#angry eunuchs

[your-girl-circe]

I want to say something right now that is not guaranteed as a standard fact , because obviously it depends on each situation, but it is something that I see all the time.

Most famous people, or people that actually succeed economically, the majority of them coming from an environment with chaos, meaning bad parents, or poverty, etc.

The minority are only people that came from actually a good family or with money.

Do you wanna know why this happening?

In the first instance, the successful person didn't have anyone to find support. He never found warmth, so he became the best person he could ever DEPEND on , he realized he got nothing to lose or to risk and that's why he tried.Because he know that he is already in a bad position so there's not a bad outcome, because if he fail he will just return in the same bad position he is at right now.Most of them, sooner or later, no matter the falls, succeed.

People, on the contrary, that's coming from good parents or wealth, it is hard to succeed.Meaning, they remain in the same "caste" (again. most of them not all of them). U wanna know why? because their parents are people that actually CARE about their kid. And in a case scenario, if the kid want to try something out of his comfort zone, the parents probably gonna be the reason to stop him because they don't want their kid to face failure.So because the kid actually received love and love it's parents, gonna be affected by their opinion because the kid know that whatever advice they give, they never meant to took him down or sabotage him. And he may cut his dream out and probably live all his life with a "what if" on his mind. In contrast with the first instance when the parents have HORSESHIT mindset and doesn't give a shit about their kids future.

The kid in the second instance have to really try "against them" which is hard as well, the person of course cant face the difficulties like the first one, but he really have to deal with other hard parameters. He has to put effort and *the most important* to make correct "calculations" by not putting everything he has in the beginning because he is already in a good position (wealth) , and if he is going to risk all his networth probably he might fail.

Well, this post is not only promoting the fact that people with a bad environment will succeed.But, it is a post for you to think.

Most people probably reading this, are not coming from good environments because I see the sabotage quotes yall posting and generally y'all have no money right now.Instead of listening to bullshit or thinking why the motherfucker u texted didn't answer or why the girl u want wants the more successful one, try to take these examples as a mainspring to actually try to change your lifeline, you drawed BLACK and will probably put you nowhere.

People in both instances have something common.They listened to themselves no matter the difficulties both examples facing. They made the right calculations and considered every possibility. In your case scenario, what do you have to lose?

People who actually listen and believe to themselves know better than the environment they're dealing with even tho they probably communicate with them EVERY DAY! Of course, you have to try hard. Nothing comes magically, and nothing that's worth.. coming quickly.

Today's task is to sit down and face reality.

If you have the chance to change your faith and fate, why do you decide to waste yourself scrolling, watching bullshit and burning your cells rather than actually doing the work your mind gonna be stressed about?

Educate yourself, study to graduate, take that opportunity you are afraid of.ACT! JUST TAKE THE DECISION AND ACT!You have nothing to lose.And this kind of stress you will feel (which is not stress is a fear) is revitalating.

Have faith.

[gglitch1dd]

Stud (Bull Eijiro x Heifer Reader)

Day 2 of Breedingtober

<<MASTERLIST>>

Eijiro has finally been chosen as a stud and you're the heifer chosen to have his calves

There is Farmhand Izuku x Heifer Reader included in this as well

Warning: Hybrids! (cow and bull), heats and ruts mentioned, farm setting, lactation, lactation kink, BREEDING, pregnancy kink, hybrids are basically naked all the time cause why would they wear clothes?, Katsuki's gay ass

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“Eijiro! Eijiro, come here boy!”  

The young bull perked up at the calling. He sat up from where he was lying down under a tree and turned to the fence. Standing there with an apple was Katsuki. His favourite farmhand in this new farm he was sold to. He perked up at the sight, quickly moving towards the blond man at the wooden fence. The large Kirishima bull hybrid had his tail wagging as he put his hands on the fence and looked down at Katsuki with an excited smile. Katsuki chuckled as he handed him an apple and reached up to scratch the back of one of his black floppy ears. “Hey there buddy. How’s my prized bull doing?” He asked.  

Eijiro took a bite of the apple with a nod of his head. “Pretty well, actually. I had a nap not too long ago and I said made some new friends. Rikkido and Pony over on the other side of the fence, they’re nice.” Although Katsuki couldn’t understand the language that cow hybrids spoke, he still listened anyway. It was sort of a one-way communication with hybrids understanding human speech but not being able to communicate back. But Katsuki and Eijiro always had a way to make communicating work. 

Katsuki smiled with a nod of his head. “I’m glad it was good, buddy.” He stated. The blond lowered his head with a sigh as he shook his head. It caused rise of suspicion from Eijiro as he raised an eyebrow as he looked to the blond. Katsuki looked up at him. “You know… Aizawa said that he thinks that you’re ready to become a stud.”  

At that Eijiro’s ears perked up with a surprised look on his face. Eijiro had been an adult bull for a while now and had just been transferred to this new farm, away from the one he spent his entire life on. It was something that Eijiro knew was coming. The same thing happened to his father when he was his age too. He had always looked up to his father. Being a big, tough and strong bull that was able to take care of the cows and heifers on the farm as well as their own. His father was a great stud, always getting a calf in a heifer or cow with not much try, but he was also caring too. He was one of the reasons Eijiro was the bull he was today. So, at the news that the big scary guy that was Aizawa thought that he was well adjusted enough to sire a calf was music to his ears.  

Eijiro perked up with a bright look in his ruby eyes, he let out affirmative noise as he nodded his head furiously. “That would be great!” He mooed to Katsuki’s ears. A bright big smile on his face as he nodded his head furiously. “I would love that!” 

Katsuki sighed as he folded his arms over his chest, with an almost disappointed look. “I know buddy but… I don’t know if that’s for you.” Eijiro’s smile froze as he blinked in confusion. He tilted his head confused. Katsuki shook his head with a frown. “I mean, you are a great bull and all, but I don’t know if you could handle breeding a heifer. I mean, Izuku did say he had one of his best heifers ready for you, but I don’t know. I think you’re more of a eunuch type of bull.”  

At the word ‘eunuch’, Eijiro froze. “Eunuch… Eunuch!” Katsuki’s eyes widened at the sudden change in behaviour. If there was one thing about the dark blacked haired bull hybrid, it was that he was a naturally a calm and friendly bull. In his time here, Katsuki had never seen him aggressive or inherently angry. There was one time that he chased off a younger bull for bothering some of the pregnant cows when they had their time at the lake, but even then, he seemed more disappointed than angry. Now, however… Katsuki wasn’t sure how to feel. The large redhaired bull picked up Katsuki by the collar of his flannel, lifting him up. Eijiro let out a loud huff from his nose in anger. He glared down at the blond with an aggressive stance to the blond. “Now what would make you think that.”  

Katsuki withheld a smirk as he swallowed down hard, reminding himself of the situation at hand. He put his hands up in defence. “Fine, big guy. How about you just meet her, and we see how it goes, but I’m just saying that you seem more of a-” Another loud huff went to Katsuki’s face as he let out a low growl. “Okay. Okay. Put me down, big guy.”  

Eijiro glared down at Katsuki with a scowl. He let out a hum before letting go of the blond farmhand. Katsuki landed back down on his boots. He dusted down his flannel, trying to control the blush on his face. He looked up at the bull who seemed rather offended with him, is arms folded over his bare chest. He motioned for Eijiro to walk with him. Katsuki led him to the gate of the fence.  

Eijiro hated being in a bad mood, especially when meeting and talking to heifers and cows because he knew how sensitive they were to the moods around them. Katsuki let him out onto the dirt road, allowing Eijiro free of being held in the fence, however Katsuki knew Eijiro was a good bull. He had always been, from as long as Katsuki knew him and from what he heard from his previous owners. As Katsuki led the still pouty bull, his walkie-talkie buzzed.  

“Kacchan, where are you?” A voice asked.  

Katsuki rolled his eyes as he picked up the walkie-talkie from his belt and lifted it up to his mouth. “I’m bringing in big red. Do you have her?”  

“Of course, I do.” The voice sounded offended. “I just wanted to make sure I wasn’t wasting my heifers time. My cows have a lot to do, you know.”  

Katsuki sighed in annoyance. His comrade and fellow farm hand (and best friend although he would never admit it), Midoriya Izuku or as Katsuki liked to call him-Deku, was in charge of the heifers and the cows. Mostly because they all liked him best but also because he was softer with them. He cared for them a whole bunch which resulted in them being spoiled rotten by him. “And this is why you take care of the heifers and I take care of the bulls. Now shut up, we’re almost there.”  

Eijiro looked around at the barn he had never really been in before. It wasn’t very big and was basically only one room, but it was soft and cosy inside. The floor was layered with soft hay, blankets and pillows. It seemed cosy and sweet. Eijiro had never seen a stall liken this unless it was for pregnant or birthing mothers. However, there was something less maternal about this area, an underlying smell that told him that this was more about creating life in a different stage. Taking his attention was a heifer that sat down on the soft hay. The green haired farmhand that worked with Katsuki crouched beside you, a black cowboy hat on his head that matched Katsuki’s. You looked up to the opened door to Katsuki and Eijiro. You tilted your head in slight interest.  

Izuku smiled as he caressed your head gently. “Hey Y/N, that’s the nice bull I told you about. That’s Eijiro. You know him, he just came a few weeks ago.” Izuku spoke to you gently, his voice keeping you relaxed as Katsuki moved in front of Eijiro, trying to keep the bull from approaching you too fast. Izuku pat your head softly before standing up. “We’ll be leaving the two of you to get to know each other for a bit. We’ll be just outside, and we’ll be back in a bit, okay?”  

You looked up at him and let out a sweet smile. “Okay.” You nodded your head, although to Izuku it sounded like a sweet little moo.  

He gave you another heart stealing smile as he tapped your nose. “Good girl.” He turned to walk over to Katsuki who had turned to Eijiro.  

Katsuki pointed a finger up at Eijiro with a stern look. “Behave. Be the good bull I know you are.” Eijiro let out a huff in offence that he thought that he’d be anything but gentle. Katsuki glared at him for a second before him and Izuku left, closing the door just a smidge behind them, just in case something happened.  

Eijiro turned back to you and where you sat. Your tail swished behind you as you had your hands on the ground before you as you played around with some flowers. You pat the ground next to you for him to come and join you. “Hi.” You chirped out to him.  

Eijiro smiled as he walked over slowly to you. “Afternoon.” He carefully moved down and rather ungracefully plopped down beside you making you giggle. His smile broadened at the sound of your giggles. “My name’s Eijiro.” 

“I’m Y/N.” You tilted your head to the side. “I’ve heard a lot of things about you.” Eijiro let out a confused huff with a raised eyebrow that made you giggle. “The heifers and cow talk a lot. You seem really popular with the ladies.” 

That new piece of information brought a blush to Eijiro’s cheeks as he straightened up. He let out a chuckle as he scratched the back of his head. “I am? Jeez, I didn’t know.”  

You found it amusing that such a big and handsome bull didn’t see himself worth the attention. You nodded your head. “Yep. They were wondering if you were gonna be a stud or not, but I guess I know my answer now.” You leaned forward closer to him, your eyes assessing his body that made Eijiro’s face run hot. “I have never seen a Kirishima bull before, I’ve only heard about you guys. I heard you were a lot of money, big guy.” 

He let out an embarrassed chuckle. “Yah, it seems that way. Kirishimas… well, we’re good at breeding strong calves so often than not we sell for more apparently. Or that’s just what my father told me.” He recited.  

You shifted to face him, even though you smiled sweet, what you were about to say wasn’t as innocent as you appeared. “So can you give a strong calf?” You tilted your head to the side, your ears moving with you.  

Eijiro froze for a moment at your question, an inherit desire to mount you running through him. It was a feel he had felt before with heifers in heat that he might walk past, but not one he tried to act upon, not unless he was allowed to. Like right now. Why else would they leave the two of you together but to prompt a sort of bonding to allow for him to breed you. It was obvious and yet, it didn’t make the desire any less.  

The bull hesitated before shrugging. “I’d have to check… May I?” 

You weren’t sure what he was asking but you allowed him. “Okay, but what- EEP!”  

You were pushed down into the hay, Eijiro on top of you as he moved his nose to your neck. The feeling of him sniffing you made you giggle as he inspected you. You were soft. You were so soft, your skin so plush. He could smell the milk heavy in your breasts showing that you were a dairy heifer and one that produced a lot by the looks of it. Perfect for a calf and for the farm. He moved his gaze down to your round little chubby tummy that he loved. It showed that you were healthy. He moved his eyes down before looked at your fur coat over your legs and hat your hips. Your spotted coat was cute and matched you pretty well. However right between your legs, hidden was a place that smell sweet. He nosed at your slit as he let out a huff.  

You let out a small squeak at the war feeling against your sex, a flushed look on your face. You were a heifer for a reason, so clearly you hadn’t had a sexual interaction like this before. Eijiro found it cute with how he could already smell your arousal off of you. He moved to spread your legs open a bit more, allowing him to see a beautiful wet cunt. He hummed in approval. He could tell by the smell and look of you that you were close to your heat. That was a good thing.  

Without warning, he ran a tongue up your sex making you squeal in surprise. Eijiro nodded his head as he hummed. “Yah… I could. You seem perfect for me.” He stated simply, almost as if this whole display done by him wasn’t as heat inducing as it was for you as for him. He moved back to look down at you from above. He smirked, “Wanna be mine? I promise you, darling, I’ll stuff you full and give you as many calves as you want. I’ll take care of you and protect you. You won’t need to worry with me.”  

You felt a flush over your neck and face. With a big and handsome bull like him over you, it felt almost stupid to say no. You nodded your head almost wordlessly. “Okay.” 

“Good morning, everyone!” Izuku opened the barn where the heifers stayed, early morning tired moos filled the air just how he liked it.  

Izuku loved his job as a farmhand, but most of all, he loved his heifers and cows. Now don’t get Izuku wrong, he knows that there are certain rules he will never break when it comes to them. But it was no secret that Izuku would do anything make his ladies happy, even if it meant bending the rules just a little bit (part of the reason why all the sugar cubes went missing).  

He unlocked the stalls, allowing the heifers to move out of the barn before him fetching their breakfast. However, one of the heifers paused outside her stall. Izuku looked to Momo who let out a soft huff from her nose. “Hey there, girl.” He scratched underneath her chin. “What’s up?” 

She looked over to one of the last stalls, your stall. Izuku furrowed his eyebrows as he peaked in to see. You were lying in your bed of soft blankets over hay as you tried to regulate your breathing. You had your eyes closed as you squeezed your eyes shut. Izuku let out a breath, seeing as you had finally went into your heat. He could tell last night that you were close but not there yet.  

He turned to Momo and smiled. “Good girl. Go join the others. I’ll bring breakfast soon, let me just milk Y/N before taking her away for a bit.” Momo nodded her head as she trotted out of the barn. Izuku turned to you, moving to enter your stall. He carefully slipped in before crouching down towards you. He gave you a sad smile. “Hey there, sugarcube.” He let out lowly as he put a hand to your side, your skin warm under his calloused hard-working hands.  

You opened your eyes with tears in them as you whined in pain and need, reaching your head up to look at him. “Hurts…” 

Izuku shushed you gently as he gently began to massage your flank. “I know, sugar, I know. I promise to get you to Eijiro so that he can take real good care about you, but I need to milk you first.” You whined at the idea. “I know, I know. I promise I’ll be quick and gentle.” He left you for a moment leaving you to your own devices.  

You weren’t entirely sure what was going on, your head feeling a bit light and fluffy and yet there was this aching and pounding feeling between your legs that needed to be satiated. You had only ever experienced it twice before, and the first time was the time that big scary Aizawa determined that you were ready to become a cow and he just needed to get a bull to do the job. Which bull was the question.  

But now you had Eijiro, and the thought of him made your cunt ache as slick laced your lips. You shifted in need. You felt empty. You felt so empty. You needed something to help. You needed a bull. You needed a big large red haired with black fur, ruby eyed bull to give you a calf. That’s what you needed. And you did the one thing your instincts told you to do whenever you were like this, and it was call out for a bull.  

“Keep all the bulls on their side of the fence until we put them together and then-” Izuku turned at the sound of bellowing. He moved over the now sterilised equipment and quickly made his way to you. You were still in your stall, not hurt or anything but you seemed desperate. You let out small desperate cries.  

“Deku, the fuck was that?” 

“Y/N. Just get Eijiro to the breeding pen, I’ll be there in like five to ten minutes. I have to milk her and stretch her out first.”  

“You have to do WHA-” 

Izuku switched off the walkie-talkie and moved inside with you. He shushed you sweetly as he moved to sit on the bench that was in your stall. “Hey, sugarcube, hey, there’s no need to cry. It’s okay.”   

He carefully picked you up, years of working on a farm making it easy for him and put you onto his lap, but you were too needy to care. Izuku shushed you sweetly, his calming voice making your sounds a bit softer as he gently tried to lull you into a sense of safety. He carefully moved one hand to your breast. He felt around, feeling how tense and full you were. He squeezed earning a pained sound from you.  

He frowned. “Y/N, why didn’t you tell me?” he asked softly. “I asked you if you needed milking yesterday and you said no.”  You looked away from him, hiding your face. However, Izuku already knew the answer. He loved all his heifers and cows too much mot to know them front to back. He let out a sigh. “I know it hurts, honey. I know that when you near your heat, your tits get sensitive, but it has to be done the else you’ll get sick.” He put it simply.  

Izuku left the matter at that, as he went to massaging you carefully. The feeling had you relaxing in his lap as he gently massaged your breast. You hummed in pleasure at the feeling. Izuku moved to gently pinch your nipples making you squeak in slight pain, however he got what he wanted when he saw milk dribble out onto his fingers. He quickly moved to grab the suction cups that go over your breasts and carefully put them there. Without warning he started it, but immediately you let out a loud groan in pain.  

The suction around your breasts was painful but also arousing as first small dribbles of milk started to leave before slowly the cup started to fill with milk. Izuku carefully stroked your head, smiling down at you as he placed a kiss to your head. “You’re doing so well, sugarcube. You’re doing so well for me.” He praised. You tried to hold back your whimpers as you felt his gentle yet calloused hands move to your sex. He moved a finger up your slit making your hips stutter. “It’s okay, darling. I just have to stretch you out before I take you to Eijiro. He’s a big bull and I don’t want him to hurt or tear you.” 

It was often a concern for the handlers that delt with heifers that had never been bred before. Their heats often kick started the bull’s ruts and Lord knows nothing can stop a bull in his rut from mounting a cow in heat, even if the cow isn’t stretched out enough.  

Izuku carefully moved his fingers up and down your slit before pushing a finger inside you. You let out a low moan at finally having something inside you as he carefully tried to stretch you out slowly. At the feeling of pleasure from your sex, finally your milk started to push out a bit more and the pain was starting to become void.  

Izuku smiled. “Good girl. Such a good girl. You see, I knew you could do it.” He praised, ignoring the soft squelch of your cunt in his hands as he let slick drip down his fingers. “You’re doing so well for me and look at all that milk you’re giving me. You’ve always been such a good girl for me, giving so much for us.” He carefully started to push in two fingers making you hiss but your leaking hole allowed it. Your eyebrows were furrowed at the building tension in your abdomen that was begging to be let out the more attention that was given to your sex. “I bet once you’re pregnant with a calf, you’ll probably produce even more, huh.” At the mention of a calf, Izuku felt your cunt tighten around his fingers as a low moan left your mouth at the thought. You wanted a calf. You really wanted one. Izuku chuckled in amusement. “Oh sweetheart, it’s okay. I’ll get you to Eijiro right after this. How about you let Eijiro knock you up for me, hm? Wouldn’t that be nice? I’d get to take such good care of you, and you’ll even give me a calf to look after. You’d make such cute calves.” 

Your little desperate moans turned a bit more restless as a new feeling came to your abdomen. With his extra hand he moved to switch off the device, seeing as you were done and carefully took off the cups from your breasts. Your tits were perked up and sensitive, still dripping with small dribbles of milk, but Izuku could trust that Eijiro would deal with the rest. He could tell you were close by the way you were squirming and how restless you seemed. He carefully pushed another finger in but increased his pace.  

You thrust back against his fingers, moving to turn your head and push your face into his chest. You could feel the building ache only growing and you could feel that you were about to cum. Your breaths quickened as you arched slightly against him. Your sex tightened around his fingers as a squeal left your mouth. Slick squirted out of you as you came undone on his fingers.  

“Good girl, such a good girl.” Izuku praised sweetly as he fingered you through your orgasm. You slumped back against him, temporary bliss in your head as he finally got you stretched enough to take Eijiro without tearing. He smiled. He picked you up, standing up carefully as he kicked open your stall door.  

You were too blissed out and content for a bit to care much. You understood why heifers and cows always looked forward to their heats now. If this is how they were treated, you could understand why. You weren’t too aware of what was going on, so you weren’t paying attention when Izuku approached the shed that you were in when you met Eijiro.   

Katsuki was inside trying to calm the restless bill that was pacing back and forth, a lasso around him to keep control of him. However, Eijiro’s attention quickly changed when his nose picked up your scent. He lifted his nose into the air sniffing for a moment before turning to where you lay in Izuku’s arms. The bull was clearly already pent up, probably having his rut nearby due to encountering you a few says ago. It was clear with how heavy his balls looked. Poor bull.  

“There you are, you fucking bastard!” Katsuki shouted as he kept a hold of a now determined Eijiro who wanted to get to you. He let out a grunt as he held the bull back. “You told me you would be quick.” 

“I was.” Izuku answered straight, putting you down gently. “Don’t worry, Eijiro will take care of you.” He told you softly, before letting go of you. Izuku motioned to Katsuki, who was surprisingly holding Eijiro just fine. He undid the rope, allowing for Eijiro to be free and race over to you.  

The large bull skidded over to you before kneeling down closer to you. You smelt delicious but he also waited for you to notice him, a needy whine escaping his throat. “Y/N.” He let out lowly. “May I- Can I please…”  

You turned to look at him with half lidded eyes of lust. You gave him a smile and motioned for him to come. “Alright.” You didn’t have to tell him twice as Eijiro was on you like white on rice.  

While the two farmhands left you both to it, the truth was that you both couldn’t care if they stayed or not. Eijiro had put you onto your back which had surprised you. Your instincts told you that you had to be on your knees with your ass up in front of him, however he stopped you every time you tried.  

You would have asked why if you didn’t get distracted by the heavy hanging pair of balls filled with cum and the thick leaking cock that told you that he was more than eager to mount you. Eijiro hissed as he carefully stroked his cock, so much precum leaving his slit that it almost made you wonder how much he would put inside of you. A whine escaped you at the thought.  

Eijiro moved forward to carefully pull you towards him, your thighs spread enough to allow him between them. With one hand rubbing your thighs with his thumb and the other aiming his cock to your hole, he pushed inside you. You released a low moan at the feeling of his thick cock pushing at your walls and forcing you to take him. It was a delicious burn but now you were grateful for whatever Izuku did, cause it felt easier than it could have been.  

Surprising you, Eijiro bent down to put his forehead against yours. Your eyes widened as you looked up at him, vulnerable. Eijiro’s ruby eyes looked down at you with a gentleness you never expected from a bull. He put a hand to the side of your face gently, taking your breath away, as he used the other to support his weight on top of you.  

You didn’t understand what he was doing. “Eijiro, what are you doing? You can… you can just fuck me already.” 

Eijiro let out a huff. “No, I need you to understand something.” He elaborated. He looked away from you for a moment before looking back at you with a gentle smile. “My father always told me that when you get your first heifer to breed, she’ll be yours forever. That she would be your priority and your heart belongs to her before any other cow or heifer. I need you to understand that you are my first, and my utmost priority.” He told you.  

You looked up at him with wide eyes, not knowing how to process what he had just said. Most of your life, you had seen most bulls not really care on who they bred, and if they did, it certainly wasn’t emotionally tied as the cows were. However, there were exceptions, like Pony and Sato. But it seemed that Eijiro was one too.  

You didn’t care if he studded and bred other cows, mostly because you had no say in the matter, but it meant a lot to you that he said. You felt tears in your eyes as you smiled. You nodded your head, wrapping your arms around him. “Okay.” You whispered.  

He placed a kiss on your forehead, making it all the more precious, before he slowly started to move his hips. Eijiro sucked in a breath at the feeling of your velvety wet walls around his cock. You moaned in bliss at the full feeling of his cock inside you. Eijiro’s thrusts were slow at first, savouring the feeling of being together, slow but almost intimate with the way he had you looking up at him.  

Eijiro let out a low rumble from his chest as he slowly picked up the pace, holding on to your hip with one hand. He watched as with every thrust your body jiggled in response, your eyes half lidded in pleasure as you kept your eyes up on him. He found you gorgeous. His eyes however stayed on your breasts that had beads of milk on your nipples still. He hummed at the thought of a snack right now and bent down to wrap his mouth around your teat.  

Once you felt his hot mouth around you and then begin to suck, you let out a low moan from the back of your throat, as slick gushed around his cock. He felt the way you squeezed him at the feeling of him drinking from you, making him groan. You tasted delicious. Your milk almost had a sweet undertone to it, making him wonder if you had been eating sugarcubes.  

You had your back arched as you had your arms around him as he fucked into you harder now. You liked the feeling of his cock moving inside you, filling you up, but most of all, you loved the feeling of the head of his cock hitting that part inside you that had you seeing stars.   

“Eijiro.” You moaned his name. “Eijiro, more. I want you. I want you to give me a calf.” You whined in want.  

And who was Eijiro to deny you. He carefully let go of your other breast, licking his lips while mentally telling himself that he will get more from you later as he focused on the task at hand. He adjusted your hips before roughly moving in and out of you, fucking into you roughly, taking you by surprise. With every thrust you squeaked, eyes wide at the actions, while Eijiro let out low grunts and groans at the feeling of you. You had never felt such pleasure in your life, the feeling of him inside you basically euphoric that you couldn’t think if you tried.  

Suddenly you felt yourself coming undone around his cock. You bit your bottom lip with a squeal as you came. Eijiro let out a moan. “Oh fuck, you feel amazing.” He moaned as he smirked down at you. “You gonna take all my cum, hm? Gonna take it all and grow my seed for me.” 

You nodded dumbly up at him. “Yes, Eijiro! Yes, please.” You cried out to him.  

He let out a low almost growl like sound as his thrust became more sporadic and harsher than rhythmic. The sound of your wet cunt, your moans and his balls slapping against your ass was all too lewd for you to handle and yet you couldn’t have had it any other way. Eijiro’s grip on you tightened, his fingers digging into your skin. “Fuck, fuck, fuck.” He gritted his teeth, as he aimed one final thrust right up against your cervix making you moan in pain and pleasure. Eijiro buried his face in the crook of your neck as a low groan left him, his cock twitching as warm cum spurt inside you. You couldn’t have felt fuller, feeling as though you were about to burst. You wrapped your arms around him as you closed your eyes, not ever wanting to let him go.  

Katsuki dusted off his hands, seeing as the two of you were getting on with it from the sounds they could hear from inside. He followed Izuku out of the shed, closing the door behind the two of them. Katsuki looked to Izuku who was wiping his hand of a sticky wet substance on his hand with a handkerchief. Katsuki raised an eyebrow as he looked to the green haired man beside him.  

Izuku looked at Katsuki from the corner of his eye. He sighed. “What is it, Kacchan?” He asked almost annoyed.  

“Quick my ass.” He scoffed as he looked to the freckled man. Katsuki shook his head. “You know Deku, some of us don’t like to finger our cows when we have jobs to do.” 

Izuku rolled his eyes at the statement. He turned to leave. “And some of us don’t like to fondle their balls, Kacchan.” He commented, leaving the blond red in the face at the implication. “When last were you fucked, Kacchan? Don’t worry, I won’t tell anyone.” 

Katsuki scowled at Izuku. “Oh, fuck me!” He threw his hands up in the air in exasperation. 

“No, thank you.”  

Taglist: @pasteldaze

[anarchywoofwoof]

so today i learned that there’s a piece of graffiti written on the wall of a brothel in Pompeii that reads, “Weep, you girls. My penis has given you up. Now it penetrates men’s behinds. Goodbye, wondrous femininity!”

this lead me down a rabbit hole of Pompeii graffiti, in which i found the following:

From Herculaneum (a bar/inn joined to the maritime baths): "Two friends were here. While they were, they had bad service in every way from a guy named Epaphroditus. They threw him out and spent 105 and half sestertii most agreeably on whores."

From just outside the Vesuvius gate: "Defecator, may everything turn out okay so that you can leave this place."

From the peristyle of the Tavern of Verecundus: "Restitutus says: 'Restituta, take off your tunic, please, and show us your hairy privates.'"

From Herculaneum (a bar/inn joined to the maritime baths): "Apelles the chamberlain with Dexter, a slave of Caesar, ate here most agreeably and had a screw at the same time."

From the basilica: "O walls, you have held up so much tedious graffiti that I am amazed that you have not already collapsed in ruin."

that lead me down a rabbit hole of obscene ancient Roman graffiti such as the following:

Floronius, privileged soldier of the 7th legion, was here. The women did not know of his presence. Only six women came to know, too few for such a stallion.

Chie, I hope your hemorrhoids rub together so much that they hurt worse than when they ever have before!

Theophilus, don’t perform oral sex on girls against the city wall like a dog

Apollinaris, the doctor of the emperor Titus, defecated well here

Restituta, take off your tunic, please, and show us your hairy privates

I was fucking with the bartender

Secundus likes to screw boys

Phileros is a eunuch!

Cruel Lalagus, why do you not love me?

I made bread on April 19th

Gaius Sabinus says a fond hello to Statius. Traveler, you eat bread in Pompeii but you go to Nuceria to drink. At Nuceria, the drinking is better

Anyone who wants to defecate in this place is advised to move along. If you act contrary to this warning, you will have to pay a penalty. Children must pay [number missing] silver coins. Slaves will be beaten on their behinds.

Epaphra doesn’t play football well

You can ride your maid whenever you want. It’s your right

Pyrrhus to his colleague Chius: I grieve because I hear you have died; and so farewell

O walls, you have held up so much tedious graffiti that I am amazed that you have not already collapsed in ruin

My lusty son, with how many women have you had sexual relations?

If anyone sits here, let him read this first of all: if anyone wants a screw, he should look for Attice; she costs 4 sestertii.

Samius to Cornelius: go hang yourself!

If anyone does not believe in Venus, they should gaze at my girl friend

To the one defecating here. Beware of the curse. If you look down on this curse, may you have an angry Jupiter for an enemy

We have wet the bed, host. I confess we have done wrong. If you want to know why, there was no chamber pot

What a lot of tricks you use to deceive, innkeeper. You sell water but drink unmixed wine

The finance officer of the emperor Nero says the food here is poison

Gaius was here – the oldest graffiti, dated 78 BCE; found in Pompeii.

Vote for Isidorus for aedile, he licks cunts the best

i fucking love human beings.

[drcatco]

A small detail that may have gone unnoticed by anime viewers: in the part where Jinshi complains to Maomao for choosing Lihaku as guarantor and not him, Jinshi uses the word ore to refer to himself. In this part:

and in this one:

Jinshi is so angry that he forgets to speak as a eunuch.

Of course, Maomao notices this, but makes light of it.

That won't do, Xiaomao! You must pay attention to your husband boss! xD

[teriri-sayes]

Reactions to Deal Maker's Chapter 200

TL;DR - Angry dragons. Emperor and Wi talk about Cale's rumors. Caleism in Central Plains. Cale and Eru talk about Aipotu and Maxi. Cale returns home and meets Clopeh.

Angry Dragons Continuing with the last chapter, the dragons were noticeably angry. Even our tsundere Rasheel was muttering, "How dare those dragon bastards of another world, to our youngest..." Not much happened here. Raon was only confused with the atmosphere, while Cale was holding back his laugh at the Aipotu dragons being cursed at by his world's dragons.

Caleism in Central Plains I thought murim arc was over, but we get a scene of the emperor and Chief Eunuch Wi. They were talking about the rumors spreading about Cale.

The emperor's impression of Cale was an arrogant man, but thought that Cale did not deserve to remain a human, so he had gifted the immortal's clothes to Cale.

Wi knew that the Hainan Island's residents who witnessed Cale's miracle had now become Caleism believers. The murim people even treated Cale as a pioneer and their goal in martial arts.

What these two did not know was that Cale gained two new titles. One was the Sea Emperor, and the second was Martial God (or God of Martial Arts)... 🤣🤣🤣

Crazy Clopeh Cale and Eruhaben had some conversation about Aipotu, the World Tree, and Maxi (the dead dragon in Central Plains). Afterwards, Eruhaben left to visit the WT while Cale had some small talk with Alberu before going home to Sheritt's black castle.

Before leaving, Cale had informed Alberu that he had contacted Hannah and Clopeh to come to Roan, so they would probably be arriving in a few days. But lo and behold, when Cale arrived at the black castle's entrance, he immediately saw Clopeh... 😂

Clopeh was his usual strange self, kneeling down to Cale and looking at him with burning eyes as he said that he was waiting for Cale to call him... 🤣🤣🤣 Raon said something about how Clopeh was the best, and Cale wondered what he meant, but didn't want to know the answer. 😂

Cale only told Clopeh to come and did not say that he had a way to fix Clopeh's body. As Clopeh let out a strange laugh and was saying something like he finally had a chance to join the legend, Cale realized that no one in the other worlds could rival Clopeh in his strangeness... 🤣🤣🤣

Ending Remarks Today was a good chapter, with Clopeh's appearance at the end as the highlight. And because today's the 200th chapter, the author included a message for us!

Author's Notes Greetings, this is Yoo Ryeo Han. This is my greetings in celebration of the 200th episode of Part 2. …Part 2… Episode 200… 2…200… 2… 2… Two, two… I'm sorry. But it's really strange. Clearly, at the time of preparing Part 2, I thought… 'Around 50 chapters per family, so 250 chapters! I'll add 50 more chapters to finish it in 300 episodes!' Did I plan it like this? I definitely thought this was possible. It's really mysterious. We've now gone through 2 families and 2 worlds, and it's episode 200. If this continues, I don't even know how far Part 2 will go. Haha! There are 3 families left, so if we add 300 episodes, will it end in 500 episodes? Haha! I don't know! Hahaha! Thank you for joining me this far. Thanks to you, I feel greatly strengthened. Really. I hope this series can bring a little joy and small pleasure to the readers' daily lives. Thank you. -Yoo Ryeo Han

[captaincoffeegirl515]

Honestly though, the way Go Won consoled Bu-yeon and tried to cheer her up when she was sad about her husband was literally the sweetest thing ever!

It was clear that she likened herself to a mere turtle, small and unimpressive. She couldn't possibly compare to the grand peacock that is Naksu/Mu-deok.

That's when he drops the tough-guy act. He tells her that he took the turtle home and found that it was clever and cute. He tells her that even if a turtle could not compare to a peacock, the turtle still had a charm of its own.

And just as he came to adore his pet turtle, surely her husband would come around to like her as well. So she should keep her chin up.

He doesn't even know who she really is. To him, she's this poor shaman lady who thinks he's a eunuch. But he still tried to make her happy simply because she was upset and felt abandoned. Even in a previous scene with the court lady, he looked worriedly at her wounds and got kinda angry about the queen lashing out at innocents. He also went as far as to investigate the powder the queen was giving to the other concubines when it has nothing to do with him.

Bu-yeon is 100% right when she said that he's a good person.

[cosmicpuzzle]

4th House Lord in Houses- BPHS

The lord of Happiness abiding in the Lagna – the born is adorned with knowledge and character, and joined with land and vehicles and endowed with maternal happiness.

The lord of Happiness abiding in the Wealth – the born will be devoted to enjoyments and possessed of every king of wealth, associated with family, esteemed, rash and deceptive.

The lord of Happiness in the Sibling – the born is a valorous and virtuous one joined with servants and one who, illustrious, free from disease and charitable, has acquired wealth with his own hands.

The lord of Happiness standing in the Happy Bhava – a minister/one doing mantras, endowed with all riches, clever, possessed of good character, esteemed, knowledgeable, beloved by women and happy.

The lord of Happiness standing in the Child Bhava – Happy, beloved by all, a virtuous Vishnu devotee, who is esteemed and who has acquired wealth with his own hands.

The lord of Happiness standing in the Rogue Bhava – deprived of maternal happiness, angry, a thief and an evil enchanter, one is of bad disposition, acting according to their own pleasure.

The lord of Happiness in the Seventh – the one born is endowed with great knowledge, will forsake the wealth acquired by his father and an assembly will cause him to be like a mute.

The lord of Happiness standing in the Cavity Bhava – wanting of house and related comforts, the one born has little cause for parental happiness and will be equal to a eunuch.

The lord of Happiness standing in the Fortune Bhava – the one born is beloved by all, devoted to the divine, virtuous, esteemed and accompanied by every comfort.

The lord of Happiness standing in the Karma Bhava – the person born is honored by royalty, an alchemist, very merry, enjoying comforts and the conqueror of his senses.

The lord of Happiness abiding in the Gain – the one born is distressed by hidden disease, virtuous, endowed with good qualities, charitable and gratified by benefiting others.

The lord of Happiness standing in the Loss Bhava – wanting of house and related comforts, the one born has bad propensities, is at a loss, and is always full of sloth.

4th lord gives good results in almost all houses except for 6,8,12.

[snowsandstones]

GRRM uses Sansa’s POV to foreshadow at least two major twists in Jon’s story.

Secret parentage:

"Varys has informers everywhere. If Sansa Stark should be seen in the Vale, the eunuch will know within a moon's turn, and that would create unfortunate . . . complications. It is not safe to be a Stark just now. So we shall tell Lysa's people that you are my natural daughter.""Natural?" Sansa was aghast. "You mean, a bastard?" [….] "Catelyn? A bit too obvious . . . but after my mother, that would serve. Alayne. Do you like it?" "Alayne is pretty." Sansa hoped she would remember. "But couldn't I be the trueborn daughter of some knight in your service? Perhaps he died gallantly in the battle, and . . ." "I have no gallant knights in my service, Alayne. Such a tale would draw unwanted questions as a corpse draws crows. It is rude to pry into the origins of a man's natural children, however." He cocked his head. "So, who are you?" "Alayne . . . Stone, would it be?" -ASOS, Sansa VI

Jon Snow was the only brother that remained to her. I am a bastard too now, just like him. -AFFC, Alayne II

The Starks were not like other men. Ned brought his bastard home with him, and called him "son" for all the north to see. -AGOT, Catelyn II

Ned did not feign surprise; Robert's hatred of the Targaryens was a madness in him. He remembered the angry words they had exchanged when Tywin Lannister had presented Robert with the corpses of Rhaegar's wife and children as a token of fealty. Ned had named that murder; Robert called it war. When he had protested that the young prince and princess were no more than babes, his new-made king had replied, "I see no babes. Only dragonspawn." Not even Jon Arryn had been able to calm that storm. Eddard Stark had ridden out that very day in a cold rage, to fight the last battles of the war alone in the south. It had taken another death to reconcile them; Lyanna's death, and the grief they had shared over her passing. -AGOT, Eddard II

"I am so sorry, my love. Jon Arryn is dead." His eyes found hers, and she could see how hard it took him, as she had known it would. In his youth, Ned had fostered at the Eyrie, and the childless Lord Arryn had become a second father to him. -AGOT, Catelyn I

and his death:

"Tell me, Alayne—which is more dangerous, the dagger brandished by an enemy, or the hidden one pressed to your back by someone you never even see?" "The hidden dagger." "There's a clever girl." He smiled, his thin lips bright red from the pomegranate seeds. -ASOS, Sansa VI

There was ice underfoot, and broken stones just waiting to turn an ankle, and the wind was howling fiercely. It sounds like a wolf, thought Sansa. A ghost wolf, big as mountains. -AFFC, Alayne II

Dolorous Edd sometimes called Marsh "the Old Pomegranate," which fit him just as well as "the Old Bear" fit Mormont. "He's the man you want in front when the foes are in the field," -ASOS, Jon V

"It is not the foes who curse you to your face that you must fear, but those who smile when you are looking and sharpen their knives when you turn your back. You would do well to keep your wolf close beside you. Ice, I see, and daggers in the dark. Blood frozen red and hard, and naked steel. It was very cold."-ADWD, Jon I

"Pomegranates. All those seeds. A man could choke to death. -ADWD, Jon V

Then Bowen Marsh stood there before him, tears running down his cheeks. "For the Watch." He punched Jon in the belly. When he pulled his hand away, the dagger stayed where he had buried it. Jon fell to his knees. He found the dagger's hilt and wrenched it free. In the cold night air the wound was smoking. "Ghost," he whispered. Pain washed over him. Stick them with the pointy end. When the third dagger took him between the shoulder blades, he gave a grunt and fell face-first into the snow. He never felt the fourth knife. Only the cold … -ADWD, Jon XIII

and GRRM loves threes. What could be the third?

[ridiasfangirlings]

the apothecary diaries kinda au with reisaru. Minakata is a future heir to imperial throne but for now pretends to be a mere high ranked official. Saru was literally high key brought into palace to work as a low staff. saru is extremely annoyed by it and wants to return back to brothel (where he was left as a child and raised by high ranked prostitutes who were better parents than his actual ones could ever be). and apparently during his own investigation of unexplainable deaths muna sees saru coming to same conclusion and becomes progressively interested in him. also saru is angry so he throws hands with people even if it’s consort’s dumbass maids.

and then one of grateful consorts takes him under her wing and then munakata sees saru at one of celebrations dressed all rich and without his usual hairstyle and with different glasses that make him look softer and oh yes munakata is in love. also saru’s explanation to looking and behaving like that is that being soft and gentle in brothel, as well as being a young pretty boy, isn’t a good thing.

Imagine everyone is so smitten with Munakata too because of his good looks, he’s just smiling and sparkling at everyone while Fushimi glares in disgust (and that only makes Munakata more intrigued). Fushimi’s mom was a high-ranking courtesan who got tricked by her lover into getting pregnant and dumped the baby at the brothel before going off to become a high powered merchant instead. Fushimi was raised with a bunch of loving big sisters who always told him how pretty he looked even though he’s crabby all the time. He teaches himself useful things like medicine because he didn’t want to be worthless like his father, he’s returning from the market with a bunch of herbs one day when he gets grabbed by some random dudes and sold to the palace as a servant. 

Fushimi figures if he keeps his head down maybe he can get out of this without having to do any more work than necessary, in this AU say there are both male and female concubines so it’s okay for male servants to work in the inner palace without being eunuchs. Fushimi is befriended by boisterous servant Yata, who shows him all the ropes and tells him about the ‘frilly pretty guy with glasses’ who’s in charge of the inner palace operations. The first time Fushimi sees Munakata he doesn’t get what the fuss is about, that guy is definitely weird and creepy (also while servants in the inner palace can be male the one in charge is assumed to be a eunuch, so you have Fushimi thinking Munakata’s like that the whole time). What Fushimi doesn’t know is that Munakata is basically in disguise, he’s actually the future heir to the throne and is basically showing his competency and abilities by pretending to be a mere official even as he directs everything in the inner palace to his liking.

At some point there’s a scandal due to the unexplained death of an infant in the inner palace and Munakata naturally takes charge in finding out what the issue is. As he’s doing his investigation he gets an anonymous tip about the face powder the concubines are using, though Fushimi did his best to be sure he wouldn’t be caught Munakata still finds out that Fushimi was the one who solved the case. This makes him very intrigued, there appears to be a particularly skilled servant in the palace. He maneuvers things so that grateful concubine Awashima (who is one of the highest ranked concubines but also semi-working for Munakata behind the scenes) takes Fushimi on as one of her personal servants. Munakata of course uses this as pretext to visit Fushimi constantly and put new unexplained cases in front of him, Fushimi is annoyed by having to do all this work but somehow it isn’t so bad either, having someone who believes in Fushimi’s abilities to this extent. 

Of course eventually there’s a big garden party and as one of Awashima’s attendants Fushimi has to attend, which is when they all find out how pretty he is. Normally Fushimi keeps his hair all messy and has big thick glasses and maybe he even seems slightly tanned normally or wears color contacts that make his striking blue eyes brown, but that’s all an act — he learned quickly living in the brothel that being a slim pale pretty boy would make him a target. When he arrives at the garden party he’s got all that makeup and disguise removed though, he’s given a more stylish pair of glasses and his hair is more combed and of course he’s so pale and gorgeous looking. Munakata has been looking for Fushimi specifically to give him a hair pin and almost overlooks him, for once struck speechless by the sight of this ‘real’ Fushimi. He recovers quickly of course, noting that Fushimi is indeed even more skilled than Munakata ever would have thought. He puts the hairpin in Fushimi’s hair and Fushimi assumes this is just a weird court thing, having no idea why everyone else keeps looking at him and whispering.

[hamliet]

weird how alice degraded bl and yet their hs has a ton of bl tropes there

I mean, yeah. It's white privilege and ignorance at its finest. I've talked about this at length before, actually.

It's kind of a disservice to Asian BL not only by appropriating its tropes, but also just sheer privileged bliss. People in communities that are not as progressive on LGBT rights are not only less likely to be able to come out, but also less likely to be able to even explore their sexualities and gender identities. It's easier to just conform and to not think of desire and what it means, especially when we think of sexuality as a spectrum.

It also ignores older queer media in the west that has influenced BL, which was influenced by yaoi, which itself emerged as a distinct market/genre in the 1970s. Nothing's as insular as it appears; for example, Queer as Folk (the 2000 US version) is reportedly huge in China today, and I can see that it's influenced Kinnporsche and danmei novels. QaF also was the first US media ever to show sex between two men on TV--in December 2000.

Yeah. We're not even 23 years out from that.

But of course, explicit sex scenes between two men or two women have existed long before that in yaoi, which itself draws from literary and artistic traditions across the world that have existed from ancient times, because gay people have existed from, y'know, ancient times.

I don't want to keep harping on AO, though. I hope they learn, and the posts were from over a year ago, so I'm hopeful they are in the process of doing so. Though I don't really keep up with them. The reason I also can't be too hard on AO was that even 7 or so years ago, I would have agreed with them about yaoi because I didn't know any better. And I was wrong, and I am still learning, and I hope I will continue to learn.

I'll again also reiterate that I do not care at all that Heartstopper has no sex in it; good for them because not all stories need it! Sweet, innocent stories have their place and can be just as powerful and necessary as those that are darker and more explicit. I just think declaring that a story's lack of queer sex is somehow revolutionary is ignorant at best and rewriting history at worst.

I'll leave off with this portion of an interview with the creators of the American QAF, who are themselves a married gay couple who have been together for like... 30? years. I'm bolding the parts I want to emphasize.

COWEN The first time we heard about Queer as Folk was in the Calendar section of the L.A. Times. The whole article was about [how] no one will ever have the g ts to do a show like this in the U.S. People thought [the US version] was going to be a much softer show than Russell’s [original British version], and we knew it had to be outrageous and more sexual. The sex on our show probably was the most political statement we made. Because we all grew up seeing gay people represented on TV — if they were ever represented — [as] eunuchs or clowns. We never saw gay people having a sex life or being complete people. We had a list of subjects that we were determined to write about because we grew up at a very inhospitable time in the U.S. Not just the Defense of Marriage Act and Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell, but we didn’t have gay marriage here until 10 years after the show ended.

LIPMAN ... We wanted our Queer as Folk to be a celebration of being. We saw movies and TV shows where gay people would hang themselves; they’d walk into the ocean to drown. We didn’t want any of that. We used the sex on the show to be joyous, angry, vindictive, self-destructive …

COWEN … and celebratory. There were so many topics that we needed to address because it was such a politically oppressive, scary time....

DUNN That also was the only representation that I saw: It was suicide or it was Disney villains. That was queer representation for me, and so seeing this show that was just so irreverent, so joyful, so sexual, so free, and it still dealt with the realities of being queer.

Every story is in a sense a product of its time, and it's not bad that Oseman is writing their story to address concerns they have and issues they deal with. It's just not inherently any more revolutionary and definitely not more inherently moral than queer media with sex in it.

[liaa--qb]

'The Viper and nightingale game '

[ Dark mean Aemond x strong niece] Part 4

chapter 4 : first heart break

Summary : Rheawina recalls her sweet and sour childhood moments. (We will go through their childhood memories )

( likes, comments and sharing would be appreciated🧡)

[ chapter 3 link]

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It was amusing how she should have been with Jace and Luke, her brothers, but here she was, the first to reach him. Aemond abandoned his punching for a moment but then picked up a decayed, hefty sword, using it forcefully against a large rock, his voice dripping with disdain. "Those lowborn fools had the audacity to claim that a boy without a dragon is like a eunuch—no manhood to speak of. These wretched bastards dared say this to me, the prince."

His sword strikes grew louder and more aggressive, unsettling Rhaewina, as if his cursing weren't alarming enough. Aemond rarely used such strong language in front of his elders or other people, but in private, he often vented his frustrations. Still, he had never been this crude in her presence or Helaena's.

She stepped closer, attempting to touch his arm with her gentle hand. "I told you not to take them seriously. Their words can't define you. You surpass them in every conceivable way. My mother has always told me that having dragons doesn't make anyone courageous. She loves me for who I am, regardless. You don't need to let their words consume you entirely."

Her soothing words did little to calm his fury, as his response made evident. "Huh! Easy for a lady whose sons both have dragons and get everything they desire without hesitation, unlike me"

His words stung, and she hadn't expected such a response, particularly about her mother, who was also his sister. How could he say such things? Yes, he was angry, but he had no right to speak ill of her mother. She fired back with determination, "What do you mean by that? I don't have a dragon either. I've never shed a tear in front of her because of a dragon. You excel in everything, yet you harbor jealousy toward Jace, Aegon, and the others. Why ? You're never content with yourself, and that's your issue. Don't speak ill of my brothers and mother"

Aemond replied with a mirthless laugh, recognizing something. "Of course, how could you understand...could you? You certainly can't."

She yearned to comprehend the meaning behind his words. What could there possibly be that she wouldn't grasp?

Though Rhaewina was just a child, her youthful heart imbued her with the belief that she could conquer anything, achieve anything. She had never regarded herself as inferior. Her age might pose some limitations in understanding certain matters, but she always tried her best, listened intently, and feigned comprehension when necessary.

Overflowing with eagerness, she implored, "What ?... What won't I understand? Please tell me. I promise not to tell anyone. I'll even share my secret with you. Please, just tell me !"

Aemond gazed at her, pondering for a moment before finally speaking, "Helaena. Helaena is going to marry Aegon. There's talk of it throughout the Red Keep." He looked downward, as though losing something.

Rhaewina was aware of this, but she couldn't discern the connection. "So what? I do feel bad for her, but they'll surely take care of each other with time. Don't worry about her; she'll be happy," she reassured.

Aemond interrupted her, his tone seething with frustration. "I don't want her to marry Aegon... I want to marry her. Aegon doesn't deserve her... he doesn't deserve anything he's getting. I'll take care of Helaena better. Even Jace was asked for her hand in marriage, not me. And Mother didn't even tell me about this. All these low, contemptible boys were taunting me..."

He paused, clenching his fists, his anger palpable. "They said I wasn't asked for her hand because I don't have a dragon. They claimed that a targaryen boy without a dragon has no manhood. That's why Helaena would never marry me. They all laughed, they all damn well laughed. How dare they? How can they even be alive after saying such things?" this almost came as a shout from his mouth.

Aemond's fists were red with anger, but for Rhaewina, everything came to a halt at that moment. Her little heart felt like it was on the verge of shattering. Tears welled up in her eyes. What she had just heard wasn't what she had expected. Aemond liked Helaena and wanted to marry her. This notion wounded her deeply, beginning to break her fragile heart. She didn't comprehend why this was happening or why she felt such anguish. She wanted to cry out loud, to reach out to Aemond, but she didn't know how to deal with this pain.

She simply hung her head, clutching her skirt tightly to keep from breaking down right there. She didn't want to reveal this vulnerability to Aemond, but it was becoming increasingly difficult to hold back her tears. They refused to be contained.

Aemond continued to pour out his anguish, oblivious to the fact that someone else nearby was also suffering. "I'm telling you, she would never be happy with Aegon," he lamented. "While Helaena and I would have been such a better match. She's lovely, so soft-spoken, an angel descended from heaven itself. Sometimes she shares these unique views that I find absolutely amazing. No one else understands, but I try to appreciate them just to make her happy. Aegon mocks her for it, you know? I understand that her thoughts are simply beautiful musings from her own world, but I love to indulge her and myself by calling her a dreamer just to bring happiness to her. She deserves happiness and nothing less.

She's a Targaryen princess, and I am a Targaryen prince. Our betrothal would have been perfect... so perfect. It would have helped us preserve our Valyrian bloodline's purity. Why can't anyone understand that ? They were even discussing your grandsire, the king, considering Jace for it. Why, and not me ?"

He turned to Rhaewina, his grip tightening on her shoulder as he continued, "Tell me now, why shouldn't I have Helaena just because I don't have a dragon? Why should everything I desire be handed over to someone else just because I lack a dragon ? The dragon has always been a dream for me, a symbol of power and our Targaryen heritage. I wanted it because I loved it, the thrill of riding and soaring high in the sky. But why has it become a necessity now? Tell me !". His beautiful blue eyes were full of anger and pain now, looking like they were becoming darker sec by sec.

Aemond, though for just a 10-year-old boy, had rough hands through cuts and training that now clung tightly to her delicate shoulders. Her tears refused to recede as he pressed her with these questions. She attempted to speak, but her words emerged as sobbing whispers, her voice trembling. "Yes, they are wrong, Aemond... I... I need to go for my dance lessons"

She couldn't endure any more of this conversation. She was on the verge of tears. Pushing Aemond's hand down, she hurriedly fled from the scene. Aemond, deeply saddened by his own predicament, was taken aback by her reaction. He watched her run away but couldn't muster any further concern at the moment. His own pain weighed heavily on him, reinforcing the belief that no one wanted to be close to him anymore. He resumed striking the rock with his sword.

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Some days later :

In the days that followed, Rhaewina refrained from speaking to Aemond. She gravitated more towards her group of friends, silently finding comfort in the company of Felicia and Joyce. She was profoundly sad, a feeling she couldn't shake. It was astonishing that she even distanced herself from Helaena, her closest friend and dearest sister. The girls who used to be inseparable were now worlds apart, one engrossed in wedding preparations, and the other... well, call it jealousy. She loved Helaena deeply and cared for her, but after the incident, she needed some space. It was the first time she ever doubted herself. She wondered what Helaena possessed that she didn't. Perhaps it was because Helaena was older, or maybe it was something else. These thoughts gnawed at her, and it hurt her to think about how dedicated Aemond was to Helaena.

Many times during these days, she didn't even catch sight of Aemond with the boys during their breaks between training, a clear sign that he was with Helaena. While she sat with her friends and handmaidens. Her heart ached, thinking about how devoted Aemond was to Helaena.

As the wedding ceremony approached, many noble houses were arriving as guests. Even Maris and her sisters attended. Felicia, toying with her necklace, looked at Maris with excitement and asked, "Hey, did you see Prince Aemond?"

Maris replied irritably, "Yes, we went to meet Helaena, who was selecting her rings. I found Aemond there too. He was helping her with everything. I don't understand why ? When Helaena has handmaidens and other private maids, he's there with her the whole time, sticking to her like glue. What does he have to do with a girl's jewelry? The queen asked Aemond to escort me and my sisters to the hall and guide us for our first visit to King's Landing, but after the queen left, he told his servant to take care of that task and said he had to be with Helaena because it was important. She needed him"

Joyce couldn't help but laugh. "Maris, dear, he always does this with you. It's a bit sad. Maybe you should consider waiting for Prince Daeron to grow up."

This comment prompted peals of taunting laughter, even from Maris's sisters. Maris retorted angrily, "I'm not going to follow him around everywhere. Yes, I like him, but his attitude can be insufferable sometimes. What's with his arrogance? Being skilled with a sword and a Valyrian prince isn't that extraordinary. Even a commoner could outfight those Targaryen princes, wielding their Blackfyres and Dark Sisters. Didn't you all see how Ser Criston Cole easily bested Prince Daemon twice, despite the prince having better weapons and the famous Dark Sister that everyone raves about? Aemond doesn't even have a dragon now."

In a seemingly inconsequential moment, Maris's little sister Floris chimed in, looking perplexed. "But sister, he's not that bad. He once told me that I was quite pretty compared to other princesses he had seen when he visited us last time. He even bought me a rose when I couldn't reach it on a tall branch because, you know, I'm short."

Maris swiftly scolded her sister, giving her a playful hit on the back, saying, "Shut up! Stop interrupting me."

Joyce couldn't resist adding, "See, Maris, this is what happens behind your back. Poor you." Laughter echoed among the young princesses once more.

Despite the unfolding events, Rhaewina's heartache grew steadily. Maris's gossip only intensified her melancholy. She couldn't help but ponder why Aemond didn't see her as more than a friend. Why was Helaena, in his eyes, so breathtakingly beautiful that she felt invisible whenever they were together? Did Aemond find Helaena's dreams and fantasies more enchanting? Did he believe that Rhaewina might marry someone else? These thoughts gnawed at her, and it was becoming increasingly difficult for her to bear.Right now in her daydreams she was somewhere else.. lost in thoughts:

How much care is he taking of Helaena? Does Helaena know this? If so, why isn't she fighting with the queen to stop her marriage preparations with Aegon? I wouldn't have married someone else in any way if Aemond had ever cherished me like this. I would even fight for him. We would run away with each other to Pentos or the North if no one allowed us to marry. Aemond would definitely fight for me with everyone else because if he loves something, not even the Gods can take it away from him. We will live together far away in another beautiful palace.

Aemond would build a grand palace for me on my nameday. I would ask him to add more lakes and all types of pretty flowers there, even more than the Red Keep. He might be initially against the idea of having a huge bunch of flowers everywhere, but I would make him agree, as I always do. Our palace would be immense with white and rosy walls, large gardens filled with lakes and swans. It would be the most beautiful palace among all the kingdoms. He would keep me safe and bring me gifts daily, especially a necklace; I want him to give me a beautiful necklace. Later, if the Gods will provide Aemond with his dragon, he would take me far away from these boys if they tried to force me to marry any of them. I might ask Aemond to protect me by dealing with them on my behalf. Wouldn't it be right for me to be happy if he killed people on my behalf?

As a crown princess, it's wrong of me, but if other men hurt me, then it's right for Aemond to take action. I might be sitting behind Aemond on his dragon. Which dragon would Aemond choose? It should be more beautiful than Sunfyre. Aemond said he would love Cannibal, but that's too scary. I don't know what his obsession is with dangerous dragons like Cannibal and Vermithor. Last time, he was bragging about Grey Ghost... Eww, dear God! He should stay away from those huge, horrible-looking beasts. He's small, and they could harm him so badly. I dearly wish he gets a dragon like Syrax or Sunfyre, someone really slender and beautiful, if he's against hatchlings.

Her reverie was abruptly interrupted by Maris calling her name urgently, "Rhaewina... Rhaewina, our clown princess, are you listening?" Rhaewina reluctantly returned to the present, her eyes clouded with disinterest. "What, Maris?"

Maris rolled her eyes and continued, "They were telling me that you're going to marry Aemond. Is it true? Do you and Prince Aemond have feelings for each other? Did your favorite grandsire suggest this?"

Felicia couldn't help but join the conversation with a teasing tone, "Maris, you see, now you don't stand a chance. Even our clown princess likes Prince Aemond. Aemond, who barely talks to princesses, and is notoriously difficult to approach, liked Floris more than you. He'd probably ask his favorite little brother Daeron to marry Floris instead of you now"

Maris's irritation was palpable, and she responded sharply, "Felicia, shut your mouth. I'm not desperate to marry any prince, especially a dragonless Targaryen prince. Prince Lucerys might be little clumsy and small, but he still has his dragon. It's a disgrace if Aemond never acquires one. What's the point of his marriage then? He's the second prince, after all. I, on the other hand, have Blackwoods as an option."

Maris turned her attention to Rhaewina, her tone more serious, "Tell me, Rhaewina, are you planning to marry Aemond? Is that right?.. I would advise against it. Why don't you consider Jacaerys? You Targaryens have your customs, right?". After a pause while looking at her friends she continued " I'm just saying that if you wanted to stay within your house... I mean, you and Jacaerys would be a suitable match. Even Lucerys, perhaps. They seem more like your type, don't you think?"

The others in the group nodded and chimed in with agreements, sharing a small giggle. Rhaewina, although dying inside, pretended to go along with the conversation, wearing a fake smile. She had to keep up appearances, even if it meant hiding her true feelings. "No, Maris, you're absolutely right. While I might have considered Aemond at some point, I don't see it now. I think you've made a valid point. As for my brother Lucerys, I can't say, but I'm open to other possibilities. Don't worry about Aemond; he's just preoccupied with Helaena, his dearest sister. I care for her deeply as well, which is why he's probably not able to spend time with you. I also know that Aemond cares for you, and someday, you two might find happiness together. After all, our queen holds House Baratheon in high regard, even more than the Lannisters and Strong."

As she uttered these words, Rhaewina couldn't believe how she managed to speak so convincingly, concealing the turmoil within her.

[simply-whump]

Unchained Love (浮图缘) - Whump List

Whumpee : Xiao Duo played by Dylan Wang

Synopsis : During the Longhua period, eunuch Xiao Duo plotted with Fu Wang to help him sit on the throne. Bu Yin Lou was supposed to be buried with the late Emperor but she is rescued by Xiao Duo. She then stays at his manor and they grow closer over time. However, they cannot reveal their feelings. (MDL)

Genres : Historical, Comedy, Romance

Warning ! Possible spoilers below !

Ep 1-4 : None

Ep 5 : Breathes in some bad incense, coughing — (Flashback) Vision blurry, slapped, heavy breathing — (Present) Depressed, drinking

Ep 6-12 : None

Ep 13 : Fighting

Ep 14 : None

Ep 15 : Fighting a lot of people at once, kicked, almost falls of the boat, hanging on just thanks to his sword, saved, shot by an arrow while protecting someone, falls off the boat into the water, concern for him — Washed off on a river bank unconscious, concern for him, still pierced by the arrow, bleeding, wakes up in pain, pulls out the arrow, treated (Gif Set) — Given water and medicine — Groaning in pain, exaggerates his injuries

Ep 16-18 : None

Ep 19 : Worried for someone — (Flashback) Beaten, injured, fighting

Ep 20 : Concern for him because he refuses to take his medicine — Confronting his alleged brother’s murderer, emotional — Talking about painful memories, blaming himself, teary-eyed, comforted — Flogged in front of his loved one, in pain

Ep 21 : Visibly in pain (due to the previous flogging), blood stains on his clothes, concern for him — (In female lead dream) Laying on the ground dead the body pierced by numerous arrow

Ep 22 (⚠️TW for attempted rape⚠️) : Wakes up startled, sweating, depressed — Upset — Fighting

Ep 23 : Emotional, crying — Depressed, getting drenched in the rain, angry outburst, crying

Ep 24 : Sword at his neck, small cut on his neck

Ep 25 : (In female lead dream) Lying dead after being stabbed

Ep 26-27 : None

Ep 28 : Slapped, crying — At sword point — Hit, face grabbed (playful) 

Ep 29-30 : none

Ep 31 : Attacked, fighting — Shot in the chest by an arrow, falls off his horse (no consequences, he didn’t get injured by the arrow) — Fighting

Ep 32 : None

Ep 33 : Arrested — Whipped, gasping in pain, chained, bloody (was tortured), concern for him, shielded, choked (Gif Set)

Ep 34 : In prison, bloody, chained, weak — Escapes

Ep 35 : Fighting, shot in the chest by an arrow, falls, in pain, gets up with difficulty, still fighting, restrained, put on his knees — sentenced to dismemberment, ropes attached to his neck hand and feet, ropes stretched, concern for him, choked, in pain (Gif Set), saved, continues to fight, kicked, thrown to the ground — Wounds treated, teary-eyed — Nice whump scene with his friend that you can watch on @wonderer-86's blog here

Ep 36 : None

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[myechoecho]

My Dearest, ep 5

This show is so good.

Honestly, I felt such second hand embarrassment for Gil Chae when Jang Hyun was teasing her in front of everyone about calling him "my dear". But he looked really hurt when she said she thought he was Yeon Jun.

I did think it was slightly harsh of him to say he would stop teasing her when she grows up except I've thought she's been very immature at times so its probably fair. And she's pretty liberal with her insults to him, so again probably fair.

Yeon Jun cannot break fee from his upbringing and how it has be drilled into him to obey and serve. Even if that means his death (which he basically expects) and not seeing Eun Ae. Jang Hyun is older, more experienced and sees the fallacy in this. Yeon Jun is going to die for the king who will not protect the people. He's also going to choose the King over Eun Ae.

The fighting is fairly brutal but it shows once more that Jang Hyun is a very skilled swordsman and it makes me even more curious about his past.

Gil Chae staying with the wounded soldier, who looked very young, ultimately allowing him to think she's his mother shows real empathy from her

But OMG her look when she sees Jang Hyun at the makeshift hospital. She so happy and relived to see him back. And the way he looks at her too. Then she sees Yeon Jun and old habits die hard when she sees him injured. Jang Hyun is upset by this.

He's angry that she's there and then belittles the work she's done in helping the wounded, which has been difficult for her. What does it matter if she followed Eun Ae to help the soldiers? He's lashing out because of jealousy, fear and hurt.

I do love their argument here bu was wrong of her to try to blame him for Yeon Jun getting injured.

People really under estimate Eun Ae. She does understand Gil Chae more than she realizes. She knows that Gil Chae loves Yeon Jun, but also that it is not romantic (even Gil Chae has not realized this).

I love how she tends his wound and at the same time tries to get him to stay.

Gil Chae refuses his offer of "mulling' (his reputation comes to bite him). However, he waits at her door. Then stays there when he learns that she sleeps better when he is near

SWOON at him carrying her across the river. He left her for last because of his feelings. The way they look at each other and the way she tries to wipe sweat off his face.

The Torjan Horse tactic using dead bodies to hide' is brutal but effective. But the win is short lived as the source of supplies have been cut off.

I LOVED that Jang Hyun pointed out the hypocrisy of the kingdom looking down on the monks until they are necessary to fight. The eunuch has him pegged - Jang Hyun doesn't give a fuck about the king. He does care about the people and would fight to protect them.

He would fight to protect and save Gil Chae, because he swore by the moonlight he would find her. So the moon will always tie them. And I'm sorry because I know it's an epic romantic moment which made me a bit giddy, but at the same time what popped into my head was An American Tail and the song Somewhere Out There

[teriri-sayes]

Reactions to Deal Maker's Chapter 198

TL;DR - Cale is scared of Ron and Raon. Cale feels guilty at getting annoyed at worried HD. Jungwon offers his statue and an employment contract. Cale can now summon people from Central Plains. Emperor gives Cale some clothes.

Scared Cale The first part had some funny scenes. Cale thought Ron was scarier than GoB and Cale being scared of Raon when he saw the dented cheeks of Jungwon's statue. 🤣🤣🤣

And when HD began talking about his head exploding, Cale got angry and glared at him. But stopped and felt guilty when he saw how seriously worried HD was. 😂

There was also Raon's blacklist which had GoD, Jungwon, GoB, and the hunters... 😂 This was after Cale had explained about his "dream" to Raon and Ron, though he excluded the Raon and Lock part.

The Deal Maker Jungwon talked to Cale by moving his own statue. And offers his statue as a reward. The scene where he offered his statue was quite funny though. 😂

Jungwon: Let's talk about the reward. Cale: What will you give? Jungwon: Me! Cale: Don't wanna. Jungwon: I mean, not me, but this statue!

Apparently, Jungwon's statue that now had the power of a World Tree could be planted in Aipotu to grow a new WT there. Cale accepted it, finding it useful because a WT could share the counteracting weight with the Blue Wolf in Aipotu. But Cale, when LSH said something about you being a farmer, it was definitely NOT about planting World Trees... 😂

And then Jungwon offered Cale an employment contract, but with the way the scene went, it felt like Jungwon was the employee entering a slave contract. 🤣🤣🤣

Not much details of the contract were given. What we know is that there was no period of employment written (poor Jungwon will be exploited forever, haha), Cale could use some of Jungwon's divine items, and Cale could summon a select few people from Central Plains.

Why a contract in the first place? This was Jungwon's way of helping Cale avoid the karmic consequences of the imbalance he might create in Aipotu. With the contract, Jungwon could share some of his power to Aipotu, find if the Aipotu world was fully dead, and search for more individuals to bear the counteracting weights for Cale's actions.

The contract was even GoB-approved, but Cale had Jungwon revise some parts and have it be reapproved by GoB.

HD, I Summon You! Part of the contract was that Cale could summon a few people in Central Plains that he wrote down there. Of course, the person to be summoned had to agree first.

So when HD entered the room, Cale greeted him with his scammer smile, leaving HD confused. 😂And then Cale proceeds to call HD with "Cheonma-ya"... 🤣🤣🤣

Cheonma is the Korean word for Heavenly Demon, and adding "ya" or "ah" to the name of someone when calling them denotes one's affection or closeness to them.

Cale told HD (and the GED people) to work hard and become stronger (so that he could summon a stronger version of them in Aipotu). Well, I guess I'm happy with this. HD might not come with Cale to Roan and the other worlds, but at least, HD could be summoned anytime. No wonder the author built him up that well.

The Emperor's New Divine Clothes The emperor was in Beijing, so Cale was surprised when he heard that the emperor was going out of his way to visit Cale in Hainan (or did they go back to Guangdong? There was no mention if Cale was still in Hainan).

Initially, Cale wanted to refuse meeting the emperor because it was troublesome, but he did a 180 degrees when Chief Eunuch Wi said the emperor came bearing gifts. 🤣🤣🤣

And what did the emperor gift Cale? It was some black clothes that the first emperor of Central Plains wore. But this first emperor was the first person in this world who became an immortal (technically a god in the murim world). So now Cale had the cape of the first person to become god in Xiaolen, and the clothes of the first person to become god in Central Plains... Why am I seeing a pattern here? 😂

That RIDI comment about Cale having a full set of god clothes when he debuts as a new god had me laughing though 🤣🤣🤣

Oh yeah, did you know that the English words "new" and "god/divine" share the same word in Korean? Just me explaining the pun I wrote in the title. 😉

Ending Remarks I had fun with today's chapter because of all the funny parts (and that we can still see HD in the future). Next week, Cale will finally return to Roan, unless the author comes up with something to delay it again.

Also, we'll be having the 200th chapter of Part 2 next Wednesday, and the 1000th chapter of TCF next Friday! RIDI is currently having an event for the "EX-Rank Supporting Role's Replay in a Prestigious School" novel because it reached its 1000th chapter, so will TCF have one too? Then again, it will probably be some free RIDI points with some conditions attached, so I guess I shouldn't expect much.

[faintingheroine]

Analyse Gül's and Nigar's relationship

I don’t remember enough to write a whole meta, but I can analyze the vibe briefly.

It is the most explicit case of a eunuch in love until Sümbül and Cevher in Season 4. (Sümbül/Gülnihal and Mercan/Şah are slightly more subtle by this show’s standards). Gül is jealous of Matrakçı, gets drunk from grief before Nigar’s wedding, always helps Nigar and praises her beauty, once gets excited when he misunderstands Nigar’s words to mean that they will have sex… So yeah.

Nigar who is consistently so clear-eyed about other people’s infatuations (including Sümbül’s for Gülnihal) seems genuinely oblivious to this which I find interesting. Though she often uses Gül’s weakness for her, I don’t know how much she realizes that that weakness is romantic?

Nigar explicitly does not see Gül as a man and she is consistently someone who defines her worth through relations to men. She also very consistently doesn’t believe eunuchs to be men. Remember the scissor gesture she teaches the girls in Episode 1, it was actually during Gül’s brief cameo. I like that the show took that brief scene of levity and made it a whole twisted dynamic in Season 2. Nigar certainly values Gül as a sort-of sexless friend and they do have a nice comradery but she doesn’t ever see him as a man which is sad.

Gül’s Episode 37 speech to Nigar about Pashas and Sultanas getting away with everything but them being collateral damage is still the greatest scene. He also realized there that something occurred between Nigar and Ibrahim and was aware of her crush, but he kind of forgot about it after she married Matrakçı.

I would die to see Gül’s reaction to the news of the Nigar/Ibrahim scandal. Would he get angry at Ibrahim for ruining Nigar’s life? Would he resent Nigar? What would he think about Hürrem’s involvement? We were robbed.

At the end Nigar betrayed Gül Ağa, but I like to think that she caused him to have a more stable decent life in the broader picture. In general it is one of the less tragic relationships of Nigar, sadly enough.