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not feeling safe your whole life to share your real honest feelings with your father because he explodes and takes it as a personal, utterly disrespectful offense when you have, but now youre trying to learn and heal from that so you decide to be honest about your feelings with your father instead of lying to please him and he explodes and takes it as a personal, utterly disrespectful offense <
#👍#and when you literally explain this to him he claims that he did no such thing#because he cannot do anything without fighting and opposing. and he does not know what it is to simply let something be#and he deludes himself into thinking because he has good intentions no one can fault him for bad outcomes and if they do thats disrespectful#THATS WHAT IT IS OH MY GOD. ive been trying to figure iut what thr hell it is hecause its so confusing#he always says ‘my intentions are good. you know that right?’ etc etc etc everything about how hisnintentions are good#LIKE BROTHER I KNOW THAT!!!! I KNOW!! but good intentions do not excuse anyone from the harm they may cause!!!!#thats not how it works!! you are AVOIDING TAKING RESPONSIBILITY FOR THINGS BY USING GOOD INTENTITON AS AN EXCUSE#i KNOW you mean well. and thats commendable. thats great. but you fucking HAVE to realize that#good intention does not automatically translate over to good action#GOOD INTENTION =/= GOOD ACTION#FUCKING HELL MAN#or maybe its better to say good intention does not automatically translate to excused actions#because then he would say he never CLAIMED to always do the right/good things because of his intentions#the problem is that he WILL NOT take accountability for when he doesn’t end up doing the right thing even when he has good intention#because he cannot possibly see himself as in the wrong or being able to improve as long as he meant well#froegis meep tag
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Character Analysis – Huan
I was thinking about why Huan leaves Celegorm when he does, and it’s clearly not just “he likes Lúthien better.”
The first question to answer is, why does it happen during the Leithian and not during or after Alqualondë? And while the Doylist (out-of-universe) reason for that is provably that Tolkien thought up the character of Huan specifically for the Leithian and didn’t think much about his role in the story before then, I think there’s a decent Watsonian (in-universe) one as well. Huan is a dog; an intelligent dog, yes, but a dog. He thinks like a dog, and he has the political understanding of a dog, which is to say: not much. If he wasn’t involved in the fighting at Alqualondë himself – and there’s no textual reason to think he was – I don’t think he would have had much understanding of what was going on beyond “people are fighting”.
But in Nargothrond Lúthien is talking to him, and she’s saying, “Someone that I love and am devoted to is in terrible danger from Sauron and his werewolves, and Celegorm is holding me prisoner and won’t let me help him”. That is something a dog can understand. And Celegorm understands the speech of animals – Huan can talk to Celegorm without needing elven or hunan language – but Celegorm isn’t listening. So Huan decides that Celegorm is doing sonething wrong, and that he’s going to help Lúthien rescue Beren.
And then, this is crucial, Huan goes back. He goes back to Celegorm, despite Celegorm being mad as hell at him for helping Lúthien escape. If he was just leaving because he liked Lúthien better, he wouldn’t have done that; he could have just gone with her and Beren then. He is actively choosing to renain loyal.
My understanding of Huan’s decision there is that he’s going to continue as he’s started: he’s going to be loyal to Celegorm and follow him, but if Celegorm tries to do things that Huan cannot morally countenance, Huan will try to stop him, and accept the consequences if Celegorm is angry at him for that.
So now let’s go to Celegorm and Curufin’s final attack on Beren and Lúthien. What changes then? The argument I’ve seen is, ‘But why at that precise moment? Celegorm wasn’t even doing anything particularly problematic compared to his other actions at the moment Huan changed sides! He was just trying to stop Beren from strangling Curufin!’
So, walking through what happens. Everything is happening extremely fast at the beginning – this isn’t an isolated sequence of events. Celegorm and Curufin see Beren and Lúthien walking unawares; they suddenly spur their horses at them, Celegorm comes at Beren with a spear while Curufin grabs Lúthien, and right when Celegorm’s about to spear Beren, Beren makes a jump and tackles Curufin off his horse. Huan doesn’t know what Celegorm and Curufin are doing until they do it, and there’s about a second between that and Beren tackling Curufin off his horse.
And what’s changed now is that Huan’s previous choice of action is no longer possible. He can’t just choose to oppose specific actions. Working for or with Celegorm means being complicit in good peoples’ deaths; there’s no opt-out, nobody-gets-hurt option. If Huan does nothing, Beren dies, in a fight that was caused by Celegorm and Curufin attacking two unarmed people at unawares.
And that’s when Huan changes sides. Not because he’s just decided he likes Beren and Lúthien better than Celegorm (he clearly likes them, but he stayed with Celegorm all the same after Tol-in-Gaurhoth), but because Celegorm has become someone who cannot be served innocently. The options are to let Celegorm kill people, or to stop serving him.
And crucially, this does not lead to Curufin dying – because Lúthien asks Beren to spare him, and Beren listens to her. Because Lúthien and Beren are good people whose character can be relied on, and heling them doesn’t mean people die – not even their enemies. If that hadn’t happened, I don’t think Huan would have stayed with them, even if he had still left Celegorm.
A lot of the story of the Fëanoreans and their followers can be fit into a framework of the question “At what point does loyalty become immoral?” It’s evoked in Maedhros defying Fëanor at Losgar; in some of the Fëanorean forces changing sides at Sirion and dying in defence of their victims; in the final conversation between Maedhros and Maglor. Loyalty to your father, to your liegelords, to your brother; and loyalty of a dog to his master.
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Hi saw that your request was open can you please do a platonic Blade from hsr when reader is his little sister/brother, and Blade just loves them to death. I can see an overprotective Blade with his younger sibling.
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・─ pairings : Blade x GN!reader
・─ synopsis : Headcanons of Blade and little siblings + fluff !!
・─ a/n : I'm truly grateful each day with all of wholesome request, thank you so much dear requester and hope you'll enjoy this one 💗! I'm not sure with how Blade would act since I just got to Luofu a day ago, and since we barely got info of his canon age.. I'll give you two separate headcanons with different range of age gap.
" A day of your arrival on this world, a bliss of happiness draw across a boy face. As soon as the boy saw your face, that when he knew he'll caring for you "
6-8 years old gap :
★ Everything you need is an instant obligation for Blade. He would literally treat you like a literal royalty to put in a sense, that show how much he cares and love for you.
★ Tired of walking? He'll piggyback you. Feeling hungry? He got you snack on his pocket (I rather believe he always bring your fav snacks anywhere he goes so in any case you're hungry, he could just summon it out of his pocket).
★ You are his only siblings, he'll do anything to reserve the world just for you.
★ Not even a thought ever came across his mind that you are a bothersome, he always find your company the most comforting, a relief even.
★ Whenever he came back from his mission, you'll makes sure to greet him with a hug (he almost got into a breakdown because you are so precious to him).
★ Your body are so small compare to his, but it's a good thing because you can literally clinging onto his leg.
★ Kafka also loves to hanging out with you, she even give you a beginner gunmanship lesson because you are Blade little siblings (Blade relatives privilege)
★ But oh boy.. Do Blade even agree to it? Heck he's a literal worrysome; what if you gotten hurt? You are still a child, Kafka shouldnt taught you that. Battle just didnt suited you, he'll rather have his hand dirty than seeing you involved in one.
★ But most of his thought are how much he wanted to spend times with you. Seeing someone else taking away your time to hangout with others does saddened him a bit.
★ "Put yourself to rest, Kafka. I will be the one to taught y/n the swordmanship"
★ "What a sudden outburst.. Just say you wanted to play with your little siblings~"
★ The age gap may not huge, but he always view and treat you as a baby
★ His cold death stare replied to Kafka remarks, but eventually we all know you'll both goes to play around together.
2-3 years age gap
★ The first time you joined Stellaron Hunter, he kinda opposed to your decision, but soon he'll accept it once he found out every mission will be including you involved in.
★ Every mission going so fun with you, it went very well that both of you receive a nickname as "The Hunter Siblings"; It just shows how powerful both of your dynamic are.
★ Though, he knows well you can fight well, yet he can be overprotective at a times.
★ You can be a bit reckless at a times, so it's his responsibility to get in charge if anything worst happens.
★ Also, he can't stand anyone near around you, even he cannot trust how the Stellaron Hunter member would acts around you. It's kind of like a delusion sprout that growing in his head and all he can think about is the worst scenarios.
★ To put much surprises for both Kafka and Silver Wolf is that,
★ He tend to do this to find your usual reaction of either embarrassed or slight annoyance. And what's annoying to you, its that Blade doesnt know a good timing to pull his jokes.
★ Blade actually pull a lot of jokes so much around you (mostly sass which you'll get used to it).
★ It became a habit between both of you to pull a playful tease and jokes around.
★ Even Kafka and Silver Wolf admitted to find it amusing due to your reaction on getting teased..
★ But without you notice, Blade does this a lot knowing you can be so nervous before the battle. He want to lighten up your mood before doing the job.
★ "What? The baby need to put their diaper on? If not, you are going to piss yourself in a battle" he sarcastically remarked, you swear you could hear his low chuckles; and the worst is he's doing it infront Kafka and all you can do is to hold yourself together.
★ "NOT INFRONT OF- DUMB BROTHER, I WILL KILL YOU!"
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Going to the club - MultiMuse x Fem!Reader
Pairing: Multimuse x Fem!Reader
Warnings: Mentions of alcohol, fighting, blackout drunkeness. Nothing too serious though.
Type: Blerps a little sprinkle of HC
Request: N/A
Word Count: N/A
Prompt: Going to the club with the muses and how they’d react or feel and what they’d do. Just a little messy fic, trying to get my creative juices back.
Notes: I pledge allegiance to Sean Paul.
Jason Voorhees: What a lost little baby, he doesn’t like the loud music or the bright lights at all. He’s kind of frozen, just standing by your side, it’s so hard to keep up with you. He likes to watch you dance and enjoy yourself though, but he starts to zone in and out as the night goes on. If you get him used to it, he slowly would become used to the surroundings and eventually would come out of his shell. It’d be so cute to watch Jason dance around in his little corner with his colorful drink that’s too small for his hands.
Michael Myers: Will not move at all, no matter how much you bump your hips into him, trying to get him to dance with you. Michael will follow you anywhere, but that doesn’t mean he has to participate. You may be getting drinks and he’d be standing right beside you, but even turning your back for a second, he’s gone. You’ve gotten used to that. When you’re dancing on the floor, you then catch a glance of a familiar mask. It’s nothing that you’re not used to, but it definitely would be more fun if you got him to budge, either way, rest assured yours and your friends’ drinks are safe with him.
Tiffany Valentine: LOOOVES IT. Would go to the club every night if you asked. Dressing up would absolutely be her favorite part. Tiffany would love to help you with your make up and choosing your outfit. If you’re really about it, she would pregame with you. She would encourage you to drink s o m u c h. If you meet her energy, you absolutely have to plan for after, getting food and getting home, however if you don’t then you may have to take care of her even a little into the next morning. It’s not anything new to you two. Tiffany definitely loves to have fun and going to the club, dancing and drinking without a care in the world would be one of the best date ideas you could come up with.
Billy Loomis: Is literally only down because he wants to see you in a short skirt or dress. That’s it. He likes the drinking too, but nothing that can compare to a horror movie party at Stu’s. Billy wouldn’t suggest going to the club, but he wouldn’t oppose to it. Would watch you get ready, staring you down from the corner of the bed as you put your make up on. He’s pretty much only drinking at the club and watching you get loose, swaying back and forth with hair tangling across your face without any rhythm. It’s kind of cute and kind of hot.
Stu Macher: Would love to go with you, he may not be as enthusiastic as Tiffany, but he loves to drink. When would Stu ever miss the opportunity to see you get dressed up and drunk? If he ever does, he made you promise him to shoot him. Stu would not be shy to let loose with you, ordering drink after drink, dancing until you literally cannot stand anymore. If the crowd matched his energy, you’d catch him climbing the stage and pretending like he’s grinding on the pole fully dressed. The headaches incoming are going to be gnarly, who’s turn was it to take care of the other this time?
Patrick Bateman: Is used to going to bars and clubs of all sorts, mainly high end ones. Patrick wouldn’t say no to your suggestion, not opposed to having a drink or two. You wouldn’t catch him shitfaced though. He kind of is just there to make sure you don’t get out of hand and embarrass him, but at the same time, he’s there to show you off knowing his friends would have a thought or two of lust cross their minds. He’d be an excellent caretaker for a hangover though, he knows exactly what to do but he also wouldn’t be accommodating to your circumstances, after all he warned you after the fourth drink you ordered.
Leatherface: Also kind of a baby, but an excited baby. At first he’d be scared, absolutely, but after some reassurance and encouragement, he’d be dancing next to you feeling the beat of the music. He doesn’t like the taste of alcohol, but he doesn’t really need liquid courage to sway his little hips around. He would be an excellent hangover caretaker, always making sure you had enough cold rags on your forehead and water. Of course he’d be ready to go next weekend, he didn’t have to deal with that headache.
Harley Quinn: LIIIIVES to go have fun and going to club with you sounds like the perfect night. Dressing up and putting on makeup is definitely fun, but actually getting there and dancing and drinking is the highlight of the night. You never have to worry about any creeps when you’re with Harley. Some nights you get shitfaced, why even hide it. Either way, I would say Harley would probably be the most fun out of the list to go clubbing with. Waking up in an alley is not totally unusual, but most of the nights you make it home safely, whether it’s back home or back to Ivy’s. Usually Ivy is the one nursing you both back to health.
Poison Ivy: Would get a little drink or two, but mainly is looking out for you and Harley and Selina. Not that she would absolutely have to, but she likes to be a little more on the cautious side when it comes to you three. Not to mention Ivy would be the one alongside Selina to make sure you four look stunning. Ivy would absolutely dance with you for a few songs before going back to your table. 10/10 Would be ordering bottle service. Not a fan of you guys going home with anyone, but wouldn’t stop you unless she had a reason to.
Bruce Wayne: Doesn’t like the clubbing scene too much but will go with you. He has a playboy appearance to keep up with anyway. He would definitely use this as an opportunity to get some intel that maybe batman couldn’t. Orders drinks for everyone at his table to seem drunker than he is, but really he’s trying to figure out why a certain ambassador is visiting the grimy scene of Gotham’s underground club. Won’t dance though, as much as you want to get him to. He’s content at the table keeping an eye on you as you sway around in the center.
Jason Todd: All for it. Can’t guarantee that there won’t be a bar fight because someone touched you or someone you’re with. Other than having to be cautious with Jason’s temperament, it’d be pretty fun. He doesn’t mind the music or the drinking, it’s the time to let loose and have fun. Honestly, to your surprise Jason is a pretty good dancer. Hope you’re not the jealous type because he definitely has hungry eyes all on him. Jason doesn’t get drunk too easily, but he’s a bit of a baby when it comes to the hang overs. After a few painkillers, he’s ready to go again until you’re the one yelling at him to lay down.
Steve Rogers: Actually kind of down. Would help you choose your outfits and whether he admits it or not, he would try to match you, whatever you were wearing. Steve actually wants to see what all the hype is about. Most of the time he’s enjoying himself, just swaying from side to side with a drink in hand, watching you dance. Of course he’d be the one to make sure no one got handsy, therefore you and your friends could enjoy themselves. Loves to see you enjoy yourself most of all and honestly wouldn’t even hesitate to go next weekend and the weekend after that if you’re free of course.
Bucky Barnes: Is a tad bit more reserved than Steve. He wouldn’t be necessarily ecstatic to go to the club, not if it wasn’t for a mission. Still, somehow the thought of you going alone just didn’t sit right with him. Honestly kind of awestruck with the way you doll up to go to the club. You were there to have fun anyway, why not add a little glitter to your hair and face. It looked mostly like you were going to a rave, but either way, Bucky refused to peel his eyes off of you, from the bar to the floor. Kind of like Steve, he’s watching you from afar, keeping the creeps off of you. You would literally have to drag these men to the floor if you want to see them move at all.
Loki Laufeyson: Clubbing isn’t really his scene, but if you insisted on going, Loki was sure as hell going with you. Of course he would see this more of a Tony or Thor kind of scene, but he can’t help to smile to himself upon watching yourself enjoy the music, the dancing, the drinking. It was the time and place to let loose and after a hard week, it was exactly what you were going to do. After going to the club scene a few times, Loki would grow more comfortable with it, opting to follow you to the floor and move around a little more.
Cloud Strife: It’s not really his comfort zone, but he would oblige to follow if you wanted to go. He’s mostly brooding and standing nearby with his arms crossed and stone frown. No matter how many times you try to convince him that it’s fun, he doesn’t seem to get the hint. Not until you put your foot down and ask him to dance with you. Showing him how to move with the rhythm of the beats, he seems to catch on faster than you’d expect. Though he’d never admit it, it was actually kind of fun. Not to mention, seeing you dressed up and ready to dance until your feet couldn’t hold you up anymore, it definitely helped.
Spencer Reid: Like many others, maybe it’s not where he’d spend his free time, but he’s had his fair share of going to clubs, many times being mistaken to be underage. It’s not until you continue to plead for him to follow you to the floor that he does. You don’t need him grinding on you, but you want to move around to the music near him. You wanted him to have fun too. It’s definitely a way to begin teaching him. After a few drinks, Spencer would absolutely become the life of the party and the hangover party too. After his pounding headache the next day, he’d swear to never do it again, but then it does happen again.
#Michael Myers x Reader#Tiffany Valentine x Reader#Billy Loomis x Reader#Jason Voorhees x Reader#Patrick Bateman x Reader#Stu Macher x Reader#Leatherface x Reader#Harley Quinn x Reader#Poison Ivy x Reader#Bruce Wayne x Reader#Jason Todd x Reader#Steve Rogers x Reader#Bucky Barnes x Reader#Loki Laufeyson x Reader#Cloud Strife x Reader#Spencer Reid x Reader
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Teen!Regressor Jack Twist Headcanons
I haven't seen anything of Jack regressing, but he's ALSO regressor-coded to me. Mentions of baby Ennis because I cannot help myself I'm addicted
CW: Mentions of hypersexuality
☘︎ Teen regressor; Regresses to the ages 14-19 usually
☘︎ He regresses both voluntarily and involuntarily. Given his natural childish demeanor, it's hard to notice when he is regressing and this can leave him feeling stressed and dissatisfied with no clue why
☘︎ Started regressing when he was late twenties/early thirties. It was a way to escape the stress of being a new father + the situationship with Ennis. He likes returning to who he was when he met Ennis. It makes it feel okay, if only for a moment
☘︎ He writes in a diary (he insists it's a journal) when he's regressed. He complains a lot there. It helps him get those repressed feelings out without throwing a teen tantrum. He doodles sometimes. Ennis has never seen them, but Jack gets too embarrassed
☘︎ Smokes and drinks a lot less, surprisingly. It's more thrilling when he does as opposed to the casual sipping/smoking he does in big space. Plus, he's deathly afraid of getting caught by Ennis
☘︎ Ennis is a total hardass of a dad. It gets on Jack's nerves. He's not rebellious on purpose, but he is rambunctious, and this causes conflict between the two
☘︎ This is rarely a problem. 70% of the time, Jack is babysitting a regressed Ennis. He gets a lot of joy, but can be overbearing to Ennis with his energy. Poor baby just needs sleep
☘︎ Helps with his hypersexuality problems. It's easier to blame it on puberty and ignore it than accept it comes from a need to be loved :(
☘︎ ROLLERSKATES!! He's not great at it, he only practices when he's regressed, but he has fun, falls and all
☘︎ Likes playing ball with Ennis too! Ennis gets tuckered out way too fast, and jack pesters him until he agrees to play again
☘︎ Play fights a LOT. Will randomly tackle Ennis to the ground
☘︎ On the phone a concerning amount. The whole time he's rambling on about his day to Ennis. He fiddles with the cord
☘︎ He also chews on pens. Every time he's regressed, one of his pens gets chewed half to death. Absentminded habit
☘︎ He's a destructive teen. He'll do stupid stuff and end up breaking a bottle of whisky and getting in trouble for it
☘︎ He will sit by the radio for hours. He tells Ennis about all the new songs. He grumbles in response to seem like he knows what he's talking about
☘︎ Similarly reads a lot of magazines. Will rip out pages he likes and put them in his journal. He'll tape them onto letters too and mail them to Ennis. He can always tell when a letter is from a younger Jack because his handwriting will be much sloppier
☘︎ He cannot sit still what so ever. He'll spin around in his seat and get into 5 different positions within minutes
☘︎ Calls Ennis his, "old man" or "Dad"
☘︎ When they're both regressed, Ennis sees Jack as a big brother. He will call him, "brother" or make attempts to do it. Ends up sounding like "brudd..r" (if it sounds like anything other than babbling)
☘︎ While big space Jack's worried about care, little space Jack cares about playing with Ennis. He dangles a lot of stuff in front of Ennis's face, makes a lot of noise, plays peek-a-boo, ect
☘︎ Very very very affectionate. Almost always hugging and kissing Ennis. little space Jack has a hard time containing his cuteness aggression towards baby Ennis
☘︎ Still the best cg ever <3 Ennis loves him so much
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I would love to see you rank Akatsuki by how shippable they are with Kakashi
oh my god. called out. but i will answer. CRACKS KNUCKLES
tbh this was kind of hard to write because even though i love akatsuki ships AND i love kakashi ships, there's not a lot of.... like..... easy/natural chemistry going on here??
least to most shippable
9. Zetsu - Does anyone ship Zetsu? No. Get out of here, Zetsu.
8. Pein - I think the connection here would be like. Similar Traumas (tm) and I know some people like this but I don't LMAO. That or missing-nin!Kakashi joins Akatsuki because he likes what Pein is selling philosophically, and it turns into one of those "loyal follower sets themselves apart in order for leader to notice them Romantically" which is another dynamic I know some like but I don't.
7. Kisame - Kisame is Chill For An Evil Villain and I think he'd admire Kakashi's philosophy of ninja who abandon their comrades being less than trash. He'd be annoyed but not lose his mind over some of Kakashi's more annoying traits. But, idk, this ship doesn't really have enough Spice for me.
6. Itachi - I like the fanon that Itachi and Kakashi were friendly in ANBU, and for a long time I liked the idea of them running into each other years later and reconnecting in a more shippy way. But I have rotated and rotated this and I cannot make it work in a shippy way. I've read some fics and they else seem to just not have.... a spark? a Spice? There's something missing. I just like them more with a platonic dynamic.
5. Sasori - There are some interesting parallels and contrasts and vague plot connections between these two, but oh my GOD is it hard to fit them all together in a compelling way. There's probably something in "Your father killed my parents and it fucked me up for life" vs "Yeah well, then he also killed my father and fucked me up for life" but you will have to work so hard to extract it. Sasori and Kakashi are antisocial weirdos in opposing ways and GETTING them to the point where you can do anything is so hard.
4. Kakuzu - Despite fighting each other, canon failed to produce any emotional connection at all between Kakuzu and Kakashi, which is unfair to us all. Kakuzu is ranked here because he's the first person on this list I can see getting into bed with Kakashi without the writer having to do a shit ton of work. Kakuzu fucks. Kakashi fucks. I think under the right circumstances they'd fuck each other. If I wrote it, I'd have a Catfishing AU where they're both trying to lure the other one out to collect Dat Bounty but they're doing it via the lonely hearts section of a newspaper. Anyway their public personas don't impress each other but once they switch to private letters they both realize they're both weird kinky freaks. Kakuzu WAS trying to catfish you in that he lying about his age and name and sent a fake photo, but somehow he was not lying about the tentacles.
3. Hidan - I think Kakashi and Hidan would make eye contact across a bar and then go hook up. I just think they're both like this. Maybe they run into each other again later and are like, "fuck it, why not?" It's a very straight forward relationship and both somehow miss all the ways the other one is completely unhinged. ALTERNATIVELY, Hidan thinking Kakashi's suffering and wallowing is so, so beautiful.
2. Deidara - Okay. Do you remember his "sees Itachi for the first time" face? I think Deidara would make this face at a raikiri. And as we all know, Deidara is at his cutest when screaming because someone is actively trolling him, and Kakashi loves trolling people. I don't think Deidara would be very impressed with Kakashi's dedication to a never ending mourning period, BUT I think there's room for interesting character growth on both sides here. Also I just think Kakashi should fuck him. As a little treat
I. Konan - Okay. Listen. My ideal Kakashi het ship is "weird damp man and woman who would crumple him up and wring him out like a paper towel." This is them. Kakashi literally only knows how to take care of his loved ones by going out and killing their enemies and Konan thinks this is so sweet. She doesn't NEED him to, but he does go out and kill people she hates and he's not even weird about it. Kakashi murdered more specific enemies of the Ame or Akatsuki than the Akatsuki. Very cute. Also they'd look good together. ALSO the pairing of her blank, judgmental stare and his trolly grin. Excellent vibes all around
BONUS RANKINGS:
Orochimaru (between Deidara and Konan) - They would hook up specifically for the psychic damage to everyone they know.
Obito (True Number One) - OBVIOUSLY. Rivals to friends to enemies to lovers! The mutual obsession! Bonus identity porn!
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Reflecting on some of the posts that I have made and seen in the last couple of weeks, both here on Tumblr and on TikTok, I am increasingly suspicious of anybody that insists that voting is a useless or misdirected effort of energy. Not only have I seen innumerable cases in my state where this is simply not the case, entire sections of the federal government are effectively locked into right-wing positions because Trump won his election. He has entire sections of the appeals system and federal government more broadly aligned with him precisely because of how many nominations he's successfully put forward. Now, this does not mean that Biden or even the Democratic party more generally is going to ride to the rescue, however it speaks to the power that voting results wield.
Not voting is not an effective protest. All you are doing by not voting is saying hey someone else make this decision for me. By not voting you are not actually saying to the system "Hey I'm protesting against you!" At that point you have given the government system cart blanche to fucking ignore you.
I don't know who told you that not voting was anything other than giving up what little power you have to influence your government and therefore how your tax money and society operates on an everyday level. They lied to you. After a certain point there's no nice way to put this.
If you choose not to vote, that is a choice. I view it as an incredibly poor one. I also look at voting third party outside of elections where you know the candidate has no honest to the Gods shot to be a waste of time. You can vote however you want. If you want your vote to be effective then you're going to have to play with the system we've got until we can make a better one. These things take time. If we are being realistic, it is likely more than a few election cycles.
Another thing I have found intensely distasteful this entire election cycle has been from some leftists to sneer at harm reduction, as though opposing Republicans with Democratic candidates is just caving to fascism. Democrats and my State backed up unions and secured a woman's right to choose and secured bodily autonomy not only for women but forLGBTQIA+ folks. Republicans have fought against that.
"Oh but Manchin-" "Oh, but Sinema-"
Are not the whole of the Democratic Party. They were conservative holdouts in a largely center to center right coalition party whose younger constituents are far more left that the old guard. They fucked up some excellent legislation (or at least excellent opportunities) to put us in far better positions through helping to kill the Democrats' Build Back Better Plan and similar legislation.
Trying to punish the Democrats retroactively for not pushing Roe v Wade into law or not fulfilling all their campaign promises, by withholding your vote come the elections is short sighted, retrograde, and ultimately, harmful. It hands power to the Republicans without a fight, and allows them to set the boards for zoning, schools, city council, and so much more. It actively shoots your fellow citizens in the foot so you can feel moral superiority.
It reminds me of folks saying "Well I'm not filing because I am not gonna pay my taxes!" Unless your income is entirely under the table or illegal, or you intentionally changed your contributions, chances are that you were paying taxes this entire time and the only thing you're doing by not filing is potentially fucking yourself.
I get being angry, desperate, and despairing at the state of things, whether the political system, the world more broadly, or whatever issue you hold most dear to your heart. I'm not saying don't be angry, sad, depressed, or raging. I'm saying use it well. If you cannot summon up the give-a-shit on your own case, do it for those around you. Every bit we can do helps, and voting can make a lot of difference in our neighborhoods, and from there, the greater world.
Whether you are reading the missives from various pulpits or you're looking at project 2025, Christofascism is here. Folks have been warning about this for quite a long time, and it is here and it is in full swing. We cannot afford for the Republicans to take over. Heathens, Pagans, magical folks, none of us can afford a Republican victory at this point. Republicans have shown a deep willingness to use the apparatus of the state to harm queer and non-Christian people. They have shown a disdain for the separation of church and state. If you are on the right in this country you should be concerned if you're in any marginalized group. You will not be spared because you're "one of the good ones ".
Did you not see how they treated the Log Cabin Republicans? Did you not see that? Voting red will not save you, it will not make you more palatable. If the Republicans take power and get what they really want through their Christofascism and Project 2025, it does not matter how long you've been a Republican; if you are queer or Pagan you may as well not exist.
Believe me, I am not for a moment stating that Democrats are our saviors. They are a coalition center right political party that we can influence through our lobbying and votes. We can influence them through a variety of other means, including direct action is some have done. Some of you have failed to notice that your direct actions actually were useful! Kamala Harris came right out and said that they were pushing for a ceasefire, after so long of just leaving it off the table entirely. It is not that the narrative cannot be pushed, it is not that we cannot be heard, but you all need to recognize when you are heard and act accordingly without moving the fucking goal posts.
You demanded the administration work on a ceasefire and now they are. That is a victory! However, the Democrats cannot make the Israeli government and the Palestinian government come to a ceasefire. There is also only so much that we can do given the treaties and the alliances that we have. Yes, I know that America has a history of breaking it's treaties and why couldn't we just break this one? Well, because we're just not going to because it's been policy for almost the last 80 years. I just fervently wish the left more generally understood the political process better than it does and realize that we are doing quite a lot to move things along from where they could have been.
If you think for a second that Trump presidency would be better on any of these things you're wrong. That there are some leftists want to sink this project of American democracy simply because they didn't get what they want reminds me a lot of screaming fucking children who want a toy and are going to scream and shout when they don't get it. There's a sincere lack of understanding of the political process that I am seeing right now, especially given what I saw during the primary elections, and is sincere lack of understanding the political process with regards to our position with Israel. Again, I am not saying for a fucking moment don't be angry and don't do everything that you can't tell lobby for the Palestinian people. Engage in whatever diversity of tactics appeals the most to you. Part of having a diversity of tactics is including voting and on the ground diplomatic work. It isn't fun, it isn't sexy, but it's absolutely necessary in the meantime to get us to a place where we can be more effective. I would rather be more effective than being morally pure. I would rather be more effective and do what is possible than see everything around me fucking burn because it isn't just right.
I really do not hold with deontology. As a heathen my ethics are more centered in consequentialism. I care about how the tapestry looks after it's been woven, more than I care about how it has been woven. I will take an imperfect way of getting to the end of a tapestry then the tapestry never getting finished or being finished poor due to constantly unraveling it. There is no way that burning everything down is going to be helpful or effective for most folks. In any case, burning everything down with nothing to replace it leaves folks like me who rely on regular medications like insulin completely fucked. To be sure, the system fucks me and those in my position. It fucks the poor, the disabled, the marginalized. However, not having anything to replace it and just burning everything down, having no complex systems in place to slot into place will do immense, untold amounts of damage. Reforms are not sexy, and but they are how we can continue to live while we do the work needed to make things more equitable, more fair, more just.
I want change. We need to change as a society to become more just, equitable, fair, and to survive in the face of the challenges that we are facing. However, stepping away from the system as a whole, as though you're not going to be wrapped up in it as things go forward, that, to me, is giving up. It's not revolutionary. I would far rather see leftists and left-leaning Heathens and Pagans to flex their vote and their activism locally, to make the changes on the ground that we can where we live, how we live, with the Ginnreginn we live alongside.
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Listen you said as many as I wanted, you said that:
“Baby,” Boyd said, taking Raylan’s face in his hands. “We’re going to be fine.” He was talking true here, Raylan knew, but his expression changed and he didn’t look him in the eyes as he added, “It’s easy to start over with that kind of money. We wouldn’t even have to go nowhere--”
“And watch them rip apart the hills? Pollute your precious hollers?” Raylan hissed, pulling away. He couldn’t talk about it without getting pissed. His head hurt so fucking much.
“Raylan--”
“Later,” Raylan said, pulling out his phone. “I wish you’d’ve said something, really, because I have to call Art now. Her wanting the property puts me far enough in this shit that I can’t be a part of the detail. It’s a conflict of interest, no matter what we do now.”
“What we do?” Boyd asked quietly. “It’s still just your land, Raylan.”
“Fuck off, Boyd,” Raylan growled. “I’d have married you years ago if that was something we could do.”
Boyd leaned back in his chair, eyes wide, at that and Raylan wondered if that was something he shouldn’t have said when they were fake fighting like this.
They stared at each other for a solid minute at least and Raylan couldn’t hold it in anymore. He said, “I’m sorry I said, fuck off and then that, I--”
Boyd smiled and shook his head. “Go make your phone call, baby.” He didn’t even add anything about the fake argument. “Tell Art--”
Omggggg. I'm SO glad you picked this to ask about because just right before this part is one of my favorite exchanges I have ever written. It's basically what I now think of the thesis of this entire fic series. Boyd and Raylan could never have come this far together if not for Raylan letting Boyd live in his house and nest in his heart and refuse to leave. Okay??
This part:
“We can start over,” Boyd said. “We’re good at that.” Raylan looked at him like he was crazy. “No, we’re not.” They’d never started over at anything. The only reason any of this was happening was because of the house, that they needed, because they couldn’t make a change without a crutch. It was just built up and built up from everything that happened before and the house was the foundation.
And then Raylan spirals because he can't see a way out of this situation even though he knows Boyd is actively taking it in hand. (He's going to figure it out, Raylan!!) And part of Boyd's plan is to get this exact reaction from Raylan, because he needs to convince Carol Johnson he really is on her side and also make things difficult for her because Raylan is so adamantly opposed to selling. But! He doesn't expect Raylan to profess his unshakeable commitment to their relationship in that very moment!
Boyd in this fic, even up until now, does not think about the house in Harlan as theirs, per se. It's Raylan's house. Always has been. He thinks of their apartment in Lexington way more as something they share. But he spent so much time over the years working on the house, specifically FOR RAYLAN, that it's like really hard for him to take on any kind of ownership for himself until Raylan is like, yeah but we would be married by now???? If life was fair??? SO ITS YOUR HOUSE TOO BOYD.
I'm also like perpetually *kisses fingers* at myself for immediately having Raylan apologize. He's Just! So! Hungover! that he cannot control his mouth or his emotions and they are all over the place because he is so! pissed! off! at Carol Johnson! This "oh shit I really said that just now" moment for Raylan is so funny and sweet. I love them so muchhh.
AND THEN THEY GET INTERRUPTED.
Anyway this is a great little collection of scenes and writing about how good it is is actively making me want to rewatch through season 2 so I can try and fucking untangle what needs to happen to end this beautiful story! AND THEN I want to write several little short fics about parenting Loretta and getting married for real and and and
#justified#justie author commentary#boyd crowder#raylan givens#ask meme#answered#set fire to this house#is this too much?#i just love this scene a lot
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FSS3 Episode 16: A fight worth fighting for
Thomas is finally mature enough to better understand how his instinctual system works.
Two episodes left on Wednesday and Friday.
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DISCLAIMER: As said in the introductory post, Fanders Sides Season 3 (season 2 finale included) could have triggering themes/scenes. Please keep that in mind before reading.
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Thomas is going back home. He went to the callback for the hero’s role, did his performance and the production team loved it. Now they told him they will contact him as soon as possible with further information.
Thomas is a bit nervous, while he recollects what happened. But he knows he did his best: he followed Logan’s schedule and trained with Roman and Remus almost every day. Still, will this be enough to grant him the hero’s role?
Logan appears next to him, walking with Thomas: it’s not up to them to decide but to the director. However, he checked all performances and no one had the same intensity Thomas had.
Roman appears on Thomas’ left, with a huge smile. They did great indeed! And the director probably noticed too!
Logan warns Roman: do not get your hopes too high, we’re not the ones who decide.
But if the director is clever, he will give the role to Thomas, Roman insists.
Logan agrees. Still, he warns Thomas to not celebrate his victory too soon.
Thomas nods in silent confirmation, then he gets distracted by some voices: he turns around and notices a man and a woman arguing. The man is screaming at the woman, hits her with the side of her own bag and accuses her of taking too long to get dressed. For her part, the woman barely tries to say anything, she makes herself smaller and apologizes with a little voice, while he loudly complains.
Thomas rolls his eyes and diverts his gaze. Logan does the same: these men are just insufferable, he comments. Such tiny egos, they need to show off their strength to prove how “manly” they are. Roman crosses his arms and says that man is pathetic.
Thomas stops and turns around, looking at the couple again.
Virgil appears closer to Thomas and tells him to go away: they don’t know these people, they don’t know what they’re talking about and they don’t know their dynamic. If Thomas gets involved, he could be accused of sticking his nose into other people’s business. Also, the man is much bigger and stronger than him, so what could he ever do?
Thomas murmurs that yes, Virgil’s right: leaving is the most reasonable thing to do. He tries to turn away again, but Anger’s voice suddenly resonates and says just one word: “no”.
Virgil is saying something else, but his words are muffled. The rest of the world is muffled. All Thomas can see is Anger standing in front of him and all he can hear is the discussion between the man and the woman.
Anger’s eyes are burning of a bright orange, his make-up looks like real flames. He lifts a hand, grabs Thomas’ chin and turns his face towards the couple.
There is a man, he says and his voice is the only thing that can overcome the couple’s voices. And this man is hitting a woman. A woman who cannot oppose him because he’s much bigger than her. And he has no valid reason to do it and we both know he won’t stop.
(His voice gets louder)
Is this something that doesn’t need any help? Is this something that makes you turn away? Is this a fight not worth fighting for?!
(His voice rises, his tone gets louder)
What are you? A person or a fucking coward? Are you okay with this? Are you REALLY OKAY WITH THIS?
And then, the man slaps the woman.
Without thinking anymore, Thomas just runs towards them and pushes the guy away with all of his strength. The man looks surprised, Thomas is furious: he tells him that if he wants to pick a fight, he can do it with him.
The man looks at Thomas from head to toe, with a disgusted face. Without wasting too much time, he pushes Thomas away and tells him to mind his own fucking business. He’s not talking to him, he’s talking to that bitch.
Thomas stands between them again. The man’s voice gets louder, he accuses her of cheating him with Thomas, calls her names, calls Thomas names. He pushes him away again and Thomas grabs his arm, trying to stop him.
The man lifts a fist toward Thomas and the world, suddenly, slows down.
Behind the guy and his fist, Thomas sees Janus looking at him. The snake eye is glowing with a bright yellow. Janus opens his mouth and, despite the distance between them, Thomas can hear his voice as if he’s murmuring inside his mind (which is exactly what he’s doing).
Janus says one thing only: danger.
With the corner of his eye, Thomas notices Remus on his left: Remus snaps his fingers and his face gets replaced by images of the man’s fist hitting Thomas’ nose, blood, his teeth falling from his mouth, Thomas falling on the ground, another punch, a kick in the stomach, the man’s feet while he stomps on him, more blood on the concrete.
The camera moves to the side to show Virgil standing behind Thomas: his eyeshadow gets darker, he closes his hands into fists and looks ahead, the face of a man ready to fight.
And then, we see Thomas’ eyes: they are burning with a bright orange. He grits his teeth, tightens his grip on the man’s arm and pushes it against the man with all his strength.
It’s not a particularly strong push, but it’s enough for his fist to miss Thomas’ head. Thomas lets the man go and retreats. The woman starts to cry for help and a lot more people approach: some get closer, another man intervenes to calm down the big guy, someone else calls the police.
Thomas turns around: a police officer comes and starts talking with the woman. She tells him something, then the officer moves to her partner.
More people come, someone records everything with a cellphone. Thomas moves back again. He notices the woman looking at him and opening his mouth to tell him something: he just waves a hand in a silent “no problem” and walks away.
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Thomas is lying on the couch, still trying to process everything that happened. The Sides are all around him.
Roman revels in what they just did: Thomas was a true hero! He defeated the enemy and saved the damsel in distress! Okay, he didn’t defeat the hero and the damsel saved herself, but he… tried his best? And he left all in one piece, so that’s a win.
Patton agrees and confirms that he’s very proud of Thomas. That was the right thing to do. And even if he didn’t win the man in a heroic battle, he gained enough time, to attract more people and even the police. So at least they can be sure the woman is in better hands, now.
Logan approves as well: the man’s violence (as well as violence in general) was not justifiable and the woman was in clear distress. That guy had to be stopped. And Thomas did it, even without using the same blind violence. He should be very proud of himself and of his self-control.
Thomas sits. He still feels like everything was a dream, but he knows that wasn’t just him doing this. He looks at Janus: that wasn’t just him, that was… something else.
Janus tilts his head. Did Thomas really think his Instinctual Sides work like the Core Sides? That they just throw suggestions and wait for Thomas to react?
If they worked this way, Thomas would’ve died hundreds of times, Virgil says.
They bypass the system, Logan explains. When Thomas faces any danger, they take control and push him to action directly, without asking and without questions.
Thomas looks at Virgil. He saw his tempest tongue in the past and he thought that was all they could do.
Virgil rolls his eyes. Yes, sure, he can use that too. In dangerous situations, this is how he pushes Thomas to action.
But today was different, Thomas says. It wasn’t just you… it was…
Coordinated?, Janus suggests. Today they worked together like they did in the past - but now, since Thomas is aware of their existence, for the first time he saw them doing it. They recognized the danger, warned Thomas about it (Janus indicates Remus), gave him the push to react (indicates Anger) and made him react accordingly (indicates Virgil).
Thomas gives them a worried look. So they can make him do things just like that? He could go into a fight just because they want to?
Of course not, Janus replies. Everything they do is something Thomas wants to do.
But I didn’t want to, Thomas replies. Not at first. I wanted to leave, but then…
He looks up and meets Anger’s gaze. Anger looks at him with a challenging expression. Yes, you wanted to run away, before I stopped you, he says. Because running away would’ve made you feel like a useless piece of shit. Because you knew this was a fight worth fighting for.
Still, Anger complains turning to Janus, they could’ve done something to be safer, like hitting the guy. A good, strong punch in the face and he would’ve learned his lesson.
Or hit Thomas back, Janus replies. And since that man was stronger, he would’ve hurt a lot more.
Can’t live life with some risks, Anger replies with a devilish grin, it would’ve been fun.
Janus insists that this would’ve put Thomas in unnecessary danger. Their job is to protect and react to dangers, not attack everyone just to have fun.
Anger scoffs and drops the pretense: okay, fine, you’re right. This is our job.
Thomas still looks at him with his head tilted and a suspicious expression: his Anger seems too into the idea of hitting people. After all, he already pushed Thomas to hit Hugo, Nico’s friend. What if he decides Thomas should go around punching everyone?
Janus snaps his finger in front of Thomas’ face: he just told him they only do what Thomas wants to do! And their role is to protect him, not put him in danger!
Logan intervenes: Anger is not violence. Anger is an emotion, violence is an action. You can be violent without being angry, the two things aren’t always related. Just think of the revolts all over the world and during the centuries, of all the minority groups who asked and fought for changes - women, people of color, queer people. Not all these revolutions involved violence, but all of them started because people were angry and wanted to change the system.
But still, violence is closely related to anger, Thomas says. And he (with a nod towards Anger) likes violence a bit too much.
Anger gives him another villainy smile and says he loves seeing violent stuff. It makes him feel so much better.
Thomas immediately opens his mouth to talk, but Logan stops him: no, that doesn’t mean Anger is evil and you’re not a bad guy. This is called catharsis: seeing bad things is a way to “purify” your soul from them. By seeing these bad things in a movie, in a play, in a book or a video game, you won’t feel the push to replicate them in real life.
So no, seeing violent stuff doesn’t make you violent. On the contrary, it makes you much calmer and much more aware of how to avoid violence in real life. Just like you did before, by pushing the man away and backing up immediately.
Thomas thinks about it, then gives a small laugh. During his life, every time he felt he was being pushed down, every time someone stepped over him, Anger made him react. And every time he reacted, his mind cleared. And every time his mind cleared, everything was much easier to understand.
Yes, he confirms. If he didn’t intervene before, now he would feel like a useless piece of shit. That really was a fight worth fighting for, like Anger said. And Anger knew right from the start, even before Thomas.
Just like he knew it was right to let Roman have his outburst without stopping him. Just like he knew it was right to break Logan until he would reveal everything he had hidden inside.
Thomas holds out a hand.
Maybe he still doesn’t fully understand everything Anger can do, but he wants to try his best to do it. Anger helped with Roman and Logan, but Thomas still has a lot of issues to solve in his life and he needs someone who will give him the motivation to do it.
He doesn’t want to make other huge mistakes. He doesn’t want to leave any other Side behind. Never again.
Anger looks at his hand. Never again, Thomas repeats.
Anger looks at him, no smile, no expression. Just stare at him, searching for the truth. Thomas holds his gaze.
And so, Anger drops the villainy smile and the provocative demeanor and says a name. His name. He just says it. For the sake of this writing, I will use the name Caius - but you can imagine whatever name you like.
Thomas’ firm expression morphs into surprise, he clearly didn’t expect him to just say his name like that. But then, he smiles and says “Nice to meet you, Caius”.
Caius replies with a “Nice to meet you, Thomas” and shakes his hand.
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Thomas is checking his social media and some people are tagging him in a video: it’s about what happened that afternoon. The video shows Thomas standing between the man and the woman, the man threatening him and calling him names, Thomas pushing him and backing away.
Between the comments, there is one from the woman herself. She explains how toxic their relationship was and how sad she felt. Now she broke up with him, left his house and she’s in a safer place. She thanks all the people who helped her, the police officer and especially the guy who intervened first. She wanted to ask his name, but he left before she could talk to him.
A few people already replied by telling her his name, so Thomas writes a comment too. He says he just did the right thing and that he’s happy she’s now safe. He wishes her the best and hopes the man will learn his lesson, as far away from her as possible.
Thomas gets up from the couch and takes a drink. When he comes back, his phone starts ringing. He answers without even looking and, on the other side, Nico’s voice greets him.
Thomas is very surprised. He looks at the name but yes, it’s really Nico.
Nico jokes that oh, so this is how Thomas wanted to improve himself? By getting almost punched by a guy twice as big as him? Gosh, Nico wanted him to solve his problems, not to go to the hospital.
Thomas jokes as well: all he got was some threats and a few pushes, but between the two of them, he was the scared one. Did Nico watch the video? He looks like a scared kitten!
The two joke about the whole event. Despite his sarcasm and the jokes, Nico’s voice shows how worried he was, so Thomas reassures him: he’s okay, everything is fine, the woman is alright and he is alright. Nico confirms he read the comments too, included Thomas’ recent one. He’s glad Thomas is okay.
I am, Thomas confirms. He just felt he had to intervene. He couldn’t leave that woman to deal with that guy. It was a fight worth fighting for.
Then, he apologizes. Nico was right, he needed to figure things out by himself. Only Thomas can solve Thomas’ problems. And he wants to keep doing it: he wants to become the man Nico deserves.
Even if he can’t see him, Thomas can hear Nico smiling. In that case, he suggests, maybe they can meet again. Possibly, before Thomas ends up in a hospital.
The two laugh together, then plan a date for the next week.
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AUTHOR’S NOTE
Showing how the Instinctual Sides work together helped me show how useful they are and how, (compared to the Core Sides), they are much more coordinated. Especially now, that the mind is more balanced and Virgil and Janus are back on good terms.
We also needed a small discussion about Anger and violence. We saw him being a good guy and a schemer and a villain too, but violence has never been addressed. It was time to do it. And thanks to the strongest power of all (i.e. the power of logic), Thomas easily understood that oh, so the guy isn’t a threat either.
And this proves how much Thomas grew too. In DWIT, Thomas accepted Remus’ presence, but he was still wary of him because he didn’t know him fully. Now he can accept Anger (even without knowing everything about him), because he saw what he did and realizes how many times he was actually very helpful.
Also, Thomas’ words about how after Anger’s effect, his mind was cleared help me explain why Anger and Logan work so well together: anger’s effect really clears the mind. And once the mind is clearer, logic is “louder” - i.e. more evident, easier to see..
Speaking of his name: I know there are a ton of amazing names out there, but we all know Anger’s name should refer to something Rome-related and end with -s (-us/-es probably?).
So yes, I would’ve LOVED to use the name Cronus, but Cronus is the Greek god of time. The Roman variant is Saturn, which doesn’t follow the “-us” scheme.
So I decided to move on to the “most important Roman leaders” category. And of course the most important one was Julius Caesar.
However, I didn’t use the name Julius, because there’s already another Side whose name starts with J- and didn’t want to give them the same initial.
And so, I chose Caesar’s first name: Caius.
Yes, I know the correct name should be “Gaius” because that’s the right transliteration. However, I still chose Caius for two stupid reasons:
1) Virgil is the shorter version of Vergilius, Caius is the wrong version of Gaius. They both share a name with a twist. So not only they’re connected by this, but Caius is the trait-d’union between Virgil and the other Instinctual Sides.
2) Caius as a name is very similar to Cain and Cain is the firstborn son of Adam and Eve, the one who killed his brother. So he was both the first human born and the first murderer. Which is sad, but also pretty cool. And I loved the idea of this assonance between their names.
Okay, but seriously: why did I choose this name in particular for Anger? Simple, to emphasize his strategic abilities. Caesar was a general, a politician, a strategist, a man of culture, a dictator. His name is still remembered as a great figure, his actions influenced Rome’s history and, as Wikipedia perfectly explains: “He played a critical role in the events that led to the demise of the Roman Republic and the rise of the Roman Empire.”
So, Caesar is an essential figure. Someone you cannot leave behind. Someone who plays a fundamental role. This is basically what Anger did for the whole series. He was there, both in the front and the back, both scheming and fighting. And he was essential to lead to Thomas’ breakdown and his following rise.
Just as Caesar changed Rome, Anger changed Thomas. Hence I chose the name Caius for him. After all, let’s not forget that none of the Instinctual Side has a name that refers to their first role: why should he, then?
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If Spook and Huuxi are the embodiment of Yin and Yang, then why they are fighting against each other instead of working together? Yin and Yang are two forces who are complementary opposites that need to collaborate and contribute to the world in a coequal way. The Yin-Yang symbol is intended to represent how the two forces constantly flow around each other, always coexisting harmoniously. In fact, when one overpowers the other, the imbalance always causes problems. They have to coexist in harmony, because they actually dependent on one another for each other's distinguishable existence. Within one lies another and vice versa because these two opposites are not independent from one another, but rather two sides of the same unifying force throughout all world. Yin and Yang are two sides of the same coin and both need to exist side by side. It is when they are at equilibrium, that the world is stable and balanced. If they are the embodiment of Yin and Yang, this mean that they were supposed to work together insted of fight against each other.
What you talk about is just one example of yin-yang. From what I've researched, there are different examples of it, though at the core, they all represent balance that is found in two opposites that are equal to each other.
It's actually why for the most iconic yin-yang pairs, there are two. Though both agree that Dragon is going to be apart of the pairs either way, often always representing yang.
Dragon and Fenghaung represent that ideal yin-yang that you describe, where they're opposites that exist in harmony to each other, covering the other's weakness/what they lack, and working together. They are the ideal union.
What I am working off is more the rivalry of opposites yet cannot live without the other, which is seen in Dragon and Tiger.
These two represent opposing forces that cannot exist without the other, but can't help but clash which leads to a never ending cycle of trying to overpower the other, but they cannot as they're equal in power (base for these two is often order and chaos). The Tiger wants to bring about change, while the Dragon wants things to stay as they are, which does echo what everyone does need, you do need changes in your life, but you also need that stability. And too much of one is bad (too much order becomes stagnant and constricting, but too much chaos leads to a loss of foundation and getting overwhelmed).
This is what Huuxi and Spook are tied to, though I will say they aren't fighting/enemies. They're more neutral rivals, they easily get under each other's skin, as they embody and echo their nature.
Huuxi likes stability, likes to have things go as expected, he likes things to be orderly, to have rules, to have a sense of control and knowing what's going to happen, to plan for what's to come. He wants absolute harmony. He dislikes unpredictability and is wary of anything new/unexpected.
Spook in turn is a free spirit, she likes to live by whims, likes to explore, live in the moment, and when things are stale, she likes to shake things up. Change is a challenge but change can be good for growth. She dislikes rules and restrictions, rolls her eyes at elaborate plans and rather just play things by ears.
And that at the core is what leads to them butting heads/getting annoyed with each other/disagreeing. They're opposites in how they function, and those themes of Order and Chaos are big ones to work off of, and can be great in harmony but are still a clashing pair. When it comes to it, Huuxi and Spook will work together, they secure the ideal harmony, and they cover what the other lacks.
To add to it, Dragon and Tiger represent the more diverse yin-yang pair off, where they can be each other's greatest enemy to greatest ally to even the most ideal soulmate pair (specifically within the Zodiac).
So that's the yin-yang I'm working off of, and between the two large examples, it's the pair I like more for the Miraculous. And Huuxi and Spook aren't enemies at each other's throat, but they do squabble and butt heads as they represent those clashes forces that balance each other out.
#ask Pucnhie#dragon miraculous#tiger miraculous#huuxi#spook#dragon kwami#tiger kwami#yin yang miraculous
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𝐥𝐮𝐟𝐟𝐲 & 𝐯𝐮𝐥𝐧𝐞𝐫𝐚𝐛𝐢𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐲
I couldn't stop thinking about this today, so I had to finally write it up, but recently I found a meme that jokingly stated something along the lines of “I cannot stop moving or doing things or I will spiral into a pit of despair” and it made me think of Luffy and specifically his lack of ever talking about his past or how he really feels about things.
Luffy is both a character that has so many expressions and feelings, but can also be one of the least expressive. He actively shows all forms of excitement and joy, and he isn’t opposed to showing a fierce anger either, but something that doesn’t come out as often is his sadness, grief, and despair. And even less so is his willingness to ever talk about the moments in his life that have caused those feelings. His heart is open to taking in friends and their pain and past as it comes, but it is almost entirely closed when it comes to letting others help with his own past burdens.
The straw hat captain doesn’t like to dwell on anyone's past, this is evident from the first saga in the East Blue when he does his best to meet Nami where she is at, rather than prodding her for information about who she is. That information comes out on its own, because other people tell him despite saying he doesn’t care. But possibly the stem of this: Luffy doesn’t like to think about his own past.
It’s not so much that he won’t talk about his feelings regarding things from his past or tell people about it, it’s that he actively will not allow himself to have those sorts of feelings or even think about these things. He fills his time awake doing anything and everything, pushing himself to be actively thinking about something else in the moment, whether that’s food, playing games, being in the presence of his friends, taking care of and protecting people from their problems, fighting, etc. Luffy cannot stop moving or doing things, because if he does he will inevitably fall into a dark mental spiral. So whether actively or subconsciously, he chooses to live in the moment and only look ahead to the future. The rare moments when he does snap and break and panic or wail are moments when he is forced to face the truths he is doing his best to push deep down.
Knowing this, yes, it will be very rare for writing on this blog to include Luffy exploring his emotions on situations without heavy plotting beforehand. He is a closed book who would rather pretend that everything is fine – which to some degree is what he honestly believes. As long as he has his friends and loved ones, he believes there’s no reason to dwell on the sadness or pains of the past, so unless something is going horribly wrong in the moment, he genuinely thinks he’s fine, that everything is fine, and there isn’t any reason to not be happy.
At least, that’s the lie he tells himself.
EDIT: I found where it's from gdi, it's Chris Traeger's line from Parks and Rec
#this got longer than I expected#but it's been eating away at my brain#and now I subject you all too it#if there are typos ignore#❝ i’m going to become king of the pirates! ❞ — v: main#❝ i have to be stronger than everybody else…or else i’ll lose them all! ❞ — headcanons
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Episode 2 of Gotham Knights was highly enjoyable. The cast is getting more and more into their groove and I got even more into the story. Appreciation to this series for giving me heists and sword-fighting and found family and angsty Robin feelings.
Misha Collins is bringing the quiet gravitas and sense of authority and goodness, so Harvey Dent (of all people) is the calm rock in the storm. He's giving this ballast. The kids are terrific and I enjoy the chaotic rag tag, having to rely on each other against all odds story for the fugitives but without a gravitas player like Misha to balance, the thing would lack anchoring.
Unsurprised that Cressida is untrustworthy. Although this was so obvious and revealed so early, I'm not completely convinced we know all her loyalties. And does she actually care about Turner? How did Bruce wind up with a COO person in his employ. Did he have a longer game in doing that?
Carrie Kelley is reminding me of the calm, multi-tasking Robins like Dick and Tim. Also her sad little face when confronted with Bruce's Batman things. Navia Robinson is really crushing it in this role. I also enjoy how Carrie went right for grabbing as much bat-gear from his office as she could and when the group was trapped, zip-lined everyone out. Her hiding those journal pages from Turner--she's trying to protect him from something. And she should have just stolen the whole journal, leaving the ragged torn pages alerts Turner that there's something to be found. The fact this was lampshaded in dialogue, so it's not writers being sloppy, so maybe it's meant as Carrie having a lapse in judgment, or maybe Carrie subconsciously wanted Turner to know pages were removed. She's hiding stuff from him but wants him to find out eventually? We'll see where that leads.
That battle Carrie and Turner had with Talon was awesome.
Very interested in Turner's realization that Bruce was in fact training him, preparing him, after all. Was it Bruce going cautiously to teach another Robin, or was it something else? This entire Court of Owls business has me suspicious and Bruce wanted Turner to know sword-fighting. Maybe not Robin training. Maybe self-defense. If the Court of Owls hunted his parents, his grandparents, if the Waynes have been the prey of the Court of Owls for centuries, he wanted Turner prepared. Maybe he was teaching Turner so he could take down the Court of Owls if he fell.
Cullen, Harper, and Duela debating over whether to just skip town -- what's great about that is I felt sympathy for all 3 of their pov's. Cullen caring about others and why he didn't want to abandon his new name. Harper wanting to look after her brother. Duela, in a way, being both right and wrong. The one sane person in the room because seriously, them going back into Wayne Tower was a stupid plan and them getting jailed or dead won't help anything, but Duela's looking out for number one nihilism and eagerness to abandon her allies wasn't the right move either.
And her allies (tentative friends) came to save her and Duela's brain cannot compute. Turner pointing out to her, she's worth saving too.
I am not trusting Brody. He's going a little too hard on the whole "I am so much nicer to you than that guy, Steph. Look how noble I am. As opposed to that loser. Look at all I do for you, Turner asks you for things." Yeahhhh I'm going to stick with Turner. Turner and Steph's friendship is one of the show's anchoring points and I am enjoying it immensely. It's not going to be without its troubles and complications and strains, but Brody's deliberately trying to drive a wedge and that's highly suspicious.
The belfry set continues to be my favorite.
Steph and Turner's rose window meetings give me joy.
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thread of some of my scout hcs, thoughts on his personality and little miscellaneous tidbits!
starting off strong by saying that i think he's very emotionally intelligent. knows when his loved ones are upset and will set about doing whatever he can to cheer them up. he defaults to trying to make you laugh since that's what he thinks he's best at, though!
cant always offer the Sagely Advice that one might get from spy, but he'll tell you whats on his mind and what he thinks of the situation. won't mince words; if he disagrees with you, he'll tell you Directly... but Gently. "Uhhh, dunno if i agree with that. think of it this way.."
maybe the last person you'd think to have a heart to heart with, but he might surprise you! he's a good listener and while he prefers to do things while talking (throwing a ball against a wall, pacing, etc), you've got 150% of his attention if the subject matter is serious!
competitive, but more likely to let others win than he is to Rub It In when He wins. battlefield smacktalk to the enemy is one thing, but Some People (not naming names) are VERY sore losers (sniper) so scout's content to botch a few billiards shots if it means that his friend is having fun! :)
cries. only when hes alone! feels like he has to have a good cry now and then to get everything out and to "emotionally reset". doesn't think crying is Girly/Weak or w/e, but he still doesn't like doing it around others. "okay, needed that. shake it off, scout, you're all good!"
VERY scrappy. resourceful through street smarts/intuition as opposed to technical know-how. tenacious and a total wildcard! that said, he won't be argumentative for no reason; he'll listen to any orders that engie or solly put down, but not without giving his input, asked for or not!
part of being a good scrapper is knowing when to fight and when to take a walk. when scout's truly mad, he prefers being alone, drawing or going on a run to get his thoughts clear. not afraid to ask for help and is always ready to "repay" friends for their kindnesses towards him.
growing up, he never wanted to trouble his mom with anything. scout was always the reliable one (although a complete hellion), often putting his own priorities to the side for his mom. places a lot of weight on his own shoulders to be good, or better, for her, and to be a son she can be proud of!
cannot drive. engineer has tried to teach him, sniper has tried, spy has tried, heavy has tried... but he just can't do it LOL. crashes into something every time and is always like CRAP!! SORRYSORRYSORRYSORRYSORRY!! it's not a big deal, though. plenty of the mercs enjoy driving after all!
he was always taught to share, even though he kind of hates it! always hated being forced to share with his brothers as a kid. in his adult life, he doesn't Mind, but he prefers being able to choose when he does share. if he's splitting something with you, its a BIG deal!!
easily hands out apologies and doesn't like long-standing conflict. "lets just hash this crap out and move on already!" good at putting you on ice, but only if he needs time to think or gather his thoughts. the longest grudge he'd ever held was against his Absent Father...... spy! but their relationship begins to get better after the events of the comics. i could sincerely write a whole thread on Just their dynamics together!
ultimately i think scout hated His Absent Father for so long because it was just "Easier" to. but now that spy is There and Trying, well, scout can't really Hate Him. theres still a lot of "repairing" to do, and they aren't the Perfect Father And Son, but scout appreciates spy's effort and the sincerity of his explanation (once he hears it from spy and not tom jones)!
will always value the truth over lies. he'd rather you tell him something Horrible if it was the truth than sugarcoat it with a lie. i think spy wanted to give scout what he wanted when he was dying (being comforted by his "dad"), but in retrospect when scout learns the truth, he wished spy would have just been honest with him, even if it did suck to know that his dad was someone like spy and not actually tom jones. regardless, he understood that spy just wanted to give scout what he thought scout wanted, but understands/respects scout's wishes going forward and promises to be a little more honest :) this is when they can really start repairing and Building on their relationship as father and son, in the ways that work for both spy and scout!
i don't think Dad Issues is the only facet of scout's personality nor do i think it even Dominates a lot of his thoughts BUT i just happen to have a lot of thoughts on it lmao
i don't think any of the other mercs Baby him (he's literally a Grown Man and imo being babied would piss him off), and i don't think any of them think he is "inferior" or "childish". i think all of the mercs are at least a little immature!
However i will say that i think a very interesting dynamic between scout and sniper is their views on their fathers and how it shaped them as people. while "jealousy" sounds a bit dramatic, i think they Lightly Envy one another; wouldn't ever take it out on each other but if they think about it for too long they kind of get Bummed Out. scout loves his family but sometimes wishes he'd been an only child with a Mom and a Dad that were around all the time. he doesnt know the Extent of snipers Complicated Feelings about his own family!
sniper loves his family too but sometimes thinks about how even though his own father was Present in his life, he'd been Very Hard on him and Basically rejected him. sniper was present while spy was comforting Dying Scout and took notice of how spy treated scout the way that he thought scout would want, disregarding his own feelings. sniper's dad, on the other hand, only told him he was proud of him after he'd technically died... ouch!
and No i Don't Think sniper wants spy to be his dad nor does he see/want to see spy as a/his own father figure in any capacity lol. i think this is just something that crosses both sniper and scout's minds every now and then and they're like "Huh. Wish I Had What He'd Had!"
i don't see scout struggling with internalized homphobia or anything like that, either. i think his mom, like scout (and spy!), says what they mean and mean what they say and when scout's mom says "i love you no matter what", she means it! scout never gives that kind of stuff a second thought; if he brings a Fella home for the holidays, it doesn't matter! scout's mom is still going to show his Date Of Choice all of the most embarrassing photos of scout she can find! x)
holds his liquor well; he came from a big cathoIic family after all! x) gets a little more Snarky and a little more Hostile if he gets Truly Drunk, but doesn't like to make himself go that far Often. he can always brawl with the mercs when he's sober! prefers to have some beers with demo, engie and sniper and play darts or billiards with them. doesn't like mixed drinks. freakin gross!
will break your balls over anything and everything (like spy and scout's mom!). you tripped on the field? hell tease you for a week! nothing ever mean-spirited and not about anything that he thinks would Upset you! if you ask him to stop, he will, and he'll apologize and mean it!
#dutchfoolery#mercthreads#<- if u wanna see my other Merc Thoughts go here.. hehe#dutchiehcs#tf2#scout
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Quiet Time 2/2
Divine order of relationships
"The best decision you can make is to submit to God's order...Because, unlike your friends, family, or yourself, God is perfect. He knows exactly what you need, and He wants to give it to you. And He will give it to you if you live within His order."
What does the call to submit trigger in you?
It means to me that my plans will not always come true. That there may be some things that I desire, but by God's word, I'm not supposed to give in to it. In cases of following the word, I think it's a heart and conviction issue. I need to view sin the same way that God does, and that way, my temptation to give in will lessen/disappear. The more I choose God's way over my own, the easier it'll be (just like when you develop any other habit). As for submitting my plans, when things don't go the way I originally planned, I'm initially disappointed. However, I tend to find comfort in knowing that it was just not meant to be (an "it is what it is" mentality).
Do you really believe with all your heart that God's order is good and provides a secure framework for your life?
Yes, I do. Mainly because wouldn't it suck if there was absolutely no reasoning for why all the things happen in your life? Everything good, you can thank God. And everything bad, though you may not understand it as it's occurring, happens for a reason. Additionally, you can find comfort in:
Jeremiah 29: 11-14
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you," declares the LORD, "and will bring you back from captivity. I will gather you from all the nations and places where I have banished you," declares the LORD, "and I will bring you back to the place from which I carried you into exile."
James 4:1-10 (Submit Yourselves to God)
"What causes fights and quarrels among you? Don’t they come from your desires that battle within you? You desire but do not have, so you kill. You covet, but you cannot get what you want, so you quarrel and fight. You do not have because you do not ask God. When you ask, you do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives, that you may spend what you get on your pleasures.
When we ask God for anything, we cannot have ulterior motives. We cannot ask Him for anything that it not righteous, that does not align with who He is. Furthermore, I believe that God doesn't have to give us anything we ask for. He promised that He would give us everything we need. I know that I have everything I need, and whatever I ask of God is what I want, but He is under no obligation to give me that. Therefore when He does, I can rejoice and thank Him. And when He doesn't, I understand that He did not need to answer, or it was for the better, within His plans.
You adulterous people, don’t you know that friendship with the world means enmity against God? Therefore, anyone who chooses to be a friend of the world becomes an enemy of God. Or do you think Scripture says without reason that he jealously longs for the spirit he has caused to dwell in us? But he gives us more grace. That is why Scripture says:
“God opposes the proud but shows favor to the humble.”
We cannot still be living and the world and living for God. You cannot have one foot in both doors. What is the point? You wish to be saved and have a God, but you refuse to obey His commands and continue in your sin without repentance? Either stay in the world or submit fully to God. He wants you to seek Him with all of your heart, not just some of it.
Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded. Grieve, mourn and wail. Change your laughter to mourning and your joy to gloom. Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up.
I love that it says, "resist the devil, and he will flee from you." The devil only has power because we allow it. Because we allow ourselves to fall into sin. He tempts us, sure, but we have free will. There's no forcing on either side. If we resist him, he will leave us (though, that is not to say that he won't still try to get you to stumble). We are bound to make mistakes, and God knows that. What matters is where our hearts are. When we go after God fully, He will forgive us when we repent and keep us near.
PRAYER
Dear Heavenly Father, God, thank you for this quiet time that I had this morning. It served as a good reminder of the importance of submitting to you and seeking you, because you have everything already planned out for me. What is the point in my worrying when I believe everything will turn out the way that you have planned? Lord, thank you for another day of life! Thank you for the day I had yesterday, thank you for bible talk last night, thank you for the time I got to spend with my family. And thank you for this platform, I really believe this will benefit my walk with you and that it will help others as well. God, please forgive me for the bitterness that I hold in my heart. There's someone, you know, that I have mixed feelings and I've become angry and petty. I don't want to be that way towards him, but every time I think about being amicable, my bitterness overtakes me and says, if he's not able to do the same, then why should I? Why should I be the first to make amends? And the pettiness comes in when I say that I'm just following his lead and example. I'm merely just acting the same way he is, mirroring him. Do I need to forgive him? I feel that in order to do that we need to talk, but with the state of how things are that won't happen and it's just spurring on my bitterness. God, I just pray that you aid my heart in this area. That you soften it and help me let go of my frustrations with this person. Lord God, I want to continue praying for my heart in other areas as well. I don't want to feel so numb. I have no desire to continue on with my life. Everything in my life just feels like an obligation that I need to fulfill. I feel that I'm pulled in all directions and I get no rest (even though I know I sleep enough). But, God, I'm so tired. I'm just so tired and I want to give up. Nothing appeals to me in my life anymore. It feels like I'm in a simulation, and everything just repeats itself day after day after day, and I'm exhausted. I know my strength in all of this should be you, but how? How do I get past the desire to just give up on life? Please, God, I need your help! God, I also do want to pray for my family, my father especially. His doctor called yesterday saying that he wants him to come in as soon as he can because of the results of his echo. He'll be going to the doctor on Sunday, and I want to be there for him. I'm hoping it can be possible, but I wouldn't want to miss church. Lord, I'm praying that you're able to work that out. I also want to pray for my ultrasound that's in less than an hour. I pray they are able to find the source of my pain and that everything can get resolved promptly. I also pray for the rest of my day as I will most likely have to go to work right after. I also pray that I'm able to have a productive conversation about devo. I pray that you are with me through the rest of my day. That I may keep your Word and commands on my heart. I love you dearly. I pray this in Jesus name, Amén.
#bible#christianity#discipleship#faith#jesus#quiet time#devo#devotional#daily devotional#disciple of christ#christian blog#christian faith#christian living#faith in jesus#faith in god#jesus christ#christian#holy bible#bible quote#bible study#bible scripture#bible verse#prayer#renewing faith#2/2#QT:2#saras-devotionals
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Day 3: The One Where Literally Everything Goes Wrong
This one took course over two sessions that had us two players screaming “what the fuck” at the end of them both. The stakes have officially been raised, and Thais thinks it’s stupid that this is what did it, but at least we met a hot lady. As always, spoilers for the Curse of Strahd module, largely around some NPC secrets and fun things like that.
During the ritual, Thais notices that it seems like the Abbot has practiced this beforehand, and is putting on a show of some kind. Ilya is “returned to life” and Dimitri and Anna take him back inside. As the Abbot leaves, seeming pleased with his turn of events, he invites them to visit him up at the Abbey if they would like to speak with him. After he leaves, Thais and Ferrin look around some and notice that some of the older graves seem to have been disturbed somewhat recently.
Ferrin and Thais decide they will stay another day in order to speak with the Abbot, and decide to earn their keep by taking care of some of the Krezikov’s household chores. While they are doing this, a villager comes by to notify Anna that a woman in Krezk is about to give birth. Anna takes on the role of a “priest” during the birth, as opposed to asking the Abbot to be present. The two women are invited along because it’s considered good luck for there to be many people present at a birth. The birth goes smoothly, but the baby does not cry, and Ferrin notices that the midwife seems disappointed by this. She asks the midwife if there was anything wrong, and the midwife reveals not only that the baby was born without a soul, but that only 10% of Barovians do have souls.
The two decide to go up to the Abbey and speak with the Abbot about what he knows about the mists surrounding Barovia. Before they go up, Dimitri gives them a letter stating that he is in the Abbot’s debt for resurrecting his son. The Abbey is essentially turned into an asylum for those who have gone mad walking through the mist. They meet a mongrel-folk named Otto who takes them to go see the Abbot. While they wait for the Abbot to return, Ferrin drops a copper into the well in the middle of the courtyard, alerting the creature that lurks inside, which attacks them. The Abbot quickly interrupts the fight and invites them inside to talk. They learn that they’re very fortunate to not have experienced any negative effects from traversing the mist. They also learn that the Abbot believes that he can clear the mists over Barovia by sacrificing something to Strahd to make him happy – he has been training a young woman, Vasilka, to be Strahd’s bride. He asks them for a favor, to acquire a wedding dress for Vasilka, as the wedding is set to take place in a few days’ time.
After a tour of the Abbey and meeting a Vistani woman named Ezmerelda, who is immediately suspicious of Thais and also a total badass monster hunter with a burning hatred for Strahd, the two sit down with the Abbot who asks if they have any other questions for him. Thais, taking a chance, reveals her face to him and asks him if he knows her, which he denies. He becomes suspicious of her and she tells him what she knows. It turns out the Abbot is also balls to the wall crazy - he claims that she has been sent by the Morning Lord to become Strahd’s bride, as the fact that she has died, come back to life, been outside of Barovia, and still found her way back is absolutely unheard of. Ferrin tries to dissuade him from this line of thinking, but he brushes her aside, instead tasking her with telling Dimitri that he will be calling in the favor – Dimitri is to acquire the wedding dress, and Ferrin will help.
Thais is taken away by Vasilka to bathe and Ferrin goes to collect her and Thais’ belongings. Ferrin warns Dimitri of what has happened, and he promises not to stop them while they escape, but that he owes the Abbot and cannot directly interfere. Ferrin also asks him if he has ever heard of a woman named Vasilka, which he denies. Ferrin quickly returns, and while Thais spends the day being attended to by Vasilka, Ferrin goes to see if Ezmerelda would be a potential ally in their flight (and also has a gay sparring session with her). Ezmerelda, like Dimitri, indicates that while she won’t directly help them, she won’t get in their way. They also learn through Ezmerelda that Vasilka is a construct, not a resurrected woman like they initially thought.
They decide to wait for Vasilka to sleep before making their escape, but as it turns out, Vasilka doesn’t sleep. Ezmerelda casts a spell on Vasilka and tells her to go pick some flowers, and then rolls over and pointedly pretends to go to sleep. The two escape the building proper but are caught by Otto, who goes to notify the Abbot, and the two run down the cliff using Ferrin’s Spider Climb ability and into the woods. As they run, they see a bright flash of light and something winged take off from the Abbey. They continue deeper into the woods towards one of the only places they know the name of – Yester Hill.
However, during their flight they are ambushed by a battalion of zombies. The zombies kick their collective ass, but Strahd sends in direwolves to save the day. However, even with their assistance, Ferrin is knocked unconscious and Strahd himself appears and feeds her some of his blood to revive her. Thais barely manages to keep from attacking him, instead getting in between him and Ferrin. He reveals that he has been taking notes on Ferrin’s condition, and offers to make her a copy of them. He again reiterates that she is welcome to visit any time before leaving. The two camp for the night.
#things are getting dicey#curse of strahd#glorious goth girl adventures#GGGA Recap#ocs#Thais Vennoa#Ferrin Bonemarrow#GOD when Strahd showed up on the turn order we both fucking screamed#when Strahd gave his blood to Ferrin the DM pulled Ferrin's player into a private call for like#five minutes#and it was the longest fucking five minutes of my life#generally one day tends to take place over two sessions give or take and both of these sessions were A Fucking LOT to take in#just constant lore drops and stakes being raised and weird shit happening#it gets crazier though so buckle the fuck up
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Dylan O'Brien NSFW Alphabet
Author's Notes: I hope you all love this. I had a ton of fun writing this. Maybe too much.. Please let me know what you think if you have a moment - messages, comments and feedback are appreciated! Thank you! xoxo
Warnings: Drinking, Swearing, References to fist fights, Smut* (Bondage, choking, over-stimulation, aftercare, public sex, biting, spanking, masturbation and mutual masturbation, oral sex)
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A is for: Aftercare- what they're like after sex
Soft. So fucking soft. No one has ever taken care of you like he does, in life or in love. Once everything is done, breath is even once more and the sweat is dried on your bodies, he is softer than the pillow that holds your head up. He just wants to take care of you, touch you. If you're in bed together, your head is more than likely resting on his chest as he run his fingertips over your scalp or kisses the top of your head. He likes to run his palms over your body, soothing any irritated skin if it was a particularly rough session. He also just really, really likes touching you.
B is for: Body part - their/ your favourite body part
Yes, he is very much an ass man. He likes how you back it up into him when you dance at a bar, or even when you're just hanging out with friends and you're kind of needy for his attention. And yeah, he likes taking a full handful when he's got you from behind. But he also really loves your shoulders. No, really. It's not even a sexual thing, he just thinks they're pretty and he knows that you can be self conscious about them so that makes him love them more. He likes to just kiss along your shoulder when you're pressed against him in bed, or in the shower. Or just give a little love bite when he walks by you to make you smile, and because you're his.
For you? Those hands of his are definitely Godly. And you have a habit of telling him so. Obviously when he's got them deep inside of you, curled just right, it's another level of existence. And you swear you've seen the other side, a handful of times. Godly. Again, though, it's not just sexual. It's the way he holds your face when he kisses you, or traces your skin post - sex. Or even just holds your hand, his fingers laced between yours. It's comforting. Those hands are a comfort in a way that cannot be explained.
C is for: Cum - anything to do with cum
He likes cumming inside of you, because of the intimacy of it all. He's not entirely sure where he stands on fatherhood, but he's not opposed to being your baby's daddy either. He doesn't do it every time, though. Other places of preference are those thighs and your back (and he has on more than one occasion licked your back after cumming on it)
D is for: Dirty secret - a dirty secret of theirs
He wants to have sex in public, really bad. There's something about having his girl absolutely wrecked for him, unable to keep quiet, with other people around (they can be strangers, he doesn't care) that makes him so fucking hot. It could be the bathroom of a bar you guys frequent, the back of his car, in the changing room of some upscale store. Anywhere that would force him to pocket your underwear, press you to a wall and pretend like he wanted you to be quiet. But he didn't. The louder the better, it was a tremendous boost for his ego. It's not even about getting caught, he could handle that. He's a pretty smooth talker. It's just the high of fucking in public and having people hear him satisfy his woman without a shadow of a doubt and then go back to his night while he holds you upright and steady.
E is for: Experience (how experienced they are? Do they know what they’re doing?)
He's got some experience - "been around the block" a few times, as some would say. But what makes him so good is that he just wants to know, wants to learn your body. You get the feeling that even if he had never been with anyone before (yeah, right. have you seen that man?) he would be absolutely dedicated to finding out what makes you tick, what makes you feel good. It's a high all of its own for him to watch you fall apart.
F is for: Favourite Position
Honestly...Dylan just likes to fuck. As long as he has you, and access to the things he needs and really wants - he's good. But for the sake of answering your question...reverse cowgirl. He likes to watch your ass bounce against his abs, likes that he can just reach forward and your plump backside is right there for him. Okay, so he likes this position so much he may have put a mirror at the end of the bed so he could watch your face, watch you touch yourself as you ride him. He would just rest his head on his hands and watch you in that mirror until he felt like grabbing a handful of that ass, then sit up with his chest to your back and help you bring it home.
G is for: Goofy (are they more serious/humorous?)
He likes to make you smile, let you know that it's okay to have fun and let you loose. In fact, he prefers that you not take it so seriously. So his silliness translates to the bedroom as well. If one of you stumbles or falls mid -act, it's not a big deal. He smiles and flips you over, or picks you back up, and keeps going. It's just sex, honey.
H is for: Hair (groomed or not, does the carpet match the drapes…)
When he wasn't dating anyone seriously he didn't really care, he still doesn't. But he cares what you like, and what you're comfortable with. But you happen to like the hair between his pecs, and the trail of hair from his navel below his belt. So, he trims it down just to clean it up and so it doesn't bother you too much when you're down there. It also really makes him smile when you run your fingertips through the patch of hair between his pecs in the morning, or how you pretend like you hate it when you rubs his scruff your neck - you're such a bad liar.
I is for: Intimacy (what are they like in the moment?)
Despite being a little silly, he's also incredibly intimate. He loves to pin your hands over your head, press his forehead to yours and take it slow so you can feel his love, his sincerity. He likes to kiss down your neck, along your shoulders and whisper all the things he loves about you - ranging from how you squeeze his cock when he's buried inside of you to how soft your skin is, your beaming smile, your sweet eyes. Honey, he's fucking smitten with you.
J is for: Jack Off (masturbation head canon)
When he first met you, and before you two were dating and actually sleeping together he could not keep his hands off himself. Genuinely, he felt like he was 16 years old and it was fucking frustrating. He had to talk to himself out of putting his hands in his pants, go take a cold shower and calm down.
Then you two finally got together he didn't need his hands anymore, only when he was away from you. And even then it was kind of lazy, just enough to get him off until he's home with you. But he really likes the idea of mutual masturbation, side by side or across the room. You watching him, and him watching you as you talk each other through it. That's where his mind is at this point in his life.
& K is for: Kinks (one or more kinks)
Hair pulling (you pull his, he pulls yours. It's great)
Over-stimulation (not something he frequents, but he likes to play around)
Light bondage (handcuffs, and rope often make an appearance) He's been working on his knots when he has some down time, it's oddly calming for him. And if you're down, he'd like to give Shibari a go one day..
Choking! He thinks you're the prettiest girl in the world with his fingers around your neck (he loves you even more when you stick that tongue out and try to lick his fingers.)
Biting! Hickeys! Baby wants to claim you.
Spanking. He loves to smack that ass, in bed and out of it. He likes to dole out a smack or two when he walks by when you're bent over tidying up in the kitchen just as much as when you're on all fours in bed for him.
L is for: Location (favourite place to do it)
He's got two personal favourites other than "old faithful" (the bed). He likes the couch for purposes of you riding him. You get nice and close sitting there on his lap, either chest to chest or your back to his chest. Or he honestly, really likes to fuck on the floor. There's something about getting you on your back on the floor of the kitchen, or the living room, spreading those thighs and putting in the work. Maybe it's all the room around you two, knowing that he can just roll one way or the other and you'll be fine. But he is known for taking you down in the kitchen because, "your butt looks good in those jeans."
M is for: Motivation (what turns them on the most)
Perhaps it's cliche of him to say it, but it's you. It's always been you. The sounds you make for him, the way you breathe his name, the way your body curls into his when you kisses you. It all just gets him going. But he really does like it when you stand on your toes to get close to his height when he's kissing you, and breathe his name into his mouth. No lingerie, no set of handcuffs or coil of rope could turn him on the way that does. He's lost count of how many times you've said his name, all breathy like that, and he's just sat you on the nearest surface and fucked you senseless. It does something to him, igniting him to his core.
Dylan..
N is for: NO (something they wouldn’t do)
Bringing someone else into your bedroom is a Hell-Fucking-No for Dylan. He doesn't care who it is, they aren't stepping foot over the threshold of your bedroom. He's territorial, and refuses to share OR watch you with someone else. Watching you touch yourself? Sure. That's a show he'd watch all day. Watching you fuck someone else? He would seriously rather fucking die. The idea of it makes his heart ache and his skin crawl.
O is for: Oral (preference in giving/receiving)
Oh, please don't make him choose. Remember that mirror across the room we talked about before? He loves watching you suck his cock in the mirror across the room while you kneel on the bed, ass in the air. That's another one of the reasons he put that mirror over there - to watch you suck him off. He gets to see to curl of your toes, the clench of your thighs and the flutter of your lashes in a way he probably wouldn't without said mirror. So....
On the other hand, Dylan really loves to pin those thighs down and eat you like the meal you fucking are. He's messy, and greedy. Not afraid to pull your legs over his shoulders and rub his beard over your thighs, an absolutely delicious sting on your skin. He likes to hold your hands when he's got his face between your thighs, letting you squeeze his fingers as you arch your hips into his face. It's intimate and kind of hot.
But for the sake of choosing, and being difficult, he picks both. Let's just 69 all night, honey.
P is for: Pace (fast and rough/slow and sensual)
He likes both, honestly. And it depends on his mood/ the situation leading up to him getting between your legs. But he's becoming more and more fond of the slow and sensual kind of sex. He likes to take his time, touch your body from the soft hairs on the top of your head to the pretty paint on the tips of your toes. He realizes that taking it slow, pinning your hands above your head and getting as deep as he can is just as satisfying, just as rewarding - if not more so - than those rough, fast paced nights where he's got you face down, ass up. He likes those nights, too. Don't you dare get it twisted, honey.
Q is for: Quickies (how fond they are of quickies)
Does not hate them, and will not turn down the opportunity to have you pressed up against a wall and wrapped around him. Sometimes that's just the name of the game if he's away and you have limited together. 20 minutes alone will be the best you can get, so he's got you posted up in the nearest, most secluded room he can find. And sometimes, he's just really in the mood and cannot wait to be at home. So, that secluded room comes in handy. Again, he doesn't hate them.
R is for: Risk (do they like to experiment?)
He errs on the side of caution, mostly because he doesn't want to put you in a position that would make you uncomfortable. But if you ask him, he's more than likely to say yes. He just doesn't want you to do something because you think it's what he wants. He considers himself a pretty open guy, willing to try new things. To be honest the addition of rope into your bedroom routine was your idea and not his. And he became quite fond of it after he realized it wasn't actual rope that could hurt you, but soft satiny rope for just this purpose. And that's how he started working on his knots..
S is for: Stamina (how long do they last)
He's good for at least two rounds, depending on how rough or intense. But more than likely you're going around twice and that doesn't count him with his face between your thighs. When he drinks it's usually only once, but it's no less intense than it would be any other time. You're still at the finish line telling him, "You're an animal, O'Brien."
T is for: Toy (do they like them or own some?)
He doesn't own a lot of toys as far as like, vibrators and dildos. He's not opposed to them, exactly. He just doesn't really feel the need to have them around quite yet. He's got the cuffs, the rope and a cute little clit vibrator for you that fits right on the tip of his middle finger. And that's about all he's got in his arsenal, but he's not against growing the collection. In fact, there was a time you had drunkenly told him that you wanted to get him a cock-ring. And he forgot pretty well everything that wasn't you standing in front of him, half naked with those platform pumps on. He wasn't sure when it would happen, but he would let you put a ring on him if you wanted.....
U is for: Unfair (how much of a tease)
He's an asshole. That's how much of a tease he is. He loves to tease and touch, make you think you're going to get it and then leave you hanging. On more than one occasion he's had you perched on his lap, fingers between your legs with a lazy little flick of your clit while you begged for more after hours of (what you would consider) torture.
"You don't like it?" He would hum into your neck with a little rub of his scruffy chin against your skin, fingers alternating between that lazy flick and a figure eight.
"You know I do."
He also just really likes to tease in the way that - oh, you think he looks sexy in those grey sweatpants? Alright, honey. Let me wear just those around the house. Nice and low on my hips.
Tease.
V is for: Volume (how loud they are)
He's fairly loud, lots of pants and groans as he works you two through it. He likes dirty talk, too. He likes to look at your face and watch your eyes get wide when he tells you how good your pussy feels around him. He noticed pretty early on in your sexual relationship that the louder he is, the louder you are. So he makes it a point to be loud because he wants to hear from you, wants to know that he's doing well for you. He wants to hear your moans, whimpers and whines.
W is for: Wild Card (random headcanon)
He's incredibly territorial. Like, will not hesitate to put a guy on his back if he looks at you the wrong way. What's Dylan's is Dylan's and he will make it known, he doesn't care who might be watching over his shoulder. He's gotten a lot better over the last year or so that you've been together, not so many almost brawls. He gets that snarl in his upper lip, twitch in his brow and his hand is on the back of your neck to remind you, and informing those around you, where you belong. Those are the nights he usually cuffs your hands behind your back, your chest pressed to the mattress, ass in the air while he doles out spank after spank asking you, "who do you belong to?"
And it's a question that demands an answer every single time.
X is for: X-Ray (what’s going on down below)
He's above average at almost 8 inches (very proud of it, thank you very much) and he knows exactly how to use it. He knows how to swivel his hips so he hits that spot and make your toes curl. And he's thick, like...take your breath away thick. You're not sure you'll ever get used to him and that first thrust, but that's just fine with you.
Y is for: Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)
He is a ball of energy, especially these days. And he seemingly has the sex drive to match it. He always had a high sex drive - just a particular look, or the raise of an eyebrow and he was good to go. You weren't sure if it was because he turned 30 or what, but lately he was insatiable. It's difficult to keep up with him, but damnit - you'll try.
Z is for: Zzz (do they fall asleep after it)
He doesn't fall asleep right after, no. Honestly more often than not it's like an energizer for him. He's the King of early morning sex, it just puts him in the right frame of mind for the day. And at night once you're calmed down and one with the mattress, he usually climbs out of bed, goes hunting for a snack and watches MLB highlights. His two favourite things - you and baseball. Doesn't get much better than that, honey.
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