#and you know for me I'm a sex worker as well as an actor so I'll make out with anyone

[batsarebetterthanpeople]

Listen i’ve seen some OFMD kiss discussion again so let  me just put this out there. I would agree with you if that was the only kiss we’re ever going to get, but since we’re getting season two I’m actually kinda glad that their kiss was akin to two 12 year olds who have no idea what they’re doing, because that means we get to watch them improve. don’t you see? This is their first kiss not their only kiss. we get to see different types of kisses. Their first was tender chaste and a little bit awkward, but maybe their next one will be honest to god sucking face. maybe we’ll see one that starts out like the first one and then they open their mouths. maybe we’ll get one that’s slow and sensual. maybe we’ll get one that’s desperate and horny. Maybe, if we’re really lucky, we’ll get a broke-back mountain style nosebreaker. If they only ever kiss like that I will criticize that but I personally am looking forward to seeing them improve. There will be another kiss.

[bigfatbimbo]

Hello, my dear! Love that you/others enjoyed my thought and rambles! Speaking of emojis, because I'm a bastard, can I be 🍆 anon??? If that's taken, I could also go for 💦 anon?? Also, forgive me for any spelling errors, wrote this at 2 am

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Vee's Dom 2: Even More Rambling (because these idiots won't leave me alone)

- If their dom ever become famous, which is likely, and the fans create edits of them, the Vees would absolutely save those vids and watch them over and over again (Imagine walking in on them watching edits of you LMAO, or even you coming over to where they're sitting cause the sound keeps looping and it's obvious that they're watching the same video straight)

- Let's talk about the clothing situation here

* With Vox's freaky ass wanting to keep you close always, it's probably led him to steal your underwear, and might even wear it, but you'll never know. I can also see Val doing the same thing but being hella more shameless, enough to even show YOU that he's wearing them and if you want them back, you better take it off of him

* Velvette probably has taken more comfier clothes, things you would wear for staying in, like old shirts, band tees, or shirts that are well loved

* Valentino has tried, and failed, to return some of the clothes he took. It's kinda hard to take those clothes back considering they look more like rags with how many holes and substances covering it.

- With a built dom

* Velvette will "off-handedly" mention about creating clothes that cater to more muscle-y/bigger builds, and will insist that she needs you to model/do photoshoots for her (she's definitely not using this opportunity just to have more photos of you flexing in HD)

* Vox will 100% build you a personal gym in the tower, but said gym will be covered in cameras/cctvs, all pointed in different directions

* Val would ask you to train his actors, and he will watch supervise said sessions, just to make sure the actors do right (which is totally not a reason for him to watch you flex on his workers)

* Obsessed with pinning Vox to the bed, I bet he'd find it so fucking hot that everytime he tries to close his legs, we just pry them open.

- i know I've talked about punishments, but what about rewards??

* Letting Vox cum as much as he wants (though by the end of it, Vox might start to wonder if it's more of a punishment instead of a reward)

* Willingly let Velvette mess around with some of your clothes/putting you in different fashion designs/putting makeup on your face

* Dare I say even let Valentino call SOME shots during sex, again, SOME shots (do remind him that even if he tops you, he's still your bitch)

- Also rotting in my brain regarding these whores:

* what if you were more powerful in terms of magic/connections/influence/money? (I just know my problems would simply ✨ disappear ✨ if I had a muscle mommy/daddy)

* what if they met you via social media and they immediately hivemind that "yes, this is my dom, right here" ? Like let's say you're an entertainer/dancer right, and one of your viral vids had been a dance to don't go insane (it's the belt dance, boo if you're curious)

* Being in the limelight also means being in the subjective eyes of everyone, and I know for a fact that the Vees have a lot of haters/threats, but what if you protect them from it (bodyguard scenario????)

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I forgot to say this during my last ramble, but, If I may, I would love to absolutely read one of your takes regarding my sub!val ideas, but only if you want to/feel for it.

Btw, on a totally unrelated sidenote, I know the blog is primarily hazbin hotel, but I gotta ask, how we feeling about Arcane Sevika?? Cause I am feeling a lot (missing my muscle mommy as fuck bro)

Anywaaays, have a good day!

xoxoxoxo ❤️

This has been in my drafts for almost ALL WEEK and i’m finally coherent enough to give my thoughts!

Can I just say how much I love the Vees with a well built reader. Like I have no real character study-ish explanation for why in my brain i’m like “they’d be obsessed with that.” But I know for a fact it’s absolutely true.

I’m going to focus on your little side notes at the bottom though. So if they met you through social media I feel like you would definitely start off knowing Velvette first. But even before they start talking to you they would absolutely stalk your page and send fucking edits or something back and forth.

But the Vees with a very powerful reader is very interesting to me. Because like while yes, they’d love to be totally on top of hell, but it’s very convenient for them, and hot and hot and hot, to have your support. Because like super powerful big scary respected dom privilege mixed with their constant self entitlement and attitude? And if anyone says anything about it you fucking destroy their status, business, or hell, even them simply because you can. “Do you think you’ll kill for me one day?” “Yes, of course I will, my love” TYPE BEAT AHHH.

And that leads us to the bodyguard idea because jesus christ. Like this is literally such a mix of the well built buff reader and powerful one I just talked about. Also they would argue for your attention 1000% worse in this case.

ALSO CAN I JUST SAY, YOUR SUCH A BASTARD FOR LITERALLY BEING 🍆 ANON. you’re literally DICK ANON. are you proud 🤨🤨

[nozunhinged]

My Top 5 BL Kisses of Jan (& Feb) 24 + why

Okay, okayyyyy I'm doing this, no backing out. I offically accept that analyzing kisses takes up so much of my brainspace that I can write about it — so here it goes. I'M NOT HIDING ANYMORE BUT OWNING UP TO IT! (lol, chill)

Last year I complained that I didn't get a single perfect kiss since I started watching BL TV shows (until PhayaTharn turned up) and now we're not even a quarter into the new year and I already got FIVE I'm absolutely in AWE about!! FIVE!!

I don't know if it's the actors, directors or coaches who upped their game (probably all of them) but hot damn, all of these are beautiful.

And don't ask me why I'm into kiss-acting so much I have no fucking clue, my first guess is that it's an artform in itself to make this amazing, wonderful, intimate form of touching look as beautiful as it feels — bc let's be honest here, irl kissing rarely looks pretty no matter how great it is! So I think it's just dope when you can see this beauty translated on screen.

So I guess this is peak romance genre for me and with that being said, enough talking, lets get to the kissykissies!

5. TenPrem - Cooking Crush EP. 11

I have to be honest with you, I was a bit confused by the kissing in this show. The tippytoe kiss was cute as heck but we all saw how Off AND Gun awkwardly blinked because they probably had to stay like that for a looooong time. It took the whole magic out of the whole first-kiss-moment. Same with the forced in, reshot makeout-scenes. But the kiss in the kitchen? Looks like they FINALLY got to show what they got.

Ten gently pulling Prem closer, them smoothly moving against each other, Ten closing in even more, the slightly open-mouthed kiss with their lips perfectly caressing each other, Ten with a bit more force, Prem with a bit more heat resulting in the perfect mix...Loved it, mwah.

4. PromNont - Playboyy EP. 12

They are my one Playboyy-couple where I'm like "if they don't end up married and running Playboyy together, starting the revolution of well-payed, insured and safe sex workers I'm gonna riot" even though I know this show will not end nicely for ANYONE.

Anyways, this kiss. Holy smokes they had so many good scenes but this one took the cake. Not just the sheer length of it (but still with perfect timing and breaks).

The slightest suck on Nonts upper lip, Prem literally making Nont sway, Nonts hidden desperation for Prom surfacing from his lips, them slowly but surely turning up the heat and last but not least, Prom grabbing Nonts face just to lean against him...UGH THEM!

(I made those)

3. Myungha & Yeowoon - Love for Love's Sake EP 8

I know I'm not alone in how this show swept me off my feet and hit me right in the feels. But I've gotta say, this kiss hit completely different. Again they kissed for so long but not a single moment felt wasted. It felt like their whole story put in a single kiss. And — I mean that in the most loving and positive way possible — they kissed so amazingly gay. Do you know what I mean?!

There's just this level of love, care and happiness that only queer couples can convey. Sprinkled with a hint of tongue (I saw that Yeowoon 👀) — they absolutely nailed it.

2. AlanJeff - Pit Babe EP. 11

The kiss that made me consider doing this post in the first place. I saw them and shouted THIS IS PERFECT just to realize that I did this a few weeks ago already and it made me spiral a little. In the best way possible because I felt truly blessed once again to have discovered the genre of BL in their golden era!

Because this right here is how you nail an open mouthed kiss my friends. Take notes BL producers. Put this in your textbooks! They both go at the same rythm (slow, careful but so, so loving JUST LIKE THEIR RELATIONSHIP UGH) and same level of touch so their lips caress each other perfectly. Furthermore, Alan knows exactly how to meet Jeff which is also a PERFECT EXTENSION OF HIS CHARACTER! Alan leads, Jeff follows but they meet perfectly and equally. TEN OUT OF TEN NO NOTES!

1. PhayaTharn - The Sign EP. 9

I don't understand the meaning of the "Roman Empire"-thing but I think if I say they are mine, I am correct because they will be the end of me and that's what that means right? I may be biased AF but objectively speaking, this is just an insanely well acted-out scene, PERIOD! And we all know it's thanks to Billybabes out-of-this-world-chemistry!

Phayas desperation translated into this gorgeous lip-clash, so much yearning but softness at the same time but what really got to me was how Tharn immediately melted after their lips touched, how he immediately opened up to him and got completely overwhelmed by Phayas feelings. Chapeau to Babe for showing so much range in a single second. My favorite kiss of the whole series ❤️

I also just realized all these kisses have one thing in common....hands on faces lol.

Well that was fun peeps, thanks if you made it until the end!

[brettdoesdiscourse]

The anti sex work movement act as if abuse can't/doesn't happen in so called regular working environments

You can easily get abused working at McDonald's or retail

you can have a whole ass high paying career and still get abused

These people are just icked out by it and believe sex work shouldn't exist even if the environment is safe

You're absolutely correct, anon.

And you want to know something else? In my experience, I've been less protected in traditional working environments than in sex work.

At 18, I had a man stand in front of me and my manager, yelling at me for something I wasn't even on shift for. He asked if I was an idiot, if I was that stupid, etc. And I just had to take that.

When I was camming, I had full control to kick someone from my room if they were behaving in a way I didn't like.

When I was stripping, there's not a chance in hell the owner would ever let a customer yell at one of the dancers or speak to them like that.

When I was doing videos/pictures/etc, I had full control to block and delete those comments. I was even able to report them as abusive.

In sex work, I've never had to just smile and take that kind of abuse.

In my experience as well, I had people treating me way shittier in retail situations than they did in sex work. (Most the time.)

I like to compare sex work to the media industry.

There is so much abuse that happens on movie and TV sets. Physical, sexual, financial, mental, emotional abuse. They all happen and they're all pretty common with movies/TV shows.

Yet, nobody is boycotting movies/TV as a whole because this abuse happens. Hell, a lot of people won't even boycott a movie/TV show where they know abuse specifically took place.

Nobody's screaming on their accounts that you're abusive if you watch movies/TV shows. Nobody's telling "normal" actors that they're automatically being exploited if they're in any movie/TV show. Nobody's discounting independent movies where all the actors are happy and there's no signs of abuse as "still abusive" just because abuse happens in the industry.

At its heart, the anti sex work movement is anti sex.

The only real difference between porn and a regular movie is the intention. Porn is meant to arouse (in most cases), it's meant to be enjoyed sexually. And so many people still have such puritanical, conservative views on sex that this that's meant to arouse is worse because its "only" purpose is to arouse.

If you want to talk about people getting their autonomy taken away, sex work is another huge aspect for that. And not just in the way people think.

Yes, we get our autonomy taken away by predatory studios/clients. But we also get our autonomy taken away by lawmakers. We get our autonomy taken away by anti sex work people when they tell us that actually we "can't consent" to that. We're routinely told what we have to do or cannot do with our bodies, regardless of what we want to do with them.

And in my experience, most of that autonomy (in the current day) is stripped away by people who are anti sex work. The same people who hide behind "I'm pro sex worker" and "I just want to protect these poor people (usually they say or mean just women)"

[tiofrean]

Oh boy... OH BOY... I was reading through comments and tags under that Flint vs. Stede post (and before that in Silver vs. Oluwande post) and OH BOY RANT INCOMING

Feel free to ignore. No, I'm prickly about this.

I LOVE how people are like "Black Sails fans are so mean why are they like that T.T ?" in the tags and comments.

LET ME TELL YOU.

So we have this show that has been marginalized and has been pushed to the side for years. A show that has excellent plot, wonderful intrigue, magnificent representation and well-written, 3D characters that are complex and relatable. You get your edgy queer men (whether you want to characterize Flint as gay or bi, doesn't change the fact that he likes dick whichever way), you get your edgy queer girls (Anne), you get your flamboyant whatever-the-fuck-Jack-Rackham-is (<3), you get sweet gays (Thomas), you get confused bisexuals (Eleanor, Silver), you get straight sweets (Miranda) and straight angery dicks (Woodes Rogers), and competent, edgy straights (Vane). Oh! A competent, master-of-the-house lesbian? Check (Max). You even have asexuals, or that is what I shall forever classify Billy as. You have a f/f sex scene in the first damn episode, ffs. You get threesomes (sexual, romantic), you get couples, you even have Silver in a brothel orgy.

But sexual representation is not ALL! You get goofy pirates (Jack Rackham), you get serious pirates (Blackbeard), you get balls of rage (Flint), you get chill, laid-back sea dogs (Gates), you get competent little weasels (Silver), you get incompetent rats (Dufrense). You also have marvelous extras and side characters (Beauclerc the marksman, Captain Fruit-Fruit, Idelle... OHMYGOD IDELLE <3333).

There's the political plot that's historically accurate, the story's plot that's Flint's big gay rage, there's the sociological context of being painted as a monster, there's the gold hunt, there are ships correctly operated by crews of more than five fucking people, there are guns, blood and realistic injuries. You get quotations and allusions to Shakespeare, Cervantes, Julius Caesar, Marcus Fucking Aurelius, a metric ton of other classical writers. You get so many tropes done right it's astonishing and too effing long to list them all here.

On top of that, there is the picturesque landscape, absolutely gorgeous ships and very accurate portrayal of how life looked back then.

We had to defend that show when it first came out, the actors had to fucking fight homophobic assholes upon the airing of season two (IMAGINE THAT), people who loved it had a hard time going around, although admittedly it's a "fandom" hard time, not a "real life" hard time. We persisted, we persevered, and now we're here, clinging to what's left of our fandom, because we are admittedly all over the place and we don't have "troops" on any one social media, which makes our numbers small in comparison to other fandoms, and makes fandom interactions very limited.

Now imagine that there aired a show... a pirate show promising a lot. And then the show turned out to be an office-type comedy with no lesbian/bi women representation (I may be wrong, but I did watch it out of curiosity, didn't see any, just guys). A show that the whole plot of is just a rendition of the Beauty and the Beast for pirate times with so many historical inaccuracies (couching your crew like a bunch of office workers? Plz. The way they speak and the concepts they talk of that weren't there? It's like they were sitting around a fire, holding hands and singing kumbaya). And don't get me wrong, there's place for those shows as well, and maybe it works for you (and great for you too!).

We tried to ignore it, really we did. We basically gave it the eyebrow-raise-huff-ignore thing that you do on the internet when you want someone to enjoy their stuff and are not interested in it yourself.

But you know what happened? Suddenly there were people on twitter tagging everyone and their dog from Black Sails with renditions of Flint/Izzy (Izzy who comes across as an extreme asshole at best and a homophobic shit at worst and you can't fault people for reading it like this). Let that sink in - our fandom babe Flint, who had his whole life ruined due to homophobia and homophobic assholes is suddenly being shipped with a guy who suspiciously fits the description a bit too much for our tastes. Wouldn't you get angry? Of course you would, we're all very protective of our babes. We are, you are, everyone is. We asked you not to do this, and while I admit that hurling curses your way might not have been the most polite way of asking you to stop, the message was clear enough. What does OFMD fandom do? They all double down. Double fucking down on fanfiction and tagging everything in BS again, pairing Flint and Izzy together, writing things way out of the realm of any possibilities because most of the writers didn't watch BS (I did read their comments on that. They weren't even sorry). If you take such character and throw him into a work of art that can and will be seen as controversial, you should at least have the decency to do your homework on the original work he comes from. Otherwise, to our eyes, you're taking the most wronged man from our beloved show, wronged due to his sexuality, and throw him together with a literal asshole just to see them fuck because they would look pretty (and that's an actual comment from one of the artists, I shit you not). Wouldn't you feel a bit angry about that? I bet you would.

What's worse, people loving Black Sails and not liking OFMD usually point out how narrow the representation is, how improbable the show is and how they're not remotely invested in the plot. It's a cheesy show for your average Sunday afternoon, don't make it into something it's not. It's not a political statement any more than Guess The Tune is.

What's more, when I've seen attempts at people pointing out the obvious flaws in plot, in logic (how many people crew that ship exactly? How is he not dead after being stabbed clean through with a sword?), all we've gotten was "Oh it's not that type of show, OBVIOUSLY", "it's just a comedy, duh" and my personal favorite "you just DON'T UNDERSTAND IT BOOMER". (I'm a late Millennial, thx). Every attempt was chucked out the window. What got me most, tho, was the high praise of OFMD IS THE FIRST SHOW TO [insert whatever queer thing it did supposedly]. No, it's not. There was even a post on twitter that debunked all those claims one by one. I get it, you're happy that you got your gay pirates, good for you. But give credit where credit's due, otherwise you're gonna piss off a lot of people. People who watched our show struggle and crawl so that your show can run today and be fine and accepted widely.

And personally, I felt disappointed watching it because of the lack of representation. Disappointed that Ed turned out to be just as rainbowy as Stede. Don't get me wrong, I don't have anything against rainbowy, ultra-sweet characters that are big softies. I love them. But not everyone in the lgbtq community is like that. Actually, it's the minority. There are your sweets, there are your glittery rainbows, but the majority is on the more... inconspicuous part of the scale. And there are edgy people (like myself) who don't like glitter, pink, feathers, fluff and a shitton of other things this show had in abundance. You know what made me wince while watching? When I realized that the only person who I could remotely like for the way they weren't so glittery-rainbowy-sweet was Izzy, and I hated him because he was an asshole. Even Jim got the fluffy af oranges arch. So not my (and others') cup of tea.

So yeah, our recent anger and rabidity is not based solely on one post about an insignificant poll (that you're winning only because our fandom is significantly smaller and most people are dispersed between different sites). It's all those things combined and it's the result of them.

And no, I'm not going to finish it with a "please forgive us if we seem a bit angery, we're coping". Flint wouldn't.

[juneviews]

Can you list the best straight couples in Thai movies or dramas in terms of chemistry?

sure :)

MY FAVE THAI DRAMA STRAIGHT SHIPS

KRATHING & DUCHESS (GIRL NEXT ROOM: RICHY RICH)

these two are just my faves, not just bc I love offmild, but also bc their story is simple, fun & wholesome, while still having some depth about generational poverty & superficiality. the chemistry is top-tier & this two are forever my fave thai straight pairing :)

ZEN & YUI (FABULOUS 30)

another off ship, shhhh I'm not biased he just slays so much it's not my fault! zen & yui are quite similar to krathingduchess in the sense that they're generally a very funny couple, yet they actually tackle a lot of issues about self confidence, appearances, intimacy, etc. they're not perfect but they're ADORABLE & I love them sm!

SOMCHAI & LINN (ANGEL BESIDE ME)

angel beside me is my fave straight thai drama bc somchai & linn are SO beautiful & wholesome. but similarly to the other previous ships, this show deals with a lot of deep issues related to poverty, toxic family members, etc. it's truly such a beautiful underrated show & absolutely deserved to pop off when it was released!

MEW & NEO (3 WILL BE FREE)

despite being the most underrated relationship in the 3wbf throuple, mew & neo are extremely iconic! first of all, yes mild lapassalan & joss wayar are two of the hottest people I know, thanks for asking, they make my bi heart very happy 😌 but also I love the evolution they have from enemies to lovers, and being both sex workers means they understand each other very well! they're just very cute together & I love them :)

SILA & MEEN (HUA JAI SILA)

not only is hua jai sila my favorite lakorn, but it's mostly bc of the pairing. I don't usually love pairings where the man is tortured & cold while the woman is perpetually kind & loving, but here it really worked for me. the chemistry is straight up FIRE, and you truly come to believe these two are such a beautiful & powerful team together. absolute cuties, and the fact that the female lead was a tor fan before that lakorn??? ADORABLE!

TANNAM & TEE (HAPPY BIRTHDAY)

to talk about a tragic couple (which also contains mild bc she owns this list lmao), we have happy birthday. mild & push are not only INCREDIBLY good looking together on top of being ABSOLUTELY TOP TIER actors, but the whole writing of this show will take your heart & play squash with it lmao. the chemistry is truly out of this world, and I cherish this show so much. the side ship of tonmai & his best friend (pluem purim & jan ployshompoo) is also ADORABLE!!!

VEE & KATE (THE REVENGE)

with how much I always scream about my love for this show, I hope that everyone knows by now that the revenge is one of the best thai dramas EVER MADE. one reason why I enjoyed this show so much, is that it balances legit the most gruesome murder story with a very cute & wholesome love story, AND IT WORKS. with mook worranit & non chanon being multiple times in this list which makes them thai romances experts, they really deliver a beautiful chemistry & love story. watch after the ending credits of the last episode, though!

BADZ & SMILE (BOY FOR RENT)

there is a reason boy for rent is one of the only straight gmmtv shows to have amassed so many millions of views, and it's that, on top of the hot shirtless men, badz & smile are absolutely one of the cutest pairings ever! their love story is a bit complicated but mond & fon's effortless chemistry really makes every viewer get attached to them immediately!

ANNIE & CHEN (MAMA GOGO)

here we have a very unexpected ship but SUCH a goodie! annie & chen are a funny, opposites-attract kind of ship but their chemistry is fire & they were just absolutely adorable! a truly wholesome pairing that will always put a smile on my face :)

AOM-AM & MIKE (FULL HOUSE)

now bringing it back to an OG iconic thai couple, we have full house! while this show has a lot of flaws, its pairing ISN'T one of them! the chemistry is top-tier, the story very touching & you spend so long with these characters you truly get so attached to them. absolutely adorable pairing :)

YING-YING & KORN / PAT & NOINA (46 DAYS)

now we have three recurring actors on this list at once! 46 days is such a cute show, it's chaotic, a bit surface-level, yet SO much fun! the main pairing composed of baifern & non is chemistry-central and absolutely great, but of course the side pairing of offmild (again! can't believe they got 2 shows together, it was such a slay!) stole my heart :)

KIEW & CHOMPOO (TO ME, IT'S SIMPLY YOU)

here we have another lakorn, that is this time barely a romance & more about a tight-knit community working together for a common goal & being cute, but the ship truly is TOP-TIER! one of the least problematic & toxic, and probably the most wholesome pairing I've ever seen! they're just too pure for this world & I absolutely love them :) (also green (kiew) & pink (chompoo) is my fave color combo hehe <3)

KLUAY & PUP (LOVE AT FIRST HATE)

you want chemistry?? YOU GOT IT! this is a pretty classic enemies to lovers thai story, very reminiscent of lakorns, but made better by the incredible male lead (I fell in love with him during this show, man's HOT!) & the really great chemistry between the actors! truly one of the best thai dramas for it, and even though I wasn't a big fan of all the tropes, this is one of the best thai straight dramas in my eyes!

BANK & LIN (BAD GENIUS)

even though I already loved the non x aokbab ship in the movie, in terms of series, jaonaay & juné were so good together! they even made a song together afterwards hehe, so cute! bad genius is such a good movie & it's also an amazing series, and even though there's a lot going on the brewing romance between bank & lin is SO GOOD! truly a show I'd recommend no matter what anyway :)

MIELLE & KIM (SENIOR SECRET LOVE: BAKE ME LOVE)

on the theme of chemistry, here we have a show that isn't exceptional but is absolutely CARRIED by its pairing! loving both actors from this pairing, it's no surprise they put their whole USSY in the chemistry, like I genuinely love this show bc they're too fucking cute!!! would recommend for a short, wholesome & easy watch :)

PHAT & CHER (CATCH ME BABY)

with the same female lead as the previous ship, we have my favorite straight recent pairing! not only is catch me baby such a fun show that I tremendously enjoyed, but the romance aspect is so cute & the chemistry??? PALPABLE! really such a lovely pairing I swear!

TEE & EL (BANGKOK LOVE STORIES 2: PLEAD)

once again our king non chanon is back, and here we have a story that did kinda disappoint me towards the end but is mostly amazing with a very powerful couple! emotions are high in that series, & I'm also so glad we get to see a really beautiful sex scene between them where usually thai dramas are more conservative, mostly regarding women. the cinematography of this show is also absolutely beautiful!

KRAAM & MAY (THE STRANDED)

I'm gonna try not to cry even though this makes me think of beam papangkorn's death, but the stranded truly was such a special thai show that deserved so much better. this pairing is a bit cliche but made better by the beautiful acting & chemistry beam & pat presented, as well as the beyond perfect cinematography (I think about the firefly scene shown above approximately once a week!) in my opinion, this is one of the most important thai dramas that is a must watch, so I would absolutely recommend it!

MINT & BEBE (MINT TO BE)

mook strikes again, this woman is incapable of having bad chemistry with anyone LMAO. this show is also one of my favorite thai straight series bc it's short, cute & very entertaining. the chemistry between mook & krist is also REALLY good, and the show was quite revolutionary in terms of pda for a gmmtv series at the time. I definitely recommend for a wholesome time :)

SKY & HOSHI (MY DEAR WARRIOR)

idk who thought of pairing up baifern & oab but they ATE! if you like scifi/supernatural shows, this will probably be right up your alley! I personally didn't really love this show even though I enjoyed a lot of aspects, but sky & hoshi truly were a great ship that I remember fondly! the chemistry was amazing & oab looks the hottest he's ever been in that role!

TOEI & TAR (HORMONES)

I couldn't talk about thai straight series without mentioning one of the most iconic ever, hormones! out of all the pairings, there is only one straight one I really loved, and it's toei & tar :) I'm always a sucker for the friends to lovers trope, but I thought this one was especially well done, especially considering toei & tar are some of the least unlikable characters from the show lol. they're very cute & wholesome and I thought I should include a high school love story in this list!

EMMA & PORSCHE (SENIOR SECRET LOVE: PUPPY HONEY)

despite being an offgun stan, I have to admit: I prefered porschemma to pickrome in puppy honey season one lol. despite being ruined in season two, emma & porsche are such a cute & wholesome ship, and them being reunited by dogs, which I'm obsessed with, only made their story cuter!

xxx

[star-shard]

Poor Things Review

What was good: Sets, great. Costumes, very well done. Actors, clearly put their all into the performance. This feels like a movie a lot of critics will love. I've already seen it put in top 10 lists. And honestly? Ok. If this is your favorite movie, shit is subjective, so on. I can tell this was a movie that was specifically written to be uncomfortable. There is a scene implying children watching sex between two 'adults', like. I understand this movie is not attempting anything feel good. It's meant to be weird and odd and a black comedy, like that's not lost on me at all. That being said. I hated this movie. First of all. It's creepy. (it's supposed to be I KNOW), in a way this movie goes out of it's way to be weird and surreal so the subject matter itself sort of blends in with the other weirdness. It's odd and artful and that in a way... balances the premise. But, I'm sorry. The main lead is a baby. She's a toddler. She is a toddler in a grown woman's body. And they make it clear that 'she is neither the mother or the baby'. And. Okay. You know what that sounds like. That 5,000 year old Loli. Oh, she may look like a child, but she's old actually.

Listen. You can say all you want, 'she's a new being, she's different'. But they make it very clear. They put an infant's brain into a woman's body. That's all they did. And then they show sex scene after sex scene with her. Sex, sex, sex, then she becomes a sex worker. And they shove it off as a sex positive empowering thing. Like, hey, she's her own person, she deserves to use her body as she sees fit! Cool. Still a toddler. Still a toddler. STILL A TODDLER. I'm sorry, this was nightmare movie, if it had even half of a soul, would have focused on the horror of the subject matter. I don't care that the deadpan delivery and absurdity was intentional. I don't care that it was meant to be odd on purpose and say something larger about freewill and the human condition and god or sexuality. It was fucking demented.

I don't care how 'clever' it is. How 'good' it looks. The baby of a suicidal woman is in the body of her mother. Aging her up super fast and making her a robotic thing that learns for the plot to make it less creepy when she has sex over and over again is fucking weird. Sorry. This should have been a horror movie. It should have been directed by a woman. This movie is fucking awful. Well acted? Sure. Good looking? Yes. I'm sure there'll be critics enjoying it a lot and saying while the premise is indeed disturbing, it's more of a way of showing the progression of growing up in this world and philosophy or whatever.

Look, I try not to moralize movies. They're movies and fictional for a reason. I think Mysterious Skin is really good, Saltburn was entertaining. I'm not a weird prude that 'doesn't get it'. I just hate this movie. There it is.

[taliskermortem]

okay so the only friend's trailer

a lot happened

a lot

i broke it down and in just over two and a half minutes they fitted in fifty scenes

(i've listed them under the cut)

all character names come from mydramalist so if they're wrong then my bad; if i know the actor but not the character name, i've put the actor's name in brackets; if i have absolutly no idea who the actor even is, i've put a question mark - if anyone can fill those in please do so

but anyway

Top/Mew – having sex on the kitchen counter (not very sanitary boys)

Top/Mew/Ray – outside party, Top being posessive and Ray being mad about it; ‘Mew only has one boyfriend’

Top/Boston – car sex

Sand/Ray – car smile (part of me want first to smile all the time and part of me knows i would not be able to handle it if he did)

Sand/Ray – BED FRIENDS share cigarettes; ‘do I need to pamper you and call you sugar daddy’

Sand/Ray – kiss on the floor with the booze

Boston/Nick – FRIEND WITH BENEFITS electronics store, broken phone

Boston/Nick – making out

Top/Mew – BOYFRIEND laser tag ‘when I take aim I never miss’

Sand/Ray – morning after ‘are you going to charge me… save your money for a shrink’ (ICONIC LINE but also... sex worker sand? i'm so curious where this is going to go)

Top/Mew – sharing shower; 'my only concern was whether or not i came'

Top/Mew – sharing biscuit; 'i just want to make you as happy as possible'

Boston/Nick – red room; ‘you should be glad to be my favourite’

Sand/Nick – argument ‘you hurt my feelings... he's an asshole, why do you even care about him?’ (okay i'm so curious about this friendship because let's be real this is like the only moment in the entire trailer where any of them even look close to being friends)

Namchueam/Mew/Ray/Boston – ‘friends don’t do this to each other’; confrontation with Boston where he gets full on kicked into the pool

Sand/Ray – argument ‘what are we to each other’

Mew/Ray/Top – Mew and Ray hug, I think Top sees this

Mew/Top – argument ‘why do I have to learn this when I already love you’; crying back hug

Sand/Ray – argument ‘you think my life is better with you but it’s going to hell’; Sand throws glass jar on floor

Sand/Ray – ‘now you’re in my life I won’t let you walk away’ (okay total 180 from the previous scene we're definitely in for a rollercoaster of emotions aren't we)

Sand/Ray – record store smile (another first smile to hurt me)

Boston/Nick – electronics store ‘I just want you to love me... I never loved you’ (oh these two are so messy i cannot wait) ONLY FRIENDS, MY ASS

Top/Mew – dancing

Sand/Ray – sitting in bed hug (and another first smile)

Sand/Ray – guitar holding hands

?/Boston – sex scene (okay who is this with? neo is just picking up all the boys isn't he)

(Papang)/Nick – office kiss (GUMPA WHAT ARE YOU DOING?)

Namchueam/(Nonnie) – cheek kiss (les... lesbians? pretty please)

Boston/Nick – swimming trunks on the jetty tickling and cheek kiss (this is adorable i'm going to get whiplash watching this)

Top/Mew – library smile

Top/Mew – lying in bed, Top looking at sleeping Mew and rolling over to hug him

Ray – at the strip club surrounded by women

Sand/Ray – car kiss (same shirt as outside the party)

Pills scattered on counter (i hope they handle whatever this is well)

Top/Mew – shower kiss (continuation of earlier scene)

Sand/Ray – Ray singing in a club and Sand watching him NO MORE ‘FRIENDS’

Sand – playing in a band

JENNIE – Yo on the table with a mic (ITS JENNIE AND SHE'S LOOKING FINE)

Sand – dropping phone and stamping on it

Sand/Ray – undressing, touching tattoo (i wonder what khaotung makes of that tattoo featuring in these scenes like that is actually on his body i believe)

Top/Mew – outside studying side hug

Top/Sand – confrontation and fight ‘it’s clear you can’t take care of what you have’ (I AM SO CURIOUS WHAT IS GOING ON)

Namchueam/? – hand on shoulder of guy sitting down looking upset (who is this? what is going on? i need to know)

Sand/Ray – fighting, push Sand to floor (rude)

Boston/Mew – fighting in the pool (hilarious)

Sand/Ray – sitting in car, Sand says ‘I’ll never take someone like you as my boyfriend’ (boy oh boy)

Sand/Ray – sitting in the bathtub (voiceover ‘can’t you make an exception for me’ - wonder where this line will actually feature)

Sand/Nick – Nick sobbing whilst Sand hugs him (continuation of earlier scene, i'm going to love this friendship i can feel it)

Ray/Mew? – Ray sobbing shirtless whilst someone hugs him from behind ( I think it’s Mew because of the glasses)

Sand – sitting on the floor screaming-crying and breaking my heart

there are some scene from the pilot trailer that i really hope they keep in as well, i liked the mood and styling from that trailer a lot but i guess we'll have to wait and see

[saraminia]

an embarrassing story

If you could replace any actor in any existing film or TV show with Noah, who would you swap?

🥰❤️

An embarrassing story:

This was surprisingly hard! I guess either I don't get embarrassed easily or it's because I never go anywhere or do anything. You know, it's hard to get embarrassed when only your cats are seeing you lol. I had to call my friend and consult her, but even she couldn't remember anything that would have happened to me. Maybe a few things from when I was living in Italy as an au pair when I was young and irresponsible. Once I got so drunk on a night out that I was still drunk in the morning when the baby woke up, so I went and picked him up and was carrying him and the baby monitor down the stairs and feeling very woozy and so I fell and dropped the baby monitor and in all honesty was this 🤏🏻 close to dropping the baby as well. And that's when I heard the cleaning lady come running from the kitchen. I had just got back on my feet and was in so much fucking pain and just sucked it up and smiled and told her I just dropped the baby monitor. She only told me to be careful, but I'm sure she could see and smell that I was drunk. But to my knowledge she never told the parents about this. Oh, and the baby was fine! Like I said, luckily I didn't drop him. Oh, and another tale from those days. My friend had come over from Finland to visit me and I wanted to take her out one night. So we got ready, wore our best clothes and what we deemed very pretty make up and I drove with her to another town where my boyfriend was living at the time. We came to a parking lot and were looking for a parking spot (probably looked a little lost or unfamiliar with the place) when two police officers came up to the car and told me to open the car window. He was asking me very sternly why we were there and what we were doing etc. I was talking to them in Italian, telling that we came to town to meet my boyfriend bla bla bla. This conversation took a while, so my friend asked me in Finnish, what we were talking about and that's when the policemen's suspicions amped up tenfold and they asked to see our passports and why we were in Italy in the first place. That's when it clicked for me. I realized that they thought we were sex workers. We found out later that there is apparently a lot of prostitution in that town and most of the women working the streets are from eastern European countries and I guess these police officers counted Finland as such and our clothes and make up didn't help lolololol Also try explaining to a person who's never heard the word au pair, what it means without it sounding sus 😂😂😂😂😂😭😭😭

If you could replace any actor in any existing film or TV show with Noah, who would you swap?

The first character that came to mind is the og sad boy Christian from Moulin Rouge! But on the other hand I would love to see him in a really good action-drama. Maybe even as a villain. So maybe another Ewan McGregor character, Father Patrick McKenna (the camerlengo) in Angeles & Demons. Or nah... Ooh, I think Noah would be great as Colter Stevens in Source Code! Oh! I know! This is my final answer! Sam Bell in Moon. That's it. That's what I'd love to see the most.

[xomakara]

Miracle Worker

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Chapter 14

It was the next day and you were seated at your desk, looking over some documents for the company's newest actors. Hearing a knock on your office door, you looked up to see Johnny making his way into the room. Today he was wearing dark slacks and a buttoned down shirt, the top three buttons undone.

"Johnny, what brings you here?" You looked at your fiancé. "Are you coming to ask me about my night with Jaehyun? It was only one night and we both agreed that it was it."

"I know that, baby," Johnny said as he plopped down in one of the chairs. "But how was it? Was he a good fuck?"

He leaned forward. "Did he eat your pussy right after you had an orgasm or before? What position did you two do? How many times did he cum?" Johnny asked, now flirting with you.

He knew very well that he wasn't going to get an answer from you. Instead, he continued talking. "And you, honey? Did you let him cum inside of you or just on your face?" Johnny asked. He didn't wait for an answer but instead just kissed your lips passionately.

As Johnny pulled away from you, you realized that you hadn't actually thought about Jaehyun in any sexual way since the first time you both fucked. You remembered last night, but then Johnny interrupted your thoughts and all of the sudden your mind went blank.

With a laugh, Johnny grabbed your hand and pulled you out of the chair. "Baby, I'm going to show you why I'm the lucky guy who gets to spend forever with you," Johnny said.

You could feel your heart beating faster. You felt like every fiber of your being was ready to explode. Your body was alive and feeling warm and tingly everywhere, especially your clit which felt as if it were swelling up even more than usual.

You whole body quivered when Johnny slipped his finger into your soaking wet pussy. He teased you, moving it back and forth slowly and then sliding it inside of you slowly. The man knew exactly what to do and how to make you come and soon enough you began moaning loudly.

"Oh god, Johnny!" You screamed. He loved it when you called his name during sex. There was something special about hearing those words escape your lips while you were screaming and crying out in pleasure.

"That's it, baby. Come for me," Johnny said, continuing to slide his finger in and out of your pussy. You came hard around his fingers , bucking against him.

You quickly sat up and faced him, pulling him into a passionate kiss. When your lips parted, you gave him a wink. Johnny smiled and kissed you once again.

"Thank you for taking care of me," you said.

"You're welcome, baby," Johnny replied, caressing your cheek softly. "Anything for you."

You couldn't help but smile.

"I want to do more stuff...but since we're in the office..." you paused, remembering where they were.

Johnny laughed. "No worries, baby. We can go somewhere later tonight if you really want to."

You nodded your head and then turned towards your computer screen. After a few minutes, Johnny stood up.

"Baby, I'm going to run downstairs and grab us lunch. I'll be right back." You watched him leave the room, his ass flexing as he walked. You shook your head slightly and continued typing away at your keyboard. You weren't thinking about anything other than work and you hoped that your secretary didn't hear anything earlier.

Jisung would have been mortified. You definitely needed to give him a cash bonus. That boy deserved so much more than you were paying him!

Johnny returned to the office with two sandwiches and a cup of coffee for himself and you. As soon as he entered the room, you looked up from your computer.

"Here you go, sweetheart," Johnny said, handing you one sandwich.

You bit into the sandwich as you started to eat your meal.

"What are you doing today, baby?" You asked, stuffing another bite into your mouth.

Johnny chuckled as he took a sip of his coffee. "Taking care of business," he answered.

Your eyes widened. "Business? You mean, getting all of the footage of this weekend's shoots so that we can edit everything together?"

Johnny nodded his head. "Yes. Jaehyun is meeting us there and he wants to meet with you."

You looked surprised. "Me? Why does he need to meet with me?"

Johnny shrugged his shoulders. "Just to talk about the scenes and stuff. Then afterwards, we're going to get lunch. Shouldn't take too long."

"Okay," You said as you finished off the rest of the sandwich.

"Well, let's get going then," Johnny said, holding up the extra bag of food.

You rose out of your seat and hugged him tightly. You then placed your head on his chest.

"Johnny, thank you for helping me through this morning," you whispered.

"Don't worry about it, baby," Johnny said as he stroked your hair. "If you need anything else, just let me know."

"Will do," You replied as you kissed his chest. With that, you gathered your purse and keys and followed Johnny out of the building.

"Hey guys, we're all set," Johnny said as he approached the group of men standing outside the building. He saw Jaehyun standing there with a big grin on his face. The director of the film gave them a nod and they all walked into the studio.

Once inside, Jaehyun went over to a laptop sitting on a table. "The scenes are already filmed and edited. Everything looks great," Jaehyun said, showing everyone the video clips.

You stood back and observed. From what you could tell, the video clips were really nice quality. They were crisp and clear and you could see each facial expression clearly. Jaehyun glanced at you several times and when he caught you staring at him, he quickly looked away.

When the videos were finished playing, Johnny stepped up and spoke to the director.

"We've got most of the script done and we should be able to finish shooting the rest tomorrow afternoon. Is that alright?" Johnny asked.

The director of the film nodded. "That sounds perfect. We're happy with the progress that you guys are making and we're looking forward to having you shoot the rest of the movie this week."

Johnny shook hands with the director and thanked him for his help. Then he turned to you and the others.

"Let's get out of here, shall we?" Johnny said, walking out of the room. You hurriedly made your way behind him.

You both left the studio and headed to the car. Once inside, Johnny helped you fasten the seatbelt and then he drove home. You weren't going far and within twenty minutes, he pulled up to his apartment complex. You looked at Johnny curiously.

"I thought you wanted to get food?" You asked, confused, getting out of the car.

"Yeah, but first we need to take care of some things," Johnny explained.

Before you could protest, Johnny wrapped his arms around you and kissed you gently. His tongue brushed across yours as he slowly pressed his cock against your leg.

You couldn't hold back the moan that escaped your lips. You knew that he wasn't planning on fucking you yet, but still your pussy throbbed uncontrollably and was becoming damp from the sensations that you were experiencing.

After the kiss ended, Johnny looked deep into your eyes.

"Come on, baby," he said, motioning to the front door of his apartment. "Time to go home."

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[cepheusgalaxy]

How many money does Angel have?

Cws: sex mention, implied addiction, drug ment and abuse ment (you know who I'm talking about). Oh, and also a bit of blood in an image

Ok, so, after watching to "Use Me Up (Angel's Order)" (fan music by PARANOID DJ), I started thinking of something. In the song, Angel cites how he needs money and that's the only reason of why he's having sex with some people (I know it's not canon but I think that music has good characterization), and then I remembered how he also says he liked the Hotel at first because he could "crack there rent free".

He's also one of the only characters that ever mentions money. Charlie is Miss Princess of Hell so money is never something she's need to worry about, I suppose. Vaggie is under her wing, we don't know what's Alastor's or Niffty's deal, and we know what Husk does to his. But Angel, along with the Vees, seems to be one of the most worried about money.

We know he makes lots of money for Valentino (Val says so himself), and he is a famous pole dancer, performer, actor and sex worker. He obviously makes a lot of money. But then I noticed most of it probably doesn't go to him.

Usually, I'd think he's pretty well paid, but like. Why would he? He can't leave for a better salary, Valentino literally owns his soul, so no reason to incentive him to stay by paying him nicely. Also, Valentino benefits a lot from keeping Angel low on money: he already expressed how mad he was when Angel moved to the Hotel, so we can assume that it's because he wants Angel close to him. If Angel can't pay rent, he'll sleep anywhere Valentino gives him.

"Hey. Whatever means I can keep cracking here rent free. Crack is expensive."

"🎶Small talk don't pay the bills.🎶"

We all know he joined the Hotel at first not because he believed in Charlie's cause, but because he wanted a free room.

I used to think that was a bit silly, after all he's famous and must make lots of money, but the Hotel was literally his only option. That's why he agreed to stay out of trouble and clean for two weeks (or at least pretend to), just to get a room.

To get away from Valentino.

[tea-with-evan-and-me]

I'm out at a bar in LA with my co-workers on a Friday night. They went off to dance and act silly on the dancefloor, but it's not really my thing so I hung back to people watch.

The recognition of the voice I hear is on the tip of my tongue, but it sounds a bit deeper than I remember it. "Omg, if it isn't 'Little A'! Holy Shit!" The only people that ever called me that were my aunt when I was younger and after offering it up to him one night while we got high....Evan. he thought it was cute so that was his nickname for me from then on.

I turn my body in the direction of the voice so quickly, I almost lose my balance. "Well, I'll be damned. If it isn't Evan Fucking Peters" I say with a beaming smile. We hug each other and it brings back memories that make my heart race. The way he used to embrace me and hug tight and not let go for what seemed like days. It hasn't changed. He has always been a loving person. Even when we were 18.

We pull back and I look into his eyes. His facial features are even more chisled and sculpted since I saw him last. He was a bit heavier back then, but still looked great. The hug gave me an up close and personal sample of his fit body. Muscular arms and chest. This combined with the alcohol makes me suddenly overheat. I wipe sweat from my brow and smile again.

He's staring at me with eyes that used to make me melt."You're fucking beautiful, my God." He laughs and blushes. "I'm so sorry. That was bold."

"No need to Apologize. You're fucking beautiful. Shit, it's been so long! Dude, I'm so proud of you!! Your awards and Dahmer. You are so fucking talented. I knew it then, but you didn't believe me."

"Ha, I still don't..." He trails off

"Typical." I wink at him. He smiles.

"So what have you been up to besides being an amazing actor?" I say

"Oh ya know, dating. Not having the best luck. Living the dream in my condo."

"Wait, wait a minute. The same condo? The condo you bought when we first met? The one we would hang out in and smoke weed?"

"Yep. If I remember right we did more than smoke weed." His eyes go darker and smouldering. Good God.

I'm not typically shy about sex, but I blush. "Well, how could I forget. I lost my virginity to you in that condo."

I have a vivid flashback that seems like it happened yesterday, not almost 20 years ago. Even at the young age of 18, Evan knew how to be gentle. I remember him cradling the back of my head and telling me to keep looking him in the eye. He was afraid I wouldn't speak up if he was hurting me and knew me enough to know it would show on my face. He asked me if I trusted him and then, when I said yes, he softly said the sweetest things to me as he slowly pushed himself inside of me. Stopping and pulling back a bit if I stiffened my body. He would say "just relax. I'm taking my time. We have all night" Then when he was ready to give me everything and bottom out, he asked me if I was ready for him. He kissed my forehead as I cried out from a brief searing pain. It was over quickly. But, nonetheless, he waited a few seconds before he started thrusting. It was gentle and loving and tender. When I told him he could go harder, he refused. He did his best to try to make me cum. Although, I was close, my body couldn't cooperate. He got to the point of no return and moved to pull out but I gently laid my hands on his ass and pushed him further in. The sound of air shooting between my teeth from the sharp pain of it was muffled by his strings of soft moans. I could tell he was holding it back a bit. Trying to be a gentleman. Afterwards, he got a cold washcloth and brought it to me. He helped me clean up a bit and then held it to me. It felt good against the dull throbbing left behind. He was so kind and gentle, I barely bled. He held me to him while we slept that night. We woke up in the same position. Things got hotter from there in and there were plenty of orgasms for me.

"I want you to know that my first sexual experience was absolutely amazing and filled with love because of you"

He just nods his head and a smile twitches at the corners of his hot mouth. "Do you still smoke weed?" He asks me.

"Occasionally, yea."

"Want to get out of here? Go hang out like old times?"

I think for a minute. There was no denying the implications in that question. Should we really do this? Why not?

His eyebrows raise. "Well? What do you think? Do you still trust me?"

I nod my head "I always will"

We head to the parking lot.

(to be continued)

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[gaily-daily-musings]

PR!agent Mobius is assigned to help Loki's image after the celebrity's latest disaster. No one in the firm understands Mobius' little *crush* on the guy. Loki is batshit insane. Drugs, sex, wild escapades in Europe, you name it he's done it. There's even an old rumor he killed a man once. Allegedly.

He's a movie star, a musician, a model, a fashion designer. He's even been a guest on RuPaul's drag race. He goes by one name: Loki. No last name. He's cool like that.

After his latest stunt, Loki is in need of digging out the hole he's dug for himself. And once again, his PR team is saddled with an impossible task. Enter Mobius. The newest member of the team as less and less people are willing to work for the flamboyant celebrity.

Mobius rides up the elevator to the penthouse rooftop with B15. (Does she have a fanon name???) Mobius thought he was doing good keeping his excitement under wraps but Bea scoffs at him.

"Try not to fanboy over him too much." Bea says, rolling her eyes.

"When have I ever not been a true professional Bea?"

"Hmm."

It's only ever been a passing fancy. Less than that even. For what hope did a glorified office worker like Mobius have with the god of mischief himself? Loki had a string of conquests. All far more interesting and powerful than Mobius could ever hope to be. He wasn't delusional. He was just an analyst. Mobius was aware that he isn't the most handsome either. He's got wrinkles. Gray hair. No muscle.

They get to the top at the penthouse. It was as extravagant as the man himself. Gold and green decor everywhere. They find Loki lounging by the pool. He is an absolute vision in Gucci shades.

"Mr. Loki, this is Mobius. Your new PR agent."

Mobius holds up a hand to wave. He knows Loki doesn't do handshakes.

Loki looks at him under the brim of his sunglasses. He gives his suit and brown pants a disgusted once over.

"Swell." He deadpans.

"It's a pleasure to finally meet you." Mobius steps a bit closer. "I'm thrilled we'll get to work together."

"Lemme guess, you're a fan?" Green eyes sweep over him again. Judging coldly.

"Well, fan can be a bit harsh in context…"

"He's the best in the agency." Bea assures Loki. She gives Mobius a sharp look, telepathically telling him to tune his eagerness down.

"Right," Loki says.

Bea leaves and Mobius suggests they get to work. Loki pitters around the penthouse getting another drink as Mobius pulls up his file on his laptop.

"I think we should start with your Twitter. Best stay off the whole thing entirely for a while until interest dies down."

The last tweet had been a doozy. Loki had called out a well-beloved actor calling them a donkey who couldn't act for shit. Loki just didn't really think his posts through a whole lot. Especially while drunk. He'd made quite a few spelling mistakes.

"Whatever." Comes the reply.

"Also I think an apology sooner rather than later would be best in this case and–"

"I'm not apologizing." Loki hisses. "That asshole had it coming! He can die in a ditch somewhere!"

Mobius keeps his lips from twitching up. "That's the kind of thing you shouldn't be posting."

"I'm the only one with the balls to say it!"

"Be that as it may, it doesn't look good."

Loki rolls his eyes, though it was hard to see from the sunglasses.

"I don't give a damn about my reputation."

This time Mobius does smile. "Living in the past, it's a new generation."

Loki pauses, staring at him in confusion. Mobius clears his throat awkwardly.

"It's…it's a song, nevermind. So, anyway, for apology ideas we can either go with text or video. Personally I think video is always a nice touch because…"

"What was it? The movie or the band?"

"Hmm?"

"That made you a fan?"

Mobius smiles. "That's irrelevant."

Loki tilts his head. "Is it? You know most people who work for me don't like me."

"You're a very polarizing individual. Speaking of which, the apology video–"

"People who claim to like me are just wanting to fuck me or get fucked by me. You strike me as a bottom from the top kind of guy."

Loki's sunglasses have slid down his long nose. He leans into Mobius' space. When had he gotten so close?

"Mr. Loki I am here to help you. My only ulterior motives are to get paid in the process."

Loki squints. Then he huffs and plops down on the chair across him.

"I'm not doing an apology."

Mobius sighs. "You need to show the people that you can be sympathetic."

"I don't need anyone to understand me let alone sympathize with me!" He slumps over in his chair and curls into it like a languid cat.

Mobius pauses. "No. Perhaps not. But it is nice to be understood. For someone else to get us fully."

Loki's gaze flickers.

"You have so much raw talent within you Loki. Talent that has been crushed and cut and ripped away. By circumstance and cruel injustice, by the weight of fame and fortune. But I truly believe that you are worth more than what you think you deserve."

Loki is quiet. His green eyes are visible over the tops of his glasses. For a few moments he is open and soft. And then something hardens and his lips turn down.

"So that's why you're here. You wanted a little project."

"I don't want to fix you, Loki." He says gently. Carefully. "I just want to help other people see the real you."

Loki stands, sliding his sunglasses back up on his head. His kimono falls around his figure perfectly.

"I've always been 'the real me.' If you think for one moment you're going to change any of that you can fuck off!"

Loki storms away.

Mobius sighs. They've got a long way to go. The problem was Loki was too guarded. And Mobius was too fond. He could recognize that at least. It took almost nothing for him to drop the "mister" and call him Loki. He was coming on too familiar. He can't help it. Loki felt familiar to him. This didn't feel like a first meeting. It felt like chatting up an old friend. A friend who was in trouble and was too proud to admit he needed help.

"It was the first time you went to rehab." He calls after him. "When I became a fan."

Loki stops and turns. There's tension between his shoulders.

"I don't pay much attention to celebrities. Not unless I need to for my job. I don't know their childhoods or who they're married to. I don't follow their careers. But when I heard Loki, The Loki, was attending rehab I became curious."

"That was over ten years ago."

Mobius nods. "I know. And I've been watching ever since. Your highs and lows. Quite a lot of lows. But you always picked yourself back up. Despite everything. Despite the backlash. And you always gave as good as you got. That's pretty admirable in my book."

Loki folds his arms, leaning back against the kitchen counter. His smile is a knife.

"Many have tried to get under my skin." He says slowly, a growl in his voice "You think you'll be the one to break me?"

"I don't want to tame you Loki." Mobius says. It's still too fond. But he can't help himself. He just loves him. "I just want to help you realize your full potential."

And then finally, finally Loki relaxes. His guarded demeanor changes as swift as evening to night.

"Alright Mr. Agent man, what do you suggest?"

Mobius opens his mouth.

"–and NO apologies!"

Mobius closes his mouth.

-

Over the course of their burgeoning friendship Loki starts to put the moves on Mobius. Calling him Mobi and testing the man's limits and his patience. Loki's hands always seem to stay towards Mobius' tie. Tightening or loosening or flattening it. Mobius takes great care to never wear the same one twice.

Mobius knows better than to accept any of his advances. He was a professional. Also part of him was convinced Loki was just doing it as some sort of prank. He couldn't possibly be interested for real.

In the meantime, Mobius' brain starts short circuiting and desperately trying to stay on task whenever Loki decides that today was a "no underwear" kind of day and walks around in nothing but a long t-shirt. Miraculously Mobius manages. Loki in turn is intrigued and frustrated by this man who seemingly ignores all of his amazing flirting skills. Rude. He must have him.

At some point Loki takes Mobius with him to a photoshoot. He's launching his summer line of clothing. He looks incredible as always. Mobius just stands there like some dumb struck fool as Loki poses for the camera.

As the cameraman snaps pictures he silently watches and captures the soft glances Loki throws Mobius' way. Holy shit these two are in love.

-

The photos are released and an article is written. It's the first time Mobius has found himself the subject of a scandal.

-

"Have you fucked him?" Val asks Loki out of the blue. Her brow is raised in accusation.

"What? No! Of course not."

"What do you mean of course not? You literally don't have any standards!"

"Do too!"

"Didn't you used to date a guy who referred to himself as the Grandmaster?"

Loki winces. "In my defense I was drunk. And high. A little bit of both."

"For three months??"

"...yes."

Val rolls her eyes.

-

"Your nail polish looks lovely today by the way." Mobius tells him.

Loki hums pleasantly. "I bet you say that to all your clients."

-

Whenever someone compliments Loki, it's about his eyes. His face. His body. It's about his tongue, the lies he can spin on screen behind a camera. (Or behind closed doors as well). But Mobius says that he is brilliant with the upmost sincerity. Loki doesn't even know where to begin with that kind of genuineness.

"...I mean, you graduated top of your high school and attended Harvard with cum laude honors! You're so clever Loki!"

Loki's cheeks are red. He's distantly aware he's blushing. He can't remember the last time he's done that.

"Thank you." He says stupidly.

-

Today was a booty shorts and crop top day. Loki lay stretched out over Mobius' lap. Mobius moves to take a drink from his mug. Loki moves causing Mobius to accidentally spill cold coffee on his belly. Mobius hurriedly wipes it off.

"It's fine. I've had worse fluids on me." Loki sits up, inching closer. Mobius pulls away. A frown is plastered on his face. Loki feels exasperated.

"One kiss won't hurt you, you know." Loki says.

"There are ways other than sex to show affection." Mobius replies like Loki is a toddler. "Like pancakes! I can make you some breakfast."

Then he actually gets up to do so. Loki is left feeling sexually frustrated. But then later when he's presented with a smiley face pancake with whipped cream he can't deny the warmth in his chest.

-

(Guys I don't know how they get together. I didn't think about this very hard this isn't even a fic, this is just a discombobulated ramble give me a BREAK)

-

Mobius tends to ramble when they have sex. But it's not exactly porn star worthy dirty talk. It's quite simple to be honest.

"So good!" He'll moan, head thrown back as Loki sucks him. "So, so good! You're so good!"

He'll get stuck on that word. Good. As if Loki really is that. Not just a good lay, but a good person.

It was kind of endearing actually. Loki thinks he likes Mobius' boring brand of dirty talk. And more than that he likes the wrecked look he can make of the older man with his tie askew and face still so conflicted. Like this was wrong and they should stop. And yet they keep going.

It's not the best sex he's ever had. In fact it's rather vanilla by comparison. But Mobius holds him so tenderly when they fuck, so awestruck, that Loki feels his heart race.

Loki likes it best when he rides him up and down. Squeezing every last drip of cum out of him.

[purposelynana]

What Did I Watch: #32

This week, what? Been drowning in work and Eid. But I'm back.

Step By Step was a nightmare and it was fucking good. Nightmare is such an understatement. It was thorough portrayal on being a corporate slave. That's why I called it nightmare. And a blessing.

For the longest we'd been served by half-assed representation about office workers. Before Step By Step, there was A Boss and A Babe, and I swear to God I should know from the title alone, this would be a complete trash. And also Bed Friend, where definitely the focus wasn't on the office. Too bad. I know the sex scene was the talk of the town, but well lemme emphasize once more, if you want to watch porn, just watch porn, instead of pushing porn onto contemporary show. Or at least if you take out the porn, it still makes a decent story.

Yet Step By Step is different. It was scary because how similar it was to my office life. I had this unsettling feeling while watching it. I don't think it was bad per se, but definitely that was something I don't want to repeat. Yes, this is written by someone who has been in the office, worked in the office and maybe get abused in the office. And for the love of God, thank you for its depiction of office love story that it's believable. Love in the office does happen very slowly, delicate (dude it'll involve HR at some point it has to be delicate), and full of understanding.

Such a good watch.

Skam-fication of Korean BL.

The Eight Sense is why we need Evak-coded characters grace our screen. The moment Jihyun and Jaewon met is a constant reminder that to me Skam will always be the greatest queer media out there. Because it was true to themselves. And heck, I don't think anything will ever get close to it, until now. Wow.

There was no necessary side couple. Weird filler. Every scene has its purposes and actually push the narrative. The characters did develop. Great cinematography and directing. Phenomenal acting by rookies??? And I had the loudest sigh after finishing it. Thank God for your mercy.

I got shredded in pieces, then stitched bit by bit, and the wound healed in the most pleasant way. I lived by angsty stories and beautiful resolve. From time to time, I wonder when will we get a story that it's just beautifully heartbreaking and still giving a sense of hope at the end of its run. Maybe it will take so many years and a great deal of trial and error until finally we're going to come across something like this.

And finally on a whim, I decided to watch La Pluie. No idea why. Perhaps because the color palette on it seemed soft. Or the idea of having to listen to your soulmate on the rain sounded too whack but somehow I was convinced of the world building that had been going on in the back. Plus, this little pulp never wasted any moment and I appreciate that. There are plots going on in the times when BL just having only vibes without substantial context.

My only beef for now, is the sound. The background sound was too loud, sometimes buried the surrounding sound that supposed to come out. Such as when they talked on the side of the road, I barely couldn't hear any cars or as simple as other people talks. It lessen the believability of this world.

Yet, it's still a good recommendation. Up till now it doesn't make my blood boil for having some stupidity shit that no one couldn't explain. Fingers crossed it could land smoothly. Well somehow it makes me think why I couldn't accept Oxygen but I could embrace this. Big question indeed.

There will be rants coming shortly....

I promised myself to watch Our Skyy then naaah. I kept thinking about the way GMM does things. I've never seen an entertainment agency that bad of handling the misbehavior of their actors. The very obvious way that the only thing they care is just making more money from shitty fan services and merchandises. To make more money from parasocial relationship that they build over time. I don't care if in real life the actors actually close or not. We suppose to don't care in the first place. It's their privacy, in which should not be trading commodities. It's fucked up. Our Skyy is a trading commodity. Well, it has always been trading commodities. But at least don't make that obvious. Dolls, blanket, snacks, it's not fucking smooth at all. I'm bothered. It's not helping the narrative. The narrative is already over. It is a walking ads. That's for sure. You're fucked when the dolls is the one taking over the discussion rather than the story. But well, these days who cares right? People need money, not some substantial storytelling. Not every production house can act like HBO right?

[casanovatales]

Did you ever wonder what it is like to date a callboy?

Well, I've got you. Here's a tragedy in 4 acts.

Act one:

Let's call this one.. I don't even know how to call this. (very promising, I know.. unlike him).

As you may already know, I‘m a Sex worker, one of the oldest professions of all time. I‘m also a porn actor.. so I met up with this guy, he’s a producer.. so naive as I was back then. I thought, great, so maybe I can quit my day job to become a porn actor full time if he likes me.

I invited him for dinner. I'm a pretty decent cook. But when he was over, it became clear very quickly that he wasn‘t interested in me or my cooking skills, he just wanted to fuck. But also he doesn‘t want to be one of many. We talked. We go to his hotel, we fuck on the street, because we didn‘t got to his room fast enough.

Finally, in his room. Guess what. We didn‘t fuck. He wanted to cuddle. What's wrong with that? Everything. He just wanted to be different from the others.

In the morning, he made clear I could leave and got into the shower. I left, with his credit card. (I mean, we fucked, so he owes me, right? Why should give away my body for free? It's my job)

He came back a few days later. After a lot of going back and forth. Wanting more. A Relationship. Big no for me.

I didn't new it back then, but just like that.. 'the stalker' was born.