#behind those connection

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Behind Those Connection | bestfriend!jungkook au 01

⭢ pairing: jungkook x reader

⭢ genre: fluff, bestfriend!jungkook, friends to lovers

⭢ warnings: introvert jk,  future family problems, jk prefers to be alone 

⭢ word count: 2.7k

summary:  in which you are the only friend that jungkook has

parts: 1

“Do you know hoseok, gguk?” You asked as you bite your bread while sitting at Jungkook's bed resting your back on the headboard. 

He glanced at you for a second and returned his attention to the book that he’s reading. 

“Nope.” He answered sitting at the small single couch near the bed. 

“He’s throwing a party for his birthday and he’s inviting all the engineering students and a few friends and acquaintances from our batch.” You swallow your bread before you continue. “You’re an engineering student so technically, you’re invited.”

He doesn’t even give you a single glance for what you just said indicating that he’s not interested. You rolled your eyes before you got off of his bed and walked towards him. You sit next to him on the couch even though you both don’t fit and he frowned at you. You just chuckled at his reaction.

“What the hell, y/n.” He commented, still looking at you with irritation.

“I’m one of his acquaintances that he invited and I want you to also be there.” You said with a wide smile while cuddling his left arm. 

Frankly, you only know hoseok by his name and popularity although, sometimes, you’ve seen him during parties that you both attend. You don’t remember yourself having a proper conversation with him except for a short greeting so you are not really expecting to be invited to his party. Well, good for you since you love free drinks and nightlife. Which is an activity that Jungkook hates. 

“I don’t even know him.” He returned his gaze in the book.

“Oh come on. You don’t want free drinks?” You brought your face to him and but he avoided you because of irritation.

“I can afford buying my own.” He replied that made you roll your eyes and remove your hand from his arm.

“I know but he invited you. Why don’t you try coming so that at least you can unwind?”

“I’m not interested.” He speaks with finality not even looking at you. You rolled your eyes and returned to the bed. 

You are not surprised that Jungkook doesn’t want to come to the party since it wasn’t his thing. He prefers to stay at home and read his books or play computer games. You are his opposite and people find it fascinating on how both of you became close but to be honest, it isn’t a big story to tell. Given the fact that both of your parents are friends, Jungkook isn't fond of making friends while you like to stay close to him. 

“Who’s coming with you?” He asked not to give you a glance. 

“Probably with Jennie and her friends. Nayeon isn’t really invited so I’m going with Jennie.” 

Nayeon is one of your close friends among your friend group and your other friends aren't studying in the same university as you except for Nayeon therefore, they don’t know most of the people in your university. In Nayeon’s case, she and hoseok don't really know each other and the reason why she isn’t invited to his birthday.

Jungkook suddenly looked at you and he looked like he didn't like your idea.

“Jennie Kim?” Of course he knows her because she’s his blockmate. You also know the reason why he doesn’t like your idea of tagging with her and her friends. You want to change his mind because Jennie isn’t what he really thinks she is.

“She’s not good to be with, y/n. I know her.”

“And I also know her. She isn't really what you think she is. She’s—

“She’s not good for you. I know a lot of issues from her and those issues are not nice to hear. She might leave you alone at the party.”

Jennie Kim is known to have a lot of issues like betraying her friends and hooking up with a lot of men but you’ve known her since kindergarten. Everything she does has a reason and you know that she won’t betray you of all people. People might judge her from what they see but you know better.

You looked at Jungkook and he still looks irritated but you understand why he has that reaction. However, you also want him to understand that Jennie is harmless to you. 

“I’ll be fine, gguk. Don’t worry. Or if you want me to stay safe, be there.” You gave him a knowing smile. He once again rolled his eyes. 

“Whatever.” 

———————————————————

You are spacing out while your last class is ongoing. It was history class and it was a subject that you find boring. You were looking at the wall clock as you received a message from your bestfriend, Jungkook.

From: Jungkook

I’m at the cafeteria. Just go here after your class.

You replied “ok” before you put down your phone. Most of the time, you and Jungkook go home together not only because he has a car but it is something that both of you regularly do. When you were in middle school, you always hopped in his car uninvited when he used to have a driver and he couldn't do anything about it. At first, he was really furious whenever you hop in his car. One time, when you were about to open the door, he ordered his driver to drive fast so that you won’t be able to ride and that is something that he regrets because you became cold and ignored him for the whole week. He felt guilty for what he did since you sulked. You suddenly stop nagging and annoying him and Jungkook should be happy about it, however, his conscience grew in him.

When the bell rang, you immediately fixed your things and left the room. You go straight to the cafeteria but before you even reach where jungkook is, you hear Jennie calling you.

“Y/N!” When you looked behind, you saw her walking towards you with a big smile on her face. She kissed your cheeks before she spoke.

“We’ll go to hoseok's party together, right?” She said and you nod while smiling.

“Of course! I’ll just fetch you to your house. How about Lisa and your other friends?” 

“They’re just going on their own. They’ll see us at the party.” She answered. “Wanna stay at my place before we head to the club?” She continued. She probably wants to hang out with you before the party starts and have a catch up but you’re afraid you can’t.

Before you got the chance to answer, you heard Jungkook’s voice behind you.

“y/n.” You looked behind and you saw him seriously looking at you. As you looked behind, you saw him seriously looking at you.

“I’ll just fetch you later at your house. Probably around 8pm?” You looked at Jennie smiling at Jungkook who just arrived. 

“Oh of course. I’ll see you later?” You nodded before you both said goodbyes. 

Your eyes follow Jennie before you face your bestfriend “What?” You looked at Jungkook who’s still looking at you with dagger eyes. 

“You’re fetching her?” He sounds like he can’t believe what he heard.

“You just heard it.” You stated the fact. You started to walk and he walked along with you.

“Are you seriously befriending her?” He asked while you both were walking. 

“We’re already friends. What are you saying?” 

He’s explaining why you can’t be friends with her while walking until you reach the car and you look so done with his words. You closed your eyes before you faced him.

“Jungkook, can you listen to me?” You said when you are now inside the car. 

“What?” He looked at you as he closed his car door. You clench your jaw before you speak.

“I know that you’re just concerned about me but I've known Jennie since we were 6. We've been friends ever since and I know what kind of person she really is.” You looked at him but he didn't respond so you continued. “She might appear as plastic but trust me, she’s just doing that to protect herself. She had a traumatic experience during her childhood that explains why she does the things that might not sound appropriate. But I know that when it comes to me, she’s the Jennie Kim I’ve known since kindergarten.” 

He was stunned to speak and looked down. He’s playing with the car keys and silence grew between the two of you. You’re right, you’ve known Jennie more than he has known her but he just doesn’t want you to be involved with Jennie’s issues. You were his only friend and the last thing that he wants to happen is you getting hurt. 

Jungkook stayed silent until he decided to drive away.

Both of you were silent during the ride and you were used to his silence. Whenever you both had an argument or a discussion that one of you didn’t agree with, he stayed silent afterwards.

“Wanna stay?” You asked when you reached your house. 

“No, I’ll go.” He responded not even giving you a glance and you just nod before leaving his car.

He followed you with his eyes until you closed your door and he sighs. He doesn’t remember the last time that both of you had this argument and its weight on his chest. He stayed there for a couple of minutes before he decided to leave.

———————————————————

“Happy birthday, hoseok!” You greeted when you saw him and he gave you and Jennie a drink and you gladly took it. 

“Thank you, ladies! Lisa and the other girls have arrived though I’m not sure where they are right now.” hoseok responded close to you and Jennie because the music was too loud. Both of you and Jennie talked to hoseok for a while before hoseok met with the other visitors and you started to enjoy the night.  

Hours passed since you arrived at the club. You’ve met a lot of people and had a lot of drinks and you’re now starting to get drunk. Excusing yourself from the crowd, you walk towards your table however, before you even reach there, someone blocked you. 

“y/n!” You looked at Jimin who���s in front of you while smiling. You returned his smile. 

“Hi, Min. How are you? I haven’t seen you the whole night.” You respond and compose yourself because you know to yourself that you’re already drunk and you're embarrassed to show it to him.

“I just arrived minutes ago and it seems that you’ve already enjoyed the night.” You chuckled at his remarks.

Jimin is actually a high school classmate and one of hoseok’s close friends but he’s from another university. Though you don’t really know how he and hoseok became friends, you just found out when you’re attending previous college parties. Jimin also happens to be your highschool happy crush and honestly, he’s still your happy crush up until now. Majority of your friends know that since you don’t really keep it a secret. Probably Jimin got the message since rumors have wings and it flies high. However, you find it strange that he’s not hitting on you. Not to sound too high of yourself but there are a lot of men who admire you and you are aware of that. But the thought that Jimin doesn't see you differently makes you even whats him more. 

“Where are you heading?” You asked.

“I was with a few friends when I saw you. I just came to say hi.” You bite your lower lip to prevent yourself from smiling because you know for sure that you got butterflies on your stomach. 

“Missed me?” And you don’t really know where that came from. 

He chucked before he answered. “Of course. I haven’t seen you since the last time we attended the same party.”

“Yeah, we only see each other during parties.” You were about to hit another line on Jimin when you caught the eye of your bestfriend. The music is blasting and the lights are dancing which gives you a headache. You weren’t sure if it was actually him since your sight was already blurred and it was dark. You looked at Jimin before you excused yourself but before you walked away, he grabbed your wrist.

“y/n.” You looked at him. “I hope we can hang out some other time.” He added and you smile genuinely. 

“Of course we can.” He nodded before he let you go and walk away. You spaced out for a couple of seconds realizing that Jimin wants to hang out with you. You smirk but then you remember that the person you just saw might be your bestfriend. You looked at the directions where you saw him and gladly, he’s still there. You walk towards where he is standing and you laugh when you confirm that he is really your bestfriend. You hit his upper arm but you lose your balance and before you even kiss the ground, Jungkook catches you. 

“God, y/n. You’re drunk.” He said while holding your waist and you keep on laughing. He rolled his eyes and you kept your composure.

“What’s funny?” He asked, looking at you with annoyance and picked up the glass of drink in the counter bar. 

“I thought you’re not interested in the party?” You said and snatched his drink before you took a sip. He rolled his eyes and grabbed the glass.

“You’re drunk already.” He stated the fact. 

The DJ got a nice mix out there and you started to sway your hips together with the beat. You get a drink from the bar while dancing through the music and your bestfriend’s eyes are staring at you looking so done.

“C’mon gguk! Let’s dance!” You pulled his wrist using your right hand while drinking your glass. Everyone is now jumping and having fun but your bestfriend is just standing while you’re dancing along with the crowd.

It was getting wild so you put your hand on your bestfriend’s shoulder while dancing and you’re having so much fun not really minding him. 

Jungkook watches you dance until you get tired and totally get drunk. He stayed while watching you having the best night until you got wasted. The party isn’t over but you can’t join anymore. Jungkook’s hand is in your waist assisting you to walk to the parking lot and he’s really having a hard time.

“Gguk, what the hell! Let’s go back!” You said while hitting him.

“Stop being stubborn. You’re already drunk.” He responds while walking you.

“One more glass please!” You keep on resisting to walk and Jungkook had enough. He lifted you up and you shouted. You keep on shouting at him and he acts as if he didn’t hear it until he reached the car.

He lays you down in the backseat and you’re already wasted to even protest. You’ve been talking to yourself and Jungkook can’t really understand it. 

“I’ll get you home.” He said but you were blabbering words. 

“No— not.” 

“Goodness, y/n” Jungkook whispered. You keep on talking until you finally get tired. 

When you reach your home, Jungkook carries you up to your room and lays you down on your bed. He was wondering why your parents are not at home but he remembered that most of the time, they are going abroad for business and maybe that is the reason why they are not around. 

He stares at you while you’re peacefully sleeping and he smug at the thought of how worst your hangover would be. He removed your platform heels and laid you properly before he tucked the blanket in. He walks into your vanity mirror and picks up a cotton and a bottle of make up remover before he sits next to you and gently removes your makeup. He’s been doing this a lot of times and he already mastered what to do whenever you’re wasted. 

He keeps on staring at your baby face while removing your makeup. He caressed your face and he remembered how you swayed your hips while you placed your hands on his shoulder. His heartbeat suddenly increased and he looked away. He puts down the bottle of makeup remover and stands up. He was about to walk away when you grabbed his hand.

“Stay.” You whispered while your eyes were still closed. 

“I’ll head home. It's already late, y/n.” He responded.

“That's why… stay.” 

He stared at you for a moment before he caressed your hands. 

“I’ll be here tomorrow. Don’t worry.” He kissed your forehead before he finally left your room.

next part

author’s note: Hello! This is my first time posting a jungkook au here and I’ve been exploring how to use this app properly for my future post. Also, english is not my first language so I hope you guys can still understand my writings ^^

[mastersoftheair]

from appletv's instagram story

[sp0o0kylights]

One of my coworkers is insisting you can play D&D for money, and I'm low-key convinced she found some kind of like, home brewed gladiator D&D ring, bc while I do not play it myself I grew up with/ still know many many people who did and absolutely people who would have done it for money, and this is an extremely long sentence to say;

Wouldn't it be absolutely hilarious if Steve thought Eddie had picked up drug dealing again well after Vecna, only to find out his dramatic ass, wet racoon boyfriend has started/is hosting an underground D&D gambling ring instead?

[moon-lords-lower-body]

I feel like a lot of terraria fans have like their 1-3 bosses/enemies that are like. Uber favorite for whatever reason. Like they're not just your favorite your soul is bonded to them. You have stake in this enemy. What are yalls mine is the lunatic cultist and cultist archer/devotee

[secondsonaym]

I'm so bad at crossposting but also because of my hand and devoting a lot of my art time to adopts, I don't have a lot of... Blog-relevant stuff to share atm???? 🙃 sorry

So instead let me show you some misc stuff I've done that is mainly relevant to silly little non-canon-to-the-blog roleplays i've been doing with friends.

Madame and Vesh are basically my current idea for Helob's parents, just smth I've been thinking on. Basically Madame is a giant spider that does her own thing and is kind of a formidable figure that has an almost cryptid-like status. Vesh just kinda follows her around cause he's weird.

Then the rest are just. Various ship babies because I have an addiction. (There's technically more than what is shown but. Listen. You don't need to see all that). Full ramble on all those guys beneath the cut.

First is some misc kitties between Star and Narinder, specifically Cat!Star. They weren't really given names or anything, and were more one-off design considerations so idk if they're ever gonna exist past this but they're neat designs.

Then there's a silly caterpillar between Butterfly!Star and Helob, named Psyche. They have a sister name Arachne who is half-lamb half-spider and she's so sweet.

Two more Narilamb babs, Ophelia and Melpomene, and this time they're between Star and a friend's version of Narinder where he was never sealed away and is still a bishop. We call him Ben :)

Fleur is between Star and a friend's lamb OC--Joan! Joan's popped up via stuff I've reblogged once or twice I think

And finally, some fellas that are from Fox!Star and a friend's version of the Fox, aka Skoll. These three are problem children.

[jjsesame]

Everybody's falling in love and I'm falling behind

[carefulfears]

txf30 day 4: favorite dynamic (besides the obvious): scully/mulder/skinner

y’all mind if i ramble for a second?? there are so many connections that are so important to this story, but i always come back to these three. i think everything does.

i say that memento mori is the most loving episode of the series, but when i think about that one, it’s not even the kiss in the hallway that stays with me. it’s skinner coming in to work, the first time scully was in the hospital, and finding mulder sitting in his office. and he’s just been sitting there. bypassed the secretary (lol), and just sat and waited. he doesn’t have anywhere else to go.

and the way that skinner tells him, no. don’t do it to yourself under any circumstances. that he is not to risk himself to try to save scully. ultimately, it’s not mulder that made the deal with the devil, it’s skinner who didn’t follow his own advice. (gave up everything he has, to save them both).

and these are just two weirdos who work for him in the basement!! he doesn’t owe them anything. but he’s the one there, at the end, no matter what. he’s the one who comes to get them when they’re hurt, or lost, or need help. they’re his emergency contacts, the people who show up, the people who advocate for him. the people who know him. (the bigfoot division are a.d. skinner’s silly rabbits etc etc etc)

in iwtb, after six years away, it’s skinner who comes to get scully, on the side of the road, next to mulder’s flipped car. tells her that they will find him, that he’s okay, to breathe. it’s skinner that holds mulder on the ground, in the end.

when mulder went back to bellefleur, it's skinner that scully sent with him. that girl has never trusted a single soul to so much as breathe mulder's air, but "i won't let you go alone," is immediately followed by skinner packing the car.

like trish said last night:

i think telling scully he "lost" mulder was the hardest thing he ever did. skinner loves mulder too, but mulder is scully's entire world. and this time around, he won't let scully be alone the way mulder was.

(and the kindest thing scully ever did: squeezing his hand, saying "i already heard.")

(skinner returns the favor: he tells mulder about william, so that scully doesn't have to.)

my favorite moment in requiem is the final scene, the two of them crying together. the only two people. the only two people who know.

when she tells him that she's pregnant, he's the first to know. the only person to know, for most of her pregnancy. 18 years later, he's still the first person thinking of their baby, looking out for him.

honestly, it always comes back to sein und zeit for me. when after 7 years, after 27 years, mulder says that it's just too much, and he wants to go home. he wants time away from work. the sequence in the car: mulder in the backseat, skinner behind the wheel, scully on the passenger's side. for so many years, mulder had to be searching, so that he wouldn't be alone. but now he stands in front of two people who love him, and admits to needing a break. to wanting it to stop. he's guided, he's guarded.

skinner is a hardass. it's not easy to manage their madness. it's not easy to write the footnotes, to be the person waiting, in this particular story. but like he tells mulder, 14 years after they last worked together: not a day goes by where he doesn't just wish they were there, trying to make things better.

[mossiestpiglet]

once again stressed as hell because i have the opportunity to apply for a job and i feel like i HAVE to take it despite the fact that i really dont want it and also feel like it wouldnt necessarily even be the best move in terms of career… but like. Fatal American Desire To Seize Every Financial Opportunity At The Expense Of My Own Well-being.

[oxbowreality]

I'm transferring my files to a new computer and I found a whole bunch of unfinished fics from my Mechs phase and I think I might finish and post the ones that are nearly finished. Just reading some of them gave me such a swell of emotion that I really do want to see if I can finish them.

Most of the files I have are unfinished Mechstober 2020 fics, so you can see how long it's been.

[ctrlsht]

Behind Those Connection | bestfriend!jungkook au 05

⭢ pairing: jungkook x reader ⭢ genre: fluff, bestfriend!jungkook ⭢ warnings: introvert jk,  future family problems, jk prefers to be alone ⭢ word count: 2.4k   

summary: in which you are the only friend that jungkook has  parts: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4

You've been staring at the window as the sun rises. You have also experienced light-headedness even before the sun has risen and you tried to close your eyes to endure it. Last night was one hell of a sleepless night and the only thing that keeps running in your head was what happened between you and Jungkook. Jungkook hasn't returned since last night and honestly, you wanted to follow him because you're worried sick but before you even do that, Namjoon messaged you asking why Jungkook is sleeping in their room. After a few moments, you heard the doorbell ring and you were expecting it to be Jungkook but you heard Namjoon calling your name. You slowly stood up and looked at the wall clock. It's still 7 in the morning. 

"Good morning." Namjoon greeted as he entered the room while plastering his smile but you do not have the energy to smile back because you felt so sick. "Did you even sleep?" He asked as he entered your room and you sat on the side of the bed. 

"Can't sleep." You answered as you covered your face with your palm.

"So what did you and Jungkook fight about?" He asked and you didn't even bother to reply. Because of your dizziness, you decided to lie down covering yourself with the comforter. 

"We should be having our breakfast right now so we can leave at 8am but with your state, I don't think we'll be following the original plan." He said. "Everyone is asleep though."

"Why are you even up so early?" Your voice is husky. 

"I follow the scheduled plan." As you expect him to say because he's basically Kim Namjoon. 

"Where's Jungkook?" You slightly removed the cover of the comforter in your face so you can see Namjoon and he's in front of the sliding door going to the veranda adoring the view that’s in front. 

"Sleeping. He knocks in the middle of the night asking if he can sleep with us. Seokjin was already sleeping so I was the only one awake." He glanced at you before he walked to the countertop to brew a coffee. "Do you want some coffee?"

"No. I'll try to sleep." And you faced the opposite side.

"Aren't you going to tell me what happened? Jungkook also didn't even want to tell me the reason." 

"Just wake me up if we're about to leave. My head felt like cracking. I fucking need to sleep."

—------

You don't know how you will approach your best friend and now you don't know how to handle the awkwardness between the two of you. When you wake up from your sleep, it's already 10 in the morning and as you open your eyes, the first thing you see is the back of Jungkook who's arranging his things. You don't know how to start a conversation with him hence, both of you ended up not saying a word which is awkward but it's much better than saying something you'd actually regret. 

The thing that made it worse is when your friends notice the tension and distance between the two of you. You don't want to put him in the spotlight where your friends nag him but it’s something you can't control which made you decide to approach him before the day ends. You wanted to fix things between the two of you and hopefully, he also does. But you had a little grudge against him for not even giving you a single glance and completely ignoring you but you've realized that it's partly your fault.

You and your friends left Cebu City going to Bantayan Island at 1 o'clock in the afternoon. It was not a good plan to travel from the city to the island in the afternoon because there is no available boat or ship to ride and everyone is having their lunch time so you've waited for almost two hours before there is an available ride. 

Reaching Bantayan Island is breathtaking because of its wonderful scenery and crystal clear ocean and it somehow gives you a peace of mind. The sun is too bright and the weather is too hot but it didn't stop your friends from running into the water as soon as they had the chance. You were at the cottage while your friends were having a dip under the sun. And your best friend? He's nowhere to be found. 

You were laying down in the beach lounger and you decided to get up. You're wearing your bikini and as you stand up, you cover your waist with the scarf that you have. You wanted to enjoy the day but there's the thing in your mind that prevents it and you know the reason why. 

You immediately walk towards the cabin you rented and silence greeted you. No one was in the living room so you decided to check out the room but before you even went upstairs, you bumped at the stone chest of someone and when you looked up, you saw Jungkook holding a can of… beer? In the afternoon? 

You didn't realize that both of you were having a staring contest until he looked down at your body before he looked away. You suddenly feel conscious of your body and you realize that your outfit is not the appropriate attire for the situation. 

He passed you and before he even walked away, you spoke. "H-hey."

You looked behind and he stopped walking but he didn't look back. You bite your lower lip and brush your palm on your right upper arm. You take a deep breath because your heart starts to beat rapidly. 

"Can… Can we talk? About last night?" You speak softly  because you weren't sure if you're doing it right, however, the next thing that he did made your heart sink. 

"Namjoon is actually waiting for me." He didn't even look behind to see you before he finally walked away. 

You became blank when he left you. You don't know how long you've been standing and you've been processing what just happened. 

You didn't expect him to approach you with warm hugs but you also didn't expect him to leave like that either. 

Before you can even recover, you heard footsteps entering the cabin.

"y/n, Jimin's been calling you a hundred times and I don't want to answer it so I just went here." Namjoon said while holding your phone. 

You slowly grab your phone from him and when you press the power button, there's a lot of messages coming from Jimin and a few missed calls including from yesterday. You didn't notice his messages and calls because you're actually preoccupied up until now. 

"Are you okay?" Namjoon asked softly when he stared at you but you didn't respond and proceeded to read Jimin's messages. 

From Jimin:

I stopped by at the cafe where we went before I go home hahaha

Kinda miss you tbh

y/n???

:/

I hope you're enjoying your day! 

Hey?

Those are just messages from yesterday and there are more. You wanted to call him back but you were not in the mood so you just left a simple message. 

To Jimin:

Hi Jimin! Sorry for not replying to all of your messages and answering your calls.

We just encountered a problem so I haven't used my phone often. But everything's fine. You don't have to worry. 

I'm sorry that I can't call you right now because the wifi signal is poor

TTYL :)))

You threw your phone at the couch in the living room and you let yourself fall there before you sigh. 

"y/n, you can tell me your problem. You've been like this since yesterday. Seriously,  what's wrong?" Namjoon sat beside you before you looked at him.

"I thought you'd been waiting for Jungkook?" 

"Uhh yeah? He said he's going to get some beer so I said to also get me one. Ice cold beer is perfect for the weather." You suddenly rolled your eyes.

"Namjoon, it's freaking 30 degrees out there. Beer will only warm you up." 

"Yeah but it's cold." He raises his can.

You didn't respond. The whole situation is frustrating you and you just wanted to have some fun from this mini vacation but guess what? It only fucked you up.

"C'mon y/n. Is this about Jungkook?" 

"I don't know. I tried to talk to him but he just walk the fuck out!" Your voice raised and you covered your face from frustration. 

"You can tell me the problem."

You told Namjoon everything that happened yesterday and he actually listened to everything you say. You don't know what to do after Jungkook left you dumbfounded again just like last night and you honestly don't want to approach him for the second time because it will only get on your nerves if he walks out again. 

"Maybe it's better if you give him space. He may not be ready to talk to you." He said.

"That's easy to do but we're in a vacation for fuck's sake. Everyone will be affected if we keep on avoiding each other. I just want this to be over." You covered your face using both of your palms. 

"You will only make it worse. When you approach him and he walks out again, you'll just end up being more frustrated. I'll tell you." 

"Giving each other space is the only option here for the meantime. You cannot hide from him but you cannot also force him to talk to you. Try to set aside your frustration and think about the days that we only left. You don't want this vacation to be wasted, am I right?"

He stands up to get a can of beer inside the fridge and walks back to give it to you. 

"Drinking cold beer on a sunny day isn't really bad. Come on and try." You don't have a choice but to take it. After opening the can of beer, he gave you a toast and sat back.

"Does Jungkook have a girlfriend or someone he likes?" He suddenly asked.

"Naaah. He doesn't mention anyone." You take a sip after you answer.

"But do you think he likes someone?"

"I don't think so. He doesn't have other shits to do except playing his video games or reading his book in his free time."

It was actually true though. Except for school and studying, the only thing he does is the thing you've mentioned. He doesn't even go out if it's unnecessary. Sometimes, you use his phone and you haven't seen any suspicious person popping up in his notifications. 

"Have you ever crossed your mind that what if he likes you?" You suddenly choked as you were drinking your beer. Namjoon taps your back to prevent you from coughing. After you wipe your mouth, you suddenly laugh. 

"What?" Namjoon asked.

"Are you out of your mind?" You said while chuckling.

"What? There's nothing impossible, y/n! Just come think about it. What do you think is the reason why Jungkook is too stunned to speak when he sees Jimin's messages and when he suddenly explodes when Jimin calls you in the middle of your argument with him?"

"You don't understand, joonie–

"He's basically jealous, y/n!" He cut you off.

"That's not it!"

"Then what?" 

You didn't respond immediately and you collected yourself before you answered.

"I am the only one he trusts and the only friend he's comfortable with at all times." You started. "He may appear as a straightforward person and says what comes in his mind but when it comes to his true feelings, he prefers not to say it. The only way that I can keep up with what he truly feels is by my observations."

"This is actually the first time he became honest with me about his feelings. You see, I am the only one that he has. You all may be treating him as your friend but he's still building his courage to feel comfortable with all of you. Sometimes, he feels left out and I, as his best friend who’s supposed to be with him on this whole trip, is busy talking to someone else." You sigh.

The thing that you always keep in your mind is, you're the only person he truly trusts and he has no one else except you. You don't want to reach the point where he trusts nobody, even you. 

It was a long moment of silence for the both of you before he nodded.

"I get it." He said and finished his can of beer. "But I still believe that his actions scream jealousy." He chuckled.

"Namjoon!"

Before you even have another argument with him, you hear the loud voices entering the cabin.

"Oh my god." You and Namjoon looked behind and you saw your friends as they entered. 

"What are you guys doing?" Giselle asked with full of malice.

"Are you two supposed to make out or what?" After Seokjin said that, everyone laughed except Jungkook who's behind your friends. 

That's when you realize where those malicious thoughts are coming from. You're still wearing your bikini and the only thing covering you is the scarf around your waist.

"We're actually having a bible study." Namjoon said sarcastically before standing up, getting another can of beer in the fridge. 

"So what's the bible verse of the day?"

"Fuck yourself."

—----

The rest of the day is spent in the cozy cabin where everyone's resting and on their phone. It's been three days since you've arrived in Cebu and you still have two days before going back to Seoul. You'll be spending the next  two days here in Bantayan Island doing a lot of water activities. And for now, you'll be resting to prepare for island hopping for tomorrow. 

When the night came, you and your friends went to a restaurant to eat your dinner while spending the night by the seashore with a bonfire. Everyone is talking about random stuff and capturing photos to post in their Instagram stories.

You're all sitting in the sand circling the bonfire and Jungkook is in front of you. You got the chance to stare at him because he doesn't give you a single glance and it makes you pout. It looks like he really doesn't care. You took your phone and took a shot of him. 

The weight in you is reduced after you've talked to Namjoon and it's good to atleast have someone to listen to you. It seems that Namjoon understands the whole situation so he finds a way to distance the both of you. He's with Jungkook the whole time and he makes sure that he's not left out. 

This will be extra special if you have your best friend by your side and create the best moments but unfortunately, things happen.

previous 

[moe-broey]

Love Loses 😔💔 (aka second-worst festival you could possibly drag Moe into)

+ some rough sketches of the outfit!!!

I'm not too committed to fleshing it out, but I imagine it would most likely have a green color scheme, forget-me-nots and possibly pansies incorporated into its design (would probably have to figure out how all that would work together LMFAO but again. Not super committed to the thought!)

[daisywords]

I do tend to like the trope of "one or both characters faking or being disingenuous about their role in a relationship but ending up being shaped by it anyway"—and yes "fake dating" and all its variants are included in that! but! that is not the end-all-be-all; the possibilities here are endless. for example:

fake mentor/mentee

fake siblings

fake bodyguard/person they are protecting

fake parent/child

fake prisoner/guard

fake royalty/servant

fake rivals

fake divorced

even just. fake friends please I love fake friends

[starscelly]

another banger tim stützle opinion from my roommate . she has assigned him as fuecoco from pokémon violet

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

[guruguruguruguru]

the longer i sit with it the more it really gets me how nobody ever really mentions obito and rin before obito's reveal in shippuden. kakashi vaguely mentions his old friends and i think other characters allude to the tragedy of kakashi's past but rin and obito themselves are lost to time. something about that is so fucking haunting and so gutting. you would think it would be a pretty big deal that two kids from the same class died within a year of each other, but the nine tails attack probably wiped so much clean that nobody could really carry the grief... still, when we see their class in flashbacks, we recognise almost everyone else, so... there's something really sad and hopeless about their absence...

there's a lot a LOT to say about it from a lot of different angles and i don't really feel like going into meta posting territory i just have big feelings about it you know? and to me i guess obito encapsulates a lot of the anger. for the people who get left behind and forgotten. and that can mean a lot of things

[s4pphic-sh3nan1gans]

do you want to know how much the jance pictures affected me?

I am currently writing a song about it (or attempting to, at least) and I just- ajshakshak I can't do this anymore, the chokehold they have on me is INSANE.

that said, there is absolutely no better inspiration than something that makes you feel so many things at 3am. no matter what it is, it just hits different and I'm... I'm not okay 😭😭😭