#and it made me so homesick

[dear-eli]

That moment when you have a dream about somebody and it feels so real that your brain legitimately has to take a moment to grieve its loss when you wake up and realize it isn't

[sideblogdotjpeg]

fuck i thought about sol bufo too hard again. did anyone tell him he hibernates when its cold or did he have to learn it all by himself. makes me sick to my stomach because i KNOW its not a reading of his character that was intended but T_T growing up alone where theres nobody else like you, or at least nobody who knows more about you than you. you have a history but no one to tell it to you. does he know the bullywugs are a family oriented people with really nice teeth. this is so stupid but im crying forever and ever. this city frog can hold so much cultural displacement and estrangement in him

[fortes-fortuna-iogurtum]

hi yes I'm doing great and fine at college why do you ask :) (<< person who barely contained crying all the way back to her dorm and then broke down once she was in her room bc her government professor told everyone at the end of the first class that they're going to see horrible things in life and it's ok to be bothered by them, you don't have to constantly 'other people have it worse' about everything and so never let yourself feel the hurt over something and then went on to give everyone in the class a Tim Keller book to help cultivate personal devotions bc freshman year is hard)

[pardonmydelays]

fav lyrics from when you're home?

for those who don't know, this is literally my song, this is my religion, this is the song that made me fall in love with my city (i can't even explain, i'm not from new york lol & i think this probably doesn't make any sense at all because i am talking about the city i live in right now, not my hometown but well it's just my own interpretation) & it means the world to me. hard to pick just three but i'll try my best:

i used to think we lived at the top of the world - oh yeah, great, we are starting with the very first line, can i quote the whole song maybe...?

life was easier then/nina, everything is easier when you're home - so... if you don't know, i left my hometown a few years ago & moved to a big city where i am, well, entirely alone, no family & all. sometimes i feel homesick. trust me when i tell you this line kills me every single time, in fact, i am typing this with tears in my eyes. this is one of my favourite lines from the entire show, it's so simple but so personal to me.

i feel like all my life i've tried to find the answer, working harder, learning spanish, learning all i can, i thought i might find the answer out at stanford, but i'd stare out at the sea thinking where am i supposed to be? so please, don't say you're proud of me when i've lost my way - AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

bonus 1: i'm just gonna leave these here:

bonus 2: why is this the best thing ever

[deadrlngers]

i was tagged by @shadowglens and @risingsh0t to make some ocs in this picrew. thank you so much besties, i loved this picrew so much!! <3

vesper moxley (cp2077) • victoria gray (cp2077) joelle knight (fo4) • nina bower (fo4) selene (oblivion) • hiraeth (skyrim)

tagging: @uldwynsovs @arklay @devilbrakers @nuclearstorms @morvaris @girlbosselrond @indorilnerevarine @moiragf @cultistbase @faarkas @steelport @nokstella @reaperkiller @malefiicarum @brujah @calenhads @lightwardens @aelyosos and whoever else wants to do this or that i missed bc i'm terribly forgetful sorry!!

[torahtot]

I DONT WANNA MOVE IN TODAY. im sick

[flovverworks]

akira being alone at the start vs akira being alone at the end is a topic that always makes me. rattles cage

[wayward-sherlock]

Hey bbg (gender neutral) :)

if you’re taking asks about your fics rn, I’d loooove to hear you answer #1

babygirl (derogatory) i am caught between hating you (wanting to set you on fire) and loving you (planting a big fat kiss right on your lips) for this question.

i would sayyyyyyyy my writing. flows really well? sometimes? and i think that’s pretty cool :) i think i use punctuation really well (even if i overuse it sometimes) and in general my sentences, though long, are really well constructed (i refuse to say my writing lowkey is exit west-y, but ik you’ll get what im saying when i mention that book)

also i think my descriptions are sometimes fire, i write emotions pretty decently, and i think the part i like best about my writing are all the little things that i fit into a story :) little bits and pieces of myself, my hobbies, my favorite movies and songs and tv shows and books etc. in fanfic especially i put so many references to song lyrics from my fav songs (even if they’re not related to the fic at all) just cuz i can :)

[papaemeritusthefifth]

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[good-beanswrites]

Heyo!! :D uhh I was just thinking about prompts!! I have two that I've just been thinking of! You can do one or the other, I don't mind ^^ Yuno with Blanket (if you havent done that yet :o) and Muu and Yuno with Honesty :D

Thank you so much :D!! Your writing is so funky I love reading it, it's like my daily newspaper abejfncjcn

Hi Mug :D thank you so much aah!! I really loved these combos, that's so sweet for both of them ;-; Here's Yuno and Blanket -- something lighthearted from the beginning of t1, with a bit of her unfortunate people-pleasing habits.

“Requests are in!” Mikoto’s voice sang from down the corridor. The prisoners perked up from where they’d been lazing about. One would have thought he'd announced a jailbreak with the amount of energy that rippled through the room. Yuno leapt to her feet.

"You seem excited," Kazui chuckled as he stood. "What are you getting?"

She suddenly felt a twinge of shame for her reaction. Things weren’t bad in Milgram by any means, but the atmosphere was beginning to creep under her skin now and then. There was an old comfort she’d been dreaming of the past few weeks. It felt embarrassing to say to someone as concerned with his maturity as Kazui. 

"Oh, nothing much,” she said. “Just something that reminds me of home, like the cigarettes you ordered." She didn’t know him well enough to say so, but she was secretly grateful for his request. The smell of smoke was familiar to her as well. "But mostly it's something new around here -- isn't the whole thing exciting?" 

It was the first time they’d received a delivery, and everyone was eager to see if they got what they ordered. Though Yuno found the system surprising, it made sense. Milgram allowed more unique freedoms than a normal prison, given it also inflicted more unique restraints. 

She joined the group heading down the hall, all chattering in anticipation. 

"Yuno!" Mahiru waved her over. The woman had talked about the products and creams she'd requested, in the hope of keeping up her skincare routine. Yuno would be following suit soon, though she wanted those things to keep herself feeling refreshed rather than looking a certain way. There was no one here to impress. With her looks, that was.

Mahiru’s eyes gleamed. "What did you order?"

Yuno knew she wouldn't satisfy her appetite for gossip as much as Shidou testing his luck with medical supplies or Amane’s taste in high-level study materials had. 

"Something real cute~" was all she needed to say to get her giggling. 

Es instructed them to line up in front of their room to distribute everything. Yuno found her place behind Haruka. 

"Hey, hey! What are you getting?" She wasn't immune from that same gossipy curiosity…

His cheeks immediately reddened. "Uh, well, I h-hope I can get some c-candy. It -- I mean, it's kiddish, I know."

"Don't worry, some might think my request is childish, haha! Plus, I think Muu ordered sweets, too."

This seemed to calm him a bit as he walked ahead. Fuuta nudged her from behind.

"Oi, what did you ask for?"

She'd overheard him and Kotoko discussing what would likely be caught as a tool to escape, and knew her answer would disappoint him.

The bright smile she’d given Haruka angled into a more jaded smirk. "Eh, just something to get me through the night, you know? A practical comfort."

Fuuta grunted, respecting the choice. 

Her attention returned to the front of the line, where Haruka was returning with loose treats spilling from his hands. She took his place in Es' doorway.

"Prisoner 002," Es scanned a piece of paper. "For you… ah,” They read it again. “Just a blanket? Was that all?" 

She beamed. "Yup! Just a blanket." 

“You strike me as the kind to ask for a lot…”

“Mmm, you’ve read me well, Warden! Not this time, though. Gotta start small, then see what I can weasel out of you!” She winked. As usual, Es pretended to be unimpressed. Yuno knew she was wearing them down, bit by bit.

She offered a bouncy bow as Es handed it over. She hadn’t given many specifications, but it certainly looked as big and fluffy as she had hoped. Milgram had gone with pink -- the same shade as some of her uniform accents. 

"Thanks!" 

The prisoners' excitement died down fairly quickly afterwards. Amane began reading in silence. Kazui retreated to the smoking room alone, though Shidou and Mikoto promised to join him after the next round of requests. Haruka had nearly finished eating all of his candy by nightfall. Kotoko sat by herself to jot things down in her new notebook. Yuno’s good mood lasted much later. 

Once the bell had rung and silence fell onto the prison, she could feel the usual chill start to creep into her cell. It had gripped her with fear the first few nights -- that unshakable coldness that reminded her why she was here in the first place. Sometimes, when her body jolted her awake with the feeling of falling, she'd blame it on the temperature rather than a universal human experience. It brought up too many painful memories to be something so ordinary, after all.

But not tonight. 

Tonight there would be no falling, and no chill. No stepping into bed with enough skin showing to make her shiver. No more crafted conversations or flashing certain expressions.

A goofy grin spread across her cheeks. Yuno unfolded the blanket with a flourish. She swept it around her body, then flopped down on her bedding. With nothing more to worry about, she sank into the cushy blob.

‘Just a blanket’ her ass. This was the warmest she’d felt in a very long time.

[thestrangestwatermelonofall]

going and listening to my youtube playlists is truly a safe place for me. I just listened to the Discord Murder Party season 3 theme and sang along to every word, and now I'm listening to relaxing super mario galaxy songs with rain sound effects in the background.

[dylanlila]

jo/mal things (also my favorite tbai line)

yeah i don't think that's entirely true for me

[junotter]

It was my dad's birthday last week and since The Last of Us is one of his favorite games and I can't watch the show or play any of the games without thinking of him (and I hope vise-versa). I drew him and me as Joel and Ellie.

[redwinterroses]

A genuine thank you. You reminded me that Scar was dealing with real life things when the first Decked Out launched in season seven, and when he came back he had his own projects plus the Mycelium Resistance. Here’s to being season seven viewers who didn’t pay attention to the Hermitcraft streaming scene.

[clicks glass]

[emmacarsword]

❤️

[desiredcrescent]

feeling nauseous and cant get on my puter to make a fully fleshed out post just yet but there's something to be said abt my bg3 characters and their relationship to home as a concept (Feeling loved, safe and secure) vs home as a place