#bsd understanding each other

[caldera1000-7]

Not a big post this time maybe a draft-post and pic/info dump before a continuation/long talk about it. But anyways:

We all should know Atsushi's motivations which stem from his past/hallucinations of the people who have impacted his life and haunt him somewhat. As his character got over it it changed from the Orphanage Headmaster to sometimes Akutagawa to Dazai. But most importantly I was focused on this hallucination (the guy in his mind which is technically created by himself so its kind of his own thoughts.)

"It all comes down to imagination. Every bit of it." "Your hypocritical goodwill, your childish imagination... You cannot understand anyone else. And this, you doom them."

And it was quite true, he has always been thinking of himself or "saving others" in order to keep his existence having meaning or relevance. His "saving others" is giving him not just a purpose or meaning but its also a mindset of "if I don't save them, then am I really allowed to live?" sounds...familiar. "If I don't defeat you, if I don't become stronger...I'll just go back to being something Dazai-san discarded." Yep. The 2 sides of the same coin. The Yin-Yang duo my favorite characters. Ahem, moving on. This was true because Atsushi as we have seen has been shown to be empathetic at times but mainly his drive when saving those people were selfish or stems from a place of if he doesn't then he is worthless. Now I know we all probably know this and how its similar to Ryuu's killing etc. etc. But Atsushi projecting his past self onto those he saves, also kind of shows how little he would come to understand them, and mainly just understanding they are in need of help like he was. The scene with Lucy when he threatened to let her and everyone else stay trapped in her room forever. The scene with Kyouka where he jumped out with her and the bomb. This selflessness has always been from a place of selfishness or at least thats what it seems like. His understanding of others...Well he seems to make quite a few assumptions mainly to Akutagawa, but we see how their views and respects for eachother change with time and learning.

The funniest part which I will still get to when I feel like writing a lot more...is the rashomon effect being used on Akutagawa as a character... Everyone seems to just have this "views" of him, thinking he has enough, that he is enough, that he IS strong, that he HAS status... when he thinks he doesnt have enough because of Dazai not acknowledging it and ever since Dazai said that Atsushi is better. People always seem to have this ideas about Akutagawa, these assumptions too, even with that scene with Margaret but I'll get there another day. Right now, Atsushi falls into those views of Akutagawa, even saying that he IS better than Akutagawa, assuming that he fights just to make others fear him. Its all "meaningless" (says the boy who fights an endless battle of self worth and saving others which essentially will end up the same as a life of killing others because both will make you fight endlessly to feel worthy of living - oh! Does that sound familiar? Remember Odasaku's words to Dazai... If they're both the same, at least saving people would make it a bit more beautiful isn't it?) Atsushi here is also deciding from himself that this may be meaningless, just deciding for someone else, truth or not, shows how little he bothers to understand others too. Akutagawa on the other hand could be on the assumptions side too though he is more envious on the fact Atsushi has all he has wanted and still dwells on the past. But after this interactions in the fight with Ivan and many after that... Akutagawa always tried understanding him more, and even during this scene before fighting Fritzgerald Akutagawa said he understood atsushi and it disgusted him. Akutagawa is a character of constant questions. Its always "Why me?" or "Why him?" or "Why do you fight?" always wondering and wanting to understand before he can decide. This was just a funny detail that contrasts their characters too in which Atsushi just hops to what he thinks and goes along with it if it saves people or himself. I really like them both. (Not as shipping, but in canon.)

[ivoryratdoggerythethird]

dazai making up a whole language with fyodor that no one else can understand is amazing but imagine him using codes that, very objectively speaking, you could crack, it's just that no normal person would ever make the insane leaps in logic that it requires. except for someone familiar with dazai's weird thinking patterns, that is.

i just love the idea of dazai's unhinged antics being dialed up to an eleven when he was in the port mafia, and oda being the only one who simply wouldn't bat an eye at it but chuuya was the only one who would actually get it.

like imagine ango at the end of the jailbreak, his boss saying he should allow himself to sigh and lean back and maybe indulge himself, pat him on the shoulder, tell him what he pulled off reading heart rates wasn't easy and he should be proud for being able to keep up with such a plan

but ango i-drank-with-teenage-dazai-and-also-had-the-records-for-every-soukoku-mission sakaguchi can only remember the time dazai was like using greek sign language through his breathing patterns to communicate from a submarine from beneath the pacific ocean or something, and chuuya could not fathom how no one else could understand him.

and that was the day mori signed off on skk being exclusive partners because every subordinate in the room was crying tears of blood by the time chuuya finished explaining which blood pressure level was warning them about a bomb, which blinking sequence was him conveying the vault password and which series of inhales was just him calling mori a bitch.

(ango also pointedly did not want to think about how smug dazai had looked after the mission when mori confirmed skk would only be each others' partners for efficiency and to maintain everyone else's sanity

or about how when he called chuuya to tell him about dazai's prison break scheme he could only get like 3 out of 276 steps into the plan before chuuya rolled his eyes, said "got it" then hung up and pulled the whole thing off without a hitch.)

[calmlb]

THEY DID IT!!! THEY SAID THE THING!!

i can’t believe them they’re THE besties ever

[askchuuyanakahara]

KOUYOU!!

What's something you find endearing/cute about Chuuya? ...maybe something he doesn't even realize about himself?

Chuuya: "That is simply not true!"

Kouyou: "Of course~."

@azapofinspiration

Chuuya: "I've only had her for a few days so I haven't told anyone yet."

Chuuya: "I'm sure she'll be excited to meet you!"

Kouyou: "I will certainly try and find time to come visit."

Kouyou: "It certainly would not be wise to even try to dethrone the leader."

Chuuya: "Huh? What is this about?"

Chuuya: "I don't wanna kiss ANYONE!"

Kouyou: "If you wish to stay in the fan club, I recommend you alter your behaviour."

Chuuya: "I have made.. a mistake."

Chuuya: "A terrible, TERRIBLE mistake."

[starlightshadowsworld]

Concept:

Nikolai: Birds born in a cage don’t realise that they’re the prisoners.

Atsushi: Not even when you them let out.

Nikolai: Do tell.

Atsushi: I was raised in a cage and even now I’m out I’m still in one.

Nikolai: Because the cage is right here it’s your own skull.

Atsushi: Exactly you can’t escape yourself.

Nikolai: No, no you can’t. But to live as one’s most authentic self, that I believe is the way to be free.

Atsushi: What if you don’t know who that is?

Nikolai: You keep falling until you find what makes you fly.

Atsushi: What makes you fly?

Nikolai: Now what kind of magician would I be if I told you that?

[ssaraexposs]

Remembering that Sigma really dislikes Nikolai, while Nikolai clearly doesn't. This duo really is something

[mrtagawa]

Dazai tattles to Yosano when an injured ada member is hiding from her, I know he matches her freak. He can't hide it from me.

[oliveden]

came out as gay and then three years later came out as also aro. got the response "so you're not gay anymore?" and like. no i'm still sapphic. i'm both. it's a spectrum. it can happen. do you want me to hold your hand when i tell you i can think that men are hot too or is that too much for you

anyway dazai's definitely aro and bi too that motherfucker does NOT view love in the allo way i do not care what anyone says. look at him.

also ranpo too probably. and fyodor. literally just genius trio are all somewhere on the aro spectrum. probably the ace spectrum too let's be honest

[note-boom]

Maybe his is a controversial take but I firmly believe that Tanizaki could have taken on Odasaku. Why do I say that? Because Odasaku can only see what will visibly happen a few seconds into the future. Meaning that if Tanizaki goes invisible and waits for a long enough time, or if he creates a dozen illusions of danger, he just might be able to throw the future-sight off just a little....

[sigskk]

big fan of 22!skk interpretations where they're not dating/not romantic

yeah tell me about this guy you knew inside and out but you aren't kids anymore and he's not the same guy anymore and you're not the same guy anymore and yeah you know his greatest aspirations and deepest fears and the morals he holds himself to that dictate his every decision, but you don't even know if his coffee order is the same. you're soukoku, you're expected to fall into the same roles as you were (because once you understand someone that deeply, you can't simply stop knowing them), and you can fill those roles. kinda. if you ignore the years of distance wedged between you two.

[jounosparticles]

i really want to see a jouno and dazai friendship form. i mean they’re both ex criminals who joined a law-enforcement groups and found the joy in being a good person over time spent with new coworkers. they are similar and i need to see them talk again.

[pegging-satan]

Ok but Lucy and Akutagawa arguing over who likes Atsushi more when he’s not there <3

[sad-emo-dip-dye]

Me emerging out of the fyozai tag, covered in blood: hey guys what’s up

[hesperidia]

Lucy you are so right. SO right

[starlightshadowsworld]

Akutagawa: No one ever lied straight to your face. And no one ever stabbed you in the back.

Atsushi: You might think I’m happy but I’m not gonna be okay.

Akutagawa: Everybody always gave you what you wanted. You never had to work it was always there.

Atsushi: You don’t know what it’s like.

Akutagawa: What it’s like.

Ataushi: To be hurt.

Akutagawa: To feel lost.

Atsushi: To be left out in the dark.

Akutagawa: To be kicked when your down.

Atsushi: To feel like you’ve been pushed around.

Akutagawa: To be on the edge of breaking down.

Atsushi: And no one’s there to save you.

Akutagawa: No you don’t know what it’s like.

Both: Welcome to my life.

[ssaraexposs]

THE PROMISE THAT WILL CHANGE THE COURSE OF HISTORY