#and we're already at THIS level of. everything. theres so much. theres so so so much. and ive barely even Started

[ajdrawshq]

its raining :]

chapter 4 yipp e!!!!!!!

[ysaefinn]

greetings, noble valentine.

i have come to contact you about your very interesting ‘selfships’. this treasure of yours has immense potential be a source of dopamine to many residents of your kingdom, philomena (hi, again. remember me?).

to get things started, i’d like you to answer these introductory questions.

for valsugu,

#1 terrycloth

#2 netting

for valhime, (that’s right, folks.)

#1 chiffon

#2 mesh

for valtoru,

#1 marquisette

#2 tweed

that is all for now. if you’d like to extend a hand to discuss further about this amazing opportunity, feel free to reach out. looking forward to a positive response.

Dash......an anon just outed themselves...AND HATSUNE MIKU ON MY SCREEN HAIAII HII HAII HELLO HAAIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

˗ˋˏ Valesugu.ᐟ.ᐟˎˊ-

(Aka your parents)

terrycloth 𓂃 ࣪ ˖ what emotion do they bring out in you that no one else ever has? is it soft, sharp, terrifying?

So much bro...SO MUCH, romantic love in general, is just so so very foreign to me TOT I am as aromantic as they come its a blessing and a curse (<-lamb that must be held). When I say love I don't only mean a crush, I'm talking about everything that comes along, trust care, and desperation, loving Suguru as strongly as I do hits me with the semi truck realization that if we were to separate I would be absolutely distraught;v; bcuz if I am wronged I WILL leave, even if it hurts me I respect myself enough not to stay. Catching myself seriously attached to a partner would possibly cause me to distance myself, I 1000000% believe in love but what I've seen some horrors TOT in general I'm deathly afraid of being the victim lmaoo (i am the stray cat reader i write about occasionally..)

Tldr: I suffer from aromanticism, paranoia and trust issues LMAO

Netting 𓂃 ࣪ ˖ what’s a scene between you that plays out like a memory—even if it hasn’t happened yet?

The first time I threw self control out the window and sunk my evil venomous teeth in his biceps and instead of shaking me off he just...smiles....and flexes it more eyeyegeyeeeuegeuegeuegu TOTOTOTOTOTOTOT, i had this moment of "oh..you're my last boyfriend then" this hit me hard bcuz it was early relationship phase. Speaking of pre-relationship,, we sat on a rooftop late late late late at night just laughing when he initiated physicsl contact on an intimate level, and it was literally just squeezing my hand really hard and smiling so brightly, it felt really familiar, like i was already very dear to him...sniff sniff

˗ˋˏ Valehime.ᐟ.ᐟˎˊ-

(Also your parents)

chiffon 𓂃 ࣪ ˖ what unexpected thing drew you to them first?

I never thought I'd be in love with a woman who scolds me but here we fucking are TAT I'm just drawn to caring motherly people in general (say whaaaaaa??) And she was really putting people on line, a strong female presence is very attractive to me please i wanna beat satoru with you queen TAT theres also a contrast as well, she's also so cute when doing the exact same things i find admirable ;v; she'll start scolding me for being hungover and I'm still booping that nose and squishing those cheeks LMAOO again, if you're mean we ain't mingling, but goddammit it did we mingle <///3

mesh 𓂃 ࣪ ˖ when did you realize you were in love?

It's I hate the transition between fall and winter bcuz i still cannot dress appropriately for the weather. We're on the train, her arm is slung over my shoulder and her face is tucked in the side of my neck, she could very well be asleep. A moment of clarity hits, nothing I'm wearing is mine, it's all hers and it's warm and soft and smells safe and like home, by extention i belong to her as well. 🫶

˗ˋˏ Valetoru.ᐟ.ᐟˎˊ-

(Your least known parents)

marquisette 𓂃 ࣪ ˖ what part of your love feels most unfinished? not in a broken way, but in a “we’re still weaving this together” kind of way.

I love this question SO much holyyyyy. I'm a communicator but..not really, he thinks leaving things alone is the only way to go about it. And while yeah sure not everything needs to be dissected and put under a microscope, being dismissed or brushed off with a tight hug and a chuckle when I'm telling you that something you did upset me will send me to a blind rage TOT, and thinking about coming forward with something else in the future would just leave a sour taste in my mouth, and now we're strangers dating, not cute...not romantic...me no likey <//3 its a pretty vicious cycle of him being blissfully ignorant and me withdrawing back and sitting on my emotions, he can't read my mind and I'm a prideful princess who wouldn't tell him twice, and by the time hes caught on to a change in attitude I'm already distant, somebody has to step down, we take turns lol, we've had this conversation before but it takes times to rid yourself of habits that have stuck with you for years, or ones that work as coping mechanisms.

tweed 𓂃 ࣪ ˖ what’s a compliment they’ve given you that lingers in your head?

Chat he called me a siren TOTOTOTOTOTOTOTOT Val gets called tf out in real time, he clocked my shit and i thought "omg...he gets it"

[angelmichelangelo]

If you had to split the four animated show turtles into equally portioned groups of four for a crossover fic/if you were writing a special, how would you go about it?

Rules: Every group must have 1 of each turtle (one Leo, one Raph, one Donnie, and one Mikey), and they must be from different shows (one 1987, one 2003, one 2012 and one Rise).

oh! this is such a fun question! :D

ok so it terms of which turtles i'm picking, that is really tough. if we're going off of the plot i just made up in my head then i guess the following makes SOME sense so strap in because im kinda making this up as i go haha:

so for leo, i think i'm gonna have to pick rise: he's new to the whole leader thing, still finding his feet even after the krang invasion -- plus if im writing this thing, i'd like to imagine it's one of leo's portals that end them up in this situation in the first place.

for raph i'm thinking 2007: he's rough around the edges slightly older but yet very bemused by these other versions of his brothers. plus i just think 2007 raph is very cool. 2007 turts don't get enough rep so he's there!

for donnie it'd have to be 2003: he's one of my favourite donnie's and as someone who's already experienced a trans-dimensional turtle universe crossover he brings some knowledge to the table. i also would just think it would funny to see rise leo and 2003 donnie interact based on how vastly different each version of that character is.

and mikey i'm going last ronin. i have a reason for this so just sit tight lol

more under the cut because this gets REALLY long oops

in terms of plot:

so it's set after the events of the rise movie. things on earth are slowly yet surely moving forward; the city is being rebuilt, the turtles have yet another new home to make theirs. casey jr is settling in pretty well into his new family. things are looking up!

leo is still their leader and raph is more than overly proud of how far he's come since the beginning of the movie's events: he's taking things more seriously, he's working hard! to leo's brothers, things are coming back together again. it's all good!

but to leo, not so much. see leo puts on a good face and can act like he's doing better, but deeper down than just that surface level, he's not doing so hot. he's really struggling. he's going through The Works of all of his ptsd and trauma but behind closed doors, mostly because he thinks he's the only one still struggling with the effects of the previous events. casey jr like mentioned, is doing well after everything, and with everyone seemingly moving on, leo feels kind of stupid for how he feels, feeling like he's falling behind and he doesn't know why.

so that's why he's pushing himself pretty hard. trying to throw himself into training and such to 'toughen himself up'. he's maybe a little harder on his brothers as a result which brings up some tensions. im gonna focus on the leo mikey dynamic here because i love me some baja blast but also because this'll be plot relevant later. so maybe they're kicking street gang butt. and mikey is goofing around a little as he does it, mikey-ing it up like he does, and in the midst of the fight, maybe leo has a bit of a flashback, bringing on a panic attack that goes a little unnoticed, and as a result, he lashes out.

he comes down hard on mikey, shouting the odds about maybe being more careful or paying better attention all that jazz, before raph and donnie step in and are like. hey woah. theres no need for that.

leo is still having his ptsd panic attack; it's clouding his judgement and obscuring his thoughts. donnie gets defensive (because hey! they're just teens and they're not perfect at recognising their own and others emotions!) and maybe yells back and leo in his brothers defence.

leo feels like they dont get it! they dont understand what he's going through but feels too ashamed or afraid to ever voice it, so it kind of all bottles up inside and makes him angry and hurt, hence why he's kind of lashing out right now. he's just scared, above all, that he's not like his brothers and they're better at handling their issues than he is, and whether or not that makes him a worthy leader.

this all causes a big fight between him and his brothers (after their beef with the street gang is over btw) and leo goes to storm off, still subtly fighting off the panic attack and goes to portal himself home except... his swords don't take him home.

leo somehow ends up in an entirely different universe. one that feels strangely similar to the prison dimension, panic now dialled up to like a million, he's REALLY not having a good time right now, and as a result, his mystic energy kind of just, waters out and he's struggling to make a portal back home. this just makes him flail even more, and because of it, he fails to see the synjas (because we are in the last ronin verse now baby!) but is saved last second by someone pushing him out of the way.

they take cover, maybe there's a bit of a scuffle between this unknown turtle and the synjas (think SAINW moment where mikey came outta the shadows) because it is in fact 2003 donnie!

leo is completely confused because.. how?! is this donnie?? there's some brief introductions before they go to take shelter and leo is asking like a million questions because he has NO idea whats happening until donnie breaks it down to him after they find a safe place to hide it out.

see, 2003 donnie knows about alternative universes and such (SAINW + turtles through time) so i guess im kind of serving him as a bit of expositional dump here for leo, but also because i think this donnie would be a good match against leo’s panic and fear. he’s really helpful at fielding leo through his attack and gently explains that his leo back at home goes through the same stuff to which rise leo is like. oh great, we’re all pathetic. cue donnie looking sad making that :< face i love lmao. 

so after it’s established that they’re in a different universe, donnie explains that he kind of just woke up here. leo gets a feel that perhaps his mystic energy might have been at play here, so he tells a white lie and is like. oh yeah me too lol how crazy! and feels again, ashamed of himself that he might have done this to poor donnie. 

it’s shown that shredder is now ruling over the city and this is kind of… a bad timeline. donnie doesn’t give too much away but leo can tell he has… ahem. certain experiences with a similar situation but donnie assures him that as long as they stick together they’ll be fine, and if they ended up here somehow, theres probably a way back home too. 

it doesnt take long for the synjas to find them again, a hoard of them this time overpowering leo and donnie and they’re getting their asses kicked something crazy until there’s the sound of a motorbike revving and boom. in comes 2007 raph. 

he doesn’t necessarily save them but him being so badass inspires the others to push a little harder and eventually the three of them escape together. raph has the same questions as leo had, similar situation where he explains he kind of just woke up here.

donnie cant be certain what the reason is as to why they’re here, but is set on figuring it out after they deduct that donnie is, as always, their brains of the team. so whilst they find a place to hide for the night, they get talking. they come to find that with some varying differences, their lives are kind of the same in a sense. 

raph and donnie are breezing through all the shit they’ve been through, listing off The Horrors and again leo is there listening like.. well THEY seem fine! wtf is wrong with me!! and kinda closes himself off because he feels even more stupid now. UGH LEO !!

raph sees this and tries ribbing him a little like. oh classic leo move you think you’re so tough and you’re better than us yada yada just because he wants him to open up (and maybe this raph was raised on a little more tough love than the others) but it doesnt work and leo snaps at him and tensions are now rising. donnie ever the pacifist and peacemaker reminds them that if they wanna get out of this hell hole its gotta be together as a team.

that’s when it’s mentioned that technically, they don't really have a full team.

cutaway to a turtle (who could it possibly be!) standing before the city on like a hill with lightening cracking because. dramatics and whatnot.

the next day, things are still rough and leo hasn’t slept much and maybe donnie is fussing over him, but leo shrugs him off and is like. IM FINE >:( and so donnie gives him some space as the 3 of them head out to go find some info about this universe they’ve found themselves in. 

they end up finding out kind of like the base level info about the last ronin verse, wondering if maybe the turtles exist at all here since they haven’t seen any. 

leo is still brooding and stuff and still festering a bit of guilt when maybe raph is like. man i need to get home to my brothers this place sucks (he has seperation anxiety remember). and maybe donnie is having his own ptsd and leo feels even WORSE because OH. they… they are suffering just as much as he is. oops. 

and then boom they’re attacked again by synjas whom of which overpower them this time and take them to oroku hiroto (grandson of the shredder) who is like. bro what. all these turtles??

so whilst shredder jr jr tries to figure out whats happening here and whats going on, the turtles are put in captivity where leo now kind of just, has a full blown meltdown. he regretfully admits that this was all HIS fault and that he brought them here by mistake and hes just a screw up and and hes nothing like THIER leader leo and he isnt cut out for this!! 

and donnie and raph are like. WOAH!! pause. take a breath. its alright.

leo thinks theyre just being nice out of well. niceness but raph is like, you think my leo is perfect? he left us for months without a word because he was so caught up in his own head because of all the shit he went through, he aint perfect. 

and donnie is like. yeah lol same with my leo tbh.

and then does leo finally start to recognise that he’s not supposed to be perfect. he still however feels like hes miles behind from his brothers in terms with coping with his trauma and donnie is like. UM HELLO? and explains that this whole situation has been messing with his head because of HIS own trauma. raph too, with his separation anxiety, and they both explain that its not a race, and chances were, his brothers back home were probably hiding aspects of it too, like leo is because they’re all just as stupid as each other, through universes. 

leo is like. HUH. okay that makes sense lowkey so thanks but um.. aren’t we about to die :/

shredder comes and is like. yep real BUT THEN!!

enter last ronin mikey. he rocks everyones shit and donnie leo raph are just :O in awe because oh. THERES their little brother lmao

mikey manages to free the others as hiroto escapes when leo is like. where tf were YOU the entire time lmao.

mikey is like. in the shadows, duh, you guys are terrible ninjas. lmao. and now that it’s established that it was leo that brought them here, they believe its up to leo to get them home. 

so since being captured their weapons have been taken away so together they devise a plan to get them back as they run around the shredders lair. chaos and action ensue, imagine them all being very badass and helping one another as they kind of.. like face their fears and stuff that show leo that recovery isn’t perfect and linear and all that:))

there’s also a moment where mikey maybe is with leo and as they catch their breath hes like. oh yeah i overhead what you were worrying about and dude just know that you can only heal when you heal together like dont do it alone. leo then notes that if this is last ronin’s universe then why is he alone and then the penny drops and hes like… oh:(( right

last ronin mikey gives him some real wisdom about how trying to move past your traumas alone sucks, and that he personally doesnt have much of a choice, but rise leo does, much like how 2003 donnie and 2007 raph and all the other versions of the turtles DO. 

he tells him that it started with just them four and in every other universe, it ends with them too. 

cue the emotional swell of music idk lol

they get leos swords as mikey holds back the shredder and now with the power of friendship lmao leo gets his mystic energy working and with some heartfelt goodbyes, sends both donnie and raph back to their homes. leo cant hold the portal open forever and as mikey remains struggling to keep shredder away leo begs him to maybe come with him, where he can find him a better home with a better outcome. 

mikey says something like. ‘nah, kid, this is my destiny. go get your own,’ and then leo either leaves or mikey pushes him through. 

leo ends up back in the lair, stumbling through the portal to his unbothered brothers. to them, he’s maybe only been gone a couple hours. maybe they say something tongue in cheek like. “man, you took your time. what you took a detour to south america/japan to get here?” and then leo just bursts into tears.

all previous tension is GONE and they’re rushing to him like. omg what:(( whats wrong?

he breaks it down to them now that a LOT is wrong and that he was sorry but he’s not coping all that well after the invasion still and thought he could handle it on his own. 

maybe them mikey comes forward and is like. hey. we handle it together or we dont handle it at all. kind of a callback to what ronin mikey told him. cue lots of hugs and warm fuzzy feelings. and thats the end.

SO YEAH. i made this up as i went along. i dunno!! im not big into writing multiverse turtle fics but this was fun to imagine as an episode or like a mini tv movie or something:)) lmk what you thought because i just have a lot of feelings about traumatised turtles going through their shit lmao

THANKS FOR THE ASK sorry this turned into the longest thing ever lmao

[clit-eastwood-spicy]

1, 7, & 17 for the Blorbo asks plssss <3

Aaaa tyyy for the ask Lo <3

Idr if I've posted about him or not on here but like Vash from Trigun is a big one that I probably don't talk about enough. Its funny because when I first watched the og Trigun I was obsessed with Legato (I mean he hits some very specific vibes shsfdsdf) but like Vash is def husbando levels of vibes for me

7. Oh god theres so many things depending on the blorbo.. I can already feel the target on my back x'D. If we're going with Vash specifically tho I think a lot of people miss when breaking down his character is usually between how/why he acts silly as a cover, just how deep his love runs for humans and how much guilt he carries from everything thats happened / he feels to be a direct cause of and how it affects him internally. Also no one (that I've seen atleast sudfhsdf) talks about how he's like over 100 years old and has probably watched people not only grow up but grow old / die that he's likely grown incredibly attached to and how he must feel knowing eventually everything / everyone he knows will likely be gone long before he is.

17. Suffering for a blorbo is enrichment. Gotta make em bleed, cry and leave em a little broken once in awhile. As a treat. <3 (I do also enjoy giving them happy times but sometimes you gotta fuck them up a bit usdfhsdf)

[imustbenuts]

my hc about kiran's power level and how magic works in feverse

tl;dr its been growing for a while in the main story now. also: non-consensual breastmead feeding.

my hc about how power and magic works in the FEverse involving kiran is. always whirling. rn its combining a lot of what is found in FFXIV's magic system so if this sounds familiar at all then, yeah i plucked it out from there bc its the easiest to follow

so to start, i assume that magic is everything in the FEverse. its a lot like oxygen and hydrocarbon compounds, except this element as different aspects and can be freely manipulated provided there is the know-how. essentially, magic requires 2 things to work. a fuel source, and a converter.

feverse also has the concept of souls, which are often describe as "quintessence", this vague mass blorb of something related to magic in some way. it can be used for fuel, it has some inherent consciousness or autonomy to it which can be manipulated and corrupted. it is also very very potent, as some fans in the feverse have theroycrafted (shoutout to @felikatze and @ro-botany) exactly how much fuel it provides exactly

and while idk, im just going to assume a metric shitton, which isnt any proper measurement but it'll do for this post.

fuel sources

so magic is literally everywhere. as per reinhardt's quote, magic is everything. but because FE isn't particularly interested in establishing a proper explanation of a magic system and instead opts to tell stories about wars, we're left with scraps to ponder over.

but! we do understand in the FE verse that magic is inherently tied to quintessence, which functions as a life-force. its even stated that this force can be used by magic users upon ones death, so yippee

in blazing blade, nergal fucked around with this and extended his lifespan and made morhps to further harvest more quintessence by luring more dragons into his world to kill and take theirs.

in awakening, grima was awakened by sacrificing the grimleals. possibly like a lot of grimleals because grima got mega big.

in engage, lumera was able to pour her lifeforce into alear to keep them alive, and to turn them from a fell to a divine dragon.

so all in all, there is a consistency in dragons having the biggest pool of quintessence and humans having significantly lower, possibly.

if we examine the feverse with the lens of shinto buddhism, this further tracks with the order of how the universes should be as dragons are considered more gods than humans.

theres also a decent possibility that souls just dissipate back into aegir or magic after some time bc otherwise the world would be too overpopulated by souls of the dead.

converter

magic is evidently an academic thing in the feverse.

meaning, there are ways to manipulate magic in highly specific ways. i've already mentioned the soul focus aspect of it, which is considered a taboo type of magic so evidently no one really wants to fuck around with that. reasons could be that it's highly unethical, or very easy to corrupt the self, or have the spells backfire in spectacular fashions. (check nyx from fates.)

...unless they're nergal or eitri.

magic users in fe uses a tool to help with the magic casting and conversion process. due to gameplay reasons, theres 2 main aspects that goes into how effective an offensive magic can be.

1st is the talent of the user. the magic stat.

2nd is the tool of the user. the various tomes found across all fe in all worlds. magic books, basically.

in this verse, not everyone is born with the talent to use magic. some have it better than others; some are pure geniuses at it from birth while others might be outright unable to cast magic.

we have talented cases like soren who is so talented that he successfully was taught magic before he even learned to speak. (granted that sage had... issues but jfc)

and cases like ike, chrom and alfred who cant for the life of them manipulate magic decently. while ike and chrom cannot be reclassed so they use magic, in alfred's case his magic in engage is so terrible the only reason the players would reclass him would be for the cosplay

these characters go around smacking their enemies with their physical weapons. they are very good at that too, and can take physical hits like no problem. they're tough as heck too, and so for all intents and purposes are the closest to people like us. people who cant manipulate magic, and which magic doesnt exist for us.

but.... there is one caveat.

the skills, Sol and Aether exists.

for those who have only ever played FEH, Aether in mainline FE functions very similarly to Aether in the gacha game. when it activates, both skill sucks the lifeforce out of the victim to the user. Aether has the added effect of ignoring physical defense.

in effect, what these skills are would be piercing damage ignoring the laws of physics. basically, physical magic skills.

further, here's a funny thing about fire emblem growth stats: there exists no playable characters with a 0 mag growth in extreme theory. if we assume re-classing to absolutely any classes to being theoretically possible for everyone, then even characters with 0 mag growth gets a mag growth boost past 0. this is the case for certain engage characters such as jade, etie and boucheron.

in FEH, characters often get classed to just about anything that seems fun. if we run with this logic for a sec, it implies strongly that everyone in FEverse are inherently attuned to magic even if they might not be able to manipulate it.

meaning, everyone has the ability to convert magic into something, no matter how small and insignificant.

okay now time to talk about kiran. its fever dream time so if you'd like to hop off at any point going forwards feel free.

kiran's power level

its. 0. at least in the beginning

ive always operated with the idea of kiran being the most average person of 2015s and onward with enough know-how to keep their head down from the context clues of what is given in FEH. they dont complain, follow alfonse and gang everywhere and is said to be super nice from all the lv 40 confessions and look

i dont buy it. i dont buy the idea that kiran is a complete blank slate in part also bc i dont view my silent protags that way. this is true in armored core and ffxiv and a lot more.

what i think is more likely is that we are looking at someone who has been chewed up by the modern day capitalism machine. someone who went through stressful school, possibly cram school and has a knack for surviving highly irrational and stressful situations.

bc the world of FEH as the summoner is highly irrational and stressful. i mean, invasions, a whole country in the middle of lava lakes, big gods, gods coming in to mess with them and their friends, characters turned people, time loops, etc etc. thats highly irrational and stressful. just like the rubrics and stressed professors who makes no fucking sense

anyway.

the average person, at least in japan, would have little to no reason to be ready at peak combat performance, which means muscles and reflexes are going to be rock bottom. maybe some martial art classes, but i doubt these are truly enough for real combat.

they would have no experience with any weapons too, except for maybe the gun. at bare minimum, gun related games are a thing and can be found in arcades and carnivals. House of the Dead and Time Crisis are very much a thing.

further to that, our world doesn't have magic. we cant cast it, we dont believe it exists, we cant prove it does. even if we have computers.

we cannot directly covert magic into functions ourselves. the FEverse characters can.

ill also get back into their growth as a fighter in a sec, but gotta segue into....

breidablik's power upping

kiran also doesnt show themself at all to be able to manipulate magic without the aid of breidablik throughout the entirety of feh.

so much so that mage characters dont talk to them about the specifics of academic magic at all, and are instead to be offered physical training by various characters.

which means their magic ability is 0. (again, at least in the beginning)

it is only until book 3 that kiran gets the Dire Breidablik indirectly from a dead kiran of another world that things begin to change.

the reason Dire Breidablik can even cause tangible damage is because *breathes* its being powered by a whole world worth of dead souls to be able to pew pew. (life force again! yippee!)

from this point onwards, breidablik and kiran seem to receive gradual power ups as the game goes on. even their ability to summon stronger heroes and more in the form of pairs clearly increases. the mechanics of this is a big mystery but assuming powercreep is canonical, this is significant.

this can be most easily seen by the first summonable god character in the form of Duma; this doesnt happen until 2019 jan, 2 whole years after FEH's debut. duo heroes 1st came as duo halloween hector in 2019 dec.

and then we have characters commenting on how their getting stronger might be the influence of kiran. see: thor.

and more events happen throughout which seems to power up breidablik so much that now it can straight up obliterate a god responsible for a time loop. geezums.

kiran's growth... or lack thereof

but even then, physically they are still lacking compared to these heroes and soldiers whose job is to literally be physically capable to fight. i mean, to even train up to a point where they might be able to keep up running with them takes time.

in fact, the first time kiran is able to fight toe to toe with anyone is with FEH 4.0, where the uhh 55th Mjölnir's Strike happened, released back in feb of 2021. meaning this was a few chapters into book 5, so much much later after Dire Breidablik was obtained back in book 3.

i also SWEAR there was a part where Thorr appeared and said something about buffing Kiran up so they can actually fight for this game mode, but i cant find any traces of it. hope im not hallucinating it, this was 3 years ago now ugh. alas.

meaning, even with Dire Breidablik, or a Breidablik powerful enough to buff the user, Kiran is still so incapable that canonically the OP weapon cant justify them staying safe enough on the front lines. even as of book 8 kiran is always implied to be hanging behind the front lines somewhere staying as safe as they reasonably can.

evidence for this? book vi's cinematic here. check out how they are strong enough to catch a falling ash but still having their amazing shitty footwork at 0:58. (theres no footwork. kiran cant fight for shit. id like to remind you again that the heroes are very very capable fighters in their own right!)

and all of this while discounting the fact that those in FEverse might be a bit superhuman. check out this cinematic of book vii at 0:42 where alfonse launches himself to a platform behind Gullveig like goddamn spiderman

and meanwhile kiran at best just pew pews and leaps.

and with the angle so goddamn low here, that leap looks really, really pathetic. this isnt a superhero leap, its someone so nonathletic attempting to look cool distracting big snake lady but succeeding in sending themself on a trajectory face first to the ground after 1 pew.

all in all, this makes kiran terrible at fighting.

and then theres. book 8 midpoint cutscene.

with thiiiis scene.

in case you didnt catch whats going on, that lady is heidrun. what does heidrun do? WELL.

cough

!!BREASTMEAD FEEDING IN FEH CONFIRMED!!

might be non-consensual iunno. ...look i dont fucking write FEH. i just interpret the shit that appears in front of me. i dont know whats going on at intsys either. are they under attack? having a mass fever dream? snorting lines of pulverized yens? desperate to break free from the shackles of nintendo? ran out of milk? dont work for them i dont fucking know.

anyway. back on topic. this means this is yet another +1 to whatever is going on with kiran and breidablik. but to kiran specifically, and this is interesting.

bc so far, all the power they are gaining is from breidablik and breidablik alone. their body as far as i can tell, is not capable to fight or convert magic into functions in any degree on its own.

essentially they're like an alien in a mystery planet. where feverse is made of magic element compounds, they alone are the singular hydrocarbon being.

so if the mead does anything to kiran's body we might be able to see going forwards.

all thanks to breastmead. thank you heidrun. thank you feh writers. wtf am i supposed to feel about this i dont fucking know. ill just curse the person reading this. so i wrote this.

thanks for reading.

[syrupspinner]

top 10 most anticipated indie games!

in no particular order, not affiliated with any of em, etc etc

of the Devil

so, funny story. i had some fanart of this game set as my phone background when i went to get a new phone. check it out here! anyway, the cleric who only really plays ff14 looked at it and went "woah, what's that? it looks like danganronpa." and i was like. yeah buddy! sure does! then, of course, i began proselytizing, about how the game's demo did an amazing job at establishing not only the game's wonderfully directed art style, with the ui and the music and everything else working together to make a perfectly opressive cyberpunk atmosphere, but how the writing of the mystery and morgans character is so intriguing and compelling and auuuugh i wanna play this fucking game dude. i love morgans smile i hope she makes me eat a bomb

2. UNBEATABLE

so imagine muse dash, but instead of high-contrast anime girls and dubious dlc practices, it's just punk as fuck. theres nothing i can say about the game other than linking the side-story/demo and telling you to just go with the flow and dig the vibes. the soundtrack rocks hard, and the visuals are so well done. everything looks like a poster collage for a garage band youve never heard of. also the trailer for the full game showed off a graffiti mechanic and thats all i need

3. Demonschool

i talked about demonschool a lot back in my nextfest post, and my thoughts havent changed at all. im a slut for strategy rpgs, and a big reason for that is i like planning my moves in advance and seeing what the best use of all my ally's abilities are. so the game's mechanic of the shared ability meter that you use for multiple moves over one turn, plus the ability to rewind moves before committing to them, AND the high level of combo potential in everything's interactivity? pumped as hell. there was recently a dev update about how you can light yourself on fire and spread that damage to the environment with every attack if that helps sell you

4. Roman Sands RE:Build

i dont need to say shit. just look at it. LOOK at it. this is so ridiculously catered to my tastes on presentation alone that i cant even come up with a hyperbolic simile. its y2k dreamcast beach artstyle, its time loop with routing optimization, its arbitrary celestial puzzle with unexplained mechanics, its stupid gomotion noodle people, its abstract nonsense that is actively and literally hostile towards the player for trying to understand it. im gonna CUM dude

5. Sorry We're Closed

how often do you see a fixed-camera shooter about a woman with three eyes? the fucking atmosphere, man. even from the demo i can tell that a la mode knows what theyre doing. i love how there isnt like, a limit or meter on your third eye, thats something i can easily see another game doing. but the downsides of only being able to hurt enemies in range AND having to aim at their weak spots is already a good balance to encourage you to switch it up. its so deliciously frictional that you have to go in first person to attack anything, and theres a delay when you do it so youve gotta be really cautious and defensive. and oh man, the cleaver enemy! that was so tense, and so much of that was from the expert audio design that made it so unclear how close he is or where exactly he is, just that hes getting closer. im gonna lose my shit about this game when the full thing drops. fun fact: this releases tomorrow, so this is literally the last day that i can post this. oops!

6. .45 PARABELLUM BLOODHOUND

how often do you see a fixed-camera shooter about a woman with three eyes? ive never played parasite eve, which this is purported to be a spiritual successor to, but the action seems really interesting. sukeban's website explains it like this: "you move and dodge in real time while you wait for an Action bar to fill at a speed determined by character and weapon stats. Once that’s done you can then stop time and plan your offensive". that sounds stupidly fun. judging by the trailers and shit, theres gonna be a big focus on combo chains and your character having multiple attacks she can switch between, but theres not much i can really say about that until theres a demo or something.

7. YIIK: A Postmodern RPG (Update I.V)

i know an update is cheating a bit, but ackk studios considers it to be a thorough enough reimagining that it almost constitutes a sequel. if you havent played the demo then you should give it a shot. my only experience with yiik before it was secondary, through discussions and lets play compilations, and i was totally blown away. the combat was totally reworked, so instead of those repetitive and drawn-out minigames its a way more engaging system where you can use "karta" as defensive shields with passive buffs or sacrifice them for spells. its one of those things that sounds weird and complicated when you explain it, but in gameplay it just kinda clicks. it also seemed to double down on he surrealism and abstract psychological themes, which is my fucking jam. i think missed potential is the worst flaw something can have, so hearing that yiik is growing into its most flawless form is exciting as hell

8. FreeJack Online

unfortunately, i found out about this game about a month after its last online playtest. the dev's discord says they wont reopen unless they find a publisher, and theyre not sure if thats gonna happen reasonably soon. but secondhand, this game looks like a killer time. you guys know im super into this hip hop skatepunk urban style, so even if the gameplay is total shit ill still be all over the ost and character design. but this gameplay doesnt look like shit! you build up trick combos and that contributes to your speed as you parkour around and try to win races. its been a while since ive sunk myself in a competitive online game and i think thisll be what gets me back into it, someday

9. Hyper Light Breaker

yknow im kinda surprised this list hasnt been more roguelikes considering how much i play em. hlb looks like its aiming for an interesting combo of roguelike and open-world, and im really interested in how that shakes out. the combat looks like a really good transition of the speedy high-stakes fighting from hld into 3d. im really hopeful for this game, especially everything heart machine is going through with gearbox and the fanbase backlash for the delays.

10. The Hundred Line -Last Defense Academy-

im saying this counts as indie because im in denial. so, i mentioned how the phone clerk guy was a danganronpa fan, right? he played all the mainline games, and even got into zero escape looking for more (he played VLR before 999? lmao) but he had no idea what too kyo games was. never heard of Death Come True, or Akudama Drive, or World's End Club, or Rain Code, or Tribe Nine. really goes to show how much publicity matters, huh? anyway, in case you couldnt tell, i am a 'fan' of danganronpa. theres a lot you could say about it, like how the writing is juvenile and contrarian and how it consistently struggles to write unpredictable mysteries despite this and also how kodaka just fundamentally fails at writing minorities and the pacing issues and flat characters and... you get it. but its never boring. and considering they officially hired the guy who wrote the spin-off novel where kirigiri gets cloned into a houseplant, i feel like its just gonna get less boring from here

look at this shit. im along for the ride at this point

[luffythinker]

glad you like my softcore Shigs/Dabi this soft version of them i think when Shigs actually talks about what he said Dabi is gonna tell him, "yo, if you don't wanna talk about it right now we don't have to that shits personal. you say what you want when you can. Don't feel forced or some shit" and they do eventually talk about it and Shigs is so afraid what Dabi is going to say or do to him. He even tells him about the dead name stuff, he can't bring himself to say it but he writes it down and gives it to Dabi cause he tells him he never wants him to call him this name and Dabi looks at it and at Shigs, he passes him a paper turned down to the floor and he's like whats this? when he tells him what it is he burns it without looking at it and he tells him. "I already know your name, the name you told me that's all im gonna call you if it's not a stupid nickname." This tugged Shigs heart a whole lot, that another thing he fell in love about with Dabi. i bet Dabi calls Shigs butterfly and shaggy while Shigs calls him doofy and daffy cause thats so cute. They are the type of people where Shigs is sitting in a chair and he'll just go snap in front of him to get his attention off the game and Dabi will pick him up like "Hey, i wanna show you something" or he'll say that while he's coming over there and pick him up and take him to the thing he wants him to see he either made or found outside or inside the house. The league used to sleep on one mattress together until they found an abandon house they turned into their own home. It's got 0 lights so they just put up candles and other things of that sort, there are plants growing inside the house from the broken windows, theres no running water but there is a river near by, electricity is working because something mr compress did they don't question so we got TV and somebody pays for all the phone bills so the fuck with TV we got cell service Himiko and Twice watch kids shows and the mattress situation eventually they got their own beds one of them sleeps on the couch with a blanket but Dabi and Shigs just didn't part with sleeping together so they were doing it casually like actually just sleeping until they started dating without like saying it so they started to cuddle, Dabi is a huge cuddler Shigs is afraid to touch Dabi cause he doesn't want to hurt him but if he wears his gloves everything is ok that doesn't mean he isn't reflex cautious. Shigs is the plant parent he's got all the plants growing it gives him something to do and calms his nerves, stops him from itching so much and Himiko watches him do it they like to chat while he waters and talks about his plants, what kind they are and best ways to deal with whatever is wrong with them "These dont like a lot of water, this one drinks it real fucking fast" its so bonding ivndrbhfgdj Dabi picked up smoking and likes to sit in the windows and smoke ONLY WHEN HES SUPER STRESSED shigs doesn't like it and he's trying to stop he really is Twice and Dabi like to sit on the roof and have deep chats about how fucked their lifes are, you know conversations that hit "one day we're gonna die" levels of deep. Dabi and Shigs don't really kiss a lot they more just touch foreheads/noses and hold eachother, they like to feel that the other is there.

NSFW headcanons ahead>>>>> They don't have sex a lot but when they do it's a symphony of feelings, they don't switch because Dabi can't take a dick he just can't deal with it and Shigs is fine with that, they tried it didn't work (I have yet to find a bottom shigs fic and it bothers me) Dabi likes to do it sitting, whether Shigs is sitting on him or he's got him on his stomach. His favorite position is to have shig lay down on his stomach while Dabi sits behind him, or facing each-other so they can hold hands and when it's over he can collapse on him. They don't have sex they just make love. It's not usually rough or anything they just take it slow. Dabi likes to kiss his neck and Shig likes to cling to him or the bed. It's a running gag in the house that everyone thinks Dabi is the one getting it and they think it's funny.

end of NSFW stuff

Dabi cut his foot on the broken window once and when he made a groaning painful sound and said "FUCK" Shigs stoped what he was doing and came running "WHAT HAPPEN?" Shigs is kinda protective of Dabi thats really sweet. both of them probably take baths in the river together, that's cute too if they ever get water in the house they would sit in the tub together. The all usually go to the store together, Dabi likes to sit in the cart so does Himiko and Twice. Shigs is bad at cooking and Dabi is not, because Rei probably taught him or he watched her so he's really good at cooking. Himiko can make a cake in a cup in the microwave. Shigs likes to walk around barefoot Dabi didn't at first but he adapted that from him. Shigs never called Dabi his boyfriend but he called him his husband before. Dabi was all. "whoa whoa whoa, since when?" and Shigs likes to be called partner once they are out to everyone they go by he/him/they/them but he doesn't want to be called a husband. Shig sits on the counter while Dabi cooks, he probably walks up behind him in the morning and hugs him while he's cooking swaying and sleepy. They all watch the moon together at night but sometimes Dabi and Shig just watch it from their bed cause they have a balcony in their room and the glass from the sliding door is broken and you can see it even if you close it. i keep saying this but they so love holding eachother and just living, existing together.

I want more them doing normal things and living lifes. they are eachothers safe place.

okay so... hi! i'm so sorry for taking so long to reply, my work was crazy, then i went to Rio and then i went straight back to work and today i have a couple of hours in between shifts so let's get into this <3

I love the concept of Dabi burning the paper with shigs' dead name on it without even looking at it, it's so on brand for him to do that

it's so hard for me to picture them cuddling but somehow it makes sense ?? i can see them having an aki-angel dynamic (headcanons) where one wants to touch without care and the other needs to be careful so he doesn't accidentally kill his boyfriendkjdfjfd

shigaraki being into plants just make sense, i think he would like the feeling of taking care of living things and knowing that he is capable of creation and just destruction (he wouldn't really admit that tho, but i know he feels like this sometimes)

nsfw headcanons >>>>>

it's nice you touched on this topic bc in my head they're both in the ace spectrum, like sex just isn't something either of them craves it that much or want to have all the time, they both want intimacy and sex is a means to that, but there are other ways, especially since touch is so complicated for them, i think exploring these would feel better to them than just sex. it's a shame there's not many fics of bottom shigaraki, because i think it suits him a lot better than just being the top. i don't think they would just make love tho? they're both pretty crazy and fucked up so i think they would love to explore a bunch of stuff too (or maybe it's just me projecting cause having a fire quirk and not using it for something seems like such a waste lmao), not even pain related but a lot of sensation play? maybe with cold, warm, wax, blindfolds, cuffing, fear play (like imagine playing with the fear of shigs quirk, 4 fingers wrapped around dabi and the danger that just one more would have them GONE) [maybe I'm just crazy idk] what do you think about this?

end of nsfw stuff

i love the idea of protective shiggy, i can see shigaraki hating endeavor's guts for all the things he did to dabi; also i loved the random info that himiko can make microwave cake, she's just like me fr

i think it's so special being each other's safe haven in such a chaotic universe and way of living, i know they want to burn the world but i think sometimes they wonder if they could ever just settle down sometime and enjoy existence together

[some-stars]

a whole lot of people in the comments seem to think that there's an impermeable forcefield around their home, and will be very upset to learn just how much fecal bacteria there is on every surface in their living space at all times no matter what they do. sorry to be the one to break this to y'all but the barrier between "inside" and "outside" is more psychological than material!

obviously it's good to wash your hands more often than the average person probably does. i wash mine more frequently since 2020 than i did before--previously it was before cooking/eating and post-bathroom plus anytime something got on them; now it's also when coming home from anywhere medical or crowded high-touch settings like public transit or concerts or handling cash (interestingly this has had zero impact on how often i get sick, which was and remains "virtually never"). however, it is literally impossible to shame people into adopting a new behavior, because that's not how the human/ape brain works. you can shame someone out of doing something bad, but not into doing something good. sorry! you just can't! i know it feels so nice to yell and throw things but it accomplishes the opposite of what you want!

also, here is a sampling of tags on this post that are not thought patterns anyone should be encouraging, and if you find yourself thinking/feeling this way (when you aren't actually medically immunocompromised or living with someone who is, in which case these thoughts still aren't great for you emotionally but at least serve a real function) then you should be concerned:

#i feel so unclean if i don't do it immediately

#does no one else feel like u physically have germs on u when u touch stuff out in public#i come home from shopping and im like ewww eww eww my hands

#any time i leave the house it feels like theres an invisible layer of filth that covers me and gets worse the longer im out

#everything is dirty

#it's like I can feel how my hands are unclean when coming back from outside

#sanitize my hands everytime i'm outside because the world is FILTHY goddamn it

#like you really don’t feel nasty covered in all those outside germs??

further points:

"you all deserve to get covid and die/this is why covid is so bad” COVID is, quite famously, airborne! this reaction tells me that y'all are not logically assessing risks but instead are reacting to the vague horrifying concept of "the Bad Outside World is unbearably filthy and i must preserve my safe clean sanctum", which is not a great starting point for making public policy.

if someone washes their hands before eating, after using the bathroom, when showering, and any time they actually feel or look dirty, we're already at 8-10+ times a day. reacting with violent performative disgust to "i don't wash my hands whenever i return home from outside" as though it was "i never wash my hands ever" is another sign of where these reactions are coming from (not the thinking brain), because that is not what anyone actually voted for!

baffling to me how many people are assuming that everyone is taught as a child to wash their hands every time they come in from outside, because i wasn't and most people i know don't do that (or didn't pre-pandemic). as usual, Your Experiences Are Not Universal.

COVID trauma is very real and understandable, but this level of utter vitriol and loathing for people who don't feel viscerally contaminated when they step outside is just not reflective of reality, and it's certainly not useful for you or anyone else.

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[sepiasys]

I keep forgetting to do/post/say it but OML. Was volunteering, rite? And its labeling bags.

Theres apparently a total of 4 of us who have this role, met someone else this time and the one who was with us last time had a vet emergency so wasn't there.

I kid you not that I was lowkey seething because this dude was. I mean he was efficient in putting labels on bags. But also. I just.

Some of the bags aren't fixed up, they're not bagged correctly, essentially. Some people ig dont know how to actually bag the bags properly.

I took like 3x as long to label because I spent time caring about the quality of the bags and fixing them for the people who would put stuff in them later on. The thoughts I had were primarily that "this dude is efficient, it's admirable, but he also just skips over making sure the bags are fine, which pisses me off because I make sure they're fine. Ig I just care too much about the quality of them, about making the work easier for the people who have to fill the bags. I mean, would you want to have to reach in and open the bags and fix them yourself before putting food in? Some of these are still glued together and have to be separated because, again, the person or people who've BEEN bagging them has been doing a piss poor job. I don't hate doing this, I like doing quality assurance on the bags, I just hate being the only one doing it. If he could, I bet he'd complain that I'm really slow, that he gets through them haphazardly at a faster rate, I'M slowing HIM down. If this was a paid job and he could, he'd try and ask for a raise because he gets more done than I do. But I make sure there's a standard of quality for the work I do. We just work differently, two different ways that, if it came down to it, we could not compromise on effectively without the other having to"

Actually I mean I could fix bags and he could label but then why am I even there for a "labeling" role if I'm not doing that 😑

Whatever.

I was just seething quietly.

I also got to the place early so I felt like I'd already taken too long of a break before everything, so whenever I snagged a lil treat between putting away bins, I felt like he'd judge me for having it when I perceivably must not be doing as much as him.

So yeah I think that this is proof I actually do care more about how I'm perceived than I think even though I also dont really give a fuck what ppl think because I'm going to do what I need to/want to. Idk it's. It's a status thing(?). If I perceive you as a normal stranger, I'll be like. Polite. But I wont rlly give a fuck. If we're working together, I expect EVERYONE to be judging my quality of work, my performance. Even if they're equal or on the same level of the corporate hierarchy, because ppl can and will still sabotage you at that level.

And I simultaneously feel I need to meet the performance expected of me, while also doing it my own way because I'm not changing myself for you??? Like if I'm doing fine, fuck you for criticizing me!

Lowkey also if I notice something seems more efficient or easier, I will want to do it even if it hasn't been suggested to me. But I don't want to seem like a copycat, I'm special! (Ik that sounds weird but like it fits naturally in the sentence 😔) So I have to make it natural in a way of experimenting, because when in doubt, a curious nature will save me from any accusations. I'm genuinely curious, but I also need to PERFORM it in a way that like. Can express it effectively to ppl around me? So that I am perceived that way. Even though I can't know for sure how others perceive me.

I know I could ask for tips and I shouldve when it was early enough in the shift but I didnt and it was too late to do it to make myself appear. Actually I could appear two ways: someone who wants to grow/be better, and someone incompetent who needs help.

UGH why is this stuff so fucking dumb and stupid and annoying, why can't you just see me how I want to be seen and treat me how I want to be treated? Why can I just be handed kindness/support without these lofty expectations that can mean it gets taken away at any moment, that if I dont MEET expectations, it's cause to leave me behind?

I know this is a disorder thing. Maybe. I SWEAR IT IS. Or traits. But like. I can't help it. I actually never recognized it as what it is until I did more research into BPD and NPD. Because that stuff helped me find words to describe experiences I didn't know I had, which I only know now because I read that those experiences EXIST to begin with!

[corrodedcoughin]

Hi dear

Idea

Eddie and Steve secretly dating and actually managing to pull it off (except for Robin who was never gona not know) until Steve let's it slip that he has a date and it's their 2 month anniversary and the kids snap into gear and call an emergency meeting dragging the older kids into it as well except for Steve because " they've been dating two month we need to make sure she knows how important Steve is so we're going to organize our shovel talk" and we'll these children are very creative and Nancy is terrifying with her shotgun. Robin takes great amusement in watching eddie get progressively paler

Then the kids (dustin) confront Steve about it and he agrees that the party can meet his partner if they agree to it.

Eddie agrees despite his fear. And the party is shocked expect Robin who's laughing her ass off

Dustin goes " Great we don't even have to plan a shovel talk you already heard what will happen if you break his heart"

I just think it would be funny

Hopefully you get this one my asks haven't been sending

-✏️

Hello hello!

Of COURSE Robin was going to know, theres no way Steve can keep a secret from her and if he DID he’d crumble as soon as she got suspicious and confess everything to her while they have a ‘wine night’ (steve is a chardonnay robin in a sauvignon blanc)

Organised shovel talk’ I love it!!!! They’d be so ferocious about it!!! All of them wanting to be the most threatening and only Max and Nancy are able to pull it off. Max would just stare daggers and that would be enough. Dustin and Lucas would try to come up with convoluted plans but they get more unbelievable as they get more imaginative. Mike not saying anything but Eddie sees him nod when Nancy is talking. But the most fiery is Erica, Erica takes no prisoners, she doesn’t say what she’d do but her and Steve? They are on the same level, they have their cutting statements with no filter, one toe out of line and Erica is taking NAMES.

Eddie’s sweat patches are obscene by the end and tries not to nervous laugh. He thought it would be funny, heart warming almost, to see everyone put out their love for Steve. Except now he’s scared because what if he does fuck up? What if he does hurt steve? He’ll lose Steve AND everyone he’s grown to love. Don’t get him wrong he’ll still have his corroded coffin boys but he doesn’t want to take away from his life now that it’s been enriched this much. Doesn’t know if he can face the thought of not being surrounded by all these people. If he thought he was determined to never hurt Steve before he’s resolute about it now.

The big reveal happens and it’s funny, it’s shocking, it’s well received and everyone carries on like nothing happened. Except Eddies doesn’t stop worrying, it’s always in the back of his head, on edge that he’s going to break Steve’s heart and it’ll be the end of both of them.

Steve knows something is up with his boyfriend. He’s been treating him like he’s made of porcelain and that just isn’t like him. Eddie is loud and excitable and intense and impossible to keep contained, he shouldn’t be wary of his movements, second guessing himself at every turn.

Steve and Eddie are making out on the couch, finding time between their ridiculous schedules of school, work, practice and countless other obligations. It’s good, don’t get steve wrong, but it’s not Eddie. It’s careful and Eddie is barely touching him, almost like he’s scared he’ll crush steve. If he isn’t kissing steve like a virginal princess he’s looking at him with haunted eyes and skittering around him like a kicked puppy. Steve can’t take it any more, it’s not Him. So he decides to push back.

It starts with actually pushing Eddie, they are at Steve’s house and he tries to play fight, jump on Eddie, just anything really but eddie just goes with it. No fight back, acquiesces to Steve’s demands. So the next thing he tries is winding eddie up, making clearly wrong statements about black Sabbath, dio, iron maiden, DND, lord of the rings, ANYTHING. But Eddie just keeps quiet and changes the subject. Its infuriating, its like the light in him has gone out.

When they are making out he tries Eddie’s old tricks, tries biting, rough but gentle hands, backing up against walls but there’s no consequences and Steve misses it. He misses it, Eddie, so much that he lets Eddie go with a sigh and stalks off to the kitchen. Eddie follow behind, terrified now that his worst nightmare has happened, he’s upset Steve, he’s disappointed him, he’s hurt him. He doesn’t know how to ask, tries to, but before he can get a word out Steve is talking

‘Have I done something? Or not done something? Is this you trying to get me uninterested so that I break up with you because you are too scared to break up with me? Oh poor steve, can’t let him get dumped again. I know, I’ll let him do it, let him keep some dignity. Well you know what Eddie? That’s fucking shit. Just do it and be over with it.’

Eddie is floundering, mouth open and speechless, he watches Steve turn his back to him, raise his hands up to his face, clearly wiping tears away and that’s it. Eddie can’t hold back any more, he has tried to keep steve safe and in the process has only made things worse. He listened to his stupid brain when he should have listened to his heart.

‘No, no fuck this. No. Nope!’ He’s up close to Steve now and turns him around, keeps his hands on his shoulders and searches in Steve’s eyes. Tear filled eyes because of Eddie, because Eddie got scared.

‘Steve, listen, I fucked up. I did. I’m not leaving you, I’m never leaving you. I got too in my head. Too in my own fucking head! Can you believe that? Honestly though you should have heard them, dude they started talking about you and what they’d do for you, what they’d do to anyone who hurt you. And it wasn’t that. Nah, only Nance red and Applejack were serious but man, it fucked with my head! What if I did hurt you? You’ think I could deal with that? And of course it would be my fault! You think I don’t know that? But hearing it? Fuck!’

Steve watches as Eddie rambles on with a vice like grip on his shoulders, eyes searching all over Steve’s face then dotting around the room. He just wants them to be okay. If he has nothing else, he wants them to make it. He wants last with Eddie, can’t see his future any other way. Steve is trying to piece together what exactly Eddie means when he finally gets it and there it is. There’s the reason Eddie wasn’t Eddie anymore. He does the only thing he can think of, puts his hands on either side of eddies face and pulls him in for a quick kiss on the lips and then smooshes his face so he can’t talk anymore

‘Eddie, shut up. You acting like this hurt me, not you being you. Just be you and we’ll be good, I swear. IF and I mean IF something happens then we talk about it. Like people, y’know? Come on man, at least let me try to be in a healthy relationship?’ He sniffs, remanats of his crying evident in his voice, thick with emotion, but theres a smile on his face, a hope of a laugh wanting to come out if Eddie will let it.

Eddie, with his face squashed between Steve’s hands, nods. He grabs Steve’s hands and kisses his palms before pulling him in close to kiss him like he used to, like he wants to, the way Steve has missed for too long.

Steve pulls back minimally, just enough to huff out

‘so, bunch of kids scared you shitless and forced you into a breakdown, Munson? Expected more of a cult leader’

Eddie peppers kisses over Steve’s face

‘not a bunch of kids sweetheart, you know applejack is the only one with murder in her heart.’

Steve laughs and rests his forehead against Eddies, happy to be back in familiar territory

[little-bitty-froggy]

Cg(s)- Eddie Dear+Frank Frankly

Little(s) - Julie Joyful

Age- 5

It was a nice spring earning and Julie, Eddie, and Frank were outside in a nice flowery field catching or just watching bugs.

Frank and Eddie don't really get much time together due to Eddie being a mail man so they thought this would be the perfect time to hang out together. On the way there they met Julie skipping around and being her usual self. “HAY JULIE”. Eddie yelled crossing the street. “Hm”? Julie turned around to see her best friend Frank and his boyfriend. “Hiya fellas, whatcha doing”? “Oh, we're just going down to the flower field to look at some bugs and to catch up on things”. Frank said with a smile holding a small leather bag that he carries around for his books and notes. “OOOOO~ that sounds like a lata fun. Can I tag along”? “Sure why not”. Eddie giggled turning to his boyfriend. “Is that ok with you hun”? “Sure I don't see why not.” “YAAAAY~”!!! Julie jumped with joy as she ran over the boys.

—Time skip cause i’m too lazy——

They had made it to a big field of flowers of all different kinds, peonies, tulips, windflowers little rose bushes on the sides, etc. There were many different bugs to look at. Butterflies, bees, Beatles, spiders, etc.

Julie giggled as she ran threw the flower patches. “Guys look, these ones are orange and yellow too, just like my horns”. She said pointing at the tulips and then right back to her horns.

“It sure does”. Eddie gasped. “FRANK LOOK, this one's orange”. Eddie pointed to an orange and black butterfly. “Ooooo~ that's a mark butterfly”. Frank said looking very happy to be talking about his interests.

Meanwhile, Julie was in her own little world chasing the bugs and nationally falling over the ruts of an occasional tree here and there.

“Oof, dat one really hurt”. She quickly put her hands on her mouth and looked over at frank and Eddie laughing at each other in the distance. “Thank god they didn’t here dat”. She groaned (“i cant regress now, I’m with my friends right now. Ooo- but what will they say if they find out”). Everything was flooding her head till she started spacing out.

“Julie”? “Hay Juuuulieeeee, you ok”. “Hu, oh ya m fine”. Julie said trying not to sound so kiddish even thought thats her hole personality but today she was a little off. Her voice was a tad bit higher and she kinda slurred her words. “You sure cause we’ve been calling you for like two minutes now”? Frank sounded a bit worried. “Mhm, m fine, ima be ight back”. Julie then got up and started walking. She didn’t know where she was going, she just new she wanted to get away from the couple.

“Oof”. “Owy, owy, owy”! Julie cries, slowly turning into sobs. “JULIE”!!The boys cried out. “Are you ok”. Eddie says running over to the mentally younger. Julie is still sobbing uncontrollably. “Shh shh, hay everything’s gunna to be ok”. “M-m-m-m sowry”. Her sobs slowly turned into soft cries. “Theres no reason to be sorry, you just had a little accident, your ok, hehe”. Eddie reassures her. “M- what do you want me to do ki—oooh hehe”. Julie looks over at frank making grabby hands towards him. Frank gets down to her level.”are you little right now”. “Mhm” she blushes hiding her face from the two mentally older boys. ”Why didn’t you tell us”. “Cause is didn wan you to e weiwded out. I didn wan you to stwap bein m fwend”. Julie started to tear up. “I don’t know if you know this already but”. Julie looks up at Eddie. Eddie takes out a small stuffed bear and an orange,yellow,blue pacifier. “Im an age regressor too. Well a flip”. “Same here, and when where both small Howdy comes and takes care of us”. The two mentally boys looked over at Julie as she’s giggling ind stimming.

“Now, can we go catch buofwies”.

“Yes, yes, we can”.

Im so sorry that it took me so long.school has been tough cause i had a bunch of tests, but tysm for the request this was a lot of fun to make, especially with some of my headcanons.:)

[lillytalons]

AHHHHHHHHHHH

ok I was busy cooking and i couldn't stop to type out thoughts while dealing with raw chicken so there's gonna be a slightly out of order thought dump on what I think is the climax, but theres about 2 hours left so, I'm probably wrong. Whatever, they got the tower back!

Ok first of all, NAVANI, QUEEN! I'm beyond pumped that she bonded the sibling, who better? The way she already understood so much about the tower and the sibling was actually excited about her understanding so much, i hope they get to be nerdy little inventors together. Her just taking charge and cleansing the tower was amazing.

I freaking hate Moash except that I don't and his story is really tragic. Like he is making bad decisions but his ability to feel has been ripped away which doesn't help. Though the crap about not really regreting teft's death is stupid. I think it's really interesting that he's blind and i'm curious if we'll have a permanently disabled character at this point. Like I love people regrowing limbs cause it's cool but also, not everyone has stormlight you know? disability isn't always inherently something to fix.

Stormfather and Dalinar are making strides and I love that for them, Dalinar does need to learn to work within his bounds and not wreck the stormfather again though. Whatever that crazy herald is doing was spooky and interesting and i want to know more. Plus, leveled up bondsmith powers? Yes. I understand all the half spoilers of Tien maybe being alive though, cause what the freak was that??? Dude what? Maybe he fell into shademar or something? Idk but nothing is a mistake in these and that was a pretty big deal so it better get addressed.

OH and ODIUM. Ok dalinar seemed to do the best he could with the deal so props for that, it's concerning that it's so soon, so either that's happening this book, or, next book is gonna start out sprinting.

Odium is so full of himself though and it's hilarious, like he's super deadly but also, i want to laugh in his face for how much attention he wants. And he's so sure theres gonna be a war, I'm not convinced. So far, all the shards are just doing their own thing. (except ruin but he's fine now)

Rlain, he's spoken for!!! Yes you deserve it, love! I can't believe Renarin sent a spren to him, adorable, but also, can they have a conversation? Is that all we're getting? Oh and him taking charge? YES. Bridge 4!

OKKKK KALADIN

It took him a while to get to the 4th ideal, and I get why it took so long, but HE DID IT. And him and syl worked together!!! 💛💛💛 And he saved his dad!! and even his brands are healing because he's finally accepting that he's doing his best! (it's actually accurate to draw him without his brands but i only see some-generally modern au- and i feel like it's out of respect for no spoilers and also the top tier character design but we do need some kaladins without brands i guess) Also, I get how teft summoned his blade a little, i thought it was determination but it was him coming to the 4th ideal without time to speak it, or pretty close.

His shard plate just zipping around is sick, and it being made of wind spren is so interesting! Like what is Jasnah's made out of? Wind and honor are close but i can't see Ink being chill with wind spren. I know Jasnah is cool and I appreciate her fighting, but she's not made for sword and plate like Kaladin is, he just bleeds cool, and epic, and AHHHHHHH

Is that everything?

Oh and Lirin finally accepting his son (before being saved from the fall) was great, I support supportive families.

And the triage that bridge 4 automatically goes into is great, Kal trained them well, no wonder they're generally honor radiants. Though Rlain being a truthwatcher, with a protective spren, is also great and that means he'll be able to heal! even better.

ok I'm done, until I start listening again.

Part 5!

‘He’d be haunting me of course’ 😆

Hesina is throwing down and she’s so right! Also again, if Kaladin was disavowing his parents, he wouldn’t have been spending time with them and care about what they thought. He was just trying to communicate how much war changed him.

Hesinas interlude is the best one hands down. Kaladin is helping people even when he can’t be right there 🥺

[syrupspinner]

my 2025 backlog

im mostly making this as a statement to myself. theres a lot of games i wanna play and i just keep ending up with new ones and bumping things i wanna finish back and fuuuuuuuck why are there so many cool games. anyone who says games arent fun anymore is a moron im drowning in this shit

so these are going to be listed in the order i wanna play em/get back to em, when i complete something higher on the list i move down. probably. ill see how im feeling, this is me planning like months in advance

slay the princess

i got this game for christmas and like, holy shit. sincerely life changing, a must-play. its one of those "i cant tell you shit" kinda games where you get the intended experience knowing as little as possible going in. all ill say is that the character of the princess is such a joy to interact with and seeing how things evolve and react to your actions is unspeakably engaging. my favorite chapter is The Princess and The Dragon so far but im only on my second playthough so who knows what my favorite will be by the end. id usually be daunted by 130 steam achievements but given how fucking spectacular everything is all i feel is excitement

yiik: i.v

im like... 2/3 through this game? i havent met essentia but im about to. im really interested in this game, its so... meaty, yknow? theres just so much to appreciate and talk about, considering what the authors intended and how that plays out. i mean that as a sincere compliment by the way, the worst thing art can be is boring, after all.

like, ive got a draft where i talk about my thoughts on the postmodern elements and their execution and the fan reaction and its one of my longest posts, and i havent even like, finished the game or played the more controversial parts.

the other day i mixed together oversteeped raspberry tea (warm) and cheap cream soda. i cant tell if it was good or bad but it was fucking intriguing. yiik is like that but if it was also unironically good

sorry we're closed

i fuckingf love colour!!! fuck yeah art direction!!!

pretty sure i found this either on steamdb or nextfest. i was like "this looks exactly like the trippy neon bullshit that my ass would be into" and i was right because im a predictable bitch.

im gonna talk about it more when i make a dedicated post (i feel like im gonna say that a lot) but i got like 1/3 into the first level and im already in love with the mechanics. the third eye is such a fucking cool way of introducing risk/reward and being able to tailor your approach to your playstyle moment-to-moment. and the thing that follows you around? genuinely terrifying shit. if it werent for the princess's sincere self-rattling and how close i am to beating yiik this would be all the way up top

whos lila

i wanna space out how soon i play this after slay the princess, mostly because im definitely gonna 100% the latter and im probably gonna be burned out on monochromatic branching narratives. but this still looks so interesting! i tried a VN called root double a while back, and instead of making a/b decisions, you manually control relationship values and those values determine what the main character decides to do. from what i can tell, this game is the same, but instead of relationships you have to manually control your facial expressions. by like, clicking and dragging your cheeks to make a smile

this is a mystery story so ive been deliberately avoiding learning more about it. this is off of word of mouth and vibes exclusively and i cant wait to see what the fuck this games deal is

dread delusion

i love surreal retro bullshit

disillusion

i LOVE surreal retro bullshit.

demon turf

ive been wanting to play this game since i phased out of it back in. uh. october? okay that wasnt as long ago as i figured (update: this has been rotting in my drafts for a few months. so that is a long ass time ago now). sorry but as an aside, now that im transitioning time moves so fucking slow /pos. ive had years that felt shorter than the last few months, fuck

anyway. this game fucking rocks. i love the movement and the music and the presentation it all rocks. i feel really bad that its been pushed so far back because im like halfway through the main campaign but like, ive got things i wanna finish and things i really wanna start and ugghhh

i also wanna give inertial drift some focus. im tired so im not gonna get the banner for this one but it looks like a cool stylish racing game.

does it ever fuck you up how much wonderful things are in the world? i fucking love video games, and if i did nothing but play video games 24 hours a day for the rest of my life, i would never experience everything that makes this medium wonderful. it feels like it'll take years for me to catch up with all the great games that came out in 2024. antonblast and atlyss and dungeon clawler and threshold and fear the spotlight and anthology of a killer and pinball spire and psilosybil and ufo 50 and plucky squire and judero and starstruck hands of time. im going through my wishlist ordered by release date and ive made it through three months of releases. i fucking love video games

[blueeandyellowmakesgreen]

uno reverse carding you 🍓

oh yvie you got a big storm coming

my ride or die, my bestie, my platonic soulmate, my absolute everything my priority in life

you were quite Literally there at my best and my.. worst, *cough* and i couldnt trust anyone else fr. you're literally one of my best friends and i just appreciate the fact it didnt take a LOT to make me say that, because your presence is so comforting and reassuring and you're just overall so fun to be around and im so glad i got to meet you i will forever cherish you <33333

you're sweet, HILARIOUS, based, and overall so wonderful!! its so funny how i was intimidated by you because you seemed so cool but now knowing you in a depeer level you have the threat level of a flattened gummy bear and i love you even more for it <33 and do not . DO NOT get me started on your art i drool and my jaw drops fr whenever you send it to me i feel like a literal VIP when you send me your stuff and it means even more that you value my opinion!!! and i just love how i see you somehow getting better and better by the day and theres not a word i already said that depicts how much love and personality your art exudes

idk yvie you're just so amazing. EVERYTHING about you is amazing. im so happy we're close. i love you <3

[cuddlecave]

is xiphoid

oh I love gord gets abandoned at the base and benr has to trek them back to some sort of civilization.

like imagine gord has been healed by benr and maybe has talked to him about a plan? but then suddenly something happens and everything goes to shit and somehow gord is left behind in a now-defunct and *powerless* base, and everything is getting very cold, very fast.

benr, who got separated and turned around in the whirlwind, maybe temporarily driven off by fire that has now died, is now wandering through the empty base trying to figure out 'what now?' and then he hears teeth chattering.

he finds gord curled up in the storage area under as many blankets as he could find. supplies were scattered everywhere--it was clear he'd been looking for something to start a fire but had realized that everything that could had already been used to fight benr and when the others escaped the base. his tears are frozen to his face and he's pretty much resigned to dying, just kinda hoping it won't hurt too much to freeze to death.

benr, in a somewhat dog-like form but bigger, much much bigger, and with front paws that are almost hand-shaped with thumbs, approaches gord making a low, soft sound, causing gord to look up at the Clearly-the-Thing. his face falls. he's no use to this creature if he can't help it leave or escape--guess he's not gonna freeze, he's gonna be assimilated. He ducks his head and closes his eyes and hopes it won't hurt.

benr worries at seeing gord flinch from him, clearly scared but resigned. he gets closer and and settles curled around him, trying to trap what little warmth there is further. he lets his fur get thicker and fluffier, his overlong tail wrapping around them both.

it's not killing him. it's not even touched his skin, just curled around him securely over the blankets. that's...huh. well, it's not like he's got much to lose at this point. 'are you going to kill me?'

benr whines and hugs tighter, and there's a few moments of strange noise as benr shifts a not-quite human face able to talk. 'what? no. we're friends, best friends. won't hurt you.' he sings out some friendly green to emphasize his point.

'oh. that's nice, I guess.' he sighs, and it hurts to breathe with how cold it is. 'but I guess it wouldn't matter if you did. colds going to kill me anyway.'

'...I could keep you warm.'

gord snorts, and fuck, that hurt his face. well, in the parts of it he could still feel, anyway. 'even if you could, we'll run out of food. and there's no way we could make it back to *anywhere* on foot and survive. well, maybe you could, but I'd freeze faster than I am now.'

they sit in silence for a few minutes. gords shivering is dying down, and they both know that that's not good.

benr speaks, again. 'i could get us back. both of us.'

'*how*?'

'could, uh. store you inside me. could keep the warmth that way, could travel out in the cold.'

'...are you saying you want to *eat* me?'

'not for keeps. would be safe. wouldn't put you where the food goes.' he pauses. 'come on. let best friend benr help.'

gord considers. that honestly sounds horrifying, but right now the other options he has are 1)freeze to death, 2)cuddle benr and starve to death, or 3) try to travel and freeze to death. not great options. of course, benr might just kill him, but he already saved him once, so maybe...?

'alright.'

'alright? uh, yes? space heater benr time?'

'yeah, let's do it.'

'pog.' and he shifts his face to be more dog-like, matching his body more, and moves in front of gord. gord shivers at the loss of heat. he takes his paw-hands and unwraps the blankets, leaving a shuddering gord half curled on himself, trying to retain heat. benr tugs at the bulky jacket, and gord gets the idea and takes it off with shaking limbs, and pulls his boots off, as well. he looks up at benr.

benr tilts his head. /ready?/

gord nods.

benr settles, and brings his paws around gord, gently lifting him up to be level with his face. he opens his jaws far too wide to be natural, and settles his muzzle around gords head and shoulders. despite himself, gord relaxes into it.

it's so warm.

benr carefully guides the unresisting human down his throat and into the not-stomach he made, and lays still as gord gets his bearings and curls up to be as comfy as he can, squirming a little in the pouch. benr lets out a pleased rumble. he softy taps at gords form and makes an inquiring noise.

'yeah, I'm ok.' he sounds tired. he's going to fall asleep soon, but before then...'theres-theres maps. in the control room. you can find the nearest place there...' he trails off as benr makes a confirmation sound around him. 'alright. gonna sleep now.'

benr feels him drift off. if he's going to travel with gord, he needs to adjust his form some. he grows another pair of limbs for support, then thickens the layers of fat surrounding the pouch. he makes the skin a little stiffer and more supportive, and thickens his fur more, and lastly widens his paws to be easier to move on snow.

he gets up carefully, as to not wake gord, and looks at the maps.

that's a long way to travel. he'd better get started.

GOOD VERY GOOD. and reminds me of the "whole team noms" idea i'd had before (but never planned on doing anything with it). p sure i've talked about it on here before, but basically it's post-mesa and benb redemption and for one reason or another the whole team is needing to go to some town in a real cold/snowy place. their transportation crashes and they're all out cold (figuratively and literally) except for benb, who realizes that the rest of the team is gonna freeze to death if he doesn't do something, especially since a big storm is coming in quick. he shape-shifts into a critter covered in thick insulating fur and that's big enough to carry the other four (five if potion man is there) inside of him. then he goes to find a place to wait out the worst part of the storm, and will get back to heading to their destination once that's over. and of course at one point the team all wake up and freak out a lil oops. thankfully not enough to like, do some serious damage to benb's insides, though :B

[notmanagingmymischief]

my dear beloved bex i literally cant take the amount of nice and sweet things you are able to say in one single phrase about me sjxnsjxshs i just sit smiling like an idiot for longer than should be actually reasonable while reading that :") /gen

i also find it quite amusing at how we can just begin to easily gravitate towards each other's interests haha but i would honestly trade that for nothing else, really. being able to talk about the things i like that seem to mean so much to you as well, specially at the prime of when thoughts come to surge through more easily is a great feeling, and to see you share such amazing thoughts as well makes me genuinely happy !!

and god, i love everything about this story already snsjxhsxs the way you can just smoothly transition between actions and detailing of the enviroment, atmosphere and the characters' own feelings always manages to get to me in such profound way ?? everything about the way you write makes me wish to read more and more about the things you produce <3 you have the most beatiful brain ever, my dear

also theres no need to talk about its lengths haha i always find myself admiring at how you are able to transcribe such complex threads of thought into actual words and beautifully constructed sentences, and i would be lying if i said i didnt enjoy reading such works lol

literally just me out here wishing i had this much talent smh /hj /lh

hhhhh

so many things to say omfg

firstly--i will give you as many compliments as it takes for you to finally believe them my amazing gorgeous Cinnamon 🥺😌💚💚💚

OH before I forget since we're on the topic of names don't ask about my thought processes trust me it doesn't make any sense to me either I've chosen names!!!! And!!!! I'm very excited for you to be (one of) the first to actively know about them! I've been really feeling Caspian lately idk why ytnhbgrvfcd but I've also got Apollo, Clover, Kai, and Celeste :D

A N Y W A Y now that i've changed the subject

I totally got into Portal when you were super into it, and I had a grand old time scrolling through post after post about it and eventually watching videos about it--it was great tbh :D we have such similar tastes it's just so immaculate

and you have so much talent!!! even if it might not be the same brand of talent i have, have you even seeeen your art?!?! yo, it is amazing! like i WISH i could get anywhere close to your skill level! i am absolutely in awe of everything you do, not to mention the way you can word--well, words when you tell me about things, or when you explain your thoughts is immaculate. like you always say that it doesn't make sense or whatever but it always makes. so much sense???? like the way you describe your thought process, and explain yourself on everything is so ythrygethwry

💚💚💚💚