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radiaking · 4 days ago

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Could’ve sworn I’d started rewriting some fic thing and I can’t find it for the life of me….

#I like. specially have a scene in my head?? that I swear I wrote #like I can remember doing it??#and yet. nowhere to be found #.ooc

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straightasaaro · 10 months ago

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I’m sorry to all my mutuals who aren’t into epic who are about to get a tidal wave of epic posts on their feed

#I’m just trying to get my little indie musical to trend #im also searching for a post on epic stage design #its nowhere to be found #neither is Odysseus’s humanity #wisdom saga hasn’t released yet so let’s see how long I laugh #epic the wisdom saga #epic the musical #epic #jorge rivera herrans #mr jalapeño #epic the troy saga #epic the thunder saga #the oddyssey #odysseus #the odyssey

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gojoest · 10 months ago

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i am thinking about girl dad satoru measuring his daughter’s height by drawing a line on the doorframe and tearing up every time at the difference and how she’s growing up too fast….can’t she just stay his little girl forever? :,) he is not taking it well, really, and it’s your job to pick up the pieces

#— ai rambles #bc he always comes to you with big wet eyes after yet another measuring #all silent and sullen his usual hype is nowhere to be found #and you just have to big spoon him and tell him how she’s going to be his little girl forever no matter how much she grows and changes #he is so cute and so soft with his little girl :’) he’s like pls don’t ever change :’)#think part of him is terrified that she will one day hit that age where children start growing a bit distant from their parents :’)#bc they broaden their tribe with their peers and etc #and up until now she was too obsessed with him like it’s a mutual attachment and BAM suddenly she doesn’t want to hand out with him #as often as they used to :’) that’s so going to break him SOBS #tw children

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angeldaisies · 6 months ago

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guys can i just say that technically it hasn't been confirmed that the twins charlotte is pregnant with at the end of chot are girls 😭 i know cc said in a tumblr post ages ago that henry and charlotte have two small girls in tlh and therefore we all assumed that these are the girls in question but knowing how she likes to bring in baby boys to carry on the family names when needed (see alexander and zachary) i wouldn't be surprised if we found out in a sea change that one of the twins is a boy so matthew can have his male love interest in peace

#ofc they could still be girls and they could carry on the name the way charlotte did #i'm just saying we don't know for sure yet #like i don't trust cc's tumblr post bc we all know how she loves to retcon stuff especially when it comes to tlh #so i refuse to believe anything she's said until it's confirmed in the text #adding this on here: yes i remember the cp2 epilogue mentions them as well but that epilogue is ... a mess!#barbara and christopher still alive thomas and anna nowhere to be found...#cp2 epilogue a whole ass unreliable narrator atp #tlh #tsc #a sea change #matthew fairchild #charlotte fairchild #henry branwell

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akirathedramaqueen · 10 months ago

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Octavia's and Blitzø's potential relationship development

I believe that the show, despite Octavia openly hating Blitzø, gives us some hints that they have much more in common than it seems. I’ve noticed a couple of moments where Blitzø and Octavia are… pretty much in sync, if that makes sense.

Here are those moments I’ve noticed… maybe stretched in some places, but! Hear me out!

1. Here, they don’t hear each other, but both are repulsed by Stolas’s obnoxious language and express the same reaction. It’s funny that Stolas is the one calling them out.

[Blitzø]: WHAT [Octavia]: THE [Blitzø]: FUCK [Octavia]: DAD?! S1EP2, Loo Loo Land, 4:52

2. They also share a distaste for Stolas’s behavior throughout the episode, albeit in slightly different ways. In fact, this serves as a great demonstration of how deaf and blind Stolas is to obvious social cues at the beginning of the series—he doesn’t stop even when directly asked to do so on multiple occasions.

Blitzø is disgusted by Stolas’s awkward, overly sexual advances and demeaning language towards him and his work.

[Stolas]: You are so cute when you are serious! S1EP2, Loo Loo Land, 6:06

Octavia is taken aback by essentially the same. However, she blames both of them, understandably failing to recognize that Blitzø is just as uncomfortable as she is. From her perspective, Blitzø is a homewrecker who contributed to destroying her parents' marriage.

[Stolas]: You know, it's quite thrilling to see you on the job, Blitzy.[Blitzø]: Save it, bitch, I am working. [Octavia]: You both need to get a room. S1EP2, Loo Loo Land, 8:20

3. They share the hate for the same clown!

[Blitzø and Octavia]: I hate that fucking clown. S1EP2, Loo Loo Land, 8:50

4. They seem to have similar tastes in music! The song My World Is Burning Down Around Me, which Octavia plays to tune out Stella’s screaming, is also heard in Blitzø’s van when he comes to pick up Loona in the Queen Bee episode, although it’s only instrumental. Here, have a look. If, for some reason, the service with the timeframes isn’t working, I’ll also provide the timings in writing so you can check it yourself on YouTube.

Octavia turns on the song, and for a while, we can hear the lyrics before it fades into the background as the scene shifts to Stella yelling at Stolas and later to Stolas’s conversation with Octavia. S1EP2, Loo Loo Land, 2:52 - 3:50

The song’s instrumental version can be heard when Blitzø’s van arrives, and the background noise at Queen Bee’s club is different, so there’s no chance for misinterpretation. It is the music Blitzø’s was listening to. S1EP8, Queen Bee, 8:20 - 9:14

5. Haha, they freak out in the same way in the Seeing Stars episode! I know it’s probably just a stylistic choice to transition from Octavia’s initial experience with LA to Blitzø having to contact Stolas and explain what happened. However, I might be indulging in a bit of wishful thinking, suggesting that this similarity in their stress responses could have some deeper meaning.

S2EP2, Seeing Stars, 4:42

So-o... What am I trying to say with all these points I've made?

Like the kind of delulu who yells, "Ghostfuckers, save us!" (we know Viv, we know how trying to put our hopes up ends, haha), I draw a complete unhinged card and I am going to make a very bold claim:

I think that once Stolas and Blitzø finally get their shit and themselves back together, and Octavia realizes there’s much more to the story than, “Oh, it’s just horny dad cheated on my mum with a red lizard dickhead and my dad ruined my family,” Octavia could actually bond with Blitzø quite nicely, and he would make a good second dad to her! Well, don’t get me wrong. She might never want to take it to that level. Also, we don’t know how things will turn out, nor do we know her relationship with her mum, Stella.

But I do believe that their parallels were thrown in for a reason. Despite the circumstances, they can, and maybe will, be on much better terms than they currently are.

Go on, call me delusional and leave me be in my complete denial corner. <3 I admit I do tend to forget the current state of the Stolitz relationship in the series, as in my world, where I’m prioritizing my time working on that fic, they are finally together. I am bitter-sweetly excited that @tealvenetianmask and I are slowly but surely getting close to finishing it. :)

(Yes, yes, it was shameless self-promotion—sue me for the unlawful use of a speculatory-analytical post space to promote our version of Stolitz working hard to sort out their issues post Apology Tour and having some silly and horny fun along the way.)

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markiafc · 11 months ago

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my cw spn experience mostly entails wondering about dad every ep; the mystery dad, enigma dad, completely opaque even to his sons. i wonder about him a lot. dad, whom dean can't leave behind because dad needs him & dad who would let sam feel alienated and excluded, unloved, but he would hover over that boy to keep him safe - "he was afraid of what could've happened to you if he wasn't around." where's dad now then :( why would he abandon his boys now, when he's done so much to keep them close......

#supernatural #me is mark #every ep i miss dad because the boys miss dad so badly #and in a lot of ways it seems like a very cruel thing to do #why get so close and leash them to you and then ditch them......!!#every new detail seems to prove dad doesn't ever want to let them go and yet here we are #dad nowhere to be found #and i so badly want to know whyyy

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pidgeonlaguz · 2 months ago

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howdy!! it's been a minute but i'm still around. fair warning-- i have been lurking the whole time and have about. 100+ posts drafted 😵‍ you'll be seeing these shortly, i'll try my best to space them out as i get around to tagging them

#tldr im fine it's just been a lot lately and i havent had the energy to tag anything #which!! i like being chatty in the tags and i try my best to say at least something cool about any art or fic i rb #when you're running on 0 tho.... it gets hard to keep that energy up yk???#long version: (if anyone is reading this ty but feel free to drop off at any point it's kinda heavy and just a vent)#hit the 'one more minor inconvenience and im running off into the woods forever' point about five major events ago yet we're still truckin #firstly: found out two months ago (february) that i needed 6 credits worth of college by june to keep my teaching license for next year #so accelerated online graduate courses were the only option and i have since done more work for that than my 5 year undergrad #im almost done with the second class but im so fuckin drained dude i havent been able to really draw/write or play music or sew or anything #everything i do try has either been hit with the executive dysfunction or turns out Bad enough that i get frustrated #shortly after i found out the nice old guy downstairs died my upstairs neighbor who i cared a lot about died. last week and im still waitin #to find out when the funeral is from her son. ive been taking that kinda hard since i feel like i should have checked on her #my parents are moving 17 hours cross country to move back to where we are which is nice but ive been hearing about all their stress with th #house sale on loop by this point whenever i talk to them. which fair they managed to sell the house in a week when we thought itd be months #got smacked with thousands of dollars of surprise car repairs out of nowhere to get my inspection sticker and am still trying to recover #and petty things: lost my favorite piece of clothing and broke my glasses last week while running tech week for the kids #idk man any one thing at a time i could've toughed out better its just been all at once #anyways like i said i'm still truckin and will probably delete this (or at least the tags on it) later had to get all that out somewhere #messenger pidge #if anyone did get this far down thank you for watching me yap <3 i promise im good and will be back to normal shenanigans soon hopefully

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sheltoner · 3 months ago

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i had the weirdest dream last night where tennis tv filmed a bunch of promo videos inside my grandparents house. and i didn’t know that was happening so i watched the videos when they came out and i started freaking out bc those are tennis players walking around my grandparents house. walking past my baby pictures while having conversations with an interviewer. and then another video dropped, and this one was in my late great aunt’s house, so i got more freaked out. but i couldn’t say anything on here because that would basically doxx me anytime i say im in vermont

#and also before the videos even came out one of my mutuals who i know lives halfway around the world posted a picture of my grandparents #house #and they captioned it as “look at this cool house i found in the middle of nowhere!”#and i couldn’t say anything bc internet safety yknow #and then when i woke up after the dream i rolled over fell back asleep and the dream fucking continued #so my half awake mind thought that maybe it was real #but then i realized i hadn’t even looked at my phone yet #anyway sorry for the block of text #this dream was just so weird 😭😭

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sciderman · 1 year ago

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(Idk if someone asked this already) since we’re on the topic of gender

sci what is gender to you and how do you see it in you and how you express it in your art?? (Just a young queer artist who wants some light shined upon them 🥺)

i 'unno ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

#gender is soup #sci speaks #i'm so sorry i know you might hope for something profound but... i think when i'm put on the spot like this i can't say anything really #i think whatever i am is definitely pervasive in everything i write #but like.. gender means something different to wade than it does for peter.#just like it'll be different for everybody. we make different associations based on our experiences and our trauma.#like.. wade associates femininity with love. because of his mother. associates masculinity with violence. because of his father.#peter associates masculinity with responsibility. because of uncle ben. associates femininity with confidence. because of aunt may.#i think there's all kinds of reasons why we choose to present the way we do. and what gender means to us.#just like we'll associate a colour with something. or a smell with a memory. it's complicated.#i don't think i'm some kind of expert on gender things but... i just find it interesting to explore. the psychology of it.#i don't think it's supernatural. it doesn't come from nowhere. but it should be a playground.#i don't think anyone in this world should be restricted to a certain role to play. i want to try all the roles and see how it fits.#see how well i can play them.#maybe because i haven't found one that quite fits. so i want the opportunity to try whatever i can. see what feels right.#i think it would be fun to be a wife. i think it would be fun to be a husband. i think it would be fun to be a firefighter. i think it wo #shrugs. different outfits for every day. different roles to play.#today i'd like to try...#i think it's like kids learning how to be adults by playing pretend. by playing roles.#i'm learning more about myself and other people and fitting into the world by trying on different roles.#kids playing house. you be the mom. i'll be the dad. yadda yadda.#i still feel like a bit of a kid who hasn't figured out how to be an adult yet. so i'm still trying out roles to see what fits.

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captainderyn · 5 months ago

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#tw: loss #tw: death #I just need to tag ramble for a second #found out my uncle passed away kind of out of nowhere #we weren’t super close because he burned a lot of bridges in 2019-20 #but still. my mom is taking it really hard #and I can’t really do anything for now because she’s in New England and I live in the Midwest right now #and I can’t book a flight for another two weeks minimum #the only child who left home guilt is hitting tonight #I’m so tired of loss #2020 was my grandma #2022 was another family member #2024 was my grandpa that hasn’t even been a year yet #on top of a lot of work nonsense happening right now and not being able to find a new job #I’m so exhausted by it I just want a break #if you read this thank you and I appreciate you I mostly just needed this out

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gabagools · 2 months ago

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WATSON - S1E06

“People who are friends with me get hurt.” / “I would never hurt you on purpose.”

#she would though 😭 but that’s what makes this Good #watson cbs #ingrid derian #sasha lubbock #sasha x ingrid #singrid #<—kidding but it fits so well lol #this ep was perfect w them and mid about everything else #hope the last 3 eps pick up and s2 is even better because the potential is there but the patchiness is overwhelming #the cases especially are extremely weak on all fronts #haven’t looked up the writers yet but it’s giving newbies and AI unfortunately 😞#bc the dialogue is ROUGH and the cases are beyond uneven like just sloppy and vacant #to the point of distraction.#what happened to wit? to cohesion? to sharp tension????? just nowhere to be found #and it’s frustrating bc it’s not actually terrible just underwritten and super amateurish.#definitely a case of the acting being above the material #@ least their dynamic is solid #like the actresses are giving it their all.#*

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mariyekos · 3 months ago

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Thoughts on the new DMC trailer?

Going to be honest I haven't watched any trailers since the trailer at the Game Awards (or whichever one I have those 2 breakdown posts for) 😅 I keep seeing the trailer announcements when I don't have my headphones on me, and I've been behind on watching them once I have the time... maybe tomorrow I'll finally get to watching them! Tonight I'm dead tired so I don't think I'd be in much of a good mood and I don't want to start off on the wrong foot, so to speak. When I watch them I can make a write up on it though! Would probably be fun.