#and its all because. they know. if they didnt know they wouldve acted differently. its all self fulfilling !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

I don't really know how to put this into words without feeling totally insane but every time there's some kind of prophecy or prediction in a piece of media I can't help but wonder whether it becomes self-fulfilling as soon as the characters know about it. and I guess that's the thing with prophecies isn't it? if it's good, people will do anything in their power to make sure it happens. if it's bad, they'll try desperately to prevent it while in turn setting the exact events in motion to make it happen anyway.

all this to say I think the whole "the end of the world will happen in 2 years and it has something to do with jack slash" has been. a disaster since they learned about it. everything the prt or taylor or the s9 have been doing so far has been with that information in mind. Jack, now that he knows it's his fault and loves it, has been shoring up the s9s power, which he may not have gone to such great lengths to do if he didn't know about his involvement in an apocalypse scenario. so now they're fighting some horrible clone army rather than the normal... 9 or less unstable members . taylor is doing all this shit with the knowledge in the back of her mind that there's an apocalypse coming. she's got herself on a timer, and even though she says she doesn't think about it, she DOES. the prt refuses to meet any of her terms due to their dumbass bureaucracy and hypocritical rules or whatever . they refuse to make any sort of compromise, in turn killing (?) one of the undersiders, something taylor CLEARLY informed them would break any sort of tenuous truce or whatever that they had and set a war into motion. and now both tagg and alexandria are dead. and. maybe it's the guy who consumed too much time travel media in me but I can't help but feel like all of these events are just. inevitable pieces falling into place that are directly leading up to whatever apocalypse scenario we're waiting for. there's so much of a cause and effect chain crumbling right now. one less strong hero against the endbringers. the prt in fucking shambles, and as terrible as they are, they're losing a major piece of organization. it's gonna be chaos from here on out!! and all of this could've been avoided !!!!! imagine what would've happened if none of them knew about this apocalypse and had just. acted as if the future would go on as usual. how do you think things would've been different !!!!

[alealuvshayden]

Anakin Skywalker - FLUFF

Anakin x reader (req by @bxbyysstuff )

𝙗𝙖𝙙 𝙢𝙤𝙤𝙙

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Yours and Anakin‘s relationship was special. really special. daily words of affirmation, making you feel safe, everyday you woke up with flowers in your room, especially when Anakin went on a mission and had to leave early.

today was no different. you woke up and didnt find Anakin by your side, but tons of flowers. roses, your favorite. you smelled them and smiled. how could you have gotten so lucky? you always asked yourself that and even asked Anakin himself. though he always insisted he was the lucky one and had to show you somehow. with a lot of love.

Anakin had been on a long mission today, with Obi-Wan of course. the two of them had been on a complete other planet which took a long way to get there so you planned the whole day by yourself, knowing Anakin wouldnt be home. or so you thought.

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you decided to head to the temple for some work and heard yelling. massive yelling. what happened..? you thought to yourself. who could be yelling this much? and for what dumb reason. it got on your nerves. you were a hothead and couldnt endure people acting this way, going balistic for no reason.

as you got closer to the meeting room, the voice got familiar.. very familiar. you knocked gently on the door, knowing everyone in the council respected you. you entered and see Anakin yelling at Master Yoda and Master Mace. your eyebrows furrow in disbelief. you knew Anakin kind of had an attitude but not THIS bad. nevertheless you got closer and asked.

„What happened here? What‘s going on?“ you look around, almost desperately.

„Anakin yell at me.“ Yoda answered. Mace nodded and tried to explain the situation.

„Yes y/n.. he‘s been very moody because the mission today was a complete fail. he failed to fight off some enemy of ours and he‘s acting this way. get him in your grip, please.“

woah. this wasnt what you expected to hear. was this a common occurrence? you grabbed Anakin‘s arm and pull him close to you. „I‘ll handle this, thank you.“ You manage to say and leave with Anakin by your side, following like a lost puppy.

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„My love i promise im not overreacting!“ Anakin said desperately.

you didnt speak a word and pulled him with you. a lot of things were going through your head right now. but not a single feeling of anger. Anakin had a very hard life and failing was one of his biggest insecurities. you knew that.

after some time you arrive at your home, the one you managed to build together with lots of memories. you pull Anakin down on the couch and ask gently.. „What happened over there, baby“

„O-on the mission.. i-i couldnt finish my fight! Obi-Wan pulled me off! told me i was to weak! im not too weak! im strong!! i can do anything and for sure can fight off some bastard who badmouths you-!“

„badmouthed me..?“

„Yes.. the fight was innocent at first. lightsaber and all.. you know the drill, baby. And then he mentioned you! you of all people! how dare he!!“

you smile lovingly at him.. „i appreciate that, sweetie. But you dont have to go balistic.. couldve just come home to me and we wouldve talked about it like we always do..“

„I know, i know.. but the council! they made me feel like i was really weak to fight him off! just like Obi-Wan did.“

„Its okay.. now youre here and everything‘s fine right? Im still in my whole shape. Nothing happened that he badmouthed me.“

Anakin nodded in understanding. You were right. Always were. With your point proven, Anakin leaned down and laid his head on your lap. You play with his hair lovingly and whisper sweet nothings in his ear.

„Thought id be spending my day alone.. seems not..“

„You were happy about it!!?“ Anakin asked and sat up in dispair, playfully.

you smile and giggle at him. Anakin picked you up and tickled you. Kissing you everywhere he could reach. ear, cheeks, lips, neck. you couldnt help but giggle more, being very ticklish.

The rest of the day was spent with both of you laying in the living room, cuddling and binge-watching movies.

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[stevie-petey]

so was billy in love with bug/did he have a crush/did SHE have a crush??????

OK OK LIT ANALYSIS TIME !!!

i feel that we need to remember that bug isnt just a reader insert (in my eyes, at least) but that shes supposed to be the warmth in the show !! the hope !! the kindness that can still persist even when everything else seems hopeless !!

its why shes such a selfless character. not because i wanted the clich "everyone loves the reader" but because she symbolizes the dandelions that creep through cracks on a sidewalk on a rainy day.

bug aside, her relationship with billy is purposely complex and muddy. for the readers, and for bug, its unclear what billy felt for her/how he viewed her. now, as the author i can tell you that billy did find her attractive, but not in a romantic sense. he viewed bug more as prey, as a tool to use against steve. he liked that she spoke back to him and could see through his persona, but bug was really more just billys next meal.

in season two, after billy has been punched by jon and he looks at steve and bug, noticing their tension, he says "oh, youre fucked harrington" because he KNEW !!! billy immediately caught that bug was steves weakness. while he flirts with her before this, knowing that steve had feelings for bug was what ultimately made billy so infatuated. he had heard all these stories about her, how she was the towns sweetheart. in his eyes, why would someone so loved by a town also be tied with steve ?

as for bug, she hates billy in season 2. he hurts max, tries hurting lucas. billy is everything vile that bug despises. it isnt until season 3, when billy has listened to maxs warnings and stayed away from bug and the party, that she starts to see him in a different light. shes still traumatized by him and she still resents how he hurt max, but she appreciates that he listened.

behind the scenes, which i do mention briefly, max tells bug about billys dad. she gets some insight into his homelife, and shes sympathetic. but it doesnt change what he did. when bug finds billy on the side of the road in season 3 after hes been flayed, she immediately wants to help him. its in her nature to, but after the events of season 2 and how he almost killed her, shes hesitant. she cant be near him, she cant touch him, but she still wants to somehow help.

and thats when she tells billy to come find her. to talk to her.

billy, lost in his possession, is struck by this. he almost killed bug. she hates him. but her words dig through the dark matter and he hears her. her kindness is the guiding light he uses for later. when billy is locked in his visions, he tries to find bug. she becomes one of his good memories, only the memories are fake. they never did smile together. bug was more his reference point, a model to go off of. he wanted to be like her. he wanted her to find him.

now for billys death ,,, it wrecks bug because max was there to see it, because billys final act was protecting his sister. she understands that better than anyone. she understands that billy had been a hurt kid. that his dad made him cruel and that violence was all he knew. billy never got the chance to become good. we only see his character grow into someone redeemable when he dies. regardless of how you feel about him (and he DOES suck i hate him), its fucking tragic. he was a kid.

billy was never given space to become good. no one was kind to him growing up. there was no softness. no warmth. billy didnt know how to be these things. but he had the potential to. and this is what breaks bug. because in another life, one where dustin and her mother werent sources of comfort, bug wouldve been consumed by her cruelty the way billy was.

thus, billys infatuation with bug and her kindess, and bugs complex relationship with her father and the anger that we are born with, ties them together.

she was his light. he was her past life.

[bugboysgf]

Hate + Love

Chapter 4

Series Masterlist

Previous chapter

Summary: There is a thin line between love and hate but what if it's way thinner than you thought?

AN: I know it took me five months, but here it is.

“I need to know why he's doing this.” you pace back and forth in your room. Kitty just sat on the bed looking at you. She's never seen you this frantic before. It was the next day, you tried to not let what Derek told you yesterday bother you but it did.

“Calm down, i asked Q and he said he doesnt know anything, just that Min ho was worried about the date.” “I dont get it, this thing only happens in books not in real life.” you said.

“Maybe he's been reading too many books then.” Kitty shrugged.

“It always ends the same way… you dont think Min ho likes me right? He can't, he's him and I'm me.”

“It's a possible you guys are almost the same, i swear if you guys never hated each other i wouldve tried to set you guys up.” “It doesnt matter, Kitty, he can't do things like this. I had a date and I finally felt like somebody liked me and he just ruined it. He always finds a way to ruin things for me and I'm so done with it. We need a plan to get him back or make him confess.” Kitty sat there puzzled thinking of a plan. Suddenly she starts smiling and looks at you. 

“What?” you look at her confused. 

“We can pretend like you're moving out.”

“Moving out? Over a guy?” you scoffed, it didnt sound like something you wouldnt do and you knew there was no way it could be believable. 

“Hear me out, I know it sounds like something you wouldnt do but you think Min Ho is going to know that?  He's already on edge trying to make sure you dont find out about what he did. I can guarantee you it's believable.”

You look at her for a split second you didnt have an idea so hers was the best you guys could do anyways. “Okay fine what do i need to do?”

“Simple steps but it can be all completed in less than a couple of hours, firstly its breakfast so he's gonna go down there any minute. No classes today so you can go downstarts in a hoodie and sweats act like youve been crying all night. When you see him dont say anything, keep your head down and let me do the talking.” kitty explained. 

“Okay got it, this better work.” you knew this was extreme just to get a simple piece of information out of minho but if you confronted him you knew he was too stubborn to tell you his emotions straight up. 

You followed everything kitty said, you went downstairs with her with a hoodie and sweats on. You didnt want anybody seeing you like this, you were always well put together but today it was different. You needed to find out if Minho did all of this because he liked you. The possibility was very slim in your mind but in Kitty’s mind it was 100 percent the truth. 

You and kitty walked over to the table where Minho and Q sat at. You kept your head down and didnt say a word to any of them. Minho looked at you waiting for you to say something smart or sarcastic to him but you didnt. He was more confused than ever, he titled his head a little bit to see your face but you put your head down. 

“What's wrong with you? Why didn’t you go to class yesterday?” he asked you.

“She's sad minho. Leave her alone." Kitty said to him.

“I was asking her, not you.” Minho rolled his eyes. 

“Well she doesnt feel like talking, derkek ghosted her.”

“He ghosted you?” Min ho asked you in a concerned tone.

“I dont want to talk about it leave me alone.” you snapped at him. “Kitty, enjoy your breakfast. I'm going to go sign the papers.”

“Okay bye” kitty watched you walk about, minho waited until you were no longer in the cafeteria to say something. 

“What papers?” he asked, concerned. Q just sat there not paying attention to anything but his phone. “She's leaving.” Kitty explained. 

“Leaving and going where?” Minho was confused. What did she mea you were leaving?

“She's going back to los angeles she booked her flight and everything.” “Over a guy”  he scoffed.

“Yes over a guy, she feels embarrassed and she said you were right about him not liking her. She doesnt feel like she belong here.” “She does belong here, she loves this place.” “Well not anymore” Kitty shrurgged.

“You have to stop her.” 

“I tried but maybe you can just talk to her.”

Minho didnt understand why you would do something like this over something so minor. He didn’t mean to cause this much damage, all he wanted to do was stop you from going on a date. Now it backfired on him and he didn’t really know how to fix this but he had to try at least. 

You were in your room pretending to be packing. Kitty sent you a message saying that Minho was on his way to your dorm to stop you. The plan was working, you didnt know how you would be able to stay serious but you had to, you needed to know the truth. 

“open the door y/n.” you heard banging from outside of your room, you knew it was Minho. You huffed and opened the door. He barged in looking at all of the clothes in the suitcase and realized you were serious about this. 

“What's up with the suitcases?” he asked, he already knew the answer but he wasn’t going to believe it until he heard it come from out of your mouth.

“I'm leaving.” you said in a mumble. 

“But why?”

“I just want to be here anymore. I know it's dramatic but since I've been here it's like I can't compete. Everybody here has money and I don't. I'm on a stupid scholarship. You were right about Derek, he didn't like me.” you sat down on your bed with your head down. He sat down next to you looking at you trying to figure out what to say next. He didnt know how to comfort people and definitely not a girl at that. 

“He's just a stupid guy, maybe he was just busy.” “You dont get it, nobody likes me, no matter how hard I try. I barely have any friends here, and you hate me.” you were trying not to cringe at your words but you needed minho to believe this. 

“I like you.” Minho whispered.

“I mean yea you're starting to like me, afterall you did help me fix my necklace.” “No, I mean like, like you like you. In a romantic kinda way.”

You got up from the bed and just looked at him in shock. “What?”

“Listen Derek did want to go on the date but i told him not too. I had a video about him that I could use against his family. I got jealous, I'm sorry.” he explained, you were still stuck on what he said before. You got both of your answers at one time and it was a lot for you. 

 “You like me?” you asked, still trying to process it. You sat back down not knowing what to do. 

“That's what i said.” he said in a calm voice, how could he be so calm right now he just confessed his feelings for a person that he is supposed to hate. 

“Are you gonna say something?” he asked, he hated not knowing what you were thinking in your head, it was killing him inside. 

 You werent the best at saying how you feel but in this moment you had to, it was now or nothing. “I um- i like you too.” saying that to minho felt weird because you always thought from the day he met you that he would never like you. 

“Is it too much to ask you to go on a date with me?” he asked in a unsure tone, he didnt know if it was crossing the line after he ruined your first one. 

“No i dont think it's too much” you smiled. 

“So boba then?”

“It's a date.”

[ultimateloserboy]

thinking about duck dhmis having health issues and not even knowing it. first of all, he has diabetes, which you could say is just a joke, but i dont really think so. id say it would be if yellow guy didnt bring it up again a minute later in electricity where it was confirmed. sure hes talking to a different character, but his immediate assumption when someone is acting strange is to assume their blood sugar is low. i might be stretching- but to me it implies hes been in this situation before. charged yellow guy doesnt become smarter out of nowhere, he simply understands his already existing memories better, meaning he wouldve already known what low blood sugar was and how to deal with it before his batteries getting replaced. this implies to me that yellow guy has helped duck with his low blood sugar before, though i dont think him or duck actually understands whats going on. im not a diabetes expert or anything, but i know that low blood sugar is not nice, and you feel much better after grabbing a snack. which is funny, because in the past the creators have really driven it home that duck enjoys sweets and just food in general. in the “Its Nice That” QNA back in like 2016, half of ducks answers were about snacks and foods he liked. he said he finds yogurt exciting, and that his blood type is cream, etc. again, maybe im stretching, but it makes sense for him to enjoy these foods so much, because they’d probably make him feel better even if he doesn’t understand why. he probs thinks he just really fucking likes yogurt but in reality his blood sugar is literal ass.

moving on though, in the death episode he mentions forgetting to drink water, which is the cause of his literal death. dehydration is not a nice feeling, and its canon that the puppets experience pain like we do to an extent, so how long was duck feeling miserable without noticing? when the coffin cuts his finger he doesnt react at all, saying it “doesnt hurt that much” but pain is pain even if its small. he didnt even flinch to his finger being cut off. i dont think its the pain thats small, i think his pain tolerance is just too high for his own good. he probably didnt notice the pain of dehydration, or the pains of low blood pressure, or the pain of his insides being removed. he felt it, but he just didnt register how bad it really was. when he sees yellow guy being tore up in jobs he starts freaking out, obviously understanding that it must hurt, but if he was in the same situation he would be laughing. it makes me kind of sad in a way

there’s three ways i think this can be interpreted:

1: hes so desensitized to his own pain after eternity of being ripped apart that he doesnt even register when hes in pain anymore

2: hes so determined to be big and strong (like the military) that he refuses to acknowledge his pain because its a weakness he needs to get over

or 3: a mixture of both that is so bad it causes him to literally die of his own self-neglect. and even when his body tries to shut down and rest(die), he still refuses even that.

(plus, to add on to my runt-duck post, runts often have life-long health issues if they do live past infancy. i will die on the runt-duck hill. he is just like me.)

[wolfertinger]

What pisses me off so much is that Salem has been claiming he "didnt actually do yellowface" and it was actually "a racial delusion" ... when there is genuine proof to show its fucking lies.

He wrote about the debockle on his private, he didnt seem deluded, he spoke eloquently, he wasnt apologetic but it didnt really come off like he was experiencing delusions at the time- he said "thats how he speaks in real life"

Which like..if it REALLY was a real delusion he was experiencing.. what the fuck is his idea of asian people to make him think this is how they all fucking talk? damn i didnt know delusions are an excuse for racism!

But no, he was very much concious and aware of his actions, to the point of addressing the allegations on his main account.. even though the delusion wouldve made him think the kung fu revvy one was his main, yes?

Whatever. my point stands to make it pretty clear he is lying about this delusion- maybe he does experience delusions but the yellowface situation was a concious decision and he is just fucking stupid.

He thinks mental illness (which he probably thinks he can transition into like a gender. fuckin radqueer) is an excuse for everything, he thinks mentally ill + neurodivergent people are all helpless r slurs that dont know any better, he thinks they are "baby bunnies >.<" which he strives to be, a helpless stupid fucking lunatic that can get away with everything because he says he has "prolapsed anus syndrome" which is a syndrome that prolapses your anus. So clearly he isnt in the wrong here guys! he is unaware of his actions and is too fucking stupid to take accountability! NO I MEAN! nyaa im so ableist >.< he is a helpless baby and we should always forgive him because he is too baby bunny boi to learn and be better, kyaaa~!

Ugh.

If youre so fucking mentally unstable, Salem, maybe stay off the fucking internet... we dont need you coming back with your Mexican Sona called "jimmy changa" who is an axolotl boy with a sombrero, poncho and giant breasts.

i have been seeing a lot of people defending puppy lately acting as if people's only issue with him is his furry art. very blatantly ignoring the part where he did genuine racist things, because they know being racist and then blaming it all on an alter is stupid. plurality or not you can still do terrible things. i have had systems explain to me even when their alters do bad things. the rest of the system is still responsible for and should accept the blame of their actions.

reminder, this is why people are the most angry. ""racial delusions"" do not cover this. and if it did this is how you see asian people in your head? not even discerning between chinese and japanese.

i also believe this is what puppy will say is one of his alters, adonis i think her name, is. which makes me wonder if this red panda alter speaks in incredibly broken english, they are obviously very...inspired.

and yes i will draw attention, to this attitude again. because for all the talk about anti blackness, he has no allyship or understanding of his racism against other races. even his gf admitted to formerly defending zionist beliefs. they literally are not capable of forming their own thoughts. they simply parrot what they think gets them the most attention. then backpedal if their audience doesnt agree.

why is this any different from a white person, saying something racist then claiming to be "2% black", to get away from their racist actions.

[cirrem]

my thoughts on book 5 of the stormlight archive: wind and truth

spoiler free section:

overall: i LOVED the series and this is a good book. there were some bits i didnt really think were good, there were some bits i loved. if you enjoyed books 1-4 definitally finish this arc.

spoiler thoughs below ONLY READ IF YOU DONT CARE ABOUT GETTING THE ENDING SPOILED (sorry its long and awfully formatted)

lets break it down by each POV from "has the least things im going to complain about or suggest changing" to "most things im going to complain about or suggest changing" (as well as how i would change them)

renarin and rlain: i love them sooo much it was kinda funny seeing them act like lovebirds during the end of the world event but honestly they cant do anything about the end of the world except fall in love.

adolin: i love his section he's the best part of the book. theres like one or two bits of dialogue that felt kinda off but the book is huge

all the small side bits (including jasnah and venli and the shattered plains and stuff): really well done. the only issues is that i wouldve liked more time for venli and her people, and that we didnt connect to teft and his spren before so their split didnt feel as dramatic as sanderson likely intended. ill talk more about a way to fix that later

shallan: mraize and the ghostbloods felt a lot more like a side quest then a big threat throughout the whole entire series. mainly because (imo) they arent ever successful. it kinda took the final confrontation between shallan and mraize feel unimportant, which sucks because i really enjoyed it. also mishram didnt do squat and that felt underwhelming

dalinar/navini: ohhhh boy heres where we get some meat. there are a few different complaints i have so im going to order them from least to most annoying

the honor exposition dump felt like an exposition dump. idk what to do about it

the twist @ the end with gavilar felt like it was pulled out of nothing and done for shock value. it wouldve been better if a) the fake gavilar wasnt just asleep but acted "wrong" (didnt recognize navini or lift, but did know who odium is, treated dalinar with hostility, etc) and b) we saw a pov from young gavilar of dalinar and navini leaving him in the spirit realm

the ending was messy and hard to follow. maybe i was too tired when i read it but heres the order of events that i think would make it clearer and more satisfying: a) dalinar realizes he cant just keep odium locked in here he needs the other shards and the narration being like "dalinor realized the power was too great blah blah blah he needs to unite the shards against odium" b) after gavilar is brought to be his challenger, he talks to honor, asking if she remembers the first thing she (she appears as a young girl in a vision so im going with she) said to him: "unite them" and tells her to do the same c) he breaks the bonds and forgoes the agreement, and tells honor to join with taravangian (spelling is hard), she does, and retribution is formed d) gavilar DEMANDS to get vengeance for his parents against dalinor, and much like how taravangians emotional overflow stole odiums power, gavilars 20+ years in the spiritual realm being trained for nothing BUT retribution allows him to take retribution from taravangian who doesnt have a single bone of retribution on his body (if you acted against him he would manipulate you instead of killing you and hed manipulate you anyways) e) gavilor immediately kills dalinor... and has no one else to seek retribution towards. but odium remembers how the other shards hated and belittled him, and honor remembers how they abandoned tanavasts cries for help and how dalinar told her to unite them... so he turns his attention outwards and yeah thats have been cool

(also i def need to reread the ending bc how did it happen that retribution must respect the countries borders but isnt bound to roshar i though they were the same thing)

kaladin/szeth. im sorry. 10 days is not enough time for the therapist arc working and feeling satisfied. remember in book 1 how you struggled and brought a whole bridge crew from the brink of suicidal depression and how satisfying it was and how much you worked for it and how earned it was? now in this book over 10 days you basically cured szeth and a herald by repeating some mantras playing a song and making soup. the dialogue was a step down and his victories felt unearned. what i would have liked to see instead:

book 4: dalinor sends kaladin and szeth to the shinovar reason. they also take taravangian because dalinor doesnt trust him here or in the the tower thing.

but who does all of kaladins stuff in book 4? Teft! we shift things slightly so that teft is almost to the level of kaladin here, and doesnt pass out. instead of the darkest hour of visions from odium kaladin gets, teft gets grabbed and drugged with firemoss. AWFUL! (this has the benefit of cutting out almost every convo between kaladin and lirin, who SUCKS).

however, the shinovar plot is slightly different: there are enemy fused and singers there as well! and theyre also terrorizing the local population, and their led by the pursuer! kaladins shaming of the pursuer and protecting the population replaces his big moment in the tower. the lowest low point can still happen, but with a twist: afterwards, kaladin is resting, sleeping peacefully after being healed by the powers of one of the honorblades szeth has killed for. at this point, i envision szeth has decided he doesnt want to kill anymore. BUT taravangian, sensing odiums nearby prescence, goads szeth, bragging about how he sent odium, and how he'll do it again, and how easy it was to make kaladin break and how much he enjoyed it. szeth, despite wanting to not kill people, kills him, (except odium is there, currently trying to torment a recovering kaladin some more, so... taravangian becomes odium here now)

and then book 5 would be a continuation of that, but with the reveal of the spren being a herald come much sooner, and kaladin slowly but surely breaking down ishars defensives while testing and failing but ultimitally suceeding with szeth and taln whose journey to recovery started in the previous book.

i did enjoy the twists and backstory and interactions with nightblood and the monastary challenges (though i think more time could have been spent on that) and on kaladin becoming a herald at the end, so lots of stuff to enjoy, but i would have done a lot of it differently

but i didnt do it differently, i didnt do it at all. so massive respect to sanderson for even attempting a project on this scale, and even completing books 1-5 with connection to the whole cosmere.

one last thing about book 5 before i finished is that it felt a lot more satisfying knowing that the end message "not all oaths are worth keeping" which makes sense and i can totally see that in hindsight BUT while reading i was like "nooo the ouaths" so it wouldve been good to have it said explicitly BUT i may be just a someone with 0 reading comprehension.

anyways overall i LOVED the series and even though theres some bits of book 5 i didnt really think were good there were some bits i loved so if you enjoyed books 1-4 definitally finish this arc

[linoone]

if someone sent an ask about a certain situation (one jade "I HATE ADDICTS" sauce) i cannot get it because i am shadowbanned. if anyone has any questions, inquires, what nots, please hit up my strawpage . this is long and very cluttered so do forgive

this is a grown man who refuses to take accountability himself about his past actions, including saying his saying the n slur with the hard "er" was a "trauma response" and that he shouldnt be held accountable because he was a 17 year old. but he was complaining about "blackwashing" and getting a "random check" at an airport at 20 years old, citing his whiteness as a reason for his confusion at being random checked. 20 isnt a minor, and being confused about being random checked as a white person isnt a trauma response - the fact youd even go "im a fat white 20 year old i cant do anything" is kind of nuts in the first place

i "dragged my feet" cutting his abuser off because i was afraid i would also be harassed/abused and yes it was pussy behaviour. that much i can say. mind you the reason i jumped in at the time - in 2021 - was because he was misgendering his abuser, something he continued to do and justified by saying it wasnt as bad as what [INSERT NAME HERE] did. i told him multiple times WE WERE NEVER "FRIENDS", JUST MUTUALS ON MULTIPLE WEBSITES. MUTUALS DOES NOT EQUAL FRIENDS. yet i am still considered "friends" with his abuser. the most ive ever been friends with is his abusers "#1 bootlicker", who i avoided contact with for ... four years, i think? made the assumption you hadnt been keeping tabs on me (you had), thought to myself "people change, maybe ill get back into contact with this person". this was NOT calculated to cause jade maximum pain, as you may think it does. i did not keep up with anything going on in jades life unlike what he claims until he got involved with some mutuals' friend group drama on precuretwt, to which i was reminded of his existence and still did not really care. they unfortunately got the jade experience firsthand, ableism and all; mind you, they were about 15-18 and jade was 25-26, and again, HE WAS NOT INVOLVED IN THE INITIAL DRAMA. he was under the impression he was and inserted himself in, all the while repeatedly insulting them when they didnt take him seriously or let him get involved like he wanted to be

yet if anyone else also called him an abuse apologist or abuser for ... you know ... using abusive language towards others, when it comes to them being a different race/dirty fucking druggie addicts (/sarcasm)/etc., doing the things he calls other people out for doing ... it goes right in one ear and right out the other. you even used the exact same language my own abusers have done after trying to get on my good side and pretending to be buddy-buddy with me. remember that? good times. im sure i wouldve loved being your attack dog in the universe where that happened. but this is not that universe

my behaviour is not spotless, i have never been a perfect angel, ive done some very terrible things in my time online. in fact, ive done some of the exact same things you pulled. but your behaviour has been the same for ... what, ten years? yet you act perfectly innocent and blame bpd, autism, etc. as someone with those issues as well, it is egregious to see you use them as a cudgel over and over again to justify yourself. if anyone else has them, and even dared to try pulling the same thing, they cant be used and its ableist to try. its ableist to hold a single thing over your head - personal insults, ableist remarks, inserting yourself into other peoples drama when you dont belong and theyre a decade younger than you ... other people have made the point better than i could, and theres no point repeating it, because you wont listen to an "abuse apologist" (while, hey, im sure if you knew the full history of any of your "stalkers", youd say our abuses were deserved, yeah?)

you masquerade as being anti-abuse while using the weapons of the enemy - same language, same resorting to petty insults and weaponizing white tears (while claiming others do the same!) and threatening self harm to get your way. its not 2015 kinblr anymore and despite what you may think, you are no longer a teenager. youve partaken in the abuse of others as well - by contacting /THEIR/ abusers and ex friends, treating the latter like trophies - and claim that it is justified. you want to say that nothing from the old callout blogs should stick because youve "apologized" and "changed". you have done neither. c'est la vie.

[toadboatt]

For funsies so i dont overthink myself into oblivion, let me start this out by saying "Imagine i am an osdd system" and i will refer to myself as though thats true (i am undiagnosed with denial cycles that terrify me even though i have a lot of evidence supporting my thoughts. Im trying to be respectful, please be nice to me and correct me if this isnt right in any way)

So i just made a comment on another user's post talking about this and i needed to elaborate for myself.

Before realizing i could be a part of a system, we were in a long term relationship and after highschool we became a distanced couple (He was at a univeristy 2.5 hours away but i didnt see him often due to other circumstances). But once we didn't see him every day, it became more and more obvious to me that there were different "versions" of myself. At least two big ones, me when im with him, and me when im home. And the longer time i spent away from him, the more i realized the switch in myself. Memories with him would be fuzzy, i'd be by myself again and realize i was acting so differently when i was with him, but he said i was being he same as usual .

Flash foward, im fighting with myself for months because of the personality switch, but I just thought it was just HEAVY autism masking, even though i couldnt stop, and I felt veryyy disconnected when "masking". My memories were greying and i felt off, like i was watching myself live through a screen. Then, it happened. The part of me that would come out when i was around him stopped showing up. She felt noticably absent.. where did she go?? Then i realized it was strange of me to refer to "myself" as if she was separate from me. Before, i was her and myself interchangebly, but suddenly, it was just me. I was pushed to the front 100%. And i felt so empty when i was with him.. and i didnt LOVE him the same way... i felt lost without her.

Two years later, im host and ive cut my hair and dyed it, gotten tattoos and piercings she never wouldve dreamed of, and i dumped him. My life is totally different now, and also im a transguy now and i started researching systems to make it all make sene. However, shes not entirely GONE though, i still feel her in the back of my mind. Especially since i broke up with my ex. I hear her crying and i feel her pain when thinking of him. Everything i think of him or hear from him (we stayed friends) i can feel her mourning over again. But i feel... nothing. Its like the only emotions i feel about it are just her haunting my mind but those feelings arent mine. She never fronts or really talks, just sits back and watches. Funny too because i think shes the only part of me thats a woman.

Anyways. I forgot the point of this, i just wanted to talk about it i guess.. i think because writing that comment fully contextualized that whole experience for me.. if youve had any similar experiences let me know! Im eager to hear other points of views since i'd say im still in the researching phase lol, thanks for reading if you did. (:

[a-court-of-moonlight-and-ire]

Hellow, i just reblogged that post about the cauldron loving elain and I have been seized with a need to figure out what the hell is going on with that so I shall read one (1) chapter if acomaf to bring me closer to my goal. For the record, I did know about the cauldron loving elain and hating nesta because idk, nesta was angry and annoying when she was dunked into it but elain was just so sweet and demure about it probably, i did not think it was. romantic love. but this is a sjm book so I was foolish to assume there would be a male character whos not insanely horny. Actually, is the cauldron even male? He is in the german version but thats just bc the word cauldron is masculine grammatically. Quick someone draw like, a tumblr sexyman humanized version of the cauldron. actually no, tumblrsexymen are traditionally twinks and sjm hates those. Quick someone draw like, a super buff shirtless man with golden hair, or whatever the color of the cauldron is

anyway, PREVIOUSLY ON: THE FLAMES AND DARKNESS LIVEBLOG we had the Court on Nightmares Under The Mountain Reenactment Scene as I like to call it and can we talk about how Feyre has known Rhys for like a year and only liked him for like half a year and yet she was perfectly fine sitting in his lap nacked and letting herself be sexualized by him. Like, I dont even have any kind of sexual trauma, you would still need to build up sooooo many years of friendship and good will for me to do that for you and you would NOT be allowed to jerk me off!! whatever, lets get on with this, its time for chapter 43

I hate that Rhysand is being all like "i shouldnt have brought you, i didnt want you to see this side of me" when its like, buddy you didnt have to do all this shit you couldve just walked in an been like "Im your high lord and demand your orb" and they wouldve given it to you because youre their high lord and youre demanding their orb. And if he thought they wouldnt have given it to him, he couldve easily come up with a different distraction he just went with the one that sexualizes Feyre because hes weirdo. Like, if hes so cruel on every other day then he shouldve acted really nicely, greeted Keir by giving him the biggest hug and being like "uncleeeee!! :D long time no see :)" and Feyre should have been dressed up as like, the embodiment of spring in pastel green soft shades of pink and but Rhysand still treats with the utmost kindness and respect, now that would throw the Hewn City for a loop

Okay so the reason Rhys broke keirs arm is because the word 'whore' triggered him which is understandable but like, Feyre thought of herself as the Highlords Whore in a very deliberate parallel to Rhysand being known as Amarantha's Whore and Im pretty sure she even straightup thought something about being in the position he had for so many years but she was like, horny about it and the narrative just isnt acknowledging it. Like, theyre not talking about it even though their mindlink was presumably open the whole time bc I remember them flirting through the link, and Feyre isnt even like "oh man, I feel bad for thinking that when its so upsetting to him" its so weird

Rhysand basically said "I will never try to protect you by locking you away, instead I will protect you by killing anyone who upsets you, even when they dont actually upset you and they just upset me" like he and Tamlin are not fundamentally any different from each other, its just that Rhysand is a coldblooded murderer. but its fine cuz he wears black leather i guess

I just realized. Rhysand had a boner when Feyre was sitting in his lap. did that go away when he broke Keirs arm or did he walk out of that meeting with his dick fully hard

Listen, maybe its just because its 3am and Im a little sleepdeprived but this conversation barely makes any sense, these bozos are just completely talking past each other at this point

Rhysand just said something about how Tamlin just locked Feyre up and let her waste away and almost die and Feyre was gonna say "He was trying his best" but Rhys interrupted her like "Dont compare me to him, stop comparing us" when she didnt say anything about that ??? my guy is projecting so hard rn he thinks theyre having a conversation that theyre not even having

And like i would argue that Feyre doesnt even compare Rhysand and Tamlin that much, the narrative definitely does it a LOT, but Ive been reading Feyres thoughts throughout this whole ordeal and I feel like she barely even thought about Tamlin since she sent him that letter

This scene is supposed this big turning point for their relationship and its clearly meant to be really emotional but the only emotion i can feel rn is annoyance with Rhysand because its like, he did have genuinely traumatic things that happened to him but not only is he barely affected by any of them, those are not even the things that the narrative brings up whenever its trying to get me to sympathise with him instead its always just "whaaaaaaa everyone thinks Im nasty and evil just because i keep doing nasty and evil things T-T"

Feyre is being very cruel but in a kinda funny way because its directed at Rhysand rn, i would insert the quote but I am in no state to translate anything at the moment but shes basically like "of course you have to hide your true self from your friends, they wouldnt wanna hang out with otherwise, you burden"

Idk why but the prose being like "my arrow struck him too deep" is so funny to me, it has the same energy as the vampire fics i read where the weird gay one gets his heart broken and he goes "it wouldve hurt less if he staked me in the heart"

Feyre is like "i cant believe he was so vulnerable and shared his sorrows with me and just threw all of it in his face" and I could not give less of a shit, but ive been on a big emotional abuse kick lately so now Im thinking about what if Feyre was just faking having feelings for Rhys in order to make him fall in love with her and be vulnerable with her only to then tell him the truth and reject the mating bond and make him completely break down as revenge for UTM. now that would actually be empowering

Now Feyre is thinking about how shes been using Rhysand for a long time now and come onnnnnn there is such a big power difference between them, I genuinely think its basically impossible for her to do that. Like, hes the most powerful guy in the history of guys or whatever, if anything you were doing bothered him that much he could simply make you stop doing it. hm. now Im thinking about what if rhysand was actually a huge masochist. Now that would actually be hot

Feyre is talking about how all the members of the inner circle suffered and are traumatized and theyve all learned to live with it and, not to extend too much sympathy to Rhysand, but all of the ICs major traumatic events happened centuries ago, his traumatic event happened one (1) year ago and it lasted 49 years i think its gonna take a little more time till hes all better

ughhhhhhh dont remind me of Amrens stupid romance subplot im gonna kill myself

Starfall is called Die Nacht der fallenden Sterne [the night of the calling stars] in german which is so much cooler and more whimsical, shoutout to my gal pal Alexandra Ernst for attempting to reinsert atleast a little bit of whimsy into this joyless world

Also, apparently its expected that Rhysand spend the first starfall in fifty years with his people, his people in this case referring to the Verlarians in the city that no one knows exists and not the people living in his courts actual capital. then again, i guess those bozos are all trapped under a mountain and wouldnt be able to watch it anyway so who cares

Amren said "hes not lucky to have us, we're lucky to have him" like yeah, hes paying you all exorbitant salaries just for being his buddies

God, amrens jacking rhys off so hard rn I cant believe she didnt wanna have sex with him when he asked

btw Im not even gonna dignify all that vaguely meta bullshit about how Tamlin is the golden prince and rhysand is the villain in the stories but the villain in stories is the guy who locks maidens away in towers and rhys freed her with anx kind of commentary because its just stupid, its just sjm bashing you over the head with how subversive she is when Tamlin and Rhysand are basically the same guy with different aesthetics at this point, like Feyre is not making a choice between the goodboy hero and the badboy villain, shes making a choice between a Bad Boy with a Heart of Gold (green) and a Bad Boy with a Heart of Gold (black)

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thats what I mean abt my first ask is even with idols having their own social media posts all it seems to do is make their fans act worse or more delusional online towards them. usually over a photoshoot (ive caught myself doing this and let me say its embarassing asf) its embarassing asf bc why do we need so much validation from the opposite gender? i find that even with their online platforms its so expensive to actually interact or im like ehh whatever they posted an other vlive dont the idols have something more interesting to do?

i wonder if theres any idols who arent always ingrained with social media, cillian murphey keeps to himself and doesnt seem to need that extra validation that idols do. i find him quite interesting for it but ppl and reporters still act surprise that he doesnt know what his own meme was lmao. its like its a surprise if anyone isnt in on everything current and trendy but when im trying to find something to watch its either usually kpop stuff that crop up even without searching for it orrr u just search for something else but its like mehhh everyone wanna be validated online bc they like the extra attention they didnt get as a child. honestly the 90s were the best time period imho wouldve loved to have experienced it as an adult away from this online nonsense, now im online a lot because everythings become abt being online.

i wonder if idols get worn out by constantly having these unhealthy attachments to needing an audience for everything they do? if they do something its suddenly a viral moment or a meme yet i see these clips and im like ehh sometimes theyre not even that funny lbr. i think many of them are interesting performers and often quite talented but like i say thats abt a lot of them have going for them, they dont seem to venture outside the bubble of their idol world or having do many staffs do every thing for them.

wouldnt it make dating an idol even harder if you find you have to do tasks for them that you expect them to be able to do? they will always be doing something for their fans or audience. i also then expect idols to look after themselves too cause im tired of logging on to see we have to yet again act all worried and concerned for an idol who dont even know us? lmao. see what i mean the toxic attachments go both ways and ppl r often more bothered abt only one side of the toxic ppl like their fans and sasaengs or whatever but then they dont see that idols have these attachments bc of those ppl.

Whatever they posted online on other vlive I mean don't the idols have something more interesting to do ?

If an idol is posting selfie ,there's nothing wrong with it ,I guess you don't post on your account that much ,they don't ask fans to act crazy for their selfie or video,so you want idols to stop posting online and be less online ,so that people like you who dont hold themselves accountable can come out of delusions ,Ah I remember its their job ,not yours ,to treat you or fans like you who act worse or delusional ( I will convey your message 😉 don't worry ) ,yeah it's expensive to interact with them online because its thier job and they wanna fill their bag as much as they want ,why would you want to earn less money when you can earn more ,and anon don't you have something interesting to do in your life ?and by interesting what do you mean

Why do we need validation from opposite gender ?

If you are talking about idols their content isnt gender specific ,they haven't stopped men or boys from liking them ,it's again their job and their own will to post whatever they want to post ,if you are talking about yourself,you need to know as to why you think like this and why you need validation from opposite gender ,and work on it ,so you don't need it

I wonder if there's any idols who aren't always engrained wth social media ,cillian Murphy keeps to himself and doesn't seem to need that extra validation that idols do

You are comparing two different entertainment Industires first of all ,in west artists are more free and the kpop culture of dealing with fans isn't there ,then comes nature of a person,if its his nature , it's good,I also like this but I wont judge every person who isnt like him ,yeah reporters and people act surprised that what's his famous meme was ,yeah cause this doesn't happen normally so they aren't used to this ,but this have nothing to do with him needing extra validation but just his nature

When I am trying to find something to watch it's either usually K-pop stuff thats crop up even without searching for it or you just search for something else .

It's because dear you don't clear your algorithm,you watch this K-pop stuff ,If I want to clear my search and my feed ,even a week is more ,if you don't watch ,and click on every video/pic you dislike as "non -interested " you won't find K-pop stuff on your feed anymore

Everyone wanna be validated online because they like the extra attention they didn't get as a child

You know what I am really sorry for you anon that "you didn't get the attention you wanted as a child "

I am really sorry for everyone who share something online and then they are getting judged by people like you ,who act so superficial , insensitive,and pathetic and rude ,if only you had get the extra attention you wanted as a child and didn't get it ,you would be acting normal and not like this ,you wouldn't go to every blog and repeat the same thing,you would look into mirror and ask yourself that why are you acting so weird ,I am honestly so shocked that people like you exist who reach to people,their traumas,their upbringing just to feel better for themselves,if you think online is nonsense ,are you writing letters to blogs and sending it via pigeons ,you have an unhealthy attachment to everything and spend most if yoir time online ,its better to do shadow work on yourself and be a better person and dont talk nonsense about everyone ,and not to complain about everything

If you wanna experience 90s ,you can still experience it ,switch off your net ,put down your phone ,go to some village,or some remote area live for few months ,do camping ,and eat food made by you ,and do everything by you ,you can still enjoy that era ,but you don't need to talk nonsense and judge everyone who doesn't agree with you ,or who isn't living like you ,who doesnt need extra validation like you .

People are problematic but you can't put everyone in same category, people need validation,but not everyone is same and I really dislike people who bring up someone childhood without knowing everything about them ,without knowing them personally,do you know everyone childhood ,do you know everyone job ,or why they are online and why they ard doing certain things ,don't generalise everyone and sadly idols have fans like you ,I don't know who you stan ,who basically judge them and even people you interact with ,it must be a burden for them ,to not need your validation and keep everything to themselves

Please grow up and be mature

I wonder if idols get worn out by constantly having these unhealthy attachments to needing an audience for everything they do ?

These are your words ,anon I am not trying to be rude but are you this ignorant by choice or it's because you don't know anything ,or you don't want to know anything,this is the problem with K-pop fans that they dont separate idols jobs from their real life ,

These are some questions you should think about :

If you are an idol ,you go to airport,there is no one to welcome you when you arrive,or no one to see off and it happens frequently will you feel happy about it ,or will you be sad ?

If you post a selfie no one likes it or there are few people who like it ,what will you feel ?

If you release a song ,no one listens it ,and its flop and your career is in danger and you are giving flop comebacks back to back ,how will you feel ?

It's not idols who have unhealthy attachments to want their audience for everything,it's their job ,and its dependent on people,they have contracts ,and they are required to remaim popular one way or other , otherwise they will disband or remain in industry and do nothing ,west and K-pop works differently ,if you dont know how kpop works ,then its you who needs to learn about it ,in K-pop culture these are the requirements they like it or not

If they do something and its suddenly a viral moment and You see something and you feel like ehh sometimes it's not even that funny lbr

People have different preferences and different tastes in everything and if you like an idol ,you don't have to like every part of them and that's okay ,but if it matches other people tastes and they think it's funny then ,that's fine too ,so if it's viral because its matching other people taste and not yours

They don't seem to venture outside the bubble if their idol world and having many staffs do everything for them

Idols have very tight packed schedules from what I know ,so them having to avail the help of people who are willing to help them by getting paid or even for free ,isn't bad or wrong ,if you are rich ,and insanely busy,even tired due to work , practice and we know how kpop overwork their idols ,will you still want to do everything by yourself or will you avail any staff help with your everything if possible,if yes ,then it's good for you ,but people mostly like to have help and can rest properly in their free time ,it's okay ,it's nothing weird

Wouldn't it make dating an idol even harder if you find that you have to do tasks for them ,that you expect them to be able to do ?

Now ,here comes different things ,first of all what kind of tasks are you talking about ?If they are not doing anything themselves ,they have staff doing it for them ,what's the problem?then comes that normally and mostly ,idols date idols and people who are like them ,so that they know how to handle the relationship and dont have any problems in their relationships ,and even people who date them know that what theu are getting themselves into and that a large part of their life is for public and fans ,so I am sure it doesn't bother them ,thats why they are in relationship,right isn't this like this ?second when you are in love , people have no problem mostly with looking after their partner and doing tasks for them ,and caring about them ,if its a transactional relationship or people are totally different,and there is no love then there people think so calculated

I also then expect idols to look after themselves too cause I am tired of logging on to see that yet we have to act all worried and concerned for an idol who dont even know us ?

I am appalled ,I don't understand what you mean by this ,so if possible kindly explain ,but I must say that it's very weird of you to think like this ,and this is parasocial relationship with obsession ,in obsession you think like this ,have any idol personally asked you to act concerned for them ,I believe no ,have they personally asked you to act worried about them ,I believe no ,so ,i think if your support/concern / worry for any idol you like is just an act ,they are better without your support maybe

Lmao .see what I mean the toxic attachments go both ways and people are often more bothered about only one side of the toxic like their fans and saesangs or whatever but then they don't see that idols have these attachments because of these people

On idols part this is way less if it exists even ,but atleast in your ask ,this toxic attachment is on your side from what you described anon ,not on the idols side ,they are literally acting Normally

[somedeadbeatloz3r69]

Since I've been seeing so many people shit on joker 2; folie a deux, so will I. (i saw it a daily earlier before most because it came out a day earlier in my area lol THE JOKER 1 IS VERY GOOD, POTRAYS PYSCHOTIC BEHAVIOR PERFECTLY AND IS BEAUTIFUL. BUT, JOKER 2 IS NOT ON THE OTHER HAND. YES, IT IS BEAUTIFUL, BUT HOLY FUCK ALL THAT SINGING WAS UNNEEDED, AND ALSO IT MADE BARELY ANY SENSE, ALSO JOKER IS MEANT TO BE THE ONE MANIPULATING HARLEY, NOT CODEPENDENT ON HER?? AND SHES NOT EVEN PYSCHO, JUST GOOFY AND WEIRD. JOKER 2 IS VERY HARSH AND REAL, AND VERY ACCURATELY CONNECTED TO THE ILLNESSES FEAUTURED IN JOKER 1, BUT WHAT THE PROBLEM IS WHO THEY'RE POTRAYED BY. THE ILLNESSES ARE ACCURATE, THEY GO TOGETHER, BUT THEY DON'T MATCH THE CHARACTER OF JOKER. THEY DON'T MATCH HIS ACTIONS, THE ILLNESSES OF JOKER IN PART 1 MATCHED HIS CHARACTER AND MADE SENSE; PERCIEVING HIM TO PEOPLE AS A CHARACTER THAT FINALLY BROKE FREE, SOMEONE WHO ENJOYED THE HIGH OF BEING KNOWN, AT A HIGHER RANK THAN EVERYONE ELSE. HE FELT AS IF HE WAS ONTOP, AND HE LOVED THE ATTENTION. HE WAS CARELESS AND RELENTLESS, YET DELUSIONAL AND PYSCHOTIC. THIS ALL HAPPENED WHEN HE FINALLY BROKE; FINALLY GOT SET FREE, AND HE WENT CRAZY AND YET WAS STILL DELUSIONAL. BUT, IN JOKER 2, HE IS MUCH MORE CO-DEPENDENT AND WEAK SHOWN, NOT MATCHING HIS CHARACTER IN THE 1ST ONE. YES, HE'S BEEN IN THE ASYLUM FOR AWHILE, BUT THAT SHOULD JUST MAKE HIM MORE CARELESS AND INSANE. BUT NO, NOW HE'S MORE SOFT AND DELUSIONAL, THE DELUSIONAL PART MAKES SENSE, BUT THE PART WHERE HE JUST GOES BACK TO NORMAL AND SAYS 'THERE WAS NEVER A JOKER'? NO. HE'S BEEN BRAINWASHED AND IT DOESNT MATCH HIS CHARACTER. HE CLEARLY FELT HAPPIER THAN EVER WHEN HE WAS THE JOKER AND IT DIDN'T MATCH HIS CHARACTER, THERE'S NO GOING BACK. YOU CAN'T JUST GO BACK TO BEING ARTHUR FLECK, THE YOU THAT YOU DESPISE. THE YOU THAT WAS WEAK. AFTER A TRAUMATIZING EXPERIENCE, IF ANYTHING, YOU SHOULD BECOME MORE EVIL. MORE REVENGEFUL. NO, IT'S NOT INVALID IF THAT'S NOT HOW YOU REACT, BUT IT'S INVALID FOR THE JOKER BECAUSE IT WAS INACCURATE TOWARDS HIS CHARACTER IN JOKER 1.

THEY BOTH POTRAYED MENTAL ILLNESS VERY WELL, AND THEY DO GO TOGETHER, BUT NOT FOR THE JOKER. THE JOKER IS EVIL AND RELENTLESS. NOT SOFT AND VULNERABLE. HE KNOWS WHAT HE DID. AND HE'S PROUD OF IT. HE FINALLY FELT ALIVE, SEEN, AND THE MOVIE OVERALL WAS MUCH MORE REALISTIC AND STRAIGHTFORWARD. HE MEANT TO DO WHAT HE DID PURPOSEFULLY. IT WASN'T JUST AN 'ACT'. ARTHUR FLECK WAS THE ACT, WAS HIM GOING INSANE, ARTHUR FLECK WAS THE BUILDUP TO THE JOKER. THE JOKER WAS THE REAL HIM, THE HIM THAT COULD FINALLY GET RELEASED. THE HIM HE'S BEEN CONCEALING FOR FOREVER. SO HIM BEING HAPPY AND CARELESS, AND EVEN ENJOYING BEING EVIL, DOES NOT MATCH HIM BEING SOFT AND VULNERABLE. YES THE DELUSIONS MAKE SENSE, DEEPLY, BUT THEY'RE JUST TOO CORNY AND TOO CO-DEPENDENT. BEING DELUSIONAL MAKES SENSE FOR HIM, BUT HIM HAVING CO-DEPENDENT DELUSIONS, SAYING ITS 'ALL A FANTASY', IS THE HARSH TRUTH, YET ALSO INACCURATE. HE WAS DELUSIONAL, IT WAS JUST A FANTASY, BUT HE LOVED IT, IT WAS PART OF HIS CHARACTER, HE WOULDNT JUST ADMIT HES A TERRIBLE PERSON, AND HOW IT WAS ALL AN ACT, BECAUSE IT NEVER WAS, BECAUSE DEEP DOWN HES ALWAYS BEEN THIS PYSCHOPATH. TO SAY IT WAS JUST AN ACT?? IS INSANE. IN HIS DELUSIONS ABOUT HAVING A ROMANTIC RELATIONSHIP, IN JOKER 1, THEY WERE NEVER TOO CORNY. NEVER TOO CODEPENDENT, FOR EVEN IN THE DELUSIONS HE COULD RELY ON HIMSELF, FOR EVEN IN THE DELUSIONS HE WAS CONFIDENT. BUT IN THE JOKER 2, HIS DELUSIONS ARE CORNY, AND VERY MUSICAL-LIKE WHICH WASNT NEEDED, VERY RANDOM AND KINDA DIDNT ADD UP. THE MOVIE WAS GREAT WITH GREAT SCENERY, BUT HOLY SHIT THEY TRIED WAY TOO HARD AND WENT OFF TRACK. IT WOULD BE A GREAT MOVIE, BUT MAYBE RELATED TO A DIFFERENT JOKER. BECAUSE THE JOKER IN JOKER 2, IS NOT THE JOKER WE SEE IN JOKER 1. ITS LIKE AN ENTIRELY DIFFERENT JOKER. OVERALL, IT WAS AN OK MOVIE. BUT IT WOULDVE BEEN BETTER IF NOT RELATED TO THE JOKER. WHAT WAS REALLY FASCINATING ABOUT JOKER 1 IS HOW IT SHOWED HOW PEOPLE BREAK, IT WAS A MOVIE ABOUT CHAOS AND HOW HE WAS SLOWLY LOSING HIS SANITY. SOME PEOPLE COULD EVEN RELATE TO HIS SHITTY LIFE, PEOPLE FELT COMFORT. PEOPLE FELT SYMPATHY; EMPATHY. BUT IN THE JOKER 2 THEY COMPLETELY TAKE THAT AWAY, RIDDING OF HIS TOUGH, CARELESS, 'I'D DO IT AGAIN.' PERSONA AND REPLACING IT WITH A SOFTER, 'I REGRET IT ALL', PERSONA. JOKER 2 OVERALL DIDN'T MATCH HIS CHARACTER, AND PRACTICALLY WAS CHARACTER REGRGESSION RATHER THAN CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT. PEOPLE WANTED THE JOKER TO GO INSANE, THEY WERE HAPPY HE WAS TAKING REVENGE ON THE CRUEL WORLD. BUT IN JOKER 2, HE WAS EXACTLY LIKE HE WAS IN THE START OF JOKER 1. WEAK, SAD. YES, IT WAS A GOOD MOVIE WITH VERY WELL POTRAYED MENTAL ILLNESSES, IT JUST DIDN'T FIT HIS CHARACTER.

[plusdanshii]

catney dynamic fully explained part 2

same tws as part1 🫶

so… thats what care thinks about whitney. he really is the source of all her problems. but she doesn’t know if she made the right or wrong decision by interfering (not because she cares about what happens to him, at all) because if she hadn’t interfered then whitney wouldve been taken away forever, and she really wouldve never saw him again. but would that have meant that she wouldn’t think about him? she doesn’t think so. even if whitney were killed she would still think about his crying face and how badly she wants to hurt him. not the way he intended but, he did end up breaking her, in a way.

during low love and high love, care still holds the same exact opinion of him as she did before. ive been talking alot about about how care feels about whitney, but after everything that happened how does whitney feel about care now? well… hes still obsessed with her but in a completely different way now.

care has 0/6 exhibitionism and 2/6 promiscuity so you can imagine that most of their encounters dont end up well. i dont know why beating the shit out of whitney doesnt lower his love. its extremely rare for care to allow a non consensual encounter by whitney to finish, 9/ 10 times will she fight him off using her bare fists or pepper spray. he always keeps coming back for more though.. he definitely likes getting beaten up by her. care is a normal pc now but thanks to whit she can have some nasty defiant moments, though she only really shows them to him.

with her friends and the people she loves, she always very very kind. with whitney shes the complete opposite. she doesn’t look him in the eye when she speaks to him, and even then she doesnt really speak to him its more at him. the most time she’ll ever speak to him is when its raining and she asks him for a cigarette (something she only started doing after seeing him cry). and the banter between the two of them cant even be considered banter, just insulting each other in the worst ways possible.

“aww, whats got my slut so done? didnt feel like fucking all the teachers after school today?” “fuck off this is literally why your mother abandoned you and why your dad beat you when you were a child. i hope you were molested by your uncle too.”

“you always look so pissy around me, what is it, does my girlfriend not like me?” “no, not at all whitney. i can only just barely tolerate your existence because you look like a girl you know? if it weren’t for your face i would gladly leave you to die.”

she does speak to him in math whenever hes there but thats more out of boredom than anything else. the one good thing that came out of whitney thinking she likes him is that students are less willing to bullying her now, i guess.

now i see whitney as being really smart but when youre so in love with someone it makes you blind so he just tells himself that shes joking… and mostly believes it. he probably thinks that “shes just like me fr” and that shes a tsundere. her being uncomfortable with promiscuous acts also means hes pent up as hell. he wants to fuck her pussy so, so bad, hes always hounding her like the sex pest he is. she will give him oral once in awhile just so he can leave her the fuck alone but only when theyre alone. and even then its not enough because he cant (and wont ever) be inside her like how he wants too.

whitney sees her as his property/ girlfriend-pet. hes always thinking about her. hes now finally able to admit that hes in infatuated with her, i think. and it doesn’t annoy him like how it did before. he cant get enough of her, she has this magnetizing grip on his psyche and he doesn’t ever want to let her go. he loves her.

does he know? no, he doesn’t have a goddamn clue LMAO. i highly doubt he would still love her the same if he did know. hes so infatuated he probably would… but not nearly to the same degree. sometimes she thinks about telling him. during the seldom moments when theyre alone together and he acts normal with her and for a second she feels like she communicating with a real human being— and not the biggest victim of doltown— shes suddenly drowning with enough guilt to instantly kill a catholic and wants all the pressure off her chest— and then he says/ does something that completely ruins moment and shes left still frustrated but a little less guilty.

being the empathetic person that she is she does feel a little sorry for whitney despite everything hes done to her, because i mean… in a place like this, you dont end up like THAT without something terrible happening to you, she reasons. obviously thats not nearly enough for her to stop fantasizing about killing him but it is something thats always in the back of her mind. what sydney said about him too, “its clear that hes suffering alot.”

whats the resolution to this? idk. care will probably live the rest of her live in never ending dread because she will never be able to stop fantasizing about hurting whitney. she’ll never tell anyone and its unlikely that anyone will ever find out either … she will probably end up going to sister jordan and beg her to “purge” her but who knows if that would help her. shes stuck in a never ending feedback loop of desire and intense guilt forever.

[thrileikur]

the fubblegum tag reaching active users again years after the show ended is a recession indicator

ok now that i have your attention ive been thinking about what their post-canon relationship and individual characteristics would be like (because they literally stopped having those after the finale lol), a bit of a corollary of trying to source out stuff that i want to use for my project about them i mentioned in my last needlessly big fubblepost

i anticipated reading the s11 comics before managed to i find them someplace. the verdict, coming off of someone who only sought out one dynamic and two characters who actually feel like they contribute to the plot… its basically what i want to still see out of canon and im sad that i cant come up with original ideas. issue 6 starts with a conversation consisting of only them, dealing with the central arcs problem. its a lost cause to hope the show had continued even with a meeting as insightful as that, because its a great reinforcement of their m.o. and has played out quite well before those events, all while their emotional insights of each other had other plans. i try to write them like that in everything i do no matter how depressing or sickly sweet* the fic is.

i just think the crews working with vastly different ideas if theyre gonna keep casting their vas for new episodes of the shows continuations, and not give us information about how involved they are in their lives in the current timeline. pb is as good as retired from the kingdom without anything being clear on it (+ no way peps is old enough to take it on like what together again showed) and finn has hit a new mental low that he never even went through as a teen. like, i swear i am saying this without wearing any hokey shipping lens, their current lives are just so goddamn unfulfilling as i see it. nothing wrong with not always feeling tasked to save the world or whatever, but the build of which couldve been seen by us and these characters would go through for them to come to that conclusion is nonexistent. i really dont like that because of the circumstances with hbo the showrunners have, everything has been airing non-linearly to the storyline i know they intend to tell. id hope they stopped shooting themselves in the foot if if they werent already letting off how important bonnie and finn are to each other, stacked up with how hard it is to define their dynamic anymore.

that said, ive kinda already kept score for them and done the act of putting them in a boxy room to try to see how they interact for the sake of writing. whereas with a lot of other interpretations that have finn keeping up his facade of acting as a hero when he cant really apply it to himself (and thus put people like simon of all people near deaths door), i sense it wouldve been a lot harder to compose himself with bonnie around. we do learn in a s7 episode that finn negatively compares himself to his father in his mind, and in another older one that did wonders to their relationship, she helps him process those much of those untold, vindictive feelings of returned assholery to martin. i dont think it takes rocket science to conclude that finn lost the handle while jake died and let go of himself that way because he had once determined that he didnt have anything to lose.

but coming back to it in the presence of pb? an invaluable friend in his life who he had always been trustworthy to? someone who he had pushed his luck for, and has been proven several times the opposite? was it really worth all that breaking if she were to encounter it at any point before the current moment?

what about bonnies perspective? shes gone through so much loss in her life that it fucking WEIGHS on her to see her loved ones kick the bucket. was it right to say she never said enough to him? was finn always like this and never had the sense of self he held up? was he as dishonest about his inner thoughts as she had always been? what if anything that she couldve done pushed him the wrong way and theyre back at square one as a collective?

what would loosen this up more would be the reveal that neither are associated with the candy kingdom anymore… since that information barely feels obstructed. they cant fall back on being “work partners” anymore. they have so much doubt to share with each other and the care that they both own isnt comparable to the uncertainty of life in their hands. without it… theres such a rift between them theyre not confident to express.

*earlier this week i wanted to start work on a v-day themed piece and thats why im feeling so much for them in this post, i just cannot write fluff for the life of me. writing a few hundred words where they arent suffering just isnt how i operate.

[x1uizy]

starlight boys post-elim thoughts (link to old thread)

⚠️ contains spoilers ⚠️

honestly, this is abnormal for me but my top 9 really hasn't changed much: liu guanyou, sun yinghao, shao ziheng, lee hangyul, pentor, duan xingxing, zai, & yang dongwha, with some wiggle room for 9th.

of course, zai (20th) and yang dongwha (16th) aren't fully in the running, with zhang jijun (8th), noh minjae (9th), lee daeul (10th), he xi long (11th), hong sungmin (12th) congb (13th), xu shihuan (14th), yoojun (15th), wang kun (17th), lingqi (18th) and sun jiayang (19th) in the mix.

some relevant vote counts (without benefits*):

zhang jijun: 688,894

noh minjae: 650,336

yang dongwha : 399,145

zai: 356,251

*benefits are pretty much useless except to tiebreak the last elimination spot. in this round, neither eden nor choi junho got benefits though so it didn't matter, but if choi junho's team had won he would've made it instead of eden.

*because i find it interesting here are the instances where to wouldve made a difference in rank:

lee daeul (10) & noh minjae (9)

zai (20) & han jeongwoo (21)

etani hikari (26) & syo (27) - particularly interesting that their votes were sooooo close, only 2k off. if hikari's team had lost, syo would have gotten 26th with a 3k gap

kris (34) & phoom (35)

eden (36) & choi junho (37)

anyways 4-pick is bound to shake things up so we'll have to see what happens, but it seems unlikely right now that dongwha or zai will catch up to the debut seats. my primary hope is that top 7 stays the same, even if the ranks change.

thoughts on ranks 8 - 21

zhang jijun: intl fans have no idea who this man is 😭 i learned that hes an actor with over a mill on weibo & his fans might try to get him all the way to the finals but then drop him at the last minute. welcome back lu yuting & lelush.

noh minjae: i like him but it doesnt feel like the right group for him. he's talented but he doesnt fit. i wont be mad if he makes it and i think it could be interesting for him to play off of liu guanyou. but hangyul & minjae didnt make sense in a group together the first time around, this time is worse lmfao

lee daeul: once again, not the group for him. i think his one pick will be pretty strong moving forward but he probably needs to get his ass to modhaus for bripleS idk

he xilong: love him actually. he doesnt match the final group but he doesnt actively detract either. i think he could work. i want him to gain more confidence on stage & its a shame that we dont have enough rounds to see him grow

hong sungmin: talented but i cant get into him. his rapping tone was kind of unpleasant in r1 & even though i know he's better than that it kinda ruined things for me

congb: i like him but i think a different group would work for him. i think he & daeul would do better in kpop and i really dont think that's where this group is fully headed

xu shihuan: i know very little about him but if i couldnt have any of my picks in 9th I'd probably pick him, just image wise. saying this makes me miss ryou kaito.

yoojun: im enjoying him on this show but i dont know what to do with him. i think he's really coming off well but im not sure where he can go from here. can he act? become a streamer?? idkkk. he's too talented onstage but im not sure if this is enough for him to be successful

yang dongwha: still torn on him. i think the bullying scandal has hurt his main base & im not sure if he'll be able to overcome it. it's a shame though that the production clearly had a plan and it's not panning out. i wish they had recruited more people who fit their desired image

wang kun: i liked him more on asy, it's kind of a shame. you know who needed to be on this show? gemini. he would've been solid top 8 & that group would've been diverse & sooo iconic.

lingqi: talented but i can't get into him

sun jiayang: voted for him for storyline reasons but the bubble will probably pop this round

han jeongwoo: i like him but im not sure where he fits. with dongwha's fans kind of wavering i think he's the clearest replacement but they haven't given him as much of a storyline as i might have expected. i think his one pick is likely pretty low, yikes

other people im watching & thinking about: hikari, syo, & xinche.

voting list

this is my shaky voting list. hangyul & junhyuk are staying no matter what, but idk about zai and he xilong. i would be so happy if they made it but i also feel like there's no chance...we'll see after the interim i suppose

me voting for he xilong instead of dongwha or jeongwoo seems contradictory to my top 9 but here's why it's not! It's because [TRAIN PASSES] so that makes perfect sense, right?

voting hangyul for millionaire center. annoying that you can only vote one person per one position per day. i though i did it wrong at first because it looks like you should be able to fill all of the positions. it'd be nice if it was more like the difference between regular & vip votes, where everyone can fully vote once and vip just get extra votes.

this gets into structure a bit but because they've condensed the rounds voting is kinda...off. like normally you might expect 9-6-3-1 but theyre probably gonna do 9-4-1. if i could vote for 6. syo & pentor (worried he might drop) would probably round out my list.

thoughts on the show/ the show's structure

im torn about some things. i think its good that they're being a little more creative with the structure of the survival show, which hasn't changed much at all really from produce 101, but i think you run into some danger when you start taking things away instead of adding.

im in agreement with the masses on the first mini elimination- it was cruel and unnecessary, and cut some talent that would probably still be here today. but one review i saw brought up the point that it has probably had a more positive than negative impact on the show - people heard about it and were shocked, and ironically that made them more interested in watching the show and more dedicated to supporting the boys. and then this is my own addition, but eliminating that small number of trainees in the beginning allowed them to cut a whole round & save money (assuming that the original song round is one of the most expensive rounds in a typical survival show). so from a production stance, it was a net positive, even if it's not as fun for fans to watch.

while I've been following the show closely, im not actually watching at 100% like i usually do. i was looking forward to the original song round but now that it's just the finale...eh. im not expecting to be impressed by next round either. the only question is vocals and honestly this show doesnt have very many. they have a bunch of performers who happen to be solid singers or rappers, but few dedicated vocalists. while i dislike that in general, i think this group being a performance/dance group makes sense for some reason.

honestly my favorite non-performance content in survival shows will always be watching their dynamics in the practice room. so this sports day does absolutely nothing for me and there's a good chance i won't watch it. there's a reason why sports day content is usually interspersed with the elimination! it does not need it's own episode!! i think they could've come up with some other creative content to fill that space. if i think of something ill make another post (<- unlikely)

listened to millionaire and pretty dirty boy and uhm. millionaire is the better song but the choreo is soooo ridiculous it looks like that stupid frog dancing meme that popular when i was in like. high school or something 😭 and pretty dirty boy just isnt that good of a song idk. maybe ill change my mind about where hangyul is going. also its so annoying that project 7 made you vote for 35 people every single time but starlight boys wont let us do up to 18. both of them should let you leave blank spaces but you should def be able to vote for more than 1 person for starlight boys. i actually know people on this show!!

a lot of people seem to still think that this will be a kpop group & that what knetz think of the lineup will matter. can i ask why you think that? 🎤. this is qcyn4 i would be soooo surprised if the don't release anything in chinese/if they don't promote in china. there's not even a korean person challenging for center like 😭 it seems clear to me that hosting the show in korea was just a way to get around the survival show ban in china, lmfao. if anything, i think they could do an xg type thing where they sing in english, but i doubt that. i think the final group will be most like exo, with a foot in korea and i foot in china, but more firmly planted in china. HOWEVER. there's a horrible rumor that they'll be managed by podol and i just refuse to believe that iqiyi would waste a group like that. but with so many podol trainees it feels...probable. idk. even the hypothetical makes me want to vomit. #freebae173 #fantasyboys #freeclass:y #free anyone who has ever been associated with mbk.

in conclusion im sad about them condensing the rounds. i dont think itll be damning but i also hope they dont do it again.

[rosewoodconch]

RWCH Readathon Days 13-14?

Undercover Princess: Ch. 40-45

Mega liveblog

Ill be honest. I'm really ill: but i am on a bus for 2 hours. So: heres a really porrly written summary of like... the lead up to the ball

Ch. 40

"Promise you'll also be happy"

Well...

Shes happy sometimes?

I really like that again we see that question of jamies origin which doesnt seem so important until youve read everything else

Ill be honest, i usually skip the valentines day bits

Lola is an icon, shes right. Jamie not liking cupcakes is blasphemous

And ellie getting lottle the flowers her name was named for is really sweet and i miss this era of them when it was so easy to fix

Also that note is so incredibly stupid and yes its a threat but also imagine jamie in his room making up the rhyme

"They might take ellie away" GIRL YOUR JOB IS TO PROTECT HER NOT TO KEEP HER FOREVER. Go read the diary again cmon

Ch. 41

Exams! The ball! Finally we hear more about the ball. Its crazy that they get results that quickly

Lottie having nightmares about failing her exams is... oh this poor girl

Shoutout to angus the most scottish person here i love him

Binah is so funny. I absolutely hated people who reacted like that in school

I'm so proud of Lottie like genuinely because after all of the chaos, shes still done incredibly

I was that one sobbing ivy girl ngl. I litterally appealed my b in nat 5 physics because i was convined i deserved a A. I didnt

Ollies messages was so sweet. I missed him so much. He deserves so so so much better. I wish he was able to know things but hes so right to be concerned and hurt. Then "have a good life"

Heartbreaking

Ch. 42

DRESS SHOPPING i probably dont have many thoughts other than OMG DRESSES AND SHOES so sorry in advance

Lèon is an icon and i love him

"I never like to be predictable" YES LOTTIE HARNASS THE SASS

Hes so real with the day and night hes all of us

I really wish ellie got to wear a suit here, it wouldve contrasted so perfectly to the book 5 ball

THE SHOES OH MY GOD THE SHOES

Ellie telling jamie to "just leave" is such a horrible awful thing to have said knowing all we know on reread.

Ch. 43

Jamie lore

I like that we get this explanation before the ball. Because rereading we can see how much the "normal" route relates to ani and saskia and it makes us wonder about who else could be

Jamie is different

The fake story of Hirana, and all of the information about her being lied about not just to ellie, but to jamie too, is so so sad.

Ellie wants nothing but Jamie and her to have normal lives. For them to not be connected in this way. "Everyone should get to choose"

I really love that thats echoed in the ending of the series.

Ugh again with the trust. How often do we hear them go we need to trust each other then lottie hides more stuff again. Im tired lottie.

The Cinderella moment 😭😭😭😭

Ch. 44

Let it be known that in the audiobook connie says Queen Matilda

Her "Real Room" makes me so so happy and i cannot wait to eventually read about it again.

In fact does Lottie ever see it!??!?!?! Someone tell me

See this is what i mean about the trust thing.

Im sorry but if a girl i had a crush on pinned me against the wall, said to tell her a secret or shed bite me i think id pass out

"Youll be mad at me" well no shit sherlock

Jamie is an icon and i love him. Never change

Ch. 45

"I cant promise not to be mad, but I'll hear you out" is so eloquent and I'll always have that in my mind

Creepily similar? A resemblance perhaps?

Ellie lying to try and help lottie is sweet but scary. Because how often does she do this?

I really do think that underneath he is pained for lying to his queen. But not just because hes loyal to her, or that it is his job, but also the queen is nurturing and kind and i think he does internalise that

Lottie defending herself to jamie is so painful

I love the difference between jamie "acting pained" and then the following

For anyone who isn't using the audiobook, i want you to understand how terrifying it is when it switches pov here. Because the whole book has been connie, for the prologue was her mum.

But here, theres a male voice. Jamies va.

Jamie recognising all the palace staff is really sweet

The fact that he has such a routine, hes been trained to hide his emotions from everyone including himself.

And the simple sentence of "he broke down" honestly cuts deeper than if it had been fully elaborated. Its so simple. And thats why its so powerful. He cant even cry and feel comfort. He has to retreat away from everyone and everything

Next chapters are the ball and everything so I'll probably do another mega liveblog for those ones!

Its just easier when I'm ill to group them like this!