#blah blah blah ok sleep. thats a thing i should do soon

[chickenoptyrx]

*sittin up projecting onto the baby blorbo when I should be sleeping*

[trikxx]

Lookk so to mention this is not just any friends to lovers story my toxic side is screaming friends with benefits type beat so😉 there will be some heartbreaking and Shinsou talking to other girls and you talking to other boys❤️❗️this is also a poc reader sooo read if you want i dont own you🤷🏽‍♀️

Songs for this chapter ⬇️

• B***h dont kill my vibe by kendrick Lamar

• in control nba youngboy

⚠️❗️marijuana use in this chapter❗️⚠️

"Alright we have 569 orders to pack Toshi." You say to Shinsou "ok hold on." Shinsou said licking and blunt to finish rolling it. You grabbed a box of packages and put it in the living room the grabbing your computer to print out labels and receipts.

You light a candle and turn on some music (the song at the top) Shinsou puts the blunt to the side and starts labeling the packages and putting the orders together in this order costumers order, business card, thank you card, and receipt. You do final packaging and stamp for the mail marking each order off the list and putting it in the box of finished orders.

"Hey n/n wanna go get a tattoo tomorrow?"

"Sure but where?"

"You remember Sero and Denki from Highschool?"

"Yea."

"Well they opened a tattoo spot on 58th." Shinsou said "Bet we can go." You respond putting another order in the box.

*DING*

"Who is it?" You ask Shinsou cause he pick up you phone. "Armoni." "What did he say?" "He said can he come over?" Shinsou responded "Are you ok with him coming over?" You say "Yea." "Ok then tell him Its ok."

Armoni⛓💵: Is it ok if i come over?

Y/n🤍🌸| Yea. You spending the night and do you need a ride?

Y/n🤍🌸| Also do ma know?

Armoni⛓💵: yea she know and no dad dropping me off.

Armoni⛓💵: ouu i can spend the night bet. Yea if thats the case.

Y/n🤍🌸: i didn't-

Y/n🤍🌸: Aight.

You and Shinsou start back in the orders soon finishing them. "I'm tired as fuck." You say flopping down on the couch "Get untired sweetheart cause your brother is coming over and we have a blunt to smoke and food to order." Shinsou said while laying across your legs.

Y/n's pov

Shinsou lit the blunt and hit it a few times. I looked at him as he let the smoke move out his mouth softly blowing with his head back. "Like what you see?" Shinsou said looking at me with a cocky smirk thats when I noticed I was staring "shut up and pass the blunt." I say. Shinsou chuckled and gave me the blunt. I did the same thing as Shinsou but blew o's "stop trying to show out n/n." Shinsou said taking the blunt "boy ain't nobody 'showing out'." I say putting up quotation marks with your hands.

We pass the blunt back a forth a few more times until I got a notification from life 360 saying Armoni go to the apartment. Shinsou put out the blunt and put it with the spongebob rolling tray we had. I cracked the window and opened the balcony door a little bit and went in my room to put the orders away.

When I came out the room someone started knocking on the door kinda like the police (strong ass knock✋🏽💀) "Armoni Keith l/n how manys time do I have to tell you stop knocking on my fucking door like that." I say opening the door. " Dang Im sorry you aint gotta cuss at me n/n" Armoni said "Aye Shinsou where the hoes?"

I smack Armoni on the back if the head while walking past him to the living room "Ain't no hoes." I say coldly. "Yea Armoni ain't no hoes.... right now." Shinsou said smirking. "Nigga." I say with a straight face. "Im not finna do this with ya'll tonight." Shinsou and Armoni start laughing "ANYWHOO. Did you eat yet Armoni cause was finna order some food."

"Nah not yet." Armoni said. "What do ya'll want to eat?" I say walking into the kitchen with my phone to grab an water and then lean on the island.

"What about taco bell?"

"Armoni who the fuck."(sorry to the people who like taco bell) I say "ima have to agree with y/n Armoni. Who eats Taco bell?" "Uhh..obviously me." Armoni says.

"Awe naw you gotta go." I say "how about in and out? We can go out and get that." K said "im cool with that" Armoni says. "Ok." I say walking to my room. I got in to my room and pull out a pair of jogging pants and a oversized (fav anime) shirt and took off my bonnet and styled my faux locs

I grabbed my purse and house and car keys. "Yall ready?" I ask putting on my air force ones. "Been ready. We was waiting for you." Shinsou said.

Time skip

I start up my car using my remote start while we were walking to the car in the parking garage.

Everyone gets in the car. "LET ME PLAY THE MUSIC!" Armoni yells "STOP FUCKING YELLING." And it depends on what you finna play." I say turning around to look at Armoni. "Come on n/n let him play the music." Shinsou said looking at me tilting his head with puppy dog eyes. "I guess." I say rolling my eyes. "Just dont play no trash shit." I said looking at him through the rear view mirror. "Ok ok and i was going to say yall had to cause yall smoked with out me." He said making this face '😌' "boy.."

Play in control by nba youngboy

"shhhhhhhh" Shinsou said putting his finger up to your mouth and pointing to the steering wheel. "Food." I side eyed him and started backing out the parking spot and driving out the garage. Armoni start playing Nba youngboy. As much as I wanted to turn it off Shinsou wouldn't let me so we had to flow with it.

"Sk machine guns its two of us wit four nines!" Armoni rapped with the song (in control-nba young boy only song i can get down to🙌🏽 edit- i put the wrong song🙂 if you listen to yb just ignore that🧍🏽‍♀️) I turned down the radio. "What do yall want from here?" I asked they both said what they wanted and i went inside and ordered the food. As im waiting a guy comes up to me "Damn, what a fine girl like you doing out by yourself." He says "ahaha" I said sarcastically "getting food." I say still looking down at my phone. "You should me get your number." He says "you should let me get your name." I respond dodging the request. " My name is Shindo and you?" "Y/n" i say

"Order number (blah blah blah)!" The cashier says "welp thats me." I said not wanting to talk to him anymore. "Here you go ma'am." R/n says handing my bag "Thank you, have a good night" i say walking towards the door. "Hey! Uhh.. y/n you said it was!" I heard the guy from before right when I walked out the door "Hey" I said putting on a fake smile. "Can I get your number?" He asked "yea sure" I say pulling out my phone to put his number in.

Shinsou's pov

As me and Armoni are just chilling the car I see y/n coming out on in and out but she getting stopped by someone "who the fuck.." I say "what wron... oh shit" Armoni says. "You know who that is?" Armoni asks me. "Not at all." I tell him. Im not gonna lie i was jealous. But like fr who is that. I see y/n put her phone back the guy tried to hug her but she away "she dont want em" me and Armoni said at the same time and busted out laughing

"What are yall laughing at?" Y/n said opening the back door putting the food in the car. "You petty for doing that to that dude." Armoni said trying to stop laughing. "Awe well he was the on that didn't realize." Y/n said " But you still gave him your number though ." I said. "Yea Im finna block his number rn." Y/n said pulling her phone back out.

Y/n's pov

"Aye. Disconnect from my car now." I said to Armoni "whyyyy?" Armoni whined. " Disconnect or get out. Either way your still disconnecting just the second one your walking." I said smiling at him "ok ok"

I started playing my playlist.

~Time skip~

Shinsou's pov

We got back to the apartment and everybody got comfortable and we ate and watched movies Armoni went into his room and got in the bed around 3 am. Me and y/n were still in the living room. Y/n was laying on me and I was laying on the couch.

~30 minutes later~

"Hey y/n..." she fell asleep on me. 'How cute' I chuckled and just stayed there not wanting to wake her up to put her in her bed. I kept watching f/a that Y/n had put on after Armoni went to bed.

*DING*

Kami💀⚡️: Yoooo are yall coming through to the shop tmrw

Hitoshi☄️: yea why wouldn't we😃.

Kami💀⚡️: just asking cause you guys change up plans really quick if ya know what i mean😉

Hitoshi☄️: stfu. It was only once.

Kami💀⚡️: if you say soo Hitoshi😌

Hitoshi☄️: stop fucking texting me.

It was only once we only did it once. Me and Y/n were supposed to go to their shop the other day but thing between me and y/n go heated and we ended up in bed together but thats besides the point. "Yo Hitoshi your still woke?" Armoni said walking into the living room. "Just up to get som..."Armoni stopped and look at me then down. "Uhmmm..." Armoni went back to his room and got his phone.

"Moms is gonna love this." Armoni said taking a picture. "Why you take a.... fuck Armoni delete it now." I whisper yelled still trying not wake up y/n

"Why should I delete it? Why ya'll ain't tell nobody you guys were a 'thing'?" Armoni shot back. "Cause we're not. Bruh delete the pic and we stay safe. You know your sister is crazy and if she finds out thats the end of our lives." I say slightly sitting up causing y/n to move around a little bit. "Valid point I'll delete it on one case." I was over joyed til the last part.

"Let me drive the car tomorrow." Armoni said. I sighed knowing either way this might be my last week on earth. "Ok." "Anddd deleted thank you for your service." Armoni said taking his water and going back to his room.

I layed back down trying to comprehend what just happened.

*DING*

"What the fuckkkk." I say reaching over to y/n's phone.

*New message from (***)-***-****

(***)-***-****: Hey y/n this Shindo😉.

*read*

I looked at the phone for a little bit 'who is Shindo'

(***)-***-****: from In&out we met there just yesterday.

(***)-***-****: shit. My bad for blowing up your phone just realized how late it is. Text me back when you see this👋🏽.

'Wow' I think to myself bro really is blind. Would this be considered harassment. Maybe I'm tripping... im still high as fuck. Maybe I should go to sleep. I cut on another show to try and fall asleep on but I couldn't. I kept thinking what if she falls for him?

"Y/n." I say shaking her a little bit "come on" Motioning her to wrap her legs and arms around me so I can put her in her bed. "Can I sleep in here?" I ask "Bruh your room is down the hall go there." She said in a sleepy voice. "I dont feel like ittttt" i say.

Y/n slow turned over to face me. "I dont have the energy to argue with you." She said "I take that as a yes." I say getting into her bed.

I felt y/n snuggle under me trying to find warmth so I grabbed and held her close to me. "Goodnight." I say. No response so I start to let go "ok ok night." I heard y/n say. "Mhm thats what I thought." After a while I was able to fall asleep.

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This chapter took 5 ever to write but it was worth it I really hope you guys liked this chapter.

🌸L O V E  Y A  B E B E S🌸

[acourtof-ash-and-ruin]

The Afterlife Chronicles by Sam Cortland:

ToG~ • "Who the hell are these two sons of bitches?" • "Celaena...don't look at them like that..." • "Hold up- are those the same two at that one party....?" • "If this Dorian tries to kiss her... And he did... Welp I'll have to kick his ass when he gets here." • "Wait. Hold on. This is a love triangle...I'm on team "she should still be with me" • "Kick Cain's evil ass!" • "PLEASE DONT DIE!" • "Ok Chaolaena is kind of cute... And he did save her life... Who am I kidding? Team Samlaena for life." CoM~ • "WHY ARE YOU DOUBTING YOUR BEST FRIEND???? ASDJKSHDF..." • "I'm watching you Kale." • "And Doriaaaaannnnnsssss outta there!!! YUS!" • "Damn you, Kale." • "Woah...WOAH!! MY EYES!!! CELAENA STAHP. NO MORE SOUNDS EITHER... OH. MY. GODS. I DID NOT NEED TO SEE THIS." • *Nehemia dies* "Oh shit. Celaena... No I'm sorry!" • "AND KAAAAALLLLLEEEESSSS OUTTA THERE!!!" • "I don't like this underground library... Why are you going alone?????" • "DORIAN HAS MAGIC!!!!! PLOT TWIST!" • "Hold up- you're a queen...and a fae... And Celaena never really existed.... My whole life was a lie." HoF~ • "Get your lazy butt up and go find your Aunt!" • "Not. Another. Male." • "DONT YOU DARE TALK TO MY GF LIKE THAT!" • "Threaten to whip her again, Whitethorn, and I will personally hunt you down in your next life and haunt you forever." • "Ihaterowanihaterowanihaterowan." • "YOU TOUCH HER AGAIN AND YOU ARE SCREWED MISTER FAE BASTARD!" • "THANK YOU EMRYS!" • "F you Rowan." • "Celaena...NO FIRE. NO. STOP." • "I could swear you're a cat with nine lives or something..." • "Damn she's hot... Ayeeee!" • "TELL HIM ABOUT ENDOVIER AND TAKE THE DAMN PITY." • "These plans of yours aren't safe... Then again I should know that by now....." • "Ok...sleep in his bed, 'un-romantically.' That's a lie." • "Maybe he's ok.... But I was better." • "YES THATS MY CELAENA. SCREW THE VALG!" • "F the cadre.... Except for Gavriel. He's ok..." • "GET UP PLEASE." • "SCREW MAEVE." • "Oh dang.... Yes, free him! He kind of ok." • *is tearing up as she gets tattoos* "Ok, this is sweet." • "WHY ARE YOU GOING BY YOURSELF??? HELL HAS BEEN UNLEASHED. YOU NEED THAT STUPID BASTARD. OH DEAR GODS." QoS~ • "That new hair color... Dayummmm!" • "Just don't find Arobynn....... I spoke too soon." • "Oh look it's Captain 'Indecisive' Westfall." • "Really avoided a bad one with that Prince... I mean now he's possessed..." • "YOU DID NOT JUST CALL HER A MONSTER. FIGHT ME VEGGIE MAN!" • *is laughing* "Keep messing with Kale, sweetie, I like it." • *Is humming Mission Impossible theme music* "Go get your cousin, babe!" • "YASSSSS QUEEEN" • "F you still Rowan. You're better but... You had to come back? Damn." • "Woah woah wait a minute- Lysandra????? She's- you're friends now??" • "Of course... Of course he gets to sleep with you when you're IN A DAMN GOLD NIGHTGOWN." • "No ones said it yet- so I will, ROWAN IS A SAVAGE." •AROBYNN DO NOT PUT THAT RING.... YOU LITTLE..." • "I have been informed the ring was fake." • "Get your filthy hands off her, Mr. Salvaterre. I'll FiTe you!" • "Kill the witch!!! Use water- maybe she'll melt." • "'My...Rowan.' YOUR WHAT CELAENA- shoot wrong name- AELIN????" • "Oh ok- now the witch is kind of helping..." • "So Dorian is still there?" • "Does Kale still need to be here?" • "YES LYSANDRA KILL THAT BASTARD!" • "That's my girl!!!" • "Oh dear gods... Kale please do something useful- WHY WOULD YOU FACE HIM ON YOUR OWN???" • "KILL THE KING! OFF WITH HIS HEAD!" • "DORIAN IS BAAAACCCKKK!" • *strums guitar* "When your legs don't work like they used to before..." • "Go reclaim your land, babe! My Queen!" • "YOU SAID MY LINE BUT WITH YOUR NAME AND AHSJSGSGDKFGSH" EoS- • "TOO. MANY. POVS. SO. MANY. THINGS. HAPPENING." • "Like hell she isn't your queen." • *begrudingly* "Ok, fine! Fire breathing bitch queen is my favorite title..." • "Thank the gods Kale is gone- hopefully he doesn't screw it all up.....that's going to be hard for him." • "I see you Lysandra and Aedion." • "All this time... A shape shifter and a fae queen... I must be hawt." • "DO YOU ALL NOT NOTICE HER PLANNING FACE- NOT GOOD. THAT USUALLY TRANSLATES TO SELF SACRIFICE!" • "Talking to dead royals again... That's never a good sign." • "AYEEE ROLFE LONG TIME NO SEE." • "YASSS AELIN. YASSS LYSANDRA." • "Ok.... Rowan, JUST DO IT. AELIN, IF YOU DONT YOULL REGRET IT........not that I'm speaking from personal experience or anything..." • "Stupid goddesses trying to screw stuff up." • "YASSSSS LYSANDRA!!" • "Oh gods... Not again. STAHP. ON A FLIPPING BEACH???? BECAUSE THATS INCONSPICUOUS, ROWAN." *covers eyes and ears* • "DID YOU JUST SAY PREGNANT???" • "Phew... Ok not pregnant." • "This is not good. This is not good." • "YOU MEAN TO TELL ME- SHE DIED JUST TO HAVE TO DIE AGAIN???? FIGHT ME ELENA." • "Why couldn't she have had a normal life???" • "AYE THE BUZZARD FAM IS HERE." • "ROWAN GET TO YOUR DAMN QUEEN." • "um... Wha- NO STAHP. DO NOT TOUCH HER." • "I WILL KILL YOUR AUNT." • "AJSHSGSKDHSVDJXJSM" • "NONONONONONONONO" • "GO FIND YOUR MATE. GO BRING HER HOME. I LIKE YOU NOW. PLEASE GO GET HER." • "If you fail- I'm suing." ToD~ • "All I see is Kale and blah blah blah blah...." • "Maeve is valg- CRAP." • "FIREHEART??? Yes!!!!" • "............never mind. F YOU MAEVE." KoA~ • "I'm too scared to even watch this.... Just find her please!" *sobs*

[justkeepdancing-nemo]

3am [deleted] || closed

The impact of Appa’s depression starts to take its toll.

tw: anxiety, depression

TAE-YAH

Nemo [deleted]: tae-yah? Are you awake?

Nemo [deleted]: i really shouldn’t be texting you so late and esp about this because of everything with you, but i cant sleep. Im really worried about my appa. Like, scared-worried. i

ROBBIE:

Nemo [deleted]: remember how you said i could talk to you about anything? Does that mean my appa too? And not like, complaining about him and its okay because i know he’s horrible to you so maybe i shouldn’t be

SINDRI:

Nemo [deleted]: sindri, things are getting bad with appa again. Maybe we should talk to Queen Clarion. Ugh but the trial stuff he would hate that and what if it just makes it way wors

Nemo [deleted]: do you think olaf might be able to help my appa? He’s not eating

FINN:

Nemo [deleted]: finn, do you mind if i talk to you about something with my appa? It’s kind of complicated and big and you cant tell anyone because he probably would hate that. I shouldnt even tell you. Im probably should worried over nothing agh

LOUIE:

Nemo [deleted]: louie, you know how dewey gets kind of… ughdlf

ROO:

Nemo [deleted]: Do you think your mum might be able to talk to my appa about like, taking care of himself…? Im not that worried or anything! Its just he’s working too hard i think and he’s acting kind of…

ROBBIE

Nemo [deleted]: lol its 3 in the morning and everyone is asleep but you. But i cant talk to you about this can i? Lol. and appa would hate it, wouldn’t he?

SINDRI:

Nemo [deleted]: all i ever do is complain to you

FINN:

Nemo [deleted]: i dont know what to do finny

ROBBIE:

Nemo [deleted]

: if i text you this late you’ll know something is wrong and i wont be able to tell you. I wish i could. I wish we could…i wish things were different and appa didnt hate you and you didn’t hate him. you probably understand better than anyone i know, too, is the thing. i mean like the way he feels. You’ve lost people. you get really sad too. you would know what to tell me and how i could help my appa or you would tell me that its going to be okay and im just overreacting. ok you wouldnt say that you’d say something better…something very you :/ robbie i… i cant send this.

TAE-YAH:

3:07 am

Neems: hi

Neems: sorry i know you’re sleeping i dont expect you to answer these haha i just Neems: you know sometimes where you just want to pretend that someone’s there? I think thats why im texting you. Im just being very me and overthinking a lot of things and idk making a big deal out of nothing

3:22 am Neems: im probably just lonely which is stupid. I mean being lonely isnt stupid but the fact it messes me up this much is.

Neems: blah and now my phone is gonna die probably i only have 14% left :( and i wont even be able to listen to music or watch youtube ugh

Neems: wish you were awake

3:39 am Neems: wooow i just realized how this probably looks lolol

Neems: sorry for texting you these plz dont worry about me in the morning haha seriously im just like, stressed about exams and my showcase will be soon, it’s just stuff like that! but i really am ok!

Neems: srsly super sorry ok haha last text i promise! Good night!

[blkpnkwriting]

bad for you

part i. / part ii. / part iii.

bad!girl Rosé x Reader

Warnings: swearing, mentions of drug use, mentions of violence, blood, and injury

Word count: 5,499

     “Fuuuck.”

    Light slatted through the blinds of your bedroom. You think it’s your bedroom.

    Cracking your eyes, you groaned again, the feeble morning light still too strong for your sensitive eyes. Yup, it was your bedroom. Which was strange because you couldn’t remember how you got there. Why did you feel so gross?

    Rolling in your sheets, you blinked at the Tylenol sat on your nightstand beside a bottled water. For a moment, you couldn’t understand how it got there. Then it slowly dawned on you.

    Rosé.

    You sat up quickly, flinching at the onslaught of pain in your head. But you wanted to know if she was still there, in your apartment. With you. A scan around the room proved she wasn’t anywhere to be seen. You popped a couple Tylenol and chugged some water before getting up and heading into your small living room.

    Where she couldn’t be found.

    That's okay, you reasoned. It was probably for the best anyway. Last night was a mess and it was guaranteed that you made a fool of yourself. Now you’d never be able to see her again, not after that. They probably noted that you didn’t quite fit in with their people, couldn’t handle your liquor like they could, just generally wasn’t what they expected. At least, that’s what you thought about it. Well, it was fun while it lasted. Now you had to pick up the pieces of your heart you felt chipping away at the thought of not seeing her again.

    What a horrible first... and last date.

    You sunk into your couch cushions, sighing with relief at knowing you had the day off and could recuperate from your hangover in peace. Sipping your water, you turned on the TV for something to occupy your mind, distract you from your embarrassment, and surfed the channels before that too bored you.

    A chime from your bedroom resulted in yet another groan. You pinched the bridge of your nose as you stood up, skulking into the room and grabbing the damned device.

    rosè 😈 🚬 😘

    It felt like you were going to fall down. It was as though your hangover dissipated... it hadn’t, but you were so ecstatic that you could forget about it. A smile spread across your cheeks, and you opened your phone to the text message.

    There was already several messages waiting for you, and you swore under your breath when you realized just how late in the day you slept in. No wonder she tried multiple times to get a hold of you.

    rosè 😈 🚬 😘     ur key is hidden behind ur apartment plate btw sleep well!!!

    rosè 😈 🚬 😘     i dont wanna be THAT girl but can u text me when u wake up???

    rosè 😈 🚬 😘     ok but seriously r u alive

    rosè 😈 🚬 😘     i know where u live & if u dont text me back soon im coming over

    That was the most recent message, and as much as you wanted her to come back, to apologize for everything last, and to maybe play up the hangover so she could cuddle you, you didn’t want to trouble her.

    You     Yeah yeah I’m awake but definitely not kicking

    You sat back down on your couch with much more enthusiasm than you had just a couple minutes ago. Legs balled up under you, you waited for the next message. It came quickly.

    rosè 😈 🚬 😘     u shouldnt try to drink as much as me next time 😉

    You     Nice contact name btw, really captures your character

    rosè 😈 🚬 😘     actually i put my number in & u told me it was boring so i had to put some emojis on

    rosè 😈 🚬 😘     u legit forced me

    You     I regret nothing

    rosè 😈 🚬 😘     thats surprising

    Oh god, she was mentioning last night. You picked at the collar of your shirt --- which you don’t remember changing into --- and hid your sheepish smile as you continued typing.

    You     Yeah... about that

    You     I’m sorry about... anything that I did, really. I was really drunk

    rosè 😈 🚬 😘     dont be!!! you were hilarious actually & i had a great time

    rosè 😈 🚬 😘     especially when u put ur hands down my skirt 😉

    You stared down at the words on your screen and felt the color drain from your face. You did what? Now that you thought about it, you remembered the stumbling idiot you were as she dragged you out the back of the bar, how she piled you onto her motorcycle, and how even though you leaned against her back with all your weight, she still wanted to you hold onto her.

    And yes, you did put your hands down her skirt. She grabbed your arms to make sure you would hold on and you took the initiative to warm your hands in the space beneath the waistband of her skirt and whatever shorts she had underneath.

    This time, you did smack your forehead for real, and then regretted the action as it sent a agonizing pulse through your skull. The hangover was still there alright.

    You     Wow. I went right for the money, didn’t I? 🙈

    You     And after how you nice you’ve been. I didn’t properly thank you for the drinks last night. I mean... you did pay for them, right???

    rosè 😈 🚬 😘     lisa paid for them lol were friends with the owner & jennie was pissed that she blew like 200 last night on free shit

    rosè 😈 🚬 😘     besides that dont mention it 😘

    rosè 😈 🚬 😘     thank u for letting me treat u right

    The text had you halting again. It was such a strange thing to say. Again, you thought about how she reacted to your compliments and how she seemed to brush them off, like she didn’t know how to respond at all. Like no one told her how beautiful she was enough. Now this? She was thanking you for letting her be nice to you.

    It made you sad all over again. There was something you didn’t know about Rosé and it was important. But you had gotten this far, and you knew one thing for certain.

    You were hooked and there was no going back.

    rosè 😈 🚬 😘     ur different

    You didn’t have much of a chance to respond, but there she was already texting again.

    rosè 😈 🚬 😘     i sound totally weird saying this but ur different & i like that

    rosè 😈 🚬 😘     ur not like anyone ive met before

    There wasn’t a whole lot you could respond with, and if you could, you would just send her the blush you felt spreading up your neck and across your cheeks. So she did like you. The same way you like her. It wasn’t all in your head, a game some pretty and free-spirited girl was trying to play on you.

    You     I could say the same for you, Rosé

    Rosé never responded after her last series of messages.

    It worried you at first, but you rationalized that she had other things to do with her life, and as much as you wanted to spend all your time with her, she couldn’t do the same. In fact, you didn’t know what she did with her spare time. You knew she loved her motorcycle, and probably ripped around on it a lot, but she had to have some way to pay for the gas and upkeep. Not to mention her rough group of friends to keep in control. It was like she was their logic or something. That, or she didn’t quite fit in. Which you didn’t mind, because it meant you didn’t have to worry about her getting arrested or getting in a bar brawl.

    You spoke too soon, however.

    Another boring day sat behind the register with only a small fan to keep company turned south when Lisa entered. Apparently, she didn’t have a motorcycle of her own or else you would have at least expected one of them to come waltzing in after the rambunctious noise.

    At first, you were excited to see her. But then your smile faltered, and any joke you had prepared on the tip of your tongue was quickly dissolved.

    A nasty cut split her lip just above her labret piercing and gone was her usual hyper demeanor. She did grace you with a small smile at least as she stepped up to the counter, but then she was leaning on the glass display, holding her face in her hands with a low, drawn-out groan of discontentment.

    “Lisa, are you okay?” you asked, concern lining your voice. She lifted her head and you could properly see her lip. It was totally busted, but didn’t look too bad on her as far as attraction went. Sort of fit the rogue role you pinned her with. Probably still hurt like a bitch, though.

    “Could be worse,” she muttered. A finger with chipped pink nail polish traced a lotto ticket underneath. “Could be better. A fight broke out at the bar a couple nights ago. Pretty dicey shit.”

    “What happened?” you pressed. You didn’t want to outright ask about Rosé, but that was really what you were trying to get at. It could have something to do with the reason why she hadn’t texted you back. Which you seriously hoped wasn’t true.

    “Gang rivalries,” she digressed, leaning on one elbow to scan the mostly empty store before facing you again, as if it wasn’t supposed to be talked about in public. “It’s usually okay when they’re in the bar at the same time, but there were a few too many drinks that night and shit was said, blah blah blah. It got out of hand fast, and some dude wanted to grab one of my bottles to make a fuckin’ shank --- like he was still in prison or somethin’. I wouldn’t have it, he got mad at me, started grabbing at me, actually ripped my favorite shirt --- asshole. But... uhm. Rosé stood up to him...”

    Dread filled your stomach. It had to be written all over your face because Lisa reached out and took your hand, in a way that was much less flirtatious than in the past. 

     “Don’t worry about her. She’s okay. Just banged up a little, but Jisoo has been taking care of her. Trust Jisoo, she’s a good one, a close friend of ours. Doesn’t involve herself with all that shit, just so happens to hang around Jennie a lot. A lot.” There was a flash of the old Lisa you had seen at the bar in the way she winked at the innuendo, and even though you didn’t know either of the girls she spoke about, you still giggled at the gossip.

    “I’m just picking up some cigarettes for Rosie,” Lisa said, back to business. She let go of your hand, which was nice. You didn’t want to have to reject her again. Instead, she twisted her piercing a little as habit, then flinched at the pain, as it appeared to be swollen since she got hit in the mouth. “She didn’t want me to come here and bother you about it, but I thought you should know anyway.”

    “Thank you, Lisa. Seriously,” you replied, nodding your earnesty. You knew where to look now to grab her Luckies from the compartments, but you stilled before handing them over. A market sat to the side, and you took it without questioning it. On the back of one of the packs, you stole a second to write a quick message.

    Get better soon... I miss you.

    You tried to slide them across the counter for Lisa to have on the house just like she had done for you, but she refused. Unfurling your fingers, she forced a couple bills into your hand and then snatched the cigarettes before you could do anything else, jumping away with a cackle. She blew a kiss at you and you rolled your eyes, then she was out the door. It didn’t seem like there was much that could destroy that girl’s spirit completely.

    There was no way you were going to be able to stop thinking about Rosé, though. Somewhere. Hurt. Laid up to rest. And then hopefully smiling when she finds your message on her cigarettes.

    “Sir, I really can’t stay!”

    Your boss actually stamped his foot like a toddler. And he was an older man, divorced and all.

    “I have no one else willing to cover the shift, so you’re going to have to!” he insisted. He glanced at a small watch on his wrist like he was in a time crunch, and then waved at you. “It’s extra pay, you shouldn’t be complaining.”

    “It’s a double shift,” you tried to explain. You were up bright and early and now you were tired, how hard was that to understand? “I have other plans. I actually have a life outside this job.”

    “Well, if you want to keep this job, you’re going to stay,” he deadpanned. The argument was coming to a close and you were on the losing side. Fucking dickhead.

    “Just put... that other guy on. It’s not like he does anything anyway, since all he does is sit on his phone here.”

    “Y/N, I’m not going to do anything,” your boss spat, sliding his wallet into a pocket, preparing to leave. “You’re going to stay if you want your paycheck. Now, I have to go ---”

    You wanted to scream at him. He had you pulling ridiculous hours ever since you started working here some odd months ago. You were the only capable employee of this shitty convenience store, and the owner was never even around to take care of it himself, case in point. Was it really even worth all this trouble? There was a time you would have taken the punishment without a fight. Before, there wasn’t even a life to speak of. This would have been your whole life. But you didn’t want that anymore, and truth be told, you didn’t want this job either.

    “You know what?” you snapped, bringing back the owner’s attention. There was a displeased expression on his face, like he’d rather be anywhere else. That wasn’t going to happen. “I fucking quit. You can take your stupid, ugly ---” you yanked the polo over your head, leaving you in a thin camisole, and threw it at him. “Shove it up your ass! Maybe you’ll even fit it over that big head of yours that’s stuck up there too, and wear it!!”

    The rush of adrenaline had you feeling all flighty, but the look on the guy’s face was everything to you and you certainly didn’t want to miss even a second of it. He remained there, frozen, mouth agape. You prided yourself in this feat and felt more coming to the surface.

    “That’s enough,” a voice said in your ear. Fingers curled around the crook of your elbow, pulling you away. 

    You knew who it was before you even had to look.

    Outside, you swore in an exhale, kicking the ground as you walked to the black motorcycle waiting for you both. There went your last paycheck, and now you were wondering how you were going to pay for rent. You were about to swing over the back of the motorcycle when Rosé stopped you again, turning you to face her.

    “Are you okay?” she asked, genuine concern in her voice and in the way she ducked her face in front of you to garner your attention. You were beyond relieved to see Rosé, even more so without a scratch from what you could see, but you were seething with frustration. Her hands ran up and down the sides of your arms in a soothing manner, her palms smooth. After a moment, she brought a hand to lift your chin up, meeting her eyes. “Hey, talk to me.”

    “I’m fine, he didn’t do anything,” you muttered. The want to push her hand away from your face was present, but at the same time, you reveled in the fact she was showing so much affection. You really should be asking about how she felt after her fight, but she seemed far more focused on other things.

    “Let’s get you out of here,” she said, reaching over to grab the spare helmet that was beginning to feel more and more like yours. “I know just the place, don’t worry. Just enjoy the ride, let it clear your head.”

    You wordlessly took the helmet and clambered on behind her. Inside the store, you could see the owner arguing on his cellphone, arms gesturing around and in the air. It made you smile knowing you put him in a pinch just as willingly as he was going to throw you under the bus. Served him right. He looked up just as Rosé revved the bike, a vicious noise echoing in the lot, and you knew he could hear it. You waved, and he flipped you off, but you were already peeling off the cement.

    The ride was a blur. You rested the side of your helmet against the back of Rosé’s jacket, listening to the way it chattered against the studs embroided on this particular garment she wore today. It felt way more natural than the first ride did, and you didn’t even mind the fact that your hands were laced around her middle, resting just below her navel, a throwback to that drunken night. Every once in awhile, her hand would drop and cup the outside of your knee, pressing you close like she was hugging you while she drove. You enjoyed the gesture, but did nothing to return it. You saw the scenery change without processing it. All you were thinking about, so grateful about, was that you were holding Rosé again. After what felt like weeks that were just days, you were so ready to see her again. It had been too long.

    You blinked and you had no idea where you were. Rosé slowed your ride, weaving up a small unkempt track, dense woods surrounding you. It was only afternoon but it felt more like dusk here. A canopy stretched out overhead, casting shafts of sunlight sporadically upon the rocky road. Abruptly, Rosé swerved off to the side, rolling to a stop behind some brush.

    “What are we doing here?” you asked after removing your helmet.

    Rosé slid off her seat, helping you down, and then took off her headgear. She did the same routine of fixing her hair and adjusting the ripped shorts she wore today, then answered you. “I brought you to my favorite place.”

    You glanced around at nowhere in particular. The woods?

    The puzzlement was written all over your face, and Rosé giggled. It was adorable enough to bring a smile to your face for the first time since she showed up, and you continued to look at her timidly excited expression as she took your hand and began to lead you through the foliage. After a few steps, you realized there was the faintest of paths, probably worn by Rosé herself. She didn’t say anything else, crooked smile in place. You were content just holding her hand for the first time, walking through the emerald trees. It was scenic, for sure. The sound of birds chirping, echoing through the vast space, the shuffle of leaves underfoot, a crack of a fallen branch. There was no one else around, just the two of you. The sudden realization had a spark igniting in your stomach, and you let your hair fall around your face to curtain your flushed cheeks.

    The random appearance of an abandoned tennis court was totally unanticipated.

    Nature had claimed it back for the wild. Vines tangled in the chainlinks, dirt and debris darkening the previous green texture of the court. The net was slashed rather than stolen, hanging limp at their respective posts. The singular umpire chair had been knocked to its side, splintered and covered in cobwebs. It was obvious that it had been long forgotten.

    Except by Rosé. You could see as you approached the fence a section on one end of the court where someone had brought a broom and had cleared away a spot for a blanket. There was no doubt that she had planned this, for you or simply for herself.

    “Where are we?” you whispered. For some reason, it felt like you had to.

    “An abandoned development,” Rosé spoke. She brought you to a portion of the fence that had been cut and pried away. The thought of a delinquent Rosé showing up with a set of bolt cutters was oddly appealing. “Someone intended to build a luxury condominium out here, away from the bustle of the city, but it fell through a long time ago. I don’t know much else, but it’s been here since I can remember. It’s my favorite place to go to escape... everything.”

    The way she finished had you casting a curious glance in her direction, but she didn’t bother meeting your eyes this time. There was that feeling that she was hiding something again, like she knew everything about you but refused to tell you anything about her. For once, it pecked at your heart, making you a bit angry.

    Of course you couldn’t stay angry at her for long, and it dissipated the second she brought you to the blanket and motioned for you to sit. The blanket had to be cleaned regularly because it felt so plush underneath your hands as you folded onto it. Rosé joined you once you were comfortable, stretching out those long legs of hers and reclining back on her hands, sighing deeply. Her eyes fluttered closed and you were given the opportunity to just gaze at her. She was so stunningly beautiful, and you wondered briefly how you ever ended up with her.

    “I figured you could use this place too,” she whispered without opening her eyes. She looked so peaceful, and she was right. It was so quiet out here, save the natural sounds of the woods providing ambiance. You laid down on your back, arms tucked under your head, and gazed up at the sky. Despite having been overgrown, the trees hadn’t grown close enough yet to construct their canopy. There was the gentle warmth of the sun stretching to reach you in your little cove. It would be growing dark in a couple hours, and you mused about what Rosé would come up with to give you light.

    “Are you feeling well?” she asked, interrupting you daydreaming. You nodded, no words needed. Above you, she smiled, turning her attention down to you. “You looked lost for a second. I guess you like it here.”

    “I do,” you admitted, eyes shifting to her lips, then her eyes. “Are you okay? I haven’t seen you for like, a week.”

    At that she chuckled, looking away again, out to the distance. “Yeah, it’s all good. Just got involved with that dumb shit again. Like usual with those guys.” A finger poked you in the ribs, evoking a laugh. “I got your message --- thank you.”

    “I was worried,” you confessed. You didn’t want to hide how you felt when it came to hearing about how she was hurt. “Lisa said it was nasty.”

    “Could’ve been worse.” Rosé shrugged. It was something they both said to you now. Just another casual occurrence apparently. “You never know what’s going to happen there. Tensions have been high recently, what with a lot of the gang members falling apart. Loyalty doesn’t mean much to people these days.” There was a pause and you swore you saw something flit across her features. “It means everything to me.”

    “That’s because you’re a good person,” you stated, sitting up onto your forearms to garner her attention. All you got was a jagged swallow, as though what you said didn’t sit well with her. “You know that, right?”

    Rosé looked at you suddenly, and before you could ask about the tears in her eyes, she was gasping out, “Am I really?”

    “Why not?” you countered, the need to justify boiling in your chest. “You’ve been nothing short of... fuck, just amazing to me. I couldn’t care less about the people you hang around or any of that other shit. You’re a good person, Rosé.” You said it like you were trying to drill it into her head.

    The red-blonde blinked back her tears, swallowing again, avoiding your gaze. She took a moment to breathe. “You don’t know what I’ve done.”

    “I don’t need to!” You sat up the rest of the way, twisting to face her properly. Still, she didn’t meet your eyes. She was looking somewhere else beside you to keep from losing her composure. “I may not have known you for long, and I may not know a lot about your life, but I know how I feel when I’m around you. I trust you. You can tell me all about you, what you’ve done, what you plan to do, but whatever you say won’t change that simple fact.”

    When Rosé looked at you again, it was with that look. That look, a concoction of amusement, surprise, and puzzlement --- like she had you all spelled out in her head and you suddenly jumbled it all up. That look she gave you when you told her you didn’t like her smoking instead of keeping the opinion to yourself. That look when your facade gave a moment and she got to see that shy persona hidden away under the confidence you built with shaking hands. That look...

    It was cut off by a bitter laugh, shoulders sinking, glancing at the sky.

    “I have great parents,” Rosé started. It was your turn to be surprised, eyes widening a moment. “They’ve never done me wrong, but after everything I’ve done, I feel like I fall short of their expectations. Like I’ve failed them. They tried to give me the best life I could have, encouraged me to do well in my studies and with singing.” That was a neat little fact to tuck away. “It just seems like life has a different plan for me, no matter what they wanted. I guess I’m really easy to frame, put the blame on. It only got bad at the end of high school, and I started getting in fights with kids because they thought they were hot shit and would pick on people who couldn’t stand up for themselves. I have a soft spot for those people, like it’s ingrained in me to protect them. But of course, it made me look like the aggressor, and I would get in trouble for all of it.

    “I’ve been arrested once, for aggravated assault. I can own up to that. But since that one time, I’ve vowed to stay out of jail. It wasn’t so bad, I was only in for about a month, and then had to do community service and pay a fuckton of fines. But I didn’t want to be known for that, someone people are scared of being around because I might fuck them up or something... I don’t know. I’ve never gone out of my way to hurt someone if they didn’t deserve it in the first place.”

    It felt like there was more she was going to say but she stopped, and you were left in the silence to muddle over all she had just told you. It was a very brief overview, but it was more than you ever thought you’d know about her. Despite it, there was no sense of danger being around her. Rosé would never touch you like that.

    “Oh,” she perked up. “I don’t do drugs. I mean, I’ve smoked pot in the past, but all I have nowadays are cigs. That’s for the others, not my style. I have my hands full of blood, not drugs.” Then she laughed, shaking her head, blonde hair highlighted by the low sunrays wisping around her face. “That sounded really bad.”

    “I like it.” You hadn’t expected that to come out exactly, but it was true. And it was part of you speaking your feelings, not cowering behind your own thoughts. Rosé lifted her face, eyes shining, and offered you a weak smile. She sniffled and wiped at her nose, such a soft gesture in comparison to the story she had told you. You knew that wasn’t who she was beneath the leather and metal and smoke.

    “Well, after it was all said and done, my parents didn’t and I didn’t like disappointing them. So I left. I didn’t want that on them, to deal with a daughter like this. I moved out here, falling easily into the wrong crowd. The only person who really kept me afloat was Jennie.”

    “Jennie, the bar owner?” you interrupted.

    “Yeah, random, I know,” she chuckled. “I was looking for work and Jennie was the only person who didn’t immediately turn me out on my ass by one look at my record. But she didn’t have any real openings for me. So she made me her financial supervisor.”

    “Whoa,” you breathed in astonishment.

    “Yeah, I’m really good at numbers and stuff like that. With so much on her hands, owning just about the only bar that houses the roughest and rowdiest, she thought I could help her out with some side work, and that way, it would keep me out of trouble. She saw potential in me. And it really worked out. I’m often busy with her business and it’s a great job. She also really did need the help, so she’s happy I’m around. I’ve been with her for a while now. I met Lisa and Jisoo through her, the only girls --- the only friends --- I’m ever around a lot.

    “Don’t get me wrong, they bring around their own drama. Especially Lisa. That girl’s a fucking whirlwind. You know she was there that night at the store?”

    “She was?” You could hardly remember anything about that night besides Rosé. When you thought about it, it was always that first impression of the hardened girl walking through the doors and stealing your heart that you remembered.

    Then you faltered.

    Rosé really has stolen your heart, and you weren’t even privy to this obvious fact.

    “Yeah, she walked in with me, remember?” Rosé tried to jog your memory, laughing lightly, unaware of the revelation you were going through. “She told me you were staring and I---”

    In retrospect, you would never understand what came over you then.

    The kiss was so sudden that you both never expected it. Your heart hammered in your chest so loud, it was all you could hear right before you dove in. It was messy, unsaid words catching between your mouths, teeth crashing against each other’s, and you almost tumbled against her when your hand slipped off the material of her jacket on her shoulder. But it only served to throw your hand on top of hers on the blanket, and as soon as she registered what you were doing, her fingers laced with yours and a hand clasped the back of your head, holding you against her lips.

    The kiss became something else. It was so much and not enough and everything you dreamt. The world fell away around you and all that remained was Rosé’s lips, that faint taste of smoke on them, how soft her skin felt against your cheek, between your fingers, how she tangled up your hair. And her moan that just escaped? You swore you sank further into her.

    All this time you entertained your feelings for this bad girl.

    But you didn’t know you would fall in love with Rosé instead.

    When you opened your eyes again, it was nearly dark. Fading light in the colors of melting cotton candy tinted the horizon. The air was cool but you remained warm, blushing at how close you two had become on the blanket. One of Rosé’s legs had slid between your own, her entire body angled for you. You took a deep breath, the first to reach the depths of your lungs. Every kiss stole a little more air from you, leaving you dizzied. Adrenaline streaming through your veins acted like a drug that numbed anything that wasn’t Rosé.

    There was so much that Rosé wanted to say, you could see it in her eyes. Nothing came forth and you knew the feeling of having it jammed in your throat, unable to say a word. The only thing she gave you was a smile, a genuine, unadulterated smile, and you knew there was one thing that you wanted to say to her.

    “Rosé...” you whispered, feeling weightless. “I---”

♡ part iii.

[jordm]

Heartland 11x01- Baby on Board review

Here we go!! 

It begins with a quick recap of the season: Amy has the baby, Caleb & Cassandra get married but we don’t see it because they’re used as plot points, Mitch and Lou is a thing... until he disappears. Which is actually kind of accurate.

I’m also trying to do less recap, more review.. but whenever I try to do this it always turns into more recap less review, so. 

BEGINNING THOUGHTS

And the baby’s name is... LYNDY!! 

Not totally unexpected, but i thought it was too obvious of a name at the same time. Quite a thought circle I got myself into eh? Anyways, I don’t mind the name but mostly because idk what else it could’ve been. But I also am not in love with it because there is already so much history with her name (her middle name being Marion). So meh.

There is also a Lou mention.. turns out she and Katie are in New York and Amy has been using Lou’s car while she is away. Which is a shame but I guess it’s nice to know where they are and nice to know Katie with their mom.

As teased, there is also an almost-accident. Luckily, no one is hurt, but the horse (we learn is called Flame) gets spooked and runs away. 

AMY, GEORGIE & FLAME

I LOVED seeing Amy ride again, it feels like it’s been so long since we have seen that. To be exact like 1.5 years. So Val brings over Flame, the aforementioned horse, to get him to jump again, and despite Amy being busy with... well I guess the baby and other unknown clients, she accepts. Because Val. 

Of course, Georgie, who mostly works with Amy for these horses (and seemed to do most of the work this episode tbh) also pitches in... well does most of the work that I saw. 

Val also seemed surprised to see Georgie helping, which i’m surprised at because isn’t it common knowledge that like, Georgie helps Amy, especially after last season when Amy couldn’t ride? Idk. She seemed to get over this real fast when she saw that Georgie (and not the trainer) could get Flame to jump, in true Val fashion and despite some disappointment and guilt tripping Georgie that “anyone would jump at this opportunity,” as expected due to Flame’s presence in the upcoming episodes, she eventually says yes and takes up Val on her offer. 

TY & HIS TRUCK

Tim and Jack remind Ty that THEY NEED A TRUCK! Thank you, for saying that us fans have been saying for the past season. When Ty and Tim go to the truck lot, Ty sees that he can’t afford it, and says a line I think will he will need to remember later in this episode:

“It’s in the past Tim, you got to let it go.” 

Hm.

When Lily comes down and wants to cook dinner for everyone, he comes across a guy selling a truck and spontaneously buys it. Literally. This cannot end well. Does he not even get the truck checked out? Checks the engine? Like, I KNOW Canada/Hudson is a nice place blah blah blah but scammers do exist.

And then when the truck stalls.. well can’t say I didn’t see it coming. Jack and Tim try to convince him to get a refund but stubborn Ty is so determined to do this own his own he denies their help, or that he needs any help, but luckily Jack and Tim come together to get his money back.. and they are successful, but at the cost of one of the long-horns.

Tim goes even further and gets Mitch, who they met at the lot previously to sell his fathers truck to Ty at “a reasonable price.” Alls well that ends well I guess, but next time Ty wants to buy a truck, I sure hope that he gets it vetted.

TY AS A PARENT (& LILY)

OH HEY LILY, we missed you! Ty... not so much. Briefly, Ty doesn’t trust his mother with little Lyndy, and Lily was not happy with Ty for not trusting him.  Me thinks he might want to take his earlier advice to Tim?

Anyways, we see that Ty is a helicopter parent, micromanaging Lyndy’s time, down to the feeding and sleeping schedule, to the minute. Beep beep

Further complicating it, Val’s little dig at Lily that she missed the wedding because she was “sick” and that it was a beautiful wedding was a little uncalled for, but also so Val. It probably didn’t help Lily feel better about her not being trusted, yet Ty is OK (understandably) with leaving Lyndy with Tim and Jack.

& then when we, as viewers saw Ty’s face when Amy told him she has *gasp* left Lily with the baby alone and everything was fine, further confirmed that he didn’t trust her, even if he wanted too. He couldn’t help it. He was thinking about the past... and it was affecting his future. They can’t even go out for a nice dinner because before they even leave the property, Ty freaks out because he thinks his mother is unstable... and gave Lyndy a stuffed animal that could, er.... suffocate her?

I loved it when Lily shot back at Ty by saying not having a gate is DEFINITELY much more dangerous than a simple stuffed animal. +1 FOR LILY. And then, FINALLY FINALLY, Tim and Lily get them a gate, even if none of them can open it.

I found Ty to be kind of annoying this episode, with all his over protectiveness, but because he snapped out of it with some help from Jack, apologized to Amy and made amends with Lily before she left...let’s just say i’m glad that he realized what he was doing implicitly, even if it took Lily coming to realize this. And this may make him a better parent too. Every first time parent goes through this? Maybe?

His mother WAS doing her best, thats what parent’s do. I’m not a parent, but i’m pretty sure no one is perfect and Lily does have in fact info to pass down as a one-time mother. Even if Ty doesn’t take her advise, he should at least listen, or be open to ideas and I think after Lily’s visit, he will be.

JACK & TIM

Ah, father and son. Jack realizing that Ty’s over protectiveness is coming from his dream like state where his father told him he was going to be a bad father, a projection of his thoughts he was already having was spot on. Ty was overcompensating for missing so much of the pregnancy, trying to be the PERFECT father (which btw doesn’t exist), plus him almost dying. 

This may have been the point when Ty realized how he was acting and how others perceived it. I love the bond that they have and I think Jack spoke 100% wisdom here. For everyone really. Jack seems to the person with the outside perspective, injecting some cold-hard truths to people when they need it.

MITCH

We see Mitch at the car lot and we learn he is working in Calgary, as per last season. Tim is also low key giving Mitch the side eye for leaving without a word and its GREAT. 

Has his hair also gotten darker? More Mitch soon please.

FAVOURITE MOMENTS

- Lily & Tim bonding over their frustrations about Ty being over protective and putting up a BABY GATE. Finally! I also loved seeing Lily & Tim bond since they both have alcoholic pasts and can relate to each other on a level no one else probably can. 

- Amy, Ty and Lindy dancing on the truck, with a throwback to when they missed formal and Ty gave Amy her promise ring many seasons ago. Love throwbacks.

NEXT ON

Georgie looks up the guy (Charles as per @heartlandians spoilers) who killed her parents in a drunk driving crash... and against Jade’s advice goes to meet him. There is also apparently a scene with Jack & Charles (also as per the spoiler) so should be a Georgie filled episode.

I’m not going to go into more detail incase you don’t wanna know but there’s something else I’m also excited to see that is speculated. 

SONGS IN THIS EPISODE

Modern Woman - Matthew Barber

[thedegenerateasexual]

so ch9 opens with the call from Aunt Kate and of course lydia follows the plan and patches allison in while pretending she's right there at lydia's

oh my god "[Allison] put her finger to her lips, begging [Scott] to be silent, and he was a little bit insulted. Obviously he understood that Aunt Kate should not know she was with him. Then he reminded himself that Allison was nervous, and he gave her an encouraging smile." I LOVE THIS he gets mad but then immediately tries to see it from her pov and then encourages her!! oh my god i love him he's so Good!!!!

kate just asked to speak to lydia's mother, who is not home. oh my god 

LMFAO

"Allison," said another voice. Scott freaked. Oh, God, it was Allison's father. Involuntarily, he shrank back into the shadows, as if her father could see right through the phone. 

i fucking love this it's so funny

anyway chris tells them to have a nice time and hangs up and then: There was a click as the call disconnected. Then Lydia called back. "Is she for real?" she cried. "What is up with your aunt?" l m a o

allison flat-out refuses to leave without her keys despite all logic bc she will be In Trouble this is exhausting girl just go!!

back to jackson and cassie

he's noticing that the smell of smoke is incredibly strong and it's taking awhile to get to where theyre going

cassie's like "i bet you sleep in a nice big bed" and instead of being weirded out he's flattered and thinks she's coming onto him - she responds with "we move around a lot sometimes i even sleep in my car hopefully soon i'll be able to fly away" is she like a were-bird??

she says dont tell anyone about her bc she'd get in trouble and he's like "hurr hurr just for talking to a guy?" 

she's staring hard into his eyes like she's trying to "tell him something"

now she's kissing him ???????

fwiw he doesn't pull back bc he doesn't wanna be rude but he doesnt kiss back either bc of lydia so thats nice i guess

oh my god

"That was so nice," she murmured with a blushy little smile. "I haven't ever had a boyfriend. We're always on the ru—go."

HOW ARE YOU NOT SUSPICIOUS

she tries to kiss him again and he FINALLY does start to get suspicious

so she does indeed just...take him to the parking lot. ok

he turns around to thank her and she's...vanished! maybe flew away.

so jackson goes to get in his car and...there's gramm, in a black ski mask, with a gun, and demanding jackson's phone. oh my fucking god

YAAAAY BACK TO DEREK POV

he and stiles can see the smoke in the forest from the jeep

which is freaking him out bc of his dream

FUCK he leans his head out the window to smell and stiles goes "i TOLD you not to do that!"

oooh "you're not big on smoke i get that" "you don't know anything about me so shut up" derek is so prickly :')

LMFAO fuck oh my god

"Kinda do," Stiles replied. "Wish I didn't," he said under his breath.

haaahahahahaha

stiles is like "try your phone" and derek is like "i don't have one" TECHNOPHOBIC ASSHOLE LMAO i love him so much why does he NEVER HAVE A PHONE like a normal human being oh my god!

ouch stiles was like "i don't exactly picturing you attending homecoming" and derek gets angry and thinks "i almost did"

"Bad vibes were running through Derek as thoroughly as the volts from Kate's cattle prod" geez he's like ALWAYS THINKING ABOUT IT it's like always right there close to the surface

was he thinking he was gonna go to homecoming with kate or something?? jesus

oh god what the fuck? what the fuck? this shit just got so heavy what the fuck??

“Derek realized with a start that [the road] was the back road to his house—a private road. But it had somehow been mapped and put into data banks. That made him feel violated. The world was shrinking. When the code had been created, hunters had ridden horses and used crossbows. Now they drove around in Hummers and used submachine guns. And broke the code without blinking twice. But they will pay for that.”

so they pull over once stiles gets a signal again but scott doesnt answer cause his phone has died and derek says he'll just scent scott out

Derek got out of the Jeep; then he raised his head and inhaled. So much smoke. He hated the smell. Clenching his fists inside the pockets of his black leather jacket, he started to walk.

oh my god oh my god and then finally stiles asks why he's so worried about scott and derek like slams into a tree and starts talking about don't you know how dangerous the alpha is blah blah and stiles is like you're so cranky blah blah but THEN:

"I don't know why I just don't kill you," Derek said, letting his enhanced vision take over, so that Stiles would see his eyes.

"And I sincerely hope you'll keep asking yourself the big questions," Stiles said. "Seriously, man, I'm not the enemy, okay?"

You're too weak to be my enemy, Derek thought. But Stiles could easily become an enemy. One word spoken to the wrong person, and the sheriff's son could destroy him. Derek knew exactly how that could go down.

i'm like...really fucking depressed for him? stiles is some harmless kid! he is HARMLESS. but derek is like...so fucking paranoid, like he's being an asshole but it's literally because he's running on paranoia like just reading this is exhausting, he must be so exhausted, having to be suspicious of everyone all the time. his pov is so exahusting and sad the only thing keeping him going is revenge

so derek finally lets him go and keeps walking and they find: allison's car! but DUN DUN DUNNNN it's covered in the scent of the alpha. end chapter

[got7thekings]

Falling for you

Word count: 9583 Genre: College au; Angst/Smut Warnings: Rough sex, slight domination, very slight choking, dirty talk, orgasm denial. Summary: He was so arrogant and confident and beautiful... you thought for sure you were never going to fall for him. _____________________________________________________________________________________________ To say you were nervous was an understatement, this was your first day of university, and because you lived far away you had no other choice but to stay at the dorms. Living at your new school wasn't ideal, but it was convenient. You chose to stay in co-ed dorms, they were much more fun and you never liked the whole same sex concept, plus it was cheaper, so if you end up having to share a dorm with a guy, you just hope he isn't some gross dickhead. You walked through the hallways, bags in hand as you tried to find your room as quickly as possible and escape the ruckus that all the new students were making. Everyone was so excited, already getting along with their new dorm partners, others were already sneaking in beer, playing with footies in the hallways, shouting, screaming, squealing etc and you couldn't wait to just find your room, set your bags down and enjoy some peace and quiet with your hopefully nice dorm mate, buuuuttt, you spoke to soon. You dorm was no less quieter then the hallways, you found yourself annoyed very quickly, you know you shouldn't have been so annoyed, it was the first day and everyone was having fun blah blah, but you were. As you walked up to your room you heard shouting and yelling on the inside from a bunch of guys and outside the door was a bunch of girls, squealing and whispering excitedly at each other. You managed to sticky nose into a little bit of their conversation and realised they were just fangirling about one of the guys inside, you found yourself rolling your eyes at them. "Excuse me" you say rather impolitely, pushing your way through them and into your, shockingly enough, decently sized dorm room. You find yourself already in the need of earplugs as you enter the loud dorm, the group of guys noticing you as soon as you walked in, their eyes fixated on you. "Can I help you?" you ask, getting impatient. "Oh I can think of a whole lot of things you can help me with" one of them replies and you immediately scoff at him. "Thanks, but I'd rather poke my eye out" you settle all your stuff down as you hear the guy getting mocked for his not so subtle rejection. You keep your backpack hanging loosely over your shoulder as you prepare to leave the room. "Hey where are you going so fast? No introduction?" Another one of the guys lifts himself of the bed, striding towards you and your eyes immediately locked on him, taken aback suddenly as his stunning features. He easily notices as you ogled at his chiselled features, a smirk forming on his lips as your dazzled expression. "I'm Jackson, your roommate" oh thank fuck, you say in your head. He reached his hand out for yours and you gazed at the veins in his gorgeous and muscly arms. You took his hand in yours, shaking it and looking in his big brown eyes. "y/n" you say, releasing his hand. You gave him a small smile and grabbed your phone, walking towards the door. You walked back out of the room staring back at him for a short moment as you walked out, and his eyes were still on you, watching you as you left. You figured that if you just go for a walk and familiarise yourself with the campus for a while, his annoying friends might be gone when you come back. You looked at your schedule, mumbling to yourself as you found the rooms your classes were designated in. You concentrated on the campus map they had given you, deeply confused by it and as you rounded the corner you didn't even notice the person that you immediately crashed into you, the both of you crashing to the floor along with your belongings. "Ow!" the girl shouts, rubbing her arm from the impact on the floor. "Shit I'm so sorry!" You scrambled to your feet, grabbing yours and her belongings off the floor and helping her back up. "I'm sooooo sorry, that was my fault I wasn't paying attention" you say again, but surprisingly, the girl was extremely sweet. "Hey thats ok! I wasn't looking either. My name is Ellie" Ellie brought you in for a hug and your eyes opened wide at the sudden embrace and kind energy of her. "My name is y/n" you chuckled at her. "I see you're looking for the art design class, I'm in that class too, I can take you there" she peered down at your schedule smiling at you. You figured you would need a few friends so you gladly took her offer. Creating small talk to fill the time on the way to the room. "So where is your dorm" you looked down at your hand, you wrote it on your hand earlier because you lost you sheet with the room number. "Uh, im in 4B, in the co-ed building" "Hey thats awesome! In in that building too, I'm in 4U" you were very quick to become friends with each other, spending the rest of the day, but time when fast and it was already dark out when you were walking back to the dorms together. "So who is you dorm partner" Ellie asked you. "A guy named Jackson" "Jackson!? As in Jackson Wang, absolutely stunning with a faced chiselled from the gods!?" "Yeah, I think that would be the one, how do you know him?" "I went to high school with him, I must warn you, he is quite the player and very self confident, it comes off as arrogance, but damn he is hot as hell" "Anything else I should know?" "Very popular, everyone knows him, they either love him, hate him, pawn over him or are jealous of him. Just don't be surprised if he brings countless girls back to the dorm" "Looks like I'm gonna have a lot to deal with then" "Lets see if you can resist his charms" You stared at her with this remark, eyebrow lifting at the comment. "I definitely won't be" "Don't be so sure, that's what they all say" "You want be saying that when you end up wrong" you laugh at her, going your separate ways to your dorms. You walk into your room in the late of night, glad to hear quiet as you opened the door, seeing Jackson sitting up on his phone. "Good to see your fan club is gone" you say to him, getting ready to bed. "Jealous?" A sly smirk adorned his face and you immediately scoffed at his over-confidence, walking away from him into your bathroom. "Nice to meet you too!!!" he shouted sarcastically from outside the bathroom. Putting his phone away and going to sleep in the late hours of the night. You soon followed suit, heading straight to bed not long after. __________________________________________________________________________________ You couldn't help but notice the sexual tension that built between you and Jackson, whether it was on purpose or not, you still hates him and his arrogant attitude, but you weren't blind, he is still hot as fuck. He would easily notice your stares at him, whether it was him coming out of the bathroom in just a towel, water dripping from his hair and his body glistening beautifully... or other times when it was hot in the room and he would wear a tank top showing off his figure and he would smirk at you every time you stared at him. But he stared at you too sometimes, you pretended not to notice, unwilling to be another girl trapped in his little games. You noticed how he couldn't help but stare sometimes when you wore you loose top and shorts to bed. You notice when he stared as water dripped down from you hair and staining your stop, making your bra visible when you came out of the shower. On another note, you two did get along sometimes, even if it was for only brief moments, but you liked those moments. The moments where you two would actually chat, where he wasn't being some sort of sex god player trying to en-rope you in his games, basically when he wasn't being his normal arrogant self. The next few weeks consisted of you getting more and more annoyed at your roommate, with you barely being able to ever do your homework from his selfishness. You would be drawing or concentrating on your folio for your art class which took up most of you time and you would have to do it in the library till late at night while Jackson had a naive girl in the shared room, giving her the night of her life then ridding her the next day. But one day you had just had enough of him and his sex craved attitude. You came back from the library, it was early in the morning, about 2am and you walked in you apartment, seeing Jackson getting it on with a girl and you've decided that you had enough of it. "Seriously!?!? OUT! GET OUT" you startled the girl, and she shot up off the bed in only her bra and panties. As she attempted to gather up her clothes you yelled at her again. "No! Leave, NOW!" "Im half naked!" the girl yelled back at you, her tone full of nervousness. "I don't care no one is out there go!" You opened the door for her, slamming it shut as she ran out trying to cover herself as best as she can. You threw your things on the bad in your fit of rage, sick of Jackson's antics. "Calm down princess" Jackson leaned up on the bed, propping himself on his elbows and you started at him enraged as he ruffled his hands through his hair, as chill as ever. "Fucking shut UP Jackson! Stop being a goddamn man whore and making me come back to you having SEX all the time! I'm so sick of having to come back to this!" "Well you could always join in on the party, I wont stop you" He winked at you and you knew if you rolled your eyes anymore they would pop out of your head. "Are you kidding? You think I would ever have sex with you, you're havin a laugh!" you laughed in his face and he rose off the bed, walking slyly towards you. You found yourself walking backwards as he came closer. "I think your words may come back to bite you princess" Fuck you hated when he called you that, he gave you the pet name like the second day of rooming together after you told him off for being messy, and not only did you love it, it fucking turned you on which you hated. "I think your ego is going to come back to bite you" You didn't realise how close to the door you actually were until you finally hit into it. You looked up at him, you couldn't help but be intimidated as his eyes pierced through your own, you were so entranced in his lustful eyes and his beautifully toned torso on display that you didn't even notice when he ran his hands up your body, resting on your his as he pushed you into the wall. Your eyes diverted to his hands, staring down at their grip on your waist before bringing your face back up to his and you were nervous, your heart pumped rapidly and you were sure he could hear it. "We'll see" You were so lost in him that it took a moment for you to register his hand gripping you tightly, very slowly moving up, his face inches from yours and you could feel his breath on you, you shook your head as you refocused yourself. "Get over yourself" you grab at his hands, pushing them off you and ripping yourself from his intense gaze, retreating out of the door, prepared to sleep in your friends room tonight. ________________________________________________________________________________ After your...heated encounter with Jackson a while ago you found that he has improved his habits, the occasion of girls being in your room occurring less and less, until it eventually seemed to stop. The sexual tension between you two increased a little bit but otherwise, much less Jackson encounters. You two still bantered like absolute crazy though, mostly about his always being so damn smug, and you hated when he gave you that fucking smirk he does, it drives you insane because its so hot but its so cocky and arrogant and you hate how it makes you love him yet hate him at the same time. "Y/n Hey!!" You heard Ellie yell at you from across the courtyard, running towards you. You were both headed off to the library to work on an assignment you had luckily been put on together. "Got all your stuff Ellie?" "Ready to go!" she said excitedly, you were both dying to get started on this assignment, it involved a canvas painting, but you had to do one half on the canvas each, both sides contrasting each other, yet connecting, you had to do research on it though, what you did and why, how it contrasts and what not. You both walked to the library, brainstorming some ideas on what the painting should be, what kind of paint and brushed to use, all these other things until you got distracted by a bunch of squealing girls. When you looked across to the opposite path you could see Jackson hanging out with his mates, you rolled your eyes at the girls but noticed Jackson was not so subtly looking directly at you, smirking as he watched you walk past and you eyes locked on his for moments, once again lost as his head tilted very slightly, shooting you a signature smirk. You could barely take your eyes off him and you didn't know why. "Y/nnnnn, helloooo!! Back to earth please!" "Sorry, what??" you looked back at your friend. "That was quite a stare he gave you, he has never looked at someone like that before... Is there something going on between you two?" "No!" you said rather abruptly, your friend taken aback by your defence, who shot her hands up in defeat. "Wow, I'm just saying, he doesn't give that look to just anyone, you must have something on him" "By something do you mean hatred? Sarcasm? Blind rage and disgust?" "Well, I'd say more like, need for one another? Banter to hide ones sexual feelings?? Denial of lust?? You were in another world staring back at him my little girlie. But! Whatever you sayyy" she taunted you, not believing that he wasn't having some effect on you and you couldn't blame her, because he was, you just didn't want to admit it. "I hate him" you say, not sure if you said it to assure her or to just reassure yourself. ________________________________________________________________________________"Fucccckkkk, its almost 3am, we should probably go to bed..." you look at your watch, Ellie nodding at you as she yawned and both of you packing up the research and other billion papers you have sprawled all over the desk. You gathered your things and headed off to your dorms. "See you in the morning Ellie" you hugged you friend goodbye and went off to your own room. You unlocked the door quietly, careful not to awake a hopefully sleeping Jackson, but disappointed to see his was fully away as you walked into the dorm. You gasped at him and he looked up at you. "Problem, princess?" "Are those...books?? Is that homework!??" "Yes, y/n, see, after I finish relieving myself of my, as you so kindly put it, man-whoring, I like to finish my work afterwards." "I'm just so shocked, proud of you really" "Thank you for the sarcastic moral support" He looked at the time on his phone, gathering his things and putting them on the table beside him, deciding it was enough for the night. You leaned against the bathroom door and he rose off the bed. You watched as he strode towards you, trying to get to the bathroom. "Move" "That's note the polite way to ask someone" "You want polite? Rather hypocritical"  You looked at your watch and sighed rather heavily, but he was having none of it. In one swift moment he grabbed your thighs, lifting you over his shoulders. You gasped at the impact and squealed even louder when he slapped your ass and squeezed hard on your thighs. "OW Jackson! For fuck sake! Put me down asshole!" "Ok" He plopped you on the floor with a loud thud and you looked at him and glared. "You asked me to put you down princess" "God you're so annoying" You lifted yourself up and jumped into your bed, your aura seething of annoyance as you slowly drifted off to sleep. ________________________________________________________________________________ When you woke up the next morning you were surprised to find Jackson had left before you. You got out of your bed, your eyes tired and you were still half asleep when you walked into the shower, relishing in the warm water hitting your skin. You washed your hair thoroughly and took your time in the water, enjoying the fact that for just 1 day, you had time off on your classes. The joy was soon to end though. You turned off the water, reaching out of the shower to grab a towel and when you started dabbing your face with it you realised it wasn't towel material, when you opened you eyes you found yourself patting your face dry with Jackson's boxers. "EW!" you screamed aloud, dropping them to the floor and searching in the bathroom for a towel, only to find more pairs of boxers in their place and a nice note on the mirror that read. Enjoy your shower princess... x Jackson "Fucking asshole!" you screamed in frustration, you couldn't even dry your hair cos he went and took the hair dryer too. You put you clothes back on, feeling your body and your hair soak through them. You t-shirt outlining your bra and wet spots all over it. In a fit of rage you found yourself storming down to Ellie's dorm, complaining non stop to her about Jackson and she could barely fathom the words from you talking so fast. "Slow DOWN y/n!" she grabbed at your shoulders, relaxing you and you groaned. "He is soooooo fucking annoying sometimes Ellie, the minute you think he is getting better he does something stupid again!" "Come on this is pretty funny" she laughed at you and your messy state, you hair soaking wet along with your shirt as she mocked you. "Ellieeeee!" you groaned trying to hide back a laugh. "I know you're hiding a smile, even you have to admit this is pretty funny" you sighed in defeat, it kinda was funny, but you were still angry. "He is lucky he is hot" you said as you released your laugh finally. "There she is!" "Come hug me" you said to her, running up to her with opened arms as she dodged you like no other. "Fuck no get away from me" you chased her around her dorm, shaking your hair at her until you were both out of breath and collapsed on the bed. "You're soaking my bed get off" she laughed, pushing you off as you rolled onto the floor. "Y/n, why can't you just admit you secretly like him, its inevitable sweetie" "Never!" you slapped her on the arm as you climbed back on the bed. "I can see it, you're in denial" "Godddd, enough!" you hit her with the pillow "Im gonna get back to my dorm, got some stuff to work on" "Alrighty, have fun!" You walked back to your dorm, opening the door to see Jackson back already. He turned around and started laughing at you, seeing your hair still mostly soaked and your top damp as fuck. "Aren't you looking good princess" He gave you his signature smile and although you started laughing with him, to your expense, your grabbed one of the closest things near you and threw it at him, he caught it immediately but you attacked him with more things, clothes, pillows, anything that wouldn't cause too much damage and he started shrieking at you. "I GIVE UP!" he yelled, hands shot up in defeat. You both crouched in laughter holding your stomachs and these were the moments you really loved with Jackson. "I wish you weren't an arrogant dick all the time cos this is quite nice" "Wheres the fun in that princess?" he looked at you winking and you smiled, rolling you eyes. One thing you didn't notice though was that he was slowly falling for you, slowly changing and as he stared you up and down, watching your chest rise and fall and admiring your bra through your wet t-shirt, you were completely oblivious to the mess that you were both to each other. "Anyway," He lifted himself up off the floor, grabbing your hand and pulling you up as well, "There's going to be a party in the co-ed dorms tonight, Ill see you there." "Maybe" you said. "Not maybe, definitely" He gave you a pat on the head and you shrugged his hand away as he exited the dorm, you fell onto your bed and groaned, already exhausted from however long the day has been going for, and already exhausted from the rest. You knew about the party, you weren't really planning on going but it would be a nice break for you and Ellie considering all the work you've done this term. ________________________________________________________________________________ "Damn girl!" Ellie looked at your outfit for the party, it was simple but still hot as you adorned black skinny ripped jeans and a tight blue velvet top that showed your figure quite nicely. "You too!" Ellie wore a tight, short yellow dress for the evening and you both looked hot as you entered the party on the floor below you. The music pumped through your chest, the party stretching out across the whole floor, drinks already spilled and rubbish and cups everywhere. So many people were already drunk, seeing as you arrived a bit late it wasn't shocking, but damn some people get wasted fast. If there was one thing about the co-ed dorms you had a love hate relationship with, it was the parties, there were much more fun then just girl parties would ever be, but some people acted like such fucking morons you thought they were the products of inbred human monkeys, some people were normal. You found comfort in between the two, drinking just enough to have a fun time but not enough to get you doing something stupid like prancing around naked in the streets. As soon as you walked in you grabbed a beer and downed it rather quickly, before already having a second...a third...fourth. You walked around quite tipsy, making a fool of yourself dancing horribly to the music. You wobbled to the beer crate, as you bent down to grab your fifth a hand grabbed your own bringing you back up. "Haven't you had enough princess" Jackson stared into your eyes, and by the look of his own eyes you could tell he was just as drunk as you. "Ew, you" "Thats no way to greet someone" he laughed at you. "It's ok, its just you" "Im hurt y/n, really" "Aw noooooo, i'm sooooo sorry Jackson, please forgive me" "Im gonna accept your apology, just for the effort you put into your half assed sarcasm" Being the mature person you are, you stuck your tongue at him, turning around to leave and squealed as you felt a slap on your ass as you walked away, you looked back at Jackson and glared at him as he winked at you. "Dickhead, you're lucky you're so fucking sexy" Drunk you has confidence, to say the least, sober you would have never admitted that to his egotistical brain, but its been said and you can't take it back. You wobbled on back to Ellie, trying your best to stay in your right mind as all the guys eyes you as you went past. When you arrived at your friend you immediately leaned on her shoulder for support. "Saw you and Jackson, ooooohh, I see sparks" "Nooooo, not this again please" "So you're telling me out of all the guys staring at you right now, including Mr.Wang himself, you wouldn't go for it?" "See that nerd over there sipping his beer like he is at some formal cocktail party?" "Yes" "I'd rather go for him" "Honey denial isn't good for anyone, and that look Jackson is giving you right now is lethal" You turned you head slightly, she wasn't wrong, you could see him staring deeply at you, and you pondered over what he was thinking. Your mind got lost as you started mentally undressing him and you took another chug of drink to clear yourself of all thoughts. "I need to pee" You walked back up to your floor, entering you dorm room, you had a thing about toilets and you would prefer to go to your own. "Fuuucck" relieving your bladder felt extra good when you were drunk. You finished your business and walked out the bathroom and as you went to exit the dorm you felt an arm on yours, pushing you back inside. You looked up to realise it was Jackson. "Oh its you again" you greeted him as you smiled up at him, his eyes piercing down at you as his arms still gripped tight on yours, pushing you further enough into the dorm to close the door behind him. "Hey there princess" "Can I help you. Mr.Wang?" you batted your eyelashes at him, faking innocence as you spoke, you intoxicated self allowing your confidence to shine more than usual. "Yes actually, you can stop looking so god damn fucking hot, it's making it hard for me to contain myself" "Sweetie that isn't my fault, just don't look!" you wriggled your arms out of his, booping his super cute nose as he rolled his eyes at you. "It's kind of hard when you make me go so damn crazy" "Hows that Jackson" you eyes longed for his, staring deeply as he thought up an answer. "Everything about you is just so fucking sexy and amazing, and beautiful" "Stop you're gonna make me blush" "You've made me change y/n, I really fucking like you" "Stop talking nonsense" you laugh at him, attempting to shuffle past but he sets his demeanor in front of you, not letting you go anywhere and you found yourself finding it incredibly hot, trying not to mentally undress him again, you were finding it hard to control your feelings as you felt more and more drawn to him each second, unsure of whether it was the alcohol making you feel this way or just the prolonged denial and sexual tension you have both shared. "It's not nonsense princess, and seeing all these guys staring at you tonight, fuck I couldn't stand it much longer. I want you so fucking bad and I don't want anyone else to have you" Him saying that turned you on like a bat out of hell, you wanted him to say it again. "What do you want Jackson" "I want to fuck you so bad, I want to have you to myself, to make you mine. I want to touch you until you're crying out in pleasure, I want to make you scream my name over and over again" He walked backwards with you as he spoke and you felt his words send a shiver down your spine and right to you core, and you knew you wanted him too, there was no use denying it in his moment, so you don't know what it was, whether it was the alcohol, or whether it was him towering over you with his lustful eyes as he pushed your back into the bathroom door, but he was just as surprised as you were with the next few words spilling from your mouth. "Fuck then do it" He looked at you, surprised and then a shit eating grin was plastered on his face and just turned you on more. "Fuck me Jackson, fuck me hard, make me scream out your name so loud the floor below us can hear me over the music, fuck me so hard until my body starts shaking and I can't walk tomorrow" In a rush he clashed his lips with yours, your hands immediately gripping around him shoulders, grabbing into his soft hair and tugging hard as your tongues battled with each other. The taste of alcohol was so strongly evident in this long overdue kiss. His tongue grazed along your bottom lip tugging each time he pulled away to take a breath, both of you already a panting messed as you rushed months and months of sexual tension into one night. You were needy and impatient, you longed for his lips on yours and you hated when he removed them. You tugged on his bottom lip as you crashed your lips back onto his, your hand fumbling over your bodies, Jackson gripped your thighs, your ass, you waist, whatever he could get his hands on. Your hands tugged on his hair harshly as you moaned into the kiss, your tongue licked his own and grazed against the roof of his mouth and you know he liked it when he let out a deep sigh in content. He pushed you back into the door roughly, the impact making you gasp and you loved the dominance he was showing. One hand grabbed on your waist while the other grabbed your jaw, pushing your face to the side as he ravished at your neck, biting down hard and you hissed as the pleasurable pain surged through your body. His hand gripped your jaw tight as he marked you all over your neck. "You're mine now princess" he whispers in your ear and his hot shaky breath sent shivers down your spine that made you close your eyes and moan, your reaction at such a simple gesture boosting his ego. He kissed and nibbled and bit at your neck, finding your sweet spot and you cried aloud at the feeling, he bit down on the skin, sucking harshly as he left another hickey on your skin, with no sympathy for how much effort you're going to have to go through to cover it up. He let go of your jaw and your head dropped slightly. He lowered down your body, trailing wet kisses down to your collarbone as he kissed it. As his mouth continued to attack you, your hand slowly slid down his body, you tugged at the waistband of his tight jeans, you grabbed softly at his crotch and he groaned against your neck, you slowly palmed him over the jeans, his breathing shaky as you slid your hand into his pants and into his boxers, feeling his length in your hand and as best as you could, you pumped him softly. You moaned slightly feeling his dick, the wideness and the length making you anticipate what was to come. "Fuck y/n" He removed his lips from your skin, his head resting in the crook of your neck as he rested both hands on the side of your head, letting you continue to pleasure him. The look on his face was pure ecstasy, his eyebrows furrowed, his teeth sinking into his bottom lip, sweat trickling down his forehead and his chest rising up and down and you could almost orgasm at the sight of him, cursing at yourself for not letting this happen sooner. You hand pumped his length softly, you teased him with small and tiny movements and you could hear the frustration whenever he slipped out a beautiful sounding moan. "You better stop teasing me or ill make you regret it princess" his jaw tensed and you could see he wasn't playing around, but it only spurred you further. "Maybe I want to regret it baby" you teased him further, attempting to see how far you could push him, giving him light feathery touches and he sighed under you touch, you smirked at him, sliding your hand further down his length and rubbing over his tip. He hissed at the feeling and his hands tensed against the wall, he couldn't take it any longer. He grabbed both your hands, pinning them above your head. "You're in for it now" "I'm all yours" you smirked at him and he groaned at your words. He let your hands drop free, his hands locked around your waist, gripping at the rim of you top and pulling it above your head, discarding the velvet material on the floor. He lowered down you body, trailing your curves with his hands and placing kisses along you torso until he was on his knees. He pulled your shoes off you feet and then tugged at your jeans, he undid the zipper slowly, looking up at you as he slid the jeans off your legs. He kissed your thighs, making his way back up to your face. He leaned his hips against yours and you could feel his erection against your throbbing wet core. "How did you know black was my favourite?" He admired the lingerie you so luckily chose to wear, the black lace bra and panties making his lick his lips in hunger as he looked at you. "Lucky guess" his hand slid around your back, undoing the clip of your bra in a swift movement and gliding the straps down your arms, the feeling tingling your body. "Whats this princess?" His eyes caught immediate attention to your nipple ring, his pupils dilating in lust. His hand tweaked your nipple and you moaned as he played with the ring. "You like it?" you ask smiling at him, knowing damn well the answer. "Love it, it's fucking sexy" He tugged at his bottom lips and kissing his way down to your breasts, you screamed his name when his mouth latched onto your nipple, biting down on the sensitive nub and your hands gripped at his hair. His other hand messaged your breast while his mouth continued his fun with the other. His teeth tugged on the nipple ring and you groaned at the feeling, the pain of it making you more aroused while you dug deeper into his hair. "Fuck! jackson- oH!" He flicked the ring up and down with his tongue, playing with it in his mouth and the feelings was heavenly. He would torture you with his moments, his teeth gripping on the ring and pulling, onto to release his teeth seconds after and he would repeat the action. He kissed all around your breast, leaving a circle of hickeys around your sensitive nipple and you hissed as he bit and sucked harshly on the sensitive skin. His other hand messaged your breast roughly, taking the time to pinch the nipple in between his two fingers and you cursed under your breath as he did so. He swapped around his movements, switching breasts as his fingers now played with the nipple ring and his mouth enclosed on your other nipple, making sure to give it the same treatment. His fingers tugged on the nipple ring, twisting it slightly making you moan, he pulled and tugged on the silver piece of jewellery as his teeth tugged down on your other nipple. You had become a panting mess, you nubs were peaked and sensitive and he pleasured both breasts equally as rough and you loved it, never wanting it to end, but wanting to feel him inside you already. "Fuck- please baby" "Tsk tsk, im taking my time with you tonight princess" He removed his lips from your perked breasts, which were red and wet and full of bruised. His hands grabbed at your ass cheeks, squeezing tightly before grabbing your hips and lifting you up, you gasped at the sudden gesture and your legs gripped around his waist as he moved you to the desk, in a messy haste you tugged at the bottom of he shirt, lifting it over his head and discarding it. With one hand holding you he used the other to push everything off the desk, sitting you down on it. You legs gripped tighter around him, pulling him closer as you admired his body, your fingers tracing his abdomen and he loved a you so carefully studied everything about his body, he stared deeply at you as you memorised every line, the way every muscle tenses, the way his chest heaved up and down and the way his biceps tensed as his arms leaned on the desk. "So fucking gorgeous you are" you say to him and he smirks at you. You grab his face, reconnecting his lips on yours while his hands trailed down your body to the hem of you lace panties, his fingers traced the hem teasing you. You moved your lips to his neck, biting down onto the skin and sucking harshly as he hissed, his hands gripping your thighs, digging in which was sure to leave bruises. "It's only fair right?" you say to him, leaving more marks on his body. Biting down on his neck and hearing him growl at the feeling. He lays his hands on your chest, pushing your back down onto the desk and you leaned up on your elbows. You watched him smirk at you as he traced the thin material off your panties. Slowly sliding them down your legs and you sighed as they tingled on the way down. He leaned down over you, his hot breath on your core making you desperate and needy and he chuckled at you as you tugged on his hair, urging him on. "Eager princess? That's too bad... I'm taking my time with you tonight" He licked along your thighs, kissing his way up to where you needed him most and you breathed heavy waiting for him, you hands in his hair as you leaned your back onto the desk. Jackson admired the view above him, he could see your perked breasts rising heavily up and down and the facial expression that read frustration and lust and it was so sexy. He kissed lightly at your folds and you moaned his name, finally getting a little friction out of him. His hands gripped at your thighs and he kissed your lobes, barely touching you as you ached for him. You screamed in delight, your back arching as his mouth finally latched onto your clit, sucking harshly and the sudden move sent waves through your body. "Fuck Jackson!" you moaned in pleasure, hands digging into his hair as he sucked harshly on your clit, his tongue doing wonders to make you a panting mess in front of him. His tongue flicked your clit, flicking up and down and curse words spilled from your plump red lips. His tongue lapped at your clit, moving up and down your folds and licking clean strip upwards, your hips reacting instantly, Jackson quick to hold you down. "So wet for me princess" He licked around your entrance, poking his tongue in and out of you before bringing it back to your clit and repeating the process. He tugged at you clit with his teeth and you cried out from the satisfaction. He nibbled lightly on your clit, sucking as he did so and you could hear the lewd sounds from his actions. You eyes tightened as he pleasured you. You grip on his hair making him groan, sending vibrations through your core that made you moan. He picked up his speed flat tonguing you up and down and sweat fell from your forehead, your eyes rolling and you hair sticking to your face. He ravished at you and you screamed his name over and over. He poked his tongue into your entrance, pushing himself in as he licked around you in a slow circle, your mouth open wide and your voice lost as you reacted to the new feeling. His tongue licked inside you, tasting you all over before pulling back out and licking up your whole vagina until your clit, spreading your juices all over your folds. His fingers traced up your thigh as he nibbled and sucked your hungrily. He brought his fingers up to your core, rubbing up and down your folds as he left kitten licks on your clit. You groaned as he slipped a finger into you, pumping in and out and around slowly, matching the movements of his tongue. He pumped slowly, teasing you with the unbearable pace and you needed him to go faster. "Please Jackson- Fuck!" your swore as he added another finger into you. Quickening his pace, pumping in and out of you and curling his fingers making your scream in pleasure. The room filling up with the sounds of sex as he fastened the pace of his fingers to a brutally fast pace and you could feel the knot in your stomach as he fingered and licked you. The pleasure from both actions becoming too much and you couldn't take it much longer. He pulled his tongue away from you, removing his fingers for only seconds to rub you roughly and spread your juices all over you. He pinched you clit between two fingers and your back arched off the table as he rubbed at your clit ruthlessly before inserting his fingers back into you. He thrusted them in and out of you, reaching as deep as he could as he brought his tongue back down do you. He felt around inside you, twisted his fingers around you curling them and you mewled as he reached your sweet spot, which he now paid all his attention too. The know in your stomach was getting tighter and he hit your sweet spot over and over again, his name falling from your lips in repeat and your breath was catching in your throat. He brought his face back up, leaning over you as he continued his ministrations. You gripped the edged of the table and he watched you as he thrusted his fingers roughly. He watched as your face tilted, your features scrunched up and distorted in pleasure, he watched as you chest heaved up and down rapidly, almost allowing him to hear your heartbeat and he watched as your knuckles whitened from your grip on the table, and he was reveling in the fact that it was all because of him. "Fuck Jackson im gonna come" your words came out in a choke and you bucked against him as his fingers continued their magic, but as soon as you were about to let your orgasm soar through you he stopped all his movements, pulling his fingers out of you and you cried in frustration and anger, your orgasm slipping away and giving you an uncomfortable feeling from being ripped from you. "What the fuck Jackson!" you yell, panting heavily as you tried to regain yourself, and with any strength left you leaned yourself up to sit on the edge of the desk, anger evident on your face. He leaned over you on the table, a smug expression evident as he brought his face closer to yours, tilting his head and whispering in your ear. "Told you that you were going to regret it princess" You huffed in defeat, angry with him but undeniably turned on from his dominance. "Asshole" you didn't think he was serious, but he was right, you regretted it, and didn't at the same time. His hands came round to the small of your back, dragging you off the table before grabbing you and lifting you up, dropping you onto his bed and climbing on top of you. You grabbed his shoulders, flipping him over and straddling him. "How about we get rid of these now?" you say, sick of seeing his jeans. Your hands grabbed eagerly at the zipper. Pulling it down and locking your eyes with Jackson's as you pulled them down his legs, throwing them onto the floor. "Come here baby" you crawled back up his legs, sitting your legs between his thigh and you couldn't help but moan when your core slid along his thigh, the friction on your core already sensitive and you cursed under your breath. You don't know where you found this confidence from but you did it again. "Oh fuck" you whispered, your voice shaky. "Fuck that's sexy princess, keep doing it" he encouraged you, loving watching you get off on his thigh. You were hesitant to keep going, but when you looked into his eyes and only saw hunger and lust you knew he wanted this too. You leaned your hands on his chest, your fingers digging in and you glided you core forwards and backwards on his muscly thighs, the thighs that you have adorned since you first met him, his gorgeous thick thighs that you would always find yourself staring at, and now you were riding them. "god---fuck" you rid his thighs back and forth, your fingers digging into his chest and he hissed as your nails dug into him. You head rolled back as you quickened your pace, the friction coming back to your core. "Thats it baby" He grabbed your love handles, guiding your hips and matching your rhythm. You grind harder on his thighs, putting more pressure on your throbbing core, soft whimpers and moans falling from your lips. He tensed his thigh muscles and you mewled from delight from the feeling, he kept doing it as you rid his thighs into oblivion. He tightened his grip on your hips, rocking your hips back and forth faster encouraging you to up your pace and so you. He pushed your hips down, lifting his thigh up at the same time and adding an immense amount of pressure to your clit and you cried out in delight, you quickened your pace, your body sweating from riding him so hard but you weren't tiring out. He continued to flex his muscles and push his thigh up into your core and you could feel your overdue orgasm forming in your stomach and you weren't going to last much longer. "Fuck Jackson I--" "I know princess" He pushed your hips back and forth at full speed, taking away half the effort and you dragged you nails across his chest, your orgasm finally exploding through you and you came onto his beautiful thighs. The feeling of your orgasm being taken away from you before highlighting this one and Jackson's name spilled from your mouth along with curse words repeatedly as you rode out your orgasm, continuing to ride his thighs as his muscles tensed for you. Your head rolled back as you saw stars, sweat dripping down your forehead, your chest rising up and down rapidly and your voice lost as you began to calm down from your high, your clit starting to become sensitive as Jackson was still riding you on his thigh and you hissed from the sensitivity. "Jackson-- ah!" You grabbed his arms and suddenly he was flipping you over, you fell onto your back, tired and limp but all you wanted now was to feel him inside of you. "You ready for me y/n?" he looked deeply into your eyes and you wanted to look away from his intense gaze, but you nodded at him. "You bet I am..." you say to him. He slid his underwear off his legs and his erection sprang free and you started in excitement, his member extremely impressive, his tip red and bulging from your previous teasing on him. You licked you lips in hunger, wrapping your legs around him and pulling him towards you. "Liking what you see?" he smirked at you, you bit down on your lower lip, smiling back up at him. "Please Jackson just fuck me" he moaned at your words, hearing you beg was so fucking sexy. He brought his length closer to your entrance, rubbing his dick up and down your core and you moaned, still a little sensitive but it felt amazing, he spread your wetness all over you and all over his length before aligning his length with your entrance, slowly pushing in and you moaned loudly, you hands gripping onto his biceps hard. You felt him stretch you out inch by inch and you writhed beneath him, fingers digging into his biceps as he filled you up to the brim. "Fuck you're so tight, ugh!" he moaned above you and he was finally all the way in, stopping for the smallest moment to let you adjust to his size, but him not moving inside you was unbearable and you just needed him to move. He read your mind as he started slowly pulling back out of you, all the way to his tip and then all the way back in, he continued to do this at a slow pace and it was starting to become too much. "Please Jackson" you moaned your legs gripping him tighter. "Patience princess" he says to you, continuing his slow pace just to torture you. He leaned down, his lips coming to yours, kissing you passionately as he finally started to speed up. You moaned as he filled up your walls perfectly. He thrusted in and out of you as his tongue roamed you lips. You both pulled away from the kiss to take a breather. Your breaths both shaky and you hearts both pounding in your chest. His hands both rested on either side of your head as he starts slamming back hard into you, your back arched off the bed at his powerful thrusts, he was still not going fast enough, but he slammed so hard and deep into you every single time ad you felt like pure ecstasy. You hands grabbed around his back for support, your legs pulling him closer as he pounded into you ruthlessly, balls deep with every thrust and you could barely moan from the pure satisfaction of him filling you up the way he was.   "Fuck i've been waiting so long to do this" he said in between thrusts, but you could barely concentrate on his words, you could only concentrate on the pleasure he was giving you, you could only concentrate on finding some relief by digging you nails in his back and seeing his face scrunch up from the pain it sent through him. You could only concentrate on the fact that he was finally going full speed inside of you and your back arched into him, you breasts arching into his chest. As he thrust into you full speed and full power your back slid up and down the bed with each thrust and you screamed aloud, moans falling from your lips each second. He grabbed the headboard with one hand, supporting himself as he plunged into you mercilessly. Sweat trickled down his forehead and his beautiful soft locks stuck to his face. His whole body glistened with beads of sweat and although you could barely opened you eyes, you managed to take in the sight of him for seconds at a time, watching his chest rise up and down and his eyebrows furrow as he concentrated on pleasuring you and himself. Watching the muscles all over his body tense as he pounded into you, the veins in his neck popping out as he rolled his head back each time he groaned, the beautiful sounds falling from his lips almost breaking you and making you come undone then and there. He relished in you body, his free hand running over all of you, your breasts, your curves and everywhere he could touch before he found your hand, holding it in his own. He pressed your hands into the blanket as he rammed into you continuously, your breasts bouncing up and down from the intensity. He let go of you hand, grabbing your thigh and lifting it over your shoulder, you cried out in pleasure as he hit your g-spot from the new angle. "FUCK! Right there Jackson!" you screamed, he hit your g-spot over and over and you could feel the knot once again forming in your stomach as he pounded you, the feeling of him hitting you spot each time overwhelming you and bringing you to the edge. "Fuck Jackson i'm going to cum-oH!" He brought his thumb down to you clit, rubbing in rough circles to match the pace of his thrusts and you thrived beneath him, nails dragging along his back roughly as you took in the overwhelming feeling if his thumb and his length all at once. You mouth opened wide and you couldn't let our a voice from all the sensations. He pounded into you mercilessly and you walls clenched around him making him groan above you, with a few more of his powerful thrusts you came undone once again. His mouth spilled from your lips as your juices came around him and you walls clenched hard around his length. He continued to thrust into you and he continued to rub you clit with him thumb as you arched yourself off the bed, making sure to ride out your high for as long as possible. You breath hitched in your throat and you lost your voice from cursing and screaming his name so much. You chest rose up and down as you breathed heavy, you slowly started to come down from your high but Jackson's efforts didn't waver as he chased his own high. He removed his hand from your clit, resting it beside your head, his other hand still gripping the headboard, his knuckled turning white from gripping so hard. With whatever effort you had left you grabbed at his face, dragging it down to yours as you left kisses on his lips down to his neck, you clenched around his dick continuously trying to bring his closer to his brink and you could feel his length throbbing inside you ready for release. "Let go baby" you whispered into his ear, kissing him as best you could wile he thrusted into you, your teeth tugged on his earlobe, you brought your lips down to his neck and sucked harshly on the skin as your hand traced his biceps. You clenched around him tight one last time and with a few last thrusts he shouted your name as he shot his seed inside of you, his arm fell off the headboard and both rest on the sides of your head, he leaned down on his elbows, his head resting in the crook of you neck and he thrusted himself into you, riding out his high. His muscles tensed and his face scrunched up in pleasure as his orgasm tore through his body. His heartbeat rapid and he panted heavily as he thrusts started to become sloppy. Your leg fell off his shoulder and his muscles started to relax, his thrusts coming to a stop and he laid on top of you, his weight on you and your fingers running through his soft hair as he regained his breath. You both laid there for moments regaining yourselves, allowing yourselves to relax. Eventually he pulled out of you, lifting himself off of you and walking to the bathroom, giving you a nice glance at his ass as he walked away. You rested on the bed, pondering over what just happened and you couldn't believe it as you smiled to yourself. You heard him come back into the room, a towel in hand as he wiped both of your spilled juices off of you, discarding the towel and climbing back onto the bed with you. You cuddled up against him, your bodies intertwined as you fell asleep, both of you tired and your bodies exhausted. ________________________________________________________________________________ "Ugh god" your voice was groggy and you yawned as the morning greeted you, you were still in Jackson's bed and you held the cover over you, but Jackson was not beside you. You sat there for a moment, waking yourself up, trying to keep your eyes open. What caught your attention next was Jackson re-entering the dorm room, topless with pants on. "Good morning princess, I brought you coffee!" You groaned as you stretched, taking the coffee from his hand as he walked up to you. You held the blanket against your naked body, grinning at Jacksons lovable energy and smile as you sipped the coffee, you couldn't believe how much you've fallen from him. "Good morning" you say, your voice sleepy and he smiled at your cuteness. Jackson's passed you your underwear and one of his shirts and you slid on the garments, admiring the smell of him on the shirt, and him admiring how it looked on you. You got yourself out of the bed, trying to stand up and immediately falling back down onto the mattress from your sore body, which made both of you laugh. "Fuck you took me seriously didn't you" you laughed at him. "Well you did say to fuck you until you can't walk" He teased you, rubbing his arm and laughing out loud as you hit him, hiding your face in your hands. He grabbed your hands in his, keeping them in his as he lowered them, bringing his face back to yours, kissing you softly on the lips. "I did mean what I said y/n, I really like you, you're mine now" "I'm all yours, remember?" you quoted yourself from last night, you both giggled softly at each other, needing nothing more then each others lips as you continued kissing. Ellie was right, you did, undeniably fall for his charms, but he also fell for you, and you were loving it, you didn't regret one thing as he embraced you in his arms and you didn't need to be anywhere else but there, together. Masterlist <3

Other Jackson: Fashionably Late (Fluff/Smut)

[yofavcomplainingbitch]

07.16.17 - The Situation

I loved this boy lets call him... Mike. Really maybe I thought I did, no I did. We were an official couple (or so I thought) for a good eleven months. The twelfth month he became kinda distant but i brushed it off. One night we are cruising through downtown LA an his phone rings so I pick it up and it says, let's call her... Ann. And there is a picture of a girl in a tank top posing in a mirror, basic right? Anyway I ask him who is this I can feel him tense up. He says, "Oh, that's my cousin" and he declines the call. So I'm like if its your cousin why didn't you answer. He says its okay I'll call her back tomorrow. So I am sitting there angry as fuck but I hold it in because I was not about to be that always mad girlfriend no it wasn't me yo. Meanwhile, my face is getting hot and my mind is racing with questions like: "Why did he get so nervous? Why was he lying? Is he really cheating on me? Who the fuck has a picture like that of their cousin as the contact? Being me and loving him so much i brushed it off. You see I did that a lot just brushing off shit because I loved him and I knew how lucky I was to have someone I really thought I did not deserve. Shortly after the call situation I am at the park and my friend walks up to me and says you still go out with Mike and I say yeah. Then she says "Ohh Shit NEVER MIND!" My heart almost instantly starts racing and my mind reverts back to the night his "cousin" called. She says he was at So and So's High School homecoming with no other than... Anne. My friend also tells me she was sitting on his lap and they were kissing. At this point him and I were still in a relationship and he goes to homecoming with so girl he lied and told me was his fucking cousin. Like NIGGA REALLY!? YOU KISSING ANOTHER BITCH WHILE YOU'RE MINE!? I was angry and I could feel myself losing breathe and balance. That night I couldn't wait to go home and blow the fuck up on that nigga Mike. I pressed him about going to homecoming with Anne, nit telling him that I knew he was kissing on the bitch and shit. So, he says its not that big of a deal I'm just her math tutor. MIKE I THOUGHT YOU WERE HER COUSIN MIKE!!! So anyway I should have ended what I knew was going to soon come to a close tight then and there. But again.. I brushed it off ad let him sweet talk me into a peaceful state of mind he was always so good at that and then I remembered I was soooo lucky to have him. A few weeks go by and another friend asks me did you and Mike break up and my heart stopped. I played it cool and said no and why. He told me he saw a post of him on snapchat of him smoking a blunt obviously taken by someone else with a heart emoji. My friend questioned me because at the same time I had made a snapchat of myself in a while other city with a whole other group of people. Our date was 10.31.14 (my favorite holiday) and it is about 10.20.15 .. Ik not sure exactly how but.. Mike breaks up with me. I cry and panic and ask him why. I asked him does this have anything to do with Anne. He denies that this has anything to do with Anne but he loves me and he needs to get himself together.. alone or whatever. I died a little inside. I mean I know I did not give him everything but I loved him and I was already so insecure with myself and with our relationship it cut me deep. And because that cut me deep I went into a night of self-loathing I treated myself like the piece of shit i thought I was telling myself things like: You're worthless. You thought you could conceal who you really are from him, you failed. He knows you are trash so he threw you away. Dumb bitch can't even keep a high school boyfriend. And I cried myself into a deep headache and went to sleep. The next day he texts me saying he is so sorry about all this and he promised to hang out with me on our day 10.31.15, Halloween my favorite day. So, I had hope that this would change things. I said ok. Some days went by I hadn't heard from him and by this time its probably 10.30.15. So I just said fuck it whatever. A few days after that the same friend mentioned most recently asked me if Mike and I had broken up, I confessed. Then he says oh ok thats why he was with that Anne girl. I literally heard glass hatter inside of my head, a panic was coming but I had to suppress it. I asked him what the fuck he was talking about and he went to her Instagram page and there was a picture of Anne and Mike in matching costumes and the date posted read : 10.31.15 I ALMOST LOST MY SHIT! He betrayed me the girl whom he had shared a beautiful relationship with for eleven months. HE TOOK ANOTER BITCH OUT ON OUR DAY, MY FAVORITE FUCKING DAY... HALLOWEEN MY NIGGA! Blah Blah Blah some time passed by we got back together at some point for about a week and then we broke up again 7 days later. I went to his house for head and chill time the Wednesday before Turkey Day. I asked him did he gave a girlfriend (I was talking about Anne) he told me know and I did nit ask about it again. By now I had followed Anne on Instagram .... i guess she didn't know about me and I'm scrolling on my home page and I see a picture of Anne and Mike. I wanted to fucking throw my phone at the sight. But, I read the caption it read "I am thankful for my boyfriend because r loves me even though I make it hard to." I FUCKING WENT BESERK IM THE HEAD. He told me tat was not his girlfriend bd it gad to be for a while for them to have "love" like really? You have a girlfriend but literally two days ago your face was inside if my vagina. I texted him the picture with a few questions. This boy had the nerve to say he can't deal with this right now he had a rough day... BITCH WHAT?!?! Literally I was in awe. I was basically the other woman in the matter of one goddamn month. So I'll spare the details we basically stayed together in a low key thing their entire relationship. In February, he de flowered me and in June shit. hit. the fucking. fan! You see throughout our secret love affair he would bring my friends and I food like really late at night when we were high or drunk. So my homegirl had added Anne on snapchat so we could see what ol girl was up to. She rarely watched my hg snapchat so whatever. Mike brought up some fries and nuggets. So my homegirl takes a picture of the fries and types out "Thank You Mike." I had no clue I had went to the car with mike to canoodle as usual. The next day he texts me going off and I'm uber lost. I tell my friends and they all look at one person and I ask what is going on. She tells me what she did. I try to tell Mike that this was not my fault. He did not believe me. Turns out Anne had seen it and pressed tf outta him and broke up with him or whatever I was not fazed but on 06.04.16 he stopped talking to me.

[argaliaofficial]

i started typing this earlier but then had to go to work so now im just gonna finish it so i get it off my chest

back when i was with my first ex, meg, we went to this private christian school i prolly made a post about this on here before but its topical right now i didnt sleep at all and im tired enough to spill my fucking guts out some more 

so anyway we went to this private christian school and thats when it happened. ive honestly repressed a lot of my time there i was not doing great but what i do remember just makes me feel sick. like, meg aside, the school just sucked. 

for context the way it was set up was that we had “placement tests” to see where we were in subjects like math and english, and however we did made us get placed in PACEs according to our skill level. in theory this is fine i suppose, but the thing was that there were no alternatives to the PACEs. 

PACEs were part of the learning curriculum of our school which was ACE- Accelerated Christian Learning. they were basically little study pamphlets that went over instructions on how to learn certain subjects and whatnot, while also having a christian perspective on things. scripture verses were abundent in them, and they had like a continuous series of comics going in there about their character Ace Virtuson and friends. 

Along with the PACEs, the classrooms were set up like an “office” of sorts with cubicles that you sat in. For me honestly that was one of the many hells because it was so cramping and clinical and I just do not learn well in that sort of environment. so you’d sit quietly for like 8 hours a day with occassional breaks with nothing but your PACE pamphlets to work on. you couldnt speak to any body, and if you needed help, there was a flag system in place where you’d put a flag up and have to sit around and wait for a teacher to come assist you, and usually their assistance only lasted briefly because theres countless OTHER students to get to, and nepotism is a thing and if they dont like you or think of you as a problem kid, you’re less likely to get the aid you need.

i was one of those problem kids. 

early on, i could manage that set up when my work was easier, but when i hit “high school age” and got into more advance work i began to suffer horribly. it didnt help that at this time, i got with meg, but less about her right now and more about how this school system fucking failed me and others tbh 

i do not learn by reading information. at least, i dont retain it. i need to discuss with people, with my peers and professors. i need one on one sometimes, especially with math- my biggest struggle. but how the school was set up made that sort of learning almost impossible. your peers were all at different levels, so group discussion was rare. their were attempts, but they never lasted long, and the extent of the help basically surmounted to the teachers just reading what the PACEs already said and vaguely explaining more, and that blew. 

so, me, being a hands on group learner who has to talk and listen to even retain information and needs to be allowed to move around often instead of being cramped up, started to fall behind in my studies. badly. and of course, instead of the teachers trying to asses WHY it was you were falling behind, you got written up and had to have your parents sign a slip. you could get written up for a few things and these were always detentions of sorts. usually they were lunch but if you were bad enough you’d get an after school one. i accumulated these almost once a day and after a while i got tired of having my parents sign them EVERY SINGLE day and just forged their signatures. i got away with that like 75% of the time lol 

like they were just for the same shit ‘oh ur kid didnt do their homework blah blah ur kids out of dress code blah blah” and so i was just “whatever” because like... nothing seemed to change i was just being perpetually punished for being unable to keep up in my studies. my parents tried to get a math tutor for me but halfway thru i think freshman year she moved and that was that

i got so fucking sick of just being behind while my other peers seemed to be moving forward that i started bullshitting my work just to get thru. ofc that didnt do anything because i wasnt learning the work, and because i lied about my answers and cheated i got punished again. and i was just like “whatever” 

i cried all the time. parent teacher conferences were hell. i always cried. it felt like i couldnt convey to them why i was such a fuckup. like i wasnt making sense, or i was being overemotional. instead of trying to make changes they just talked about how i had to work harder. least i think. i’ll be honest i always just disassociated during those meetings before going into meltdown mode.

on top of that, i was in a “gay” relationship with a classmate, and lots of bad stuff happened. ive always had an overactive imagination. great for being a wannabe artist. not so great when youre already an easily manipulated undiagnosed autistic child. me, her, and my current gf actually had our own little world! thinking back on this now, for me at least it was escapism to try and just cope with how miserable i was at school 

i dont know how soon in the “relationship” it was before things got sexual. my concept of time during those years at foursquare is so scattered. according to posts ive seen on dA me and her were together or at least “friends” for 2 years? so actually i think my saying “freshman year in high school” is inaccurate and things got bad the tail end of middle school and continued until i was a sophomore before switching schools.

ANYWAY, so yeah, along with all this school nonsense, i was in a gay relationship, one that was abusive in many aspects. ofc at the time i didnt know that i was being abused! i just thought yknow her forcing herself into me sexually was kinda par the course and i was already kinda a sexually curious kid growing up so like.. i was looking for that i guess? it hurting cuz she went in dry is just to be expected, yadda yadda. pretty sure i cried? and i know for a fact that i still sleep in the room where she raped me like that and its sometimes just “yea i was literally right in that spot when i was raped lol”

and she would constantly want me to touch her sexually too, and when i said “no” and pulled my hand away that she had been trying to force down her pants because i wasnt personally ready to do that she’d always complain and make me feel bad cuz i wasnt comfortable touching her. “i always get you off but you never get me off!” 

and at the time i didnt just tell her to fuck off cuz i didnt know any better. i didnt know that it was ok for me to not be ready to do that. i thought i was a bad person for not being ready to pleasure my partner, even tho its not my fault if shes ok w/ pleasuring me, and im ok with being pleasured (even tho tbh it was hit or miss sometimes she just did it lol), but im not ready to touch her, i guess? and like i tried to communicate with her and im pretty sure i told her that if she didnt wanna jerk me off cuz i couldnt do it to her yet that was fine but whatever

on the fourth of july she started groping me out in public while we watched the fireworks and i remember trying to get her to stop cuz i wasnt comfy with doing this in public cuz a) this was years ago and homophobia was a lot more common especially in this boonies town and b) i dont like seeing other couples being handsy in public so i dont want to be handsy in public either

and i remember while shes groping my chest and im trying to get her to stop theres this group of older kids in front of us and they see. and they start snickering. they started snickering at the sight. and i was so mortified and wanted to die.

looking back those kids should get hit by a fucking bus for laughing at someone getting molested and being obviously uncomfortable with it but i guess its funny cuz “lesbians! haha look at that pervy lesbo touching that other lesbian!”

and thats the story of why every fourth of july i want to kill myself

things kept progressing, ofc. i remember one night, while we were camping, i finally caved and fingered her. i forced myself to think “yeah ok i can do this” and i just thought the crippling anxiety i felt was cuz i was nervous to be intimate with my girlfriend for the first time like this, but really i was probably scared she was gonna hurt me since by that point she had. she had made herself perfectly clear in her mannerisms and tone of voice that she was stronger and bigger than me and could hurt me. 

and a few occasions she did. one time she started choking me so badly that i honestly thought “oh my god, shes going to kill me here at school”. i still sometimes feel her nails digging into my throat, and i dont think ive ever been as terrified in my life as i was in that moment. i dont think she would have stopped had a teacher not intervened. 

there was only one time i ever hit her, and that was before school started, and i had finally lost my shit over how much she kept fucking with me. all i remember was i came to school angry at her. over what i dont remember. she was always toying with my emotions, and i think that it had built up over the time that i finally snapped walked into class before school started, walked over to where she and alyss were talking, and a slapped her across the face before i walked over to my desk

i dont think i got in trouble for that cuz no one snitched? idk i mightve, but i didnt care. i was angry at her, angry at the school, and suicidal. 

i remember one time during a break i was crying. a teacher from another class came up to me and asked what was wrong. i told her i wanted to die. she just looked at me all uncomfortable. i think she mightve said something before walking off?

nothing came of that. 

i was more worried that i would get in trouble for being in a gay relationship than as apposed to thinking that these teachers- people who are supposed to protect their students- would help me. i gave up on them even recognizing the signs of me being abused. i feel like they wouldnt have even taken it as seriously as we were both “girls”, and this was back before talk of how women can be abusive was more common place. abuse was still strictly seen as male on female violence. and to some people, gay violence was comedic. 

eventually, one night, it all came to light. at least, that she and i were sexually involved. that week was a blur. she was taken out of school. it was brushed under the rug. everyone trying to save face i guess and keep other kids from finding out, but somehow i always felt like they knew. they knew that she was taken out of school because of me. because we were gay

i tried to move on, but my studies never got better. i just grew more jaded. i never did any work. i mouthed off to the teachers, continued getting detentions and just plainly stopped caring. no one could get me to do anything. i would play hooky. 

and that was just.... my life. perpetual anger at a system that failed me spectacularly. to this day i still hate that place. i cant be there. i was groped and molested and it was treated like nothing

so yeah

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My roommate just changed her address told her car insurance provider she moved in with a friend. Her insurance company wants my car insurance info. Why? Do I have to/need to supply this? What are the positives and or negatives to doing this? Could it make my insurance go up? Note: We are not under the same company or policy for that matter. Thanks

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I am 18, live in Toronto, Ontario and dreaming of having a car, but I can't afford to pay $400 a month or more, so, could I get my dad to buy the car with my money, register it as if it his, get cheap insurance for it as if it was his, and then just drive it all the time having the proper car documents on me. How much of a legal issue would that be if a cop pulled me over and I showed him that the car is family owned and insured and I just happen to be driving it today. My family already has a truck and a Toyota, I don't know if that is relevant or not, but Im just throwing it out there. And just to make sure, what would happen if (god forbid) I was to get in an accident and wasn't at fault? how about if it was my fault(talk about sticky situations).""

Cheapest moped insurance? UK!!?

I've just purchased a moped and would like to know what you people thought was the cheapest insurance provider for me to go with. thanks

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I don't work, and don't plan on working. I don't own a house or car that's in my name, and don't plan to. Everything will always be in my boyfriends name. How will the insurance company ever get money from me. Even if they sue me.""

Good auto insurance deal?

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My father pays car insurance but I'm moving will the payment go to me once I move with my car? How can I switch to my name

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Will I make my bf's parents' car insurance rates go up?

I've lived with my boyfriend and his family for a little over a year now(I pay rent). I am 19 and do not have my license. I have relied on carpools and the bus so it wasn't an issue. Now, I am planning to buy a used car, take the road test and get my own auto insurance. The thing is, they would most likely complain if this would increase their rates. I wish I could just pay a high rate alone- what would be the difference if I just rented a room in a strangers house??lol. I think that it would affect them, but does anyone know for sure?""

Car insurance when go to college?

i'll be living in the dorm for college this fall, and my parents decide to cut my car insurance since i only come home for thanksgiving(7 days), winter break(1 month), spring break(10 days), and summer(2 months). is it possible to buy insurance temporarily for those breaks that i come back? thanks""

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i want to buy a home and i need to know how much my insurance might be.

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Is the presidents plan to get everyone insured but no one covered?

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where is the best place to get insured that is cheap and no deposit asked for or cheap deposit?, thanks""

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Hello, I am 17 and live in the UK. I am learning to drive and hope to pass my test soon. I am looking to get a car when I pass my test. I do like larger cars like SUV's and pickups and compact crossovers but that is not to say that I do not like smaller cars. The problem is the fact that insurance cost a hell of a lot, ridiculous costs. There are many cars that I like but I would like a car that does not look to bad and that has good insurance for teens. I understand that SUV's/trucks will have higher MPG and higher insurance. So far my lowest and best insurance price is for a corsa from youngmarmalade (4.5k insurance but only pay 1.5k as I get cash back on car to put to insurance). Please can you help me with advise on cars pref suv/trucks that would be good for me and good on insurance. Thanks""

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It is not a SS it's just a 1973 chevy nova for a 16 year old. Would it be outrageous? It's not a souped up car really although the engine has some add ons.

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my boyfriend and i drive the same car and he is under his parent's insurance for now. i cant be on their insurance. Would i be able to get insurance for my self on the same car?

What is a affordable health insurance that covers DENTAL?

or at least some of the cost?

""Who has taken the Florida 2-15 Life, Health, Ann, Insurance exam... How is this exam?

I would like to know is this a very difficult exam? Do this exam requires mathematics? Is this exam 100% Multiple choice? I know that the Real Estate exam for me was a little difficult so I am hoping that this would be a little easier.... Please tell what ever you know about this test... Thanks I appreciate it...

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My son is on my car insurance as a named driver. He's 19 and held a clean licence for 2 years. However, he's off to university in September and will only use my car when home...probably only for the odd day here and there. Is there any insurance company who will add him as a named driver for a few days each time he comes home thus enabling me to go back to my usual extremely low payment? I'm a 50 something driver with a totally clean licence and max no-claims.""

Motorcycle Insurance?

Ive been trying to find online quotes but am unable to (don't know why, but they cant give me a quote online). Anyways I was just wondering what insurance company would you recommend for motorcycle insurance? I want to buy a bike, I don't have my M1 (because I don't want to take the test before getting the bike), and obviously I've never taken the motorcycle course. Yea I know it would be hard to get a quote given that I have zero riding experience or licensing but cmon do you really expect me to get my license only to have it expire in 90 days without even having a bike yet? Anyways when you started out what kind of insurance were you paying and with who? Also is 600cc pushing it? will that screw me over for insurance? I was looking into getting a honda 600. Thanks!""

Why Health Insurance?

Health insurance companies can't cure anyone, prevent any disease, develop new treatments or create better medicines. Yet they take a cut of your health care dollar, create endless paper, interfere with doctors and enrich shareholders. They can all be replaced by software. BESIDES, hospital care and physician services are not random risks, they are a certainty for everyone at some point of their life. They are also preventable or can be protected against. It doesnt make sense to insure against a non-risk. You may as well have PhD insurance just in case your kid decides to get a PhD! Tell me why heath care is an insurable risk. Tell me why it's not an essential social service like K-12 education.""

What is the cheapest car insurance premium quote?

That you know of , for an 18 year old male driving a group 1 car. Thanks.""

How can I get medical insurance?

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So I was recently given a citation during a trip to Northern California. Here's the condensed version; I went out with a group of friends to have dinner and drinks. It was about 10 people altogether, three car loads. I was originally not one of the drivers (I flew in from Southern California). Several of my friends/acquiantances drank heavily during dinner. I was asked as a favor to drive one of the car and the car owner's home. The car I drove belonged to my good friend's neighbor. I received a speeding ticket during the drive to the neighbor's home (73 in a 65) PLUS no insurance!!! I informed the officer that it was not my car and that it belonged to the passed out lady in the back but he didn't care and decided to write me the ticket anyway. Now I've been told that I will have to pay for it ($988) plus my speeding ticket. I spoke with my good friend about it but the neighbor now refuses to go to court with me or write a letter at the least explaining the scenario.""

Maternity Insurance?

I'm looking for health insurance that I can have for basic coverage, and at somepoint (if needed) add maternity coverage. Everything I have looked at so far will only cover ...show more""

Do you think that the government should require that people buy health insurances like car insurance?

Car insurance is mandatory and everyone must have it, who owns vehicles. Do you think government should require us to buy health insurances?""

Liberty Mutual Insurance please help!?

If you use Liberty Mutual for your car insurance, how much is the insurance for two people each under two cars? If not, generally speaking, how much is it for two people to be insured for two cars each? My fiancee and I both have clean records no tickets and in the age bracket of 22-24. Thanks!""

Does any body know what is going on with Obama and the whole health insurance thing?

Okay so I live in California. I am young and can't afford health insurance rite now. Does any one know if Obama is going to follow through with this whole health insurance thing. If so when is it supposed to kick in? And how will it work exactly? Will every body have free health insurance? Some one please explain this becuase I am realy confused.

Does a Bank of America auto loan require full coverage insurance on the car?

If I were to take out an auto loan from Bank of America would I have to have full coverage insurance on the car until the loan is paid for? Or would I be able to just have liability coverage? Thanks!

Am I required to put my parents down on my car insurance? I am concerned about liability.?

I am an adult over 40 yrs old, living with my parents. I have not been off my parents policy before. I live in New York State. Am I required to put my parents down on my car insurance, or would their car insurance cover it if they had an accident while driving my car?""

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Ok, so my car has Hail damage ALL over it from a recent storm. I am covered for insurance but i wanna know what to do?! i can't call them at this stage cos they call centre is down :( SO, if my car is worth $30,000 & the damage is worth about $5,000 - $7,000 how do they work out if it's considered a wreak or not? My premium is about $1000 (cos i'm under the age of 25) so what happens if they declare it a wreak? Do i just get a cheque and then they take the car? or what? If anyone has had their car considered a wreak through insurance before, please enlighten me :) Thanks x""

What states don't require auto insurance?

As a young driver auto insurance is way to expensive. Since I drive a Mercedes most quote me at thousands of dollars a year. More than what I can afford. I know some states don't require car insurance if you can prove you have the financial means to pay out if you cause an accident. I need a list of those states that don't require auto insurance if you can prove you can afford to pay out. On top of this question how do I prove I can afford it. Do I need to keep a minimum amount of money in a bank account or do I have to buy a bond how does it work. And if it works with a bond or bank account please list the states with the minimum $ you need in bonds or account money. The reason Im asking is that I can easily get a minimum amount in my account (hopefully under $10,000) because id rather have $10,000 sitting in a bank I cant use than having to pay thousands a year for insurance I don't need. I been driving for 3 years and I never had an accident and im confident I never will (at least not one that's my fault) so I don't wanna waste thousands of dollars I need for my school. The reason Im asking is cause im looking for a state that suits me. So far Vermont and new Hampshire have laws to my liking but hopefully you guys can give me more possibilities by answering this question. Thanks""

Where is the best place to get an online car insurance quote?

Well, I just got a new car and need to get insurance. I was wondering what the best site is for insurance quotes and where I can get the cheapest insurance? Thank you in advance!""

What insurance company offer the best auto insurance quote?

What insurance company offer the best auto insurance quote?

Best insurance companies for 18 year old passed my tes?

ok ive pased my test a month on friday and i gettin a car this week and i need some insurance on the car obviiously lol, well basically whats the cheapest car insurance all you 18 year old have and who is it with, please :)""

Why do people buy insurance?

is it for saving or protection of life? What are the reasons that motivate people to buy insurance?

""In the state of Texas,Do you have to have auto insurance?""

If you are in a car wreck which the other person is at fault,Can you still file a cliam on their insurance company and have phisical therapy paid and can paid for the damage for the car and get paid for pain and suffering? Even if the insurance was off for less than 24 hours""

What is the average cost of life insurance?

I know individual circumstances apply, but there must be an average monthly cost somewhere. 33 years old, Looking for term life insurance, 500K I was just given a monthly quote for $28 per month""

Can i switch my health insurance policy -?

hello, i work for a small consulting firm , < 10 employees..on their w2. they provide me a group health insurance for my family (me ,wife and < 1yr old kid) and i pay around $900 every month without vision and dental coverage..all my contribution..and it is with united health care group now - with this new obamacare what options do i have 1. if i switch , will i get a cheaper coverage ? 2. what is that policy exchange ..i hear this a lot these days 3. if i had to switch my policy.who should i approach.. what would you advise for me..pleae advise me on getting a cheaper coverage""

Free Health Insurance?

no it didn't help. it has nothing to do with health insurance

Fuel economy and average insurance prices of mitsubishi 3000gt?

I'm thinking of getting a 1991 Mitsubishi 3000gt. I would prefer the VR4 (DUH!), but if I can't find one(Right now I can find 3, so I'm not too concerned), I'll just get the SL. I don't want the base model. So what is the average fuel economy of this car( vr4 and sl)? And the average insurance prices? Anybody have experience with owning this car? I've heard that it's fairly cheep to insure, because it's considered a coupe by insurance companies, instead of being recognized as the high performance sports car that it is. Is this true? And is it as fun as it looks? ;)""

""First time buyer buys a new car, how much was your interest RATE?""

Maybe I mean insurance instead of interest, I'm not sure, I don't know that much. I've heard that first time buyers, when buying a car, had little to no interest simply because they've never bought before. Is this true? Please give examples.""

How much would it cost to insure my scooter?

I'm looking for a fairly inexpensive way to get around So I found a 49 cc Honda Ruckus moped/scooter that I'm looking to buy and insure (because of mandatory insurance laws in Florida) How much would it cost to insure it if I'm looking for the lowest available plan for be in the confides of Florida law. I keep it inside my house at night. and BOTH if I HAVE HAD a learners permit for a year and DON'T and just got a license I'm 18 and want to see if the savings will be worth waiting a year to drive the thing.

Can a dying person get life insurance?

I found out recently that my terminally ill father-in-law has no life insurance, or only a tiny policy. How can we pay for a funeral?""

When will we be required to have health insurance?

When will government make us buy insurance?

""How can I find affordable health insurance that covers chiropractic adjustments, acupuncture, or both?""

I live in Colorado. I only make slightly above minimum wage. I am not eligible for health care benefits through work. I have a chronic issue and am in pain if I do not go. I spend $250 on chiropractic and $250 on acupuncture for a grand total of $500 a month. Is there a health insurance plan that could cover either one or both kinds of treatments for less than $500 a month? If not, I will just continue to pay out of pocket although it is very expensive.""

Good health insurance for a small family?

My husband and i are looking to health insurance for our family and i was wondering if any one knew of a good company (in Florida) that was affordable. He is 21, I'm 17 and our daughter is 10 months. We are also expecting another one in November and need prenatal care as soon as possible. Thanks.""

Is it illigal to drive without having the proof of insurance IN your car.?

I have insuarance and i will be getting the papers tuesday. Is it legal in Texas to drive without the pyhsical papers, even though I have the insurance.""

""Moving to Toronto Canada, Need Car Insurance?""

I am moving to toronto, canada and looking to see what company provides the best coverage for the lowest cost as I understand insurance is privatized in Toronto.""

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What lawyer is best to sue an insurance company?

kid was killed in car accident and want to sue the drivers insurance because all 3 boys died. the insurance company is only offering a certain amount but i want more. who should i call

How much would a 2010 mustang cost to insure under your parents insurance and if you are the primary driver?

My dad is going to finance it so we will split up the pay I woyld pay for the car monthly which I can afford and my dad pays insurance monthly

How much would it cost me to get a motorbike include CBT and insurance?

I am 18 years old. I am wondering how much would it cost me to have a yamaha R1+CBT+cheap insurance. please help

What is the cheapest motorcycle insurance?

so im gonna get a motorcycle but i dont know much about all the insurance and stuff..and i just wanted to know which is the cheapest? i go to school with a guy who pays $80 every 3 months, which is only about $26 every month, which seems like a pretty good deal.""

Why would someone buy life insurance from Colonial Penn (whoever that is)?

instead of a reputable well known insurance carrier? Second question: Seniorites, do you remember the boob tube without googling.""

How much do teens pay for car insurance a month?

If i am 17 years old buying a brand new 2009 car sedan about how much will i pay monthly on insurance?

What would Jesus do I f he didn't have car Insurance?

what would Jesus do I f he didn't have car Insurance ? and there was no help from god?

Can I use my no claims discount for scooter insurance?

I am seriously considering dumping the car and using a scooter. I have full no claims discount on my car insurance, would I be able to use this on my scooter insurance? If not, would I loose that no claims I have built up i.e. if i go back to driving a car will I start again with zero no claims discount. This is a UK based question.""

Does it cost anything to add someone to your insurance policy?

Does it cost anything to add someone to your insurance policy?

What auto insurance company has the best rates for teenagers?

i live in ontario ca if that helps and i drive a 95 caprice

What kind of insurance?

What kind of (liability) insurance would i get for a restaurant i'm thinking about opening? I don't know how to find out so if someone could suggest some to me :) Thanks!

How do you compare insurance for Yamaha R6 and Ninja 300?

I just want general idea of motorcycle insurance cost between these two bikes.

If you separate from your hubby and the health insurance is through him would I still be covered??

or do I have to get my own policy?

Has anyone heard of transamerica health insurance and if so is it worth it??

Thinking about getting insurance and would like some input on the Co.

Mortgage Life insurance or regular Life insurance?

My husband and I got information on Mortgage Life Insurance which basically is kind of like Life Insurance I guess and pays off your mortgage if someone dies. For example, our house is $180,000 and I die in 10 years and the mortgage balance is $80,000 then my husband still gets the original $180,000. He can use this to pay off the mortgage plus have money left over and use for whatever. This sounds like a great deal to get but I want to get other people's opinions who know information on this. It is called Forester Mortgage life insurance. Also, what is the difference between this and regular life insurance? Is regular life insurance better? Thanks!""

What car and insurance?

hi can anyone help my daughter wants a car she likes the fiat punto td sx i think it is and the vauxhall corsa merit and the citroen saxo and the ford ka and fiesta what is the best car for a first time car and what has the most cheap insurance as it would be a provisional licsence ? and what website has the most cheap insurance? if anybody has any idears for any other cars like these please help also is auto trader any good? thanks any Question plz ask

I need liability insurance?

I'm 20 years old almost 21 and I've had a permit for a year next month on the 14th. I want to get a driver's license asap. I know I need liability insurance in order to get it but how do I do that if I can't get insurance without a license? Everytime I call the dmv they say I have to go in person to have my question answered only problem with that is I live 20 miles from the nearest one and no way to get there in the day time. Someone please help!

Health Insurance question?

I live in California and I will be 20 years old when I have my baby. I am currently still on my parents health insurance plan and all of my prenatal visits are covered and I believe my hospital stay is also. My boyfriend and I are not married yet and we live together I am not currently working. And I am aware I need to get insurance for my baby from her being born on but does anyone have any suggestions of what company to use? Could I still be approved fr a low income plan?

How much is insurance for young drivers?

Young drivers 18 & over

Can I buy car insurance if the photo on my driving license needs renewing?

Hi. Ok I appreciate I am technically breaking the law on a number of fronts with this. I have bought a car, It is taxed and tested. It is parked on the road. However I don't have any insurance and the photograph on my license has expired. It is still possible for me to buy insurance (and therefore make the car itself fully legal) before I have received my new license? Reading the DVLA websites implies I can. The license is still valid it just needs renewing. I have no convictions, health issues, etc. Just wanted to make sure as I don't want to pick up a load of points just for a misunderstanding. Thanks!!""

Do parents really expect their teens in highschool to pay for their own cars?

Its enraging when I hear my parents/parents in general tell their kids, who have their licenses to pay for a car yourself . Not even a split? A loan? These kids are still in highschool! Even after highschool in college, I just don't see how one can pay for even a cheap used car themselves unless they dedicate their life and save every penny for the damn car. People that age usually earn close to minimum wage, and if they spend all their time working instead of studying, that's all their ever going to make. Ex) my friend earns 9.25 hourly at a grocery store (he's worked there for a while so its not exact minimum wage), and works 40 hours a week. He is ALWAYS at work. At the end of the week, his checks are worth about 338 after taxes. A crappy used car is probably about 5000? I'm not fully sure. Someone that age would have to work 40 hours a week for quite a long time. Since they're teenagers, that would pretty much leave them no time for studying/doing homework and a social life in general. Don't parents want their children to perform well academically as well? Aside from financial issues of their own, why wouldn't a parent with a decent amount of money atleast agree to help their responsible teenager pay for a used or inexpensive car? I'm not suggesting brand new BMWs or mercades, but why not like an 06/07 used toyota or honda in good condition? Why not agree to help pay for.half or a smaller fraction of it? And don't they get sick of their kids always using their cars? What do you think?""

How would you fix health care in the US?

I feel good and bad about this law. I'm conservative. I don't entirely agree with the law. But it's good that people are able to get on an affordable insurance plan if they have a pre-existing condition rather than being left out to die. But what about the people who are getting kicked off insurance plans and now have to pay even higher rates than they already were? I get a subsidy for my plan. I don't feel like I deserve it. I saw a lady on the news who had cancer and couldn't get insurance. I feel like she is the one who deserves a subsidy so she can get a plan. How do you feel about this law? And what happens if a Republican gets into office or they control the legislative branch in 2014 and repeal the law? Then what?

How much is car insurance for an inexperienced first year driver 18 years old in North Carolina?

Like can I get estimates from each company. I've never had a license and my family refuses to pay for my car insurance...so I have to pay it...

How come different auto insurance agencies charge different prices for the same insurance company?is it a scam?

yes i went to three different insurance agencys to see what quotes theyll give me. one say said ill pay 50 a month and 140 down payment for access auto insurance . the other agency said ill pay 60 a month and 90 down payment for the same company. and the third agency said i would probably not qualify for access auto insuranc. im 20 year old male riverside ca 94 accord. why would three different agencys quote diferently for the same auto company ? whyyy is it a scam

Can an auto insurance company suspend my license?

I was hit by a woman in a parking lot. In Texas where I live, certain parking lots are no fault zones if they are private property. I was in one of these no fault zones. I was uninsured at the time. She had Uninsured Motorist Protection as part of her insurance policy. I suffered no damages to my vehicle or person. She suffered $1500 worth of vehicular damage. Her insurance company paid for her damages. I was backing out of a parking space and she came flying around the corner and messed up the entire passenger door of her car on my rear bumper. Like I said I received no damage to my vehicle since I was the one barely moving. She called the police immediately after this minor accident took place. I was not cited on the ticket I received for any accident, only for no insurance. The officer informed me verbally that the accident was my fault only because she had the right of way but that there was nothing they could do about it because of the no fault zone policy. Anyway, now her insurance company is coming after me to collect payment of the $1500 they paid for her damages. I have not agreed to pay this amount because it was a no fault zone and I don't feel I should pay for it. She should not have been going that fast in a busy parking lot with a car full of kids. Although the unofficial technicality states that I was at fault, legally no one was at fault. Her insurance company is also threatening to have my license suspended if I do not pay the amount specified. I did not think that they, as a private company, had the power to have that happen. I've never been in this situation before and need an answer as to whether or not the insurance company can do that or if its just some kind of scare tactic to jolt me into paying but really has no merit behind it. Someone please help!""

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[candithedinosaur-blog]

sorry for the lack of art...

im just not feeling very confident lately. i had like five requests from this person who i wont mention and im too scared to tell them how i feel. keep reading if you wanna know what stupid stuff's been going on in my head for the past week. BUT IF YOURE GONNA KEEP READING READ THE WHOLE THING BEFORE YOU KILL SOMEONE so as some of you know, i recently did a live stream drawing the person (lets just call them jam) jams "gemsona." but the problem is, this wasn't their gemsona exactly. he literally just searched up fire opal in google and saw that he liked the design and just declared it his own gemsona. now, some people dont know that reposting art without the artist's permission is illegal, but i dont know the situation between google images and plagiarism so, im not sure if he was allowed to consider it his own. and if you watched my live stream, you could SEE him put into chat "you can make your own design." that just made me feel... furious. and a gemsona isnt a gemsona if its just something you saw on the internet and called it your own and THEN decided to make it a fan fusion. i cant remember if i actually sighed out loud, but if i did, it meant "ok you need to get the fuck out and get your own gemsona and guess what im not drawing that shit." but i try to keep my channel at least pg 13, and im a weak crybaby that is too scared to tell him how i feel. im too scared to tell anyone anything to their face or on the internet how i feel if it might make them have a bad opinion of me, and of course, i didnt want to cause arguments in the roleplay me and some other friends from the internet were in. and thats not all, jam has broken the same rule at least five times. rule number 2. no spamming. and before, there was also conflict with jam and some other guy who ill call draco. oh yea, forgot to mention that im the leader of this roleplay group. i literally had to kick out draco from the group and i made a biiiig mistake when i did that. draco came back and apologized. but that big mistake was, i shouldve kicked the both of them out. i feel bad for making draco feel like he was being personally attacked. so now that all of the group chat stuff is out of the way, its on to the main cause of the lack of confidence and art. so, like i said, jam has requested about five drawing from me, all at different times. he requested a point of the plagiarized fire opal design number one. he chose two pictures and he gave me the first one. so i made a point out of that and he used it for his pfp and gave me credit, yay, points dont take that long to do so it was cool. but there was more details to it. so, he first asked for a drawing of it and i said id make a point because it takes less time and im getting ready to pretend to go to sleep in a few hours. so i decided that i was done drawing on my pc for the night so i sketched a little fire opal point. so i send him a picture with the terrible colored pencil coloring and i said "well im done drawing on my computer for tonight but i can draw it tomorrow if you want" and jam said that he wanted the digital version, which i can see why. so in the morning, here is the average schedule for me : 11:00-12:00 - mom wakes me up 12:05 - we make lunch together and watch who wants to be a millionaire which plays for 30 minutes including commercials and it starts at 12:30, sometimes my dad comes home from work to get lunch, sometimes he doesnt. 1:05 - the chew starts and i either go take a shower and sit in my closet watching jse's the escapist series for about 30 minutes, or i do that without the shower part. 2:00 - im usually completely ready for the day and i have requests read (if any) and i think about what im going to draw since my mom doesnt want me staying up until 3am, she makes me put my phone and pc in her room during weekdays (sometimes she forgets and those days i take advantage) so i usually take my pc at around 2:15 pm sometimes we go shopping, sometimes we dont so when i go to sit in my closet watching yt, jam just messages me saying "hi" me thinking i was smart, i keep watching yt. jam says "can you see this?" and i keep the private dms unmuted incase if theres a problem in chat (the chats muted) for my rp acc they could just ask me personally. i go on instagram, and say "yea" and they legit say "can you make my point now?" i said "oh were going shopping i might be able to do it now bt i might have to do it later." we actually were going shopping and out of sheer panic, i finished changing and did the point. i did that, and then a few days later, he asks for the drawing so i did that on stream blah blah blah. but then he asks me for another point. my maximum for gemsonas are 1 rn. bt this wasnt a gemsona. it was jasper, but with splatoon hair. i dont play splatoon, but jam does. so i make the point AND HE DOESNT EVEN USE IT FOR ANYTHING. LIKE WTF. I COULDVE USED THAT HALF HOUR TO WATCH YOUTUBE. so, yea. then, the last thing. this was the last request and i already had like five at that point (hehe cuz they were points) so i decided to do it last because ya know, it was a full on picture, nothing much. so i dont start on it and he says "did you start on it yet" i said "no not yet im taking a break for tonight" and he knows i had a lot of requests that day. the next day, i sneak into my moms room and i see the notification that says "you dont have to do the drawing, if you dont want to" and i said "ok" just to be nice. and he said "but you can if you want" and i didnt reply. i almost said "oh well i ddint want to do it anyways" but i didnt. because im nice. he literally requested a drawing of himself wih splatoon hair. in the splatoon art style. like tf bro. thats the first time anyone asked for a drawing of them tho so i think im growing as an artist. BUT WAIT I FORGOT THERE WAS ONE MORE i cant remember what the drawing was, but i remember i was in a restaurant about to leav when hes like "so can you make it now" and i was like "no im in a restaurant but ill be home in like 20 minutes" and he said "okay well can you do it as soon as you get home?" and then he said "wait no im sorry i shouldnt have said that. i should have said enjoy your meal and take your time" so i cant remember what i said in return but i think i jsut replied with "okay" and when we got in he car i noticed that google maps said that it takes 30 minutes to get home and i told him and hes like oh geez and stuff. so i did the drawing for him and yea. thats basically it. oh yea, i didnt mention why i havent drawn lately. i havent been feeling good (no im not sick) and i have just been feeling... used for the past week. bt dont freak out or anything, im fine... well maybe not and the reason why i didnt want to put this on youtube is because he subbed to me and i dont want him to see this. well, not like anyones going to read this, in fact some people might unfollow me for this, so yea. you might not see art until next week

[winds--of--change]

No.491

It's WED 19/04/2017 at 1057 PM

Me: hey, do you know why some people are even afraid of getting happiness?

Markus: Nope, why?

Me: people like Sunny, for example, who I am sure she could be happy as fuck, but as she said, she doesn't want to find a nice guy because she would feel boring and she would soon fuck it up but deep down i'm sure she wants a nice guy, like her

Markus: I don't remember her saying that, but sounds like she's afraid that she can't find one and says that as reassurance for herself

Me: sorry for randomness, i'm drinking alone and bit drunk lol thats why i can text so randomly to people like this

usually i just write it on my blog and feel better after that

i guess no one ever, including me wants to be alone

Markus: No worries

Me: i dont think i want to be alone like i thought i can

weird i thought i can always be by myself before man i want to cry i thought i just want to be happy to

Markus: Yeah, I know what you mean, I don't want to be alone, but I won't be with someone just because I don't want to be alone

Me: but somehow i just chose things that arent happy for me

exactly! thats why im always alone because id rather be alone than being with someone i cant even stand just because i dont want to be alone but somehow sometimes thats still so hard lol

maybe sometimes we actually never know what we want

but only know what we dont want. i dont know anymore

i just want to cry. and i did lol im crying, i dont even know why i cry

Markus: Yeah probably, the search for happiness is hard, but if it just came as soon as we wanted it, would you really be happy, or just content

Me: no actually i know i am prob a bit like sunny, i dont want to be happy because im afraid i would fuck it up so i'd rather choose something unhappy and so at least in the end, there wouldbe no devastating disapointment if nothing good comes out of it because after all i'm not afraid to lose it

Markus: I don't know, I don't think that anyone does that on purpose

Me: I know. i dont do that on purpose. somehow it just happens. i dont know what i saying or thinking anymore lol

Markus: I think it's a subliminal thing we do to not have to experience loss, because you can't lose what you never had, but you still want something so you are sad about that instead

Better to just search from the beginning then and face the pain when it arrives

Me: why am i crying? isnt it because it's really unhappy, then why cant i stop the unhappy thing? why i still do it. maybe it also all comes down to the fact that sometimes somehow we do not love ourselves enough to think we deserve happiness.

i dont know what i did wrong anymore. i just want to be with him, then after being with him, i went home, being alone like this, and cry. then what do i really want, a happiness with him, but im not even thinking about the possibility of this

and i know i should stop, but i just continue on, i want to touch him, but after doing so, i actually felt empty more

Markus: Then maybe you are sad because you know you will never be and are trying to make sense out of it while sometimes there is no sense

Me: i dont think i love him that much, but at the same time, i dont know what this is, maybe its just because he's my first and i felt attracted to him physically, even though physcally i don't think we match

Markus: It's hard to face life sometimes, especially when you like someone, but sometimes you just have to say fuck it, it's life

Me: maybe im just alone for so long i need something to spice it up i know i just need to fuck it and go with the flow

Markus: Yeah I know what you mean, it's hard being alone 😞

Me: but i dont know how i can just forget things, i am alone all the time but now somehow i cant be alone that easy any longer, and that scares me, because how can i face things ahead if i cant be alone that easy anymore, i used to be so numb, as im alone all the time, so it doesnt feel anything, but then i got to have chance to be with someone with friends i really love, and after that suddenly comparing to loneliness before, its a complete difference and i prefer being with someone like those people i was lucky to meet and be with, but in life its not easy to keep meeting those kind of people

and besides, i know that even though i can find a group of people who can accomodate me, i will somehow fuck it up, maybe im not just that good at socializing, or knowing how to be with someone, the fact that i drank alone, crying and ranting all bullshit like this lol after meeting him, is obviously to show that i shoulnd't be with him, but at the same time i chose to be with him because i dont believe in love i dont believe in romance i dont believe in forever happiness either, i dont believe in anything but myself, thats why i chose this experience so that i can get out of the traditional girl self who dreams of a happy ending, or a true love and blah blah blah shits, sorry why the hell did i msg you all this, lol i just want to live so that i could die, life is so long, too long we just have to keep thinking, no man, i should fucking get a job lol im kinda at liminal stage in-between thing, after graduation, before job thing, middle of nowhere, not quite here, not even there, and afraid to moving there because i dont know what is good for me 😭 man fuck me lol i should just........ sorry i dont even know why i text all this, actually the only one i can think of to talk to is sunny then im afraid i give her a burden again, so i ended up finding someone else which is you to rant on. i dont like myself who cant deal with my own shits alone, i forget how to deal with shits alone all by myself and thats so annoying lol its so annoying to be dependable on people, thanks for taking this lol good night ❤

Markus: It's OK, I was just making my dinner, yeah I understand what you mean, I also have a lot of problem finding people I can trust, especially people I can open up to, but I think that it's important not to give up, otherwise you don't know what you are missing!

And the job thing isn't easy either, I was lucky, I just happened to choose the education that would benefit me the most, but I have no idea what I want to do with my life, I think it all comes down to you live you learn

Me: you are lucky yoooooo!!!! and im sure you deserve being lucky because you will make the best of it, many take things for granted and dont do best they could but you will. i will be fine. thank you Markus 🙂 i will be fine. everything works out in the end. always. and you are a good cook! i wanna eat your cake again XD thanks to you i will defo come visit sweden one day! not like i think of anything to visit there lol except for...erm...abba museum or something? lol but yeah now i have you there i believe i could explore sweden as local

haha

Markus: Haha thank you I think you will be fine too 🙂 there are many things to do! If it's the summer you can do all kinds of things!

Me: yea i'm going home for a while anyway. i will bring back some vietnamese coffee for you!!! you must have some, i insist lol

Markus: Sounds great! I love coffee 🙂 At least good coffee 😛

Me: vietnamese coffeee is the bessttttt, approved by french ie victor and canadian ie sunny and. me lol and ..all over the world lol

Markus: Haha looking forward to it 🙂

Me: and, you hav to 'like' my new profile pic XP lmao

Markus: Lol, how drunk are you?

Me: i dont know lol i knocked the whole bottle so far lol

but i think i'm still at happy drunk, ok no i'm crying while laughing lol but well it's still good drunk lmao

Markus: Haha lol, just be careful so you don't fall over and hurt yourself 😛

Me: nah im just at home drinking and writing ill be fine lol

but seriously you MUST like my new profile picccc!!!!

please, boost my ego and let my vanity go viral for a little bit haha i'm counting on your like lmao 😜

Markus: OK, I'm going to sleep, nighty night 🙂

Me: lmao hai thanks for listening good night

Markus: No worries