#anxiety dreams

[skyerana]

Funny anxiety dream last night...

So I'm at the Battle of Helm's Deep but for whatever reason I was tasked with making a chocolate raspberry cheesecake.

The catch? It had to be vegan.

Why? They wanted to launch it into the Uruk-hai army.

They figured Uruk-hai love chocolate raspberry cheesecake so they'd start eating it, but then get really really depressed that it was vegan, so they'd just turn around and leave.

Do you know how hard it is to make cheesecake in Middle Earth? Especially during a battle when they don't really have supplies? And then they hit you with vegan??

Like, they've breached the walls and I'm trying to figure out what to do and things are dire. And I'm looking at Theoden and Aragorn as they're explaining this vegan cheesecake plan and going "you're shitting me" and Aragorn very seriously responds "we shit you not".

The thing is? It worked. How did they know Uruk-hai love chocolate raspberry cheesecake?

Also I'm pretty sure I made the crust out of lembas.

[copperbadge]

Had a dream last night that I missed a plane flight because I forgot what day I was traveling home, so I got back to the hotel room and had to pack up all my stuff -- which never goes well, my most significant anxiety dreams always involve endless packing on a short time limit -- with the next person to move into the hotel room continually getting in the way. While trying to rebook a flight! A novel twist.

Woke up and the sore throat and fever are back. Time to go on the antibiotics they gave me just in case....

[allegras-sunflower]

Celiac disease is so funny. Like, last night I had an anxiety dream where I had lesbian sex (oral) and I was freaking out the entire time cause like, I didn't know if pussy was gluten free. So, yeah.

[conundrumoftime]

Currently reading a book of essays in memory of Christopher Tolkien, and it has this excerpt from a 2012 interview with Le Monde where he talked about his work on the Silmarillion:

‘Right away I thought that the book was good, but a little false, in the sense that I had had to invent some passages,’ he explains. At the time, he even had a worrying dream.

'I was in my father's study at Oxford. He came in and started looking for something with great anxiety. Then I realized in horror that it was The Silmarillion, and I was terrified at the thought that he would discover what I had done’

(the book is The Great Tales Never End: Essays in Memory of Christopher Tolkien and the essay is Vincent Ferré’s ‘The son behind the father: Christopher Tolkien as a writer’)

[i-hate-yuo]

Why the absolute FUCK am I still here

[sadraccoon061]

Had a dream where I went for afternoon tea, then I saw the menu and it was £100 but I was too anxious and embarrassed to leave at that point so I was like yeah sure and then I spent the whole dream worrying about explaining why I'd spent £100 on tea.

Anxiety is fun 💀

[tricornonthecob]

I keep having dreams about my teeth falling out, tax season must be nigh

[fourdiagnosesinatrenchcoat]

I'm still awake but at least I don't have to mail something to the moon like I did in last night's anxiety dream.

[mortimerlatrice]

Today, I had a nightmare that evil machines were taking over the planet. I discovered how to stop them but knew if I did, I would be late for work. I couldn't afford to lose my job (or its associated healthcare) so I sat there with the off switch pondering how long was long enough that the incursion would make the news and my tardiness would be excused.

[imthefailedartist]

The number of dreams I have in which I am naked or half dressed in public is out of pocket.

I hate it. Every time it happens, I can feel real me panicking in my sleep. Dream me never finds any clothes, just a towel (like last night's dream) or a too small something.

Every time, it feels so real even though I'm dreaming, and I know I'm dreaming. These are the only dreams I have where I'm not lucid dreaming. I am fully aware it's a dream, but I can't do anything about it.

I will say last night's had a better ending than most of them. I eventually stopped panicking, wore the towel top, saved the world, got flirted with by a guy I knew from high school, and got free wings. Normally, I spend the entire dream trying and failing to cover myself.

Last night, I was thankfully wearing pants, a cousin had a towel, I tucked underneath my arms, then having to walk through dream chicago with a majority of my family after I decided to go to dinner with them instead of traveling around by myself like I usually do. Then I got to the restaurant and decided to go to the more relaxed pub food section of the restaurant. Also, I was a former Power Ranger and was fighting 3 evil original toy versions of Optimus Prime. This whole dream was wild. People were being tricked into using open restaurant public compost toilets. While off-brand and nice, Irina and Micah from Love Is Blind, and I found the real bathroom and had a good crack up.

[howifeltabouthim]

I've dreamt several times that I was going to have a baby—then I woke with relief.

Catherine Lacey, from Biography of X

[thequietabsolute]

— Vladimir Nabokov // Transparent Things [1972]

disquieting, very funny, wry, beautifully melancholic, and with a final page to rival that of Joyce’s The Dead … found myself flicking through this again earlier with many quiet gasps of real admiration 🍃

[callipraxia]

So, I have super-detailed, often highly realistic dreams…and most of the time, “I,” whatever that means, am watching them from the sidelines, usually watching the dream like a movie. This morning, though…I was standing by on the sides as usual, happily watching parties unknown shoot a TV commercial about me going pen shopping and aware I was dreaming on some level, when I suddenly think I hear something “real,” specifically, my mother positively bellowing my name and hammering on the front door, furious with me for being asleep and thus leaving her locked out. This was such a surprise I woke up, sitting straight up in bed during the wake-up process, and said, “Mama?” out loud, like something out of a movie…only to find that no, that had also just been part of the dream, though it took a while and a fair bit of logic (“there’s no messages on my phone, plus she has a key to that door on the same ring as her car key, so the odds of this are stupid low”) to calm down and go back to sleep.

It proceeded to happen again. Twice. The part I knew was a dream changed, and each time, the thing I thought was real and a result of hearing something with my ears was different, but both times, I again proceeded to wake up suddenly, in a panic about how much trouble I was going to be in for sleeping.

Three times. In one sleep! Happy Tuesday, everyone, I guess….

[tundrakatiebean]

Dream Journal 9b

This is the second piece in a triptych based on a series of anxiety dreams that I have. You can find the first piece here. 

The dream for this one I had months and months ago, but it's still one that's a vivid enough image that it was much easier to paint than I was expecting. I was in a former friend's kitchen. Their mom asked me to get a vase off the fridge. It was wedged between a few other things that had hidden the fact that it was broken to the point of falling apart. I spend most of the dream trying to take it down off the fridge while containing the shattered pieces, letting them fall on me, in my eyes and mouth, instead of letting them fall to the floor where they might hurt the people around me. Sometimes you don't know how broken something is until it shifts, and there's nothing you can do to mitigate the damage no matter how badly you want to. That's a lesson I seem to need to keep learning no matter how many opportunities life gives me. 

This piece is a mix of watercolor, gouache, and colored pencil. It will be listed for sale and as a print after the entire triptych is completed and posted. As always, my patrons get to claim pieces they want before they are listed to the public. If you’re interested in seeing behind the scenes progress pictures, getting access to my new work a week early, or are interested in getting to claim new art pieces before everyone else consider becoming a patron by searching TundraKatieBean on Patreon or following the link in my biolink!

[creelmalfoylaufeyson69]

Does anyone else who has an anxiety disorder also have nightmares afterwards when it’s nighttime? Or whenever you go to bed

[i-hate-yuo]

Holy shit. I’m going to lose it all.