#banging my head against the wall im so done with this

[nyxofdemons]

unable to get behind the idea that fizz "forgave blitz too quickly" or that it was a writing flaw how easily he accepted blitz's version of the story or whatever like. no!!! it makes sense!!!

blitz was his best friend!! of COURSE he wouldn't want to believe that blitz tried to hurt him so badly!! blitz tells him what happened and fizz IMMEDIATELY softens in the way he's looking at him. he doesn't even look mad or like he thinks he's being lied to, like -

LOOK AT HIS FACE HE WANTED TO FORGIVE BLITZ SO BADLY. HE NEVER WANTED TO BELIEVE THAT BLITZ DID THIS TO HIM ON PURPOSE.

even all his little microexpressions in this one scene say SO MUCH

fizz probably spent SO LONG trying to rationalize or explain what happened to him, he probably spent AGES hoping so badly that there was an explanation that DIDN'T involve his best friend hating him so much he tried to kill him as painfully as possible

and to say it feels contrived; i just. fizz CARES!! the same way blitz has always CARED!! they never wanted to stop being in each other's lives - they both suffered a major trauma and were made to believe that the other one hated them, but they were BEST friends and always had been. how could either of them ever not jump at the chance that it was a mistake? how could fizz not cling to the possibility that his best friend might be able to still be his best friend?

[angelicstalker]

I ruined it I ruined it I ruined it I ruined it I ruined it

[thebrandywine]

PART 12/12 OF [like classical music] IS UP

[ankhisms]

bwuhhh i know im being way too hard on myself about my art but that doesnt make it any easier to get my brain to be nicer to myself

[piplupod]

why the hell did my molar have to go and get chipped somehow randomly (i dont know when it happened or how it happened, i just noticed it was very sharp one day earlier this year) right after i was no longer eligible for my dad's insurance that covers dental.... i am going to have to probably pay at least $200+ to get this checked and taken care of,,,, head in my hands. i swear someone up there wants me to off myself I swear to fucking god

[mid-nightowl]

20 questions for fic writers

im like days late but thank you for tagging me @waffleinator-inator<3<3<3

How many works do you have on AO3?

Three in total! It’s a tiny number but I am very proud :) 

What’s your total AO3 count?

44,317 

What fandoms do you write for?

currently, just DC. 

What are your top five fics by kudos?

Well, I only have three 😂

war of gotham: overture has the highest, which honestly is both a surprise and not a surprise??? either way i’m super excited to see it be well-liked<3 my rewrite of the recent gotham war comic arc with batdad and mommy joker playing tug of war with their traumatized child (jason)

gotham underground is the second highest! My femjay rewrite of the comic arc, batman: gotham underground (2007). It’s still a wip but i’ve got almost all of it written, just need to polish it aka get my ass in gear and finish it up lol

future state: genesis of gotham is third highest. honestly, been thinking of going back and rewriting the whole thing again, not sure i'm happy with what i got down so far. but like i love the cyberpunk feel of future state and don’t want to abandon the fic idea/plot either lol  

Do you respond to comments? Why or why not? 

I love responding and will always try to respond, even though it might take me a while 😭

What’s the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? 

war of gotham for sure. It’s a bit vague in the ending but it’s definitely not supposed to be happy. 

What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

well, it’s not technically finished but gotham underground will have a happy ending :)

Do you get hate on your fic? 

no and hope i never do

Do you write smut?

okay, look i have tried and i will continue to try but who knows if it will ever see the light of day lmao

Do you write crossovers?

not yet! i’ve got a few in mind though that i can’t wait to actually sit down and write

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

nope!

Have you ever had a fic translated? 

also no

Have you ever co-written a fic? 

negative ghost-rider. shit wait i take that back, technically i have two? but they’re oc fics im writing with a bestie, do those count?? i’mma count them

What‘s your all-time favorite ship? 

oh boy….this is like heavily dependent on the fandom.

What’s the WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

😭…..i have so many??? uhhhhh first one to come to mind is the robin!jay & batgirl!tim & spoiler!steph wip i’ve got, i hit a wall on that one and it’s been months, it's very frustrating 

What’s your writing strengths? 

action scenes and prose<3

What’s your writing weaknesses?

transitions, probably endings that don’t feel abrupt or even just ending stuff lol

Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

only if i can read/understand it or get help with it if i don’t personally know it very well! i like including other language tid-bits, especially with characters who are bilingual etc, but i also want to do them justice and not absolutely butcher it either 

First fandom you wrote for?

One Piece :) 

Favorite fic you’ve ever written?

so far, war of gotham: overture is my absolute favorite. that baby is just *chef's kiss* to me. BUT gotham underground is my precious baby too, so like, yes, both are my favorites<3

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i'm super late to the game so im sure everyone's been tagged 😂 so free for all to anyone who wants to! <3

[wygolvillage]

i will not get in pointless arguments over my favorite video game guy online. i will not get in pointless arguments over my favorite video game guy online. i will not get in pointless arguments over my favorite video game guy online. i will n

[yuyu-bubu]

S. Baja Blast Fazbearington adventure

[deepwoundsandfadedscars]

The fact Shadow and Bone comes out the weekend when I have a test on Monday is homophobic

[iridescentis]

ive been on a two week break and at the beginning i set a goal that i would finish two projects i had been working on, my ramtteo series and my ranking video, not a difficult task, right?

WRONG

i have SEVERAL more wips than i started with, a FUCKTON of ideas AND i am constantly on edge because im really inspired and motivated but procrastinate so hard for no reason and waste all of my time

WHAT HAPPENED.

[queercatboyrights]

girl help im scrolling through tumblr instead of writing my college papers due in less than 12 hours

[androgynousfrog]

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[thepinkseashell]

ugh hi i have been working on an art piece almost nonstop since like 8am yesterday morning and i am . ready to eat glass

[kakashiswife-3]

If only she knew

Toji x poc reader

Warning: 16+ cheating, cursing, name calling(pretty girl), pregnancy

——————————————————————————

You were on your back legs spread knees next to your head Tojis hands holding you by your knees as he fuck himself into you

You let out a squeal trying not to be to loud knowing his wife was just next door “you like that pretty girl” he panted out with no shame

You felt bad but with the way Toji fucked you it made you forget everything. You let out a moan “I can’t- I can’t take it anymore”

You saying that only made Toji go faster he wanted his wife to hear him fucking you senseless

To her he was supposed to be at work so when she heard the headboard bang up against the wall every once in awhile she thought nothing of it

“I know you can take it” he said with a small chuckle while looking at your face small hairs sticking to your forehead because of how much you were sweating

You whimpered his name not wanting to expose yourself he moved your legs to wrap around his waist

He placed his one of his hands on the side of your head and placed the other on your clit thrusted his hips at a fast pace as he slapped your clit

“Who pussy is this?” He said with a smirk on his face while you stumbled over your words “y-yours it’s all yours fuck” you panted out

He started rubbing your clit your legs start shaking “I’m gonna cum mmh” you moan out putting your arms around his neck

He pulled out and kissed you down from your ear to your waist not wasting anytime going down and kissing your clit

He looked up at you while licking and sucking your clit “it’s too much~oh my toji , im cumming, don’t~” he shook his head side to side

“Go ahead baby~ you like that don’t you” he smirked sticking his tongue in your hole “you want my wife to hear your pretty moans don’t you?”

Your juices making a mess on his chin and chest “look at the mess you made mama” while licking up your mess you started to close your eyes then you hear “oh I’m not done yet not til your filled up with my cum”

*Time skip*

It’s been four months since that night , four months since you found out you were gonna be having a baby two months since his wife found out she was also pregnant

But the only person that knew was toji so when she seen you in the hallway with a bump she got excited saying “congratulations! finally I have someone to bond with” with a smile

While Toji stood behind her with a knowing smile thinking ‘if only she know’

——————————————————————————Part 2 is coming in like two to three days………maybe

[cranberryjuice-posts]

Before I get too mean

Pairings - clarisse x femme! Reader

Synopsis- you need closure, clarisse needs a good reason to fuck around

An: THERES NO SMUT JUST MAKING OUT😭🙏

For months now all you’ve been trying to do was get over clarisse. After you two had a big argument over something stupid and a dramatic breakup you done everything. You’ve madeout with other girls you’ve flirted around and even flashed someone but nothing compared.

Clarisse on the other hand Didn’t give two shits. She saw you fucking around with other campers but she knew none of them were better than her.

And you knew exactly what you were doing tonight, purposely wearing a tanktop that showed off your cleavage and a pair of sweats that showcased your hips and ass— you knew exactly what to do to get clarisses attention and you also knew how to get her riled up by flirting with one of her sisters. You figured messing around with clarisse one last time will finally give you the closure you wanted.

That’s why it wasn’t a suprise when you were in the ares cabin with clarisse pushed up against the wall and her hands tracing your hips and ass while you two kissed. She started to kiss down your neck eventually leaving hickeys.

“Ah!~ Lise stop” you whined and pushed her head away. “I fucking said no marks”

Clarisse Just rolled her eyes “You Wanna make-out but you don’t want me to leave hickeys, you wanna flirt with my sister and get me mad but don’t want me to react, you want me to kiss you like your my girlfriend but you don’t want me to say shit to you” she sarcastically spoke “at this point just ask to get together”

You just scoffed “as if we broke up because your an entitled bitch”

“Boohoo suddenly its a crime for a woman to have a personality” clarisse grinned before grabbing your face pulling you in not letting you respond.

Standing on your tippy toes and creasing your shoes in the process, you continued to kiss your ex girlfriend.

Once again clarisse started to kiss your neck trying to leave hickeys but this time you didn’t care and just let her. You grabbed a handful of her curls and tugged them knowing it would piss clarisse off because of the knots it made.

She groaned and bit you. “Ow! You shit”

“Don’t tug my hair”

“Don’t leave hickeys!”

Clarisse Just grunted and started to suck on your neck just to prove a point to you. “Just because your pissed doesn’t mean you get to take it out on me”

“Yeah Well im out of sympathy for you” you panted still messing up her hair.

—

Still pressed against the wall clarisse started to pepper kisses on your cheek while you played with her necklace.

“Maybe you should leave” Clarisse muttered “before you get mean and fuck shit up again by taking it out on me”

You giggled. “Yeah well your angry ass needs someone equally as toxic to keep you in line”

“Mmhmm maybe you should have left when silena Said i was bad news, that’s why your so broken hearted” clarisse continued to make her way down to your neck and top of your chest.

You closed your eyes and tucked some hair behind clarisses ear.

The moment was ruined however when some ares kids started to bang on the door. “Clarisse what the fuck let us in!” One shouted as the door was locked. You jumped at the noise and yelped as clarisse shoved you aside.

“Bitch”

“Just sneak out the window damn” she sighed and rubbed her lips that had your lipstick on it. She watched as you started to sneak out- before you shut the window clarisse whistled gaining your attention. “Keep it open and sneak in again tonight” she grinned and you rolled your eyes.

——

You: *sneaks in like clarisse asked*

Some ares kid who woke up from the sound of the door: “if your sneaking in to hook up with one of my siblings atleast take your shoes off and keep quiet”

——

Clarisse: *leaning on the bathroom sink watching you try to cover the hickeys she left*

You: your a fucking psycho these look like you tried sucking my soul out

Clarisse: yeah but you love me

——

Clarisse: *making-out with you with you sitting on her waist*

Clarisse: Let’s get back together

You: fuck you

Clarisse: so yes then

——

[eliluvschan]

Shadow Selfies

pairing: bang chan x reader

word count: 971

warnings: few curse words & cutie Channie

genre: fluff

a/n: am i writing instead of finishing an essay for my deadline on thursday? no im not👀

i was walking my to my best friend Chan’s house. he’s got i don’t know what hair colour cause the man dyes his hair every two weeks now? i kinda lost count.

we’ve known each other for the past five years, but the thing is i’ve always liked him more than a friend.

i like him. a lot.

i rang the bell and Jessica, Chan’s mother, appeared in the doorway.

“hey dear, Chan’s in his room upstairs.”

“thanks, Mama Bahng.” i always call Jessica Mama Bahng, it’s a habit i picked up from hanging out a lot at Chan’s house.

she smiled as we both walk trough the hallway. “are you hungry?” she asked me.

“a little.”

“come on. i just bought these.” she said, putting a batch of brownies in front of me.

“alright then, but just one.” i smile.

“sure.” she turned away.

i took a piece and ate it.

“oh, this is amazing.”

“i know right? it’s a new bakery called Felix’s Goodies, maybe you and Chan can pick some up for the others?” she suggested.

“sure thing!”

“eomma, is Y/n here already?” i heard Chan calling from upstairs.

“maybe later.” i smiled and got up from where i was sitting, and made my way down the hall and upstairs. i knocked on the second door on the left.

“if it’s Hannah, go away. if it’s Y/n, come in please!” he called from inside.

“ugh, rude!” Hannah called as she got out of her room to go downstairs.

i laughed at her comment as i opened the door to the usual shirt strewn floor and messy bed.

“hey, where are you?” i called.

“oh, hey there cutie.” he said emerging from the side and pulling on a black hoodie. he stopped in front of me. “what’s up?”

“nothing much. you ready?”

“ready for what?”

“science!”

“oh yeah. come on.”

so we sat down on the bed and flicked through our books and opened chapter seven of biology. disease’s & microbes.

“i don’t understand this shit.” he said after five minutes of poring over the same page. he scanned the green page and then looked at me.

“what is that hard about learning the freaking definition of a compost?” i asked after explaining the compost again.

“it bounces off of my head. how did you do it?”

“don’t ask.”

he laughed. omg his laugh.

“okay. one more time?” i asked.

“okay. and then we do something else.”

i rolled my eyes. “sure.”

he smiled and sat a little straighter.

“when rotten plants, are piled onto a heap, the bacteria of microbes act on it, and produce an enzyme that turns into any sort of liquid and then they feed on it. this stupid and disgusting process is called a compost. got it?” i asked.

“the crappy heap of plant shit is called compost?” he joked.

i laughed. “yeah. now Bio degradable’s?”

“we’re doing something else.” he told me.

“you’re going to fail the test!”

“no, i’m not.” he said.

“yeah, you are. you’re not paying attention!”

“look, i’ve done as much as i can. and just one def. of bio- whatever’s left. it won’t hurt to leave one thing. and besides, you need a break too.

i thought for a moment. true, i do need a break.

“why are you trying so hard to make me study?” he asked.

“cause friends watch out for each other, and remember Mr. Lee said he’s gonna change out seats so we can’t pass noted or talk at all.” i reminded him.

“aw, you’re doing this so we can talk? sweet!” he smiled.

“shit up.” i said, returning to the book.

“hey, look at the shadows!” he said.

i looked and saw our shadows on the wall, very clear and sharp.

click!

Chan took out his phone and took a picture. soon, we were posing madly and taking pictures in the mirror. then Chan held up his index finger. i put mine across it and made an x. i took the picture.

he held his palm in the air. i calmed mine against it, forming a weird, but beautiful shadow of two hands joined in mid-air.

both of us took the picture. then he curved his hand into a half-heart shape. i curved mine, completing the heart. we took the picture.

i looked up at him, he looked down, not smiling. his eyes full of passion. he stared at my lips, then he leaned in and the next thing i knew his lips were moving against mine and his arms were no longer suspended in the air but gripping my waist.

a soft sigh and a click!

a camera snapping a picture, and we jumped and broke apart. Chan looked around. his mother was standing in the doorway. she quickly turned around and walked away.

“i, uh, i should get going.” i blushed and turned away.

“no, don’t go.” he whispered, holding me back.

“goodbye, Chris.” i moved away. but i felt a tug at my fingers. i looked back. our fingers were still locked. Chan smiled at them, but i hastened to pull them away.

i made my way home, still thinking about the kiss.

i got a text from Chan as soon as i was inside.

Channie😩❤️‍🩹: i made mom delete the picture.

me: ok, thanks.

Channie😩❤️‍🩹: but i still have it ;)

me: what? why?

Channie😩❤️‍🩹: our first kiss.

me: can u send it to me too?

Channie😩❤️‍🩹: [1 attachment]

me: well…

Channie😩❤️‍🩹: it’s uhh, nice.

me: yeah.

Channie😩❤️‍🩹: will you be my girlfriend Y/n? i mean i’ve liked you forever and i know you kissed me back and we are friends- i’ll take you out this weekend if that suits you?

me: uhh…

Channie😩❤️‍🩹: what?

me: nothing

Channie😩❤️‍🩹: then?

me: yes! :D

Channie😩❤️‍🩹: i had fun.

me: excuse me?

Channie😩❤️‍🩹: excused, girlfriend ;) i was talking about the shadow selfies and science of course.

me: oh yeah. me too >_<

Channie😩❤️‍🩹: so tomorrow night?

me: sure. goodnight boyfriend 🤍

Channie😩❤️‍🩹: goodnight girlfriend :)

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