#bsd chapter 112

[etrevil]

They're trying to ignore the fact Dazai just spouted two confessions in under thirty minutes, the embarrassment is REAL

[sorcerersandskillusers]

*SPOILER WARNING CHAPTER 112*

Something is really off about Fyodor's death in the manga

Having just read the latest chapter, I noticed something really weird with Fyodor death scene. It all comes down to Dazai's reaction.

Before Fyodor "death" we see Dazai being all smug and gloating about what Fyodor missed, very typical of his character in general.

But then his mood suddenly shifts completely

He suddenly becomes very sombre, no triumph or gloating, this could be him regretting having to kill Fyodor, but the next few panels make me think there's more too it then that.

Look at Dazai's expression here, the way he seems so suspicious of the hand

I don't think we've ever seen Dazai's eyes like this, they are blank white, it's almost like his mafia eyes but colour inverted. This is not the face of someone who just beat their greatest enemy, or someone mourning their loss, It looks like Dazai is unsatisfied, I can't quite describe it, but there is something more in those eyes.

After Fyodors death Dazai is uncharacteristically quiet and Chuuya even points it out, again, nothing about this says "we won!" it feels like we still lost somehow.

So why would Dazai not want Fyodor dead? While it could be because he was sad to lose the only person who thought like him, while that's possible, I want to explore another idea.

Death did not stop Fyodor.

Dazai could have killed Fyodor when he had him cornered in the cafe if he wanted to, or have someone else kill him so he doesn't break his promise to Oda.

But he didn't, he let Ango arrest him instead, even though Dazai knew what a threat he was, why?

It all comes down to this.

The only way Dazai can counter Dostoyevsky is when he's right there in front of him. So now he's dead, Dazai can't read his actions any more. It's like he's fighting a ghost, all the plans Fyodor will have laid in case he died will be 10x harder to uncover and stop since it's much harder to fight an invisible enemy.

Remember that Dazai did not order the piolet to kill Fyodor, Bram did, and Dazai admitted to not having any say in that deal

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I don't have any final point here, I just wanted to vent these thoughts. Does Fyodor quoting jesus on the cross mean he's going to come back in three days? What's going on with Sigma? I have way more questions than answers and it's driving me nuts

[iwritenarrativesandstuff]

Fukuchi and Fukuzawa’s conflict started when Fukuchi asked Fukuzawa to take on a role that he had no desire to take on and did not believe in, and ended with Fukuchi forcing Fukuzawa to take on a role that he had no desire to take on and did not believe in

[lily-in-japanese]

Last chapter destroyed me, so there's a manga panel of the lastest chapter colored by me yippie (im crying)

If you wanna use this picture for something credit me pls

[jounosparticles]

one thing i really like about fukuzawa and fukuchi is how they still look at each other and talk to each other with such fondness despite everything that’s happened.

there’s very little anger however a ton of sadness between their interactions as the DoA plot rolls out.

when fukuchi was seen as nothing but evil yet fukuzawa still couldn’t kill him. logically he needed to but his own heart couldn’t take the pain of losing someone he cares for so heavily. i find it displays fukuzawa’s humanity well.

the man who always tries to do what’s right even if it’s the hardest decision suddenly can’t because he’s so conflicted. he can’t keep confronting his best friend.

he can’t kill this. they were both so happy and full of life not that long ago.

they even take the time to reminisce on those memories. it’s like the subject is being changed to avoid the inevitable.

look at the way they sit as they talk. fukuzawa having very closed posture since he does not want to have this conversation. fukuchi having open posture because he knows he’s doing what is best.

it really shows how a long bond can really change your perspective on a person.

[agirlfromanotherworld]

Can we take a moment for this scene in the anime?

And then there is the manga...

I'm telling you... I'm sobbing. LOOK AT HIM. He's devastated.

[edogawautism]

chuuyas so done with fyodor let him rest

[berrygoji]

have this nikolai panel

[nihilo-sensei]

Small Detail in BSD Chapter 112 [Spoilers]

I really liked Dazai choosing to remain respectfully silent when seeing Nikolai grieving Fyodor's death and Chuuya being mildly surprised by it. Just a quick reminder that Dazai is growing as a person.

[diary-ofamadwoman]

chapter 112

hi I'm back with some fyolai thoughts (Sept 20th feels like yesterday and I was definitely not ready to see the manga version...)

first of all, where's Nikolai's hand? there are two panels of him with The Overcoat hiding his entire arm, which cannot be a coincidence. Also, as we know, he's strong enough to support his own body weight with just one arm, and Fyodor looks a lot lighter than him

"Is that so?"

i have a feeling this is not a regular question. Nikolai is known to use quizzes, rhetorical questions, or in short - there's always hidden meaning. when I first read it, I imagined Gogol saying it in a sarcastic tone, albeit a bit more dejected than usual

when I watched ep 11, it seemed to me that the reasons for Gogol's sadness could be his freedom (to kill Fyodor himself; to use him to achieve his freedom) having been taken away from him, or losing his closest person without being able to do anything, and so on

but seeing the same events unfold in the manga, I cannot help but think that he's downcast because of how unpredictable the vampire's (as well as Dazai and Chuuya's) action were and how fast everything happened, Nikolai had just been talking to Fyodor and the next moment the latter's gone...

or not? given the two panels of Nikolai's hidden arm, perhaps he was able to save his friend this time (in case the theory that the different BSD media are alternate universes turns out to be true). Anyway, Nikolai saving Fyodor here seems more plausible in the manga, as well as Nikolai's hesitation more understandable (if Fyodor's nearby, would Nikolai want to admit out loud he doesn't actually want Fyodor dead?)

it might be just the translation but this was more heartbreaking than I remember it:

there's difference between "My life since I met him felt nothing like it did prior" and "The moment I met him I knew that my life had become something entirely different"

I know that I just talked about Nikolai admitting his feelings (if Fyodor can hear him) but it makes sense here. His hesitation is admitting his current emotions, something that affects the present/future, while the second situation is related to the past - something that Fyodor certainly already knows

perhaps this depends on the translation too but from what I've seen the ending of Nikolai's speech is also slightly different

"Fyodor was right. I fought so I can lose sight of myself. Now I..."

"It's just as he said. I had begun fighting in order to lose myself. And now... look what's happened... Now all I want is just..."

or in other words, Nikolai didn't lose himself, he lost Fyodor

[etrevil]

WE GET IT, YOU'RE BOTH GAY

[sorcerersandskillusers]

Chapter 112 panels to help the pain

Chuuya is finally taller then Dazai

"Give me my boyfriend"

[chrxnicdaydream]

to lose the one person who knew you best…

“Looking back, there were tender moments we shared as well.”

“And now… look what’s happened…”

[iwritenarrativesandstuff]

so. so fukuchi implicitly believes fukuzawa incorruptible or at the very least the one he trusts in most, by agreeing that dictatorships are poisonous and yet still entrusting him with one order. but the intro to fukuzawa’s backstory we get is that he ultimately was changed by the nature of the assassinations he undertook; that he quit because he was starting to enjoy the killing. the ability to remain impartial and resist corruption of being is tied to the ability to step back from power. to step down when you’re ahead. but fukuzawa can no longer do that can he.

[cornflowersandspoons]

Chuuya really has the same energy as my teenage brother at family events

[jounosparticles]

little fukuzawa and fukuchi