#anyways i might actually have serious art for them soon

[luntiian]

peepee ketchup man

[emry-stars-art]

YES, PLEASE AND THANK YOU @snazzy-jas-z-is-a-fan-of !!

(Find the royal au writing masterpost here 💕)

And I’ll do an art-only version of this post for your reblogging pleasure here :) there's always always more to be said about this so I might make another post on the same topic but later

Anyway onto the juicy stuff

Okay so. Evermore and Palmetto both have glove etiquette, but in Evermore Nathaniel never had to worry about it, because he was expected to constantly be wearing gloves from first day he’s able to after getting nasty scars on his hands. Except for when he’s working or helping Nathan work. The nobles and specifically Prince Riko made it clear that they had no desire to see how ugly his hands were. (This is also why he has a habit of wearing a little of his hair down on the left side; it helped cover the scars on his cheek that ruined his pretty complexion.)

Then he comes to Palmetto and Day introduces him to a whole new set of rules. Gloves are a common and important part of dress and fashion, but people are also able to decide whether or not to wear them at any given time. The only real rules on gloves are when not to wear them; you always take off gloves to eat or drink, and to offer your hand in greeting or service.

Nathaniel gets to kind of ease into it; he’s not around anyone important enough to need to offer proper greeting or help, so mostly he takes his gloves off to eat in the servants quarters, where he doesn’t deal with more than curious glances. There’s a lingering fear of letting anyone important see his hands, no matter what Day says to assure him otherwise.

Then Nathaniel becomes the prince’s guard. Nothing changes for a while - the prince has always been more self-sufficient than most - until one day Nathaniel sees the prince eyeing the fall from his horse. (Really Andrew is trying to get up the courage to dismount, because even if the fall isn’t actually an issue for him, his fear of heights sometimes catches up to him when dismounting horses.) Nathaniel understands by now that he’s allowed and expected to help, so he reaches out - and remembers. He’s also acutely aware that the prince hasn’t yet seen his hands, then also also acutely aware of how serious Day was about the proper etiquette, and slips off his glove. The prince gives his hand a curious look, but accepts the help and all but crushes Nathaniel’s hand in his as he finally makes the fall. Even on the ground, though, he doesn’t let go quickly. Instead, the prince’s thumb brushes once across the back of Abram’s hand and he turns his hold, pulling Nathaniel’s hand up to examine it. The only thing keeping Nathaniel in place is the bone-deep instinct that he isn’t to deny anyone, especially a prince. Maybe the prince would decide he didn’t actually want to see Nathaniel’s hands and Nathaniel could go back to wearing his gloves with little more than a strike to the cheek for making the prince look at them.

But the prince does no such thing. He drops Nathaniel’s hand and continues on as normal. Nathaniel does his best to do the same, but that’s probably the first kind skin to skin contact he’s had in years. He isn’t recovering as quickly as he imagines he should.

(Meanwhile Andrew was NOT about to let an opportunity to hold Nathaniel’s hand slip like that, and he finds that he doesn’t mind the roughness. Most other guards were pulled from a much more privileged crowd - usually who had some callouses or scratches at most. Nathaniel’s hands show Andrew that this one isn’t all bark and no bite. Andrew… really likes them.)

Gradually, Nathaniel (likely soon or now Abram) gets used to taking off his gloves. He doesn’t without reason, it takes him a while not to feel naked without them, but it only takes a few more instances for him to realize that the prince truly doesn’t mind his scars. Helping the prince from his horse becomes easy habit (GS isn’t necessarily tall, but neither is Andrew. No step stool = Abram’s help).

Maybe there’s even a few times Abram is completely gloveless when he’s around only Day or the prince. He finds himself hiding his hands subconsciously when he’s not thinking about it, but he’s never once told to cover up.

Then Abram is kidnapped, taken back to Evermore. All the same rules are enforced and more. In this case, gloves aren’t all that different or upsetting. That much is okay.

It’s when he gets back that things change. Since he’s blind for a while, he’s relying much more on touch and hearing. It’s also a good tactile reminder; if he were still in Evermore, he would never be bare handed. This is when he truly gets used to not wearing gloves. (During this time he’s also touched more gently and more often than ever in his life. Others’ bare hands on his naked skin to care for scars and rashes and fever, first Day and medics and then Day and Prince Andrew. Abram finally, finally realizes that this is what he’d been missing. He actually finds himself calmed and cared for in being touched.)

Even when his sight returns, Abram only wears gloves out of doors or to formal events. Slowly and so, so carefully, Andrew finds more small reasons to touch Abram’s hands, and Abram always finds rationalization to accept. Then Abram even leaves his gloves in his saddlebags or pockets when they go out.

Winter hits. Abram has very few burn scars on his hands, but even the simple knife scars can seize and ache in cold weather. By now Andrew is very attentive to Abram’s pain or discomfort, so he notices. Abram’s hands hurt.

So Andrew buys him new gloves, lined with soft, warm fur. Abram is both pleased and disappointed - pleased because any gift from Andrew is a good gift, and disappointed because the prince expects him to wear gloves again. But the first time Andrew sees Abram wearing them indoors, he says easily, “They’re to keep your hands from the cold. Wear them only as much as you need.” (Because, again; he’s not going to admit it, but he loves Abram’s hands.)

It probably takes a long time for Abram to get accustomed to much more touch. He likes holding the prince’s hand, he’s used to that this far into their courting, but anywhere else with anything more than clinical intent - sometimes including with clinical intent - he gets overwhelmed very easily.

Andrew is careful with him. Like we mentioned in the last post, Andrew’s had about six to eight years longer to get readjusted to wanting and touching; Abram is essentially starting fresh. It’s a lot for him to handle.

(Don’t worry, though, I promise they figure it out. Just like they always do, in every universe, for all of our mental health.)

[kirby-the-gorb]

reply roundup!

I've done basically nothing but lay down and be exhausted since kirb2k over 2 months ago, but I did at least get the kirbox orders fulfilled. I have an immunology appointment in another 2 1/2 months and maybe they might do something to help me feel better. (it's a bad time. I know it seems to be most of what I talk about, but it is kind of all-consuming. even this roundup wore me out.)

also there are sometimes comments that make me smile but I don't have anything to add to them so I just read them and smile and don't put them in the roundups, but I promise I do see them all, like the many yeehaws (and yes haws and heehaws) for [cowboy kirb] <3

on [the last roundup] @hive-heart said: Hope things get better, kirby guy 💕 thanks for the reply :) also yeah! Sitting by the window during a storm is quite nice

they haven't lol, but thank you!

on [kirb2k] @ceylonsilvergirl said: HAPPY Y2K EVERYBODY!! I am joke, but it did give me serious “turn of the century’’ vibes. oof… that sentence hit me like I drank out of the wrong grail

that was intentional, that's also why we started with the macarena in the 1990s :>

on [errands] @crypptiid said: ME! MY ROLLATOR IS BLUE AND EVERUTHING @sunflowerinthemidst said: oh look it's me only my walker is hot pink 1😅😂

nice! I should really repaint mine if I'm ever feeling well enough lol

on [the last roundup] @gudetamalover said: :O!!! I’ve been noticed! My surgery went very well btw, thank you! [details removed for privacy.] I love your art so much btw, it brings me and my mom so much joy! I love this little pink dude, he’s got a permanent place in my heart ❤️ 

man that sounds rough, good thing it got ironed out quickly! and I'm glad it brings you both joy <3

on [errands] @pilcherthegreat said: oooo might add this one to my Kirby brigade tattoo 👀

oh hell yeah that sounds so cool! (for anyone else wondering, tattoos on your own body count as personal use and are totally fine by me!)

on [screaming] @persimmonlions said: i always forget how much i do not like the chaotic cacophony of a crowd until i am in a mall, like ‘oh yeah i DO get overstimulated no wonder i constantly skipped classes when i was 10’. anyway i got back home at 3 and proceeded to sleep for 6 hours

ugh omg yeah especially when you actually reblogged this 2 months ago and there were still holiday crowds and all the extra decor and stuff, the mall can be So Much.

on [macarena] @unconventionalvoidaxolotls said: holy heck, go kirby go! oh yeah this is a great first post. beautiful

ehehehe it's an honor :3

on [plushies] @the-void-is-a-disappointment said: finally getting around to reblogging this but thank you bunches for the commission!he looks so comfy and cozy i love it, he deserves this

he does! he does deserve to be so cozy and cute! (and thank you again for the support!)

on [bloodstream] @lord-chiopet said: Kirby in my blood could fix me

well he certainly wouldn't make me worse lol (fun fact: you kind of already have a bunch of kirb-likes in your blood! macrophages are a type of white blood cell that engulf and isolate or destroy foreign matter like splinters, viruses, and even tattoo ink! they're basically eating anything that tries to get into your blood that's not supposed to be there -u- )

on [fire] @jupiterlandings said: kirby I am hurrying to you with blankets and a tent and a warm meal, we may be in the wilderness kirby but we can still look at the stars even when the night is cold. and even if we can’t see them they’re still there and they’ll send the sun to look after us tomorrow. it’ll be ok kirby we’ll be ok

waah this is just such a sweet thought ;n; thank you for sharing it.

on [frown] @shapeshifterwithafez said: get well soon OP :c <3 this kirby nevertheless brings joy to my dashboard thank you!

I will not but thank you! I'm glad he brings joy regardless :)

on [worm] @thecosmickitty said: Hey fam just wanna say i love your art. Thank you for sharing (:

aww thanks!

on [mcas] @untoldsoup said: Im sorry about the health issues 😞 hope you get the treatment your looking for

I appreciate it <3 it's still gonna take a while one way or the other, but hopefully eventually someone will do something.

on [float (up)] @ceylonsilvergirl [added] a ufo to abduct him, then on [rainbow] they [added] an alien kirb to greet him, and on [freckles] they [added] the view out the ufo window :) this little saga was very cute and did cheer me up a bit, thank you <3

on [float (down)] @angst-and-fajitas said: Ah he's floatin away

the kirb's not made for helium balloons! (a reference to [this vine], and good news this upload is actually from the person that made it!)

on [sacrifice] @joekingv1 said: *sits next to baby and waits to see what happens*

I really wanna draw a short comic for this but it seems like I'm not gonna feel up to it anytime soon -n-

on [stars] @gidkog said: *GASP* at world’s ass…

oh no you're right :x that was not on purpose lol

on [earring] @roboticutie said: yay!!!! he's here again today :D thank you!!!

your enthusiasm is sweet! he will be here every day! :)

on [sora] @ducksandlemonsandbigoldfish said: Kiev Kernel Kirby I hate autocorrect

this made me laugh lol

on [sora] @canvascoloredin said: congratulations! I've played all the kingdom hearts games (except Melody of Memories, Sorry Kairi), and started when I was around six but haven't had the time to buy a console I can play 3 on. Have fun for me!

I haven't played melody of memories yet either, the rhythm for all the rhythm minigames was always so janky that I'm kind of worried about how it might play tbh. but I am having lots of fun, I'm sure it's enough for both of us!

on [tattoos] @theraphos said: high five kirby i just recently resolved to finally get myself a tattoo this year also

nice! I hope it goes well :)

@turpial-thoughts asked: hi

hello!

on [worry] @graycoin said: I hope the wait is worth it.

yeah me too :s (thanks. and for all your other sympathetic comments whenever I complain about it as well <3 )

on [float (side)] @joekingv1 said: *asks baby what they think about when they go floating*

probably very little I imagine. even less than usual lol

on [bread] @joekingv1 said: *asks baby what they got while secretly hiding some extra treats for baby, Bear and Cake*

this one is just very cute, I had to read it aloud to my partner when I saw it.

on [sea] @graycoin said: This gets across the vibe very well. I get why you'd feel that way, I think. It's understandable. I'm glad people are trying. You deserve it.

thanks. I've always had a hard time conveying like, internal stuff for some reason, so it's nice when it seems to make sense to someone else.

on [sea] @ceylonsilvergirl said: Kirbo is in the storm, tossed by the waves, threatened by lightning at any moment in the dark. not even the stars to shine through the clouds. but he’s still floating, and that has to count for something

surely it must count for something TnT <3

[sasaranurude]

Coly, the company behind Mahoyaku and Stand My Heroes, have announced a new game. Some friends and I realized that despite looking somewhat generic at first glance, it's got a handful of intriguing things going on with it! So here's a quick kind of long introduction to/my thoughts on Break My Case!

First: the website! The music on the site is really good! Go listen while you read this post!! There are 12 people listed as composers in the credits page, and it seems most every VA involved has at least a bit of experience with singing or music projects. The tone is a bit dark for a rhythm game (though I'm not ruling that out entirely), but otherwise it seems like there's gonna be a music focus. Cool! As far as other staff goes--the main scenario writer is also the writer of Stand My Heroes, and the character designer is Utako Yukihiro, who also did some work for B-Project.

The story concerns a cafe with a myriad of eccentric employees that runs an after-hours service where they solve problems. The exact nature of all this is left pretty vague.

And the draw for a game like this: The characters! Interestingly, they're divided into different departments at the cafe. What exactly those departments do isn't clear yet. As for the characters themselves--the more we looked at them, the more we liked them, lol. Quick summaries about what intrigued us about each guy. Note that these are not translations, none of us are fluent in Japanese (we all know just enough to get by with the google+jisho combo lol), and this should all be taken with a grain of salt.

The Main Office, consisting of Ai Kosaka, Yuzuru Kise, and Roka Suoh. (Names are listed in western given-family order because that's what the site uses for romanized names.) Roka is the one who owns the cafe, is the oldest character in the bunch at 36, and is that fun "mysterious guy with unknown backstory and an endless amount of weird acquaintances, who acts incompetent but might actually be hypercompetent" type of trope.

On account of the whole acting-incompetent thing, Ai and Yuzuru run the actual cafe business. And normally I won't be including fullbody character art in this post but I have to make an exception just this once.

Anyways.

Tumblr won't let me put four images in a row. Come on man. I wanna maintain the BMC's site style. Why are you mean to me. Anyways. The Simulation Department, consisting of Kou Ayato, Mao Ukyo, Akehoshi Hinomiya, and Yuragi Kanno. "Simulation" is its English name given on the site, but the Japanese given would probably read more like "relationship department".

Kou is a footloose playboy and Mao is a serious intellectual type, but apparently Kou will ask Mao to pretend to be his girlfriend so that he can avoid trouble with women. That's gay. I love that. (Mao is a guy [as far as we know], he just likes makeup--he's not the only one in that cast who does, either!) We all want Mao's outfit.

Akehoshi was a sleeper hit in the group chat, because his bio has a sentence about how he's the most normal-looking-yet-dangerous employee at the cafe, and also explicitly describes him as being like a dog, and naturally we all went crazy for the silly puppy as soon as we realized that he was in fact a silly puppy. Yuragi, on the other hand, likes cats. Such a classic for his character design trope, lmao.

The Administrative Department, consisting of Taiga Tsukimoto, Haruhi Ichikawa, and Sei Okiya. Taiga looks cool but if you look at his fullbody he's wearing awful sweatpants and apparently he cries while watching anime. I love this for him. Haruhi is a streamer because that's like an obligatory character trope now I guess. Sei was very popular in the group chat for being the single most suspicious character in the cast. What's his problem.

The Watchdog Department (or enforcement department, if you translate the jpn) consists of Shizuka Fushimi, Takeru Mikado, Soyogu Shinkai, and Shinobu Aizawa.

My friend described Shizuka as a "wet looking glasshole" and yeah. ok. unfortunately he does look like that. But it's ok he's allowed because his bio says he prefers quiet, orderly places with plants and no people and keeps to himself in common spaces but his own room is a complete mess. AKA he's an autism king. So I like him.

Takeru was obviously a hit because look at them. Takeru and Mao talk about makeup together, apparently. CUTE! Shinobu is the most fashionable guy in the cast and his bio says he has a few screws loose, which is amazing. Good for him. I have nothing to say about Soyogu I think I forgot he existed until I was putting this post together and I only looked at these all guys a few hours ago

The Negotiation Department, with Kiho Arima, Kyoya Shido, and Riku Tateshina. I described this group as "grandma, grandpa, and Columbo" and then the group chat couldn't call any of them anything else. And I do mean grandma. Because. ok. another fullbody. Because oh my god we have to look at Kiho.

GIRL. WHAT. IS. THAT. YOU'RE WEARING A CARPET. YOU'RE WEARING A COUCH. kiho is apparently a fortune teller and my friend acted as if this excused the outfit but i DONT agree i don't think anything excuses this. WHAT IS THAAAAAT

Kyoya is an artist and Riku is a psychologist so honestly this is a really fun bunch of jobs going on in this department. Riku is described as someone who falls in love easily, and he's most interested in Ai (from the Main Office, the very first guy in this post). We couldn't tell if the implication there is that he's in love with Ai, or if he falls in love with random people and yet his true attention always drifts back to Ai. Both of these options are gay.

The ST (special tasks) Department, with Yomose Onda, Yu Nina, Kamiya, and Urara Manami.

Yu had his life saved by Tomose and has now dedicated himself to him, to the point of being ready to die for him. YOU GOTTA LOVE THAT. INCREDIBLE TROPE. UNBEATABLE. GAY AS HELL. All we know from Tomose's side is that he's "fond" of Yu. That's fine I'm sure you can learn to love him. Or learn to hate him. Whatever's more entertaining.

Kamiya has no memory, hence the singular name. I'm sure whatever's going on there is weird and interesting. Urara is the youngest character, at 20. THAT'S RIGHT. THE YOUNGEST CHARACTER IS 20. THERE ARE ZERO TEENAGERS! THE AVERAGE CHARACTER AGE IS AROUND 26. THIS SHOULDN'T BE AS NOTABLE AS IT IS BUT THAT'S GACHA GAMES FOR YOU. Anyways I like Urara because I think he looks like an angry kitty.

Anyways, that's the gist of what we know about BMC--or BreMai, if you wanna go for something closer to the jpn abbreviation--right now. More info might drop at/around Animate Girls Fest, since they seem to be giving out game beta codes there. I don't know if I'm completely sold on it just yet--coly did just have a detective-themed gacha game fail a few months ago with &0. But we're not even completely sure it is a gacha yet, or what kind of gameplay it might have otherwise, so... there's a bit of hope. Maybe it'll be a weird cool dark rhythm game! Who knows!!!

[rawrtriesagain]

Heya, found your Diakko art, and I wanted to say you’re an amazing artist, and was hoping you could answer some questions from an aspiring artist who hopes to be as good as you some day. How'd you learn to draw so well? Do you know any good online resources to help someone progressively better at art? Like videos on youtube/any online resource to learn the fundamentals of drawing? Anything you wish you knew before starting your art journey? But anyway, I hope you have a nice day!

Hi there! Just to begin this is very sweet of you to send and I'm very glad you like my art! I still have a ton to learn though and I truthfully don't think I draw all that well, but its very nice to know that someone's interested in what I've done to at least get to where I am now. I will warn I may not be the best to learn fundamentals from as I am objectively not an expert artist that can whip out the most jaw dropping thing anyone's ever seen (and this is not in a deprecating way, its just where I am in my stage of art), but since you are asking me directly I'll do my best to provide some help!

This might get long so I'll write everything under a Read More haha

I'm not entirely sure where you are in your stage as an artist (as some people start from the very ground up of learning how to draw a line, and that's completely ok), but growing up I did some doodles here and there which kind of set me up for what would become my art blog at @rawrroarart and now here once I wanted to take doing art more seriously.

I think at early early stages someone should just draw literally anything, even if its stick figures and the like so that your hand just gets used to general shapes and lines. A pretty key thing would be drawing against references (And this doesn't at all change in the later stages of art skill) like... if there's a banana in front of you, can you draw the banana?

Once you got that down pat, its time to start looking at guides especially to start learning how to draw human faces and the like. For me personally I was never a fan of realism and I'm still not so young me was subject to those "hoW to DraW animE" books which... shaped who i am as a person but i wouldnt recommend them for art lmaOO. if I were to start from the beginning and I was serious about drawing well, I probably would have forced myself to learning how to draw actual humans and bodies. Once you're able to draw and understand the human shape, it should be easier to stylize it to your liking (like anime aha). I'm p much talking out of my ass rn since I of course didnt do this, but I'm sure I'd have learned a lot faster if I did so.

Anyway I dug up some old ass embarrassing art from my personal blog so you can see where I started before becoming more serious about improving myself.

This is from like 2015 and I pretty much quit drawing right after this LOL

this was like where I peaked until 2020 when I started @rawrroarart heres me begging ppl to join my new blog:

From then on I've pretty much posted every single thing I've drawn on that blog to see my progress. Here's the last page of my blog if you're interested so you can see where I started and then just go backwards to see where I am now https://rawrroarart.tumblr.com/page/26

Anyway I was doing stuff like this against references from straight from google (looking up "snake"):

and then.. heres my first diana and the reference it was based off of

do note that this art took me a god awful amount of time to do still AND I copy and pasted half the face instead of forcing myself to learn properly and draw both sides. I know people have their opinions regarding the copy/paste abilities of digital art and I truthfully do not care what you do unless you're using AI, but for me personally pretty soon after this I decided I wanted to learn how to draw everything myself, even if it meant choosing to struggle just so I could learn. Of course since I became a digital artist, I have so many other tools I use while drawing and its such a gift, but even today I feel it may be detrimental to my growth haha but ive decided im pretty much only going to be a digital artist so, whatever, undo button has saved my ass so many times. If you're a digital artist, its just up to you really and how you measure your level of success.

Anyway if you follow along my art blog you can kind of see where my art started to get more refined, but anyway a big thing I want to touch on is References! Almost every single art I've done has had a reference one way or another. For example I have many pictures in my camera roll of my own hand in different angles, and when drawing clothes I try to get references of fabric and folds and the like. If I find a cool pose, I also will try to reference it since I still don't know shit about anatomy, and I used to reference heads and head angles until I got familiar with the general structure that I'm able to draw it from my thoughts (sometimes I'll still need a reference though, like trying to figure out how to draw someone looking straight up). My art is usually a mash up of all these different references that I put together.

In the early stages of my art I was looking for references from google like looking up something like "rolling on the floor" or something, and you'll find some good stuff here and there regarding poses. Something I noticed though was that a lot of the top google images were usually very... stiff and if its something drawn instead of a real person, its probably really stylized and not particularly helpful (to me). like id look up "anime eye" or something and I just think everything at the top is not something I wanna reference or draw lol

This is where pinterest comes in. there are a ton a ton of references and artstyles and guides from other fellow artists that help break down the human body into more simple shapes. for example these are some of my pins from back in my Assassins Creed Odyssey AU days:

General shapes and clear lines of movement and how different artist handle "movement" in general. Though I didn't end up drawing from these since I dropped Odyssey AU around the same time LMAO but if I did its the same process of studying how the body actually works here and trying it out myself. Then I'd look up something like "Assassins Creed Odyssey Armor" on google and slap on the clothes onto the naked body

Anyway sorry this is very anecdotal of course and I'm just blabbering on. But to keep things short and you are very free to keep asking questions, honestly I only really got better because I kept drawing what I wanted to draw. I really like Diana so I just kept drawing Diana lmao and I don't think I could draw any other character half as well (Akko gets a pass since I sometimes draw her too). If I was more serious about doing art though I think the number one thing I wish I did and I still wish I would start doing now if I wasn't a bum would be to practice drawing poses until I can form my own poses without needing a reference immediately.

I would ideally spend some time every single day on sites like these:

Maybe one day when I get insane about a fandom again I'll be back to do so, but at least for now I guess I don't have the drive to keep improving anymore.

As for picking an art style, honestly... just "steal" random things from artists you like lmao. artists are inspirations for other artists, thats just how it is. Obvi I don't mean trace someone's art and call it your own or anything like that like please don't do that, but if someones coloring style for example is rly nice to you, try it out yourself. If someone draws their characters hair really cool, try that out yourself. Over time you really just end up developing your own style even if it did start by being inspired by someone else. My sketchy/messy style is because idk how to do lineart

I used to be a hater for when artists would say things like "just practice" because it'd mean like absolutely nothing to me, but it really does just come down to practice lol. I'm not a particularly good artist in the sense that I could draw anything, but I am a good diakko artist because thats all I've drawn for the past 3 years (give or take given my months long hiatus every year lmao). If someone handed me a piece of paper and was like "draw ur mom" id probs just cry but if someone was like "draw diana cavendish" id be like bet

One thing to keep in mind that still gets to me to this day is to be ok with failing. Sometimes my art is straight garbage, and that's ok. Sometimes I get frustrated and cry when I can't get an eye right, and that's ok. I've scribbled, deleted, and restarted many art pieces until I deemed it ok to post, and even then I'll still eventually see them with disgust, and that's ok! I like to look at my very old art and compare it to what I can do now (even if I don't even like my art of the 'now') and I just think to myself, "hey I actually am improving!" and that lets me know that if I keep at it, one day I'll get to where I want to be. I think its nice to keep a log of all of your art (if you aren't already doing so) just to do exactly that

Just keep pushing my dude! I'm sure just based on you asking me this you're already on track to be a really good artist down the line, but you'll just need to be patient is all and know its not an overnight thing. Every single thing in your day to day is a potential inspiration for art, its just up to you what you decide to do with it :)

Hopefully this answers at least some of your questions! Feel free to ask any more and I'd be happy to ramble for a good hour haha

tl;dr: me like diakko, me draw diakko

[arcplaysgames]

Me like "WOW THAT'S SO PRETTY, YUSUKE YOU'RE SO TALENTED" until we go to the art exhibition, which goes like

yusuke man psst hey uhhhh do you want a hand

Next time, we FINALLY GET TO GO ON THE LAKE BOATS YESSSSSSSS /claps

Reverie has to row so Yusuke can focus on his sketching. He spots another set of people in an adjacent boat and pegs them as a blooming romantic couple and starts sketching them.

Y U S U K E!!!!!

lmao it turns out they are not a couple, they are brother and sister and are Max Embarrassed at being thought of as otherwise.

We might need to get you a coach on the subject, are you any good at skating? There's this guy, Viktor Nikiforov who might be able to assist you.

I mean I always feel anguish in a church so do you wanna try a portrait of me?

But Yusuke's latest idea is to sketch Jesus in anguish on the cross, and Reverie is gonna be his model.

GOD, CAN'T HAVE SHIT IN DETROIT

also lmao i am so amused by how bossy Yusuke is, I am serious that I hope the fandom has had some kind of fun with this. Yusuke should boss Reverie around all the time imo.

The comedic timing on this moment is honestly great. Just that sad little pose while Yusuke watches, LMAO.

I mean holding this position is GONNA cause you so goddamn anguish, but it's also going to introduce you to what the sciatica is, boys, so maybe not, lol.

Anyway a priest rolls up like "soooo wtf y'all doin'" and then explains to Yusuke the complexities of the crucifixion and how it wasn't just about pain, blah blah.

Another swing and miss for Yusuke. Honestly, cannot wait for what comes next with him.

Okay like this is obviously a joke, but also it's a sweet moment, because Yusuke is internalizing that the thing he was missing from the anguish of jesus (and BELIEVE ME, it hurts my heathen ass to type that with a straight face) was the hope behind the event. So he pulls the pose again as he says goodnight to Reverie as a sign of "I still have hope" and Reverie doing it back feels like him saying "Me too."

IT'S GREAT, I like Yusuke. I would pay cash money to hear these lines acted out by Mercer, lemme tell you.

Also I am still doing the Temperance arc because I just gotta know what the fuck is going on here. Kawakami keeps getting weird pushy late night phone calls about money and.... seems to be on the hook for her sister's medical bills? Which. Sounds sketch? Is this an adult sister or a younger sibling she's caring for? Why would debt collection be happening like this? Is she involved in shady shit or is she trying to make it sound like she is to garner sympathy (see: money) from Reverie?

I have no idea.

There is this odd moment at the end where she drops her Perky Maid Act to show what seems like genuine concern. The mention of wanting Reverie to stay "healthy" leads me to believe that her sister really is sick, or she thinks her sister is sick?

I cannot believe that the Hot Teacher Who Is Also Maid is more compelling than some of my main party confidant arcs, but here we are.

THERE IS A FUNNY MOMENT RE: THIS where Ryuji drags Reverie out to go fishing at Ichigaya and Kawakami is there and is actually an extremely skilled fisher, and Reverie gets the option to refer to her as "Master" (as in a master fisherman)

AND SHE JUST GIVES YOU A FUCKING LOOK.

like "bitch. I see you."

gdi i think I like Kawakami, what the fuck is this game.

you're my what now

me, who removed Ryuji from the party as soon as Yusuke showed up and hasn't looked back: /sweats nervously

but yeah for real, Junpei and Yosuke you are not, Ryuji, sorry. If anyone is my right-hand, it's Ann. but really it's more like I am Morgana's right-hand, lets be SUPER REAL here.

[yoinkschief]

Hey y'all, little announcement time :)

It's nothing so serious so don't worry, haha

But I WILL be taking a break from social media for two weeks starting today. Nothing bad had happened, I promise, I'm perfectly okay :)! It's just in the last month a LOT has happened, and I'm grateful for it all

I've met a ton of cool people who are fantastic to be around, and I've had lots of fun talking and drawing with them and just interacting with them in general

And I've even had some of my idols/favorite artists follow me back which is CRAZY TO THINK ABOUT, and I know they're regular people like I am and I shouldn't get so worked up over this kind of stuff, but it's still crazy for me to think about it

Fuck it still boggles my mind that people like my stuff- I'm so not used to all this attention and that's why I'm taking a break, just cause I'm finally able to take a break from all the stress happening in my life and I deserve a bit of a break I'd say lol

I am SO GRATEFUL for all the love and support, gosh I still get giddy when I see likes or notes on my posts, to think people actually interact with my art, reminds me of when I was first starting on Instagram (my art was so bad LMAO I've improved so much) and I'd get lounge 3 likes from my friends and a couple handful from random strangers and I'd get flustered over that, it's the exact same as it is now hah

But I've never been good at handling tons of praise, I try to say thanks as much as I can to show my appreciation but I can't help but feel like I'm coming short, like I'm not properly expressing my gratitude. But that's personal butt problems I'm gonna try and work out over this break, or at least start to unravel the large yarn ball of, but just know every note or interaction I have makes me happy and I greatly appreciate all of you guys :)!!

Apologies for the long rant, I didn't mean to speak all much when it's just "TL;DR: Taking a break for two weeks cause I can't handle praise" haha, but I want y'all to know I'm fine, just don't wanna get a big head or anything lol and I also want to chill my beating heart cause it's crazy to be to think people actually enjoy shit of mine, that entire life forms with cognitive thoughts and lives of their own take time out of their day to spread a little joy my way. That's wild. It's crazy

Even that was a ramble, hah

Anyway, I'll be back soon! I'll probably only respond to DMs but I'll mainly be in Discord DMs because that's where my partner is so :) of you wanna reach me that's how

Also I might have a couple of scheduled posts for the next few days? Just so my account isn't dry? It's art I've already finished so I can instead work on the upcoming series :)

Yeah, still no name drop, lol, big debate on whether or not I would, but feel free to ask any questions about it now that the teasers are done, I'll try to answer as many as I can when I get back without spoiling anything lol

[slashscreen]

Concept art for a The Owl House-inspired open world RPG

Here's a bit of concept art for an Owl House-inspired open world RPG I've been cooking up in my free time.

I'm not ready to reveal a title or more detailed info although god knows I have a lot floating around inside of my brain. What I can say, however, is the Premise:

An undead scientist, attempting to build a teleporter, accidentally brings you, a human, into a grotesque but whimsical world of witches, centaurs, elves, dwarves, and demons- and where humans have been extinct for a thousand years. What starts as a simple quest to find a way home turns into an archipelago-trotting adventure with strange cults, otherworldly beings, dark secrets, and where all life on the planet is at stake.

So far I have been designing this game to have more of a focus on memorable characters and customization (read: dress-up) than strictly combat, which is something I have found lacking in other games. (I've realized I've been writing this sort of like a cartoon, so I'll lean into it and see where this goes. This means that yes, there will be a beach "episode". Tug on my balls one by one, Disney. I'm not sure how, but it will happen.)

I don't have any character/species concept art I am willing to show at the moment, because I'm currently redesigning the visual style of the game. Sorry! I'll share it soon, though.

Also, you get a grappling hook. So there's that.

Other general info:

Q) Does this take place in The Owl House universe? A) No. This is not an Owl House AU/Fan game. It's its own thing with its own rules and lore, but borrows heavily from the show. It might be helpful to this on this as like Vast Error and Homestuck.

Q) Is there actually a game being actively made? A) Yes! There's not much to see, though. It's still at the "Everything is a cube and a capsule" stage of development; I'm focusing on getting a solid foundation laid rather than making any visible progress, which is important for a large-scale game. I've made significant progress, though: I estimate I am about 75% done with the base gameplay elements and making it, you know, playable. For the technically inclined, I have done the following (from the perspective of someone familiar with the Skyrim Creation Kit): - Cell streaming (plugin) - Cross-cell persistence - Goal Orientated Action Planning for NPCs - Lua/Moonscript VM for programming AI and acting as the equivalent of Papyrus (Plugin/my own work) - Player like movement and stuff - Dialogue using the Yarn plugin - NPC inter-cell navigation (think exterior to interior. Very difficult.) - Granular world simulation using Unity's DOTS - Physical properties of items (Systems game stuff, like Breath of the Wild) - You can harvest plants! Holy shit - You can read books

Q) Can I play the game right now? A) Hell no. Not yet, anyway. I'll release an alpha demo at some point, though, which will include: - The Marrows (Right arm of island), the first of currently 8 Prefectures (Analogous to Skyrim's Holds), which itself contains 1 city, 3 towns, 4 regions (geographically distinct areas. Two of them are pictured in the art above) - 30 ish quests? - Representative gameplay - Introduction to the major characters and the antagonist (This world's Belos and Hunter)

Q) What kind of mood is this world going for? A) Mostly lighthearted with some serious moments.

Q) What other influences does this world have? A) Lots. - FLCL (Should be apparent in the combat) - The Elder Scrolls (duh) - Bloodborne - Amphibia - Hyper Light Drifter

If you have any questions, feel free to ask! I can't promise I will be willing to answer them, though. But then again, I am always happy to blab on and on about the world that live inside my mind.



[frenchiefitzhere]

A NON-UPDATE UPDATE:

I don't know if I'm just trying to follow Erik's example in everything /j or what, but I've had some unplanned scheduling issues with work as well as a little illness (nothing serious), so that's put a delay on everything audio & music-wise.

Redacted Fandom Virtual Choir/DAMN Alma Mater project: I plan to get the conductor tracks ready to go soon (it will definitely be this month!). With that, I will also be posting basic instructions on how to go about recording. If you're like, "Frenchie, what virtual choir project?", head on up to my master list and check it out. Or just watch the intro video. Corollary Season 2: For my audio roleplay series, I'm currently writing scripts. I'll hopefully have some episodes ready to go around the same time as the virtual choir conductor tracks. I also have some new character art from the amazing Palilious that I'll be unveiling when the new episodes go up. I actually have enough episodes written to start recording, but my voice is still not 100% (I can fake it when singing but not when speaking). In the meantime, I'm just trying to write songs, fics, and scripts. I might also try to refresh some of my older songs (lol says the girl who started writing music 14 months ago) and produce them for YouTube. Anyway, thanks to anyone who started subscribing on YouTube, shared/reblogged my stuff, etc. It's definitely more motivating when I know that people are actually listening to it. I gib you some cheese and a flower for that 🧀🌻🥰

[truly-morgan]

[WWX is oblivious]

WangXian | Mo Dao Zu Shi Modern AU 24-03-2021

[#wangxian modern AU]

So this takes place when they are still teenagers. lwj has been pining for wwx for /years/ now, but wwx is the most oblivious boy on earth. lan zhan is just one of his close friends with who he has sometimes rather intimate moments alone with him. But really they are just close friends!

Many wouldn't understand how a troublemaker like wwx could be friends with lwj who would never be caught alive breaking any rule (other maybe if wwx coaxed him into doing so). Most think it’s their mutual interest in art in general that links but jc suspect that lwj is ready to put up with wwx for other reasons, where wwx had simply decided lwj could be a good friend after many years of teasing him.

jc is even convinced that they might be secretly dating and wwx never told him or jyl. the way he always talk about lwj and is ready to stand up for him if anyone dares to criticise him gave him this impression. Why wouldn't he shut up about him if there wasn't /at least/ a little something.

So one day he tries to make him admit to it. "Anyway, how are things with lwj?". wwx looks at him confused, clearly not seeing what he was talking about. "Doesn't he have a special someone?" tried to tease jc, just knowing this special someone /as/ to be wwx.

"So you noticed too" then grin wwx, getting closer to him, "who do you think it is? my bets are on mianmian, she is pretty cute and also seems interested," he said.

then jc looks at him as if he has grown a second head, wondering whether or not wwx is fucking around with him. Where did he get the idea that he was in love with lqy? For someone who is so often with lwj he was really blind.

"Wait, no, that's not what I meant," jc said, frowning a bit, "I was talking about you and lwj".

Then it was the turn of wwx to frown, confused again. "What do you mean, me and lwj? We are just friends of course" he laugh a bit, yet realise soon jc was being serious.

"wwx, you must be kidding me right now? Are you blind? lwj is clearly in love with you!".

wwx then shakes his head, not believing him "Come on, lwj is just being really friendly, he didn't have many friends when he was young, he just shows his appreciation differently".

at this point, jc really believes that /he didn't notice/. "He lets you play with his ribbons!!" in one of their visits to the lan house, since jfm and lqr had taken the habit of having tea, he had learned what it meant. nowadays most people from the lan family were wearing a necklace made of said ribbon with the family crest as a pendant, but lwj had apparently decided to go for a more old-fashioned way like lqr, actually wearing the ribbon.

jc could only remember lwj with long hair, mostly wearing it to tie them or as decorative. He had even been shown one of their ancestor's ribbons, so he could tell the one they were wearing today was way shorter.

What he had remembered well was the tradition of not letting other people than family and partner to touch it. It had somehow stuck with him when he was younger.

wwx was also here, so he /has/ to know, he was most likely even told again by lwj when things weren't as good between them.

Yet he would often see him play with it as it was still in lwj hair, nearly threatening to untie his well-made hair. He had even /seen/ wwx wear it as his neck or wrist when the two of them were alone. He was pretty sure he had even caught glimpses of lwj being one to put it on.

Someone who followed the rule like lwj wouldn't just let anyone play with this ribbon. jc had seen him legitimately get angry when people were insisting on touching it or seeing it more up close. Clearly, he wouldn't have let wwx play with it and /wear it/ if he didn't mean that much to him.

yet after nearly half an hour of trying to convince him jc gave up, not believing how oblivious wwx was.

He ended up talking to lwj, directly asking him if he and wwx were going out. He still had some doubt that he was being fucked with.

Yet all he received was a straight forward "no", lwj admitting he never told wwx because he didn't believe he would reciprocate his feeling, but that he was good with simply being a friend, it was better than nothing.

and this is when jc decided that despite both being considered really smart, they are also both really dumb. Where was this "wwx wouldn't feel the same" coming from? He had never seen his brother act this way with anyone else. Yes, he did have crushes over the years, yet he would always come back to "lan zhan! lan zhan!".

So jc decided to try and put them together, lwj trying to stop him despite not being able to kill off the sudden motivation in the young man. Yet, jc soon realise that fair means won't lead him anywhere, so he manages to rope lwj into following his plan to /show him/ that wwx does feel the same, at least in a way. Sure his convincing isn't totally fair, as he plays on lwj pining for his brother and some technic wwx usually uses. He didn't believe it would work, as he obviously is not wwx, but it still works after some time.

His plan is simply to have lwj divert some of his attention to a girl, anyone would do (except jyl obv), as long as he gives the impression that he does get friendlier to her. jc plays the other part where he sneaks in the idea that lwj is probably going to date her.

at first, wwx is all in for it, then denies it "How could lwj have time for dating? he's always studying!" to look a bit jealous of her. yet he still refuses to accept that he might like lwj more than he first thought.

Then comes the time for graduation and wwx is hit with the reality that he will most likely not be able to see lwj as often as he does, and that he will be far away and probably living thing he won't know and suddenly he feels /panicked/. What will happen to them if lwj starts dating someone? Why does the idea make him want to cry? It's not like he was in lo-

Oh.

And then that's how he realises it, that he /is/ in love with lwj, but just never admitted it to himself.

This is at that moment that he runs out of his house, ignoring the rain as he runs to take the subway, takes the bus and runs the rest of the way to the lan residence.

By chance this is lwj opening to him, suddenly confused and worried to find wwx soaking wet-

because of the rain, nearly shaking because he was getting cold. Yet he doesn't have the time to ask what he was thinking, because wwx nearly yells "Lan zhan I love you, go out with me!".

for an instant lwj stops working, trying to process what he has just been told. Was wwx really confessing to him? One look at the nervous and drenched wwx tells him this isn't another one of his jokes, he would probably not joke about this.

he softly calls his name, putting their forehead together. "of course I will" he answer with a smile.

This is all wwx needs to then kiss him, arm thrown around his neck to pull him closer, forgetting for a moment that he was soaking wet.

He ignored lxc coming from a room asking what was the yelling about, only to turn back and bloc lqr way and sight, saying that it was just wwx.

lwj soon after drags him inside, telling him in needs to change clothes before he gets sick. wwx obliges, teasing him by saying it has to be his clothes or he won't wear them, delighted at the blush he sees on lwj ears.

turns out the universities they wanted to go to are close to one another, so they could theoretically find a place together somewhere between the two.

wwx just knows he will never hear the ends of it when jc hears about his rather sudden confession and how he /might/ have loved lwj all this time. he's just not ready to let jc smugly reminds him how he had been right all this time about wwx just being very much in love with lwj, but too stupid to even notice it (or even notice the clear evidence that lwj was in love with him, even though he was the closest friend he had).

Original

[inventors-fair]

Extra Turns: Runners-Up ~

Our runners-up this week are @hiygamer, @nine-effing-hells and @spooky-bard!

@hiygamer​ — Raging Maelstrom

Would mono-red players like this? For sure. Would they play it? Not my business. I think the Izzet Phoenix-like body does it good! It’s strong enough to be repeatable in the right shell and I’m sure there would be ways to cheese it out—like, an enchantment that pinged everyone at upkeep or something. I like how it’s specifically damage. Life loss getting half-phased-out shows where Magic is going, making these kinds of effects more, well, effective. Not bad overall.

I don’t think we need to worry about flavor on this one. It’s not the strongest contender for emotional impact in the world, but it doesn’t want to be and it doesn’t have to be. It’s a storm and it smacks things! No further questions. Big, fast, and a decent enough card to make work in constructed; I don’t think it would see much draft play unless someone’s doing a lot of work to make burn happen.

NOTES: Trample comes before haste in almost every instance, including Ball Lightning, of which this card has direct lineage. C’mon!

~

@nine-effing-hells​ — Chimera of Brief Insights

Well this is a weird little rapscallion, innit. I’m uncertain if a three-color Theros set will coem to fruition, and then I remember that Neon Dynasty had a cycle of three-color legends in an ostensibly two-color archetypical format, and I scratch my head, and then I sigh because I miss drafting Kamigawa and getting my rear end handed to me. Anyway, this card. It’s good! It’s really good, actually, if you can land it. For four mana, you’re not getting the absolute most for your body, but you’re getting good enough card advantage to probably make it work. Great idea making it optional, allowing you to get into a position of hand-dumping when you need it rather than when it’s a mistake.

I would have loved to see some art direction, but I can imagine the sun-dappled beast leaping across the polis, sowing inspiration and chaos in equal measure, and that’s really cool. The image of a chimera on Theros with the three abilities of  “I’m coming for you!” “I’m gonna run you over,” and “it’s hard to stop an errant thought” is interesting. You could have benefitted from flavor text as well. ‘As fast as lightning and twice as bright.’ That’s a first draft, but you get the picture.

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@spooky-bard​ — Safehold Warmaster

I want this card to be hybrid, and I want it to be without flavor text. Yeah, I’m serious. The rest of this card’s really damn good! The timing especially is the kind of weirdness that I liked; I’m noticing that you were one of the few cards that referenced opponents’ turns as triggers, and that’s a good way to prepare for the turn, which feels like it’s got that specific flavor aspect of its own. I appreciate that. Shadowmoor elves are... Well, I don’t have the time to research them, but they’re really cool, and I like the darkly non-humorous juxtaposition you got here.

Getting the creatures back and then throwing counters on them is pretty awesome, and the fact that it can’t buff itself is probably for the best. I like the higher toughness over power to keep it out of range of your opponents 1-3 drop creatures and burn spells, probably. The fact that it might be at the top of your curve and can recur the aggro cards with an additional mana use is well-designed. Good show.

Commentary as soon as I get back. Be well, folks. `- @abelzumi​

[radioactivebowtie]

Hey

Uh hi this is Finn here, so I know a lot of people have a lot of things to say. I’ve been reading as many people’s mourning thoughts as I can, but I also knew I would have a lot to say- I don’t even know if I’ll be able to say it all here! I might find some more words to say right after I post this as I usually do.

Inside Job was a silly little show I found last January and fell in love with. It was full of jokes and serious issues as well as some beautiful animation and there was no way I was leaving it alone anytime soon. I made a sona and fought my way through making lore that I could adore and make as show-accurate as possible.

It was hyper fixation at first sight.

After filling a literal folder within my google docs of character interactions and lore and telling as many of my friends about and watching it and re-watching it with them. I reignited my love for tumblr. I ate so much content up the moment that I knew it existed that I tried joining in!

I remember posting Finn on here and then writing character interactions with people sonas while never sharing them because I was so scared that it would be weird. I interacted with Outis first, Willie was cute and had so many fun things I could do it would go great! (I sent it to him and ran away and then like screamed when he said he liked it)

The next time I talked to someone it went better I’d say even if I was equally as terrified. Delaney, Inside Job brought me Delaney. I will never be able to thank them enough for that. Delaney is one of if not my best friends. She wrote me things when I was sad we talked daily despite having met like days before and have continued to do so up till now. She means so fucking much to me, she’s my hot fictional mom! My mon amour! My literal ride or die bestie. If I could say anything to the people of inside job I would tell them how thankful I am for letting me meet Laney.

They also brought me to the shadow council. Well the shadow council of tumblr. A group of people who I think I would kill for? They make me laugh and smile and SOMETIMES CRY BECAUSE I THEY WRITE AND DRAW SOME SAD SHIT SOMETIMES but I love them anyway. They are silly, they make some damn good art and writing and they are some of my most cherished friends. I’ve never been so happy to have friends who share my interests and support me and are so fucking cool. Thank you for accepting me into your ranks and promoting me from assistant to leader with you guys. I love you so much I will never be able to fully explain it.

A lot of people have talked about how the show helped with their mental health, it helped them through rough times and I cannot thank them enough for those same reasons. This was my comfort show, my go to. I talked about it non stop and watched it whenever I was sad, wrote and read about it when I was sad. 

I used JR to comfort myself, I didn’t expect him being my dad to become more than a joke. Something that I thought would just make for funny circumstances yknow? But this stupid old crime commiting idiot became so comforting to me- I used him to cope. He wasn’t always written the most canonically but that was never the point. I made him mean something to me. He still and will always be my dad. He will be broken out of jail to me and if I can’t then I will bring him cupcakes to eat during visitation hours.

Reagan actually helped me start looking into an autism diagnosis? I know her having autism isn’t like an uncommon thought amoungst people watching the show but it helped me feel kind of seen. I related to her in a lot of ways and was genuinely moved by her story as well as continually laughing at any joke that she made.

Andre might be the toughest for me to let go of, JR might edge him out but I think Andre might be a close second. This stupid man means so much to me- (he’s so smart I am deflecting don’t let me lie to you) at first I was so ready to just dismiss him as some funny side character. But they wrote him so well- and then they gave us the wedding episode and he hit home. He hit so fucking close to home. He had depth and it hit so close to home that it made me fall for him hook line and sinker. He was funny but he had depth and I felt like he would get me? Like sure we would have a bunch of different experiences but we could help each other out. I’ll miss him so much.

I want to thank inside job for everything, they gave me so much to look forward to and be happy about. It made me feel creative and I was so happy write and draw and figure out how to make my silly little character be in this interesting and wonderful world. Thank you to the wonderful crew for making such an amazing show that brought so many of us together.

and once again, Fuck you Netflix.

[causticsunshine]

Heyy whatcha been getting into lately? Alternatively, what have you been enjoying being a hater of lately?

okay first hello i love how this question is phrased hajdks very on brand for me and two uhhh oh boy a lot of stuff tbh!

so to preface. over the years i’ve had many phases where i get out of some irl person based media (usually 1d or some random tv show) and back into animated series, then the inverse happens, the cycle repeats, etc.? so i’m currently back into animated stuff as well as fully leaning into kpop everywhere instead of what i was doing before, where i was trying to limit my posting in general or limiting it to twitter under the guise of trying to seem slightly Normal™️ but now i’m fully leaning into whatever makes me happy and inspired and if that makes me annoying so be it

anyway—in terms of animated shows i’ve been watching one piece for almost a year now as for some reason i couldn’t get into it when i was younger and then was deterred by the series length, but i’m really enjoying it! i’m about to start the long ring long island arc if that means anything to anyone lol. i’ve also been watching and loooving dungeon meshi, and i’m currently reading it as well! i tried reading it a few years ago and stopped a few chapters in (idr why) but now i’m hooked and am struggling to pace myself…. i might try and do some fanart soon 👀

with kpop mmmm i’ve actually been a casual fan since like 2010 (listened to some 2008-2009 but it was mostly early shinee and random kpop compilations on youtube lmao) but have gotten in and out of it several times? now though i’ve been pretty Involved consistently since 2019/2020, although the groups i follow the closest are ateez, oneus and nct (127)!

i saw oneus in seattle last month after missing them twice and had such a good time (i still haven’t finished sorting my pictures though and haven’t posted like. any oops) and i am tryyyying (like. praying on my hands and knees lighting candles talking to the moon levels level trying) to get my hands on VIP1 tickets for ateez in tacoma and tickets go live next week so wish me luck as i will definitely need it with how pricey it’s likely to be… but also i will proudly commit heinous deplorable acts for ateez barricade sooo either way i’m determined to get my way? aka: i want and need my own y/n moment ahfksksn

also to clarify i’m not a shipper or whatever when it comes to kpop! i may enjoy the odd fic or will cringe read things with my friends but it’s nothing like HL for me; it’s a very different dynamic overall and i don’t get those kinda vibes in a serious way from any groups i follow? although with ateez… i can kinda see why they attract some of those kinds of fans i’m ngl

and on the side, i’ve actually been working on original content again! the one group of ocs i tend to pick up and put down has been temporarily sidelined for a pair i dumped a few years back but am currently reworking and actually have a story for now! idk if i’ll do anything proper with said story as comics are exhausting so rn i’m mostly word-vomming into docs and trying to nail down my character designs. when i’ve got things worth sharing though i do plan to share here as well, if anyone would be interested 👉👈

alternately when it comes to my haterism… i still greatly dislike and am exhausted with miss swiftie for numerous reasons and my god my art twitter is swathed in h*zbin h*tel content?? like actually plagued?? otherwise though there are just things i wish i saw less because i’m simply just not interested right now (aka 1d stuff) or in general and don’t want to start disliking those things because i’m seeing them too much

ok def rambled more than i meant to oopsie doopsie but yeah uhh that’s kinda it! anon i hope you are well and enjoying yourself in whatever you are doing rn 💕 and feel free to share if you feel so inclined to!

[drewoclock]

Dear 24-Year-Old Drew

Originally published September 1st, 2018

It’s me: Drew from eighth grade.  Do you remember me?  I really hope you do because if not, something seriously traumatic must have happened to you.  I hope you weren’t made brain dead in a horse accident or something.  You stay away from horses, you hear?

Anyways, it’s crazy to think that it’s been eleven years, huh?  Wow.  You’re definetely not going through puberty at this point (phew!)  I don’t have my magic future seeing goggle with me today and I promise I’ll bring them next time but for now I’m just gonna have to guess what you must be like.

Now I know that right now I’m kind of on the small side, but as you know I’ve definetely been crossing my fingers that your going to be tall and get the genes from our mom’s side of the family.  I hope you’re at least over five foot nine but if you’re five foot ten or eleven, that is really great.  That is a good attractive height.  Also, I’m sure you had braces on and off by now and you have very good teeth.  It would be really cool if you were muscular.  I think you could be.  I’m in okay shape right now and as long as I don’t get morbidly obese, I really think you just might be muscular right now.

I dunno if you’re married but I wouldn’t be upset if you are.  I love my girlfriend right now and if we get married (which I would be super okay with) then we would probably be married by now, you know?  So tell me if your’re still with our girlfriend (or wife!)  I kinda don’t even wanna think about what it would be like if we weren’t’ still dating because that’s just...really sad.  But okay, if for some reaosn something happens, I hope that you’ve at least had a lot of girlfriends, or that you have another girlfriend you’ve been dating for a long time.  I mean, at this point I think you should be in a serious relationship with someone super hot.

Oh yeah, and I guess I should ask if we still like the same kinda girls.  We probably do.

It’s hard to even know where you would be at right now but I would have to guess you’re in California doing all kinds of art.  By now it’s been over a decade and you have to be a total master at all the art stuff you do.  You must be an amazing painter, and an expert filmmaker, and a total pro at acting.  And I hope you learned another isntrument besides the viola, preferbly a whole bunch of them, and it’d be so cool if you had a band to make all the music we’ve had in our head, especially this year!  I bet you wrote a lot more music since though.  You’ve probably acted in big movies.  I dunno if you’re a super celebrity that’s crazy famous yet but I really really think you could be so I really hope you’ve starred in at least one big movie by now, and of course I hope you’ve made at least one of the movies we’ve wanted to make, if not more.  I know we have something really special and I know you’re gonna be really big by now.  (Also you might still be in college getting your masters but I know you can handle all of that by now.)

I just thought of this actually but what about all the friends I have now!  Because you’re in California so Dan and Steve are gonna be really far away.  But I bet they can move with you.  Steve can do baseball in California and Dan can be a history teacher in California.  We’re a super trio so we have to make sure we stick together.  There’s no way we’re not.  My family’s probably still in the house in Sumerset which is fine.  I’ll see them on holidays and stuff.  I don’t know what my sister’s gonna be up to.  Its gonna be weird seeing mom and dad ten years older but that’s how life works and stuff.  It’s not like they’re gonna die any time soon but they’re definetely gonna be older.  I bet they’re finally gonna be proud now that your art is all famous.

I dunno what’s gonna happen with the other friends you have in school right now but I like to think that if they’re really good friends, they’re gonna be near you.  Man what else?  You probably live in a nice place.  There’s no way you’re a dad yet because that’d be crazy but maybe you are!!  Is YouTube still around?  Right now I’m trying really hard to get my parents to let me have a YouTube channel and I think its gonna happen but its weird thinking about how it might not even exist eleven years into the future.  Please tell me all this fighting is worth it.  Though I guess it doesn’t even matter if you’re making movies.

But anyways, to wrap this up because I know you’ve got stuff to do, I really just hope you’re happy.  I know that is the cheesiest thing to say in the entire world and its making eighth grade me look like an extreme loser but come on Drew, it’s important.  I know right now I’m doing pretty good, at least right this moment.  It’s definetely gonna be the best year of middle school.  But if I’m being honest I feel like a real nobody more than I wish I did.  I have friends but I’m weird, and I know I’m weird, and I don’t know.  I don’t want to change, you know?  I like me.  I think that by now people have to know how cool and talented you are and not think you’re weird.  I know it!  And I know you’re even nicer than me, and definetely smarter, and definetely definetely better looking hahaha.  And you probably aren’t shy at all and I bet you have way more friends and throw parties and stuff and you’re really popular.  But yeah, I hope everyone looks at you and thinks “what a really good guy.”  And I hope you’re really happy and all that.  Because we deserve it.

All right, I put off all my homework to write this like a total moron and I need to get back to it, assuming I don’t get distracting by AIM again (which is definetely going to happen.)  Is AIM still around?  Okay that’s enough.  See ya in eleven years, dude.

Yours literally,

~ Drew

[hekkoto]

Hi guys, Im back :> Sorry for disappearing without word for so long but last months were HELL! But Im finally getting better! It will probably few multiple months for me to be really okay but improvement is huge already ^^

Thank you for being here, for all your support <3 I love ya guys

Im able to create again and I have so many ideas! I wanted be really back with Inktober pieces but welp, I drew 2, I gonna post them soon but whatever, I wil be posting regularly again :>

My health is problematic, I might be getting disabled status at some point but Im not giving up! Cause of this Im unable to have 'normal job' but I will do my best to become full time artist and YTuber :> 

I think I will be starting gofundme campaign soon cause right now we have only my husband's income and my parents pay for medical stuff so its quite hard [especially  thanks to fucking inflation]. Idea is that I would make campaign to be  able to 'survive for one year and buy stuff which would help me become  full time creator'. Which would be money for my health related stuff,  food [better, more healthy one would be super helpful], some stuff for  art/work related things [like better graphic display and new graphic  card, sadly its very visible for me it aged a lot ;-;], swimming pool  entry [one of few things Im actually able to do and it helps a lot with  my pain], starting own business payments. I need to see how this site  works exactly and then write it in way people will understand me and my  situation. Im aware I cant go back to 'normal  job' - my body doesnt want me to go out so much, be around people so  much and Im unable to do most of stuff anyway. Both my physical and  mental state suffers a lot from doing normal life like other people  do. My illnesses and fact Im unable to function like others makes me actually disabled for normal people standards.  We will see how it will work, they are known to not treat less visible illnesses serious. I often hate that people cant see my pain, I would  love to be able give people 5 minutes of sensation of being myself, I  feel this would make people treat me better ;p

Anyway, stay tuned for my new uploads, I love ya guys<3

[galahartbroken]

Alright. Fine. I'll throw my hat into the ring because I'm bystanding seeing suicide bait again as usual. I don't want to talk to people right now because nothing has EVER been simple.

I know what happened. I'm willing to blow up any last bridge I had. And I know my name isn't on this blog. This used to be a secret blog.

You know what I did? I was a teenager a long time ago and I became obsessed with a musician who used fake bisexuality to sell records, pushed a white supremacist idiocy (complete with neonazi stage character!) in the 1970s, claimed he was an aryan prince, and worse. I had a gf at the time who convinced me rape jokes were hilarious and groped me during school. She claimed to have multiple personalities and that some wanted to harm me and some wanted to rape me. She might even still be on mweor. I don't know because fuck everyone who doesn't already know that I don't hate them. But there you go. I'm a bad person and should have killed myself, you're right.

You're never going to have a full purge. Because the community full on went "I can excuse pedophilia but I draw the line at art theft" about Quaint.

Jessi got attacked by antisemitic bastards on the general boards before going on some sort of breakdown, getting attacked on tumblr, and then deciding to become a rad/fem. Sometimes there is no right side in a situation, but a LOT of you fuckers were defending the antisemitic attacks on the general board, so stop fucking pretending you're all holy.

A certain someone went on a suicide bait rampage once and cited trauma for justification as to why they should be allowed to send such bait. Said person also tried to yank me into a witchhunt over a salt blog and I am so very sorry to say that I fell for it, and it has ruined a friendship I had had for a long time with someone who helped me past an incident with a creep on mweor who very well could have been grooming me (I realized this after the creep was banned), as I was a minor at the time.

It was never ever ever a matter of trying to have a good community. It never was. From the beginning it was "we don't like everyone new coming in, make it invite only again Kah please" BEFORE THERE WERE 10K USERS. It never was a welcoming community. So if you're going to honestly try sending anons suggesting people kill themselves you ask yourself where you stood when a pedophile said they wanted to go into high school counseling or when there were nazi sympathizers ACTUALLY POSTING PRO-EUGENICS ON THE FUCKING GENERAL TALK BOARD. Oh wait. I'm sure a lot of you were the ones going "oh it's just an opinion, we have freedom of speech". Because it only ever was a popularity contest on mweor. Fuck all of you. Stop suicide baiting, I swear to gods everywhere that you do NOT want me knowing who is doing that. Because damn straight you WILL regret it.

But if you want to try directing it at me, go ahead. It's not like I have much to live for, with all the manipulation and garbage and serious health issues that are probably going to kill me soon anyway because I can't improve my offline situation.