#avellaturortem;;cross

[hellthought]

avellaturortem liked your post:SKYBEAN.  lyric call.

      " as time wore on you proved a DEBT-RIDDEN, DRUNKEN MESS. ”

[cygnimonos]

@avellaturortem​

“It’s alright,” She whispers gently despite her body shaking, in her hands, she held onto the soul she had just recently extracted from the Akuma that was crumbling to dust in the corner of the abandoned building. “You can finally rest now little one.” She tries her best to smile for the spirit of the child but is unable to hide the fear in her eyes. 

She had interfered in the war between Noah and Humanity, something she had worked so hard to stay out of all these millennia. It wasn’t her place to take part in this war. It was something between humanity and she swore not to get involved. But she could only go so long before she could no longer ignore the anguished cries of the souls trapped within the Akuma.

“Your mother is waiting for you, sleep well little one.” Managing to put on a brave face, she sends the soul of the child off to the afterlife, and shortly after she crumbles to her knees. Tired silver eyes watch the remains of the Akuma disappear into dust. 

“What should I do now...?”

[illuxions]

“Seems a little dumb to be killing so close to home.” - Cross

prodigal son || accepting 

@avellaturortem

Attention swayed from the scene around her. Dust littered the air, of fallen humans and what would soon be a few akuma joining in their demise - considering the new figure who decided to make himself known. Cross Marian decided to check up on some of the family’s misdeeds - how nice. A playful giggle on her tongue, she spun around on one step to start making her way towards him. The click of soles on hardened ground kicking up whatever dust had made its way to settle there. A smile on her face. The gleam in her eyes anything but.

    “ What can I say? Sometimes I    enjoy the risk. ”     

     Are you planning on giving me a challenge?

[sozotohakai]

Cross is just going to, look at Allen, then blow just about all the smoke in his lungs from his cigarette into Allen's face. Idiot Apprentice.

One eyebrow twitches violently.

Must. Not. Murder. Cross.

Left hand twitches.

This is your Shishou you will not give him the satisfaction of pissing you off.

A slow, sweet smile forms. And he just, turns and walks away.

Revenge is best served cold.

[lotusdelusion]

PREFERENCES  .

BOLD ➝   always   /  usually applies italic ➝  only applies situationally   /   sometimes

DEFENSIVENESS.     arms  crossed  on  chest   /   crossing  legs  /  fist-like  gestures  /   pointing  index  finger  /   karate  chops   /   stiffening  of  shoulders  /   tense  posture  /  curling  of  lip   /   baring  of  teeth  

REFLECTIVE.     hand  to  face  gestures  /   head  tilted   /   stroking chin   /  peering  over   glasses  /   taking  glasses  off  —  cleaning   /   putting  earpiece  of  glasses  in  mouth   /   pipe  smoker  gestures   /  putting  hand  to  the  bridge  of  nose /   pursed  lips  /  knitted  brows

SUSPICION.     arms  crossed   /   sideways  glance  /   touching  or  rubbing  nose   / rubbing  eyes   /   hands  resting  on  weapon   /  brows  rising   /  lips  pressing  into  a  thin  line /   strict  unwavering  eye  contact   /   wrinkling  of  nose

OPENNESS  +  COOPERATION.     open  hands   /   upper  body  in  sprinters  position   /   sitting  on  the  edge  of  a  chair /   hand-to-face gestures   /   unbuttoned  coat  /   tilted  head  /   slacked  shoulders   /   droopy  posture   /   feet  pointed  outward  /   palms  flat  and  facing  outward

CONFIDENCE.     hands  behind  back   /   hands  on  lapels  of  coat   /   steepled  hands   /   barring  teeth  in  a  grin   /   rolling  shoulders   /  tipping  head  back  but  maintaining  eye  contact  /   chest  puffed  up   /   shoulders  back   /   arms  folded  just  above  navel

INSECURITY  +  ANXIETY.     chewing  pen  or  pencil   /   rubbing  thumb  over  opposite  thumb   /   biting  fingernails   /   hands  in  pockets   /   elbow  bent   /   closed  gestures  /   clearing  throat   /   pacing    /    “ whew ”  sound  /   picking  or  pinching  flesh   /   fidgeting  in  chair /   hand  covering  mouth  whilst  speaking   /   poor  eye  contact   /   tugging  at  pants  whilst  seated   /   jingling  money  in  pockets   /   tugging  at  ear /   perspiring  hands   /   playing  with  hair   /   swaying   /   playing  with  pointer   /   marker   /   smacking  lips   /   sighing  /   rocking  on  balls  of  feet   /  flexing  fingers  sporadically

FRUSTRATION.     short  breaths   /   “ tsk ”  sounds   /   tightly  clenched  hands   /   fist-like  gestures   /   pointing  index  finger  /  running  hand  through  hair   /   rubbing  back  of  neck   /   snarling   /   revealing  teeth   /   grimacing  /    sharp-eyed  glowers  with  notable  tension  in  brows  /   shoulders  back  ,  head  up   -   defensive  posturing  /   clenching  of  jaw  /   grinding  of  teeth  /   nostrils  flaring   /  heavy  exhales

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[crowleiii]

PREFERENCES  .

BOLD ➝   always   /  usually applies italic ➝  only applies situationally   /   sometimes

DEFENSIVENESS.     arms  crossed  on  chest  /   crossing  legs  / fist-like  gestures /   pointing  index  finger  /   karate  chops   /   stiffening  of  shoulders  /   tense  posture  /  curling  of  lip   /   baring  of  teeth  

REFLECTIVE.     hand  to  face  gestures  /   head  tilted   /   stroking chin   /  peering  over   glasses  /   taking  glasses  off  —  cleaning   /   putting  earpiece  of  glasses  in  mouth   /   pipe  smoker  gestures   /  putting  hand  to  the  bridge  of  nose /   pursed  lips  /  knitted  brows

SUSPICION.     arms  crossed  /   sideways  glance  /   touching  or  rubbing  nose   / rubbing  eyes   /   hands  resting  on  weapon  /  brows  rising  /  lips  pressing  into  a  thin  line /   strict  unwavering  eye  contact   /   wrinkling  of  nose

OPENNESS  +  COOPERATION.     open  hands   /   upper  body  in  sprinters  position   /   sitting  on  the  edge  of  a  chair /   hand-to-face gestures   /   unbuttoned  coat  /   tilted  head  /   slacked  shoulders   /   droopy  posture   /   feet  pointed  outward  /   palms  flat  and  facing  outward

CONFIDENCE.     hands  behind  back   /   hands  on  lapels  of  coat   /   steepled  hands  /  barring  teeth  in  a  grin   /   rolling  shoulders   /  tipping  head  back  but  maintaining  eye  contact  /   chest  puffed  up   /   shoulders  back  /   arms  folded  just  above  navel

INSECURITY  +  ANXIETY.     chewing  pen  or  pencil   /   rubbing  thumb  over  opposite  thumb   /   biting  fingernails   /   hands  in  pockets   /   elbow  bent   /   closed  gestures  /   clearing  throat  /   pacing    /    “ whew ”  sound  /   picking  or  pinching  flesh   /   fidgeting  in  chair /   hand  covering  mouth  whilst  speaking   /   poor  eye  contact   /   tugging  at  pants  whilst  seated   /   jingling  money  in  pockets   /   tugging  at  ear /   perspiring  hands   /   playing  with  hair   /   swaying   /   playing  with  pointer   /   marker   /   smacking  lips   /   sighing  /   rocking  on  balls  of  feet  / flexing  fingers  sporadically

FRUSTRATION.     short  breaths   /   “ tsk ”  sounds   /   tightly  clenched  hands   /   fist-like  gestures   /   pointing  index  finger  /  running  hand  through  hair   /   rubbing  back  of  neck   /   snarling   /   revealing  teeth   /   grimacing  /    sharp-eyed  glowers  with  notable  tension  in  brows  /   shoulders  back  ,  head  up   -   defensive  posturing /   clenching  of  jaw  /   grinding  of  teeth  /   nostrils  flaring   /  heavy  exhales

taggeg by: @avellaturortem​ like fifty thousand years ago orz tagging: hhmm oh boy it’s been a hot minute since i was tagged so forgive me for any potential double-tagging?? @bellwielder​ ; @meaveeshrim​ ; @xxslavextoxcuriosityxx​ ; @pridedbeauty​ ; @lotusdelusion​

[agalere]

@avellaturortem​ 

          "Our paths cross too frequently, Two-face.” Delicate curls framed a dark expression as his tall physic slouched along the chair---Yet there was this elegance that surrounded the Noah, dark hues that only focused on the supposed enemy. 

[noctispostmortem-blog]

@avellaturortem || Continued from [x]

Crimson irises watch as he makes his move, an equally vibrant brow raising. She couldn’t deny the fact that she had actually fallen into his trap, a rather impressive move, to say the least. As she leaned back in her chair, arms crossing over her chest as her gaze rose to meet his. Clearly, her opponent was rather proud of himself, not that she blamed him of course. “Alright Edmes, you win.” Painted lips quirked at the corners, head tilting just the slightest as long curls shifted over the back of her chair. “You may have beat me at chess but I will get you back for this, as I’m sure you have already realized.” Long legs cross under the table, the redhead caring little for that fact that that simply made her seem like a sore loser because, in actuality, she really was.

[blindfoldcd]

@avellaturortem​ (hunter)  /  cont. from here

       Miya recalls sitting beside a window, consumed by her own thoughts, too restless to read, but too tired of training. Of course, she had spotted Hunter as he returned, weariness evident even from a distance. He had only been gone a few days -- well, he did have a nasty habit of overdoing it, working himself too hard, and completing missions quicker than most. It makes her a hypocrite, but this fact irritated her to no end.

       So she found herself in his room, first aid kit tucked out of sight, waiting for him to show. His exhaustion was much more pronounced as he entered the room, injuries visible, but thankfully none too serious. Miya knows if she’s not firm, it leaves an opening for him to argue or disobey: yeah, she can be demanding, but in this instance, it’s for his own good.

       As soon as he’s silently acknowledged her demand, lithe arms cross over her chest, waiting patiently as Hunter unwinds. Bright blue eyes watch him carefully, unreadable as he removes his coat, gear, and boots before relaxing in the chair. Her expression falters slightly, softening as he tries to guess exactly why she wanted him seated.

       Pushing off the table she leans against, Miya steps past him, fingertips grazing soft, midnight locks before placing herself behind the chair, hands resting on his shoulders. There’s a to - do list she had begun making mentally from the moment she saw him, things she wanted to help him with, anything to see him lively again.

       She starts by pressing her thumbs firmly into the likely torn and overworked muscles of his back, working them in small, tight circles. ❛ You didn’t forget anything.  ❜ Her voice is calm, volume low, hoping that a simple gesture like this will be appreciated.  

[sozotohakai]

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What Color is your Soulmark

PINK!

Never short of affection, patience, or understanding, those with a pink soul color are energetic and respected. They are seen as nurturing individuals, and they attract many people who feel misguided in life. They tend to always find the good in every situation and inspire others to do the same.

Pink soulcolors are highly in tune with their emotions and the emotions of others. They believe all feelings should be acknowledged and dealt with in a healthy manner. They look out for those who don’t look out for themselves, often spreading themselves thin and crashing in the process.

While friendly, this color is introverted and shies away from social gatherings. However, it’s not uncommon for them to accompany a friend out into a social situation or be a wingman if needed. Their friend circle comes first and foremost, whether it be large or small, and they will attempt to make time for everyone even if they are spent.

This color is also drawn to doubt and question if they’re doing enough. They like to conform and know that they are accepted. This leads them to try and be something they’re not, and they often grow disappointed or disgusted with themselves should they deceive themselves and others for too long. They are also bad at keeping promises, setting goals they can’t achieve, and unintentionally disappointing those they wanted to impress.

WHITE!

Also known as the kinder soulcolor, people with white soulmarks are seen as innocent, childlike, and pure. Most people before they enter adolescence will glow white when around a soulmate, but they will grow out of it in their teen years. It’s the rarest color to have as an adult.

Many people who glow white are treated like children, so they present themselves in an adult like way. They are structured, focus on maturity, and distance themselves from things that bring them joy. They are least likely to share their interests around people they don’t know and are afraid of being patronized.

This type is highly intelligent and appears to prefer being single than in a relationship. They are often alone, preferring not to bog themselves with unnecessary drama, and have no patience for those who criticize them or their work.

Despite their tough exterior, these people are gentle souls. They often express their interests to a select few they trust, and they spend their time theorizing about or analyzing things they enjoy. They are studios and curious, especially when it comes to what makes things work, and have a childlike wonder to them despite being so adamant to present as a mature individual.

[sozotohakai]

MAKE A TEACUP BASED OFF YOUR MUSE !!

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Allen’s teacup (with flower tea and, of course, something sweet to eat)

Nea’s teacup (with whatever tea, with lemon and mint added in)

Fun fact: Allen does like lemon-mint in his tea too, and Nea does like flower tea.

Which makes me think that when they drink tea together, they drink half of theirs before exchanging cups. Nea has to make a little bit of puppy eyes to earn the right to eat one of Allen’s sweet food, though. Thankfully (for Nea), he doesn’t actually often feel like eating while drinking tea, so Allen is willing enough to spare some bites when the mood does hit Nea.

[sozotohakai]

MUSE AS A DEITY.

RULES: think carefully about your character and their development through their journey (canon or oc) within their story. fill out the chart and tag whoever you want! multi-muses, feel free to pick any of your characters—just a few, or all of them. please repost, so the dash isn’t clogged with reblogs.

               ❝ formal name — Yínguāng ❞

GOD OF:

Light (of purification primarly, but can become his offensive power)

Orphans (subtle guiding to safety and/or kind people)

Lost souls (helps them move on)

Those that carry grief (is said to help recover, and sometimes he will be invisible but present around someone grieving alone)

ASSOCIATED WITH:

Protection

Kindness

Love

Justice

Wrath

Sacrifices

Luck

SACRED PLANTS:

Anthurium (hospitality, happiness, abundance)

Bells of Ireland (luck)

White carnation (innocence, pure love)

Cypress (mourning, sorrow.) 

Elderflower (compassion)

Gladiolus (strength of character, honor, conviction)

White heather (protection)

Marigold (pain and grief)

Olive (peace)

White rose (innocence, virtue, purity, reverence and humility)

Dried white rose (sorrow)

Rosemary (remenberance)

Red poppy (eternal sleep, remenberance)

SACRED STONES/GEMS:

Ruby (safety, peace)

Peridot (confidence, good luck, health)

Aquamarine (courage, mental clarity, good health)

Pearl (innocence, purity)

Opal (hope, purity, truth, love)

Turquoise (offer protection)

SACRED ANIMALS:

White fox

White wolf

White dove

White bunny

COLORS:

White

Silver

Very light shades of blue

Light shades of gold

The shade from a red sun

FOOD:

Mitarashi dango (I can see a mortal one day offering it for the first time and he just, hearteye)

Pie

Cake

Sweets

Fruits

SCENTS:

Fresh air (especially from snow)

Baked goods

Roasted meat

Vanilla

Tea

BLESSINGS BESTOWED:

Protection

Safety

Warmth (to learn warmth)

Strength (most often of heart)

Short term luck or luck in a specific domain

CURSES INFLICTED:

To receive pain as the cursed one inflicted on others

To be haunted

Bad luck triggered by ill intents (bad actions causes bad luck to follow)

Intense light that cause pain, at worst cause burns and/or blindness

Nightmares

ACCEPTED OFFERINGS/WAYS TO HONOR: 

Mitarashi dangos (favorite food)

In general the food he likes, but any food too (he loves food)

His sacret plants and gemstones

Biggest way to honor is kindness to orphans, and to children in general

Playing music for him, and/or singing for him

Scented candles (light scents, flowery or fresh)

A cup of tea (if you’re lucky, you’ll see it vanish as a sign he drank it)

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[sozotohakai]

15 QUESTIONS, 15 MUTUALS

Tagged by @moon--wake​ (thank you!)

⭑ are you named after anyone ?  

Technically yes, my mom was raised Christian though she grew apart from the religion itself (but not from her belief in God and angels), and when she learned she was getting a daughter (which she had desired but until me didn’t get), she named be Christelle, to be written like this (rather than Kristel for example), and it can be read as Christ+elle (elle being french she). This works perfectly for me too as it shortens to Chris, which is a more gender neutral name, which is rather fun considering mom wouldn’t have known back then I would realize I’m non binary.

Fun fact: my middle name is the same name from an aunt if I recall correctly, one of the few people from my father’s side of the family that mom did like.

⭑ when was the last time you cried ?  

This weekend, there was Doctor Who on TV and there was the episode with Doctor Donna so if you know it you know it’s the ending that made me cry. It didn’t help my mind start going “Yooo super angst Wangxian” and I yelled NOPE. Long story short: the episode deals with how the only way to save someone is to erase all memories of the time spend together (including meeting) and how they can’t come into contact with anything that could lowkey remind of said times. Now I’m not okay thinking of how the theme of having forgotten is heavy in DGM ouch.

⭑ do you have kids ?  

Nope, unless you count characters I created we always joke that with mom, they’re her grandchildren.

⭑ do you use sarcasm a lot ?  

Depends, it can come out of me at random times, its more likely to happen if I’m playing; or if I’m lacking sleep.

⭑ what’s the first thing you notice about people ?  

That is a good question...   It can vary? But mostly I feel like I take right away into the overall appearance, like... either to recognize them, or store them in my mind so I can hope to recognize them later. I don’t really (or not often) stop at a detail, it’s just, get a reading of the general appearance of someone. After that I pay attention to expressions and how they speak (which is funny to say since I have trouble with eye contact half the time).

⭑ what’s your eye color ?  

Brown

⭑ scary movie or happy ending ?

Happy ending, though tbh, I do kind of love scary movie, it’s just that I have troubles actually watching.

⭑ any special talents ?

Uuuuu, I guess, I’ve been told I’m good at emotional empathy? I’ve been able to know when someone felt low just by how they would write. That’s, I believe, the main reason I find my way with words (when I have time to think) because it’s heavily based on my empathy mixed with experience. Like, I feel so much what someone else is feeling, and that’s why I can come with up with words for them and their situation.

⭑ where were you born ?  

France

⭑ what are your hobbies ?  

Writing, reading, playing games, listening to music, watching videos (Markiplier, React, MMD&Vocaloid stuff, AMV&Anime mix videos, sometimes bloopers and funny stuff).

⭑ do you have any pets ?

I don’t, but my brother and his dad have a cat so he’s like my pet. His name is Grisou (gris = grey so it’s totally a cute naming of his fur colour), he’s playful and seems to view any approach as a signal to play (aka paw at you and try to nip), though he’ll get cuddly at times from what I heard. For my part, we’ve got this ritual that I’ll slowly approach my fingers so he sniffs them (unless I see him about to paw/bite so I dont even try), he lets me pet his head a tiny bit, and then I leave him alone. So he doesn’t try to paw or claw or nip at me because he knows I’ve learned to tell if he’s okay with an approach and when I should stop.

(Fun fact: one time he kind of accidentally hurt my leg, despite my pants he dug fangs and claws too deep and I ended up with a few cuts that bled, I was a bit scared that day and for the next few times I saw him, then I kind of hesitantly start to approach him again, and I think he picked up on it and that’s why he’s a bit more patient with me? I’m the only person he doesn’t straight up claw or paw or nip at, and the few times he does, it’s slow, and/or light).

⭑ what tattoos / piercings / body mods do you have ?  

None, sometimes I get the thought of having tattoos, but I’m not sure I’ll ever follow through. But probably if I did, I would got with a small tattoo first just to like, see? I once thought about wolf tattoo, but tbh if I get a tattoo one day, it’ll be a dragon. Oh gosh yeah, a small tattoo of an eastern dragon circling my wrist or maybe higher like close to elbow level, maybe on both side. And after that if I’d have the courage, a western dragon in the back (with feathers wing, I love my dragons with feather wings).

⭑ how tall are you ?  

5 ‘7~ I don’t think I’m that tall, but I’m amused because it seems like I’m taller than most of my friends. My brother is even taller than me, he’s 6′/6′1. Or because I’m squinting at the conversion, I’m ~172 cm (and he’s ~185 cm).

⭑ dream job ?

What I’m doing right now, which is work as an independant/freelance writer. Lemme be shameless for a tiny bit and link to my site too, since. Kind of fit with the question.

What’s funny is that, as a child, when it first start to float around, what will you be later, I loved dinosaurs so I thought, I’ll become a paleontologist. I stayed on this path until college, I could feel in me something off, there was nothing else that I could see myself do, so I stick to it, but in college I truly felt how much I just didn’t see myself become a scientist. And it’s totally all thanks to mom and my bro that I realized, hey, writer can be a job too. Then came the hilarious realization that I’ve always been writing or reading, mostly in/for school, but at the end of middle school I discovered fanfics and I never stopped writing&reading those since then (and later rping was added).

⭑ favorite subject at school?  

I’ve always enjoyed literature (no surprise here) though to be precise, here in France the subject is called “Français” and is a mix of learning grammar&spelling&punctuation, then all kind of things like analyzing books and poems. It was, in fact, a bit rarer to actually write a story ourself, as it was more about learning the french language and what is expressed in books. But in elementary school I did have a teacher that gave us a homework that was literally just “write a story” and I got an almost perfect mark (in my teacher word: the only reason you didnt was for the grammar&etc mistakes”). While in my mom words, years later, “that was the moment I knew you would become a writer”.

I also adored learning English, I think I do love learning languages in general, but the other languages I tried to learn (Latin for one year, Spanish), the teachers were... not helping. The Latin one was, bless her, good but boring (my mom literally almost fell asleep in a teacher-student meeting, face to face); and my first spanish one had no authority and we barely learned anything, so the next one had to try catching up, but it left me (and those who had come from the same class) with very shaky basics and next to no motivation except just have marks above or equal to average. Compared to those, English was made fun to learn, and then it also got associated with my mind with tons of things (fics, subbed animes, being able to talk with friends).

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[sozotohakai]

mun vs. muse!  

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[sozotohakai]

ANGST MEME

been cheated on | been bullied | told a horrible lie | stolen something of value | overdosed on drugs | been drunk | passed out | cheated | bullied | punched someone in the face | been beaten up | broken a bone | been admitted to a hospital | had a near-death experience | been drugged | done drugs | smoked | kissed someone you weren’t attracted to | bled severely | killed someone (not quite “killing” but Akumas) | had an attempt on your life | made an attempt on your own life (indirectly, when he was in shock over Mana’s death) | lost someone | loved someone (platonically) | gone without food for over three days | gone without sleep for over three days (i’d say that probably happened) | been tortured (I think at least his first encounter with Tyki can count, and a few of the Akumas he fought were vicious, and oh, Road) | been slapped by a parent or higher up | been abused by someone who should have loved you | had a panic attack | been in a car accident | had sex | had sex with a stranger | passed out from pain | cried yourself to sleep | spent a whole day in bed | hurt yourself (indirectly or not consciously) | taken your anger out on yourself (probably at some point, something like punching a wall, or self blame) | taken your anger out on someone you love | been used | felt used | used | been terrified | played a cruel game on someone | been dominant | been submissive | been forced to smile | been misgendered | felt too many things at once | laughed when you felt like crying

been cheated on | been bullied | told a horrible lie (kind of, his biggest lie is acting as if he really just want to kill the other Noahs) | stolen something of value | overdosed on drugs | been drunk | passed out | cheated | bullied | punched someone in the face | been beaten up | broken a bone | been admitted to a hospital | had a near-death experience | been drugged | done drugs | smoked | kissed someone you weren’t attracted to | bled severely | killed someone | had an attempt on your life | made an attempt on your own life | lost someone | loved someone | gone without food for over three days (probably, especially when on the run) | gone without sleep for over three days (possibly while on the run) | been tortured | been slapped by a parent or higher up | been abused by someone who should have loved you | had a panic attack | been in a car accident | had sex | had sex with a stranger | passed out from pain | cried yourself to sleep | spent a whole day in bed | hurt yourself | taken your anger out on yourself (probably did at some point) | taken your anger out on someone you love | been used | felt used | used | been terrified | played a cruel game on someone | been dominant | been submissive | been forced to smile | been misgendered | felt too many things at once | laughed when you felt like crying

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meet the mun

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LAYER ONE: THE OUTSIDE - Name: Chris - Eye Color:  Brown - Hair Style/color: Varies, I tend to prefer mid-length hair, with layered cut style, and they’re naturally dark brown, I’ve dyed them with strands of copper or strands of auburn in the past, I’ve felt like letting them be just their natural colour but I’m pretty sure it’s possible I’ll dye them in one of those again in the future. - Height: 5′7 (170 cm) - Clothing style: Uh. That is a good question :’) Casual I guess, I love most jeans/tight pants that are either blue or black, I love my tops to be fitting though not too tight but I have various kind of tops I like (from tank top to short sleeved shirt to long sleeve ones), I do have a weakness for button up shirts though. Boots are also my faves kind of shoes. - Best physical feature: I guess, my overall figure?

LAYER TWO: THE INSIDE - Your fears: I think my overall, big fear is the fear of physical pain, but it’s translate most in fear of drowning, of sharp objects pointed at me or near me in someone else’s hand, fear of heights, and fear of stingy insects. I think I do have a phobia of wasps and bees and the likes though, like, I used to be deathly afraid of every insects, even butterfly. I’m still a bit uneasy when anything insects gets close to me, but I only really fear afraid when I know it can sting (or if I don’t know if they can, like if I’m surprised by buzzing but can’t see it, or if I don’t know the insects). I tolerate bees? By that I mean I just freeze and repeat like a mantra it’ll die if it strings it won’t easily sting you. But wasps? Nah man, I’ll hide behind anyone I know or I flee. If you ever see me make a sudden, wide off-way from a straight line, you know I heard or saw a wasps or something insect-y. Like. At least you know i’m the best radar for them. At least, it is the fear of being stung by then, rather than of the insects themselves, so I’m okay with just seeing them and/or hearing them if they can’t access me. Although the sounds make me tense like BUZZING-oh its okay XD - Your guilty pleasure: I see a cat, I hope I can pet the cat, I won’t bother the cat but if there’s  cat and cat willing, I’ll pet cat. Same with dogs, though cats feel calmer so easier to be around. Also tbh food? I’m weak to good food, or just anything tasy enough for me, which is pretty much anything (that isnt overcooked or the very few tastes I wont like). - Ambitions for the future: In all honesty, being able to continue with the life i’ve created. Take care of mom, visit&see my brother every weekend, spend my way between writing and working on little things and my hobbies. I do wish to be able eventually to travel and meet my online friends (and/or welcome them here). And tbh I have zero wish to get known, if I get some fanbase and just enough to contribute at home, i’ll be the happiest. The only real dream for future I have is a shared one, mom and my bro (and I) kind of hope we’ll one day be able to live in a house together, either those houses that can be split in smaller houses (like three small flats making up a bigger house), or simply that it has enough rooms for each of us to have a personal space.

LAYER THREE: THOUGHTS - Your first thoughts waking up: Vary, half the time it can be some leftover dreams so it’s like, finishing a thought from a dream (including at times literally thinking oh i’m dreaming ohhhh i’m waking up), sometimes it’ll be the slow realization of a sound, most often there’s also hearing if mom is awake (or not). Then I can daydream a bit. - What you think about before bed: Most often, daydreaming to sleep.

LAYER FOUR: WHAT’S BETTER? - Single or group dates: Not sure tbh, I guess both depending on people and context? - To be loved or respected:  Respect. You can love without respect; but respect is a form of love in itself. Like I’d honestly much prefer someone who respect me but doesn’t feel much of anything, that someone who “loves” me but doesn’t have respect. Of course, if I’m loved and respected, that’s the best. - Beauty or brains: Either one or both. I honestly see people as whole, so I can see “details”, but I also see the whole. Probably both is the most correct reply, though beauty has a bit less impact on me than brains, but beauty is subjective so. - Dogs or cats: Both, though I do have a preference for cats, cat-energy is like... calm. I mean they can be no calm at all, but their overall energy feel calmer than dogs. But I love both.

LAYER FIVE: DO YOU. - Lie: I myself tend to be truthful, although I can also simply omit truths if voicing them has no real impact or need, mostly it’s like, if something doesnt feel important to share, I wouldn’t really think of it, but if asked or if the subject comes to it, it might pop into my head. So basically I don’t lie (unless I’d have a pretty good reason life safety), I’d mind my words with hurtful truth (if they have to be voiced), and I don’t really care if i’m lied to, as long as it’s not malicious. - Believe in yourself: I think? I’m secure in myself now, so yeah I guess there’s this implicit confidence I know myself enough. Like I can have insecurities, but I guess I believe in myself to handle it so. - Believe in love: I do, I believe in all forms of love, including at first sight, though I also believe it needs work to remain love, and the loves that don’t have a real label (like, there’s romantic, platonic, queerplatonic, and then those loves you can’t really place as any of the three but could be any of the three). And I believe friendship love and family love are just as strong as others, but I kind of believe more in family of the heart than of blood? And that its basically luck when you have a heart’s family that’s also blood family. Like they are part of your heart family, and the fact you’re blood related is just a secondary detail. - Want someone: I do feel like it would be nice to have a partner (or partners, I’m neutral about exclusivity), but I’m going out of my way to look for one. That’s why I also feel like if I ever have someone, it’ll be a friend, someone I know and we think okay we could be partners too. I’m not ruling out meeting someone that gets me doki-doki but yeah, I’d still want to know them better first. I easily crush, but I don’t easily fall (and I easily friendship crush too and confused crush sooOOO).

LAYER SIX: EVER? - Been on stage: Not really? Presentation yes, but nothing else. I mean one time a presentation took the form of a small sketch but. Yeah no real stage. - Done drugs: No. - Changed who you were to fit in: I don’t think so? I adapt, but that’s part of myself. But I don’t change the other parts? Like I’m quiet naturally, I can become chatty about cetain things (especially if I feel comfortable, which is harder in person), and I’m not going to shut up nor am I going to speak up if I don’t want to. If I can see people aren’t listening, i’m also not going to bother trying. The same kind of logic is applied to anything, I can notice what works and doesn’t work in a given setting, but I only adjust if I want to and if it’s not going against who I am.

LAYER SEVEN: FAVORITES - Favorite color: Blue, green, silver, gold, white, black. - Favorite animal: Foxes, cats, felines&canines in general, horses. I also blame WWX and LWJ from making me coo harder at bunnies now. EDIT: Yo I’m an idiot whose brain didn’t work, but I actuall love wolves as much as foxes, they need to be properly mentioned and I dont know why I forgot :’D - Favorite movie: I can’t say I have faves in movies? There are movies I enjoyed, but none I consider faves, unlike animes/mangas or games. - Favorite game: Tales of Symphonia, Fire Emblem Path of Radiance, Skyrim, Tales of Vesperia, Breath of the WIld, Pokemon games (X/Y so far my favourite with weakness for FR/LG).

LAYER EIGHT: AGE - Day your next birthday will be: July, 2nd - How old will you be: 27 (I still mind-freeze because part of me still feel like I’m, what, 24? Not quite anymore at the 20/21 stage, but not really past my mid-twenties) - Does age matter: Not really, it’s people personality and their ability to handle the world, as well as how they interact with it. In a sense, its the age you feel like that matters more, but to yourself. Like yeah you can care about the number ages of people around you, but its how they are and feel and act that end up mattering more.