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pastafossa · 8 months

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Me, to friend: don't you hate it when you have those days where your heart is just mad and it beats REALLY hard at random moments, even when you're just sitting there, like not FAST but really hard and it is VERY UNCOMFORTABLE for no reason? Friend: you know that's not normal right??? Me: you mean that doesn't happen to you? Friend: NO, IT DOES NOT. Me: ...please hold. *five minutes later* Me: so I talked to my mother and this might in fact be a highly hereditary genetic issue that both her and my grandma and my great grandma all had, who knew??? Anyway I need to see a doctor and I might need heart medication. Friend: YA THINK?

#it's discovering my nut allergy all over again #me as i'm munching snowball cookies with walnuts in them: 'ha ha don't you guys hate that weird burn walnuts give your mouth?'#friends: DROP THE FUCKING SNOWBALL THIS INSTANT YOU HAVE A NUT ALLERGY #apparently the heart doing this is not actually normal #i just thought everyone had days like this #like don't worry i'm not going to keel over but internet was like 'yeah you need to watch for this if it's in your family'#mom was only diagnosed like 2 years ago and my grandma had it too and it apparently goes undiagnosed usually #because of *exactly* what i was doing #which was going #'well. it's not painful just uncomfortable so I'll wait and see if it goes away'#and then it does the next day so you forget about it #and consider it just a Weird Thing That Occasionally Happens

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k1ranishf4 · 8 months

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I’m neck-deep into Loki hyperfixation again there’s no escaping him

#this genderfluid bisexual asshole God of Mischief has taken over my life again and I dkdjendkskskke #sir I can’t keep rewatching all the movies because of you #i won’t have a normal life #my grandma is already worried so please #i literally read the ragnarok script last night #and started writing a ‘what if Loki went to Earth - not Infinity War compliant’ fic #you put the bi in bitch because you’re both #loki #mcu loki #loki odinson #thor movies #avengers movie #thor #thor the dark world #thor ragnarok

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floofy-grumpuses · 1 year

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Bugsnax oc concept I'm 100% using: Journalist oc except they're like this 15-16 year old kid who was sorta working this news thing as their first job and somehow puppy-dog eyed their way into going to Snaktooth despite the backlash this could get when/if the kid comes back and makes it public.

Filbo: Wait. You're the famous journalist Lizbert invited? You're....young.

Journalist: I'm very talented :)

Wambus is ready to just be all angry at Filbo but this teenager is standing like two feet away like "You're a farmer? I came from a rural area too! That's cool haha." and he's all ohhhh this kid has not been affected by the island.

Even though they're not a little kid or anything, the entire village feels so much concern bc this kid is still two years from becoming a legal adult, they're nowhere near the age of anyone on Snaktooth. Everyone gains parental instinct suddenly bc this grumpus has no self preservation and almost cries when anyone raises their voice too loud.

#bugsnax #bugsnax oc #my oc #journalist oc #ITS JUST SUCH A FUNNY CONCEPT #Floofty: Why in the name of literally everything did Elizabert invite a literal child to this island #the Bigsnax trip is literally just like family outing but everyone is arguing and the journalist just found a really cool rock #autism win! the bugsnax are so silly and the journalist gets a new hyperfixation #Shelda would be fussing over them begging them to not give in to the temptation or something like that #And they're just Oh no worries grandma lady I'm allergic!

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lesbiansanemi · 4 months

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Oh god. I have to see my family in three days

#if you guys start to see a spiraling mental breakdown starting on Christmas Eve #mind ya business #every time I see my siblings I just get more and more upset #and feel more and more bitter over my mother #it’s been 6 months since I last saw them #wonder how much has changed since then. wonder how much worse they are #also I’m worried my sister will bring her boyfriend to Christmas dinner #he’s like. fine I guess. the same kind of shitty as her but whatever #it was easier to ignore that I won’t ever be able to bring a partner when none of my siblings were old enough to do so #now that they ARE doing it. it makes it…. yeah #seeing my grandma interact with him and being happy and chatty #but knowing if I ever brought MY gf it would be a fucking disaster #unless I lied and said she was just a friend. which is shitty enough anyways #but wouldn’t even work my mom and aunt and sister would still make shitty snide comments when my grandparents weren’t around #ugh #I should stop thinking about this #I’m just making myself mad #kaz rambles

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nowendil · 5 months

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whooooo having an anxiety attack about covid. again 👍

#cw negative #cw vent #nowe talks #it's hard to describe what about it is the worst source of anxiety for me. it's not What If I Get It. it's mostly just. it's just.#i sometimes feel like our society has just forgotten that it's a thing. or that society has forgotten that it's A SERIOUS THING.#like this thing that Kills People.#i know it's not lethal to most people but it still is a very serious thing!#why have we as a society shifted from “protecting the people most affected is a collective responsibility #(via vaccination and masking and not showing up to places sick)“#to “well what if all the people belonging to risk groups just deal with this on their own and the rest of us go back to normal?”#idk man maybe i'm sensitive because my grandma died of covid a week before Christmas last year.#or because both of my parents are over 60 and my dad has another risk factor illness on top of that.#idk man. i just feel so. unsafe. unsure and scared and tired. i just dont want other people to go through what our family did last december #i want to stress that i'm not blaming any individual people for this.#my frustration is almost solely directed towards the goverment not taking covid seriously enough #and like i'm not perfect. i'm not sure what's the right thing to do and what's me overreacting.#i recognize that i am often incapable of thinking clearly about this subject #sometimes i feel like i am the only one in my circle (family included) who is this worried about it still. i'm not blaming my loved ones #i'm not saying i'm better than them that's not it. i just. sometimes i just feel so alone with this #and idk how to make it better?#like i have good moments and bad moments with this anxiety. it comes and goes. but. idk.#i think her death's anniversary coming closer combined with the rising covid numbers in my country is just doing a number on me

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livsspecialinterests · 21 days

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idk what specific pathology is responsible for this but whenever I feel bad I literally cannot comprehend ever not feeling bad again

#this isnt that deep im just tired and anxious #and have studying and loads of unpaid work stuff to get done #the state of uk healthcare and the general state of the uk rn makes it hard to find extranl sources of motivation #have got to make my own motivation and so on days where i feel bad it just all goes to shit #also titrating my adhd meds and was told that things might get worse before they get better #which i understand but i wasnt prepared for the reality of it #also my grandma isnt well #not like on the brink of death but shes old and frail and sick #me and my mum are both worried that she's just going to get worse quite soon so thats like a cloud over the head too #actually i take back the its not that deep #i do kind of feel like shit lol

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tsukiyo-7 · 3 months

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If you think you're brainrotting think again because in December my family was holding a mass for my grandmother's trigesimus of her death and the chorus started singing From Starry Skies Thou Comest and my first thought was honestly "hold on, these lyrics fit Wincest so well???" and that's all I could think about until the end of the function.

#don't worry my grandma was a bitch she deserved monster hunting incest brothers taking priority over her death #wincest #forgive me father for i have sinned

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theunholystromboli · 4 months

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feeling-kinda-sad-ngl · 4 months

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just remembered how my cousin was talking abt how lately she hasnt been eating and how sick even the thought of food is making her and her sister was like oh really me too and they kept talking abt it and it probably wasnt anything to be upset over but i was, i felt so gross

#its funny now bc why is this my life #why cant i be normal instead of obsessing over this kinda stuff and why am i getting so offended over someone else talkingg abt their #unpleasant experiences bc yk to them its unpleasant (to me it would be the best thing in the world i wish those were my worries instead of #binging almost everyday tbh)#oooo also found out how much my grandma weighs today and shes got a rlly skinny face but apparently weighs closer to me than i thought

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catkin-morgs-kookaburralover · 1 year

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not to be all 'i need talking down from a ledge' but uh. things ain't looking good right now

#i am a despicable human being. i didn't think and my grandmother was worried for over an HOUR because i was an hour and a half later than i #said i might be. i deserve it all. im just too cowardly to actually do anything serious.#i TERRIFIED my grandma through my own selfishness and stupidity.

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quick-drawn-a · 1 year

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i know y’all are gonna say i don’t owe you anything, but i would like to apologize for my absence at least one last time.

i’m falling behind here.

and not only here, but on discord and IM’s as well. i do intend to catch up on all of these things, so bear with me while i dust off my keyboard a little bit.

#✯ — нorѕeѕ ιn тнe вacĸ × [ ooc ]#death mention #throughout the tags but #the tl;dr of the sob story is my grandma died last night.#no worries — i'm fine.#but she's sorta been on the decline for the past month or so.#which is why i've been so sparse here and on discord.#just been trying to do my part in taking care of her and grandpa — making sure my parents are good. etc.#on top of working the usual 50+ hours at work.#there won't be a funeral or anything but i do have the week off so that's nice.#i'll still be over there a few days throughout the week for support — but otherwise we'll see what i can get done around here !#and for real catching up on discord messages.#just — forgive me. my headspace has been...in space for a while now.#been trying to gather the spoons.#so i still make no promises but !!#tbd #ask to tag

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gender-euphowrya · 1 year

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i know our fatphobic cultures have deepfried and glassblown people's brains but it always boggles my mind when a fat person is fatphobic ??? what are you doing

#i mean like #your overweight aunt telling her daughter who's slimmer than her to lose weight #fat middle-aged women in the street making a face at a young fat girl in a crop top #people saying stuff like ''she could look so much better if...'' while being fatter than the person they're talking about #couples of equivalent sizes turning each other's weight into a punchline #like. this isn't something that makes my life any harder so as annoying as it is i don't feel the need to address it #but nobody in my family seems to get that I Do Not Care what weight i am #i've put on weight over the last year or so and when i say it's not an issue to me #my mom & grandma just act like... it should be ??? like i should be feeling awful and beating myself up over it ????#shouldn't you be GLAD that i'm not ? that i'm not stuffing myself with celery and then puking it up ?#that i'm feeling comfortable ? that i'm not depressed over it ? that i think i look just fine ??#meanwhile mom's way heavier than me and used to be even more before she had An Entire Surgery to lose weight #i mean. both my parents were fat. it's genetics. i'm never gonna be stick thin. i do not care ???#i'm gonna look like harvey guillen jack black matt berry y'know ?? all men people find attractive ?? what's there to worry about #AND EVEN THEN. even if we lived in a nightmare world where people had shit taste and found them ugly #still wouldn't make it a problem ? idgaf what people think of my appearance ?? i'm vibing

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yakny · 8 months

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nearly broke down when I remembered I had these wips and couldn't find them amongst my many other wips. thought i lost them when my hard drive wiped itself cleaned :'D

#wips #LN #agata #my little sun 🥺#(sorry. long tags warning ¯\_(ToT)_/¯)#no im still not over the hard drive incident. i will never be over it orz. BUUUUT!#let this be a reminder to always backup your works. twice. thrice. on spare google accounts. on phones. on micro sd cards ect. BACK IT UP!#damn. the second one is probably over a year old. almost done. just needed a few details. but now? i really am my meanest critic.#crying. just randomly remembered going over the mexican calendar of saint's with my aunts and uncles and smiling #at the fact that my grandma just picked their names based on the patron saint that corresponded with their date of birth #which is why the ''manañitas''—the mexican happy birthday song—mostly has the lyrics ''dia de tu santo'' (day of your saint) in place of #''dia de tu cumpleaños'' (your birthday). im sure it's still in trend. especially if you dont have a name or dont want to think #of one. like ''eh. i have a kid now. but no name for it. let's take a look at the calendar'' adsjfdgkkl #i bring this up cause while agata over here DOES have a name she does NOT have a canon birthday. and agata's name appears on said calendar #falling on feb. 5. though i kinda want her birthday to be on dec. 23. just for the sole fact that #nidhogg's falls on dec. 22 (sometimes the start of the winter solstice) and louie's falls on dec. 24 (a christmas eve baby 🥺 such a gift)#i just think it'd be hilarious for them. i can imagine them using the birthday card to not do anything and then midnight strikes and blam!#*snatching birthday kid's birthday crown* ''it's my turn with the birthday card. wash my cake dishes‚ yesterday's birthday kid >:)''#(no im not normal about them. i dont think i ever will be :'D)#eh. will see how i feel about her birthday situation. at least it's not names i have to worry about ToT

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star-ocean-peahen · 1 year

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#new fear: that my grandma will die tonight because she forgot her breathing machine and I’ll be the one to find her #she’s over tonight bc the Responsible ones are off on a retreat and I cannot look after the demon tribe on my own #fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck so not ONLY am I fighting a miserable cold and trying not to cough because when I do I feel like I’m going to throw up #but im ALSO worrying about grandma #fuck #my aunt’s fiancé died in the middle of the night like that fuck #grandma’s has some health scares and she’s not young so im worryinnnnng #sorry this is really heavy im just worried about this #tw death #tw death mention #tw sudden death #lassie vents #vent #personal

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fairyhaos · 10 months

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good morning part 2 from me u guys i just woke up to my mother yelling at my grandma over the phone???

#yena talks #story time in the tags dont read if you dont wanna #basically once the academic yr ends we're going back to korea for fhe summer n we'll be staying with my grandma for most of it #n my mother wanted to call her to ask her ab whether it's really feasible we stay in her apartmeny cor like. over a month #BUT MY GRANDMA. SHE'S HAD HER PHOJE TURNED OFF FHE ENTIRE WEEK #so obv we were really worried bc she is you kno. not exactly young #BUT JUDGING FROM MY MOTHERS YELLING WEVR MANAGED TO GET HER BACK ONLINE #and #and i think her phone like did those random system updates and shut down to do it #BUT SHE DIDNT KNOW #SO HER PHONE HAS HEEN OFF EVER SINCE #*AND SHE DIDJT KNOW*#my grandma is laughing at my mother btw #and my mother is still yelling #and im awake now #like actually awake

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batfamfucker · 2 years

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My sleep schedule is very fucked. Deadass passed out at like 8AM and woke up at 6PM. Passed out again and actually got up at 9PM. I cannot sleep now and have two lectures tomorrow and maybe work

#It's reading weel next week but I cannot keep missing classes because of insomnia #Fam I need good attendance to get accepted onto a study abroad year #And I'm already struggling with the finances and grades of that like please don't make me worry about attendance too #A bitch is fighting for her life lmao #I have two essays due in like two weeks and we're only a month into the uni year and I know not how to write them #My grandma is also in hospital and she managed to catch covid in hospital 🙃 I'm very annoyed at the negligence of that #She is very weak anyway to the point they've put her on a DNR. And now she has covid too #If Covid takes its toll. Then that's it. They're not going to save her.#Sorry for the vent it's just been. A busy first few weeks #I'm very tired and very broke rn and my only source of joy is hoping I get to go on the year abroad next year #I wanna study in the US because that's where all the acting schools/jobs are. Worried? Yes. Worth it? Also yes #I know the USA is a hellhole politically so I'm also looking at safe states (Like where abortion is legal for example) but also.#It's landscape it highkey stunning #And I do like a lot of the stuff/opportunities there. Just not the people #These tags are all over the place. Anyway #Death tw #Hospital tw #Covid tw #Also my ADHD meds ran out like four days ago and the prescription delivery is taking too long because I moved to uni #Local Bitch Having Hard Time Amongst Already Being Unmedicated. More At 2. AM Rather Than PM Probably.#I have been living off of potatoes and tears.#Sweet potato fries slap and I am a great chef tho so slay for me I guess

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