#angsty bts

[carryoncastiel]

Something I noticed while swapping around clothes, is that besides the very obvious scars Wyll has on his face he also has

a big nasty scar that seems to run from one side of his stomach up to his right arm

one mark that looks like maybe a stab wound on the left side of his chest

various little scars on his back and also on the right side of his chest (which all kinda look like claw marks to me)

Wondering what the stories behind those are. With the claw marks I'm always thinking Mizora because we know Wyll has disobeyed her orders before and clawing up his skin as punishment seems like something she would do. Don't know about the other two but they would've been really bad wounds from the locations on his body alone but also how deep they would've been to leave scars like that...

[kookiesdayum]

Toxic, manipulative, super angsty Jungkook's fics please 😭 I have had enough of these smut and lovey dovey shit. I want to cry, my heart should ache with each line, he should totally fuck up his relationship and then I wanna see him regret it so hard that he can't function.

I guess a cheater Jungkook? Or maybe he fucks up even though he's married. Something like that.

Pleaseeeeee 😭

[nnn-ooo]

[blueberry-toast-art]

I think some of yall may have noticed this.. but there's something about swap aus that just itches something in my brain. The idea of taking what's already there and adding some creative liberty to make things either make more sense or just have fun with it.

I mean- You could just swap characters, add some shimmer in their design and just leave it. OR! You could take that base concept and mold it to create something more interesting and fun.

Idk that idea is just so fun to me.

It's def the autism-

[joverflowers]

Ultimate Jinmin Fic Recommendation pt 2

Neighbors/Roommates

efflorescent by minchimcheree

summary: Jimin gets an unexpected new neighbor.

silent speaking words by bucephalas

summary: Kim Seokjin lives alone. Worse still, he feels alone. There's nothing to be done for it. Until one day he finds a cat on his fire escape and meets Park Jimin - a man with the softest of voices and smiles and a laugh like bells.

recipe for success by prosperousends

summary: Jimin runs a potion shop; Seokjin runs a stand selling potion ingredients right across the street. Despite Jimin's best efforts, they find common ground.

Nevermind by eternal_octopus

summary: Wherein the most beautiful man Jimin's ever seen moves in next door, but it's too good to be true when he also turns out to be the lead singer of a rock band that practices at all hours of the night.

You Gave Me A Key (And Called It Home) by caecoethic

summary: The apartment isn't much, not really, and Seokjin thinks there could be better decor in the place; but it's all his. In time, he thinks it could be a home. (and then he gets a roommate.)

dis-ease by gardenjins

summary: roommate park jimin: I’m stopping at the supermarket after work today. anything you need?

me: medicine :(

roommate park jimin: that’s. really vague hyung. what kind of medicine?

the light will wait for us by moonbabie

summary: jimin is studying to be a fortune-teller, born to generations of fortune-tellers and mudangs before him, in an apartment building he's spent all his life in. seokjin is a new tenant, untethered and opaque. why is he so familiar?

press home to unlock by jnkkgay

summary: seokjin would very much like to know if it is normal for your roommate to suddenly set the backgrounds of all their electronic devices to photos of you.

Sports

ain't no mountain high enough by smashthatlikebutton

summary: Jimin looks over at the man with the nice lips and hips and broad expanse of back, standing at the bar without a care in the world. Snowboarding suits him, he thinks. “Cool, I’m going to seduce him.”

“You can’t just seduce Kim Seokjin, Hyung, he has a Wikipedia page!”

Under the Moon by idyllic_hummingbird

summary: They were the top two figure skaters in the nation. Heated rivals on the ice, but no one knew about what went on behind closed doors. Five years passed after Jin's retirement before Jimin heard from him again, inviting him to the beach where he now lived.

Kill V. Maim by newbensolo (orphan_account)

summary: Kim Seokjin is the star of the ring where Jimin used to shine.

Co-workers/Rivals

Paper Planes Through the Skyscraper's Window by Onion_Path

summary: When Kim Seokjin first stepped into the streets of Manhattan with his luggage full of hopes and dreams of building planes and watching them take off above the sky, he wasn’t expecting the said planes to be made of paper out of all things. Neither did he expect them to find a place to land in the apartment across the street; yet here he is now, trying to confess his feelings for his co-worker through weather forecasts and wind speed calculations.

Past the Perfect Pictures by seoulsunset

summary: While they both had the perfect chemistry in front of the flashing cameras, the fact remains that Jimin hated Seokjin, and Seokjin hated Jimin. The competition is tough and the hate game is really strong… or is it really just hate?

Because the last time they checked, you don’t get on your knees for the person you hate.

sweet hot jackpot (winning the office pool) by stickyrum

summary: Jimin commits the most heinous of office crimes against his department manager aka the man of his dreams, and his journey to redemption.

blank by formerlyunknownas

summary: The one where Jimin had too many tequila shots, blacked out, and ultimately slept with his boss (maybe literally, maybe not).

Unnecessary, not stupid. by newgs

summary: Kim Seokjin has been the best. Best chef, best looking, best employee.

Until.

Until Park Jimin, the new owner of the hotel, decides that Kim Seokjin isn't good enough.

Selfish Harmony by tiny_joon

summary: Jimin sighs. He’s not sure how to explain it without it sounding super weird. He dives in anyway, “Okay, so. Hyung and I are in a little bit of a competition to see who can pick up the most passengers at the bar on nights he works. He’s in the lead, obviously, but I’m not that far behind!”

“You are?”

“Well, he doesn’t know.”

you're such a star by kinskins

summary: If asked Seokjin, among of all the annoying things the cruel adult world can throw at you, is one wonderful Park Jimin, who makes the cruel adult world a bit better place to be.

we don't have to say it out loud by capucapu

summary: Seokjin is terribly chaotic, Jimin might be just a bit petty, and everyone else is just struggling to survive another workweek in this capitalist hellscape.

Kim Seokjin from Payroll by tender_tenderly

summary: ��…Drama?” he asks. Seokjin only nods, resolute. “How would we cause drama?”

“It’s simple!” Seokjin says, taking Jimin’s hands and pulling him to his feet. He spins him around before tugging him in close until they’re eye-to-eye, chest to chest. Jimin feels his face heating up as Seokjin brushes his hand against the side of his face.

“Gorgeous, excessive, disgusting PDA."

Fluff/Humor

tell me about the seagulls, sam by ebenroot

summary: Park Jimin sets out to get his co-worker Jeon Jeongguk together with his boss, Vice President Kim Namjoon. Not because he's promised a big promotion if they get together, or because he wants Kim Seokjin to lick the bottom of his shoe, but because he is a Good Person (tm).

jack i'm flying! by ameliabedelias

summary:“Are they okay?” A concerned booze cruise attendant walks by. “They’re not gonna jump, are they?”

“Please, just ignore them,” Hoseok sighs, flopping into one of the deck lounge chairs as Seokjin and Jimin get into position. “They’ve been doing this for three years now. It's kind of their thing.”

you're the right time (at the right moment) by merryofsoul

summary: Five times Seokjin and Jimin's friends try to set them up, and one time Seokjin takes matters into his own hands.

(Feat. Jimin working harder than any of them for the same goal.)

sing it back to me by chahans

summary: Jimin is a part-time concert security guard and Jin is the scalper he's willing to make an exception for.

A Long Walk Off A Short Pier by exfatamorgana

summary: Jimin and Seokjin are panicking; their friends are assholes.

Jimin and Seokjin are panicking; their friends are over it.

Beaches and Summer by arysthaeniru

summary: Jimin has a billion videos of Jin doing stupid things on his phone.

Virtual World/ Androids

Limitations Of Virtual Experience by tullycat

Summary: ”So…” The man hesitates. “You know you normally live in virtual reality, yeah?”

Seokjin shrugs. “Of course. You know you breathe?”

Midnight snacks and mechanical dreams by closetfairy

summary: Cake vending machine android Jimin spends his life in a box. Seokjin orders a cake every week, and longs to show Jimin the world.

Pet shop/Animal Shelter/Hybrids

Enough Fish in the Sea for Two by MissCeeEmBee

summary: After quitting his high stress job in Seoul to become a fisherman in a small village, he hasn't caught a single thing. Not even a boot. Dispirited by his lack of success on the high seas, Seokjin almost misses the pitiful mewl coming from the docks. He investigates and finds a tiny, neglected calico cat who shies away from his touch. Gaining the cat's trust, Seokjin eventually takes him home and realizes that the cat isn't exactly who he seems.

Birdsong by sweetjimbles

summary: Jimin, a Lovebird hybrid, has the fattest crush on his best friend's roommate. Each morning in his bird form, he hides in the tree outside Jin's room and sings his little lungs out. It's a shame Jin thinks this bird is purposefully annoying him when he's trying to sleep.

My Tail 'Round Your Waist, Your Mane in My Face by sleepydrabbles

summary: Seokjin looks forward to all his evenings with Jimin, even when they're both a little grumpy.

A Purrfect Match by hope_and_hardship

summary: When Mr. Tall and Handsome came into the animal shelter in a Canali suit, Jimin was not impressed. But then the man did something unexpected. He sat down in his expensive wool suit on the concrete floor in front of the first cat cage and introduced himself to the cat.

Soulmates

Can't Let You Slip Away by edi-neil (sweet_trick)

Summary: Park Jimin thinks that he and his husband have the perfect relationship. They're going to adopt a baby, have great friends, and are grossly in love. The only thing missing is the bright red soulmate string to bind them together permanently.

when all the stars align by orphan_account

Summary: Seokjin doesn’t know what to do with a soulmate who doesn’t want him back.

Crashing into Destiny by Yumi44

summary: Seokjin is beyond ready to start over in a new town with a new job. Possibly even a whole new him. While he comes to Harmony Springs for a change of scenery and completely on a whim, his expectations are very low as this isn’t the first time he’s escaped, but his third. But destiny has other plans for him when a stranger comes crashing into his life, literally.

Show Me (I'll Show You) by mellzmallow

summary: Jimin is starting to get frustrated now. He is beyond confused and fucking hurt that his soulmate just turned his back on him after admitting to his love for the younger. “Why?” He yells at the elder. “Tell me why, hyung!”

“Because,” Seokjin raises his own voice, obviously irritated at Jimin’s persistence. “We’re soulmates, Jimin. I feel everything you feel. That’s why I know you can never love me as much as you love him.”

Fantasy/Magic Au

luck be my lover by wonsteapot

Summary: On a beautiful day, under a cloudless sky, Seokjin meets a pastry-wielding Park Jimin outside a bakery; a young man with bubblegum pink hair and the most beautiful smile in the world—the man who would steal his heart and change his luck in ways he could have never imagined.

Before he knows it, he's living his very own fairy tale. Literally.

The Universe Has Moved For Us by gardenjins

summary: Seokjin runs into someone who looks and acts just like that boy he fell in love with a few centuries ago. he doesn’t want to fall in love again, but it seems he can’t stop himself.

The Golden Rule of Love Curses by smiles

summary: An incomprehensive list of things Seokjin did not expect when he took a job at the library:

a talking seagull.

did he mention the talking seagull, because he feels like no one is properly panicking about a talking seagull?

oh, and also a wizard places him under a curse.

sorry, correction, a wizard places him under a spell. There is obviously a very significant difference, apologies Jimin. A spell is so much better than a curse.

the pearl in the pond by stickyrum

summary: His back sloped from the widest pair of shoulders Jimin had ever seen. Sand stuck to sections of his back and arms, a small river of sweat forming between the dip of his bowed spine. Jimin swallowed dryly. He had back dimples.

Of Spanish Roses & White Lilies by Always_Somewhere

summary: Once upon a time, a lonely rose fell in love with a handsome prince.

Like the Touch of Rain, He Was by portscutie

summary: If Seokjin could he'd live in a rainforest surrounded by the sweltering heat and soothingly fresh rain that always had the power to bring a smile to his face—

But then again, maybe being with Jimin was happiness enough.

hearts on fire by seokjininheaven

summary: Of all the things Jimin thought would happen once he started practicing magic, he never did think that lighting his mentor's hair on fire would be one of them. It wasn't his fault that Seokjin was the most handsome man Jimin had ever seen.

fae, love-laced by honeyslice (heavensring)

summary: Jimin is a house fairy assigned to Seokjin, human-extraodinaire—at making his job frustratingly difficult.

Hurt/Comfort

comfort blanket by wonsteapot

summary: When normality comes crashing down around him, Jimin turns to Seokjin for comfort.

two left by Saltyghostsuga

summary: Performance Artist Jimin finds himself as a teacher's assistant in Hoseok's Contemporary Dance class for Beginners (yike) as he recovers from an injury, working his way back to being on stage again. He learns just as much about dancing from his student, tech supply conglomerate executive with two left feet Kim Seokjin, as Jin does from him.

love fallen by celestialfail

summary: Jimin finds out the village's demon is really a fallen angel inflicted with a terrible sickness.

despite everything i love you by asteriafics (orphan_account)

summary: Jimin realizes he's in love with Seokjin and promptly goes through the five stages of grief.

A Certain Sense of Synergy by deepslowpanic

summary: They barely even dated, Jimin doesn’t feel like he can even call it a relationship. The breakup wasn’t even a breakup, just them moving seamlessly into being friends instead. And now, years later, things are easy and comfortable. But when the first of their friends get married, Jimin starts to see things, and Seokjin, in a new light.

not spring, love, or cherry blossoms by jinminrising (xiujaemin)

summary: On the spring of 1988, Jimin feels the giddiness of first love. But happiness isn’t all there is to falling in love, and Jimin realize that maybe the heartache isn’t all that worth it.

Coffee shop/ Bakery/ Flower shop/ Book shop

you make me bloom by orphan_account

summary: In their flower shop, sunflowers bloom only when Jimin is happy. For all the years he's lived with Seokjin, there's a new one in the bathtub every morning.

Love You A Latte by gardenjins

Summary: Kim Seokjin was not a coffee person.

Ninety percent milk was…well, it was still coffee. But it wasn’t the worst thing in the world. Not when he found himself staring at a graceful swan every time he took another sip.

Wait, did he say cute barista?

cherry picking by untilitbreaks

summary: Jimin meets a beautiful man named Seokjin, and allows him and his charismatic coworkers to fit into his life and teach him the meaning of honesty, love, and self-acceptance in a battle against his anxiety.

Canon Verse

blooming starlight by anakhronism (orphan_account)

summary: With his arms around Seokjin's waist and Taehyung's words ringing in the back of his mind like alarm bells, Jimin realizes he and Seokjin might not be just friends.

The rarest pair by closetfairy

summary: The boys get curious about their fanfiction stats. Everyone laughs about their ship rankings, but Jimin can't get the thought of him and Jin being incompatible out of his head.

rivers connecting lines by ninemoons42

summary: Time is slipping through Jin's fingers, but fortunately Jimin has no plans of letting (him) go.

You're the Moon by hopelessandcynical

summary: seokjin manages to get some vacation time and surprises jimin at home after seeing his guilty video and then they proceed to be the cutest boyfriends for about 5k words. that's it, that's the story.

Satisfied by peridotfairy

summary: Jimin had always sought perfection and for a moment, he'd thought he'd found it in Kim Seokjin.

what sweet addiction this is, darling by stickyrum

summary: "You know, this would be so much easier if we could just say, 'going on a date," Seokjin murmured under his breath, threading Jimin's fingers with his and sliding their hands into the pocket of his coat.

Youth by taejinyo

summary: Jimin sees stars in Seokjin's eyes.

just let me love you by wonsteapot

summary: Jimin shifted in his seat, a steady heat flickering to life in his gut as the realization slowly dawned on him.

Seokjin was flirting with him.

ABO Verse

Wild Woods Calling by MmeIrene

summary: Seokjin wakes up in a world not his own, a world full of wolves and danger, where betas are prized beyond reckoning for their healing abilities and the local wolf packs would do anything - anything - to claim a beta for their own.

Lost by lovewaves (jinsan)

summary: Omega Seokjin is bestowed to Alpha Jimin who shows him that love is a kind of holiness.

The Fox Who Stole the Moon by MissCeeEmBee

summary: On his way to another futile matchmaking meeting, gumiho Prince Jimin is waylaid by a strange creature of fire and ash. To protect himself from deadly injuries, his transforms into a fox.

Disgraced Healer Seokjin comes across the poor creature and takes it back to his supposedly haunted hanok to recover. Jimin discovers that perhaps he was looking for his precious mate in all of the wrong places.

It's You by nunu_noodles

summary: Seokjin has turned 25 years old, which means his time is up.

No more grace period, no more time for romance.

These days, they can only wait so long for nature to take it's own course, ever since nature stopped working the way it should, and the worlds population started slowing down.

It's time for the tireless wheels of the government to turn and procure him a mate.

Selfish (for now) by monomoonluv (jooniebug_95)

summary: Natural Born Vampire Princes Seokjin and Jimin have been best friends almost their entire lives. But with Seokjin's impending engagement he realizes that maybe his feelings for Jimin were something else entirely.

Actor/Singer/Artist Au

Myself in the Sea by bangtanagan

summary: He’s a good actor. He’s not sure when he started using it like this, to hide from his friends too.

These days, Seokjin feels like a passenger in his own life.

Cake Waltz by gardenjins

summary: Jimin works for a catering company and bumps into handsome prince famous actor Seokjin at a ball fancy business event

the portrait by orphan_account, raplinehoes

summary: Seokjin is a bored rich man who seeks something, anything, to give his life a meaning, until he finds the perfect painting: a portrait made by one artist named Park Jimin.

this is my second date by misspamela

summary: In his defense, it wasn’t Seokjin’s fault he didn’t notice the near-apocalyptic storm raging outside or a small avalanche hitting the resort’s backup generator. How could he be expected to focus on something as trivial as the weather when the hottest guy he’d ever seen in his life was riding him like he was trying to kill him?

Fake/ Pretend Relationship

Fate in The Papers by yoonminnycupcake

summary: Seokjin and Jimin gets drunk married to each other.

down to deny by tullycat

summary: If Seokjin had to choose a friend to fake date, life or death, gun-held-to-his-head decision, Jimin would be at the top. Jimin is cute, Seokjin is cute, they're both comfortable with physical affection, especially with each other. How hard could it be?

High School/College/University

Sweet Smiles (are Natural Disasters) by VenusBiTrap (ShineyT)

summary: Seokjin can see his friend is really uncomfortable with a stranger's flirty advances, so he interrupts and introduces himself and gets a date.

we were written in the stars by stickyrum

summary: In the now empty clubroom, he reached up and caught the kiss before it could fly away to some other hopeless idiot with a crush and made his way back to his little desk, face aflame. Seokjin read his horoscopes. Kim Seokjin, senior president, business and food industry major, read Jimin's horoscopes.

A Comfort-Colored Thing by exfatamorgana

summary: Bedtime stories are for babies.

It's not tough, I just miss you by onlypreciousloves

summary: It’s Valentine's Day, their first anniversary as a couple. Yet there’s thousands of miles between them and Jimin feels guilty that he’s lonely. A long distance relationship is so much more difficult than Jimin had imagined.

break a leg by ultjinmin

summary: Jimin just wanted to practice in peace. He hadn't meant to meet Kim Seokjin, or agree to be the choreographer for his upcoming show.

But now all Jimin wants to do is impress Seokjin. Just once.

you tread a fine line by wonsteapot

summary: Jimin has never understood the hype around Kim Seokjin. He'd rather live a life where he didn't have to come into close proximity with the other man.

Unfortunately, fate has other plans for them.

Holiday Wish List by xiujaemin

summary: There’s a fine line between taking risks and being stupid. Jimin seems to be treading somewhere in between. If anybody asks though, he'd probably say it's Taehyung's fault.

Red Cheeks by orphan_account

summary: “Yah!” Seokjin lifted his arms protectively as Jimin raised the textbook again, his cheeks a furious red, “You said to be honest with you! Why are you hitting me?”

치맥 (Hello, Delivery Boy) by TrappingLightningBugs

summary: If you ask Jimin now, he would tell you love smells like fried chicken and looks like a very drunk university student.

If you asked him before, he would call those the recipe for a very annoying Friday night.

smooth sea never made a skilled sailor by stickyrum (Restricted)

summary: A lash of pain split open across his calf. He jerked away instinctively, limping out of the water and kneeling down on the sand, his leg stinging fiercely. A welt had formed a loose ring just above his ankle. He glanced up in time to see a pale, gelatinous blob sink beneath the waves again, its tentacles causing the water to writhe like a pool of sea serpents. A jellyfish.

"You've gotta be fucking kidding me," Jimin cursed under his breath.

i think about you all the time by seokjininheaven

summary: When Seokjin asks Jimin if he'd like to be friends with benefits again, Jimin's answer is the last thing he expects.

But it just might be the push he needed to realize some things

[jiangsspace]

Hi I hope your doing well ❤️ sorry if I'm being a bit annoying or adding to your work load I was wondering you could do an imagine with yoongi where he finds you crying really badly and he comforts you? Not forcing btw

"I'm on my way to you now, let me know your coordinates?" Yoongi pleaded with an alarmed expression on his face. He was scrambling around his apartment to find his car keys, the keys to your apartment and a leather jacket while simultaneously attempting to force his feet into the first pair of shoes he could find.

"Just home... I'm at home," you managed to squeeze out, because you were doing an absolutely terrible job at masking the fact you had obviously spent the last hours crying. The raspiness of your voice sending shivers down Yoongi's spine as he bolted out of the elevator and into the underground parking lot.

"I'm on my way," he kept muttering under his breath while putting the car into reverse and speeding out. He kept up the mantra mostly to himself, but his soothing voice helped ease the overwhelming waves that threatened to pull you under. Luckily he had always had a calming effect on you ever since you were children.

"I'm downstairs, hold tight!" Yoongi spoke hurriedly as he ended the call and parked the car with swift precision.

The desperate scratching at the door caught your attention as someone was trying to introduce the key into the lock.

"Where are you?" Yoongi called out as he kicked off his shoes by the entrance. The heavy leather thumped to the ground as he ran inside looking for you. He checked the kitchen and living room first, but quickly moved on when there were no signs of you on the underfloor heated kitchen tiles or the usual spot on the couch. There was only one other spot you always went to when you needed comfort.

"Hey, hey, I'm here," Yoongi almost ripped the bathroom door from its hinges as he rushed to your side and dropped down on his knees. Your eyes met for a brief second before his arms wrapped tightly around you. All the tension in your body disappeared as you felt his chest rise and fall in a sporadic rhythm. Although he was out of breath from running up the stairs, you were relieved he was here.

"I'm here now, you can let it all out," he whispered while adjusting his grip on you.

"I didn't realise something like this could happen," you let out a defeated sigh. Your sniffles echoed around the bathroom, but your salty tears had stopped. Yoongi took a brief moment to reach for some tissue paper, and dabbed your flushed cheeks dry.

"Would you like some water?" he spoke so softly now that he had regained his breath. You nodded, and Yoongi reached out again to grab a blue tinted glass and fill it with cool water. You always kept one in the bathroom, which was a relief, because this way Yoongi could stay by your side.

"Cool water absorbs better," Yoongi handed you the glass while stroking your hair. "Drink slowly. It'll help you balance your breathing," he urged.

"I feel better now," you closed your eyes and let your head rest on his chest. Yoongi couldn't help, but smile.

[minbon]

There for you ~

Your sudden encounter with Seokjin, your first love, who, with no goodbyes and explanation, left you alone six years ago.

•••••••

You noticed that someone has blocked your way. You halt your steps, directed your eyes to that someone while your heart beats with a calm rhythm, as you expected it to be.

As you carefully stare at the man in front of you, you realize how familiar his face is.

He has the same pair of eyes that has always looked deeply into your soul, the same plump lips that you once felt brushing tenderly against yours and surprisingly, even his bangs are at the same length as they were before, almost covering both of his eyebrows.

Just the few new things that you observed are the changes in his clothing style and the charms adorning his face, ears, neck and hands.

With the way he looks at you now, you can say that he's still the same person who loves you dearly.

He's still that same person who once promised you that no matter what happens,

... he will be there for you.

Then you wonder what happened to 'being there' when he decided to suddenly disappear from your life six years ago, the day after he made you that promise.

Or maybe you heard him wrong that night. Maybe you had a moment of selective hearing then.

Maybe what he really said that night was "I'll be there for you.. again.. after six years."

It's laughable to think about how not funny these sudden thoughts are.

Growing uncomfortable with the silence, he moved one step closer to you with an attempt to start a conversation, or at least to begin with some greetings.

But to his surprise, as he utters his first word, you began walking past him.

His eyes followed your direction but his body did not dare to make a move to stop you. He stood still for some seconds, hoping you'd come back or at least spare him a second glance.

But you did not.

He stood still for some more, reminiscing the way you stared at him just a few moments ago.

You, on the other hand, just continued walking towards your original destination, to go by your day as you have already planned. Opposite to how he is at the moment, you don't seem to be affected with the sudden encounter.

Maybe because at some point within those years that he had been gone, you stopped waiting for him, stopped holding on to his promise and stopped feeling anything for him, not even anger nor disappointment.

For the remaining days, months or years before you met again, you have unconsciously practiced not caring about anything connected to him anymore.

As certain as you are that nothing much has changed about him, you are more certain that everything about you, that is related to him in any way, has completely changed.

And while he may still try to keep his promise and now be there for you, you are a hundred percent sure that

you no longer want and no longer need him to be.

°°°°°°°

Haha! There I present to you my 500-word Jin essay??? (or whatever this is) Because last night, I watched the Euphoria and I'll Be There vids in a row and was too mesmerized by how Jin stared directly to my soul (hehe, did he really???) through the camera lens. Hence, the captures below:

♡

[seokiesprettygirl]

Yearning pt 2 | JHS

Just as he promised and just as you expected he didn’t check in often. He was gone and busy, elbows deep in his new projects. You saw someone posting him landing safely in LA and as much you hate that everyone always knew where he was and at what time, it has brought you a feeling of relief that he has made it safely. Not long after you seeing those pictures your phone chimed. You picked it up and saw a text ‘Made it in one piece. I already miss you. Please wait for me. Thank you for being so patient with me. I love you’. A simple message, few words yet it means so much. He knew you would understand the depth of his words. There was so much more into those words than an average I made it text. He was yearning back. He spent the last months falling asleep with a tight chest, thinking of you. Missing you. Yearning for you. He had you around for only a short period of time and he was off again. Gone. Busy. The thank you wasn’t just gratitude. It was a profound respect that he had for you, to endure everything he thought he has put you through. But it wasn’t like that for you. It was painful yes, and it was difficult at times but it was always worth it. The drive you had for your life because of him being around, the inspiration you were gaining from his smile and sparkly eyes. He has changed you to be kinder to people, not that you have ever been unkind but you seeing him always going the extra mile made you understand how he treated people. He wasn’t putting you through ‘this’, it was his kindness speaking again. Because he felt like he tied you to him but you might have not thought of the consequences, of all the busy weeks he might be gone for. He was wrong. You wouldn’t ever be able to leave because of any of those reasons. It was who he was and it was part of him. Your love form him was structured of loving all of his parts, including the one that felt like never ending waiting for him cycle.

His I love you also wasn’t just as simple as it seemed. It was so much more. It was his love for you that kept him going through really difficult times. It was always you talking things through with him. You were his rock and every time he would express his love for you, it was him reminding the both of you how many times you were there for him and still are. The only stable thing in his life, the never problematic one. The waiting with open arms one for him to come home. The one that he could rule the world of but also the one he could dismantle into pieces in front.

There wasn’t a lot after that message, days kept passing by and you tried being busy. You have been busy. You planned a lot for this time, so you could stayed focused. That was the only way for the tike to past faster. But you couldn’t focus. You slipped into a slumber and everyday you would just do a bare minimum. Work, some chores and bed. There wasn’t anything that interested you anymore. You tried convincing yourself that it’s will pass and you will pick up again and everything will be fine.

Days have gone by and you have felt a little bit better. Up and down but nothing extreme. You were thinking about him daily, you looked at the pictures you took together during the week between his discharge and this trip. It felt good and lifted you up for another few days.

Not long after that, out of the blue your phone started buzzing in your pocket and when you took it out, you saw a incoming video call.

📞 Hoseok

You bit your lip, smiled to yourself and run to the sofa. Deep breathe in and out and you answered.

‘There you are’ he smiled seeing your face. He looked really tired. Sat in a chair, black tshirt tight around his new body. He looked so good.

‘Isn’t it incredibly late there?’ you didn’t know how to start the conversation so your first worry came out.

‘It is, but I’m having few calls with management soon so I had to stay up anyway. Thought a small surprise call would help us keep going’ he smirked and just stared at your eyes. You couldn’t even look away, you missed him so much and based on his words it hasn’t been easy for him either. You didn’t expect it to be, but at the same time he was away for his projects. He would have been busy and focused anyway. Yet his sweet words and low voice were telling a different story.

‘It’s tough isn’t it?’ you skipped to the core, to the raw and honest. You both always did that, one would mention something weighing on your heart and the conversation would instantly turn and focus on that.

‘I thought it would be easier, since I was away for 18 months but I would be lying if it was as easy as it used to be. Is there a way for you to come for few days?’ He sounded desperate. He has never mentioned you joining him on any of his adventures, he always pushed through, got right into it and came home as soon as he could. But this felt different. His yearning never reached this far, to so desperately need you.

‘I wish, but I have a really busy few weeks at work and.. my exams are coming up’ you looked away, you felt like you were disappointing him. You couldn’t be there for him, when he really needed you.

‘You scheduled it all for when I’m away, haven’t you?’ He knew you inside out. He knew the way you would deal with his absence.

‘I have. I’m really sorry I can’t come when you need me..’ you felt like tears are slowly starting to run towards the back of your eyes and you shut them to stop it.

‘Hey, hey, it’s okay! It’s not long left. Actually, how about I call you in few days? It’s really difficult change the habits and I sometimes forget I’m no longer tied to certain times to use my phone. I will call you again before my flight back home, hows that?’ you weren’t sure if he was trying to make you feel better or himself. It seemed like both you and him needed another few days just by yourselves. Away from everyone and everything.

‘That’s okay my love. I understand. You know I will always pick up’ you responded and wiped the leftovers of few tears that managed through the barricade of your hands.

‘Have you been eating well? It’s getting cold back home, remember to wrap up okay?’ his voice turned incredibly soft and you felt like he was right next to you whispering right into your ear.

‘It has gotten so much colder. I will wear your scarf, don’t worry’ you giggled.

Few minutes of hearing his voice and seeing his face was enough for you to go back up. You went back to work focused and ready for all the challenges that were waiting for you. You felt better. Warmer. More like yourself. It also helped that you had something to look forward to. The promise of another call right before you will have him in your arms again gave you strength and brought you back on the right track.

This time his promise was binding because your phone buzzed again few days later and you saw another video call incoming.

‘Room tour?’ he asked with a huge smile when you picked up the call.

‘Sure thing’ you sat comfortably at your desk at work and looked at him walking around his room showing you all the details. Then he went into a walk in wardrobe and started dancing in front of a mirror and you laughed. First time in so long he made you laugh and you couldn’t stop. He was so funny. Then he showed you his make up routine, all his products lined up like you instructed him to use one by one.

‘Are you proud? Ive been using them daily’ he said putting a sheet mask on his face. You couldn’t stop smiling, seeing him so ready to go home. Everything was neatly packed away and just his airport outfit ready for the next day. You knew this will be all over the news the next day when he arrives home, but at least you were the first one to see it.

As expected pictures from the airport were everywhere the next day and you were annoyed. Because so many times have the fans been asked to not come to the airport. It took away the surprise for you but deep down you were just happy he was home. It meant you would see him soon. Very soon.

He messaged later that day saying he is back home and he will come and see you shortly. You didn’t know what shortly meant but not even few minutes after you heard key in your door and he paraded into your kitchen with a bunch of shopping bags in his hands.

‘Couldn’t help myself and got you few things in LA. I hope you don’t mind’ he grinned at you and you just melted away into an embrace. He was home! Finally!

‘I am so happy you are home’ you whispered and pecked his lips few times.

‘I got so many schedules ahead, I have AP even tomorrow and I have to help Seokjin hyung with his video. They haven’t told me what it is yet. And then in few days I have a radio show I promised I will come to. I’m so sorry it feels like I will never have an actual few minutes to take a break but any spare time I will have I plead to spend by your side. Does that sound good?’ he just wouldn’t stop talking, holding your face in his hands and you just kept nodding. You didn’t expect him to be free. But being in the same country would help to see him once a while or at least go to sleep in the same bed. It was his favourite kind of surprise to have for you. You would go to sleep after a busy day and he would sneak in after his busy day and you would at least have a coffee together the next morning before the chaos would start again.

Back to normality. Back home. But was it actually was meant to last for long?

[daegudrama]

Daegudrama’s Spicy Festa Special D-5

Title: Daylight

Pairing: Reader/Kim Taehyung

Summary: After years apart Taehyung and Reader spend a night together and finally confess their truest feelings.

Word Count: 4003 words

Warning: Brief mention of enlistment

He’s sitting on your sectional with a goofy smile on his face as he watches cute animal videos on his phone. It’s his last night here before he has to go back to Korea. Before you both have to go back to real life and stop living in this fantasy. You knew this day would come. You knew it all along. How did it come so fast?

You sit beside him curling into his side. Every passing moment brings you closer to Taehyung leaving with no idea when he’ll be able to come back. He wraps an arm around you pressing a kiss to the top of your head. His warm hand rests on your waist as the calming scent of his cologne engulfs you. 

Trying to explain what the two of you have to normal people doesn’t really go over well. He isn’t your boyfriend but he isn’t just your friend. Maybe if you lived on the same side of the world he would be, but the cards are not in favor of that. Taehyung is a man you will drop anyone for the moment he touches down in your country. You hope he would do the same if you ever found your way to Korea. The words he’s said to you make you believe he would.

Taehyung sets his phone down and turns his attention to you. He lifts your chin with one hand cupping your cheek when you meet his eyes. He leans forward pressing a soft kiss to your lips. His lips taste like the strawberries you were eating a few minutes ago. You wish your heart wouldn’t flutter so strongly because when the daylight comes he’ll have to go. The two of you will be on your own again in just a few hours. 

“I wish I didn’t have to go.” he whispers sadness glazing over his beautiful eyes. “I wish you could come home with me.”

You kiss him, desperately trying not to let every word bubbling in your chest out. He doesn’t need to know that you wish more than anything in the world that you could follow him. Taehyung doesn’t need to hear how hopelessly in love with him you are. You’ve told him all the reasons you can’t just pick up your life. He respects the life you have built here, but just like you he wishes this could be something else.

He responds positively to the kiss pulling you closer until you are sitting on his lap. Taehyung pulls away from the kisses and hugs you tightly to his chest. You feel him take a deep breath as his head bows against your shoulder. He pushes the strap of your tank top to the side with his nose and kisses your skin.

You don’t want to talk about why you can’t leave again. You don’t want to talk about why he has to leave you. This time should be spent making each other feel things that will be remembered long after his plane leaves in the morning. 

Your fingers card through his dark hair while he sucks marks onto your neck. A reminder that he was here if even for just a fleeting moment. Taehyung’s hands creep up your top brushing his fingertips against your bare skin. No matter how many times he touches you there is still electricity. Every time you meet it has been so long it’s like starting over at square one. You wish he never had to leave. You don’t want to start all over. You don’t want to sleep because you know when you wake up it’ll be time for him to leave.

Taehyung lifts his head when you give his hair a slight tug. He smiles softly before his eyes slide shut. You copy the movement and lean in to kiss the most beautiful person you’ve ever met. His long fingers grasp your waist trying to pull you impossibly closer. Taehyung deepens the kiss, letting his tongue lick into your mouth. Your hands work the buttons of his white shirt open until his whole chest and stomach are exposed. He guides one of your hands to his pec and you rub your finger against his nipple. Last time you were together you learned he likes it when you play with his nipples.

He breaks the kiss to pull your top off and you push his shirt off his shoulders. Taehyung stares for a moment with a soft expression before taking one of your nipples into his mouth. You grind your ass against his crotch and feel his cock getting hard. This is probably the best way to forget about the impending morning.

A moan escapes your lips as his other hand squeezes your breast. You trail your fingers across his smooth skin lightly. He shivers from the sensation and that makes a smile find its way to your face. You stir your hips against him until you can feel he’s fully hard. He swirls his tongue around your nipple. Taehyung takes the perky bud between his teeth and carefully scrapes his teeth against it before releasing it. He knows that he’s driving you insane. Even after all this time he hasn’t forgotten the small details. 

Taehyung kisses you again, gripping your hips so he can flip you on your back. You are impressed you didn’t clack teeth like the last time he tried that. To be fair the two of you were in a much smaller space last time. His smile is genuinely happy when he pulls away and you wonder how he can smile like that when he’s about to leave. Does being with you make him that happy? Or is he just happy there are boobies in his face?

He leaves a trail of kisses from your neck to your belly button. You nod your head when he looks up with his fingers against your waistband. You don’t want to speak. You want him to show you how he feels. Taehyung removes your shorts and underwear in one go, tossing them to the side. 

He kisses your mound while his hands grasp your thighs. Taehyung lies on his stomach between your legs as he continues to plant wet kisses around your pussy. He knows to leave marks on the inside of your thighs where your skin is so sensitive it sends a shiver up your spine. No one has ever spent the time to memorize you except him. 

Taehyung’s warm fingers spread your lips and he draws in a deep breath before flicking his tongue across your clit. Your muscles involuntarily lift your hips into his face. He pins your hip down and licks up and down your slit in long strokes. There is no rush he’s savoring every second he has left with you. 

He zigzags his tongue chuckling when you search for somewhere to place your hands. Taehyung only likes hair pulling in certain positions and this is not one of them. You settle for squeezing the cushion. He looks like perfection licking your cunt like it's the greatest delicacy he's ever tasted. Taehyung keeps eye contact with you as he teases your hole with one finger. Your stomach flutters, feeling almost shy as he demands you to watch. 

You can’t hold back the moan he earns when he slips one finger into your already dripping pussy. Taehyung sucks your clit into his mouth while pushing his finger all the way into you. He curls the digit inside you pulling a strained moan from your mouth. He is pleased with himself, pulling his mouth away from your cunt to kiss your thighs again. Taehyung adds another finger when he thinks you are ready. The truth is you are never ready for anything to do with him.

He pumps his fingers in and out of your pussy quicker than before. You clench around his fingers and he dives back in to lick your clit. Taehyung’s name passes your lips several times as you watch him please you. The only thing more beautiful than this is watching him perform. You are trying to make every cell in your body corporate, but you fear if he doesn’t stop you will cum soon. He knows just how to touch you a little too well and you can’t let this moment end this quickly.

“Tae, let's go to the bedroom.”

He looks up with your lust on his chin and you sit up wiping it away. Taehyung pulls his fingers out of you and sucks them clean before kissing you. He stands, unbuttoning his pants and taking them off, and offers you his hand. Your heart reacts wildly to the small gesture, but you take his hand and he leads you to your room.

You sit on the edge of your bed watching Taehyung take off his boxers. As soon as you see his cock you kneel in front of him. Your lips press against the tip of his length letting your tongue snake out. Taehyung says your name watching you take more of his fat cock into your mouth. You look up through your lashes to see his mouth opened and brow drawn together. You cave your cheeks in, running your mouth up and down the length of his cock while you grab the back of his thighs with your hands. 

Your goal is to drive him crazy. Who knows when the next time you’ll be able to suck someone’s dick is? In the past you’ve tried sleeping with other people but it’s very hard when you are in love with one person. It’s hard to make it through sex with other people and not think about the man in front of you who holds every piece of your heart. Which is why you haven’t had sex since the last time you saw him.

With one hand you fondle his balls adding to the sensation of his first blowjob in a long time. You circle your tongue around his tip paying extra attention to the sensitive area. Taehyung never holds back with you and you are grateful to hear his sweet moans. When you swallow around the head of his cock you think he might lose it. His hands grip your hair, something you really like, and tugs. You can’t hold back the moan you release around his cock. He pulls you off his cock tilting your chin up with his hand.

“Can I please fuck you?” He asks, pulling you from the ground and hugging you to his chest.

“Yes, please.” You pull him onto the bed lying on your back. He kneels between your legs about to push himself inside of you when you stop him. No matter how awkward this question is you have to ask him. “Have you been with anyone else since we saw each other last?”

“I’m clean.” He responds from his position sitting back on his feet.

He gave you the answer you were looking for but somehow it makes your heart drop. He avoided the actual question you asked which means he has been with other people since you saw each other the last time. There is no reason for you to feel like this. Taehyung isn’t yours and you aren’t his. It’s been two years since you last saw him in person. Of course he would see someone else. He has needs too. Honestly, it’s a miracle that you were home when he was here. Your busy lives get in the way to the absolute extreme.

He notices the cold look on your face and his eyebrows raise. Taehyung scrambles to your side and takes your face in his hands. His eyes are very serious when he speaks.

“I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to avoid the question. I thought that’s what you wanted to know. There was one guy a few months after LA, but something felt really off.” He pauses looking away and you can see his cheeks getting red even in the dim light. The dull ache in your stomach leaves. “Sex with other people doesn’t feel right. It only feels right when I’m with you.”

“I feel the same way, but you were the last person I was with.”

Taehyung leans forward and kisses you while you take his cock in your hand. You don’t want to talk about this further, you want to feel his dick deep inside of you. Thankfully, he does exactly what you want. He pushes your legs apart and slaps his cock against your slit. The man you are hopelessly in love with doesn’t tease you for long. 

You swear fireworks play behind your eyes as Taehyung pushes inside of you. Both of you curse in unison. No piece of silicone can compete with Kim Taehyung slowly rocking his cock into your ready pussy. He leans over you watching your face for a moment before he kisses you. This feels so intimate you almost think Taehyung might feel exactly the same way you do. Of course, that’s crazy to think because he’s an idol and you are just chief editor of a magazine he happened to be on the cover of one time five years ago.

You focus on the feeling of Taehyung’s lips against your skin and his cock thrusting into you. He’s being tender, pushing himself as deep as possible without slamming himself into you. If only you could stay in this moment forever with no worries.

You grip his shoulders trying to pull him even deeper into your pussy. His soft groans must be the most beautiful sound you’ve ever heard in your life. You wrap your legs around his waist holding him inside of you. He nips at your collarbone but doesn’t fight to move. You use your legs as leverage to move yourself on his cock.

After a few moments of that you want more. Sweet and sensual is lovely but you want to make the most of this. Who knows when you’ll see each other next. You deeply hope it won’t be two more years, but it very well might be. 

“Let me ride you.” 

Taehyung raises an eyebrow with a smile covering his face. He catches your lips with his as he pulls out of you. You deepen the kiss as you sit up holding the back of his neck. Fluttery heat rises to your chest and you can’t believe how truly insane he makes you feel. 

“You’re so perfect.” He says looking in your eyes with a soft hand on your cheek. Heat travels up to your heart before dropping straight to your pussy. Why would he say that? He knows how praises effect you.

He lies on his back before you can respond. Not that you have any idea what to say. You fear you might spill all your truest feelings if you speak. So you don’t, straddling his legs and sinking down on to his waiting cock. His eyes lock with yours for only a second before he watches his length disappear inside of you.

Taehyung grabs your hips, sighing when he’s fully inside you. His fingers dig into your skin as he tries to stop himself from thrusting. He lets you stir your hips completely on your own. Taehyung’s mouth falls open and a string of pretty but filthy words fill the air. Every move of your hips sends a flutter to your stomach. Being connected with him like this after so long adds to the pleasure of his fat cock deep inside you. 

The man you are in love with seemingly loses any self control when you start bouncing on his cock. His words nearly drown out the sound of your soaking pussy taking his cock. He doesn’t remove his hands using them as leverage to meet you with his thrusts.

“You ride me so well. Why are you so good at this?” He groans but something feels off in his tone as if he’s saying it in a regretful way. “You make it so hard to see anyone else. I wish you could come home with me forever. No one compares to you.”

Wow, you never imagined your pussy was good enough to make him say things that will get your hopes up. You lean down, silencing him before he can say something he can’t turn back from. There’s no reason to say that when it can’t happen. What’s the point in saying it when he’ll be gone with the sun rising? You wish you could spend every sunrise with him forever.

Taehyung thrusts into you, moans growing louder when he pulls his lips away from yours. He holds the back of your neck looking into your eyes. There isn’t a waver in the eye contact. Something about this feels a thousand times more intimate than the times before. It’s like he’s scared he might miss something. You try to empty your mind and focus on what is happening. This moment needs to be savored, but it’s hard with a tsunami of emotions pooling in your chest. 

You press another kiss to his soft lips before pulling back and leaning back to brace yourself against his thighs. His thumb finds your clit and rubs circles while you continue to fuck yourself onto his cock.

“Please, Taehyung.” You whine riding him despite the burning protest from your legs. The pleasure outweighs the pain. “Please, make me cum on your cock.”

He flicks his finger faster against your clit building and building your high until his cock hits just the right spot inside you. Your head falls back and Taehyung is all you can say. There is no other word to say. There is no other word you want to be saying. The man takes you into his arms, slowing the thrust of his hips to pepper your face in kisses. Unexpectedly, he cums inside you while he is gently patting your hair. For a moment you stay connected. You wonder how it’s even possible that he came while caring for you. 

“You make me so happy.” He whispers so softly you aren’t sure he really meant to say it. 

On shaky legs you get off of Taehyung and head to the bathroom to clean yourself. By the time you return he is lying on your bed in his boxers looking at the ceiling. His hands are folded behind his head and your heart skips a beat. Maybe there’s another timeline where he’s not an idol and the two of you can be happy just doing laundry and taxes together. 

Taehyung throws you one of his shirts from his luggage and you put it on with a pair of comfy underwear. You rest your head on his bare chest and his arms wrap around you tightly. There’s no place you’d rather be. 

“You make me happy, too.” 

Neither of you say anything for a while enjoying your last moments together. You listen to the steady beat of his heart as he strokes your hair. Every once and awhile he presses a kiss to the crown of your head. You wish your heart would stop soaring. Maybe that would make this easier. 

“Come home with me.” He mumbles like it just slipped out without a thought.

“Tae, can we not do this? I’d rather enjoy the last few hours I have with you.”

He takes a deep breath and doesn’t say anything for so long you think he might actually listen to you. Of course, you can never have what you want. You wish life was simple enough that you could just leave for Korea and not worry about anything else. Your friends are here. Your family and your job and all your favorite things, except Taehyung, are here. 

“Y/N, please you don’t have to uproot your life. Just spend a month with me first. No one has ever made me feel the way you make me feel.”

You pull out of his arms looking into his eyes that are pleading for you to accept his offer. Your heart stings. What would you do at the end of the month? You wish you could live in a fantasy where there’s a chance that you could wake up beside him every morning. 

“And what happens at the end of that month when I want more than anything to stay and I can’t because my life is here?” You don’t want to say the next thing but it’s all you can think about when he’s asking this of you. “In a few months you are leaving for 18 months. You are the only reason I would want to be there. If I can’t see you, what's the point?”

Tears fall down Taehyung’s cheeks and you rush to wipe them away. Seeing his tears makes your own fall and you hug the man tightly. This conversation always ends like this. You never want to have it again, but until something changes it’s going to keep happening.

“Then I can’t see you for two more years? I would make sure you can see me in the military. What about when I’m out? Are we going to be held in this same loop forever? I don’t want anyone else. I want you.”

“When you’re out you are going to release an album with your members then go on a world tour. You are going to be too busy for me again.” Your voice is shaky. “I don’t know what I’ll be doing by then but the universe isn’t on our side.”

“What if I don’t do that?” He asks softly and you crane your head back to look into his eyes.

That is the wildest thing he’s ever said in his entire life. There is no timeline in the universe where you would allow yourself to be the reason he doesn’t go back to his members. Because of how much you love Taehyung you would never ask that of him. Music and his members are his whole life.

“Don’t be stupid.”

He huffs but doesn’t say anything else for the rest of the night. He doesn’t let go of you. 

You fall asleep in his arms dreading the moment you wake up and he has to leave. When his alarm rings your heart drops and you can’t stop the tears from flowing. You hold him tightly against your chest and he holds you back.

“There’s something I wanted to say last night but it didn’t feel right with what we were saying.” He pulls away to take your face in his hands. “I don’t want another two years to pass without saying this.”

“What is it?” Your voice is barely above a whisper but your heart is racing with worry.

“I love you.” You can’t stop yourself from gasping when you hear that. Taehyung continues as if you didn't interrupt. “I’ve known I love you for three years, but it never felt right to admit it.”

You’ve been in love with each other this whole time and both never felt like you could admit it? Both of you have said things that practically spell out the feelings you hold but neither of you has ever uttered those three words. Something about those words makes it feel so much more serious.

Taehyung’s eyes are soft like he’s not worried about what you will say. You would be freaking out if you said that first. He must know you are in love with him. Taehyung is the first person you tell all your accomplishments about. He’s the first one you speak to when you are upset and he always knows how to comfort you even from thousands of miles away.

“I love you too.” You take a deep breath saying the thing you never thought you would give a chance. “When you get back from enlistment, let's talk about us again.”

You’ve never seen a happier smile grace his face before. He surges forward and kisses you like it’s the last thing he might ever do.

[lunavagans]

How are there so few Ganondorf & Shadow Link fics?? I‘ve written a third of them.

[likeawildflower]

Jin - Teaser for Close to You - When the Stars Gossip (OST Part.3)

[pricelessemotion]

my favorite thing about matt murdock is that he is canonically a terrible boyfriend

[aizawasanie]

What’s the angsty(est?) BTS x Reader story you’ve ever read? Can be any member. But what story have you read that hurt you so bad that you legit cried to. Looking for recommendations. :-) thanks friends.

[sadistpet]

<< happy sunday. raikov moaning in your muses mouth while they sloppily make out and he begs them to fuck him. ok? >>

It was just a dream, but the possibility keeps him alive. Possibility keeps him here, listening to their American nonsense, babbling about whatever secrets they can tease from his old flesh. Easily, he can tear down these walls and go about his way, and then… what, exactly?

It was the money, you fool. Everything became possible when that bastard choked, and you found it.

He may no longer be a man of means, but the world must think he is dead, a smug notch for that filthy dog’s belt while the elite vultures of the world picked over the greatest prize of them all — that damned microfilm and everything that came with its impossible wealth. Should he have left this place, he would have nothing but the presence of the dead, a living ghost. A clean slate, perhaps.

Not with a face like mine.

But, that was alright; fear was delicious. His face would evoke more than fear when he found him again. Possibility. Beyond these walls, beyond whatever containment they thought could hold him, he knew he was out there. If he could not run his fingers through those silvery locks again, he would bless his sun-bleached bones. Hell would not come to claim him until, in this world, he knew.

Nude and curled on the insulated floor of his cell, he squinted up at the sickly, sterile light that signified “daytime” hours and then defiantly tucked his face back into a massive arm. It was endless boredom punctuated by spikes of anxiety and pain, a tiny space colored by a mockery of day and night cycles, leaving him to electrically-frayed watercolor dreams of the time before, and the feeble future he imagined after this.

Vanya.

[latenightdecaf]

I don't know if I can write anymore, but I had this idea of a plot this morning.

Something about being in a relationship with Namjoon, where he thinks he's all healed from the past. Thinking that he's finally in a relationship where he feels love, but ends up sabotaging it because he doesn't know what a "stable" relationship looks like. That he probably loves the idea of it but doesn't know what to do now that he has it.

Probably write the first part, showing how odd a stable love is for Namjoon sometimes. How he doesn't know what to do when the girl he loves knows how to properly communicate, addresses his needs, gives him quality time and space and makes sure he's the priority. Because he was used to the opposite.

And the girl is just mature not necessarily older but maybe an old soul. Loves the way he loves her, completely mesmerized by the fact that she's with someone like him. She's very patient by nature and loves art but sees it in a different way than Joon, loves to read too and would never admit that she's probably smarter than him because she looks at Namjoon like warm sunlight. Like a need, a necessity. Something to hold on to on a cold winter day, something you're thankful for every day even when it's raining.

Hmmm anyway. Just a brain dump.

Looking forward to his new album tho!

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