#and she was so right though and im upset /lh

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Yesterday I got kinkshamed by the Worm Queen 😭

[im-still-a-robot]

Man. Turnabout musical.

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ꪆৎ coffee break ﹫ lhs

; pair bf!heeseung x fem!reader ; sum coffee breaks are the only way heeseung can spend time with you at work ; genre fluff , office!au , established relatioinship

“coffee break?” a figure sat on your desk, leaning forward to meet your face. heat crept on your cheeks as the figure leaned closer pressing his lips to your cheek. your eyes widened slightly. “don’t do that, heeseung!” you whisper yelled. 

you were in a secret relationship with heeseung, although he didn’t really keep it a secret. instead, he winked at you, he always got way too close to be called friendly, and he was always seen with you. what can you say, he’s whipped.

“why not? i can kiss my girlfriend if i want to.” a pout formed on his lips. “plus, no ones here, they’re taking a lunch right now.” you looked around to make sure no one could’ve seen the small kiss heeseung gave you. “you’re lucky.”

heeseung chuckled. “you never answered my question.” you tilted your head, a smile appearing on your face as you met his eyes. “i have time. plus im a little hungry.” you placed your hand over your stomach. 

“great! let’s head to the lobby!” confusion filled your face. “the lobby? i thought you meant the break room!” you whined, knowing you didn’t have that much time. “you said you were hungry which means i’m gonna buy you something to eat, now lets go.”

you huffed, sliding your chair back. “before we go i need to file some papers.” heeseung nodded, standing up. “as long as you eat lunch with me.” you chuckled, grabbing the papers from your desk. “you’re whipped.” you said, with a soft smile. 

“how did you know?” heeseung placed a finger on his chin, looking up to the sky. “it’s not that obvious is it?” you bursted out laughing. “not at all.” heeseung hummed and followed you to file the papers.

once you were done filing your papers you went to the lobby with heeseung. some people were in line to order some coffee. you stood behind the last person and turned to heeseung. 

“why’d you want to have coffee in the lobby?” you crossed your arms and blinked waiting for heeseung to answer. “so i can get miss workaholic away from her computer.” you furrowed your brows shooting a glare to heeseung. 

you heard him chuckle next to you. you knew he wanted to hug you and for once you wanted him to give you a hug at your workplace. the only reason you have a secret relationship is because you’re very close with your coworkers and you know they’ll tease you nonstop.

a comfortable silence fell between you and heeseung. you watched many workers pass around like little ants working hard and trying their best. you smiled knowing they were doing their best for this company. 

“what do you want to eat?” heeseung spoke, breaking the silence. you looked at the menu. “grilled chicken with vegetables.” you noticed heeseung scrunching his face a bit. “why are you making that face?” heeseung shook his head. “its nothing.” 

“tell me!” you whined, gently punching his shoulder. “the vegetables.” you scoffed in disbelief. “you’re just like a little kid.” heeseung leaned closer to your face. “maybe i am one.” he smiled brightly, tilting his head slightly. 

you pushed him back softly. “whatever. we’re up next, you know what to order right?” heeseung nodded. you patted his shoulder, walking to a table to sit at. you watched heeseung order with a smile on your face. that same smile dropped when you noticed the girl flirting with heeseung.

you glared at her even though she would never notice. heeseung walked to your table after he finished ordering. “why do you look upset?” he asked while pulling out a chair to sit with you. “i don’t know, why don't you ask yourself?” heeseung widened his eyes. 

“that girl! she was flirting with you.” you pouted, looking down and playing with your fingers. heeseung grinned, grabbing your hands. “jealous much?” you pulled your hands from his. a glare and pout playing on your face. 

heeseung chuckled. he watched you with loving eyes. suddenly, your order was called, leaving you alone again. you noticed the girl slip heeseung a piece of paper. you sent another glare at her and waited for heeseung to sit back down.

“give me that paper.” heeseung gave it to you and watched you rip it. he tried to hold his laugh back, you were cute when you were jealous.

—

“coffee break?” heeseung asked you for the second time that day. you looked up at his figure. “as long as it’s not in the lobby.” heeseung nodded, knowing that would be your answer. “don’t worry, it’s in the break room.” you smiled and stood up. “i need a coffee break anyway.”

heeseung chuckled, following you to the break room. no one was in there meaning you were alone with heeseung. you should’ve know he would’ve tried to pull something. 

as soon as he closed the door he was against you, placing his chin on your shoulder. “what if someone walks in?” you questioned, pouring cream into your coffee. “i’m sure everyone know we’re together at this point, it’s so obvious.” you glanced at heeseung. “i wonder why.”

heeseung smiled innocently. “it’s because you’re whipped for me obviously.” you shook your head, fighting the smile threatening to come out. “i think it’s the other way around.” heeseung wrapped his arms around you, turning you to face him.

“okay, maybe it is but you’re really obvious too.” you cocked your head to the side. “less than you though.” heeseung groaned, placing his head on your shoulder. “i cant help the fact im in love with you.” your heart started pounding in your chest. you didn’t know what to say so you opted to say nothing. instead, you enjoyed him being in your arms.

you stayed like that for a little while until heeseung picked his head up. he gave you a silly smile before pressing his lips on yours for a soft peck. you giggled against his lips, pressing your lips to his again. 

“i love you too.” you whispered, a smile complimenting your features. heeseung leaned against you, holding you like you were the most valuable thing to exist. 

suddenly the door opened causing you and heeseung to separate. your coworker, jake, jumped up and down pointing at the two of you. 

“I KNEW IT!!”

🎬 노트 && . first fic of the year!! im sorry it's taken forever for me to post a fic :( i had the worst writers block... on that note i have a longer fic coming up as soon as i can finish the ending!!

🧷 perm tl && . send ask or comment to be added

[nerdysleepybunny]

Hallo! im new here so please let me know if i cross any boundries.'

anywho, I was wondering if i could request a platonic philza and/or techno comfort? ive had bad few days :(

Have a wonderful day/night!

I APOLOGIZE FOR GETTING TO THIS SO LATE!! I literally love dsmp asks even though the fandom is dying off, so this definitely isn’t crossing any boundaries! I hope you’re doing better. My dms are open if you ever need to chat! :D

🩷☁️N E R D Y S L E E P Y B U N N Y☁️🩷

Fandom(s): DreamSMP

Character(s): Philza, Technoblade (ft. Mumza & Chat)

Reader: Gender neutral (you/your)

Style: Hcs

TW: N/A

Summary: How Philza and Technoblade (separate) would comfort you!

🩷☁️N E R D Y S L E E P Y B U N N Y☁️🩷

Philza:

I feel like he’s the type to just know you aren’t doing well before you even say anything.

Like, you’re just sitting there in your feels, then suddenly?

BOOM CONCERNED DAD RIGHT IN YOUR FACE

“Are you okay, mate?”

“Do you need anything?”

“Here, let’s sit and have a chat.”

Literally shooing chat away so it’s just the two of you having quality time together.

Would sit down next to you on a couch, but probably wouldn’t initiate any touching. The most I see him doing is a shoulder pat or a hand rubbing your back.

Of course, he wouldn’t mind you leaning on him or embracing him! He just doesn’t want to touch you in case you want your space :)

If you want to talk about it he’s there to listen and offer wise old man advice (if you call him old while you’re upset, it’s the ONE time he won’t get defensive about it)

Like

He’s just talking giving you some advice about your problems, then he hears you snickering

“What’s so funny?”

“You sound so old right now, Phil.”

Usually he’d shout his usual “I’M NOT OLD/I’m only in my 30’s, mate…” (I’m pretty sure he’s canonically thousands of years old but shh let grandpa be delusional)

But now? He’d just chuckle and shake his head

“Whatever you say, mate.”

DON’T EXPECT HIM TO BE SOFT FOREVER, IT’S ONLY BECAUSE YOU’RE CURRENTLY SAD

After you’ve concluded your venting/told him that you don’t want to talk about it

You know what time it is…

DISTRACTIONS!!!

Pillow fort anyone? He’s giving pillow fort vibes.

He’s a dad, so obviously he’d just do all the work and build it for you. Again, only because you’re sad. Any other time he’d yell at you for not helping.

Speaking of sadness

Don’t let Phil’s wife see you sad…

OH NO YOU’RE SAD? NOW MUMZA IS SAD AND IS RUSHING TO COMFORT YOU

Mumza is the type to cry when she sees someone else crying, so now both of you are just sobbing together and Phil is there trying to comfort the two of you but is an overwhelmed old man and may end up crying himself

Uh… cry party?

Either you all end up making fun of each other for crying which results in you all laughing together, or you just cry till you get sleepy and pass out on the floor together.

What an interesting way to family bond.

Technoblade:

So you seek The Blade for comfort, the most monochrome and nonchalant man on the server. What a wonderful decision, reader! /lh (I’d do the exact same)

If you’re a Technoblade fan you’ve definitely heard the “it’s fine” audio.

Now I can either be wholesome and say he’d hold you close and whisper that everything will be okay to you

Or I can be silly and realistic and say that he’d pull out a phone and just play the audio with a blank face, but is laughing on the inside due to your “what the actual fuck” face.

Okay now for some actual comfort!

As we all know… Technoblade isn’t exactly good at comfort.

He kills orphans for a living, how do you think he’d react seeing someone crying like a child?

He’s standing looking at you with a look of “why is this creature screaming” and “wtf do I do”

“Uh… you good? You okay? You, uh… need a hug…?”

Very awkwardly holds his arms out for a hug, and if you accept, he even more awkwardly pats your back.

If you got his shirt wet with tears, he’d DEFINITELY comment about it

“Are you seriously ruining my shirt? How are my enemies supposed to think I have a good fashion sense now?!”

Goes into a rant about how he needs to look his best and how it’s a good strategy to beat his enemies in battle while you’re kinda just there… honestly are you even crying anymore?

You’ve stopped crying ages ago, and he’s still just talking

In conclusion, Technoblade is good at calming people down without even trying (I was literally having a breakdown and all I needed to do was listen to the silly pig man talk about Greek mythology. It must all be part of his master plan…)

Speaking of listening to his voice, here’s a scenario.

“Technoblade, can you read to me?”

“…what?”

“Read to me.”

“I’m not reading you a bedtime stor-“

“I wanted you to tell me about Greek mythology.”

“Fine. Come here.”

Long story short, he starts by reading you just one story. That one story turns into the entire history of the Greek gods and goddesses… yeah you pass out pretty quickly. But Technoblade isn’t one to stop mid-ramble. Once he notices you’re asleep, he’ll continue talking, just quieter. He’ll eventually get sleepy himself, and soon enough… you’re both asleep.

Works like a charm!

🩷☁️N E R D Y S L E E P Y B U N N Y☁️🩷

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TADC cast comforting the reader!

i know i said i have a character limit (and technically ive already broken it for the creepypasta version of this post and similar posts in this category) buuuuuut admins personal writing gets to twist the rules a little bit/j/lh and also i dont want to make multiple posts for this prompt soooooooooo writing this while im waiting to make my silly money on a roblox tycoon yall know how it is :3 uuuuuuh might have more typos than usual simply because that wave of sleepiness is hitting but also i wanna finish my tycoon so NEVER BACK DOWN NEVER WHAT

CAINE:

i think he might try too hard in trying to get you to feel better. likely overwhelms you but he doesnt have ill intent (though that doesnt change much, youre still overwhelmed) so you might have to be firm in having him reel things back to a level that works for you. i think he would ask you whats wrong, as well as get anything he thinks he would help you feel better (drinks, blankets... hell before you can process anything hes probably got you buried in loads of things)... hes got the spirit but his intensity is... well intense.. torn between him being a decent listener because on one hand i can see him being hooked on every word you say and talking over you in an attempt to find a solution right then and there.... 6/10 i love caine but i get overwhelmed/overstimulated easily

POMNI:

does not know what to do when someone around her it upset, much less crying... i think she would put on this really weird... awkward... forced smile to try to lessen the tension in the air (failing at it, mind you) and try to pat your back... asks if you want to talk about it... a really good listener, actually. a better listener than a comforter, her solutions are so-so, they're what you expect from someone who doesnt want to accidentally overstep but nonetheless still cares about how you feel. at least you can count on her being totally no judgement, too... lets you talk to her for as long as you need, giving a nod and affirmation that she is in fact listening 8/10

RAGATHA:

very similar to pomni in regards to being a great listener, but i think ragatha would also be a great comforter as well as solution giver! lets you come into her room, gives you one of her nicer blankets to curl under while she lets you unload onto her. if someone is being mean to you or something is frustrating you, ragatha offers to give you a hand to find a solution to make things easier for you. offers to confront the person for you, though she does vaguely urge for you to build yourself up to try to speak up for yourself in the future. of course, if you ever need anyone ragatha is going to be there for you but she would also love to see you stand up for yourself. builds you up, probably gives peps talks! 8.5/10

JAX:

more often than not its going to look like hes disinterested or flat out not listening... which if it were just about anyone else that might really be the case.. buuuuuut what if you were one of his friends, or perhaps a partner? i think he would at least throw in a yeah.. which i think for how i typically write jax means something. one of those "if he didnt actually care he wouldnt be responding at all" and yeah sure its the bare minimum... i think every now and then he might just say screw it and throw his act out the window start shit talking... usually if theres someone to shit talk, you know if someone has made you upset or something... i think he would make them a target for his pranks... usually tries to play everything off as something light or unimportant but as long as its you, he is listening and he is going to at least make an attempt to do something about it... just dont bring it up 4/10 because personally it would make me feel worse shrugs

KINGER:

well i dont know how dad/energy having people can be comforting because my dad is emotionally distant/lh but i think he would let you come into his pillow fort... or if you dont want to be in a space so small he would let you come into his room, or he might take you out on a walk around the grounds. i think he would be more of a listener than anything else, nodding and humming to let you know hes listening. when theres pauses in your speaking he tries to offer some advice which can be pretty hit or miss. i think he would give you a hug, if you asked for one... if you want a distraction he will launch into a ramble about insects and other things! trails off to ask how youre doing every now and then, usually makes him lose his spot in the previous conversation thus starting a new one... will talk for hours 7/10 but im biased for kinger

ZOOBLE:

distant but not in the way jax is, zooble just has trouble expressing some of their emotions. jax just doesnt like showing any care or vulnerability. but zooble might let you stay in their room if youre crying or otherwise outwardly distressed. might let you sink down into one of their bean bag chairs... kind of just opens up a vent session with asking if you want to talk shit, or to just get angry. i think they can deal with someone being angry and irritated than a crying person because at least then they can apply their own irritation for it and put themselves in the other persons shoes. really you two just bounce and build each other in this scenario, kind of just letting off steam that should have been released far sooner... i dont know about you guys but its refreshing 8/10

GANGLE:

might get upset with you if youre really upset.. or maybe upset for you? i think she might be able to feel a lot for those she cares about deeply, so while it might look like shes trying to hijack the moment for herself, shes just crying FOR you.. lets you use her art supplies to make vents or to simply scribble. another big listener, i think she would try to give advice but... given that gangle herself has no spine (figuratively and literally) i think its... not the best advice... like the kind of stuff you try to affirm to yourself to get through a hard day, usually those affirmations.... dont work...but hey theres an effort! i mean at least she makes sure you feel heard and listened to, which is at least a little better than jax soooooo 5.5/10

[employee052]

HELLO IVE HAD MANY A BRAINBLAST FOR THE TSPxDBH AU AND IM GONNA MAKE THIS A SEPERATE POST FROM THE FIRST ONE

[IF U WANT CONTEXT TO THIS AU HERES THE FIRST POST]

This is V, The Explorer who finds Virgil's body in the office ruins just a few years after Humanity has gotten their freedom.

Some more AU spitballing:

His name is V because of Stanley's Wife. She probably has heard a lot about this android at his office and how this android has taken care of Stanley while dealing with the intense pressures at the office, so she knows that they are a friend to Stanley of some sort. (Highlighting her bc i'll mention her again later)

So when V is born, she names the baby Vi. (Stanley probably didnt know about V at all. Perhaps his wife was going to bring up the news to him when he got home one day. Only for him to never come back.) She wouldn't remember Virgil's name fully though, so she names him V.

Since the game is essentially a VR world for Stanley, everything inside is probably a mix of things taken from Virgil or Stanleys memories. Only due to the decay on Virgil's body and Stanley's forgotten memories, they're half of the whole picture, but taken at face value on their own. Hence the endless sprawling office, non-sensical catwalks and locations, etc.

Like... maybe the Curator is the voice of Virgil's developers, or the Amanda of this universe. But with the decay coupled with the office terminating his service, cutting Cyberlife's systems off from him, all he remembers is the voice talking to him in a white void and reimagines her in a museum.

Maybe the bucket comes from Stanley's vague memory of going to Home Depot to buy a bucket and finding one really good one in the entire store.

Etc. Etc.

Back to V, however, I bring this up because this is the reason why i colour picked V's hair colour from Mariella specifically.

Since Mariella in the game is the only other person with a model that's human in form, maybe Stanley remembers her face but just doesn't remember who it is. Which is why in this AU im thinking Mariella would be Stanley's wife. He just doesn't remember that her face is his wife, since his "wife" in the apartment ending is a mannequin.

(Ignore the fact that Virgil/The Narrator would go on to say "Who would want to commit their life to you" and that he may have some jealousy to this said wife in the first place. /lh /silly)

Maybe The Narrator saw Stanley's memory of this woman's face, and used it in the game since he remembered it so vividly. But since neither remember it was Stanley's wife's face, it was used for the Insanity ending.

Having V as Stanley's son gave me this idea that once The Narrator leaves the office with him to go live out the rest of his days at the local town of survivors, he ends up becoming close to him as well.

It's almost a miracle in a sense, considering that The Narrator wasn't sure he could trust humanity again after his time back in the office.

But over time, they get close, and The Narrator let's his guard down.

Cyberlife Androids have that feature where they can analyze things with their tongue, right?

When they end up having their first kiss, it would take some time for things to get working much less the Narrator be willing to even kiss someone, his HUD starts studying V's DNA.

As he's kissing him, he sees his systems say that its a 47.5% match to Stanley's.

And if you're wondering how the Narrator has Stanley's DNA. He has a function for CPR. And I am 100% sure that he would've tried to save Stanley using it.

The Narrator wouldn't be upset about it in the slightest however. If anything he finds the situation funny in a sense. That the person he ends up loving is also the descendant of the man he loved first.

If he tells this to V however, he goes silent at the realization. Especially since he never remembered having a Father.

Maybe this could lead to him going to his mother, who's now elderly, and the look of shock on his face when he sees an elderly Mariella look back at him, and the voice similar to the one he used in the Parable.

Maybe she tells the story about her husbands disappearance, and maybe The Narrator tells her about Stanley's fate.

Maybe he tells her about the Parable, about how he desperately tried to keep him alive, only to realize that he was gone and moved on. But he still has whatever's left of him in his mind. Living happily in the newly reformed VR space that has him living out his happiest days and in peace.

Maybe with this, The Narrator and Mariella begin to recount stories about Stanley, with V listening in about his father that he never remembered.

And maybe, they all grow closer, and finally move on.

[oh-cramity-its-amity]

Oh shit there’s a new one okay. I thought the most recent was liek a week ago. Imma watch that rq

Okay I watched it I’m going feral I’m just gonna yell my opinions in yr inbox rq don’t mind me

Did they actually kill all of the fucking council memebers. They wouldn’t right. There’s no way <in denial. But no literally I will sob if they’re all dead. It looks like Mel is dead from mommy abassarda (🤤) seeking revenge and stuff. Would they kill golden boy and viktor tho? Unlikely. I’m also assuming Caitlyn’s mom is dead for that trauma

“you finally got the name right” I’m going to vomit

I know this is not an original opinion at all but I really hate the outfit 😭. Why does she look like that. What happened to my vi with her good outfits. Maybe it’s supposed to be symbolic that it doesn’t fit her but like

Istg if jinx dies I’m cutting off every riot persons heads

I’m a little mad they’re cutting it off at 2 seasons but it makes sense ig :/ I’m just like my lesbians. Why

YES! omg. i absolutely dont mind at all 😭. i was losing my mind!!! literally just WHAT.

i dont know if they did or not to be honest?? i remember seeing people discuss about them killing the members, and they debated about them killing champions. i dont think jayce is dead?? hes a champion. and if arcane is canon to LoL lore then like he wouldnt be?? not too sure about everyone else but i dont think the champions are dead or will die. cassandra however- i think fandom kinda considered her dead for a good majority of time. i dont know league lore so dont take me seriously 😭. BUT- i dont believe jayce is dead. idfk if viktor is, mel potentially. hmm... IM SURE like someone survived... they wouldnt do that to caitlyn... come on... kill her mom and then her childhood friend...? thats... ykw kinda on brand for the emotional turmoil.. BUT COME ON.

again- dont think they killed any champions but everyone else... yeah... probably rip. :(.

wondering how this is going to affect caitlyn tbh too. how is she going to handle herself. is vi going to comfort her?? uh... WILL WE FINALLY FUCKING GET A KISS?? istg anyway.

I KNOW!! oh mannnnn NO THATS NOT THE WORST PART

the "my sister is gone" had me like wanting to literally go insane because OUCH!!! someone please save vi from this turmoil 😭. shes gonna be put through it and IM not ready.

the red jacket was HER :(. i think its kinda a metaphor too like u mentioned about her not belonging on the team and feeling uncomfortable but then again the LoL players *were* clowning on the discourse of people being upset over vi being a cop. I DO LIKE THE GOGGLES THO. those r sick. but the outfit? girl what did they do to my favorite lesbian. who is she.

dont think jinx is gonna die thoughhhhh.... i mean... why would she... die... they wouldnt... right? ...right??

..right???????

please i just NEED them all to be okay i cant do this!!! /lh but also /srs. i do need them to be okay. IK I SIGNED UP FOR THIS BUT OW.

honestly im a little shocked about it being just 2 seasons too but i think its good just because of how long it took between 1-2. i have maaaad respect for the people working on it. swear as long as we get a physical release of the season season too ill be down. first we had news about s1 getting a physical TO A FUCKING TRAILER... we are eating SO good this week.

short and sweet though. tbh im sure theyll be able to tell what they need to cause 45 min per an ep. doesn't seem that surprising. but still 2 seasons is crazy. AS LONG AS THERES NO CLIFFHANGERS ILL BE FINE.

i justttt need caitvi in s2. i need them to kiss. i am not asking for a lot. need them to kiss and for literally jinx, and several people to NOT die.

anyway whoops. thanks for sending me your thoughts aaaaa

[aro-with-bad-aim]

Anna karenia part 5:

tw death

Two more parts left (well three if you include part 6 which I’m now onto)!! I’m honestly kinda proud of myself for getting through this book so fast:D

this was an emotional rollercoaster, I laughed, I cried, I was confused, I was shocked, I felt everything. Starting with levin and kitty, their wedding felt like a romcom to be honest, with levin showing up late because he couldn’t find a clean suit and stuff. As much as I enjoy the heavy stuff, it was a nice break. It’s sweet to see how in love with each other they are, and even though they have their issues, they always solve it. They’re the perfect foil to Anna and her husband or Anna and vronsky. The part where levins brother died hit hard. I genuinely cried multiple times throughout it and I can’t lie im getting emotional right now thinking about it. I don’t want to get too personal, but I lost a family member just over a year ago and it brought back a lot of emotions. Seeing how his brother improved then got worse, wished to live then longed to die was honestly upsetting and brought back memories I didn’t particularly want to remember, but that was probably tolstoys intention. I found it so impactful when I saw a chapter was called death. It was a shock as none of the other chapters had names. It very well created the shock of death. It was unexpected and made the death feel all the more impactful. On a lighter note, I can’t lie, I laughed when I read kitty was pregnant because it implies that her and levin fucked while looking after levins dying brother. Like damn, nows not the time how desperate are you/lh. I get the symbolism; the circle of life and death and I also think it symbolises how levin can deal with a reminder of his mortality better and healthier now he’s with kitty. While levin and kitty were searching for stability, Anna and vronsky couldn’t avoid conflict. I found the part in Italy a little random, but I think it provided a good set up for how volatile Anna and vronskys relationship has become. Vronskys loss of interest in painting could foreshadow his loss of interest in anna. I feel even though anna and vronsky love each other, they love the thrill of something new more. They’re searching for that next adrenaline rush, which is why I think Anna went to the theatre at the end of the part. However I also think she went because she wanted to return to her old life and status. It was heartbreaking to see Anna’s reunion with her son. I know she has done wrong and the story being told from her perspective causes an unreliable narration but I can’t help but root for her and feel awful for her situation. I feel even worse for her son, who is only seen as a way to hurt Anna by his own father, and he knows it. Anna will probably never see her son again, and it’s awful for both her and her son. I think it’s interesting both Anna and levin are now going to the countryside. They’re probably going to meet each other, and tension has been high between Anna and kitty from part 1/2. There’s still a significant part of the book left, so theres still time for everything to take an unexpected turn, and I’m still so excited to see how the book ends :)

[eddedneddy]

all of them vezzie 💙

hello vezzie, i am late as usual </3

0: Height

5'9

1: Age

25

2: Shoe size

7.5/8 i guess

3: Do you smoke?

i used to, now i only smoke cigars occasionally. i hate the taste and i look like a tool when i do it. i don't know why i do it.

4: Do you drink?

yea sometimes

5: Do you take drugs?

nop

6: Age you get mistaken for

i dont wanna know. i usually try to say how old i am as soon as possible so people dont try and guess and say some shit like 57

7: Have tattoos?

no, but only because im a coward.

8: Want any tattoos?

i was actually thinking of getting "despite everything, it's still you" tattooed. on my foot, so i can keep it hidden all the time. because im a coward.

9: Got any piercings?

my ear piercings close </3

10: Want any piercings?

eeeeeh. maybe one day? idk.

11: Best friend?

best friend!!

12: Relationship status

singlè

13: Biggest turn ons

agreeing with me that WANT by 3OH!3 is one of the best albums of all time. Even just lying about it to make me happy.

14: Biggest turn offs

Telling me i'm lame because i cry when COLORADOSUNRISE comes on in WANT by 3OH!3

15: Favorite movie

tie between napoleon dynamite and ed edd n eddy big picture show

16: "I'll love you if..."

you can cook. call me lame. dont care.

17: Someone you miss

edatlin on youtube in his tutorial era

18: Most traumatic experience

I accidentally stepped on my old cat's tail pretty hard once. The look on her cat face was so strong it conveyed the emotions of fear, hurt and betrayal better than any human face ever could. I would have sawn my foot off in front of her to prove i was sorry, but she hid from me for the rest of the day.

19: A fact about my personality

i'm still trying to understand whether i suffer from some kind of impostor syndrome or if i really just suck that bad

20: What I hate most about myself

I cyclically go from overly excited about stuff, to the point of being annoying, to extremely disillusioned and pessimistic. it's gotten better over time and i'm still trying to work on handling it, but it's pretty tiring

21: What I love most about myself

I just dyed my hair blonde and look pretty cool

22: What I want to be when I get older

retired

23: My relationship with my sibiling(s)

i have a younger brother and we only communicate by throwing fake punches at each other. he's one of my fav people

24: My relationship with my parent(s)

mutual tacit disappointment

25: My idea of a perfect date

Going out for dinner somewhere not fancy but overdressed nonetheless, spending the rest of the night on a bench making fun of everyone else and being tools but like, /lh and /pos.

26: My biggest pet peeves

Badly sharpened pencils. If the tip doesn't draw blood at the lightest touch it's TRASH

27: A description of the girl/boy I like

I know I'm going to get bullied for this one so I'm going to skip it

28: A description of the person I dislike the most

Frontman of incredibly overrated californian band "Red Hot Chili Peppers"

29: A reason I've lied to a friend

idk most frequent lie i tell my friends is "i'm on my way" when i'm really still in bed

30: What I hate the most about work/school

having to wake up before 10 for it

31: what my last text message says

it's a series of way too long voice messages i don't feel like listening to right now

32: What words upset me the most

merriam-webster word of the day tier things like "lollygag" said unironically

33: What words make me feel best about myself

not a single word, but someone once asked me "why do you feel like you're disposable?" and the implication of it not being the case felt pretty nice

34: What I find attractive in women

Evil. Thinks I am stupid and wants to kill me. Blonde.

35: What I find attractive in men

Funny, chill, owns a ps2.

36: Where I would like to live

Near the sea in a warm place. there has to be a sand beach though, rocky beaches suck and don't count.

37: One of my insecurities:

i tend to stutter when i am nervous. every time it happens i have to fight the urge to just end the conversation and walk away

38:My childhood career choice

Screenwriter. I also remember wanting to be a traffic cop at some point. i dont know why

39: My favorite ice cream flavor

Nutella <3333

40: Who I wish I could be

Mike Patton............

41: Where I wish I could be

In the middle of the dammnn ocean rn. On a huge ship full of food and stuff that helps people not die when they're in the middle of the ocean. Just vibing. Looking at the sky then the waves then the sky then the waves again. Head empty.

42: The last thing I ate

Potato and vegetable omelette (one of the very few ways I can eat vegetables)

43: Sexiest person that comes to my mind immediately:

YOU!!!

44: A random fact about anything:

In some kinds of anglerfish, the male mates with the female by biting into her belly and basically burying his snout inside her skin until they fuse together. He gradually loses all organs needed to hunt and swim - like eyes and fins - until he essentially becomes a parasitic lump of flesh on the female's body. She provides him with nutrients, he provides her with sperm to procreate.

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pop - share an unpopular opinion you may have

the harry potter series gets actually pretty boring after like the third book/movie. i dont know if this is an unpopular opinion.

punk - last movie/tv show you watched

El superbeasto! (thanks again for the great rec vezzie <3)

classical - describe yourself in three words

Accomodating, absent-minded, fidgety

country - what are you passionate about?

music and animation mostly! Also, languages. I like adverbs a lot. I like to abuse them.

indie - what fictional character do you relate the most to & why?

donny from the big lebowski. i'm usually the friend who zones out while everyone else is talking, randomly comes to and asks what the conversation is about, gets told to shut up, zones out again and dies

edm - have you ever been to a concert? if so, what concert was your favorite one?

hard to choose, but if i had to i'd say dead cross! it was great to see mike patton in hardcore mode.

rap - what's your favorite meme?

today, ben shapiro memes. tomorrow, who knows.

jazz - what is your birthstone & star sign?

emerald & taurus. at least i think taurus' birthstone is emerald? it depends on the source. idk.

hip hop - whats your favorite food?

sushi. im a basic bitch. but i really really love raw fish and meat in general.

latin - do you believe in the paranormal?

hell yeaaaaa gimme all your ghost stories!!

r&b - describe your best friend

smart, resourceful, inspiring, huge potential, criminally low self-esteem

gospel - are you a morning person or a night person?

i love early mornings as a concept, but having pretty bad insomnia i usually have to stay up until ungodly hours and try to get as much sleep as i can whenever i can in the morning. Night Time, My Time

opera - how do you know you have a crush?

when i start feeling the need to listen to really sappy music and take 2 hour long aimless walks with my hands in my pockets stomping my feet unneccesarily hard on the ground like im 13

k-pop - what is something you never understood?

i actually still have issues reading analog clocks. i never really learned but i mean. who cares. they didnt invent the digital ones for nothing.

reggae - give me a song recommendation

Jinkx Monsoon - Cartoons and Vodka

thank you vez <3

[autistic--cryptid]

INFODUMP ABOUT UNDERTALE TO ME RIGHT NOW :O /POS

(about Anything At All idc if its rambly bullet points or anything pls im begging u this is lichrally my special interest cmon pleaseee /lh)

OKOK I WILL!!! /pos

cant put this under the cut on mobile so here’s your warning that this will b a very long post!!

random chara hearcanons + ramblings bc CHARA MY BELOVED!!!

i might be projecting but i hc that chara has depression and ptsd! we know they hated people bc of what asriel says during the epilogue, “I know why Chara climbed the mountain. It wasn't for a very happy reason. Frisk. I'll be honest with you. Chara hated humanity.” and i think they hate humanity so much bc of some trauma other people caused. chara is angry and upset, and probably starts to hate humanity more once they learn about all of the pain humans have caused monsters. they aren’t evil or mean, they’re traumatized and hate people because they’ve been hurt so many times

i like to think that chara is so close with asriel in part bc he was one of the first people they felt like they could fully trust. asriel was with them through everything, saved them, gave them a home, etc. i think chara loved him so much in part bc asriel was there for them when everyone else had hurt them

i think chara erases the world at the end of the genocide run because of frisk’s actions in that run and not bc they themselves are cruel. chara is smart, they know that a frisk who would kill all monsters would likely be interested in destroying things alongside chara. the way i see it, chara is angry. they had to watch frisk kill their friends and family, the monsters who took them in and protected them after they had been hurt so bad by humans. chara watched them hurt asriel after he cried and begged for them not to hurt him. they watched frisk reset over and over at every save point, trying to hard to kill everyone and everything and not stopping even when they themselves are struck down. and they don’t have a body anymore so they couldn’t do anything to stop it. genocide run frisk shows what chara hates in humanity: mercilessness and cruelity for the sake of cruelity. they want to get revenge on frisk and stop them from hurting alphys and the monsters who hid and escaped. they want to stop frisk from hurting people beyond the barrier. chara constantly says “just finish the job” throughout the run because they’re exhausted and can’t stand watching frisk hurt these monsters anymore, they just want everything to end. the reason they only come out at the end is fear, in part, and the fact that watching asriel be killed despite his cries and begs was the last thing they could take. when they say “it’s me, chara!” in the mirror in toriel’s home rather than “it’s you” i like to think it’s for a similar reason that sans says “pretend to be a human” to frisk, and for the same reason that some theorize he would make fake blood at the end of the battle with him. chara wants frisk to see another person, hoping maybe they’ll find some goodness and humanity. just like some theorize that sans would use ketchup as fake blood to make frisk see that they’re hurting people like themselves as well, chara wants frisk to see that frisk is human to remind them of any good humanity they might have. they aren’t evil and they aren’t seeing themselves in frisk’s actions, they’re trying to stop frisk from hurting everyone and trying to get revenge on frisk for the pain they’ve caused. the reason why you get a photo with chara and everyone’s faces crossed out or a chara nightmare when you finish a pacifist run after a genocide run is chara reminding frisk of the pain they caused and showing them that the atrocities they committed aren’t something they can just erase and move on from. chara just wants monsters to be happy and to be ok and they hate that once again a human has taken that happiness away from monsters, but they know a reset won’t stop frisk because they will just start over, so if they erase the world and take frisk’s soul for frisk to get it back they can hope that without that soul and determination frisk can’t reset anymore and thus no more genocide run, even though that ultimately isn’t the case. chara just wants to help monsters and they’re angry at her another human for hurting them

asriel says in the epilogue that chara wanted to hurt the humans in the village when they attacked asriel and them, but once again it’s not bc chara is evil or violent, it’s bc they were traumatized by humans and and this is like a fight response to those triggers, and also bc they wanted to protect asriel!!!

chara’s plan to collect 7 human souls as talked about in the tape was for the good of monsters, not so they could hurt humans. they wanted monsters to go free and to live a normal life with their monster family. when they say “our plan had failed, hadn’t it?” in the genocide run they’re referring to their goal of freeing and saving monsters, not like, killing the people that asriel wouldn’t fight. chara wanted to save monsters and to break the barrier, they didn’t want their soul to fuse with asriel because they knew that meant their soul couldn’t be one of the 7 to free monsters. when frisk killed the monsters in the genocide route it meant that monsters weren’t free or safe, their plan with asriel to free monsters from the underground and save them from the prison humans put them in had failed because once again a human had taken everything from them

on a lighter note, pacifist run chara narrates and translates for frisk! chara and frisk likely come from the same village seeing as they’re both able to just go up the mountain and see what’s there, so they probably know the same form of sign language. frisk is mute and signs things to chara, who translates over the phone for them. they also describe everything around frisk since they’ve lived there before and know what everything is while frisk doesn’t know. when they don’t know what to say, they describe stuff! they probably aren’t sure what to make of the mettaton fight since they’ve never seen mettaton ex before, so they say “smells like mettaton”. they don’t know about the amalgamates so they say “smells like sweet lemons” during your fight with lemon bread

the mummy wrappings in the red soul coffin were for chara. asriel removed them from their coffin and carried them off to the village before those supplies could’ve been used. when he brought chara back in after they were attacked, toriel took them out to the flower bed in the ruins where they initially landed to give them a propel burial, and then chose to live in the ruins specifically to take care of chara. chara is buried under the flowers right at the start of the ruins which is why asriel refuses to leave in the epilogue and says “someone has to take care of these flowers.” it’s also in part why toriel is so sad and lonely, being in the ruins and visiting her child daily makes her remember the pain she felt losing chara and asriel and it makes her extra worried about losing frisk and the other humans. through visiting chara like this, both asriel and toriel can see them and talk to them even though they’re mostly gone

asriel and chara were the ones who left those echo flower messages about wishes. chara was the one who laughed and said “it’s just funny, that’s my wish too”

just like kris, chara also had little red horns. chara didn’t like that they were human since they hated humans, but loved monsters and wished they were one. asriel made them little paper horns to be more monster-like, and eventually toriel sewed them an pair and put it on a headband so they could stay on their head

not really a headcanon or theory, just a note. there’s lots of similarities between kris and chara: red eyes, knives, portrayed as “strange”, likes to scare other people (kris hiding under noelle’s bed and putting ketchup on their arms to scare her, and chara doing their creepy face to asriel in the tape—they likely did it before cause asriel had to have known what it was so there’s nothing saying they only do it when asked by asriel), a bit secluded and like to be alone (toriel is no longer upset with kris when she finds out they didn’t answer her calls bc they were with a friend, chara is only ever shown or talked about in relation to asriel or their parents), both kind of get rid of their soul in some way (kris removes their soul and chara like died to give their soul to the monsters), both have similar outfits (although kris looks more like frisk in their face and hair), very close to their asriel, both like monsters, both have mostly obscured eyes until the ending of the game, etc.

chara can only verbally talk to frisk, but they can talk through the phone, similar to how asriel spoke to frisk on the phone at the end of the true lab even though he didn’t have his soul back then and was still a flower, and similar to how you can understand the memory head amalgamate when you use your phone. frisk is one of the few people who can hear their voice irl

chara can verbally talk with mettaton, mew mew, and nabstablook since they were all once ghosts/are ghosts. mettaton sometimes helps chara to speak and to appear to crowds bc they can use his microphones to speak since that’s technology and chara can use his advice to show their own incorporeal form more clearly. chara and nabstablook get along very well as shy ghosts who are best friends with their family

chara and frisk become best friends in pacifist runs :3 frisk returns the the underground sometimes to talk to asriel and lets chara speak to him while they visit through their phone, and eventually chara convinces asriel to come back with them and to live with them again (yes i know this isn’t possible in canon shhhhhhh)

chara is autistic and has adhd. they also have chronic pain and use a cane as a result of their chronic pain and bc of a long lasting injury they sustained from falling into the underground, or they float as a ghost

[itissadbutitsmy-life]

I just read your Lemonhope/PB essay from a while back and it's really interesting, opened me up to how poorly PB treated basally all the lemons. So do you not think that Phlannel Boxingday was PB in disguise? It was ambiguous but I always thought it was pretty heavily implied that PB was the one in disguise trying to get Lemonhope to do what she wanted through deception, interested to hear why you think that wasn't her. Just neat stuff overall.

this answer got long but uh first off thank you??? i could talk abt lemon ppl forever they make me so happy, but when i try to write with proper grammar about them i feel like im being pretentious lmao anyways onto your question because holy SHIT:

IM A FOOL FOR NEVER THINKING OF THAT WHAT THE FUCK

i mean i suppose it totally could be….. similar color scheme/initials, same thing she did with finn about tearing off martin’s arm… but like…. idk. doesn’t sit right with me but i could buy it. her treatment of lh seems really different from how phlan treats him which makes me really feel like they’re different, he seems more like a truly kindhearted dude who just picked up a lost little kid than pb trying to convince lh to do what she wanted…… hhmm…. ghhhg

gotta think abt this huh

i guess her following after lh and messing around in a cloud before revealing herself to him makes sense

and like, hindsight is 20/20 so i could also see her realizing after lh runs off all the things she did that hindered him, and mentioning them through phlan as a way of roundaboutly apologizing (’ah lemonhope you learn with your hands not your head’ stands out to me mostly bc it seemed like a really nice thing for phlan to say to this poor kid who couldn’t do anything to please his teacher, but i guess i could see it being pb going ‘geez of COURSE he never learned to read…… i see why now, gotta make sure he knows it isnt his fault’)

i mean, also his whole ‘the way i see it youve got two options’ seemed like an outside perspective based on what lh has told him, but…… yeah i guess it does also seem like it could be pb going ‘youve got two options: suffer bc you cant live on your own obviously and youre wracked w guilt, or alleviate your guilt!' 

this is literally the worst thing i cant believe my nice sweet son, the best Dad™ in at, could be pb, The morally gray Mom™

also im sad that if he is pb, we dont get the Worldbuilding™ of lemongrab having locked up his entire kingdom from everyone, not just people who are close to and familiar w the laws. loved that minor characters knew shit was going down in his earldom. but i also have a soft spot for characters knowing my favorite characters’ names, so idk.

hm

i guess also i gotta like. do this: assuming they are two different ppl, imagine the part where lh thinks he sees his family falling out of the greed lard and screams at phlan the stop and go back for them, bc like, phlan listens to him and reassures him that nothing bad has happened. because tbh… idk if i can imagine pb doing it so thoroughly. she might tell him 'no lh look it’s not them it’s just treasure’ but i cant see her turning the ship around, parking it, getting out and walking lh over to gently reassure him that everything’s alright and show him it’s okay. Maybe. could be, if she’s actively trying to not treat him the same way that clearly wasn’t working when he was in the candy kingdom. same when phlan has like coal or. smth i cant remember, and hes going on and on abt how excited he is to use them to make a love potion and stuff, and he accidentally drops them off the edge of the boat and goes like 'ah shoot,’ but when he sees lh looking upset he quickly goes 'hey, it’s not your fault buddy, i’m not mad’ like idk. i dk. im not a pb stan and idk all her characteristics but i cant see her picking up on lemonhope being upset and immediately jumping to 'that wasn’t your fault,’ but i could be wrong.

i guess what i’m saying is i could see it if phlan was just pb but i do nOT WANT TO because phlannel fucking boxingday is the nicest, most caring adult in adventure time i’ve ever seen in my life and i don’t want to believe he’s not still running around making lost kids feel good about themselves and see their own worth

esp since it clearly worked with lemonhope, but pb doesnt seem to have continued acting like phlan (speaking gently and evenly and being more patient and understanding with kids, even if just to get what she wants) even though lh definitely benefited from being treated like that. but tbf she (at this pt, after ‘you made me’) seems to be pretty aware of how lemon people don’t need the same things candy people do, so maybe she would think if lh benefited from it, candy kids wouldn’t? maybe she just hasn’t interacted with v many sad little kids since the lh special. idk. my knowledge of stuff after s6 gets kinda fuzzy since i dont have them on dvd to watch on loop in the background while i do stuff 

idk this got long but i could talk about lemons and phlannel fuckin boxingday forever sorry tldr: i never Made that connection before, i can see how it might totally be true, but i really really like phlan and want to believe he’s still out there so i’m gonna stick to believing they’re two different people >:( 

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When it comes to communication, I am not the greatest at expressing myself or telling others how I feel. I get worried about what people think - what I’m going to say may be embarrassing or trivial.  I do harp on that I worry about what others think of me I think it’s important for me to clarify... that I do care but I’m not consistently always thinking about it . This blog is my forum to talk about those moments and time. To step back and look into it and scope the whole perspective of those involved and not just thinking about myself!  So let me be clear I have strengths and I have my weaknesses and for me, they are pretty black and white (I will be posting these soon - with a feature of friends insights) 

I just don’t get how I can be completely open about some things but completely shut off about others. I like to play the cool guy with exciting and adventurous stories who comes across as laid back yet i do caught up on little things and hate feeling certain feelings - it can spiral me down into a hole which makes me feel worse! Part of my issue is that with certain friendships and relationships, I have had, I set expectations of how I expect people to act, react or treat me and get taken back when it doesn’t go to plan - I almost struggle to explain it in writing what my thought process is or how it makes me feel though I have summarised it the best I can.

In March, I was back in my homeland, when I got back to Australia, one of my best mates was distant and hadn’t been in touch. I could sense that she was off but I also was too. I felt a bit off about a few things that took place and they were putting me out of place and I guess I expected things to be a certain way and they weren’t. I was looking at situations one-sided and getting wrapped up in expectations and emotions. We ended up having an hour phone chat to talk about our thoughts, feelings and emotions toward another and although best mates we had never opened up like that before. It was confronting but so refreshing.

To set the back story. It played out in two stages.

Stage 1:

A group of my girls went to dinner, SP was running late due to traffic and the rest of the girls were already seated at the table. I was super excited to see her and we give each other a big hug. As soon as she got there, my expectations kick in, expecting that she would ask me how my day was, or how I was going .... but she started a conversation over me and I could feel myself falling into a funk’

(I would describe my ‘funks’ as me being quiet, reserved, distant, non-communicative, cold, short, sometimes snappy. I let off a grumpy fine. That vibe when you ask your partner if they are ok and they say ‘im fine’ but in there head thoughts, emotion and clocks are ticking over. )

Now my self-analysis of this situation

My expectation wasn’t met - I was self-absorbed and only thinking of number 1

She hadn’t seen the other girls in a couple of weeks ( and we talk every day)

Maybe I felt jealous that I didn’t get her undivided attention

I instantly closed up and felt myself going quiet and overthinking! In my head, I’m panicking and trying to self-assess which is harder at the time and in a moment. I whispered over and asked, “We are all good right ?!, I just want to double check for my own reassurance”. She confirmed “Yeah of course”. 

*Back to normal*.

This is one of my biggest challenges I sometimes close off and wind up in this awkward funk and not sure how to address it at the time. I was pretty impressed with myself at dealing with it so fast. However, when SP closed these issues out over the phone the following week she told me how it made her feel. She said it makes her feel uncomfortable when I close off, she doesn't know how to act towards me without setting me off. “ I sometimes feel like I'm walking on eggshells around you”.I actually thought  “Wow, you know what I’ve never thought how does that make others feel, or what they are thinking “. My funks can be unpredictable but it was a bit of an eye opener really. I never have stopped to think about how anyone else is feeling while I’m funking and how they feeling. Though it’s sometimes really hard for me to get out of it. Not all my friends have experienced this side of Sam and it probably would be something they wouldn’t imagine I would get like. 

Stage 2:

We had a party at our friend's house for St Paddy’s. I have no issues partying while being sober however if I feel left out or experience any emotion it’s not hidden with alcohol and I have to deal with it. On this particular night, I had felt the feeling of being “left out” - over something so small I didn’t know how to address it. SPK took a photo with our friend LH and I felt excluded because she didn’t want one with me. I couldn’t understand why! ( But I also didn’t ask). The next day after, SP posted the photo of her and LH to Instagram and I noticed SP never posts pictures with me. My instant thought process; Is she embarrassed by me, Am I not good enough, is it because of how I look? Silly right and so sad my mind went straight to that thought process ( Will delve into that another day). I did mention this in our discussion and she confirmed... I'm silly. I am usually the one posting photos and didn't even cross her mind. 

I later found out that I had made a comment while playing a drinking game which had made SP a bit upset with me.  It was a game where you built a word with each player saying a letter. We had already spelt “S-A-M”. LH directed SP with the next letter  “What did you go to today”, thinking the sample sale that they had been too. She was trying to give her the letter “P”.  I said, “What is something you smoke”. I knew immediately it was the most foolish thing to say in a group of friends. It’s so common for people to be smoking P back home these days and I know that a few people in that house that night had experimented. It was unfair of me to make the comment and it made her immediately feel awkward. I didn’t even think. 

When SP and I addressed these issues she felt like I was singling her out. The comment was uncalled for but I would have made it without thinking to anyone there. She had a point, I do single her out and she even confronted me. “What makes you act this way”. She said that I wouldn’t treat anyone else like that from the group. I couldn’t immediately answer on it because it’s true I do single out my best mates more. Jealousy? Possession? Attention? Expectations? I’m still trying to work on this. I remember having a meltdown as my best friend SG, was hanging out with another girl and not giving me any attention while I was with my then boyfriend. I recall him saying that he wanted me to care about him the way I cared about my friend which I didn’t’ ...until he pulled away.

SP and I have been friends since high school, we got closer when we left school and she has been there for me through ALOT. She even flew over to Sydney to spend a weekend with me when I was going through a really rough patch. She is someone I can tell anything to without getting judged. She is always so truly supportive. We have never taken the time to discuss each others feeling before, primarily hers. I never had asked. “How does it make you feel”. We are both so different in character. I learnt so much about this conversation and her being open and upfront about her feelings! I think it made me feel better as it made me deal with other situations better and almost resolved any feelings of jealousy immediately as there’s no reason to feel that way! Jealously is how you lose friends and lovers ... not keep them.

The conversation was initially confronting but also just what I needed to hear. I can be so oblivious and stuck in a certain behaviour. I self-reflect were I can and identify triggers and those pinch points. I also appreciate it when someone points it out to me as well. It's just like a workplace setting - How are you to improve and get better if you don’t do a self-assessment and get constructive feedback?. I'm truly blessed to have this chick in my life. We have gone through some little fights here and there but it only makes us stronger individuals and we also learn for next time.