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hisui555 ¡ 1 day ago
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I was 14 when I got my wise teeth removed, the whole thing was a clusterfuck rollercoaster of absurdity. First of all it started with the doc wanting me to take a betadine shower and THEN go to school while looking as if I ruled Hell, to say nothing about the trouble I'd get for not eating at the cafeteria since I was supposed to be fasting. I just stayed at home the whole morning, looking like a tomato. A foul one - my hair is brown, not green, and I have the stinking temper to match.
Then I arrived at the clinic, and the trouble went further when the guy planting the IV in stabbed me repeatidly and directly in the nerves - 10 times over, five each side of the vein. How do I know ? Well I fucking felt it for starters but since this isn't gonna convince people because we're on the Internet, my wrist had a knee-jerk unvoluntary reaction everytime and Blindy O'Sightless went "Oh, sorry, I hit the nerve." like it was just the most bewildering thing ever and nerves shouldn't be in a human body. I just ended up contracting my muscles to make the veins pop so he could finally get at least ONE - that guy wouldn't be able to hit a cow's arse with a banjo.
Then the fun kept piling up, because by the anaesthesia, they told me to count up to 10, expecting me to be under by 6 or 7. I was up to 15 when the anaesthesic dude looked at me weird, doubled the dose, and I decided to fall asleep to help the process go along because I wanted it over with - sensation also isn't the best : it's like someone's pulling you by the hair backwards to fall headfirst. I know my last conscious thought was "oh hey, maybe that's what babies feel when they're born and pulled out, hence why we're instantly awake when feeling that while asleep. It's like the 'kick' to wake up in Inception." and I don't remember dreaming during the processus afterwards.
Then I woke up, and by waking up I mean getting jolted from slumber by the nurse ripping out the breathing tube from my nose with all the patience, grace and mercy of an excavating bulldozer. I'm already a snap-awake person with immediate lucidity when waking up from normal sleep, so I was sadly VERY AWARE of the pain and my environment - the nurse was very surprised to find me immediately sitting up, look around, nod at the "You're in the wake-up waiting room" banner above, and shoot her a glare while rubbing my nose. She didn't ask me the "are you okay what's your name" questions, funnily enough, unlike the others - I think we both knew the answer to "How are you feeling" was "mighty pissed off."
The positive in that was that I was the first awake, or at least lucid, and I could see the others emerge - apparently they didn't had the same luck of being insta-awake, and this is where I could witness that consciousness was more of a spectrum in others than the binary it is for me. Best part was when I waved to one guy next to me, who also got his wise teeth pulled out, and he apparently decided it was too weird for him, because he went right back down to sleep.
THEN the worst started : I was driven to my room, got onto the bed, and someone asked me what I wanted for breakfast tomorrow. I wordlessly pointed at my cheeks, beginning to swell and changing colors, and the woman nodded in understanding. "Okay, not chewy stuff, got it." (the morning after, it was hardass cereals and bread croutons). One doctor came up to me and told me the IV would stay for the night, in case complications happened - okay, no problem, sounds fair. Cue another one entering five minutes later and pulling it out, congratulating me that, unlike my teen Wise-Tooth-Hell peers, I didn't ripped it out myself. I remember thinking something along the lines of "?????"
Then they gave me cortisone to help with the pain and swelling or whatever, and an ice-pack, telling me the button to call for help was over there, okay, noted... 15 minutes later I had to rush to the sink to barf very fine powdered black sand up - it was the cortisone. I check the meds box : they gave me a dose for adults, while I was 14, 1m50, around 45-50kg. I decided to not use the emergency button EVER lest these clowns rub aloe vera on my feet to "help" me with an upset stomach or a dental infection and ask where the IV went, like a bunch of double-taking goldfish having no clue what their neighbor is doing.
THEN the pain hit, and I spent my night sleeping 3 hours total, 10 minutes by 10 minutes. Tom&Jerry was on a rerun on TV, but past two in the morning it was me, myself and OW. I got picked up by my mom looking like a hamster with cheeks drenched in blueberry juice and stuck in barbed wire, she asked if I didn't wanted to stay another night because I didn't look that good, but since things were already ten shades of wrong I just proved I was feeling very, very fine with not staying one more second in there by doing a cartwheel, and we racked off the fastest possible.
Think it's the end ? Nnnnope ! 'Cause the swelling didn't die down for three whole weeks, I went by all the colors of the rainbow in terms of bruises, and the doctor gave me a mouthwash to use for said 3 weeks... when the notice specified in bold letters to not use more than 1 week, max, because of how strong it was. Results ? Dental enamel took quite a bad hit. We went back and pointed this out, to which he replied with another mouthwash... stronger than the previous and to not be used for more than 3 consecutive DAYS. Oh and also I just pulled out the stitches myself, because they came loose on day 4 after I was out of the hospital.
So somehow, I wanna give that person shoving an entire fist in their mouth and then bawling afterwards (good thing they didn't damage anything) for 20 minutes a very sympathetic pat.
We sharing anaesthetic stories?? I had to have dental surgery when i was in middle school.
According to my mom and sister the very first thing i did upon waking up was BOLT upright and proceed to try and shove my ENTIRE fist in my mouth as fast as possible.
I had to be physically stopped, and i proceeded to sob my eyes out for the next 20 minutes. Somehow, i didnt damage anything 🤣
sorry that imagery is so vivid i just..
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soapysoapysoapysoapy ¡ 20 hours ago
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Task force member reader! who has genuinely no idea that Ghost has a crush on her, and the other members know it and to annoy Ghost they just like to make him jealous like, getting closer to reader, hugging her, taking her away when she’s talking with him and she just doesn’t realize(just like me fr) until he explodes and nsfw
Reader is oblivious but sweet. Tough on the field but pretty blind when it comes to romance—especially subtle stuff. She just thinks Ghost is stoic and weird, not secretly pining.
Ghost, the poor man, is at his absolute limit. Gruff and brooding, but every time someone else gets too close to you, his jaw tightens and he starts radiating murderous energy. He tries to play it cool… until he can’t.
Soap is the ringleader of the teasing. Every chance he gets, he’ll casually throw an arm around you, drag you away mid-conversation with Ghost like, “C’mon, love, I need your help over here,” just to watch Ghost seethe. Soap knows exactly what he's doing and he enjoys every second of it.
Gaz is more subtle, but still in on it. He’s the one who’ll step in all friendly like, offer to "show you something cool" just as Ghost is about to say something to you. He'll also give Ghost these sly looks like, "Say something, man," while still keeping up the act.
Price just tries to stay out of the childishness, but can’t help but smirk every time Ghost clenches his fists. Price has definitely muttered under his breath once or twice, "For fuck’s sake, just tell her, Ghost."
You had no idea what was going on. Not at first.
Ghost had always been intense, but lately? Lately it was like he was about to explode every time you so much as stood next to someone else. And the others—Soap, Gaz, even Price sometimes—they’d been acting weird, too. Touchier, clingier, always pulling you away mid-conversation with Ghost.
Like right now.
You were standing beside Ghost, going over the next infiltration plan. His voice was low, that deep Manchester rumble that was kind of nice when you weren’t straining to hear over gunfire.
He was saying something about vantage points when—
"Oi! There’s my favorite girl!" Soap's thick Scottish brogue cut through the air as his arm landed heavy across your shoulders.
You blinked. "Hi, Johnny."
Ghost's jaw tightened so hard you could almost hear his teeth grind.
"I need you for somethin’, love. C’mere, help me sort this scope out, yeah?" Soap didn't even wait for your answer, steering you away like it was the most natural thing in the world.
Behind you, you missed the way Ghost's fists curled tight at his sides. Missed the way his entire body went rigid, like a bomb primed to go off.
Gaz passed him with a snort, clapping him on the arm. "You’re gonna pop a vessel if you keep bottling it up, mate."
Ghost said nothing. He just stared as Soap led you over to the table and leaned in closer than necessary, pretending to adjust something on the rifle laid out there.
"So I was thinkin'," Soap went on, voice dropping just enough to be smug. "After this mission, maybe we could hit the pub—"
"Johnny."
Ghost's voice cracked through the room like a thunderclap.
Everything stilled. Even Price, who’d been nursing his tea in the corner, lifted a brow.
Soap grinned but didn’t move. "Yeah, Lieutenant?"
Ghost took one step forward. Slow. Deliberate. Like a predator who’d finally decided he was done playing.
"Back. Off."
His voice was a snarl now, low and dangerous.
Soap raised his hands, still smiling like this was the funniest shit he'd seen all week. "Easy now, big guy. Just borrowin’ her for a minute."
"Now."
Your eyes went wide. "Ghost—what—"
He rounded on you next, and you swore for a second he looked… wild. Barely holding it together.
"For fuck’s sake, do you really not get it?"
The room was dead quiet. Even Soap had the sense to step back now.
Your mouth opened. Closed. "Get… what?"
Ghost’s chest was heaving under his plate carrier. His hand twitched at his side like he wanted to grab you, but didn’t trust himself to.
"Every time they touch you—every time they drag you away—I want to rip their fuckin’ heads off. And they know it. They’ve known for weeks. They’re doin’ it on purpose."
Your brain stuttered. "Wait—"
"I like you, alright? I want you. And they think it’s fuckin’ hilarious to get in my way."
It hit you all at once like a freight train. The weird tension. The way Soap and Gaz kept hovering. Ghost’s clenched fists and dead-eyed stares every time you so much as laughed at one of their jokes.
"Oh," you breathed.
Soap coughed into his fist to hide his grin. "Finally."
Price muttered from the corner, "Bout bloody time."
You just stood there, blinking at Ghost like you’d never seen him before. Your face burned. "Oh."
Ghost’s eyes softened just a fraction at your realization. His voice, still rough, dropped lower.
"Yeah. Oh."
You found him outside. Back behind the barracks where the floodlights didn’t quite reach, shadows swallowing him up like he belonged to them.
"Ghost."
His head turned slightly at your voice, but he didn’t move. His posture was stiff, hands flexing at his sides like he was still wound too tight. Like he didn’t trust himself to turn around and face you.
You swallowed, heart hammering. "You can’t just say shit like that and then disappear."
His laugh was low and bitter. "Didn’t think you wanted me around after that little scene. Figured I embarrassed myself enough for one day."
You stepped closer. Close enough now that you could see the tension in his shoulders, the faint glow of his eyes behind the mask in the dark.
"You didn’t embarrass yourself." Your voice was quieter now. "You scared the shit out of me, yeah. But…"
You hesitated. The air between you practically crackled.
He finally turned, squaring up with you. "But what?" His voice was rough, strained like he was clinging to the last shreds of control. "Say it, love. Don’t fuckin’ dance around it."
Your stomach flipped. You were close enough now that you could feel the heat rolling off his body, see the way his chest rose and fell just a little too fast.
"How long?" you asked, voice barely a whisper. "How long have you felt like this?"
His jaw clenched. "Too fuckin’ long."
Silence. Heavy. Charged.
And then he stepped in—so close his chest nearly brushed yours, looming over you like he was daring you to push him back.
"Every time they touched you… every time you smiled at them… felt like it was tearing me apart. Because it should’ve been me."
Your breath hitched. "Ghost—"
"Say my name."
His voice dipped, dark and dangerous.
Your lips parted, and for once, you said it without hesitation. "Simon."
His control snapped.
One rough, gloved hand grabbed your arm, yanking you flush against him, while the other tangled in the back of your hair—gentle and brutal all at once.
Your gasp was swallowed by his mouth crashing against yours, messy and desperate. Teeth clashing, breath ragged, all that pent-up frustration and jealousy spilling over at once.
You fisted your hands in the front of his shirt, dragging him impossibly closer like you wanted to climb inside his skin.
"Fuck—" he groaned against your lips, voice wrecked. "You’ve got no idea how long I’ve wanted this."
"Show me then," you breathed, tugging at his mask until he growled and shoved it up just enough to kiss you again—deeper this time, filthier.
His hands were everywhere now—gripping your hips like he wanted to leave bruises, mouth hot and insistent as he backed you against the wall of the barracks.
Your head spun. All that tension, all those stolen glances and clenched fists, finally boiling over into something raw and electric.
When he finally pulled back, both of you were panting. His forehead pressed to yours, his grip still bruising on your waist.
"Mine," he rasped. "No more games. No more letting them touch you like that. You’re fuckin’ mine now."
Your pulse thundered in your ears. "Yeah. Yours."
He kissed you again like he was sealing the promise.
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jupiterpilgrim ¡ 13 hours ago
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Someone Like You
Sohyun x Xinyu x male reader
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You push open the door with your shoulder, bag sliding down your arm, earbuds still in, still humming the chorus of the track you were half-distractedly mouthing on the walk back. The apartment’s dim, only the low yellow glow from the kitchen light pooling under the cabinets. It smells faintly like miso and something fried earlier (maybe tofu?) and, ironically, this reminds you that you forgot something. It doesn’t hit you immediately, what you forgot. But then your eyes sweep the counter.
Empty.
The fridge hisses softly when you open it. Half a carton of milk. Some eggs. A bottle of kimchi you’re not brave enough to open. And a lonely, suspicious cucumber. Then you freeze.
Okay. Right.
You were supposed to get groceries today. Actually, you were supposed to get them yesterday too, but Xinyu cornered you after the club meeting and asked for help lifting some stuff into storage—by which she meant do all the hard work while I pretend to supervise. Time got slippery. You left campus past dark and told yourself you’d make a list tomorrow.
Well, tomorrow was today. Now today is too late.
You step out of the kitchen just as Sohyun emerges from her room, barefoot, wearing that oversized sweatshirt she lives in when she’s in a mood. Dark grey, sleeves too long, hair twisted up with two pens stabbing through the knot like she’s some sort of overworked librarian assassin. Her expression is unreadable, which is bad. It’s when she gets unreadable that you know she’s very much read you and is probably two sentences away from verbal murder.
“You didn’t go, did you?” she says. No hello. Just sharp and low. Fair enough...
You fidget, rubbing the back of your neck. “I… got distracted. Club ran long.”
Her eyes flick down to your bag. No plastic handles sticking out, no clinking bottles or leafy greens peeking. She leans her weight to one hip and folds her arms slowly, like she’s savoring the drama of the moment.
“Distracted,” she repeats. “Again.”
“It’s just the second time—”
“The second time this week,” she cuts in, and now you’re pretty sure she’s not even mad about the food. There’s something else threading underneath, something prickly and a little tired.
You drop your bag by the couch and step closer, sheepish. “I know, I know. I really meant to, I just—club stuff’s been a lot. We’re organizing that charity auction and planning the art zine printing and—”
“You’re in a crafts club, not national defense,” she mutters, turning toward the kitchen, but slower than usual, like she’s waiting for you to say something worth staying for.
“It’s called ‘Hands On’,” you remind her, trailing after. “And it’s pretty fun, actually. We’re doing embroidery on vintage denim this week.”
That earns a glance, just a flash over her shoulder, one brow twitching. “So now you’re too busy learning how to sew flowers onto someone’s ass to remember your basic responsibilities?”
You shift on your feet. “You make it sound so much lamer than it is.”
“I didn’t have to try.”
You watch her pull out the rice cooker, expression smoothing into that blank practiced calm she wears when she’s trying not to let irritation sound like concern. The rice cooker clicks, and it suddenly feels very loud in the silence you left hanging.
“I’ll make it up to you,” you say quickly, guilt tightening your throat. “Let me cook this weekend.”
She pauses, dead silent. Then slowly turns, both arms now crossed tighter, chin tilted.
“You.”
“Me.”
“You want to cook.”
“For us, yeah.”
“You nearly set the toaster on fire trying to make Pop-Tarts.”
“That was one time. And I was sleepy.”
“You boiled water in a frying pan.”
“I couldn’t find the kettle!”
“It was next to the stove.”
You press your palms together like you’re about to pray. “C’mon. Let me try. I’ll find recipes online. I’ll watch a tutorial or something. I’ll even write down a shopping list this time.”
Her eyes narrow. “You're gonna write down one egg, one cup rice, plus one extinguisher?”
You groan and sag onto the counter dramatically, forehead thunking against the cool laminate. “Have some faith in me, Sohyun.”
“I do, that’s why I don’t want to die.”
You lift your head and grin at her, and she falters. There’s a twitch at the edge of her mouth like she’s fighting it, but her arms are still crossed and her eyes are still doing that sharp thing they do when she’s trying to seem unimpressed. She fails. She always fails.
“You’ve got that face on again,” you say.
“What face.”
“The grumpy ‘my idiot roommate is testing my will to live’ face. I don’t like that face. Gimme a better one.”
She turns away a little, her hip brushing the counter, but you catch the way her lips almost curve. You lean in slightly.
“C’mon, just a little one. Gimme a smile. I’ll even do the grocery run tomorrow and the day after.”
“That’s your responsibility anyway,” she mumbles, but softer.
“Yeah, but I’ll do it extra good. Promise. Just smile.”
She tries to keep her mouth straight, but it’s not fair, because you’re looking at her like a puppy that dropped its leash and still thinks it deserves a treat. And you know what you’re doing; weaponizing that whole innocent soft-boy thing, but it works. She finally lets one side of her mouth curl up, barely, like a crack of sunlight through clouds.
“There,” you say, triumphant, and point like it’s proof. “That’s the one. See? You look way less murdery when you do that.”
“Shut up,” she says, but she doesn’t move away when you lean against the counter beside her. Her shoulder is warm against yours, and she doesn’t pull away. You can feel her relaxing, even if she keeps up the grumble.
“Seriously though,” you say. “Thanks for cooking all the time. I know I suck at adulting. I’ll get better.”
“Yeah, well. Someone has to keep your malnourished ass alive.”
You laugh, and she pretends like that wasn’t a compliment buried in salt. The silence after isn’t tense anymore. It’s familiar. She leans over to rinse some rice, and you stay close, watching the way her fingers move, the easy rhythm of someone who knows what they’re doing. It’s kind of hypnotic. You catch yourself staring a little too long and glance away, ears warm.
“You know,” you say, just to fill the quiet, “Xinyu said she wants to teach me how to make handmade dumplings. Apparently she’s some kind of food goddess outside of club stuff.”
You don’t notice how still Sohyun goes. How her shoulders tighten just slightly. You’re busy thinking about how Xinyu had smiled at you when she said it, the way she tilted her head and asked if your hands were good with dough. Like she was measuring your answer with something hungrier than curiosity.
You don’t notice the way Sohyun’s grip on the strainer shifts. Or the small exhale she lets out, short and flat. But you do catch the quiet that follows your sentence. Heavy again. And not the good kind.
You glance over. “What?”
“Nothing,” she says, too fast. “Sounds like she’s keeping you real busy lately.”
“I guess? I mean, she’s just super involved in everything. She’s got all these ideas. And people really listen to her. It’s kinda cool.”
She hums, then dumps the rice into the cooker with a clatter that sounds more aggressive than necessary.
“Cool,” she repeats under her breath, but you don’t catch the tone.
You yawn and stretch your arms above your head. “Anyway. I’m gonna shower before dinner. Thanks for not killing me.”
“No promises,” she mutters.
As you disappear down the hall, you don’t see the look she gives the kitchen doorway. Not angry. Not exactly sad, either. Just a look like someone watching a window slowly shut on something they hadn’t even realized they were leaning out of. The rice cooker beeps behind her, forgotten. Her reflection stares back at her in the microwave door, and she doesn’t like what she sees there.
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The air outside the lecture hall is too crisp for how warm your neck feels under the collar of your hoodie. Your econ professor dragged out the last five minutes of class with a winding tangent about inflation and donuts, and your brain’s still foggy from trying to stay awake. The hallway hums with the usual end-of-class shuffle—backpacks zipping, shoes squeaking on linoleum, someone laughing too loudly down the hall, the flick of water bottles being opened like a chorus of bored seals. You dig your phone out of your pocket, thumb tapping out a quick message to Sohyun to let her know you might head home soon—and then you hear your name.
Not called. Sung.
“Heeeey!”
You don’t even get the full chance to turn around before something soft and perfume-sweet hooks around your elbow and starts pulling. It’s instinct, at this point. You don’t even resist. You know that voice, and sure enough, there she is: Xinyu. In a velvet jacket the color of overripe cherries, hair twisted in a high braid that bounces with every movement, eyes bright with some new scheme. She's wearing high heels, which emphasizes her height (1.74cm, and she doesn't even need the heels to be taller than you).
“You have legs. You’re walking. Perfect. C’mon,” she says, already dragging you past two people in the hall who double-take like they’re seeing something illegal.
“Uh—hi? What—what’s going on?” You try to plant your feet but she’s stronger than she looks. “I actually need to get home kinda early—”
“It’ll be quick,” she chirps, which you immediately recognize as a lie, the same way Sohyun always does when you tell her you’ll “just check something real fast.” Xinyu gives you a sideways glance, all long lashes and a grin that should be registered as a performance-enhancing drug. “We’ve got a situation and you, my sweet dumb boy, are just the man to solve it.”
“I never agreed to—wait, what situation?”
“You’ll see,” she hums.
That’s how it always starts.
She marches you through campus like she’s late to a parade, and you end up outside the “Hands On” club room (formerly the Sad Little Arts Supply Closet), now upgraded with banners, fairy lights, a suggestion box shaped like a gumball machine, and one extremely passive-aggressive cactus on the windowsill that someone (probably Xinyu) glued googly eyes onto. The room smells like fabric glue and lavender cleaning spray. You can already tell something’s going on. Half the tables have fabric swatches and scissors laid out, while the other half are in chaos—cardboard boxes, paper stacks, craft knives, sticky notes everywhere like a crime scene made by a kindergarten teacher.
Xinyu kicks the door shut with her heel, and immediately spins to face you, hands clasped dramatically.
“Emergency,” she declares. “Our treasurer—bless his little heart—forgot to print half the zine inserts for tomorrow’s showcase. And he left town to visit his boyfriend and won’t be back until Monday.”
You blink. “Okay. And that involves me… how?”
She gives you a look, then grabs a stack of prints and holds them out with both hands, like she’s offering an ancient tome. “We need to trim the inserts, fold them, and pair them with the right zine covers tonight. I would do it myself, but I’m already running final checklists, and I need someone with…” She pauses, eyes dragging slowly down you in a way that makes your spine twitch. “…delicate hands.”
You’re not even sure what that means, but it works embarrassingly well. You shift your weight awkwardly, try not to smile, fail.
“I’ve got readings to do, though,” you mumble, still reaching for the stack anyway.
She leans in, nose almost bumping yours. “Just thirty minutes.”
You know it’s going to be at least two hours. But you’re already sitting down.
You work through the inserts like a factory line, trying not to get glue on your hoodie, trying even harder not to look too happy that she keeps hovering over your shoulder. Every few minutes she passes behind you, laying a hand on your back, leaning to read something over your shoulder, her perfume brushing against your cheek—light and heady, like peonies dipped in honey. When you mess up the first fold, she just laughs and reaches over to fix it, her fingers brushing yours deliberately.
“See? You’ve got the touch,” she says after you finish the third stack, peeking at your neat line of trimmed edges. “You’re careful. Precise. You’d make a good production lead.”
You pause, scissors halfway through a page. “Production what?”
“For the club.” She spins one of the folding chairs around and straddles it backwards, arms folded over the backrest like she’s about to make a TED talk. “We need someone to manage all the materials and oversee project prep days. It’s not super intense, just a couple meetings, task lists, making sure stuff gets done right. I’ve been doing it all myself, but honestly, you’re way more organized than I expected.”
“Uh. Thanks?” You’re not even sure if that’s a compliment or an insult.
She grins. “I'm serious! You’ve got this sort of… reliable energy. Like the kind of guy who double-checks the batteries before a camping trip.”
“Are you saying I’m boring?”
“No,” she says, tipping her head. “I’m saying you’re hot in a very unexpectedly domestic way.”
Your brain short-circuits a little. You drop a sheet. She laughs.
“That’s not—what even is that?”
“Means I could leave you alone in a room with a pet bunny and a glue gun and not worry about either of them dying.”
“…That is the weirdest compliment I’ve ever gotten.”
“And yet you’re still blushing.”
You turn your head away, trying to pretend you’re not. You totally are.
The idea of the position swirls in your head now, even as you keep folding. You picture being in charge of something, even something this small. Making lists. Making things run. Sohyun would probably laugh if she heard it. Or roll her eyes. Or both. Still. There's something weirdly satisfying about the idea of being useful like that. And then there’s the fact that it means more time here. Around her. Around this energy that makes you feel like you’re slightly floating, like maybe you matter in a way you hadn’t thought about before.
“I dunno,” you say. “I’ve never done anything like that before. And I’m still learning how the club works…”
“I’ll help you,” she says immediately. “Seriously. I wouldn’t throw you in alone. I just need someone I trust. And you’ve got this chill thing going on that keeps people from freaking out. I like that.”
You feel your ears heat again.
“I’ll think about it,” you say.
She pouts, and it’s completely weaponized. “But I need you.”
You choke on your breath.
She leans closer across the table. “Please? You’d be perfect. You’re already half in love with this place anyway.”
“I am not.”
She lifts an eyebrow. “You’re literally here folding paper on a Friday night.”
“…Point taken.”
She smiles then, something soft but electric, and somehow the room feels warmer. She taps the side of your hand lightly with a fingernail.
“Just say yes.”
You hesitate.
But it’s barely even hesitation.
“Okay,” you mumble, and you look down because her smile makes it hard to breathe right.
“I knew you would,” she says, sing-song and smug.
You keep working, heartbeat annoyingly loud, the sound of scissors and paper and her humming filling the room like you’ve stepped into a whole different orbit. Something not quite safe. But not bad, either. Just new.
And when you finally look at your phone later—two hours later—you realize you never texted Sohyun back.
—
You fumble with your keys at the door like they’ve suddenly become a math problem, plastic bags hanging heavy off your wrists, sleeves bunched up, hoodie damp with the sweat of a rushed walk to the market. You’re late. Not “forgot the time” late; actual late. Like, over-an-hour-past-the-“I’ll be home by six”-mark late. And that’s with the shortcut through the back alley that smells vaguely like wet cardboard and moldy pizza. You exhale, brace yourself, and nudge the door open with your foot.
Inside’s warm, lit up with the kitchen lights already on, even though you’d planned to turn them on yourself, cook like a responsible adult for once, surprise Sohyun with your flawless (okay, barely functional) culinary debut. Instead, there’s quiet rustling in the living room and the telltale smell of rice already cooking.
Damn.
“Sohyun,” you call out quickly, pushing in and kicking the door shut behind you. “Wait—don’t cook, I’m doing it! I swear!”
She appears before you can get another sentence out, standing in the doorway between the kitchen and the living room with her arms folded like she’s on break from interrogating someone. That same sweatshirt again, sleeves half covering her hands, her hair up in one of those loose, tired buns that somehow makes her look even more intimidating. She doesn’t say anything. Just stares at you.
You lift the bags. “Groceries. All of ‘em. Even got the brand of gochujang you like and those overpriced Belgian chocolate bars you keep ‘not liking’ but always finish.”
That gets her eyebrow twitching upward, just a little. But the frown’s still hanging around her mouth.
“I said I’d cook,” you add. “I didn’t forget this time.”
“You’re late.”
“I know, I’m sorry. There was… stuff. At the club. Unexpected stuff.”
She doesn’t ask what. She just moves aside so you can shuffle into the kitchen and start unpacking the bags. Vegetables. Noodles. Chicken. Soy sauce. Two bars of that milk chocolate with sea salt she thinks you don’t notice her hoarding in the freezer like contraband. She watches silently as you line things up on the counter, sleeves rolled up like you’re about to operate instead of cook.
“Okay,” you exhale, trying to sound confident and not like you’re internally googling how to dice an onion without making it look like a hate crime. “Tonight, we are making… stir-fried noodles. With chicken. And bok choy.”
Sohyun leans against the doorframe, arms still crossed. “You’re stir-frying something.”
“Technically, yes.”
She watches you wrestle the chicken out of its package like it’s a test of your moral fiber.
“You know,” she says after a long moment, “the whole point of you cooking was to not make me do anything.”
“I got this.”
You do not got this. Five minutes later you’re trying to figure out which knife is for chicken and which is for not-dying, when Sohyun lets out a sigh and walks over. She ties her hair up tighter, grabs a cutting board without a word, and starts slicing the bok choy with precision so sharp it’s almost smug.
“Hey—” you protest, “I said I got this.”
“You said a lot of things,” she mutters. “At this rate, we’ll be eating at midnight.”
You shut up and just let her work beside you. There’s something comforting about it, the shared silence while you both prep, the sound of knives on wood, the little clatter of bottles and bowls. You glance over at her hands a few times—how practiced they are, how she moves like she’s not even thinking about it. You’ve never been able to do anything that confidently. Not like her.
She doesn’t look at you when she speaks next. Her tone’s quiet. Even. Too even.
“So. This ‘unexpected stuff’ at the club.”
You clear your throat. “Just Xinyu stuff.
“Of course.”
“She needed help setting up some print stuff for the showcase tomorrow. I told her I couldn’t stay long, but…”
“But you stayed anyway.”
You hesitate. “It’s not like that.”
“Isn’t it?”
You glance up. She’s slicing scallions now, but her hands have slowed, like she’s not as calm as she wants to sound.
“She just needed help.”
Sohyun sets the knife down, finally looks at you.
“She always needs help, doesn’t she?”
You blink. “What’s that supposed to mean?”
Sohyun wipes her hands on a dish towel. “It means girls like her know exactly what they’re doing when they lean in too close and smile too wide and ask for just one little favor. And boys like you—”
“—what about boys like me?” you cut in, more defensive than you expected.
She studies you. “You’re too nice. Too soft. You think people mean what they say when they smile at you.”
Your chest tightens, and you try to laugh it off. “You don’t even know her.”
“I don’t need to,” she says flatly. “I’ve seen enough. You come home late. You forget things. You’re too tired to eat sometimes. All because some pretty girl with glitter in her hair asks you to fold paper and run errands and smile on command.”
“She’s not using me,” you say, voice low now, trying to keep your hands busy with the noodles, but your pulse is skipping. “We’re friends. She values me. I’m not just—help. She made me a production lead.”
Sohyun lets out a quiet, humorless breath. “Wow. Production lead. That sounds very real.”
You grit your teeth. “You don’t know what it’s like there. The club’s fun. I like it. I feel… useful. Like I matter.”
“You do matter,” she snaps. “Here. With me. But you’re so damn caught up in being liked by her that you don’t see what she’s doing.”
You flinch, then stare down at the noodles, hands cold even over the heat of the pan.
“She’s really nice to me,” you mumble. “She listens. She laughs at my jokes. She makes me feel seen. Maybe you just… don’t get along with people like that.”
Her silence is louder than the stovetop now. You don’t dare look up. You keep stirring, even though the sauce is starting to bubble too fast, even though the smell is getting sharper. Sohyun says nothing for a long time.
When she finally speaks, her voice is quieter.
“She doesn’t see you,” she says. “She sees what she can get from you.”
You don’t know what to say to that. You just stand there, heat rising from the stove, from your face, from the sudden shift in the air around you.
“Let's just... finish cooking, okay?” you finally say, and the conversation ends.
The dinner isn’t bad. It’s not amazing either—one of the noodles is suspiciously crunchy and the sauce might be a little too salty—but it’s edible, and you didn’t set off the smoke detector, so it counts as a win. The kind of win where no one cheers but nobody dies. You both eat cross-legged on the couch, bowls balanced in your laps, watching something vague and unmemorable play out on the TV. Neither of you really pays attention. The show is just there to fill the silence you haven’t figured out how to cross again yet.
She’s quiet. Not in the usual way, where she’s half-ignoring you because she’s pretending to be annoyed. This is the kind of quiet where she doesn’t pick at your uneven chopstick technique, or sigh when you slouch too far forward like a sad noodle boy. She just eats. Occasionally glances at the screen. Mostly doesn’t look at you.
It’s your fault. You know that. You didn’t mean to shut her out, but the conversation from earlier is still coiled up tight in your chest like a knotted cord you can’t unkink. You know she meant well. You also know you didn’t want to hear it. And now it’s sitting between you like a third roommate with bad vibes and no rent.
You stab a stray noodle in the bowl and swirl it for no reason. Then, out of nowhere, you blurt it.
“Hey, uh… do you wanna go to the movies this weekend?”
Sohyun blinks. Turns her head slowly. “What?”
You cough and set your bowl down on the coffee table, feigning casual like you haven’t just rerouted the entire tone of the evening. “That movie. The weird indie horror-romance one you wouldn’t shut up about. You said it’s finally playing at that little theater downtown, right?”
She narrows her eyes like she suspects a trap. “That movie?”
“Yeah. That one with the girl who falls in love with a ghost that might’ve murdered her aunt.”
“You said that sounded dumb.”
“I’ve since developed taste.”
Her eyes flick down to your empty bowl, then back to your face, skeptical. “You wanna go see it. With me.”
“Yes.”
“At the theater.”
“Yes.”
“You, willingly, sitting through a movie where people talk in metaphors and cry in bathtubs for two hours.”
“Yes.”
She stares a second longer, then slowly sets her own bowl down.
“…Are you dying?”
You laugh, relieved that the wall between you starts to crack. “No. I just figured it’s been a while, you know? Since we went anywhere together. Just us.”
She looks at you, and this time it’s different. Softer. A little surprised. Her shoulders uncoil, just slightly.
“Yeah,” she says after a beat. “Yeah, I guess it has.”
You shift closer on the couch, knees brushing. She doesn’t pull away.
“I miss that,” you say quietly. “You and me. Hanging out. You making fun of my popcorn choices and stealing half of it anyway.”
“I don’t steal,” she mutters, glancing away. “You just let me take it.”
“Exactly,” you say, and you slide your hand over hers before you can overthink it. Just resting your palm on top of hers, fingers curling a little, not gripping, just—being there.
She flinches slightly at the contact, just a twitch, but she doesn’t pull back. She lets your fingers settle against hers, warm and tentative, and when you look up at her, she’s not smirking. Not scoffing. Her eyes are flicking down where your hands meet like it’s something foreign and strange and maybe a little fragile.
“You’re my best friend,” you say, simple and true. “You matter a lot to me.”
Her lips part slightly. Her brows lift, and for a second you think she might laugh it off or tell you you’re being cheesy or stupid—but she doesn’t. She just exhales, like maybe something heavy has been sitting in her chest too.
“You matter to me too,” she says.
You smile at her, and this time when your thumb brushes her knuckle, she doesn’t tense. She lets it happen. Lets you stay close. The show keeps playing in the background, some scene with a car chase and overly dramatic soundtrack cues, but you don’t hear it. Not really.
She shifts her hand slightly and laces her fingers with yours. Not fully. Not completely confident. But enough.
“Don’t be late to the theater,” she says softly. “Or I will eat all your popcorn.”
“Fair,” you say, and your heart’s beating like you’ve just run a mile uphill, but your smile won’t quit.
Neither will hers, even as she tries to hide it by turning toward the screen again.
And when she finally squeezes your hand, once, gently… you squeeze back.
—
The week grinds on like a slow, dull blade; long days of lectures that won’t end and projects that never feel done, your hands always on something, always organizing, always fixing. The new position in the club sounded cool when Xinyu pitched it, sounded manageable, even kind of important. And it is. But it's also constant. There’s always something that needs adjusting. A deadline that wasn’t clear. A last-minute supply shortage. Someone who forgot to RSVP to a workshop and now wants to be squeezed in. You spend most of your hours between classes running around campus, typing messages with one hand and juggling printouts with the other. It’s not that you hate it. It’s just… a lot.
And you’ve been deliberately keeping it at arm’s length this week. Showing up when you need to. Doing what’s necessary. But not lingering. Not letting yourself fall into the way Xinyu looks at you when you're both the last ones in the room. Not letting yourself chase that high that comes from being the center of her attention. You're just packing your things at the edge of the classroom when the scent hits you before the voice. Vanilla, sharp berry, something flirtatious. You freeze for half a second before you even look up.
“There you are,” Xinyu says, leaning against the frame of the door like it’s a movie scene. Skirt just high enough to register, blouse knotted loosely at the waist, hair done up in a half-messy twist that probably took twenty minutes to make look that accidental. She’s smiling at you like she caught you doing something bad and she’s this close to forgiving you for it.
“Hey,” you say, more cautious than casual.
“Got a minute?” She pushes off the door with one heel, strides into your personal space like she owns it, which (let’s face it) she kind of does when she wants to. “Just wanted to run a couple updates by you for the zine drop next week. Also, did you see my text?”
You blink. “Uh, I think so? About the schedule?”
“No,” she says, stepping even closer, voice lowering just enough to pull your gaze to her mouth. “The one I sent yesterday. About the mixer tonight.”
You shake your head. “I’ve been a little swamped. Haven’t had time to check.”
Her smile flickers, momentarily amused, maybe faintly disappointed. “Yeah, I noticed. You’ve been kind of... scarce this week.”
You shift your bag on your shoulder, trying not to notice the way her eyes track the movement. “I’ve just had a lot going on. Assignments, you know. Life.”
“Sure,” she says, tilting her head. “But it’s not like you to dip right after meetings. And I miss my favorite assistant-slash-handyman-slash-pretty boy.”
That catches you off guard. You cough and glance toward the hallway.
She’s teasing, obviously.
Probably.
Right?
“I’m still doing everything I’m supposed to,” you say, trying to stay focused. “I’ve just been trying to keep my head down and not burn out.”
She studies you for a second, like she’s assessing whether that’s the whole truth. “Mhm. So you’re saying you could come to the mixer tonight but you won’t.”
You laugh nervously. “I already have plans.”
That gets her attention. “Plans?” she repeats, lifting an eyebrow. “With who?”
You hesitate. A beat too long.
“…My roommate,” you say. “Sohyun.”
Her mouth lifts at one corner, interested now in a way that’s different; not just playful, but… analytical.
“Sohyun…” she echoes. “That name’s familiar. I think I’ve seen her around. Quiet girl? Moles on the face? Always in a hoodie?”
You nod. “Yeah, that’s her.”
“Didn’t know you two were that close.”
You try to shrug it off, but your grip on your bag strap tightens. “We live together. We hang out sometimes. She’s just—she’s my friend.”
Xinyu steps closer. Close enough you can smell her perfume again, soft and sweet, like fruit ripened in summer heat. Her fingers trail lightly across your forearm.
“Just your friend,” she murmurs.
You nod, throat dry. “Yeah.”
Her eyes drag over your face like she’s reading a secret written across your skin. She doesn’t blink. Her fingers pause, then curl lightly around your wrist.
“That’s good,” she says, voice velvet-wrapped. “Because you already have an owner.”
Your breath catches. “I—what?”
She doesn’t give you time to untangle the meaning. She just leans forward and kisses you.
It’s soft at first, almost testing. Her lips barely brush yours, but the sensation is instantly overwhelming. Sweet gloss. A breath of warm air. Her fingers sliding up, into your hair, pulling you a half-step deeper before you even realize you're leaning in. Everything disappears, noise, time, the fluorescent hallway lights, it’s just her, kissing you like she’s claiming something that already belonged to her.
You don’t move. You can’t move. Your thoughts are scattering like coins in water.
When she finally pulls back, her face is still inches from yours, her breath warm and her smile damn near criminal.
“You’re cute when you look like you’ve been unplugged,” she says, brushing your jaw with the back of her knuckle. “But don’t worry. I don’t bite.”
You swallow, hard. “I don’t…”
“You don’t what?”
“I don’t really know what that meant.”
She laughs. “It means I’m making a reservation, baby. You’re mine.”
You look at her, dumbstruck, heart slamming in your ribs.
Then, before you can collect yourself, she adds, “So, since you’re blowing me off for your roommate tonight, how about you make it up to me.”
“…How?”
She leans in again, lips just by your ear now.
“Ask me out. Just you and me. No club stuff. No excuses.”
You hesitate. You shouldn’t. You should say no. You should stall. But instead—
“…Okay. I will.”
Her smile goes wide and adorable.
“Good boy.”
She kisses your cheek this time, softer, lighter, but somehow more dangerous, and then turns on her heel and disappears down the hall, skirt swinging, a melody of casual destruction.
You’re left standing in the doorway of your classroom, the taste of her still on your lips, your phone buzzing with a new message that you already know is from her.
And somehow, all you can think about now is how the hell you’re going to face Sohyun tonight.
—
You get to the theater with barely a minute to spare, which is honestly a miracle considering your brain's been running on static ever since Xinyu kissed you. You’ve been replaying it like some kind of forbidden cutscene you unlocked by accident. Her perfume is still clinging to your hoodie. Your lips still feel weirdly aware, like your body hasn’t updated the rest of itself on what happened. You texted Sohyun that you were on your way while your fingers were still slightly shaking.
And now she’s standing in front of the ticket kiosk, scrolling on her phone, her expression neutral until she hears your footsteps. She looks up, and her face softens the way it always does when she sees you: shoulders relaxing, lips almost smiling. She’s got her hair down tonight, not tied up like usual, and her eyeliner’s a little sharper than usual, like she put in effort but didn’t want to make it obvious. It kind of punches the air out of your lungs.
“You made it,” she says.
“Wouldn’t miss it,” you manage, trying to keep your tone level.
She squints. “You okay? You look like you just ran from a house fire.”
“I’m fine. Just, uh…” You rub the back of your neck, laughing awkwardly. “Got caught up with something right before I left. But I’m good now. Totally good.”
She walks beside you toward the entrance, and the moment you get close, she stops short. Her nose twitches. Her brow furrows slightly.
“Hold up,” she says, sniffing the air near your shoulder. “What is that?”
You freeze. “What’s what?”
“That smell. Are you wearing perfume?”
You nearly trip over your own feet. “What? No. No, no. It’s, uh… probably just my deodorant. I bought a new one. It’s got like, weird… berry something in it. Or… lavender? Maybe both? I don’t know.”
She stares at you like you just said your skin naturally emits essential oils. “You smell like someone else. Like a girl."
You try not to sweat. “Maybe I brushed past someone on the train. Or—maybe someone at the mall sprayed a tester thing. I mean, you know how people get with free samples.”
Sohyun doesn’t look convinced, but she doesn’t press further. Not directly. Just narrows her eyes and says, “Uh-huh,” before moving toward the theater doors again.
You scramble to change the subject, reaching for something, anything. “Hey, by the way… you look really beautiful tonight.”
That gets her attention. She stops walking again. Turns slowly.
“What?”
You blink. “I mean it. You look nice. Really nice. It’s the eyeliner or the hair or maybe both. I dunno. You just do.”
Now her expression isn’t suspicious, exactly. More like… confused. Like you just threw her off balance in a way she wasn’t expecting. She gives you a side glance, narrowing her eyes again.
“Okay, what’s going on with you tonight?”
“Nothing,” you say quickly, holding your hands up like you’re being accused of a crime. “I’m allowed to compliment my best friend, right?”
She mutters something like “Not when you’re acting weird about it,” but she walks ahead and scans the tickets, so you follow her into the dark theater, hoping the blackness will hide how flushed you probably are.
You sit next to her, the movie already starting with a low, ambient hum that fills the space between you. But you’re not really there. Not fully.
Your body is sitting beside Sohyun, her knee occasionally brushing yours, the bucket of popcorn between you smelling like synthetic butter and warm salt. But your mind keeps flashing back to the moment in the hallway earlier today—Xinyu leaning in, her lips brushing yours, her voice low and possessive, calling you hers. That look in her eyes like she meant it. Like she wanted you. Not just to help with her club plans, not just to make things run smoothly. You. Specifically you.
You sit still, trying to focus on the film, but the plot flows over you like mist—haunting music, characters whispering in shadowy rooms, a scene with someone walking backwards in slow motion. You’re lost in the echo of what Xinyu said.
You already have an owner.
You don’t know what to make of it. But it didn’t feel fake. It didn’t feel like she was playing. It felt like something real. Like maybe Sohyun was wrong. Maybe Xinyu does care about you. Maybe all the flirtation and teasing wasn’t just a way to get you to fold papers and haul supplies. Maybe she likes you. For you.
But then you glance sideways. Sohyun’s eyes are on the screen, but she’s smiling. Just a little. The kind of smile you only catch if you’re watching her close, when something in the movie hits right, or when she’s just happy to be there beside you, no pressure, no performance. Just… happy.
You feel it then. Not guilt, exactly. Something messier. Like being caught between two currents pulling in opposite directions. Xinyu’s kiss still burns on your lips. But Sohyun’s hand, resting on the armrest beside yours, feels like something familiar. Something safe.
So you just keep sitting there, the film flickering over both of you, your brain too full and too loud to hear much of anything.
But Sohyun leans slightly toward you halfway through the film, and whispers, “Thanks for coming with me.”
You nod, quiet. “Of course.”
She nudges you lightly with her shoulder. “Even if your deodorant smells suspiciously like high-end seduction.”
You laugh under your breath, and it breaks the tension in your chest a little. She doesn’t ask more.
And you’re not sure where this is all going. But for now, you’re here. With her. Sharing popcorn. Sharing silence. Sharing something you still haven’t named.
But despite all this, somehow, tonight is going well.
Or at least you're pretending it is.
—
It starts subtly. A slow gravitational shift. One day you’re just helping Xinyu reorganize the storage shelves in the club room, joking about how half the boxes are labeled with inside jokes only she understands, and the next, it’s just the two of you sitting cross-legged on the carpet, eating overpriced takeout while she flips through proofs and playfully feeds you shrimp tempura with her chopsticks. Time begins to bend differently around her. Hours pass like they’re minutes when she’s smiling at you like that, fingers trailing casually along your thigh while she talks about themes for the next zine, her head tilted, eyes lit like you’re the only one who gets to hear this part of her.
You try not to let it show too much outside the club room. It’s not like you’re trying to hide it, but there’s something about it that feels too new, too bright to be touched by other people’s opinions.
Especially Sohyun’s.
So you don’t say anything about the kisses stolen behind closed doors or the way Xinyu's hand slips into yours when no one’s looking. But you talk about her. A lot. More than usual. Like you’re hoping repetition will turn perception. Like you’re trying to overwrite Sohyun’s skepticism with enough evidence that she’ll finally admit she was wrong.
At first, you don’t notice how often you bring her up. Like during dinner one night, when Sohyun’s plating kimchi stew and you’re scrolling through your phone with a dumb grin.
“She’s seriously so funny,” you say, half-laughing to yourself. “Yesterday she was trying to teach me how to make those little origami frogs and I kept screwing them up, so she made a whole sad frog funeral out of my mess-ups. Like full-on folded a little casket. It was so dumb, but I couldn’t stop laughing.”
Sohyun glances up from the pot, slow, expression unreadable. “Sounds… elaborate.”
“Yeah, but like, in a cute way,” you say, scooping rice into your bowl. “She’s got this energy that makes everything more fun. Even boring stuff. Like she turned budget planning into a game last week. Made me guess prices on glitter and glue sticks like it was a quiz show.”
“She ever let you win?”
You grin. “Only when I look extra pitiful.”
Sohyun doesn’t laugh. She just places your bowl in front of you without comment, her eyes flicking down to the table as she settles into her seat. You don’t catch the way her fingers tense around her chopsticks before she starts eating.
You miss other signs too. Like how she doesn’t look up when you come home late anymore. Or how she doesn’t ask what you were up to. You used to tell her without prompting, but now your nights are wrapped in something private—lipstick on your neck, her breath on your ear, Xinyu pressing you against clubroom cabinets with that smug little grin that makes your thoughts scatter like dice.
You stop watching movies with Sohyun. Not intentionally. It just slips away. The time you spent together starts shrinking, edged out by late-night print meetings, gallery walks with Xinyu that turn into half-drunken conversations on park benches, and slow kisses that taste like watermelon gum and heat. You keep saying you’ll reschedule movie night. You never do.
Sohyun doesn’t press. But she notices.
She notices how you start smiling at your phone more than usual. How your hoodie comes home smelling like something not yours. She notices how you hesitate when she asks how your day went, how you mention Xinyu’s name like it’s a punctuation mark in every other sentence.
“Did she ask you to talk about her this much,” Sohyun mutters one night.
“What?”
She doesn’t repeat herself. Just stares at the screen. Her shoulders stiff.
You shift on the couch. “I just think maybe she’s not how you assumed, that’s all.”
Sohyun’s jaw tightens, her eyes still on the flickering movie neither of you are watching. “Maybe.”
“She’s been… really kind to me,” you add. “She listens. She gets it. I dunno. It’s just nice having someone who really sees you, y’know?”
There’s a pause. A breath. A sound like something small and invisible breaking.
“I thought I did,” she says quietly.
You turn to her. “What?”
“Nothing,” she says. “Forget it.”
You don’t push. And that’s the worst part. You used to. But now Xinyu’s kisses are still on your collar, her texts still open on your screen, little cartoon hearts trailing in your thoughts like an afterimage.
You’re floating. Orbiting. And you don’t see the way Sohyun’s been left behind on the ground, staring at your back like she’s watching a spaceship disappear into a sky that never once asked her to come along.
—
One month has passed.
She’s not surprised when you’re late. That’s just how it is now.
The first few times, she was. At least enough to stay up, waiting in the living room with a show paused halfway through and her phone resting face-up on the armrest. But that phase passed. It’s like training a cat to come home by midnight—you can try, but if it keeps slipping out the window, eventually you stop wasting your breath.
Now it’s routine. You say you’ll be home by eight. She hears the door creak at eleven. You always have a reason. Club stuff. Project stuff. Xinyu needing help. Xinyu needing you. And Sohyun tells herself not to care. She tells herself she’s just your roommate. She tells herself that if she keeps her expectations low enough, they won’t disappoint her when they inevitably fall short.
But tonight is different.
You didn’t say you'd be out late. You said you'd be back in time for dinner. Even said you'd help her prep. She made an actual list. Took the rice out early. Washed vegetables like she believed you.
Stupid. Stupid, stupid.
Nine o'clock. She tries to study. Fails.
Ten o'clock. She scrolls social media and refreshes your chat twice, looking for a dot that never shows up.
At eleven, she sends a message:
you good?
At midnight:
where are you
No reply.
She starts imagining things she doesn't want to imagine. Hospital beds. Car crashes. You ditching your phone somewhere and bleeding out behind a dumpster. All of it stupid, dramatic, and totally possible in the late-night silence of a too-quiet apartment. She walks the loop from the kitchen to the living room and back again like pacing will keep her from thinking. At 1 a.m. she gives up and goes to her room, sits in bed with the lights off and your chat open on her phone like it might suddenly ping alive and make her look dumb for worrying.
You don’t reply.
Not even the seen-check mark.
She stares at the glow of the screen, the little timestamp beneath her last message like it’s laughing at her.
At 3:04 a.m, the door clicks.
She hears it, obviously. She’s been awake for hours, lying still in the dark, breathing shallow like that might trick her thoughts into falling asleep. The lock turns slowly, like you’re trying not to make a sound. The door swings open with that telltale rubbery groan (it’s always the left hinge) and then soft footsteps. Your footsteps.
She doesn’t move.
You shuffle into the hallway. Then your door clicks shut, soft. No lights turned on. No message sent. No “hey, sorry I’m late.” Just… slipping in like a kid past curfew. Quiet as guilt.
She stares at her ceiling. Her room smells like night cream and too much unsaid.
Something’s wrong. Not in the usual way.
You didn’t just get caught up. You’re hiding something.
She sits up finally, swings her legs over the side of the bed, but doesn’t turn on the light. She just sits there in the dark, jaw clenched, fists curling in her lap.
It’s Xinyu. Of course it’s Xinyu.
Something about that girl makes Sohyun’s skin crawl. Too perfect. Too polished. Too practiced with the way she laughs like music and touches everyone like they’re already hers. And she could see it happening—could see the way you lit up around her, how your eyes chased Xinyu’s every move like a dog waiting for scraps. At first, Sohyun thought it was a phase. Something shallow. A crush that’d fizzle out like most of yours did.
But then the quiet started. The missed dinners. The unread messages. The new deodorant that didn’t smell like you. The way your eyes would dart when she said Xinyu’s name, like it was a window she could see through.
Now, tonight, the way you came in like a stranger. That was the crack that let everything pour in.
She should be angry. She wants to be angry. But what’s worse is this ache: this quiet, hollow ache in her chest like she’s watching something slip out of her hands she never got to call hers in the first place.
You were hers. Not hers-hers. Not officially. But still. Hers in the way you always came to her first. Hers in the way your laugh sounded different when it was just them. Hers in the way you’d watch her cook with that dumb soft look and try not to say anything because you didn’t want to sound sappy. She misses that.
She misses you.
Now all she has is the memory of your footsteps in the dark and the smell of that other girl on your clothes.
And she’s not sure how much longer she can pretend not to notice.
—
Sohyun wakes up earlier than usual. Not because she wants to. Her eyes just snap open like they’re waiting for an answer to a question she didn’t get to ask. The clock on her nightstand says 6:34, and her room is blue and gray and quiet, with the early light crawling across the floorboards like it’s sneaking in on tiptoe. Her pillow still smells faintly like conditioner and sleep and the night she wasted waiting for you to come home. She kicks the blanket off. Her skin’s cold but her chest’s hotter than it should be. A low, smoldering kind of heat that simmers behind the ribs. Not anger. Not yet. Something more corrosive.
You’re already in the kitchen when she steps out. Acting like everything’s fine. Like nothing happened. Even visibly exhausted, you’ve got that dumb, disarming half-smile on, and your hoodie’s zipped all the way up like you think it makes you look more innocent. Like you think you’re just gonna pour some cereal, mumble something about class starting at eight, and coast through the morning without her noticing the parts of you that don’t match.
"Morning," you say. Your tone is chipper. Fake. She hates it. “I made coffee for you.”
She doesn’t ask anything. She doesn’t snap. She just grabs a mug, fills it with that bitter cheap instant coffee you somehow never notice tastes like burnt pennies, and sits at the table. You start rambling.
“I didn’t get a chance to reply last night. My phone died. I was at a friend’s place. We were just hanging out. Time got away from me, you know how it is.”
She hums. Not in agreement. Just to fill space.
“It wasn’t even that late,” you say. “I mean, okay, yeah, technically it was late, but it’s not like—nothing bad happened or anything. Just lost track.”
She keeps sipping her coffee, expression unreadable. Like the mug is more interesting than your entire explanation.
You wait for her to say something. She doesn’t. You keep going. Nervous filler. You always do that when you’re lying.
“I mean, I didn’t even realize what time it was. It was like, wow, already past two? Crazy. And by then I figured I’d just crash and not wake anyone up.”
She sets the mug down too hard. It clinks against the wood laminate. She looks at you, expression flat. “It’s okay.”
That’s it. Just that. No inflection. Not even a glare. You nod awkwardly and start preparing your cereal.
—
The walk to campus is dead quiet. You both step in sync without thinking, but there’s no music between you. No shared earbuds. No small talk. Just footsteps and a silence that stretches so long it starts to feel like another person walking beside you, tall and heavy and suffocating.
At the entrance gate, you break off first. “See you later, yeah?” you say.
Sohyun just nods. You turn. And she watches you go.
But today’s different.
Today she’s not going to sit back. Today she’s done playing passive-aggressive roommate, done standing still while something she doesn’t want to name slips out of reach. Today she’s going to find out. For real. Whatever it is—whatever this thing is between you and Xinyu—she needs to see it. Even if it breaks her.
She heads toward your building at a brisk pace, hoodie pulled low, headphones in with nothing playing. Just for the look. Just to blend in. She waits across the quad from your classroom entrance, leaning against a column like she’s texting, like she belongs there, like her heart isn’t pounding in her ears so loud she feels it in her teeth.
You come out a minute later, backpack slung lazy on one shoulder, head ducked, scrolling your phone. She steps into motion before you can see her. You don’t look back. You don’t notice. She follows you across the paved paths, past vending machines and sleepy undergrads, keeping enough distance to look like she’s just going the same way. No one glances at her twice.
And then she sees her. Xinyu.
Bright red jacket. Short skirt and cropped top, quite inappropriate for the academic environment. Hair curled just-so, like she stepped out of an ad. Leaning against a bench with one ankle crossed over the other like she’s waiting for her date. You slow. She smiles. Arms open.
“There you are!” she chirps, pulling you in.
It’s not just a hug. Sohyun knows what hugs are. This one’s got linger. This one’s got fingertips sliding up your back like they’re trying to memorize every bone. You look caught off guard, but you don’t move away.
Sohyun slinks closer, behind the sculpture garden wall. She crouches low, right by the rhododendron hedge that stinks faintly of wet bark and cheap fertilizer. Her hands are cold.
"We need to go to the club immediately,” she says.
“I thought the club was closed today,” you reply.
Xinyu laughs, and it’s musical and full of knowing. “Exactly. It’s closed. No one’s gonna be there.”
You hesitate. “But like… isn’t that why we shouldn’t go?”
“Aw,” she coos, dragging her nail down your sleeve, “you’re so cute when you’re trying to be good. Come on, just a little visit. I forgot my notebook and I need to do some sketches. Besides—” she lowers her voice, “I like the place better when it’s empty. More room to spread out. More room to play.”
Sohyun’s stomach flips.
You laugh nervously. “I guess… I mean, if you really need help—”
“I always need help,” she says, and leans close again. “And you’re so good with your hands.”
It’s like someone punched the breath out of Sohyun’s lungs. She watches you scratch your neck, look away, not quite answering. But you’re not pulling away either. You’re not protesting. You’re blushing. She’s got her hooks in and she knows it. Sohyun can see it all from here, every smug flick of Xinyu’s lashes, every calculated little lean and brush.
She swallows hard. Her fingers are clenched so tight her knuckles hurt.
No. She’s not letting this slide.
She bolts before she can hear anything else. Takes the side path, sneakers hitting concrete in bursts, weaving through the back courtyards toward the old art building. The clubroom’s there, tucked in behind the supply annex. Her legs burn by the time she reaches it.
The door’s unlocked. Wide open. And inside, a janitor’s sweeping like this is just another fucking Tuesday.
“Excuse me!” she says, breathless, jogging in. The janitor looks up.
“There’s—someone from the admin office looking for you,” she lies, no hesitation. “Something about a sink backup on the second floor? They said it was urgent.”
He sighs. “Again?” and drops the broom.
As he walks out, Sohyun holds the door open like a good little helper, then slips in behind him and closes it tight.
The silence is huge.
The air’s cooler inside. Fluorescent lights flicker overhead. The clubroom’s a controlled mess—tables littered with fabric scraps, zine proofs, glue sticks half-melted from overuse. It smells like paper and lavender and too many secrets.
She moves fast, eyes scanning for hiding spots. Under the table? No, too exposed. Behind the supply shelves? Not unless she wants to get spotted immediately. Then—there. In the back corner, half-concealed behind stacked poster rolls and bins of foam letters: a janitor’s closet. She darts over and yanks it open.
Coats. Wire hangers. A mop bucket. Miscellaneous crap. She slides in anyway, curling herself into the shadow between a metal cabinet and a box labeled “event props.” Her heart’s still racing.
She pulls the door mostly shut, leaving just a sliver to breathe through.
And now… she waits.
Every creak of the floor outside makes her flinch. Her phone vibrates. One buzz. It’s a message from you.
Hey, forgot to ask—do we have soy sauce left at home or should I pick some up?
She stares at the screen, thumb hovering. Doesn’t answer. Just locks it again and grips the edge of a crate until her nails dig in.
You’re coming. With her. With Xinyu. To this room. This space.
She doesn’t know what’s about to happen. She just knows she has to see it.
She has to know
A few minutes later, she hears footsteps, accompanied by an irritating giggle that she can already imagine who it belongs to.
You enter the club with Xinyu. The door clicks behind you with a soft, unmistakable snap. The kind that doesn’t come from a casual tug—no, it’s deliberate. You hear the rustle of keys before you even process the sound of the lock sliding into place, and that does something to the air. Traps it. Slows it down. Makes it feel heavier somehow.
Xinyu twirls the lanyard on her finger once, lets it slap lightly against her thigh, then drops the keys into her bag without ceremony. “There,” she says, all sugar and satisfaction. “Now we won’t be interrupted.”
You laugh nervously, glancing at the darkened windows. The blinds are half-drawn, a few strips of light slicing across the tables. “You really didn’t have to lock it.”
“Didn’t I?” she says, tilting her head like she’s daring you to disagree. “What if someone wandered in? What if they got the wrong idea?”
You blink. “I mean—if someone walked in, they’d… kinda get the right idea.”
She giggles, high and soft, stepping in close enough that your backpack bumps the wall behind you. Her perfume’s even stronger in here. Berries and danger. She plants both hands on your chest and leans in, the weight of her grin dragging everything out of orbit.
“You really are cute when you’re flustered.”
You swallow.
“We’ve gotta be quick, though,” she says, letting her palms slide down your hoodie, slow and teasing. She pulls back a bit and throws her bag on the floor, then slowly takes off her jacket. “I told my friend I was going to grab a notebook. Don’t want her wondering why I’m gone long enough to start a new semester.”
She kisses you before you can answer. Fast. Hot. Hungry. Like her mouth’s been waiting all morning and now she’s starved for it. Her lips crash against yours in that wild way only Xinyu seems capable of—reckless and commanding, tongue slipping in like she owns the space. Your brain stutters. Her hands drag lower. One slips under your hoodie, nails brushing skin. The other works on the strap of your backpack, removing one at a time until it falls to the floor with a loud thud in the confined space.
And in the closet, twenty feet away, behind a stack of mismatched poster tubes and event bins, Sohyun goes still.
She doesn’t even remember breathing.
But she hears it all.
That kiss isn’t innocent. That kiss is confirmation. That kiss is a final answer to a question she wasn’t ready to ask—and it lands like a brick in the hollow center of her stomach.
Xinyu breaks from you with a little satisfied sound, her lips glossy, eyes bright. “So…” she purrs, brushing your jaw with the back of her hand, “what’d you think of last night?”
You smile, stupid and a little dazed. “It was… amazing.”
Sohyun’s hands clench.
She doesn’t need details. Her brain fills in the blanks. Too many of them. Her imagination paints things she never wanted to see—your hoodie balled on the floor, Xinyu astride you, laughing into your neck, your voice shaking in ways she’s never heard. The thought turns her breath into knives.
Xinyu hums in satisfaction, then drops her gaze—and her fingers.
They land on the waistband of your jeans.
You tense, glancing at the locked door. “Wait—here?”
“It’ll be fast,” she whispers, eyes already glinting. “You’re already hard.”
She says it like she’s proud of herself. Like you being turned on is a trophy she’s just picked up off the shelf. Her fingers fumble with your button, then unzip skillfully. She sinks down onto her knees, casual as anything.
Sohyun’s heart is in her throat.
She watches from that narrow slit between the door and the wall. She sees your pants drop to your ankles. Sees Xinyu’s hands slide up your thighs. Sees the gleam of her smile when she notices the outline straining through your underwear.
You shift, uncomfortable. “Hey, uh… maybe we shouldn’t keep staying out so late. I got home really late last night. I think Sohyun’s starting to get suspicious.”
Xinyu’s head tilts as she hooks her fingers in your waistband. “So?”
You blink. “I just—don’t want her to worry, that’s all.”
She laughs. Laughs. Like you told her a joke. “She’s not your mother.”
“No, but—she’s my best friend. I don’t want her to think I’m—lying or something.”
That makes Xinyu pause. Just for a second. Then her smile sharpens.
“She doesn’t get a say in this,” she says, and her hands tug your underwear down in one quick, fluid motion.
Sohyun sees everything. And it burns.
Your cock springs free, flushed, twitching with the tension of the moment. You make a small sound in your throat, embarrassed and eager all at once. Xinyu just beams.
“Aww, you really missed me, huh?” she coos.
You try to answer but you can’t form words. Not when her fingers wrap around the base, smooth and practiced, stroking once, twice. Your knees buckle a little.
“She’s not gonna come between us,” she adds softly, voice low now, as she leans in, breath hot against the head. “I don’t care who she is.”
“Don’t say that,” you murmur, but it’s weak. Shaky. “Sohyun’s not just… some random girl.”
Xinyu’s eyes flick up. “Sure,” she says, tone mocking. “She’s your 'best friend'. Whatever.” Then she opens her mouth and takes you in.
You gasp. Sohyun nearly doubles over.
The sound is unmistakable. Wet. Slow. She sees the way Xinyu hollows her cheeks, her jaw working, the obscene slide of her lips over you like she’s savoring every inch. Her hand moves in tandem, twisting just right, guiding every pull and suck. She doesn’t blink. Just stares up at you while she sucks you like she’s devouring you, like she knows she owns you now and she’s showing it.
Your fingers tangle in her hair. Your head tips back.
“S-Shit—” you whisper, trembling. “That’s… fuck…”
Xinyu moans around you, like praise is her favorite meal.
And Sohyun sits in the dark, biting her hand to keep from screaming.
Her lips glide down the length of you slow, savoring, wet heat enveloping inch by inch like she wants to claim it. She doesn’t gag—she adjusts, angle tilting, jaw relaxing, one hand bracing at your thigh while the other strokes the base with a rhythm that makes your knees wobble. Every pass of her tongue along the underside feels like it’s wired directly into your spine, like she’s flipping switches you didn’t know you had.
And she loves it. Every reaction. Every twitch of your hips, the shallow breath you try to hold back, the soft curse you can’t keep from slipping out.
Above her, you brace against the table edge with one hand, the other still threaded in her hair, not pulling, just trying to anchor yourself because she’s looking up at you through lashes dark with mischief, mouth full of your cock like it’s where she was meant to be. Like she planned this moment every time she leaned too close in club meetings or brushed your arm on the walk back from the coffee shop.
From the closet, through that sliver of space, Sohyun sees everything.
The bob of Xinyu’s head, the shine on her chin, the way your hips twitch forward helplessly when she lets her tongue swirl the tip and then slides back down again, steady, smooth, obscene. Sohyun’s fingers are curled into her jeans now, nails biting deep through the denim. Her legs are cramped, but she doesn’t move. She can’t. Every instinct screams to throw the door open and drag you out, but her body’s paralyzed with it—betrayal folded in silence.
You make a sound, soft and hoarse—something between a gasp and a whimper. Xinyu hums, and the vibration along your shaft sends a full-body shiver through you. She pulls off just enough to stroke you with her fist, wrist flicking expertly, thumb swiping the bead of precum from your slit before leaning in again—only this time, lower.
You flinch, surprised, as her lips brush your balls.
Her tongue darts out. A single slow lick, teasing. Then another. Then she shifts lower and takes one in her mouth.
Your breath catches.
“Fuck—Xinyu—”
She giggles, muffled, then pulls off, tongue trailing over your skin like she’s tasting you for notes of sweetness. “Mm,” she says, tilting her face just enough for you to see the smug curve of her smile. “Bet she doesn’t do that.”
There’s a pause.
You hesitate. It’s barely a breath.
“…She doesn’t,” you admit, low, shame threaded through the moan that slips out next as her mouth seals over you again.
Sohyun flinches like she’s been hit.
It’s the confirmation she never wanted—real, raw, echoing in your voice, in your hips tilting forward like you need this, like this is something you never got at home.
Xinyu switches sides, tongue painting lazy circles as her fingers resume their slow pump. “I knew it,” she purrs. “She acts all tough, but she wouldn’t dare get on her knees for you, would she?”
You shake your head, lips parted. Your reply is barely audible, wrecked: “No…”
“Mm,” she hums again, hot breath teasing your spit-slick skin. “Guess that’s my job now, huh?”
You can’t even speak.
She shifts again—one hand stroking, the other cradling under you as her mouth wraps around both balls, tongue massaging them gently, rolling with practiced pressure that makes your thighs tense. You groan, deep in your chest, and she moans with you, reveling in the sound, the twitch she feels under her tongue, the way your body gives itself up to her touch.
Your head falls back.
She’s not just sucking you off. She’s showing off.
For you. For herself. And unknowingly—for the girl hidden in a closet, heart shattering beat by beat.
Sohyun watches your hips rock forward slightly, the way you bite your lip to muffle the next sound. The way your hand trembles on the table. You’re trying so hard not to fall apart, and failing beautifully.
Your hand slides against the tabletop, blindly reaching for something—balance, maybe—but there’s nothing steady in you right now. Not with the way Xinyu's mouth keeps working you like she's drawing a map with her tongue, etching you into memory with every slow, deliberate swirl. She’s focused, almost clinical, except her eyes betray her—hungry, gleaming, dark with satisfaction every time your hips jerk, every time a new sound punches out of your throat and hangs too loud in the still air.
“Fuck—Xinyu,” you breathe, the syllables sticky with pleasure, broken by a stuttering inhale. “That feels so good.”
Her lips pop off your tip with a wet little sound, tongue dragging around it in slow circles, teasing. She smiles as she laps again, feather-light at first, then firmer, lashing under the head like she’s tasting something sweet she refuses to finish too soon.
“Mmm,” she murmurs, kissing it. “I love this cock. So thick… god, you don’t even know what you do to me.”
You twitch under her touch, body caught between surrender and overload. Your thighs are tight, your hands shaky, and she’s not slowing down. She wraps her lips around the tip again, deeper this time, sucking just enough to make your breath catch and your knees knock. One hand strokes the base with a slow rhythm while the other rests flat on your stomach, possessive, like she’s holding you in place. Your moans are barely controlled now, soft, breathy things slipping past your lips no matter how hard you try to stay quiet.
In the closet, Sohyun has both hands clamped over her mouth now, but it’s not enough. Her body is shaking. Her teeth are pressed so deep into her palm she doesn’t notice the sting anymore—not until her tongue tastes iron and she realizes her lip is bleeding too. Her eyes are wide, unblinking, locked on the sight of you crumbling under Xinyu’s mouth, on your hands fisting the edge of the table, the way your face is flushed and twitching and so vulnerable.
Then Xinyu pulls back with a wet gasp and a string of spit connects her lips to you. She wipes it with the back of her hand, smirking.
“Shit,” she says, laughing breathlessly. “You’re soaked. I made a mess.”
She doesn’t apologize. She’s proud of it.
Then her expression shifts. Her hands find your hoodie, tugging. “C’mon. Lie down for me.”
You blink, dazed. “What?”
She tugs harder. “Down. Now.”
And you obey. You let her guide you down onto the storage cushions scattered across the clubroom floor—the ones usually used for sitting during brainstorm sessions and awkward icebreakers. Today, they’re something else. They’re the mattress beneath your back, the soft collapse beneath your spine as Xinyu hovers over you like a second atmosphere. You barely get your balance before she swings a leg over you and straddles your hips, skirt hiked up already, panties visible in that indecent half-off way that says she planned this down to the hour.
She reaches between her thighs, fingers hooking the waistband to the side. No hesitation. No modesty.
“I wasn’t even gonna wear this skirt today,” she says, her grin downright feral. “But then I woke up and thought… damn, I really want to ride him. And this one makes it easy.”
Your mouth is dry. You can’t speak. Can barely breathe. The visual is too much—the way she sits on your waist, head tilted, hair framing her flushed cheeks. She grips you in one hand again, lining you up against the heat of her, rubbing once—twice—and your whole body jumps like you’ve been shocked.
In the closet, Sohyun is crumbling. Quietly. Violently.
She presses her head back against the wall, jaw clenched hard enough to ache. Her eyes are glassy now, not blinking. She watches Xinyu lean forward, planting a hand on your chest as her hips shift just slightly, aligning.
And for Sohyun, the moment cracks. She can’t breathe. Her stomach’s twisted into something unrecognizable. Her hand tastes like blood and skin and the sharp edge of a truth she can’t swallow.
She wants to leave. She wants to scream. She wants to rip the door open and yell your name and tear the whole thing down before it happens. But her body won’t move. Her knees are pins and needles, her vision blurry, her throat full of something that feels like grief and fury mashed into pulp.
And you—flat on your back, arms limp at your sides, chest heaving—you’re watching Xinyu like she’s the only thing that exists right now.
The room smells like heat now. Like sweat and arousal and perfume and that undercurrent of something you don’t recognize but Sohyun does. The smell of losing. Of being replaced.
And Xinyu’s voice cuts through the haze one more time, with that damn victorious purr in every syllable.
“You ready for me, baby?”
The moment she sinks down on you is like being swallowed by heat. Her walls clamp tight, velvet-slick and impossibly wet, and she exhales sharp through her teeth like she’s savoring every inch of stretch. Her thighs flex around your hips, body settling flush against yours, cunt wrapped like a vice around your cock. Warm, pulsing, obscene. You feel it in your knees, in the back of your throat, in the way your eyes blur a little just trying to hold on to the sensation. And she leans in, hands pressed to your chest, nails dragging lightly over your hoodie as she grins down at you—smug, flushed, dangerous.
“Feel that?” she whispers, grinding slow just to make sure you do. “That’s how wet I am for you.”
You nod like you’re in a trance, breath hitched, brain short-circuiting. She rocks her hips once, slow and deep, and your head tips back involuntarily, shoulders hitting the cold vinyl of the clubroom floor. The contrast is dizzying—your back chilled, your cock engulfed in heat. She rolls her hips again, faster this time, and you gasp, hips twitching up into her as she smiles that smile like she’s already won. Because she has. She knows exactly what she’s doing to you, the way her pussy clenches around you just when you think you’ve caught your breath.
“Fuck,” you mutter, hands flying up to brace her waist, fingers digging into her skin like it’ll keep you grounded.
“Mmm, yeah,” she purrs, rolling her hips again, faster now. “You love this. You love how tight I am. How I drip for you. You felt it last night, didn’t you?”
She leans closer, breasts pressing to your chest as she whispers hot against your ear. “That little black set I wore? The garter straps? The thigh-highs? All for you. I was soaked before you even touched me. So wet I could’ve made a mess of my sheets just grinding on your thigh. You remember how I moaned when you slid in? Remember how I told you you were deeper than anyone ever managed to get?”
You remember. God, you remember everything. The way her back arched as she bounced on your cock, the way her fingers tangled in her sheets, how she grabbed your wrists and held your hands against her hips like she didn’t want to let you pull out even if you tried. And it was hot—filthy, desperate, everything you’d never imagined yourself doing until she peeled you open and found all your soft spots.
But then you thought about Sohyun.
You didn’t mean to. It just… happened. Mid-thrust, mid-kiss, some flicker of guilt or curiosity or whatever sick alchemy lives in your gut. You’d pictured her. Not in a voyeur kind of way. Just… wondered. Wondered what her expression would be if she walked in. What her mouth would say. What her eyes would do. And worse, you’d wondered what it would be like if it were her riding you instead—her body flushed and stretched around your cock, her breathy little sighs instead of Xinyu’s practiced moans, her thighs trembling from the effort of keeping rhythm. That made your heart trip into your throat.
And now—now you’re thinking it again. You’re balls-deep in Xinyu, she’s rolling her hips like she’s trying to milk every drop out of you, and your fucking mind is betraying you. You’re picturing Sohyun in her ratty sleep shirt, hair undone, lip bitten, thighs spread across your hips like she’s scared of how much she needs it. You imagine her looking down at you, eyes wide and terrified and wanting, her cunt sucking you in like she doesn’t know how to stop. You imagine her voice cracking as she begs you not to stop, not to leave her like this, not when she finally has you.
The heat in your stomach coils tighter, shame blooming just beneath it.
And Xinyu notices.
“Where’d you go, baby?” she asks, cupping your face in both hands, her pace never faltering, slick heat grinding down on you with maddening precision. “You were staring right through me for a second. Thinking about something?”
You swallow thick. Shake your head. “No, I just—fuck. You feel amazing.”
She beams like it’s the truth. Maybe it is. Maybe it’s just buried under everything you’re not saying.
“Yeah?” she breathes, sitting upright again, her hands sliding down to pull at her top. She yanks it up and over her head in one swift motion, discarding it behind her like it doesn’t matter. Beneath it—no bra, just smooth skin, delicate collarbones and two perfect, pert breasts. Small enough to fit your palms. Nipples a flushed pink that draws your eyes like magnets.
“Wanna touch?” she asks, knowing damn well you do.
You nod, helpless, and she grabs your wrists, places your hands on her chest with a soft, teasing drag. The moment your thumbs brush her nipples she exhales, hips stuttering on your cock.
“Fuck, yes,” she moans, arching into your hands. “Squeeze them. Harder.”
You do. Palms cupping the weight of her, fingers kneading just the way she likes—gently at first, then rougher when she rolls her hips harder, when she grinds your cock deep inside her like she’s chasing something. Her thighs flex with every bounce, every motion building pressure in your spine. Her nipples pebble under your touch. She grabs your wrists again, pushes them tighter to her chest, pinning you in place as she rides harder now, breath catching with every impact.
“You’re so deep,” she pants, eyes fluttering closed. “I can feel you everywhere. Stretching me so fucking good, baby. God, I wish you could feel what I’m feeling. I’m soaked. I’m flooding your cock. You like that? You like how fucking needy I get for you?”
You groan, jaw tight, hips twitching up to meet her rhythm. You’ve stopped thinking. You’ve stopped pretending you can think. She’s taking everything from you with every roll of her hips, every clench of her cunt, every filthy word that drips off her tongue like sugar laced with venom.
And yet. The back of your mind still tugs. Still whispers.
What would Sohyun think, if she saw this? If she saw your face like this, your body bucking like you’re begging to be used? If she knew how Xinyu talks to you, fucks you, owns you?
What would she do if she saw you like this—flushed, trembling, helpless under another woman’s cunt?
Would she be jealous?
Would she be angry?
Would she want to be in Xinyu's place?
You can’t answer. You don’t get the chance.
Xinyu's pace shifts, frantic now, like something inside her snapped and all that sweet control she loved dangling over you is burning up fast. Her thighs tighten around your waist, nails digging into your shoulders, her whole body chasing friction like a starved thing. Every grind, every desperate rock of her hips sends jolts through your cock, your thighs, up your spine until you can’t even tell where your body ends and hers begins. Wet heat floods down your shaft, slick sounds filling the little space between you like they’re mocking the frantic, filthy rhythm you’ve fallen into.
She leans in, mouth crushing to yours, open, gasping, biting at your bottom lip like she can’t get close enough. Her breath is ragged, her kiss messy, spit-slick and desperate as her cunt clenches around you with every grind. She breaks the kiss for a second, forehead pressed to yours, breath hitching in short, punched gasps.
“Fuck—fuck, baby—” she pants, rolling her hips harder, faster, dragging you deeper every time she slams down. “You’re gonna make me cum. You feel that? You feel how fucking close I am?”
You nod, choking on your own breath. She’s trembling already, muscles shivering under your hands, pussy squeezing your cock so tight it makes your toes curl.
“Please—don’t stop—” she gasps against your mouth, and you hear the cracks in her usually-smooth voice, raw and honest in a way you barely ever hear.
You grab her hips, holding her still for a second, and start thrusting up into her, not gentle now—grinding her down onto you, meeting every desperate rut of her hips with a brutal snap of your own.
“Oh my God, oh my God, fuck—” she sobs, hands scrabbling for purchase at your shoulders, nails raking down your back through the thin fabric of your shirt. “Right there—right fucking there—!”
You don’t stop. You can’t. Your hips slam up into her again and again, cock punching deep inside her soaked cunt, the friction so blindingly good it’s all you can feel, all you can think about. Her walls flutter around you, squeezing tight, milking you, dragging you right to the edge with her.
Then her whole body locks up—legs clamping tight, back arching, head thrown back as she cums hard around you, mouth open in a silent scream. You feel her pussy clamp and pulse and flood hot around your cock, feel her thighs quivering against your sides as you keep pounding up into her, wringing every last spasm out of her until she collapses against you, boneless, panting.
She kisses you then, messy and open-mouthed, tongue sliding into your mouth like she’s trying to pull the breath out of you, hands fisting in your hair. The kiss is wild, uncontrolled, full of leftover shudders as her body rides the aftershocks. She sucks on your tongue, then bites your bottom lip, hard enough to sting, pulling back with a look that’s pure wrecked satisfaction.
“Fuck—you’re not done yet,” she says, grinning breathless against your mouth.
Before you can even catch your breath, she gets off you, stands up and grabs your wrists, pulls you up with surprising strength, practically dragging you toward the desk nearby, knocking over a half-empty box of markers in her haste. They scatter across the floor, forgotten.
She hops up onto the edge of the desk, legs falling open wide, skirt bunched up around her hips, panties obscenely pulled aside. Her cunt is glistening, flushed, still twitching around nothing, and she leans back on her hands, spreading herself shamelessly for you, watching you with dark, lazy hunger.
“C’mere, baby,” she purrs, crooking a finger.
You step between her legs, hands automatically gripping the backs of her thighs, and she grabs your cock, still slick with her cum, throbbing painfully hard, and lines you up, dragging the flushed head along her soaked folds before nudging you right back in.
You don’t ease in. You shove.
Hard.
Her mouth drops open in a guttural, broken sound as you bottom out in one brutal thrust, your hips slamming flush against her ass, your cock stretching her already-sensitive pussy wide again. Her whole body jolts with it, legs wrapping around your waist tight, holding you there, buried deep.
“Fuck yes—” she gasps, nails digging into the edge of the desk for leverage. “God, you feel so fucking good—”
You grab her hips, fingers digging bruises into soft skin, and start pounding into her, desk creaking loudly under the assault. Every thrust drives a choked little noise from her throat, her small tits bouncing with the force of it, her hair falling wild around her flushed, wrecked face.
“You’re so good, baby,” she babbles between gasps, clinging to the desk as you fuck her raw. “You’re—god, you’re perfect—you’re gonna make me cum again if you keep—ahh—keep fucking me like that!”
You bare your teeth, thrusting harder, faster, hips snapping against her ass with every vicious stroke. The wet sound of you hammering into her fills the room, loud and filthy, the slap of your skin against hers echoing off the walls. Her head tips back, exposing the long line of her throat, and you can’t resist leaning down, biting at her neck, tasting the salt of her sweat on your tongue.
She’s trembling again already, thighs quaking against your hips, every muscle in her body winding tighter, tighter, tighter. Her hands scramble for you, clutching your hoodie, your shoulders, anything she can reach, mouth working helplessly like she wants to say something but can’t get the words out past the way you’re fucking her.
“Don’t stop—fuck—don’t stop, don’t stop—!” she wails, legs locking around you again, trapping you deep as you hammer into her without mercy.
Sohyun, hidden behind that narrow closet crack, can barely breathe. She closes her eyes, squeezes them shut so tight it hurts, but the sounds slip in anyway, wrapping around her like smoke, curling in her lungs until she’s drowning in it.
She hears you fucking Xinyu hard enough to shake the table. She hears the desperate slap of skin, the thick wet noises between her thighs, the broken little sobs and gasps you can’t hold back anymore. Every low moan you spill is another nail in her heart. Every grunt, every hitched breath, every whisper of "Fuck, you’re so tight," slices deeper, and she grips the shelf beside her to keep from making a sound, knuckles bone-white.
And you... you’re so far gone you don’t even notice the world outside the space between your bodies. Xinyu’s pussy is swallowing you, so wet you can hear it every time you thrust back in, obscene and filthy and perfect. She clings to you, arms around your shoulders, nails dragging trails of fire down your back as you rut into her harder, faster, chasing the edge you can feel roaring up your spine.
"Fuck—fuck, I’m close," you pant against her throat, voice wrecked, hips stuttering from the effort of holding back.
Xinyu shudders all around you, grinding her hips, milking you with every twist and clench of her desperate cunt. She grabs your face, kissing you hard, sloppy, messy with need, lips sliding against yours as she gasps:
"Cum for me, baby. Please. I want it—I want you to cum for me."
You groan deep in your chest, every muscle tightening, your hands flying down to her waist, grinding her harder onto your cock, feeling that tight, soaked pussy fluttering in urgent little spasms.
"I want it in my mouth," she whimpers into your ear. "Please. Let me taste you."
That snaps what little control you had. You pull out quick, almost shaking with the effort not to cum right then, and your cock slaps wetly against her folds, gliding in her slickness. You drag the thick, swollen head up her entrance, tease her clit with it, grinding, slapping your tip against her until she shivers and gasps, legs falling wide open, fingers clutching at the edge of the desk like she’s about to fly apart.
Your hand wraps tight around your slick cock, jerking it fast and desperate, smearing her juices all over yourself as you stroke. Xinyu drops immediately to her knees, eager, mouth open, eyes wide and hazy with lust. She grabs the base of your cock with one hand, stroking in rhythm with yours, her other hand cupping your balls, massaging them gently.
She looks up at you with that wicked grin just as she leans forward, wraps her lips around the head, and sucks. Hard. Heat and suction explode through you, and your hips jerk forward helplessly. She moans low in her throat, dragging her tongue along the underside of your cock as she bobs her head, saliva glistening at the corners of her mouth, dribbling down your shaft.
She works you like she’s starving for it, alternating between sucking you deep into her mouth and stroking with her fist, twisting just right. The sight of her—kneeling in front of you, cheeks hollowing, spit and slick glistening all over her chin—drives you wild.
Your balls tighten, your thighs tremble, and you grab her hair, trying to warn her, but she just groans in approval, mouth sliding lower, tongue lashing the sensitive underside of your cock.
"X-Xinyu, I’m—fuck, I’m gonna—"
She pulls back just enough to look up at you, lips wrapped tight around the tip, hand still jerking your slick cock, and she nods. Wants it. Wants it bad.
You grip her hair tight as your body locks up and you cum hard, first shot hitting the back of her throat. She doesn’t even flinch. Just hums around you, swallowing every thick, hot spurt, milking you with her mouth and hand as you pulse and shudder against her. Jet after jet, the orgasm tearing through you so violently your knees nearly buckle.
She keeps going until you’re spent, gently sucking the last drops from your twitching cock, then pulls back slowly with a wet pop. She kisses the tip, soft and almost reverent, tongue flicking lazily across it like she’s tasting her victory.
You lean back against the desk, heart hammering, chest heaving, body flushed and trembling.
She stands, fixing her panties between trembling thighs, smoothing down her skirt, picking up the top on the floor. Her cheeks are pink, her lips swollen, her hair wild—and she’s never looked more satisfied.
You fumble to tuck yourself back into your pants, fingers clumsy. Your mind’s fogged with the aftermath. Xinyu steps closer, hands sliding up your chest, resting lightly at your shoulders. Her eyes soften, her mouth tilts into something small and unsure. She looks nervous. That’s rare. She’s always so sure. So in control.
"Hey," she says. “I meant what I said last night, y’know.”
You blink, still trying to catch up. “What?”
She presses her forehead lightly to yours, her hands sliding down to hold your waist, grounding you.
"I’ve never met anyone like you," she says, slow, like she’s scared if she rushes it’ll shatter. “You’re not like the guys I’m used to. All the ones before—they were assholes. Hot, but... just bad news. Guys who wanted me but didn’t actually care about me.”
She leans back, searching your face, biting her lip.
"But you—you’re different. You’re real. You’re sweet. You listen. You treat me like I actually matter."
You swallow hard, heart tripping over itself. You weren’t ready for this. You didn’t expect this.
She smiles, small and nervous, and asks it before you can even think of something to say.
"I want you to be my boyfriend. For real. Like… properly mine. Will you?"
You stare at her—this beautiful, messy, fiery girl who just swallowed your cum like it was candy, who rode you like you were hers before the words ever left her mouth. And something inside you wrenches.
Because you should say yes.
You should want to say yes.
But all you can feel is that gnawing hesitation. That pull. That confusion. That whisper of another name, another face, someone standing just outside this moment, invisible and heavy in the space between your breaths.
Sohyun.
You think about her without meaning to. Think about the way she looks at you when she thinks you’re not paying attention. The way her hand lingers too long when she passes you something. The way she squeezed your hand that night when you invited her to the movies.
You don’t know what you feel. You don’t know what’s real yet. You’re drowning in it.
And it shows.
Xinyu’s face flickers—just for a second. That bright, hopeful light dimming when you hesitate too long.
"I..." You rub the back of your neck, avoiding her eyes. "I just... I need some time to think. Please."
The silence after that is awkward.
She steps back, schooling her face into something neutral, but you can see the crack underneath. The disappointment. The sting. She nods once, slow.
"Okay," she says, and her voice is tight. "Okay. Take your time."
You want to apologize. You want to say something to make it better. But nothing fits. Nothing fixes this.
She grabs her bag from the floor, brushes her hair back, pulls her walls up fast and neat like she’s practiced it a thousand times before.
"See you around," she says, almost breezy, almost real.
And then she’s gone, slipping out the door and leaving you standing there in the wreckage of what you almost had.
You stare at the empty space where she stood, heart pounding, stomach twisting.
You don’t see the faint sliver of movement behind the closet door.
You don’t see the way Sohyun presses her hand over her mouth, trying to keep the sound inside.
Because she heard it all.
And for the first time in weeks, she has hope.
A brutal, aching hope.
Because you didn’t say yes.
You didn’t choose someone else.
Not yet.
And maybe… there’s still a chance you’ll choose her.
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You drag yourself up the stairs like your body’s filled with sand, the keys slipping in your sweaty palm as you jam them into the lock and stumble inside. The apartment lights are off except for the thin line of glow leaking out from under Sohyun’s bedroom door. You shut the door behind you with a quiet click, kicking your shoes off, backpack sliding down your shoulder and thudding against the floor. Your whole body aches. Not just from exhaustion but from the weight of everything swimming in your head; Xinyu’s kiss still burning on your mouth, her words still echoing under your skin, the guilt, the confusion, the stupid tangled mess you couldn’t figure out if you tried. You sigh, pressing your back to the door for a second, head tipped back, eyes squeezed shut like maybe if you stood still enough, long enough, the world would stop spinning.
You don't notice the shape in the corner until it moves, a small shift of shadow peeling itself away from the wall. Your eyes fly open, heart lurching into your throat. Sohyun’s there—leaning against the wall, arms crossed tight over her chest. Her face half-hidden by her hair, her body tensed up in a way that sets your nerves on edge instantly.
“Jesus—” you blurt, breath hitching from the scare. You try to laugh it off, give her a sheepish little grin even though your pulse is hammering. “You scared the hell outta me. I thought you were asleep.”
She doesn’t smile. Doesn’t even blink. Her eyes stay locked on yours, too still, too serious. It sends a ripple of unease down your spine.
“We need to talk,” she says, and her tone is wrong, lower, tighter, with a tremble hidden deep under the words that makes your stomach twist.
You straighten a little, stepping forward slowly like she’s a spooked animal you don’t want to startle. “What... what happened?” you ask.
She holds your gaze for a long moment. So long it starts to physically hurt, like she’s looking right through your skin, peeling you open piece by piece. You can see it in her eyes—fear, yes, but something else too. Something desperate, clawing at the edges of her.
“I know,” she finally says. “About you and Xinyu.”
You blink, mouth opening then closing uselessly, your brain scrambling to process it.
“How—” you start, but she cuts you off, shaking her head once, sharp and final.
“It doesn’t matter,” she says. “It doesn’t matter how I know.”
You’re thrown completely off balance now, stumbling for footing you don’t have. You shift awkwardly, running a hand through your hair, trying to piece together something—anything—to say.
“I was going to tell you,” you mumble finally, and it’s the lamest excuse you’ve ever heard even as it leaves your mouth. “I just... didn’t know how to bring it up.”
Her laugh is short and humorless, a little broken thing that cuts through you sharper than any shout could have. “You didn’t tell me,” she says, voice rising just a little, enough to make your throat close up. “You didn’t. You could have. So why didn’t you?”
You hesitate, weight shifting from foot to foot, wishing desperately for some door, some window, some hole to crawl into and disappear. But there’s no escape. There’s only her, standing there, waiting for your answer like it’s the only thing keeping her upright.
“I was scared,” you admit finally, the words thick in your throat. “I didn’t know what you’d think. I knew you’d disapprove. I knew you wouldn’t... approve of me and her.”
Her arms tighten around herself, nails digging into the sleeves of her sweatshirt. Her lips press together, trembling, and she looks down at the floor for a second.
“Why do you care so much what I think?” she asks, and her voice is small and raw, like she’s asking herself more than you.
You swallow hard. “I... I don’t know.”
But you do know. Somewhere deep down, you’ve always known. You’ve just never had the guts to admit it.
She lets the silence drag, heavy and awful between you. Then she looks up, and there’s something shattering in her eyes—it makes you want to cry.
“You’re right,” she says quietly. “I would have disapproved.”
You open your mouth to speak, to apologize again, but she cuts you off with a sharp shake of her head, eyes wet now, shining in the dim light.
“Do you want to know why?” she asks.
You nod, too scared to say anything.
“Because I love you,” she says, and it bursts out of her like a dam breaking, like she’s been holding it back for years and can’t anymore. “I love you, you idiot! I’ve loved you for so fucking long it hurts!”
You just stand there, stunned into uselessness, your heart hammering in your chest, your breath stuck somewhere between a gasp and a cry.
She wipes at her face with the sleeve of her sweatshirt, blinking furiously against the tears spilling down her cheeks. “I didn’t even realize at first,” she says, “I thought it was just... caring. Being protective. Wanting you to be okay. But it’s not. It’s not just that. I love you. I’m in love with you. And seeing you with her—hearing you moan for her, seeing you smile because of her—”
She breaks off, a choked sob punching out of her chest, and it shatters you.
“It tore me apart,” she whispers. “Because you’re the most special person that’s ever crossed my path. And I was too much of a coward to say anything. I just kept pretending it was fine. That it didn’t matter. That you didn’t matter that way.”
You move to step toward her, instinct taking over, but she flinches back half a step, and it feels like a knife between your ribs.
“I’m sorry,” you say, voice cracking. “I didn’t know, I didn’t—”
“No,” she cuts you off, shaking her head violently, tears flying. “Don’t apologize. It’s not your fault. It’s mine. It’s my fault for bottling it up, for being too scared to tell you, for letting you drift away while I just... watched. I did this to myself.”
You’re breathing too hard, chest aching, head spinning with too many emotions crashing into each other at once—guilt, sorrow, confusion, this desperate, aching affection for the girl standing in front of you with her heart bleeding out at your feet.
“Maybe it’s too late,” she says, crying. “Maybe you’re already hers. Maybe you’ve already moved on.”
She wipes her face again, sniffles, pulls herself together enough to look at you—really look at you.
“But I needed you to know. I needed you to know that someone loved you. That someone loves you. That someone would’ve given anything to make you happy.”
Your feet move before your brain catches up, drawn across the small space separating you like there's a magnetic pull you can't fight anymore. Her face is still wet, tears tracking clean lines through the faint flush on her cheeks, her eyes red-rimmed but locked on you with this terrifying vulnerability you've never seen before. She doesn't flinch this time when you get close, doesn't pull away, just watches you, chest rising and falling too fast, like she’s waiting for the final blow.
You lift your hand, fingers trembling slightly, and gently, so gently, brush the tears from her cheek with your thumb. The skin there is hot, damp. Real. She closes her eyes for just a second at the contact, a shuddering breath escaping her lips.
"Sohyun," you start, and your own throat feels tight, rough, like you’ve swallowed glass. "I'm... I'm so sorry." The words feel stupidly small, inadequate for the chasm that's opened up. "I'm the coward. Not you. Me. All this time... I never said anything because... fuck, because I was terrified. Scared I'd wreck everything. Our friendship, this... us. Everything we have. It felt too important to risk, you know? Too fragile. And I kept telling myself you deserved someone... better. Someone less screwed up than me. Someone confident, someone who had their shit together, not..." You gesture vaguely at yourself, at the mess you feel like you are, the mess you've made. "Not me." You see her lips part, ready to argue, maybe ready to forgive, maybe ready to yell again, but the words are tumbling out of you now, unstoppable, a confession mirroring hers, ripping free after being locked down for so long. "Don't," you whisper, cutting her off before she can speak. "Just... let me say this."
You take a shaky breath, meeting her wide, tear-bright eyes again. "It was always you, Sohyun. Always. Even when I didn't understand it, even when I tried to ignore it. You're the one I love." The words feel huge, terrifying, but also lighter than air once spoken. "Everything. I love everything. That little smirk you get when you win an argument? Love it. The way you wear those baggy sweatshirts every day but still manage to look... incredible? Love that too. How you always know when I'm having a shit day without me saying anything? How you just show up, make me tea, sit there in silence with me until it passes? How safe you make me feel, even when you're pretending to be annoyed?" Your own eyes are getting blurry now. "I love watching you sleep," you admit and, fuck, it's like breaking a chain, a secret you’ve guarded jealously. "Because you look so calm. Peaceful. And I can just... look. At your moles." A faint blush creeps up her neck, her gaze dropping for a second before snapping back to yours, confused, waiting. "You have four on your face, you know? Like a tiny constellation. There's one here," you reach out again, finger hovering below her eyes, not quite touching, "and here, by your nose... one on your cheek... they're the most charming damn things in the world. Seriously."
Her breath hitches, a soft little gasp. She looks utterly lost now, derailed from her pain by the specific, intimate detail. "My... moles?" she echoes, bewildered. You nod, a watery smile finally touching your lips.
"Yeah. My favorite, though? The one right here." Your gaze drops to her mouth, to the tiny, perfect dark mole on the curve of her lower lip. It's always drawn your eye, a little punctuation mark on skin that looks impossibly cute. "That one..." you murmur. "God, that one's made me wonder... so many times... what it would feel like to kiss you. What you'd taste like..."
You trail off, lost for a second in the thought, in the proximity, in the sudden, intense awareness of her mouth just inches from yours. You were going to say more, try to explain the tangle of fear and longing and the stupid, paralyzing certainty that you weren't good enough, but you don't get the chance.
Because Sohyun surges forward like something inside her finally snaps. One second she's trembling, broken open, the next she's pure force, her mouth crashing onto yours with bruising intensity. It's not gentle. It's not tentative. It's a raw, desperate claiming. Her lips are surprisingly soft beneath the force, tasting faintly of salt from her tears and something uniquely her, something warm and real that short-circuits your brain. Her hands fist in the front of your hoodie, yanking you closer, stumbling you backward. Your heel catches on the edge of the cheap living room rug, the world tilting sideways in a sudden, disorienting lurch. You gasp against her mouth, a startled sound swallowed by her kiss, and then you're falling, tumbling backward onto the floor with a muffled thud that knocks the wind out of you.
She lands right on top of you, straddling your hips, the impact solid and grounding even as your head spins. She doesn't miss a beat. Her mouth is still fused to yours, kissing you harder now, deeper, possessive. It's messy and frantic, teeth clashing slightly, tongues tangling with an urgency that borders on violence. Kisses that aren’t asking, they’re taking. Stealing the breath from your lungs, stealing the thoughts from your head, demanding a response you're suddenly, desperately eager to give. Her weight pressing you down, the heat of her body seeping through your clothes, the undeniable proof of her need right there against your stomach—it’s overwhelming. And then, finally, finally, your own arms come up, wrapping around her back, pulling her impossibly closer, and you kiss her back with all the pent-up fear and longing and stupid, crippling love you've kept locked away for years.
You meet her force with your own, tilting your head, deepening the kiss, letting the raw honesty of it burn away everything else. There’s no room for Xinyu, no room for doubt, no room for anything but this—Sohyun, her mouth on yours, her body pinning you down, the undeniable, explosive reality of now. The world outside the apartment fades to nothing, the only sound the ragged gasps for breath between frantic, open-mouthed kisses, the rustle of clothes, the frantic thudding of two hearts beating wildly against each other in the dim, quiet room. This isn't just a kiss; it's a collision, a confession answered, a point of no return you hadn't realized you were racing towards until you crashed right into it, tangled up with her on the floor like this is exactly where you were always supposed to end up.
After seconds that seem like hours, Sohyun finally breaks the kiss, pulling back just enough for air, her chest heaving against yours, eyes blown wide and dark, still glazed with disbelief and something fiercely possessive. Her hands frame your face, thumbs stroking your cheekbones like she’s trying to memorize you. "I love you," she whispers, the words thick, raw, tumbling out again like they can't be contained. Her forehead presses against yours. "God, I love you." She kisses you again, shorter this time, desperate, sealing the words. Pulls back. "I love you." Another kiss, harder. "So much." Each declaration feels like another layer stripped away, leaving her completely bare, completely yours in this moment. The fierce intensity shifts, softening just a fraction as the reality sinks in—you're here, you're kissing her back, you feel it too.
Your heart feels like it's going to beat right out of your chest. Hearing her say it, over and over, sinks hooks into places you didn't know were still empty. You shift beneath her, hands sliding up her back, fingers tracing the knobs of her spine through the worn fabric of her sweatshirt. "Sohyun," you breathe against her lips, needing to show her, needing her to feel it. You pull back just enough to look at her, really look, and then you start mapping her face with your mouth.
Soft, adoring kisses trail along her sharp jawline, up to the curve of her cheekbone where the skin is so soft it makes you ache. You kiss the corner of her eye, tasting the lingering salt of her tears, then move lower, pressing kisses against the pulse point throbbing wildly in her neck. She melts under the attention, a soft sigh escaping her, her body going pliant against yours, head tipping back to give you better access. Her hands slide from your face down to your shoulders, gripping tight, anchoring herself as you worship her skin. Every soft press of your lips feels like rewriting history, erasing the doubt and the distance, claiming this closeness that’s always simmered just beneath the surface.
"Hey," she murmurs, her breath catching when your lips find that sensitive spot just below her ear. She nudges you gently, reluctantly pulling away just enough to meet your eyes again. There's a new urgency there, a need that burns hotter than the confession. "My room," she says, her tone suddenly low, almost husky. "Let's go to my room. Now." She pushes herself up, scrambling off you with clumsy grace, and hauls you to your feet like you weigh nothing. You don't argue, don't hesitate. You follow her lead, stumbling towards her bedroom door, hands finding each other again, lips crashing together in the hallway, clumsy and desperate and necessary. You trip over the threshold, laughing breathlessly against her mouth as she practically drags you inside, kicking the door shut behind you with her heel.
The moment the door clicks, she's tearing at your clothes. Your hoodie comes off first, yanked over your head with frantic energy, tossed carelessly onto the floor. Her eyes rake over your bare chest for a beat, hungry, before she crashes back into you, kissing you with renewed fervor. Her hands are everywhere, exploring the lines of your shoulders, the dip of your collarbones, fingers tracing patterns that make your skin prickle. While her mouth works yours, her own hands go to the waistband of her shorts—those stupidly comfortable grey jersey shorts she always wears around the apartment. She hooks her thumbs in, shoves them down her legs in one hurried motion, kicking them free. She's left in just her oversized sweatshirt and a pair of simple, pale blue cotton panties that hug the curve of her hips. You groan against her lips, the sight hitting you harder than you expected. Her thighs look so strong, so soft.
You deepen the kiss, angling her back against the wall, one hand sliding down her spine, curving possessively over the swell of her ass through the thin cotton of her panties. You squeeze gently, experimentally, and she gasps into your mouth, hips instinctively bucking against yours. "Fuck," she breathes against your lips, her hands fisting in your t-shirt now. "Yes. Need you. So much."
Her admission is raw, desperate, stripping away the last vestiges of her usual guardedness. It fuels you, ignites something fierce inside you. You break the kiss long enough to grab the hem of her sweatshirt, pulling it up and over her head just as she did yours. It snags for a second on her messy bun, and you both fumble with it, laughing brokenly before it finally comes free. And underneath… nothing. No bra. Just Sohyun. Her breasts are fuller than you’d imagined, heavier than Xinyu’s, round and pale with darker, pinkish-brown nipples already pebbled tight from the cool air or maybe just the sheer intensity of the moment. They're beautiful. Perfect. Yours.
She looks down at herself for a second, a flicker of self-consciousness crossing her face before defiant heat replaces it. Your eyes meet hers, a silent question asked and answered. You scoop her up—she's surprisingly light—and carry her the few steps to her bed, tumbling down onto the soft duvet with her. The landing is messy, tangled limbs and breathless laughter, before you settle, half-propped over her, the reality of her bare skin under your hands making your head swim. You kiss her again, slower this time, softer, trying to pour all the unsaid years of affection into it. Her hands come up to cup your face, fingers tracing your jawline, her eyes searching yours.
Then your focus shifts. Your gaze drops to her chest, to the soft rise and fall of her breathing. You lean down, pressing a soft kiss to the valley between her breasts, then lower your head further. One hand gently cups the soft weight of her left breast, thumb stroking the peak, feeling it harden instantly under your touch. At the same time, your mouth closes over her right nipple.
Sohyun arches off the bed with a sharp, choked cry, fingers digging into your shoulders. The sound is pure, unfiltered pleasure, and it sends a shockwave straight to your groin. You suck gently at first, teasing, swirling your tongue around the sensitive peak before drawing it deeper into the heat of your mouth.
She moans again, a long, low sound vibrating up from her chest. "Oh god... yes... fuck, that feels..." You lave the nipple, licking slow circles around the darker areola, mapping the texture with your tongue, before nibbling gently with your teeth. She whimpers, hips twitching restlessly on the mattress. "So good... oh, fuck, yes, right there... I always... always imagined..." Her sentence dissolves into another shuddering moan as you switch sides, giving the other breast the same devoted attention, sucking and licking and teasing until she's writhing beneath you. "You're perfect," you murmur against her wet skin between ministrations. "So fucking beautiful, Sohyun. Always."
Her eyes are glassy, pupils dilated, lips parted and slick. She looks completely undone, vulnerable in a way that makes your chest ache with tenderness and a fierce, protective desire. You trail kisses lower, down the soft curve of her stomach, your lips brushing the faint indentation of her navel. Your hand follows, palm smoothing over the warm skin, feeling the tremors running through her. Your journey stops at the waistband of her panties. Simple blue cotton, dampening noticeably at the center. The sight, the proof of her arousal, makes your own cock strain painfully against your jeans. You press a soft kiss to the damp fabric right over her mound, inhaling her scent—musky, female, intoxicating. She gasps, thighs clenching instinctively. You nudge her legs apart gently with your head, trailing feather-light kisses along the inside of her thigh, right near the edge of the fabric. The skin there is incredibly soft, sensitive. She shivers violently, a choked sound escaping her. "Please..." she whispers, unsure what she's even asking for, just knowing she needs more.
You kiss the wet patch on her panties again, letting your tongue flick out just enough to taste the dampness through the cotton. She cries out, a sharp, high sound, hips lifting slightly off the bed. You look up at her, see the flush creeping down her neck, the desperate wanting in her eyes. Slowly, deliberately, you hook your thumbs into the sides of her panties and slide them down. Over the curve of her hips, down her strong, thick thighs, catching slightly at her knees before you pull them free and toss them aside. She lies bare beneath you now, exposed, vulnerable, beautiful. Her pussy is slick, glistening, her folds plump and flushed, dark curls slightly damp. You lean down, pressing a reverent kiss to her mound, right above her clit. She lets out a strangled sob, hands flying down to fist in her own duvet. She looks wrecked, overwhelmed, needy. "Will you...?" she starts, her breath hitching. "Can I...? Please, just... sit on your face? Let me... I need you to eat me. Please." You lean closer, lips brushing her slick folds as you answer:
"Baby, that's all I fucking want.”
You don't even hesitate. You scramble backwards on the bed, shuffling until you're lying flat, head propped slightly against her pillows—pillows that smell like her shampoo and sleep. Your heart is a frantic drum against your ribs, anticipation coiling tight and low in your belly. This. This it's something you've barely let yourself fantasize about, a scenario tucked away in the darkest, neediest corners of your mind—Sohyun, taking control, overwhelming you. Being completely at her mercy. The thought alone makes your cock throb against the zipper of your jeans, a painful, demanding pressure.
You look up as she moves, crawling towards you on the bed, her expression a mixture of raw hunger and something almost like nervous determination. She straddles your chest first, knees settling on either side of your ribs, leaning down to capture your mouth in another deep, searching kiss. Her bare breasts press against your chest, warm and heavy, the peaks hard against the fabric.
"You really want this?" she whispers against your lips, pulling back just enough to search your eyes. Her own gaze is intense, burning with a need that mirrors yours.
"Fuck, yes, Sohyun," you breathe, hands coming up to grip her waist, fingers digging slightly into the soft skin there. "More than anything. Please."
A slow, predatory smile spreads across her face, chasing away the last remnants of uncertainty. This is happening. She shifts, maneuvering herself with surprising grace, turning until she's straddling your head, her bare ass hovering right above your face. The sight is dizzying—the soft curve of her cheeks, the dark curls nestled between her thighs, the glisten of her wetness catching the dim light filtering in from the hallway. It's everything. You reach up, hands sliding up her strong thighs, thumbs brushing the sensitive inner skin. She shivers, letting out a soft gasp.
"God, yes... touch me," she pleads, her hips twitching.
You guide her down slowly, agonizingly slowly, until her slick folds brush against your lips. The scent hits you full force—musky, feminine, intoxicatingly Sohyun. It’s the smell of pure arousal, sharp and sweet, and it makes your head swim. This is your dream, isn't it? To be right here, underneath her, ready to worship, ready to be completely consumed by her pleasure. The idea of being dominated, smothered by the wet heat of her pussy, of her coming undone completely at your mercy while simultaneously holding all the power… It sends a jolt of pure, filthy need straight through you.
"Ready for you," you murmur against her skin, tilting your head slightly to get a better angle.
She lets out a shaky breath and lowers herself fully, settling onto your mouth with a soft sigh. The pressure is immediate, the heat shocking. Her wet folds engulf your lips, your nose, pressing intimately against your face. It’s almost too much: the closeness, the scent, the slick reality of her cunt right there. You take your first real taste, tongue darting out tentatively, exploring the plump outer lips, tracing the slick crease.
Sohyun gasps sharply, her whole body tensing. "Fuck... yes..."
Emboldened, you dive in properly. Your tongue pushes past her outer lips, finding the slick, sensitive inner folds, licking slowly, deliberately. You map her shape, tasting the unique flavor of her arousal—salty, sweet, utterly addictive. You find her clit, that hard little nub hidden beneath its hood, and swirl your tongue around it gently at first.
"Oh my god," she whimpers, fingers tangling violently in your hair, gripping tight but not pulling you away. "Right there... don't stop..."
You obey instantly, focusing your attention, sucking the sensitive bud into your mouth, worrying it gently with your lips and tongue. Her reaction is immediate, explosive. Her hips buck against your face, grinding down instinctively, seeking more pressure, more friction.
"Fuck, yes! Like that! Suck it harder!" she cries out, her earlier shyness completely incinerated by raw need. "God, you taste so fucking good... eat me like you mean it!"
You groan into her cunt, spurred on by her dirty talk, by the sheer intensity radiating off her. You suck harder, drawing more of her into your mouth, tongue working relentlessly on her clit while your lips provide constant pressure against her swollen folds. Her slickness coats your tongue, your lips, your chin, slicking the skin, making every movement smoother, hotter. She’s so wet, dripping onto your face, the taste of her flooding your senses. You love it. You fucking crave it. The feeling of being covered in her, drowned in her essence.
"That's it, baby," she pants, her hips starting to move in a slow, deliberate rhythm against your mouth. "Fuck, you're so good at this... Did you practice on someone else? Don't fucking answer that," she gasps out, contradicting herself immediately, lost in the sensation. "Just keep doing that. Lick me. Suck my clit like it's the only thing you care about."
"It is," you manage to mumble against her, tongue never faltering. "Only thing... right now... is you. Making you feel good, Sohyun."
Her hips stutter, a broken little sob escaping her lips. "Fuck... you saying my name like that... while you're... down there... God..."
She starts to ride you then, taking control just like she asked, just like you fantasized. Her movements are slow at first, tentative, testing the pressure, learning how to grind against your mouth for maximum effect. Her thighs tighten around your head, trapping you, holding you exactly where she wants you. The feeling of suffocation is mild at first, just the intimate pressure, the heat, the wetness sealing against your skin. But as her pace quickens, as she gets lost in the building pleasure, she presses down harder, her cunt engulfing your nose and mouth more fully. Your breathing gets shallower, restricted, but you don't panic. This is part of it. This surrender. Giving her everything, even your breath, if that's what it takes to push her over the edge.
"Oh god... oh fuck," she moans, the sounds deeper now, throatier. "It's building... fuck, don't stop... keep sucking... harder!"
You oblige, mouth working frantically now, sucking and licking with desperate abandon, chasing her orgasm alongside her. Her pussy clenches around your tongue, milking it, the muscles fluttering uncontrollably. She’s grinding faster now, rocking her hips with frantic energy, her breath coming in short, sharp gasps. The pressure increases. Her cunt presses down hard, sealing over your mouth, your nose, the wet heat almost overwhelming. You can barely draw breath, getting only small, desperate sips of air mixed with the heavy scent of her arousal. But the lack of oxygen just fuels the fire, heightens the sensation, pushes you closer to a different kind of edge. You feel utterly possessed by her, consumed.
"Almost there... almost... FUCK!" she screams, her body locking up.
Her hips slam down hard onto your face, grinding relentlessly, muffling your own groan of effort and ecstasy. Her inner walls spasm violently around your tongue, flooding your mouth with a thick, hot gush of her climax. The taste is intense, salty-sweet, addictive, unique. You swallow instinctively, greedily, taking all of it, wanting every last drop. She collapses forward, boneless, her full weight pressing your face into the mattress, her slick cunt still pulsing against your mouth as the aftershocks ripple through her. You're completely enveloped, blinded, breathless beneath her, tasting her release, utterly dominated.
She stays there for long moments, just panting, trembling. You lie still beneath her, heart hammering, face sticky and wet, utterly spent from the intensity of giving her that pleasure. Finally, slowly, she pushes herself up, bracing her hands on the mattress on either side of your head. Her hair is wild, sticking to her flushed cheeks, her lips swollen and red, her eyes dazed and unfocused but gleaming with a deep, sated satisfaction. She looks down at you, at your slick-covered face, and a slow, knowing smirk touches her lips.
"Wow," she breathes. "You... you really did it."
You manage a weak grin, licking your lips, tasting her. "Told you," you rasp. "Anything for you."
She leans down, pressing a soft, lingering kiss to your forehead, then your cheek, then finally your mouth, her kiss still tasting faintly of herself. It's intimate, proprietary. A claiming.
"Good," she murmurs against your lips. "Because we're not done yet. Not even close." Her eyes darken again, that possessive fire rekindling. "My turn to taste you.”
Sohyun pushes herself up fully, kneeling between your legs on the mattress. Her eyes, still hazy from her orgasm but sharp with renewed intent, roam over your face, lingering on your kiss-swollen lips and the faint marks she left on your neck. A possessive satisfaction flickers there. She reaches down, her hands landing on the button of your jeans. Her knuckles brush against the hard ridge straining behind the denim, and she lets out a low, appreciative hum.
"My turn," she murmurs, her gaze locking with yours. "Been wanting to do this for way too long. Way, way too long."
Her fingers work the button free with surprising dexterity, then move to the zipper, pulling it down with a slow, deliberate rasp that echoes loudly in the quiet room. She doesn't just yank your jeans off. She takes her time, hooking her fingers into the waistband, easing the stiff denim down over your hips, her touch feather-light against your skin. You lift your hips instinctively to help her. Your jeans slide down your legs, pooling around your ankles. You're left in just your boxers—boxers that are doing absolutely nothing to hide the thick, hard length straining beneath the fabric.
Sohyun pauses, her eyes fixed on the prominent bulge. She reaches out, tracing the rigid shape through the thin cotton with one curious finger. You twitch involuntarily, a low groan rumbling in your chest.
"Fuck," she breathes, a note of genuine awe creeping in. "I knew... I mean, I saw... before..." She glances up at you quickly, a faint blush rising on her cheeks as she remembers that moment in the club room closet, the stolen, frantic glimpse. "But seeing it like... this... Jesus."
Her gaze drops back down, captivated. She hooks her thumbs into the elastic waistband of your boxers and slowly, reverently, peels them down. Down past your hip bones, down your thighs, revealing you completely. Your cock springs free, thick and heavy, slick already with beads of pre-cum glistening under the dim light. It's undeniably large, thick-shafted, maybe even surprisingly so given your usually reserved, almost nerdy demeanor. It pulses slightly with your heartbeat, utterly exposed under her intense scrutiny.
Sohyun just stares for a long moment, her mouth slightly parted. Her eyes widen almost imperceptibly. This isn't like the frantic, hidden view she got before. This is up close, personal, undeniable. The sheer size and thickness of you, fully hard and demanding attention, seems to momentarily short-circuit her brain. She reaches out again, hand hovering just above you, like she's afraid to touch, afraid it might disappear.
"It's... perfect," she whispers. "God, it's so... much. And it's really... mine? Right now?"
"Yes," you manage, your throat tight. "All yours, Sohyun. Please. Touch me."
That breaks the spell. Her hesitation vanishes, replaced by a focused intensity that makes your stomach clench. She leans down, her hair falling forward, tickling your stomach as she lowers her face towards your cock. She doesn't grab it right away. Instead, she inhales deeply, breathing in your scent, her eyes fluttering closed for a second. Then, she presses a soft, tentative kiss right to the swollen, pulsing head. It’s a kiss of reverence, almost worshipful. She kisses it again, lingering, her lips incredibly soft against the sensitive skin. Then she trails kisses down the thick shaft, her warm breath ghosting over you, making you shiver uncontrollably. Her tongue darts out, tasting the slick bead of pre-cum at the tip, humming her approval deep in her throat.
"Mmm," she murmurs against your skin. "Taste good... smell good... God, you feel so hard."
She cups your balls gently in one hand, her touch surprisingly confident, weighing them, stroking the sensitive skin underneath with her thumb. You groan, hips lifting slightly off the mattress, needing more. Her other hand finally closes around the base of your shaft, her fingers wrapping snugly around the thick circumference. Her grip is firm, warm, possessive. She strokes you once, slowly, from base to head, watching your reaction with hungry eyes.
"You like that?" she asks. "Like me touching you? Holding your big, thick cock?"
"Fuck, yes," you gasp out, already close to losing it just from her touch, her words. "Please, Sohyun..."
"Shhh," she soothes, leaning down again. "Let me take care of you. Let me worship this perfect cock. You deserve it."
She starts by licking. Long, slow, wet laps all the way up the shaft, starting from the base where her fingers are wrapped tight, swirling around the thick ridge of the head, paying special attention to the sensitive slit at the very tip. Her tongue is relentless, mapping every vein, every inch, savoring the texture, the taste. She licks your balls too, darting her tongue out to trace the seam, making you gasp and buck beneath her. She seems fascinated, utterly absorbed in the act of adoration, like she's discovering a hidden treasure she can't get enough of. She alternates between licking and kissing, pressing open-mouthed kisses against the throbbing veins, occasionally taking just the very head between her lips, sucking gently, experimentally.
"So pretty," she mumbles against you, her breath hot. "So fucking hard for me. You feel so good in my hand... so heavy..."
She gathers your balls more firmly, lifting them slightly as she lowers her mouth over the head of your cock again. This time, she means business. Her lips seal tight, creating a wet suction that steals your breath. She starts to suck, slowly at first, adjusting her jaw, learning the shape and feel of you in her mouth. Her cheeks hollow slightly with the effort, her eyes fixed on yours, watching your reaction, feeding off the strangled noises clawing their way up your throat. She moans around you, a deep, guttural sound of pure pleasure—hers and yours.
"Mmmmph... fuck... so thick," she manages around you, pulling back slightly before sliding down again, taking you deeper this time.
Her pace picks up, her head starting to bob more rhythmically. She uses her hand in tandem, stroking the lower half of your shaft while her mouth works the upper half, creating an unbearable friction, a slick heat that threatens to make you explode. Her tongue works magic inside her mouth, swirling around the head, flicking against the frenulum, driving you absolutely insane. Saliva spills from the corners of her mouth, mixing with your pre-cum, coating your cock in a thick, slippery sheen. She doesn't seem to care about the mess; she seems to revel in it, smearing the wetness down your shaft with her hand, slicking up your balls until they shine.
"Drooling all over you," she gasps, pulling off for a second to look at her handiwork, eyes glazed with lust. "God, look how wet I'm making you... covering your pretty cock in my spit... you like that, baby? Like being my messy boy?"
"Yes," you choke out, nodding frantically, hands fisting in the duvet beside you. "Fuck, Sohyun, please... don't stop..."
"Never," she promises, diving back down, sucking you deeper than before, her throat muscles working as she takes as much of you as she can.
She alternates speeds, sometimes sucking slow and deep, milking you, other times bobbing her head frantically, her hair whipping against your thighs, her lips and tongue working you over with relentless abandon. She cradles your balls constantly, rubbing, squeezing gently, rolling them between her fingers, ensuring no part of you is neglected. The sounds are incredibly hot—the wet sucking noises, her low moans, your own choked gasps and pleas. She's not just giving you a blowjob; she's pouring all her love, all her pent-up longing, all her newly unleashed desire into worshiping you, pleasuring you, claiming you.
"You feel so good in my mouth," she pants, slicking her lips. "Best cock I've ever tasted... fuck, I wanna swallow you whole..."
She picks up the pace again, sensing you getting closer, her hand pumping furiously at the base while her mouth works magic on the head. Your hips are bucking off the bed now, completely involuntary, chasing the friction, begging for release. Your balls are drawn up tight, the pressure building unbearably.
"Sohyun... Sohyun, I'm gonna..." you gasp, vision starting to blur at the edges.
She hums, a deep vibration against your shaft, and pulls back just slightly, letting her lips drag slowly, wetly, all the way up to the tip. She kisses the head one last time, her tongue darting out to catch a final bead of slickness. She looks up at you, eyes dark and heavy-lidded, a satisfied smirk playing on her spit-slick lips. Your cock is practically vibrating in her hand, flushed, aching, coated in her saliva, impossibly hard, utterly ready.
"Good," she breathes, her gaze flicking down at your cock, then back to your eyes. "Keep it just like that for me. Hard and ready. Because now... now I need you inside me.”
Sohyun levers herself up, straddling your hips now instead of your face. Her knees press into the mattress on either side of you, boxing you in. Her gaze is locked on your cock, still hard and glistening, twitching slightly in anticipation. She reaches down, wrapping her fingers around the thick shaft again, her touch possessive, almost proprietary now. She strokes you slowly, deliberately, watching the way your hips lift instinctively off the bed, chasing her touch. A dark, satisfied smile curves her lips. She looks powerful like this, kneeling over you, naked from the waist down, her hair a wild halo around her flushed face, her breasts full and bare, nipples still tight and dark from your attention. The dynamic has shifted entirely. She's in control, and she knows it. And fuck, you love it.
"God, Sohyun," you gasp out, the words shaky. "I've... I've thought about this. So many times."
Her eyes flick up to meet yours, questioning, curious.
"About you," you clarify, needing her to understand. "About you being like this. On top of me. Taking charge. Riding me... dominating me..." The confession feels scandalous, ripped from the deepest, most submissive part of you, but seeing her like this, strong, determined, radiating need, makes it impossible to hold back.
A slow, understanding heat dawns in her eyes, chasing away any lingering shyness. She leans down slightly, bracing one hand on your chest, her thumb brushing your nipple through your t-shirt, making you jolt.
"Yeah?" she murmurs. "Funny. Me too."
Your breath catches. "You... you have?"
She nods, her smile turning wicked. "Oh, yeah. More times than I can count. Thinking about this..." She squeezes your cock gently, making you groan. "...this perfect, thick cock sliding inside me. Stretching me out. Filling me up." She leans closer, her lips brushing your ear. "I might have... borrowed one of your pillows a few times. When you were out late. Pretended it was you I was riding." Her confession is a hot whisper against your skin. "Imagined you were balls-deep inside me while I rode it until I came."
The image—Sohyun, alone in her room, desperate for you, grinding on your pillow—is almost too much. It makes your cock pulse painfully hard in her grip.
"Fuck, Sohyun," you choke out. "Tell me... tell me what you want."
"You," she says simply, fiercely. She lets go of you for a second, putting the panties aside. She guides the thick, wet head of your cock to her entrance, her own slickness making the contact incredibly slippery, incredibly hot. She looks down, watching intently as she aligns herself. "I want you. Inside me. Now."
With excruciating slowness, she begins to lower herself onto you. You feel the head of your cock nudge against her tight entrance, feel her slick folds parting, stretching. She gasps sharply, her eyes squeezing shut for a second as the thick ridge pushes past her outer lips, beginning to invade her.
"Oh my god... fuck..." she breathes, her hands gripping your shoulders tight enough to leave marks. "You're so... big..."
She sinks lower, inch by agonizing inch, taking you deeper. Her pussy feels incredible; impossibly tight, hot and slick and welcoming. The feeling of a body claiming something it’s desperately wanted for far too long. You groan deep in your chest, hands coming up to grip her hips, steadying her, steadying yourself. You can feel every internal ripple, every clench of her muscles as she takes you all the way down, settling onto your cock until you're buried to the hilt inside her.
She sits there for a long moment, just breathing hard, letting her body adjust to the thick invasion, letting you feel the sheer, glorious fullness of being completely sheathed inside her. Her head is tipped back, exposing the long, vulnerable line of her throat, her expression a mixture of intense pleasure and almost unbearable sensation.
"Fuck," she sighs out, a long, shuddering sound. "Just... feeling you stretching me out... God, it's..."
"Amazing?" you supply.
She nods mutely, eyes still closed, biting her lower lip. Then, slowly, she begins to move. Just a small lift of her hips, dragging your cock almost out before sinking back down again with agonizing slowness. The friction is electric, making your toes curl.
"Like that?" she whispers, eyes fluttering open to meet yours.
"Yes," you gasp. "Fuck, yes. More."
She starts to ride you properly then, finding a rhythm. Slow and deep at first, her hips rolling deliberately, learning your shape inside her, learning how to angle herself to hit just the right spots. Her hands rest on your chest, fingers splayed, feeling your heartbeat hammer against her palms. With every downward slide, her tight channel grips you, massages you, threatens your control. With every upward pull, the sensation of dragging your thick head along her sensitive walls makes you groan aloud. Her breasts sway gently with the motion.
"Mmmm... god, you feel so good," she murmurs, her hips picking up the pace slightly. "So fucking thick inside me... filling me up completely..."
She rides you with a growing confidence, her movements becoming bolder, faster. She shifts her weight, grinding down harder, experimenting with angles, a low moan escaping her lips every time she hits a particularly good spot. Sweat begins to bead on her forehead, plastering strands of dark hair to her temples. Her cheeks are flushed a deep pink, her lips parted as she pants for breath. She looks wild, primal, completely lost in the act of taking you, claiming you.
"Fuck, Sohyun, you feel incredible," you gasp out, hands tightening on her hips, tilting her slightly to drive yourself even deeper. "So tight... so wet..."
"Yeah?" she pants, a triumphant grin flashing across her face. "Like this? You like how I ride you?" She increases the pace again, hips pumping faster now, slamming down onto your cock with deliberate force. Her breasts bounce more vigorously, the sight mesmerizing. "You like watching my tits bounce while I fuck your cock?"
"Yes! Fuck, yes!" you cry out, completely overwhelmed by the sight, the sound, the feeling of her riding you with such abandon.
She leans forward, bracing her hands on your shoulders, riding you harder, faster, moving into a frantic, desperate rhythm. The bed starts to shake beneath you, the only sounds the wet slap of her pussy gripping your cock, her ragged pants, your answering groans. This is frenzy. Pure, raw, unadulterated need pouring out of her as she fucks you, possessively, relentlessly. Her eyes are locked on yours, fierce and unwavering, like she's daring you to look away, daring you to think of anyone else.
"Am I...?" she gasps out between frantic thrusts, her stare pinning you down. "Am I better? Better than her?"
There’s no coyness, no game-playing like Xinyu. Just raw insecurity wrapped in fierce possessiveness. She needs to know. Needs the validation. Needs to erase the ghost of the other girl.
You meet her intense gaze without flinching, hands gripping her waist tight, pulling her down harder onto your next upward thrust.
"Yes," you say, the word ripped from your throat, raw with conviction. "Fuck, yes, Sohyun. So much better. No comparison. It's always been you. Only you."
The confirmation—that she’s better, that it’s only her—fuels Sohyun like high-octane gasoline. The frantic energy shifts, solidifying into something harder, more deliberate, more dominant. She rides you with a vengeance now, hips slamming down onto your cock, grinding her clit against your pubic bone with every brutal downward thrust. Her pace is relentless, punishing, her body slick with sweat, moving like she’s trying to fuck you right through the mattress. The wet, slapping sounds fill the room, obscene and rhythmic.
"Fuck yes," she pants, head thrown back again, eyes half-lidded with ecstasy. "That's what I needed to hear. Needed you to say it." She leans forward, bracing her hands on your shoulders again, her stare burning into you. "Now give me more. Don't just lie there like a fucking doll. Touch me. Own me."
Her demand sparks through you, overriding the pleasant haze of submission. Your hands fly up to her breasts, cupping the heavy, sweat-slicked weight. They feel incredible, full and responsive. You squeeze them firmly, kneading the soft flesh, thumbs finding her nipples, still hard, aching pebbles, and rolling them roughly between your fingers.
"Ah! Fuck—yes!" Sohyun cries out, her hips stuttering in their rhythm for a beat before slamming down even harder. "Like that! Squeeze them harder! Play with my nipples while I ride your cock! Make them sore! Fuck, yes!"
You obey instantly, pinching and tweaking her nipples, pulling gently, rewarded by her sharp gasps and the way her pussy clenches impossibly tighter around your shaft. She grinds down onto you, moaning your name, lost in the dual sensations. She rides you like she owns you, like she’s branding you with every slam of her hips, every tight clench of her cunt.
Then, her eyes snap fully open, locking onto yours with a terrifying, desperate intensity. The frantic pace slows just slightly, becoming more deliberate, each thrust deeper, more meaningful.
"I need you to come," she says, her tone leaving no room for argument. "Now. Inside me."
You falter for a second, your hands stilling on her breasts. "Sohyun... wait, are you serious? We didn't... I don't have..."
"I don't fucking care!" she cuts you off, her voice raw, almost frantic. She grips your shoulders tighter, leaning down until her face is inches from yours, her breath hot and ragged against your lips. "I don't care about condoms. I don't care about anything! I need it! I need you to fill me up. Mark me. Make me yours, understand? Breed me. Right now. Cum deep inside my pussy."
Your brain whites out for a second. Breed her. The words, the raw need behind them, the sheer possessive desperation—it hits you like a physical blow, igniting a primal heat deep in your gut you didn't know existed. The idea of planting your seed deep inside her, claiming her womb…
"Fuck, Sohyun," you choke out, overwhelmed.
"Yes!" she urges, her eyes blazing. "Every day. I want you filling me up like this every single day. This pussy?" She grinds down hard, milking a groan from you. "It's yours. Only yours. No one else ever gets to touch it. No one else gets to fuck it. No one else gets to breed it. Only you. Promise me!"
"I promise," you gasp, the words ripped from you without thought, only instinct. "Only you, Sohyun. Always."
"Good," she pants, a wild, triumphant grin spreading across her face. She throws her head back again and starts riding you with renewed, almost violent frenzy. "Fuck yes! Breed your girl! Fill my womb up with your cum! Make me swell up with it! I want your baby! Fuck, put your baby inside me now!"
Every filthy word, every desperate demand, every slam of her wet cunt onto your aching cock drives you closer and closer to the edge. The friction is unbearable, her walls clenching and milking you, her words painting pictures in your head that are setting your nerves on fire. You can feel your own climax rushing towards you now, unstoppable, a tidal wave building behind your balls.
"I'm gonna... oh god, Sohyun, I'm so close!" you cry out, hips bucking up wildly beneath her.
"Me too! Fuck, yes, me too!" she screams back. "Cum with me! Cum inside me! Breed me! Breed me now!"
She rides you faster, harder, a desperate, frantic pounding as you both chase the peak. Her moans turn into high-pitched keening sounds, her body trembling violently. You feel the tell-tale clenching deep inside her, the spasms starting just as your own orgasm rips through you.
"FUCK! SOHYUN!" you roar, your body locking up as you explode deep inside her.
Hot, thick ropes of your cum pump into her womb, filling her, coating her insides just like she demanded. You feel her pussy clench violently around your cock, milking every last drop out of you, her own orgasm crashing over her in wave after wave. She continues to ride you even as you both come, slamming down onto your still-pulsing cock, drawing out the very last shuddering spurts, her own cries echoing yours in the small room. The intensity is blinding, shattering. Your eyes roll back in your head, vision whitening out completely as the pleasure finally crests and breaks, leaving you utterly spent, trembling, muscles twitching.
Sohyun collapses forward onto your chest, boneless, her breath coming in ragged, sobbing gasps against your sweat-slick skin. Her weight is heavy, comforting, grounding. You can feel the frantic thudding of her heart against yours, feel the faint, lingering pulses deep inside her where you just emptied yourself. You wrap your arms around her trembling body, holding her tight, burying your face in her damp hair, inhaling her scent. Neither of you speaks for a long time, just clinging to each other in the aftermath, adrift in the wreckage of shared pleasure, bound together by the intensity of what just happened.
The silence stretches, filled only by the sound of two bodies recovering, hearts gradually slowing from their frantic race. Finally, she lifts her head slightly, just enough to meet your eyes. Her expression is soft, unguarded, the fierce possessiveness momentarily banked by sated exhaustion and something that looks overwhelmingly like love.
"I love you," she whispers, the words quiet but solid, no desperation this time, just simple, profound truth.
Your chest aches with the force of your own feelings, a wave of tenderness washing over you, so potent it almost hurts. You lift a hand, brushing damp strands of hair from her forehead, your thumb tracing the curve of her eyebrow.
"I love you too, Sohyun," you murmur, the words feeling more real, more right than anything you've ever said. "So fucking much."
A slow, beautiful smile spreads across her face, reaching her eyes, making them shine. She leans down, pressing a soft, lingering kiss to your lips. It’s different from the frantic, claiming kisses before—this one is slow, sweet, full of affection and the dizzying relief of finally being here, together, like this. You kiss her back gently, pouring all your affection into it, letting the kiss deepen naturally, tongues tangling lazily, exploring rediscovered territory. You stay like that for a long while, just kissing, holding each other, limbs tangled, the sticky evidence of your climax cooling between her legs and inside her. The world outside her bedroom ceases to exist; there's only the warmth of her skin, the taste of her mouth, the steady beat of her heart against yours.
But even as you drift in the peaceful afterglow, your body betrays you. Deep inside her, nestled snugly in her tight, creamy pussy, your cock gives an involuntary throb. It’s still undeniably hard, thick and heavy within her, nowhere near satisfied despite the intensity of your release. Sohyun stills, her eyes widening slightly as she feels the distinct pulse deep inside her cunt. She shifts her hips experimentally, just a tiny grind, and gasps softly as your cock throbs again in response, pressing against her sensitive inner walls. She pulls back slightly, looking down between your bodies, then up at your face with bewildered amusement.
"Seriously?" she asks, one eyebrow arching. "How the hell are you still hard? I thought I killed you."
You let out a shaky laugh, tightening your arms around her waist. "Guess not." You shift your hips slightly, letting her feel the solid length still buried inside her. "It's you, Sohyun. You drive me fucking crazy. Always have."
A pleased, almost smug flush creeps up her neck. "Yeah?"
"Yeah," you confirm, grinning. "Seeing you like this... hearing you... knowing you want me this bad..." You shake your head. "It does things to me."
Her smile turns predatory again, that dominant spark reigniting in her eyes. "Good." She leans down, whispering against your ear, "Because I'm not done with you yet." But before she can reclaim control entirely, a surge of boldness rises in you.
"Neither am I," you murmur, and with a surge of strength you didn't know you possessed, you roll her over.
She lets out a surprised yelp as you maneuver her beneath you, ending up positioned between her legs in the classic missionary pose. The sudden shift in dynamic makes her blink, but she doesn't fight it. Instead, a curious, excited glint enters her eyes. You brace your hands on either side of her head, leaning down to capture her mouth in another deep kiss, taking charge this time, setting the pace. Your cock slides almost fully out during the roll before you sink back into her with one smooth, deep thrust.
"Fuck!" she cries out, back arching off the bed as you fill her again. "Oh my god, that feels..."
Her pussy is impossibly sensitive now, slick and creamy with the mixture of her arousal and your own cooling cum. Every slight movement sends shivers through her, her inner walls fluttering and clenching around you instinctively. The friction is insane, almost unbearable, slicker and yet somehow tighter than before. You pull back slowly, deliberately, dragging your thick shaft along her hypersensitive walls, then thrust back in deep, hitting that spot low in her belly that makes her gasp and her toes curl.
"Still feel good?" you ask.
"Y-yes! Fuck, yes!" she pants, gripping your biceps hard. "So good... it's almost too much... so sensitive now..."
"Good," you growl, starting to fuck her with a steady, driving rhythm. "I want it to be too much. I want to make you fall apart."
You fuck her hard, hips slamming against hers, driving deep with every thrust. Her legs instinctively wrap around your waist, pulling you even deeper, locking you in place. She meets your rhythm, hips lifting off the bed to take every inch, her head thrashing side to side on the pillows, dark hair fanning out. Her moans are louder now, higher pitched, broken sounds torn from her throat with every impact.
"Fuck! Harder! Please, harder!" she begs, completely lost to the sensation. "Right there! Oh god, oh god, yes!"
You obey, increasing the force, pounding into her relentlessly. The sound of your bodies colliding, the wet, sloppy sounds of your cock sliding in and out of her creamy cunt, fills the room. Her breasts jiggle wildly with the force of your thrusts, the sight driving you wilder. You lean down, capturing one nipple in your mouth again, sucking hard while you continue to hammer into her.
"Ah! Fuck! Yes, please—suck them! Bite them!" she cries out deliriously.
You lave the nipple, then bite down gently, just enough to make her cry out again, her pussy clenching violently around your cock. You switch sides, giving the other nipple the same rough treatment while your hips maintain their punishing rhythm. She's trembling all over now, completely overwhelmed, on the ragged edge of another climax.
"I'm gonna... I'm gonna cum again!" she gasps, eyes rolling back slightly. "Fuck, I can't stop it!"
"Don't stop it," you command. "Come for me again, Sohyun. Let go."
You focus your thrusts, angling slightly, grinding against her G-spot relentlessly, pushing her over the edge. Her body tenses like a drawn bowstring, muscles locking up, a high, keening whine building in her throat.
"Oh FUCK! I'm—!"
Her climax hits her like a lightning strike. Her whole body convulses, legs locking tight around your waist, back arching so high off the bed only her shoulders and heels are touching. A torrent of clear, slick fluid suddenly erupts from her, soaking the front of your body, spraying onto the sheets beneath her. She's squirting, a hot, copious gush that just keeps coming as her orgasm tears through her, wave after powerful wave. The sight, the feeling of her body spasming around you, the hot spray coating your skin, the sheer, unbridled intensity of her release—it shatters your own control completely.
"FUCK! SOHYUN!" you roar, unable to hold back any longer.
You feel your own orgasm roaring up your spine, too intense, too soon after the last one, but unstoppable. You pull out at the last second, cock slapping wetly against her drenched belly, still spasming from her squirt. You brace your hands, aiming carefully, and explode all over her chest. Thick ropes of your cum spray across her collarbones, coating her full breasts, dripping down between them. Shot after shot erupts from you, hot and heavy, until you're completely drained, collapsing forward slightly, bracing your weight on your elbows, chest heaving, heart pounding like it wants to escape your ribs.
You stay like that for a moment, catching your breath, looking down at the beautiful, glorious mess you've made of her. Sohyun lies beneath you, utterly wrecked, limbs trembling, face flushed, eyes glazed and unfocused. Her chest is rising and falling rapidly, coated in your thick, white seed. The sheets beneath her are soaked from her squirt. She looks debauched, thoroughly fucked, completely claimed. And she's never looked more beautiful. You lean down, pressing a gentle kiss to her forehead.
"You," you whisper, "are the most beautiful girl in the world, Sohyun. Absolutely fucking perfect."
She manages a weak, trembling smile, lifting a shaky hand to cup your cheek. Her eyes finally focus on yours, filled with so much love, so much raw emotion, it steals your breath all over again. She doesn't say anything, doesn't need to. The connection between you is palpable, electric, forged in confessions and tears and sweat and cum and squirt, solidifying into something undeniable, something unbreakable, right there in the messy aftermath on her tangled sheets.
A long, shared sigh escapes both of you almost in unison. You lie down next to her, Sohyun rests her head back on your chest, her breathing still slightly ragged, her fingers tracing idle patterns over your cum-splattered chest. You stare up at the ceiling, your own mind racing, trying to process the whirlwind of confessions, the raw intensity, the spilled fluids currently cooling on both of you and the sheets. It feels surreal, like a dream you're afraid you'll wake up from.
"Holy shit," Sohyun whispers after a long silence, her tone full of dazed wonder. "That... actually happened."
You let out a shaky laugh, tightening your arms around her. "Yeah. I... I can hardly believe it either."
She shifts slightly, propping herself up on one elbow to look down at you, her expression serious now, practical thoughts cutting through the haze of pleasure.
"Hey," she starts, biting her lip slightly. "I'm... uh... gonna need to get a morning-after pill. Just... you know..." She gestures vaguely towards her lower body, where your seed still rests deep inside her. "We kinda... really overdid it on the whole... breeding thing."
A flush creeps up your neck, embarrassment mixing with the lingering thrill of her earlier demands. You nod quickly.
"Yeah," you agree, clearing your throat. "Yeah, we definitely did. Sorry, I should have... pulled out the first time too, I just... lost it."
She shakes her head, reaching out to cup your cheek gently. "Don't apologize. I told you to. I wanted you to." A small, almost shy smile touches her lips. "It was... really good. All of it."
Relief washes over you, potent and warm. "Yeah?" You meet her gaze, searching her eyes. "I thought so too. More than good. It was... everything."
She smiles fully then, leaning down to press a soft, lingering kiss to your lips. The easy affection, the simple intimacy after the storm, feels grounding. You kiss her back, pouring all your confused, overwhelming feelings into it. After a moment, she pulls back again, her expression turning thoughtful, hesitant.
"So..." she starts, tracing the line of your jaw with a fingertip. "What... what happens now? With us?"
You shift awkwardly beneath her, suddenly very aware of your nakedness, your vulnerability. This is it. The moment you’ve simultaneously dreaded and longed for.
"Well," you begin, swallowing hard, forcing yourself to meet her searching gaze. "I was kinda hoping... um..." You fumble for the words, feeling ridiculously shy after everything you just did together. "Do you... maybe... want to be my girlfriend?"
Her breath catches, her eyes widening slightly before breaking into the most brilliant, radiant smile you’ve ever seen on her face. It lights her up from the inside out.
"Yes!" she breathes, relief flooding her features. "God, yes! Of course, I do, you idiot!"
She crashes down onto you again, capturing your mouth in a fierce, joyful kiss that tastes like hope and relief and the start of something new. You kiss her back with equal fervor, laughing against her lips, pure happiness bubbling up inside you. When she finally pulls back, breathless and beaming, her expression clouds slightly again.
"Okay, good," she says, settling back against your chest, but her fingers fidget slightly. "But... what about... Xinyu?"
You swallow hard, the name like a stone dropping into the pit of your stomach. Guilt immediately floods you, chasing away some of the euphoria. You owe Xinyu honesty, even if it’s going to hurt.
"Right," you sigh. "Yeah. I... I need to talk to her. Be straight with her." You hesitate, forcing yourself to be completely honest with Sohyun now, no more secrets. "She, uh... she actually asked me out today. Like, properly. Asked me to be her boyfriend."
"Oh," she says, her tone carefully neutral. "Really? Wow, I'm surprised… What did you say?"
"I didn't accept," you say quickly, meeting her gaze earnestly. "I told her I needed time to think. I was... confused. Uncertain." You reach up, cupping her cheek, needing her to believe you. "And now I know why, Sohyun. It was never about being confused between you two. It was about me being too scared to admit what I really wanted. Who I really loved." Your thumb strokes her cheekbone. "It's you. It's always been you."
Her eyes soften, glistening slightly, and she leans into your touch, pressing a kiss to your palm. "Okay," she whispers. "Just... be careful, okay? When you talk to her."
"I will," you promise.
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The fluorescent lights of the campus bathroom hum overhead, casting a sterile glare on the tiled walls. Sohyun leans over one of the sinks, splashing cool water onto her face, trying to wash away the lingering exhaustion and the slightly dazed feeling that’s followed her all day. Everything feels different now. Knowing you feel the same way, knowing you're hers, officially... it’s like the world has tilted on its axis. She pats her face dry with a rough paper towel, catching her reflection in the mirror. Her eyes still look a little red-rimmed, her hair is messier than usual, but there’s a softness around her mouth, a lightness in her gaze that wasn't there before. She almost smiles.
The main door swings open, letting in the muffled sounds of the hallway, and Sohyun glances up automatically. Xinyu walks in, head down, scrolling intently on her phone, her usual bright energy noticeably absent. She looks... agitated. She heads towards the mirrors further down, seemingly not noticing Sohyun at first. But then she looks up, her eyes scanning the room, and freezes mid-step as her gaze lands on Sohyun. The recognition dawns instantly.
"YOU!" Xinyu finally spits out. She drops her phone onto the counter with a clatter and points a trembling finger directly at Sohyun.
A couple of other girls who were fixing their makeup quickly gather their things, exchanging wide-eyed glances before scurrying out, leaving the heavy tension simmering between just the two of them. The door clicks shut behind them, amplifying the sudden silence.
Xinyu takes a step closer, her face pale beneath her usually perfect makeup, her eyes blazing with hurt and anger. "It was you, wasn't it? You're the reason he dumped me!"
Sohyun straightens up slowly, leaning back against the cool tile, crossing her arms defensively. Her heart pounds, but she keeps her expression carefully neutral, refusing to rise to the bait immediately.
"Dumped you?" Sohyun asks, raising an eyebrow slightly. "What breakup are you talking about? As far as I know, you and he never actually had anything official to break up from."
Xinyu recoils as if slapped, offense flashing across her features. "Excuse me? We were having something! We were figuring it out, discovering each other! It was real! He kissed me, he fucked me, he was going to be mine! Until you!" she jabs her finger towards Sohyun again, voice trembling with suppressed tears. "You got in his head! You ruined it!"
A cold wave washes over Sohyun. Hearing Xinyu talk about you fucking her, even knowing it happened, still feels like a physical blow. But she pushes the hurt down, replacing it with a steely resolve.
"He was always mine," Sohyun says.
Xinyu lets out a choked, incredulous laugh. "Always yours? That's bullshit! You've known him for years, lived with him, watched him date other people, watched me flirt with him, and you never did a damn thing! You never had the guts! And now, now that I finally decided to go for it, now that I did what you were always too scared to do, now you decide to swoop in and get in the way?"
The accusation hits home, sharp and true. Sohyun flinches slightly, the guilt churning inside her. Xinyu isn't wrong about her cowardice, about her inaction for years.
"You're right," Sohyun admits quietly, dropping her gaze for a second before forcing herself to meet Xinyu's furious stare again. "You're absolutely right. That was my mistake. My biggest fucking mistake, letting fear stop me for so long." Her jaw tightens, her own fierce possessiveness surging forward. "But I finally acted. Because I wasn't going to lose him. Not to you. Not to anyone. I would never let myself lose him."
The raw conviction in Sohyun’s declaration seems to finally break something in Xinyu. Her furious facade crumbles, shoulders slumping, tears finally spilling over and tracking messy lines down her cheeks. She wipes at them angrily with the back of her hand.
"So what now?" Xinyu asks. "Are you going to make him quit the club? Tell him he can't hang out with me anymore?" The question sounds desperate, surprisingly vulnerable. "He... he still wants to be friends. And he's really important for the zine production... We need him."
Sohyun watches her cry, a flicker of unexpected pity stirring beneath her own lingering anger and possessiveness. She remembers your hesitation earlier, your insistence that Xinyu wasn't just using you. Maybe you were right. Maybe Xinyu did have genuine feelings, however tangled up they were.
"Look," Sohyun says, sighing, her tone softening slightly. "I'm not his mother. I don't tell him what to do." She shrugs, trying for nonchalance. "And I know he actually likes that stupid crafts club, for some reason."
"It's not stupid!" Xinyu snaps automatically through her tears.
"Whatever," Sohyun dismisses with a small wave of her hand. "My point is, if he wants to keep going, that's his choice. It's fine with me." She levels a steady gaze at Xinyu. "As long as you understand the boundaries. As long as you don't try anything. At all."
Xinyu sniffs, wiping her eyes again, nodding quickly. "I won't," she promises, her voice small. "I get it. I won't."
An awkward silence hangs between them. Sohyun feels a pang of something akin to regret, not for claiming you, but for the collateral damage.
"I am sorry," Sohyun says quietly, genuinely. "Sorry you got... deluded, I guess. Caught up in the middle of all this."
Xinyu offers a watery, humorless smile, shaking her head. "It's okay. My fault, really." She lets out a shaky breath. "Rule number one: don't fall for the guy who has a female best friend with obvious unresolved history with him. Never ends well, does it?" She attempts a laugh, but it comes out as more of a sob. She grabs a paper towel, dabbing at her eyes, trying to pull herself together. The confrontation seems over, leaving behind only the wreckage and the uneasy truce born from shared heartbreak over the same boy.
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Walking into the "Hands On" club room later that day feels different. There's a knot of uncertainty low in your stomach, a leftover echo of the drama, the confrontation you know happened between Sohyun and Xinyu, and your own awkward conversation looming. You push the door open tentatively. The usual creative chaos greets you—fabric scraps littering tables, the faint smell of glue and paint, half-finished projects everywhere. Several members look up as you enter, their chatter dying down for a beat as they take you in. You can practically feel them sense the lingering tension, the potential for more trouble. A silent ripple of awareness goes through the room.
Xinyu, who was overseeing someone wrestling with a sewing machine, immediately straightens up, clapping her hands together with forced brightness.
"Alright people, less gawking, more gluing!" she calls out, her usual commanding tone back in place, though maybe a little strained around the edges. "Those zine covers aren't going to embellish themselves!"
The members quickly avert their gazes, busying themselves with their tasks, pretending they weren't just bracing for round two. You take a deep breath and approach Xinyu, stopping a few feet away, hands shoved awkwardly in your pockets.
"Hey," you manage, the word coming out quieter, shyer than you intended.
She turns, offering you a small, tight smile that doesn't quite reach her eyes.
"Hi," she replies, equally subdued.
You shift your weight, glancing around the room before forcing yourself to meet her gaze. "Look, have you thought about what I said earlier? I just... I came to see... Am I still, like... welcome here? In the club?"
"Yes, of course," she says quickly. "Obviously. You're still production lead, aren't you?"
“Yeah. Thank you. I really enjoy being part of this club. Hmm, by the way, Sohyun told me you two talked today."
Xinyu nods, fiddling with a stray thread on her perfectly coordinated velvet jacket. "Yeah. We ran into each other." A flicker of her old cattiness surfaces as she gives a small, dismissive sniff. "Still don't really get what you see in her, honestly. She's just so... plain. Basic."
"Hey," you cut in gently but firmly. "Don't start, okay?"
Xinyu immediately holds up her hands in mock surrender, though a genuine look of apology flashes in her eyes. "Sorry! Sorry. Force of habit. Old rivalries die hard, I guess." She offers a more genuine, albeit still slightly strained, smile. "Seriously though. We're glad to still have you. I'm glad. You actually get stuff done around here."
You manage a small smile back. "So... it's not going to be weird? Between us? After everything?"
She laughs, a short, sharp sound, but it holds genuine amusement this time. "Oh, it'll probably be weird for a bit," she admits honestly. "But we'll manage. I'll just have to make you work twice as hard on club duties to make up for breaking my heart."
You laugh, the sound easing more of the tension. "Okay, that's fair."
She leans against the table beside her, her posture relaxing slightly. "Look," she says, her tone turning serious again. "I meant what I said, you know. That I liked you." She avoids your gaze for a second, staring down at her perfectly manicured nails. "Okay, fine, maybe at first I was kind of just taking advantage of how nice you are to get help with lifting boxes and shit," she confesses with a wry twist of her lips. "But somewhere along the line... I actually started to fall for the sweet, reliable guy underneath all the errand-running. You're... genuinely good. Different." She sighs dramatically. "Turns out I have a weakness for dependable soft boys who blush easily."
"Xinyu..." you start, feeling a pang of guilt again. "I'm really sorry I couldn't... feel the same way."
She waves a dismissive hand, finally meeting your eyes again, her expression resigned but composed. "Eh, it's okay. Don't sweat it." She shrugs, trying for nonchalance. "Honestly? I should've known it wasn't totally there the second you hesitated when I asked you to be my boyfriend. Nobody hesitates with me." She strikes a pose, hand on her hip, chin tilted defiantly. "I mean, hello? I'm perfect."
You can't help but laugh genuinely this time. "You're right," you agree easily. "You are pretty amazing, Xinyu."
"Damn right I am," she says, grinning, the familiar confidence flowing back into her. "Clearly you just have questionable taste." She winks. "But hey, your loss. I still want to be friends though, if you're cool with that? Awkwardness aside?"
"Yeah," you say warmly. "I'd really like that." You hold out your hand uncertainly.
She looks at it for a second, then takes it, her grip firm and decisive. A handshake. A truce. A new beginning.
"Good," she says, releasing your hand and immediately pivoting back to business mode, clapping her hands together again. "Okay, Production Lead! Less standing around looking relieved, more figuring out how we're going to afford that iridescent cardstock for the spring showcase invites..."
You listen intently as she dives into project details, pulling you back into the familiar rhythm of club tasks. And just like that, things start to feel... normal again. Different, yes. Tinged with the memory of drama and hurt feelings, but manageable. Xinyu, you realize, is great. Complicated, sharp-edged, maybe even a little ruthless sometimes, but also vibrant and passionate and, in her own way, surprisingly understanding. You're genuinely glad you can still have her in your life, even if it's just as friends wrestling over glitter glue and budget spreadsheets.
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Later that same day, you push the apartment door open, balancing two large grocery bags against your hip. You check the clock on your phone; only 6:30 PM. You’re not late. In fact, you’re early. A small, ridiculously pleased smile spreads across your face. Adulting: achieved.
Before you can even call out, Sohyun appears from her room. She’s wearing comfy lounge pants and one of your old band t-shirts that’s way too big on her, hair pulled back loosely, face free of makeup. She stops when she sees you, sees the bags, sees the time. A slow, soft smile lights up her face—the real kind, the one that reaches her eyes and makes your heart do a stupid little flip. She walks towards you, and without a word, stands on her tiptoes and presses a sweet, welcoming kiss to your lips.
"Hey," she murmurs against your mouth. "You're home early."
"Made sure of it," you reply, kissing her back gently before setting the groceries down on the counter. "Got everything on the list. Even the fancy mushrooms."
"Ooh, fancy mushrooms," she teases, peering into the bags. "Feeling ambitious tonight?"
"Tonight," you declare, pulling out flour, yeast, cheese, and various toppings, "we are making pizza. From scratch. Together."
Sohyun raises an skeptical eyebrow, leaning against the counter with her arms crossed, but the fondness in her eyes gives her away. "Oh really? We are making pizza? Or I am making pizza while you try not to set the oven on fire or mistake salt for sugar again?"
You laugh, feigning offense. "Hey! I've improved. Slightly. Maybe." You grin at her. "Okay, fine. You'll be teaching me. But we're doing it together."
And so you do. You measure flour (incorrectly at first, earning a playful swat from Sohyun), knead dough (getting more on your shirt than in the bowl), chop vegetables (under her extremely close and critical supervision), and grate cheese. She patiently guides you, corrects your technique with gentle touches and exasperated sighs that don't quite hide her amusement.
There's teasing, there's flour dusted on noses, there's comfortable silence punctuated by easy chatter. It’s chaotic and messy and absolutely perfect. Gone is the sharp-edged tension that used to simmer beneath the surface, replaced by an open affection, a shared warmth that fills the small kitchen. As you slide the misshapen but lovingly topped pizzas into the oven, Sohyun wraps her arms around your waist from behind, resting her cheek against your back. You lean back into her embrace, covering her hands with yours.
"This is nice," she murmurs.
"Yeah," you agree, turning your head slightly to kiss the top of hers. "Yeah, it really is."
You eat on the couch later, cross-legged, sharing slices of slightly burnt but delicious pizza, watching some dumb movie you'll both forget by morning. Her head rests on your shoulder, your arm draped comfortably around her, fingers idly playing with a loose strand of her hair. It feels easy. Right. Like all the broken pieces, the misunderstandings, the years of unspoken feelings, have finally clicked into place, settling into this quiet, comfortable harmony. No more secrets, no more fear, no more wondering. Just this. Just you and her, finally, simply, being together. It’s not a dramatic fireworks finale, but a soft, warm glow settling over everything, promising quiet mornings and shared dinners and the simple, profound comfort of knowing you’re finally home.
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wonderjanga ¡ 14 hours ago
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First Meeting
Clark was not having a good day. Right now, he was hunched over, sitting on the roof of a skyscraper, trying to reign in his senses after he’d expanded them so he could find a lost little girl. He really hoped he wouldn’t have to deal with this every single time he had to find one while this hero bizz. He’d only been in this for about a month and he’s already struggling? He should be used to blocking out the noise by now, he’s had twenty years to do it. He didn’t know why today was so bad.
He was pulled out of the sensory overload when he felt a hand on his shoulder and everything suddenly went quiet, save for normal city noise.
Marvel: “Woah, champ. Are you okay?”
Supes: “Who are you?” *still a little disoriented, looks up at him in confusion*
Marvel: “Oh, I’m Captain Marvel, but enough about me, we need to focus on you. Are you okay, son?”
(When Clark found out years later that Billy was actually a kid calling him son and champ he was a little dumbfounded)
Supes: “Yeah— Yeah. I am. I should be used to blocking out most of the noise by now. It seems I can still get a little bit overwhelmed every now and then. …what did you do to me?”
Marvel: “I toned down your senses.”
Supes: “…How?”
Marvel: “Magic.”
Clark didn’t know whether or not he believed that, but to be fair, he was an alien so…
Marvel: “Do you want me to take it off you now? I can do it slowly so you can get readjusted to the noise.”
Supes: “No, no, I’d like to keep on for now. I think I’d rather stay like this for a little bit.”
The man moved to sit down next to him, and thus, Clark sat in silence with this random stranger. This stranger who seemed to be dressed as a superhero as well? He’d heard about the Batman and the Flash, new heroes like him in other cities, but he never heard of a Captain Marvel. Unless you were counting the one from the history books, but that guy has to be long dead.
Supes: “Are you a new hero like me, Captain?”
Marvel: “Hmm? No. I’ve been doing this since ‘39.”
Supes: “…39? As in 1939?”
Marvel: “Yes? You make that sound outlandish.”
Supes: “It’s 2006.”
*silence*
Marvel: “No it’s not.”
Supes: “Yes is??”
Marvel: “Oh darn it. So the old men were right about the time bubble.” *sounds so disappointed*
(Billy was talking about both the wizard and Solomon)
Supes: “I’m sorry??”
Marvel: “Listen, I gotta go talk to the wizard.” *stands up* “But uh… One sec.” *snaps fingers*
Supes: *glows blue for like three seconds and shivers* “What was that?”
Marvel: “Nothing. The only thing that’ll do is make it so that when you want to start hearing normally, the spell will cancel itself. Now, how do the Italians say it? Chao.” *starts to fly off* “Come to Fawcett sometime, man!” *waves*
And with that, Captain Marvel was gone. The Captain Marvel.
By the way, if you’re wondering, why Billy was even in Metropolis in the first place, when time bubble popped, that meant people could leave Fawcett. So, the boy went to explore the US considering he hadn’t left his city in a while. Mary went to New York and Junior ended up in Los Angeles, gambling.
(I’ll do a Batman version of this tomorrow possibly.)
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leriexoxo ¡ 2 days ago
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SKZ HEADCANONS
Bf! Stray Kids and how they jerk off to you (hyung line)
Maknae Line
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A/N: Requests for ONLY headcanons are open for now. Please note that I prefer to respond to non anonymous requests, cause I’m pretty serious about minors not interacting with me 🧡
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Bang Chan
He shouldn’t be doing this here. Not in the studio. Not with the door unlocked. But he’s too far gone now.
You’d sent a voice note not even ten minutes ago—your breath hitching as you moaned his name, whispering, “You miss this pussy, don’t you?” He damn near crushed his phone when he heard it. And now?
Now he’s bent over the edge of the desk, pants barely shoved past his thighs, palm slapping against his cock with no rhythm, no control. It’s not gentle. It’s not sweet. It’s rage-fueled need—like if he doesn’t cum soon, he’ll lose his fucking mind.
“Fucking hell, baby—look what you do to me,” he pants, spit-slick hand pumping with obscene squelches, cum already dripping from earlier rounds he didn’t clean up.
He spreads it—uses it—moaning into his arm, hips bucking like he’s imagining your throat around him, choking and drooling like a good girl.
“Bet you’re touching yourself too, huh?” he growls, neck veins popping. “Bet you’re fuckin’ soaked hearing me fall apart like this.”
He grabs the base tight. Holds. Teases himself on the edge. Then snaps—grunting, cursing, gasping your name as cum spills down his cock, over his fist, so much it stains the chair and his shirt.
He doesn’t stop.
Not until his legs shake. Not until he’s wrung dry, dizzy, and smirking like he’s proud of the filth he made.
Lee Know
It’s always methodical. Controlled. Beautiful in the filthiest way.
Minho’s sprawled across fresh sheets, phone resting on his stomach, camera flipped to gallery. He’s not watching porn. He’s watching a video he took—of you, on your knees, tongue dragging up his cock while your eyes stay locked on his. His free hand is already wrapped around himself, slow and steady.
Every stroke matches the way you touched him that night. Down to the rhythm. The tension. The pause before his tip nudged your throat.
“Fucking slut,” he murmurs, a smirk forming as he watches himself grab your hair on-screen. His hand speeds up, wrist twisting, knuckles flushed.
He doesn’t groan. He hisses. Curses under his breath. And just before he finishes, he opens the camera again—records the way his cum shoots over his own hand.
Later, he’ll send it to you. Captioned: This made me think of you. Want a live version next?
Changbin
Absolutely feral. Growly. Always on edge. Like jerking off is a battle he never wins.
He’s in the shower. Steam thick, water scalding. One hand braced against the tile while the other fists his cock like it owes him something. He’s been edging himself since the second he stepped under the spray, breathing ragged, moaning your name like he’s already buried inside you.
“Fuck, I need you—” he grits out, chest heaving.
He can’t slow down. He won’t. His hips grind against his palm, jaw clenched as images flash through his head—your voice when you’re bratty, your thighs wrapped around his waist, the mess you made on his tongue last night.
When he cums, it’s with a sharp grunt and a fist pounding the wall. His legs shake. His cock throbs. And he doesn’t even stop—he keeps going, overstimulating himself until it borders on pain.
It’s never just once with him.
Hyunjin
Erotic. Slow. Like he’s making love to his own damn hand.
He’s naked in bed, candles flickering, silk sheets rustling under him. His phone is propped up on the pillow beside him—FaceTime paused on a screenshot of you in lingerie, mouth open and fingers between your thighs. He bites his lip, lets out the softest moan, and trails his hand down his abs like he’s teasing someone else.
His touch is featherlight at first—just ghosting over his shaft, stroking up and down in lazy, sensual arcs.
“Wish it was your hand,” he murmurs, letting his head fall back.
He talks to himself. Moans softly. Tells you how good you’d feel, how deep he’d go, how bad he wants to hear you cry for him. His back arches when he gets close. Fingers squeeze tighter, wrist moving faster—until he gasps your name like a secret and finishes all over his stomach.
Then he lies there, smiling faintly, hand still twitching on his thigh.
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chrissssssmut ¡ 3 days ago
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You heard of parasocial relationships where fans of a celebrity feel like they know the celebrity and am close to them even though they aren't?
Imagine a reverse yandere parasocial relationship where an idol sees social media posts from a guy online who is a fan of her and she becomes obsessed with him and goes full yandere
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Yandere Kazuha x Male Reader
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AN: Sorry I take so long writing! I've been super busy recently and I hope you all could understand!😭♥️
You didn’t expect your K-pop fan account to go anywhere. It was just a place to dump your edits, fancams, and long-winded rambles about how “Kazuha doesn’t even feel real sometimes,” or how “no human should move that gracefully unless they were sculpted by the gods.”
You were just one of thousands. One more voice in a sea of fanboys.
But… she saw you.
And she never stopped looking.
It started small. A like.
You noticed it one night around 2:12 AM, while lazily scrolling through your old posts, chasing dopamine. Your most recent tweet—“If I ever get reincarnated I hope it’s as Kazuha’s phone charger”—had a new like.
From her official account.
You sat upright so fast your spine popped. The checkmark stared back at you like a blinking cursor on a love letter.
“Okay,” you whispered, screen glowing in the dark. “Okay, that’s not… normal.”
Your heart wouldn’t stop racing. She had millions of followers. Why your post? Why now?
Maybe it was her social media manager? Maybe it was random?
You retweeted it anyway, captioning it with:
“No way Kazuha just liked my tweet???? Is this real life???”
You didn’t know it then, but she was already watching. Already scrolling.
Next Day — Seoul
Kazuha scrolled through your feed, her thumb trembling ever so slightly as she lay on her hotel bed. The blue light carved shadows into her face.
Every post. Every caption. Every breath you typed into the void—meant for her.
“He thinks I’m not real,” she murmured, eyes glinting. “He thinks I’m a goddess.”
A slow, eerie smile tugged at her lips.
“Then I’ll become one.”
Three Days Later
Your account was exploding. Kazuha had liked three more of your posts.
One was your fan edit—her rehearsal shots layered with angel wings and a dreamy filter.
Another was your tweet:
“Kazuha's smile should be registered as a WMD.”
And the third?
“If Kazuha ever looked at me the way she looks at the camera, I’d pass out. Actually pass out.”
You were losing your mind. Your DMs were flooded. Kazuha had liked three more of your posts, and the internet was combusting over it. Your phone buzzed non-stop—mentions, retweets, follows, and angry fanboys and fangirls trying to decode what black magic you used.
Some of the messages were just chaotic:
@swanfeetfanatic:
BRO??? WHAT DID YOU SELL TO THE UNIVERSE FOR THIS?? GIVE ME THE RITUAL CIRCLE???
@kknuckles:
This is rigged. You’re not even her biggest fan. You don’t even tag your fancams right.
But then came the jealous DMs.
unknown:
“Seriously? SHE liked you? You barely know anything about her. You said she looked ‘unreal’ like three times. That’s lazy simping.”
user82837:
“You're just a thirst account. If anyone should get noticed, it's people who actually care about her art.”
zuha4life:
“You think she’s gonna date you now or something? LMAO. Delusional.”
private account (no pfp):
“She follows me too. You’re not special. Stop pretending you matter.”
The bitterness dripped off every word, but you couldn’t lie—it kind of made it sweeter. You knew it was petty, but something about being the one she saw… it stirred something in your chest.
You refreshed again.
Another like.
This time, on your old post from months ago:
“If Kazuha showed up at my door soaked in rain asking to stay the night, I wouldn’t even ask questions. I’d just pray she never leaves.”
You stared at it.
And then the DM came from that private account with no posts.
unknown:
"You wouldn’t pass out. You’d fall to your knees."
Then it vanished.
Same Night — Hotel Room
Kazuha grinned at her burner account. She had watched your reaction through the reflection in her hotel window, playing your stream on mute.
She could see you squint at your screen, confused and flustered. She could practically taste your pulse.
“That’s enough teasing for now,” she whispered, rolling onto her back. “He’s almost ripe.”
Next Day — Fanmeet
You had to fly out. You couldn’t resist anymore. Kazuha was attending a public fanmeet in Seoul and you had to see her.
You didn’t expect to get in. You didn’t expect your fan letter to even be read. But someone—somehow—pushed your name to the top of the list.
You were called up.
And there she was.
Kazuha, smiling up at you from across the small table. Her skin glowed. Her eyes—deep, unreadable—fixed on you like you were the only thing left in the world.
You stammered. “H-Hi…”
“Hi,” she said sweetly, but her tone was low. Slow. Intimate.
Your heart did a backflip.
She tilted her head. “You look… just like I imagined.”
You blinked. “W-What?”
Kazuha leaned in, lips just a whisper from the mic.
“Your voice. Your face. I’ve seen all of it. So many times.”
You stood frozen. The staff gestured for you to move along, but she raised her hand—delicate but firm.
“One more minute,” she told them.
Then her eyes turned back to you.
“I liked your post,” she said quietly. “The one about reincarnating as my phone charger.”
You let out a half-choked laugh. “I-I was joking, of course—”
“I wasn’t.”
Silence. Her stare burned into you.
“Would you let me keep you in my room?” she asked. “Just… on the floor. Warm. Plugged in. Close.”
Your throat dried.
She smiled. “I’m kidding.”
But her eyes weren’t.
Two Days Later — Your Apartment
You couldn’t shake her from your mind. Every notification made your heart stutter. Every shadow in your hallway felt like it was holding its breath.
You told yourself you were being paranoid.
Until the note appeared under your door.
“I know where you live now. I liked it better when I was the fantasy. But I’ll make reality better, don’t worry. — K”
You dropped the note like it burned.
Outside, the wind howled.
You couldn’t sleep. Every sound outside your window had you glancing over your shoulder. You checked the locks again. You checked your phone.
No notifications. No messages.
Then the lights flickered.
You turned—slowly—to see her.
Kazuha.
Standing in your living room.
Barefoot. Hair wet. Dressed in one of your oversized hoodies.
“Hey,” she said, as if it was the most normal thing in the world. “Miss me?”
Your mouth opened, but nothing came out.
She walked toward you, slow and deliberate.
“I told myself I’d wait. That I’d be patient. But you kept posting. You kept calling me a goddess. You kept making me real.”
You backed up, bumping into the wall.
Kazuha raised a hand and gently pressed it against your chest. “So here I am.”
Her smile was soft. Her eyes weren’t.
“I’m yours, right? You made me yours. You manifested me.”
“I—Kazuha, this isn’t—”
“Shh,” she whispered. “Don’t ruin the fantasy. You prayed for this. Every post. Every word.”
She leaned in close, lips brushing your ear.
“Let me be what you worship.”
The words lingered in the air, thick with heat and danger.
You swallowed hard, heart pounding so violently it echoed in your ears. Kazuha was inches from you now—too close. The hoodie she wore was yours, you could tell from the faint detergent scent and how it draped perfectly over her dancer’s frame. Her bare legs, toned and poised, brushed against yours like it was deliberate.
“Kazuha,” you whispered, as gently as you could. “You’re not supposed to be here.”
She tilted her head, feigning confusion. “Why not? Isn’t this what you’ve always wanted?”
“I—”
“You said it yourself,” she murmured. “Over and over. You wanted me in your room. You said you’d let me stay the night. That I could do anything. Be anything.”
She pressed her forehead to yours, eyes half-lidded, breath warm.
“You told the world you’d worship me. So why hesitate now that your goddess is standing in front of you?”
You didn’t know what scared you more—how calmly she said it, or how much of you wanted to give in.
Your hand moved up, instinctively reaching for your phone, but she caught your wrist with gentle fingers.
“No,” she said, smile still soft. “This isn’t something you share.”
Her grip tightened slightly.
“This moment is ours.”
Hours Later — Same Night
You didn’t sleep.
Kazuha sat curled up on your bed like a cat who had always belonged there, scrolling through your phone as if it was hers now. Occasionally, she'd let out a soft giggle or hum.
“Oh,” she said, waving the screen. “This one’s cute.”
She read aloud:
“I’d let Kazuha slap me with a ballet shoe and I’d thank her. I’m sick in the head.”
She turned to you with wide, amused eyes. “That was you?”
You nodded mutely from the corner of the room, where you sat—legs pulled up to your chest—trying to make sense of the nightmare you were trapped in.
“God, you’re adorable,” she cooed. “You’re so loyal.”
She crawled toward you, slow and deliberate, dropping the phone beside you.
“You made me feel seen. Real. Not just some perfectly sculpted robot for the stage. You talked to me like I was art. Like I was holy.”
Her hand slid against your cheek.
“So I’ll treat you like my most devoted worshipper. Isn’t that what you are?”
You didn’t answer.
You couldn’t.
She smiled, tapping her forehead to yours again.
“Don’t be scared. You’re mine now. That’s all this is.”
You awoke to the smell of breakfast—burnt toast and eggs, slightly too salty. Kazuha was dancing barefoot in your kitchen, humming a Le Sserafim song under her breath like she was home.
Like she belonged here.
She turned when she saw you, eyes lighting up.
“Good morning, sleepyhead!” she chirped. “I made food. It's probably bad, but you’ll eat it anyway, right?”
You stared at her.
“Zuha… you can’t stay here. This isn’t normal. People will notice—”
“Let them,” she said, expression unchanging. “Let them see what real love looks like.”
“But your fans—your company—”
Her face shifted just slightly. A small, almost imperceptible crack in her serene expression.
“I don’t care about them,” she said flatly. “I care about you.”
Silence.
Then, quietly:
“You think they’d still love me if they knew what I was willing to do for you?”
You didn’t move.
She stepped closer.
“If they knew how long I’ve been watching? How many of your locations I’ve tracked from tweets? How many people I blocked from your replies—using sock accounts—so you’d feel like I was the only one who cared?”
“Kazuha—”
“They’d crucify me,” she whispered, smiling. “But you wouldn’t. You’d kneel.”
Later That Day — Twitter
Your account was different now. Your follower count had mysteriously dropped. Your tweet replies were unusually quiet—no more chaotic DMs. No more angry fangirls or jealous snark.
They were gone.
You opened your DMs and saw nothing.
Nothing.
Except one new message.
From @onlyzuha (a private account with zero followers).
“You’re welcome. I cleaned up the noise. I want to hear you clearly.”
“Post something for me. Something true. Tell the world who you belong to.”
And somehow… you knew if you didn’t, she’d find another way to make it clear.
You hovered over the tweet button.
Your hands were shaking.
“I don’t know how this happened… but she’s mine now. And I think I’m hers.”
You hit post.
Seconds later—liked by @Kazuha_official.
Your post went viral.
Not viral like before—no chaotic memes or fan envy. This time, it was quiet.
Sinister.
Everyone could feel something was off.
Your tweet:
“I don’t know how this happened… but she’s mine now. And I think I’m hers.”
Got liked only once—by Kazuha’s verified account.
No replies. No fan jokes. No chaos.
Just silence.
And then, one by one, your tweets started disappearing.
Not the ones Kazuha liked—those remained, carefully pruned. But old ones, ones where you casually mentioned your friends, college, exes, late-night gaming buddies—they all vanished. It was as if someone was scrubbing your digital identity clean.
That Night — Your Apartment
Kazuha was humming in your room again. Sitting cross-legged in your chair, scrolling through your timeline like it was hers.
“Your friend Dan,” she said calmly, “he called you pathetic once in a Discord voice call. I saved the clip.”
You stared at her. “How did you—”
“I joined with a throwaway,” she smiled. “Voice mod and everything. Cute, right?”
You stood frozen, bile creeping up your throat. “You… you were listening?”
“I am listening,” she said softly. “All the time.”
She got up, walked to you, and gently took your face in her hands.
“I know you better than anyone. Better than your mother. Better than God. Because I chose to.”
“Kazuha,” you whispered, barely breathing, “I’m scared.”
Her smile didn’t falter.
“I know, baby. It’s always scary when divinity touches you.”
Next Morning — Trending Tab
#FREE___
Your name.
It started trending without context. Just your name. Bold. Empty. Dozens of fans began asking:
“Why has this guy’s account been completely wiped except the Kazuha tweets?”
“Did he delete himself or did someone else delete him?”
“He was super active and now he’s silent af. Where is he?”
“This is giving Black Mirror.”
You tried to post something. Anything.
But the tweet wouldn’t send. Your drafts vanished as you typed them.
Kazuha walked past behind you, brushing her teeth, wearing your shirt. “Internet issues?”
She spat in the sink, smiling through the mirror.
“I locked you out. Just for a bit. You were shaking too much.”
Sometime later, a secret video is leaked.
A blurry video was posted by a burner account and quickly deleted.
It showed you—clearly distressed—sitting on a balcony. Kazuha beside you, holding your hand, smiling into the camera. Whispering something into your ear. You looked like you were crying.
Fans lost it.
“No idol should be that close to a fan, ever.”
“He doesn’t look okay. He looks like he’s being held hostage.”
“If this is real, we need to help him.”
But the video disappeared in minutes.
The account that posted it? Nuked.
The people who reposted it? Suspended.
Your last tweet remained.
Still liked.
Still pinned.
Still yours.
You sat on the edge of the building, wind tugging at your clothes. Kazuha sat beside you, her hand on your thigh, casual like always.
“I think people are starting to notice,” you murmured.
“They’re irrelevant,” she said. “They don’t understand us.”
She leaned her head on your shoulder, like a girlfriend in a drama.
“I used to think I needed the world. The stage. The lights. But it was all so… hollow.”
“Then I found your words.”
“You made me alive.”
The wind howled. You didn’t speak.
“If the world burns because I chose you,” she whispered, “then let it burn.”
She looked up at you.
“So choose, baby. Me or them.”
Your lips trembled.
“Kazuha…”
“I won’t ask again.”
One Week Later — You were declared missing.
It started with a welfare check.
Neighbors hadn’t seen you in days. Lights on all night. Packages stacked outside your door. No noise, no movement. Your parents tried calling—you didn’t answer. Your friends, the few who hadn’t been pushed away, filed a report.
By the time police reached your apartment… it was empty.
No sign of a struggle. No signs of violence.
Just your phone—cracked, screen facing the wall. And a note:
“Don’t worry about me. I’ve gone somewhere better.”
Your name hit the trending tab again.
#RIP[YourName]
#JusticeFor[YourHandle]
#WhatHappenedToTheSimpKing
Memorial edits popped up. Fan theories ran wild. Some blamed Kazuha—pointing to the tweets, the video, the possessive behavior. But HYBE’s legal team moved fast. Every accusation was buried. Every account mysteriously suspended.
It was dark when you woke up. Dim yellow lighting. A room with no windows. Your limbs ached from disuse, your body heavy. The bed beneath you was soft. Too soft. Sheets freshly washed. The scent of clean linen mixed with something sweeter—like jasmine and static.
Then you heard her voice.
“There he is.”
Kazuha stepped into the room, barefoot, wearing a flowy white dress that made her look like a dream—or a ghost. She sat beside you, brushing your hair from your face.
“Sleep well?” she whispered.
You tried to sit up. “Where am I?”
“Safe,” she said, like that explained anything. “The world thinks you’re gone. And for once… they’re right.”
You stared at her, mind spinning. “You faked my death?”
Her smile didn’t waver. “I set you free.”
The bunker—because that’s what it was—had everything.
Soft lighting. A stocked fridge. A mattress. Speakers playing Le Sserafim on loop. No internet. No phone. Just books she picked out. Sketchbooks. Headphones. Her.
She was always there. Always.
Feeding you. Bathing with you. Stroking your hair as you lay on her lap like some prized possession she could finally keep.
“You were too soft for the world,” she said one night, straddling you with a featherlight touch. “Too pure. They would’ve ruined you.”
“But I kept you.”
You stared at the ceiling.
“You stole me.”
She giggled, kissing your cheek. “And yet… you haven’t run.”
You didn’t respond.
You didn’t even know where the door was anymore.
Above Ground — Fan Reaction Shifts
A user posted screenshots of your old tweets.
“Guys. Look. She liked every single one that hinted at him wanting to disappear with her. This wasn’t random.”
“What if she saw him coming? What if she planned it?”
They were shut down instantly. IP banned. DMCA strikes. Cease-and-desist.
Kazuha’s fans pivoted.
“He was clearly unstable. Poor girl must’ve been traumatized.”
“She hasn’t smiled once onstage since it happened.”
And it was true.
Kazuha’s performances changed. She danced slower. Sang with empty eyes. But in between sets, a ghost of a smile would return. Not for the cameras. Not for the fans.
Just when she looked at her phone.
Because she still had photos of you.
Videos.
Recordings.
Proof that you were here, beneath the floorboards of the world.
It had been over a month. You couldn’t tell time anymore. Kazuha walked in with two mugs—one for you, one for her.
You didn’t even look up.
“Are you ever going to let me leave?” you asked softly.
She sat beside you, curled her legs underneath her. “No.”
You finally turned to her. “Then why pretend this is love?”
She looked at you, long and deep, like you were scripture.
“Because you loved me when no one else saw me. You wrote about me like I was more than skin. More than choreography. You called me sacred.”
“You gave me that godhood. I’m just returning the favor.”
You laughed bitterly. “You buried me.”
“I immortalized you,” she said, tone still calm. “You're legend now. The fan who loved me so much he vanished.”
She kissed your knuckles.
“And now you’re mine forever.”
Final Scene — A New Fan Surfaces
Far away, in a different country, a new Twitter thread begins.
Someone posts an edit of Kazuha.
Captions it:
“If Kazuha kidnapped me, I’d say thank you.”
The tweet goes viral. Harmless joke. Just another fan craving attention.
But in the shadows… a new account likes it.
@onlyzuha
💬 “Do you really mean that?”
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womenlovee ¡ 2 days ago
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Calm The Chaos
paring: ava starr x fem!reader
summary: your girlfriend finally gets to experience what it’s like to feel you
warnings: honestly none, just fluff based off of ant man and the wasp, drabble
word count: 700
author’s note: i know this wasn’t requested but it was a short idea that popped in my head
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“It hurts. It always hurts.” Ava confesses, fear flickering in her eyes—not just because of what she’s done, but because of what might happen next.
You stand beside Bill, your lip trembling. No matter how long you’ve known Ava—no matter how many times you’ve witnessed her pain—it never gets any easier to watch.
The two of you have grown close over the years. As Bill’s trusted assistant, you were constantly by Ava’s side while he was out chasing new research, desperate for a cure. Where he was absent, you were present—steadfast, devoted, and endlessly patient.
Eventually, feelings bloomed. You tried to fight them at first, knowing how complicated things already were. But when you finally gave in, when you both admitted how much you meant to each other, it felt worth the risk.
Still, it wasn’t easy. You rarely got to touch her—not for more than a fleeting moment—because she was always phasing. Sometimes, it made her lash out. She’d get so frustrated she’d tell you it might be easier if you weren’t together at all.
But no matter how hard it got, you never left. You stayed. You always stayed.
So now, watching Janet willingly give up her energy to ease Ava’s pain—watching Ava finally experience relief—makes something in you crack. Your throat tightens, your chest burns, and god, you’re so close to openly sobbing.
Ava pulls away from Janet’s hold, stretching out her hand and noticing the phasing has stopped. The pain, too, has subsided tremendously. She lets out a wet laugh, then a smile, and immediately turns to you.
You step forward slowly, ignoring the stares from Scott and the others, and then without hesitation, you and Ava rush into each other’s arms. Despite the suit, you can finally feel what it’s like to hug the person you love most. The warmth in your chest spreads as tears slip down your face and onto her shoulder.
“I can feel you.” Your girlfriend whispers in disbelief, pulling back just enough to cradle your face in her hands.
“Yes. Yes, you can.” You nod, smiling through your tears.
It doesn’t take long for Ava to kiss you.
You’ve always dreamed about what her lips would feel like, but nothing you imagined comes close to this. Nothing could have prepared you for how soft, how tender, how desperately wanting her kiss would be.
When she finally pulls back, her forehead rests against yours, and her hands don’t leave your cheeks. You can still feel the trembling in her fingers, like her body’s not quite convinced this is real.
“I thought I’d never get this. Not with the way things were. I thought I’d lose myself before I ever got to really touch you.” She whispers, her voice cracking.
You reach up, placing your hands over hers, grounding her. “You’re here, Ava. You’re okay. And I’m not going anywhere.”
Her lips twitch into the faintest smile, eyes glistening. “You should’ve given up on me a long time ago.”
“I never even considered it. Don’t you know by now? You’re not something I give up on.” You say, scoldingly.
Behind you, there’s still tension in the air—Scott watching with cautious relief, Hope exchanging a glance with her father, Janet still unsteady but glowing with calm strength, Bill watching with a quiet smile. But right now, none of them matter. Not really. Because Ava’s looking at you like you’re the only thing tethering her to this world.
“It’s quiet.” Ava murmurs suddenly.
You blink. “What?”
“My head. My body. It’s… quiet.” She exhales slowly, her hands sliding down your arms like she’s rediscovering how to exist in her own skin. “I haven’t felt like this since before the accident. Since before everything.”
You don’t know what to say. You just step closer, wrap your arms around her again, and hold her tighter than you ever have before.
“We will build something new. You deserve peace, Ava. Let me help you find it.” You whisper in her ear, never loosening your grip on her.
She nods against you, and for the first time since you met her, there’s no tension in her frame—just warmth. Just hope.
You finally get to hold her and you’re never letting go.
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A night in the lab: a short fic
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For all the nights that Pangi has spent in the newer lab, he’s slept in the water tank with a snorkel sticking out of his mouth and a water breathing potion going through an IV in his wrist. Even while corrupted, he stayed at the lab, and he stayed in the tank despite the way the skulky water made his skin itch like a real motherfucker.
But he doesn’t need the tank anymore.
But his house is still under quarantine, and it will be for the next week until the final round of soul vials are released onto it, the bed inside long compromised.
He could stay with Pili, but he’d also, like, rather die, actually, than do that; he’d either be stuck sleeping in Zam’s old room (which- what?) or on an uncomfortable couch surrounded by the Corruption, and that all sounds real unappealing.
There’s also Aimsey’s house, but Pangi, uhhh… he doesn’t want to get in the way of them and Ros.
And so he’s back in the lab trying to find a safe place to set his spawn in that isn’t a gross vat of pangolin soup. Wasn’t Lukey gonna make a bedroom at some point? Fifteen blocks apart and shit, the living quarters.
But also… isn’t Lukey fucking homeless? Homeless and poor?
There’s music coming from Lukey’s (coughs-their-coughs) office: the music disc that Lukey and Pangi had spent hours trying to track down in the trial chambers a few months ago, and Lukey humming along. He’s probably still working, but not on anything actually useful. He’s probably doing, like, science or something, but not the important kind of science over in the new alchemy room. He’s doing…
Pangi pokes his head around the corner and is met with the sight of Lukey setting up a little wooden cot in the corner of the room with his back to the doorway, head bobbing along to the music. His lab coat and hoodie are both off, and his jeans have been swapped out for a pair of Mario-themed pajama pants that Pangi remembers losing just before the Corruption took him over. And, wait, is that shirt one of Pangi’s too?
The bastard. If he wants to steal clothes, he should at least steal clothes that fit him!
(The collar of the shirt is low enough on Lukey that it’ll probably let his collarbones show if he was to turn around and let Pangi see. The thought of that does not make Pangi want to get his attention.)
“Heyyy, Lukey!” Pangi calls, getting Lukey’s attention.
Lukey, of course, jumps and legs out a little yelp and spins around in the air, hand fumbling in the air where his belt would be if he was actually dressed.
(Collarbones.)
Pangi leans against the archway with his arms crossed, the very picture of cool. And awesome. And intimidating. And badass.
Lukey sees it’s him and visibly relaxes, shoulders loosening. A hand goes to his chest right over his heart as if to steady it.
He smiles. “Hello! You scared me. What’s up?”
The shirt is way too big on him. It’s red with a picture of Zam’s stupid face drawn on it with black permanent marker, the remnant of a sleepover from a couple seasons back.
For whatever reason, the sight of Lukey wearing a shirt with Zam’s stupid face is enough to make Pangi pop the question that’s been in the back of his mind for over a month now: “Do you wanna get married?”
Lukey’s smile freezes on his face. It freezes so hard that it doesn’t match the rest of his face as it slowly started turning tense and red.
“Uh,” says Lukey, voice hoarse, “what?”
Pangi is sooooo fucking nonchalant.
He shrugs, the very picture of nonchalant. “Do you want to get married? Like, for tax benefits.”
“For…” Lukey shakes his head, eyebrows knitting together in confusion. “Pangi, we don’t pay taxes. Are you paying taxes?”
Zam’s stupid face looks like it’s saying, ‘Okay, gayboy, tell him the real reason now.’
Instead, and incredibly nonchalantly, Pangi replies, “Maybe. But if I marry you, then I don’t have to pay as much.”
And then, before Lukey can ask any more stupid questions, Pangi adds, “And we can get everyone to give us expensive wedding gifts.”
Lukey turns thoughtful at that. “I do need some more gapples…”
And, see? He did get better while Pangi was corrupted, he actually wants to carry gapples on him!
But he doesn’t need someone else to get him what Pangi has always given him.
“Hold on,” he sighs, pulling his enderchest out and rummaging through it for his food shulker.
Lukey shamelessly crosses the room to stand by Pangi’s side expectantly. “Thank youuuu… and can I have some more pearls, by any chance?”
Pangi rolls his eyes, but he shoves a stack of gapples into Lukey’s arms and moves on to look for his backup pearls.
“Are those my clothes, by the way?” he tactfully asks.
“Hm?” Lukey nonchalantly asks. “What, these? No, I just found them the other day at Green Castle.”
Pangi gives him a Look over the rims of his sunglasses; Lukey just grins and bites into a gapple.
(Collarbones…)
“Lukey…”
“Mmm? What’s up?”
Pangi’s hand closes around a stack of pearls. “Here.”
He holds them out, and Lukey takes them; their fingers brush, and electricity shoots down Pangi’s spine.
Pangi quickly goes back to his enderchest, definitely not fighting a stupid stupid stupid blush. He is straight, goddamnit!
There’s an audible skip in Lukey’s step as he goes back across the room to his makeshift bed, saying, “So, the wedding…”
“What wedding?” Pangi immediately responds.
“Oh my- we are not doing this right now, I’m too tired.” Lukey groans and flops down onto his cot. “I’m still thinking a blue and white color palette.”
Pangi’s favorite flower is blue. Lukey’s favorite color is obviously white.
Pangi chooses not to think about that.
Instead, he asks, “Did you finish the living quarters?”
“Ugh, not yet, I’ve been busy.”
“Oh, you’ve been busy, huh?”
“Yes! Curing you! You wouldn’t even be talking to me like this if it wasn’t for me!”
“Yeah, using the cure I started.”
“Oh, please, I started that cure before you were even born.”
Pangi turns to look at him in horror. “You’re old!?”
Lukey gives him an exasperated look. “I’m one year older than you. If it wasn’t for the Null, I-”
Immediately, Pangi thinks to that hallway and the painting in it showing a terrified Lukey curled up in a glass tube. There were circles under his eyes and needles sticking out of his skin and Keepers surrounding him holding all kinds of tools.
Even from across the room, Pangi can see the scars littering Lukey’s arms. The hair at his temples is white, probably from the little electric nodes Pangi saw one of the Keepers holding in the painting.
(What are marriage vows, again? To love and to cherish, in sickness and in health… to serve and protect? Or is that the army?)
“So, what, you’ve been sleeping in here?” Pangi asks.
Lukey shrugs. “It’s warm.”
The Null is cold.
But, well, if this is the bedroom for the time being…
Pangi puts his bed near Lukey’s- not next to it, but near it.
“Okay, then,” he simply says. “Let’s work on the living quarters tomorrow.”
“Fine,” Lukey sighs, as lazy as ever. “But you have to get the prismarine. I’m not going anywhere near one of those temple things.”
“That’s fine. You’ll just have to get the glowstone by yourself.”
Lukey sits up at that, shock and horror and betrayal crossing his face and making his eyes narrow and his mouth twist into a frown.
“Move your bed,” he orders, not remotely threatening in the slightest.
But even annoyed, Pangi can’t help but think that Lukey’s face is something truly… nice. In a straight way. He’s… symmetrical.
So he tries again: “Marry me?”
“Is that even a question?” Lukey huffs. Amusement glitters in his eyes, though, and his frown softens. “Try it with a ring next time.”
Needy, Pangi thinks, already deciding to commission Bad to make some legendary-quality netherite diamond rings for the two of them.
(But it wasn’t a no.)
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chrissonnyangel ¡ 21 hours ago
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➤ the heels stay on
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You stumbled into yours and chris' shared apartment with exhaustion written all over you. Today had been a lot, well, work had been a lot. Chris sat sprawled out on the couch tiredly. He looked over his shoulder towards your figure. Your boyfriend didn't get a chance to see you leave for work this morning, you snuck out not wanting to disturb his much needed beauty sleep.
"Hey baby." He smiled over to you, running his eyes over your body. All you needed right now was chris. He could sense that you were feeling down, so he tried to lighten your mood by saying, "I like your outfit." Your eyes darted over to him with need as you picked up your pace to stand in front of him.
"Okay, then take it off." You dropped your bag in front of him. Chris shifted uncomfortably in his man spread. "What?" He didn't think he heard you correctly.
"You heard me, take it off." You accentuated your words seductively as your heels clicked against the floor, walking closer to chris' body. "Well shit, whatever you say babe."
He smirked and started to unbutton your shirt slowly, his hands cupped over your boobs swiping your hardening nipple over your shirt. Was he seriously trying to tease you right now? "Chris, no teasing. Today is not the day for teasing." You said sternly, taking your hair out of your tight ponytail. Every sound of a button popping, zippers unzipping and the groans coming from chris' mouth made you even weaker and wetter for him.
"Hurry up chris, I need your cock so bad." Your hands went down to finish taking off your skirt, discarding it on the floor next to your now creased button up. Chris' hands rushed to your panties, dragging them down your thighs while locking eyes with you the whole time. Your hands reached behind you to unclasp your bra. The intensity mixed with intimacy in the moment was exhilarating. You bent down to take off your perfect heels. But before you could, chris' fingers grabbed your chin, lifting your gaze to him.
"If i am getting told what to do, then i'm allowed one request. The heels stay on."
His smirk grew wide, he was intoxicating when he was turned on. Without another word your pulled chris' aching boner from under his sweatpants. It leaked with precum, waiting for any piece of attention. You straddled him and swiped it across your glistening pussy a few times, gaining moans from both of you. "You're so fucking sexy, y/n, my god." Chris grumbled in a horny haze. You finally sunk down onto chris' girth, his tip kissing your sweet spot almost instantly. You placed one of your legs up onto the couch, giving chris a great view of your heels he desperately wanted you to keep on, and giving you a better angle for both of you to feel more pleasure.
"Oh my god chris. y'don't know how much i wanted this today." You yelped, snapping your hips up and down with need. Chris threw his head back at your patterns, drunk over your control over him.
You reached behind you to grab chris' tight balls in your palm, increasing the pleasure for him as your fingers ran intricately over them gently. Chris' eyes screwed shut as he let out a choked moan, making your eyes widen with surprise, he never moaned like that for you before. His hands rested on your hips, moving down to your ass and gripping it tightly. He helped you guide yourself up and down his cock, your wetness had dripped down onto your boyfriend creating a make shift lube to speed up the process.
"Fuuckk y/n, your so perfect for me. This pretty pussy was made for me, god." Sweat began to form on your forehead at the intensity of the moment, your thighs trembled around chris' waist. Both of you nearing your orgasms. The room became thick with lust and need as the smacking of you against chris was music to your ears. The coil in your stomach threatening to snap any second.
"Cum with me baby, cum." Chris announced, you let go with a loud more and chris with a sharp groan. He guided you down from your highs. Your boyfriend leaned in to press a soft kiss to your cheek, saying he was proud of you without having to say anything.
"Fuck y/n, maybe we should do that every time you come home from work."
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solarkitt3n ¡ 16 hours ago
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Ok ok so this is my first story on here so PLEASE bare with me 😭
MR. Ring a Ding / lux imperator x Drunk reader
...Too darn cute...
As you lay in your bed, head in the pillow beneath your pounding head after chugging a well needed bottle of alcohol after getting through another rough day at work. Your stomach would growl so you sat up, getting dizzy in the process of it. You would stumble through your room door to get flash banged by your over head light popping on over your head. When you looked down you'd see him... Lux leaning against the much taller island next to him, just staring at you with a half disappointed half concerned stare. "Sigh... what are you doing?" He asked his brow furrowing as he spoke. "Nrgh hic had... a hard day hic..." as you spoke your words became more and more slurred. Lux would shake his head slowly as he'd make his way to you, wrapping his arm around your waist gently holding you in a side hold as he walked you over to sit on a near by couch. You slumped on the couch sighing from contact as your stomach growled in hunger once you relaxed, reminding you why you got off your bed in the first place. Lux would chuckle lowly "you must be hungry after being a sad sack all day, mhm?". You would nod gently as he would walk away into your kitchen, humming his little toon to himself as he walked. As you laid there you'd miss the feeling of his arms around your waist, the tingly warmth to his touch. Catching you out of your dase was Mr. Ring a Ding almost appearing in front of you with a plate of eggs "you don't have much in your house so eggs will have to suffice" he'd pick some up with a fork in his free hand holding it up to your mouth with a sweet smile. You'd eat the food he fed you till you blurted out to him randomly "yknow... hic, I love you so much love bug~" you'd mentally curse at yourself but you'd hear a laugh from him ring from infront of you. "Oh my your quite wasted my dear... you really need some refreshments to wash it out " you'd Sigh in the back of your head 'how stupid you were to think a LITARAL GOD could and wold ever love someone like you' he'd walk away placing the plate in the sink and walking back to your fridge. He'd break the silence saying "...but for the record..." he'd close the fridge door walking to you and placing a water bottle down on the coffee table near by. "I love you too my light~" he'd lean in a peck your cheek before covering your body in a blanket and helping you drink some water. Your body felt like it was in the air how much you felt weightless by his charm. He'd stand up after a while saying "well my dear I hope you feel a bit better but till then I'll check in late-""no...please don't go" you'd act without thinking grabbing ahold of his jacket holding it for dear life that he'd stay with you and you'd get to feel his warmth. He'd Sigh saying "mhmm fine! But if you puke on me I'm leaving and not coming back!". He'd cross his arms pouting his lower lip... oh he's too cute for his own good. You'd grab ahold of him better as you'd swiftly move him under the cover he provided you earlier. He'd sqeak at the sudden movement and touch but melt into it... no like literally he turned into a puddle in your arms. You'd laugh and kiss his snout saying "heh what a comedian" as you would snuggle into the top of his head either one of his antenna brushing against your neck and jaw as they moved. He'd reform and snuggle back saying "good night" you'd hum and fall asleep alongside him. In the morning you'd have a splitting headache and you'd feel your stomach churn inside you. You'd look down at the comfortably hidden bug boy under your arms embrace. You'd gently pry him off you and rush to the bathroom letting out all of the alcohol you'd drinking the night prior into your toilet. Once you finished you'd hear an "eeewww" behind you. Turning over to see Mr. Ring a Ding standing at the door way his face contorted into disgust. You'd just laugh at him
... he's just too darn cute...
Guys please tell me how you think I did and if I should make any more!!
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lewismcqueen ¡ 12 hours ago
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come be my teacher.
lh44 x black!reader
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summary: when your favorite co-worker is out on maternity leave, a handsome new substitute takes her place. can he handle her class while she's gone? wc: 1k a/n: is this the start of a new series? technically yes. however, I don't plan on updating this until after I finish 'written in red' or at least get far enough in the story to feel comfortable writing multiple series at once. let me know which one interests y'all more lol. also pls note: this takes place in an american charter school and so I'll be using terms common in those environments. if you're confused feel free to ask me! (or just look it up...)
You took another bite of your bagel as you sat hunched over your laptop keyboard, plugging grades in before breakfast ended and students started coming upstairs. One of your kids had gotten a whopping fifty-five percent, making you wince at the pending conversation you would have to have come parent-teacher conference night.
You were a little over two thirds of the way done when your eyes began to strain from staring at computer screens and projector light all day. You saved your work before shutting the laptop closed, rising from your swivel chair and stretching your arms with a groan. Mrs. Paisley taught right next door. Wouldn’t hurt to go bother her for a second while she set up before class.
The now heavily pregnant woman had been teaching for about eight years now, and had been guiding you as a newly-promoted ninth grade algebra teacher for the past two. You liked to pop into her classroom and chat during lunchtime - she had a sharp sense of wit that was unexpected coming out of such a gentle-looking woman who wore bright yellow dresses or pantsuits to school every day. It kept you going, even when the constant ‘feedback’ from higher-ups on how you weren’t doling out enough corrections soured your mood, or when you were drained from spending half an hour getting your class to just stay quiet for more than five minutes every time you had to step out. 
But when you poked your head into the classroom with her name plaque next to the door, there was a man standing in front of the projector with his back to you. He had braids tied into a small high ponytail, the backs of his hands covered in tattoos. He wore a generic white shirt and well-tailored black pants suitable for the office with respectable dress shoes of the same color. You knew all of the administrative staff, and there certainly would’ve been an announcement if someone new had joined. There wasn’t a teacher on this floor whose face you hadn’t learned by now, either. This had to be a newbie.
“‘Scuse me, sir?” You called out politely, which seemed to make him jump. “Have you seen Mrs. Paisley? This is her classroom, and I—”
The man turned around, and the words died on your tongue. Kind eyes with thick, dark lashes met yours. He had a bit of a beard, well-groomed at the edges leading up to his ears, where he wore two shiny diamond studs. His nose was pierced on both nostrils, somehow managing to accentuate his face rather than overload it. 
Two dark, neat brows knit together in concern as the silence stretched on, full lips turning downwards at the corners in a frown.
“Are you…okay?” 
You blinked rapidly. “Huh?”
“You were saying something and then you just…paused. You can come inside, by the way, I recognize your face from the bulletin board.” 
The man smiled, revealing pearly-white teeth with a gap in the two front ones as you timidly stepped into the classroom. “I’m substituting for Mrs. Paisley. She’s on maternity leave. You teach algebra, right?”
It took an extra second to get your bearings and respond as you slowly registered his accent. Everything about him seemed to disorient you. 
Without thinking, you blurted out, “Why are you British?”
“Well, I was born there. Can’t really control that. Used to teach at university before coming to teach high school for a bit.”
Your eyes widened, immediately wishing to sink into the floor for such an asinine question. This seemed to make him laugh though, a soft “heh-heh” sound that made you melt on the inside. He didn’t look particularly surprised at your question. 
Smiling awkwardly, you wiped your palms on your black slacks, though there was nothing to wipe off. “That’s…that’s cool. Oh—and I do teach algebra, to answer your question. Sorry.”
“All good. Say, Miss…?” he pointed at you, and you carefully pronounced your last name. He repeated it, though some of the vowels naturally became more forward as he said them. 
“Do you mind helping me out here?” He turned to the projector, examining it with bewilderment. “I’ve connected it to my laptop, but there’s no signal.”
You looked over at the projector screen, the entirety of it blue.
“Ah, the blue screen of doom,” you remarked with a grin. “I got it. Lemme see?”
He moved to the side to let you examine the sockets. “Seems like you’re an expert.”
“You could say that.” You unplugged the blue wire and plugged it back in agan. Sure enough, the ‘blue screen of doom’ was replaced by a colorful PowerPoint presentation, the first slide of which appeared to be a picture of him in sunglasses and a blue shirt smiling alongside a very noble-looking English bulldog. They were sitting in what looked to be a park or a yard, judging by the vibrant green grass. The text above their heads read ‘Mr. Hamilton’ in bold letters. Well, now you didn't need to ask for his name.
You turned to Hamilton, who was currently looking at you like you’d just done a magic trick. “You're amazing, thank you so much,” he said, placing a hand over his chest like he really meant it. “I thought I was gonna have to use the chalkboard all of next period.”
You smiled, endeared by his earnestness. “No problem.”
Just then, the bell sounded, signaling the end of breakfast and the start of a new school day.
“See you at lunch?”
Hamilton had already shuffled back to the projector stand, laser-focused on his beat-up Macbook. He looked up, and flashed another smile. “Yup. Good luck today.”
“Same to you!” you called out behind you as you stepped backwards out into the hallway. You could already hear the incoming mob of kids stomping their way up the stairwell. You thought to yourself, He’s gonna need it.
“And so when these plot points form a straight line, that means you have a linear—”
Your head swiveled to look behind you mid-stroke of your marker as a sudden outburst of laughter from next door interrupted your lecture. Again. Rows of restless teens stared back at you when you turned back to them - some having followed your gaze, others beginning to snicker amongst themselves at the constant interruptions. Your co-teacher, Mr. Robles, had his clipboard and pen at the ready when you shot him a look that suggested he may need to take over.
You gave them a thin smile. “One moment, I’m gonna go see what’s going on with our neighbors next door. Please stay seated and keep your volume at a Level 0 while Mr. R continues for me.”
The sight of Mr. Hamilton’s handsome face nearly made you forget your irritation when he opened the door, sticking his head out into the hallway. You steeled your gaze, keeping your expression stony and neutral. Stay in teacher mode.
“Can I help you?” Hamilton asked, but his expression suggested strongly that he was the one in need of help.
“None needed. It sounds like y’all are having a lot of fun in there, but the noise is becoming a distraction to my class. They’ve got a test next week, so if y’all could just bring the volume down, that’d be great.”
“I’m so sorry,” he rushed out in a desperate whisper, “But they won’t stop laughing at me every time I say an author’s name that ends with an ‘a’. I’ve tried moving seats, corrections, nothing’s working! And one kid in the back keeps saying he’s ‘mewing’, I don’t even know what that is—”
“Stop,” you held a hand up, and Hamilton immediately clamped his mouth shut. “Take a deep breath. I’ll handle this.”
The din of noise seemed to stop immediately once you stepped inside and stood in front of the classroom. You clasped your hands in front of you, scanning every face you could see until you were sure that everyone had gone still. 
“So this is how we act when Mrs. Paisley’s not here?”
No one answered. They didn’t dare. 
You turned to Hamilton, who was standing off to the side looking just as tense as his students as he watched you. He snapped out of it as soon as he realized it was him you were addressing now.
“You wanna make them reset? Or will you be alright?”
Hamilton cleared his throat. “I, uh, I think I’ll be fine,” he brought his voice down to a whisper to say, “You’re a frickin’ life-saver, man. Tell me if you ever need me to buy you lunch.”
You allowed a tiny smile to peek through at the offer before whispering back, “I’ll hold you to that. You’re welcome.”
In a louder voice you announced, “Don’t make me have to come back in here. I will sit in for the rest of class if y’all can’t handle yourselves when a different teacher’s in front of you. There’s only thirty minutes left in this period. Make the most of it.”
With a curt nod, you exited the classroom and made your short trip back down the hallway to see what mess Mr. Robles had been left with.
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notarmedandnotdangerous ¡ 5 hours ago
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+18 mdni! faceless desire; a fic where bucky finds out about reader's little secret
cw: camboy!reader, porn with plot (shocking), use of shitty usernames, stream comments included, bucky finds out about the existence of adult websites, male masturbation, edging, multiple orgasms, slight overstimulation, use of toys (vibrator, dildo), voyeurism (kinda cuz reader is streaming), mentions of steve, and sam, bucky patches reader up after he gets hurt, bucky gets turned on after hearing reader's voice
word count: >3.5k
- part 2 (coming soon!)
a/n: i really tried to expand on this idea, hopefully i did it justice.. i racked my brain for ideas and yeah .. i came up w this! its filthy but WHO CARES i was waiting for people's opinions before i posted this 💔💔 so sorry it was a slow upload
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you were all heart, though often lonely in ways that you never talk about, and you lived a bit of a double life. by day you were friendly, open, all while being coworkers, and decent friends with the avengers, especially bucky. by night though, you slipped into something more revealing, quite literally. you were making money by being a streamer on an adult site, going by the username ‘le charmeur’, which literally translates to ‘the charmer’ in english. it was a shitty username, but it’ll do, you were planning on staying faceless anyway. your camera was always cropped at your collarbones, and you never used your real name.
bucky, on the other hand, was more quiet, reserved, observant, a complete opposite of your personality. after all, he had been chased by death for practically most of his life, and had never learned how to truly relax. even though he was always quiet, you had fallen for him. you never told him though, never wanted to ruin the friendship you had with him and the others. his screen name, ‘alpine17’ though, was better known in the comment section of your streams.
it all started when bucky came home from a particularly rough day. he dropped his briefcase by the couch, and walked into the office of his apartment. the apartment was dark, except for the faint glow coming from the lamp on his work desk. while he stressed about work as a congressman, alpine, his cat, was sleeping peacefully on her bed next to the couch.
he needed to blow off some steam, so he clicked into an adult site, hoping to ‘relieve’ his stress.
he somehow ended up stumbling into your account, ‘le charmeur’, he curiously clicked into it, his eyes widening as he saw the obscene videos on your account. he let out a breath he hadn’t realised he was holding. your stream popped up in the corner, and he thought it would be a good idea to join, maybe he could get himself off to your videos?
you were sitting on the bed, feet propped up against the bed as you fucked yourself with a dildo. bucky’s breath hitched at the sight of you.
alpine17:
‘found this stream by accident. best accident all week.’
he typed in the comment section. there was a small pause. then you responded to his comment.
“hmm. sometimes.. the algorithm gets it right. hm, alpine17, never seen you here before.” you spoke, your voice all breathy from fucking yourself. “welcome, newbie.” that was it. no ‘thank you’ for being here, no exaggerated welcome, just you, putting on a show for bucky, and the other thousands of people watching, of course.
user1:
‘god this new guy is so lucky! charmeur noticed him immediately..’
user2:
‘watch out newbie, everyone’s coming for you now!’
“c-come on, guys.. don’t be too mean, you’ll scare him away..” you muttered, before cutting yourself off with a moan. “aah, fuck, it’s just.. so deep..” the way you played with yourself drove him absolutely crazy. you pressed the dildo as deep as you could, before pulling it back out, just to slam it back in.
“fuck.” he took his pants off, stroking his own cock, all while imagining the dildo in you was his cock instead. he stroked himself at the same pace of you fucking the dildo into your ass.
“mmh- g-gonna cum, on y-your cock, sir..” you whimpered, you had changed your position, now you were arching your back so that the camera could focus on your ass instead. “s-shit, fuck, mmh c-cumming..” you finally came, entire body shuddering as you fucked yourself to ride out your orgasm. bucky had timed his orgasm with yours, his cock twitching desperately against his abs when he finally did.
alpine17:
‘think you can take one more, babydoll?’
he commented, shamelessly. this time he attached a $50 donation. he sighed, slowly teasing his cock as he waited for your response.
“o-of course sir, you’re so generous, i’d be evil to deny your request.” you pulled out a silicone board, sticking the dildo to it. you lined it up, before slowly sinking down. your legs shook visibly, while your cock twitched. bucky had never seen anything like your cock, it was so pretty, and a good size too. “doing this for you, sir, you know who you are.” you started to bounce on the dildo now, letting out the prettiest, most sinful moans ever, while your cock slapped against your abs with each bounce.
“mmh, f-fuck.” it didn’t take long for him to cum. in fact, he came before you even did. he didn’t even think to stop, just kept going, at the same pace as you in the stream. he ended up overstimulating himself, cumming multiple times to the obscene stream playing on his computer.
“thank you, for accompanying me tonight, and for the generous donations.. fucked myself so good..” you said drunkenly, doing your signature move of gently swiping your hand in front of the camera just before you ended your stream.
when bucky came to, he realised he had stayed longer than he meant to. he had came to the sight of you for at least 3 times. that’s when he knew, he was fucked.
the next morning
you, sam, and bucky had met up for coffee, the 3 of you were planning a surprise party for steve, after all, he was turning 107 soon. he was a living fossil at this point, but you wanted to celebrate him for many years to come. while you, and sam talked, bucky was staring, as always. he seemed different today, like he was distracted, and more flushed than usual.
“hey, buck, you okay?” you waved a hand in front of him, watching him flinch. “this isn’t like you. what’s wrong?”
“yeah, man. you haven’t talked all morning, and you’re usually excited to celebrate steve.” sam joined in, voicing his concern for bucky.
“i’m fine. just tired, work.” bucky spoke, bluntly. his voice in a different tone than usual. he couldn’t get ‘le charmeur’ out of his mind. he had been thinking about you since last night, and it drove him insane.
“sure, and i’m the president.” sam joked. after an hour, the 3 of you have decided on how to plan steve’s birthday.
“i have to go.” bucky checked his wrist watch, knowing he has to leave for work. he stood up, walking away. you and sam looked at each other cluelessly, before you both left as well.
later that evening
bucky had so much to do. so many meetings to attend, so much paperwork to sign. it was a particularly busy work day, and he felt more pent up than usual. at 9pm, he finally finished everything he was supposed to, and left the office. he couldn’t wait to see ‘le charmeur’ on his computer screen again, helping him get rid of all this stress.
bucky was slightly earlier compared to yesterday, entering just as you started streaming. you saw his username pop up, and you called out to him.
“alpine17, newbie! you’re early today.” you chuckled, the sound sending shivers down his spine. you sounded weirdly familiar, but he couldn’t put his finger on it.
alpine17:
‘hi, got off work earlier.’
“since you were so generous yesterday, i’ll let you pick what i do today.” you spoke, making his heart skip a beat. you were wearing the shirt you had on that morning when he met up with you. ‘what a coincidence’, he thought.
alpine17:
‘why don’t you edge yourself tonight, babydoll? with a vibrator?’
bucky typed, before shakily pressing the ‘enter’ button to send his comment.
“oh, edging? you’re really not gonna let me cum, sir? not even with how pretty i look when i do?”
alpine17:
‘you’ll do what i say, and that’s it.’
he tried to act bold, and it worked on you. your breath stuttered as you let out a whimper when you read the comment.
“t-that’s too bad then..” you walked out of frame, your microphone picking up the sounds of clattering as you looked for your vibrator. after a while, you finally came back, with the soft pink vibrator in your hand.
at the sight of you, bucky immediately stripped his pants off. he watched you lay against the pillows on your bed, turning the vibrator on and dragging it all around your length.
“s-see that..? i’m so hard, and it’s all because of you, sir.” you stuttered, slowly stroking yourself as you dragged the vibrator against your balls. he followed along, stroking his cock to the sight of you playing with yourself.
after a while, he had cum twice now to the sight of you edging yourself. you started to blabber, your mind going hazy as you edged yourself, it was probably the third time now.
“please- uugh, sir.. c-can i cum now..?” you whined, begging him for mercy, begging him to let you cum. your begging stroked his ego like crazy, knowing how he had control of you through a screen, turned him on more than it should.
alpine17:
‘hm, maybe. why don’t you beg more? convince me that you deserve it.’
he typed, taking longer compared to usual, as one of his hands were occupied, stroking himself.
“aah.. please, please, sir.. i-i’ve been so good, did everything you- mmh, asked me to!”
alpine17:
‘go on, babydoll, cum for me.’
bucky’s cock twitched as he typed, he timed his orgasm with yours, as he always did. he stroked himself in time with each roll of your hips.
“t-thank you, sir.. uugh, c-cumming..” you came, and so did he. you were a shaky, stuttering mess, laying on the bed in bliss. he came for the third time, with a groan, his thighs shook from how the pleasure overridden his nerves. “felt so good, s-sir.” you chuckled. you took a few minutes to rest, laying on the bed until you eventually calmed down enough to speak.
alpine17:
‘you were so pretty, so good today.’
he typed, attaching another donation of $50.
“everyone’s so jealous of you, alpine17. they’re jealous of the attention i’m giving you.” you spoke, he was special, and very lucky, compared to the other people watching your stream. “they’ll hunt you down, considering how i let you toy with me earlier.” his face flushed as his cock twitched once more. ‘le charmeur’ was giving him extra attention, and his stomach filled with butterflies. you bid farewell to your viewers, before turning off your stream.
it became a pattern. evenings bled into midnights with ‘le charmeur’ on bucky’s computer screen. sometimes he just watched quietly, stroking his cock to whatever you were doing to yourself on stream. ‘le charmeur’ never showed his face, never gave a name, never revealed a city or timezone. it was practically impossible to figure out who ‘le charmeur’ actually was.
weeks had passed since he first watched your streams. the more he watched them, the more addicted he got. the first thing he would do when he came home from work was to watch your streams, and cum to them at least twice, before he could do anything else.
2 months later
the sun was hot, the court dusty, and neither of you had played tennis in a while. it didn’t stop you from dragging bucky out for a match though.
“i’m telling you, i used to be insanely good at this.” you waved your hands in the air, trying to prove your point.
“and how long ago was that?”
“..middle school. but let’s not talk about that!”
“right. we’re doomed.”
the both of you weren’t even that bad at it. you could return bucky’s shots, and bucky could return yours too, before it became clear that the both of you were equally as average, and equally as competitive.
you moved fast, despite the heat. you chased a wide shot, with the kind of recklessness that always got you in trouble. your foot got caught on the edge of the court, and you went down, hard. your shirt had ridden up when you fell, your waist scraping against the hard, rubbery court.
“shit.” bucky practically leapt over the net, running towards you. “you good, man?”
“define good, buck.” you winced, crawling back up, only to find the skin on your waist was raw, an ugly abrasion on your soft skin.
“don’t move.” he spoke, walking away and reaching into his bag.
“you carry a first aid kit?”
“technically no. i just carry the stuff i forget to throw out.” he spoke, bluntly, while you laughed.
“jeez, your disaster prep is definitely.. comforting.” you didn’t speak much as bucky cleaned you up, you just sat there, breathing through the sting. the bandage was wrapped perfectly, considering how most of you were active combatants, and needed to learn basic first aid.
“it’s not pretty, but it’ll hold.” he watched as you slowly got up.
“thanks doc.”
“that’ll be $25 dollars, and a slice of pizza.” he joked.
the both of you did end up getting pizza though. obviously, you offered to pay, partly because you owed him for treating your wound, and partly because you had extra cash to spare from your ‘side job’.
later that night
you started your stream slightly later than usual. and as if on cue, bucky joined. he sat on the seat of his office chair, staring into the view of you in front of him. today was different though, you had a shirt on, instead of being naked like usual.
“hi, little late today. took a hit, tripped like a fool earlier. so i can’t do much today..” you spoke, before sighing.
alpine17:
‘poor baby. show me the wound?’
bucky typed, it was embarrassing how straight forward he was being, considering how he was usually reserved and quiet. can you believe he was typing this shit publicly?
“battle scar of the week, alpine17.” you joked, adjusting your camera angle slightly, something you didn’t do often. the frame shifted lower than usual, just enough to show your waist, and hips, as you sat on your chair. then, ever so slowly, you pulled your shirt up, showing the ugly abrasion on your waist. neatly wrapped, white gauze, beige medical tape in a tight, double loop, it was wrapped in the way bucky always did it.
“what..” bucky blinked, leaning forward to take a closer look. “fuck.” that was his bandage. he had put that on. that exact wrap, that exact tuck in the gauze, the weirdly creased edge of the tape.
“i went to do some exercise today, haven’t been really active on the court. went a bit too hard, lost my balance and fell. it hurt so much.” you spoke, feigning an innocent voice, before chuckling, and adjusting your camera angle once more, so that it was back to the original position.
bucky wanted to type, no, say something, but he didn’t. his throat went dry as he connected the dots. he leaned back against his office chair, his brain running with thoughts of you. you were his favourite adult streamer, you were ‘le charmeur’ this whole damn time? you sounded and acted so familiar, he felt stupid that he didn’t connect the dots. he didn’t send another comment, didn’t expose him, didn’t even breathe. he just sat there, letting the quiet realisation settle over him.
“so quiet today, newbie?” you teased, completely oblivious to the fact that you had indirectly exposed your identity. you moved on, playing with yourself as usual, while bucky clicked off the stream, laying in bed as he realised he had been getting himself off to one of his best friends.
the following week
bucky spent the next few days pretending nothing had changed. he tried to, at least. now he knew, that they were the same, and that knowledge, that realisation, sat in his chest like a secret too big to keep. he didn’t wanna ambush you, didn’t want to ruin the trust the both of you had built over time, both online and in real life, but he couldn’t carry it alone anymore.
inside, every time you spoke, at the avenger’s compound, over texts, during their usual coffee run, he kept hearing that voice. not just your voice, but ‘le charmeur’’s voice, and it always made him hard.
“let’s go for tennis again next week, buck.”
“i.. i don’t know if i can make it, work and all.” bucky replied bluntly. “i need to go to the restroom for a while.”
“uh, okay?” you tilted your head in confusion, he had been acting weirdly for the past few days.
bucky rushed to the restroom, entering a random stall that at least had a working lock. he sat down on the seat, and pulled his cock out. it was red, flushed, pre-cum beaded at the tip as he realised how fucked he was. he stroked it quickly, eager to get himself off before you got suspicious of how long he was taking in the restroom. he teased his finger over his tip, just the way you always did with yourself, whines, and whimpers spilled out from his lips as he jerked himself off to the thought of ‘le charmeur’, the thought of you.
5 minutes had passed now, and you started to get worried. you left both of your coffees on the table, and you walked towards the restroom. you walked in quietly, not calling out to bucky just yet. you washed your hands, listening intently.
“mmh, f-fuck.” a stifled whine broke the silence, the voice sounded desperate, filthy.
your face flushed red immediately, as you covered your mouth with your palm, not wanting to make any sound. then, the realisation hit you. there was only one occupied stall, and he was the only one that was currently at the restrooms.
“..buck?” you spoke, your voice shaky. upon hearing your voice, bucky came immediately, accidentally letting out a groan that he didn’t hold in. “you okay, buck? where are you?”
“huh- mm, i-i’m fine.” he replied, voice breathy from his orgasm. he tried to play it off, but it was too late, you had already heard all of his breathy moans, his whimpers, his panting.
“buck, open the door right now.” you spoke, voice tense now, and it sent a shiver running down bucky’s spine. “i’m telling you, if you don’t open this door, i’ll break it down.”
“o-okay, i’m coming out.” he replied, putting his pants back on. thank god it was a sunday, he was wearing sweatpants instead of his usual slacks and loud belt. he looked absolutely ruined, his face flushed red as his eyes were glazed over. he stumbled a little as he walked, it was undeniable now, he had been masturbating inside the stall. “sorry.. got a bit occupied earlier.” he spoke bluntly, as if he was back to his usual self. the both of you stared at each other in silence, before he invited you over to his place. “i need to talk to you about something.. important.”
you gulped, nodding hesitantly. soon after, you were back at his place. you sat on the couch as he poured you a glass of water.
“recently, i’ve been.. pent up.” he confessed, and your eyes widened at the revelation.
“w-what?”
“i haven’t been touched in years. i was frustrated, and i..” he covered his face in embarrassment. “i stumbled onto an adult site.”
“okay, a-and then?” you stuttered, not knowing what to expect now.
“i’ve been watching this one streamer.. he helps me get off, almost every night. and that streamer.. i-is you.” he spoke, his voice cracked in guilt.
the both of you sat in silence momentarily, the room felt much smaller now. bucky broke the silence as he continued.
“i.. i’m sorry. i can stop, i’ll stop, if you want me to. i feel guilty, no one should do this to their own friend. i only found out through the wound on your waist.”
“you.. you weren’t supposed to know.. no one’s supposed to..” your eyes welled up with tears of humiliation, as you breathed heavily.
“i get that-”
“no, you don’t.” you snapped, your voice cracking. “that’s the only place i get to be me without people judging, knowing. i.. i built that space so that i could fucking breathe for once.”
“i.. i do get it, that space helped me breathe too. helped me take the edge off.”
“this.. this is so fucked up, buck.”
“why?” bucky inched closer towards you. “because we’re good friends? or because we’re more than that?”
“buck-” you turned around, eyes wide.
“i’m not trying to take anything from you. not your space, not your privacy, not your dignity. i.. i just couldn’t sit with it anymore. i couldn’t keep pretending i didn’t know you in more ways that one.”
“i need some time. i feel humiliated buck.. i-i’m not ready.” you walked out, leaving bucky hanging.
"..fuck."
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jazminethecreator ¡ 2 days ago
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piwon attending your family reunion (black reader)
keeho
from the moment keeho stepped out the car, he’s already grinning like he’s been coming to the family reunions for years. “it smells good out here.. who’s on the grill?” he calls out, not even waiting for you to introduce him. your uncles, impressed by his boldness, pulls him over for a plate of food.
before you know it, he’s made himself at home. putting a bunch of mac and cheese on his plate and teaching your aunties how to say Korean phrases. your nana’s laughing so hard she wiping her eyes.
you catch him later, mouth full of ribs, debating with your cousins wether beyoncè or janet jackson had the best super bowl performance. keeho motions you across the yard, pulling you to sit on his lap. he presses a kiss to the side of your head before whispering, “thanks for bringing me here.”
you’re glad because he fits in like a puzzle piece. somehow, he’s already invited to thanksgiving.
theo
theo walks up beside you quiet, hands in his pocket. he then pulls out a bouquet of flowers. for your mom. “thank you for having me,” he says gently. your mom is immediately impressed.
he doesn’t say much at first, answering honestly, smiling. your nosy aunts pull you aside whispering, “that boy got that pretty face. real respectful too. don’t mess that up y/n.”
later, as everyone eats and the playlist starts to shift from usher to cameo, someone calls out, “hey, we’re doing the electric slide! don’t act new!” you immediately get up, grabbing theo to dance where everyone else is. you carefully teach him the moves and he catches on quickly, soon becoming a natural. it’s like he’s been doing line dances at family functions all his life.
when you asked how he did that so well later that night, he wraps his arms around you and shrugs, “i watch you do it all the time.”
jiung
ever since you’ve arrived, jiung has been standing next to you quietly. he’s observing, soaking it all in. his eyes land on the love and laughter flowing around your family. “this reminds me of home,” he says quietly. “different culture. same warmth.”
when your uncle hears he’s into music and part of a k-pop band, he drags him into the family open mic session. jiung reluctantly agrees and blows everyone away with a cover of daniel caesar. it leaves everyone quiet for a while, wondering where this boy came from
later, he finds you again and tells you, “babe, i don’t want to leave.” you laugh and reach your hand to caress his face, letting him know he’s stuck with you and your family for the rest of his life.
as the party is slowly dying down, you and jiung stay a bit longer to look at family photos throughout the house.
intak
you told intak to dress chill. he showed up in his best outfit. you can’t lie, he did look fine as hell but that’s not what you told him. “i have to rep you well!” he says, already posing for selfies with your younger cousins.
music bumps from the speakers and someone yells, “yall already know what time it is, dance battles!” intak immediately lifts his head up from the plate of greens he was eating. he removes his flannel, handing it to you before making his way over. what starts as playful turns into a whole performance. he does what he does best and practically wins your family over.
later, he’s at the spades table talking with your great-uncle like he’s being there for years. when you ask how he can navigate everything so easily, he leans in close and says, “because i’m yours. i had to impress my future family.”
soul
you had no idea what to expect from soul. he walked in quietly behind everyone, no expression until someone offered him a plate. “what’s this?” he asks you, putting some food on his fork. “they’re chitlins baby, don’t eat that…” you reply. he stares at them with confusion before turning to the sweet potatoes. then he eats five servings of those.
soon, your little cousins are following him like ducklings. he’s showing them some choreography, using only facial expressions and hand motions. he has the kids running back to the parents, showing them the cool dance they just learned so they can get a sleepover.
midway through the cookout, your aunt catches a video of him dancing to swag surfin’. you watch in shock since you weren’t there to watch it, you were having to change a diaper.
“where’d you find this boy?” your cousin laughs. you don’t even know how to explain but youre glad he’s with you.
jongseob
you warn him that your family is crazy. still, jongseob comes in wearing a nice outfit and shy smile, offering to help set up chairs and pass out waters to the older ladies. “he’s adorable,” your grandma whispers. “he’s nineteen,” you say for the fifth time.
still, your family babies him, pinching his cheeks and calling him “young man” likes he’s twelve. you’re confused because when have they ever treated you like this? you knew you messed up when you told your uncles he could rap. one quick freestyle later, half the family is cheering for him
later, your baby cousins spills soda on herself, you help her clean it up while he distracts her from crying with beatboxing. your dad watches, nods, and gives you the “he’s alright” nod.
and even though everyone keeps teasing him, jongseob just smiles, finding your hand under the table to squeeze it. “thank you for bringing me here y/n, it’s nice.”
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a/n: heyy so uhm it’s crazy how i had time to post this and not the smau 😭 this is my first time doing this so pls give feedback & fic ideas in my inbox 😛
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tiki-was-here ¡ 1 day ago
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Nacho Varga x “Adult” Streamer Reader
Word Count: Idk but it’s short
This was supposed to be a full fic but now I feel like it’s a poorly constructed character study to help get me back into the groove of writing. Last time I took a break I didn’t write for two whole years so let’s hope I stay focused
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Ignacio Varga had money, sure. Power, to an extent. But none of it ever felt like his. He wasn't running things, he was just surviving. Day in, day out, playing puppet to men with guns and crooked grins. His father’s disappointment sat heavy on his chest, eating at the one part of him that hadn’t been swallowed up by this life.
It had been three days since the girls left. Or maybe five. He couldn’t tell anymore. They smoked too much, laughed too loud, but they didn’t ask questions—exactly the kind of distractions Nacho needed.
The condo was dark. A single lamp flickered in the corner, casting long shadows across the bare floor. Nacho sat in front of his laptop at the kitchen counter, shirtless, a bottle of something half-empty near his elbow.
He didn’t even know what he was looking for anymore. Porn didn’t hit the way it used to. It was all static now—moaning, forced grins and pixelated skin. An ad for a cam site popped up and he clicked it without even thinking. Getting a virus would be the least of his worries right now.
One particular stream caught his eye. Simple lighting. Clean room. You were there, talking to the camera, laughing softly at something someone had typed in chat before leaning closer to read another. Something about you made him click.
The preview was a minute long. It was mostly just you talking to people who'd probably been watching you for a while, sipping from something from a cup. He waited for the inevitable moment where you'd lean forward, offer a smirk, whisper something filthy, but it never came. Maybe that’s why he didn’t click away.
Then the timer ran out and a message popped up prompting him to create an account if he wanted to keep watching.
A few minutes later, his card was charged, and he was back in your stream.
Normally, Nacho didn’t give things like this more than a passing glance. But tonight, the silence was louder than usual, and something about the quiet in your voice,maybe the soft cadence of it, the way your eyes seemed to be filled with a light he hadnt seen in a long time,hooked into the place inside him he usually kept hidden.
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He started planning his nights around your schedule, started tipping more. Sometimes two hundred, sometimes five. He didn’t ask for anything special in return, just wanted to hear you talk. To see that look on your face when you read his name.You always smiled when you saw it.
That fucking smile.
He never used the cam option of course. Not even when he’d worked up the courage to buy a private session with you. Safety played a big part in his decision, but in truth he didn’t want you to see how tired and worn he looked.
He caught himself thinking about you during runs. Counting time until your next stream. Checking his phone in the middle of deals. His house started collecting unopened takeout containers and dust, because he didn’t care to leave the laptop for long. He bought better headphones. Cleared his schedule on the nights you were on.
It felt good,safe.
It made him feel like someone was looking at him—not Nacho —but Ignacio. The scared kid who used to help his dad fix cars in a tiny garage that smelled like oil and metal. The kid who the world had aged faster than it should have.
But nothing good ever lasted long in Nacho’s world.
A call came one night while you were telling a story about your day. He let it ring twice before muting it. But then it rang again. And again. And again.
Nacho sighed and picked it up.
“Varga. Where the fuck you been?”
He didn't answer, just let out a scoff of slight annoyance.
“Got a drop. Tonight. You in or not?”
Nacho stared at the screen. You were laughing now, eyes crinkling just right, holding your drink up like a toast to the chat. He wanted to stay. God, he wanted to stay.
But that wasn’t how it worked. You could buy time in this life, but not freedom.
“Yeah,” he said. “I’m in.”
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glacierruler ¡ 1 year ago
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You know, eventually, when I get a job and move out, I think the biggest thing I'll miss is the microwave. Sure the handle is broken, making it a bit tricky to open, but it has a working popcorn button.
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charlie-pippin-faraday ¡ 1 year ago
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If House of Anubis had taken place like ~5 years later than it actually did I just KNOW that Joy and Amber would've been SUPER into K-pop and they would've argued viciously about who they stan and bias all the time, possibly descending the house into an all-out war at some point
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