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Chapter 139

Trey

CiCi comes up to me showing me some papers. I listen as she explains what they are. I nod suddenly remembering that I told her to get me a copy of them. I start to say something but Lane starts crying. He is standing away from me just crying. I look back at CiCi. He usually will stop crying on his own if there's nothing wrong. This time he starts crying louder.

"Lane, what's wrong?" I ask. He cries louder. "Come here."

"No." he snaps. "Me lone."

I look at him. I whisper to CiCi. "What did he say?"

"Leave him alone." she smiles.

"What you say about that last page?"

"That..."

Lane screams louder. I sigh. Okay. I have to stop completely now. He isn't going to stop screaming and acting like a fool. I walk over to him. He yells something and cry harder. This little guy is only 2. I forget about shit like that. He might be sleepy or hungry. Maybe I've ignored him too long.

"Lane?" I say kneeling down.

"I want Mommy." he cries.

I signal Buggiz. "Okay, go with Buggiz. He will take you to Mommy."

Lane looks at Buggiz then falls out. "I not go Mommy."

"Well then." I stand him up. "You hungry? I got chicken nuggets."

"No."

"He already ate those." Buggiz says. "He crying because of his tablet dying."

I look at Buggiz. "You couldn't tell me that a few minutes ago?"

Buggiz shrugs. "You didn't ask me."

"CiCi." I say taking Lane's tablet out his backpack.

"Here you go." she says handing me a battery pack.

"Everybody has the fucking solution." I say snatching it.

Lane watches me plug it up then put it back in his bag. He doesn't like the idea of it going back into the bag. He starts crying again. I hand it to him instead.

"Okay, now hush." I say standing up and going to CiCi. "Alright. The last page."

"He is unplugging it." CiCi says.

I glance at him. "Let him. That's just..."

"No!" Lane yells then starts crying.

"Bring it here." I say firmly.

He is being annoying. I take it from him and plug it back up. I don't give it back to him. That causes a problem as well. I look at CiCi.

"It is now your job to make sure this thing stays at least 50%. We not going through this everyday. I can't remember to charge my phone yet keep up with this."

"Okay." she nods.

I shake my head. "Don't I have a nanny in Europe?"

She nods. "Judi."

"Who is Judi?"

"Um... I don't know. You gave me her number as a nanny just in case you need her. Maybe you said something about Jamie Foxx."

I nod my head. "Okay. Lane!"

"Shut up."

"What?" I say looking at him. I snap my finger. "Get over here."

He gets teary eyed for the first time. He cries only after he starts walking over to me. All those other times those eyes were dry. Cute ass little kids. I wanted to slap the shit out of him for telling me to shut up. I just look at him. He seemed torn about it already.

"Don't you tell me to shut up."

"I sorry." he says hugging my leg then burying his head.

I look at CiCi. "The last page."

"You need to sign it." she says handing me a pen.

"Did you send that email about my budget for the summer?"

"Yes. Did you want me to call the nanny?"

I look at Lane. "I don't think we need to bother someone about charging a tablet."

She laughs. "I'll keep it charged. I never thought about checking it at night."

"Okay." I nod. "What do we have to do now?"

"Get to the arena." Buggiz says looking at his watch.

I grab Lane's hand. "You ready?"

"My phone." he whines.

"It's charging." I say picking him up. "Here play with CiCi's."

She reluctantly hands her phone over. Lane is disgusted by the phone. He stares at the back of it not taking it from her. She withdraws it from him.

"You don't want my phone, Lane?" she giggles.

"No."

She pokes him. "Why?"

"That girl phone." he says hitting at her. "No girl phone."

"Well fine, Lane." she smiles. "Want to come to me so your daddy can sign this?"

Lane hugs me. "No, TiTi."

"Okay."

"I can sign with one hand." I say gesturing to her.

"We need to get going." Buggiz says.

I sign the papers then follow Buggiz out of the door. I had another bodyguard but I'm not sure where he is. Lane buries his face into my neck as he always does when we walk outside. Sometimes there be a crowd and sometimes there isn't. He does it regardless. He doesn't like that they know his name. It confuses him to hear his name and not see a familiar face. Cammie is the reason for this. She said she never makes him speak and she tells him to ignore people who calls his name.

"Trey!" someone yells.

"My hat, Daddy." Lane whines.

Buggiz hands it to me as I walk toward him. The other bodyguard is standing by the car keeping the two screaming women away. Lane climbs happily into his carseat once e get into the car.

"My tab done?" he asks holding out his little hand.

"If that thing wasn't full of educational stuff I would be worried."

CiCi nods. "He was watching a video about elephants and their migration."

"At 2." I say giving him his tablet.

"Thank you." he says tucking it next to him in the seat. "Ice cream?"

"Yeah. Now it's time for ice cream."

He claps his hands together. "Berry berry."

"Strawberry?"

"Berry berry." he nods.

I call Cammie but get no answer. I miss her. I wish there were about 20 extra hours so I could fly home and see her for just a few minutes. Lane sings a unrecognizable song as we drive through the town. My phone rings a little while later. It's not Cammie so I don't answer it. I post the video on snapchat that I recorded earlier for her. I also send her a picture of Lane's new suit. We got them tailored yesterday and tried them on today. They have some more work to do on Lane's. He stayed still today but not yesterday.

Cammie

"How was your morning?" I ask April.

"Good." she smiles. "You should have came with me."

I shake my head. "They are letting me hold the baby in a few minutes. Tomorrow I'm going to breastfeed."

She had a huge smile on her face. "God said today would being good news."

"Amen." I smile.

"Did you talk to Trey?"

I rub Caden's stomach. "Yes. A few times... Oh what do you think about Caden Elijah?"

"I could careless what you name my new baby."

"Well." I smile.

"Baby, want you go home tonight. I'll stay at ghe hospital if you like."

I roll my eyes. "No."

She rubs my back. "Okay, I got you some more clothes. I don't want you to stress yourself out being in this room this much."

"I understand Ma but I can't leave him."

"Okay." she says patting my back. "Is this chocolate?"

I smile. "Yes, Trey sent it this morning along with a cutout of him and Lane. They seem to be having fun with each other. I so badly want to hear that he is crying for me. Or that he is on his way back home. It just tears my heart apart with him being in Europe."

"Believe me I know."

"What did you buy me?"

She takes the bag out. "A few comfortable pair of pajamas pants and shirts. I figured you don't need much more. Do you want to have dinner with me? We can go downstairs."

I sigh. "We can go to a restaurant. That's fine. I'm wearing pajamas though."

"That's fine with me."

"Where's Rollie?"

"Went in through the other side."

The doctor comes into the room. "You ready? That's mighty stupid of me to ask."

"Yeah, it is." I laugh.

"Okay." he says just reaching in the bassinet. It seems like he took no caution at all. "Remember the IV is in his foot."

I wanted to say duh. I let the doctor put him in my arms. I cuddle him close to me. He opens his eyes looking at me for a really long time.

"Hey, Caden." I say touching his lips.

"It seems like he has been waiting to look at your face. He won't turn away." April says smiling. "Can I take a picture?"

I smile at him as he stares at me. "I don't even care right now."

"How about we see how he responds to your skin touching his lips?" Dr. Polk says.

"And if he responds the way we like?"

Dr. Polk makes a face. "I wanted to see how this new formula affects his feeding before we start that. The breastmilk may settle and we not know if the formula causes some complications."

I lift my shirt and hold him really close to my skin. He doesn't do anything but stare at me. I rub his cheek with my finger. He is so small and cute. I want to take him home right now. I kiss him. He turns his head towards my lips. I smile and kiss him again. He turns his head until it touches my skin.

"He may just be stubborn." Dr. Polk says.

"So what does that mean?" April asks.

"We will try to breastfeed in the morning. He looks as if he will suckle. If we can get him breadtfeeding and get him to stop losing weight then we won't need that trach."

April touches his hand. "He will. All he needs is his mama being close to him."

"I hope so." I smile.

"Don't handle him too long." Dr. Polk says walking out.

April follows him out of the door. "How is he looking as far as lung development?"

"He is improving but he is weak from the lose of weight." he says something else but i couldn't hear him.

"We gonna get out of this hospital aren't we? You are so cute."

I pick up my phone that is beeping. I missed Trey's call. I video him back. He answers slow.

"Why didn't you answer?" he asks upset.

"Look." I say showing him the baby in my arms.

He clears his throat. "Titties."

I laugh. "Tremaine."

"You need to learn how to hold a camera. All I saw was titties."

"Can you see him?"

He chuckles. "He is so tiny."

"Yeah. He is acting like he wants to breastfeed."

"Let me see."

He rubs his cheek. He opens his mouth turning his head towards my hand.

"Damn. That makes my night."

"It makes my life brighter. Tomorrow we will breastfeed. I feel good about this. I know in the next 3 days he will gain at least 1 pound."

"Your milk it high quality."

I chuckle and turn the phone so I can see him. "What are you doing?"

"Get ready to get on stage. Send me a picture of you and the baby."

"I'll tell Rollie to send it to Buggiz, okay. I don't need it on no blog."

He smiles really hard. "Damn, I love you. I miss you. Earlier I kept calling everybody Jay. Even if I didn't know there name."

"I love you too. What if we would have never gotten back together?"

"Jay, I became human when you came into my life. I can't say what if because I wouldn't be alive."

I roll my eyes. "Oh please."

He smiles. "There is no what if. I wouldn't have stopped until I got you in my life. I was desperate for a bit of living. I'm serious as I can be. It was your name that made me realize that I needed you. The thought of you. I could live without ever touching you."

"No you can't." I smile. "We didn't make this baby with our minds."

"We sure as hell didn't." he licks his lips. "Jay?"

I laugh. "My bad. Go back to telling me how much you need me in your life."

"No. I want to hear the thoughts in your head after looking at my son for a fucking year, yo. I look at him and think of you."

I chuckle. "It was hard not to hate you because he was so amazing. You know I wanted to hate you."

"But you didn't."

"Tremaine, you didn't think of me for a year." I snap.

He smirks. "I was waiting for you to come to me and tell me you wanted more from me. I have many ways of distracting myself from failed relationship problems."

"I deeply wanted you to come see your so so we could stare the experience of the little guy."

"You know a year ago Tyga told me that even though you there you still gonna miss shit. And look at this. I'm going to miss the first month of his life."

"We both are actually missing it. This not the same as having him home."

Trey kisses the phone. "It's the next best thing."

"I miss your stank butt." I smile.

"Shut up and show me the baby."

I turn the camera. "I need to lay him down. The doctor said not to hold him too much."

"Tomorrow you will have an excuse to hold him a lot."

"I'm excited."

"I know."

April comes over to me. "Let me lay him down."

I move the phone. "Sure go ahead."

"Oh." she says pausing. "Hello, Little son."

"No." Trey snaps. "Don't even try it April."

"Hush." she says gently laying him down. "I'm seconds away from tears."

I smile at her. "That was therapy."

"Yeah." Trey nods. "Let me go. I'll call you back."

"Okay, Maine. Love you."

"I love you more." He says kissing at the phone then hanging up.

"I'm so emotion." April says fanning herself. "I'll be next door."

I laugh. "Okay."

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