#and im supposed to finish AND start commissions

[brokenrefraction]

today felt so long and yet it's only 2 pm

[catgirlkirigiri]

Iris my love... gotta have the girly secondary fursona. For gender time. Actually think she's being demoted to fursona number 3 but idk we'll see about the pecking order when refs are all done. She was waaay overdue for a redesign oh shit I just realized I didn't put a color palette on here. Oh well ig too late for that now I am not rearranging that bg

[quartergremlin]

we've been getting a lot of ai art in the office this week and yknow. i've really been enjoying watching chief give these people the runaround (unintentionally).

Neither chief nor boss can identify ai art. But Chief is the first person people talk to and she does know what I need to turn art into shirts. So some idiot will swan in with their rabbit with three mouths or whatever and chief will be genuine to them. "wow! that looks so nice!".

But the file is a jpeg. and it needs to be a vector image. so she sends them back "this will need to be turned into a different file type - an adobe file or an svg." and the ai bro will go "I don't know how to do that." and Chief will say, "oh just message the artist you commissioned! They'll be able to convert it easily :)"

and then it will take them three days to come back with an extremely suspect svg file that im sure they just fed through a file converter that I still won't be able to use - only when they shared it. they made it non-downloadable. (The file was downloadable the first time, so they went out of their way to do this.)

I tell Chief I cant use it if i cant download it and send back "You'll need to send it again. The file is view only :(" and she is extremely nice but also firm. it needs to be a functional vector file.

and the ai bro doesn't want to admit that it wasn't made by a person and he can't do that. So he's stuck at step 1 and now needs to wait even longer because I (the entirety of the graphic design department) am out of the office for like three days. And usually when someone flubs their file types on finished art I just recreate it. For simple stuff. Logos. But I'm really not supposed to. I'm being nice when I hand-draw a tree for the Johnson's annual family reunion. I usually have the time for it.

I don't have the time or shits to hand-draw out an extremely detailed fully-colored illustration for someone who started out this interaction by spitting in my face.

and even if he figures it out and gets something passable past Chief he'll still have to pay the art fee for me to unfuck it so it can be printed! And because it's finished art I'm not supposed to change anything. So I won't be expending time to make it look better. I'll be slapping five buttons to convert the thing, separate it out, and send it back out the same way it came in. Looking like a stupid mans Rorschach test.

So Boss gets what he wants (I stop spending time on art that wasn't formatted correctly) I get what I want (don't have to work with ai art) and uh. Chief has to do more back-and-forth sorry chief.

And i dont even need to expend time and energy teaching the people i work with how to identify this stuff. Because I know that would be a nightmare all on its own.

[theorphicforest]

i finished season 4 of the umbrella academy a few days ago, after re-watching my beloved season 2 i’ve come up with thinks i liked and disliked about the season

so here is my rant.

Liked/noticed:

- Both Brellie ben and Sparrow ben died Because of Jennifer. imagine no matter what timeline your in you die because of your heart, brellie ben wanted to save her and not blow her up, sparrow ben wanting to feel seen and belong to somthing/someone (i love brellie and sparrow ben so much ill rant about him later dw)

- LUTHERRR went from being a Luther disliked to a Luther lover- he’s so silly omg i can’t-

- KLAUS MY BELOVED (that’s it a just loved seeing klaus will rant about what i didn’t like soon)

- Jean & Gene- before you say anything. THEY MATCHED EACH OTHERS FREAKS SO WELL

(when will i find somone who match’s my freak they way they match each others?)

- KLAUS AND CLAIRE OMG MY BABYS I CANT- HES THE BEST UNCLE 😭

- DEIGO, I LOVE HIM SM I LOVED SEEING HIM BE A FAMILY MAN.

DISLIKES (THERE IS A LOT)

*ahem*

why did luther get his ape body back, its not connected to his powers at all. they just did it to make two bad jokes didn't they

HOW DID SHE GET IN THE SQUID

they said durango was supposed to be more powerful the all the brellie combined if she came in contact with them but all she did was turn into a fleshy blob monster?

how did five start the commission?

why didn’t reggie just kill jenifer inseatd of making an elaborate truman show around d her? we all know he would have no problem killing g her bc he already did in the brellie timeline

how could claire and grace and the twins still be alive when their parents never existed. that would've created another grandfather paradox according to this shows logic i guess not?

WHERE IS SLOANE? AND RAY? YOU EXPECT ME TO BELIVE THAT THE RAYMOND CHESTNUT WOUDL WALK OUT IN ALLISON? I THINK NOT! if the actor didn’t want to/couldn’t be in the show i understand but at least make a good reason.

when Five meets the other Fives in the diner he doesn't show any symptoms of Paradox Psychosis

Diego dies without saying goodbye to his children

Abigail's storyline made NO sense at all

WHY ARE THE ALIENS?

Klaus' new powers are shown for a second and then for the rest of the season he's basically reduced to a prostitute, ruining all the anticipation of seeing his true strength that has been building up since season 2 and he lost all of his self improvement

why in the hell was Lila shooting laser from her eyes? where did that power come from?

oh yeah! AND WHATS THE DEAL WITH LILA AND FIVE? IT HAD NOTHING TO SO WITH THE PLOT AT ALL

AND WHILE IM ON THIS TOPIC WHY DIDNT DEIGO STUTTER WHEN HE FOUND OUT?

AND HE SAID LILA HATED BRACELETS (and traded on he got her for a Dyson vacuum) BUT SHE KEPT THE ONE FORM THE ASYLUM AND WORE IT FOR THE WHOLE OF SEAOSN 2 (AND MAYBE 3?) MAYBE DEIGO JUST HAS BAD TASTE IN BUYING BRACLETS?

SOBIBNG

i will do i post on why i love ben and Klaus so much eventually:3

[n30ngutz]

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Eddsworld, gravity falls, osomatsu san, hazbin hotel/helluva boss, jojo’s bizarre adventure, psychonauts, cookie run kingdom, spooky month, lil and stitch, fairly odd parents (OLD AND NEW), welcome home, demon slayer, cult of the lamb, my hero academia, Cartoon Network IN GENERAL, Friday night funkin, good omens, arcane

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What About Requests?

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[tehriel]

Question! i just found you on A03 and i went to start your commission series but then i saw it supposed to be a trilogy and saw that it was published back in 2023 so uhhhhh im assuming its never going to be finished? if so is book 1 gonna leave on a cliff hanger? or do you plan on maybe picking it up again at some point? just a tad curious

I really got in my head about book two, where I wanted to go with it, and if it was good enough. I’m happy with the first book as a whole. It hits the right story beats in a way that I liked. It would need more editing to be cleaner but I’m happy as it is.

It ends with more story definitely, could be a cliffhanger-ish but it’s a complete story within itself. It’s just I’m in a place where i think the reader would probably come up with a better ending than me from what they have read, you know? Maybe that’s a confidence thing.

I got half way finished the second book and passion/confidence just left me. That first book was done in half a year because I had a story to get out and feelings to sort through and now I’m a bit blasé and so is the second book.

I think the only way to know if it’s worth reading for you is to give it some pages read, and if you like the tone I set, the journey might make it worth it being unended.

I do still poke the second book sometimes. So who knows, maybe I have a story yet.

That being said, if you want something that is not sad, and has an ending there is the Sodo one. Way more lighthearted that’s called ‘moth and flame.’ C:

[malleusmaleficent]

when i say i don't read fanfic i mean that i have maybe read 5 or so fanfics in recent memory, over the course of a few years, and that's including one shots

1. got like 20k words in a 40k killugon fic but i dropped it cause the author had nowhere to go with the story

2. got like 120k words into a 180k word killugon fic, i intend to finish/catch up with that one eventually (shout-out to wishing hunt) i only stopped cause it was the final push i needed to start making my own thing

3, 4 and 5 are all one shots whose specifics i mostly cannot remember

so i am extremely ignorant of the norms and culture in this sort of space lol, my success in it is entirely luck

i have *tried* to read more than 5 but that never amounted to much

i suppose i am both picky and also not very interested in the medium

i mean i like my own story but uh. the fanfic aspects of it are sort of secondary to me like im not very concerned with telling a story about these characters, merely telling a story *with* these characters

the only reason why i add in characters from the source material beyond killua and gon is honestly just me trying to placate people some ngl, though sometimes it works out like ive had a lot of fun w/ leorio

not to say i don't love my story, i absolutely do, im commissioning art for it for this reason 😭😭 merely to say that the reasons why i like it may be different from why the audience likes it

my time in this space has been fun though at least, even if i don't fit into it

[megamaster64-comms-open]

Oooooooh boy! It's unfinished art time!

Now, I just want to preface this with these pieces are unfinished for a reason...

A personal reason...

I'm not doing fnaf stuff anymore. It has been 8-9 years since I first started following the fnaf franchise. And I feel like I need to move on.

Not that I've 'matured' past it, but I've grown apart from it. As I got older, my relationship with the franchise just started to feel like a bad long-distance romance.

I can't feel for Fnaf the same way I did when I was a kid.

Especially after so much shit went down with people from my childhood in like the past 4-6 months.

This doesn't mean that I won't still follow and support the fnaf artists that I currently do (you guys are awesome, btw!). It just means that I myself will be taking a step back.

The last fnaf post I will make is a sun/moon redesign. And after that I'll be done, maybe for now, maybe forever. Who knows? But while some things are best left forgotten, I don't want to forget the time I had at Freddy's.

Because for all the blotches and blemishes, it was beautiful.

Anyways, it's art time! The first one was supposed to be a crossover piece between my aus FNaF: Ties that bind, Transformers: Armageddon, and FNaF: Extraordinary.

Each villian confronting a different Charlie in all three parts of the image.

@soniccrazygal 's take on the character would be looking at Tf: Armageddon Shockwave in his 'M.X.E.S' form as he invades the Pizzaplex's security system.

@nachosforfree 's Charlie would be evading the murderous version of herself in Fazbear Frights.

And @north-noire 's Charlie would be confronting FNaF: Extraordinary Carlton as his spirit piloted the creation.

Im sorry I couldn't finish these love letters to your aus. I just lost the motivation.

There's one last image related to ties that bind, and nachosforfree's au.

I didn't finish it for all the reasons above, plus I hate Sonic.exe. and in this au, Andrew was meant to take that role.

It was just a thought experiment, though, spooky Sonic is just kinda blase to me now. Unless the person is doing something cool and new with it.

(Yes, I know that ref sheet is outdated.)

Anyhow, like always!

✨️Reblogging is always appreciated, and my commissions are open! You can find more info about them in the pinned post on my profile!✨️

[sanchoyo]

Hiiiiii, it is I again!! I just finished Cold Love and gosh!

The ending was just so nice, mostly when I thought SHIGGY WAS DYING FOR A MOMENT- 😭 Then they were just being super sweet at the beach and I ngl cried a little, they all deserved that happiness <3 I also still wanna cry (In a good way tho) BECAUSE I FINISHED THE WHOLE THING I wanna write a little note to myself, next to my bed, erase my memories about these 2 fics, then wake up next morning, read the note and reread the whole thing with as much joy as the first time! I'm gonna reread them FOR SURE, but not now as they're still fresh in my brain :3

And you know, Cold Love has opened my mind more than it already was I mean I already love heroes and villains, but you've put a lot more details that made me go: "Shit, I didn't think it was THAT much"

The way you wrote how the hero commission treats heroes made me think of what my parents always tell me about Actors and Models. "Their lives/bodies don't belong to them, it belongs to the company they work for" That sentence hit me even more when the chapters were Hawks centered. Poor guy, he was a literal lab rat. The worst is that he ISN'T THE ONLY ONE GOING THROUGH THAT

Villains, I already sympathized with a lot, in other medias and MHA too But your fic made me realize that, when they do those crimes, it's for them but mostly for OTHERS as well!! They're like heroes, in a way, because they want to make society BETTER. They do this because they know how it feels to be rejected, hated and they want to change it so NO ONE ELSE has to go through this. Also, we often see them not caring about dying if they do achieve their goal, because they know next gens will have better lives than they ever had. WHICH I THINK IS HELLA SAD BUT SO NICE OF THEM???

Though I DON'T agree with them taking lives of course, but I don't hate them anyways because, when they've been rejected by everyone and everything, how else are they supposed to get attention? Very unfortunately, crimes is often their answer…

I think, if I was in MHA, I'd also opt for the Vigilante route. Fuck the hero commission lmao

I won't tell why, but let's just say that I'm more compassionate about villains now <3

ON A MUCH LIGHTER NOTE!! Fanart for Warm Healer is on the way!! So keep an eye open? :3

Fun fact for Cold Love: When Bret asked why Dabi was in the closet, I blurted out: "BECAUSE HE'S GAY!!" Lmao

So yeah, just wanted to say your fics are great! They've inspired me into improving my own fics <3 I even started making my own Shiggy x Reader AND a Dabi x Reader too! Because most of them are smut centered and I don't want just NSFW ya kno?

Anyways, I'm done rambling lol Thanks for writing WH and CL, thanks for inspiring me, thanks for bringing me joy and sorry for rambling that much lmao

Hope you're doing well, lots of love, take care and keep being awesome!!

thank you so much for such a long, sweet message 💗💗💗

I really enjoy bnha fics where the writers closely examine the society and its problems because its SO interesting (and im kind of sad the way it went in canon, I wanted a lot more and found the school setting kind of restricting for it in general, but we'll always have fics haha) i'm glad you enjoyed me doing that just a little bit! (maybe it was kind of weird to include in a romance SI series, but also it would've felt like a huge disservice in my opinion because ALL of the villains stories are influenced by the society they live in and how heroes are treated...)

aaah again, don't feel obligated to do the fanart but if you do, definitely tag me/send it my way, I'd love to see!! 🥺 (also you're writing your own shigaraki/reader and dabi/reader!!! omg!! I hope you have fun making your own!!! they're so fun to write <3 I agree on the wanting more SFW SI fics, sometimes I just wanna go on silly adventures with my favs y'know? :"))

no need to apologize for rambling!! I'm so happy to hear you enjoyed it so much!!! your message made my day ^_^ I hope you have a good day too and your writing/art projects go well!!

[herbalmutt]

How am I supposed to do or go anywhere in life bro hhhh

I’m so behind on schoolwork and it just started- my living situation and mental health conditions control my life- I don’t have a support system or any accommodation help because it’s online

I know I have so much to do but I just pull it up and stare at my screen for minutes and minutes on end before giving up and doing something else

Atleast I have a job but I only work 6 hour shifts- it’s about 52 bucks I get a shift how am I supposed to live on that- do anything at all actually

I’m sorry but if anyone donated to me for a commission I don’t think I can finish the rest there’s a handful of ppl just lmk and I’ll refund you asap im sorry

[montygatorguy]

all the question for the fic ask thing just all of them

this took ages but thanks for the ask dude :D

💖 Which of your fics is your pride and joy?

i love all my fics, but i think im most proud of look all around at the mountains you haven’t climbed

🎥 Pick a fic and I'll tell you the song I imagine playing during its movie trailer.

ill go with an easy one, terrible things would be terrible things by axie

📝 How many words do you have posted?

55,334

🤩 What's the most meaningful comment you've ever received?

either when i saw your (reggies) bookmark on my autistic may fic or the guest that commented a bunch on my alenoah sickfic

🔮What's your favorite plot twist you've ever written?

i don’t write that many, but bringing romeo back as a ghost in glass half empty was fun

👄 Your OTP are having their first kiss. What song do you imagine is playing?

i won’t use maycois here, imma use gweather from td. they remind me of good luck babe by chapelle roan so that

🎭What genre of writing comes easiest to you?

probably just fluff. it’s fun

🙊Your coworkers or classmates stumble across one of your fics, but don't know you're the author. Do you fess up? Or keep quiet?

my friends and my parents all know i write, but if one of my classmates said something i would probably stay quiet.

🙌What's a line or paragraph of yours that you're proud of?

“When you’re a superhero, no one thinks you can die. They think that with every injury, big or small, you’ll always get back up. But that’s a lie. Superheros, no matter how strong they may be, are still human. And for the first time since they were bitten, the police saw the two of them as such.” from chapter 1 of glass half empty

🦉Is there another author that helped inspire you to write?

a couple, maybeimamuppet, onthelasttrain, and flylikeajailbird. all really good writers that i read on my early days on ao3. also all of my insanely talented mutuals here <3

👶Fankids: How you do you feel about them? Would your OTP have kids?

may and frankie would make great parents and i could imagine them probably adopting :)

🐗How do you handle trolls?

never had to deal with any thankfully, probably would just ignore

🟥How long do you spend in edits?

not really that long tbh

🏡What is your perfect writing envrionment?

school, usually when im supposed to be doing something else lol

💪What motivates you to write?

its fun getting to share the ideas i have with others and seeing what they think

🚿Where do your best ideas seem to strike?

almost all of my fics started out as scenarios i would think of before bed.

🌠What are your top three most commonly used tags on AO3?

from the other tags catagory it’s alternate universe - high school, canon divergence, and modern setting

💻What do you write your stories on? Laptop, phone, paper, etc.

my chromebook from my school, but i started out writing all the way back in first grade where i wrote a story about a superhero fish (that was vaguely base off shark tale lmao)

🤔What are some words or phrases you find yourself overusing?

probably just finding different ways to have people express affection, idk

📕How do you feel about people printing your fics?

if any of you ever do this i will lose my mind /pos, please tag me (but give credit!)

🤷‍♀️What's a fic you didn't expect to be popular, but really took off?

my one singular fnaf sb fic. i don’t understand why it has 300 hits. i need to write a better one sometime

🍎What's something you learned while researching for a fic?

that APPARENTLY the canadian date format starts with the year. it was interesting

🥘What wip are you most excited about?

i hope sometime i get the motivation to finish terrible things because i have lots of ideas i just don’t wanna write them

🦗Do you write in sequence or jump around?

in sequence, but i usually plan things out first

👀 Would you ever accept requests or commissions?

maybe!

😱What's your greatest fear as a fanfic writer?

like you said, the actors reading my fics. that would be terrifying if i just woke up and checked my inbox and there was a comment from like. justin david sullivan. i don’t know what i would do.

☕Coffee or tea while you write?

i don’t like hot drinks. usually i just drink water

📈Which are your top three most popular fics by bookmarks?

throwdown (chase and mk sibling fic, 8) blaze (alenoah sickfic, 7) and haven (hg/ss lance and silver fic, 5)

🎬One of your fics gets turned into a TV series. Which one is it and what network is it on?

terrible things (let’s just pretend it’s finished) id love it to be a 2d animated show but im not sure on what network

🛌 What's a trope you haven't written, but want to?

oh god, i have no clue. maybe like a swap au thing or something with &j idk

🐸 If you incorporated your OTP into a Disney movie plot, which would it be?

the only movie i can associate with maycois or jumeo is moulin rouge tbh

👩‍🎓 Do you have an 'official' creative writing background such as a degree or previous experience publishing?

im just a high schooler with a chromebook, blorbos, and a dream

⏳If you could go back in time and tell your younger writer self something, what would it be?

that people won’t think you’re cringe or anything. people love your writing

💯 What rating do you write the most? Gen Audiences, Teen, Mature, or Explicit? How many fics at that rating do you have?

20 general, 8 teen. none for mature/explicit

😁What makes you happiest? New fic comments, kudos, bookmarks, user subscribers, story subscribers, or Tumblr asks?

comments or bookmark messages!

🐎 Would you ever do a medieval or pirate au?

maybe. i do love pirates.. yargh

👩‍🏫Pick a character and I'll tell you their favorite season and why.

ill pick may, they like spring. cause flowers :)

🎵Do you make playlists for your fics?

nope. i just listen to my fnaf playlist most of the time

🌷What's one of your fics that isn't as popular, but you hold dear?

holy shit, my vacation simulator fics. hats off to the one guy who commented on them, i love you

[lovelooksgudonu]

every masterpiece i have seen usually have tags from the artist like #i dont like this #could be better

when im here literally drowning in feels and the beauty of the said arts 😔 please. just letting you know. your arts? if i could eat them, i would

Oh, thank you, Anon. Instant serotonin boost! I suppose one of the reasons tags like that exist is bc of self-doubt. You know, sometimes I have this image in my head, with a specific art style I aim for, but when I start sketching, it just doesn’t look right. I can't seem to replicate the exact style I want as my skills aren’t quite there yet and it's depressing. It takes me forever to finish commissions too as I overthink everything. I'm concerned they won't meet expectations, but I'm glad someone appreciates my art enough to commission it. Omg, I sound so boring, well you asked for it, anon. This is why I don't often engage in conversations because I tend to be extremely honest. LOL

[yoonia]

13, 14, 15?

13. favorite writing song/artist/album of this year

I don't know. I switch around a lot. I mostly create different playlists for each fic I write. Lately, Limi has been added into my playlist a lot, and I've been listening to B.I more frequently while I'm writing.

14. a fic you didn't expect to write

I have at least two of them that I can think of haha. I mean, I do have a bunch of unplanned one-shots written and posted this year, but the two that came completely out of nowhere was The (Im)perfect Ending and Overdrive. Both of them were unplanned, and I had to move around my writing schedules and wips because I was afraid that I'd lose the ideas for both stories if I didn't write them down right away. For TIE especially, there is quite a backstory behind that story haha. I didn't even decide to have Namjoon as the main character or to release it as a fanfiction work because I simply started writing it as a simple short story that I wrote for myself.

15. something you learned this year

I learned that sometimes it's better to stop and move on to the next whenever I find myself getting stuck somewhere. Oftentimes, I become really slow in finishing a fic because when I get stuck in the middle of it, I would force myself to get through it and finish it anyway. Sometimes it works, but other times, I'll end up not being happy with the fic I was writing and the outcome, and letting myself being stuck at that one point and wasting my time in it only hindered me when I could be finishing more fics instead. I switched around between a couple of fics last month and then this December when I got stuck in a fic commission and now I have a few mostly finished fics to share in the near future. I still haven't finished the fic that was planning to post this week, but I'm starting to feel like I'm getting somewhere now another thing to learn is not to push myself too hard when it comes to writing. as a perfectionist, I often forget that this is supposed to be a fun hobby, not something that would drain my energy, emotions, and time to work on that I neglect the things that truly matter (like, for example, sleep lol)

talk to me: fanfic end of the year asks

[shingansoul]

cloudy drought hurricane volcanic eruption rainbow eclipse

Cloudy - What inspired you to start writing your WIP? (or in general)

My current WIP is a commission piece, but honestly it's something i would have written to some degree eventually anyways as it's an idea of characters i like a lot. (keeping it purposely vague until it's done and posted). I love the exploration of characters with skewed forms of love and skewed world views that make getting into the pace of their thought process something new and atypical, and my current muses are exceptionally such types of people.

Drought - What do you do to help with Writer's Block?

I don't get outright writer's block too often so much as just my creative outlet switches, so i suppose i'd get my ideas out in another medium to get that out of my system so i can come back to writing.

Hurricane - Do you often stick to one WIP and finish it, then move on, or do you bounce between WIPs?

I can't work on multiple things at once, full stop no exceptions. I can crank out 10-20k word pieces in a single go like a madman but i can't do multiple projects at once of any medium combination or i wont come back to whatever came first and im not able to redo ideas either i lose steam instantly for it.

Volcanic Eruption - What's your biggest flaw as a writer?

My thoughts tend to go faster than i can write them down, so a lot of the time my biggest writing mistake that comes up is i skip words in sentences entirely and i dont catch it right away. Like i'll just skip half a sentence or entire sentences back to back and 2 will get spliced together.

Rainbow - What do you think makes your story unique / stand out?

Mmm, that's a tough one. I'd suppose dialogue? I take a lot of pride in capturing the speech patterns of my muses and kinda base my writings on my confidence in doing so over how much i want to do an idea; dialogue to me makes or breaks a story since it's how the character express themselves. You can have amazing prose and descriptions but if the characters cant reflect the information and personalities you have informed me of on their own, i feel nothing.

Eclipse - What's the most common / reoccurring theme of your WIP(s)?

It's a genre in the fanfic space outright, but hurt/comfort i think still answers this best i think. I love writing scenes of comfort or finding solace in loss, it's admittedly really cathartic and tends to be for characters that never got that in their main sources or not in a way i feel was enough. I want them to hurt but not for the sake of suffering, but for the sake of leaning into those who love them and being able to go forward with those people.

I will say, though it crops up less in my overall works list, i love writing and exploring people's relationships with grief and death as concepts in unorthodox ways and i want to do so more. I did a few pieces in february for the trigun week that did so and i loved doing it so ive been trying to make more pieces since that do so as well like Wilted Flowers !

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[arenabreadandbiscuits]

Me rn because I accepted a writing commission that I will in fact finish but annoying me a bit because

1. My cycle decided to start so my mood is up and down

2. The story has been changed like three times right now (as of typing this...), mainly due to misunderstandings (most on my side I guess but my commission list LITERALLY has rules though after this commission I see I'll have to highlight things)

3. The story has a character that's supposed to be from a whole other fandom so basically this is a split fic which wouldn't be an issue except for the fact that the other fandom is a manwha that I've NEVER heard of...

I know this really makes me seem like the one not prepared but this is why I have my posts, so that everyone can actually read through them and know what I'm all about. Bonus note: commissioner seems to be in a rush for the work though I mentioned that 10k words could at least take a week. At least. It's only been a day..

I'm having to continue off a story that was already started but not finished which I also wasn't expecting.. I don't mind finishing work other's started but let's just say that none of this was expected because I had assumed my commission post said everything it needed to. I'll have to make tweaks later...

One being that if you ask for a fandom that I DON'T have listed I will tell you to be just a bit more patient than someone who did pick off the list. I write commissions yes but ANY commission wasn't noted. Two being that I'm serious about taking in consideration my timing on posts, I don't like feeling rushed and I don't mind people checking on me but have mercy. I am still disabled and out of school for such with major levels of depression and mental health like that so not being rushed definitely helps me. I don't mind being checked on but breathing down my neck makes this harder for both of us.

Finally, I don't mind you ASKING about fandoms that's not in the list but just assume it'll be better if you just commission what's on the list.

Anyway, the list is HERE!.

Edit:

Hi! I'm pissed off! :3

So they said that basically what they asked for wasn't included in their story and decided to report me to PayPal. (I'll have to delete it because of course I don't have that money to give back.) PayPal isn't even letting me give my side of the story which was total bullshit.

You gave me a story that had already been started by someone else and based off of how you responded I can see why it wasn't finished. Especially if you were as needy for things as you were with me.

2 you ADDED A FANDOM IM NOT IN and though that's more on my I sent you a template! I asked you questions! And not once until up to the point of later in the story did you mention anything wrong with how it was going. I say in the original COMMISSIONS POST what fandoms I write for and though I'm nice enough to accept other fandoms I wasn't even aware that you were mentioning a second fandom until AFTER I had the money transaction with you.

You rushed me the first couple days which made me feel like I had to get everything done at a certain time.

I also didn't like your tone and I would have liked you to say something sooner if you weren't liking the story and no not things you prefer but instead things you WANT. It's like you've never done a writing commission before.

To this person I hope you have the day you deserve and I hope you're reading this rn even though I got your silly ass blocked. All I could think while working on your commission was how GRATEFUL id be once I got it done and over with and boy was I right. I mention my situation, I mention my case and the last thing you choose to do is be understanding. I have NEVER had an issue with a customer before you because the ones before you knew how to LISTEN.

Finally having you gone is the slightest my shoulders have been in a week, since the moment you showed up in my life and my dms. Thank you for finally leaving me alone. I don't even wish you any bad will or anything like that, I just wish you never came to me to begin with.

Edit2:

They made it a claim. I take back not wishing ill but ffs. Ugh this is why I if you want a commission to read the commission rules. I'm actually frustrated, I'm not dealing with this tonight. Imma go smoke and call it a day. 😒

[keefiswhoiam]

April 10 - 2024 Wednesday

10:53pm

3/10

This morning I shaved my legs. I made more breakfast stir fry for breakfast because it's good. I planned not to stream today because I wasn't in the mood to be watched, especially with how much feedback I was going to get. I tried going to a public VRchat world while I worked but all I found was nazi furries so I got off. I joined BR and her friend in her server VC but she had to leave soon. I stayed with her friend but we hardly talked. I warmed up with alligator sketches today and did all my commission work. I have to finish that commission tomorrow for it to be worth it but I'm not sure I'll be able to.

For lunch I made stew out of the frozen stew veggies I got, it was good. Probably too much food though, breakfast was big because I was supposed to workout today but I took too long with work. In the afternoon, the request winner hadn't gotten back to me yet and the other thing I was supposed to work on was my own ideas. All the ones I have written down are NSFW and I wasn't in the mood for that so I just didn't do anything. I watched a Mario Kart stream and twitch gambled. TK hit me up and asked what I was doing, she said she was getting in VR soon. That sounded great for me so I hopped on and we checked out that Probability Labs world I haven't seen yet. It was just Lab Experiment from Roblox and it was pretty fun but we played in a public lobby where people were using flying avatars which defeat the purpose. Then I took everyone to a bathhouse world where we just talked. We talked about our siblings and religious fanatics. Also some about death. When TK got off, her friend was still there and she stayed talking to me for some time. We talked about what it takes for people to grow mainly. I got off to start dinner.

I asked DS if we'd have our usual hangout time but she was just gonna go to bed instead. I continued watching the Mario stream from earlier and booted up Cities Skylines. DS and I chatted a little bit.

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Today was shit, I've mostly been angry about a lot of things. I don't like that I am, but I am. I'm angry at having to accept this shit reality we live in. I'm angry at my past self for being shit. Im angry at everyone who's ever done me wrong. Today was supposed to be about acceptance and I've been trying my best. I combined that with Costar which said "people want you around." I was trying to accept everyone's role in my life and how I really am wanted to some degree by all of them.

Before I started writing I was especially angry, or maybe moreso a fed-up style of motivated. I feel in touch with what I want and fuck anyone who's going to get in the way of that. I keep becoming aware of things that just aren't working which are things I have to change. When I'm down on myself, doing that can be hard. But in a mood like this, I'm better able to stay focused on what's actually good for me.