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gofishygo · 3 days
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mito mito mito hihi 😋
i’ve been having some thoughts n i felt like sharing w the class newayssss
so i was having bubble tea earlier and i started thinking,,,,what cod characters would like it? i feel like price def wouldn’t,,simon wouldn’t mind it but he does def think its too sweet and proper tea is superior and blah blah blah (i acc don’t know im kinda divided on that like i hc him as a sweet tooth but bubble tea,,,ehhh i feel like he wouldn’t like it all that much like he’d be all grumbly about it,,, idfk
johnny and gaz i think would like it lots ,,
i also think alex wouldn’t like it abd farah would (i js like hc farah as this secret softie ok leave me alone 😞)
but THAT got me thinking,,,, what other food preferences would they have ?? i think gaz would rlly like sushi (saw a fan art of him on a sushi date w the reader and i forgot who made it but ):$/:)/&!:!!!!! it was so cute) and i also think gaz would handle spicy food well ?? and he would like seafood in general methinks (tryna think of some select seafood items he wouldn’t like but im drawing a blank bc im vegetarian shusbssjnsuen)
idrk ab simon and johnny and price,,,,,,out of them 3, i feel like simon or johnny would have the biggest sweet tooth (they’re on like completely dif ends of the spectrum character wise but shh i js know it) but they all eat A SHIT TON like the food could be burned or too salty or smth but if they’ve js come back from a mission then they’re eating that shit UP. and asking for seconds. and thirds. they would still give u food feedback if it’s some other day tho
also johnny is extremely passionate about haggis. no i have never tried it yes i js know he is ok moving on
KONIGGGG hmmmm,,,, i have no fucking idea lmao i think? a lot of german cusine involves bread and stuff,,,so……………i think he’d have rlly bland meals idk
i’ve been rlly into keegan lately but i cant come up w anything for him aaaa
also gaz would be the only one who knows how to use chopsticks. the others would learn fast being in the military and all but gaz and chopstick skills js make sense???
ANYWAY im soso sry for rambling sm lmao this is a lot of words,,,,,and this isn’t a req by any means !!! js needed to hear ur thoughts bc food is js calling to me like “ok but would blank character like this” like. urgh. ok im done now i think but yeah food preferences for cod characters of ur choice
ALSO !!! THE IOS SHARK STICKERS REMIND ME OF U,,,,,look at them$:!!;&:!3 OK IM ACC DONE NOW BYE BEY MITO HIPE U DONT FALL ASLEPE READING ALL THAT
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AHHH hi weebun !! ^^ i was literally having bubble tea with my sister like a few hours ago and when i checked the inbox n saw this i BOLTED !! sorry for never responding to this, i forgot inbox existed..,
notes: shittily wrote as this as a warmup/just general yap :> sorry for messiness and incoordination.., platonic, no warnings !! unless ur lactose intolerant idk
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so you'll be jus chillin w the 141 on base and then say something like "boba is absolute gas shits better than normal tea" and of course, since the majority of the taskforce is british, you get absolutely fucking jumped for it. like- keep in mind, you say this price, the NUMBER ONE TEA AND BISCUTS DEFENDER, so you do end up getting toilet duty for a week with the explanation of 'uncordial behaviour.'
but after your deployment, you are the one to arrange where the 141 meet up. it's a little ritual you guys have developed to stay connected in between missions, one that makes your friendship seem a bit more real. sometimes the only thing that keeps your eyes open and heart pumping. and since you're an absolute fucking menace, you ask if you can meet around the heart of london- and then drag them all into the nearest bubble tea store you can.
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price... doesn't end up liking it. takes a total of two sips, nearly chokes on the pearls, and then sets the cup down. he claims he's been around long enough to know that this- like many other foods, is probably some 'trendy millennial bullshit that'll disappear in a solid few', but that doesn't help ease the insane side eye that he gets from the cashier.
but to your surprise, ghost seems somewhat okay with it. his face doesnt really change (from what you can tell- his mouth is still hidden due to some face mask he put on), but he seems neutral, relaxed, even. he mutters something along the lines of how it isn't too bad, but it doesn't beat a cuppa- to which you chose to ignore, and how he'll probably just stick to having an earl grey in the mornings. but a few months later, you catch him at the same boba store, and you cant help but giggle to yourself.
soap fucking inhales the drink. its genuinely concerning, to say the very least. he seems to like.. unhinge his jaw like some kind of snake, and then inhales the whole drink in what you think is a millisecond. and since he's the only scotsman on the team- thinks the whole 'tea n biscuits' ritual his colleagues have is utter stupidity, so not only does he now FREQUENTLY drink boba because he likes it- he also drinks out of utter spite.
gaz is the only one with a seemingly respectable opinion about boba, unfortunately. he's had it before, multiple times- it appeals to his sweet tooth and is the occasional treat after long missions. but unlike you, gaz does not value peace, and seems to keep egging soap on in chugging unreasonable amounts of the drink. (and he doesnt mention it, as he does not want to face the same punishment as you did, but he thinks that bubble tea is sometimes, just sometimes better than his cuppa.)
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nomairuins · 6 days
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no sims 5 . guys im gonna
#UGHHHH . like. i get theyre planning on just updating the sims 4 for fucking ever but like. i feel like its such a shit base and theres only#so much you can do#its been running for 10 years atp like.#idk man i was hoping for sims 5 bad bc i wanted to just have it be like. Well made from the start and like. i hate the current way packs r#structured and if its gonna stay sims 4 thats gonna continue to be the standard. ughhhhh.#also idk how i feel abt cc kits like. i like tht the creators will be paid for work and that console players can have cc or whatever but#idk . i already dont particularly like Kits i think like. idk.... i kinda wish the cc kits would just be free but the creators Obviously r#still played. or have something similar to like#is it like. bethesda i think has its own mod thing that works on console.. itd be nice to have something like that instead#but also ig asking ea to maintain an online gallery of any sort is sort of asking to be disappointed LOL#idk man. im just bummed.... i feel like itd be better to just. leave ts4 behind and if they rly want to Divert from linear sims games they#should like#Make a game that's BUILT for that like. a sturdy foundation that would make ppl want to keep playing so long. idk..#and also like..so many features i personally would want in a sims 5 arent like. things that could be updated in ts4#like we arent gonna ever get open neighborhoods like ts3#and i get those were laggy for a lot of ppl but i honest to goodness feel like it could be optimized and fixed#But. that would be work for ea DJFNFJFN so. wtvr#sry. i try to be like. charitable ik the actual sims team work hard and stuff but it feels like nothing is given the time it needs to be#fully thought out..#also like. 1. i dont think ea would have Paid fixes for their jank ass game which is one of the biggest benefits of mods#at least id hope they wouldnt thatd be disgusting. but like. i feel like a sizable subset of mod benefits is the fixes#like. whenever a new pack drops there are immediately 500 fixes for it in order for it to be At all functional or enjoyable 😭😭😭 idk ..#not that. idk ig it only said Creator focused kits so itll probably mostly be cas stuff anyway. but idk man... just a bit hrm to me#ig that does make sense. bc having gameplay mods or anything like that i dont think like. idk if ea would do patches for it or if theyd have#the creator do patches or what#idkidkidk. im just very .#also sims movie i dont careee im fucking sick of like. videogame franchise movies stop it. ik i dont have to see it i just think its lame.#and also im still mad abt the mc movie yeah.
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noellefan101 · 1 year
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Your First Date-Genshin
Characters: Xiao, Albedo, Venti, Cyno x gn reader (separate)
Summary: your first date(random headcanons of your first date with them)
Warnings: just fluff and small headcanons, also not proof-read
Note: i´m sry for the late(r) post, i have some family problems im trying to get rid of, but its taking a lot of my energy and motivation, hope you understand, i love you all
this is part 1, out of two(maybe three)
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Xiao
I feel like he would try and make it as romantic as he can, but he doesn't really get how. but he gets an A+ for trying
he definitely has some almond tofu, and just this once he´ll share some with you(thats not going to be the last time my dude)
for the location, i´d say someplace up high in liyue, so you can look down on either the city or whatever you see really(hilichurls dancing)
he accidentally stared at you too long, and started turned (very) red when you pointed it out(bro was a tomato lets be fr)
he gave you a hairpin(or a normal peice of jewlary, if you dont have hair/dont want a hairpin) that was made to look like his mask(so cute)
Albedo
it´d be up in dragonspine, lets be honest, it doesn't even have to be his lap up there(but it would be the safest so...)
he shows you some alchemy if you want
or he paints with you/teaches you how to paint kinda like him
^^he also painted you looking out at the horizon(you pretty motherf*cker)
if you´re cold, he´ll give you his jacket/he also thought the blush on your cheeks were cute as he did so/
^^he "forgot" to take his jacket back, and you didnt realize you still had it on/you now own one of his jackets/
he gave you some artificial flowers he made, could be in front of you, and made that his little gift for you
Venti
its at windrise, you had your first date at windrise, you cannot tell me otherwise ok
he brought dandelion wine(shocker), and he actually shared it with you(he normally would never)
besides wine, he also brought some apples, and an apple pie(that he made with love and care)
he´ll definitely climb the big tree with you and sit up there
he would steal your jacket if he got cold(you´ll be fine, you´re going to have to carry him home anyway)
he was thinking abt riding davalin on your first date, but he didnt want to scare you(davalin thought it was a horrible idea)
Cyno
you would be playing cards, you cant convince me otherwise
it would either be in Puspa cafe or at his house, he lets you decide
he would also help you win over him, or basically teach you how to be good
^^you never actually won, sadly
you would either cook food together, buy some(his treat), or he would have made your favorites before you came over(yes he knew your fav beforehand)
he asked tighnari for help with a gift, because he couldn't decide of something to give you(tighnari mentally facepalmed when cyno asked, its not he would know)
^^he ended up picking either a piece of jewelry, a tcg card or a piece of clothing(depends on what you like)
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desmond69miles · 2 years
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YOOOO =3
can we get sfw + nsfw headcannons of ink demon bendy with a s/o with a really gothic style & is selectively mute? ( bonus points if Sammy constantly bugs them )
im genuinely curious abt how u would think abt it :0
[ take ur time answering this!! no rush at all by the way!! ; also sorry if my grammars kinda bad iys 3:37 am where im at rn + sry if i seem hyper to im just rlly excited rn😭
i’ve been gone for butt fuck long, my bad! I'm in the process of moving and lifes been a bit hectic. Hopefully im back now!
anyway, thank you anon for the bendy ask!! love writing for this inky-ass man.-
NSFW is under the cut!
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[-: If we were to give bendy preferences, I know he'd go for a gothic s/o who is on the chubbier side. I say chubbier because A) body warmth, Bendy's a cold-blooded creature and he liked the feeling of your warm body and B) He likes your squishy thighs and tummy. And I know he’d be attracted to the darker, more gothic style. Inky black colors, blood red dresses, he likes the colors. 
[-: I think the ink demon would be good with someone that was mute or had periods of time where they were mute. Whether it be due to anxiety, overstimulation, or you just don’t have many words one day, I think he’d be understanding and would work around it. For many years, he didn’t have a voice, resorting to scribbling messy letters on walls and papers to communicate. If you want to talk while your mute, he’d simply lend you his hand so you can scribble on the wall with it; or he’ll carry around a sketchbook for you to write in, but more often than not he just makes you write with his claws. 
[-: I like the idea of Sammy bugging you all the time because he's interested in your music. It's so different from a classical tune, the drums and guitar, the vocals. He’d constantly be asking about your music. And since goth is a music-based subculture, you have a lot of music to show Sammy. 
[-: Going back to Bendy liking your style, he’d fiddle around with your clothing or accessories. He likes the bling of your necklaces and rings, and often plays with them when you are sitting together. He tries not to break anything, but accidents happen when you have sharp claws. If you do rat-nest hair, rest assured Bendy is curious on how you get your hair to do that. 
[-: I feel like Bendy would find you some victorian or romantic gothic outfits around the studio. He likes taking you to the costume department and letting you run around, picking up some of the black clothing used for character study. Another thing is that he collects small trinkets he think you would think is cool. Sometimes it’s a small rock, other times its a shiny gem he found in a pipe. 
[-: Bendy and Sammy get into a lot of fights around you, for your attention. Sammy wants to learn more about your subculture and what you remember from the outside world while Bendy wants to draw or walk around the studio with you. Good luck time managing. 
[-: Bendy is very interested in your makeup. Please let him draw on you! Speaking of drawing, he also likes to sketch you. His drawings are a bit blotchy and inky due to his skin, and often he'll mess up on a part by lingering too long and having ink form a puddle.
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[-: He chokes you with your necklaces, not to the point of them breaking but just enough so the chains and pearls dig into your throat.
[-: oh my god he loves your thigh highs. He nibbles around the soft flesh, forked tongue darting around and leaving opaque trails of ink behind. Just no promises that he won’t tear the thin fabric off!!
[-: Relating to the one where he draws on you, he’d love to lightly drag his claws over your stomach, back, or thighs and create delicate drawings onto your skin. Take this as a form of foreplay. (Which bendy isn’t exactly fond of, hes too impatient to go through it.)
[-: Bendy has a scent kink. I believe that he’s blind/has very poor eyesight and relies on noises and scent to find his prey. And his scent is very sensitive. He’ll ask if you can use non-strong soap or something that doesn’t upset his senses. Besides this, he likes to smell your clothing or even your undergarments.
Since i’m nice i’ll give you some elements of a fic i’m working on…
[-: Bendy’s ink that comes from his tentacles and/or cock act as an aphrodisiac. Providing a muscle relaxant and lube, it makes it easier for him to fit more and more of himself into you. He’s a big guy! Ranging at almost eight feet, it’s no surprise that he’s packing something big.
[-: Bendy’s big on CNC/Predator/Prey play. When you talk with him about safe words and the proper measures to have a safe time during CNC, Bendy gets really excited. He’s a demon, creatures of carnal lust and sin.
[-: He also loves to be worshipped. As Sammy has taught him, he’s somewhat of a god to this inky realm and he expects to be treated as one. Sammy does annoy him with his constant spouting, but he’s not opposed to you calling him Lord.
thank you for your request <3 My ask box is always open!! Feel free to send in batim requests.
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wr0wn · 9 days
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I honestly feel bad for asking but would you be up for drawing Leon as the creature from Lisa Frankenstein??
For context: I make bots (cringe cope hobby) and I prefer to use fan art (with full credits and lots of love bcause I'm an art simp) because it just feels fuller than AI or some screenshot and there's so much cool art that needs to be seen more T.T
I just watched the movie (great film, def recommend) and I wanted to make a bot and all that jazz, BUT I ain't got nothing to match the vibe.
I'd pay but I'm kinda in the low lower side of society (Skill issue). And if you're not interested feel free to ignore this and pretend I don't exist I will take no offense and fully acknowledge how annoying this is (I'm sorry og).
Like you put so much into your art and its so good and also its annoying when people bother for stuff but I figured it didn't hurt to ask.
Sry 4 long msge im delirious :p
I'll see what I can do :)
I'm on vacation now, and I don't have a tablet with me
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recklessmatt · 4 months
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heyy so im new to this school i now go to and i have a crush on this guy and im trying to talk to him more but idrk what to talk to him abt so do u have any like sugestions on what to say to him? we are already past talking abt our hobbies and fav movies and songs and sfuff like that but idk i wanna talk to him more. also sry for yapping 😭
omg wait this is so cute (do not ever apologize for yapping bitch) ok since i am naturally a quiet person myself and i can’t hold a conversation well but i want to talk to someone i always ask them like “top 3” questions 😭 the triplets gave me the idea so everytime i meet someone im like “what’s your top 3 cheeses” or “what’s your top 3 sodas” even tho its kinda goofy i feel like its a good conversation starter and you can learn more about the person SORRY THIS WAS LONG AHH
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Hey so. its been a while. I havent had a lot of energy these past few weeks and when I did I didnt really wanna spend that energy on this bad book series, but its the weekend and its been wayyyy too long and I need to finish ACOMAF before shit starts falling out of my sieve of a brain. As always, I am motivating myself with the prospect of contuining to work on a proshot of the takarazuka production elisabeth after this, the 2014 flower troupe one specifically ^-^ or maybe I'll watch a fucked up black and white movie from the 20s thats two and a half hours long, we'll see
Today we're reading chapter 53, the precursor to The most infamous chapter 54. Im not gonna lie, I kinda forgot most of what happened last time. There was a mate reveal, Rhysand was being really pathetic which made him hot to me for the first time in about 600 pages of me knowing him, Feyre was super pissed so they sent her to the mountain cabin to cool off a bit and paint, i think thats it
is it just me or is it kinda weird that Feyre is fantasizing about green grass and flowers and flowing rivers when the NC so far has been defined by being a very wintery place. Like yeah, obviously they have seasons in the solar courts but like, theres a lot of mountains which means a lot of snow, its the most nothern court etc
And Feyre didnt like winter in the first book because she associated it with bad times at the cabin so that makes sense but idk. I feel like if youre retconning her so much already you could easily wrie something about how she actually likes winter now that she has the power to withstand it or something but no, sure, have her fantasize about very spring-y weather in the book where the spring court gets demonized to hell and back why not
'[Rhysand] would give me the money for my shop, for what I was offering would cost nothing. Maybe I would sell my paintings to pay him back the money. Because I wanted to do that under any corcumstance, soulmates or not.' I was gonna write something snarky about Feyre in ACOSF but then it hit me that shes never going to have financial independance from Rhysand ever again and now Im just sad and anxious for her
(sry, im too lazy to translate this whole paragraph rn) '[Rhysand and I would do a bunch of fun stuff that couples do.] Never again someones slave or whore.' Its so wild to me that shes saying all this about the guy who made her his slave and whore MULTIPLE TIMES AT THIS POINT. like hey sarah, do you think your readers dont remember all that? do you think constantly calling back to it will make them forget somehow
Ive seen some people describe this book as gaslighting and honestly, its not even that its just lying. this story is just a bunch of lies that keep contradicting or otherwise disturbing eachother because the person telling it isnt even a good liar
Okayyyyy this chapter was a lot shorter than anticipated can you tell i dont plan these out at all but i dont feel like doing more than this and also while I was reading i got a really good idea for an Anastasia AU for a different fandom im in and I keep getting distracted and I wanna start working on it as soon as possible. And also, I'd like to be focused when I finally read that most infamous of chapters, thank you and good afternoon
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teyvatrose · 12 days
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NESSAAA I HAVE UPDATEEE (kind of)
i was that girl who shifted to jjk and had that dilemma about megumi. i saw ur advice (tysm for taking time to help me btw) and thought abt it and finally swallowed my nerves to shift back.
so i kinda wanna take it slow and start by having more private/quiet time with him (hes usually a bit more expressive that way), then maybe work it up from there idk.
so i was outside his school (oh yea im homeschooled and hes in school school) and was waiting for him to come out. and GIRL. all that courage i worked up GONE the second i saw him SKCNEKCNDKKE so i kinda chickened out on asking if we could go for a walk so instead i asked what his plans were that day. he said he was going to see maki since shes teaching him how to fight with weapons. basically, he’s busy. tbh i felt both bummed out yet relieved at the same time cus i wont have to confront him just yet LOL. but then he asked if i wanted to join. u see, at this time maki was a first year at jujutsu high. ive met maki and i think shes cool but she lowkey kinda scares me as well. so i kinda hesitated to say yes. but anyways i didnt rly give him an answer and we both just walked to jujutsu high tgt. gojo was there when we first arrived. he called me aside so i followed him while megumi left to meet maki. fast forward, i finally got to the field megumi and maki were at and seeing him kinda made me question if i should rly say anything again (ik ik im confusing IM SRY). but yea i walked closer until they noticed me. megumi turned to me (SWEATY AND HOT MY GOOD LORD AHHHH sry) and looked at the bottle i was holding and asked he could have a drink. tbh i was kinda out of it when he took the bottle and drank it WHILE LOOKING AT ME. idk how to explain but basically he was drinking with the bottle tilted rly high as his eyes kinda just stared down at me. in that moment i think i noticed but i still felt too out of it to rly react tbh. so he gave the bottle back and ig he noticed how i was and asked if i was alright and pointed out how off i was acting today. and i did it. i bit the bullet. kind of. i said that i just rly wanted time with him. i just looked away so i didnt rly see his reaction. but he was quiet for a few seconds then was like “oh” then he turned to maki and asked if he could have a break for a bit. maki wasnt too happy (not that she was mad but more like she was saying “u should be practicing but ok”) then she said sure but dont take too long. we didnt go too far, still around the field. it was lowkey kinda awkward and quiet. then he asked me if i was feeling alright and if something was bothering me. no words came out my mouth and i kept avoiding looking at him. i think he noticed cus from my side vision i kinda saw him move his head around to be in front of my vision if that makes sense. i was struggling to say much so instead he kind of just opened his arms for me. i turned to him kinda surprised and his expression was like kinda awkward but also like“come here” (hes not very up front with affection or physical touch usually) then he said how if it was too hard saying it then i didnt have to. and GIRLL SLSKFIEK AHHHHHHH HES NOT MAKING IT ANY EASIER I SWEAR!!!! but anyways i was just so touched. he was so frickin sweet that i just wanted to break down then and there. so despite him being sweaty, i walked into his hug and omg his arms held me so gently SKCNEKFK AHHHKDUDJFKKF. he didnt move the entire time until i finally pulled back. he asked me if i felt better and i just said thank u and how he doesnt know how much he means to me (but i said it more in a way friend-way tone. like u dont even know how much u mean to me in a friendly joking way ig). but then he kinda smiled and was like “maybe u should tell me”. and GAHHH THIS WAS THE PERFECT MKMENT FOR ME TO LITERALLY SAY ANYTHING. literally i was gonna admit how i think i have feelings for him, maki called from afar and the moment just broke 😭😭 i dont blame her. technically its my fault. i shouldve just said something instead of being so indecisive. but like megumi kinda looked back at me kinda like to ask if i was alright if he left. i nodded and he ran back to train. and yk, even though it wasnt exactly what i wanted, i still feel pretty good. baby steps lol
i hope that was understandable. i just woke up so my thoughts r still kinda jumbled and i just wanted to write things down as fast as i could once i came back.
i also wanted to thank u since theres not many ppl i can talk abt my feelings to. in that reality, i pretty much just stay home, study, train, repeat. i dont rly have much friends my age or close enough that i feel comfortable being vulnerable with. in this reality, i cant rly tell my friends cus they dont seem like ppl who would understand shifting. so thank u for listening lol and giving us an anonymous platform to share stuff 🤧🤧
BRUHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HE LIKES YOU FR!
THIS IS HUGE PROGRESS EVEN IF IT DIDNT "HAPPEN"
IM SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!
and im like genuinely 100% sure he likes you too
this is actually so similar to what happened with me and diluc and im not kidding
PLEASE KEEP ME UPDATED <3
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psychoticcultureis · 2 months
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hi this is kinda random. So my family has a genetic predisposition to mood disorders (esp. forms of bipolar) and i have relatives that did go through psychotic breaks. I definitely have mania and I'll hear people calling my name, specifically my mom. I'll see silhouettes of my cat when I know he isn't there??? But then again these might be just normal things. Maybe my mom is actually calling my name or I'm hearing something else? None of these are really that detailed at all, but they are sort of always around. I haven't had any persisting delusions that I'm aware of. Unless you would consider hypochondria a type of delusion? Like I would get a pain in my side as a young kid and would fully expect to not wake up the next day. I definitely have some traits of paranoia, when I get stressed enough I feel like I'm being watched, have an urge to cover windows, hide, etcetera. I don't have spiritual delusions as far as I can tell, but I do think I'm relatively smarter/more in-tune than others? I spend a lot of time thinking about the nature of existence, and have my whole life. It's taken me into concepts like tupamancy and the ways thoughtforms can interact with quantum particles. (which took me into syscourse and I did have a manic episode where I was worried about being doxxed??). Either way discovering my mood disorder and the psychosis in the family has made me start to doubt beliefs that I already have. Or can you have a delusion that you're delusional? I just don't feel as if I belong in spaces like this because I haven't had a break, persisting delusions, or severe hallucinations. I can tell that I'm a bit manic atm so sry for any rambling or unreadable stuff lol
(also ty for this blog!!!!)
im so sorry that it took me so long to get to this, ive been low on spoons for a while. i dont want to pass any kind of judgement on whether you belong in spaces like this, but if it helps i experience similar hallucinations myself. i used to have much more severe hallucinations, but now it is mostly phantom cats and people calling for me that aren't there.
i wouldnt say hypochondria is a delusion on its own, but past a certain point it could be classed as one if you're unable to shake the belief despite evidence to the contrary. im maybe not as qualified to speak on it though? since i experience pretty severe hypochondria myself after having been hospitalized a lot throughout my childhood, so its mainly trauma based for me.
i think if spaces like this are beneficial to you, or you can relate to anything being said, you have a place here, no matter how minor your symptoms are, and despite not having had a clear break.
its been long enough that i hope you're doing alright after your manic episode, i know they can take a lot out of you. get some rest if you can, im sorry again that this took a while.
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enlighten3d · 5 months
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sending two asks instead of one combined for reasons akdhkshd
do you have any silly josh hcs? (or any of my characters however i think you might have more for josh idk idk)
OKAY. third time trying to answer these asks (my brain is Stupid) sry its taken so long /g
FUCK YEAH DO I. OKAY. ive probablement mentioned a couple of thesebahfjdjdk. i love making shit up about him
- josh is claustrophobic!! he hates enclosed spaces and therefore avoids the subway like the plague if hes in a place that has one. busses are better but also Bad bcs well. heres the kicker. HE ALSO HAS CLEITHROPHOBIA !! thats the fear of being trapped. these two work in tandem a lot for him. he does not do well on a lot of days bcs well,, weve been over this. hes a bird in a birdcage, ergo he is trapped. he suffers ):
- hes like, reallt bad at minecraft, and video games in general. hes just Not a gamer boy /silly
- hes autistic in my heart. (idk if this is canon or not HEHDJS)
- he like, reallt doesnt like coffee .... chamomile tea and honey guy 👍👍
also, hcs for others !!:
- huan lin, if he could, would get into fashion i think. he seems like a fashion guy ! hed be shittalking ppls outfit choices as a ghost that haunts janette ...
- janette is a coffee girl through and through. drinks too much of the stuff.
- BEFORE THEY WERE ENEMIES, WHILE THEY WERE FWB AND ADELE THOUGHT THAT THEY WERE ROMANTIC DESPITE JANETTE MAKING IT CLEAR THAT THEYRE NOT (thats what happened right). SO DURING THAT TIME. adele. adele gave josh yellow flowers the night after right (as i decided in the poem i sent earlier. its canon to me Ɛ>). SO. ..she also later gives janette blue flowers (maybe the same sort thst kills them??) in a weird Move bcs theyre romantic in her mind and yes yiu can give flwoers to friends just shes like. clear thst thars not what she thinks and janette is weirded out a bit but yeah.
I AM INSERTING FORESHADOWING INTO YOUR STORY. i love foreshadowing. (im rly sorry if im. making too much shit up shdjdjfb; i HAVE judt kinda ran with sun stuff...)
- adele reallt likes iced tea. idk why. she jhst does.
- carmela, for some reason, gives me the vibes of someone who likes baking, so. in my head she does lots of that when/if possible [:
👍👍 i like making things up..... djdjskfn
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yuukei-yikes · 2 years
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can we get uhhhhhh some hibiya thoughts
yes. yes. yes. i fucking love hibiya. he's LITERALLY A LITTLE GUY when i got into kagepro he was one of my faves actually cuz he was the closest to my age at the time. i was 13… im 22 now! lol thats not weird at all *eye twitch* sry ive been weird abt the passage of time lately. erm wait this isnt my therapy session <- doesnt go to therapy
HIBIYA. LITTLE GUY. my thoughts on him………honestly, i recently reread all the novels and god his intro chapters were HARD to read. all the creepy stuff abt hiyori yknow. i was cringing so hard. i kinda wanna ignore it bc i'd rather do that with the weird bits kagepro has to offer, but not to get rid of it completely. like id take away hibiyas whole thing abt a collection of hiyori pics but still keep the aspect of him that worships her. and how that dynamic would COMPLETELY go away post str.
post str hibiya is VERY different from how he started out. i mean. 10 year old timeloop…. he hasn't grown at all mentally like he has to process all this with his 12 year old brain, but going through all he did he just kinda looks at things rly differently now. not obsessed with hiyori, for one…. and she's also different to him. their relationship changes drastically bc now they both respect each other LOL listen i know im annoying with my codependent relationship headcanons but… eyes hibiya and hiyori
these bitches are 12. spent 10 years watching each other die over and over and literally die for each other. AND THEN THEY GET EACH OTHER BACK? ERM. yeah theyre NOT letting go of each other. its not so much codependency as much as it is awful awful awful separation anxiety. god are there any fics of hibiya and hiyori going back home and having a breakdown at having to separate and go to their own houses (bc in the city they were living together so it doesnt hit that they need to separate until they go home)???
hiyori would still be kinda bitchy and bossy but definitely not horrible to hibiya. and also her attitude hits different when she's also always holding his hand and refusing to go anywhere without him and throwing tantrums when any of the dan members even imply any activity that would require to separate them. and she wouldnt rly be embarrassed abt it i think hiyori would be super open and vocal abt HIBIYA HAS TO BE WITH ME ALL THE TIME !!!!!! and hibiya isnt even flustered hes just like *NODDING NODDING NODDING* bc he's the same with her. girl… SEPARATION ANXIETY HIBIHIYO<3 mekadan so sick in the head <3 they have 78 undiagnosed mental illnesses <3
not to make it abt my future headcanons of psych major hibiya but. new generations man. hibiya is 10000% the one in the dan going like GUYS WHAT HAPPENED TO US WAS SOOOO MESSED UP and everyone's like lol yeah !!!! and he's like DONT LOL ABOUT THIS IM FUCKING SERIOUS??? especially since he's such a fucking outsider to everything like everyone else's been experiencing all these tragedies since they were born and he just kinda. had a normal life before? and like i said NEW GENERATIONS MAN THEYRE PSYCHOANALYSING THEMSELVES AND EVERYONE AROUND THEM…. the dan is so used to this shit that they kinda lmao rock and roll thru it and hibiyas like NO. NO. NO. EVERYONE. THERAPY. NOW!!!!!! it becomes his special interest he starts getting all into psychology and when he comes back to the city for his visits suddenly he's diagnosing everyone with stuff and the dans like *shaking* MAKE THE KID SHUT UP also realises he has separation anxiety with hiyori and works on it. hiyori is surprisingly the one most terrified of letting go. and like i said…. 10 year long time loop being processed in a 12/13 year old brain.. hibiya is SUPER self aware. he makes sure of it
ok and. heh. haruka. THE WHOLE HIBIYA HIYORI AND HARUKA THING COULD BE ITS OWN POST… SO… IM LEAVING IT HERE CUZ THIS IS ALREADY SUPER LONG but im just gonna say. hibiya's IN DENIAL of konoha being gone. he keeps expecting haruka to go away. hibiya THINKS he's super mature, and he is for his age bc of all this shit and his willingness to understand his problems and everyone else's. and everyone else also think he is mature, but this is just something he can't stop being a 12 year old about. his friend is gone! WHY does it have to be gone!?!? especially in an ending where hiyori is back. if she wasnt, then he'd be more accepting of the losses bc there were 2 both konoha and hiyori and like it becomes another whole thing abt letting go and mourning but if she is back…everything is supposed to be perfect!! everyone made it back!! why couldn't konoha? why does it have to be gone? its not fair! he doesnt care this haruka was the body's true owner!! konoha was his friend! it also deserved to live as much as this haruka guy!!! why is HE more important!!!?!?!?!? and he just. he's just insanely immature abt it. and he knows he is but truth is he's just really fucking sad and regretful about konoha being gone. i could also talk about hiyori and harukas feelings abt it but heheh yeah this is super long. erm. hibiyita el chiquito <3 hibiya throwing a tantrum in front of the whole dan abt how it isnt fair and how he wishes haruka would just die. LMAO. he is 12. if anyone has fic commissions open Eye eye
also erm wholesome one before i end it. he makes little miniature dolls of the whole dan<3 he's BAD at typing on his new smartphone but since he lives away hes always texting in the gc<3 he gets super into mobile games<3 amongus fan hibiya asking all his grownup friends with jobs and no time for amongus if anyone can play with him<3 they do bc theyre busy but there will always be time to amongus with friends<3
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changbinsboobs · 9 days
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im the anon from before: told ya in my chan observations "knowing chan and his tendencies for a victim-complex, pick me, delulu and stuff" bound to cause some issues in his personal relationships but also this is why lee know is my fave out of the two bro would not give two hoots compared to chan who seems always on edge, kinda not trouble maker but doesnt mind stirring the pot to make a mountain out of a molehill.
although I do blame their coddeling from the companies for their inability to have stable relationships because they cant seemingly get out of their own delulu bubble (mainly chan).
u know what im also glad for these readings for? bc it makes me less delulu about certain idols lmao, its weird because some idols i thought would have dreadful personalities or types do not and its the ones that i have suspicions of and chan was one of them mainly due to his overly unhealthy attachments to stay but now i still find him interesting i just dont know if i would date him? yaknow? i think sometimes an idol having very very specific ideals can limit their overal perspective in dating bc theyre not really seeing someone for their personality or their natural charms or anything else its literally all about other attributes that they maybe look too much into and not giving some others enough chance becaude if u only look on the outside u never going to see ppl in different way, its very concieted. like what if chan met someone who fitted the appearsnce he wanted but they also had toxic behaviours or would just use him? he would still prolly date that person. im sure the girl he was with was lovely but no one wants to babysit a grown man. period. he actually gives manchild vibes no fr
honestly if anything i dont want him to be defamed cause she may or may not use it against him even if she sign nda but if hes that toxic it may very well backfire even further. i think he would be better more as friend material than romantic but he said he wanted family as well in snother reading. bro got a lot of growth to do before any of that
i hope other stay who maybe too deluded to see thru his behaviour i hope they somehow learn abt it thru readings cause itd suck to put so much attention and for it to all be unhealthy and shit
So first things first - my personal opinion is that nowadays there's just s HUGE gap between men and women in terms of being a a well rounded, capable, mature human being. Sadly. And so i i wouldn't necessarily put the blame on the companies but rather just on the guy himself - at the end of the day he chose that path and no matter what ur environment is you can still learn and choose to be well rounded human being - like thats on u bro🥲and i also do see him as a man child, sry not sry. Ive noticed that for a very long while actually and i think he knows that on some level too and thats part of the reason why he pushes that "taking care of y'all" image on himself so mich to try and make up for what he on the inside knows that he lacks.
And i think too he would date someone for SURE that he finds attractive but knows they're toxic cuz lets be honest - lots of people do😂 some people just crave toxicity and some people are toxic themselves and like attracts like.
Also i don't think the situation is that bad for him to be defamed - as i said i think the whole thing was much bigger in his perception than it probably was for the girl. I don't think he was toxic to the extent where he would be hurting anyone other than himself. In fact i think his toxic is rather embarrassing than hurtful. Its the type where you just sit there in shock and wonder how someone like him, with a certain image, status, money, power even, life experience etc - can act and be so immature and cringey. I think he could also be someone that would be kinda gaslighting but not out of malice but rather because he's just too sensitive and cant regulate his emotions so well hence why he can't really grasp the situation in a right way. But thats as far as it gets.
As negative as readings like that might sound im actually happy to read on energy like that because as you sed it helps delude people a bit and also just plain shows you a persons bad side (which we all have) and makes them much more human. And the best part - i would much rather stan an idol thats a manchild and is just a bit cringey, than stanning an abuser and not knowing it. That way you at least know his red flacks aren't THAT type of RED iykwim...👀
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valveposts · 2 years
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here they are! rescue bots jerking off headcanons as promised
heatwave
for a long time, mainly used his spike and avoided his valve
likes the face-down ass-up position while masturbating
eventually realized he liked using his valve just as much if not more, and began experimenting with fingering himself as well as using toys. realized he's a bit of a size queen and also enjoys just,, cockwarming his toys sometimes
once put a toy in his valve and then shut his pelvic panel because someone walked in on him… then had to go on a mission like that. worst job he's over worked lmao he was trying so hard not to let kade know
tried self-bondage once but just got himself tangled and annoyed
(dw he'll soon realize its a LOT more fun when someone else ties him up)
blades
VERY horny boy
found several human porn sites
knows all the human porn/sex terms and anatomy
and hes… kinda into it
jerks off thinking of fucking a human even tho he knows its not realistic
watches both cybertronian and human porn
slowly discovering his size difference kink
uses his spike more often but when hes in the mood, he loves using his valve too. sometimes uses both at once
doesnt have toys but uses his fingers very well
likes to lay on his back or sit on something while masturbating
boulder
aroace but still has a libido sometimes
kinda just does it to get rid of his charge
uses either his spike or his valve, whatever is most convenient at the time, usually spike is easier
probably has one highly specific kink that is the only thing in the world that can get him going
sry for inaccuracies i am not ace ;-; im just guessing based on what ace friends have told me
usually just sits to masturbate
chase
very vanilla except when it comes to being ordered around
so he sometimes watches (cybertronian) bdsm porn
likes to put his fingers in his valve and then close his legs tight around his hand and jerk off like that
always closes his eyes when he masturbates
likes using both his spike and his valve, but prefers valve for masturbation and spike for actual interfacing
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ko-odi · 10 months
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I'm the guy who submitted the anon ask before (where u drew me a pic of Drake, thank u so much I will cherish it for the rest of my life!!!) and I'm in need of some Haunted headcanon inspo for a dnd game I'm trying to run soon!! Tell me some of ur headcanons, no matter how obscure, small, or seemingly insignificant
SRY THIS TOOK SO LONGGGG i. forgort BUT HERE R A FEW !!! :D some of these are my own and some of these are me parroting things ive heard from the haunted discord that i love (u should totally join the discord btw its fun i can give an inv to anyone not already there if anyone wants one!!)
-Drakes issues regarding tone and reading the room, such as 1) his default mode of speaking being thru sarcasm (no hes really not always trying to be rude, thats just how he communicates 😭), and 2) cracking jokes or quips at inappropriate times (like when graysons house was burning down and drake was all like “wow grayson sure does love his secret hatches lawl” and “he should really rethink his escape routes for next time haha!” like drake this is NOT THE TIME). Im not saying hes NOT sassy or rude (because he totally is <3) but like. its not ALWAYS ON PURPOSE OK LMAO he is autistic 🫶
-somewhat related to this is that i hc that he says cheesy lines like “erm… hes RIGHT behind me isnt he” and “um guys, you MIGHT wanna take a look at this…” all the time, and he does so bcs he repeats phrases hes read in books (or from movies/shows he saw before traveling to the future or whatever) a lot. either that or he just Says That Stuff which is almost funnier
-drakes sleeping schedule SUCKS dude and a big parta that is cuz enderman are nocturnal and his internal clock is all messed up. (the water up on his mountain canonically helps him sleep tho im pretty sure?)
-his bodys kinda awkward to move around in, and hes always tripping over his feet or bumping into stuff (hes just like me fr….)
-this ones odd, but the subspecies of enderman that drake is fused(??) with have rings all over their body that they use to light up dark areas (such as caves), and to communicate (blinking lights like fireflies, bright flashes to intimidate others, are dim when sick, etc). Theyre able to control this using their natural magic or whatever. HOWEVERRR drake is unable to control his himself! His rings are stuck at a set brightness, and he cant “turn them off”, leading him to always be expelling a small but steady amount of magic. This is part of why he runs out of mana faster than other magic users/enderman, and is part of why he tries not to waste his mana when possible.
-related to above, hes not ab magic doesnt last very long, but is very volatile and powerful in bursts. this is the OTHER reason he doesnt use magic willy nilly .. he has to learn how to harness it properly or else he might end up hurting people by accident (this might literally be canon but i thought id mention it anyway)
-in the haunting one, hes always stating things abt himself that we never actually get to see (like when he calls himself the builder, or good at parkour, or when armen said that he had a problem with breaking windows???? 😭) so i like to think that those are just collins memories slipping thru the cracks, and those memories dont rly belong to/are about drake at all. theres probably other shared fuzzy memories he has from collin too (like ruby shire perhaps) so thats super fun to play with!! I think this might actually be also canon but yk
-ARMEN iiii love this guy ok so i love to hc that, after hes revived/saved (IF you want to go that route!), he comes back not dead, but not quite alive either…. hes like sorta half and half to me lol. or maybe hes alive, but coming back to life has some side effects (like being cold all the time for example). Hes also suuuper sleepy all the time after hes saved LET HIM SNOOZE dude.
as much as it pains me, I also love the hc that armen comes back with his memory wiped (i think this is close to where the intended canon was supposed to head as well!). You can either go the “his memory is totally wiped, which effectively makes him a new person” route, the “his memory is wiped back to the fall into the lava, right before HB possessed him” route, or the “his memory gets wiped to before HB was involved in his life whatsoever” route. I like all 3 options aaaah idk what my favorite is!!! i’ll probably talk in depth abt these in a different post later bcs the fact that it adds more parallels between him and collin/drake makes me insane. either way he will sometimes have unexplainable deja-vu and things will feel familiar to him.
-armen is super cold all the time (always wearing sweaters and stuff) while drake is super warm all the time (always wearing thin clothes. but this is cuz hes always expelling some sorta magical energy involuntarily, so when he runs outta mana he gets cold as well) this isnt important or anything i just like it :3c
-i like to think that despite his affinity towards it before the fall, he tries to avoid combat & conflict when possible post-possession/revival. very “uhh im a lover not a fighter haha ..” (<- could kick your butt if he tried) vibes. or maybe he lost all combat ability post revival and totally sucks now !! either way man just wants to chill (he is traumatized)
-MIA shes lowkey scared of being on the water after her and her sisters shipwreck, the day she was captured by the empire. she probably slips back into familiarity when they take over that airship one time tho- maybe she gets an airship of her own in the future o:? haunted group sky pirate crew when 🤨???
-along with magic, she also GETS INTO ALCHEMY/CHEMISTRY !!! its like.. magic ??? without needing to provide any ACTUAL magical power yourself?? thats so fucking sick ok. She and drake do magicy-sciencey experiments together and they end up blowing stuff up a lot. despite what drake says, they BOTH enjoy the chaos.
-mia and armen would be BEST. FRIENDS. i think abt mia armen friendship literally all the time they would be so chaotic and thoughtful with each other i love mia armen friendship sm. maybe mia helps style his hair like hers since its grown out later :] They are so sibling core to me
-related to both yhings above, she shares her love of learning with armen. They learn tons of random stuff together :D chemistry archeology history magic biology etc. Mia loves learning anything she can get her hands on, and armen feels the need to learn everything he missed while he was gone.
(sidenote: if he comes back with completely wiped memory, him learning all different sorts of subjects is him trying to figure out what he enjoys, and who he is as a person. “building himself up from ground zero”. and mias glad to help ): <3)
-MIA AND GRAYSON ARE ALSO SIBLING CORE !!!!!!!!!! you are NOT immune to the “mia is everyones sister” propaganda …. im mind controlling you ….
-grayson my GUY dude ok. not rly a hc and more of an observation but i loooove how hes so serious and pessimistic all the time but hes also like…. friendly (yet distrusting) and silly (devouring and entire cake and being all like “:D” with a flower crown and slimey friend) like idk i just looav that contrast its yummy. cruel world forcing his joyous whimsey into hiding </3
-finds a sickening comfort in loneliness, while also being deeply afraid of it. no it is not healthy. i might have to describe this later, as ive not found the words to do so yet.!!! maybe others can add onto this if they wish :)))
-His wife was fucking awesome ok. She was totally anti-empire and wrote many pamphlets that hurt the emperor & his followers image under an anonymous name that spread around the public like wildfire. Did she initially start dating grayson to get more info on the empire without his knowledge? Was she herself high up in the empires chain of command, helping get grayson the job in the first place? Did grayson know and help his wife with her endeavors(im leaning towards yes but no would be fun)? idk but she was awesome and they committed treason together and were in love
-idk if im totally down with the idea, but graysons wife and/or kid ending up being ALIVE…. MANNN THAT COULD BE SO GOOD. SO DRAMA INDUCING. GRRRR i wanna play with this later
-if i start talking abt drake and grayson friendship i will not shut up about it so ill keep it BREIF ….. they are ambiguously romantic/ALMOST queerplatonic to me. they dont care abt labeling what they are, partially bcs they CANT. they r life partners who hold hands and find comfort in the others consistency and the stability their friendship brings. grayson calls drake his “darling husband” for shits and giggles and drake glares at him (while very obviously smiling). OK WE’RE DONE ..
-none of them are allocishet sorryyyy (<- not actually sorry at all) i can list out my queer hcs later if anyone wishes smile :))
-collin, luke, and lalea are still cooking in my head .. i dont have that many hcs abt them qwq i suggest looking to APPLE @apple-rose301 FOR THESE GUYS (she said i could @ her for this) and for any character hcs and analysis stuff tbh, their thoughts are basically canon to me /pos . would also love to hear EVERYONES THOUGHTS AND ANALYSES AND HCS EVER !!!! so if anyone sees this … u should totally list out ur own thoughts :)))) PLEASR PLEASEPLEA
i also have more thoughts on each character analysis wise, specifically the contrasts and parallels they have with each other and themselves, but that might be putttt into a different postttt
OH also sry for being more drake focused i loav drake he is my favorite guy ever ever .!! I HOPE THESE FEW LITTLE THOUGHTS ARE ALRIGHT THO TYSM FOR ASKINNGGGG (ALSO IM GLAD U LIKED THE DRAWING TYY) AND ALSO ID LOVE TO HEAR MORE ABT THIS DND CAMPAIGN HELLO ???
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segasys · 6 months
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Me again! This time my own curious mind has led me to ask this question, I remember that your survivor and Hunter were a couple, which made me think: What are your favorite slugcat ships? Would there be a top of which one you like best? It's just curiosity and gossip about this stupid girl who is bored with anxiety, nice night/day :3!
hope you have a nice day/night too!! i love getting asks like these, it makes it easier to share my headcanons and stuff without having to make a post "hey btw i think/my headcanon is..."
i honestly like a lot of ships, its kinda hard to pick a favorite, though here are some that are in my AUs and ill try to pick my tops:
list below, its long
inv-survivor = Reversal!!!! im absolutely feral about these two you have no idea!!! -inv-survivor-rivulet = i dont know if they have a name or not, but i call them PvP and i need propaganda spread!! im still deciding whether i want to add this ship to my main AU or not. they are so dear to me.
gourmand-spearmaster = CreamSoda!!! or better know as kebab, i just dont like kebab, sry. the first ships ive drawn! -theres also Ramune [riv-gorm-spears] but its not really one of my tops anymore :,<
Gourmand-Artificer = your honor, i love them!! ive also added spearmaster in their relationship in my main AU, the relationships in that AU get complex i feel. im sorry but i dont really like barbecue as a ship name, i might call them singularity[bomb] if that hasnt been used yet!!
Hunter-Survivor = Candycane!!! my candycane actually arent in a relationship anymore, they are through some part of my main AU, but they break up :[ i love them to bits though!!
hunter-inv-saint = this is a pretty big ship in one of my other AUs, omg, theyre awesome, angst angst angst. i think this ship is called virus, but i want to find something better for my AU.
some notable ships not in my AUs/still deciding if theyll be in an AU:
Spearmaster-Hunter = I freaking love Loveletter!!! i was going to add it to my main AU or at least have them be QPPs, but i think hunter angst is better hehehe. still havent decided if ill add this to another AU, since i really like CreamSoda, but i dont think it would work to add hunter, since gorm and hunter dont really like eachother.
Artificer-Rivulet = Bathbomb!!!! actually love these two, maybe ill draw something for them!!!
Artificer-Saint = 0-0 [hehehe]. idk what their ship name is, but i might make my own if i add them to an AU, which i think i did plan to.
i like error 404 [inv-night] i just dont really ship them that much since i headcanon them as cousins.
and lastly: monk-saint qpp and monk-night qpp for the win!!!
[sorry this is long lol] and now for my top ships!!!
CreamSoda, Singularity, Reversal, and Virus
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butchviking · 2 years
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can i say something. smthn mentally ill :) thanks. i dont know how to do a readmore on mobile sry :3
i spend a lot of time going back and forth on chest dysphoria and what uhh. Options. i would like to take or not take abt that. and in the end i always decide well this is my body and it is what it is and mental illness is tough but it happens and i know how to deal w it and i will always have ups and downs but my body is my body and i shouldnt hurt it just for existing. weirdest thing abt it is i spend so much time hating it but it never says a bad word about me, it's not perfect but it's mine, etc. and then as SOON as i go to a concert its like. no literally my life would be so much easier and im so so tired i just dont want to wear bras i dont want to wear binders i want to move and breathe freely i don't want things to move i don't want to worry about whats exposed u cant wear smthn loose enough to not constrict at all while still keeping things in place which by definition requires constriction. i wanna just BE. nd sometimes i think i am just wasting years that i could b spending feeling. free. choosing to NOT do that because ???. because why? can't remember. but i d. i don. i ddont wanna kill time like it doesnt matter. do u understand. i dont wanna kill time like it doesnt matter!! waited long enough to be this way!!! [s]he cant change for love [s]he explains how long [s]hes waited for [s]he wanted more. or whatever. u know. ps im also scared/resentful of going the gender clinic again cause they were fucking evil to me last time and theyre kinda evil in general and ohhhh i dont want 2 be involved with u people i do NOT want 2 be associated with. anything. but by god. i want 2 feel free. whys everything so stupid and weird whys everything such a big deal. i love 2 b dramatic about shit that does not even matter to most ppl i love to have a 7-year crisis just for the hell of it <3 someone just fucking knock me out and give me surgery dont even bother waiting for me to give the ok just do it im tired im tired im tired i feel like im always fighting but i dont even know what im fighting or why. sorry <3 i have 2 get this shit out sometimes <3 there are poisons in my brain i think. and i would never punish anyone to live like this it is your choice alone i would never punish anyone to live like this it is your choice alone i would never punish anyone to live like this it is your choice alone. whatever. 🫠
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