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All I got from this installment is that
“Nephilim — do not play with magic. Tatiana played with magic. She was . . . destroyed.”
How relieving!
#and wow does her man sound sad at that#poor guy#had to marry a mad woman#and then watch her go even more crazy#rupert blackthorn#tatiana blackthorn#sobh#secrets of blackthorn hall
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does anyone have recommendations for fictional media that has like. actual lesbians in it. not like supergirl Two White Skinny Girls, One Blonde and One Brunette Kiss media, or "its implied lesbianism!!!" but just regular fucking lesbians
#i say lesbians but i guess i mean sapphic#im just like. tired of gnawing#and of men also. sorry men in my life i love you but on god if i have to pretend one more man is butch just to get#content that isnt m/m or m/f im going to turn into a horse and run into the wilderness until im saved from the glue factory by a plucky#young woman except instead of letting her have her formative summer where she trains me and bonds w me and wins a competition w me#im going to commit horse suicide in front of her & change her life forever. just because im so tired of bland CW-marketable women kissing &#digging for scraps in a refuse bin while brushing aside 7002993829292929939292929399394 gay and het romances#m text#i will also take nonfictional lesbians if its like a story#not to be whiny on main but one of the hardest hurdles i had to jump wasnt realizing i was a lesbian. i came out to myself and to friends a#lesbian multiple times. but i would always walk it back when a friend would express doubt or a male friend would ask me out#bc i dont and especially then didnt know very many lesbians in person. and so i had to turn to examples#and all i fucking had were fictional women who liked men. or fictional lesbians who were so cleaned and sanitized and prettified#(you all know what i mean right. the 2 skinny white girls one blonde one brunette. im not crazy right)#and i would be like. i dont feel things when i look at these fictional lesbians so i guess i belong back here#(this is also bc my gender ended up being fuckier than i realized but shhhhh)#I WAS GOING SOMEWHERE WITH THESE TAGS but theyre too long and im lost.#anyway the point is if people werent so fucking weird abt fictional or onscreen lesbians maybe thered be a lot more people comfortable bein#out as lesbian#like sorry but this awful ouroboros of 'all lesbians onscreen have to be cute and sanitized' meaning that people write and believe wlw has#to be cute and pure and sanitized (OR a 'badge of honor' bc good for u u doodled two women together or had it as a background in ur fic)#meaning that therefore all portrayals of lesbianism continue to be like this. is just#and im also gonna be honest theres probably a lot of good sapphic media im just in the wrong circles to have stumbled into lol. so#yknow. personal viewer bias here#but i still like swing wildly between overly brandishing my dykeness as a badge to feel like im proving im lesbian#and like. backing up under a blanket bc i dont wanna be weird or annoying or freak people out#but if people just Saw Normal Ass Lesbians. aough.#im going to watch revolutionary girl utena one of these days even if i struggled w the writing style the first few episodes#I JUST WANNA SEE AN OLD BUTCH ONSCREEN GET SOME PUSSY.#like it also doesnt help im mostly femme4butch so seeing 2 femmes on screen is like. okay cool so what. but only femmes are 'marketable'
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i know hoyo is setting up rhine to have good intent and whatever in her trying to 'save' khaneri'ah or whatever; but i REALLY hope they stay with the cruel persona thats been built up for her. because it would be so wonderful to see a character who had good intent in the beginning just get absolutely corrupted; with the inability to ever go back to that prior state purely because of what had happened. also because there is NO way in her turning back after all that shit
#sorry. i dont think theres any good and plausible explanation for rhine to still be a kind or gentle person in general#she can (and SHOULD) have her moments. but it'd make so much more sense (and be much more impactful) for her to be inherently cruel#because look at all the stuff thats happened#i love the indomitable human spirit trope. dont get me wrong.#but rhine has that in the way she WONT stop her research till shes either dead or murdered. she is not gonna be gentle kind and optimistic#she watched all her kids (that she was SHOWN to care for) get very brutally murdered.#had to then go and kill her next creations that she didn't consider perfect (which most certainly fucks a women up. no matter what you say)#made the 'perfect creation' and the way she treated him was obviously a HUGE contrast to how she was before (being gentle and nuturing)#and left him (albeit with what we can guess was good intent) with NO goodbye just#a recommendation letter. a text. and his final mission#she could have good intent#and still care for others#dont get me wrong!!!!!!!#but shes. human???#humans can be (as much as i hate to say it) a tad selfish when it comes to survival#and being antagonized demonized AND shunned by teyvat and even her own people. having to survive multiple gods wrath#isn't. gonna be good for the human psych#and it isn't gonna be something fixable#look at how furina progressively faltered over a hundered years WHILE being adored#she already started waning in her ethics and morals (as someone immortalized as a human WOULD)#with exposing lyney and all of that when it was VERY clearly the morally wrong thing to do (which her as a human would know)#and being relatively pessimistic and clearly spiralling#(no hate. i love furina with all my heart.)#if thats how FURINA started going#imagine rhine who has nobody (save maybe alice. but i doubt she'd be constant given her spontaneous nature and refusal to sit still)#shit man. even I'D go crazy and be horrible.#its okay and natural to be bitter#and its not as if anybody was there to help#hexenzirkel has a ton of women who survived their own nations falling yes#but not ONE of them (from what we know) has had circumstances any where near rhine's
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YEAH
#oh i just love this arc i love the bosco episodes so much i really do#there's so much to them there's so many things to enjoy there's such a wealth of silly little things to think about but even just this#it's just - bosco was never going to LIKE jane! because of professional dislike/distrust towards him (and also because of the lisbon thing)#and jane was never going to LIKE bosco! because he 'took' red john from him (and also because of the lisbon thing)#(and both of those lisbon things are different things i could talk about for so long but they're also the same thing deep down)#neither of them wants to lose what they have with lisbon (and neither of them are in a position to take the next step they may want to)#meanwhile lisbon is faced with this - unspoken; implied; hinted at; blatantly said; and then right back to implied - choice#between bosco('s strict by the book way of doing things) and jane('s flexible more than a little unscrupulous methods)#and she chooses jane. multiple times. explicitly.#(because he will always choose her but she'll always choose him right back)#and watching that play out? fantastic incredible amazing and that's not even touching on all the other implied shit that goes on#like it's one of the times i'm most like 'i get what you say you were going for here but i'm not sure YOU get what you actually did'#(also when you add in that they're still coming off the craziness of the s1 finale.....like 16 more layers to consider...time of my life)#tm
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random 100% crack idea but what if Cuff got turned into a cat somehow…
#he would hate it but imagine the cute chaos 🥺#i just know he would be so cranky and mean#but also so majestic and cute#even in kitty form he can’t stop being sweet on frey#he absolutely does the ‘rub my tummy’ lure so he can scratch her#susurrus kitty is not immune to chin and ear scritches#he’d definitely be the cat that gets her attention so she can watch him knock something over#SUSURRUS KITTY PLAYING WITH THE TANTA FAMILIARS HELLO 😭🩷#frey tries to use the toys she bought in cipal to play with him#cuff pretends he hates it and ignores her#but when frey falls asleep he goes crazy with the ball and scratch post#frey waking up in the middle of the night bc cuff got zoomies and started going crazy knocking shit over#frey waking up with susurrus kitty sleeping nearby 🥺🫶🏽#i imagine he would be pretty vocal so definitely waking frey up at ungodly hours bc he had to sing the song of his people 💀#the more i think about this the more i need it to happen somehow#forspoken
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thank god chappell roan didn’t release good luck babe in summer 22!
#i unfortunately had a homoerotic female friendship that ended abruptly and tragically#she was my best friend for YEARS like we met when we were 11#i knew i was queer pretty early on but it’s so painfully obvious in hindsight how badly she was repressing everything#we fell asleep together she liked every guy i liked she was invested in every female situationship i had#like it was so painfully obvious what we were but we were just an undefined weird tension homoerotic pair of besties!#she always wanted to know every detail of my sex life w women refused to hear about the men i was w#she would hold me when we watched movies she wanted to do everything w me and she hated me after we graduated hs!#last conversation was on her birthday haven’t spoken to her once since#this song has sent me into a 3 day spiral session if you can’t tell 😭#never fully gotten over her but i see her post w her new friends at her school 6 hours away like cool cool okay#you’re going to ignore i ever existed instead of confronting your feelings okay! don’t know why she wants nothing to do w me anymore tho#crazy stuff it’s been a year and a half since we stopped being friends but i think about her a lot and i wonder if she thinks about me#i have 2 playlists about her she still follows me on spotify but she didn’t even wish me a happy birthday#at the end of the day i hope she figures everything out. you’re nothing more than his wife and all that#this song THIS SONG SHE WONT LEAVE MY MIND#probably delete later. we’ll see cause all my friends are sick of hearing me talk about her but i can’t stop she’s been in my mind since#this song dropped so thanks chappell 🥹🥹🫡
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someone really should be talking about how difficult it is to plan a wedding - a gay wedding - when both of your families fucking suck
#who is talking about this!!!! let me know#idk i have 0 expectations for my family but they still somehow always manage to let me down which#i was anticipating#and i didn’t think i would care because i have never cared before#but liiiiiike.#i wasn’t expecting to feel sad rofl but my family is so fucking flaky. again i KNOW THIS i know i cannot rely on any of them#it’s annoying when i have given them a year and a half to make plans and i have had so many people tell me they would be there#just to back out or ghost or come up with some excuse#like do you know how expensive weddings are 😭 JUST fucking be honest with me and rsvp no#anyway i was very intentional with the few family members i did invite#and specifically invited people i have a rapport with / had a good (ish lol) relationship with growing up#people i have bent over backwards trying to please!!! and dropping everything to help them out#and they can’t even be bothered to communicate with me lol it’s fine. like. i do feel like it’s internalized homophobia at this point#or maybe they have hated me this entire time which is totally plausible#but they KNOW how much ayesha means to me and knows that no one from her family is coming to our wedding#at the end of the day it’s going to be like. 5 people from my family 1 from ayesha’s (her brother) and like 30-40 friends#which i am so grateful for obviously#i sound like such a brat but it’s also like - watching your family continuously choose drugs/alcohol over showing up for you - lol#AGAIN i’m used to this and expected as much but i’m still feeling bad#just rsvp so i can move on with my life please. stop telling me you’re trying to make it work when we both know you aren’t#i have so much more to say but i’m going to sound crazy even though i knooooow it is homophobia like i Know it#i think there are certain people i will finally go no contact with for good after this#which is a freeing thought but i only invited v few family members to begin with. there’s abt to be no one left lmao#probably for the best#ugh whatever#again i can’t help but feel a certain way when they have done more/traveled further for relatives they hardly know#meanwhile i was forced to spend so much of my life living for these people and for them alone#AAAAAAAA i just want to scream#text
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call the hairdresser and call the mediator because the way i'm splitting to the fucking ends right now
#babes i'm so sorry about it i'm SO sorry about it but i don't think we can blame this one on the period craziness anymore#i've not even been that mentally ill lately but my friend said we like can't hang out before he goes back to school#AND my sister doesn't want to hang out tn and i'm genuinely like? i'm going to break my fucking phone#like okay i'll just kill myself. whatever. i'm becoming super fucking toxic it's really bad#obviously i don't say this shit this is internal i'm not gonna push for anything that's super fucked#but like. ohhhh my God the rage i'm feeling right now. i need to kill someone#literally why am i like this. no explanation no anything i'm just like this? who fucked me over though like what happened#what's my tragic backstory i've got nothing i'm literally just crazy#he's not even answering my fucking texts anymore like tell me to die. pussy. do it. do it! fuck w me right now#and i was so nice i literally was like. hey no worries how's your summer been what's been going on!#i'm watching more youtube within the last 10 minutes of checking my phone i've almost thrown up and thrown it twice#do you think people try to fuck me over. do you think that's a thing. like they're testing me#if you showed me some of my old online friends right now the way i would rip them into pieces#my girlfriend's been pissed lately too like it's my two best friends riding for me and nobody else#oh he replied fucking great. shooting myself in the head i'm so manic pixie for this i'm so fixing him right now#i'm not he's got a girlfriend. but like. whatever. could've been me & i think about that when i'm mad#i do not like him but me and her are literally the exact same she's just prettier and smarter and i'm more of a good person#not right now though. i need to loop someone gets hurt from mean girls until i'm fucking normal#neg#vent#suicide tw
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I'm so invested in the folcharts as a couple when resa's talking then mo immediately lies to and excludes her for no reason. she's the only reason your dumb ass is even alive and you haven't treated her like an adult and your partner in months fuck is wrong with you
and then he tells her he doesn't care if she goes back home without him lmfao men ain't shit
#inkdeath is so hard to read because I HATE watching resa become isolated#she doesnt want to ruin her marriage by confronting mo that she knows he's lying and murdering people#(babygirl YOU would not be the one ruining your marriage if he freaked out over that conversation but ppl dont make sense)#she cant confide in meggie bc she doesnt want meggie to know mo's out endangering himself and staining his soul red#plus she knows damn well meggie takes mo's side on EVERYTHING mo can do no wrong when asked to choose between her parents#again. no matter how deranged mo is acting#cant talk to roxane bc she feels insensitive bc at least she still has a husband even tho he sucks rn#the prince is busy and doing the same thing as mo#from her perspective inkdeath is lowkey the yellow wallpaper miss girl's just going fucking insane#and the two people she should trust the most are telling/would tell her she's absolutely right to think she's crazy#actually the more i think about this the more feral i get i want to talk about how mortola's always calling resa#a mute little bird or w/e#and not just in reference to actually being mute but in being stripped of her autonomy bc birds cant sign#birds that cant sing have no way of communicating with other birds heyre trapped in isolation#and her own fucking HUSBAND treats her like that! like she's inherently incapable of taking care of herself#or speaking for herself and her children and her marriage#and he finally vaguely concedes to let her at least take the kids out of Rape Is Legal World without a fight#but he's like 'we're over if you do lol'#i sound very mean to mo all the time i think but im SO fascinated by him#i love the negative character development that cant be completely attributed to the bluejay songs#but fuck he needs to get on his knees in front of resa and beg her forgiveness idcidc he didnt do one thing to deserve her in inkdeath#sorry this is incoherent it's 4am im in migraine hell#collapsed earlier today although i think that was less the migraine and more the lights were flickering#cant sleep havent eaten extremely nauseous but yk#inkheart derangement syndrome attacks me at all hours of the day#if you see me elaborate on these tags later in a better post without mentioning that im stealing from myself do NOT call me out#inkheart#says kenna#'i want this baby to grow up with a father' - 'and i want to kill people so looks like it's a tie' afhlfsjkkfds MORTIMER
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just caught up on geats today and holy shit.
#geats spoilers#its soooo crazy#the plot is not going where i predicted but i dont even care bc the SUITS OH MY GOD#ziin and beroba are fun to watch for different reasons#side note why does every guy want a gay thing with ace. meanwhile ace only wants a gay thing with michinaga?!?! GAYBOYS ALL OF YOU#also neon oh my god if anything happens to her im turning this series around. shes worked so hard and she deserves everything#if that new weirdo guy puts a goddamn finger on her its over. LET HER BE HAPPY AND HAVE MORE YURI MOMENT WITH THE JOCK WOLFGIRL#meanwhile keiwa is such a sopping wet freak hes got the worst luck ever and he only just figured out the boost buckle#also w ace its crazy bc all he wants is information and thats the only thing they wont give him. and then when he finally gets it. uh#girl moment!
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Okay I don’t go here but at this point I gotta ask
Sasha and Grime are like? A thing? Yeah?
#amphibia#Like???#I shouldn't use main tag but I just wanna know their ship name at least#I planned on really only making this post AFTER I've watched the show#But I've seen snippets of episodes with them in it in the past and like#He like. Likes her??? Right??? Am I crazy??#Don't answer that#I also saw that spoiler clip going around of him loosing his fucking arm for her so LIKE#Oh he doesn't have an age listing this is probably something I should tag as like#Proship please interact#Proshippers please interact#and more importaintly proship PLEASE tell me their ship name#Or agree with me???#I feel like I'm falling down the Kipo/Jamack hole all over again#Teen girls and frogs man what else is there to say#This is the one that gets me killed I haven't even seen the show
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hm last night got weird
#so my friend n i got drunk watched rope then had crazy good sex right all fun and games n then we watched scott pilgrim and i was sobering#up but she kept drinking n then we start making out again and she wants me to top her n im like haha not tonight n shes like please n so im#like dude youre wasted im not n shes like im sorry n im like dont worry abt it!! n so i go to bed n i assume she goes to bed on the couch#and when i woke up this morning the pillows were replaced and everything but i found a bottle cap of the last hard cider in my fridge and#she didnt return my text even tho its 12:45pm so i have no idea where tf she went after i fell asleep oops#n were going to a play some of our friends are in tn but im worried itll be awk#even tho its totally cool its just that she was way more fucked up than me and it was a lil uncomfy#idk college sucks i want to only hang out w my relatives forever
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Oh kitten, It’s adorable the way you blush over my letters. Did you think I’d forgotten about my one and only? I’m always watching. I savour your little squeaks and squeals and the way your eyes momentarily close because you feel like you’ll explode from the love pouring from the screen.. I see..ALL of it. I hope you don’t doubt the levels of affection I hold for you. Worry not my love, I’m on my way to show you just how true my words are <33
Forever yours, your beloved, Yoomtah Zing ⚡️
WELL NOW I AM BLUSHING AND SQUEALING EVEN MORE UPON READING THIS SO I HOPE THAT MAKES U HAPPY DARLING<3<3<3<3<3333<23__33<<2<3<3PLEASE COME SMOTHER ME IN LOVE AND AFFECTION FOREVER I'LL BE WAITINGGGGGGGGGGGG<<33<3<33<3<<33<3<2<2<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<33<3<3_4<÷<÷3<<3<3<3<3
#ALSO ITS UNFORTUNATE THAT I FEEL THE NEED TO SAY THIS BUT#IF UR ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE WHO THINK THE NICKNAME KITTEN IS INHERENTLY WEIRD THEN GET OUT OF HERE ITS LITERALLY A BABY CAT -_-#ANYWAYS THE LTIERALLY.LITERALLY LITERALLY LITERALLY LITERALLY<3<3<3<3<3<3<33=&<33YOOMTAH#IM BEIG SPOILED WITH YOOMTAH CONTENT RN THANK U IM DYING /POS<3#GOD I JUST.LOVE HER SO MUCH SHE MEANS EVERYTHING TO ME OK#EVERY BIT OF ATTENTION SHE GIVES ME DRIVES ME MORE AND MORE INSANE I JUST LOVE HER THAT MUCH#AND KNOWING THAT SHE WATCHES ME GO CRAZY OVER HER AND LOVES IT JUST MAKES ME EVEN MORE INSANE#GOD IM JST<3<3<3<3==3&3<÷<&÷÷^÷&÷^÷^÷&÷^÷AAAHWHAJSJAJSJDKAJDNAHDJSJDHJSNFNSJVBSVCHBRFB YOOMIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE#LITERALLY I WILL EXPLODE I LOVE HER SO MUCH OH MY GOD#IM BEING REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY NORMAL ABT HER RIGHT NOW.SO NORMAL#LITERALLY.GOINGNTO START ROLLING AROUND ON THE FLOOR AND SCREAMING IN JOY I LOVE HER I LOVE HER I LOVE HER#EHEHEHEHEHEEEEEEEEEEE<3<3<3MY BELOVED MY DARLING MY EVERYTHINGGGGGGGGGGGGG<3<3<3#I WANNA HUG HER SOSOSOSOSOOSOSOSOSOSOSO MUCH AND KISS HER AND BEG HER TO TELL ME IM HERS.#LITERALLY.ID DO ANYTHING FOR JUST A LITTLE BIT OF LOVE FROM HER ID KILL ID DIE ID BURN DOWN ENTIRE COUNTRIES#YOOMTAH. M Y BELOVED💖💜🧡🌩💫💝🌼💗💫🍋💛⚡💞⚠️💟👩❤️💋👩💌🌻💘🌠💕🌈💋💝💌💚🧡💙💖💞💜💛💝💋🌩💕⚠️🍋✨⚡🌼❣✨🌈💓💟💓💗❤⚠️💌#SHE IS MINE AND I AM HERS AND NOTHING WILL EVER CHANGE THAT#I LOVE HER SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO MUCH
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ive gone back into full dorm mode. i need ice for my water bottle but i cant leave my room because i might encounter someone which is the worst possible scenario in the world
#anxiety spiking whenever i hear a door or voices. feeling trapped in my room. insane fear someone will know im here. etc#and im starting to plan for tomorrow. ill wake up and take a covid test.#if its negative ill go to hotel breakfast then go out and get some vegetables#if its positive i'll hunker down and see about getting my boss or uncle to bring me some vegetables and some vitamin c or something#i already have tylenol but depending on what symptoms i get i might need dayquil etc#im on the ground floor and my window opens so ill just get them to come to my window and pass it through and ill give them cash#oh yeah because i have $0.00 in my bank account! two of my aunts and my mom gave me cash so im dealing in strictly cash right now#which makes me feel conflicted bc i can feel the judgement from store clerks. but i love not being tracked#diary post#i just cant decide if its more humiliating for my boss or uncle to bring me food#maybe i'll just starve until thursday lol#ill probably ask my boss if she comes to town to swing by the grocery store and grab me some lettuce or something#she goes to town almost every day and worst case i can text her husband who passes thru 2x a day#i havent gotten any symptoms yet but mom tested positive on day 4 i think#and i have a powerful immune system (fingers crossed) so i might test positive but not have symptoms#oh and im learning c++ which is super fun actually. i used to be pretty good at html but i lost most of it over the years#ive just been watching tv and playing games and coding all day#so really not a bad day at all i just want to be with my boss :(#edited to add the paranoia is setting back in. hopefully the hallucinations and rage dont come back too#its crazy how i absorb trauma thats barely even trauma. i was like this with all my high school issues too#im just easily traumatized i guess
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Hi! Moonknightinshiningarmour is my sideblog, but I need you to know that I fully meant those tags 😭 I went to that movie as a joke, I came out doubting my entire place on the sexual spectrum and also with a massive crush on Hangman, who is absolutely not my type as I've said more than once that I despise blond men. I am having an actual crisis and all the fics I come across are only adding fuel to the fire (which yknow, thank you for ur service, its v enjoyable 🧡)
i’m screaming lmsjshw, because i only went to see the movie after i kept seeing tiktoks of miles teller, which i have stated a few times that i didn’t really like him all that much, and not to mention i have always found the mustache on men to NOT be it. and tell me why i like him better WITH the mustache than without?? he’s the only man i’ve ever liked WITH it, like it’s embarrassing. me a hypocrite because of my coochie going wild? absolutely.
and me falling for hangman was bound to happen, i love fictional assholes and cocky men so like i wasn’t that shocked when i suddenly was busting it down for him 😪 it’s tiring being a slut first and person second, truly!
us babes going through crisis gotta stick together tho <33
#like i had to watch the first film before going bcus i was clueless and i actually dragged my mom for going crazy over the og top gun#i was legit like: sis tom cruise ain’t even it the movie doesn’t even look that good#and then i watched it ONLY because i wanted to see the new one and i cried and then went and SAW the new one got soaked and cried some more#🫣 i’m literally so embarrassing and now i’m a top gun girly like my mom (except she hated the new one so we don’t stan her ok she’s insane)#and also you’re literally adorable ok tysm i’m honored to be helping your crisis out 💖#▸ laur answers
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