#as soon as physically possible

[tsams-and-co-memes]

Haven't watched the latest and greatest Ruin Lore yet, but because of the cover that Davis posted of himself (as Ruin) singing, I was reminded of something

Edit: I watched it, and. 10/10. I'm in shambles. Davis why would you do this (/pos)

These were from a year ago. I had to dig them up because I remembered this idea I had

Ruin singing "Just Look My Way," but because a lot of character develops and story plot things have happened, it plays out differently than it does in the screenshots

Now, I'm imagining part of the beginning being Ruin, reflecting on the time he'd spent with his Monty before The Merging happened. Y’know. When he was still Sun and Moon. There's flashbacks of that, then flashbacks of moments with Monty after Sun and Moon merged and Ruin became a thing. Most of the song is Ruin roaming around the pizzaplex and lamenting over Monty

He goes through the lobby and looks up at the skylight/fake stars thing on the ceiling, and for a brief moment, there's lines connecting the stars that form an image of something meaningful to him

Ruin then goes to Gator Golf, taking his time and walking along the little pathways as he replays memories of himself and Monty in his head. Once in a while, he touches things, being ever so gentle, like he's afraid they'll turn to dust beneath his fingertips. The big hologram of Monty switches on, doing its looped guitar thing on the stage while Ruin's singing. He sees it, gets teary-eyed, and does something he hasn't done in a very long time

He hooks himself up to a flight cable (like we'd think Moon would do, at least once in a while)

He flies toward the hologram, reaching out to it while crying and singing. The song closes off with him reaching out to touch hologram Monty's cheek, and then being pulled back away from it at the last moment (like he swung himself forward, and then gravity makes him swing backward, slow motion style), and we get a shot of the utterly heartbroken look on his face

Everything ends with him landing on the catwalks, disconnecting from the flight cable, and then sitting down, hugging his knees to his chest, and hiding his face

[disabled-dyke]

if upon being told about someones illness/condition, your first thought is to say “have you tried X?” i want you to step back for a moment and think to yourself “if i thought of X after hearing about this condition for the very first time, the person who has this condition very likely has thought of this and possibly tried it already”

we are tired of constantly being told to try the same things by people who didnt know our condition existed five minutes ago.

you dont need to offer any solutions or try to fix us. i know it might seem like a polite thing to do or that it shows you care, there are other ways to show us you care.

[daily-crabbys]

i know i dont need to explain where ive been but i know i just keep disappearing all the time so i thought id give some explanation:

aside from general burnout of running a daily blog i also acquired a job a few months ago and its been beating my ass real hard. burnout from the blog mixed with burnout from employment is a deadly combination and i kept trying to come back and it did NOT work out lmao

[pinkcadavart]

I'm still learning the characters rn so this might not be accurate but please tell me its at least funny

[movedtonewblogcheckpinnedpost]

I think it's funny how it genuinely never crossed Jaime's mind that Brienne wanted to be a knight and he could make her one, but the moment it was brought to his attention he was like, COME HERE I'M MAKING YOU A KNIGHT RIGHT NOW. Like, he didn't even wait 60 seconds lmao.

[punishedgwyndolin]

girl you literally made a multiparagraph post raving about things you assume and think I did and showing off how you stalk my blog, I fucking own your mind palace

[broken-clover]

Deeply deeply attached to the idea of Potemkin and Dizzy being friends and an unreasonably large portion of that is the thought that she's basically one of the few things he would be able to hug and not immediately reduce to paste

[bigcats-birds-and-books]

Books of 2025: DARLING by K. Ancrum.

I didn't mean to binge this in a sitting and a half on a Sunday afternoon, but that's heat advisories for you, I guess. Hello, Contemporary Peter Pan Retelling, and WHAT a gorgeous cover you have.

I read somewhere that this is a super faithful adaptation (like. Beat by Beat fidelity with the source material), which seemed like a neat trick given how utterly Contemporary this was versus the magic of the original. Admittedly, I haven't revisited that source material in many years, but I was pleasantly surprised by how many specifics came back to me as I read through Ancrum's adaptation--Peter's shadow became a jacket, the Mermaid's Lagoon became a drag bar (staffed, yeah, by mermaid-themed queens), flying was scaling Chicago trellises, pirates were cops, etc. Tink (beloved) was there, Nana was there, the Crocodile was there, Detective Hook (begrudgingly beloved) was there, and also there was an ace Russian boy and I love ace Russian boys (iykyk).

I thought Ancrum did a good job keeping the classic children's story tone intact despite the (brutal, brilliant, Holy Shit!!) twist. Although it didn't initially send me, the straightforward, clean prose anchored me to the source story, and by the end I was firmly sold on "good stylistic choice." Overall I had fun!! Planning to revisit it with the source text in the other hand sometime, just to see.

[jon-sedai]

Something rubbed against his leg beneath the table. Jon saw red eyes staring up at him. “Hungry again?” he asked. There was still half a honeyed chicken in the center of the table. Jon reached out to tear off a leg, then had a better idea. He knifed the bird whole and let the carcass slide to the floor between his legs. Ghost ripped into it in savage silence. His brothers and sisters had not been permitted to bring their wolves to the banquet, but there were more curs than Jon could count at this end of the hall, and no one had said a word about his pup. He told himself he was fortunate in that too. His eyes stung. Jon rubbed at them savagely, cursing the smoke. He swallowed another gulp of wine and watched his direwolf devour the chicken. Dogs moved between the tables, trailing after the serving girls. One of them, a black mongrel bitch with long yellow eyes, caught a scent of the chicken. She stopped and edged under the bench to get a share. Jon watched the confrontation. The bitch growled low in her throat and moved closer. Ghost looked up, silent, and fixed the dog with those hot red eyes. The bitch snapped an angry challenge. She was three times the size of the direwolf pup. Ghost did not move. He stood over his prize and opened his mouth, baring his fangs. The bitch tensed, barked again, then thought better of this fight. She turned and slunk away, with one last defiant snap to save her pride. Ghost went back to his meal. Jon grinned and reached under the table to ruffle the shaggy white fur. The direwolf looked up at him, nipped gently at his hand, then went back to eating.

Jon I, AGOT

It's interesting that GRRM would dedicate several paragraphs to a seemingly unimportant exchange between a boy, his wolf, and an unfriendly third party. But there's just something about this passage that has continued to nag at me for years since I first read it because, considering how heavy handed GRRM was with the foreshadowing in AGOT, this feels important.

Jon is sitting at table full of squires - aka would be knights. We don't really know who they are or what families they belong to, but it's safe to assume that they come from a certain level of privilege; this is considering the fact that it cannot be financially easy to be a squire. And these boys already have a slew of tales detailing all their previous knightly exploits regarding "battle and bedding and the hunt" which suggests that they have some capital. So you have boys who will soon be men. And they will, presumably, become men of some power.

These lads eat their fill of the chicken until only half remains, which Jon then gives to Ghost. The direwolf's name is not so important here but what he represents is. Throughout the series, we're told that Ghost is reminiscent of the weirwood trees (because of his red eyes and white fur). He's stated to be of and from the Old Gods and since he's a personification of the weirwoods, he might as well be one of them. It's almost as if Jon is presenting whatever is left on the table to the Old Gods (Ghost). He lets them devour his offerings while he silently watches. And the motif of watching is so interesting here because it's kind of like Jon takes on a stewardship role - to watch over land/people/etc. He oversees Ghost eating the chicken, so he's overseeing whatever has been given to the Old Gods. This is not new imagery to his arc. As a brother of the Night's Watch and eventually its leader, we have several instances where he leads people to adopting the Old Gods in some fashion. In ADWD, several recruits swear their vows to the Old Gods while he watches on as their Lord Commander. The Old Gods are also primarily of the North and we're told that Jon has more of the north in him than his brothers; interesting that this also includes Bran. So perhaps whatever is being offered to the Old Gods relates to the North.

We must also note that Jon initially thinks to give only a small portion, a leg, before pivoting and providing the entire thing. It feels to me a bit like the process of carving up a kingdom or something similar. The lords (represented by the squires) take what they want and leave aside what they don't; or perhaps they have eaten to their fill and can take no more. Then when his time comes, Jon first considers a small piece of land/group of people before eventually absorbing all of whatever is left behind. The concept of carving up a kingdom rings harder considering that we have several callbacks to the ideals of kingship in this chapter. Robert, Jaime, Tyrion, and even Mance though we don't know it yet, all play into this. And then there's the aspect of Jon letting the chicken slip between his legs which evokes birth/fatherhood, a very curious choice when GRRM could've just had Jon place the chicken on the floor. So land/people are carved up and Jon then uses whatever is left to birth his own type of kingdom. And this kingdom is one for the Old Gods.

This also touches on something that has been quite prevalent throughout Jon's arc. It's the concept of accepting the "others" or "those left over" who live apart from the accepted social norms. Arya (a tomboy), Sam (a gender non-confirming boy), the Night's Watch (criminals, extra sons, and men who have no future left or place to go), and even the wildlings are all examples of this. And Jon takes on a leadership/paternal role to every single one of them. He looks after them as a leader would/should. Sometimes, in the case of Arya and the wildlings, he's equated to a king. He's a steward/shepherd/king. There's messianic undertones to this:

Come unto me, all you who are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." (Matthew 11:28-30).

If you're familiar with Judeo-Christian tradition, you'll know that Jesus is often personified as one who spent the majority his time among the outcasts. The idea is that he came to save them too and that anew kingdom (or new earth depending on your translation) would spring up after the end of the world where he would forever rule as king; which presents the idea of a final king after the earthly ones are done away with. Now GRRM isn't so heavy handed with Christian allusions as other authors out there, but he does have a Catholic background and Jon is so overtly a Jesus figure. And in Revelation, Jesus is king and god at the very end....

One last thing: the mention of the mongrel who challenges Jon has always been rather interesting but confusing to me. A mongrel doesn't really relate to one specific type of dog. But it's interesting that Jon notes several roaming about where he is. They follow the serving girls who carry the food to be offered. Mongrels are used to describe antagonist/villainous groups in ASOIAF. Sometimes, they're used to describe slavers in Essos. But what's interesting is that most of the time, they're used to describe Euron's Ironborn especially in Victorian's POV. So I don't think the mongrel who challenges Ghost is a supernatural threat of death (i.e., the Others) but rather a human one. They represent those who are called to the scene once the lords have finished playing their games. It almost feels like a feast for (carrion) crows....

But it doesn't really matter because this mongrel isn't much of a challenge for Ghost. Though the mongrel is much larger, the direwolf is able to fend her off very effortlessly. Given that "mongrel" is used to describe Ironborn raiders, could this exchange between Ghost and the mongrel point to reavers or sea raiders who rise and fail challenge Jon kingdom? There is a historical King Jon Stark who did this....

When sea raiders landed in the east, Jon drove them out and built a castle, the Wolf's Den, at the mouth of the White Knife, so as to be able to defend the mouth of the river.[1][2] His son, Rickard, followed him on the throne and annexed the Neck to the north.

ref.

So this might shed some light not only on Jon's already published arc, but also on what we can expect in the future. We have some foreshadowing through Jon's ADWD dream that he will not only rise with the dawn (thereby live through the Long Night), but will be in a position to lead people (wildings in that chapter) to a new peace after a hard fought war. Also remember that the wildlings, rather enthusiastically, swear oaths to him as if swearing oaths to their king. In this instance, the supernatural (a dream of the war for the dawn) is followed by the natural/human. So perhaps this particular passage (and Jon's dream) can be used to predict that Jon comes out on top, and quite effortlessly too, as a leader. And he becomes a leader who rules by association with the Old Gods; or rules a kingdom for them.

To end, I think it's of note that this passage immediately precedes Jon's conversation with Benjen where he voices his desire to go out on his own - the hero's call to action. This is the adventure that's going to kickstart his growth as a man, warrior and most importantly, a leader. So it looks like before we even began, GRRM telegraphed how it would all end in just three short paragraphs.

[sirenium]

I think one of the most inconvenient parts about being hypermobile is having to exist in this grey area. if I extend my joints to their limits, it hurts. if I try to have 'normal' joints, it hurts. hell, even my little grey area hurts so actually I may be on to nothing here.

[dragonfruitflamb3]

why did I watch that whole thing

Hey buddy I know it's been about 4 years but

Did you know they're making another one

[islanddads]

if anyone is wondering how i’m doing with the uk release of somewhere beyond the sea being tomorrow i’m actually just rocking back and forth in my room waiting for an illumicrate shipping update that isn’t just “expects to ship september/october :)” LIKE HELLO THIS ISN’T A JOKE THIS IS MY LIFE

[beatcroc]

everybody give it up for 100 hours of ringracers

[mycological-mariner]

Cool so I get to start training in a forge and welding and steam engine maintenance and fitting on weekends

[impossiblepluto]

Hello bonjour I reread Adversary + Antigen and ignoring the fact that I am now screaming in every possible way except physical (and, even though I knew what was coming this time, I still had a physiological stress response to your words (<- big big compliment)), I am also gnawing on my laptop thinking about McClain and Reese's reaction and response to seeing Mac.

I am just. I am thinking about how much do they know??? Has Yasmin radioed over and given them the scoop?? Does Yasmin even know what went on in the back there (😱)?????? Like despite (or maybe inspite of) the fact that Mac's got about a thousand different reactive molecules moving through his blood stream right now, he's still somewhat combative I imagine. Or at the very least, I'm sure there's a good chance that some of those drugs are going to wear off before everything is sorted out 😬

Anyway whilst thinking about this I inadvertently made a chart in my head and thought it would be funny to share with you:

pros of epi wearing off: less wired mac who can breath without his entire body vibrating and causing panic on top of panic

cons of epi wearing off: anaphylaxis comes back and says hi!!!! because it is annoyed it got pushed off of metaphorical center stage

pros of sedative wearing off: mac feels less betrayed, more in charge of his body with more autonomy

cons of sedative wearing off: PANIK

...I'm not sure what this ask is anymore at this point. I just need you to know that my brain is entirely occupied thinking about what the future has in store for Mac and I am wondering if there is any hints or thoughts that I can have to munch on in my brain <3

Bonjour friend (I cannot read that word without seeing the polar bears peeking their heads out of dens or into portholes memes, and I am delighted to realize that)

I am also delighted to hear that you reread Adversary + Antigen. I was completely spoiled by the comment you left on that fic and now I get another one + more Vi thoughts. Ah! Amazing. An embarrassment of riches.

Not sure if it's the worst thing I've done to Mac but it's the most in depth I've gone. I got a little tightness in my chest and throat while writing it.

Reese and McClain hearing about what happened to Mac, the panic attack, and getting to witness one of their own is a moment that I am anxiously awaiting to share (and finish writing) Originally, Mac was going to make it all the way to Phoenix Med, where he would again stubbornly insist that he was not laying down, not riding into the building on a gurney, and mostly unsuccessfully struggling through the halls with his entourage, before his facade completely broke. I was as shocked as Jack and Ed when Mac began fighting for his life in the back of the ambulance.

I think I might have to do Mac's attempted escape from someone else's POV. Yasmin does know some of what happened and has radioed ahead so McClain and Reese have an idea of what's coming through the doors. Also, everyone is putting the puzzle pieces together a little quicker and confirming what they suspected. And Jack is struggling for many reasons.

One of the things that has me stalled is getting Mac's headspace right- and portraying so it feels genuine. The epi, adrenaline, and emotions are still thrumming under his skin, but the sedative is making it feel strangely distant even though it's right there. The loss of safety, security, autonomy, he expects that from Murdoc but from his friends and the people he trusts, that betrayal feels like a sinking pit. If he expresses his needs who would listen? Even his anger feels muted, but will be making an appearance that I'm very excited about. Regulating his emotions and his responses are beyond his ability so he's oscillating between this betrayed, submissive compliance, seething anger, embarrassment about his outburst and shame that he allowed Murdoc to do this to him. Everything that anyone says or does feels so patronizing. There's a detached clinical part of him too, and while he wants to lean into that part, that's worse for everyone else watching.

I love your chart because it's all the same stuff going through my head. I'm trying to fit a little bit of everything in there. The half-life of epinephrine is very short (epi is just to stem the reaction and keep you alive long enough to get additional treatment) so he might start feeling the foreboding, prickly sensations growing again before this is over.

Thanks for the ask, friend! It has reawakened my excitement for this fic when I was starting to get too in my head about it! If there is something specific that you've been like "i hope she does This!" feel free to share because there are a lot of directions that I'm still trying to decide on

[yasu-kun]

WORK IN PROGRESS

I didn't get to finish it due to my first day of college, dentist appointment and health reasons. However, I wanna share this to let everyone know this exists (+giving love to my protagonists throughout in my art journey)...! 💙💚🤍

Btw, I didn't forget UnderDespair's Anniversary either. If anyone's impatient and doesn't care how messy my drafts are, feel free to read ahead (+feedbacks are highly appreciated, still practicing my English writing skills despite my struggles)...! 🙏