#and im such a picky person when it comes to lyrics and to sounds and its a me problem i know

[sleepless-crows]

i feel so bad that i find it so hard to get into my country's songs akhsksbskx like theyre so good !!! but i just aksbskbs i cant find what i like

[hongism]

touch of the devil - k.hongjoong 18+

↣ pairing: hongjoong x fem!reader | ao3 version (mxm seongjoong) ↣ genre: angst, fluff if you SQUINT, nsfw, fantasy, supernatural, demon!hongjoong, emo rocker!hongjoong, there do be plot tho. ↣ wc: 9.0k ↣ summary: you came to make a deal with a devil sure, but this is the last thing you were expecting out of a night in a dingy bar. ↣ warnings: explicit smut, mention of death, demons, it’s actually really heavy on plot and angst and less focused on the smut ↣ a/n: again i know it’s my birthday but this is my present to you guys, i am a person who prefers to give rather than receive on my birthday and this was the first thing i wanted to work on during my hiatus!! i’ve got so much inspo and motivation rn that it’s crazy and i can’t wait to have everything all set out for you guys when im back :3

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Everything about the air around you is heady and thick in a way that chokes you as you step through the fogged bar. This isn’t your sort of scene – not one you would typically find yourself frequenting on a Friday evening without even so much as the company of a friend – and yet here you stand with hands pressed into the pockets of your black leather jacket. There remains a dull thrum in the atmosphere of the club, a steady rhythm of bass and vibrations that makes your ears ring but you do your best to ignore it in favor of reaching the bartender.

“Just a rum and coke please,” you murmur, hand sneaking out of your pocket to lay a few bills flat against the wood counter. You tug your ID card out as well and flash it in the man’s direction when he raises an eyebrow at you, but upon seeing it, he relents and steps away from you to get the drink.

The question remains of why exactly you are in such a dismal and hopeless scene full of people too drunk off their rockers to even fumble around the bar with some sense of dignity. You, who is neither dismal or hopeless yourself nor are you drunk in the slightest (at least not yet).

The answer is simple. This is a breeding ground, a festering cesspool of desires and greed, and it is the prime place to find what you are looking for in terms of deals with the devil. Maybe not one specific devil, but certainly whatever demon you can get your hands on tonight. And you have quite the lot to choose from it seems, because as you glance around the neon-lit building, you can spot many pairs of red eyes glinting under the lights. You know you have no right to be picky — any and all of them will get the job done — but you can’t help but to note that none of them are as appealing as you imagined they would be. When your friend said that these demons thrived off of lust and appeal, you figured that meant they would purposefully up the ante in terms of physical appearances.

The disdain must show on your features as the bartender begins to speak again as he sets your drink down before you on the counter.

“None of them are for you,” he utters, and you twist back to look him in the eye.

“What do you mean?” You inquire, chin tilting to the side in question, and the man huffs out a small laugh.

“They have their prey already. Picked ‘em the second they walked through the door. All it takes is one look to figure out what these needy people crave from them, what appearances they need to take, what voices to use, what outfits to wear. For people like you, though, something more is required before the real games begin.” He points a single bony finger at your face, staring you down over the length of his digit like it’s the barrel of a gun, and that has you shifting in your seat a bit.

“Something… more?”

“One must have a particular level of certainty before coming to make a deal with a demon, ma’am. But you — you don’t seem to truly know what it is you want. And for that reason, the King will see you with no ruses or deception.”

On the contrary, I wouldn’t have dared set foot in here if I didn’t know what it is I wanted, you want to say. However, your attention is held rapt by his final sentence, the one that held unspoken promise to it.

“And by that you mean physical alterations?”

“You catch on quickly, Miss.” The man leans forward, tongue darting out to swipe over his lower lip, and you glance over the motion only once before pushing away from the counter. He notes the slight annoyance in your features a moment later. “The King will like you quite a bit.”

“When can I expect for this ‘King’ to present himself?” You prop an elbow up on the counter and give one last forlorn glance around the bar in the hopes that someone will come over your way, but it’s to no avail.

“Patience, human. The show hasn’t even begun yet.” He motions towards the middle of the bar, the starkly empty space with a glossy stage set in the center with only a microphone held delicately in its stand and nothing else. You had been hoping to make this a speedy trip — a quick in and out with your deal made and nothing else — but it seems you won’t be having that luxury. And it is a bit frustrating, honestly, to come to this place with the expectation of having a demon cater to you and your wants only to be told that you aren’t certain enough for these supernatural beings, so you’ll have to wait on a demon who won’t cater to you or come to you immediately.

You take a quick swig of your alcohol with the desperate hope that perhaps drinking will make you more certain of what you want, although you already know it won’t. The bartender offers a shrug in response to your annoyance then pulls away to tend to other customers, and you take it as an invitation to swivel in your stool and face the stage. It’s still fucking empty, but at least it gives you a better view than the old wood of the counter that now sits under your elbows.

“Leave it to men to make me wait on them, demon or not,” you mutter under your breath, breath fogging the side of your glass a bit.

You nearly choke on the liquid inside in your next breath because the swirling red neon lights come to a halt on the center of the stage, and the suddenness of the shifting lights startles you so much that you have to sit up straight and inhale deeply to keep from coughing on the alcohol in your mouth. The hazed mist hovering above the floor of the bar seems to swirl towards the stage under the beams of light. You watch the movements as though in a trance, slowly leaning forward until your elbows come to rest on your knees. Out of everyone in the bar, you seem to be the only one interested in what’s going on at the center of the room. Mind you, everyone else is preoccupied: demons with their humans, and humans with the mask-wearing demons who cater to their desires. And while you have no reason to be so intrigued by the scene before you, you truly cannot bring yourself to look away, especially as the dull thrum of music in the bar heightens and gains momentum.

There is no way of describing the sounds rumbling around you. Perhaps if you were fully in your senses, you would be able to distinguish the instruments and beats of the song, but the bass clogs your mind and leaves you squinting at the hazy stage. It could be poetic, the way a lone figure pushes his way through the crowds of the bar like he holds all the power in the universe, studded black leather jacket slung around his shoulders. And as the red lights come over him, you can see his features better. Dusty brown hair that shines a bit, one side exposed and cut shorter than the other, which has bangs that hang loose over the side of his face. Metal bars line both ears, another near the end of his left brow, and a final more intricate one that loops around the middle of his lip and connects to two long metal chains. You follow the path of those chains with your eyes, watching them trail downwards until they loop around his chest and disappear behind his jacket. It’s just a black turtleneck that he wears underneath the dramatic leather regalia and chains but somehow he makes the garment look expensive. You dare glance a bit lower, just enough to make out the frayed and distressed jeans that cling to his skin like a vice, leaving hints of enticing skin underneath to peek through. You can’t see his feet thanks to the fog, but you can practically hear his footsteps drumming in your ears with the rise and fall of his shoes.

Simply put, you are entranced by the sight of this man — if he can even be called that, because you wouldn’t find yourself at all surprised should he reveal himself to be a demon on the tail end of this encounter. He barely looks up from the floor on his trek to the stage, only stopping when he comes before the mic stand and exhales against it in a way that sends shivers down your spine. It’s hardly reasonable for any creature to hold your attention in the palm of his hand the way this one does, but there is no chance of you looking away now, especially as his voice begins to drawl through the microphone and coat your ears like honey. There are words, you recognize enough in the music to know that it should be a song you’re familiar with, but none of them truly process in your daze.

It’s all you can do to just sit there and watch his performance. Between the gentle sways of his shoulders and hips, the teasing drag of his tongue over his lower lip whenever there is a break in his lyrics, and the overall intoxicating nature his aura exudes, you are hooked on every breath he takes. You don’t realize how relaxed your body has become under his spell until it’s too late, and that happens to be the last note of the song as well. It is accentuated with the drop of the glass in your hand and a sharp shatter of the cup against the floor. And just as you inhale a startled gasp and break out of your reverie, his deep crimson eyes flicker over to find yours across the bar. Those twisting lips churn something ugly in your gut. You can’t find the strength in your body to move.

“Mine.”

Your heart leaps in your chest as the word leaves his lips, and while you can’t hear it grate against your ears, you can clearly read his lips enough to know what he’s saying.

His eyes glint a bit in the darkness. It shouldn’t leave you wanting more, but that bitter taste of curiosity is nipping at the back of your throat, and you are far too intrigued to turn back now. You just want more. If he seems to understand that at all from the gleam in your eyes, he makes good on it, stepping off the stage and letting his hand drag over the mic in a way that is almost tantalizing. Step after step, he comes closer to you with his lips still curled into a smirk, and the way the lights hit him makes him seem to glisten and glow in the darkness. You don’t realize you’ve been holding your breath until he breaches your personal space and you release a shaky exhale that seems to fog in the air between you. He stretches a hand out to close the space between your bodies and curls his index finger under your chin. The touch is simultaneously hot and cold — your whole body seems to light on fire under it, yet at the same time, the chill in your bones deepens to an alarming degree.

“What is it you desire above all other things?” You can hear him now, loud and clear, and whilst you heard his singing beforehand, the simple rasp and lilt to his regular tone is something that has you unashamedly weak in the knees. “I can give you everything,” he whispers as he presses closer to you. Your knees brush against his form but he keeps on pushing forward until he’s slotted himself between them. The chain hanging from his lips rattles like a chime, singing its unknown song like church bells in the night, although you are far from God and heaven now. “All you need to do is ask.”

You cling to some semblance of reason while you can, knowing full well that it will all leave you soon enough, but for now, it lets you choke out a single statement that has the demon before you laughing under his breath.

“That’s not how it works.”

“And who are you to tell me how it works?” His finger curls a bit harder at your chin, and you can feel the blunt of his nail scraping over your skin. Your eyes are glued to his, so enamored and consumed that you can’t even think to look anywhere else.

In that moment, it is as though the universe is nothing but a speck of dust in the corner of your vision. Something so raw and whole like the man standing before you is all-powerful and vigilant in a way that has every nerve in your body at full attention, ready for whatever his next step might be. And that turns out to be quite the curveball as it seems because he leans closer to you, breath intermingling with yours, and you subconsciously curve your back into his touch to reach him closer. Still, even though you physically show how ready and desperate for the touch you are, he waits and glances over your features.

“What is it you desire from me, human?”

You have to vehemently restrain yourself from simply saying ‘you’ and getting on with it.

“Your name.”

“Is that all you would have from me?” As a demon, it is his life’s work to know the inner-workings of the festering desires of humans. You have no doubt in your mind that he knows exactly what is it you want, even if you are not sure of it yourself, and you do not doubt that he won’t use that to his advantage either. But that’s what you asked for in coming here, and that is exactly what you both expected and wanted out of this.

Perhaps it is shameful, but just for once, you wanted to surrender control. Too often are you asked to have everything set out and planned and under control, and too often do you find yourself wanting someone to just tell you what it is you should do. That could be why the bartender labeled you as ‘uncertain’ because even in this moment of vulnerability, there is still the thinnest thread of thought tethering you to that control. And as of now, you want nothing more than for this demon before you to break that thread.

“I would have your name before I asked for anything else from you. Calling you demon over and over would certainly wear out its welcome, no?”

“That all depends on the context, my dear. But… you can call me Hongjoong, if that’s suitable to your tongue.”

“Hongjoong,” you try, testing the way the name rolls off your tongue in such a delicate manner that the demon before you flutters his lashes a bit.

“Sounds so pretty coming from lips so innocent.” He tilts his head to the side, and the movement flashes the pretty expanse of skin below his jaw. You aren’t shy in the way you let your gaze slip over it before trailing back up to meet his eyes again. “Would you close your eyes for me, doll?” He doesn’t have to ask. He could just make you do so with no resistance but still, he asks as though you could say no if you wanted to. You don’t though, and as such, your eyelids fall shut and your vision turns to black for the time being. “Do you know who I am?”

“Th-The bartender called you the King.”

“And do you understand what that means? Truly understand with every fiber of your being?” The question is heavy on your bones, and it is one that you feel like you should know the answer to yet you can’t find any response to his inquiry. Perhaps he means to confuse you because you hear the soft huff of a laugh fall from his lips. “King of the Underworld, Lord of the Dead. Some would call me Pluto, others Hades, it varies from religion to religion and in every culture. Sometimes I pick up rather banal and common names, other times I find myself seeking something extravagant and luxurious. Now… Hongjoong will be a good middle-ground for us.”

You should be falling to the floor in absolute shock due to his words, but the steady finger under your chin keeps you steady. That and the growing fear in your gut as you come to realize that this man holds so much power in just his pinky finger and could absolutely crush you under his heel whenever he wishes. What are you to a god besides an insignificant fleck of dust on the pavement?

“And what of your appearance? Is that… manifested as well?” You dare to ask.

“I have many faces, yes, but this one is one I wear boldly and frequently. You could say it is my natural form. After so many millennia of fantastical myths and legends, however, I’m sure that would seem odd to you.”

“Are you truly a demon then?”

“King of demons, yes. Whether I am truly a demon myself is something that could be ambiguous, I suppose, but if they are all part of my creations, then would that not make me one myself? Though you could say they are all fragments of my own being, making them all mythical gods. It’s all a matter of perspective; however, I doubt that you came searching this place for a lesson on perspectives.”

“No, I came for…” You trail off, and that blossoming uncertainty from before presents itself again.

“There are two things your heart wants right now. One, I can give you with ease and grace, only if you would allow it. That desire is a fleeting one, however, and I do not think it is what you are truly after in being here. The second… that is a wish I cannot deliver, and I think you are more than aware of that. The reason everyone left you to me is because of what you want. It is a domain only I could ever touch.”

You blink your eyes open in haste, searching his deep crimson gaze for some sort of confirmation of the words. The demon dares to look forlorn and lets his stare drop to the floor rather than looking you directly in the eye. Confusion blossoms in your gut. Yes, you figured there was a slim chance that your wish could not be granted, but still you clung to the desperate hope that maybe there was just a small window of opportunity for such a wish to be granted.

“Death is irreversible,” the demon, Hongjoong as he wishes to be called, says in a quiet tone. “I cannot give that which you want more than anything else.”

“Then what can you give?” You ask, squeezing your eyes shut as tight as possible to keep your emotions from slipping out the corners.

“One of two things: I can give you time to speak with him once more or I can make you forget the pain.”

“And if I choose the latter?”

“It would make you forget everything about him and leave you with no memory of him at all.” Hongjoong exhales a small sigh, the bouncing rhythms of the bass rumbling against your ears along with the sounds of his breaths. “You need not decide right this instant. The payment will be the same either way, so we can settle that first if you’d like.”

“W-Wait,” you stammer. You dare to open your eyes once more. “How would I be able to speak to him if you can’t bring him back?”

“I cannot bring him back the way you want. He… he is gone, and though I am the King of the Dead, there are powers even I do not have. Bringing him back to life is impossible, but I can create a doorway for the two of you to speak through for a short period of time. I have no control over how long it would be, just a forewarning. That is all up to him and his willingness to see you.”

“I can’t imagine he wouldn’t want to see me,” you murmur, but the pang in your chest tells you otherwise.

“Sometimes, death and the underworld change fundamental parts of people. They are no longer alive, after all, and as such, those human vices and personality traits dissipate. How you knew him in life could be vastly different than the spirit who now resides in my domain. It is all a matter of weighing risks, my dear. What matters most to you? Remembering him or him remembering you?”

“So if I ask to see him, I would remember him but there’s a chance that he would have no recollection of me? And should I ask to forget, there will be no way of knowing whether he remembers me in the afterlife or not?”

“Precisely.”

That is a hefty bargain to weigh. It is almost too much for your shoulders just to think about it. One is starkly more selfish than the other, but if he’s dead, what good will selflessness do you? It won’t bring him back, that’s for sure. Either you are left with the painful realization that he does not have any memory of you in the afterlife, or you forget it all to avoid that pain. Maybe thinking about the payment before deciding would be a good idea after all.

“As for the payment? How many years do I owe you?” Demons have no use for human currency or trinkets that could be traded for favors. You can barter the only thing you have — years of life. Whether it shortens your lifespan or turns you into a personal slave for a certain amount of time, that is a price you must be willing to pay for such services. You are more than prepared to barter it all off right now if need be.

“None,” Hongjoong answers coolly, and you quirk a brow upwards at the nonchalance in his tone. “I do not deal in years of life. Not often, at least. My abilities are bound in… passion. Lovemaking, fornication, sex, fucking – whatever you wish to call it. Of course, it wouldn’t have to be that exactly, should you not desire that. The other option is a blood pact, a ritual that would take hours to complete, although both could take quite some time depending on your stamina.” There’s a breath of silence that allows Hongjoong’s lips to twist into a suggestive grin, and heat brushes the base of your neck as you fight off waves of embarrassment. “I cannot guarantee that the blood pact would be painless. With sex, I could at least provide some comfort that the pain would only be temporary; however, the choice is yours. Both are binding and would mean that you could never make a deal with another demon again, and you would be marked as mine for eternity.”

“What does being yours entail?”

“Nothing diabolical or unsavory, I promise. Just… when the time comes for you to pass on and join the Underworld, you would take a place at my side.”

“How many people have you laid claim to? Did they all agree to the same terms? How can I trust your word?” The questions tumble from your lips without relent.

“For what you desire, the cost is far less than what I would usually ask for. Those lucky enough to deal with me in the past paid less for their debts. The blood pact… the fornication… both are binding elements. The real cost is your service. Most have agreed to give me their servitude in the afterlife, all with their own places in my domain. That is what you would be offering as well. You will live just as long as you would without making this deal but make up for it after your death.”

“And that’s it?”

Hongjoong’s eyes twinkle a bit under the lights above your heads.

“What did you expect from me, doll? Savagery? Unfairness? Everyone deserves a fair price for what they want, regardless of station in life or status in society.”

“Deal,” you utter without any more hesitation, blinking up into Hongjoong’s dark orbs. There lies a lingering sense of regret in your gut, one that you cannot chase away no matter how hard you try, but you do not need to dwell on it any longer.

“And how would you like to bind our deal, my dear? Neither can be handled immediately. The blood pact requires special preparations for the ritual, but the other — I would not have you in such a place as dirty as this.”

“I-I, um, sex will work just fine,” you bite out, the skin of your cheek caught between your teeth.

“Then when the time comes that you are ready with your decision on what it is you truly want, all you need to do is take this—” Hongjoong retracts his hand from where it rests gently against the column of your throat and digs into one of his pockets. He pulls out a gilded card, one that is black and gold with flecks of red across the surface, but there are no other adornments to the material. “Tear it in half and it will bring you to our meeting place, and I will join you there to seal the deal. Should you decide that you do not want this after all, then all you need to do is burn the card. The decision lies in your hands, and yours alone.” He has to lift one of your limp hands and forcefully place the card into your waiting palm, closing his fingers around yours to make you cling to the item.

“I – th-thank you,” you stammer as you blink from your closed hand to Hongjoong’s features.

“The pleasure is all mine, doll.”

Those are the last words you hear from the demon before he slips away from you, the dense fog lingering in the air swirling up around his body, and within moments, his shadowy form disappears entirely from sight. The air grows cold around you once more. You are left with only the fleeting desire for that warmth to return, for you to feel less alone than you are in that moment, and even if it’s the briefest visit ever you just want one last chance to tell your lost lover how you feel without mistakes this time.

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The night, as per usual, is cold and unforgiving. It allows for too many opportunities to be alone with lost feelings and thoughts. It has been weeks (if not months) since you visited that dingy club and your fateful meeting with none other than the King of the Dead. Yet you are still here, wallowing in the memories that you’ve been left to suffer with alone, and the gilded black card sits in your nightstand untouched. You open the drawer just to stare at it from time to time, when the nights are particularly rough, and it already had begun collecting a thin layer of dust the last few times you looked at it.

It isn’t that you haven’t made your decision about what you want from your deal with Hongjoong. The more terrifying fact is that you are fully aware of what it is you want, and you simply cannot rectify the guilt that comes along with the pure selfishness of your decision. The feeling is so potent that it swarms your every thought. You know it wouldn’t be an issue once you meet with Hongjoong; the demon will take it all away and leave you with nothing. You won’t even know enough to be guilty any longer, but the pain of committing to the decision is strong enough to make you sick to your stomach.

Wooyoung — the one who suggested you go to the club and make the deal in the first place — will not shut up about how worried he is about you. You won’t recall the deal or why you made it, so what’s holding you back? A temporary guilt that won’t exist longer than a few seconds once you’re actually in Hongjoong’s presence? As he said, you just need to swallow the feeling and get on with it. Prolonging the regrets any longer won’t do you any good.

You huff out a quiet laugh in the silence of your darkened room. The black gilded card taunts you again now, gleaming up at you through the shadows with its faint hints of gold and red. Maybe Wooyoung is right and the only way to get rid of missed opportunities is to forget about them entirely. Yeosang was but a chapter in your life, one that is past and gone now, and as Hongjoong said, there is no reversing death. Seeing him one last time won’t give you anything but pain.

You stretch a shaky hand towards the card in the drawer. It’s cold to the touch, dust billowing up with even the slightest touch of your fingers. You have to dig your nail under the material to pull it up, and once it’s safely set in your palm, you drag your thumb over the surface to brush the dirt away. No words on the surface, no sign that it has been touched by a demon, and not even a hint as to what it could possibly be for.

It is surprisingly flexible, at least moreso than you would have imagined, and you give it a few testing bends to see how easy it would be to break. Hongjoong simply gave you the instruction to tear it in half and that was all. You don’t expect him to suddenly materialize before you on a whim, but surely such a creation is bound by some sort of magic on his part. It is hard enough to believe that demons are real living creatures, but magic as well? Maybe you’ve passed on and just don’t realize it yet. Still, you exhale one last huff of air into the darkness before letting your eyes flutter shut. Taking the card between your hands, you begin to slowly rip the material until it separates with the force, torn in two mismatched pieces.

Nothing fantastical happens.

That fact alone is so overwhelmingly disappointing that you really think for a moment that Hongjoong was just some goth rocker in a stoner bar who pulled an elaborate trick on you. It can’t be too difficult to get your hands on some weird red-toned contacts and weave some elaborate story about being the King of Hell. You could do that yourself. Why did you think he was incapable of such a charade?

Because he knew what you wanted without you having to say it.

Yes, well, Wooyoung claimed that your regrets and grief were evident in your features every time he looked at you. Maybe Hongjoong could see it as well.

You fall back onto your bed, flattening your back against the mattress with a small shout of frustration. The urge to cry is strong; if you’ve spent all these weeks uselessly worrying over something that could all be a farce, you don’t even know how you would react. You squeeze your eyes shut tight, blinking away the tears that blossom in the corners there as best you can. The rolling emotions in your system distract you from the sudden shift in temperature, and before you know it heat washes over you and fills the void of cold in your body. You jerk but refuse to sit up quite yet, eyes flying open in your shock only to choke on air as a bright golden light fills your vision and swarms you with warmth. The cushion under your body doesn’t feel the same either; it is not your bed, it’s too plush and soft, too warm under you, and you feel like you are absolutely drowning in the sensation.

Gold flickers above you, twinkling lights that glisten like small stars above you, and the ceiling is so dark that you nearly think it’s just an opening to the night sky. You sit up in a mad panic. The gold and red decorations littering the far too lavish room barely process in your vision as you look for a way out, and you don’t even see the figure coming up along your side until he’s upon you. A hand stretches out to brush over your forehead. You nearly shriek in your state of terror, but the sound is all but stolen from your lungs instead.

“It’s only me, doll. You’re safe.”

Hongjoong. Ah, Hongjoong. Then… he was telling the truth. It wasn’t a farce or a deception meant to be a game. He claimed to be the Devil Incarnate, and here he stands before you in a room too rich and exquisite for words. You can’t find it in you to think he’s lying now.

You dare to glance up and meet his gaze, finding it so soft on your face that you have the audacity to blush under his stare despite the things you’ll be doing with him soon enough.

“Have you made your decision then?” He asks, tone soft and light. It isn’t one that demands an immediate answer. You know he could ask what took you so long to decide, complain about your hesitance, say that you kept him waiting for far too long — instead, he exudes patience with you, hand slowly combing over your forehead down to your cheek and brushing over the skin there with a touch so featherlight that you almost don’t realize it’s there at all.

“I-I have,” you whisper like the two of you aren’t the only ones in the room and it’s a secret meant only for your ears.

“What would you have from me first then? As I told you before, the payment is the same regardless of your decision, and as such, we can bind the deal first if you’d rather.”

You swallow around nothing. There is no harm in going through with the decision now, but your nerves are so frazzled and out of sorts that you almost desire the sex simply as a means of stress relief. Hongjoong steps in front of you, fully coming into view, and you are shocked at how… mundane he looks. You blink fervently at the man — demon, rather — and take in the gentle part of his hair, the soft glow of his skin that makes him look simply ethereal under this light. He hardly looks like a demon to you; his features are too smooth and perfect for that, from the curves of his lips to the even line of his nose. Although you suppose that’s all he wants you to see, yet it still seems oddly intimate to a certain degree.

“You aren’t worried that I’ll try to run away after my wish is fulfilled?” You ask. Hongjoong arches his brows at you, and his neutral expression slips into one of momentary shock.

“Where are you going to go, my dear? I brought you to this place, and you will need me to send you back once we’re done here.”

It sinks in at that moment how you are completely at his mercy right now. Not that you had any plans of running away, but the question was moreso just to test the waters, see if he is truly as merciful as his features make him out to be. The underlying danger in his tone proves your point and sends a chill down your spine.

“Is that something I ought to be worried about, doll? Should I claim you now to make sure you keep your end of the bargain?” The question sits on your ear like warm honey. It chokes you, fills your senses with Hongjoong’s scent, and you almost find yourself leaning into his curling lips before catching yourself. That seems to pique his interest in the very least, and his smile twists a bit more. “The decision is in your hands as always. I won’t do anything you don’t give me explicit permission to do.”

“Permission granted,” you mutter before catching a hand on Hongjoong’s collar. “Do it all.” You aren’t too worried about damaging his clothes as he’s not wearing anything drastically fancy or expensive-looking, and thus you twist your fist into a ball around the fabric of his black tee and yank him down to your height. He bends at the waist, hands catching on the mattress before his forehead can smack hard against yours. There’s a bit of tension in his neck, and that keeps him far enough back so that he doesn’t kiss you quite yet. It’s almost as though he is waiting for something else, eyes carefully tracing your features with great care before he settles on your lips, and a sharp inhale of breath follows before that thin line in his composure snaps.

His lips hit yours with a surprising amount of force, and the kiss isn’t at all what you were expecting — well, to be more accurate, you aren’t quite sure what you were expecting in the first place. It’s much more pleasant than you could have imagined though, and Hongjoong isn’t shy with the touch at all. His tongue is quick to swipe over your lower lip, hands darting upwards to brush over your sides before reaching your face, and he brings a knee down on the mattress to support his weight as he leans over you. You follow the motion when he pushes forward and lean back until you have no choice but to scoot back on the bed. Hongjoong moves with you with the same amount of fervor, still pressed to your lips without relent, and you don’t even think to stop as he completely drapes himself over your body, knees still up and supporting his weight. The cushion of the mattress dips by your head, a telltale sign that he’s placed his hands there, and you use that as your opportunity to stop for air. Hongjoong surely has no need to breathe like you do since he is undead, but he still pants above you, chest heaving as a pretty flush rises to his cheeks.

“Putting that much power in a demon’s hands is dangerous, is it not?” He mutters. You let your lashes flutter shut as he moves back to your lips, hot breath ghosting over your skin. “Are you sure you want to do that?”

“I’ll tell you if it’s something I don’t like,” you murmur, opening an eye to peek at him. He meets your gaze with a soft laugh, but your answer seems to please him enough to bring his attention back to your lips. You inhale as his tongue breaches your mouth and pushes into the wet cavern inside. There’s no chance for you to fight back for any sort of dominance because he only thrusts deeper and coats the inside of your mouth with his taste until you can feel his tongue brushing over your palate. A quiet moan reverberates through your throat and against his lips. You feel the barest hint of a smile in the kiss, then his lips are suddenly gone from yours. You gasp for air with the freedom. Heat pools in the depths of your gut, a pleasant one that leaves you wanting more, and you aren’t sure if it’s simply been so long since you last had sex or if Hongjoong truly has that effect on you.

He returns to touching your body a moment later, hands trailing to the row of buttons on your nightshirt, and one by one, he pulls them apart until the material is barely clinging to your skin. His lips replace his fingers then. First at your jaw placing a wet trail of kisses and soft nips that leave you with goosebumps. Then he reaches the midpoint of your sternum and rests the flat of his tongue there, tasting and teasing your skin until you can do nothing but writhe under him because he is taking so damn long. Your impatience is laughable to him, as evidenced by the quiet huff of air that leaves him next.

“I want to taste every inch of you,” he mumbles against the skin of your stomach, hands pulling your nightshirt away to expose more of the skin underneath. He makes good on his words, and that damn tongue traces lower and lower until he reaches the band of your pants and underwear. You instinctively dart a hand down to tangle in his hair. “F-Fuck.” The curse slips out when you give an accidental tug to the hair close to his nape, and you nearly think that you’ve hurt him in some manner until you catch sight of the blissed-out expression on his features.

“D-Do you — can I…?”

“Do it harder while I eat you out,” he growls. His fingers close hard around the remainders of your close, and you don’t even have time to nod before he’s yanking both your pants and underwear down in one fell swoop. It leaves you more than a little exposed — you’re suddenly nearly nude before the demon who is still fully clothed, and that realization draws your thighs tight together in a sudden rush of embarrassment. You swallow hard around nothing, eyes darting away from Hongjoong’s prying gaze.

All of a sudden, he shrugs your hand off his hair and sits back on his heels. You don’t understand what his reasoning is until you settle your eyes back on his body. He’s leaned back to start stripping layers of clothes off in a rush, hands fumbling and struggling to pull them away in an orderly manner. There is no composure to his actions, only a hastened fervor that has him tossing his shoes far from the bed along with random articles of clothes until he’s laid fully bare before you. You really try your hardest not to glance down at his… you know, but the urge is overwhelming. Before you can even catch a glimpse, however, Hongjoong is on you again, hands latched around your thighs and pulling you to the edge of the bed as he kneels before you on the floor. The sudden movement has you squealing in surprise, and that noise is broken off into a startled moan when Hongjoong’s lips brush through your folds without warning.

“O-Oh god,” you gasp out. Hongjoong’s tongue gives a long and dragging pull through your heat, teasing some of the juices out of you with little restraint.

“Far from it actually,” he replies against your clit. A cheeky grin eats away at his features, but it quickly disappears as he returns his focus to your cunt. Your hand finds its way back down to his hair once more and tugs hard at the strands. Each tweak of his tongue through your folds has your legs jerking a bit, and he has to tighten his grip on your thighs to keep you from moving so much under his touch.

“I’m not — I w-won’t last, pl-please, I–” You can’t even finish the sentence as Hongjoong flicks the tip of his tongue right over your clit and cuts you off. He repeats that same motion, again and again, brings you right to the precipice of an orgasm only to tear you back down from it with soft kisses pressed to the outside of your folds. You can’t keep track of how many times he repeats that process, but it is more than enough to have you shaking from exhaustion and desperation even though you haven’t even been able to come yet.

“Are you going to beg for it, doll?” Hongjoong hums after what feels like hours of pleasurable torture. “I promised to make you feel good, did I not? You just have to tell me what you want.” His words are so taunting that it burns you with embarrassment. The need for that orgasm hangs on every nerve ending of your body, and you could cry just out of the need to come.

“Please,” you whisper in a tone broken from constant moans and cries.

“Be more specific.” It’s so cruel. He dangles the promise of pleasure before your eyes again, this time nipping ever so gently at your bud, and you really do cry this time, fingers digging harshly on his scalp. That draws a prolonged growl from his lips, and it reverberates against you so nicely that you could come from that. Hongjoong pulls his head back too soon though and the sensation is dashed away.

“N-No, no, please. P-Please, Hongjoong, I — please let me come. I need it, I need it so badly. Shit, just – just please let me come,” you wail as tears slip out the corners of your eyes and spill onto the sheets under you. That’s the breaking point for him as well, or so it would seem, because the next time his mouth brushes through your cunt, he doesn’t relent. You come undone on his tongue, riding out the waves of your intense orgasm as he fucks his wet muscle into your heat. He won’t stop chuckling either — a low noise that just prolongs the pleasure and makes you quiver from overstimulation. He doesn’t let up until a dry and choked sob pushes past your lips.

Suddenly he is back up on the bed, bent over your body to be eye to eye with you. His fingers trace over your wet cheeks then clasp hard around your jaw.

“Too much?”

“N-No,” you stammer through the wet cries. “So good. So so good.”

“Mm, can you take my cock too, doll?” He all but purrs the words against your skin. His soft and trailing kisses return to your skin, peppering the line of your jaw just past his fingers.

“Yes, please, I c-can. Please. I want i-it all.” You never thought you could sound so overwhelmingly desperate, but the tumbling sensation that swerves through your stomach as Hongjoong’s demeanor shifts has you falling into absolute shambles. He shifts your position, pushing you up higher to rest against the pillows, and you start to drape your legs around his waist. That must not be the position he had in mind though, because his hand clamps down hard on one of your calves and pushes it to the top of his shoulder. Before you can even blink, he does the same with your other leg, effectively folding you in half and into a position you weren’t even aware that your body was capable of. That shock is momentary as you feel the tip of what must his cock rubbing over your pulsating hole. You can’t do anything but ball your fists around the sheets under you and cling to them like a vice. It’s the only thing that can prepare you for his girth; the stretch may not be as much as you thought it would be, but it still stings like a bitch even after he bottoms out in you. That pain must be showing on your features – in the way your brows are tightly knit together and your eyes are screwed shut so that excess tears from earlier slip out.

The soft caress of lips touches your forehead. It’s so gentle and delicate that you nearly miss it in your efforts to grow used to the sensation between your legs, but Hongjoong repeats it time and time again until your breathing steadies and your chest stops heaving as much. It’s only then that he dares to resituate his hips. You crack an eye open to look at him, and it’s abundantly clear that he’s trying his hardest to hold back and keep from fucking into you with reckless abandon.

“I’m okay now,” you whisper, pulling a hand off the bedsheets to brush some loose strands of hair out of Hongjoong’s vision. “Please fuck me as hard as you’d like.” You snake the same hand around the back of his neck. When he still doesn’t move, you offer a sharp tug to the hair that falls over his sweat-slick nape, and that spurs him into action. His hips snap roughly against yours, pushing your back further into the crude curve it’s already in. Now that the dull throbbing pain has dissolved into a sensation of pleasure, you drown yourself in the drag of his member inside you. It’s quite possibly the best feeling you’ve had all night with the way his tip rubs over your bundle of nerves at just the right angle.

Hongjoong drops his elbows to the pillow under your head, and you greet him with a kiss that is mostly just an awkward clash of teeth for the most part. He gains enough composure to shift the angle to one that’s easier for both of you, hips still working hard as he rocks into you with the same force and speed as before. You are so lost in the euphoria that you can’t even feel your next orgasm sneaking up on you, but when it does, it pulls a noiseless scream from your lips. Hongjoong mouths at the corner of your lips as you ride it out. He still seems far off from his own high, even as he slows the pulses of his thrusts. You claw your way back from the high of your orgasm to grip his hair tighter and pull him closer to you.

“In me. I need you to come in me or not at all,” you demand through a huffed out sigh. It’s a moment of throwing caution to the wind, one that is quite worth it thanks to the expression of hunger and lust that fills Hongjoong’s face.

“You can’t just say things like that, doll,” he growls into the shell of your ear. You try to laugh but he interrupts you with a thrust harsher than any of the ones before. Every sound that falls from your lips now is stuttered and broken at the seams, and you let him fuck you with that same level of passion until he finally seems to tire and lose his rhythm. The only warning you have that he’s about to orgasm is the slight whine to his tone when he moans next. You push what strength you have left into clenching hard around his cock, and that is ultimately what tips him over the edge and pulls a delightful moan from his lips as he spills into your tight heat. He releases his hold on your legs, letting them slip away from his shoulders and back into a more comfortable position on the bed, but he refuses to move off your body.

You aren’t sure how long the two of you stay like that: with Hongjoong continually mouthing small kisses to the underside of your jaw and you just staring blankly at the glittering ceiling with a mind nearly empty. However much time passes doesn’t quite matter because once you recover your senses enough to be coherent again, you recall what is supposed to come next. Shaky hands find their way to Hongjoong’s arms and trail up to rest atop his back.

“Take it all away,” you exhale through a pant, hands clinging desperately to the milky skin of Hongjoong’s shoulders. “I don’t want to remember him anymore.” His chest heaves against yours, and a few loose strands of dark hair fall forward to stick to his sweat-slick forehead. This time when he kisses you, it is hot and searing, a brand against your lips, one that burns the inside of your mouth and sets your tongue alight. The sensation slips down the back of your throat, fills your gut, burns you from the inside out, and all your thoughts go hazy under the touch of his lips. With that one kiss, Hongjoong takes it all away. He gives into your desires, heeds your wishes, and grants you the ultimate peace and serenity you so deeply craved. He continues to cling to you like he’s never held something so desperately or lost in his infinite existence. You return the embrace in full while you can, strength already leaving you in the afterglow of your fornication, and you rake your nails down over his back if only to leave him with some sort of trophy to leave with. He is already leaving with your memories though, a trophy to hold close to his heart should there ever be a time when you ask for them to be returned to you. Perhaps in your afterlife, you’ll ask for them back, and Hongjoong would gladly give them should it be what you desire.

That is what he is, after all. As much as he takes, the Demon King of the Underworld gives in return, where he can with what he can. His duty, his bond, the sole purpose for his existence is to maintain that balance between giving and taking. But if it’s for you — a creature so lost, dismal, and hopeless — perhaps he can tip the scales a bit further in your direction.

At least, that’s what he thinks as you curve your body into his and press your lips with more fervor than before. That maybe, just maybe, endless years of his own hopelessness and confusion were all meant to lead him to finding this: a purpose in his undying life.

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[thinkingisadangerouspastime]

(GASP YOURE TAKING ASKS AGAIN *shaky eyes*) 4, 5, 6, 11, 14, 23, and 30!

I SURE AM 😤💛 the semester is over and i am ALIVE 🙌

4. Link your three favorite fics right now.

i have been on an ml fic binge the past several weeks bc i finally caught up with season 4 of miraculous so they're all ml (adrienette) fics ajdsdjsdks:

Trust Falls by PitViperOfDoom; Chasing the C/h/atwalk. by Inkkerfuffle; and Operation Mega-Sleepover by InTheWild

(also these are all complete! there's some wips i adore rn, too, but i don't want to link them in case i lose interest bc then i'd feel terrible 💀)

5. What are your fanfic pet peeves? Do they have a huge effect on whether or not you decide to read something?

if a fic has no paragraph breaks, i cannot read it. and hey, i was guilty of it too when i was in middle school, but it's a dealbreaker for me 😂 also commas. if a fic has too many OR not enough commas, i probably won't be able to read it. and i can be a bit picky with characterization? but that depends on the fandom, the story's context, what character we're even talking about, etc. etc.

6. How do you find new fic to read? Where do you primarily read fanfiction?

i get recs from friends, i read my friends' works, i literally just go to ao3 and read from the most recently posted fic, and occasionally i sort by kudos. i primarily read fanfic on ao3!

11. How do you come up with your fic titles?

song lyrics, a significant motif/line/etc. in the fic, occasionally im inspired by quotes i hear or read, and sometimes im just like "this sounds cool, that'll do" 😂

14. Do you have a personal word minimum that you hold yourself too? Why or why not?

i used to not like having fics shorter than 1k, but i have since matured and realized that a fic is only as long as it needs to be. sometimes that means im encapsulating a small moment in only a few hundred words, and that's a-okay! 😌

23. What’s your absolute favorite trope to write?

ooh, good question 🤔 honestly i just love emotional hurt/comfort, which isn't really a trope, per se, but it's the closest to one i can provide for this question 😂 a lot of my fics involve some aspect of a character study, so i think my enjoyment of emotional hurt/comfort makes sense adkjsdsks

30. Post a snippet from your current WIP without context - no more than 300 words.

i've been posting context-less snippets for the past three days, this ain't nothing new 😂

“Our dining room is right over here,” she said, stepping in front of the two and gesturing to her left. “You can sit—” Allison was abruptly cut off as she ran face-first into a navy blue men’s dress shirt.

“You can meet my husband, actually,” Allison corrected herself with a wide grin, turning around to extend introductions. “Sharona, Mr. Monk, this is my husband, Joe. Joe, this is Adrian Monk and Sharona Fleming.”

“I have heard great things about the both of you from Allison,” Joe said, shaking Sharona’s hand and then Monk’s. “She says that without you two on the case…” He trailed off, brow furrowing as Monk snapped for a wipe.

“Don’t worry, he has a thing about germs,” Sharona reassured Joe as she handed Monk a towelette from a fresh pack in her purse. “He’s like this with everyone.”

“It’s true, I am,” Monk said, wiping his hands. Sharona dropped the wipe back into her purse when he was done.

There was a momentary pause, but Joe shook off his confusion and picked up where he left off. “Allison tells me your help has been instrumental with the current case.”

“Well, I wouldn’t say we—” Monk was interrupted by a snicker from Sharona, who waved her hand apologetically when he frowned at her.

“Sorry, sorry. I just”—she snickered again—“instrumental. Y’know, they’re all musicians?”

A laugh escaped Allison’s lips, too, while Monk’s frown only deepened.

“I don’t understand.”

Sharona sighed, patting him on the shoulder. “Don’t worry, boss. Your funny bone will heal eventually.”

Monk shifted his shoulders at her touch. “Doubtful.”

[soaringsearingphoenix]

Valentine's Day Asks: The Prime Numbers

Wow! I dont know why i didnt see the notification for this one but ok, alright ah

1. do you have a crush on anyone?

I guess so? There are people who Stand Out to me and i call them crushes in my head sometimes but mostly I just want to be friends with them. Like I dont usually get dizzying sweeps of emotion for someone, physical or romantic, but I do get an urgent and baseless desire to hang out with them... maybe take a walk or invite them to get ice cream. So like if we’re on the same page about what I call a Crush on my emotional scale then yes. Theres a couple people.

2. what’s your favorite candy?

I like lemonheads and i will eat them until im sick of them if given half a chance. I also like snickers now because theres peanuts in it so i get to pretend im making a healthy choice

3. favorite love song?

Slow Boat To China, any version but specifically sung by Bette Midler and Barry Manilow. You know, like, just the corniest possible version? Partly for nostalgia, because it was one of like three CDs i remember my mom playing all the time when we were just kind of around the house when I was little. It also has the distinction of being the first duet I learned the words to (though as far as im aware none of my friends know the lyrics... i dont think ive ever actually sung it with someone) and it’s probably gotta be the one that gets stuck in my head the most. Right down to the dumb banter in the middle (“Bette, I didn’t know you felt that way about me.” “I don’t. I need a piano player.”)

I also like “Somewhere Beyond The Sea.” I think, as a general rule, that if there are boats in the words to a love song I will probably like it.

5. what was your last kiss like?

Meaningful

7. do you prefer poems or love letters?

Ahhhhhhhhhh to read or to write? I like writing poems because I think they’re... easier honestly? Writing is so hard, identifying your feelings is hard. Having some constraints makes writing easier, and a rhyme and cadence makes it flow. Besides, it’s more musical that way so I think for me it feels like a more natural expression of love. I do well with more structured expression, and not so much with making just raw, unrefined feelings known.

Not to say writing poetry is easy. It’s less difficult than a love letter, sure, but there are still potential pitfalls. If i make a metaphor that makes me think of science, the rest of the poem WILL be just an extension of the metaphor that gets more and more didactic until I’m just telling you science facts.

11. dinner dates or brunch dates?

Dinner dates. I decided that before i came up with a reason why. I think the reason is that an evening engagement means I have something to look forward to, or be nervous about but then i have time to mentally prepare myself. Whereas morning, even if it’s not “early” morning, I feel more stressed about getting there on time and then afterwards theres a whole rest of the day where i either have to get somewhere after, or its just this unstructured uncertainty. Dinner, youve already done the rest of the day, so you can be present without worrying about what you gotta get to after.

13. favorite perfume/cologne?

I... dont know that ive ever noticed a perfume or cologne and felt it was applied tastefully, because i think if it is insubtle it defeats the point. That said, if it’s actually well applied so that it’s less an overwhelming cloud that trails comically behind people you pass in the quad and more like when someone sits down right next to you om the couch and you get just a hint of their shampoo or conditioner, to the point where maybe you didnt even consciously notice it before but now you say “oh, you’re the reason ive been craving ice cream, you smell minty” if it was only that subtle then i think im generally fond of more smoky incense-y smells like sandalwood, or roses but i am picky about rose fragrances, so it has to actually smell just like fresh roses or i wont be able to overlook that the smell is not roses. I have this friend who went to my middle school, and we were very into scents and making potpourri and things. At the time, his grandma had a hand soap that smelled exactly like roses, it was delightful and he said as much and I said that it sounded amazing but I’d have to take his word for it, but then the next time he visited her he came back with a little jar of it for me just so i could smell it, and he was right, it smelled just like roses. Actually forget the roses, it will make me think of the hand soap and as lovely as that is I dont want to give anyone vying for my affection any reason to feel like they’re in competition with someone, or something. It’s not a competition. Learn to coexist with my memories, because you’re not going to fight my nostalgia and win.

17. what’s the most attractive thing a person could wear?

If you’re wearing something knit or embroidered that you made yourself Im definitely gonna want to talk to you. Also if you’re wearing really comfy looking cargo pants but thats probably because i want to know where you got them so i can get some for me.

19. snow, rain, or sun?

Sun because people will take a walk with me

23. what’s your dream wedding like?

Dont have one but if i did its in a forest or at least a grove of trees. Mostly small gathering, family and close friends. I have a dress for the vows i guess, just because ive seen a lot of Say Yes to the Dress so thats how ive generally pictured it, (which i only really do when im watching Say Yes to the Dress), but ive got comfortable shoes, and im gonna change into pants asap after. We probably do some corny thing thats kind of an inside joke. Each of us has a Best Man or equivalent, who carries a sword — we joke that this makes it a “traditional” wedding, though beyond that it’s really not meant to be. It’s mostly simple, though maybe have a little extravagance or two, like a chocolate fountain, because how often do you have an excuse to have a chocolate fountain. I tend to wander off from other peoples weddings somewhere in the middle, at some point i just get a little overstimulated, and the amount of people that will likely be invited makes this probable. At the reception, when the families and friends are singing and dancing, i probably quietly excuse myself to my spouse and drift away, finding a spot in a tree where i can still hear the music and the laughter from a distance. I am joined not long after by my spouse (and the thought is strange, and even then i cant quite wrap my mind around that word yet, the commitment it implies) who knows where to look for me, and who perhaps pulls a leaf or two from my hair as they join me on an adjacent branch. We sit quietly together for some time until it seems appropriate to rejoin the festivities, as it is our wedding after all, and the slow dance is coming up, and we will spend some quiet time later when everyone has gone home. It is nice, the dancing, and as tired as we are we still drift around the dance floor among loved ones long into the night.

I dont know if this is like... how i intend my wedding to be. Like i said i didnt have an answer going in. But now that im trying to imagine it, this feels realistic.

29. are you single?

Yup!

31. guitar or piano?

Piano. First of all because i am better at piano than guitar and second because you can do duets on one piano

37. do you like to dance?

Aw hell yeah!! I would call myself an... Inexperienced dancer, but if a song has a good rhythm or even if it doesnt and i am full of energy i WILL be moving and twisting and you ARE welcome to join me

41. favorite soda?

I usually go for lighter ones like orange or sprite. I found Lime fanta at a gas station once that tasted like green jello and it was good but ive only seen it maybe twice ever.

43. favorite ABBA song?

Gimme Gimme Gimme always gets me on my feet, and ive listened to it probably the most because it’s on my “Dates and Times Playlist” (the first line says ‘half past 12’ and then the chorus says ‘after midnight’ so its in with a collection of other midnight songs. Any time i hear any of the others i get this one in my head as well. Thatd just how it is.)

47. do you think about love a lot?

No

[osamuniichann]

Map of the Soul: 7

After a ~315 day drought without new music and a comeback from the legends, we are finally back with MOTS: 7! It been a hot minute since ive done a album review (solely for myself LMAO) so lets get back into it bc this album is a home run

Interlude: Shadow. Here we have the extended version of the interlude. can i just say that the lyrics to this masterpiece are so real and true. its not suga speaking nor is it agust d, this is min yoongi speaking of his internal conflict with the celebrity life, which is heartbreaking. on another note, the visuals of the mv are stunning and the ending--dont u just wanna go apeshit??? truly a great addition to the album!

Black Swan. sister black swan has been with us for a month-ish now? it still bumps. HARD. i blasted this to and from my drive to work to the point where i was scared if id get sick of the song but that didnt happen. the way how its hard to pinpoint when and where a member would sing/rap because they INTENTIONALLY wanted the voices to blend as if they were one body. this is the group’s narrative on how no matter how passionate one is on a certain craft, when they lose that drive, its like a death. and it is up to themselves to spark that love and interest once again. a very relatable story across various media, talents, skills, etc.

Filter. When I first heard that this was a jimin solo showcasing the many sides of Jimin, i thought that it was going to be a sad ballad to kind of follow the theme mots: 7 seemed to give off; thought that it would talk about how he has to force personas onto himself to appeal to the masses, but it is the complete opposite. Jimin is all the faces he puts on, he can be cute, sweet, and caring Jimin but he is also a sexy, flirty young man that can attract any living being. how he switches from falsettos to a lower register voice is beyond me, what a versatile one he is! <3

My Time. Moving onto jungkook’s solo, I knew the lyrics were going to be sad especially when it seems to compare himself to others his age. How he speaks about how fast time runs for him, how his childhood and current life is not of the average 22 year old (LIKE UM HERE I AM, SAME AGE AS JUNGKOOK AND IM NORMAL AF while he’s out here breaking records?? WOW). but the life of jungoo can be a bit overwhelming, completely understandable. I just want our boi JK to know that he can be himself and live freely despite such different circumstances. On another note, the groove of this track is so GOOD. it reminds me of Ari and ugh i LIVE for this jam

Louder Than Bombs. When the track started, I could totally tell Troye Sivan helped produce it, it has such a unique sound that only Troye would use. It sounds like this song would totally be on a movie soundtrack IDK WHY. like, i can picture it during an apocalypse movie sldkjg im not completely sure what the meaning is to the song (bc im big stupid) but i feel like its a track saying that no matter the struggles, they will continue to sing confidently, strongly, and wholly to us endlessly. beautiful, just beautiful.

ON. Moving on to the title track of MOTS: 7! I’m very picky about strong anthem-type songs but ON is actually p addicting HAHA There’s a background sound that repeats in the back that sounds like Sans from Undertale, aint that wild LMAO but anyways, the Manifesto Film was crazy good. The drums, the band, the breakdown of it all? UNBELIEVABLE. Also, JK’s vocals during the bridge? H O W. That breakdown tho...oof, that was amazing. They still dance with the thirst that rookie bts would and i think thats why ppl are so drawn to them no matter how many years pass. Fun fact: the choreographer of ON as well as Dionysus actually is from my city in Hawaii and we went to the same high school THATS WILD. the talent she holds!

UGH! Rap line ATE this shit, are we KIDDING. An ode to all the hate comments that we receive, u can see how fed up they are. They made POINTS and we all agree, its the damn law. The way how they opened up with a gunshot, we knew it was coming. Everyone joked about how we bout to hear some gunshots on this album, well they threw ALL of it on this track. Can i just say that Hobi’s verse tho? it hits different, it really do. When they went “ahem, ahem. ahem, ahem-ahem, YOUR AHEM. AHEM-AHEM--” OOOOOUGH i felt that shit!! god, imagine this in concert...the building aint ready!

0:00 (Zero O’ clock). Now we have the vocal line track, we knew they were bout to present some vocals. Great sound, slow and reflecting. Not the first track I’d listen to but it is a great listen. The lyrics tho get to me. The way how they comfort us and say that life can be rough but you can be happy. no matter what happens, with the turning of the clock to 0:00, its a brand new day and we can make the day better. what a powerful message that all of us need to hear once in a while. we will be happy guys, we deserve to be.

Inner Child. Tae’s solo which is a message to his young self. I expected a slow ballad filled with his warm vocals reminiscent of Winter Bear, 4 o’ clock, and Scenery but boi was I wrong. He has this sunset glow voice that wraps u so warmly and the sound is just so happy, pure, and innocent. Its a hopeful message to his younger self on how we will change and be the amazing person we want to or will be. I was sobbing at this song, I tell u. It was 2:00 am in the morning and I was sobbing into my pillow. Imagine comforting your past self that everything will be okay and to take ur hand, it will be all worth it in the end. When he sang “ur my boy, my boy, my boy, my boy!” Ugh...the tears!

Friends. When I heard this was a vmin duet expressing their friendship with each other, I knew it was going to be so emotional! I didn’t expect such a fun, poppy sound tho. They truly are soulmates, the love they have for each other is so wholesome and real, it truly exhibits the love I have for my friends--they’ve been with me through thick and thin, during happy and sad times; the amounts of serotonin they give me is just HHHH. The way how Tae and Jimin have been friends since high school until now is just ugh...we love it. Towards the end when they started singing “you are my soulmate!” towards each other, i started sobbing so hard because WOW. the shivers i felt, this song made me so happy and full! 

Moon. Next we have Jin’s solo which is an ode to us army’s. And on another perspective, this is a song from the moon (jin) to the Earth (army)--i have tears in my eyes. The lyrics especially got me in a chokehold and made me sob, the way how he says that he will always be by our side no matter what, the same way how we are there for him...god. The chorus really gets to me, it feels so happy and thankful and I just want to tell Jin that I will forever follow him and the boys. They’ve been with me for years now and I will continue to support, love, and listen to them. Ily to the moon and back, our moon.

Respect. I didn’t expect a Namgi duet but HERE WE ARE. Goddd when i heard that i was SO EXCITE. They’ve known each other for +10 years now and they never miss the chance to tell everyone that they’ve been friends for that long. Not @ how they disliked each other at first but grew to be so mf close, to the point where their family. Ughhh, im so uwu rn. Im so happy, so so happy that Nams started it with AYO SUGA; i SCREAMED. Also, i heard that they recorded it in one take and i could see how much fun they had--especially considering that their rap styles are completely different. Even tho in the song they joke about not knowing what the word Respect means, we know...we just KNOW the high amounts of respect they have for each other. As they mentioned before, Yoon’s respects towards Nams’ leadership and care towards everyone and Nams’ respect towards Yoon’s love and passion for music and producing. Peak comedy is Yoongs overloading on autotune during his parts to the point where its intentional. Bless Namgi.

We are Bulletproof: The Eternal. I felt like a CLOWN when this track started. Like everyone, i thought we were going to have a third installment similar to that of the strong, hip-hop, gunshot-filled part 1 and 2 of we are bulletproof, but we were met with soft vocals and rap. The lyrics tho get to me. This truly was a song about their entire journey and i felt like I experienced all years with them. They’ve been through so much and the way how they sang “we are we are together/forever bulletproof!” They are proud of where they came from and it has stuck with them till now. They are such real people...i cry. ALSO the “We were only seven, but we have you all now.” Whenever i see pictures of their debut fanmeets/concerts vs now its just crazy. imagine singing as an entire being during concerts when they start “OOOOH OH OHH” im so immensely proud of the feats they’ve reached and im excited on what they do next! <3

Outro: Ego. The way how he started it with the fitness gram pacer test just like in previous albums, ugh what a throwback! this song is such a Hobi track, its fun, dance-inducing and its just so FEEL GOOD. the way how he switches flows and is capable of doing so is *chef’s kiss* the way how he speaks about the path he takes is difficult but he doesnt regret it...SOBS also the mv??? UGH SO CUTE. the flashbacks too;; i cry

ON (feat. Sia). With this track, there’s not much extra I can say, all my opinions still stand with the original track wit ot7. I jokingly told my friend that if Sia is gonna be on the track “hey nanana’ing” the same why Halsey was only “oh my my my’ing” i will ctfu. and...welp, that was what happened. I do love Sia tho so props to her!

Overall: I initially thought that MOTS: 7 was going to be a dark, ballad-filled album but it was anything but. It had so much fun songs, the lyrics are again, so deep and meaningful--it pulls at your heartstrings. It felt so raw, personal, emotional, and i love it in all its being. The boys will continue to amaze me no matter what they put out and i forever and endlessly will support and love them the same way they do for us. MOTS: 7 is a masterpiece and im in love

[self-loving-vampire]

About Music

Like everyone else, I have my preferences when it comes to music. Unlike a lot of people, however, my taste doesn’t seem to follow mainstream bands or musicians very closely, to the point where I have never heard of many of them.

Based on that it might sound like I am very picky about the kind of music I like, or like there is some specific style that is the only one I can enjoy. I don’t think this is the case (though I do lean towards orchestral, piano, and violin music).

I notice that I can like a variety of songs, but what I enjoy is based on certain underlying principles that seem to be linked to basically all music I like.

I’m not a music expert or anything, but I’m going to use this post to explain what I like and why, and provide examples.

Association

The first thing that can heighten my appreciation for a song is association: What the song reminds me of. I noticed that a lot of the music that I end up really liking is music that appears in other media (such as games), likely because of this effect.

Listening to music, especially in a focused way, brings up mental images and feelings that are part of a specific “mood”, and when the music is both memorable and in tune with the media it appears in, it can make a huge difference for me.

For example, consider Touhou music. There isn’t really a Touhou song that I dislike, but I do notice that my appreciation for the themes grows after listening to them in-game, because the music contributes to the atmosphere of the game and the atmosphere of the game helps create mental images for the music.

This association effect is pretty much always at play for me. It can increase my enjoyment of practically all genres as long as the music itself is nice and properly utilized. It needs to be a very good fit for the feelings the game/show/whatever is aiming for.

Even subtle atmospheric music that I normally wouldn’t listen to much can be really enjoyable if it can take advantage of this.

Examples of this effect:

Planescape Torment Soundtrack - Deionarra's Theme.

'The Temple of Elemental Evil' Original Soundtrack - 18 Numb Level.

Fallout 1 Soundtrack - Desert Wind (The Wasteland).

Resident Evil Remake Soundtrack "Macabre Hallway".

Basically all Touhou game music ever, ZUN is a master at this. I want to give special attention to this piano version of Night Sakura of Dead Spirits though.

Grandiosity

I like dramatic music. The type that plays when I appear in a scene. For some time I thought this was the primary factor in music I like because it seemed to be involved in a lot of my repeat-play favorites. I eventually realized that I also do like a lot of slower music, though.

I am still not entirely sure why I am drawn to this type of music exactly, but my current guess is that as a narcissist I particularly enjoy the mental images it provides. I also find the adrenaline both enjoyable and useful when I need to push myself to do something when the pain or fatigue are acting up.

Most of the music in this category is orchestral.

It also doesn’t necessarily need to be triumphant or heroic, I can also enjoy a more villainous-sounding type of dramatic song.

Examples (trying to select a wide variety here):

T, 1948,12 Yama of Xanadu-Morrigan.

Touhou Arranged ~ Ryuuha Mikakutei ~ 封印された場所～keep out～立ち入り禁止!!

Touhou Arranged ~ Ryuuha Mikakutei ~ 深慮に触れる空想～Fancy touch to the idea～

WAVE - Doll 'n' Black Eyes.

Fate/Zero OST - The Sword of Promised Victory ~Fate/Zero ver.

28) 10 Stars 5 Flowers - Keiichi Okabe & Nakagawa Nami.

[Fate/Grand Order] Goddess of Rhongomyniad Arturia Lancer BGM.

GONG by JAM Project (w/ Lyrics & Eng Subs).

Demystify Feast [=NeutraL=]

CtC Reimu's Theme: G Free ~ Final Dream.  

Ar Tonelico III - EXEC_COSMOFLIPS/. with Lyrics.

Yu-Gi-Oh! 5D's - Masaaki Endoh "Clear Mind" English Lyrics.

【東方】Orchestral - Pure Furies ~ Whereabouts of the Heart [arrange]

[Touhou Vocal] [SOUND HOLIC] Septuor de écarlate (spanish & english subtitles)

東方Arrange～妹の虚勢【東方紅魔郷・オーケストラアレンジ】

Fate/Grand Order OST Goddess Rhongomyniad Artoria Pendragon Lancer Theme A Lion's Throne

Border of 東方 Touhou Unplugged/Classic 110

Relatability/Sadness

I am combining these two categories because I am more likely to appreciate sad music when I am in a low mood myself.

Usually the music in this category is still dramatic in some way, and often has lyrics or a feeling that remind me of some aspect of myself. Vocal music is more common in this category than in any of the others.

Note that some of the examples below are relatable without being “sad music” specifically. I can still appreciate that on its own, and I’m also including things that were relatable in the past but aren’t as relatable anymore.

Examples:

Bad Apple!!! English subtitles.

Sankarea Ending HD.

Another Heaven ~English Lyrics.

Dear You -Visionen im Spiegel- (with lyrics)

·:Kanashimi no mukou e:· ~School Days~ (English-Japanese lyrics)

Irisu Syndrome! OST - About 10 Hours Looking at the Ceiling

[Touhou Vocal] [Sally] Out of Control (spanish & english subtitles)

東方 [Piano] The Bridge People No Longer Cross

Morrigan(Wave) & COOL&CREATE(C&C) Endless Dream

A Rose in the Twilight OST - Ruin of rose

Narcissu Side 2nd OP - Narcissus [English Lyrics]

[Touhou Vocal] [Sally] Oboro (spanish & english subtitles)

Other

I also like a lot of piano and violin music that has to do with the above effects but that is not a particularly good example of them.

Other than that, I can also find certain songs interesting based largely on the lyrics and how they interact with the context of the song.

I won’t post too many examples of these, but there’s a couple I wanted to bring up.

The first one is this song about Koishi Komeiji, from Touhou 11. Here’s what the wiki says about her:

“To escape the fear and hatred which other beings feel towards the satori species, she attempted to destroy her mind-reading ability by closing her Third Eye. However, this had the side effect of sealing away her own conscious mind, causing her to lose all thoughts and motives; she could no longer be hated, but neither could she be loved, or even remembered by people who saw her.

...

Koishi's presence cannot be "felt" by anyone unless she has entered their direct field of vision and is forgotten as soon as she leaves it. In general, she doesn't have a personality. However, children enjoy her presence as one of an imaginary friend, who they forget about once they grow up.“

I also find this one interesting. It’s meant to be song magic with a rather sinister background and use.

Anyway, I hope I managed to explain the core of what I like and why.

[notcatherinemorland]

ok i Had a bit of Fancy UpMyArse Analysis about ‘emotional horor’ as a (sub)genre but i then saw a fire emblem post so naturally ive forgotten every other thought in my head. 

i absolutely sound like an asshole, and i know nothing about any of this. but i have a lot of emotions and i like gothic novels so therefore im absolutely 110% qualified to wax lyrical on the failings of modern horror as a genre.

the book i read that had ‘emotional horror’ as a tag-along line was devil rock by paul tremblay (which, wonderful book but i preferred his other two) where the pivot of the fear element, if u like, was the fear of a mother who’s child had gone missing. 

every time i talk about horror genre i Have to do the thing where i define things for the imaginary reader bc when i talk about horror and terror, i fully subscribe to ann radcliffe’s definition. i’m sure ive mentioned it time and time again here BUT because i enjoy talking about it. Terror is ~ the feelings of fear and dread, the suspense of the horror, capitalising on the anxiety, .. the gothic liminal space effect, if ur me, where you Know you’re not safe, but you’re not face to face with the danger. the space in between. Horror is ~ confrontation with the monster itself, fits alongside sublime and grotesque, its shock and repulsion and the immediate threat, the adrenaline rush that comes with experiencing the horror element. 

i don’t say that to be condescending or to mansplain.. i say that so a) any poor soul who reads things i say (future me) knows what the fuck im on about when i talk about it & b) . i just really enjoy chatting about that. i just. like talking about the difference between horror and terror . idk why. i just dig it.  also here down ‘horror’ equals radcliffe horror, ‘horror genre’ = .. the genre of horror. horror as the noun.

anyway. ‘emotional horror.’ i remember it struck me at first because i thought huh isn’t horror as a genre based in emotion? - but with pure regard to modern horror, emotional horror seems to mean the provocation of empathy for the characters, or that the ‘horrific element’ stems from an emotional source - grief, mental health, a missing child from a mother’s perspective. 

i fully admit i haven’t watched/read enough what i could annoyingly call ‘horror-horror’ content, ie films that rely a lot of physical action and reaction to be horror - the shining with physical safety, that one film about the deaf woman being hunted in her cabin in the woods (great film, i hated the experience of watching it.) uhh. i’m a philistine so i’d shove literally any standard horror film under this banner. friday 13th, chucky, that kinda thing. i’m sure there’s really nuanced analysis of them about the themes they explore like omnipresence of religion and how god doesn’t matter in a world with free will and that kind of thing . but the annoying bottom line for me is that if it’s got jumpscares and gore, it gets shoved into ‘this is a film with emphasis on radcliffe horror and i will Suffer.’ so. i don’t watch them. i fucking HATE jumpscares. I am abolutely passing judgement on a genre i have no taste for or care to experience, and tho i therefore should not talk about it . this will not stop me . 

sorry, it’s 1am. where was i. emotional horror. 

modern horror is a very foreign ground to me, because i just. entrenched myself in a little pit of gothic lit for 3 years, discovered that ‘woah! this is a contemporary genre too!’ and then read 5 chapters of stephen king and lost my faith in humanity hjgfhhhj. but emotional horror? that’s a fucking fascinating catagory. but i really bloody wonder why it’s been segregated from pure horror genre. because imo. they Should be one in the same. whats the point in horror genre content if it’s not digging claws into proper emotional fears and making a story out of that. OH one book i loved reading was ‘the wrong train’ by . someone. where the fear is typical and very abstract until the very last lines (spoilers.. where the protagonist is set up to die offscreen) and it’s a Beautiful twist. it’s very strange because the kicker of the book was the very last part and left largely unexplored. but at the same time if a story was to start there and follow onwards.. i’d be likely to shove it in my ‘horror-horror’ catagory. depending on if it explored the emotional effects on the characters in a way that was more than physical. 

films - especially films, because unless the writer is doing a dickhead move and eliminating the character’s emotional depth from the narrative, tend to have superficial displays of terror, horror and overwhelming emotion. by limitation of the medium alone . it’s the show not tell thing all over again. film a woman screaming and crying in fear of the ghost hunting her.. or have the camera circle her, blur all the shot but her, make the shot of her as intense as the emotion the actress portrays. i absolutely sound like an asshole, and i know nothing about this. but i have a lot of emotions and i like gothic novels so therefore im absolutely 110% qualified to wax lyrical on the failings of modern horror FHIGBKEFH. 

it’s one thirty am and i need to STOP oh my god how did i write this much about fucking horror genre but i can’t write 4000 characters of a ucas statement. many reasons, mostly that a ucas statement is zero wasted space and this ramble is 90% dead air. 

anyway. emotional horror. im fucking fascinated . im appreciative of the segregation so i can find things i’ll enjoy. but. why push it into a niche when it’s fucking integral to what makes horror .. good/worthwhile (to be an asshole)/what i personally enjoy lmao

edit: i didn;t actually,, fuckign say this,, when i say ‘exploring horror thru physical means’ like the asshat i am, i mean hack and slash film, gore, onscreen bodily trauma. that kinda content. the things out find in season 4 of supernatural. where the film is very concerned with exploring the boundaries of the physical body ie . get grusomely dismembered. as opposed to ‘emotional horror’ .. like the babadook honestly. where the boundaries crossed are very mental and emotional. 

that.. that’s a whole different post and the one i was actually trying to make. fuck. 

also. i’m just a picky bitch. one kind of horror is not necessarily better or worse than the other, and we choose where we place our value in media. personal taste is paramount and im not here to shit on what other people enjoy. i just happen to be annoying about what i do. 

[domesticangel]

2 4 8 13 14 18 22 29 33/34 36 37 40 41 44 48 55 69 76 80 82 94 95 98? Sorry if that's a lot sfhsghsh there were so many to choose from!! U can skip some if u want

SDFHSJKDL NAH DUDE UR SO FINE I APPRECIATE U GIVIN ME SO MANY TO ANSWER !!! 🤠🤙🏻 I’m gonna throw this under a cut just bc. I Talk A Lot

2. is your room messy or clean?

HHHHH i’d say its more on the messy side lmao like its not too awful bad but i am rly bad about having The Chair™ that i pile all my worldly possessions on

4. do you like your name? why?

ive honestly never rly liked it lmao emily was apparently like one of the most popular baby names for girls in ‘97 so from grade school through college ive always been one of like at least 2 or 3 emily’s in each class kjhkjhfkj thats why i mostly prefer to go by emmy

8. what kind of car do you drive? color?

i drive a 2002 ford taurus named tori and she’s my silver babby. she’s a very good car and i plaster her in as many bumper stickers as i can get my hands on

13. any siblings?

ye! one older brother. he’s like a cartoonishly stereotypical stoner but he’s chill so we get along

14. if you can live anywhere in the world where would it be? why?

HMMM ive always thought colorado would be nice? i love mountains and i love cold weather and i feel like theres enough cities that id have an ok chance of getting a job in my field. somewhere in scandinavia might also be nice bc once again i like the cold and also ive heard their healthcare slaps

18. favorite tv show?

OOF idk if i could pick one fav but some I’m rly into and find myself rewatching a lot are scrubs, bojack horseman, its always sunny, archer, and dexter

22. do you go to the gym?

i do when I’m on campus just bc my school has a rly nice gym with a good running track but if I’m back home like over breaks and stuff ill just run outside. i sometimes go to the yoga/pilates classes my mom teachers at her local gym but thats about it

29. whats the worst thing you have ever done?

HHHHH well. the main thing that came to mind was 3 years ago when i was driving and took a turn too fast and accidentally crashed into the front of a lady’s car….obv i didn’t mean to do it but i definitely was being reckless thinking i could make the turn. i totaled her car (i was driving a mustang at the time and those mfers are built like tanks so only our fender got dented but her entire front end was crushed) but luckily everyone was physically ok. i def learned my lesson about being a dumbass and also don’t fuck w rwd cars anymore lmao…even to this day thinking about how badly i couldve hurt her makes me shudder and i haven’t been in a wreck since

33. favorite actor?

idk if i can pick a fav but dfhjshgkjsdf i rly like samuel l. jackson, jason bateman, and paul rudd

34. favorite actress?

HHHHHHH i love so many actresses it’d probably be impossible to narrow it down but ive been rewatching ahs coven recently and it reminded me how much i love angela bassett and jessica lange 😩❤️

36. favorite movie?

kjghdsgjsk IM SRY IM PHYSICALLY INCAPABLE OF NARROWING ANYTHING DOWN TO ONE BUT,,, some of my consistent all times favs are the kill bill movies and the kingsman movies

37. do you read a lot? whats your favorite book?

i dont tbh i did when i was a kid but i always abandon books halfway through whenever i try nowadays,, i think the last book i read was the kite runner and its definitely one of my favs. i also like p much all of toni morrison’s books but beloved was my fav of hers

40. how many times have you been to the hospital?

i think only twice??? once when i was RLY young for something i don’t even remember and again when i was still p young to get my tonsils out lmao

41. top 10 favorite songs

OOF ok favorites are so hard for me but some songs ive loved for a rly long time and always come back to are nightdrive with you (fear of tigers remix) by anoraak, countdown by beyonce, song of the sea by cake bake betty, surrender by cheap trick, bubbly by colbie caillat, ferrari by coyote kisses, that green gentleman by panic! at the disco, nightswimming by R.E.M., if it makes you happy by sheryl crow, and punk rock girl by the dead milkmen

44. what is your biggest fear?

JHDFKJLSHKJSGFK ok this is kinda morbid but like i have this specific fear of someone close to me dying and it depressing me so much that i like, am not able to finish school and pursue my career and i get like totally trapped as a result of grief that sustains itself by constantly reminding me that said dead person would be disappointed in me for quitting. Sweats Loudly

48. who is your role model?

prob my mom tbh which i know is. Cheesy but like. she’s been through so much shit and still came out the other end of it as this unconditionally compassionate and capable person and i just. thats what i wanna be

55. what is your dream job?

honestly this might sound sad but like? literally anything that doesn’t make me wanna die and pays well enough that i can pay my bills and have a little fun on the side?????? obv some kinda art career but as for what specifically I’m rly not picky tbh jfghjhf all i know is that id wanna work for a company as opposed to freelancing

69. do you play an instrument?

nope dkljhfsdjk im not musically talented in any way shape or form

76. what color looks best on you?

black or tie dye, no in between

80. what is your biggest pet peeve?

probably just like? super negative people. like people that go out of their way to find negativity and complain about other things or people and have no desire to look on the bright side or enjoy the little things. like chill dude. we’re all just here to have a good time

82. favorite ice cream flavor?

HMMM i rly love pecan praline ice cream !!!

94. favorite lyrics right now

i honestly rly like the chorus from help yourself by sad brad smith,, “I know you’ll help us when you’re feeling better, and we realize that it might not be for a long, long time, but we’re willing to wait on you, we believe in everything that you can do, if you could only lay down your mind”

it just. makes me Soft. it reminds me of the ppl in my life that believe in me unconditionally and are patient with me and how grateful i am to have them and all the people that i love and believe in too and. Yeah 😩❤️

95. summer or winter?

winter 100% i HATE heat and sweating plus like 90% of my wardrobe is cold weather clothes fdljhksjkdh

98. favorite month?

HMMM probably november? its usually like the transition from fall to winter so you get that really nice crisp fall weather that flows into the super cold hot cocoa weather that i loooooveee

[oceanbreaks]

they call me an ugly white man’s whore … but HE KINDA CUTE Ok , even tho my friend said he looks like ned from horton hears a who and i can’t stop thinking about it … ANYWAYS ! tl;dr is below but a right mess , so apologies in advance . also wanted connections for ALL THREE OF MY CHARAS ! pls feel free to come and plot with me i want plots with every single one of y’all ‘cos im Greedy:tm: , alternatively , like this post and i’ll come to you !

⋆ ◦ ° ☾ paddy considine + male + he/him — have you met ethan rylance? they are a forty three year old known around town as the entangled. they’ve been in the gang life for seven years, and currently work for the savages as a medic. they are a bisexual virgo, which means they are steadfast + tender, as well as reticent + weary. annotated articles, the crunch of leaves under chelsea boots, reluctant acceptance . × tasha. twenty. she/her. est. ×

⁃ [ mconahey hey hey vc ] alright , alright , alright … this bitch never knew his father ! probably for the best, but surprise he was off in valdez up to no good, him and his dearest ma were in the city of stars ( angels ? ) LA ! his mother was an aspiring actress who never made it, but did her best to support him all the same . it made him kinda v independent , with a lot of time to himself which he spent mostly in nature b/c la has some rly nice hiking trails omg

⁃ suffers from ptsd stemming from a car accident he was in when he was like sixteen, resulting in the death of his step-dad and a rly bad stammer that he went to therapy for . 

⁃ mr. ethan was always curious abt his but his mom was adamant on telling him anything until he was eighteen . when he turned eighteen , his mom was like ye he’s in valdez i don’t talk to him but like do what u will with that info !

⁃ he takes a trip down to valdez to discover his dearest daddy is just bumming around total deadbeat… Sad  but ethan so very longing for that father figure keeps in touch, and gets to know him and for the most part rly likes him . discovers he has an alcohol abuse problem , most likely stemming from ptsd from vietnam .

⁃ anyhaps he doesn’t stay in valdez b/c he’s like nah .. not my scene lmao , but goes to school a couple states over in arizona , so he can be close to his momther and father … aw , but closer to mom cos she’s more Valid but he keeps in regular contact with his father and tries to see him at least once a year

⁃ he studies psychology and loves it , loves school , becomes a counselling psychologist specifically for those with ptsd ( but also has the right requisites for like psychiatry cos he took bio or whatever life sci requisite u need idk ) 

⁃ ok bare with me cos im not even sure on the details, but in the span of him first meeting his pops and now , dad ends up in jail ( he owed money to the savages, so did a job to pay it off which included a home invasion with several other ppl in which one person died, even tho he wasn’t the one who shot him , he took the fall cos he was pretty expendable considering he wasn’t actually part of the gang ) , ethan offers to help with costs of legal advice and his sentence is reduced to like ten years

⁃ n his dad is like hey im out ! come chill xd and ethan’s like ok !! and he comes and it turns out his dad’s been out of jail for like six months and has already amounted a debt against him so he’s doing jobs for the savages again ? and is like lol wanna help ,, , and a 35 year old ethan still vying for his father’s acceptance is like ok .. . ig

⁃ so he delivers some drugs ( his dad comes up with some bs excuse like the ppl he’s meant to deliver to will recognize him n beat him up or something ) but apparently it was the savages set up to kill his pops 1) b/c he’s a general nuisance and 2) so he wouldn’t speak out against them regarding the home invasion as he’d been trying to get outside law help to prove his innocence even tho it never amounted to anything

⁃ so instead ethan gets brutally beat up instead and nearly killedt until the assassin or whoever is like .. . im p sure the target’s meant to be older ghjfkfgh ( this wouldn’t be like assassin incompetence they were prolly just told kill the guy who shows up with the drugs xoxo ) the ptsd is NOT thriving ... 

⁃ as soon as he’s out of the hospital ethan goes stupidly all high and mighty to the savages hq being like wtf is up kyle , and they’re basically like,  if u wanna protect ur dad u gon have to stick around in valdez and mr. deadbeat dad over this is putting on the puppy eyes like pls dont let me die lol and reluctantly he’s like aight fam i got u

⁃ SO NOW HIS DAD’S JUST LIKE A 60 YEAR OLD SOD deadbeating around valdez basically trapping him and which rly shows his father’s true colours ( also did he kno that ethan cld’ve gotten killed .. maybe so ) and yet the amount of reverence ethan still holds for him is .. Crackhead level

⁃ honestly it’s been ten years and doesn’t know if the threat still stands but valdez has kinda been ingrained in him at this point and although he wants to leave he can’t bring himself to , it’s also why he doesn’t switch to the cobras even though he has plenty reason to  - feeling like participation in the feud would only ensnare him more

CONNECTIONS

crack open a cold one : he loves beer okay .. let him crack open a cold one with the boys . that’s it , that’s the connection .

person who tried to assassinate him : he probably hates him ! still has nightmares about that night , so thanks for that ! wld be a rly cool connection to take up , and just wanna emphasize that whoever higher up probably just told the assassin to kill the person who showed up with the drugs so /technically/ it’s not their fault, but it is THEIR FAULT that they’re a frikken murderer ! all my charas a cowards , we been knew .

person who killed someone in the home invasion thingy resulting in his father going to jail : ethan probably hates this person too ! he has a lot of hate to go around .

hook-up : he’s 45 , not dead … though he’s not the biggest age gap stan , again , he’s a COWARD .

ex from before valdez : he probably lost contact with everyone when he came to valdez , sad , idk how this one would work honestly, but if they’re not from valdez hmu we can figure something out and hc !

ex in general : can healthy relationships exist in valdez ? exactly . someone who tries to convert him to cobra-hood omg : i mean he has a lot of reason to but just never bit the bullet idk !

therapy, bitch ! : come talk to him , let him counsel u uwu , need an unbiased ear ? he’s ur man !

FRANCES !

law clerk or crooked cop : this is kinda integral to her plot, basically the person who made sure she didn’t go to jail when she accidentally killed her father , i feel like frances would feel super indebted to them , but also hold the slightest bit of resentment towards them because she feels as though she deserves to go to jail .

college friend : if there are any students in this hizzy house , hmu ! someone she partied with in the brief time she was in college , and then also someone who introduced her to the clubs . can be the same person or someone else , but also someone she loves dancing with . also someone she can be a nerd with and like rent out a space or come to the club when it’s not open and learn dumb dance routines like the one from riverdale dhjfgf , I JUST REALLY WANT HER TO LEARN THE DANCE OK !

friend who comes over to dinner : listen her grandma worries abt her a lot ok and is always like do u even have friends lmao, so GIMME SOMEONE who comes over to dinner and says yes when gma offers a second serving and quells her grandma’s worries about frances .

BOBBY !

childhood friends : okay consider this, listen to sticks ’n’ stones by jamie t , and give me a friendship based on that ? basically kids who just got into a bunch of shit together ,  mostly this iconic lyric : and rushed back to your momma’s flat , it’s the only place but home i feel relaxed enough to crap , i know it sounds crude , but there’s something to that . since bobby was basically jesus of suburbia , it’d be cool if the friend was probably like had some connection to the trouble ja feel .

fellow movie buff : god this’d be so pretentious i hate it already, but gimme someone who also nuts over old film , and criticizes blockbusters or in opposition someone who argues for the validity of marvel movies shdfjdf - it’s jus a fun dynamic , movie night , CUDDLING , POPCORN ! getting blasted and watching requiem for a dream , then going on a bad trip because they got blasted and watched requiem for a dream fhgdf

drug dealer : a man likes his drugs , we been knew . pretty basic . but ! uk what would be cool , if the drug dealer was older / same age as him and it was the dealer who got him into the gang , uwu solidarity ! i figured they had like a brief romance , remained good friends idk , we could figure it out . but if not , just regular drug dealer . he’s like hit me with the good stuff , he’ll take anything he’s not picky , just an addict .

[kpopsshipsposts-blog]

Hello again (lmao sorry if your getting annoyed from all the request) but can I please have a ship with pentagon and monsta x? Black curly hair, brown eyes, dark skin, chubby cheeks, curvy body, 4'8 and I wear glasses. I am multilingual, I currently know 2 languages fluently and is learning 3 New ones now. my hobbies are editing, making aesthetic collages. I love to do photography, listening to music and sleeping. At first I'm shy quiet and awkward but as soon as you get to know me..... I would describe myself as 4D still is socially awkward, nice caring, understanding, supportive and calm, clumsy. I love smiling and laughing! Which is what I do most of the time. My friends say I have a cute laugh ( Idk why it sounds like I'm hiccuping😂😕). I can be mean, blunt sarcastic and sassy sometimes but I'm just joking around. I am a dirty minded person 😂 (just a little). I do cuss/curse alot I try not to but its hard. For me in SOME situations I cannot say no cuz I'm too nice. I love sweets and I eat them alot too. I will say the most randomest things, ask the most randomest questions and just do the most randomest things at any given time. I really love horror stuff and anything related to horror ( especially Paranormal Activity) but I'm a huge scaredy cat 😂😅. When I listen to music I kind of sing along with the song. My dreams someday would be a photographer, therapist or a singer. My favorite color is black, gold and purple. My favorite season is autumn and winter. I really love rainy days. I am scared of frogs ( past experience) birds, dogs, dead animals, graveyards, Heights, deep water, small gross bathroom stalls. When I'm listening to music I also like to write lyrics to the song I'm inspired by and listening to. I don't like reading or writing that much but when I do write ( like a story or an essay) people/ teacher compliments how nicely worded it is ( does that make sense? Idek😂). I love babies! They're just so cute but I do not like to deal with them when they're upset or when I have to change their diaper (EWWW!😷😷). I act childish sometimes and I whine alot. I love amusement park rides they just so thrilling and fun! This is really weird but I love taking an early morning walk ( like 6 or 7 AM)while listening to music one of my favorite things to do. Not really important but I'm a picky eater I will always refuse to eat vegetables ( except for sweet corn) I am struggling with self-love and social anxiety and so when I get complimented about my appearance or my work I'm very in denial of it. When people/ my friends are upset or sad I always hug and comfort them. I am a listener and we'll listen to anybody's issue or problem without judging. I am sensitive and cry a lot but I don't let other people see that. I also LOVE showing affection/ skinship to my friends but if they're not comfortable with that ill stop. Same goes with me hitting them (lmao I know it sounds bad but let me explain) so in general I hit my friends playfully ( according to them its aggressively) I hit them on the shoulder, the back of their heads ECT. My friends (I know I start with that sentence a lot but I don't know who I am yet so.....) they say I'm also very fun to be around with (sometimes). I'm Ambiverted. Lastly my friends say I'm kind of the mom of the group (KIND OF!). Sorry if it's a lot! Thank you so much if you actually decide to answer this I love your blog so much keep being you, stay healthy and happy hun!💓

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Hi sweetheart! No problem! Thank you for liking this blog ♡ @ilikekpopdealwithitbish here are your ships!

Pentagon:

Kino

This child... Get ready for his aegyo and silliness. he laughs a lot, and looks like he enjoys laughing. He's a bit of a big baby so be careful with how you use your sarcasm around him 😂 seeing as though he's one of the maknaes he really does take on that role. He pouts a lot and doesn't like being teased. He'd love to do aegyo to you to try to get you to give in easily to what he wants. he'd love to bring home sweets and you guys can just chillax and watch movies together. For dates, maybe... A walk anywhere. Maybe go to a football game sometime?

Monsta x:

IM

Ay, this kid too. He'd love that you can make dirty minded jokes because he's a little bit of a dirty person himself 😂 he'd hate to see you cry or be upset because of anything. When you feel insecure or anxious he'd definitely be there to help you over come your thoughts. He'd be a sweet caring bf. For dates, movies or bowling sounds fun ♡

I hope you like your ships!

[mystarmyangel]

[FULL TRANS] YoonA - Instyle November 2017 Interview

For the Happy Ending that never ends. Just a movement from her is sufficient to claim the top article on the portal site. Expressions like ‘Every day is the peak’ are constantly stick to her articles. Becoming the magazine cover model this dream-like job, she has been doing this consecutively for several years just like it is an annual event.  The King (Queen) among the flowers, the fierce competition among the blooming flowers, the 10 years where flowers bloomed and wilted, it is not an easy feat to secure a spot. After the drama ‘The King In Love’ ended, I met up with Im YoonA who is busier than ever. She who spoke with the warmest expression in the world, looking at the bulging belly of a staff who is due to give birth in a month. The appearance of how she turned back alone, bowing her head to bid goodbye while everyone else were busy packing to leave the place after the shoot.... These seemly small and trivial yet warm gestures left by Im YoonA are able to linger in one’s memory for a long time.  Her birth flower is Lilac. In the language of flowers, lilacs symbolize first love, memories of youth. Just like first love, girl group SNSD has won more than 100 awards over the past 10 years, and she who has already rose to the top position is currently getting to know the essence of acting.  Director of the movie ‘Confidential Assignment’ Kim Sung Hoon has referred to YoonA “a gemstone, but I saw her potential”.  This potential is proven by the fact that she is nominated for best newcomer award for both Baeksang Arts Awards and Daejong Film Awards. Revolving around SNSD this glittering track, and once again meeting with this world named Im YoonA.  Im YoonA is currently walking towards an even bigger universe of hers.

Your Hanja name is 潤 (윤) for Moist/rich and 娥 (아) for pretty, your birth flower is Lilac... you probably are tired of hearing of this but I have to say, things that are related to YoonA are all pretty stuffs. This is the first time I am hearing that my birth flower is Lilac. It feels amazing because it happens to be the flowers that I like too

Gemini people are sociable. Yes. I am able to mix well with everybody.

Although it may sound a little forceful to determine one’s personality from blood type, just like the movie ‘The B-type man’ (T/l note: I think this is referring to the movie My Boyfriend is Type B), B-type women are really full of charms. Are you referring to sweet pumpkin (slang for ‘being firm and resolute’) kind of personality? (Laughs) If just looking at the blood type, majority of people’s reaction are surprised, their first impression of me is that I am A or O blood type, but once people known me deeper, they will realized that I really seem like one of B blood type. According to my mood, I am clear of what I like and dislike.  Even though I am a ‘Dap jeong nyeo’ (slang for ‘a woman who already has a decision, one who only hears the answer that she wants), but I am actually often swayed by others’ opinions.

How does it feels like living as YoonA, for at least 360 out of 365 days, I am curious of the life of a pretty person. The staffs often tell me “I want to try to be YoonA even for just a day”, whenever this happens, I will always reply with ‘what are you saying’ and laughed. It definitely feels good listening to such words, but because I am Im YoonA myself so I really doesn’t know how I should respond.

Sometimes I will receive photos and texts from friends asking, “What do you think of this style”, and few days ago I received a photo of YoonA in short hair. You are really the envy of girls of the same age. As for myself being the envy of others, even up till now I still feel it is really fascinating. I cut my hair because my hair was really damaged and I am left with no other choices.

I saw your photos from your vacation, it seem like you can’t get enough of it. Because I took a lot of photos and I am constantly arranging them. There is still a lot of it.

In the photos you are constantly holding on to camera, what are the main things you shoot? The main thing I took is scenery and my unnie took photos of me. I can’t imagine travelling by myself, every time I had a break I will go travelling with my family. This time I went to Vienna, Budapest, Prague and Salzburg. I immersed myself in the fairytale-like scenery, and recharged myself fully.

I am curious of your travel style. Compared to rushing here and there, I will first finalize the places of attraction I want to go, and then I will go for sightseeing leisurely, I will give myself appropriate time to rest. With a laidback mindset of “it’s okay if I don’t have the time for it”, I am able to strike a balance between sightseeing and resting.

Seem like your personality is really easygoing, you released ‘When The Wind Blows’ a few weeks ago which is also the first time you participated in lyrics writing.  I read everyone reactions and I also read the post written by the MV director saying “If there is an Olympic for personality, YoonA will be a gold medalist.” It was me who told my company that I want to work with director Lee Rae Kyung. I am the type that is easily influenced by the atmosphere at the set, so I thought that it is very important to be able to be connected emotionally. In order for me to grasp the feels, the director played several songs at the filming set. I kept telling the director that these songs are songs that I personally like too, I didn’t expect him to look at me in such a (favourable) way. (Laughs)

During today’s shooting, which moment did you feel connected? The outdoor shooting scene where I wore the wine red jacket, sticking my face to the wall, I think those are all close-up shoots. I do not have any thoughts like “I should have this kind of facial expression”. It is just that when I am immersed in such atmosphere, my expressions and poses came out naturally. It is a feeling that is understood without being told but the bigger credits goes to the photographer who captured such look.

You have released 62 albums, songs totaled up to 331, 1 movie, 8 drama series. These are what popped out when I searched ‘Im YoonA’ on the internet, your projects over the past 10 years. What is your first feeling when you saw these numbers? I have not done a count together with my recent works; but just by looking at the numbers my first thought is “Wow really?” “This is amazing”.

Even though they are just numbers, but these are the results you have accumulated continuously over the past 10 years. It is really incredible. It has indeed been hectic, I didn’t have excess time to enjoy a life women should enjoy, so I didn’t really have any thing I wanted to do in particular. Neither do I have the energy to do my personal stuffs. However recently I have come to realize the importance of adding value to myself, I am slowly beginning to do the things that I want to do.

In order to add value to yourself, what have you been doing? Doing nothing at home, or go exercising, to a skin clinic or a manicure shop. Because I have got by like this, I am too used to busy lifestyle so I wasn’t able to get used to having a break. When you give me time to rest, I do not know what I should do neither do I know how I should rest. I felt that I should do constructive things. To me, resting is a matter that I need practice; I am still working hard on it.

Perhaps it is because of this, you look even more relaxed and natural now. Ahh that’s great.

Staff(s) that have been paying attention to YoonA since a long time ago said that since your debut, you have already know how to take care and being considerate towards others. In order to feel composed and less nervous, I will often give myself self-encouragement. I really feel at ease a lot lately, I don’t get panicked or frustrated, and I feel relaxed a lot too. This 10 years really give me a calming heart.

In the past one year, you have consecutively took on 3 projects: drama ‘The K2’, movie ‘Confidential Assignment and drama ‘The King In Love’. You also have to take care of SNSD’s 6th album activities. It must be tough both mentally and physically. In actual fact, I had a blank period of 2 to 3 years in Korea, and I feel the thirst towards projects during that period. This yearning eliminates my fear of taking up new roles. Ah, Anna in ‘The K2’ has a totally different personality from mine, I was once very worried but it seem like the reactions I gotten are surprisedly well so I gotten courage and motivation for my next work.

After ‘The King In Love’ ended, you unexpectedly had a lot of press interviews; everyday has been hectic for you. It seem like you have a lot of sentimental attachment to the drama. No matter what I will always hope for a good ending. I think that it is the best to wrap up any project with post-project interviews, to put a closure with a sincere heart. Not only am I able to express things that I was unable to say back then, on the other hand I am also curious of audience’s reaction. This is also an indirect way where I can interact with my fans.

‘9 Ends 2 Outs’ which aired in 2007 was your debut work. What is the kind of hearty homerun that you anticipate in your life? I don’t ask for others, but I hope to be able to meet with a project that I can display fully 100% Im YoonA. Right now I am still not sure what kind of roles suit me, my past roles are roles that do not have a job, so fans really look forward to me in a role with a profession. There are also fans hoping that I will act as a rich girl, one who is mean and picky, and owns everything except a good personality.

Among all the things surrounding YoonA, I realized that you understand your fans really well. Do you realize you are a ‘fans-mania’ (someone who has fans in her heart) When I held a birthday party with fans, fans said they wish to see Ooh La-la stage performance, a song that was in our first studio album. I made a promise with them that I will fight for it to come true. While preparing for the song list for SNSD’s 10th year debut anniversary. I insisted that regardless of what we have to include this song. Because this song is more towards the cutesy side, so members feel embarrassed of it. I insisted saying that this will be fun, and in the end it got finalized.

You are a hidden charity angel, I heard that you are the first girl group member to join the ‘Honor society’, you have been consistently involved in charity works from debut till now. This is thanks to my family that I began this. My birthday this year, fans donated a sum of 19900530 won which reflected my exact birthday. I am really thankful that fans are able to do good deeds together with me; I have to work even harder.

Fans who are enthusiastically supporting you have also gradually increased, your sense of responsibility must also have increased with increasing influence right. I put down the weight, and walk side by side with fans; this is my mentality right now. In the time we spent together, growing up together with everyone, I feel very at ease.

Lately, has there been any work that leaves an impact on you? I am currently reading a book called “아무것도 아닌 지금은 없다” (Literally translated as 'The Present Cannot Be Meaningless') and I received a lot of comfort from it. I am learning how to think from a different perspective, and when I was at It, I realized that never once did I tell myself things like ‘you have worked hard’. I am not the kind that will talk to myself (Laughs). I started reading this book when drama ‘The King In Love’ ended, and for the first time I told myself that I have worked hard. (Book: Link)

You seem to be a gentle person, so it is a little surprising. I am someone who is very harsh on myself, no matter what I am learning I always find myself lacking, I wanted to do everything well, so often people told me that I am a perfectionist.

I thought that you are someone who only walk on flowery paths, I heard that you are the member that was the longest as a trainee, and before your debut you even auditioned for over a 100 times. Movies, dramas and CFs indeed do added up to more than 100 times; it set a very good foundation for me. Before, I got really shy when I stood in front of the public, but I have become a lot more confident since then.

Since elementary school, it is really incredible how you persisted over more than 5 years as a trainee Perhaps it is because I didn’t understand much back then, and it is things that I like so I work hard unconditionally for it. Even though it was tough but because I am doing things that I love so I feel happy. However if it is right now then perhaps I won’t do it anymore. (Laughs)

If you ever thought of an ordinary life, what would you like to do? I want to go travelling freely. Because of my schedules I get to go to a lot of countries but I have to head back once my schedules ended so I didn’t have much time to travel leisurely.

2 years ago today, can you still remember what you were doing then? That time I think I set up my Instagram account.

However your following has already reach 7.09million now, do you still remember what you were doing in September 2016? I was filming ‘The K2’. From there I realized the joy of acting.

So what kind of memories do you have for September 2017? Cutting short hair for the first time in 8 years? (Laughs)

Can ‘Im-Ballads’ recommended some music that you enjoy lately, if I listen to songs, I will be reminded of YoonA in this autumn. I like indie band Jannabi’s songs, and also Yoon Hyun Sang’s ‘I, You’ Song: Link

Cr: Chinese Trans by 小挚&佳佳​&YOONAYACOM​​​​ Eng Trans: mystarmyangel

[themeltedheadaches]

ALL THE ASKS DO IT unless ur too busy #collegelife love u ❤❤❤❤

LOVE U BOO never too busy for u (also using this to procrastinate on my french composition so)

1: when you have cereal, do you have more milk than cereal or more cereal than milk?

i eat my cereal………………….dry…………..

2: do you like the feeling of cold air on your cheeks on a wintery day?

YES that’s literally my life now. i love it but also my nose was running today all the way to get coffee in downtown. i was in THREE LAYERS it is not even DECEMBER

3: what random objects do you use to bookmark your books?

answered! :)

4: how do you take your coffee/tea?

if i’m going to be a bitch and just get plain coffee, i’m gonna get it black bc otherwise i’ll just have a white mocha or a cappuccino or something (the ppl at the campus coffeeshop know who i am. they know my order. “one sin-ful latte coming up!” thank u for fueling my Addition.) i take my tea with milk and sugar if it’s black tea ((earl gray)) or with honey if it’s green tea. if it’s white tea i’ll sometimes have it with sugar, and if it’s something like peppermint or lavender or chamomile i’ll just have it plain. IM A PICKY BITCH

5: are you self-conscious of your smile?

i used to be! but now i like it. 

6: do you keep plants?

YES pls pray for them

7: do you name your plants?

answered! :)

8: what artistic medium do you use to express your feelings?

poetry! i like to watercolor too, actually, though i left them at home :(

9: do you like singing/humming to yourself?

YES i miss my car bc that’s when i would have Prime Time to sing and hum to myself or along to whatever song i live for at the moment. (i’m into a musical rn and i can’t yell the lyrics out i’m so ANnoyed Always)

10: do you sleep on your back, side, or stomach?

answered!

11: what’s an inner joke you have with your friends?

i have fucking countless at home……. at college there are quite a few too! as in: “hypothetically, vodka?,” “fuckinG,,,WHAT,” “[blow twice] [slurp sound] [tongue click] noice.,” “SHPEAKERSH OHN!,” “over there! like, over there? over there. over there?,” “just going to go kick some nutria,” and of course, the classic, “same, but jewish.” 

12: what’s your favorite planet?

URANUS actually tho it’s uranus. i had to do my planet project on it in the 4th grade and i gave my brother AND mother silent treatment for two days bc they laughed at its name. i’m very protective

13: what’s something that made you smile today?

i saw my favorite puppy on campus again today!! he’s grown so much!! also my poetry professor’s wife had a successful surgery! #GoMeredith 

14: if you were to live with your best friend in an old flat in a big city, what would it look like?

SO MESSY………………….listen. @michelle i’ve seen ur room, and i would just accept that that is how we live now and it’s fine. it would also be aesthetic as fuck tho tbh. full of yarn and animal fur. and books. and junk food #RIFP

15: go google a weird space fact and tell us what it is!

if saturn’s rings were a meter long, they would be 10000 times thinner than a razorblade! what the fuckkkkkkkkkkk

16: what’s your favorite pasta dish?

UHHHHH fucking;;;;;;;;what how am i supposed to #represent my italian fmaily with this DISGUSTING question,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, jk i fuckig love risotto, just ur basic bitch peas and cheese risotto and i’ll cry. also?? gnocchi!! holy shiiiiiiiit. 

17: what color do you really want to dye your hair?

my hair has such good color i’d actually rather shave it all off than dye it :/

18: tell us about something dumb/funny you did that has since gone down in history between you and your friends and is always brought up.

HHHHHHHH yesterday. LITERALLY yesterday. there was a french club meeting that served cheese and bread! so i took my Good Friend WIliam (who is not in french, unlike me), and we walk into the room, and i say “helLO!” bc that’s good manners, when you’re going to just get food and leave, and it’s dead silent. i get food and leave. william has told everyone in our entire hall twice.

19: do you keep a journal? what do you write/draw/ in it?

answered!

20: what’s your favorite eye color?

i’m so biased……….but……..brown………..

21: talk about your favorite bag, the one that’s been to hell and back with you and that you love to pieces.

my brown leather one! it’s actually super fake leather and i got it from target!! but it’s cute and small and somehow fits everything i need to put in it, including 3 beers and my wallet and 2 phones last weekend. i’ve had for 4 years now 

22: are you a morning person?

yes! i like waking up early actually 

23: what’s your favorite thing to do on lazy days where you have 0 obligations?

go on youtube and waste time, or walk around campus/downtown with friends, or shop!

24: is there someone out there you would trust with every single one of your secrets?

yes

25: what’s the weirdest place you’ve ever broken into?

my cousin’s RV

26: what are the shoes you’ve had for forever and wear with every single outfit?

my brown leather boots! wow there’s a trend here lmao. actually i’ve had two pairs of these bc my first was falling apart?? i used them first in a cosplay……in the 7th grade………..(i was matt from death note and to this day i’m STILL not fucking ashamed, i had the wig and goggles and everything.) i love them and wear them all the time, they’re so comfy and warm and stylish and i feel like a hacker badass everytime i wear them. still to this day.

27: what’s your favorite bubblegum flavor?

bubblegum gives me hives i do Not enjoy it :(

28: sunrise or sunset?

sunset!

29: what’s something really cute that one of your friends does and is totally endearing?

one of my friends down the hall will call things/ppl “cute as pie” completely genuinely!! i love her!!

30: think of it: have you ever been truly scared?

oh yeah

31: what is your opinion of socks? do you like wearing weird socks? do you sleep with socks? do you confine yourself to white sock hell? really, just talk about socks.

i fucking love them thanks end of story. wearing them makes me feel cozy and put together and also atm my dorm floor is Disgusting. i sleep with them when it’s cold and my feet are dry! i have so many fun socks it’s great. i love them. socks are highly underrated.

32: tell us a story of something that happened to you after 3AM when you were with friends.

my friend and i were driving around evERYWHRE basically, we went from pasadena/san marino to like. hollywood all the way to beverly hills and back and it was wonderful, we stopped 3 times to chase stray cats, take shitty pictures, go to iHop, and almost died several times bc hE SNAPS AND DRIVES at NIGHT on LA FREEWAYS

33: what’s your fave pastry?

croissants, followed by scones, followed by coffeecake 

34: tell us about the stuffed animal you kept as a kid. what is it called? what does it look like? do you still keep it?

bunny the stuffed bunny! she’s pretty large, like as long as my torso! she’s white fabric with colored fluffy bits and very floppy, loose ears. she has green button eyes that i had my grandma sew on bc otherwise she actually scared me a bit when i was a kid, but i loved her anyway bc my great-grandmother sewed her for me in the first place. bunny still lives on my bed at home! 

35: do you like stationary and pretty pens and so on? do you use them often?

YES! i ddon’t use them very often though bc i feel like i should save them for something. rip me

36: which band’s sound would fit your mood right now?

stromae hands down

37: do you like keeping your room messy or clean?

clean….i’m so lazy tho

38: tell us about your pet peeves!

sudden loud noises, being startled, being touched physically when i don’t expect it, someone making assumptions about me, being dismissed, being told what i want or what i’m going to do, borrowing something of mine w/o telling me, being interrupted 

39: what color do you wear the most?

HONESTLY black bc i’m an emo bitch

40: think of a piece of jewelry you own: what’s it’s story? does it have any meaning to you?

one i’ve been wearing a lot is the fork ring i got from the portland saturday market! it’s literally the tines of a vintage fork separated from the part you hold, sanded down so it’s round, and looped into a ring shape. i fidget with it a lot and it reminds me of my mom and step-dad, bc i got it when i was with them. i wear it mostly everyday tbh

41: what’s the last book you remember really, really loving?

new american best friend by olivia gatwood in general, or thick as thieves by megan whalen turner when i re-read it out loud to my mom on the ride up to college

42: do you have a favorite coffee shop? describe it!

yeeeeeeS i have several! the bistro, which is on campus: it’s so comfortable, it has couches everywhere and board games and so many books and zines and the walls are half chalkboard so there’s always art or snark everywhere. the music is super eclectic (it was lorde yesterday, today when i went in it was old-school 90s rap), plus it’s student run so the coffee and pastries and food are SO GOOD. the archive, which is downtown, is really boujee as fuck but it’s SO COOL. it’s so fucking aesthetic, with brown leather stools and uncomfortable booths and vintage books and stuff everywhere. for half the day, it’s a coffeeshop, and after 7, it becomes a bar. then back home, of course, coffee bean and tea leaf is the classic

43: who was the last person you gazed at the stars with?

half my hall when we went star tripping at the start of the year!

44: when was the last time you remember feeling completely serene and at peace with everything?

honestly the last time it was genuine was probably around…….january? i was in so much emotional pain and grief, but i was surrounded by family who loved me and were in that same pain and were so happy i was with them to help and be there with them. i wasn’t serene per say, or at peace, but there was this equilibrium….

45: do you trust your instincts a lot?

yes!

46: tell us the worst pun you can think of.

my RA told me this one this morning: did you hear about the explosion in the cheese factory in france this morning? de-brie everywhere! 

47: what food do you think should be banned from the universe?

tomatoes 

48: what was your biggest fear as a kid? is it the same today?

spiders, YES

49: do you like buying CDs and records? what was the last one you bought?

i do…………………….. it was the soundtrack to romeo et juliette (2010)

50: what’s an odd thing you collect?

everything; stickers, pressed flowers, rocks, receipts 

51: think of a person. what song do you associate with them?

the easiest one is when i think of my roommate, davey the dog’s barking cover of “do the hustle”

52: what are your favorite memes of the year so far?

ew

53: have you ever watched the rocky horror picture show? heathers? beetlejuice? pulp fiction? what do you think of them?

no, yes, no, no, it was okay

54: who’s the last person you saw with a true look of sadness on their face?

ME, BITCH

55: what’s the most dramatic thing you’ve ever done to prove a point?

chugged an an entire pitcher of water to prove i could, three times

56: what are some things you find endearing in people?

genuineness! vulnerability! eye contact! fidgeting!

57: go listen to bohemian rhapsody. how did it make you feel? did you dramatically reenact the lyrics?

made me feel PUMPED, and of course i did

58: who’s the wine mom and who’s the vodka aunt in your group of friends? why?

i am both

59: what’s your favorite myth?

uHHHHHHHHHH i love the myth of beowulf actually bc i had to do a project on it once, i have a soft spot for it, i love all myths tho wtf

60: do you like poetry? what are some of your faves?

YES,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, recently some of my favorites are the entirety of a montage of a dream deferred by langston hughes, “totem sonnets” by sherman alexie, “on earth we’re briefly gorgeous” by ocean vuong, “one art” by elizabeth bishop

61: what’s the stupidest gift you’ve ever given? the stupidest one you’ve ever received?

stupid gifts are nonexistent :/

62: do you drink juice in the morning? which kind?

noooo

63: are you fussy about your books and music? do you keep them meticulously organized or kinda leave them be?

yes lmao…….i kinda leave them be but i don’t like it if i let someone borrow them and they trash them uGH

64: what color is the sky where you are right now?

Pitch Black

65: is there anyone you haven’t seen in a long time who you’d love to hang out with?

YES

66: what would your ideal flower crown look like?

morning glories, lavender, baby’s breath!

67: how do gloomy days where the sky is dark and the world is misty make you feel?

very good, thankfully, bc i am in oregon

68: what’s winter like where you live?

in LA, it’s cold and sweet and late and breathless and i adore it

69: what are your favorite board games?

jenga, clue, ??

70: have you ever used a ouija board?

NONONONONO

71: what’s your favorite kind of tea?

peppermint for mornings, earl gray for evenings!

72: are you a person who needs to note everything down or else you’ll forget it?

yes, sadly

73: what are some of your worst habits?

biting the skin around my fingers, bouncing my knees incessantly, procrastinating on my french compositions……

74: describe a good friend of yours without using their name or gendered pronouns.

well there’s this amazing person who i met in freshman year german…….;)

75: tell us about your pets!

i WISH

76: is there anything you should be doing right now but aren’t?

yes :(

77: pink or yellow lemonade?

pink of course

78: are you in the minion hateclub or fanclub?

i am the true hateclub: i don’t react. do not give them power. they Feed off of your Hatred

79: what’s one of the cutest things someone has ever done for you?

get me flowers, surprise me with chocolate, come up to me and compliment me on my writing, etc!!

80: what color are your bedroom walls? did you choose that color? if so, why?

at home my walls are a soft orangey-peach, which is picked bc i love it. here, my walls are very very white, which i did not pick, but am neutral towards.

81: describe one of your friend’s eyes using the most abstract imagery you can think of.

circuit-board chips busted open

82: are/were you good in school?

ehhhhhhh

83: what’s some of your favorite album art?

MELODRAMA

84: are you planning on getting tattoos? which ones?

yes! a minimalistic double-delight rose for my great-grandmother, “love ya!” in my grandpa’s handwriting, maybe a nutshell with a crown over it (for the “king of infinite space” bit in hamllet), possibly “soyez réaliste, demandez l’impossible!” (be realistic, demand the impossible!) from the french student revolution in the 60s

85: do you read comics? what are your faves?

somewhat, def hawkeye or the young avengers bc i’m basic :/

86: do you like concept albums? which ones?

the only one i’ve rlly ever listened to is fucking danger days, so i worship them obviously

87: what are some movies you think everyone should watch at least once in their lives?

i think ppl should make their own agendas :/ however, i have deeply loved secondhand lions, up, moonlight, the grand budapest hotel, and other basic bitch things

88: are there any artistic movements you particularly enjoy?

impressionism!! aaaaaaa!!! also just shove me in front of abstract art and i’ll fall for it!!! 

89: are you close to your parents?

so so so so close to my mom and step-dad, on okay terms with my dad

90: talk about your one of you favorite cities.

listen to me. I LOVE SEATTLE. art! fish market! weird side streets! mean street art! bitchy coffee!! neon everywhere!! a big fuckin needle in the sky!

91: where do you plan on traveling this year?

ITALY THIS SUMMER IM SO EXCITED i’m gonna meet all my mom’s friends from her semester abroad that she’s kept, i’m gonna see what she saw when she was my age, i’m gonna see where my dad’s family is from maybe if we go south???, i’m gonna see all the places and things she used to tell me about to get me to dream big and want to see the world and experience what’s out there!! aaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!

92: are you a person who drowns their pasta in cheese or a person who barely sprinkles a pinch?

depends on the pasta

93: what’s the hairstyle you wear the most?

down bc i’m fucking lazy and also inept when it comes to doing things with hair

94: who was the last person you know to have a birthday?

my friend across the hall from me, who is now 19 years of bitchiness!

95: what are your plans for this weekend?

stay in, study, maybe go to a kickback tho

96: do you install your computer updates really quickly or do you procrastinate on them a lot?

lol i put them off until my computer ceases to function altogether 

97: myer briggs type, zodiac sign, and hogwarts house?

zodiac obviously

98: when’s the last time you went hiking? did you enjoy it?

fucking…….summer?? i did!

99: list some songs that resonate to your soul whenever you hear them.

“feelings” by hayley kiyoko, “vacation town” by the front bottoms, “february” by beach bunny, “hard feelings/loveless” by lorde, “moon river” by henri mancini, “let me in” by flor, “a million miles away” by the plimsoles, “girls like me” by bonnie hayes, “love my way” by the psychedelic furs, the entire legend of zelda soundtrack, “place, je passe” from the mozart l’opera rock soundtrack, etc etc

[embersofstardust]

175-186? :)

IM SO SORRY I SAW THIS AND I WAS GONNA ANSWER IT BUT COMPLETELY FORGOTTTTT @leaving-the-past-behind

175- How often do you listen to music?

hahahahhahaha literally almost ALLL the time. I have to have it playing otherwise I can’t sleep, and no background noise drives me nuts. Unless I’m explicitly not allowed to/not able to, there’s music in the background or I have my earbuds in

176- What kind of music you like?

Is everything an option? It depends on my mood, really. Old metal, acapella disney, jpop covers, alternative pop/rock/etc, bluegrass/folk type stuff i think it’s called?, 50s style music, literally anything and everything

177- Do you like to dance?

not really? like, if I’m on my own or with close friends and singing along i’ll kinda move a little bit, mostly my hands, but outright dancing not too much? I’m too self concious lol

178- What was the first concert/show you attended?

First show I THINK was Shrek the Musical in 2008 I think???? I still have a picture of my brother holding up a gingy puppet while he still had his hugh forehead and dumbo ears lol. Concert was a Taylor Swift concert, but back when she was still country so a lonnnnggggg time ago lololol

179- Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?

If I’m thinking about it then probably? I don’t really hear songs and go “oh! this is this person!” it’s usually “Oh! This new song is something so and so would like!” and if so then no, bc I haven’t listened to anything new today :P

180- Share a song that takes you to a certain memory in the past:

oh goshhhhhhh ahahaha there’s so manyyy. For whatever reason Avril Lavigne’s Sk8r Boi comes to mind first????? but whatever lol no real exact memory there?it’s just the first I thought of that brings me back. an exact memory could be me teaching my brother the lyrics to Potential Breakup Song from Aly&AJ lol

181- A song that’s been stuck in your head:

One I just found, called I Do Adore from Mindy Gledhill. It’s really cute

182- Put your music player on shuffle and write the first ten songs that play:

(okay so apparently this is gonna be out of music I downloaded a while ago bc youtube wont shuffle my playlist of stuff I listen to regularly it’s being weird)

1) Clarity - KHS and Sam Tsui cover

2) I See Fire - Peter Hollens Acapella

3) Angel of Darkness - (??? i just downloaded the youtube video idk who sings it LOL GOD this is an OLD one for me i still like it though)

4) Every Breath You Take - Chase Holfelder minor key cover

5) End In Tragedy - Set it Off (ONE OF MY FAVES)

6) Weight of the World - Evanescence

7) Lost Cause - Imagine Dragons

8) Salvaged - NateWantsToBattle/Nathan Sharp

9) Save Yourself - Darkest Days

10) Pick Up The Phone - Falling in Reverse

183- A book you want to read/have recently read:

recently none unfortunately :( and idk what I want to read? I haven’t really heard of any good ones. I know there’s this one I saw being talked about here about the girl in the wheelchair who wants to be a hero but teams up with the villain, that sounds interesting

184- Describe your dream library:

Bell’s Library. Fucking HUUUUGEEEE and filled with fantasy, sci-fi, comics, manga, good dystopia that doesn’t focus on a freaking love triangle, etc

185- Last movie you just watched:

ummmmmmmm. I know I watched one really recently but I can’t remember???? gahhhhhhhh

186- Do you like watching what type of movies?

Usually kids movies lol ^^’ idk they’re fun and UP UNTIL RECENTLY DIDNT HAVE A TRAGIC DEATH IN EVERY SINGLE ONE im bitter but I also like fantasy and sci-fi movies sometimes but I’m kinda picky. there has to be a good story but not too slow, you know?

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BTOB’s Members Profile 2017: BTOB Facts; BTOB Ideal Type.

BTOB (비투비) consists of 7 members: Eunkwang, Minhyuk, Changsub, Hyunsik, Peniel, Ilhoon and Sungjae. They debuted on March 21, 2012, under CUBE Entertainement.

BTOB Fandom Name: Melody BTOB Official Fan Color: Slow Blue

BTOB Official Accounts: Twitter: @officialbtob Facebook: BTOBofficial Youtube: officialbtob Fan cafe: cube-btob

BTOB Members Profile:

Eunkwang Stage Name: Eunkwang (은광) Birth Name: Seo Eun Kwang Position: Main Vocalist, Leader Birthday: November 22, 1990 Zodiac sign: Sagittarius Height: 173 cm (5’8″) Weight: 62 kg (136 lbs) Blood type: A Specialties: Vocals, piano Twitter: @btob_sekwang Instagram: @btob_silver_light

Eunkwang facts: – He has a younger brother, named Eunchong. – His favorite color is blue. – He did a song with Yoo SungEun called “Love Virus” – He is the “father” of the group. – He is a picky eater. – If Eunkwang could trade places with one BTOB member, he would be Sungjae because he wants to breathe the air at 180cm. – He likes to listen to emotional songs. – Eunkwang doesn’t sound when he farts. He would pretend like he doesn’t know anything. XD – His good friend in BTOB is Minhyuk. – Eunkwang admits that he’s really not quick-witted. He doesn’t know to handle woman. – He went to all-male middle and high school. – Eunkwang is close to Changsub’s sister. – Changsub’s sister favorite member in BTOB is Eunkwang. – Eunkwang is good at cooking egg stew. – Eunkwang joined a tv show, ‘Lipstick Prince’ which premiered on 1st December 2016. – If Eunkwang was a girl, he would like to date Hyunsik. – Eunkwang’s Ideal Type: Someone with a kind heart, goes to church, has double eyelids, medium sized beautiful big eyes, thick lips, small waist, no height limitation, only loves me, long straight hair, likes it when she puts one side of her hair behind her ears.

Minhyuk Stage Name: Minhyuk (민혁) Birth Name: Lee Min Hyuk Position: Lead Rapper, Lead Dancer, Vocalist, Visual Birthday: November 29, 1990 Zodiac sign: Sagittarius Height: 173 cm (5’8″) Weight: 61 kg (134 lbs) Blood type: A Specialties: Writing lyrics, composing music, rap making, exercising, acrobatics Instagram: @hutazone Twitter: @btob2mh

Minhyuk facts: – He has an older brother, named Jungmin. – Favorite color: black, white – Minhyuk is the “mother” of the group. – He was a cast member of the second season of The Romantic & Idol – Minhyuk likes to be in a romantic situation. – Minhyuk’s friends call him the ‘Holiday Star’ because they said he get attention during the holidays. – During college, Minhyuk participated in cross dressing competition twice. – If Minhyuk got a casting offer from R-Rated movie, he would be interested to star in one. – Minhyuk didn’t mind taking his shirt off. – He is the role model when it comes to cleaning. – Minhyuk actually wanted to become a soccer player. – Among the members, Minhyuk is the one who sweat a lot. – Minhyuk can watch horror movies well. – He has a puppy named Hamo. – Minhyuk is good at cooking fried rice and kimchi stew. – Minhyuk’s pants ripped once when performing “It’s Okay” and he was wearing red underwear at that time. – He barely played games. – Minhyuk starred in ‘A New Leaf’ as supporting role. – He starred in idol special of ‘Love & War 2’. – Minhyuk starred in ‘Sweet, Savage Family’. – Minhyuk also starred in a web-drama called ‘Nightmare Teacher’. – If Minhyuk was a girl, he would like to date Sungjae. – Minhyuk’s ideal type: Has cute smiley eyes, has a small face with a body proportion of 1:8, has complete self management, firm and elastic figure from exercising, occasionally revealing the expressions like a kitten or puppy, a well liked person who is kind, and knows how to aegyo, has clean and clear skin and neat teeth, someone who can watch ball games together, go to amusement parks together, go to famous tourist attractions for holiday, traveling on trains, to travel everywhere.

Changsub Stage Name: Changsub (창섭) Birth Name: Lee Chang Seob Position: Lead Vocalist Birthday: February 26, 1991 Zodiac sign: Pisces Height: 177 cm (5’10”) Weight: 64 kg (141 lbs) Blood type: O Specialties: Piano and Drums Instagram: @lee_cs_btob Twitter: @LeeCS_BTOB

Changsub facts: – He has a younger sister, named Jungeun. – His favorite color is black. – Changsub can’t resist sleep. – Changsub has a tattoo on his right shoulder, on his right forearm and on his right chest. – Changsub’s mother not allowed him to get more tattoo. – Changsub is good at cooking kimchi fried rice. – He was a skateboard athlete. – Changsub went to Howon University. – The member who listens to Eunkwang the most is Changsub. – Changsub really like to brush his teeth. – Changsub’s ideal type: Someone with a small egg shaped face, with long straight hair or wavy curls, wears sports shoes, height 165cm, s line, smiley eyes, someone who is more lively than me and thinks before acting, dont put on thick make up, milky white skin, someone who leads me on, someone who will go with me to busan’s haeundae to look at the sea and eat sashimi, to go to awesome place to have coffee together, eat pork soup with rice at night..

Hyunsik Stage Name: Hyunsik (현식) Birth Name: Im Hyun Sik Position: Main Dancer, Lead Vocalist Birthday: March 7, 1992 Zodiac sign: Pisces Height: 177 cm (5’10”) Weight: 66 kg (145 lbs) Blood Type: A Specialties: Vocal, Composition, Lyrics, Guitar, Piano Instagram: @imhyunsik Twitter: @BTOB_IMHYUNSIK

Hyunsik facts: – He has an older brother, named Yoonsik. – His favorite color is red. – Hobbies: singing, writing and composing music – Hyunsik has tattoos on his arm and behind his neck. – Hyunsik was popular among the girls ever since 4th grade elementary school. – He had a fancafe on some portal site around 3rd or 4th grade. – Hyunsik is good at cooking stir fried tuna with kimchi. – Hyunsik got a personal cooking lessons when he was younger. – Hyunsik is really active in composing songs most of the time. – Hyunsik’s father is a singer Im Jihoon. – Hyunsik has studied abroad in Shanghai for 2 years. – Hyunsik can hold liquor the best among the members. – If Hyunsik was a girl, he would like to date Sungjae. – Hyunsik’s ideal type: extraordinary, someone who is more special than i am, someone who is very adorable but will be very sexy when she is next to me, someone who is not too boring, someone who is willing to give but knows that she is lacking, a woman who complements me.

Peniel Stage Name: Peniel (프니엘) Birth Name: Shin Dong Geun Position: Rapper, Vocalist Birthday: March 10, 1993 Zodiac sign: Pisces Height: 175 cm (5’9″) Weight: 63 kg (139 lbs) Blood Type: AB Specialties: Acting, guitar Instagram: @btobpeniel Twitter: @PenielShin

Peniel facts: – He has an older sister, named Jennifer. – He is a former trainee under JYPE – He was born and raised in Chicago, Illinois, United States and speaks fluent English – Hobbies: listening to music – Peniel talks well with both male and female. – Peniel learned Korean curse words from Sungjae. – Peniel was the last member to join BTOB. – Peniel’s close friends during his trainee days are B.A.P’s Youngjae, EXID’s Junghwa and Bestie’s Haeryoung. – Peniel likes to take pictures of food before eating. – He doesn’t like acting cute. – Peniel sleeps naked. – He suffers from hair loses. That’s why he shaved his hair. – Peniel appeared in a tv show, ‘Hello Counselor’ once because he wanted to tell his fans the truth reason why he went bold. – If Peniel was a girl, he would date Sungjae. – Peniel’s ideal Type: A girl with a beautiful smile, must definitely not smoke. Hope she would be either pretty or adorable, someone who is positive, and able to fit in well.

Ilhoon Stage Name: Ilhoon (일훈) Birth Name: Jung Il Hoon Position: Main Rapper, Vocalist Birthday: October 4, 1994 Zodiac sign: Libra Height: 176 cm (5’9″) Weight: 64 kg (141 lbs) Blood Type: B Specialties: Rap, Writing lyrics, Composition Instagram: @ilhoonmj Twitter: @BTOB_ILL

Ilhoon facts: – He has an older sister, named JOO. – His hobby is shopping. – Ilhoon doen’t eat much, he don’t have an appetite. – Ilhoon is really good at sudden attack (games). – Ilhoon choose teleportation as a super power that he wants to have. – The member who troubled Eunkwang the most is Ilhoon. – Ilhoon don’t like cold weather. – He mentioned that he wants to touch Himchan’s butt. – Ilhoon hasn’t received any confessions from girls at his school. – Ilhoon was the one that came out with the name ‘Melody’ as the fandom’s name. – Ilhoon first love didn’t come true. – Ilhoon was warned of potentially being at risk of lung cancer on a tv show, ‘Vitamin’. – Ilhoon has tattoos on his chest saying “No one can be like God” and one on his arm. – Ilhoon’s armpit hair originally doesn’t grow. – He’s known for inventing and popularizing the gestures for “Gwiyomi Player”. – If Ilhoon was a girl, he would date himself. – Ilhoon’s ideal type: has long eyelashes, big eyes, s line figure, slender body, it doesnt matter if she is tall or short, has white skin, has brown colored pupils, it would be good if she has short bob hair

Sungjae Stage Name: Sungjae (성재) Birth Name: Yook Sung Jae Position: Lead Vocalist, Face of the Group, Maknae Birthday: May 2, 1995 Zodiac sign: Taurus Height: 180 cm (5’11”) Weight: 68 kg (149 lbs) Blood type: A Specialties: Vocals, snowboarding Instagram: @6_zalddow Twitter: @BTOB_6SJ

Sungjae facts: – He has an older sister, named Sungyoung. – His favorite colors are black and red. – His hobbies are snowboarding and shopping. – Kim Sohyun and Joy are someone who Sungjae wants to has as a younger sister. – Sungjae was dropped at the final round of a JYP open audition. – Sungjae hiccups when he eats spicy food. – There was a time where Sungjae was a yogurt addict. He had 16 cups a day. – Sungjae first met V from BTS at the toilet and they became close since then. – Sungjae doesn’t like showing his body. – Sungjae chooses Suzy as the female idol he wants to date. – Sungjae likes older women. – Sungjae filmed WGM with Joy from Red Velvet. – Sungjae starred in ‘Plus Nine Boys’ as Kang Min Gu. – Sungjae starred in ‘School 2015 : Who Are You’ as the second male lead, Gong Tae Kwang. – Sungjae starred in ‘The Village : Achiara’s Secret’ as the male lead, Park Woo Jae. – Sungjae starred in ‘Goblin’ as Yoo Deok Hwa. – If Sungjae was a girl, he would date Minhyuk. – Sungjae’s ideal type: Has droopy shaped big eyes , black and straight long hair, someone who is sexy but will show me her cute side, has a belly button which look good, slender figure and is glamorous, I want to put my arm around her waist and walk along the beach together, watch movie, eat…

[osamuniichann]

Tagged!

Tagged by @idoljiminie sorry for doing this so late, i’ve been crazy busy! but thank u!

Nickname: Trish

Star signs: Taurus! Earth sign, Venus; yep!

What I’m wearing right now: Maroon tank top, blue shorts. Im in my house clothes leave me alone--

Favourite quote:

“Look around, look around at how lucky we are to be alive right now.” - Eliza Schuyler in Hamilton. Idk it just reminds me that hey, breathe, take a look around, and calm down--everything’s okay

ALSO some honorable mentions, “Even when I fall and hurt myself, I keep running towards my dream” - BTS in Young Forever

“It’s alright even if you don’t have a dream. It’s possible not to have one. Just be happy” - Min Yoongi

Favourite food: oh boi ... this a hard question. i love seafood like calamari, garlic shrimp, crab, sushi?? oof. oh ya and definitely chicken wings like i live for that. i also love curry, hot pot, kbbq, etc. i honestly can eat anything i aint picky HAHA 

Favourite movie: The first thing that comes to mind was how in love I was with The Greatest Showman and its soundtrack! But I think it might be Spiderverse bc of the animation, the colors, the usage of comic forms, and idk Spiderman is my fave comic hero (other than the Flash)

Favourite song: Yall know I’m bout to wild out wit some bts songs LOL. I seriously love Pied Piper (that shits my JAM), Euphoria (I literally cry bc of how happy it makes me feel), Seesaw (i know the lyrics are sad but i just wanna dance to it at a family bbq wit a cute boi :c), Boy With Luv (idc what yall say, this is the best title track and im literally listening to it rn), HOME (the best song on the Persona album kldgjs), aaaand Ma City bc that shit wild af ooooof. I’m just goin off ljsdlgkjs

Favourite books: Oh definitely the mf Percy Jackson/Heroes of Olympus series. god i love all of the main cast + some sides. the diversity, the humor, the action, the character development--i love it. i deadass need it to be accurately adapted into an animated Netflix series or sumn honestly hhhh also s/o to Trials of Apollo, i’m not caught up yet but I appreciate u LOL

Language: ughgh sadly i only know English. But I took 3 years of Japanese in high school and 2 years of Ilokano in college. I can do like basic, conversational with those 2. i wish I could retain the languages especially since Ilokano is supposed to be my native tongue and Japanese is beautiful (and useful in my major/chosen field)

What I hate: The childhood bully that Taehyung mentioned in a vlive once just said sumn that made my blood boil. dude literally STILL looks down on him, if u dont get ur musty ass out of herE--

Random fact: Lānaʻi (a Hawaiian island) has a cat sanctuary! They have about 600 cats c:

Describe aesthetic: oh boi this is hard. idk i like pastel colors a lot so that could be one or hmm, I thinkkkk like a cool, autumn day with cozy sweaters and hot chocolate or coffee. or the muffled sound of light rain hitting the window of a dimly lit room that has fairy lights as quiet music plays. bro iono i just love coziness dassit

Other blogs: This is my only one! I just reblog literally whatever im into whether it be book series, funny shit, anime/manga/cartoon series im into, bts, etc. but i do have a main personal twitter and a side account dedicated to bts c: 

Hogwarts house: I took the Pottermore quiz and I’m definitely a Hufflepuff HAHA

Patronus: Apparently a mink?? Man, idek what that is so i don’t really got anything to say about it LMFAO 

Favourite characters: Sasaki Haise - Tokyo Ghoul re (literally just this version), Percy Jackson - pjo/hoo, Hawks - BNHA, Pink Diamond - Steven Universe, yee

Tagging @nubbybuns @fineassdorito @hobi-joonie You guys don’t gotta do this if you don’t want to ~ c: 

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Rules: Complete the survey and say who tagged you in the beginning. When you finished tag 5 people to do this survey. Have fun and enjoy!!! tagged by @cherrydrop (-: !!!! 

tagging @raindropsfallingup @uchihachiha @nachofather @thirdbomb @zoocosplay101 (if you want to ^^<3 ) 

1: Are you named after someone?

nope my mom just saw my name in a baby names book and liked it a lot 

2: When was the last time you cried?

today? I cry almost every day tho LOL

3: Do you like your handwriting?

I like the way it looks but it cramps up my elbow/wrist when I have to handwrite for long periods of time, or very fast 

4: What is your favorite lunch meat?

I fucking love spam (but hate pork otherwise?? idk whats up with me) 

5: Do you have kids?

no they are yucky 

6: If you were another person, would you be friends with you?

hell yeah! I have so much in common with me!! 

7: Do you use sarcasm?

ya especially with people I love (^: they get the best of it 

8: Do you still have your tonsils?

i believe I do 

9: Would you bungee jump?

nooooo, the fact that I have to rely on that rope freaks me out. I have no problem with heights, it’s that.....rope.......agh 

10: What is your favorite kind of cereal?

Love Crunch strawberry dark chocolate granola 

11: Do you untie your shoes when you take them off?

I can’t take them off otherwise loool ;_; (doc martens) 

12: Do you think you’re a strong person?

emotionally: no

physically: I can lift many things/people so i will take that as yes (LOL) 

13: What is your favorite ice cream flavor?

coffee <3 

14: What is the first thing you notice about people?

usually their lips, but sometimes it’s their hair 

15: Red or pink?

red but I like both 

16: What is the least favorite physical thing you like about yourself?

acne on my chest/back that still comes back sometimes, even after medication in highschool ): 

17: What color pants and shoes are you wearing now?

black leggings and no shoes because who the heck wears shoes in their room?? this is not the american south yo 

18: What was the last thing you ate?

thai coconut soup

19: What are you listening to right now?

lana del rey.......... its good for drawing 

20: If you were a crayon, what color would you be?

charcoal (im 2 edgy 4 u) 

21: Favorite smell?

sandalwood or peach 

22: Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone?

Junj <3 

23: Favorite sport to watch?

figure skating & swimming (fuck ice dancing tho that shit is scary) 

24: Hair color?

silver/grey/steel (i have no idea but something like that)

25: Eye color?

green 

26: Do you wear contacts?

nop only coloured plano for cosplay sometimes 

27: Favorite food to eat?

sashimi!!!!!!!! or pizza 

28: Scary movies or comedy?

scary movies 

29: Last movie you watched?

It was a short horror film titled “Dumplings” for class at school 

30: What color of shirt are you wearing?

dark grey 

31: Summer or winter?

i like both and then I get tired of both (-: i’m picky 

32: Hugs or kisses?

hugs <3 

33: What book are you currently reading?

魔の断片 (Fragments of Horror) by Ito Junji (thank u riko piko <3 ) 

34: Who do you miss right now?

Viola and I miss her every single day 

35: What is on your mousepad?

the overwatch logo lol (it’s the razer OW mousepad) 

36: What is the last TV program you watched?

That 70′s Show (while I eat bc it was just on netflix) 

37: What is the best sound?

that noise cats make when they go “mrrr?” when you touch them suddenly 

38: Rolling Stones or The Beatles?

lol neither i dont listen to them 

39: What is the furthest you have ever traveled?

thats a lil subjective I guess i mean.... Ive been to mexico and also Romania so idk both of those are kind of “far”? to where I am now? 

40: Do you have a special talent?

I’ve become a pro at crying (jk but I do happen to know the lyrics to technologic by daft punk and can still recite it from my head wtf ) 

41: Where were you born?

Quebec, im not french tho it was just where my parents were randomly at the time 

42: People you expect to participate in this survey?

anyone from up there who also loves to overshare on the internet (-: