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The way people are just... genuinely perplexed when someone prefers Draco over Harry will never make sense to me. Like... do these people get how the human brain works? What makes it tick? Do they even go here?
(I'm not gonna talk about Ron because I've put enough effort into this and I just don't care about him like that)
So moving on, of course many people will be drawn to Draco over Harry. Personally I find Draco to be a much more sympathetic and therefore compelling character than Harry. Draco always faces consequences for his actions (sometimes unfairly so). He keeps getting beat up by others but always comes right back up. He tries. He makes mistakes, he fucks up, he has faults, sometimes he has moments where he's weak or vulnerable. The narrative is built against him and it's funny that JKR keeps showing him in a light that she thinks will make him unlikable while in reality it has the opposite effect because it humanises him. Truly, that woman's brain seems to be wired ass-backwards when it comes to, well, everything. Ultimately, Draco goes through heavy trauma and comes out a changed man, and isn't that attractive all on its own? For a human and a fictional character.
Now Harry on the other hand, has narrative protection. He's the ultimate Good Guy ™, the Chosen One, the Protagonist, JKR's self-insert. He gets to have his cake and eat it too. He never has to change in a major way because apparently he doesn't need to; it's the others who are at fault and have to come around to his own way of thinking and doing things. When he's majorly wrong about something, there's a disclaimer, a little loophole. The narrative never paints him as weak or vulnerable which I feel puts up a wall between him and the reader. Even though he goes through some heavily traumatic stuff for a very long period of time, I can't seem to find it in me to care that much other than intellectually recognising that yes, that boy has gone through horrific abuse his whole life. Basically he loses humanising points, so it's hard to relate to him in that most intrinsic way. Sometimes the narration gets so preachy when it comes to him and certain other characters that back when I read the books it completely took me out of the story (though you can certainly apply watsonian logic to this).
tl;dr: Draco is relatable, Harry isn't.
So anyway, yeah, I wonder why that Draco character is so appealing to so many people 🧐
Now I'd go on a rant about the second part of your post (because I agree with it obviously) but trying to put my thoughts in some semblance of order has wiped me out so I'll just add that I recently found your blog and I just keep nodding along to so many of the things you write. It's always a pleasure to find other like-minded people around. See ya!
I can't believe that in 2025, I still see posts questioning why Draco is more popular than Ron or Harry. If they're so against his growing popularity, instead of blaming the people who like him, why not blame jkr for giving him his own arc instead of keeping him as a minor character whose only purpose is to get in Harry's way?
At this point, it feels like these people only hate Draco because of his growing popularity, and most of it comes from envy that their favorite character didn’t achieve the same level of fame. It's funny how the ones who hate Draco end up acting just like him in the first five books.
The worst part is that some people who call themselves Drarry fans agree with this mindset because, in their eyes, Draco will always be beneath Harry, and they will never be equals. To them, Harry is someone unreachable for Draco, and it's only because of Harry's kindness that he "accepts" Draco as his partner.
And with Draco's growing popularity, there will inevitably be people who favor him over Harry, which they cannot accept. So, they keep bringing up all the bad things he did as a child while purposely ignoring the fact that canon clearly shows Draco has moved past that phase and is no longer the same person he was back then.
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Hi everyone, here's a bit of a life/progress update for everyone following. I wish I had more to share right now, but I hope there will be more coming soon.
I've posted several times that Chapter 2 is coming soon, and I really have wanted that to be true, but I haven't quite been able to bring myself to finish it. I did recently manage to finish drawing new official art for each of the ROs, so here's a little preview of that (sorry, I wish I was better at drawing consistently):
Also, if you want to hang out and/or watch me talk about games I love, you can find me live on Twitch sometimes:
http://www.twitch.tv/faedrian_
Further explanation/vent/plans below:
As far as why I haven't managed to finish writing Chapter 2, it's just because my life has been sliding downhill for a pretty long time now, and it's hard to find the motivation to write anything nice when I feel this bad.
I guess I noticed things getting worse last year, after I caught Covid in February. I was sick for about a month, got really depressed, lost a lot of weight, developed new complications with my endometriosis and my eating disorder got a lot worse. Around the same time, I realized that my relationship was beginning to fall apart. I've been with my partner for ten years, and it hasn't always been stable, but I've fought hard to keep us going together even when things got rocky. Last year, they decided that they needed to start cutting stress out of their life. That led to them breaking up with me twice - both times, I begged them to stay and keep working on our relationship. I was terrified by the possibility that they could just end our relationship and take my whole life away from me, forcing me to leave my home and lose everything I've built especially when I was at such a low point already.
A few weeks ago, they decided to break up with me again, and right now it's looking like it's for real this time - they signed a lease with some friends the day after breaking up with me, and decided that they would just leave me to fend for myself so that they wouldn't be burdened with the "responsibility" of caring for me any longer.
So, I'm currently facing down the reality that I will likely have to give up the whole life I've built up over the last seven years of us living together. I don't have anywhere to live here - all my friends and family are hours or even days away by car. I was in the middle of searching for a new job when the breakup happened this time, but now I guess I can't really take a job here if I'm going to have to move away. I can't afford to live on my own even with the new jobs I was applying for, and I wouldn't feel safe by myself either. I've always lived with my family or with my partner. I may be moving across the country in the next two months - going Northwest to live with some friends that offered to find a place together, and my best friend lovingly offered to pay my moving expenses. I have no money in the bank (in fact my account is overdrawn as I type this), so this is all very stressful right now. I'm hopeful that I'll find a way to work things out, to get myself settled, and to find the will to be productive with my games again.
As far as plans go:
I've been making plans to start up a Patreon and Discord once I have at least a couple months of content backlogged - it would include Beta reading access for The Gilded and my other game jam projects, BTS previews of some other, larger projects I'm drafting, monthly SFW and NSFW sketches and short stories as voted by the Patrons, and eventually a tier to get your OC written into The Gilded. If that's of any interest to you, let me know! I think it would be really good for me to see people engaging with my content again, and I could honestly use the motivation.
Thank you for reading this far, and thank you for following as long as you have. I still love and intend to finish this project, I just need to get through this dark place to find the light on the other side. 💜
#the gilded#vent#long post#tw: depression#tw: sickness#tw: ed#anyway i'm trying very hard to keep writing#my life is just very sad and difficult rn#I've been trying not to share everything going on because that just makes it more real#but I guess I have to accept it at some point#looking forward to posting more in the future#if you see this post a lot it's just because I'll be reblogging to try to give everyone a chance to see it
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Zelda goes mushroom girl
#tloz#a link to the past#zelda#link#my art#I was happy with that first one but for some reason decided it still needed a companion piece so I spent way too long on that second one...#I don't think there was any time during the progress where I was happy with it but hfduhdfu at least I got to Attempt drawing moss hell yea#I also at some point sat in Pyu's art stream and said I enjoy drawing legs As I was being murdered by the infamously impossibe (imo) squat.#it's ok I had fun !! but I need to learn how to let doodles be doodles or I'll never finish stuff at this rate dfsuhfd#if everything in my tloz tag looks like it was drawn by different people uuuh 2023 was art crisis year ngl......#I'm falling back into my old ways rn though#anyway I think about these two a lot I think they're both stone faced and awkward ppl in different ways but they try rly hard to be friends#like I like to think it starts out so incredibly awkward and a bit sad bc they keep stepping over each other's toes accidentally the harder#they try but idk they find comfy middle ground idk in my brain they have a very interesting friendship I wanna get around to drawing it#in a proper way that might make sense....#if I don't write 200 tags I will die maybe it's bc I grew up on dA or smth#and yes I know how to find 1 (one) type of mushroom /I/ am not mushroom girl unfortunately smh
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how's the other guy holding up
#submas#emmet#sketches#//#submas angst#this JUST in you can draw fanart .#THEY DON'T TELL YOU THIS BUT YOU REALLY CAN JUST POST LIKE. MOSTLY UNFINISHED DRAWINGS THAT ONLY CONVEY SOME OF WHAT YOU MEAN. AT 4 AM !#see it's very hard for me because i have a lot of serious THOUGHTS about these characters but#not the patience for the necessary care that would go into drawing them properly. or writing fanfiction long enough to get the point across#either way#i have a lot of thoughts on pretty much every aspect of how i think everything happens for SOME reason but I PERSONALLY#i personally think that emmet would take leave from work#maybe i will make a proper post about this another time but i was like#thinking just about. as much as he loves his job. he loved it when he was doing half a job built for 2 people. and the other person#was one of his favourites in the world#i don't think it would really bring him any sense of normalcy. to go do his job alone#and i don't think that keeping gear station in optimal working condition ''for when ingo gets back'' would necessarily be his top priority#the priority rather would be to try and get him back LOL#and it's important to ME that emmet actually succeeds in this#for a variety of reasons. but it's 4:30 am and i'm a little too tired to get into the intricacies of my imaginary reunion scenario#this is unrelated to that but i have also been thinking about like. i bet emmet would hate condolences#my friend said something that made me think about this a while ago but y'know#''i'm sorry for your loss'' do you literally not know that he likes winning more than anything else 🙄#anyways that's enough of that. i have more to say but maybe not in the tags. and another time
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repeating myself here, but for good reason: the Silliness of the dafpork dynamic, however you determine the definition of Silliness, is really so integral to me and i think a big part of what makes them so special and personal. and i think that's a big reason why i was so afraid to post even the most innocuous stuff on main--even if they're not being clingy or cute together in a drawing, even in the comics where they're bickering like children or just being Themselves, there's this undercurrent of love beneath it that feels so comparatively intimate. they can have their moments of Unabashed Earnest, and they stand out much more and feel more special when you have them being dumb together to contrast it with... it's hard to pin down and they're hard to pin down, and that's why i love 'em, y'know? the variations on their dynamic is boundless, and so is their love, and so is their hijinks. they're not easily squeezed into an identifiable little box, and while i think that can trip some people up, i think it works to such a great strength with them. it's why i have trouble doing ask memes or drawing prompts with them (though i should try more!), because Dafpork Is Dafpork--they have minds and emotions and dispositions of their own and this blog functions to just sit back and observe what that all is, rather than force it. and that's how you get such a broad spectrum of Stuff, too; them being cute together, or being obnoxious, whether at each other or with each other, or they're not quite anything at all because the only one who knows what they are is each other. there's just truly so much and i really don't think it can be condensed into a bite sized trope or sweeping label.. and considering Daffy's anarchy and Porky's stubbornness, that feels very fitting. maybe it's a reason as to why it's difficult for some people to get on board with them, but i feel like it's such a great strength, and it's a great motivator to spread their gospel all the more, too! to try and get people to understand! so thank you for reading this, because if you're here then it shows you're curious and want to uncover more about them. me too!
#I KNOW I KEEP SAYING THIS but i'm in a I Wanna Talk About Pig and Duck mood today#i'm really trying to embrace... gosh i don't know how to say this without sounding conceited so please pardon my lofty wording here#but i'm trying to embrace being a bit of a pioneer with them yknow? i have to beat 'nobody's doing what you're doing so you need to stop#because it's wrong' out of my head#like that was why i was so mortified with this not-so-double dafpork life.. i can't be a respected industry artist and also... DRAW CARTOON#CHARACTERS *KISSING*!! I CAN'T WRITE DEEP SCHOLARLY ANALYSES ABOUT THESE CARTOONS AND THEIR HISTORY AND APPLY IT TO MY PIG AND DUCK SANDBOX#ON THE SIDE!#...why not?#stifling myself is only going to encourage others to do the same and considering i am absolutely desperate for dafpork interactions that's#not a good goal!#and i'm not completely out of the woods. i'm keeping all of this to tumblr and discord#but it's progress#i just really want others to see Their Greatness and it's been effective! never did i think i'd be using this blog#but i want MOREEEEE i want random people who don't even care about these guys to like them and talk about them#i want people to be able to feel what i feel about them and i can't force people to#but i can maintain my quest of hopefully articulating the full extent of the love i have for them#which is very difficult... but that love is infinite which means i have infinite chances to do so#BUT ANYWAY. again reflecting on how i wanna do so much with these guys but the more conventional stuff like ask games and drawing prompts#are tough for me because i have a hard time fitting them into those prompts. their personalities are too big for that? i guess? it's weird#to describe. and it stinks because i want to do these things! and i mean i'm sure i can if i look hard enough#it's just hard bc i wanna talk about them but i have so much in my head i don't know where to start and prompt games aren't as helpful as#they could be. and a lot of what i do want to talk about i gotta keep a surprise somewhat/way too far along in the actor au to make much#sense right now#i'll figure it out someday though#📝#but anyway if you want to talk about the pig and duck with me this is your chance! my inbox is always open
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as much as i despise john house tbh i wish we'd gotten more episodes with him . . . partly for more of that sweet sweet Daddy Issues content but also. because there are so few scenes with this man i have to do so much fucking guesswork when writing him
#i'm trying to make his characterization feel accurate but like. what even IS accurate for him#we see him in only a couple of scenes with a little bit of dialogue in one specific context#it helps that house talks about him now and then#so there's a lot i can infer about his personality based on the info we have#but it's hard to know for sure what he's like/his speech patterns/etc#at this point i feel like he tended to be very cold and methodical when punishing house#and actually rarely lost his temper#he was always sort of . . . chillingly calm#which maybe actually added to the effects of the verbal abuse#because he would tell house how worthless he was in just. the most reasonable and articulate tones#and that made it even harder for house to keep from taking what his dad said to heart#like i'm sure house got yelled at sometimes but#i think john was more of a 'dangerous quiet voice' type of dad#anyway hi i currently have 3 wips dealing with house's childhood trauma :')#house md#john house#em writes#op#house fic
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Priorities are had lol.
i can't say i've played a lot of veilguard but here's some sillies for the beginning of it anyways. b/c, ngl, i kinda wanna see what exactly would happen if Solas took down the veil. But if he had actually killed Verric i would have quit then and there.
#dragon age veilguard#does it count as spoilers if it happens withing the first 30 minutes?#dav spoilers#just to be safe#my doodles#dav harding#i'm just trying to do some doodles to get back in the swing of things#b/c my burn out is pretty much gone#but ive also discovered new hobbies that are taking the time that drawing and writing used to have all to itself#ngl just a bit disappointed in veilguard#ive only played like 10 hrs or so and i still feel like i'm in the tutorial#plus after the very open world of inquisition this semi open world feels very limiting#(i also low key hate the fighting mechanics)#(why do we need ten million things to keep track of)#(i've noticed this in a lot of new games and i am not a fan)#(i'm not good at fighting in general so it's just making it more confusing for me)#(plus it's all reaction based and my reaction time is shit)#(i am honestly having more fun playing infinity nikki than i am dragon age right now)#(which is not something i ever thought i'd say)#(anyways i'm done complaining)#(I'm going to get some work done before i have to go to bed)
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recent lounging babey images
#he's so floppy recently and I hope it's just the heat. I think wamr weather makes everyone floppy and loungy#a beauntifulle boye...#cats#STILL working on posting some drafts. finishing new poll adventure.. other things... It's just hard with the weather and other things going#on. I've had a few more doctors appointments and other things to do recently that have to be done in a time limit#so I hvae to use my extremely limited energy working on that instead of doing the things I'd really rather do. :T#Main focuses though are keeping up better with doing and posting costumes + sculptures as main creative things. at least finishing the#main poll adventure story. Reworking the game I kind of abandoned for a few years. keeping up with game videos and a few other side things.#Especially the game though. I've been in a really worldbuildy mood recently. I just wish that was easier to manifest into something. I've#now put the worldbuilding slideshow reading video on pause for a while because it's SOOO long to do#and I think I should prioritize making games and stuff instead. but still other things. IT's just kind of like.. I have a whole world and#everything very built and planned out but now.. what do I do with it? what's the best way to share that? factual slideshows just going over#the information like a dictionary? make it into a game? write short stories? do art attached to the world? etc. etc. ?? There are so many#potential avenues I end up kind of flip flopping between them a lot because none really seem more beneficial than the others and they all#seem equally enjoyable and also equally hard so. It's like?? I guess just do what the hell ever and hope I made the right choice in terms o#cost benefit and reward for my time lol. ANYWAY.. Also why I'm in my 'trying to make friends' era still because I think having other creat#ive friends can help you find direction like.. people will meet each other and then go 'hey lol just for fun lets start a project together!#and then like 5 years later it's genuinely become something. etc. having other people to help weed out ideas and start small creative teams#together and etc. I feel is a very beneficial part of networking or whatever but also I have the social capacity of a stale bread roll and#am also inherently unrelatable to seemingly a majority of people due to my hermit wizard swag (detachment from general society and hyper#focus on fantasy worlds in my head gjhghj) so trying to meet people as a grown adult with social issues is Very easy and fun (it is not)#even very basic things like my core communication style is so incompatible with a lot of people it's like.. hhhh... People in this modern#age have GOT to stop being afraid of phone calls and/or text that is longer than 6 paragraphs. Work with me here. I WANT to talk to you. bu#I do not know what your emojis mean and it's physically impossible for me to type less than 85 sentences. please.. hhjgjgb#AAANYWAY!! I am working on things when I can given the circumstances (SUMMER).. hopefully some costume pictures and stuff soon. :'3#I've not forgotten about my art and etc. - as usual I just am bad at social media and also functioning if it's above 65F lol
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not even a writing degree can save me from my own worst enemy:
chronic over-explanation and tangents.
#yeah so i figured out why i'm having such a hard time writing the takoshi/masumii posts#it's because i keep trying to include fucking EVERYTHING about them/their backstories despite a good 50% of that not being too important#to understanding them as characters. which is the goal. not worldbuilding that is just bloating the post and making it feel super unfocused#like that stuff IS important#this just. isn't the place for it lmao-#anyways should be much smoother sailing now; gonna hunker down and hopefully finish atleast one of the writing parts tonight#shooting for next week maybe....? (very optimistic but my ass is MOTIVATED)#so yeah. art wips will come as i finish working on that too lol#just prioritizing the writing for now :]#shook rambles
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Seeing Cap's clearly annoyed reaction to Briar and the Nidothing fangirl (Nyabiko? I think?) really set in stone that I absolutely want my Horizons S/I to be a closeted Pikachu fanatic. Because that dynamic is Funny to me.
#Captain Pikachu#Proship Selfship#Cap's low patience with Pokemon Fanatics and Fans is a very funny character trait I wanna push some#The backstory to me is that he Wasn't a Pikachu Fanatic UNTIL he met Cap#And now that Cap's his muse he's noticing how cool and cute and interesting Pikachu are in general#And it quickly becomes a whole thing. That he is now trying so hard to hide#Just like me irl. I only care about Pikachu NOW that I know about Cap and am. Insane about him.#I think Cap would make an exception for me. He thinks I'm cute.#And he's get a weird kinda satisfaction over seeing my collection of Pikachu merch#Like yeah. No one's taking my heart from him. He's my ideal guy.#He gets a kinda Pride or Ego from it#That's the idea anyway sdkfhsfdj#Me making my silly little side episodes all about Cap and I#Cause I looooove him <3#I do just keep twirling around writing Cap like a shota type character#My S/I isn't a shotacon peeer-say but I mean. He likes Cap. And Cap is Shota to meeeeee#Man. Anyway.
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a hunger still unraveling like silk
Series: I made loving you a bloodsport | part 3 6,219 | Explicit | no archive warnings apply Fëanor/Fingolfin
Fingolfin does not look up from his book when he hears footsteps approaching and pays no attention to Fëanor walking into the room. What he emphatically does pay attention to is Fëanor going to his knees in front of the chair he is sprawled sideways across and burying his face against Fingolfin’s stomach, both of his hands clenching tight around Fingolfin’s shirt. He blinks down at Fëanor’s head in confusion and runs a hand over his head, dragging his fingers through Fëanor’s hair. “Náro?” he asks quietly. “Has something happened?”
#atlanta's writing#tolkien#silmarillion#Fëanor/Fingolfin#Fëanor x Fingolfin#Fëanáro/Ñolofinwë#Fëanáro x Ñolfofinwë#listen#i'm trying so hard to finish ch. 5 of my other fic#but they keep wanting to fuck so I keep getting distracted writing this series#to try and keep the wants to fuck vibes out of my very platonic fic#and now this series has a plot#so I have bamboozled myself#how did we get here honestly#having a blast just utterly confounded as to how this happened to me#if you told me a year ago my favorite pairing would be an incest pairing I'd have looked at you like you were nuts#anyway here you go enjoy#<3
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There's only a small handful of people who know the full extent of my plans for Mina in Triangulum and I think even that shows the levels of self-control I've had and will hopefully continue to have as time goes on.
#Hayley Writes Triangulum#I'm trying VERY hard to keep the full plans very hush hush#I've already spoiled a bit but there's some stuff I'm fighting tooth and nail to keep secret to the public until I write it out#Anyway uhhhh if you know you're a very special person who I trust#Honestly I'm STILL on the fence about how much I want to reveal in the community because it's composed of people who read the fic#And I don't want to spoil all THAT for them
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This Tempest, Ours
Rhysand x Reader
summary: On a rare night alone in the House of Wind, the worst storm in decades strikes. It wouldn’t be a problem if they didn’t make you so uneasy. Luckily, the House isn’t as empty as you thought. word count: 11.7k content: [ explicit sexual content, oral sex (f receiving), piv, explicit language, there's only one sleeping bag, y/n is scared of storms, very briefly insinuated tamlin x reader, daemati-use, wet dreams, lovemaking for the most part but we get rough for a sec ] author's note: we’re gonna assume mental shields stay up during sleep…. yeah... ✦ . 1k Celebration Apothecary . ✦ midnight essence infused with a veil of dreammist & a dash of blaze enhanced with lover's knot & starlight crystals stirred thank you anon for the request!!!! i'm finding i really enjoy writing friends to lovers this is so sweet :") anyway i hope you like this one!! <33
The cold in the Winter Court didn’t seep into your bones—it gnawed at them. Gnawed like it had teeth and purpose and the unrelenting patience of a predator that knew you’d wear down eventually.
You’d stopped pretending to sleep an hour ago, after the lantern blew out. The wind outside the tent moaned like a creature in mourning, threading through the seams and catching in the corners of the thin canvas until it felt like the whole thing might lift and carry you off with it. You pressed deeper into the bundled cloak beneath you, trying not to shiver too obviously. You failed.
You were wrapped in more layers than you could count—thermal base, thick wool, a coat heavy enough to double as a blanket—but it still wasn’t enough. Even Rhys, normally indifferent to climate or discomfort, had resorted to cloaks and furs, the sharp line of his jaw the only part of him visible from beneath the hood pulled low.
Behind you, Rhysand exhaled, sharp and irritated. “You’re shaking so hard I can feel it through the ground.”
You didn’t open your eyes. “You always this broody when you’re forced to keep all that power on a leash?”
A beat. Then—“Keep talking and I’ll show you how not broody I can be.”
You snorted, cracking open one eye. “That doesn’t even mean anything.”
“I’m cold. I’m tired. I haven’t let my magic out at all in twelve days. Give me a break.”
You finally rolled over to face him, the dim moonlight filtering through the tent’s fabric casting his features in pale blue and silver. There was a tension around his mouth, in the fine line between his brows. He hadn’t looked truly relaxed since your boots first crunched through the snow at the border.
The artifact—known only in whispers as the amulet of Larethine—was said to suppress magic so completely that even a High Lord’s power would snuff out like a candle. Rumored to have vanished after the war centuries ago, it resurfaced in scattered reports. They all pointed to the same abandoned temple buried somewhere in the Winter Court’s northern edge, where the snowfall was so constant it blanketed even sound. Rhysand intended to retrieve it quietly—before word spread and the wrong hands reached it first. So here you were. Nearly two weeks with no magic, no contact, no help. Just the two of you, and a map worn soft at the creases.
Rhysand’s power coiled beneath his skin like a thing alive, begging to be freed. But Kallias’ wards draped over the court like a net of ice, intricate and merciless. The second he even brushed the world with a tendril of it, you’d be caught.
You hadn’t expected it to wear on him like this.
“Your pack,” he said after a pause. “Still soaked?”
You winced, remembering the misstep near the creek a few days ago, then nodded. He shifted. “Come here.”
You blinked. “What?”
“Your pack, and everything in it—including your sleeping bag—is useless. It won’t dry in this weather. Either we share mine or I watch you freeze to death. I vote the former.”
You hesitated, the silence between you swelling into something tight and uncertain. But then another gust of wind screamed past the tent, and pride gave way to practicality.
“Fine.”
You crawled across the narrow space and slipped into the sleeping bag beside him. It was cramped—painfully so—and the moment you settled, his body pressed to yours, impossibly warm. You turned onto your side instinctively, back to his chest. You could feel every breath he took, feel the slow thump of his heart against your spine, the barest hint of muscle shifting when his hand curved around your middle, settling just beneath the edge of your ribs, his palm held steady against you.
Behind you, something rustled, and then the faint brush of membrane—Rhys shifting, one wing sliding from the sleeping bag in a slow stretch over you.
“Don’t you dare,” you whispered. “That thing freezes and falls off, we’re really fucked.”
He snorted quietly. “It has excellent circulation, thanks.”
“Put it away.”
Another rustle of fabric as he tucked the wing back inside.
“Warmer now?” he said dryly.
“Mm.”
The silence this time wasn’t uncomfortable. You listened to the wind, to the soft crinkle of fabric with each small movement, to the quiet hum of his presence behind you. It was startling, how much space he took up without speaking, how much lighter the silence felt now that he was pressed against you.
His breath stirred at the hair at your nape. You tensed, then forced yourself to relax again, inching away a fraction. He followed.
“Rhys.”
“What.”
“You’re breathing on my neck.”
A pause. Then, shamelessly: “It’s where your neck is.”
You huffed, and he chuckled—a rare sound lately. Low and warm, it rolled through your back where your bodies touched, and you had to fight not to smile.
After a long moment, his voice came again, quieter.
“We’ll find it tomorrow.”
You gave a small nod, felt more than seen.
He shifted behind you, the subtle movement bringing his chest closer to your back, breath skimming your hair. “Then we get out. We go home.”
You let out a quiet breath, just enough to fog the air in front of you.
“You always this optimistic at night?”
He hummed low in his throat. “Maybe you bring it out in me.”
That pulled a small, tired smile from you.
“Must be the frostbite. You’re delirious.”
His fingers flexed slightly where they rested at your waist.
“Mm. That, or the cold makes me honest.”
Something in your chest ached—not sharp, but deep. You didn’t answer. Just let the silence settle soft around you.
Sleep found you curled into his warmth, his hand resting at your waist, his breath a gentle rhythm against your skin. And in the morning, with the air sharp in your lungs and the scent of pine still clinging to the chill, that warmth lingered over your skin.
The cold in the Winter Court hadn’t gone with the morning light. You’d found Larethine two days after that—tucked beneath the roots of an ancient ice-locked tree, a whisper of power veined through crystal. The mission had ended days later in a quiet exhale, a long journey home trailing behind it. It had been nearly three weeks since then. Long enough for bruises to fade, for muscle to stop aching.
Still, the cold seemed to have burrowed itself into your bones, the bite of it still there, even in the warmth of your bed in the City of Starlight.
You woke to the sound of wind clawing at the windows. A storm, full and furious, had settled over Velaris—the kind that turned the Sidra restless and made even the stars hide. Thunder cracked a beat later, loud enough to shake the walls.
Your heart was already racing, breath shallow and tight, at odds with the warmth wrapped around you. You lay there a moment, still and listening, the storm rattling through your bones like it had teeth again. They’d always scraped at your nerves, left them humming like struck strings.
The covers were a tangled mess around your hips, shoved down in sleep. Your T-shirt had ridden up high, bunched beneath your ribs, and when you looked down, you caught a glimpse of bare stomach, underwear, the slope of one thigh kicked over the sheets. You shifted, tugged the hem back down, fingers moving slow and clumsy like they weren’t entirely yours.
You remembered bits and pieces of the dream, not that it’d been much different from the others you’d had since that night. Tonight, he hadn’t been content just to hold you. His hands wandered. His mouth dragged slowly over your skin, coaxing sounds you’d never let slip in daylight. You woke slick between your thighs, the ache lodged deep and stubborn.
Another crash of thunder rolled across the rooftops. You pushed the blankets off and swung your legs over the side of the bed. The house was magicked to stay warm; your skin was slick with sweat, and still, you felt chilled.
You didn’t think about it. Didn’t bother with pants or slippers. Just padded into the hall in your T-shirt—soft, worn thin, hem brushing mid-thigh and swaying with every step.
The storm pressed against the glass. The quiet inside felt louder for it.
You moved through it automatically, headed for the kitchen. The house was still, shadows long and familiar, but your mind had already drifted somewhere else—somewhere colder.
You hadn’t stopped thinking about that night. Maybe you’d tried to. Maybe you’d told yourself it hadn’t meant anything. But your body remembered. Before your thoughts could catch up, your body remembered—his warmth at your back, the weight of his hand at your waist, the breath at your neck.
That same tension had curled beneath your skin now. You hadn’t realized you missed it until it came back.
The air had gone heavy the moment he touched you, and you hadn’t breathed properly since. You hated how your body still reacted—like it didn’t care what your mind had decided. Like it knew better.
Maybe it did.
You reached the stairs and took them without thought, one hand trailing the banister. The house didn’t creak beneath you. Even your own footsteps felt hesitant, like they didn’t want to disturb the memory.
You’d spent weeks pretending it hadn’t changed anything. That you were still the same. That he was.
You stepped into the kitchen without turning on the faelights. The storm outside pressed at the windows, a steady beat of rain—or maybe snow—smeared against the glass in streaks. Slush, probably.
You moved on instinct, pulled the kettle from its place, filled it from the tap. The cool weight of it settled in your hands, grounding—but not enough.
You set it on the stove and twisted the knob, a faint click giving way to the low hum of magic-warmed coils. Still, your thoughts refused to quiet.
You’d been telling yourself you hadn’t wanted it. That it had just happened. But you remembered leaning into him. You remembered the way your body had reacted—eager, instinctual, like you’d been waiting for it.
You reached for a mug without looking, fingers curling around the ceramic absently. It was warm from the cupboard’s enchantment, but your skin still felt cold.
You exhaled slowly and leaned your hip against the counter, staring at nothing.
And while the kettle began to warm, your thoughts slipped—quiet and treacherous—back to the tent. But your mind didn’t pull up the truth of that night. Not the soft hush of breath, the shared warmth, the way you’d both kept to yourselves despite how closely you lay. What you remembered instead—what you felt—was the dream you’d had in his arms. The one you hadn’t dared to admit to anyone.
You remembered the weight of his hand curling around your hip—broad, sure fingers splaying possessively across your skin like he’d always known exactly where to touch you. His thumb pressing just beneath your navel, slow little circles that made your breath catch. His chest, solid and hot, flush against your spine. Each inhale of his drawing your body tighter to his, like he wanted to fit you perfectly between every breath. Like he couldn’t stand the space between you.
And gods, you’d imagined how he’d move. He’d start slow, savoring it. Savoring you, every thrust controlled. He’d want to melt into you, to lose himself in every slick, shivering inch. And the press of him felt so real in your mind that your thighs pressed together without you meaning to.
The slow, deliberate roll of his hips against you, grinding in the dark with maddening restraint. Like he wanted to drag it out. Like he wanted to feel it, not just fuck.
But it wasn’t like you didn’t have dreams about that, too.
Like the one you’d just awoken from.
Where he wasn’t slow at all. Where he’d pushed you against the window, dragged your panties down with a growl, and dropped to his knees. He devoured you like a male starved. Like he needed it to breathe.
His tongue was relentless, slick and firm, fucking you with slow, torturous precision until your hand flew to your mouth to muffle the cries threatening to tear from your throat.
And just when your body began to shake, just when you thought you’d collapse—he was rising, lifting you like you weighed nothing, and sinking into you with one long, ruinous thrust that stole every breath from your lungs.
His voice rasped against your ear, all filth and hunger, whispering what he’d do next, what you’d beg for, how good you look, all wet and wanting and his. Every stroke dragged need from you like a confession, torn from your throat in gasps, in whimpers. Every thrust was a claim, a promise, a demand. You shattered on his cock like you’d been made for it—again, and again, and again—until your body blurred at the edges and all you could feel was him.
And then—your name. A low murmur against your throat, reverent and rough at once, like it scraped its way out of him. Like it meant something. Like saying it against your skin was the only prayer he knew.
Almost a whisper. Almost a plea.
Almost—
Lightning split the sky—and thunder followed like a war drum, slamming through the silence hard enough to rattle the windows.
You flinched, heart in your throat, the mug slipping and knocking against the counter. Goosebumps bloomed across your skin as the thunder faded, but it wasn’t the cold tiles beneath your feet that made your hands shake.
Wasn’t the storm making your chest rise and fall just so.
It was the echo of your name, murmured into your neck.
The ache in your body for something that had never even happened—
But felt, somehow, like it had.
Your breath came fast and shallow, heat rushing to your cheeks in a flush you couldn’t chase away.
Your heart was still hammering when—
“Couldn’t sleep either?”
You jumped. The kettle screamed—when had it even started? The mug nearly slipped again, and you cursed under your breath, scrambling to keep hold of it.
A flush of panic surged alongside the remnants of arousal—
Glamour. Now.
Your scent vanished in an instant.
You rushed to take the kettle off the burner.
Shields—already up, and you triple-checked them. Reinforced them out of instinct, out of panic. Just in case.
Rhysand stood in the doorway, framed by the faint flicker of lightning beyond the windows.
Shirtless, his chest bare and skin golden in the dim light from the hall. Pajama pants slung low on his hips. Hair mussed, like he’d just gotten out of bed—like he’d just been dreaming too.
Your stomach flipped.
You couldn’t even bring yourself to look at him—not after what you’d been thinking, not with your skin still warm from it.
“I’m so sorry,” you blurted, the words tumbling out in a rush. “I didn’t mean to wake you, I didn’t realize it was whistling—gods, I’ll—”
“You didn’t,” he said, voice low and even. “It was the storm. You’re fine.”
But something in his tone—the careful way he said it—made it feel like he was only trying to spare you.
You glanced down at the mug in your hand like it might save you. “Right. Okay. Still. Sorry.”
He didn’t move at first. Just watched you, eyes unreadable in the dark.
Then, quietly: “Storm wake you too?”
“Yeah,” you murmured. “Thought tea might help.”
A flicker of a smile touched his mouth—barely there. “You always brew it with wide eyes and shaking hands?” he asked as he stepped closer, brushing your fingers when he took the mug from your grasp.
You huffed a soft laugh. “Only when the thunder sounds like it’s about to rip the sky open.”
That earned a quiet breath of amusement from him as he slid an arm around your shoulders. Solid. Familiar. Like it belonged there.
“You know it’s mostly just noise, right?” he murmured. Rhys topped off the water in your mug, grabbed two teabags from the tin, and dropped them into the mug. His arm remained looped around your shoulders, holding you close as he covered the cup with a saucer to let it steep. “Sounds a lot worse than it is.”
You nodded, but your thoughts felt foggy and slow. Maybe it was the storm, or the hour, or the way he still hadn’t let go. The way his arm fit around you so naturally, as if it belonged there. As if it had never left since that night.
You shouldn’t read into it. It’s just comfort. Just instinct.
But you can’t stop noticing the warmth of him, steady and close. Can’t stop thinking about how easily he’s always known how to settle you—how natural it feels to lean into him like this.
Your lips press together, and you try not to think about how that same warmth once curled around you in a tent, or what it felt like to wake up in his arms.
His arm shifted, sliding from your shoulders to the small of your back, hand warm and steady as it pressed there. “C’mon,” he said softly, guiding you away from the counter and toward the little breakfast table near the window. He handed you your mug on the way, his fingers brushing yours again.
You moved without thinking, still wrapped in that dazed hush the storm had settled over everything. You sank into the chair without a word, and with a quiet flick of his fingers, the table filled. A crystal bowl of sugar cubes appeared near your elbow, followed by a small pitcher of warm milk, and even a tiny plate of shortbread cookies that hadn’t been there before.
“Thank you,” you murmured, the words quiet and full. Rhysand only nodded, moving back to the kettle to make his own.
After some time, you removed the saucer and took a careful sip—still too hot—before setting the mug down. Instead, you watched the steam curling lazily upward, trying not to let your gaze wander to where he stood by the counter. The stretch of muscle across his back. The ink winding over golden skin. The slow flex of his wings as he moved.
Then, lightly, “Cassian tried to give Azriel a haircut today.”
Your brows lifted. “He didn’t.”
Rhysand’s mouth curved faintly, though the only indication of his humor from where you sat was the soft shake of his shoulders. “He did. Said he could ‘blend the ends’ better than the hairdressers at the Riverfront salon.” He turned slightly toward you, the kettle behind him just starting to bubble.
You snort. “That’s because Cassian thinks ‘blending’ means cutting in a straight line.”
“Exactly,” Rhys said dryly, just as your fingers reached out—without looking—toward the honey jar at the far end of the counter.
His own hand twitched, summoning it with a flick of magic, smooth as breathing.
“He nearly took a chunk out of one of his wings,” he added, the jar gliding toward you in the same breath.
You caught it mid-air and spooned in a little honey, not missing a beat. “Azriel let him?”
“He didn’t know,” Rhys replied, pouring his own mug. He added the tea bags, covered it with a saucer, and took the seat across from you. “He thought Cassian was just trimming his own hair. Came back from the bath and Cassian had scissors and that look in his eyes.”
You stirred slowly, keeping your eyes on the swirl of tea. “I’m shocked he survived.” Whether you meant Cassian or Azriel didn’t matter; the sentiment applied to both.
“Mor told him if he even looked at her hair with a pair of scissors in his hands, she’d skin him.”
You smiled faintly. “Wise.”
Rhys’ lip twitched a little. “I thought so.”
The silence that followed was the kind that didn’t need filling. You let it stretch, let it settle into your bones like warmth. Outside, the thunder seemed to soften, like it, too, was growing tired.
After some time, Rhys lifted his mug, nose wrinkling slightly as he brought it to his lips.
“Lavender?” he asked, skepticism coloring the word.
You glanced up at him over the rim of your own cup. “It’s calming.”
He took a sip anyway, then made a quiet sound like he was trying not to grimace.
“It tastes like wet flowers.”
You gave him a look. “You’re still drinking it.”
“Out of solidarity.” He gave a theatrical sigh, settling the mug down like it had personally offended him. “Suffering beside you. As always.”
That pulled a soft laugh from you—small, but genuine, slipping out before you could catch it. The first moment of true ease you’d felt since you’d woken up. Rhysand didn’t say anything, just watched you with that quiet attention he wore too well, the corners of his mouth tilting upward like it pleased him to see it.
You let the silence stretch. “I didn’t know you were staying the night,” you said, still not quite looking at him.
“Didn’t mean to, ” he said, leaning back in his chair. “Had a few things to check in on here. Then the storm hit, and…” He shrugged one shoulder, casual, but not careless. “Didn’t want you riding it out alone.”
The stupid little flip your stomach did was entirely unhelpful. You took a slow sip of tea to ignore it.
The quiet settled again, a little softer now. Gentler.
Then Rhys’ voice came, quiet and rough at the edges.
“You always pace around in shirts that short when you’ve got the place to yourself?”
You spluttered mid-sip, barely managing to swallow without choking. Then shot him a withering glare over the rim of your mug.
He was smirking now, the picture of smug innocence. “It’s cute,” he added. “Cozy. Terrifying, really.”
“Keep talking and I’ll convince the House to trap you in the bathroom with no toilet paper.”
“You won’t,” he said confidently, that lazy grin still tugging at his mouth. “You’re too tired. And besides—” he leans in just slightly, your eyes flicking up to meet his despite yourself—“you’d miss me if I left.”
You flinched as a particularly loud boom of thunder cracked. The windows trembled in their panes, wind howling against the glass. The faelights dimmed briefly, a flicker like the storm had drawn a breath too deep.
“You should lie down,” he said quietly.
“I’m fine.”
“You’re wired.” His eyes flicked to the goosebumps on your arms. “And freezing. Come on.” He rose, tea still in hand. “I’ll stay with you. We’ll wait it out together.”
You hesitated. “... You don’t have to.”
“I want to.” The words were light, but not careless. “At least let me for a bit. You can talk at me until the storm passes.”
And the way he said it—casual, easy, like it cost him nothing to offer his presence—undid you more than it should have.
You didn’t answer right away. Just took another sip, hoping the warmth would quiet your pulse.
He let his words sit for a beat before offering, with a spark of levity, “I’ll stay on my side. Promise.”
“You don’t have a side.”
“I’ll make one.”
You narrowed your eyes as you considered him, gaze trailing from the smug tilt of his mouth to the glint in his eyes. “Fine. But no funny business.”
“Define funny.”
“I’m serious.”
“So am I.”
You stood slowly, cradling your mug between your hands, and padded after him down the dim hallway. Neither of you said anything for a few moments, and you liked that—liked the hush between your footfalls, the faint creak of old wood beneath your steps, the way Rhys kept his pace just a half step ahead of yours.
Then, without looking back, he said, “You’ve got more mugs than sense.”
You glanced at him, deadpan. “They’re seasonal.”
He lifted his, inspecting the faded gold lettering. “‘I survived Calanmai in the Spring Court.’ It’s nearly Solstice.”
You took a long sip. “Year-round commemoration felt appropriate.”
He snorted. “You weren’t even in the Spring Court for Calanmai. We were in the Day Court dealing with that trade dispute, remember?”
“Sure, not this year.”
You turned your mug just as he glanced back, hiding the side that read “I Got Picked at Calanmai and All I Got Was This Mug.”
You shrugged. “You don’t know me.”
He stopped outside your door, wings tucking in as he leaned casually against the frame. You opened it without a word and stepped inside, flipping on the lamp. The room glowed in warm golds and shadows, the storm pressing faintly at the windows.
Rhysand followed a beat later, hands wrapped around his mug, gaze roaming the space like he hadn’t already seen it a hundred times before.
You crossed to the dresser and started absently clearing up—folding the sweater draped over the chair, tucking a pair of socks into a drawer, shoving a bra beneath a pillow like it hadn’t been lying out all day.
“Please,” Rhys said behind you, voice drier than your tea. “As if it’s the first time I’ve seen one of those.”
You tossed him a flat look over your shoulder. “They’re not for your viewing pleasure.”
“Everything’s for my viewing pleasure,” he muttered, already halfway to the bed, mug thunking down on the nightstand like a punctuation mark.
You rolled your eyes and turned back to the dresser, reaching for a lacy little number you hadn’t realized was still out—only for Rhys to beat you to it, no doubt winnowing the last few feet just for theatrics.
He held it up delicately between two fingers, eyebrows lifting in mock reverence. “Really, (y/n)? This barely qualifies as a scrap. Is it for… special occasions? Or just Tuesdays?”
You snatched it from his hand, cheeks warming. “Stop being a pig.”
His grin was wicked. “Oink.”
You glared at him, but the corner of your mouth twitched. “You’re insufferable.”
Rhys just shrugged, entirely unbothered. “Your hospitality says otherwise.” He moved to climb onto the bed like he’d done a hundred times before. You gave him a long, unimpressed look, then turned to grab your tea.
By the time you turned back, he was already against the headboard, wings gone, legs stretched out. He looked perfectly at home—too at home.
You slid in beside him with a muttered, “Don’t spill anything.”
“I never do,” he said, tugging the blankets up from where they’d bunched at the foot of the bed, covering you both.
You didn’t dignify that with a response, just curled your fingers around your tea and let the warmth soak in. The bed creaked quietly as you shifted against the pillows. His thigh brushed yours.
Thunder grumbled far off, less urgent now. You let yourself breathe.
Then, casually, Rhysand said, “Still humming, by the way.”
You blinked at him.
“When you stirred your tea earlier,” he clarified, turning his head toward you. “Didn’t even notice, did you?”
“I don’t do that.”
“Hum while you stir your drink? You do it all the time,” he said, flopping his arm behind his head. “Drives Amren insane.”
You let out a small, startled laugh. “Now I’m just sad I don’t hum louder.”
“That’s the spirit,” he said, raising his mug in mock toast. “Rattle whatever functions as her soul.”
You clinked your cup against his without thinking. “She’d gut you if she heard you.”
“Please,” he said. “She’s wanted to gut me for centuries.”
You smiled into your tea, warmth pooling in your chest that had nothing to do with the drink. For a moment, neither of you spoke. The silence wasn’t uncomfortable—just full. Full of steam and thunder and the fact that Rhys was here, warm beside you, his presence taking up more space than it had any right to.
He sank deeper into the pillows, stretching out like he belonged to the space and it belonged to him. His eyes drifted to the ceiling, distant but not vacant. And you let yourself look. The lines of his face were softened in the low light, made golden and shadowed by turns. He looked older like this. Not aged—just… full of time. The kind of tired that sat behind the eyes, ancient and endless and quiet.
And yet he was warm beside you. Solid. Here.
“You always do that,” you said after a moment, surprising even yourself.
His gaze slid toward you, slow and deliberate, like he wasn’t sure if he wanted to hear the answer. “Do what?”
“Go quiet. Like you’ve left the room without getting up.”
A faint hum, low and noncommittal as he turned back to the ceiling. “Sometimes I do.”
It wasn’t a deflection. Just a truth handed to you gently.
You ran your thumb around the rim of your mug. “Where’d you go just now?”
A pause. Not long enough to mean avoidance, just… thought.
“Nowhere.” A pause. “Here.”
His eyes didn’t leave the ceiling, but something in his jaw eased.
You didn’t look away. Couldn’t.
Then Rhys moved, and your shoulders were almost touching. He huffed a quiet laugh. “Y’know, I used to imagine this.”
You blinked, the sudden shift catching you off guard. “Imagine what?”
He didn’t seem to notice your disorientation, eyes still fixed ahead. “This—sitting here, quiet like this. You. Me. Tea.”
You stared at him for a second.
“Tea, huh?” you managed, still trying to catch up.
He grinned faintly. “Always figured it’d be chamomile.”
You shook your head, smiling despite yourself. “Let me guess. In your daydreams, I served you tea in a silken robe and draped myself over your lap like some lovesick devotee.”
Rhysand raised an eyebrow, finally turning toward you with a glint in his eye. “You were wearing mismatched socks and humming off-key. The usual.”
That startled a laugh out of you, too loud for how late it was. “So you’ve always had terrible taste.”
His brow pulled just slightly, not in confusion but… disappointment? “I like to call it refined,” he said after a breath.
You felt heat rise to your cheeks again, so you did what you did best: sipped and looked away. Beyond the window, wind and water still tangled in the dark—but the violence of it no longer touched you.
“You know,” Rhys said after a pause, his voice dipping low again, “if we’re pointing fingers, you’ve been the quiet one.”
That violet gaze stayed fixed on you. You’d been on the receiving end of it before—in briefings, in battle, across a crowded room. But never like this. Never steady enough to knock the air right out of your lungs.
You didn’t answer.
He shifted again. “Won’t even look at me. What’s that about?”
You didn’t look up. Kept your eyes on the tea gone cold between your hands. There were a dozen reasons you could’ve given. Because the moment felt too full. Because it was easier not to see his face when you answered. Because his voice in your space, his body next to yours, felt like opening a book you weren’t ready to finish.
Instead, you said nothing.
Rhys didn’t push, he let the moment stretch.
You tilted your head back, eyes flicking toward the ceiling like it might hold a map for what to say next. But what came out wasn’t planned. Just something that had lived on the tip of your tongue for far longer than you were comfortable with.
“Do you remember that night in the Winter Court?” you asked softly. “When we were in the tent?”
His reply was instant. “We were in the tent a lot of nights, you might have to be a bit more specific.”
You gave him a sideways look. “The night with the storm. When the fire kept going out.”
Realization flickered across his face. “Ah,” he said, voice quieting.
You hadn’t meant to bring it up. Not really. But something about tonight—about the tea and the thunder and the way he looked lounging on your bed like he belonged…
You two had never talked about that night. Never talked about the way his arms wrapped around you like instinct. Never talked about how it felt too natural, too easy, how the silence between you only ever felt like comfort and understanding. But now, with the storm as this strange cocoon around you…
You didn’t know what you’d expected him to say. But now that the words were out there, you couldn’t take them back.
You nodded, fingers tightening slightly around your mug. “I couldn't feel my toes. Thought I might lose them honestly.”
“You were shaking,” Rhys said, a quiet chuckle buried beneath the words.
You looked over at him, the corner of your mouth lifting. “You didn’t seem to mind holding me.”
Rhys tilted his head, his smile softer now. “I didn’t.”
Time slowed, dense with everything you weren’t saying. The storm pressed against the windows. His thigh brushed yours.
Then, quietly—like he was still deciding whether or not to say it—
“I thought about kissing you.”
You looked at him, heartbeat racing.
“You were freezing,” he added quickly, almost like a defense. “I kept thinking if I kissed you, it might stop your teeth from chattering.”
You huffed a breath, setting the mug down on your nightstand. “That is not how body heat works.”
“No,” he agreed, eyes warm. “But it was a nice excuse.”
Your chest tightened. He wasn’t teasing anymore. Not really.
“I didn’t sleep much that night,” you said.
Rhysand looked at you. Really looked at you. “Neither did I.”
You swallowed. The storm murmured against the windows like it remembered too.
“…I had a dream,” you admitted, voice barely above the hush of rain.
His brows lifted, but he didn’t speak. Just waited.
You hesitated. “Not the kind I should’ve had with you so close.”
A beat passed. And then he said, softly, “No?”
You shook your head once.
Rhys’s voice dipped, amused but careful. “Was I at least impressive in it?”
That pulled a short laugh from your chest—breathless, a little flustered. “You were… very convincing.”
His smile turned lazy. “Convincing, or irresistible?”
You huffed. “Don’t push it.”
“Never. I ease,” he said with a smirk like sin, sipping from his mug. “That’s how you get what you want.”
You rolled your eyes, but your pulse was a steady thrum beneath your skin. You could feel the heat of him beside you, the weight of everything that hadn’t been said over the years pressing in like gravity.
“I kept waking up,” you murmured. “Because I thought… if I moved too much, you’d pull away.”
He was very still. “I wouldn’t have.”
You looked over at him, heart skipping. He was watching you with that unreadable expression—the one that always made you feel like he knew more than he let on.
Then, almost too casually, he added, “For the record… you did move. Quite a bit, actually.”
Your heart stopped.
No, surely not—
You would’ve remembered that. You definitely would’ve remembered that. Right?
You blinked. “I did not.”
His grin was maddening. “Mmm. Rolled right into me. Twice.”
Heat rushed to your face, ears, down your spine.
You opened your mouth, then closed it again, then opened it just to whisper, “You’re lying.”
He looked far too entertained.
“Twice,” he repeated, like he was doing you a favor.
You groaned, dropping your head into your hands. “Kill me.”
“I did consider it,” he said with a faint smile, “but you were clinging to me. It felt cruel.”
“Cauldron boil me,” you muttered.
“I thought you were doing it on purpose,” he went on, tone far too innocent. “Torturing me in my sleep.”
Your face remained planted in the palms of your hands, groaning. “I’m never speaking again.”
“That seems dramatic,” he said, clearly delighted.
“I hate you.”
“You’re blushing.”
“I’m leaving.”
“This is your room,” Rhys said, not missing a beat.
You peeked at him through your fingers. “And you just let me?”
Rhys gave a one-shouldered shrug, eyes twinkling. “Well, what was I going to do? Shove you away?”
You sputtered. “Most people would’ve!”
His expression didn’t change, but something about the air shifted—like even the storm outside had quieted to hear what he might say.
“I wasn’t exactly in a hurry to stop you.”
Your breath caught.
You looked at him, expecting the usual grin, some teasing remark—but there was none. Just quiet.
“You never… You never said anything,” you murmured. You weren’t talking about that night anymore—you both knew it.
Rhys hummed, low in his throat. “Didn’t want to spook you. Or tempt fate.”
This was about all of it. The looks, the silences, the way he’d never pulled away. The way he always felt just out of reach, like he was waiting for you to be sure. Like he’d been sure all along. But so had you—only you hadn’t known he was. You’d stayed just out of reach, too, waiting for a sign that never came.
You gave a breathless sort of laugh. “You think that would’ve tempted fate?”
He arched a brow. “Wouldn’t it have?”
Your silence said enough.
He let it hang there for a beat, then—without looking at you—reached for his mug again. Took a slow sip like he wasn’t aware of the tightrope he was walking. Like this wasn’t everything.
And when he set it down again, he spoke like it was nothing. “Whatever it was you dreamed… you certainly made it hard to stay asleep.”
Your fingers curled in your lap.
He still wasn’t looking at you, but his voice was velvet. “You were restless. Kept shifting. Making these soft little sounds, kept saying—”
You made a strangled noise. “Rhys.”
That made him glance over—his smirk unfairly smug. “Yeah, like that. A bit breathier though.”
You smacked his arm without thinking—more flustered than actually annoyed.
He chuckled, clearly pleased with himself. “Just saying. Must’ve been quite the night.”
Your pulse thudded hard against your ribs. You should’ve told him to shut up. Should’ve changed the subject.
Instead, you said, quiet and steady, “You can see it, if you want.”
That wiped the grin off his face. He sat up, and his eyes found yours again, sharp and glittering.
“…Can I?”
You hesitated. Because the air between you felt different now, like the quiet after a confession, when the world waits to see what you’ll do with it.
You pushed the blankets off and sat up, mirroring him. Legs folded beneath you. Hands braced in your lap. You weren’t touching, but it felt like you were, every inch between you a live wire. Close. Closer than before.
You met his gaze and slowly, steadily, exhaled and let go.
Not all the way. Just enough. A slow unspooling at the edge of your mind—like a thread tugged loose.
It wasn’t dramatic. No crashing walls. No shuddering gasp.
Just a tilt. A lean. A flicker of trust in the quiet.
Like cracking a door open—not wide, just enough for someone to slip through if they wanted it badly enough.
And he felt it. You knew the moment he did. Not by any shift in his expression, but by the way his presence responded—quiet and immediate, the brush of his mind ghosting along the threshold of yours. Not a push or a pry, just a gentle touch, like a fingertip at your temple, tracing the edges of your mind’s adamant, as if to say, I’m here. It’s only me. Don’t be afraid.
When he did come in, it was careful. Gentle. Not a push, not a pry—just a brush of thought, like a thumb brushing over your bottom lip. He moved through you with reverence, with restraint. Not like he was looking for something, but like he was waiting for you to offer it.
The pressure in your chest built. Not from fear—but from how intimate it was.
You felt the weight of him in your mind. The shape of him. Familiar and foreign all at once. Rhys, your friend. Rhys, the shoulder you’d leaned on more times than you could count. Now quiet in your head, holding still, holding back—waiting.
So you let him see.
The memory rose, and it bloomed slowly, like a flower opening to sunlight.
Your skin slick with sweat, flushed and bare. Blankets kicked down around your hips. Rhys between your thighs—his mouth everywhere at once. On your throat, your breasts, the inside of your knee. His voice low and rasping, coaxing, worshipping. You arched into him, hands fisted in his hair, dragging him closer, closer.
Soft sounds slipping from your lips. His name. Over and over, like a prayer.
The pace of his thoughts shifted.
You felt it—felt him—react, felt the pulse of heat that wasn’t yours.
But still, he didn’t move. Didn’t speak. He only watched as the memory played out, as you trembled beneath the ghost of his mouth in your dream. As your back arched for him. As your dream-self gasped his name like it meant everything.
You could feel his focus on every detail, like he was memorizing it all.
The way you sounded. The way you looked. The way you wanted him.
Rhys.
You whispered it in your mind—his name soft and aching.
Rhys.
The dark curled tighter inside you, shadows licking through your veins like smoke—hungry and unrelenting.
Taking. Taking. Taking.
Your hips shifted. Your breath hitched.
Rhys.
His breath stuttered in response—wherever he was.
And then, in the quiet of your room, you heard it.
A groan.
Low. Wrecked.
Rhys.
Your eyes snapped open.
Only—you weren’t in your room anymore.
The air was sharp and cold. You could smell pine, damp earth, that faint mineral tang of snow on the wind. Canvas fluttered quietly overhead. The lantern cast that same golden pool of light. You heard the storm beyond the trees, muffled and distant. And beneath you—sleeping bag. Mat. The slight ache in your shoulders from a long day of hiking.
It was perfect.
Too perfect.
You blinked—and felt it all at once: the soft cotton of your shirt clinging to your skin. The same T-shirt you’d fallen asleep in earlier tonight. The same thin underwear beneath it. Your legs were bare. Cold.
And he was there.
Rhys, kneeling over you—close. Real. One of his thighs braced on either side of your hips, careful not to press down. His hands planted on the floor beside your shoulders. Caging you in without meaning to. Pajama pants slung low on his hips. Chest bare. Hair mussed.
No sign of the coats you had that night. No gloves or boots or scarves to fight off the cold. Just skin.
Warm. Alive. Here.
Your fingers dug tight into the sleeping bag beneath you. “What are you doing, Rhys?”
He tilted his head. “You tell me. It’s your dream.”
The words landed low in your belly.
Because it was—your memory, your dream, your body already humming with the way the figment of him had touched it before.
He was watching your mouth when you spoke again. “This isn’t how it happened.”
And gods, you could see it—where his hands had already touched this version of the night. Where the boundaries had softened, blurred. The cold clung to your skin still, but this was a watered-down echo of what you’d felt that night. Especially with the heat of him radiating so close, like he was the only warmth left in the world. The wind outside faded. All you could hear was the rhythm of your own pulse.
His gaze flicked up to meet yours. “No. But it could’ve.”
You swallowed. “You didn’t have to quiet the storm.”
He blinked, like the thought had genuinely never occurred to him. “I’ve been doing it all night,” he said simply. “Well, since the kitchen. Bit by bit, so you’d think it was fading on its own.”
Your heart stuttered. “Rhys.”
His mouth curved, not quite a smile. “What? You think I couldn’t feel how tense you were?”
“You didn’t have to do that,” you said, the words quieter now. “I didn’t… I didn’t ask you to do that.”
“Oh?” His brows rose slightly, magic shifting like the tide. “Should I stop then?”
And then, with no more than a flicker of thought, he did.
Sound returned all at once. Wind shrieking against your bedroom windows. Rain pounding the glass in sheets. Distant thunder rolling deep and endless across the city.
Your body locked up. Breath caught in your throat.
And just as fast as it came, it was gone again.
Silence fell. Not the true silence of the storm easing, but the quiet Rhys had crafted for you—thick, warm, and distant, like a memory.
You didn’t say anything right away.
Because part of you wanted to laugh. Not at him—but at yourself. At the sheer madness of lying half-dressed in your own memory, with your best friend hovering over you—inside the dream you’d had about him. Seeing it. Breathing it in. Touching the edges of everything you’d refused to say out loud.
Your voice came quieter this time. “We’re not just looking anymore,” not really a question, but you needed confirmation.
A pause.
“No,” he said—low and sure, gaze locked to yours like it was a tether. Like he needed the confirmation too.
You stared at each other. That same heat coiling in your gut, the same ache building where his hands hadn’t touched you yet.
You shifted slightly, barely a brush of your knee against his.
That was all it took.
He leaned in—slow, careful. Like giving you a chance to stop him.
You didn’t.
His mouth brushed yours once. Barely. A whisper of contact, soft and almost uncertain.
But your breath caught, and your hands moved on their own—reaching, pulling him closer, until that uncertainty dissolved and his mouth claimed yours fully.
It was deeper this time. Hotter.
Not hungry. Not desperate.
Just inevitable.
Like he’d always meant to kiss you, and some part of you had always meant to let him.
While one hand held him up, the other found your hip, steady and sure, but not insistent. Just… there. A grounding point. A question.
You answered it without words—just a shift of your weight forward, the press of your chest against his, your fingers sliding up to rest lightly at his jaw.
He groaned low in his throat. Almost inaudible, like he didn’t mean for it to slip out.
Your kiss deepened, slow and molten. His tongue brushed yours, deliberate, and you let him in. Let him have that part of you.
His hand slipped beneath the hem of your shirt, just his fingers at first. Testing. Savoring. The warmth of your stomach. The shape of your waist.
His touch wasn’t greedy. It was careful. Almost reverent.
“You’ve thought about this,” you murmured, breath catching as he dragged his knuckles along your ribs.
His lips ghosted down your jaw. “So have you.”
You didn’t deny it. How could you, when the lines between dream and memory were already blurring around you? When your body was already arching into his, betraying every want you’d ever buried?
You didn’t have to say it. Not when he could feel it in every breath you took.
He kissed you again, slower this time, like he was trying to memorize how you tasted. How you responded. The way your breath hitched when he rolled his hips just barely against yours.
Still clothed. Still not quite there. But the heat between you was unmistakable. Heavy. Radiating.
You whispered his name against his lips, barely audible.
His mouth stilled against your skin. “Say it again.”
You did. Quieter. Closer to a prayer than a plea.
Rhys pulled back just enough to look at you—really look.
There was no smirk this time. No mask of arrogance. Just that same dark, endless gaze, lit now with something deeper. Something older.
“You’re sure?”
Not a tease. Not a dare.
Just a question. One last door he wouldn’t walk through unless you opened it.
You met his gaze and gave him the only answer that mattered—leaning in, mouth brushing his in a kiss that was softer than before. Not desperate. Not urgent.
Just honest.
Your fingers found the back of his neck, curling there, grounding yourself in him. In this moment.
And Rhys melted into it, bearing his weight on his forearm now, the hand beneath your shirt sliding up again—flat palm, slow drag. Like he was rediscovering a familiar map, one he hadn’t realized he’d memorized until now.
Every breath you took pressed your chest against his. Every motion of your hips fed the fire you were both barely keeping contained.
But it wasn’t just heat burning between you.
It was years. Of glances held too long. Of arguments that meant more than they should’ve. Of moments like this, only imagined.
Rhysand pulled back, far enough to drink you in—eyes roaming, slow and deliberate, like he meant to memorize the sight. The flush on your cheeks. The part in your lips. The want you didn’t bother hiding. “What were you thinking about in the kitchen?”
You blinked. “Nothing.”
He arched a brow. “Don’t lie to me.”
“I’m not,” you said quickly, too quickly. “I just—I couldn’t sleep.”
He hummed, unconvinced. “Funny. Because I was sleeping. And then I wasn’t.”
He shifted above you, and his hand drifted. Down your stomach. Past the pushed-up hem of your shirt. “It wasn’t the storm that woke me,” he murmured, and that hand kept going, slow and steady. “It was your scent.”
You gasped as his palm cupped you over your underwear—broad and warm and possessive. The heel of it pressed just right and he knew it. “Rhys—”
But he didn’t stop. Didn’t soften.
“I wanted so badly to know what you were dreaming about,” he said, voice dipped in velvet and ruin, rich with heat. His fingers curled just slightly, a teasing drag along the soaked fabric. “I could smell it. Clear across the house.”
He leaned in, mouth brushing your ear now. “I could smell you,” he said, voice dragging slow, like he wanted the words to settle in your blood. “Warm and ready. Like sugar melting off skin. Like salt and heat.”
His breath skimmed your ear. “I wanted to fall to my knees right then and taste every drop of it.”
He inhaled at the curve of your neck, sharply, greedily, hungrily. Like he could drink in the want from your skin. “It hit me like a fucking punch to the gut.”
Your thighs twitched. He smiled.
“You were so wet, weren’t you?” His thumb moved now, tracing slow, idle circles over the damp cotton. “Dripping onto the sheets, dreaming of something. I couldn’t stop thinking.”
You, on the other hand, simply couldn’t think. You could barely breathe.
“Thoughts of you…” he murmured, dragging the words across your skin. “Spread out across my sheets. Still dreaming. Still wet. I imagined you there on my bed, mouth parted, thighs sticky with it. Maybe you were dreaming of me fucking you slow—dragging it out. Or maybe rough—hands on your hips, face pressed into the pillow.”
His hand stilled. Breath shallow.
“I wanted to touch myself to it,” he said, voice torn. “To that scent—your need hanging in the air like perfume. To the image of you in bed… It drove me fucking mad,” he whispered. “The thought of you, wet and whimpering in your sleep. I almost fisted my cock right there, just to take the edge off.”
A pause, thick with restraint.
“But it felt like… a line I couldn’t cross. Like taking something that wasn’t mine to have yet.”
His head dropped slightly, forehead brushing yours.
“So I just lay there. Thinking. Burning. Telling myself to sleep—Rhysand, ignore it. Don’t be an idiot. Don’t think about her fingers between her thighs, don’t think about her mouth open, whispering your name into the night—
Just sleep.”
A beat. A slow, shaky inhale.
“But I couldn’t stop thinking. Couldn’t stop needing you. And right when I couldn’t fucking take it anymore—right when I gave in and was reaching for myself—”
“Rhys,” you breathed.
“It vanished. I thought maybe I’d imagined it. So I got up, went to get some cold water.” He kissed the curve of your jaw. “Tried to walk it off.”
Another slow press of his thumb. Another spike of pleasure.
“And then,” he went on, gaze sharpening like a blade, “I got close to the kitchen. Heard you moving around.”
His smile turned feral.
“And there it was again.”
You made a soft, involuntary sound—embarrassed and wrecked all at once.
Rhys purred against your neck, all smoke and satisfaction. “That scent. Cauldron, it’s maddening. Didn’t even touch yourself, did you?”
You shook your head, barely.
He groaned—deep and low and filthy. “Fuck, don’t even have to touch yourself to flood the whole fucking house with it.”
His fingers dragged along the soaked fabric again, deliberate and slow. “All of it between your thighs, and you just… stood there. Thinking about it. Letting it drip down like you didn’t care who smelled it.”
You thought you were alone.
Cassian was in Illyria, Azriel was in Vallahan.
Rhysand hadn’t said a word before you’d gone to bed. Hadn’t made himself known, hadn’t so much as sent a thought your way.
He had to know you thought you were the only one home.
You never would have left your room like that if—
“You wanted me to find you like that?” he whispered. “Is that it? Standing there in your little shirt, soaking yourself, pretending you couldn’t sleep while your body screamed for me?”
Your hips jerked. His hand didn’t budge.
“Rhys,” you tried, broken and breathless.
But he was far from done.
“Maybe,” he mused, voice going molten, “you wanted me to walk in and bend you over the counter. Pull these—” he snapped the waistband of your underwear—“to the side and taste that sweet, sleepy mess you made between your legs. The one that begged me to wake you up with my mouth.”
You let out a ragged breath—half sob, half moan.
“Tell me what you were thinking about in the kitchen,” he said again, lower now, darker. “And this time, don’t lie.”
You swallowed. “I wasn’t—”
His fingers slid beneath the cotton. Skin on skin. Heat on heat.
You gasped, hips twitching, breath gone.
“Try again,” he growled, mouth at your throat. “Or I’ll keep my fingers here all night and won’t let you come. Not until you tell me.”
Your legs trembled. “It was you,” you admitted, voice wrecked. “It was always you.”
He groaned like the words were a reward, his fingers finally moving with purpose, circling, stroking.
“That’s better,” he said. “Now tell me what I was doing.”
You bit your lip.
His fingers stilled instantly.
“You—” your voice cracked, and you dragged in a shuddering breath. “You had me against the window.”
He hummed in approval, fingers pushing in just a little, just enough to make you gasp. “Which one?”
“The big one. Upstairs. In your room.”
“Of course,” he murmured, darkly pleased. “You like the one with the view.”
You nodded helplessly.
“And what was I doing to you?” he prompted, thumb brushing maddening circles again. “Tell me exactly.”
Your cheeks flushed, but you obeyed. “You came up behind me. Wrapped your hand around my throat. Pressed me against the glass.”
Before the words even finished leaving your mouth, Rhys shifted—free hand sliding up, fingers curling gently but firmly around your throat, thumb pressing into the soft spot beneath your jaw.
You gasped.
“Like this?” he asked, voice all sin and silk.
You nodded, throat moving against his grip. “Yes.”
His hand between your thighs moved diligently, slick sounds soft and obscene. “Keep going.”
“You pushed my legs apart. Made me look out at the city. Said you wanted everyone to see how pretty I looked for you.”
He groaned—low and wrecked. “Of course I did.”
And then he moved—sliding down your body, pressing kisses to your stomach, your hip, the crease of your thigh. He peeled your underwear off your legs with lazy reverence, and when he looked up at you from between your legs, his eyes glinted like a god about to claim what was his.
“Did I touch you like this in your dream? With my tongue?” he asked softly, like he didn’t already know the answer.
You moaned, thighs twitching. “You didn’t stop.”
He grinned—dark, delighted—and then he didn’t stop, either.
His mouth was on you in a heartbeat—hot, open-mouthed kisses to your swollen cunt, tongue dragging through your folds, firm and slow. His grip on your thighs tightened, keeping you open, helpless, right where he wanted you.
And gods, he was good.
He licked into you like he was trying to taste the dream itself, moaning against your cunt like you were the one unraveling him. When his tongue flicked your clit—once, twice, then again—your hips bucked and he groaned, wrapping an arm around your waist to keep you still.
“Gods, I knew you’d taste good,” he murmured to himself, voice hoarse. “Did I make you come like this?”
You whimpered. “Twice.”
His mouth sealed around your clit again, tongue flicking faster now, more pressure, more hunger. Your hands scrabbled at the blankets, his hair, anything to hold onto as the pleasure surged, sharp and sudden and far too much—
And then you broke. Legs shaking, breath gone, climax crashing through you with dizzying force. He held you through it, tongue still moving lazily, drawing every last tremor from your body.
You didn’t even have time to recover before he was moving—rising over you again, mouth glistening, eyes wild with want.
His hand cradled the side of your face, thumb brushing along your cheek as he leaned down, kissed you slow and deep. Let you taste yourself on his tongue. Let you feel how much he needed this.
He pressed his forehead to yours, breathing hard, voice low. “Tell me what I did next.”
You blinked up at him, dazed and already aching again. “You—” your voice faltered. “You didn’t even let me catch my breath. You just… slid inside me.”
A groan rumbled in his chest, and he shoved his pants down with the kind of urgency that made your pulse stutter. reached down, dragging the head of his cock through your slick folds with maddening patience.
“Like this?”
He guided the head of his cock through your folds, slick and aching. You nodded, breath catching.
“No teasing,” you whispered.
His jaw clenched, and then—
He pushed into you with one long, slow thrust, the stretch of him making your eyes flutter shut.
“Fuck,” he breathed, head dropping to your shoulder. “You feel—.”
He started to move, hips rolling deep and steady, slower than the rhythm you’d imagined in sleep. He thrust like he couldn’t get enough.
Gentler. Like he wanted to savor it. Like he couldn’t believe you were real.
His hand slid down your side, settling at your waist, grounding you as his body rocked into yours with patient, aching care. Each thrust was deliberate, every motion a silent promise. And when he looked down at you—eyes dark and open, lips parted with quiet reverence—you felt like the only thing that mattered in the world.
“Is this okay?” he murmured, voice low, rough with restraint.
You nodded, breath hitching. “Better than I could’ve ever dreamed.”
That pulled a soft smile from him. He dipped down to kiss you again, slow and lingering, his hips still moving with that unhurried rhythm that had your toes curling. He wasn’t fucking you—he was making love to you. Deep and warm and full of something that felt dangerously close to adoration.
Then his fingers tugged at the hem of your shirt, a silent question. You shifted beneath him, lifting your arms to help, and he peeled it off you with reverent care, tossing it aside without taking his eyes off you.
His lips brushed yours again, breath warm and trembling. “You feel so good,” he murmured, like the words had to be pulled from somewhere deep. His gaze drifted down your body, hungry and awestruck all at once. “And you look…” His breath hitched. “You look so fucking beautiful.”
One hand slid up, fingers splaying over your ribs before cupping your breast—slow, purposeful. His thumb brushed over your nipple, and your back arched instinctively, a soft sound catching in your throat.
���There you go,” he whispered, lips ghosting over your skin. “That’s it. Just let yourself feel it.”
He groaned, leaning down to press a kiss to your collarbone, then lower. “Been thinking about this,” he rasped, tongue flicking over the peak before he took it into his mouth. “Dreaming of this.”
And his hips never stopped moving.
The pace stayed slow—for a moment longer. Long enough to draw another gasp from your throat, long enough for your fingers to tighten against his back. But you felt it—how his control began to fray. How the roll of his hips deepened, a little harder now, a little faster.
“You still with me?” he breathed, lifting his head just enough to see you nod absently. “That’s my girl… Let me take care of you.”
He drew back and pushed in hard, the force of it knocking the air from your lungs. Then again. And again. Still tender—but no longer soft. Not when he buried himself inside you like he couldn’t stand the thought of being apart.
You clung to him as the pace built, sweat slicking your skin, breath mixing in the charged air between your mouths. He kissed you like he needed it, like he needed you, all of you, while he fucked you deeper, rougher, until every thrust had your eyes rolling back.
You turned your head, breath catching as his mouth dragged along your jaw. “You feel—fuck—you feel so good,” you whispered, the words trembling out of you.
He groaned in response, hips stuttering just slightly.
“Every time you push in,” you went on, voice low and wrecked, “gods, it’s so deep.”
His hand slipped beneath your thigh, hitching it higher, opening you more. “You’re perfect,” he growled. “Fucking perfect.”
Your fingers curled around his nape, tugging him down until your lips brushed his ear. “You don’t have to hold back,” you breathed. “I can take it.”
His hips slowed.
You didn’t stop. “I want to take it,” you whispered, and then added, a little bolder, “Want to feel all of it. All of you.”
A low, broken sound escaped him. “You don’t know what you’re asking.”
“I do.” Your gaze met his—open, hungry. “I want you, Rhys.”
He didn’t speak. Didn’t blink.
Then his grip tightened—hands sliding under your thighs, pressing them up, hooking your legs over his shoulders, folding you open. The new angle had you gasping as he sank in, slow at first, then all at once—deep and overwhelming.
He held you there, panting above you, pupils blown wide.
“This is what you wanted,” he said, and he started to move—hard, fast, relentless, like a dam breaking, like he’d been holding back for years and couldn’t anymore. “So take it. Don’t close your eyes, look at me… There’s my girl. There you go.”
You couldn’t even think, couldn’t breathe as he talked you through it. You could only feel as he fucked you into the blankets with single-minded, devastating purpose.
Your hands flew to his shoulders, nails digging in as he drove into you again and again, every thrust punching a sound from your throat—breathy, desperate, wrecked. You couldn’t even meet his gaze anymore, too overwhelmed by the sheer stretch of him, the heat of him, the way your body clenched around him like it never wanted to let him go.
“Look at me,” he growled, hips snapping forward.
You tried. Gods, you tried. Your lashes fluttered as your eyes met his—wild and dark and hungry.
“That’s it,” he murmured. “Keep those eyes on me while I fuck you.”
You whimpered, head falling back, thighs trembling in his hold. “Rhys—”
“I know,” he panted, pace unrelenting. “I know, baby. I feel it too.”
His hand slid up your side, fingers splayed across your ribs before brushing the swell of your breast. He cupped it gently at first—then squeezed, thumb circling your nipple until you cried out.
“You’re doing so well, fuck—taking me so deep. Can you feel how tight you are around me? Gods, you’re perfect like this,” he said, voice cracking. “Under me. Around me. Fuck—mine.”
You were close—so close it ached, a coil drawn tight in your belly, ready to explode.
“I can’t—” you gasped. “I’m gonna—”
“Let go,” he urged, voice nearly breaking. “Come for me. I want to feel it.”
And with one more brutal thrust—deep, punishing, perfect—you shattered around him—body locking up, mouth open in a silent cry as pleasure surged through you like lightning. But he didn’t stop.
He didn’t slow down.
Rhys kept fucking you through it, relentless, determined, dragging every last wave of that climax out of you with deep, punishing thrusts. His grip on your thighs was bruising, the way he held you open, kept you wide and helpless beneath him, like he needed to watch the way you came undone.
“Look at you,” he groaned. “So fucking beautiful when you come.”
Your hands clawed at the blankets, your mind white-hot and unraveling. Every thrust hit something electric inside you, your body too sensitive, too raw, and yet—you wanted it. Needed more.
“Too much,” you whispered, the words barely a breath.
“No, baby,” he growled, dragging his cock out slow—then slamming back in so hard your vision blurred. “You can take it. You’re gonna give me another.”
Your mouth dropped open in a moan, back arching as he angled his hips just right—grinding deep, relentless, right against that spot that made you sob.
“I can’t—” you tried again, voice breaking, but your body told a different story. Your hips rolled to meet him, thighs quaking where he held them, cunt pulsing so hard around him it was all he could do not to lose it.
“Yes you can,” he hissed, sweat slicking his chest. “You’re already close. I can feel you—so tight, so wet. Fuck, you’re milking me.”
You couldn’t think. Could barely breathe. The pressure built again with terrifying speed, your body strung so tight it felt like you might snap in half.
Then his thumb found your clit—circling, pressing, teasing just enough— just enough—
You screamed. Loud and wrecked and his, as a second orgasm slammed into you, fiercer than the first, crashing over you like a storm. Your whole body locked up, legs shaking violently in his grip, and all you could do was feel—like you were flying apart in a thousand pieces, pleasure white-hot and endless. Your vision went white. A cry tore from your throat as your body clenched down around him, pulsing with wave after wave of raw, blinding pleasure. He cursed, his rhythm faltering, then slamming back in with a groan as he chased his own end.
“Gods,” he choked. “You feel—fuck—fuck—”
And then he was coming, hips pressed flush to yours, buried as deep as he could go, filling you with every last pulse of him.
He didn’t stop touching you, even then—his movements gentler now, grounding, soothing, his hands sliding down your legs, your hips, up to cradle your face as he pressed his forehead to yours, both of you panting, trembling, lost.
You were still trembling when he finally eased out of you, slow and careful, like he hated to leave the warmth of your body. You hissed at the sudden emptiness, your legs twitching with the aftershocks.
“Shh,” he murmured, kissing your temple. “I’ve got you.”
You barely registered him moving—just the rustle of fabric, the shift of air. Then something warm and damp pressed between your thighs, and you jolted.
“Relax,” he said, voice lower now, rasping with the remnants of his own ruin. “Just cleaning you up.”
Your head lolled to the side, eyes half-lidded. “Where the hell did you even get that?”
Rhys gave a soft huff—almost a laugh—as he wrung out the cloth and dabbed between your legs with unhurried care. “I always come prepared.”
You groaned. “That better not be from your pocket.”
He smirked. “Don’t worry. It was clean. Can’t say the same for you.”
You swatted at his shoulder, too weak to land anything meaningful. He caught your wrist easily, brought it to his lips, kissed your knuckles. Then, quieter, more serious: “You okay?”
You met his gaze, and for a second, it felt like the world narrowed to just that—his eyes, searching yours, all that fire banked into something steadier. Warmer.
“I’m good,” you whispered. “Better than good.”
He nodded, brushing a damp strand of hair from your cheek. “Didn’t mean to wreck you like that.”
“Liar,” you muttered, which earned another soft grin.
“I mean,” he murmured, voice dipping as he smoothed the cloth over your skin one last time, “I did—but I wasn’t planning on it going that far.”
You let out a breathless laugh, instinctively crossing your arms over your chest as the chill started to creep back in around the edges of your bliss.
“Rhys,” you said dryly, “as much as I’m enjoying the ambiance out here, I’d really prefer not to freeze to death with your come dripping out of me.”
He huffed a soft laugh—but a blink later, the cold vanished. The ground beneath you softened, gave way to your plush mattress. Dim, golden light from your lamp spilled over you both. The scent of lavender and sex filled the space.
Rhysand shifted closer, his arm curling low around your waist. The weight of his touch, the steadiness, was enough to drown out the storm still raging beyond the window.
You tucked your head beneath his chin, let his warmth settle into your skin.
“Next time,” you mumbled, eyes already heavy, “you conjure us a fire first.”
His chest shook with a quiet laugh. “Next time,” he promised, voice like velvet and shadows, “I’ll give you anything you want.”
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Oh boy!! A chance for me to yap about gender at length?!?!!?!? DON'T MIND IF I DO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! [See tags for details. But be warned... I Popped the Fuck OFF writing this one, it's a doozy!]
Sorry if this is rude, but how do you identify? I looked around a bit and couldn't find anything, my apologies
Not rude! Honestly, I don't know these days! Lots of thoughts swirling around in my head. Maybe this is too much, but also maybe saying something instead of keeping it inside will be helpful... I'll put my gender thoughts under the cut... maybe someone can relate and offer some thoughts lol:
Recently, I came to the conclusion that I'm really not attracted to men at all, and maybe, I never have been. Looking back, I can kind of clearly see that any crush on a guy I thought I had was more like "wow, this person is COOL as HELL. I hope we can be really good friends." And then I noticed, that any crush I had on a girl felt... different. The feeling was totally different, and it still is. Have you noticed how most of the men I draw are quite feminine? I also have no idea what's going on with my gender. I know I'm me, a Yugo, I also can't comfortably say what exactly I am. Though by technicality, I am nonbinary, the word doesn't feel QUITE right to use for me. Maybe genderqueer is better. I've never identified as a man, but I have identified as transmasc and taken T. I really do like the results I've gotten from that. But at the same time, I don't really feel close to "manhood" at all, but something about having a mustache sometimes, like I tend to do, feels right to me still. I also like to wear lipstick and stuff. I don't know. I'm also not a "woman" I don't think, but I identify with more... I don't know, masculine expressions of womanhood if that makes sense? I am very androgynous in expression, in short. So basically I don't know what the hell is going on. All I know is I love women LOL. Can anyone relate to any of this? Any ideas?? I will not be offended by any assumptions you might have lol. Maybe I should just make a comic about this.
#gotta say that I MASSIVELY resonate with this post#I've been finding value in taking steps back and looking at gender from the bottom-up (rather than top-down)#seeing what bits and bobs of presentation I like and what I dont. vs picking a sort of ''gender north'' and trying to guide myself to that#(like. yknow. magnetic north. I mightve phrased that oddly)#admittedly it's a bit of a slog! turns out you can't just think your gender into existence!! who knew!!!#so far the gender I'm running with is ''Roger Rabbit rules'': whatever's funniest! (with a hefty sprinkling of dykey-futch. for flavor.)#the way I see it; gender is a dialectic construct--it only exists in-between people. only in the third person!#after all! if it's just yourself in a void there's no need for pronouns or even names!#and even with a second person in the equation the most you'd need is ''me/my'' ''you/your'' or ''us/ours''#so when ya think about gender as a *tool* rather than a *role* things start to go topsy-turvy (in the useful way) and limits become options#all that's left is to ask what kinda tool fits which kinds of job!#for me that's led to my gender-tool becoming some manner of a joke; I want my tool to help me do sillyness and bring people joy!!#(and maybe sometimes it's a dirty joke. or a gallows joke. or a teasing joke. or an outright mean joke. or plain ol' slapstick!)#so when I find someone who seems like they have a good joke (or at least a good sense of humor) I take some notes to help improve my routine#and maybe it's not always time for wacky. sometimes ya just need to play the straight man (sometimes too literally...)#but I definitely need to watch my ESRB rating around kids. and usually old grouches too.#and for some reason people get mad when I bring up The Twin Towers or The Alamo!! *pats chest-bits and hip-bit in rhythm while saying that*#eyyy hahahaaa badabing!!! >;3#and finally; it's important to keep in mind how closely linked comedy and romance/sexuality/etc are. very close but still distinct concepts.#the most frequent question I ask myself when interacting with a cutie is; ''do I like their comedy or the comedian?''#either/both of which is a good answer! and often it's hard to separate the two!#I hope this helps whoever reads it. or was amusing at least.#I had fun writing all this! It's something I frequently think about and always delight in talking about#if it means anything to anyone then that's an absolute bonus! but otherwise I'm happy to get it out in writing.#anyways. I'm going back to doing studies of Inspekta! one of VERY few men to strike me genderously. he's so shapes :3#(though fuck knows that the whole damn GROVE is full of some absolutely *choice* GenderFood)
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current mood: this tiktok my cousin sent me ages ago that ends with "hoodeladdle hoodeladdle ~life's a nightmare~" because yeah. i'm not feeling it right now
#dumb#I'm trying very hard to be a person right now and I feel like I'm just constantly 'on' all the time lately#I have to be all bubbly and friendly at work. then on my days off I'm constantly searching for and applying to new jobs#and I have to keep up with those applications and follow up without letting too much time pass#it doesn't sound like much when I write it out but I feel so overwhelmed and stressed and exhausted#anyway i'll probably delete this later when i calm down and cringe at my own emotions#ellie rambles
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pairing: lando norris x fem!australian!reader [no faceclaim] summary: honestly, you kind of expected this part-time gig to just be four days of pure chaos that gave you an excuse to see an f1 race up close. then some guy in the fanzone complimented your shoes, and the rest is history. notes: requested by anon!! this has been sitting in my drafts for aaaaages, sorry love <3 y'all are so brave for putting up with me while i try and remember how tf to write these uhhh yeah this one took a turn hope u like it anyway LMFAO
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ausgp Arriving in style! The lads looked great at the Melbourne Walk today 🤩🤩
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username1 lewis and zhou are absolutely slaying!! and oscar is also there
ynusername oscar i love you but you gotta step up your game mate, i wanna wear your merch so bad but it is UGLY!!
landonorris excuse me ausgp i think my fit was deserving of recognition in this post :(
ausgp Can't compete with the hometown hero 🤷♂️ landonorris but daniel isn't in this either ? oscarpiastri You're funny.
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landonorris he shoots, he scores! thanks for such a warm welcome melbourne :)
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oscarpiastri You and I have different definitions of scoring I think
landonorris ever heard of playing the long game? oscarpiastri Nurse he's out again
username2 where's the worker with the shoes i think they're indirecting her
username3 GET THIS MAN THE SHOE LADY'S DIGITS
maxfewtrell Now that's just uncalled for
ausgp Love to see the spirit 😉
username4 aww lando always looks so happy in melbourne, he loves it here :'))
ynusername oh wtf
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ynusername busy busy busy day, absolutely buggered, but very excited for tomorrow 😁 (also peep The Shoes on the last slide)
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yourfriend i mean... he's right, they are sick shoes
ynusername you're just saying that cos you made me buy them yourfriend well yes!
username5 omg are u the girl who was working the fanzone today??
ynusername i was one of them!
username6 ok if this is the shoe lady i don't blame lando for staring she's so pretty omg
yourfriend "the shoe lady" ynusername i've been titled?????
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ynusername weirdest work day ever (included today's shoes bc apparently it's a thing now)
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yourfriend that wrap was good as hell tho
ynusername deffo the most exciting part of lunch
username7 wait who is this girl and why does lando follow her?
username8 go to lovestruckln on twitter, she has a whole thread about it!
landonorris ...weird in a good way, right?
username9 your lack of rizz is astounding lando username10 bro STAND UP ynusername weird in an interesting way landonorris i'll take that
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landonorris melb, you have my ❤️
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username11 SHOE GIRLLLLLL
username12 i hope they never hard launch and he just keeps posting pics of cool sneakers
georgerussell63 You're welcome
charles_leclerc You did it, you crazy son of a bitch ausgp Where's our credit?? georgerussell63 You put the pieces in play, I moved them into checkmate ynusername you threw a shoe at me. calm down. ausgp He what???
username13 bro's collecting aussies like infinity stones
danielricciardo ?? oscarpiastri No ynusername :// landonorris 😁😁
ynusername you're cool ig 🙄
landonorris your swag style and utter disdain for me has captured my heart ynusername oh my god stop i'm blushing
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