#basically i have anger issues i could have just said that why am i so fucking verbose for nothing

[sparklingchim]

[nishnormp]

cheavy ramblings

Been thinking about the stinky BLU classic heavy from the comics lately. He's basically the villain of the final issues, and was practically built to be unlikeable from the start so his defeat could be more satisfying; buut since its been years since an update came out and I am slowly going insane, I think it would be funky to explore him more (bonus cmedic feature)

Few disclaimers: I'm not excusing his actions (I myself think hes a bitch) and I do NOT ship him with tf2 medic (also I dont think tf2 medic is unmasked cmedic bc 1)why would he sabotage himself in the issues by acting like That 2)uhh reasons later 3)this panel) also some of my takes aren't original, but I've expanded on em a bit

P1: Medic hater activities

As we all know, cheavy's greatest sin was dunking on + killing tf2 medic

Somehow he and tfc demo got sidetracked by medic's question, but the most hostile he gets towards tf2 medic here is jeering at the fact that they're going to hunt down his old team; which tf2 medic doesn't seem bothered by.

( @number1yisuchongfan actually brought this up before me) This panel pretty much sums up why cheavy is pissed: medic was implied to have a record of being weird with parts (he lost his license bc he stole a man's skeleton), he blew ALL of his budget meant for healing on exotic parts (that he put in cheavy's teammates), AND he revived the enemy (said enemy slips away a few panels later just as cheavy gets informed that three of his mercs died).

(also, the weird p3do tfc scout and soldier arent included in the 'three good men', since they died much later) Speaking of the 'good men' comment-

P2: Good leader at some point?? Not anymore tho

Hes gruff and an ass, but cheavy has a soft spot for his team; the tf2 mercs call each other strictly by their classes, but the tfc ones know each other names (also see cheavy's way of describing his dead teammates and his immediate reaction to go over there rather than curse/assume their incompetence)

He gets curious about australium, and from here on out he gets fixated on it- enough to be more unreasonable than usual. Cheavy is pretty amicable with Bea, and the way he acts with her is probably more in-character for what he was like back in his prime rather than the hot-tempered man that the later panels show.

I mean . He and his team were highly recommended and even took out ALL of the admin's elite teams, leaving the tf2 team for last. He may be a drill sergeant, but I don't think he was a genuine tyrant for most of his career; they aren't purely business-basis with each other (some of them formed close bonds, like fred and virgil), plus- any elite team would be able to capitalize on an overly prideful and control freaky leader (+a constantly demoralized team) sooner.

With three of his mercs dead and his plans failing against a team that he saw as rejects, the mental strain is showing badly. Tfc mercs don't have much personality in their games (or their own comic about them during their prime) but one of the few dynamics mentioned is between the Heavy and the Engineer+Medic. Tfc engie is the one who stepped up to ask about cheavy's plans, and he also gets the brunt of his anger. Earlier, cheavy answered bea's question and encouraged her, but now he's yelling and mocking the capabilities of one of the men he coordinates with the most.

Tfc scout's line may just be him not understanding/underestimating australium (esp since apparently cheavy had to ask grey mann what it even did), but it also reads as him seeing cheavy having officially gone off his rocker; his shaky grasp over leadership might kill the team before being deprived of yellow rocks does. Both scout and engie are thrown off by his attitude, implying that cheavy isn't usually like this (I can't imagine them being coordinated if they all shrimp away like that).

His line of thinking for both of these situations are pretty questionable. For the first one, he knows that the bots extract australium from the body, but he also knows that the mercs likely have nothing in them anyways (note the emphasis on his dead mercs, this is him taking revenge but also he is NAWT going to get any australium for those extra immortality machines which is still a pressing issue for his engie). In the second one, he first tells medic that they'll try figuring out how to stitch the machine on him, which leads to medic stabbing him and cheavy retaliating. Cheavy then goes all the way with attempting to kill him, stating that he'll just gets his answers from the administrator. Its soon revealed that he wants to fight tf2 heavy, but even that is ??? Like cheavy knows that he and his team are old as hell, but he's going to try having a fair fight with a guy in his prime anyways? He didn't even know that he could just slap on the machine at the time, and the unnecessary risk for what seems to be a quest to satisfy his ego is antithetical to his supposed goal of getting the rocks and making his team immortal. At this point, his hatred of medic has completely overridden his rationality; there were many ways for him to have killed both of them, yet he didn't take em.

P3: Cmedic

I saw some posts abt how cheavy is likely coded as homophobic due to how he treats medic (a presumably gay-coded character) bc of the "stay in the kitchen"-esque dialogue, and the way cheavy undermines him in verbal + physical ways. I do not have a very solid defense for this . aside from everything I listed before.

Just to clarify, I think its cheavy's fault for alienating medic from the start: loss of medical license aside, medic's inventions DO work splendidly for healing. Would it have been more concerning since medic is . meant to heal? Maybe. But mercs are literal murderers for hire, personality quirks should be the last of their priorities. The guy is passionate about showing off his stuff, and he was even enthusiastic about getting on the battlefield and healing cheavy. I'm not saying medic was going to be 100% loyal, but he's willing to do his job for the classics as long as he wasn't disrespected so damn much.

The tfc mercs with personalities are ones that oppose their tf2 counterpart; tfc sniper is a sadist rather than a swift professional, tfc pyro is...also a sadist rather than having tf2 pyro's misguided bubbliness, and cheavy does not respect his team's (current) medic. This in conjunction with the complete and utter lack of not just presence but also mention of tfc medic leads to the popular belief that the guy just up and left because of the disrespect.

(Writing inconsistencies be damned I like to cope) so what if it wasn't the case?

These are one of the few lines in tfc that describe a cooperative nature between certain classes. Like I mentioned earlier, tfc has less media compared to tf2 so its easy to slot personalities onto them as villains (tfc sniper's gun blowing people into giblets kinda helps), but I don't think these can be ignored. Fred was the one who represented the rest of the team's opinions to cheavy, and the phrasing in the second pic is even stronger; the heavymedic duo was always a thing, even in tfc.

Sort of. Gameplay-wise, cmedic is more like a roided out scout armed with a medkit that can give enemies and disguised spies tuberculosis, grenades that can send him across the map, and a gun that can destroy sentries (situational). He doesn't need to cling to his more offensive teammates as much as tf2 medic, and while his kit can instantly heal a teammate to full no matter the percentage + give overheal- its strictly melee ranged and has no ubercharge. In a narrative sense, cmedic would most likely oppose tf2 medic as a more 'grounded' healer. He prevents damage to his team by erasing enemies himself, doesn't go too overboard with his biochemical arsenal (his brew is potent but hes stuck with the melee-ranged kit and no crazy mechanic like uber), and can typically run off by himself (provided he isn't jumped by two soldiers or smth). Its a matter of game design, but can translate to the comics in an interesting way.

Medic is the only one who speaks of cmedic, and while the mention itself has no violent reaction- no one else speaks of him. I can't imagine him being easily forgotten since the heavymedic duo is just too iconic, so what if smth exceptionally horrible just happened to him? If cmedic was close to cheavy than everyone else, his loss/disappearance could explain cheavy's immediate dislike for tf2 med; not only replacing his own med, but with the complete opposite in terms of personality as well.

(I could expand on cmedic more, but this post is already long enough as is so I'll probably just make a separate one gah)

[stromuprisahat]

Can you help me to understand the tether between Alina and Aleksander? I've seen people say that it was formed when he collared her but if that's true then why not use it when she's on the run from him? I always thought that's why he got his nichevo'ya to wound her and why he thanked her, because it allowed that connection to form. Am I wrong here?

Okay, well, I'm still re-reading, but...

They're written as two halves of the same whole. They're supposed to be complimentary opposites, that's why Aleksander's waiting for the Sun Summoner instead of settling for just any immortal, why he believes they're meant to be even after encountering other immortals' different worldviews and Alina's refusal to accept her own greatness. She won't only live long, they're bound by the Making, so she's predisposed to ~understand~ (And there are moments, when she does. Only her upbringing, issues and moral police companions prevent her from embracing what's between them.).

The first clear sign of their interconnection's showed during Winter Fete, although from the wording, I've missed at least two earlier ones:

The moment his lips met mine, the connection between us opened and I felt his power flood through me. I could feel how much he wanted me—but behind that desire, I could feel something else, something that felt like anger. I drew back, startled. “You don’t want to be doing this.” “This is the only thing I want to be doing,” he growled, and I could hear the bitterness and desire all tangled up in his voice. “And you hate that,” I said with a sudden flash of comprehension. He sighed and leaned against me, brushing my hair back from my neck. “Maybe I do,” he murmured, his lips grazing my ear, my throat, my collarbone.

Shadow and Bone- Chapter 14

"... the connection between us ..." suggests it's something Alina figured out exists before this time, so she didn't experience it only once.

Then there's the Collar that gives Aleksander access to Alina's powers, although it's not exactly clear how it works.

I had spared the stag’s life. The power of that life belonged to me as surely as it belonged to the man who had taken it. ... The Darkling looked momentarily confused. He narrowed his eyes, and I felt his will descend on me again, felt that invisible hand grasping. I shrugged it off. It was nothing. He was nothing.

Shadow and Bone- Chapter 22

Like: Sorry honey, either the power belongs to you both, or you have the upper hand.

I would kill for Aleksander's LOGICAL explanation.

The nichevo'ya bite deepened the Bond, that's why Sasha did it. My guess is it might be something about merzost affecting the Making, therefore the connection formed by it, AND the tiny little detail the creatures might be created with use of said force, but from his own being. He's basically running around donating his body fluids essence to his closest "enemies"... *wink wink*

We don't know more than what he tells Alina, so perhaps he could feel her presence before that. Perhaps Alina's youth and inexperience played bigger part in her use of their connection, than we think. Perhaps her many issues did. (I hate repeating this phrase, but THE WASTED POTENTIAL!) Why tell your stubbornly uncooperating soulmate you have an in-build compass to help you track them, if they left a trail of more profane kind?

[hajihiko]

I’m not any of the anons from before but as a fellow kazuichi fan I’d personally love to hear you talk about why you like him if you feel like it! personally I was first drawn to his character design, I just thought he looked cool, and then the second he opened his mouth and revealed himself as a loser, I loved him like ten times more lol. I know some people think he’s ‘creepy’ but I feel like he keeps enough a distance from Sonia that he’s just a guy with a crush, and also his “don’t you ever just wanna take girls apart and see how their bones work” line lives in my head rent free

Ok well. Sorry dude (genuinely) but I dont think I think of him the way a lotta ppl do. Heres my take sorry if it ruins it

First of all, do I LIKE his character? No. I like what could become of it if handled well, in the future (same with Akane and Sonia and... a lotta characters tbh).

I dont want to gloss over that he was really not cool with Sonia. I DON'T think it was like, a simple silly crush like any other dude would have, I think he WAS inappropriate about it and (most likely completely unbeknownst to him) enforcing things that she genuinely could not stand. He was insecure and took it out on others as well as himself.

These are all character flaws. Every single character has them (some more than others). Fuyuhiko was genuinely a dick (as I have said many times, having anger issues isnt an excuse for the way he talks sometimes), Hiyoko is a bully, Ibuki is insensitive when se gets caught up, Impostor is condescending sometimes, etc. Kazuichi isnt the only one to be a jackass sometimes and t deny it is to deny his character, just as much as reducing him to only that is oversimplifying it.

What I like about Kazuichi is: the design.

(Ok jk but I do enjoy the design a lot)

I like the teenage insecurity. He thinks he wants to be a chick magnet, but gets scared when girls show an interest in him. His ideal woman is basically a barbie doll. He's a little too eager to see his boy bestie naked. He was so excited for a class retreat because he's never had one before. He was so desperate to be cool and tough and not a nerd that he drastically (and no doubt painfully, ow, TEETH) changed his appearance to conform to his Ideal Self, but could not actually change his personality.

He's basically a teenage boy, warts and acne at all, trying so hard to be The That Guy but spectacularly failing. He's actually somewhat of a genius (and the Death Trap stuff hints to him having a lot of repressed turmoil which honestly so true, teenagers whose only outlet is fantasizing about the gory demise of their tormentors, SO TRUE) but he can't SEE that because he wants to be some kind of cool punk frat bro dude. He's so busy living up to some idealized version of himself that he fumbles who he actually is, which if he just took a moment, would be a pretty cool dude. Basically, did you ever discover a cool band and tried to model your entire personality after what you thought those vibes would be? That, but sad.

So yeah, I think he's great at comedic beats, and also has a lot of heart underneath it, but has never been in a place where he can just accept that and let it shine. His last words were basically "here I am, don't forget me!" which like, man, isnt that just relatable teenagerism?

[almostyours]

hi have you considered any other fcs for the girls ? the lineup is exquisite don't get me wrong i'm just curious

oooooo of course i have!  and maybe u just wanted a normal response from me,  but i am going to make this reply a bit more visual and fun  (for me)  because i am going to explain what i was looking out for in my girls and why i decided not to choose ___ and ___ and yada yada because i'm feeling crazy!  also because i’m taking inspiration from @/pureun because they did something like this before and i thought it was really fun  <3  but trust me,  it will be really hard to get sana,  jisoo,  and yuqi out of my hands.  they are set on stone at this point!

first off,  we are starting with my darling kaia.  for her i wanted someone to bring the fun to the group and,  for lack of better words,  friendly-looking.  approachable,  lighthearted,  someone who exudes comfort to even those she’s not close to,  someone very fun to look at when on stage,  and someone who is known to be a wonder to be around with.  a mom friend,  basically.  but i also wanted someone no one would ever suspect of doing anything wrong,  which is why it was such a shock to fans when rumors circulated that kaia mistreated a stylist and that she is known by her inner circle to have anger issues  🙈  

i immediately thought of sana minatozaki when i came up with her because hellooooooooooooo!  and she was perfect because i actually wanted a japanese fc as i wanted kaia to be a member of akb48.  i also really liked the idea of kaia pulling a xg’s cocona and going viral for flawlessly rapping in three languages 😮‍💨 and idk just the thought of the face of baby girlism sana having anger issues and rapping in the levels of soyeon will always be funnie to me

i consider and think about nana komatsu as kaia every now and then,  though.  there was a time that i actually wanted her to be the oldest out of the three and in a way i could see nana fitting her background,  especially as an idol who likes to stay low-key with her own endeavors,  but i just don’t see her as kaia.  maybe as idol!kaia,  but not kaia,  yknow?    i also think that the vibes of nana!kaia would have been a little bit too similar to yvan’s,  and the thing about hiraeth is that the three of them are different from each other

mina myoi also crossed my mind because madre!  but it’s the opposite of nana’s situation.  i see her as kaia,  sure,  but not as idol!kaia  D:

for poppy, i wanted someone who gave off princess-y,  royalty like vibes with a dash of cunt,  especially as she’s the group's representation of elegance and maturity.  miss little pretty face,  a reserved woman with a big mouth and an open mind,  devoted to her craft as an idol and as a producer,   someone people and other idols look up to,  usually kept under a microscope by knetizens because there’s no way anyone could be that nice  (and she’s not even that nice,  she just minds her business!),  if her face is involved,  the brand’s stocks are sure to rise,  and she’s not that intimidating,  but there’s something about her that makes people hesitate to approach—not just because of her beauty or her monotone-like attitude,  but because she’s poppy.  i also wanted someone who seemed really put together on the outside,  but in reality they are not as poppy is chronically ill and kinda insane ngl  😔

i think out of the three, poppy’s main fc is the one i don’t think i’d ever change. i’m really attached to jisoo as miss pawppy—  like,  there’s so much history in here friendsies!!  poppy is jisoo,  just with some alterations that i’d love to talk about eventually,  but i’d be lying if i said i haven’t thought of other people as poppy.  not because i don’t see her in jisoo anymore,  but because i’m so attached to poppy as a character that i see her everywhere,  either as a concept or as someone else.

eunbi never never neeeever fails to remind me of her…  she’s genuinely the perfect alternate fc,  especially since she’s the same age as jisoo so if i did the change, i wouldn’t need to adjust anything!  but i have a really strong bias,  and i know that if i ever changed her fc to eunbi,  i’d end up switching back  😭 

and here’s where i admit that each girl is inspired by current or former idols,  and poppy is lowkey inspired by hirai momo who has always reminded me of her—  in terms of her personality,  stage presence and her looks.  like that one picture she posted during the miumiu fashion show…  where she was sitting and looking back at the camera with her bare back,  like yall,  that's poppy!  😵‍😵‍😵‍  but again,  i have a bias.  plus i also want kaia to be the only japanese woman in the group

now heejin would have been the perfect candidate to be poppy’s fc if only poppy wasn't a hag,  so yeah.  that’s never gonna happen unless i make an alt universe where they are younger…  :p

for yvan,  i wanted someone with the it factor—  someone who graduated from servington university with a degree in serving!!!  😝  i wanted someone approachable and relatable,  THEY/THEM realness fr, a best friend or at least a friend to many,  admired for their genuine love for their job and their talents,  fun and quirky with a dash of chaoticness that usually keeps everyone on their toes,  so big-mouthed it often lands them in trouble but usually works out in their favor,  and despite doing absolutely nothing  (they absolutely did or said something btw),  their name is always on everyone’s mouths.  i also wanted someone who could “snatch” the golden maknae title from j*ngkook,  which is the reason why armys fucking hates them and keep making up stuff about someone who’s not only globally liked but also j*ngkook’s number one wingman!  🙄

yvan actually went through a lot of fc changes until i started to pay attention to g-idle during the queencard era.  when i say everything clicked when i watched this yuqi fancam…  yeah.  since then i’ve never considered changing their fc.  yuqi is literally everything i envisioned for yvan  <3

xiaoting was one of their initial fcs and the one who stuck around the longest  (i even have old edits with her face and everything),  but i couldn’t quite see yvan in her as much as i wanted to  ):  

now ningning…   siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiighs.  it’s similar to poppy’s situation with heejin—  though she’s the perfect candidate to be yvan’s face claim,  she was too young to be in a group with ’95 liners,  and i wasn’t going to age-bend anyone for that.  maybe in another universe…

i initially created the idea of yvan with yves in mind  (catch the “y” at the beginning of their stage names?  not really a coincidence lmao),  but due to some plot changes to fit the narrative of my friend’s and my ideas,  i decided to switch their ethnicity.

but wait.  alternate faceclaims but instead they are younger and have just debuted recently…  wait!

[coquitokisses]

Trusting Again | chapter 011: quality time

Word count: 2642

Warnings: just Bucky being a flirty mother effer

A/n: Remember how I said that they were living in a house? Well let’s suppose it’s an apartment cuz I’ve been writing like they’re living in an apartment and not a house and I’m also imagining it that way I don’t know why, so they’re living in an apartment cuz I’m not gonna edit anything lmao

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It was almost 7 pm and Cat was just on the balcony trying to “meditate”. Wanda was actually getting her into it when they were still at the compound because she says that Cat has a strong temper and that meditation could help her so they would do it together. And now Cat is trying to do it by herself even tho it hasn’t been so easy. But she’s getting there.

She took a deep breath and a noise from inside distracted her a little, but she kept her eyes closed trying to just maintain calm. Just a few minutes later, she heard the balcony door open and her eyes shoot open, looking up at the cause of the noise.

“Are you busy?” Bucky asked

“I don’t know, what do you think?”

“Is that a yes or…?”

She let out a sigh. “I’m trying to find some inner peace somewhere so I don’t kill you guys.” She replied

“Can I join?” He walked out and closed the door

“Do whatever you want, I don’t care.” She said closing her eyes again

“So what are we doing?” He asked sitting right in front of her in the same position she was

She opened her eyes again. “Why aren’t you with Steve?”

“Because I wanna be with you, is there a problem with that?”

“Why? So you can piss me off like you always do?”

“You piss me off too and you don’t see me whining.”

She rolled her eyes. “Whatever.”

“You want me to go?” He asked

She looked at him for a few seconds, thinking about what to respond. Honestly she didn’t mind having him there, yes he pisses her off and it’s been pissing her off for the last few weeks, but she couldn’t care less if he was in the balcony with her.

“No, it’s fine.” She replied “You can stay, but don’t try anything funny because I finally managed to get into this zen energy and if you piss me off, I swear I’m gonna throw you off the balcony.”

He just smirked at her. “Oh I wouldn’t dream of it, sweetheart.”

“Good.”

“So do I just.. do nothing?” He asked

“Basically.” She replied “Just.. try to relax.”

“Try to relax.. okay” He nodded

“Take five deep breaths.” She said, she started taking slow deep breaths and Bucky focused on doing just the same as her “Now close your eyes.”

She closed hers and Bucky did the same.

“Now we’re gonna do a quick scan for any discomfort or tension.”

“The cause of my tension is sitting right in front of me.” He said

“Hm, funny, mine is too.” She replied and he chuckled “Okay, take note of the discomfort but don’t try to change it.”

“Okay.” He nodded, taking a deep breath

“Now focus on your breathing and count them up to ten, don’t focus on anything else, just on your breathing.” She explained “It’ll help you relax.”

They did just that for a few minutes and then Cat was the first one to talk.

“You feel better?” She asked opening her eyes

“Am I supposed to feel different?” Bucky opened one eye to look at her

She couldn’t help but laugh a little. “You’re supposed to feel relaxed, yes.”

“Well I feel.. fine, I guess.” He shrugged

“Do I still stress you out?”

“Not right now, no.” He shook his head “Am I stressing you out?”

“No, I’m actually enjoying the company.” She replied

And she was telling the truth. Yeah, they have argued a few times before and there’s times where she really wants to punch him in the face, but they get along. They get along pretty well, actually.

“Wow, then this stuff really works, huh.” Bucky said

She shrugged. “I guess so, Wanda always said that it would help me with my “anger issues”.. which I do not have, let me clarify.”

“Sure.” He slowly nodded “Whatever you say.”

“I don’t have anger issues, you think I do?”

He nodded. “I think you have some built up anger.. or maybe just some resentment or something that makes you lash out sometimes.”

“You think I lash out?”

“Sometimes you do, yeah.”

“Nobody has ever told me that.” She said, a little surprised, to be honest

“That’s because you used to have a way to get it out when we were still in the compound.” Steve spoke from inside “Now you don’t have a way to get it out of your system like you used to, so sometimes you do lash out.” He walked over to the door, leaning on the door frame

She actually didn’t know that. She knew she wasn’t easy and she knew that she could be a pain in the ass sometimes and that she did get mad pretty quick. But she didn’t know that she actually took it out on the guys. Because, like Steve said, she did have a way to get it out where she didn’t need to scream at anybody, but now she doesn’t have that. And she does realize that she has been a little tense ever since all of this has been happening, which is also causing her some anxiety.

“I’m sorry.” She said

“It’s okay, we know how to handle it.” Steve replied “And we know you don’t actually mean to act like that.” He added with a small smile, which made her smile a little

“Yeah, but still.” She said wrapping her hair in a ponytail “I have to do something about that.”

“You are.” He said “By the way, I’m gonna buy a few things we need, you guys wanna come?”

“I’ll go with you.” Bucky said getting up from the floor

“Well I need to shower, I’m kinda sweaty.” Cat answered

“Thanks for the meditation class.” Bucky said leaning down to help Cat get up

“Yeah, like you enjoyed it.” She rolled her eyes supporting herself on his arm to stand up

“I did.” He nodded

She chuckled. “No, you didn’t.”

“Whatever, dude.” He rolled his eyes “Don’t believe me then.”

“Sam is in his room.” Steve told her “Call if you need anything.”

“Okay.” She nodded

The guys walked inside and she grabbed her things before heading inside too. After they left, Cat decided to take a shower.

After that, she just went and got dressed and decided to go and make herself a sandwich since she was a little hungry. She went to the kitchen, made the sandwich and then headed back to her room. Bucky and Steve weren’t back yet. She was just in her bed, drawing and listening music on a little radio that Sam actually got for her, portable, since he knew how much she loved to listen to music.

She finished the sandwich and she just stayed there drawing. A while later, there were some knocks on the door making her lower the volume of the radio a little bit.

“Come in.” She said

The door opened and Bucky’s head appeared out on the corner.

“Can I come in?” He asked

“Uh, yeah.” She replied

“So,” he started saying as he walked inside “I heard you talking to Steve a few days ago, about wanting to go out and do things.”

“Okay..?” She frowned confused

“So as you know, a few hours ago I went with Steve to buy some things and I convinced him to buy some beers.” He showed her the two beer bottles he was holding in his hand, which she didn’t even noticed he had when he walked in “I know it’s not the same as going out, but I think it’s close enough, right?”

“Right.” She nodded slowly

“So here you go.” He handed her one of the beers “You may not be legal in America yet, but you’re legal in Morocco.”

“I am.” She chuckled a little grabbing the beer “So are the guys drinking too or just us?”

“Just us.”

“Why?” She asked

“Because I want to.” He shrugged

“You just wanted to drink some beers with me?” She looked at him raising an eyebrow

“Yeah, what’s wrong with that?”

“Nothing, it’s just.. I don’t know, it’s weird that you’re here asking me to drink with you when we’ve been butting heads lately.” She tilted her head a little

“Take this as a peace treaty.” He said

She chuckled a little. “A peace treaty? So we’re not arguing anymore?”

“Well I’m down if you are.” He opened his beer bottle

She let out a sigh. “Fine.”

“So we’re good? Like, officially good?”

“We are, James.” She laughed “Now please open this for me.” She handed him her bottle

“You wanna go outside?” He asked her

“Outside to the living room or outside outside?”

“Outside outside.” He nodded “To the balcony.”

“Yeah, sure, let’s go.”

They both got up and left the room to go to the balcony.

“So why are you doing this?” She asked sitting on one of the chairs that were there

Bucky turned around to look at her. “Why do you keep asking?”

“Because! It’s just weird.” She chuckled “Why are being so nice?”

“I’m a nice guy, okay?” He said sitting on the other chair

“Yeah, right.” She rolled her eyes laughing “So what do you wanna do?”

“I don’t know, what do you wanna do?”

“Well I don’t know, I thought you had something in mind.”

“My plan was to drink and make peace with you.” He said “What do you wanna do?”

“I don’t know.” She took a sip of her beer “Kids these days play all sorts of things having alcohol involved, wanna play something, old man?”

“You know? You shouldn’t be calling me names when out of the two of us, I’m the one who can’t get drunk.”

She giggled. “Touché.”

“Wanna do 20 questions?”

“But I know too much about you already.”

“But I don’t know much about you.” He said tilting his head a little

“Yeah, guess you’re right.” She said “What do you wanna know, James?”

“You know my full name, what’s yours?”

“Catalina Giselle Navarro Álvarez.” She replied “In Latin America you have two last names, the first one is from your dad, you get his first surname and the second one is your mom’s first surname.”

“That’s actually kinda cool.” He said “It sounds very unique.”

“It kinda is.” She nodded “But it’s too long.”

“Where did Giselle come from?”

“I have no idea.” She shook her head “Mom said that she always liked the name and she thought it sounded nice with Catalina.”

“It does.”

She chuckled. “It doesn’t.”

“You need to learn to love your name more.”

“I like my name.” She said

“Well you need to like it more.” He replied “You need to love it, did your mom named you?”

She nodded. “She did.”

“Then that’s basically the only thing that you have from her, so you need to learn how to love it.”

She let out a sigh. “I don’t hate it.”

“But you don’t love it either.” He said and she shook her head “I love your name, for me it’s actually pretty unique.”

“And it is, sort of.” She shrugged “You don’t meet a Catalina very often.”

“Or a Catalina Giselle.”

“Exactly.” She giggled “I don’t know, I just don’t think they sound good together.”

“Well they do, so stop thinking that.”

“Alright, fine.” She rolled her eyes

“You’ve never mentioned anything about your dad.”

“Because I never met him.”

“Is he alive?”

“I don’t know.” She shrugged “Navarro isn’t even his last name so..”

“And who’s is it?” He asked

“My grandfather, he’s my mom’s stepdad, he raised her since she was two and when we were born, she used his last name for us.”

“Are you and your sister from the same father?”

“We’re not.” She responded “You’ve wasted six questions already.”

“Okay, fine!” He rolled his eyes “Can you dance?”

“Yes, but I think we mean different dances.” She replied “Can you dance?”

“Of course I can, are you kidding?” He said and she just chuckled “What can you dance?”

“Not slow dancing or whatever you did back in the 40s.. we kinda don’t do that anymore.”

“I haven’t exactly been up to date with that just yet.”

“I can help you with that.”

“Please do.” He nodded

(…)

The hours have passed, it’s almost 1 am and Bucky and Cat are still awake, although they decided to move to the couch after a few hours.

“My head hurts.” Cat yawned running her hand through her hair

“I think you’ve had enough beers for today.” Bucky spoke

“Hm, I think so too.” She ran her hands over her face

“Alright, come on.” He got up from the couch

Cat also tried to get up, but she felt kinda dizzy. “Oh shit.” She sat back down

“I told you to eat the chips.” He helped her get up

“But I’m fine.” She said

“Sure you are.” He let out a breathy chuckle “Come on, you’re going to bed.”

“I am kinda tired.”

“I know.” He said wrapping an arm around her

He helped her get to her room and once they were there, he made her sit on the bed.

“Are you awake still?” He asked when she just plopped on the bed

“I don’t know.” She sighed and he rolled his eyes smiling a bit

“Can you tell me where your pajamas are?”

“Don’t worry, I can do it.” She said

“You can barely keep your eyes open.” He chuckled “Tell me where they are, I can get them for you.”

“Third drawer.” She replied

He walked over to the dresser and opened the drawer to take out a t-shirt and some sleeping shorts. He went back to the bed and he left the clothes next to Cat.

“Come on, get up.��� He grabbed her by the arm pulling her up so she could sit

“Why are you being so nice all of a sudden?” She looked at him

“What are you talking about?” He frowned squatting in front of her so he could see her face

The room didn’t have any lights on, the only light coming in was the one from the hall because the door was open.

“It just seems like you hate me sometimes.” She chuckled

“Hate is a strong word.”

“I think a man like you can handle that word.” She rolled her eyes

“I definitely don’t hate you.” He shook his head “Why would I?”

“Then why are you such an ass?”

“Why are you?”

“Fair enough.” She rolled her eyes “Get out, I’m gonna change.”

“You don’t want any help?”

She looked up at him and because she moved, their faces were very close. Her eyes went down to his lips and she shook her head lightly before running one of her hands over her forehead.

“Easy, soldier.” She shook her head “That wouldn’t be okay, would it?” She looked back at up at his eyes

“Says who?” He got back up

“You know it wouldn’t be okay.” She pushed him as she stood up from the bed

“Why?”

“Well for one, I’m drunk.” She said pushing him by the chest towards the door, so he was basically going backwards “And two, I don’t think our roommates would like it.”

“That makes it even more interesting.” Bucky leaned on the door frame

“Go to sleep.” She rolled her eyes with a little smile she was trying so hard to hide

“I’ll see you tomorrow.”

“Thank you for.. I don’t know.” She shrugged “For tonight I guess.”

“Anytime.” I smiled

“You have a very cute smile.”

“Wow you really are drunk if you’re complimenting me.”

“It just.. slipped.” She shook her head

“Right.” I chuckled

“Get out.” She giggled

“Good night.” He said

“Night.” She gave him a small smile

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[inkyucu]

ello ello

could we mayhaps hear a bit more about the double trouble eclipse au?

Sure! I can talk about it!

So me, being the Ruin apologist I am, decided to make an AU that's a lot like the canon up until it was revealed Ruin was faking it the entire time

In this AU, Ruin's cured personality is their real personality, and they actually did have the virus at some point. They still have the plans to wipe all the universes with the creator, but here they grew a lot closer to the celestial family and is devastated by the fact that Solar would die.

So instead of immediately enacting the plan, they try to find a way to keep Solar alive.

BUT.

They know that they can't do this alone

They know the others wouldn't be willing to help them because the idea of killing that many universes is insane.

They would need someone who also has a bit of an unstable and strange mindset

Enter: Eclipse

Begrudgingly, Ruin makes Eclipse not as a distraction, but as an assistant (they also made them super tall for some reason). Of course, this Eclipse - while similar - was made with an altered personality because Ruin didn't want to deal with THAT much of an asshole

The two of them at first are pretty bitter towards each other because.... Eclipse kinda just doesn't like anyone, and Ruin doesn't like Eclipse. Plus Eclipse is probably a little upset that this short robot can tell him to do anything and he has to do it because of his programming

But over time, they slowly warm up to each other because they're forced to always work together, eventually leading up to the current moment where they're close friends (and maybe something more??? We'll see :] )

A few extra details that I wasn't really sure where to put that more of just have to do with the characters themselves.

Eclipse is a very up front, no sugar coating guy with a pretty negative attitude towards everything. Usually he's either wearing a blank or bored face expression, or angry at something. But he does have a soft spot. ....Somewhere. It's also kind of obvious to everyone but Ruin that Eclipse as a thing for them. You know, that classic trope. This is still V3 Eclipse.

Ruin, like I said, has the cured personality. For the most part. The virus did somewhat alter their personality, causing them to be pretty aggressive at times. Think of a chihuahua, in both the height and anger issues. They potentially have either some sort of weird superiority complex, or some liking to tall people. No idea why else they made Eclipse so tall. They also somehow manages to be both incredibly intelligent and incredibly oblivious. How? Uh.... Because I said so that's how (I'll think of something probably)

The others are all in this AU too. For personalities, just think of how they currently act + Nexus is still New Moon with the good guy personality. While they're here, they're not very relevant characters other than for the plot and occasional interaction. Few other things; Molten has not shown up, and Dark Sun is around but mostly irrelevant for a while

For now I think that's it? More things need to be fine tuned, and some things may change, but that's the basic idea of what I currently have I'm pretty sure!

[gingergofastboatsmojito]

Logan Berzatto

Am I delulu? Yes.

Did I find parallels between Logan Wolverine and Logan Berzatto? Also yes.

Hear me out:

So Logan Wolverine is a lone wolf and constantly fighting the "beast" within him, has communication and anger issues and he blames the beast within him for his wife's death, and that guilt eats him away inside, he's highly traumatized since she died.

I have already mentioned that Carmy's whole arc is basically this:

And that Guilt is one of his main drivers:

Trauma is another:

Plus, "his nature" is affecting Syd, not killing her Marvel style, sure, but she's not loving it either, am I right or am I right?

And also, Logan Berzatto is not real, just like Logan Wolverine, whose real name is: James Howlett.

That's another reason why Carmy could escape the benign narcissist’s trap (at least for now) because she went for Carmy, but he served her Logan and Logan is not real.

That being said, I watched ALL the movies and this show for the plot. OFC.

[sugar-omi]

not the argument in the talks moment 😭😭😭 ever since i accidentally stumbled on that it has not left me, i constantly worry about how i am perceived and i do not take any kind of rejection well, even if it actually isnt one and is just a perceived rejection (autism, adhd, anxiety, and depression go brrrrr) so when i had my mc speak up about how they shouldnt tell terri that miranda confided in them since they didnt have her okay to do so and he just "Then why don't you just not say anything!? Because everything you say just makes everything worse!" fcuking broke me and i would imagine that my mc would not be able to get over it as easily as it is in game,,,, that sort of thing would probably make me/my mc completely shut down, inability to speak, only hyperventilate and cry, just completely shut down 🥲 and even when making up, i tend to internalize that sort of stuff, it stays with me against my will sfdlkj so i can just imagine mc either blurting out mid argument or when venting to cove and feeling badly about themselves something like "All I ever say just makes everything worse!" basically kind of quoting cove and i just aaaaaa ow ouchie,,,,, - 🕐 (hi idk if you remember me, its been a million years, but ive just been lurking, i hope youre doing well! 💕)

OMG MY FAV ANON HIIII🤭🤭 im gooddd tysm, I hope you're doing well🫶

but yeah omg same!!! I cant believe i forgot that line. I hate it sm omfg that was crazy n yeahh same, I literally internalize like almost everything. depending on who it comes from, I will 100% internalize it.

literally i. I'm very petty n vindictive, honestly that fight would've lasted days because I would've ignored him n been like "oh so now you want me to talk? what happened to my every word making it worse, huh?"

LIKE HE COULD NOT DO THAT TO ME. IM TOO READY TO GO NUCLEAR IF MY RELATIONSHIPS GO TO SHIT. IM TOO READY FOR ABANDONMENT LOL N LIKE MY ANGER ISSUES COULD NEVER???

so serious when I said id even break up over that. because now I'm scared that's what you're thinking any time we disagree or even are just having a "good" day. like my perception of myself, n how others perceive me is already bad. n it tok yearsss to stop thinking my friends were chatting shit behind my back. that should would send me back on a spiral

n I so get you, I would shut down and start crying too. like I'd get angry first, n kick him out. but I will start crying eventually, if not mid fight. just depends on what headspace I'm already in yknow

[uraberika]

AreOri and nostalgia

I read a hot take the other day on Twitter that said something along the lines of "AreOri isn't worse than all the other series, y'all all just blinded by nostalgia", and after a lot of pondering, I have to agree. I have not seen the later part of Ares, nor Orion but I think the way they utilised nostalgia was what made it kinda flop. Objectively speaking Ares does a decent job at being a soccer anime, but by so heavily bringing in elements that aim to make fans nostalgic and then fails to handle this nostalgia well is what makes the series lag behind all the others in the franchise.

Ares wanted to do too much all at once by making it into an alternate universe with the og cast included. While at first I was very excited about the reappearance of some of my faves, they did a poor job at handling characterisations. The og characters became bland and uninteresting because obviously the plot had to favour the development of the new main characters. This also ruined many Ares characters since it immediately invited the viewers to compare and contrast Asuto's gang with the og guys; and not only Asuto's team had more personality (which made fans who were hoping to see the og characters disappointed) but they seemed to have eerily similar traits to guys in the og series. Asuto, the sunshine boy, Haizaki with his anger issues and sick-loved-one-in-the-hospital problems, Nosaka the genius, emotionless tactician etc. In my opinion, there is nothing wrong with using a formula that seemed to work in previous installments, but the development of Ares characters 1) came at the detriment of the og character's development who just seemed to be background actors standing around without any real advancement of their own character or of the general plot and 2) was impossible not to compare and contrast the two groups of characters and find way too many similarities which makes the viewer (i am myself included xd) unable to appreciate the Ares characters as their own.

While this was going on, Ares also tried to use some tropes and themes that were already familiar to the audience. Yet again, a great move if executed correctly. My biggest issue with the execution here is that these tropes never fully made use of the full potential of Ares being in an alternate universe. We learn of Akane pretty early on in the series, Akane and Haizaki basically being the equivalent of Gouenji and Yuuka (or Gouenji and Yuuka with a different sort of relationship). Making a slight change in the trope of having a loved one in the hospital (like Haizaki and Akane being childhood friends) should have been enough, had Ares been a series on its own. The audience would have acknowledged that "haha this is a nod to the og series, how clever". But when Gouenji is right there, having gone through the same thing (especially if we considered how similar Akane is to Yuuka and Haizaki to Gouenji) the opportunity for these to bond (or hate, or whatnot, just to interact in any way) over this fact offers itself on a silver a platter, yet the series does not do anything with it, depriving both Haizaki and Gouenji from a potential character development.

The anime decided to create an alternative universe yet it was hesitant to harness the full potential of its alternative universe-ness. They could have used og characters to help them build the main character's personalities through interaction which they seemed to be doing, but at the same time, the og characters only seemed to be hollowed out shells of themselves, only there for a three minute appearance to draw in fans who started watching only to see this one character.

I think that's why I like Victory Road's premise so much. It seems to handle nostalgia much better than Ares did: the characters seemed to be very distinctly unique so far, no og characters to compare them to and a change in the protagonist's general attitude will also serve the game well, in my opinion. It alludes to previous series just enough for it to make fans want to pick it up while also introducing new, unique characters and a plot that replicates but also goes against the established story arc of Inazuma series. (I am aware that the fact that all the charas of previous series will be playable is also a big drawing force and that is the main reason that ppl are excited about this game haha).

So, in my opinion, the main reason people find AreOri the worst series in the franchise is because it establishes that it is going to rely on nostalgia and then does an abysmal job at making use of this nostalgia of the audience. It relies solely on the fans' dedication to their og characters - putting in og characters in the series as dummies with no real purpose, just so fans can say that their fave is in it - and completely forgets about the potential that fans can grow fond of new characters, can appreciate a storyline that is different from what they are used to.

I have to make it clear that I don't hate Ares, I just think that it was not well executed, due to in part in the way it relies on nostalgia, but I myself had enjoyed some parts of it when I was watching. And at the end of the day, it is a soccer anime which is mainly concerned with fancy hissatsus and high-stake matches and not the intricate details of their characters' personalities. I am also grateful for Ares because it was successful in making me nostalgic and indeed pulled me back to the franchise. Despite all the issues I think it has, a lot of characters turned out decent and I was very invested in the story when it first came out. What I also love about Ares is how it revived the fandom here on tumblr: the sakka fridays of watching the new ep without understanding anything, the long analysis posts, the fanarts and fanfics, I will always be thankful for its community-building.

Thanks for coming to my TED talk. xd

[mayfay-analysis]

MHA Yandere Quirk Ideas

To preface this I'm not really into yandere stuff and such haven't explored it enough to know more than the bare bone basics. That being said I Am into quirks, and after getting inspired by @dystopyx-blog and @evilminji and their stuff decided to throw out ideas. It's not nearly as polished as my traditional quirk analysis but it's Something and I just haven't had the motivation to do something refined. So with that out of the way, Ideas

Aizawa: https://www.tumblr.com/threepandas/753060246354903040/exactly-if-youre-scary-hurting-your-target?source=share  (I already did a bit of this guy with Minji and there's more quirk based stuff hidden in another reblog chain)

Midoriya (It’s actually Inko but shush)- Not gonna touch OFA with a 10 foot pole but Midoriya himself is actually pretty interesting. They don’t have a natural quirk of their own, so what Is there acts as very convenient support for many of my theories surrounding vestigial quirks and quirk inheritance patterns (namely the fact they tend to follow the mothers line and quirks are a blend of the biological and magical, rather than being a stark divide). So what does this mean? Any sorta obsessive tendencies would be entirely unexpected in him!

Quirks have a major impact on their hosts biology, ranging from the physical to the mental to the near magical. Add to that their lingering changes passing on from one generation to the next, even when the actual quirk has long changed beyond recognition, and you have an Interesting mix. 

Midoriya (in this case) displays obsessive tendencies and other behaviors that leave him firmly in Yandere territory, but where oh where could he get that from? It honestly could be due to upbringing, he DID spend the vast majority of his developmental period in life heavily bullied and socially isolated which is bound to have Some sort of effect on him, but my bet is Inko. 

See, Inko has a mental quirk, something that is bound to have a major impact on her psychology. And while we never get to see much of her life, what we do know is that she loved Midoriya with all her heart and only really put her foot down for anything when he got seriously injured multiple times with little done to change that. We also see that she’s Very emotional, managing to literally worry herself into passing out during the sports festival MULTIPLE TIMES. That in itself is enough to give her the base to build yandere characteristics off of but on top of that she tries to keep all her known friends together (we only have Mitsuki as an example here, but she stayed close enough for Midoryia and Bakugo to end up with a strong enough foundation of a friendship to have their weird ass dynamic survive all the way to high school) and her husband “went overseas”. Now he very well might have, but we never do figure out MHA’s living wage to average wage ratio or how child support and potential tax exemptions due to children work (damn you Horikoshi) so Inko could very well be supporting Midoriya on just her wage, especially since production costs probably go way down with the introduction of quirks and potential tech advancement (particularly in building costs and how that might transfer over to cheaper rent). And failing that she could very well be utilizing a portion of some sort of life insurance or inheritance. That of course does lead to the question of WHY  Inko might have disposed of her husband, but there’s plenty of possible reasons for that. Top ones I can think of is how quirks tend to relate to personalities in some way (clarification at the end of Midoryias section), and a fire quirk would be particularly dangerous. Fear for Midoriya's safety due to his quirkless status and Hisashi’s theoretical anger issues. Or maybe Midoryia didn’t factor in at all and rather Hisashi’s quirk was a super dangerous mix with Bakugos when his quirk first came in. Hisashi would’ve posed a serious threat to her friends kids safety just by Existing near him (assuming some sort of passive or unintentional activation, like sparks).

So, Inko matches enough boxes to be a yandere! Happy days, but what about Midoriya? Well, I might’ve forgotten about him but pretty much everything we went over with Inko could carry over to Midoryia. Obsessed with friends, inherited mutations to the brain (heavily supported by his seemingly super high intelligence, analysis, and anxiety seeming to mostly match Inko, meaning it could have ties to her quirk and the supporting mutations it came with and passed down), a willingness to endanger lives for the sake of friends (USJ, Kamino, debatably Overhaul and Gentle/La Brava), and overly emotional. Enough on its own, but added to that are the more behavioral things that likely only popped up in him (or simply weren’t shown in Inko’s screen time). Stuff like his analytical abilities (supported by his obsessive behavior), willingness to put up with far too much for the sake of friendship, and attachment issues stemming from the previously mentioned social isolation (interestingly NOT translating over to being touchy feely, as that usually gets initiated by someone else instead and seems to leave him uncomfortable, though that could be due to the instinctual connections to Bakugo’s bullying and turn right around once he’s comfortable enough with someone, something I think is shown with his willingness to hug Inko whenever possible, though my memory is spotty there).

So yeah, I don’t know enough about yandere stuff to know what that all actually builds into, but I leave it to you, like a cat leaving a dead bird at the doorstep.

For clarification on quirks impacting personalities I actually think that, outside of a few exceptions like Bakugo, this has more to do with societal expectations than biology. Now mutations could definitely play a role, such as increasing adrenaline production or heightened senses leading to sensory overload, but growing up being expected and forgiven for being mad all the time because you have a fire quirk, and then being met with confusion and hesitancy when you move out of that stereotype, is a great way to raise a child/young adult to meet every emotion and interaction with anger.

Ashido: The tail end of a mutant line (clarification is worth a whole post, but basically she has an ancestor who was a mutant, which has an influence on her quirk) that I suspect was based on some sort of horned lizard based on the horns, acid secretion, black sclera, and very loosely her hair acting kinda like a crest, making her appear larger in a way very reminiscent of horned lizards spikes around their head (her pink skin actually isn’t a mutation, but instead a sort of stain from a reaction her acid has on her skin, though some horned lizards do have minor control over their coloration that could be tied to that). Many of the base mutations in the original lizard quirk are likely long gone but some relevant ones may remain. Stuff like their burrowing habits (translating over to blanket forts and digging under the covers in Ashido), more meat based diet, ambush hunting strategy, and preference for warm places.

Asui: While not a “pure mutant” Asui still has TONS of frog behaviors and that’s likely to leak through in any sort of yandere situation. Unfortunately I never did manage to narrow down what frog species she’s closest too, but she’s pretty similar to Ashido with some standard stuff like ambush predator instincts, preference for warm environments, meat based diet, and potentially even the burrowing instincts. Less like Ashido would be the strong desire for water/humidity, potential climbing habits, occasional loud vocalizations (though I think that actually was greatly diminished when being passed on, being the source of her “ribbit” at the end of sentences rather than a loud croak), and shy behavior that turns into intense aggression when jealous (though that last one may be applicable to horned lizards, it’s not nearly to the same degree. Frogs are vicious man). Added to all the biology is the more societal impacts on Asui, with many mutants being discriminated against (especially one as noticeable as her), made worse by any lingering prey instincts potentially flaring up around other mutants. Not nearly as intense as Midoryias situation but still very isolating. This is made worse by the lack of accessibility for mutants (they’re very accommodated for in UA, but any scenes outside show a very baseline human centric design, something made note of in the Vigilantes spin off series, though admittedly that was focused on large mutants), so who knows what was expected of her growing up both physically and mentally. Girl is accidental autistic representation with how much masking she likely had to learn, and still comes off as off putting and blunt (it’s entirely possible she IS in fact autistic, but we don’t get enough screen time to make any proper conclusions there)

Iida: Very little to work with quirk wise here outside of some minor mutations to the brain's processing speed during quirk use and maybe some slightly higher spatial awareness, but Iida’s far from a lost cause. He grew up VERY restrained, only ever really showing strong emotions when (failing to) reinforcing rules, panicking, or driven over the edge by Stain. Considering how he never seemed to speak with anyone about his feelings about Stain and the constant comparisons to a robot as a kid (shown in Vigilantes) it’s not a stretch to assume that any intense feelings would be buried and ignored until they built up and he had no choice but to address them. This would be made even worse thanks to the fact he grew up very upper class and has likely made his “role” his whole being. Being forced to confront the fact he’s not a 2 dimensional being who follows every rule perfectly and doesn’t have any unsightly emotions is gonna be *rough*. Especially since the only other time this has happened was with Stain, which is a whole other can of worms.

Uraraka: Million ways to interpret her quirk but there’s a good chance for mental mutations that were originally meant for supporting her higher spatial awareness but led to her wanting her people around her, not to mention any other unintended consequences messing with brain development might have. Also worth pointing out she doesn’t seem to have many friends in canon, only being particularly close to Midoryia, Iida, and debatably Asui and Ashido. No one she knew before coming to UA. Add to that her focus on making money and it’s entirely likely she grew up fairly lonely, spending her free time working or training instead of hanging out with friends (somewhat supported by her rather large quirk limits, even at the entrance exam. Some possibility she has a desire to touch stuff thanks to her quirk, explaining why she’s usually the one to initiate hugs and whatnot. This would potentially be made worse if touch based quirks are discouraged from touching people (very shakily supported at right before the entrance exam when she apologizes for using her quirk on Midoriya, despite just saving him from falling) and her hypothetical lonely lifestyle pre-UA leaving her somewhat touch starved

Other notable students I considered doing but lost the momentum to do were Yaoyorozu, Kaminari, Todoroki, Bakugo, Hagakure, and Shinso (Mineta would've been super easy but no, just no)

[heguanshan]

Chrismas chapter analysis with next ch. prediction:

I am not sure if anyone have done that so I’ll begin.

1- First Mo Guan shan:

Momo seemed very distant, still angry tsundere and did not care about He tian which lead to the assumption that they still did not have any relationship yet, did not progress well, or the fact that Momo is still stubborn or He tian is unnecessary forceful.

But on the contrary, it wasn’t that Momo is distant he was just sad and angry that he tian left with no explanation (?) for so long that seeing him again is just like dream, momo still doesn’t comprehend it. That can be explained by how momo kept drinking to perhaps wash his agitated feelings somehow. I can’t really explain what was momo was feeling but it could be a mixture of deep yearning, anger, sadness and tired of waiting (?). Basically he just wants he tian and he’s not there.

You really can’t blame momo as his alleged boyfriend 🤡 disappeared (?) after all the kissing they have done 🤨 I’ll ignore him too (just for a short period lol)

2 - Next He tian

I am not sure how he will leave but judging from Momo’s cold attitude towards him at the beginning maybe it was sudden and did not explain much to momo why and how long. However, he said to momo:” I have so many things i want to say to you after leaving for so long”. So what does that mean? Is it to explain the long absence, what happened to him during that, why he left, or most importantly their relationship status!!

Is it a good thing he left? I mean tbh i can’t blame him, he need to settle his family issues or it will haunt him while having his relationship with momo, HT is now depending on his brother which is not ideal thus he needs to get stronger and independent, and in the meantime make money to support and heavily spoil his boyfriend of course.

3- Finally my prediction 😎🤡

So according to the pictures below, Zhanyi may actually go and find momo to hang out together… but of course momo won’t be alone!!

So Zhanyi will go Momo’s place and to their surprise will find He tian has returned!! But he’s carrying a drunk Momo and before they approach .. BAM 💥 they witness the drunk Momo pining He tian against the wall and kissing the sh*t out of him then He tian will carry him while kissing him to his flat closing the door behind him … all that while Zhanyi watching 🤣🤣😭

If you read this far… ily thank you 💕

[alexandia03]

Tell me about...

Bitter are the wars between brothers

Okay, I was actually waiting for someone to ask about this one and now I am thinking how to talk about it without giving too many spoilers (I am the kind that tells you the entire planned plot when asked because I am that excited).

Basically, Bitter are the wars between brothers is the only semi-complete snippet I wrote so far (like it has 10 pages so far) and it focuses on the main conflict of the second part of Memento Vivere (when I finally get to the IF events), namely Xaden's fallout with his inner circle after a series of mistakes and neglect. RY never talked about how Xaden's friends might feel after he becomes obsessed with Violet and it angered me a little to see that Bodhi had to return to Basgiath with a broken arm (and suffered for months from it) when Brennan was basically there and could have mended him had he and Xaden not decided that saving his energy in case Violet needed something else was more important.

And because the people on the discord server already have access to it, why not give you a little sneak-peak?

“The bones healed wrong after the battle of Resson…” Brennan begins and I bite my tongue not to scoff. Yes, that much we already knew... Anyone with eyes could tell as much. Well, most of us, at least, judging by the bewildered look on Xaden's face, as if he just found out his favorite puppy died. “… so in that regard, the fall was rather fortunate if you want to see it that way, because it reopened the wound and once he regains enough energy for it, I should be able to properly put the bones back in place. Tomorrow, most likely. The mending today took a big toll on him.” And on Brennan himself, I complete in my mind with a scowl. Garrick frowns, his grip on my hand tightening almost to the point it hurts, but I know it is unconscious – and it actually gives me something else to focus on aside from the boiling rage in my chest. “Fortunate? You mean to tell me he lived with a broken arm… for six months?!” He all but shouts, his voice taking a dangerous tone as his hazel eyes moved between Brennan and Xaden, finally understanding why it was so easy for Bodhi to fall off Cuir, why he was favoring his left side. “How could you let it happen?” “Of course, we never meant to put Bodhi in such a position, but after Resson, we had to chance his fracture healing on its own as there were more pressing…” Brennan starts explaining and there is a slight grimace on his face, a prang of guilt. But I came to understand there is a difference between guilt and remorse. “Wait!” Garrick cuts in, his eyes widening even more, but his attention is now solely on Xaden who is uncharacteristically quiet. “You knew his arm was in such a bad condition?” Xaden doesn’t even look at Garrick as he opens his mouth to answer, keeping his eyes on Brennan instead. “You never told me the wound was that serious… You said it would heal in time and there would be no issues. Had I known…”

Or maybe two sneak-peaks because I am feeling generous <3

Anger. And it is pointed towards me like an arrow aimed to pierce my heart. “Fucking traitor. I guess I should have seen this coming.” Traitor? Traitor?! He can’t possibly be talking to me, right? He is probably talking to Brennan after he stopped him… – Fuck it! Who am I freaking trying to fool? He is talking to me and I can’t even lie to myself and say that I didn’t see this coming. “What did you just call me?” I growl, my hand itching to wrap around the hilt of my dagger, but I resist the urge. No, I won’t resort to violence, it’s not the moment and it certainly isn’t worth it. At least not yet. The bastard has the audacity to scoff and roll his eyes at me. “Drop the act. You have been sneaking between me and Bodhi for years trying to push him away from me. It ends today, Imogen. Gods, I can’t believe I have been so blind until now… it’s my fault I allowed this situation to get so far.” “Oh, you are at fault here for a lot, but like always it is easier to blabber about shit than to take responsibility for your fuck ups. You want to pin it on me now that you saw you can’t do it to Brennan? Be my guest, but I can’t take credit for how much you fucked things up with Bodhi, that is all you, asshole.” I bite back, that bit of patience and restraint I was holding on to up to this point finally snapping. Gods, this is truly not the moment for this, for any of this. This is not the time for this stupid argument, not now and certainly not in here, while Bodhi is in pain in the next room. It is not like Xaden will actually listen to logic either, so it is pointless anyway. So I do the only rational thing I can do right now – I turn with the intention of going to Bodhi’s room. “Oh, the fuck you are! I am not letting you anywhere near him to poison his mind with all this vitriol you have against me! Leave him alone, Imogen, I mean it!” Xaden all but yells, shadows extending to form some sort of wall to the door.

[knightinink]

Incorrect batdr quotes but it's the Ink siblings

*Inky & Bendy are separate here, just because it makes for funnier scenarios (& I may or may not have been really invested in fanfics where they are too)

Audrey: What’s it like being tall? Audrey: Is it nice? Audrey: Can you reach comfortably for the cupboards?

Inky: We live in constant fear of the short ones who, in my experience, will climb 4 chairs, 2 boxes, a small coffee table and 6 oddly placed stools to get what they want.

Bendy: It was one time!

-

Audrey: What makes you think it's okay to watch Hannibal given its subject matter?

Bendy: Sometimes, I watch television shows for entertainment purposes.

Inky: Because I condone murder and cannibalism.

-

*Something crashes*

Audrey: Shoot-

Bendy: *running into the room in a panic* WHAT FELL?!

Inky: *walking by the room calmly* What died?

-

Bendy: Hold on! I’m having one of those things... a headache with pictures.

Audrey: What the fuck?

Inky: He’s having an idea.

-

Bendy: Why does everyone want to kill Audrey?

Inky: Because, goddamnit, have you seen her? Her neck looks so snappable.

-

Bendy: Have I ever told you that I love you with my whole heart?

Audrey: For the love of all that is holy, I am not taking you to McDonalds. It’s 2am!

Bendy: Mean.

-

Bendy: Can we go out to get icecream?

Inky: Did you ask Audrey?

Bendy: She said no.

Inky: Then why did you ask me?

Bendy: She’s not the boss of you.

Inky, internally: It's a trap, it's a trap, it's a trap.

-

Inky: Why is Audrey making me do the dishes again? You haven’t washed them in a week, Bendy!

Bendy: It’s because I’m Audrey’s favorite.

Inky: I hate you.

-

Store Worker: Would an “Audrey Drew” please come to the front desk?

Audrey, arriving at the desk: Hello, is there a problem?

Store Worker, pointing to Inky and Bendy: I believe they belong to you?

Inky and Bendy, simultaneously: We got lost.

Audrey: I didn’t even bring you guys here with me—

-

Inky: Some people are like slinkies.

Audrey: What?

Inky: Not really good for much but bring a smile to your face when you push them down the stairs.

Audrey:

Audrey: Please don't push Bendy down the stairs.

Inky, pushing Bendy down the stairs: Too late.

-

Audrey, to Inky: Why is Bendy not talking?

Inky: I'm playing the silent game with him.

Audrey: Well, then you just lost.

Inky: I lost two hours ago. I gave him ear plugs and told him to close his eyes. It was the only way I could think of to get him to shut up.

-

Audrey: You are irrationally angry 365 days a year.

Inky: Well, that’s just your personal opinion, I don���t have anger issues. Do you guys think I have anger issues?

Bendy: Well, I wouldn’t really call it an issue. An issue is something you can fix.

-

Inky: Uh, I think I got your lunch. *Holds up a note that reads: ‘I am very proud of you. Love, Audrey’*

Bendy: Oh yeah. I didn’t think this was for me. *Holds up a note that reads: ‘Be good. For the love of God, Please be good.’*

-

Audrey: Self care is stuff like taking a bubble bath or putting on a lot of make up if you like that, or taking a nice warm nap and stuff like that basically.

Inky: Self care is the burning heat when rage washes over you. self care is when you feel the bones crack under your powerful fists. self care is the fear in your enemies eyes.

Bendy: Self care is stealing someone’s birthday cake just to eat the frosting.

Inky: If you touch my birthday cake I’ll make you eat your hands.

[ryuatewater]

only sometimes 💔💔💔💔💔 (no the answer to that is all the times unless something specific. mostly with you though im obvious because why not)

also. what happened like who started it first and why and how did your mother react to you being in a fight because of that reason

Uhhh wait i think i had a whole samsung notes page whatever explaining it

Nvm i think its on my other phone

Basically some dude from my class came to me calling me the f slur and just in general cuesing at me bc i had a girlfriend

And fun fact about me i have anger issues and qhen i get too angry i hurt either myself or someone near to me (sometimes even objects too) ssoooo i just... kicked rhe guy in the nuts

After that i just realized what i had done like "shit" and as the guy fell to the ground i ran off to the classroom my gf was in (she ignored it)

After class that guys friends came up to me like were gonna beat you up n shit but i felt safe bc i was with my friend n stuff

And after lunch i went to the restroom stall to do my business when a bunch of girls came in like "wheres ryu i heard theyre gonna beat her up" so naturally im just in my stall staying silent, i donr come out bc theyre literally right outside why would i am i stupid?

THEN a girl noticed it was me in the stall i think so some girls older than me came they were talking stuff outside the stall with a tone n i couldnt understand bc i was crying my eyes out and my mind was racing

The boys sister (who at the time was a 5th grader) started kicking the door and since i was holding the door shut with my body, i felt the kick too, at this point i was screaming crying just like really upset and scared

I think some girls heard abt it and told the principal? Cuz the principal (also a girl) came into the restroom like "everybody out" and she held my hand, walking me to her office where she told me i could walk home

When i got home my mom noticed i was shaking and she was like "what happened?!" I told her everythin and she was FURIOUS

I was already a "special" kid who got bullied so when she heard that they actually tried to hurt me she was understandably mad

She stormed to the police station kinda mad

We went, i told them everything and uuuhh we didnt get in any trouble, the boy didnt get in trouble i mean they literally did not mind anything the boy or his friends did but they just mentioned that id be the one in trouble bc i kicked the boy

They said i was lucky they didnt press charges or whatever

So yeah the law systems fucked, kill everyone, burn shit, do arson <333

BTW I GOT IN MORE TROUBLE FOR KISSING MY GF THAN LITERALLY KICKING A KID IN THE NUTS 😀

[and-claudia]

His Heir pt 26 (Darth Maul x pregnant! reader)

Masterlist

Taglist sign-up (there have been some issues with people not fully reading the requirements for being on the taglist, so, please, read everything thoroughly)

Word count: 1990 (I know it's shorter but I hope the content makes up for that!!)

Warnings: Angst

image not mine

The next morning when I got up I decided I really couldn’t bring myself to face Maul. So I grabbed my datapad and messaged Qi’ra. 

I am not feeling well this morning. Please inform Lord Maul that I will not be attending any of the meetings today. I will send my notes over to you as soon as I translate them into galactic basic. 

I knew I should just suck it up and go, but I didn’t want to. As I began to translate my notes from Mando’a to basic, I watched and waited for her to reply. 

Of course. I will let him know. Take your time on the translations… I have a feeling Rellen will be late again today.

Her response made me smile a little knowing that she was probably right. 

Maul’s PoV

“Good morning, Lord Maul.” 

I glanced up as Qi’ra entered my office. 

“Lady Qi’ra,” I nodded at her, “Have you seen Lady Yn this morning?” 

“No, I have not. She did message me this morning though.” 

“Oh?” 

Why would she be talking to Qi’ra and not me?

“She asked me to inform you that she wasn’t feeling well and wouldn’t be at any meetings today. She’s been working on translating her notes and sending them to me.” 

I was slightly angered that she would use Qi’ra, someone she has despised, to relay a message to me rather than just speaking with me herself. I let out a frustrated sigh as I tried and failed to wrack my brain to figure out what I had done to upset her. 

“Very well. Let’s get going. Hopefully, Rellen learned from her tardiness yesterday.” I mumbled. 

When we arrived I was surprised to see Rellen already waiting for us. I rolled my eyes as I saw what she had been wearing. She wasn’t the first one to come in here and try to use their body to get what they wanted from me, nor would she be the last. People constantly did it, it never got them anywhere. 

“Lord Maul, good morning. You look rather handsome this morning.” She said, crowed my personal space. 

I looked down at her. 

“Thank you.” I said blankly. 

“Do you like my gown? I had it made especially for today. Doesn’t it look stunning on me?” She batted her eyelashes at me. 

“It’s a lovely dress. But I don’t believe this meeting is to discuss your fashion sense. So, if we’re finished, I’d like to begin.” I said, stepping around her and heading to my seat. 

“Wait!” She let out a drastic gasp, gaining everyone’s attention as they took their seats as well, “Where’s your advisor… oh what’s her name! The pregnant one that sat here yesterday. Where is she?” 

“Lady Yn wasn’t feeling well this morning.” I informed her. 

A pout formed on her lips. 

“Pitty.” 

I ignored her comment and nodded over to Qi’ra to begin the meeting. 

As the day drug on I expected to hear from Yn but nothing ever came through. Part of me wondered if I had actually done something wrong or if perhaps it was just hormones. I didn’t want to accuse her of that of course but I could not for the life of me think of anything I had done within the last 24 hours that would have upset her so much. 

I figured I would just give her space for now and let her come to me when she was ready.

As the days passed, however, I had had enough. I needed to know what was going on. I stood from my desk and walked over to the door that connected my office to theirs. My plan was to just ask Yn to come in and ask her flat out what was going on but when the door opened she was nowhere to be seen. 

“Have you seen Yn?” I asked. 

“No, Lord Maul, I haven’t.” She said a bit too quickly. 

“You’re lying to me. Why?” I growled. 

Her eyes went wide for a moment before she managed to compose herself, “I promised her I wouldn’t say anything.” 

I barely listened as she spoke, already digging through her mind. 

“Lord Maul, you do know there were others out there that would have willingly given you a much better heir than she ever could." 

"Perhaps that is true…” 

The words echoed in my ears. Anger bubbled up within me. 

“Meet me in the throne room. And have our guest meet us there.” I said through gritted teeth. 

Yn’s PoV

It had been a couple of days since I stopped speaking with Maul. After I skipped a day of work, I decided to go back. But then, even during meetings, I kept the number of times I spoke directly to him to a minimum. It was taking a toll on both of us but I wasn't about to cave in. I had just returned to my quarters to eat some lunch and work on a few things at my desk when there was a knock on the door. 

"Yn, it's Qi'ra. Please let me in, it's urgent." She said slightly frantically. 

I quickly stood while taking another bite of food into my mouth, I was starving because I hadn't wanted to eat breakfast after being sick since early this morning. Morning sickness was coming back with vengeance it seemed. After wiping my hands on my pants I opened the door. 

"What's going on? Is everything alright?" I asked. 

"Not really. Come with me I'll explain on the way." She said. 

"Okay, hold on." I said stepping back into the room to grab my shoes that I had taken off. I opted to just hold them in my hand as we hurried off. 

"First off, I'm sorry he got it out of me, he knows why you've been so upset. He got into my head and dug it out himself, I tried to stop him but I couldn't." She apologized. 

"It's alright, it wasn't your fault." I said truthfully. I was the only one I knew of that could kick him out. But that comes from years of practice. 

"He grew very angry and lashed out. He killed the Rellen, someone has already been sent to clean that up in the throne room. As for Maul, I was told he stormed off to his quarters. He's upset, clearly, you’re the only one who can calm him." She explained. 

"Okay, you go check on everything in the throne room. I'll go handle him." I said as we came up to a junction in the halls and parted ways. I got to his quarters and didn't even bother knocking, I just put in the key code and let myself in. I could hear sobs of frustration coming from his room. 

I slowly approached the doorway. The room was dark with the only light coming from the living room. I could see him sitting against the side wall, back towards me, leaning sideways against the wall. 

"Maul." I said softly. The worst thing to do right now would be to scare him. 

I slowly approach him. "Maul, it's me."

I gently reached out to touch his shoulder. When he didn't pull away I used his shoulder as a support to help myself lower down to sit next to him on the ground. Even in his broken, cut-off state, he instinctively reached up a hand to guide me down to the ground beside him. 

"I'm sorry." I said quietly. 

He turned to me suddenly, golden eyes shining with tears. It broke my heart to see him like this, knowing that I was part of why he felt this way. 

"No,” He mumbled weakly before speaking up a bit more, “No, you have no reason to be."

I shook my head, "I was just in a bad mood that day, I let it get the best of me." I said, gently rubbing a hand up and down his back. 

"Yn, it is I who is in the wrong, I should have never said what I did. I said it to appease our guest. I never once stopped to consider how it would affect you. I let her disrespect you and our child. I said nothing to defend either of you, and for that I'm so sorry, dear." He said, voice trembling slightly. 

He sounded so broken and it actually hurt my heart. I carefully got up and crawled into his lap. He sat awkwardly instead of holding me like he usually would. 

"Maul, hold me please." 

"I don't deserve you." He said as his arms slowly circled around me, hands coming to rest on the side of my belly and his face buried into the side of my neck. 

"Yes, you do. You deserve so much more than me." 

"How? I'm a monster. I've killed countless people. I'm the head of a massive crime syndicate. And I hurt the woman that I love." 

I was stunned for a moment. 

“I’m sorry. This is hardly the time to announce that. But I do, Yn. I love you. I have for some time now. That’s another reason why I wanted it to be you and no one else to help give me an heir. I completely understand if you no longer want to live here, I understand. And if you want to change any part of our arrangement, I understand.” 

“Maul…” I cut him off. 

I heard him swallow hard. 

“Yes?” 

“Say it again.” I requested, my voice nothing more than a whisper as if speaking too loudly would cause him to change his mind. 

“What?” 

“Say that you love me again.” I got off his lap carefully and turned to face him. 

“Yn, I love you…” 

A smile began forming on my lips and tears pricked at my eyes. It felt like I had been waiting all my life to hear those words said to me by someone who actually meant it. And hearing it from him, from Maul, from the man I loved too, it was almost overwhelming. 

“Maul…” My voice faltered. 

He shook his head, looking down and holding his hand up to stop me. 

“It’s alright.” He sounded so dejected. 

“No… Maul, I love you too.” 

He looked up at me upon hearing the confession. I took a deep breath. 

“And I promise it’s not just hormones or anything like that. I’ve been in love with you since Mandalore… I just figured you’d never feel the same… that’s why I agreed to help with your heir. I figured that perhaps if I couldn’t have you, I could at least have a part of you… I love you, Maul. It’s almost scary how much I love you. I never really knew someone could ever have this much love for someone. And I never thought someone could ever love me in the same way… I never thought I deserve it.” I said, voice shaking as I was brought back momentarily to my childhood. 

Maul inched closer and shushed me, gently pulling me to him and holding me tight. 

“Sh, it’s alright.” He said gently. 

I nodded slightly, letting him know I was okay, and he pulled back enough to look me in the eyes. 

“Yn, you have always deserved to be loved. What you were shown as a child was wrong. And I vow to you, right now, that I will do everything I can to prove that to you and to our child.” His voice held so much passion in it. 

I could only nod before slowly leaning in to kiss him. It was soft and short. When it broke neither of us was in a hurry to pull away. He had one of his hands resting delicately on the back of my head, as mine held him gently by his cheeks. Our foreheads were pressed together. 

“I love you, Maul.” I whispered. 

“I love you too, Yn.” 

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