#and im like... having this awful sinking feeling that thats bc im not going to

[doveofmourning]

I'm gonna ruin this because I don't know how to be normal about having a crush unless I'm high apparently

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

MAC. OH MY GOD. HEAD IN HANDS. HOLY SHIT. ashe is in college (normal college i think??) VYCNENT IS IN SUPERHERO COLLEGE!!!! wiwi fucking around in the woods..... dakota also in college i think??? idk that wasn't super clear 2 me but i think he's there IDK I WAS JUST SO EXCITED FOR ALL OF THEM TO BE LIKE. EXISTING IN THE SAME PLACE!!!! ashe oughhh ashe i missed u ashe <3 i like to think he still has the trickster's wings. thats canon 2 me idc. oh my godd they're doing like. relatively normal shit!!!!!! aaaa!!!! oh i need 2 write a fic about them in college. i got 2. i MUST. even just a oneshot idc i wanna do it!!!

THE IRL MARIOKART AGAIN!!!! LE FROG!!! WILLIAM'S FUNERAL!!!! THE SILLIES ARE BACK!!!!!!!! SHENANIGANS!!!! oh that was so good. that was SO GOOD!!!!! oh im going 2 cry. i didn't cry and then it got to dakota with his aunt and i teared up a lil and then it had william falling off the cliff and landin gin the dirt and just. holding the soil in his hands and feeling it and i actually cried a lil. man. also CANTRIP IS NOT IN THE SPIRIT WORLD!!! WHERE IS SHE!!! DOES THIS MEAN SHE'S ALIVE OR IS SHE A GHOST I DON'T KNOWWWW GOD I WANT 2 KNOW. I WANT 2!!!! and atlas being killed. an X being carved into him. XAVIER VILLAIN ARC????? 👀👀👀👀 PERHAPS??? god i hope so. i would love to see him as a villain. i rly like xavier actually and i think he deserves to go a little apeshit <3 SO EXCITED FOR WHATEVER THE FUCK IS GONNA HAPPEN WITH MAL!!! GUY WAS ALREADY FUCKED UP AND NOW HE'S EVEN MORE UNHINGED!!!!! i like mal a lot. he fucking sucks. terrible horrible awful little man. i love him so much he's such a cool fucking character i want to throw him out a window <3 idiot shit bastard man!!!!!! and william asking vyncent if he would come to ghim funeral. bro was like THIS CLOSE 2 asking him out. i am telling u. and btw william's fucking "vyncent did you realize anything while i was gone?" right ebfore vyncent just passes tf out in ep39 was so fucking. yeah. that's ghostknife!!!!!!! it always almost happens and then it fucking doesn't!!! i love that for them i hope they're ten times as gay and awkward in s3 <3

GOD. that was so good. finales always fuck me up dude. im so fucking emotional. i feel like my entire being is vibrating like a lightning rod or some shit. ALSO u gotta send me more trivia abt the episodes!!! i think the last one u sent me was for episode 15 of s2. GOD PLS SEND ME GREYSCALE AND DEADWOOD TRIVIA!!!!!! I WANT IT!!!!! I WANT 2 KNOW WHAT THE HELL CHARLIE WAS THINKING DURING GREYSCALE. WHAT WERE UR THOUGHTS KING!!! TELL ME MR SLMCL!!!!!!!!

man. im gonna listen 2 bitb next but i feel like i gotta take a few days first yk??? i gotta let that shit sink in. i hope ur havin a good time reading worm <3 i wil start worm soon!! i just wanna get thru jrwi first bc if i try to get into more than one thing at a time that i know will inhabit my entire brain i feel like my brain is melting. too many blorbo thoughts i gotta stick to one thing first. anyway yeah that was. fucking wild <3 ty for getting me into jrwi i regret nothing

HIIIIIIIIIII WHISKEY. SORRY I LET THIS SIT IN MY INBOX FOR SO LONG I LOVE YOU.AUGH. PRIME DEFENDERS MY LOVE. every day i think about yakko showing up in cosplay . that made me so happy. ashe winters i love you so dearly. i have so many thoughts about post s2 ashe. if ashe isnt in s3 im going to fucking riot.

when i tell you that fucking part with the cliff made me UGLY CRY . like full on. "and you stay there" lives in my head forever.

EXTREMELY EXCITED ABOUT A POSSIBLE XAVIER VILLAIN ARC. LIKE. THATS GOTTA BE HIM RIGHT. THAT CANT NOT BE HIM. i wonder if allen is with him. fuck. AND WHERES CANTRIP. GOD. i miss her :( i think she deserves to go full vengeful spirit on williams ass and haunt him like a fucking poltergeist. god forbid women do anything.

dude finales fuck me up so bad too. god. 39 hurts me just a little bit more than 40 but 40 is still SOOOO insanely good to me. 40 was like the breath of fresh air we needed. i dont think 40 hit me as hard as a finale because i know we're getting a 3rd season so its not OVER yet. but something about it just made it feel so much more impactful than a regular season finale. god. i miss them so much.

IM SO GLAD YOU GOT INTO JRWI !!!!!!! ITS BEEN SO FUN SEEING YOU GUYS REACT TO EVERYTHING!!!!!! jrwi has been like. HUGE main hyperfix for me since like. last october. so im having sooooo much fun forever. hehehehe. me when my beloved mutuals and i are all into the same piece of media again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[howelljenkins]

hi this is so random but i need to wax poetic. you have no obligation to reply to this. also i do not mean this in a parasocial way at ALL lmao i recognize that idk you trust. i first found ur blog in 2020 as a eighth grader in lockdown that was completely lost. i had lost my uncle to covid during that time and went from being a stellar student to receding into my shell and watching my grades tank. my shit home situation and undiagnosed depression led to me sinking into any form of escapism possible, mainly thru the form of books. i was super obsessed with perry johnson LMAO at the time and had all the time in the world to look into the fandom. this was around the time the unnamed author was just, like, violently and belligerently racist and scathing to any fans that questioned otherwise. being a tumblrina, i went to this site to see people comment on this, only to find you and ur mutuals were the only people openly discussing how he was just plain vile. i remember how sickened i felt seeing how you and other people of color were getting doxxed and threatened for pointing out what i thought was incredibly obvious. as a rlly sheltered person of color, this was the first time it struck me that the world was lying about how much they were actually willing to stick up for us, as before that i was just stupidly optimistic. anyways bc of that i started checking ur blog like EVERYDAY because of how much your words resonated with me. i was in complete awe of just how witty you were, and how you took no shit from people. granted this was a defense mechanism from crazy ass white fandom bitches but it was still weirdly inspiring. i still remember seeing u pull out the yale trap card so often and being like, oh shit this girl is something else lol thats hysterical. for the rest of high school i would keep up to date with u and specifically ur writing and poetry on promethes. kal i need you to realize your words actually rearranged my brain. the poems about your great grandfather, your mother, your pos friend, of being a horror, to love and to be loved is rest, everything EVERYTHING is etched into my memory. i really feel like i stumbled onto the modern fucking plato or something. anyways my critical thinking skills and love of poetry both are strongly influenced by you. i used to be the kind of person that hated everything and couldnt bear the thought of tolerating this world for another second. but your unyielding positivity and optimism, and insistence that kindness being the more difficult choice is inherently more radical really changed me. ik u didnt invent that or yadda yadda but u really made it seem real. im still learning to take each day slower, to breathe in a little deeper, but the beauty of so many things i previously dismissed is so obvious to me now. that post you made about you and ur mutuals educating a whole generation is so true lol. so just thank you. honestly thank u thank u thank you from the bottom of my heart. im a senior now who just submitted my yale application tonight and thought of you and im a little drunk right now so i think thats why i wrote this whole ass essay but just. like idk. u changed me and idek know you. i made my friend who got into princeton a trap card bc urs was so inspiring lol. anyways i truly hope you have a peaceful happy life and a good night. your soul is really such a beautiful thing and you deserve the world pls never settle for anything less

idc if it’s parasocial i love u and want the best for u and know u will go far and i almost doxxed myself by telling u the city i live in so u could look me up if you’re ever here lol. ik im a stranger or whatever but im proud of u idc ur like my adopted little sibling now. also @taumoeba yale card inspiring generations

[tea-and-secrets]

im part of a system nd were rly fucking struggling lately

works been awful and stressful and its fucking impossible for us to find a new job, our manager that we actually liked left the company, our mental health leave of absence only got half approved and then we got fucking locked out of our account so we cant get an extension, our bipolar meds got less effective so were having depressive and manic episodes again (on a smaller scale but still), nd one of our meds is causing major suicidal ideation on top of that and its just

it feels like a perfect fuckin storm 4 smth rly bad to happen. actually it IS that. thats exactly what it is its a perfect storm sooner or later, unless smth gives, SMTH BAD WILL HAPPEN and the situation just keeps degrading

its been harder and harder 2 convince ppl 2 get out of bed and not do smth drastic over every small setback and i try to do what i can and manage what i can but i cant do everything i just cant i dont have that kind of energy or capacity

and im afraid 2 talk to any of our friends bc i think if i tell the truth abt how things r rly going to anyone, other ppl in the system who want 2 pretend things r better than they are will get upset and that wont help things!

we had one thing going for us and that was the possibility of adopting a dog and yeah ik it probably sounds insane that in the middle of all this were thinking abt THAT. but weve wanted a dog for years now and we r actually super prepared for it and genuinely i think it would rly help stabilize us bc so many ppl here care infinitely more abt animals than abt themselves/us. its almost impossible to convince them to eat or sleep or keep a reasonable schedule or get up and face the day or clean for US. but if there was a dog factored into the mix?? totally different situation. "u have 2 get up bc the dog needs fed and watered and taken outside. u have 2 go out bc the dog needs walked. u have 2 go 2 bed now bc the dog needs schedule. u cant kill urself bc what would happen 2 dog if u did??" would actually work. and i think that would help. not 2 mention the comfort a furry friend can bring just emotionally in general

but. the dog we were gonna adopt. fell thru

and now im just sitting here like cool. how much longer can i hold the fucking sinking ship together and will it be long enough to make a difference in some way or are we just screwed. do i just give up. do i call it a damn day and go home and give up on being kind and nice and supportive and let everyone do whatever they fucking want

<3

[sophaeros]

3 13 15 20!!!!

3. humbug or tbh+c?

THIS IS AN EVIL EVIL QUESTION AND I CANNOT BELIEVE OP WOULD WRITE IT OR THAT YOU WOULD ASK ME THIS!!!!!! humbug is so very immortal for its moody unabashed horniness but tbhc is so..Is So.....when it hits you it really hits you. it's so cinematic and i can't help but love that. BUT HUMBUG..ITS PIVOTAL TURN AND OBLIQUE LYRICS......but also the narrative and Imagery of tbhc. i dont know i dont know i dont want to give a cop out answer. OK IDK MAYBE HUMBUG??it has a range of sounds that are nonetheless cohesive + i love how he switches between obfuscating clever wordplay and kitchen sink slices of miserable time. very hashtag inspiration. my new homescreen in progress is literally tbhc tho so WAILING EMOJI

13. what are some of your favourite lyrics alex has written? (doesn't have to be arctic monkeys, can also include tlsp/ other artist collaborations/the submarine soundtrack)

OK SO I HAVE A CHANNEL IN MY PERSONAL DISCORD SERVER FOR LINES THAT INSPIRE ME BC SOME OF THEM PISS ME OFF IN HOW THEY FEEL LIKE I COULD HAVE WRITTEN THEM IF I WAS JUST A LITTLE BETTER AND MORE WIRED. here are some

when the heat starts growing horns / she's thunderstorms

in the backroom of a bad dream (i'll feel bad if it turns out miles wrote this one)

like in my heart there's that hotel suite / and you've lived there so long / it's kind of strange now you're gone

is that vague sense of longing kinda tryna cause a scene?

LIKE FUCKIN..first one drives me insane forever i dont even know why. for one thing i'm forever in awe of how he slots words into melodies like i can't write music man maybe i'll learn this year but it blows my fucking mind how he makes them sound so good And that they rhyme. and his imagery is just off the charts like u listen to it and ur like fuck that makes so much SENSE even as ur hit w HOW THE FUCK DID HE THINK OF THAT. i can't even articulate what it is about shes thunderstorms that gets me so bad.

2 and 3 are just. idk i love how he conceptualises these abstract places. like it brings these nebulous feelings and vibes and locates them in a solid place but also with surreal imagery. idkidk it just blows my mind im so mad maybe i should make a compilation of lines like these

4 just hits hard bc it's saur relatable LMAO. just fuckin the phrase "cause a scene" with the vague feeling of longing.......URGH. song made for aimless artists having an identity and existential crisis.

15. favourite arctic monkeys b-side?

UMUM UM . SO VERY MANY. ok the on brand answer would be catapult but TRUTHFULLY i find myself always going back to too much to ask. every time it comes on i have to loop it at least twice. im just soooo very enraptured by how he captures the mundane and the slow frustration the impending sense of doom. the whole song has such a like..inevitable vibe. the song trucks on at a steady pace all leading toward the ending realisation that really you could already see coming from the very first line.

20. favourite record ender track?

GOD it's gotta be a three way tie between that's where youre wrong, i wanna be yours and the ultracheese. actually perfect sense is in there too. four way tie.

thats where youre wrong to me really encapsulates this breezy sense of melancholy thats so distinctive of the sias album. it just moves so lightly like a clear day when spring is shading into summer but it's so undeniably Sad. it coming after sias is the perfect one two punch of this exact vibe.

BUT I WANNA BE YOURS. MY BABY. I LOVE HER BADLY the simplicity of it the pure unadulterated longing and desperation. i would fucking do ANYTHING to be yours i would make myself so useful and devoted just for you to deign to say you need me. it just brings you to another dimension man. blast it on your headphones at 3am and you will unlock a never seen before depth of hell called longing. it just strips the whole am album down to its core (ie pleaesepleasepleaspelepalseplease text me back)

the ultracheese. lies down. it's everybody's favourite. and for GOOD REASON. the insanity of ending on a gutwrenchingly honest confession after an entire album about fantasy and escape. WHAT THE FUCK. WHAT KIND OF ACTUAL FUCKING SICKO ENDS ON "but i haven't stopped loving you once." ARGHHHH and musically it's like it's so very tbhc. is the best way i can say it. the tbhc album's sound and atmosphere put to fucking Work.

perfect sense makes me want to walk off a cliff and lie down in the dirt forever and ever and ever. if ultracheese was a confession perfect sense is a rumination. i was going to say it's like relief if relief tasted like whiskey but idk if i can even really say relief it's just like. i think it's also quite special to me because i do sincerely believe that by and large things will work out in the end and something unremarkable in your past will come to be the perfect solution in your future and back then it appeared just as it was meant to. it's like going on a long journey so that you could learn that where you began is what you needed and that doesnt mean the journey was a waste because you needed it yknow. i know there were people being like ohhh oh no tc is their last album and like perfect sense has such end of movie vibes but only the kind of ending where you know the characters are going to continue on past the end of the reel. yknow.

so idk maybe i will say either perfect sense or thats where youre wrong because i listen to thats where youre wrong a lot but clearly i have Feelings about perfect sense

thanks for the ask bug!! <3

[fairly-curtain]

Glass Onion - I Love it. Watch it pls. now here’s my rant.

(Glass onion spoilers) theres something so cathartic about watching billionaires go out in flames, and their dignity being publicly destroyed. As a huge murder mystery fan, the Glass Onion was a movie I was very excited to see, (its the sequel of Knives Out!!), and murder mysteries are amazing okay—, the spicy mystery, plot twist, funky suspense, and satisfaction style of them was ever present in the movie, for me to sink my teeth into. what I didn’t expect was for it to deliver me the same hearty satisfaction I derive from watching Elon Musk make a fool of himself as he derails twitter. Its some👌good stufff

I wasn’t ever a twitter user, and my twitter knowledge all comes from social media aus on ao3. But the joy i feel at seeing Muskrat suffering, as he clambers for public gratification on the website he owns, and proceeds to fail miserably is so euphoric. And Glass Onion, it just has that same joy of watching someone you hate immensely be utterly destroyed, and have their own words twisted on them as they cannot escape the horror of their own creation.

I also didn’t expect the amogus. I’m dying. Im so happy we got an amogus appearance. It was even foreshadowing for the end of the movie as well??? And ALSO was world building for the 2020 earlier pandemic setting bro. Im dying. I love among us, and the other games mentioned, bc they are so fun to play with friends. They know their audience, their audience is me. Amogus is my lifeblood. Queer detective playing among us ? Yes. Yes pls. 0-0 All the characters are so fun to look at, but the main characters both go so hard for different reasons. Bless Helen/Andi, and Blanc. They have a permanent space in my brain now.

Also, slightly disheartened bc I saw a post about the first 20 minutes being boring, and im so sad bc that was such a juicy 20 minutes and thats such under-appreciation of this crucial part of ‘setting the scene’. It was done really craftily, the foreshadowing and most importantly world building and characterisation (ie. the masks) just making for the meat of the movie. Ive had to deal with the idea that maybe people were not expecting a murder mystery, but a more action-esque movie, and so if you can’t deal the set up in this movie, murder mysteries probably arent for you. There is too much necessary to build up, and this movie did it so well, that if you don’t like it at its best...well. The huge fireworks of gold top tier everything plot that just blow up later in the movie are sparked by this 20 minutes, you couldnt have an impactful conflict without this. And also I love me some terrible rich people that are unapologetically awful because its a murder mystery, and a Knives out Sequel, you aren’t going to watch those rich annoyances anything but suffer later.

Final notes: so glad that that random dude on the island, did end up being a red herring and had no involvement in anything, love him for that.

[helpimstuckaaano]

had a bit of a panic today cus its sinking in very obviously that we r a map and that isnt gunna change. feel a bit mournful tbh if that makes sense? like i now have to come to terms with having this awful* secret for the rest of my life and there's nothing i can do to fix it.

and i bet itll get worse too cus we r currently still pretty young and our bf has a baby face & body (and is also a map lmao) but when we r older and our partners get older too like its gunna b more shit.

obvs we arent ever gunna commit a crime full stop but we def do prefer childish features and that just sucks and makes me wanna die a little ngl. im sure we can love our partner regardless of physical attraction and we do find some older features attractive just to a lesser extent but still.

im sure itll work out im just kinda scared even tho weve known this about ourselves for a couple years now i think i kinda just presumed it was us being edgy??? stupid ik hahaha its not exactly just an emo phase -_-

anyway just sad and this isnt exactly something we can tell our therapist haha ;-; maybe we can talk to our bf about it but even tho weve both seriously established this fact about ourselves we both still find talking about it rly scary and uncomfortable bc stigma ig. idk how real i can get with it bc im always scared hes gunna suddenly go woah woah thats too far / deep i didnt mean it quite that much. maybe he feels the same way idk. just not something anyone wants to talk about ig

[hyunverse]

omfg i cannot imagine a life without fall. that is so tragic. the rory gilmore vibe is definitely there especially bc i live in nyc so you can really get the fall grasp yk ? YEA can we please talk about changbin in the samsung ad bc holy shit. he’s like. legit perfect. aren’t they all tho like isn’t that why we’re all here in the first place 🤭. i cant get enough of them

100% agree i can’t imagine having a s/o rn. tooooo much work and i’m just not mentally there yet yk 😭 the thought is a lot nicer than the reality of it

i can bet money that you would beat me and that i am far from a bowling prodigy 😔. i have no coordination whatsoever. i’m also extremely short with tiny hands and arms (me and felix are twins) so i’d look an absolute fool LMAO. and it is so cute we do the opposites at the same time but still can communicate like just little humans doing cute little human things on our little phones

cute minho pics 100% made my day better. his little pout i’m distraught <///3. this is my second day w an awful migraine idk what my deal is 💔. i hope your day was good tho and you get some good rest tonight love :)) i read some of your hyunjin stuff again before falling asleep last night and i swear i shed a tear. too much fluff for my sick heart hyunjin just makes me SOFT

- 🐈‍⬛

tragic innit 💔 i sound british ANYWAY. waa u live in nyc? that’s sickkkk. how’s life there like? i only ever see nyc people complain abt the rodents on the streets and random people tryna get u to listen to their mixtape 💀 i hope ure not. . . rodent infested? all jokes pls dont hate me </3 the seungmin kinnie in me popped out for a sec.

changbin’s biceps r so big it gives me the urge to sink my teef in them. go absolutely bonkers with it </3

during my last semester, my roommate had a boyfriend, and she would argue with her boyfriend pretty much everyday so it kind of made me not want one. because imagine finishing your assignments at 1am, and arguing with your boyfriend ‘til 4am? and then having to wake up at 6? i don’t think i can handle that. so many of my friends’ boyfriends ended up being a bit controlling too, not letting them go out and have fun with guy friends. (even with other girls around them!) i feel like at this age, i want the freedom to do anything i want, u get me? a boyfriend would definitely stop that.

it’s ok, i bowl funny too. i’m pretty sure the way i bowl the ball isn’t correct but we r all unique ‼️ who cares if im not swinging my arm right? LMAOO. i have long arms but my hands are tiny so i guess we’re matching at that too 😭 i love felix’s tiny hands. especially when they’re compared with hyune’s like. . . he got hyune looking like a whole gorilla 😟

u are my tiny silly little companion in my tiny silly little phone <3 i’m glad minho made u feel better, i hope your day is better today! i’m sorry to hear about your migraine, my love. have you taken painkillers? drink enough water and do take your meals on time or i will fly to nyc and do it for u. (this is a threat.) my day was so slow LMAO i did absolutely nothing! though i did receive exciting news — got a 4.0 gpa and into the dean’s list!! ‘m overjoyed!! spent the day laying as reward. (thats my excuse for being lazy) thank u for reading my fics hehe. comments like that make me wanna keep going :-) i wanna write a oneshot abt playing with his hair!!!

sending u warm hugs ^__^ with much love frm your rin <3

[zhuhongs]

😶😶😐😐😐😶😶

[insertdisc5]

Hi!! I wanted to ask, in celebration of Deltarune CH. 2, do you have any updated thoughts and head canons about the game?? Like, y'know, similar to a previous ask about Kris in your Deltarune tag? Thanks!

thoughts on kris part 2 i guess???? (part 1 from ch1 here lol)

spoilers for deltarune like woah. this wont be kris focused just random thoughts on everything. thank you for giving me the opportunity to talk

not that many thoughts for this chapter tbh! EDIT LOL: this was a lie i have a lot of thoughts

-just in general i feel like the player isn't the only one controlling kris... like yes the player forced kris to do what happened in the snowgrave route but AT THE SAME TIME idk it feels like there's someone else too. just because of the terrifying voice i suppose. and also the jerky movement kris does every time they get their soul out? unless there's another reason for it... maybe getting your soul out means you walk weird lol

-BUT ALSO i feel like kris is 100% in control when they create fountains. idk it just makes sense kris would create them. to create another world, a better world, A WORLD WHERE THEIR BROTHER IS HERE PERHAPS? i do wonder why they get their soul out then though. i'm all for it sweetie! do whatever! i support you!

-(i am and will be playing deltarune with only kris' best interests in mind. i will not hurt anyone unless kris wants me to. dont worry my little meow meow im on your side! talk to me! no? okay ill stay under the sink its fine)

-speaking of asriel. SUMMER VACATION COLLEGE WHEN? SUMMER VACATION COLLEGE WHEN? SUMMER (starts crying) V-VACATION COLLEGE WHEN

-kris misses their brother so much it's so sad. if you make kris steal 5$ from asriel they take it "reluctantly"? talking to asriel online so often even alphys knows?? the google search?? GOING INTO ASRIEL'S GOOGLE SEARCH ROOM WITH THEIR EYES CLOSED BECAUSE THEY'RE CONVINCED THEY ALREADY KNOW WHATS IN THERE? THAT ONE IS LESS OF A MISSING THING BUT IM LIKE OH MY GOD

-the city walk with susie at the end makes it clear to me that kris really values susie's friendship... kris even sits with her if you spend long enough near the lake like aaaaah ;_;

-and even in snowgrave you spend your last acts with the final boss calling for your friends like YES there's a way bigger creepy aspect to this (kris as more of a Leader who Commands and commands their subjects to come) but still :'0 (and then noelle answers oh my god noelle im so sorry for the trauma)

-berdly. listen. listen. listen. liste

-berdly sucks but [berdly hurts his arm in the battle against queen if you don't save him because he doesnt want to hurt you] [berdly realizing smg's wrong in snowgrave and immediately taking steps to save noelle] berdly is my little crumb nugget. i will protect him.

-noelle. noelle. girlboss!

-like ooooh listen. hearing about the genocide path for undertale. made me go "that is SO COOL. i HAVE to experience it myself this is great. hehehe killing time" and like no regrets. i was fully enjoying the experience knowing i was an awful person. SNOWGRAVE THOUGH. i will never try this myself its too fucked up. casually grooming your childhood friend to murder people <3 and also acting like a weird stalker towards her <3 stockholm syndrome speedrun i will get all the info i can about this but i will never do this myself

-people remarking the kris/player>noelle relationship is similar to the relationship between player>chara in genocide path is like yes. chefs kiss. don't worry we just are making you stronger and everything will be fine "you made me kill my friend? and for what?" this is fine sweetie don't worry about it!!!!!!

-like the amount of details added to snowgrave, like if you equip noelle's watch she notices later? and her battle animations change as time goes on, she gets an ice shield and stops sighing in relief after battle? oh my god? oh my god.

-(berdly is not awake.) JUST KILL ME RIGHT HERE I HAVEN'T STOPPED THINKING ABOUT BERDLY NOT BEING AWAKE!!!!!

-also why didnt he turn into dust. so many possible reasons. is magic a thing in the normal world and perhaps no magic means no dust (theres graves). maybe he isnt dead. maybe hes braindead. maybe he'll come back. either way that boy is now in the closet big enough to put someone in

-also dess' name probably being december AND THATS WHY NOELLE LOST THE SPELLING BEE?!?!??! FUCK ME UP!!!!! JUST FUCK ME UP!!!!!!! OH MY GOD!!!!!!

-also so many good pixel art this chapter. too many? i didnt need pixel art of cardboard noelle falling on the statue. like thank you but please. please it hurts my game artist brain.

-the expressions in this chapter were also top notch. all the unsettling noelle expressions like (i fall over face first)

-i threw away the ball of junk (which i already tried in ch1) and this time the game was like "ARE YOU SURE BC THIS IS A BAD IDEA" and kris felt bitter :'( (it deletes all your items in the dark world)

-i uh fucked up and skipped the susie+noelle scene bc listen last time ralsei mentionned seeing what susie is doing we missed some PRIMO LORE. turns out it just makes you skip the scene and you dont get anything new. welp

-speaking of ralsei well you know. he exists. but im stuck on him going "i just wonder what being ralsei-like even is...?" ralsei my dude there's so much i could say about this. do you feel like you can't be ralsei-like because you feel like you have to be asriel-like

-but also that makes no sense bc susie hasnt even mentioned ralsei looks like asriel. and i cant imagine asriel being so meek. so WHAT GIVES

-ralsei as kris’ “i wish i was a monster just like my bro and family and i’d look like asriel but with red horns [THE HALLOWEEN COSTUME] and my name would be something cool like ralsei instead of a boring human name like kris and im sweet and cute because thats how i act with asriel because ASRIEL MADE ME” theory because that would be cute.

-ASRIEL GOING TO THE CHURCH TO CONFESS HIS "SINS" WHEN "SINS" AREN'T A THING IN THE ANGEL BELIEF LIKE I KNOW THIS INTERACTION WAS TREATED AS A JOKE BUT WHAT THE FUCK ASRIEL?

-kris definitely has a connection with the big red door in the city, judging by what the kids say they probably went there... i feel like this place's dark world will be the Final Dungeon you KNOW some shit happened there. also the sounds you hear when you go there is the phone dark world call's sound slowed down? AND AFTER SNOWGRAVE APPARENTLY YOU CANT HEAR IT ANYMORE? HUWAH?

-speaking of songs the songs were all so good, My Castle Town rules, the berdly snowgrave music is stuck in my head, flashback is uwah wuahah, Until Next Time is so good, AND ALSO A FRIEND NOTICED THE DARK WORLD CITY THEME IS JUST tHE SONG 74 (MOST NOTICEABLE WITH THE SNOWGRAVE VERSION)?????? WHAT DOES IT MEAN????? it might be just "hey its just reuse" BUT MR FOX YOU KNOW WE'RE GONNA READ INTO THIS IS NOELLE THE ONE SINGING IDK BRO!!!!!!!!!!

-asgore dreemurr fired from the force what happun!!!!! game theory is that asgore is related to dess' death/disappearance but eh who knows

-you start the chapter at lvl2 and get to lvl3 after the final boss, a friend mentioned this is probably because we destroyed a world and im :0

-to go back to kris it's still so interesting to figure out who they are based on how they act/people mention them. like kris shaking the ferris wheel car? yeah makes sense i can imagine a pranking kid do this. kris' dance? yeah thats a little silly but i can buy it. doing cool anime poses? well i dunno this doesnt line up PERFECTLY but sure. BUT EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENS IN SNOWGRAVE... especially >proceed like that is such a weird thing that i can't imagine them doing, but i can't completely see the "player" doing either (compare with going to sans -which kris doesnt know- and going "SANS!" because of course the player would know sans), like THATS one of the reasons i feel like there's someone else in there. the weird robotic merciless actions. if im going super meta it feels like there'd be someone else like writing the choices into existence for us to pick you know? gaster probably? god i need to read more gaster theories i completely sidestepped the gaster shit bc i wasnt interested. anyway just spitballing

-(looks at big shot guy) please dont make him the next tumblr guy i beg you

-obligatory "queen was great" mention if only because this part made me laugh a little bit too hard

that was a lot. thank you for letting me talk

[marinetteplztakeabreak]

I need to share soft sign language buddies ninogami headcanon because they’re taking over my brain always:

(This got so long, so youre welcome if youre also starved for ninogami content)

Nino’s mom is Deaf , so he grew up signing as much as speaking. When he was younger he always signed as he talked.

It turned out he’s also Hard of Hearing, so sign language is way easier for him to understand most of the time.

However, though he’s great at making friends, he’s very awkward when it comes to talking about himself. So never comes up in conversation.

It’s not a self-deprication issue. It’s just a “thinking of things to say is hard and I’d rather have someone else do the talking” thing. He’d rather talk about anyone except himself.

Additionally! He’s great at helping other people, but he’s terrible at asking for help. He does not EVER want to be like “hey i cant understand what you’re saying, my ears dont work great,” its his worst nightmare

And it doesnt help that there have been a few cases of people being rude about it when he doesnt hear them after they repeat themselves. And possibly worse, there have been even more cases of people giving over-the-top apologies instead of just,, telling him what they said. So it’s not worth the trouble in his mind

with his few close friends who still dont know, it feels like its too late and it’d be awkward to bring it up, so he just… doesnt. He’s procrastinating on telling them he cant hear them

He stopped signing as much as he talked in middle school because strangers would always be like “woah thats so cool, how do you know sign language” and he’d just panic because he was an awkward tween, and he didnt know if he was comfortable telling them he was HoH, but ALSO just saying his mom was Deaf and not mentioning himself felt like directly lying by hiding information, so he just took the “lazy” way out and signed less in public.

Sometimes fighting the anxiety was not worth it so he just let it win in that case.

Nino is so nice and energetic and loves people, but he is way more introverted and anxious than his friends think.

But when they start to get closer, Kagami who is ever-observant, notices him signing a little bit, (not ever to her, not ever on purpose, but he’d sometimes sign a word he needed to remember while speaking or sign along to emphasize something)

and she luckily for his anxiety, she doesnt know how to have a normal conversation either.

Her (platonic as well as romantic) love language is studying and research, and Nino seems very cool and she likes him, even if she is awful at holding a conversation with him or doing anything to show it.

She thinks he’s so cool and such an amazing talented kind friend. She has so much love for him that she doesnt know what to do with it. So she channels that energy into learning to sign through the internet and whatever tools she can find

And then after a while of this, she’s like “oh no, he’s gonna think that’s so creepy, I cant tell him I know sign language or he’ll be so uncomfortable”

So, like a whole idiot, she hides that she’s learning sign language from anyone. Because OBVIOUSLY if word got back to Nino, he’d assume it was because of him and that she was a weirdo he shouldn’t be friends with

But also Kagami accidentally falls in love with sign language because she has undiagnosed autism. She always assumed that communicating was just going to be impossible no matter what, but as she gets proficient in sign language she’s like,,, oh,,, OH,, this is very nice

Even just signing while she talks makes it so much easier to keep words and sentances straight, but she only does it when she’s alone with her mother, who is literally blind and would never know.

They become closer friends in late high school, and by that time a lot of Nino’s anxiety has worn off and he’s become completely comfortable letting teachers know when he needs to hear somthing, and middle school feels like a distant dream

At some point, Nino invites Kagami to his house a few times, and he signs with his mom. Nino is like “I can interpret for you,” and Kagami is like “wow thanks, I’m so lucky, because I obviously do not know any sign language, why would I have learned it, and also for the record it is brand new information to me that you can sign,” and Nino is like “cool? Its not a secret but im glad i told you if you somehow didnt already know,” and Kagami is like, “yep :)”

But then eventually as they become really close, they are texting one night, (Kagami can still barely get out of her house, so they need to communicate remotely. And both of then HATE phone calls bc its so hard to understand whats happening, but neither of them have admitted this to anyone)

Nino admits that he likes using sign language better than talking, and he wishes he could use it with his friends, but he’d feel so guilty asking them to learn an entire language just to make him slightly more comfortable. He can talk and hear OKAY so he shouldnt put the pressure on them.

and Kagami is like “you could always ask, worst case scenerio they say no, and i dont think thats an unreasonable demand” and nino is like “it is though,” and kagami’s like “ok so haha funny story, please dont hate me” and nino is like, “…what.” And kagami confesses everything and nino is like “why… why would i hate you for that?” And Kagami is like “oh wait youre right im stupid,”

And then Nino’s also like “hey if YOURE more comfortable signing too, then why dont YOU ask your friends to sign for you. Do you see what i mean? It’s hard to ask-” and kagami is like, “as your friend i will prove it is not.”

So then Kagami ends up confronting Adrien and Marinette the next day and is like “Hi. This is a sign language dictionary. Learn from it.” And they’re both like “what?” And she’s like “oh wait sorry. Backing up. I’m autistic. I decided like three years ago. Forgot to tell you. And I need you to learn to sign a little bit so you can understand if i sign something at you. If you want, of course. Please :D.” And theyre like “ok sure yeah i can do that.”

(Theyve already learned and accepted that shes extremely direct in asking for things)

So then she texts nino and is like “i did it. Youre welcome.”

But anyway both of them are uncomfortable in crowds and parties: Nino cant hear anyone and Kagami tends to get sensory overload, so they start signing mostly in those situations, and then it starts to sink in that they’re allowed to sign whenever and that the other really IS also comfortable with it.

(Both of them are much more willing to make sacrifices for others than to try something new and intimidating for themself, so this is the perfect situation to trick them into getting out of their comfort zone, ironically by trying to be more comfortable in the long run)

so they will just sit together and hang out and have long conversations while just chilling somewhere in a park or at cafes or whatever. Both of them become chattier than they’ve ever been because talking and understanding is so much easier, and its addicting

And their close friends all become proficient enough in sign language to have simple conversations.

But also Nino and Kagami start sitting together automatically even in group hangouts, and they start hanging out more with just the two of them, and soon neither of them feel bad about asking to hang out in quieter places, because they can justify it knowing that it will also help the other one, and together that makes both of them also more comfortable asking for little accomodations from other friends, if only to prove to the other that they can do it too.

And Kagami has the lesser-known autism side effect where she makes WAY TOO MUCH eye contact. She’s aware of it but that doesnt make it go away. Normally she feels so awkward about it, and overthinks her gaze because she doesnt want to scare people away. But when signing, you literally HAVE to be watching the other person constantly, so she has an excuse to just be herself, and its so relieving

(and also its kind of fun to look at Nino anyway because he can get so animated and his smile is really nice and oh no she is in love a little bit)

And Nino always struggles because he emotionally ALWAYS needs to be the nice polite one. His anxiety sometimes gets the better of him and he’s constantly worried about sending the wrong signals to his friends and coming off as rude somehow. But with Kagami, he can literally just ask?? And she will tell him her honest opinion without making it weird. And its so comfy and so good and he really loves hearing her unfiltered opinions on so many things because she sees the world in such a unique way and she gets so passionate about such little things and then oh no, he is fallen for her before he can realize it

And they also learn that they’re both artists, they both love to just observe the world because even if they;re awkward, people are actually pretty great most of the time, and its fun to observe them and try to capture the world, and they just sit together and sketch, or they watch each other sketch, and the thing is, both of them draw ONLY FOR THEMSELVES, its not a ‘skill,’ and they don;t want it to be, its just private art for relaxation. Somehow, though, its okay if they share their art with each other. They can just sit in comfortable silence for hours while one of them sketches something and the other watches patiently

And they start to get more comfortable with one of their heads resting on the other’s shoulder as they watch them doodle, and sitting so close their legs press together, and soon enough their hands start brushing against each other’s as they walk next to each other and then all of a sudden they’re casually holding hands whenever they’re not signing because it’s nice

They try to share headphones so Nino can share some of his favorite songs and his compositions with Kagami. But try as she might, Kagami can not handle the sensory of only having one earbud in. Nino knows her tells by that point, and he’s not about to let her suffer for a stupid reason, but she REALLY does want to hear his music. They somehow end up with Kagami putting a pair of headphones around her neck and turning up the volume a little bit so she can hear, while Nino rests his head on her shoulder so he can hear just enough to know where she is in the song

And then he has to sit up and scootch away just enough to see her hands so they can talk about it, and they both pretend not to notice how nice it was to snuggle as they sign. Its fine, though, because now they get the excuse to just look at each other again and sign overdramatically with exaggerated facial expressions, and no one else around can overhear their conversation, and Nino likes to go a little over the top when signing onomatopoeia and acting out particular parts of the song rhythm that he likes, and Kagami laughs, and they both mentally save the image of each other in this moment the same way that they look at reference images for artwork, memorizing the lines of each movement and the things that make each smile unique,

and Nino also shows up at every single one of her fencing tournaments, and he sits as close as he can and signs encouraging messages to her from the crowd whenever she’s not actively competing, (that her blind mom can never catch, which is somewhat of a bonus to Kagami, because every element of their friendship that her mother cant interact with makes this more personal and special and HERS). Every little sign she sends back at him, even a simple thank you, always feels so good and rebellious and free because shes supposed to be focusing on fencing but shes deciding to care more about friendship. And even if she’s expected to leave immediately afterword, she’ll find every excuse possible to find him and give him a hug, which he’ll always accept even though she jokingly warns him shes sweaty and gross

And eventually they are special best friends and it brings them instant joy to see each other and theyre able to interact for no reason other than that they want to and like each other

(And then they kiss)

[adonis-koo]

I’m a lil bit afraid after seeing Missy say things are getting complicated for mc but let’s gooooo

oh we’re just jumping right in okay

Wheein ,,,,, girl ,,,, I guess ,,,,,

It’s the way that mc is literally still getting her hands bandaged and STILL has to do this stupid fight ugh I hate seohyun

The way I wanna fight anyone who’s sneering rn

Grabbing her chin🥹

Oh SHUT UP YOU DUMB BITCH judgement day??? Yeah maybe for your sorry ass bc EVERYONE here knows you’re just doing this bc you’re jealous and it’s like you’re picking on a little kid as teenager when we compare training like COME TF ON

TELL HER MC

WHY IS SHE TRYING TO KILL HER ??? I mean we know why but SHES THE MF PRINCESS STOPPPPPP

Okay but also just need to add I can literally perfectly picture this fight in my head rn like sounds and everything

Aww bby is worried

MAYBE BC SHES HAD AS MUCH TRAINING AS APPARENTLY ALL NEWBORNS HAVE IN YOUR DAMN COUNTRY MAYBE THATS WHY YOU ASSHOLE

YEAH !!!!!

Idk if she’ll pretend being burnt out atp bc mc is pissing her off so hopefully she just fights in a rage with no brain

WE ALL KNOW THAT YOURE THE TRUE COWARD HERE OH MY GODDDDDD I WANNA MURDER HER

,,,,, does she ,,,,, not know history? Like if I was mc I’d be heated but from where I’m sitting seohyun just sounds dumb like who tf do you think helped y’all when your country first fell hello ?????

Idk she might fall for this jungkook ,,,,,,

YEAHH GO MC TELL HER !!

OH MY FUCK ABSOLUTELY NOT IS THAT ALLOWED ???? WHAT THE FUCK ????

AHHHH YAYYY !!!!!!!

HOLY SHIT !!??????

In sweetness there is strength baby

but ahhhh I’m so proud of mc omg she did amazing 🥹

WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK NO I WILL MURDER THIS BITCH IM GOING TO SLICE HER HEAD OFF HER BODY AND STICK IT ON A PIKE THIS IS NOT OKAY

I’m sorry . I’m confused . Your reputation has already been ruined first bc of your awful behavior and now you literally lost to someone with barely any training and NOW you’re pulling this shit ???? Also what traitor???? And not standby if duty calls??? Literally what are you going on about?? I’m sorry she sounds crazy like none of this is happening idk ,,,, and if it is if anything it’s been happening /to/ mc with the whole assassination attempt thing so

I’m sorry. Did everyone else have their eyes closed? MC won. She won. Went to take a bow bc the match was OVER and then was kicked. After the match. Idk what kind of bs rules these are but mc won. Not seohyun.

Also jungkook,,,,, that’s kinda hot ,,,,,🫠

Ooh shit ,,,,, goddamn that was brutal and she deserved it🥰

You know I’ve about had it with these stupid fucking knights YALL WANT A PIECE OF ME??? LET ME AT EM MISSY wheein and I will go kick their asses

NO BBY YOU WON !!! You deserve to celebrate🥹 awww I’m really glad they’re celebrating her she deserves it !!!!

I mean atp this is how it should be like yeah I hope he is completely over that wench like come on now

WAIT sorry I just had a sinking feeling considering what Missy has said about the next couple chapters oh god like it’s good now I’m scared what’s gonna go wrong ,,,

Friends ,,,,, right ,,,, cuz the whole naked bath thing is a thing friends do,,,, okay ,,,

Personally I’d love to be manhandled like a sack of flour but in a fun way ya know but maybe that’s just me

With the pictures of jungkook that came out recently and this robe situation yeah do not talk to me rn ,,,,,

Ooh I hope she gets to trace them later🥰🥰🥰

Her waist🫠

Jungkook I’m gonna need you to keep your hands where I can see them for my sanity okay? Thanks🥰

AWWW THE FIRST OF MANY I BET !!!

TELL HWR JUNGKOOK TELL HER !!!!!! Bc she did win like that was v clear

The chin again 🫠 this is not what I meant by hands where I can see them I didn’t mean directly next to mcs eyes

G- good ,,,,,,,, 🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠

T-throat🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠

,,,,,,rubbing windpipe .,,,,,,,,,

we ,,,,,,

dress

wALL ?????

not marking her I-

dONT BE QUIET ???????

B O S S E D A R O U N D ??!!!!!!?

,,,,,,,,

“look at me when I speak to you”

🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠

T-thigh k-kiss 😣😣😣😣

Why are you bringing up another man in the bedroom rn babes GET UR HEAD IN THE GAME JK

rIPPED ?!!!!!?!!?!!

Side note it’s v clear you’re v possessive sweet prince like we all know hearing that she hasn’t done this before is turning you on

I- well. Possessive was the right word ig

ARE TOU SERIOUS RN WHO TF

WHEEIN .

JUNGKOOK ??????

Not Taehyun pls he’s been through enough😭😭😭😭

Ooh I hope mc gets back at jungkook for that

Wow that was an incredible scene tho you always amaze me Missy !!

LMAOOOO JIMIN GET HIMMMMMM where’s yoongi and hobi get them in on this too

No idea ,,,,, right ….

LMAOOO YESSSS MISSY YOURE GREAT BRINGING HOBI IN BLESS

Okay jungkook damn

POSSESSIVE EXACTLY I’m glad we’re all on the same page

OH MT GOD HE WANTED TO INCORPORATE HER PREFERENCES AHHHHH THATS SO SWEET

CUT OUT BENEATH THE CHEST HELLO ???? If you’ve got an image of this Missy I’d love to see it !!!!

“Does he like you too?” Oh my god mc🙄 what is this? Middle school?

Was not expecting him to give a straight answer alright ,,,,,,🫠

Pls don’t make her fight again ,,,

LMAOOOO CALL HIM OUT WE LOVE TO SEE IT

oh fuck off 🙄 we were having fun, read the room nobody wants ur dumb ass here cLaUdiN

LMAOOOOOOOOO AS HE SHOULD🗡🗡🗡

🙄🙄🙄 oh whatever

o-oh

nOT BEHIND THE CHAIR YOONGI YOURE LATE PLS this is not fair mc deserves to embarrass jk in front of yoongi this keeps happening😭

pLEASE NOBODY PERCEIVE MC RN

He’s just a lil jealous bby it’s fine

LMAOOO I love that everyone’s ready to bat for MC this is the energy I wanna see !!!! Throw wheein in the mix and bodies will drop I can assure you

AWWWW ONE FOR TAEHYUN TOO !!!! 🥹

Okay DAD 🙄

Not a shot from jimin😭😭😭

Aww a little full circle moment this is cute🥹

…… wait are they gonna get attacked ….. both drunk and vulnerable ….. dark corridor….. can barely stand while walking up stairs….. idk sounds like the perfect place to do a lil push and send them both tumbling to their deaths while making it look like an accident idk …… I am nervous

Oh wow, she- wow. Alright .

Are we.,,,, getting a second smut scene ???? Oh my god………….

Throat again 🫠

We- 🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠

MC he’s gonna make you pls for both of our sakes don’t provoke him😖🫠

Sw- we- okay.

LMAOOOOOOOOOOOO POOR MC MY POOR BABY

wow I mean the fact this is still going on after she 🤢 is impressive like damn they were really holding back the horny weren’t they LMAO

Oh wow

Do not do this to me I will smack you jk don’t leave her like that !!!!!!😠

Oh no pls don’t fight pls 😭

Oh god bless

I mean he’s right you drink that much you pay the price lol

OH MY GOD SHE GAVE HIM A HICKEY ???? LMAOOOOOO YOU LOVE TO SEEE IT !!!

And did. She really did. I can’t blame her🤷🏻‍♀️

LMAOOOOOOOOOOOOO RELENTLESS

JUNGKOOK PLS THE THROAT AGAIN

oH MY GODDDDDDDD🫠🫠

Ugh jeong dae this crusty old man🙄

Okay mc knows her stuff!!! I’m so proud of her🥹🫶🏻

Honestly she’s kinda holding her own and whether he’d admit or not I feel like jeong dae is a bit impressed so this is good !!

Oh my god now what.

Ex fucking cuse me ?????

NO THE FUCK WE ARE NOT

NO

NO

MISSY WHAT THE FUCK

AND ITS JUST OVER ?????

NO

NO.

N O .

…..

Honestly if I didn’t like you so much we’d have serious beef rn NOT MY BABY GIRL WHEEIN !!!!!!!

I want that man’s head on a platter rn the fucking nerve ,,,

Anyways,,,,

AN AMAZING CHAPTER AS USUAL MISSY !!!! God you’re such an incredible writer and storyteller and the SMUT SCENES MWAH! Idk how you did it but truly you hit like half of my kinks so love that for me! God. If you can have like a writer soulmate like a writer who writes exactly the way you like to read like you are it for me. MWAH!😚 a big ol kiss on your forehead!!! I literally don’t know what else to say I’m kinda flabbergasted rn and also have a headache bc I need to sleep so hopefully my commentary throughout my read can get my thoughts across. But truly an amazing chapter. The relationship ESP WHEN THEY JUST QUICKLY RESOLVED THE TRUST THING AHHHHH the growth is IMMENSE between them I’m so proud🥹 I’m sure it’s gonna get fucked up soon but for now I’m proud🥹🫶🏻 and the sweet little moments like morning after stuff and the spicey moments and possessiveness OMG AND THE TEASING FROM THE OTHER BOYS TO JUNGKOOK AHHHH I loved that scene that was so cute!!!!! Oh my god that fucking duel seohyun is such a coward and a loser good god,,,,

Things are def heating up in terms of the relationships but also just the plot like not my poor baby girl wheein😭😭😭 wait omg the way I was mouthing off like we were gonna kick ass together no did I curse her😭😭😭

idk what tf is gonna happen next I feel like taehyung is gonna be PISSED but I know it’s gonna be wild and crazy and I CANT WAIT(in a like non literal sense I will wait as long as you need bc a masterpiece takes time duh) thank you so much Missy for a great chapter and I can’t wait to see where your beautiful mind takes us next!!! Have a great rest of your week and make sure to rest when you need to!! And idk about where you live but where I live it’s crazy hot so stay hydrated!!! Plus it’s good to do anyways Love ya!! -💜💜💜

HEHEHE your reaction to the aftermath scene of the dual just had me giggling and kicking my feet 🤣 Jungkook really does have a thing for grabbing her throat in case you couldn’t tell LOL 🤣 ALSO

It’s a personal theory of my own but I’d like to think that Seohyun was probably having a manic episode, probably hitting its peak after realizing she lost to MC and then deciding to make a total ass of herself 💀 truth be told she actually doesn’t know Eunoia’s history! By some of Jungkook’s comments in previous chapters about being unaware of her history we can gather the common theme that Penumbra does not teach other countries history in detail unless it relates to them!

SO Seohyun was really opening mouth and inserting foot about all the garbage because she’s highly ignorant of Eunoia, even if she now has the resources as an adult to study it!

Also this is a total topic change but yES HE RIPPED HER PANTIES, IT WAS MEANT LITERAL HE WAS SO EXCITED AT THE FINDING OUT HE WAS THE FIRST TO GO DOWN ON HER SO HE RIPPED THEM RIGHT OFF also everyone’s reaction to his possessiveness in that scene is hilarious!! 🤣 I’m really living for it!

Also I’m really happy seeing how light everyone is taking the second almost smut scene HAHAH I wasn’t sure if people were gonna feel robbed because it’s been so long but like I needed to find a valid reason to get them to stop otherwise they were gonna do it totally hammered 🤣 I’m glad to see everyone laughing about it because I totally was when I wrote it.

Also your reaction to Claudin had me DYING 😭😭 the delivery, the spelling, it had me rolling on the ground LMFAO ALSO YES SHE GAVE HIM A HICKEY 🙌🙌🙌 I thought about doing it the other way around but then I was like 😈😈 it would be THAT much better if she gave him one and honestly?? No regrets because the whole court is probably waiting with bated breath to see them fight. Because when they see his hickey they all just assume he had an affair and then it’s actually just his wife like- oh it’s gonna be glorious honestly 🤣

You’re totally right about Jeong Dae though! MC has really put the effort into getting accustom to Penumbra and their history and it’s totally showing, and he is definitely impressed! But being the hard ass he is, he TOTALLY doesn’t wanna admit it 🤣

Also HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA 😈😈😈😈 yes it’s over!! Y’all KNOW how much I love my little cliff hangers!!! Ahh thank you so much for such a lovely review my dear!! I can’t tell you how much I appreciate the time and effort you put into writing these not to mention I can’t tell you how flattered I am to be called your soulmate writer 🥹🫶 when I’m having a bad day with writing or I get a mean anon I like coming back and reading your reviews and so many others to remind myself that I’m truly blessed to have so many kind people express how much they enjoy my work!

I cannot appreciate it enough! It was SUPER hot here for awhile but it’s starting to cool down into chilly mornings and evenings and mild days here, a rare September for the Midwest where I live haha, but an early sign of autumn is VERY welcomed here! 🖤 I hope you stay hydrated as well and rest up! 🥹🫶🫶

[babysizedfics]

Virgil moves and talks so quietly that no one hears him (and he hates it)

virgil is naturaly very gentle in pretty much everything he does. he moves so quietly around the house because he wears socks and always walks on his tiptoes (which is an autistic trait) and he also speaks so softly hardly above a whisper unless he's laughing or yelling that he always scares people who didnt know he was right behind them.

and it sort of upsets vee. not so much that he moves silently but doesnt like that he accidentally scares people and he really doesnt like that people can't hear him when he speaks - when he was first created as a four year old he was completely mute and it took at least a year for him to finally learn to speak at five years old and even then he was still selectively mute and only semi verbal otherwise.

so he's had to deal with not being able to communicate his needs effectively a lot. he still goes mute sometimes if he is overwhelmed and when he is regressed he is semi verbal. so he feels sensitive about the fact that even when he finally CAN communicate with words most of the time, he feels like he can't do it right because he cant force himself to speak loud enough.

LOGAN

like one morning logan will be waiting for the coffee machine to fill his mug and virgil will come into the kitchen and say 'good morning.' when logan doesnt respond virgil gets nervous that maybe he did something wrong and his mama is angry with him

so he doesnt try to speak again just in case it would annoy logan and he moves around silently on his toes getting breakfast

it isnt until logan hears the fridge door open and close that he looks back and his eyes fall on vee. virgil freezes a little but logan smiles softly at him. 'good morning virgil. when did you get here?'

'uh a couple minutes ago'

'oh my apologies, i didnt hear you come in' then logan turns back to his coffee and picks up his mug.

'i said good morning' vee whispers, worried that it would sound like complaining. but logan doesnt even hear him say it so vee gives up on talking and just sits next to logan for breakfast in comfortable silence (thats underlaid by shame on his part)

PATTON AND ROMAN STORIES ARE BELOW THE CUT BC THIS GOT LONG

PATTON

patton will be doing the dishes and humming and virgil will tiptoe in and say 'hi dad' but patton doesnt hear it over the running water and keeps washing up. virgil fidgets a bit on the spot, anxious that it feels like he's eavesdropping on patton even though he isn't trying to at all

he tries a couple more times to say hi to his dad when theres less noise coming from the plates in the sink but still theres no response. so he tries to speak louder 'um dad, im behind you'

and for him it was louder than usual but for other people its more like a slightly quiet soft voice... so patton doesnt hear him still, even when he turns off the water and dries his hands.

virgils heart hammers in his chest because patton is gonna turn around and think virgil was spying on him even though virgil tried to speak to him a few times by this point. 'please dont jump' virgil whispers desperately, knowing that he's essentially talking to himself now

and of course when patton finally turns around he does jump and he yelps loudly at seeing virgil and even though virgil expected it it startles him and he flinches and his eyes immediately water (he gets really annoyed by how easily he cries sometimes)

patton sees it and quickly calms down and goes over to pull him into a hug 'oh im sorry honey, i didnt hear you come in. did i scare you?'

virgil tries to breath evenly to stop his chest from shaking when he speaks. 'i - um i tried to talk to you... a few times' virgil mumbles into his shoulder

and patton smiles a little because he's kind of soft for how gentle virgil is all over including his voice and he apologises again and kisses virgils head and they move on.

it helps virgil not feel so bad about it when it happens with pstton because he always holds him and kisses his head in apology, plus patton finds his quiet voice endearing and at least thats a positive because virgil gets fawned over by his dad a bit

ROMAN

but the worst is when it happens with roman.

roman will be in his room singing while he works on some artwork. not even that loud, just singing softly as he concentrates on his paintbrush. virgil was feeling lonely and bored and kind of jittery and anxious for no reason in his room and usually roman lets him watch when he's doing art and it calms virgils anxiety and is fun to just sit there in silence in romans company.

so he knocks on romans door gently and peeks his head in. roman is faced away from him at his easel on the other side of the room still singing under his breath a little. virgil tiptoes into the room and calls 'roman? can i watch?'

theres no response so virgil takes a deep breath and tries to speak out 'ro? is it ok if i come in?' and he thought it was loud but clearly not because roman isnt even singing at full volume and he still doesnt react to him at all.

virgil actually feels that familiar anxious swirling of dread in his tummy now. he hates not being heard when he does want to speak and he hates that it always shocks someone and that they must think he's sneaking around on purpose.

he starts clawing and pulling at the hem of his skirt and tiptoes closer, only a few feet behind roman now. he tugs his sweater sleeves down and bites his lip. roman still doesnt notice him. virgil takes a shaky breath 'roman, please' and it was actually quieter because hes so nervous now of what will happen when roman hears him and sees he has come in without permission... he hates this.

roman still doesnt show any sign of knowing virgil is there... so virgil tentatively reaches up - his hand shaking - to poke romans shoulder with one finger. 'ro?' he whispers, hating that his voice trembles

roman screams and immediately jumps and spins around. 'dear f*cking zeus! Virgil what the f*ck!' he yells, eyes wide and almost angry

and virgil can't help it. the yelling shocked him so much and roman is so much bigger and towering over him and he looks angry and now vee is shaking and his vision is blurry with tears.

roman instantly backs down, the shock on his face melting to sympathy. 'ah sh*t, i'm sorry vee...' and he puts his palette and brush down and gently places his hands on virgils arms in an attempt to comfort him 'i didnt mean to yell, im sorry.' he says gently, rubbing his hands over virgils arms 'why didnt you tell me you were here, titch?'

'i d-did!' virgil cries, his voice thick with tears 'i tri-ied to - to talk and you didn't h-h--' he cuts himself off with a strangled cry. he's just as shocked as roman by how hard he's crying

roman feels awful and immediately pulls vee into a tight hug 'no no its okay vee, shh. im really sorry i didnt hear you'

vee just sniffles into romans chest and wraps his fingers in romans sweatshirt tightly. a cry comes out thats more like a little squeak and without realising it his thumb slips into his mouth

roman pulls back from the hug to see his little brother sucking his thumb. sometimes virgil sucks his thumb as an adult for comfort so he has to check 'vee, are you feeling tiny?'

vee doesnt really understand the question and tugs at romans sweatshirt and whines, looking up at him with wet pleading eyes

and roman feels his heart break a little. he feels so guilty that he apparently scared virgil into his regression.

'okay baby, here we go' he leans down to wrap his arms around virgils back and under his thighs and hoists virgil onto his hip. then he sighs 'let's go find your papa to change you'

'bipa?' vee squeaks through his remaining tears. he sniffles again and roman feels guilt wash over him again

'yeah, clever baby, papa's gonna get you a diaper' he whispers and wipes his thumb under vees eye to catch another falling tear

vee whimpers quietly and buries his face on romans shoulder so roman takes it as a prompt to start moving and carrying virgil out of his room to find patton

roman really would have liked for adult virgil to watch him paint but he thinks its all his fault for yelling that vee regressed from fear. so he decides painting can wait, he wants to make it up to his brother with lots of cuddes and playing games to make the baby giggle for the rest of the day

[cattles-bians]

exes au part 14

post directory

obsetress:

obsetress: viola

em: holy shit

em: i think viola could hold a truly ridiculous number of things in her hands

em: danis like i have a little fanny pack right here- and violas like (turns up nose) absolutely not

obsetress: pre therapy viola during her relationship w dani: buys dani a birkin too, is like "here baby, so you don't have to use that fanny pack"

obsetress: dani's like "oh. i, um. like my fanny pack"

obsetress: viola therapy era after her relationship with dani: buys her a hermes fanny pack instead

obsetress: jamie rolls her eyes but dani is literally

em: i think a lot abt viola offering solutions completely unprompted n then being really offended when ppl dont take her up on it

em: pre therapy obvs

obsetress: SAME

obsetress: oh link is gross

obsetress: cost is grosser

obsetress: but viola lloyd dropping $2550 on a fanny pack for her ex gf? chefs kiss

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obsetress: ok just remembered viola slouching or leaning or w/e n like

obsetress: brain practically applying that to exes au and imagining when and where she'd slouch n everyone's reactions to htat

obsetress: bc like she has perfect posture but when she chooses to do it it's a power move

obsetress: and i. hm

em: yeah

obsetress: viola sitting up stock straight when they first get to brunch and as soon as she's ordered her bloody mary shes pulling off her sunglasses and dropping them on the table and just sinking back

em: how to phrase this w/o sounding too much like a whore

em: actually no way to say this but like i feel v strongly abt the way we make women take up less space wrt to knees together calves touching type deal and i think maybe

em: maybe viola can manspread a bit as a treat

em: hate that term but i cant think of a better one

obsetress: nah she does n it's hot

obsetress: just had this image pre divorce of viola and arthur at marriage counseling on opp ends of the couch n arthur's sitting v tight close and vi is just

obsetress: leaning and spreading a lil

obsetress: the first time jamie sees her do it she's so taken aback

obsetress: because she's NOT expecting it

em: jamies like ah ok late in life lesbian deal and then jokes on her viola is fluent in dyke slouch

obsetress: jamie immediately trying to suss out just how long viola has been fucking women

obsetress: she says to dani later "i thought she was all proper like" and dani's like "she is" and jamie's like "so wot was that then" and dani's like "well, people are gay, jamie,"

em: ghfjhgljkJFDASJKKJFGA

em: jamies like so wait how long HAS viola been

obsetress: jamie: so you were vi's first serious girlfriend right? dani: dani: jamie: right???????

em: violas been fucking women longer than jamie has lbr

em: i mean shes clearly only 35, jamie,

obsetress: jamie: so... vi... viola: hm? jamie: you're, uh, gay, right? viola: obviously jamie: right. well dani told me you've been dating women since–– viola: since i was 15, yes jamie: but you married a man

em: violas like u went to jail everyone does stupid shit occasionally

em: jamie: so how long have you been dating women viola: since i was 15 jamie: no i meant like. in years viola raises her eyebrows and jamies just like haha nevermind fuck

obsetress: she tried!

obsetress: she tried

em: jamie on her 35th birthday pencilling 'many happy returns' into violas ????th 35th birthday card

em: yknow i think

em: i think something's afoot

obsetress: jamie, giving up on the direct approach

obsetress: slipping in next to rebecca at the wine bar

obsetress: "becca"

obsetress: "hi, jamie" "hi. how old is your girlfriend"

em: am fucking losing it thinking abt jamie like. realising how much gay energy viola has

em: like taken ABACK

obsetress: fksljfLKSDJFLJ

obsetress: just like

obsetress: why are jamies reactions to viola so funny

obsetress: montage of jamie realizing how much gay energy viola has

obsetress: jamie watching viola sitting

obsetress: jamie watching viola pick up a variety of glasses and mugs

obsetress: jamie watching viola compare hand sizes with dani, jamie's girlfriend and viola's ex girlfriend who she dated for literal years and whose hand size she definitely already knows

em: NOT THE HAND SZIES

em: they go for a walk and viola immediately complains about the sun and jamie's like

em: i have a spare hat but ur not gonna like it

em: its a snapback that says daddy or smthn in gold, owen got it for jamie for her bday, jamie Loathes it

obsetress: BYE

obsetress: viola looks better in it than jamie does

em: jamie has that

em: am i attracted to viola? moment

em: it passses

em: she has already compartmentalised the weird psychosexual power play

em: queen of compartmentalising

obsetress: jamie: had another one of those moments today dani: what moments? jamie: where i thought i might be attracted to vi dani: well, you did let her fuck you... what was it, four? times in one night, so

em: jamie; yeah but like that aside

em: jamie 'thats neither here nor there' taylor

obsetress: she is the queen of compartmentalizing tho

em: i was gonna be like. 'jamies like wait i dont remember saying four' but. i think she would tell dani

em: because the flip of that is dani callin up vi n i dont think she would necessarily

obsetress: i think she would and dani would make her anyway

obsetress: well make her is harsh but

obsetress: dani would very curiously ask in very convincing ways

em: lovingly coax it out of her

em: dani: what if i fucked you four times in o

obsetress: dani: let me do five

em: viola probably wears so many rings jamie doesn’t even clock the ever present thumb ring

obsetress: jamie just. writes it all off

em: am laughing abt like. viola v meticulously taking off every single ring and putting it in its proper location before...

obsetress: there is something. so hot about that

obsetress: im gonna scream i think

em: i was just meming and now im thinking abt it and

em: truly played myself

em: actually this is me refusing to unpack whatever the hell theo crain gloves made me feel

obsetress: sdkfmsldjfa

obsetress: fair

em: sublimate it into rings

obsetress: i just like um

obsetress: thinkin about when she and dani are together and like

obsetress: it's intentional and everything has its place but vi also makes a show out of it

obsetress: and like

obsetress: she's SO painstaking about it and definitely makes dani wait a little bit and

em: helps dani outta her big ass earrings

em: i mean dani doesnt even Need the help

em: viola meticulous lloyd

em: i mean she just wears so much goddamn jewellry

obsetress: she can tell when dani's getting impatient and goes even slower

em: viola has like

em: viola is one of thos ppl thats really into expensive watches

obsetress: !!!!!!

obsetress: yeah

obsetress: nice lil canon nod too

em: she drags dani to antique auctions n danis like i cant. actually tell the difference between the real and the forgery and violas like (passionately explains it for like 30 minutes) and dani is

em: like shes mentally checked out but also v intensely watching violas hands as she points to the parts of the watch

em: rebecca gets it tho

em: rebecca Gets It

obsetress: dani shoving vi into the bathroom at the auction house and tugging vi's hand between her legs v rebecca grabbing her own auction paddle and bidding against viola for the same watch

obsetress: (rebecca n vi fuck in the car on the ride home)

em: dani grabs a paddle n mimes spanking viola n then the auctioneer is like '$250 to 201' and danis like aw Fcuk

em: violas like i cant take u Anywhere

obsetress: dani gives her the 🥺😌and viola's immediately over it and pulling out $250

obsetress: dani: i didn't even want it, i was just–– vi: i know dani: what am i even gonna do with a–– vi: i'll sell it for $500 at a private auction next week dani: so technically i'm making you money dani, grinning: it's like i'm your employee dani: do you have any more assignments for me, boss? vi: dani get your hand out of my pocket i need to focu––

[dragqueenpentheus]

Okay no one has to read this but i DO have to write it:

PYROC VS FATHER PAUL

Ya bitch needs an art break bc im getting angry about voices existing as i try to keep myself entertained. Today is NOT a god one for sinking into repetitive line work and that’s just about all i have on the table atm

SO! Im gunna do a little thinking about my little meow meows all fucked up by religion. Just a comparison for my sanity and interests. Pyroc is my baby i wrote him for the first time years ago. Five?????????? Whadda hell. Going on six.

ANYWAY john joined religion because of his trauma. His sister died and he felt lost. He was unmoored in this fishing village and looking for reason looking for hope. Hed had his heart broken and trying to make sense of tragedy on his own was totally beyond him. Thats why his interactions with riley in AA are SO good like. He knows that confusion and he knows the rhetoric that’s supposed to combat it. Only it dooesnt work for riley.

The same sort of thing happens for pyrc, only inverted. Loss urns him away from god and religion because its SO strong in his family and not only is he loosing trust in god, but his kin as well. He’s suspicious there’s mre they arent telling him, at the point of his fathers death. And he agrees to, on the surface, absolutely wholly throw himself in to being the second the family and the village need. But he’s keeping his treachery under wraps.

That’s one of the coolest things about father paul imo is like. That slow unraveling of what is. Frankly. An awful half assed plan, driven by fear and loneliness and desperation and dementia and love. Even VERY obvious things like. Taking down the newspaper photo of his young self ‘slip’ by him. I think, on some level, its DEEPLY intentional. He wants people to CHOOSE this. He wants people like bev. He wants people who see him and are in aw of him beating god. Of killing death. He wants to be worshiped and adored and for people to come to him willingly, no tragedy driving them to his arms.

Pyroc also wnats to be worshipped, but he ALSO wants to do the worshipping. He really longs for an element of almost????? But not quite??? Subjection?? He wants to be shown something and for a Great Voice to tell him, unquestioningly and unerringly that it is GOOD. Full stop. And then he wants to spend his life worshipping it. But this booko is an exploration of how….. no such thing exists. And more importantly no great voice exists either. There is nothing wholly good, nothing wholy evil. His lack of faith in himself once he becomes god is him starting to understand that as well. Thats on purpose baked into the lore. The starting point was ‘what if god was a position and in order to get promoted you had to be a murderer. No matter what’. He understands things are not wholly good, at that point. I onder how long it will be for him to realize they are not fully evil as well?

Bc pruitt does hm hm hm an interesting move. Where he takes something the narritve is very sure to communicate is EVIL no wiggle room just fact. Even if its driven by animal instinct its. Evil. And he makes it, not just good, but HOLY. And god i LOVEEEE that for him i ADOREEE that what a MOVE. Driven by desperation and dementia and relief and ‘if god saved me than maybe i can be good despite loving and sinning and maybe if i defeat god then i will be Thee Good’. SO sexy of him. Im really fascinated by his morality. He seems to have an understanding of the shades of grey in some respects??? But if he had a BETTER one with more forgiveness in his heart i feel like hed have left the church anyway after sarah was born??? Even if millie didnt ask him??? That might just be my own sensibilities creeping in but ….. like he culd have seen her on the weekends. He can do other jobs. Hes straight (??? Not totally convinced of this) he could have just dated her that makes me crazy. LIKE OBV HE HAD LINES HE THOUGHT THAT WOULD CROSS AND HE HAD INTERNALIZED THE CHURCH AND THE RULES AND SHE WAS MARRIED AND ECT ECT i know he couldnt have really but. Thye were straight. They coulda.

Im not gunna do fantasy homophobia bc i think its …………….. Boring. But i think some element of??? The vindlegaurd line MUST be passed along and for that particular rules must be applied. But thats also boring as hell :/ maybe i can work in my parthenogenesis lore?????????? I bet pyroc would love building that spell in any universe. That’s the sequal when he goes to magic university in helsin. But yeah i do like the concept that. Anyone can have a baby thru magic its just a time and energy commitment. Just a matter of wanting it enough together. Every baby is so deeply wanted and its mere existence is proof. Thats dope i love that. HMMM to be decided at a later date when im deeper into the story i think. I still havent figured out fully how and where and why orion is going to be invovled and if???? Pyroc and orion are even going to be romantic??????? Im torn im TORn…….

Thikns about john bonding w sarah over science and learning and starts wEEPING…. Like theres some surity beloved. Its just a matter of uncovering. I think sarah felt that same thirst for answers and hunted them differently. Her faith is in logic and science. I loveeee her god. Every scene w her and her dad absolutely RUIN me like!!!!!! SHE DOESNT KNOW!!! SHE DOESNT KNOW HOW LOVED SHE IS!!!!!! I hope at hte very end she saw the blood as the gesture of love it SO clearly was and not him trying to poison her. God i love that she spat it out. GOD. Thats about being gay, btw. Spits the religious offering that could save you across the gasoline soaked church floor like BABE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I think we as a collective should talk about the possibiites around sarah/erin more. Bc their defiance combined would be. Earth SHATTERING for crockett.

In the future pyroc gets a kid. Ever since that campaign where Enemy ended up playing his daughter im like. How did i NOT know this idiot wanted nothing more in the entire world than to travel it with his daughter. I dont care how or why hes getting a kid. Hed be so doting and awful abut it. He would need orion as a co-parent for the kids self esteem to be normal levels. thINKS ABOUT PAUL GETTING TO RAISE SARAH AND JUST ABSOLUTELY GASSING HER UPPPPPPPP HANGING EVERY DOODLE SHE EVER MADE ON TEH FRIDGE. BOASTING ABOUT HER SCEINECE PROJECT OT ANYONE WITHIN EYESIGHT EVEN THOUGH ‘WE K N O W JOHNWE WERE ALL AT THE SCEINCE FAIR’!!!!!!!!!!! Let these fuck ups be doting fathers im fucking begging. That scene where paul is like. You take ccare of everyone on the island sarah. Its more than being a doctor. You comfort them.

HM HM comfort is such a thing for Miss Bitch like!! He sees it as a Good Thing. He tries to bring it for riley by asking to hold the AA meetings on island ((also manipulation. Obvously also manipulation. I wouldnt have bene shocked if he was slipping the vampire blood into the coffee every meeting either. But thats just a theory. A game theory.)) ANYWAY he sees comfort as hly. The church gave it to him when he needed it. The angel gave it to him in the cave. Feeling safe and warm is HIGH on his list of priorities and what makes him hand over respect.

I think pyroc has lived a very comfortable life in SO many ways, but in none he. Activly recognizes. A key part of his character arc his him…. Opening his eyes to the world around them. Seeing the privilege he has and being like. Wait. This isnt Right. We have to change thi. And when no one agrees ti shifts to I have to change this. With Violence. A little revolutionary <3 it only costs the life of his whole ass family

Thats more fun comparison ground like…… paul is SO much about I know whats right and there is a cost but i AM ignoring it. Like HE KNOOOOWSSSS he knooooows he just doesnt want o See. I’m not sure if im going to surprise yroc with the ……megadeath of. His whole family. Or if it’s a choice he has to activly make. I think a choice makes it more compelling, more layerd. It has to be in the moment though, becaus ei think thats. A key difference between them. Pyroc wouldnt do it.. hed just leave hed peace out and do what he could in small ways. But he wouldnt do his big stand off with god. Hed shrink his goals in order to not hurt his family. Out of love?? Intimidation?? Some instinct wihtin him that balks at the idea of disobedience??? I think even he doesnt know. But i LOVE john becaue he jsut decides to lie. He closes his eyes and says i am being stupid on purpose. I think thats PERHAPS more compelling than good guy coward pyroc BUT!!!!! Thats who he is rip to ths little man. Cant change him now hes a whole ass child in my head. The PLOT i can change. Him….. not without massive character development <3

UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MM set my brain on FIRE!!!! Im so glad nano is coming up. I love sharpening pyroc against the comparison of other AMAZING characters. Father paul hill my beloved millstone <3 anyway sorry to anyone who reads this its literally me unhinging my jaw and emptying my brain out. I had to write stuff that wasn’t novel or fic. A little character time down and dirty. I wil NOT be editing this love and light to future me trying to decode this

[jaehyunskitten22]

Vampire!Wonho x Chubby!Reader

I wrote this during study hall lol (jESUS I STARTED THIS TWO YEARS AGO)

Damn im old fam

Anyway let me know if you guys want a continuation of this okay i love you 💖😚

anyway lets do this thang

also in this headcanon wonho was probably changed in the 1400s js

Wonho was probably changed due to his helpful and caring nature.

A woman most likely approached him and acted like she was in distress. She lured him into a dark alley and attacked him, with the intent of draining him dry. (but she was interupted by another vampire shownu  whom heard the noise of the struggle and grew concerned)

Wonho is at first devastated. He loves his friends and family so much and the fact that a monster took them away from him angers him a great deal. 

When Shownu had first tried to take him in he was quite defensive.

He thinks about getting himself killed a lot, just to end the never ending loneliness and pain. 

He eventually joins Shownu but he still doesn’t abandon the thought of dying. 

he naturally has a protective personality, so i imagine that being a vampire would only intensify it

I also don’t see him as the sexy kind of vampire, i see him more as the local boy next door vampire lol

Anyway him being protective would be how he met you

He was walking around one day, enjoying the fresh air when he heard a scream coming from an alleyway and he ran to go and investigate it

when he reached the source, he saw that it came from a frightened girl that was being cornered by a sketchy looking vampire

and its just a universally accepted rule that children, pregnant women and people who couldn’t protect themselves were all off limits, just based off of morals and principle

And based on the way the vampire was standing over you, he could tell that you were being tracked or hunted down, which almost enrages hoseok

But he is good at communicating with people so he definitely keeps it cool and tries to look like he is unaffected to try and throw the other vampire off

He asks him what the problem is and he is informed that you are just a lost girl who was just in the wrong place at the wrong time. 

but based on your clothing, hoseok can kind of tell that you are important and if you get killed it’s going to bring attention to the vampire population and that is really not good

and hoseok is just like ???  because how can anyone be willing to inflict harm on such a sweet and soft looking girl??? and all because she got lost???

so he’s just like ‘lol no’ and tells the vampire to get lost and he does because hoseok is a very intimidating looking vampire because of how big he is

and of course you are still terrified and confused and he doesn’t have the heart to ruin your perception of safety in your fragile little world so he offers to help you find your way home

and he isn’t expecting you to be so willing to go with him but you look up at him with such an innocent but sad look and now hoseok just feels unworthy to be in your presence because you look so fragile and innocent and he very much is not

and you’re so trusting, which can get you really hurt by a vampire, as they like taking advantage of naive humans

and your hands are really soft and warm and he really just wants to get you home and in bed because its getting dark and he wants to know you’re safe before the really scary vampires come out to play

and really hoseok doesn’t want anything other than you getting into bed and going to sleep so he knows that you’re okay

so after he drops you off he runs away a little confused because he doesn’t really get why he cares so much about you but he doesn’t think too much about it because he thinks that he won’t ever see you again anyway

You were the daughter of a high ranking official and after the night where you were attacked in the alley you are plagued by terrifying nightmares and you wake the castle up with your sobbing and screaming

Shownu and the others are pretty close to your father but wonho knows absolutely nothing about you due to the fact that he is so withdrawn and he rarely attends things with the others.

but eventually they all convince him to go one day and as he grows cloer to the castle he remembers the night he met you and he gets really excited to see you again despite his better judgement

when he sets eyes on you he gets very happy. like a smile so big spreads across his face that it looks like it will split his face in half and you’re so shy with him

and all of the other boys are in the background nudging eachother bc they notice how affectionate and soft wonho is for you

they are also a little hesitant though bc wonho is so skittish and angry but it all changes once he sees you again? he’s so happy and he becomes more friendly and chatty and he talks about how he wants to see you again

and thats great and all,,, but he can sometimes be a little impulsive and when he gets really hyped up and frisky after not feeding for a bit 

he talks about wanting to sneak into your room and they all try to keep him from doing that but they cant watch him every night you get me?

so one day he sneaks out and climbs up to your window and easily gets in and he is very keen on waking you up and cornering you and basically devouring you because he’s not thinking straight

but when he sneaks into your room later on that night he sees you shuddering in bed from a nightmare and he can’t find it in himself to even pretend that he was going to hurt you. 

he instead jumps down from your window sill and creeps into your room, studying your whimpering form very carefully. 

He could see every detail of your face from across the room but he didn’t want to stay that far away. 

And he really knows that he shouldn’t. like he really knows. 

But he still gently sinks down into the chair next to your bed and just watches you

now that he’s thinking clearly and is very worried about you he tries to memorize every single one of your features, (not in a creepy way) He doesn’t know why he wants to do this but he does it anyway. 

He notices that you smell really pleasing to him, like apples and dried leaves. (he doesn’t know what that means but he does know that he has a strong urge to protect you and its ridiculous how hard he has to try in order to hold back the snarl at the nightmare that is plaguing you)

he instinctively reaches his hand out and it hovers above you unsurely for about ½ a minute until he decides that he can’t take seeing that frown and hearing your tiny whimpers with your loud heart rate and heavy breathing anymore.

He rubs his hand up and down your back, trying to calm you the way his mother used to calm him. 

He lightly tugged his fingers through your hair and watched in awe as you quickly calmed down and snuggled deeper into your pillow and blankets.

He watches you with a dumb little smile on his face until he hears a throat clear from the doorway and he looks up and panics when he sees your father standing there.

He’s prepared to be executed immediately for sneaking into your room, but the king surprises him

Instead of calling the guards, he quietly thanks wonho for helping you stay asleep, as you usually start crying at this time due to the dreams.

He just nods and kind of bolts because he hasn’t had any interactions with humans since being changed and really it was just A Lot.

 He tells the clan about what happened when he gets back and Hyungwon lowkey knows what’s up because he’s the only mated vampire in their group and he chooses to not explain it due to you being so much younger and wonho being so skittish.

Wonho tells himself that he will never return to your room again but every night he always is there, comforting you when your nightmares were bothering you. 

Your father sometimes talks with wonho and its obvious that he knows what wonho is, but he doesn’t feel like your safety is being sacrificed, if anything he feels that you are more safe with the vampire in your room than when he is out of it.

eventually it becomes obvious that wonho is liked in the palace because he prevents you from waking up the castle in the middle of the night

Your father introduces him to you as your new night time guard when you turn 17 but you lowkey already knew him because you had seen him sneak out of your room in morning as you woke up when he moved his hand from your back

Even though he can now just walk through the front gate he still chooses to crawl in through your window that you now leave open for him. And he tucks you in every night and sometimes lies with you in bed until you fall asleep, sometimes even closing his eyes and holding you close to him

he likes how soft and warm you are, it reminds him of  how fragile and human you are and it’s a double edged sword because it reminds him of how dangerous and how much of a monster he is.your dad knows that there is something between you two and as you are coming of age he starts to leave you two alone together more.

Wonho has also started to notice his attraction towards you and it surprises him a bit

but you guys still get close and wonho knows that you feel the same way but he’s not sure if its because you actually like him or f it’s because he charmed you, something that vampires do naturally.he doesn’t want you to get hurt and he doesn’t want you to regret anything. he wants you to have a normal life and have babies and live until you die.

 he doesn’t want to rob you of normal life.but he can be a selfish man, and he decides to be exactly that.he sticks around, growing attached to you and the way you look at him. He’s completely infatuated with you.

you also love the way he looks at you, the way you catch him appreciating your body in certain gowns. Especially the way he gets hard when he holds you at night now.

you two barely leave each other’s sight and he always has his hands on you in some way

every time wonho gets back from spending time with you the rest of the guys always ask him if you guys have had sex because he always looks so happy and sated, like had had just drained someone dry or he had a few orgasms and truthfully he’s just really happy. spending time with you just does something to him and he loves the feeling of holding you and protecting you at night

once again, hyungwon knows what this is but he doesn’t say a word

your hands always end up under his shirt and he always feels the kittenish nips and licks that you give him while you’re sleeping or that he hears the way you sigh and hum in pleasure and that you always end up grinding against his thigh in the middle of the night

yeah he has enough jerk off material to last him the next 2,000 years

on the days that you are forced to leave the castle without him he sneaks into your room and takes his time smelling everything. smelling your scent does something to him that just thinking about you doesn’t

he hates to admit it, but he has had the most intense orgasms with his face buried in one of your pillows that he switched with one of his own, humping against his mattress

and you know that he’s doing it because when you lay down on the pillow that he switched, it feels like it barely been used and it smells exactly like him.

and he can smell all of the things you have done in those sheets. every single thing.

he can smell your skin. your body wash. but what really gets him is that he can smell your pleasure.

 he even catches you doing it one night, lightly mewling his name into the pillowcase that you had stripped off shortly after you got in there, something that he had marked with his scent because he wanted to help you sleep

your scent triggers his instinct to protect and mate, but by far the strongest instinct is to show you all aspects of love and what they all feel like

but the feeling that out weighs them all is wanting to keep you safe

and when you tell him how you feel about him after you get back from a ball where you had a little too much to drink, he does the only thing he can think of

he lies to you and says that he doesn’t feel the same and the sadness in your eyes makes him want to die and when you start to sniffle and tear up he gently coos at you the way he used to, telling you that you’re amazing and that you shouldn’t cry over a guy like him not feeling the same way because there are plenty of better guys out there.

after you fall asleep he prays to the lord above that you don’t remember this in the morning but why would he get that lucky

you never come out and say that you remember but he knows that you do because you’re shy now, and not in the cute way but in the very awkward way.

conversation doesn’t flow easily between you two anymore and everyone notices it.

it gets so bad that he begs your father to have a change of staff because he knows that his presence makes you hurt inside and he hates being able to see the consequences of his stupid actions

You become withdrawn and grouchy and so does he. He can’t stand lying to you but he feels like he has to because he wants you to marry a human and have a pretty little family, something that he can’t give you.

he keeps telling himself that you will be married off soon, and that you will be better when that happens

but it doesnt happen

everyone around you is receiving marriage propositions from other nobles and you arent

you assume it’s because you don’t look like a pretty and thin princess and you do not want to be seen outside of the palace walls anymore.he notices that you are starting to look ill and tired a lot of the time and he’s afraid that you’re dying

and he feels like he’s dying too. he misses everything about you and he knows that he did the wrong thing but he also thinks that you could never forgive him for that so he doesn’t try to fix it

everyone starts worrying about you two because you guys drifted apart so quickly and no one knows what happened

he hates himself so much again and he sees no worth in his life anymore but he doesn’t want to end it either because he’s afraid of never being able to see you again or upsetting you further

he just has so much affection for you and he can’t stand not being able to give it to you all the time and he constantly mopes around the house and everyone gets fed up pretty quickly bc tbh he made the mess himself but they also know that he was doing what he thought was best at the time. 

no one really knows what to do though. they don’t know how to fix it becAUSE THEY DONT KNOW WHAT HE D ID

and while all of this is happening they still visit your father regularly wonho just doesn’t come

and Hyungwon is 1000% done with this situation ok he just wants wonho to be happy and to quit sabotaging himself

so hyungwon legit comes flat out and asks you what wonho did to you bc “whatever it was, he’s completely devastated over it and he mopes about it a lot.”

and that surprises you bc? he didn’t really do anything he jsut didn’t like you back and you tell them that and their eyes dead ass roll so far into their heads you’re afraid they’ll get stuck

and kihyuns’s just like “are we even really sUrPrISeD”

So they basically start tripping all over themselves, trying to explain to you that a) you must be blind, b) he was lying, and c) yOU MUST BE BLIND

And you dont know what to think bc????? Hoseok???? Nooo surely not

Right?

And then when you think about it, it kinda makes sense in a way

But you dont know what to do

Like you didnt do anything??? It was him. He’s the one who decided to lie to you, and it really hurts you

Its not like he was trying to fix it. He was doing everything in his power to completely ignore you

So maybe he doesnt want it fixed

But he does. He really does

He just doesn’t know what to do either

So you both just,,,,, leave it.