#anyways i wanna write so bad rn...... | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

necrophiliak · 6 months

Text

#twice dead king #oltyx #yenekh #necrons #i finished tdk reign yesterday and i fear if i get into how much i loved those two books ill end up writing an entire essay. so i wont.#loved it tho. cried a little.#also too overwhelmed at the first time im seeing a genuine appreciation and care into writing smth about what its like to be undead and its #in a series with robot skeletons not actual ones #on behalf of undead afficionados everywhere. nate crowley i owe u my unlife.#i wanna draw spoiler stuff too bt i feel like who even is blocking the spoiler tag for this. bt if someone sees and gets spoiled id feel #SO bad. SOOOOOOOOOO bad im am sooooooo glad i didnt get spoiled #AUGH anyway this is getting long #IF U LIKE UNDEAD READ TWICE DEAD KING. I DONT CARE IF UR NOT INTO 40K. GET INTO IT AND THEN READ IT.#SO PROUD TO BE A ZOMBIE RN #wh40k

125 notes · View notes

twistedappletree · 8 months

Text

I really want to write a short post-canon story about Jin Ling having nightmares from all of the trauma he’s endured, so Lan Sizhui uses his spiritual energy and their connection to guard his dreams one night and ends up guiding Jin Ling through his sleep.

Meanwhile, everything they see in Jin Ling’s dreamscape is lush and vibrant and fantastical without even a hint of anxiety or darkness, and while Jin Ling assumes the entire dream is shaped by Lan Sizhui’s influence, Lan Sizhui is only blocking out Jin Ling’s intrusive thoughts—the rest is all of the light and wonder Jin Ling’s imagination conjures on its own, a glimpse into what his dreams would be like every night if he hadn’t suffered all that he did.

#it would also give me an excuse to write something super description heavy which is literally my forte lmaoooo #I haven’t done that in so long bc most of my short stories require quick descriptions inbetween dialogue to flow as #well a short story #I already have SO MANY PRETTY THINGS IN MY HEAD #and even lsz is looking around in total awe of how rich and colorful and versatile Jin Ling’s dreams are #nothing bad happens they just explore a beautiful shifting dreamscape together and have a chance to truly relax from the waking world #anyway #fic ideas #👀👀👀👀#apple babble 🍎#zhuiling musings #not sure if I’d put a ton of romance in it maybe some light fluff like holding hands #bc I really wanna focus on the experience of the dreamscape more than anything #just have it be a cute fun little feel-good fic #bc I swear that’s what I need rn lmaoooo 😭#jin ling #lan sizhui

22 notes · View notes

narrator-kun · 10 months

Text

ok. i have an. idea transmigrator sha hualing x liu mingyan but its post-canon HEAR ME OUT OK it would. be funny

33 notes · View notes

tvrningout · 10 months

Text

good evening 👁️👁️

#i gotta bake cookies for my family and coworkers once i get home but honestly i’m excited!!#i love pfeuffernusse (?) cookies bc it’s like gingerbread cookies but x10 #i’m just also staring at the kaiya inbox call and my own inbox rn like pls pls i wanna write so bad 😭#and i know myself — i’m about to take forever with these cookies bc i get distracted so easily :’ ))#anyway i hope the day has been kind to y’all!! i’ll be here when i can 💜#get ready to ramble | ooc

7 notes · View notes

ifyourereadingthisblinktwice · 3 months

Text

i need to stop forgetting things exist the fucking second they leave my field of vision. why is is impossible for two things to occupy my mind at once especially when im tired. like. i feel like a sim. i feel like actions are being canceled and i just. move on. and completely forget what i was doing moments before. i fucking hate it

#i feel like it’s getting worse too #like its always hasn’t been great but the past few weeks have been especially bad #why can’t i remember things!! why is my short term memory sucking ass!!!!!!#like if i don’t write/type things down i loose it #making me wanna rip my hair out what the fuck is going on!!!!!#gonna start playing those phone games that improve memory or whatever #it’s either that or going to my mom for an essential oil recommendation #i know it’s probably some undiagnosed shit but im also like. i can’t keep blaming whatever is wrong with my brain because its a problem with #/me/. ya know?? like. yeah it is something with my brain. obviously. but i need to take some sort of action to fix it. and i dont know what #that action is #besides the two options i said before #or carrying a fucking notebook around and writing down everything. which is stupid also and i know won’t last a week #problem is im gonna forget about any rule i come up with since as soon as im preoccupied with something else. i’ll forget the rule #i would need a hat with the reminder on paper tapped to the hat #so it’s always dangling in front of my eyes #i don’t know what else to do at this point!!!!#it’s making me so worried about going away for college. cause yeah i did really well at community. but if i have the deteriorating memory #of a goldfish who’s constantly banging its head against the glass. how am i gonna make it through university.#i love writing essays in the tags that no one will read <3 #having a ball rn. a great time. not feeling like a waste of resources at all rn. feeling great.#if my mom doesn’t let me wear my earbuds tomorrow i think ill scream #anyways. gonna bake some blueberry lemon sweet rolls tomorrow #me rambling #i love being undiagnosed #but let’s be real #being diagnosed won’t give me anything other than more of an excuse #because i can’t go on meds with my current living situation #and i also don’t really want to go on meds because i don’t trust them #feeling silly i think ill actually post this one maybe someone has a suggestion for what to do #vent

3 notes · View notes

dutybcrne · 3 months

Text

Thinking of Kaveh with Unhinged partners again

#//By that; I mean partners who commit the Violences and deadly Chaoses #//Furthermore; said Violences being done upon other ppl bc that person is a Fighter with a side of bloodlust & destruction #//HIs every opposite in damn near every way #☆ ┆ ( .ooc. );#//So lik #//I watched a Wu of the Wa playthrough #//And I fucken LAUGH #//Now Kav is not so dumb he would be FOOLED into thinking they are innocent #//But like #//Them deffo having an on-off thing bc they still manage to worm their way into his heart time and heckin again #//Him continuing to think 'This is the LAST fucken straw; I CANNOT be with sb like his'#//They proceed to show up wounded to his window and tell him they need a quick lil hand and will be on their merry way #//Read: it takes TWOmins of Kav is grumbling & patching them up before they kiss again & Kav thinks to himself MAYBE they can behave #//Then proceeds to get disappointed again when Cy drops news he's hunting them again for Crimes #//Person is a sweetheart to him; or maybe a mischievous lil menace that pushes his buttons to hell and back; but would Never hurt him #//But he HAS to try and draw a line #//But cannot #//Bro is weak for bad boys; and he is fucken PISSED abt it #//Anyway; imma read some k4vet4ru fics I found #//Bc that's the closest to canon I'll get to this ig dkjgbtfg #//And I don't wanna write a particular ship fic rn #//Mostly bc I am already writing one rn actually #//Bc the thought came to me and it Is a bit of a heavy one #//Bc my brain is just 'Hey; you love this blorbo? Corner him'#//Make the guy feel like a prey animal in what should be the happiest time of his life #//Yup yup #//Or as I like to call it 'Why impromptu weddings are better for K4e than proper engagements; etc'#//But thas an update; anywho #//I think a s/o who is absolutely Sc4r Wu of the Waa levels of unhinged would be funny for Kav #//It would not fix him; prolly make him worse & stressed beyond fucken relief. But it would be funny. TO ME lol

2 notes · View notes

conflictedkismet · 6 months

Text

born to dm, forced to face The Horrors

#kismetthoughts #back at it again with having 90% of the post be in the tags #anyways #i have a ttrpg thing i wanna dm. but. i have No Idea what to do with it #i bad at writing </3 i writer's block </3 #its also. Not dnd. im reworking vtm's system for the mechanics stuff #so I'd wanna have a Test One Shot where i see if anyones actually interested in doing it #(bc im Making Up the Other Half of the mechanics)#before i actually Wrote character shit #+ i dont wanna. Ask ppl if theyre interested & what characters they wanna make #BEFORE i even have anything written for it #(and i dont have an open slot in my schedule for it rn. so. it would Be Awhile & i dont wanna Never Deliver)#tldr: WOE IS ME

3 notes · View notes

ittybittybeastiebuddy · 2 years

Text

The desperate yet guilty anxiety that comes from having to essentially beg for accommodations from my college professors is an emotion I wish I was less familiar with

#beastiebites #didnt get shit officially last year so had to ask all my professors individually for extension when i needed #and idk if ill get anything this year so Im once again resorting to oversharing in a desperate attempt to get ny professors to understand #Im fucking disabled and mentally ill and I need deadline extensions like i need water #i feel awful about it though its sorta fuckin humiliating to have to write an email that is me on my hands and knees praying they wont #think im trying to get out of work #im passionate about these classes and i wanna learn so bad Im just #so fuckin mentally ill rn #and i need help #but i dont have access to the help I need #so im just sorta #slowly watching as i become more and more despondant and emotionally drained #and struggle to do basic fucking tasks #Im sorry im just tired and stressed #gonna go to sleep and hopefully feel a little better in the morning #tw vent #vent post #actually autistic #actually adhd #anyways i wish everyone a good day and i hope you have spoons to deal with whatever bullshit life throws at ya

20 notes · View notes

asummersday · 1 year

Text

when will my writing motivation return from the war 😭

#please i just wanna post the next chapter #or at the very least start a oneshot or do literally anything #ive been more tired than usual and i dont like that #im ALWAYS so so tired #sometimes YEAH its because im up til 3 or even 4 #but ive also slept 9 hours. 12 hours. and yet ill STILL feel so tired #im too tired to do the things i want to do #and then i feel like ive just wasted my whole day :(((#how many times these past few weeks have i said im gonna get this chapter done huh? and it is NOT done #i love creating and writing but it takes so much energy sometimes :((( and i just dont have it :(((#i feel bad/down -> writing would help me feel better -> too tired/unmotivated to write -> doesnt write -> keeps feeling bad #rinse and repeat lmao #sometimes being nice to urself and waiting for the motivation doesnt work #sometimes u gotta sit at ur desk with a massive mug of coffee and say ''i will WRITE if its the last thing i fucking do''#screw quality its time to write WORDS #anyway. im making myself coffee rn. i will get through this dammit #summer post

7 notes · View notes

gothsuguru · 8 months

Text

just thought of the premise for the professor!geto fic & i’m excited hehehehe <3

#i think it’s a unique premise! :p i’m excited to explore the story :’)#sukuna is included bc i love him he’s my bestie i love sukuna as a best friend in au’s so much 😭#a bad bitch but also a nerd! blunt/takes no shit but is also v protective of you <333 #might work on this before catoru bc omfg……… catoru got me against the ropes……… fear i may just have to scrap & rewrite it all 😭#cuz when i’m writing i notice that idk if i’m doing active or passive voice OR doing 1st/2nd/3rd person like girl what are yew doing rn #AND IT’S SOOOOO FKN BORING WHEN I DO DIALOGUE ESP BEFORE & AFTER like how many times can i say ‘nanami says’ ‘nanami exasperated’ etc… like #it’s so BORING no flavor i just forget how to explain things 😭 like how do i write that better/more engagingly??? 😭😭😭#gonna have to learn that tbh #anywayz. prof!geto got the storyline/summary set i just need to write it now #maybe i’ll get back to catoru after writing some of prof!geto methinks i just need smthn else to work on #it’s all good practice anyways but i still wanna make it decent for whoever requested it 😭#personal

3 notes · View notes

teerayus · 2 years

Text

I need a winteam prompt that isn’t for WTW, bc planning my fics for it is stressing me OUT

#winteam week I am so excited for you but also why are you in the middle of all my assignment deadlines?#I wanna write something for them but I’m so uninspired rn #and I keep feeling like everything I write for WTW is bad #which! logically probably isn’t true! I have it on good authority that im a good writer #but sometimes it truly does not feel like it #anyway if anyone has a prompt they’d like to share #I’ll give it a go if I get inspired #winteam #writing tag

10 notes · View notes

meat-pvppet · 11 months

Text

im gonna fucking explode dude how do you write compelling monster species bullshit

#dry heaving rn every time i wanna try figuring this out #yes this is for lucius' story #yes this is because of an old story i made years ago that im still clinging to with my dear life #i cant decide if it would be more interesting if these fuckers were like #man made or naturally occuring #cuz if theyre man made they can build up for some sick confrontation n stuff and i can write more about how lucius' involvement #dw hes not the big bad or anything he just stuck his nose places he shouldnt have #hence the accident #anyway the problem there is it would become really convoluted really quickly if im not carefully #and im not usually carefully #i like to throw things against walls and hoping it would stick #then refining what stuck #so #yeaj #if they were naturally occurring it would be an easy out but the big problem comes up: the biology of everything else in this world #bro im already suffering in my current biology class i cant handle making up fictional and theoretical adaptations of regular animals to #explain how theyre still alive despite the monsters of the world #“oh but vinnie! you can make the monsters only target humans!”#we dont give humans enough credit for how smart we are #we would probably quickly adapt to smth like that #if they would adapt and evolve just as quickly then that would be concerning but it may get too convoluted #again #secret third thing: base them on folk lore and make them into evolved versions of them #a little easier to figure stuff out cuz theres already writings about them #however id still have the same problem as if they were just naturally occuring #i might be thinking about this all too much #but this is just how i am with world building #i want everything to make sense and have a reason and to be as #“realistic”#ig

5 notes · View notes

soggypotatoes · 1 year

Text

having a dissociative disorder is so fucked up and confusing

like, I feel like that's obvious, but no... once you know you have it, once it's confirmed, it just gets so much more confusing than it was before

#ed mumbles #it's all fun and games till a mental health professional starts talking to you about it #and im like nononono noo that is something other people experience not me #and shes like 🧐#anyway. its been bad the last few days #ive been experiencing states simultaneously and switching very rapidly #getting double vision and not sure who's where #i have a young part thats obsessed with flossing her teeth for hours on end and i am gripping her leash rn like NO #last time we did that we fucked up our gums so no #and then another part is like. i need top surgery NOW.#in therapy today i was switching rapidly #and i was overheating when one was present and freezing when another was #it was fucking weird i dont know what's going on #i have to see her most days bc shes like an anchor so i know who i am and whats happening each day #also i do take this w a grain of salt bc i dont have an official diagnosis #but thats only bc i didnt want one #she told my psychiatrist about it but i told him nope dont talk to me abt it i dont wanna know.#i dont want that on my record this is insanely personal and i dont need it in writing where people i dont know might see it

3 notes · View notes

fivefeetfangirl · 1 year

Text

Me clutching my 5 fic wips while not having updated on ao3 since 2021: guys I promise I promise hand on my heart I'm a fic writer I love to write I swear on my grandma's grave I'm a fic writer I write fics

#anyone else feeling stressed out cause theyre not creatikg fast enough??#i literally feel it everyday especially during the summers like i don't want to sit on my laptop all day when its sunny and warm but i also #wanna write so bad #wait i just realised i wrote that sammy fic this year #and i have made some amvs too actually but theyre kinda lost in the void lol and two of them are from shows #no one on tumblr has watched so i ended up not sharing one of them #also if i did share it everyone would go thats so deancoded yeah i know it is 😭 the song is literally about a giu crashing his chevy dont #you think i think about that song everyday and how its the perfect dean song unfortunately its not in english and i get kinda demotivated #making non english amvs cause I feel people like amvs to songs they know but guys you are.missing out on THEE dean song #anyways might fuck around and make that chevy dean amv sometime we'll see i have so many ideas for amvs and fics rn so only time will tell #whats gonna happen

4 notes · View notes

seventh-district · 1 year

Text

oh my god i can’t decide what to do with my time today

#Seven.txt #writing stuff #video stuff #it’s Sunday so i need to log into Genshin and do my weeklies and i also need to grind for primos to yoink Yelan’s C1 before Tuesday #but i also need to record that so it’ll have to be done later once the house is quiet but i also need to record Lyney’s story quest but #then i also want to record Kaeya’s hangout but i also need to see what events are ending soon but i also need to do other non game stuff #like i need to finish going thru my backlog of likes on here and i need to answer asks and i need to work on drafted posts #and i have GOT to start working on ES Ch.4 to get that up by my self-imposed deadline soon but i’m recording that so i can only work on it #early in the mornings or late in the evenings but i also wanna finish this one-shot i’m working on for Dew and get it up on here soon #and that’s easier cause i’m not recording it but if i work on it today that’s not the best use of my time when it’s SUNDAY so it’s GENSHIN #DAY but i don’t FEEL like playing genshin rn i wanna WRITE ugh #but i’ve also got Ao3 comments awaiting a reply and i need to get a few things updated over there and i wanna work on This Is Unconditional #but i don’t have the TIME for that right now and i’ve got a bunch of messages that need replying to and a many hours of videos to edit #and i slept bad bc Nightmares so i just wanna eat and take a nap but that’s such a waste of time and uuuuugh idk man #So Many Creative Endeavors So Little Time #*collapses onto the floor in a frustrated heap*#okay. deep breath. i think. i’m gonna go work on banging out the rest of Hold On to Something bc that’s nearly fully written anyways #and i am Dying to get it out of my system bc Ghost Band fixation u know #i at least wanna get the draft done. i’ll edit/post it another day #then i’ll probably hop on genshin for a bit and do the bare minimum (i only need like 15 more pulls worth so even if i don’t grind and have #to swipe its nbd) and then i’ll hopefully be able to record the first writing session for ES ch.4 later this evening!!!#‘cause good god i wanna get that fic back into production. i miss working on it it’s just so hard to get started again #okay enough rambling. gonna go make Bullet’s lunch and get myself some lemonade. then i shall work

3 notes · View notes

foggysirens · 1 year

Text

when the fic is fic-ing but you have to get up and go do things

#sobbin into my hands #i honestly am strugging with this fic SO MUCH and its supposed to be a fun little oneshot like not even a long one #and im afraid im never going to write anything passably good ever again #and rn its actually kind of going okay but i have to get up and make my bed and shit before it gets too late #and i just know im going to lose this momentum #and i just wanna write so bad cause its fun and i love it but i just cant help but think this im also just so bad at it #ANYWAYS HAHA #mj.chatter #personal

2 notes · View notes