "villainous attitude" was a fucking trauma response, do not tell me otherwise)

was then chained up once again by the LOV after being kidnapped,,, do we see the "retraumatize bkg" theme yet?

"ended all might" (he literally blames himself for all mights retirement because had he just not have been weak, all might wouldve had more time, right?)

my point with all of these is that bakugou has been severely traumatized and has then had his trauma responses (aggression, fight) used to further demonize him. not all people with trauma react the fucking same and the way the fandom just refuses to acknowledge anger as a valid form of trauma response is gross as hell.

moving away from that topic, bakugou has literally never had any actual friends, they all just used him and didn't care about him which absolutely will fuck up a kid, especially one who already has all that other shit going on. bakugou deadass never had a support system or people to help him grow as a person, let alone properly work through his fucking emotions so it's not surprising that he would take out his bullshit on the one person who tried to help him especially considering he saw dekus actions as him thinking he was weak. bakugou was raised to not seek help, he thought somebody strong shouldnt ever need it, so for somebody like deku (who bakugou percieved as weak and helpless already) to offer up help? deku must obviously think bakugou is even weaker than him, what other explanation could their possibly be!

speaking of which, there's his heaps of insecurities that he basically hid by being a twat and bullying others for most of his life. kid was so insecure he bullied deku for fucking years cause he thought deku looked down on him, thought he was better than him, etc. and that only got worse bc his idol then decided to take deku in, train him and even give him his quirk. there's probably some shit im missing but still he's got issues and always has had issues. that being said, he's actually improving and working them out now which is what makes him a really good, interesting character. it's also nice to see a character who is a dick without some tragic backstory (like his backstory is sad but its not the classic "my family was fucking slaughtered and i turned into a raging bitch who murders people" type shit) bc that rarely happens and it's like most assholes don't actually have a story like that they're just assholes lol

now lets talk improvement! lil bitch has been getting better since he got into UA and im so happy abt it!! he had a rough start what with deku suddenly having a quirk and all but like he is really improving now and it highkey shows that bakugou just mostly needed people who 1) didn't constantly praise him and actually criticized him instead 2) actually fucking punished him doing stupid shit and 3) some motherfucking friends

Since going to UA he's gotten actually feedback from teachers about his weaknesses and how to get stronger, he's lost against others, hes been told he has a shit attitude and is a dick, told he should be nicer and leave deku alone, etc etc. He hasn't gotten in trouble too much with teachers but others give him shit for what he does and aizawa has punished him too, while still acknowledging that bakugou is an amazing and dedicated student, something which no one else had done up til that point. and uh???? homie actually has friends who like,,, don't use him and also call him out when he's a dick. like specifically kirishima has done this shit and him and bakugous relationship is clearly very healthy and beneficial for the both of them. makes me feel all happy n shit, ya know

bottom line is: while it is absolutely valid to dislike or even hate bakugou because he is a massively flawed person who has been very cruel to others, villainizing him for the way he acts which in large part seems to be from a lack of guidance, a shitty mother and heavy amounts of trauma, is fucking awful. his actions cannot be fucking excused, he needs to apologize and continue to grow, but he is also a fucking teenager, who is just now being told that the way he acts is unacceptable by people who dont fucking abuse him (and I swear to god if any people who think mitsuki isnt abusive interact with this fucking post I will fullstop hardblock you, I do not fucking care) and actually treat him like a normal person instead of some prodigy child or someone who needs to be fixed.

people are free to debate my points or whatever bc I know some of this stuff is up to interpretation but like. dni if you're just here to say you hate bakugou for xyz reason or that he's irredeemable. also especially dni if you compare him to fucking endeavor yall bitches make me gag.

anyways thxs for the ask anon <33 sorry this is a kinda messy info dump lol

[markets]

helloooo

so this post of mine has been gaining some traction lately and due to popular demand (aka one comment telling me to write it), i actually wrote an essay about it. is it good? probably not lol, but its like 3 double spaced pages long and i actually really like it, so id appreciate it if you checked it out!

 it’ll be under the cut but first i just wanted to clarify some things: this is about their characters on the smp, not them as real people. so just pretend that theres a c! in front of every name i mention lol. also, im still about a month behind on the smp and havent watched every stream, so if anything is inaccurate/not up to date i apologize

              Two Sides of the Same Coin: A Tommy and Tubbo Analysis

      Over the years, many fictional characters have been deemed two sides of the same coin; two things that are closely related regardless of how different they may seem. Tommy and Tubbo fit that description to a tee. Their positive and negative qualities balance each other out perfectly, something that allows them to bring about meaningful change when they’re together but causes chaos to reign when they’re apart, a fact that Dream used to his advantage during the exile arc.

      One of the ways they balance each other out is in their leadership styles. Tommy leads with his heart and tends to let his emotions take control, while Tubbo has been known to lead with his head and make decisions based on logic rather than what he’s feeling at the time. An example of this was when he exiled Tommy to avoid violence and trouble for his country in the long run rather than letting his lifelong friendship with him cloud his judgement. By themselves, anyone who leads with their heart or head alone is bound to run into pitfalls, but being together allows the good qualities of these forms of leadership to shine through and the bad ones to cancel each other out: Tubbo acts as a voice of reason for Tommy and helps him think rationally, while Tommy helps Tubbo lead with more compassion to avoid becoming, in his own words, “the next Schlatt”.

In addition to this, some of their greatest flaws complement each other as well. Tommy is constantly regarded as being too stubborn, emotional, and angry, qualities that made Wilbur believe he would never be president and are the reason why Dream is scared of him. On the other hand, Tubbo is known to be a pushover, a “yes man” who, despite being able to stand his ground sometimes, typically gives in to others too easily. Just like Tommy, this quality made many believe he’d make a horrible president. However, the complementary nature of their friendship allows them to help one another and balance out each other's flaws: Tommy helps Tubbo stand his ground and make decisions for himself, while Tubbo helps Tommy avoid doing anything rash. A great example of this last statement is the aftermath of Tubbo’s execution, when Tommy was angry and started looking for the button to explode Manberg, despite his hesitancy to do so earlier, saying “Where’s the button? They fucked up for the last time”. However, Tubbo put a stop to this by telling him to go with him to Pogtopia.

      There are many more examples of how they balance each other out from the times when they have been together, but even more can be seen when they're apart. Their separation was the root cause of all the chaos that occurred during and directly after the exile arc. Without Tommy and his warnings against becoming “the next Schlatt”,  Quackity was able to take the helm in most major decisions and pressure Tubbo into violent political plans, despite one of the main reasons for exiling Tommy being to avoid violence. Tubbo only stood up to him when he realized one of his plans directly paralleled his execution under Schlatt’s rule. Meanwhile, without Tubbo there to support Tommy, he ended up teaming up with Technoblade, another thing Tubbo sought to avoid with the exile. Tommy’s habit of letting his emotions take over, not to mention his post-exile mental instability, and Technoblade’s penchant for violence and the destruction of L’Manberg proved to be a dangerous combination, since Technoblade not only failed to stop Tommy’s rash behavior but also encouraged it.

      It is highly likely that Dream was not only aware of these facts but also motivated by them. This can be seen many times throughout the exile arc, as well as right before it began. Not only was Tommy’s crime arguably worthy of no more than the originally proposed three week probation, if Dream really wanted to unfairly punish Tommy, there are many arguably worse punishments he could’ve chosen, such as execution, forcing Tommy to give him one of his precious discs (though it’s not likely that Tommy would’ve given in to that easily), or the destruction of L’Manberg. However, Dream likely knew that, by separating Tommy and Tubbo, they would do his work for him and destroy L’Manberg from the inside. After physically separating them by successfully getting Tubbo to exile Tommy, Dream took it upon himself to emotionally separate Tommy from his best friend as much as possible by talking about how much better things were in L’Manberg without him there, breaking his spirit, and feeding him lies, such as the lie about what happened to Tubbo’s compass or his sabotaged beach party.

      In addition, there is a small detail in Dream’s plan that is commonly overlooked: his mention of Technoblade's house. Without looking too much into it, it simply seems like an offhand comment made to perpetuate the idea that Dream was his friend. However, if Dream’s primary goal was to keep Tommy as isolated as possible from everyone else, it would make no sense for him to not only tell him how close by another person lived, but also give him directions to them, even if the person was one of the people Tommy hated the most. From this standpoint, it seems foolish, but it could actually be viewed as one of Dream’s smartest moves. From this, it can be inferred that Dream was not only aware of how destructive a Technoblade and Tommy teamup would be, but also encouraged it. For this same reason, he let Tommy stay in hiding with Technoblade, even after he told Ghostbur he knew he had been there. By doing this, Dream was able to twist Tommy’s volatility and aversion to the rules, the very qualities that made him the only person Dream feared, in his favor.

      For all his flaws, Dream is a smart man, and he was able to realize what many others failed to: Tommy and Tubbo’s bond was the heart and soul of L’Manberg, one of the only things keeping it running. Without them together balancing each other out, they became powerful forces of mostly unintentional chaos and destruction, collapsing the country they loved and playing right into Dream’s hands. They are two sides of the same coin: despite how different they may seem, they are closely related, necessary to each other's ability to flourish, grow, and survive, and cannot be separated.

TL;DR: DO!! NOT!! SEPARATE THEM!!!!!!!!

[libraryofsouls]

May I request all the slashers with an s/o who throws temper tantrums when they mess up on something simple? Like they're trying to carry laundry but drop a sock so they throw it all to the ground and cry and yell how they an never do anything right. I just need some fluff bc it happens to me all the time. Also bonus points if theres something extra for brahms cause hes my favorite slasher

Thank you for your time! Have a nice day! :)

slashers with a s/o that has temper tantrums

Asa Emory / The Collector

startled the first time it happens but he’ll lend a hand if he’s able to.

thinks it’s... childish.

asa himself is quite aloof, so he’s amused at how quickly you can get upset over mundane things.

at the very least he’ll help you up on your feet again and give you an encouraging pat on the head before returning to his work.

condescending but he’s not about to insult you for it. if it keeps happening too often for his liking, he’ll just start ignoring you.

Billy Lenz

OH! same hat!

billy is admittedly not the best at comforting others but he’s willing to try for your sake.

gives very very tight hugs. ...almost feels like he’s trying to smother you in his chest.

turns out he was trying to suffocate you! whoopsie! (he’s trying his best.)

but he’s snapped out of it, see? proceeds to apologize in the form of many smooches on your face.

Bo Sinclair

also same hat!

but there’s only room for one in the temper tantrum boat and he’ll make sure you're aware of it.

denies he has problems with his own temper though. no he’s not losing his shit, YOU’RE losing your shit!!!!

don’t expect him to comfort you at all.

also thinks it’s childish but says it to your face and expects you to toughen up.

Brahms Heelshire

have you met him? brahms is the king of temper tantrums.

prone to meltdowns and not shy about it either.

whether or not he’ll comfort you depends on his bratiness level for the day.

no, no, no! this isn’t about you. you’re supposed to take care of him! not the other way around!

though he admits it does feel a little nice sometimes that he can give you some form of emotional support.

if you happen to catch him in a good mood then it’s his turn to spoil you! usually what he does is just try to cuddle your worries away.

if he’s feeling extra generous (or if you’re sick) he’ll even do the chores for you without needing to be asked.

but don’t forget to reward him afterwards. no, really. he’ll even remind you. remember when he spoiled you for an entire day? okay now do him too but for the rest of his life!

Bubba Sawyer

gold star! very resilient and knows exactly what to do.

bubby is very good at comforting people. especially if it’s his favorite person in the world! he can’t talk but he mumbles in a very reassuring manner.

gives the. best. hugs. so he’ll cradle you like a little baby if he feels that he must. (which is all the time.)

once you’re feeling a little better he’ll pull you right up and give you a firm pat on the shoulder. you’re okay! we got this!

very mindful after the first time it happened. makes sure to keep an eye on you from then on.

Jason Voorhees

SHEER PANIC. AHH FRICK! WHAT HAPPENED? ARE YOU INJURED?

once he realizes the situation, he’ll be a little puzzled at first. very understanding overall though.

you know what his momma did whenever he felt bad? that’s right! big bear hugs from jason! but you’re fortunate enough to not be crushed to death, he’ll make sure of it!

cages you in a very tight embrace - humming lowly as he rubs your back. just because he can’t talk doesn’t mean he can’t comfort you.

you might not have to lift a finger after this ordeal. jason’s gonna want to do everything for you at this point. there’s no room to be upset about doing something wrong when you’re not doing it at all, right?

Jesse Cromeans / Chromeskull

unfortunate.

doesn’t have the time nor patience for this even on his best days so boo hoo.

clearly you have a problem so he needs to fix that somehow. (but he’s not about to do it himself.)

why are you scowling at him for bringing a therapist? you’re supposed to be thanking him!

probably has the most logical approach, albeit too blunt. get that “we can fix each other” bs out of his face. he has a more realistic approach to these kinds of things.

Michael Myers

then perish.

your misery is his form of entertainment.

whenever you’re having one of your breakdowns you might spot him if you look hard enough. he’s there in a corner somewhere watching - motionless.

sometimes he sees it as mildly annoying but he’s not going to be an asshole about it unless it’s a repetitive thing.

oh what’s this? he’s picked you up? perhaps to comfort you? hah, that’s funny. proceeds to drop you on the couch and raids the fridge shortly after. turns out you were in the way.

Thomas Hewitt

knows immediately whenever you’re upset and won’t hesitate to come to your aid if he’s not too busy.

while normally very shy about physical contact, he’ll actually initiate himself this time just to comfort you.

makes him feel needed and it’s nice. except the part where you get angry though.

not very good at all that emotional stuff though. feel free to rant to him but he’s not gonna know what else to do.

if it’s a constant thing then he’ll take over your daily tasks for you without another word.

Vincent Sinclair

WOE! HIS BELOVED HAS FALLEN!

super dramatic every time. acts like you’ve been shot and rushes to your side immediately.

mother-hen override! vincent would drop everything in a blink of an eye just to comfort you.

literally won’t leave you alone unless he’s sure that you’re okay again.

would finish your chores for you unprompted.

[triggerhappyimagines]

Headcanons for insecure S/O

yes yes yes you can! i suffer alot with this as well so i fully understand. sorry if i implement a bit of my experience here, as mentioned if youd like me to change anything feel free to let me know!

tw// weight, one curse word

-mod ouma

Korekiyo Shinguji

-once you decide to tell him about your insecurity, hes absolutely baffled

-you..

-you don’t find your body beautiful??????

-it’s probably one of the main reasons he sees true beauty in you.

-of course, he doesn’t express his shock to you to avoid making you feel bad, but he immediately sits you down and listens to you calmly, taking every bit of information seriously.

-he will listen to you intently while holding your hand reassuringly, giving you any time you may need to organize your thoughts.

-once you’re done, he’d squeeze your hand and take a second to come up with words, as hes still in disbelief that you’re insecure.

- he is so so glad you had the confidence to tell him and he lets you know that anytime you feel like this, you are fully allowed to come to him for help.

-as for how he would help you out, i feel he would be really great help, not just comforting wise but in general.

-if you’re having an off day, you would come to him and let him know what’s bothering you. once you’re done, he’d tell you the sweetest reassuring words whilst holding you close and pulling down his mask to give you a kiss on the forehead.

-”I know it can get hard S/O, but every single human is different from the other and that’s no reason to beat yourself up for it. Your own unique body is absolutely beautiful and maybe it will take some time for you to realize that, but know I’ll be with you every step of the way.”

-logical but sweet comforting is Kiyo’s specialty.

-if you one day decide you want to do something about your chubbiness, he will be supportive! he will exersice with you and help cook healthy meals, he’ll also give you methods from different cultures obviously.

-overall a supportive baby who wants the best for you!!!

Nagito Komaeda

-he’s noticed you start acting a little weird for a while, things like wearing oversized shirts or keeping your arms around yourself around him and all your friends.

-once he finally decided to ask you about it, you tried to convince him there was absolutely nothing to worry about, but he’s not dense.

-the boy knows lots on insecurities and self loathing, how dare you try to fool him??????

-anyway, he wont force you to tell him but he wont dismiss it because he’s actually pretty worried.

-once you actually decide to tell him, he’ll be there in a heartbeat to comfort you, giving you advice he wished someone said to him when he was down. he’ll probably say a few wrong things at first but quickly fix it if he notices it upset you! he may be a little insensitive but it doesn’t mean he’ll pruposely hurt you.

-when you were feeling too down on yourself, he’d scoop you up in his arms and lay you on a couch or bed (whatever is closer) and began peppering your entire face in kisses.

-if you allowed him to, he’d also place little kisses on your stomach and places you disliked about yourself.

-afterwards, he’d hold you close and begin asking what he can do to help you feel better. if you decide to get thinner, he’ll help you in anyway he can but reassures you that you should only do this for yourself, not because of him or other people. he will never suggest you doing anything to change yourself though, he loves you regardless and reminds that to you a lot.

-expect him to be constantly complimenting you afterwards, very supportive and understanding boy!!

Gundham Tanaka

-he understands but hates it >:(

-his beloved is unhappy with themselves? but how?

-he’d pull you outside either to a balcony or just some type of nice place to look at the sky to talk to you about it, wants you to be relaxed and know he will be there to listen.

-quickly loses his “i am satan himself” act and listens to what you say, all while letting you hold the Four Dark Devas of Destruction. you both can’t help but chuckle at the sight of cham-p rolling around in your lap.

-once you finish venting to him a little, he’d sccop up said hamster and hold him to your face.

-”Cham-p is not the thinnest little beast in the world, it does not change his immense power and potential to rule over all mortals!”

-makes little jokes like that in attempts to cheer you up, obviously takes your concerns seriously though! after getting a few smiles out of you, he’d hesitantly wrap an arm around you and plop the little rodent back in your lap, his cheeks flushing due to the hug and looking up at the clouds while he thinks of what to say.

-”S/O, regardless of how you may think of yourself, you must realize your true power and worth. Although you might not see it now, your beloved believes in you! You will not be alone through your thoughts or journey, I will be here to encourage you whenever you might feel like this again. Nothing is wrong with the way you are, please keep that in mind.”

-anytime you’re feeling low, he’ll remind you constantly that theres absolutely nothing wrong with how you are and will spoil you for the day, won’t leave you alone to drown in your thoughts.

-genuinely just wishes he could do more for you, but tries his hardest to at least take those thoughts off your mind for a little and make you smile.

-hamster boy just wants you to be happy :(

Mondo Owada

-when you suddenly come to him for exersice advice one day, hes slightly surprised. he asks you what you need to exercise for, and when you tell him you’re wanting to lose weight he’d be kind of confused but agree.

-once you open up about why you suddenly want to lose weight, he’ll be really understanding about it yet kind of angry towards whatever is making you feel that way.

-”Insecure? You’re perfectly healthy though, why is it so bad? S/O, did someone make you feel this way? Tell me who made you feel this way and I’ll beat them to a fucking pulp!!”

-you have to reassure him it’s just an internal struggle and he has absolutely nothing to worry about before he gets too crazy, though.

-once you explain further, he’ll understand and assure you you’re damn amazing just how you are! he finds you so so so strong for being able to deal with that and admires your determination to get your head out of that bad place.

-when you’re feeling down, he’ll hold you close in his muscular arms and try to encourage you, all while pointing out little things he loved about you. he’d also suggest to take you out on a motorcycle ride to take some air.

-he might even let you work out with him for a bit if you want!

-it gets really fun after a while, while you’re doing some pushups he’ll come and randomly start tickling you, leading to you losing balance and giving him even more access to tickle you, causing a literal tickle fight on the floor.

-it all just always ends in laughs and you fully forget about your worries, happy to have your huge and built boyfriend by your side to cheer you up and help you.

Ishimaru Kiyotaka

-first he notices the way you look at yourself in the mirror or how your excitement turns to disappointment when you try on new clothing. he doesn’t ask at first, but he begins noticing more little changes in your behavior and finally decides to come to you about it.

-a lot of worrying

-A LOT.

-he’d frown and ask what it is making you feel like this, sitting you down for you to be comfortable as you vent. once you let everything out he understands a little more.

-does not mean he stops worrying

-”S/O, you have great potential! Do not let these dark thoughts haunt you so much, you are much more than what your mind tells you and I believe in you to see it! I’m here for you always, love. You’re the strongest person I have ever met!”

-he tells you not to tell his bro about the last part though.

-ishimaru is really protective and loving, so on your down days, he would sit you down and let you talk it out and he will give you his best advice then hug you tightly. he’ll point out all your great qualities and give you a kiss on the forehead when he’s done.

-he’ll hold you for as long as you need and provide all the comfort he can give for as long as you need it! after a few days, he’ll leave little notes around places he knows you’ll go to. all the little notes always hold cute little words such as “you look amazing today!” or “remember to drink lots of water!”

-overall just really understanding and caring, willing to do anything to help you. best boy taka!

and finish! god im so sorry for taking hours on this, i got a little blocked of ideas, so im sorry if its a little repetitive or something :( i hope you enjoy this and if youd like me to fix anything please please feel free to let me know! also, if you need anyone to talk to i’m here for you, anon <3

-mod ouma

[chat-noir-always-here]

Marinette and Anxiety

First, lets count all the things Marinette has that Adrien doesn’t have:

She has a healthy and positive home environment

Both of her parents are living, active presences in her life

Tom and Sabine love Marinette unconditionally

On top of having loving parents she has extended relatives who care deeply for her

she is allowed to go out and have friends over

going to public school is treated as a necessity rather than a privilege

she has, to some degree, or at least more so than Adrien, knowledge of socializing and is able to perceive signals better

she is on good terms and has a history with almost all of her classmates

she is allowed to explore her hobbies

she is allowed to choose her own occupation 

she has the freedom to do whatever she wants with her schedule outside of school and curfew

I could go on but I trust my point is clear? Marinette is blessed with many of the things Adrien has been denied. Worse, everything listed above falls under the category of “normal” “common decency” or “necessity.”

Long post is long and I don’t like cuts because I’ve lost a few posts in the past using them. Please filter the tag “long post” i use it for walls of texts like this one.

But Mari’s life, despite being vastly different and more fulfilling than Adrien’s, isn’t perfect.

In order to understand Mari’s struggles we need to take a look at her history.

We see in Origins that Marinette has been the target of Chloe’s bullying for a long time—three years or perhaps even longer. As is the case with many victims of bullying she lacked the courage and confidence to stand up for himself and more or less suffered in silence until Alya encouraged her to fight back.

Something to understand about bullying: it drastically warps someone’s perspective. Not only in how they view themselves but the people and environment around them. The end result? Some form of isolation and possibly PTSD. Bullying victims tend to be either physically/mentally withdrawn, or both.

Not a lot is known about Mari’s life before the Origins episode, but given that none of her classmates stood up to Chloe except Alya, we can infer that they have grown accustomed to Chloe’s treatment of Mari and are likely not especially close with her at this point in time. 

In her “In defense of Chat Noir” video, Toon Ruins states that Adrien isn’t especially close with his classmates yet either, saying he is “that friend that your mutual friends invite along and is just kinda there.” Its not unreasonable to presume that Mari was in that spot before she became Ladybug, befriended Alya, and developed enough confidence to stand up for herself as well as others.

It would also help explain why her friends were so quick to doubt her when Lila accused her in the Ladybug episode. Despite everything she’s done for them between Origins and Ladybug, they simply haven’t been close for very long and as Alya pointed out the evidence “was stacked against her.” Of course Alya and Adrien believed her because they are closer with Mari than practically any of her other classmates.

Adrien glaring at Lila when Marinette calls out to him for help. I cannot~~~~

Of course there was another, more obvious reason they doubted her: her feelings for Adrien and how intense she is when acting on them, which as Alya puts it served as her supposed “motive” for “hurting Lila.”

Marinette has often been seen crossing lines that are better off left uncrossed when it comes to Adrien. Her friends, especially the girls, are even somewhat aware of how intense these feelings are. (i.e. Alex’s comment during Gigantitan “Marinette knows a lot about Adrien it’s kinda creepy”).

More often than not, Mari wants to go somewhere mainly for the sake of seeing Adrien. Examples of this are when she’s supposed to wait for Nadja to come pick up her cake and during Simon Says when she is grounded for valid reasons . Often times there is some obligation involved—her promise to show up at Alix and Kim’s challenge and her promise with Nino in Simon Says—but chances are if Adrien weren’t there she wouldn’t want to go so bad (until an akuma showed up that is).

Something to understand about this: Mari has little to no opportunity to see Adrien. Worse, her history of being bullied and her previous status as an “acquaintance” rather than a “close friend” gives her at least some modicum of understanding about his situation. She empathizes with Adrien and cares for him, and is aware of his loneliness. During her life before Ladybug she likely longed for someone who would comfort and console her, and yeah probably found some relief with her mom given how Sabine seems aware of Chloe’s treatment of her daughter.

 But Adrien has no one, and knowing that makes Mari all the more anxious when he doesn’t show up for their social gatherings as well as driving her desire to be the source of love and comfort he so desperately needs.

I won’t deny Mari literally breaking the law for Adrien isn’t okay. Sneaking into his home, stealing his phone, and kissing his statue (its a statue in an important museum. Chances are you’re not supposed to touch those, let alone kiss them) are simply NOT OKAY things to do. A lot of this behavior earns her some hate from the fandom and some well-deserved scolding from Tikki. But rather than making me hate her, or call her a stalker, I’m mostly concerned that she doesn’t understand how bad that is. 

But Chat Blanc was a game changer. Adrien would NEVER have seen Ladybug in his room if she hadn’t taken her sweet time inspecting his belongings, smelling his pillow, etc. Meaning Adrien could have had her present and not known about Ladybug (he may have been curious as to how Mari’s gift got past security though). 

However since Marinette WAS seen by Adrien, he was able to learn her secret identity which led to this:

This is a scenario she never expected. And as she learns this was caused by her own poor judgement, she wastes no time in saving Chat Noir, erasing her name from her gift and allowing Adrien to believe it’s a gift from his Brazilian fan club instead of from her, Marinette.

Chat Blanc was one of the last episodes of s3. Safe to say she probably won’t be breaking into anything anytime soon (theres some debate over the chronological order of the episodes, but if I recall this one takes place either in the last four or five episodes on most lists). She nearly lost her kitty for good after all--that’s not a price she’s ever been willing to pay.

This likely wouldn’t have happened at all except Mari’s life as ladybug has caused her to become accustomed to certain behavior in order to keep her secret. Yeah Mari stole Adrien’s phone right out of his locker—and no that wasn’t okay. But remember when she stole her textbook back from Alya? Taking it right out of her bag when Alya wasn’t looking? Just so you know, in the French version, Mari tells Tikki she wrote her name in that textbook. So her secret identity was in grave danger and she had to act quickly.

You’re damn lucky Alya didn’t crack that book open the minute she got it, Mari.

Anyhoo the point is this: Mari is applying what she has come to know as “acceptable behavior i do to protect my secret identity” to her situation with Adrien and misinterpreting it as “acceptable behavior I do to keep Adrien from possibly rejecting me and crushing my soul.” And in her head, they’re similar even though the consequences of either secret coming out are vastly different.

Really think about the context of that voicemail she sent Adrien—if she had accidentally butt dialed Adrien while taking to Tikki about her life as Ladybug and then had to go steal his phone to keep him from learning the truth the fandom wouldn’t have had nearly as much beef with her over that as she wasn’t the one who created the “secret identities rule.”

The reason the two secrets are equally crucial in keeping, in Mari’s mind, is likely due to her overwhelming anxiety. Which even before she became the Guardian of Paris and then the Guardian of Miraculous she was still an anxious person.

She didn’t have much confidence or even a large support network. But in the span of one day she was entrusted with the safety and well being of every single person in Paris.

She didn’t believe she was cut out for being Ladybug but was denied the option of refusing the position and told to just do her best.

She knew going out she would likely screw up the job and given her task failure wasn’t really an option.

Then her worst fears were realized when she failed to capture her first akuma and many citizens were turned into stone statues. The only way to turn them back was to allow Ivan to be akumatized so she could defeat him and take his akuma. The very knowledge of which crippled her and caused her to give up the ladybug earrings.

She tried to go back to her normal life but couldn’t. Ivan was akumatized, Alya’s life was in danger and Chat Noir was struggling to the point he got captured and needed her help. So she took up being Ladybug again in order to help them.

What was she supposed to do? Watch?

From the very beginning she had no say in the matter. Her life as Marinette wasn’t and isnt easy—she has plenty of her own problems but she was given a Miraculous and basically condemned to being at war with Hawk Moth indefinitely.

Ever give a thought as to why the French government allow these two vigilante teenagers to handle the situation? Because ordinary people can’t. In other words if Mari thought only of herself she would give up the fight and ignore all the ensuing damage. But she can’t. And she won’t. She has a job to do. She could give up her miraculous but that would mean taking the pressure off her shoulders and dumping it all onto someone else just as it was dumped onto her. She cant bring herself to do that and even if she could—who would she possibly give it to?

Just imagining that kind of pressure makes me want hurl from nerves. And as of the S3 finale its gotten worse as she has lost Fu, the person who could give out Miraculouses to other people in case she never comes back one day.

Hawk Moth would win. Game over. That’s what it would mean.

Ladybug and Chat Noir know what Hawk Moth winning would mean better than anyone else does. Of course they won’t walk away from this fight. But that means they have to juggle their double lives until its over, and apparently have to do it again with a second hawk moth later on in the future.

And again, even before all of this Mari had a lot she suffered from. Chloe bullying her, feeling lonely, being clumsy. Clumsiness is mortifying--it truly means suffering. Being the class clutz is like being the class laughingstock. Mari seems to handle it fairly well.

 Until she’s around Adrien. I mean look at her!

Poor girl can’t stand looking so uncool in front of her crush. Even though he seems to find her clumsiness endearing.

Going off what was said in my “Debunking: Adrien is perfect” post, Marinette is hyper-sensitive to Adrien’s situation despite not really knowing the full extent of his suffering. 

Marinette doesn’t know Gabriel is Hawk Moth either, but she does understand Adrien is lonely, isolated and in need of a source of love and comfort. She also understands to some degree that his heart is delicate, so she constantly handles him with kid gloves and looks on him with a perfection filter. We see how Mari reacts to upsetting Adrien in Malediktator when she softly whispers an apology after Adrien expresses his sorrow over everyone celebrating Chloe’s departure. She seems pained and distraught over causing him to be upset. Thus the reason Marinette calls Adrien perfect isn’t that she never sees any of his flaws--she just cannot acknowledge or process them under these conditions. She’s too busy trying not to hurt him. 

Marinette can comprehend Adrien’s situation, couples that with her own past experiences of bullying/ loneliness/ being a clumsy laughingstock. That combined with her love for him and her anxiety-warped common sense, led to the behavior which has earned her some disapproval from the fandom at large.

 But really? Marinette’s not a terrible person. Anymore than Adrien is.

 Adrien’s sometimes-obnoxious-flirting is brought on by his desire to “not look lame” in front of Ladybug. Ergo, his own insecurities are amplified around her because he too lacks confidence.

 Likewise Marinette’s stammering and clumsiness are amplified around Adrien, as is her anxiety and her desire to be cool in front of him.

 They both feel they have to prove themselves to the other in some regard. And they both have past and present experiences that have left them hurting and/or warped their judgement in some ways. 

 This doesn’t make Mari’s irrational behavior any more acceptable than Adrien’s troubles make his leading Kagami on and lying to Ladybug acceptable. It’s not acceptable. But Mari is no more deserving of hate than Adrien is.

They’re just a couple of stressed out kids, folks

[smolyokai]

Thinkin about relationships.

Gonna write just a small sappy journal, since I dont really have any other place to write this. Please ignore. I've been with my bf for just a little over 2 years, and while I love him so dearly, he just... makes me sad sometimes. It feels like a lot of the time, we just aren't compatible. He can be so mean, and rude, even if its a joke. But when he cares and loves, god its the best feeling in the world. I trust and love him with such a special part of my heart, that I always have someone on my side when it comes to facing the world, and its hard to imagine sometimes what I'd do if he wasn't there to support me. But when it comes to the emotional side of things, like trying to show him my love language of giving things, he just... doesnt seem to appreciate them. He never really verbally states if he likes the things I make, even though I've begged him to do more than just give me feedback beyond it "looks nice". And it hurts. I even asked im what he thought about my art, and he said its just "mediocre", even though I feel so proud of myself and the work I've done, from where I've come (to be fair, he didnt use the word correctly and thought my art just could be better and that I should want to be better, which I do). I... don't feel my best, and when I try and dream of a future together, of all the adventures I want to go on with him, I just get a "nah, you go ahead. Doesn't seem like something I'd wanna do". It hurts a lot to feel so alone. I feel like I always have to change myself just to make him happy, or if theres something that bothers me, I just... have to get over it, cause he doesnt want to change. I haven't even met him yet because of the pandemic, and while I want to more than anything to feel like all this pain and struggle and grief that I go through was worth it to be with him, to see his smile when we talk and have the full experience of being a couple, he... doesn't even encourage it anymore. He has a job that wont let him off work easy, he has to get his brother to the states, so no money to see me cause it all has to go to him. Suddenly, I have to go there for a visit, rather than him come here, even though I refuse to move to the states because of the price to live of health care, and he's known this from the start. Things were so beautiful at the start. He made the things I made him feel like the best in the world, a beautiful and appreciated gift. He always asked if he was doing things right, because he didnt want to hurt me, I felt like a beautiful and intimately appealing woman. I've never had that feeling from someone before, and he makes me feel wanted, but now...? im lost. I'm worried about getting older... I've been told by lots of people to just move on, but... I don't know if I want too. He's my best friend, we play games together, we create together, we do dream together, we laugh, theres so much trust and the history we've gone through for two years. Its hard to just... wonder what would happen if that was all gone. I still love him, but Ive grown confused. Hes a good man in a lot of ways, and to just... let it go? It would be easy if he just... did something to hurt me, but no. I feel like I'm stuck in limbo...

[shitty-fallout-art]

Rambling about fallout au concepts

SWAPOUT:

-Instead of shaun being father of the insittute, it’s the player characters spouse (I’ll call her mother just because opposite) The institute originally planned to get shaun but uh.....well babies are fragile and don’t take to well to tug of war as it turns out. So they go with the backup.

-instead of synth shaun theres a child clone of Mother meant to be like a replacement for shaun. 

-deacon and danse’s backstories are pretty much the same because they are fairly similar in concept, only their responses were swapped. Instead of Chanson seeing the paranoia of synth bigotry as the cause of his wifes death and wanting to make up for it, he blames synths themseleves. Vicar on the otherhand sees cutlers death as more of the brotherhoods fault then the supermutants (the brotherhood executed cutler on site for being exposed to FEV, but he hadn’t even turned yet). 

-John did kill his brother in retaliation for selling him into slavery, but the institute set up a replacement synth that works as Mayor Geneva's secretary. John doesn’t know this at all and just assumes guy is dead.

-Betsy’s parents are still alive and kidnap people to sell to the institute. 

FELLOUT:

-Preston is “evil” but he’s not like evil evil

-more like he’s just tired and puts on a more harsh bravado in the hopes that it will deter people from fucking with him or others. Less “hopeless but still trying” and more” almost completely given up so not taking any more shit” kind of approach.

-The institute isn’t even subtle in their approach anymore, commonwealth is fair game and everyone there knows it. They have the entire commonwealth on lockdown so nothing goes in or out. People are way the hell more paranoid and aggressive because of it cause they all feel like caged animals. 

-Maccready is basically the same except he only left the gunners due to money, he does not care about being a better person for his son.

-he still cares for his son, but like, only his son.

-kent is an incel in this, im sorry.

Horrorout:

-The institute caused a widespread famine from experimenting with plant growth that killed 90% of the fauna in the commonwealth. 

-People are a lot more hostile and closed off due to supply shortage. Caravans are Not A Thing.

-Most people resort to cannibalism, human farming is definitely a thing. The institute may or may not be subtly encouraging this and actively preventing things from getting better.

-The minutemen are human hunters that distribute “rations” to settlements that support them. Don’t ask preston how he feels about it.

-I am.....lowkey considering adding in some sort of mutation element specifically cause i want to do some fucked up body horror shenanigans idk what you ya’ll think. 

[sunkissedchldrecon]

🌻 FEEDBACK TIME HOOOORAAAAY 🌻

helloooo hellooooo 🥳✨ thank you so much to answered my ask games and i'm so happy to know it ✨✌️

for chan's gif : thats no need 😎 yes you know right, he really suits with that black hair! *i mean eventhough he oftenly changes his hair colors, but the black one make more impact on him💞" idk how to describe it, i find on God's Menu era, he really catch my eyes 👀 we know that he is charismatic ✅ cute ✅ also sexy *OMG* ✅ but with his black hair, its give him more positive impact on those aspects 🖐️ let's manifest chan will have black hair again on another comeback 🕯️🙏

*yo mr.bangchan i hope you can read this ahahaha*

• now i'm curious, is chan your bias if you like skz?

i would say yes. on the first era, i mean hellevator era, my bias was hyunjin. but after the time goes by idk chan has something who can attract me to get know more about him?? i luv how charismatic, open minded yet talented he is! and he also a libra and yeah i think it made me more get attract to him 🐺🤍 how about you? are we sharing the same bias on skz?

• the way that changbin comes in on both songs is wild, but with thunderous?? let me just say i'm happy it's a part of the fan chat because it's well deserved 💀

yo! you right. i think thunderous might be his era. we know when changbin spitted his rap, that holds power. but on thunderous, i think it made the song more alive *the reason i'm addict with this song honestly caused of changbinnie's rap 🖐️🤫*

anyway thank you so much for saying happy birthday to me 😺 thats a kind of youuuuu✨

and let's we talk about the feedback of your reading :

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• your passion is addicting. you're the type of person that goes after whatever they want. you will find a way to persue your dreams and have them come to fruition.

you right T____T i feel passionate if i have a dream. and right now i feel on the crossroads and maybe on the dark phase, that make me feel dream is just a sweet word. but after know it, i think i need to believe in myself again like theres nothing i can do❤️ i hope i can find the way *and may God clear and lead my path* to reach that beautiful dream✨🌻 love to see this word.

• i would say you might be good at manifestation, but the energy of this reading seems like you just snatch what you what so you don't even have to manifest if that makes sense lol.

i havent reach what i want cause of my own mistakes and lack of support, even have big problems on my reality too. and to know it, i wish i can gain more power to manifest good things in my life 💞 thank you, these words assure me to reach and being brave to know another side of me better.

• this makes people want to be friends with you because you may encourage them to do the same.

oh yes i think i can resonate with it. thanks God to know people love my support. because i believe, we are talented in our way and may they can reach what they deserve.

⚡️𝗧𝗛𝗨𝗡𝗗𝗘𝗥𝗢𝗨𝗦

• people envy you because of the opportunities and luck that come to you.

oh seriously T___T even my ownself honestly always envy with people's luck and how their opportunities. it was fun to know we get envy on each other 😅

• they're jealous of your confidence and the way you uphold yourself. they're also envious because you don't let others' perception of you keep you from being successful.

OMG this word boost my confidence. because i always see myself on low point, but maybe i havent yet reach this stage. but i believe one day i will and show 'em like "this is me"

*yeah "this is me song" suddenly played in my head*

overall, i love your reading and feeling thankful because i can see myself on another perspective ✨🖐️ love the way you represent it to make it clear and good for people to read. may universe bless you always 🌻 nice to know you, and have a nice day!

*clap clap* 👏

lemme end this feedback with this cutie wolf channie 🐺❤️

p.s : i'm really sorry for this long writing and thank you for said my username is *cough* cute 🙈

ty for both chan pics you put in here 😭ily forever and ever because of it

black hair just hits different on him, but you know what other color does? BLONDE! we almost got it after the orange faded but div. one took it from us 😭😭

i actually have four skz biases, and chan is in fact one of them (he's a recent addition). also, don't ever feel bad about leaving long feedback!! it helps me a lot, and i like knowing what all resonated and what didn't! i'm happy you enjoyed, and i wish you well in your future endeavors 💛💛

[fairycosmos]

not to encourage ur suicidality but ayyy i feel the same way!!! I got a date set in october and wheeeeee i am looking forward to jack shit! no friends no hope no point!

i hate that you relate n i really hope you reconsider that date in october, love.....feel free to ignore this or come back to it when you're willing to think about it but. honestly when you're dealing with mental illness you simply cant trust what your brain is telling you or how you'll feel from one day to the next. i KNOW i sound like a hypocrite but the reason im not doing smth like setting a date is because i dont want to reaffirm the idea of suicide as 'the only option' in my mind - because even though the pain is immense and i truly dont know how im going to cope or what im going to do, i know that recognizing when you're feeding into your own toxic habits/self destructive thinking patterns is the first step to leaving them behind. and there truly are a million different ways to move forward, to get through october, ways you might not even think about until you're halfway through utizilizing them. whether that's talking to someone you trust, journaling, practicing breathing techniques, meditation - no these activities are not solutions for serious mental health issues but they buy you time to stop you acting impulsively and sometimes that's all you need. you'll surprise yourself if you give yourself the chance. i's not bullshit, i know it seems as though it is. even if it all feels pointless, simply trying is good enough. however i totally understand wanting to give up and i truly dont blame you at all. this shit is so fucking tiring and cruel, and creating a healthy stable environment is so much easier said than done when you've never really had one, and you're isolated from the world. it really fucks with your head n self perception. i just hope you know it's normal to go through periods of loneliness and it doesn't mean theres something wrong with you, it doesn't mean the concept of finding friends is some impossibility that's never going to happen. it's just way harder to find true connections (especially in the middle of a world wide pandemic) than most people realise. true friends are really hard to come by but they are waiting in your future. please take it one day at a time and know there is someone on here at least who gets it, who cares whether or not you keep going. things literally would not ne the same without you. you're worth the world as you are. despite how bad things feel at the moment, the biggest lie your mind wants you to believe is that it's permanent cause its literally not, not for you. i really hope you're able to ultimately seek the help you need - whether that's by talking to your doctor, a support group (even just an online one), finding a therapist or a counselor if you haven't been seeing one (and being honest about what you're feeling if you have). learning how to implement positive coping mechanisms into your life can really change your point of view, and just having someone to talk to openly is important. it all adds up, and they'll be able to help you dissect why you feel the way you do and what you can proactively do about it to lighten the weight of it.

it's ok to have terrible days where you just lay in bed and cry, it's ok if you struggle with your mental health for the rest of your life - im telling you happiness and progress can and WILL exist alongside that. alright? you just have to stick around long enough to see it. i'd hate for you to do something, regret it and be unable to take it back which is what a lot of ppl who've survived suicide attempts say is the case. anyway im sorry to be a hypocrite and get all preachy, especially when i know that advice sometimes doesn't resonate/ can feel patronizing when you're feeling so low. it just worries me, and i want you to know you deserve better. that's really the point of it all. you deserve to treat yourself like you'd treat a friend going through a hard time. please reconsider your plans or try to recognize that fixating on the idea isn't going to solve whatever it is you're trying to run away from. take it easy, just get through tonight. then do the same tomorrow. im here if you need someone x

https://www.opencounseling.com/suicide-hotlines

[eirichele]

Uhm, not to be a buzzkill but fanfiction.onlne’s owner has a history of stealing fanworks and that the guidelines aren’t being followers becayse some of the top fics I see are between a minor and an adult. There’s even an entire collection dedicated for pedophilic ships.

Also to add on, if you oook at op’s (demonicslut) blog, there are already people experiencing difficulties with the site. I want ao3 to die as well but I am afraid that fanfiction.online won’t be any different.

ok sooo. i have been reading up on this becs i had really high hopes about this website and now im not sure but at the same time i dont think people should dismiss it so quickly. i have Mixed Feelings.

i found the admin’s reddit (which i dont want to post becs it seems to be their personal) and they basically seem to be promoting and looking for feedback like crazy so here’s what i've found out about this whole thing:

website is 3 months old apparently? that’s like... brand new

the rules seem pretty barebones to me, but they’re branding this as a feedback-heavy website by users and for users, so? i think they could be convinced to change rules and stuff. if they commit to the niche of people disappointed with ao3 they could seriously start to take off imo

its run out of the devs’ pockets, who seem to be a couple of people at most. they posted an update today about glitches caused by unusual traffic, so yeah, it’s likely they dont have the manpower to purge properly yet. that’s probably why theres p*do fics everywhere. i’m willing to give them the benefit of the doubt on this for now because modding is super time consuming and they’re starting out and just got like. a shitload of new users due to that tumblr post. even a website that takes 3 months to take down a cp fic is better than one who literally encourages their writers to post it imo 🤷‍♀️

the devs willingly reposting fics seems to me like the most concerning thing here tbh. op reposted some fanfics, i assume to test their platform or something similar, and didn’t see anything wrong with it and an entire fanfiction subreddit had to go after them so they would do it like? UMMM putting my writing on this person’s website is not something i’d be comfortable about until they clarified their policy and apologized.

third, glitchiness in a brand new website run by indie devs is.... just inevitable. like guys. even if this website ends up being a flop, people really need to put that in their heads. there is no way a small website is going to compare to ao3′s huge ass servers and user friendliness at first. NONE. they literally make like half a million in donations a year. not one indie dev working part time in their basement can compare to that. the only way you replace ao3 is by supporting smaller devs like this who are working off their own time and money until they hopefully get big enough to get a decent steady income of donations. even if this website in particular ends up sucking like. that’s something that i think people need to understand if another alternative pops up in the future.

so yeah. TLDR: i am wary and feel some bad vibes from the reposting but i’ll still keep an eye on these devs to see what they do because they’re quite literally just starting out and i think people underestimate the work that goes into making a website like this especially if you’re planning to have some actual guidelines unlike ao3. moderating is expensive and time consuming

[misterbitches]

In my opinion Oh-aew had some sort of crush on Tay (I have to write it this way the dyslexia jumps OUT if I spell it Teh) or like affection whatever even if he didn’t know it which you can see when it manifests now.

(I mean ok I know it’s been one episode but I’m always right)

It’s interesting that he said he can’t handle the pain of losing a friend like that again. I was surprised when he said no to being that close again and that’s when I think it was made clear just how much it meant in retrospect.

The argument was so stupid and I’m not gonna make this explicitly about living in a Society but the idea of choosing and being jealous as if you can’t exist at once. What happens if art is fun? What happens when we realize we all have the lights in us.

When Tay was like I just want him to do poorly there was no basis besides insecurity. It’s such a stupid way of looking at things but human and immature. There’s no explicit guarantee one is better than the other but “nobody can replace anybody else so it would be a shame to make a comparison” (this is a fiona apple lyric) comes to mind. We can’t get to where we’re going together? And obviously that’s not true since they all have their friends that they grew up with.

I also like how it’s not outright opulence. Rich ppl suck and i dont want that in my eyes. I don’t feel bombarded with wealth and a fairytale. As if this would be the sole key to tbe happy ending that all media proposes is a victory in their laziness to ensure and please capital.

But that’s also clearly because this show was taken with immense care at least on the crew’s side. But for the cast yea that too I mean everyone’s so dramatic but it has its flair, very Thai, and they use the vibrancy and the landscape.

But this is what happens when things aren’t made at a constant rate and you try to churn out many episodes.

I find a lot of these shows to be unbearable and I have a high threshold for “good” acting because I’m overly critical and terrible but it was nice seeing them even if it was so much crying. I really love things that capture youth since a lot of mine wasn’t pleasant. The ups and downs are natural for them and it will be ok. They have friends and their city.

Usually I abhor the editing on most of these dramas (these = overwhelmingly the BL genre tho that recent japanese show...love...something idk they meet walking a line was very pretty and digestible) but, if I remember correctly, it’s really good here. In fact I am positive—it does absolute justice to the story. And the writing underlines the subtlety. So much of the show is about being young and exploration and I love it. Honestly, when he was trying to imitate the instagram picture it was just...wow that’s so teenage. I was so embarrassed.

That brings me to something else wrt editing. So a lot of asian dramas are very dramatic which isn’t my favorite thing but it has a clear cultural place so it means a viewer has to adjust to differences and see the merits within an alternate scope. I will never, ever, ever, ever, ever like the dramatic music they put in. I hate those musical cues like no other. This is just my preference and it will always be. I don’t know why it’s so allurin from a creative standpoint; we know the stakes! But it wasn’t so distracting that I couldn’t continue. I think I found the whole thing extremely cinematic so the hyped up musical cues kinda threw me off.

All in all it was very enjoyable and further critiques are minor and something that time can work out like some acting but seriously thag’s mostly nothing and I saw that they had acting coaches in the credit. I think they may have been on set—I haven’t watched the doc—but that’s something people take for granted and I respect it. Seriously. Or if other shows do these ones actually understand how to get their characters from point a to b.

Acting is such a cool art and comes in different atyles but I feel like our responses to it are so intuitive so the deliveryno matter what method has to embody life qualities. I could go on about this but I won’t cause ambien but even if there’s a political approach to acting (Brecht) it is stil rooted in life. For ONCE the cast and crew fix things accordingly (this isn’t just a BL problem but I also wouldn’t classify this as BL I guess gorl IDK im going thru it)

I’m more critical than usual and I’m going through a major artistic crises lol so it was nice. There’s a lot of unrest in Thailand so I won’t forget that people are struggling. I think something that moght get people to look mght is how beautiful it looks and that brings attention to artists. Artists who represent their country, or believe in something, or care and maybe introducing people to Thai film. Art can give us access to whole radical landscapes.

Even tho i’m in favor of pirating always I feel that contributing monetarily means support and it’s a big thing for me (which is why I so often opt out because I don’t support something but should have access to it bc LIFE) and the point is yo contribut and encourage, right? Which is why I believe in sharing, it isn’t capital that drives us to something, we get attracted to the merits and contribute with capital but that means a level if absolute respect back. This means that while I can’t really pay a bunch for the episodes I think I will buy two. Which never happens.

Lastly this is probably one of the worst yrs in existence. I break down crying when I think of lives lost and black people abd being inside and just the pressure of it all. I wouldn’t say escapism tho that has merit but we get to see a fun youthful world that is just missing. It’s missing. As much as I love contemplating on the absurd, theres solace in watching people go about without external pain cementing them