#btw I hate background looks horrible lmao

[eerrratt]

Hi hello

I don't know what I drew but looks cool I guess.

It's inspired in one of my dreams; where sun has this funtime(?) feature.

I know I know, not so original but looks good, and I like it c:

[locktobre]

this is really only funny in context but it turned out cute anyway

[flying-elliska]

Shadow and Bone Season 1 Review

Ok so I got distracted by a need to watch all of Ben Barnes' filmography (lmao) but here is my review : It was really fun to watch and it was clearly made with love which is already the main thing with YA fantasy, which is often turned into a soulless moneygrab when put on screen. The actors were GREAT. I did think that the Crows suffered from being mashed up with the Shadow and Bone story, but they were still a highlight. I also think it was a bit rushed, esp. when it came to Alina's training. The costumes were beautiful, I want a kefta now. Plus the crossover fanfic interactions btw the SaB characters and the Crows were just pure joy. Also Milo, obviously <3 I'm in hyperfixation mode so here, have an essay :

The "Shadow and Bone" Characters :

- Jessie Mei Li !!!!!! She really made me like Alina so much more than in the books, she absolutely is the 'human embodiment of literal sunshine' and she was a joy to watch. Her character's arc is cliché but her acting is so expressive and endearing, I really felt for her all the way through. (maybe I'm biased bc Jessie talking about her ADHD and seeing her thrive at the same time is like!!! i love them they deserve all the best.) I like that they made Alina more proactive - even though she does make some stupid decisions... but I just don't understand people who put that down as bad writing, like ??? have you ever met a real person who only makes wise, good decisions ?? a character like that would either be at the end of their story or just in the background because that makes them static. The things with the maps in the beginning does a good job of illustrating how she is just this one girl making rash, erratic decisions out of fear and loyalty and doesn't have a sense of the bigger picture, caught in the tide of bigger events. It works for her character. When it comes to the choice of making her half-Shu, I do think it really makes sense re: her character feeling like an outsider but I do understand the criticisms that the microaggressions felt too relentless and one-note. I am really looking forward to them introducing Tamar and Tolya and hopefully connecting to them over her heritage in a more positive way.

- Mal in the books was one of the most annoying YA characters I've ever come across, so I really liked that they made him much more of a loyal, devoted friend. I found his relationship with Alina cute, it really gives us the sense that these are two orphans who found a home in each other, childhood best friends (and potential sweethearts) separated by war, two army grunts and ordinary people caught up in the wheels of power and war that usually crushes people like them, it's a great way to introduce the dynamics of their world and it's a trope that always makes me emo. It felt a bit too one note to me, though, and too heavily on the nose, like Mal's only personality was his attachment to Alina (and his resentment towards the Grisha) and too much of her emotional arc also relied on him. Them hitting us over the head with the meadow scenes felt like pure telling instead of showing and it ended up being super repetitive and kind of annoying. I am willing to like this pairing, but I wanted more scenes of them just having conversations about things and really understanding why they like each other beyond the whole childhood friends bond that we're asked to accept exists at the beginning. So I hope there's more depth there in next seasons.

- Ben Barnes!!!! Just jksdfhgkdjghdf. I'm not a big villain stan usually and I hated the Darkling in the books but DAMN his performance is just amazing. They managed to make him more sympathetic and human while at the same time making clear the stuff he does is deeply horrible. There's the Magneto-aspect of 'well clearly his methods are fucked up but he's addressing a terrible injustice nobody is doing anything about' that makes it very tempting to root for him ; and again, well, like, Ben Barnes is so hot and charismatic it feels uncomfortable (which I guess is part of the point lol). His loss of humanity is, up to a point, understandable, brought about by despair, loneliness, grief and a sense of powerlessness - living so long he starts to see other people as disposable, losing so many people he stops caring, seeing over and over how hate never seems to stop, etc. It's a logical explanation for going insane.

But the hunger for power is also very much present as a motivation and this ambiguity is there constantly. Does he maybe come to genuinely care for Alina or is it totally bullshit ? I think he does, he's just so fucked up that it comes out as possessiveness and a need to control her. He wants Alina to be his equal but he's incapable of treating her that way. It's tragic, in a sense, but the show doesn't excuse his actions either. Like his monstrosity is a product of this world full of injustice, yes, and that warrants some compassion, monsters are always a symptom of their environment in some ways and dehumanizing them completely is an excuse ; but at the same time, he sabotaged his own cause anyway the moment he started to treat other people like things, as he does with Alina, because that just perpetuates the cycle of violence and hate. At some point he started feeling like he was the only solution and he was owed power for his sacrifices, and he's using his cause as an excuse. When Alina came to him, there was a possibility for redemption, taking down the Fold, and it's a test because there is finally someone on his level of power. But instead of seeking to remedy the power imbalance between them, he made it worse, by lying to her, manipulating her, etc, and the antler collar is the ultimate sign of this.

I love those scenes towards the end (the antler-based body horror has big Hannibal vibes, so messed up). I like Alina telling him they could have had this, that she had compassion for him and his cause, that they could have worked together, and he's the one responsible for screwing it up and this time his claim that he's the misunderstood victim ("Make me your villain") appears delusional and self-serving instead of somewhat justified. The almost-lovers to enemies vibes, the sense of lost potential, and the angst of the whole 'oh you could finally have been loved by people, too bad you fucked it up !', very juicy. There is this fundamental idea that power/respect/love is not something you are owed no matter how good your intentions are or because you're strong or you have suffered or you're willing to commit horrible drastic actions, you have to keep proving you deserve it, and trying to claim power without responsibility of care turns you into a monster. The thing with the stag was an excellent metaphor of the fact that there's things you can't take, they have to be given to you, and the wonderful power there is in understanding that is what allows Alina to harness the stag amplifier's power. This is really when she escapes his grim utilitarian outlook and a different way forward and owns her own power fully on her own terms.

Anyway I hope Alina gets to beat the shit out of him at some point that would be very sexy but I'm also looking forward to see how their arcs parallel and diverge from each other as Alina starts to grapple more with the implications of her power and the harsh dilemmas of war and her own dark side. I want to see him become scared of her, and I feel it will be more visible than in the books where he just has this cold aggressive facade all the time. This one feels a lot more openly emotional which is just a lot more interesting.

- As for the other characters ; Zoya mostly made me sad. The actress has the perfect vibes but I'm not sure I love their take on her character so far, it does make sense in terms of the later books - that she has internalized prejudice regarding her mixed-race heritage, that she is jealous of Alina because of how hard she's fought to get where she is and Alina kind of takes it away from her, etc. But I would have liked to see a bit more of her being badass and sharp-tongued in a clever (even if mean) way instead of spending most of her time being rejected by men and being racist towards Alina. I did like the ending though, of her actually seeing the monstrosity of the Darkling in action and the mention of her aunt. And her brief bonding with Inej was great, just because it was badass but also maybe because it could be a part of Zoya learning to accept her Suli heritage in turn, maybe not right away but in time, when thinking of that part of herself, she won't only think of her parents' ruined marriage and all the pain it caused, but also of that badass and brave acrobat girl who went toe to toe with these really scary monsters without even having any powers and !!!!!

- Also Leigh's cameo was so cute and as an aspiring writer this is just such wish fulfillment

- I honestly think that having the Crows there actually made the S&B story better ? Not only in terms of the much needed levity breaks but also in terms of themes. For instance, Matthias and Nina's story gave us a really raw and visceral view of how the Grisha are hunted. And Inej's relationship to Alina really gave us a sense of what Alina actually means to people who believe in the Saints in a way that doesn't feel just like 'ugh those superstitious people' because we know that Inej's faith is part of what makes her who she is and a person with morals, and something that saw her through the worst moments of her life. It feels so special that she got to meet Alina and given a sign that maybe the world is not completely shitty. And Alina's kindness towards Inej really gives you a sense that she might be, or become worthy of that belief in time, or at least that she wants to, that she's figuring out her power to really touch people's lives might be a good thing, and that she's starting to accept this responsibility more fully. And her arming Inej is a nice parallel to that. I'm very emotional about this scene, because one of the first things we see of young Alina is her taking out a knife to defend Mal from the bullies, because she's protective and brave, but she's also aware the world is a shitty place, and so her giving that knife to Inej is a sort of spiritual transmission and recognition of sorts, that she trusts Inej with that fighting power, that she'll use this knife to defend herself and her loved ones and not abuse it. It's so interesting. And a counter point to the Darkling's fucked up relationship to power that Alina might at some point get afraid she'll replicate. That you could see Alina trying to gather followers and using people's admiration for her like he did but instead she sets them free and empowers them. It's great. And I feel that when Inej takes to the seas, she'll think about Alina. (I do hope somebody tells her Alina's not dead at some point though god). Girls giving each other knives is my spirituality, honestly.

- And I also noticed an interesting parallel between Kaz and the Darkling in terms of being two emo dudes who like to wear black, are prone to violence and have a thing for two very powerful women they think are special and want to have at their side, but of course, they go about it in very different ways. The Darkling comes at it from a place of power while Kaz comes from a place of utter powerlessness, first of all, and he understands why it's important to set Inej free. Him spending the entire season trying to earn enough money to pay off Inej's indenture is the opposite to the Darkling putting that collar on Alina and while I do have issues with how the show portrays him, I do love that. Love is about setting the person you love free !!!! And that confrontation scene was so powerful, when Kaz tells the Darkling Alina was tired of being a captive ! Drag him !

- As for Genya, I liked the actress and her chemistry with Alina, but I'm not sure they did a great job of making her arc very clear, for instance what it means for her to get that red kefta, her relationship with the other Grisha, etc. Her and David are already very cute though. Also very much looking forward to see where that goes.

So yeah I think they did a great job with this bit actually, I enjoyed a lot more than I think I would and even though it is a very tropey story, there's plenty of depth there too.

The Crows :

- I'm a bit more nitpicky about this because I care about these characters so much. I think overall the problem is that the SaB story in the books happens on this massive scale with enormous stakes, and that next to that the Crows' issues feel less important ; it's like their impact is distorted by the gravity of the much larger story. Like for instance, Kaz in the books is very much at the center of everything, this larger than life trickster figure who knows and controls almost everything by sheer cleverness, and he has this sense of allure and mystique that can't happen here, and so his aura just shrinks. On top of that they're not on their home turf. Being introduced to these characters before they've reached their full levels of badass is weird - there is a reason why prequels generally happen after the main stuff, because they count on the love you have for these characters at their full potential to make you interested in their story when they were less badass and interesting. So I had several moments where I was like 'oh this feels wrong'. Tbh the idea that they would even volunteer to kidnap Alina in the first place, what with Inej's backstory, feels kind of wrong, esp since they had no idea of what would happen to her if they succeeded.

- But I still enjoyed a lot of it though, especially the fact that they were this force of chaos in the midst of this bigger narrative that's a lot more self-serious. The bits with the train, or the circus acts were very clever. A lot of the best moments in the show happen when they come to disturb the other plot in unexpected ways. I'm still dead over the whole 'Alina jumps into their carriage' scene, that was fucking gold. The team up at the end !!!! Alina and Kaz making a deal ! Inej stabbing the Darkling !!!! Them stealing the Darkling's carriage !!! They don't give a shit that the story is supposed to be super dramatic it's great.

- Jesper is the one character they completely nailed from start to finish and he's probably my favorite part of the whole show. He's very funny without being reduced to the role of comic relief ; he's just so! damn! cool!!!!!!! I honestly feel this is a thing they actually did even better than in the books, or at least Six of Crows where I felt Jasper kind of disappeared behind Kaz and they insist a lot on his flaws and issues. So before we dig more into those problems I love that they gave him time to be this ultra badass who saves the day several times ; while at the same time, hinting at further developments like his powers or his gambling issues. Kit Young is just perfect, confident without being arrogant, a bit cold when it comes to crime while at the same time being so obviously caring with Inej - I loved their friendship, that was so sweet. My main criticism is that they should have made it clearer he was bi because there are already people calling him gay and that's very annoying. I know some people had a problem with his hookup and like...I can see it's a bit of a cliché...the charming badass bisexual adventurer....it's a trope I kind of love though lmao and the scene itself felt kind of cute and fun. He's not the only person who is shown to have an active sexuality and he's also not the only queer person around and we know he's going to have a more substantial romantic arc later so eh. On a larger note I loved the little casual hints of completely normalized queerness - Nadia thirsting over Zoya, Fedyor and Ivan, Poppy, etc. Having grown up with fantasy where queerness was either completely erased or very tormented and problematic, this was refreshing as hell.

- Inej and Kaz...my faves... They have a kind of relationship which feels so rare and unique in terms of what exists on TV and while I don't feel they entirely replicated it, the core is still there - the mutual respect and building of trust, the longing, the repression, the trauma, etc. One thing I really like is their arc around faith - in the books, Kaz is dismissive of Inej's faith in ways that often feel really shitty and I like that he learns to be more respectful of it. It's very much linked to hope/survival ; Inej keeps this token from her parents and she hopes to find them again ; Kaz tells her it's no use and she'll survive better if she gives up. He believes Alina is a fake, while Inej wants to believe that myths can come true and there is hope for good things in the world. Kaz comes to accept that Alina is the real deal and, out of respect for Inej's faith, to stop pursuing her. I loved the bit about Inej struggling to kill as well - it's the dilemma of what her survival and that of the people she really cares about are worth in such a shitty world - her compassion is a good part of her but so is her survival instinct, and that's the part Kaz represents - that even after she's been through hell, broken in unfathomable ways, even if she gave up all hope and faith in the world, even she becomes dangerous and ruthless to survive, she will still deserve dignity, and to be treated better. And meanwhile she is willing to break her principles, which she holds so dearly, to save him, when he's never had anyone who cared for him like that - enough to keep him alive. That bit in the church !!!!! God !!!!!! Bye !!!!!!! And then him basically calling her his own version of a Saint, that he doesn't believe in miracles but he does believe in her !!! It's very emblematic of their whole arc ; he empowers her to survive in a ruthless world and loves her at her most dangerous ; but he loves her laugh too, he finds her a ship and her parents, he honors her capacity for love and hope even when he can't share it. And she sees that he's capable of doing better, that he's worth caring for. This whole thing kills me honestly and I can't wait to see where they take this next. I'm not mad they're a bit more soft and obvious than in the books, Kaz would just have come across as an an asshole otherwise.

- That said, there are bits of how they introduced their backstories I don't like. I get that making it so Inej was still tied to the Menagerie gave them a very powerful reason to want to kidnap Alina beyond greed so that they wouldn't look like very shitty people. But in the books Inej is terrified by the idea of simply seeing Heleen or the Menagerie and the way they have her interact with her feels weirdly casual and dismissive of her trauma. Also, in the books, the fact that Kaz had to convince Per Haskell to buy Inej's contract through a lot of effort, that he wasn't the one holding that above her head either, made the power dynamics more palatable. I especially disliked the scene where Kaz says he won't free other girls because just Inej is special, it makes him look like he has the power but he's just too much of a callous asshole to do it, and that he just freed Inej because he liked her which is absolutely not what their relationship is about at the start, it's a lot more about seeing Inej's dangerous side behind a facade of powerlessness and relating to her, in a sense, and this scene made it all feel cheap.

- Also, what was that about Inej having a brother ? Not a fan of that either. I'm afraid they're going to make her story all about finding what happened to him, and that's 1) too on the nose similar to Kaz's story and 2) it kind of cheapens her own arc, a female character realizing that what was done to her was wrong, reclaiming her own power and dignity and then making sure it doesn't happen to anybody else, harnessing her personal experience to save strangers, that's so powerful - making it about a family member at first, especially if it's about revenge, it's so much more simplistic and unoriginal and the perspective really annoys me.

- Also not a fan of Per Haskell not being there because he's a very important part of Kaz's evolution, so I hope he shows up eventually - and the way they introduced Pekka Rollins was kind of like...weird and out of place. I just found the Crows' introduction scenes stilted and not as cool as they should have been - well, Jesper and Inej were very cool, but we needed to see Kaz in action first, we needed to see why he's such a menace before we see him flounder later, and I just...I don't know exactly but it didn't work for me. Also this is a very petty thing but I wasn't crazy about the Ketterdam sets, I know this is probably a budget thing but in my head it looked like this incredible mix of Amsterdam and Venice - specific locations in the book directly remind me of parts of Amsterdam I know very well - and instead what we got felt like this very generic London-ish fantasy setting....so boring. Also a lot of scenes that felt to exposition-y. I don't mind that Kaz was a bit softer than in the books, like many people have said some things work in books and don't work on a screen, and you need to make the character's inner dynamics more explicit. But I do agree that, at the same time, he should have been more ruthless towards people outside of his group. Loved that scene where he faces the Inferni though, and how well they illustrated his disability and aversion to touch.

- I don't have that much to say about Nina and Matthias ; I'm still not super sold on the whole 'haha misogyny!' thing and I dislike that so much of Matthias' change of heart relies on the fact that he finds Nina hot. But I did think that the actors had enough chemistry to make their scenes together interesting and cute ; I loved the waffle scene. Even though it's disappointing that they didn't find an actress who was more clearly plus size for Nina, I still think Danielle does a good job bringing her bold, unapologetic energy. I'm really looking forward to seeing the Crows as a whole team.

So yeah, even though the season didn't feel like a perfect, coherent whole, it was just a lot of fun and I really hope they get renewed. In particular I feel like tying the first trilogy to the Crows' story could create such interesting parallels in terms of themes, about power, the cost of survival, hope, trauma, etc etc

[grizztheexplorer]

Grand Army review from a technical point of view! Bc my theatre major ass keeps thinking about it and i have opinions!!! Btw this isn’t about writing, plot, nor characters. These are all opinions on tech points, like acting, editing, lighting, sound, camera work, and directing!!

1) The acting its 10/10 so good. Soso good. Joey and Dom in particular did amazing. Not their characters, ik everyone has complicated opinions towards Joey as a character, but the actresses EMBODIED those characters. Def stronger than the rest. Most of us hate Tim but like the actor did great too. Honestly? Loved the acting from everyone. There wasn’t an scene where the acting took me out or felt off.

2) camera work/directing. Amazing. Some choices were in particular so good. In the pilot when the explosion happened and the camera subtly shook and then from the window pov it went sideways? Amazing. The shot of the staircase with just bodies in circles moving? The beginning shots being the raw, dirty reality of public schools? I really liked it. Loved so many scenes throughout the show having no music as background and instead u just hear people around walking and the silences or background noises. Makes it more realistic but it didn’t take attention away from the scene bc the sound and camera were focused where they needed to. Really liked the bathroom with the condom scene too.

3) editing. Some scenes go hand in hand praising with directing and camera work, but i wanted to make editing its own paragraph bc that last edit push was what made it work. The horrible taxi scene, im sure how blurry things were was a director’s choice. But the editing made it really good. Is explicit, horrible, and triggering, and yet not as triggering like 13RW shots. 13RW felt so unnecessary and triggering for no reason other than shock value in their assault scenes, but while this one is also very triggering it was done with a different focus. They also didn’t just explicitly showed everything on focus, they made it blurry and sound came in and out. In a way that u both feel Joey’s control slipping and the claustrophobia and maybe Tim’s consciousness coming in and out of focus too. Then the sound and image become sharp again AFTER the thing was done. I think it was very well done. Afterwards too, when Joey was realizing what happened to her in school and the sound for her kept coming in and out. Or if not out, it sounded almost underwater. Vission became blurry too. Really REALLY well done. When she’s imagining what Luke and George said too in the lawyer’s office and she sees her parents faces but on top fractions of what George and Luke said too. Again sound didn’t sound sharp and u see half images. The editors and director just had really good ways to pull the audience inside the characters’ minds and feel what they are feeling without the need to do it all through dialogue/acting. They used audio and camera shots as tools soso well. The end when Jay taped his mouth?? The silent shot at the end with no music but the impact of the image created a very well atmosphere and realistic. Instead of forcing inspirational music in the background is the silence where we as an audience don’t know if what happens afterwards due to that is gonna be good or not. Had there been instrumentals it would have been all about what Jay is feeling, the build up and then the heroic moment when he stands front. Instead we took the moment as a whole. Just a kid protesting. The image is strong with the lights on him, we see the shot from the back of his head and the audience in front darker. Very strong and all, but the music leaves us hanging. Is that it!??? No one claps??? No one moves?? And I 1000% think that was intentional. Instead of just being like “FUCK YEAH HE DID THAT” we stay like “... and what happens now with that?” The silences many scenes in general where used very different in comparison to many teen/drama shows i see nowadays and it gave it a raw/realistic feeling. I really liked that.

4) editing/lighting. Now this one was 50/50 lmao. It was either really good, or really fucking bad lol no in between. Some times the lighting was so good for the mood, also that sad gloomy light u think in high school. Like the gym in ep 2 scenes, they have light, the lights are bright and all, but the editing of the coloring still makes it gloomy. Then you have Dom in her party and Joey dancing in the last ep, the lights are sharper, the colors come out more!!! Bc the scenes are happpy!!!!! But... the coloring in the church scenes (and honestly all scenes in the catholic/christian school) with joey in the last ep... the editing of those colors were awful. Too saturated. The joke is, the lighting was good. Fit the vibes great, but the editing sucked. Specially that moment when Joey meets another girl who tells her she also has been abused and believes her. Is a powerful scene but all i could think about was “the lights on the shots feel like these are tumblr gifs” bc it is weirdly saturated on a brown way with the benches background. Like.... both of their skins look weirdly edited and the background looks weirdly edited too. That took me out a lot. The dance scene with joey was also soso good, but in contrast I didn’t like the color editing when tim was texting her. The parts of him look also a little off in regards to color. Not like it was on purpose either. I guess ultimately the 50/50 comes from the lighting always been good, but the color editing has moments when they just missed the mark by a lot. Sid getting into college was also another off moment. The lightning was okay but the color editing felt gloomy. That was a happy bright moment and instead it felt weairlg saturated with brown tones, which is from the editing not the camera/light work.

[berrymeter]

idk anything about the grace period for deltarune u can just keep this ask in the attic until that’s over.. anyway.. i really liked chap 2 i played it in one sitting 😭 the rpg combat is enjoyable enough and just the right amount more complex than the undertale combat is, although not very difficult. very touching power of friendship moments minus that fucking bird man. some of the dialogue felt quite fandom tropey and surface-level, and queen’s lines (love her tho) were hit or miss for me. i think the biggest frustration i have with it is all the useless random encounter characters clogging up your world 😞😞 there’s only so many wacky one-liners toby can give them and i am not invested enough to care! also some of those designs are uglie!! there are better ways to make a world feel real and lived in. same thing happened with undertale.

BUT it was a great time! i liked the juxtaposition between the ultimately harmless antics and charming banter with the gang and queen, and the more sinister plot going on in the background. most obviously in the ending. toriel and susie making a pie while kris RIPS OUT THEIR SOUL….spoiler warning.. did u see the theory that the soul aka red heart is you the player operating kris the vessel? i’m definitely not a theorist but i like seeing all the loose plot ends i’m having a good time. i love noelleeeeee 💞💞💞💞and i liked susie a lot more this chapter. when ralsei taught her a healing spell 😖😖 i still don’t really care about ralsei though 😓

special shoutout to the spinning teacups ☕️☕️☕️ and special NOT-shoutout to the mice games with the rotating blocks i never understood how to do that.

it was a very feel-good game. it made me feel good. standards for video game passed. what did u think tho!! i mean i assume u liked it but for the same reasons? different ones? feel free to respond with an excruciatingly long essay of ur own <3 we are back to the tt anon blocks of text i restrained myself for a bit but we are back -tt

hiii tt anon <3 back at it again with the asks that i am looking forward to answering. if i post this a little before the 48 hours i will be forgiven bc i will use the deltarune spoilers tag and also the long post tag LMAOO anyway anyway oh btw never refrain urself from sending blocks of text if my followers are mad even though i tag them long post that's ON THEM. everything u say is worth listening to & same for everything i say so that's my final stance on this 😌

i also played it in one sitting it was so GOOD. i don't care that it was 2 am here when it was released i wasss ecstatic and the game was so fucking GOOD tonby the fox delivered!! it was so so worth the wait! the music was so much better than in chapter 1 imo, like... my castle town? the cyber fields theme? the queen's fight? spamton g spamton??? rouxls' "fight"?? BANGERS. i only see bangers. the new gameplay mechanics were also very fun!! i for one kinda struggled with the mice puzzles but not nearly as much as that one section with the traffic jams where you have to go down and back up or whatever. what the hell was that? i'm surprised i actually got past it. i loved the parts in cyber field though where you had to move on beat with the music that was sooo fun!! more of that! i prefer the fighting system in undertale ngl but it's mostly bc the undertale bosses are... just so good. the one boss who rivalises for now to me is queen, although rouxls is also very fun.

as for the story itself... i liked it :) susie & noelle are fucking ADORABLE. i think they deserve to be happy forever like not even together just individually as characters they're the fucking best. susie's grown so much that's my girl... wough... ralsei i do like but... i don't trust him :D i don't think he's evil but he knows too much and tells us too little until he can't keep it for himself and i don't like that. like bro you're gonna get us in trouble stop. but ALSO some ppl speculate that himself is being misled and that the fountains wouldn't bring the roaring, which is an interesting theory. (also i miss lancer being more relevant)

uhh kris is... well... kris... :)... yeah i did hear about that theory i'm in a discord server where ppl have been going on and on about theories since the game dropped LMAOO we're all insane. um. my personal theory is that there's another knight, or that kris is at least also influenced by an "evil force" or whatever, and we're the good force influencing them bc otherwise they're just a normal albeit mischievous kid. and the stretch part is that uhhh there's two knight pieces on a chessboard, ik this isn't about chess at all but king of spades does tell you at the end of chapter 2 that you'll meet a more powerful foe = the queen, coincidentally in chess the queen is stronger than the king. hmmmmmmmmmmm. lmao i don't think my parallel here is right but it's fun to think about anyway

did you see the superboss? i didn't fight him myself but he's so fun. also @ everyone who said he's gonna be a tumblr sexyman i hate that you're right shut that shit down HJKSNFKJSDHG. also did you see the secret fucked up pipis route? it's horrible. genuinely... i watched a streamer play it and 😳 uh. well i didn't even hate berdly before anyway yeah he's annoying but like he's a snot-beaked kid i'm not gonna wish him... whatever happens in this route. legit scarring. and poor noelle... pffbbgtbg. hate this so much. but i think it was done so bad and horrible on purpose, with how specific your gameplay has to be for you to be able to complete it tonby really was like "you wanna be an asshole? undertale wasn't enough? fine. work for it. and also suffer" nskjshf. i'm never doing it <3

lastly FUCKING QUEEN!!!!!!! QUEEN MY LOVE!!!!! BEST CHARACTER. i love her sosososo much it's unreal. and i didn't mind any character designs much, i'm not too complicated in that regard shfkjsdfh i love the tasques and tasque manager though :) also the... idk their names... the butler dudes? they're so cute. swatch's design is neat

so those are my thoughts <3 can't wait to hear more from u!!!

[moaserendipity]

Manner of Death ep. 1

SOOOOO MANNER OF DEATH MESSY REVIEW EP. 1!!!! I have been waiting for this drama!! I read the novel and I was pleasantly surprised! I always have liked the bit more darker dramas tbh. So I was so happy when they announced this and the fact that MaxTul were playing the main characters!!! Like yes!!!!

Anyway let’s proceed to the messy review of episode 1.

It starts with dr. Bunn looking at a suicide scene and then the opening credits starts! Which looks good!! Seriously I am already loving this!! Then Tul is doing the voice over to introduce himself and the town he is living in! That’s how me meet Dr. Bunn but the shocking part was the girl that walked through the street bleeding, I did not even have to wonder what happened to her because that was obvious and probably a bit triggering for some🥺

Can I say something Dr. Bunn look mighty fine (Tul is always super handsome) the scene where they investigate the woman’s body is not what I expected, because it showed lot of skin but not in a gross way. I love the forensic team btw. The intern Oat is looking fine!! I do love that they spoke in professional terms(not that I know anything about it but it looks more serious)

Also who is suspecting the journalist?! I DEFINITELY AM🙋‍♀️ he was way to prying for my taste! Like he should know that medical staff can’t say anything about the patient?! Like dude come on!

THIS VIEW THOUGH!! BEAUTIFUL! Inspector M has appeared! They know each other! At least they ask the right questions at first. Then the small talk starts.. like shouldn’t they ask about the case more🙈 Lol I love the way they want to take him out after work to show him where the action takes place🙈 I mean sure that’s what you talk about during work xD

Oh who’s this Jane?! It’s obvious she likes him.. I mean who would’ve hold on to a book he gave you 15years ago, only to return it🙈 that’s some serious dedication 😲 (yeah I prefer the Disney story of the little mermaid)

Poor Oat!! But the dress will look good on him👀 lmao busted!! 😂 wow this trash reporter!! I already hate him severely! I mean he didn’t even do anything wrong! This school looks a bit dark, like it’s haunted!! I don’t know I get bad vibes! Trash reporter at it again! (Istg he is involved)

NIGHTCLUB!! OH FIRST TIME MEETING TAN!! (UGH I LOVE MAX) Let’s get some drinking! (Whiskey on the rocks is for weak people👀) this sounds like a bad idea, it looks strong, he will get drunk!! 😂 THERE WE GO DRUNK!!🥴 ohhhhhh he spots Tann👀 WAIT HOW DOES HE KNOW HIM?! WHDJEINDHSJSNNSKENDNDNDNDMMSNDNDJDNXNDNDNXNJD THAT KISS!! ☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️🙈

Lol at least someone got him back home🙈 must have a terrible hangover! 😵 okay i officially love Oat for recording his drunk ass😂 awesome blackmail material😂 lol I’m not sure if it’s appropriate to walk away like that while your middle of an autopsie🙈 BUT I AM NOT COMPLAINING 👀 LOL look at him being popular with the ladies👀 sad for the ladies that he is gay👀

Ohhhh Peud?! Hmm 🤔 that watch 🤔 hmm🤔 I am suspecting him too!! 🧐 what for celebration is this👀 Also OAT IN THAT DRESS!!😂😍 but his eyes are on Tann👀 (same doc same👀) a the directors bday party, which all the important people🤔

His eyes really are on Tann the intire time, can’t blame him. UGH THEY LOOKS SO HANDSOME! Does he remember what happened that night?! 👀 he looks like he does👀 LMAO OAT😂 YES SLAY THAT DANCE😂

he already has something to drink though.... OH BOY👀😂 lmao Tan😂 ohhhhhhhhhhhh yes come closer! I DONT MIND👀 Bun looks like he wants to run also gay panic👀

OHHH LET GO OF HER!) WOW TAN CALM DOWN😲 but also hit him hard👊 ahhh Pued was the one that got hit, good for him! I don’t like him at all!! Ohhhhhhhhh this background music🙈☠️ this won’t be good. OHHHHH WAIT A MINUTE SHE IS THE WOMAN FROM THE OPENING SCENE😭SHIT POOR GIRL! 😭 yeah you won’t see her tomorrow not the way you want anyway🥺

OHH HE REMEMBERS👀

Poor Jane🥺 nothing is more horrible than this🥺 the fact that you have to remain professional🥺 but yeah this is no suicide, you can’t fool me! Ohhh boy Tan is involved but in what way🤔 YES BUN, I KNEW IT!

OKAY I AM IN LOVE ALREADY!! FINALLY A DARK DRAMA THAT INVOLVES BL!! I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS!!😍😍

[linphd]

endeavor x fem!reader | love me if you dare [angst]

enji todoroki x reader

female reader

Enji and his girlfriend love to give each other dares, until it goes too far, and Enji ends up with a quirk marriage.

warning : angst

            Enji Todoroki, known as Endeavor. Married a woman for her quirk, in order to have a child with both fire and ice quirks. But nobody knew about the before ; the woman before. (Y/N) (L/N).

          She met Enji in high school, way before he became the number two hero. They were both on the hero course, and even if Enji was already quite popular with girls, he only had eyes on her. She didn't know why ; he was special, first in theory and in practice, and she was just the lazy girl with a telekinesis quirk, who managed to be 2nd, right after him. But it worked.

          They started to date during their second year in high school. Indeed, during their first year, Enji had 'dated' many girls while (Y/N) spent almost a year with the same boyfriend. When she dumped him and was crying her heart out, Enji was the one to comfort her. When he was mumbling about how all the girls he was flirting with were useless, (Y/N) was the one to tell him he was a douche. But it worked.

         After high school, they moved in together. Endeavor was the number two hero, (Y/N) was helping heroes with rescue missions and fights, occasionally. And everything was fine until he became ''insane''. That's the word she used. He was only focused about being second. He was obsessed about All Might, and wanted to do everything to be better than him.

           ''Enji ! What kind of hero is obsessed with fame ?! -It's not fame, (Y/N) ! I want to be the best, I don't care about the fame ! All Might is better than me, hm ?! -Fuck, Enji ! You thought you were the best before people started to say you were 2nd, right ?! And on why it is based ?! Fame ! -I dare you to yell at me like that again.''

        Yeah. The dare game. They started that when they moved in together. Dare : you do the dishes. Dare : you yell in the supermarket while wearing only your underwear. Dare : you eat those crisps that have been in the cabinet for 4 months. So, the word 'dare' took another sense throughout time. Less and less used for fun, more and more used for threats. Enji was insane, after all. She wanted to help.

         Actually, when he wasn't thinking about All Might, everything was almost perfect. So (Y/N) could handle it. Well, she would handle it until his obsession grew even more. ''YOU WHAT ?! -I need to avenge myself, okay ? If I want to have a child that would defeat All Might, he needs to have a powerful and surprising quirk ! And sorry, but telekinesis and fire can't really mix.''

        She couldn't believe it. ''You're fucking insane, Enji ! And even if I agreed to it, why do you have to just find a girl and fuck her ?! You couldn't just give your sperm or something  ?! And you would pay her so she would give the child to us ?! What's your problem ?! All Might, only ? Or your fucking malfunctioning brain ?! -YOU ! IT'S YOU MY PROBLEM, (Y/N) !''

          She gasped. ''Dare. You fucking leave this house. Go give both your quirks to your child : your fire and your insanity.'' His fire erupted. It started to burn some furnitures, but he stopped it immediately, even though he looked really really mad. ''Fine. But you're the one who asked for it. Dare : you never call me again.'' After that, he took some of his stuff and walked out of the house. It worked.

         It hurt, like it never had before. But she did never call him again. She moved to Europe, since her parents were European. (Y/N) had came to Japan to study in Yuei, and she had managed to learn Japanese during middle school, since she already knew that she wanted to study there.

         And for years, she hasn't heard from him anymore. She was on TV sometimes, since she became quite a famous hero. And she could see him on TV as well, but that was all. She didn't know if he had managed to have a child with both quirks. She didn't even know what the other quirk was.

          (Y/N) had some relationships, but her longest one lasted for 5 years. It was shorter than her time with Enji, then. This man had managed to make her forget about him. Until once she said ''Dare : you taste one of those horrible fruits in the neighbors' garden.'' And he answered, confused ''Why would I do that ?''. And throughout time, it couldn't work anymore between them.

         Endeavor, on his side. Well, he had managed to have Shoto. He would've both quirks, but even if he wouldn't, Enji couldn't stand this situation anymore. She always was doing the dares he gave her. She was really strong in that game.

         ''I know she's in Europe. I know she's coming to the top 20 heroes' dinner, she'll come to Japan, she has to.'' he kept mumbling. Rei was the one becoming insane now. ''Why do you always think of her ?! HER HER HER !'' He hit the table, burning it after it broke -even though he didn't burn it on purpose. ''REI, IT'S A QUIRK MARRIAGE. QUIRK. YOU AGREED TO THIS, YOU KNOW YOU'RE NOT THE ONE I LOVE !''

        After that, he walked away in frustration. That's when Rei called her friend. ''.... And Shoto, he's half like him. He's half like this guy who loves an other ! -Mommy ?'' And that's when Shoto got burnt. Enji sent this woman to the hospital, whether his last child was going to have both quirks or not. He couldn't stand it anymore.

           A few days later, here she was. Top 20 heroes' dinner. She had upgraded, she wasn't a sidekick anymore. Maybe she was much better without him. And for the first time in years, Enji was nervous. The Endeavor was nervous around the same girl he used to be nervous around in high school. He was 16 again.

         ''(Y/N), long time no see.'' he managed to say. And even though she didn't want to, (Y/N) cracked a smile when she noticed him. He really was the love of her life, after all. ''Well, I always do the dares you give me.'' He chuckled. ''You're a big hero, now. You really upgraded... -Well people change. Like you did.'' This time, she wasn't smiling and sounded cold. How could she sound so much different in only 2 sentences ?

         ''Well, I've changed again. I've realized that... no, nevermind, I don't wanna talk about myself. How is your life ?'' She seemed quite happy that he was interested in her life instead of blabbering about himself, like he seemed to do so everytime he was on TV.

         ''I broke up with my last boyfriend like 6 months ago ? We'd been dating for 5 years. And you ? -Sorry to hear that... I broke up with Rei actually 1 or 2 weeks ago only. She burnt my last child's face because 'he looked like me'. I guess she started to love me even though it's a quirk marriage, and couldn't afford that I didn't love her back.''

        She was shocked. ''Wow, she's insane ! -Yeah, she's at the hospital now... and you ? You've got children ?’' (Y/N)'s expression changed. ''I... couldn't have children. But hey, it turned out that I broke up with the guy, so I guess that's fortunate I didn't persevere. And I’m not in my 40s yet, I still have time to adopt or something ?’’ Enji felt even more bad that he left her to have 'quirk children'.

           He tried a horrible joke. ''Well, I have the children, we could mix !'' But it worked. She giggled. ''Don't make jokes like this ! It's horrible to laugh about things like that !'' He smiled. ''So why are you laughing ?'' He asked, doing the same as her.

          Surprisingly, they spent the whole dinner together. They were so close that they remained outside the building to walk in the grass. It had started to rain, but Enji knew (Y/N) loved rain, so he didn't mind staying wet. ''You know why Rei hated me ? -Because you're an asshole.'' He chuckled. ''Kind of. She hated me because I'm still talking about you. I'm still thinking about you. I guess she couldn't understand the meaning of a quirk marriage.''

         It was risky to talk about that. But it worked. ''My last boyfriend, I dared him to something, and he looked at me like I was stupid and he asked 'why would I do that ?'''. Enji giggled. ''Oh man, it's been a while since I've dared someone to do something. I guess the last time I did, it made me not being able to dare them again. I told them not to call me ever again. How can you dare someone you can't see ?'' She remained silent, looking at the sky.

He sighed. ‘’(Y/N). I kept thinking about what I’ve done to you, and how right you were about me being obsessed. So obsessed that I had 4 children and been mean to the 4 of them. For all those years, I kept thinking about you. I don’t care if you hate me or if you’ve moved on, but... You were and you’ll always be the love of my life. And thank you for all those years and dares together.’’

She was staring at him. ‘’You think I hate you ? We haven’t seen each other for more than 15 years, and when we finally see each other again, I spend the whole evening with you. Do you really think I hate you ?’’ He smiled, hoping something. ‘’Love me, if you dare.’’ He finally said, starting to hug her. She giggled. ‘’I already love you, Enji...’’ she answered, hugging him.

It was a really risky and cliche confession. But it worked.

kind of au where Shoto likes his dad and dislikes his mom instead lmao

Rei seems like the bad guy in this but I really like her poor woman sksksk

btw Love Me if You Dare is a french movie (french like me lol) with La Vie En Rose as the background music so yeah you should watch it.

[cruddyborderlandstheories]

Eden-6!!

I am. so fucking tired. but I’m also late asf for Eden-6 stuff to the point it got its video release, so here I am playing catch up.

tl;dr: swamp planet!! we get some cool shots of Alitair and Aurelia, i, surprise surprise, still do not trust mr. wainwright, i tried to form an argument that these ruins we see across the planet are abandoned Atlas facilities/ships, but ~who knows~. also i would (and probably will) die for the saurians. i love them so much. one of them has a funky bone hat. it’s great. also also “stop the CoV before they gain control” [looks at trailers and behind closed doors intro] ... uh oh gamers...

“A backwater swampland of a planet, and family home of the Jakobs clan. Eden-6 is covered by lush greenery and stagnant waters, dotted with occasional settlements and the rusted hulks of crashed spaceships. Civilization has never fully taken hold here, and indigenous dangers including ravenous Saurians and semi-sentient Jabbers effectively rule the planet. As if you didn't already have enough to worry about, the Children of the Vault have a presence here as well.”

im excited for the abandoned spaceships, those things look fucking bad. ass.

Ambermire I am guessing is one of the more swampy areas? Jakob’s Manor is obvious, and Fort Sunshine I’m guessing is that abandoned facility we’ve been seeing around the trailers. unfortunately we don’t get too good of a look at the fortress (shakes fist at gearbox) but we do get some other stuff!

im gonna go over the instagram video first because the pics are a treat so we’re saving them for last.

sorry for the progress bars btw lol

i fucking love that gas giant. so much.

swamps are one of my least favorite biomes, but i know gearbox is going to make me love it.

also a look at one of the crashed ships! (i assume) looks like Atlas to me. Or old Hyperion, but tbh idk why Hyperion would be on Eden-6. so Atlas it is.

a look at one of the settlements. i really love the contrast between this planet and Promethea and Athenas.

those gross pod things on the right? idk if they’re egg sacs or plants or what but i both hate them and love them. also whatever that is glowing on the bottom left. i wanna touchy

Jakobs manor!! honestly a lot less extravagant in the front than i was expecting. also now we know this one shot

is definitely not in front of Jakobs Manor. could be the back entrance or smth tho. looks like it leads into a garden-y area.

my question is, is it a Jakobs thing to enjoy hunting? because it seems like it’s a Jakobs thing to enjoy hunting. also i don’t trust Jakobs. I know I’ve said that, like, a bajillion times, but i don’t. and those metal cowboy-lookin’ robots are totally theirs.

im just surprised the Hammerlocks are living in the Manor. I assumed they were like... visiting. now im pretty convinced mr. wainwright down here is evil because only Alistair is on Sanc-III and we’re all assuming that the Sanc-III demo (not the more recent one) takes place after Athenas, right? 

and OMG YES lilith’s tattoos aren’t visible in the newest video on sanc-iii!! im hoping that means she gets her powers back!! im giddy to look over it 30 times i cannot wait. but one post at a time.

evil. evil man.

he either dies or he’s evil i don’t trust him and hammerlocks eye shouldn’t be red in the We Are Mayhem trailer i just... im so suspicious of this man.

AURELIA i love her so much. she was great in TPS, one of my mains. her new outfit is popping, i love the boots.

also she has 2 ice diadem shards now and im terrified yet oddly happy for her.

ALISTAIR. i legitimately thought he was on Promethea at first, then i realized this is probably part of the abandoned facility/fortress. shame we don’t get a closer look at it.

also look who’s eye is back to being not-red again!

also the writing on the back there makes me even more convinced this is Atlas facility. on Promethea, the parts of the Meridian city are labeled with these unique symbols (so far i’ve seen blue and red) and this red one looks like it fits the mark perfectly.

these look like the same canisters from the mine on Pandora. whatcha pumpin eden-6?

more red plants. i like how different this can look from athenas, yet still have very similar foliage. outstanding move, gearbox.

is that another crashed ship in the background??? yes pls. also this dude’s face paint is giving me huge Mask of Mayhem vibes, I love it.

the inside of Jakobs Manor

i hate to tell you this mr. gearbox sir but im pretty sure they do

yeesh. 

also that one scene of troy in the manor as well

dis one

is that the globe in the background? anyone know? im trying to remember where the fuck ive seen that shot of the library/globe. hmmmmmmmmmm

it is not the globe whump whump. i am excited to explore this library tho. 

what looks like fishing net on the right? wild

also car!!

no wings/fins like in the Mask of Mayhem trailer tho, that sucks.

i like this dude. especially his face paint.

i like this glowing crystals even more tho

purple crystals that mimic troy’s red ones? me likey.

eridium? maybe! slag to chug when u need more power? maybe! i don’t know!

j̷̧̭͙̹̭̀̽͆̕͘u̸̦͌̃͛̕̕s̴̡̰͙̣͊̂̔t̴͇̪͐ͅ ̸̭̐́w̵̧̯̲͊̀̃̄̕a̵̢͓̎́̏̓t̷̪̓̑̎͜c̶̢̢͔̀h̴̥̬̪̫̫̿ ̶̪̬̞̼͐̾̉͐̒ơ̵̼̋̍̓̕u̵̻̪̞̞̺̐̾̀̚͠t̶͉̠̟͉̪̋̈̿ ̶̢̗̗͑f̵̰̫͇̈̾ọ̴͑r̶̢͕̺͈͎̃̌͘ ̸̩͆̏̅a̸͈̙̪̋̏ǹ̷̮͚͍̽͜ģ̵̠̀̍̋̔r̴̪̦̾̇̕͠y̷̘͖̜̿͑̅̀ͅ ̷̬̱͉̗͌̇j̵̹͇̽͗̕ā̸̳͇͈̠̺b̴̰̏͜b̴̘͗̔e̷͖̓͊r̸͍̫̻̊͆̊s̸̛̙̳͔̗̋̓͝ 

also check that glowy light in the background. totally Atlas.

also also i like they have little hanging nest/house things. those are really cute.

this motherfucker is coming at us with a sledgehammer ffs

i like their tiger stripe designs. they blend in with the leaves, which i guess is an evolutionary advantage all things considered.

I LOVE THESE FUNKY LITTLE MOTHERFUCKERS

LOOK AT THIS DUDE!!! HE’S GOT A BONE HAT! I LOVE HIM!!!

AND THEY FUCKING BREATHE FIRE??

GLOWING YELLOW EYES!!!

A SPLIT JAW! WHO DOESN’T LOVE THESE LITTLE DUDES???

i fucking love Saurians holy shit

okay okay okay okay

picture time 😎

i love the skybox on Eden-6, holy shit it’s beautiful. also, those sacs/plants/fungi or whatever are definitely volatile.

look at that one glowing red one. that’s totally going to deal some fuckin fire damage to whatever touches it and i for one am ready

also.

can we get an F in chat for Eden-6? lmao i remember being like ‘oh look a gas giant’ in my analysis of every museum of mayhem piece and COMPLETELY FORGETTING that eden-6 has a gas giant directly beside it. big brain fart there.

holy shit i love the color schemes for these things. i know there are blue ones as well, but these orange/yellow/red ones are FANTASTIC. i especially love the shiny yellow ones. they’re so pretty!!

we also get a mostly obscured window in the back there

possibly part of the abandoned facility? but more than likely just part of a crashed ship.

like (im assuming) this one!

the doors match up to Sanctuary-III quite well. also the bones on the ground. i love the regrowth aesthetic they’ve got going on here.

also apparently ratches have made their home here. these things are fuckin everywhere. they’re like the new rakk holy shit

MY BEAUTIFUL BOYS

look at the one on the bottom right! those blue markings are fuckin stunning and i love the little fins on the sides of his head

and that giant skeleton in the background? that’s some good shit right there! im hoping those are fireflies/some sort of glowing insect around the front there. so we can have pockets of glowing orbs dancing around the map as we explore.

oooo

i really like the hulls of the ships, the one on the far left and the one in the back right.

im mostly interested in this tree. i wonder if it just regrew around some debris or if this is making the stuff on this planet grow wildly out of control. I’m always down for science gone wrong! and with atlas, pretty much anything could go horribly wrong. that’s just their way of doing things.

anyway it is 4 in the am and i am tired, so im gonna pass tf out now and hopefully do Fl4k’s trailer, and a few other posts i gotta catch up on, tomorrow! so hyped for fl4k info!!

[swearronchanel]

I rewatched 5.09 aka The 2016 Christmas Special

I officially have done nothing productive all day. I did finish rewatching The Nanny though if that counts 😂😂 I forgot how much it made me laugh. Anyway I’m randomly in the mood to watch the 2016 Christmas special so why not post? Btw this will be long af  this IS incredibly long but I just had so many thoughts ya’ know?

Ah I’m excited again, this was such a great special don’t @ me

The Turners! ANGELA’S LITTLE NURSE UNIFORM 😭💕 SO PRECIOUS

SHELAGH LOOKING LIKE A BABE😍

TRIXIE looking a babe 😍 she assisted in the cesarean.. later she’ll do it herself ahh

I want to have Christmas dinner at Nonnatus aww

“To absent friends"💔 my freaking heart breaks, sister MJ’s face! ugh she misses sister Evangelina. But don’t we all?

More cute Angela not talking as usual (still waiting for a word)

I want Trixie’s Christmas outfit, I want all her clothes though 😍

WE OUT TO SOUTH AFRICA

# LETS GET IT 1962

rip to sister felicity tho

More Shelagh being flawless, like yes Laura Main is so gorgeous don’t sleep on it

”God moves in a mysterious manner" lol shelagh I just love u don’t ever change

“Our own son had polio once” yes use guilt to make your point & get ur way

take notes people

“What you did I did, where you go I go..” excuse me while my heart fucking melts 😭😭

I remember watching this Christmas Day & my mom and I did the same sigh and “aww” expression at that line

She loves the show and is going to be shook when she watches series 6 lol

Also like Shelagh’s dress is so cute I’m here for it

Lmaoo I was wondering for so long beforehand why tf they brought Fred?? They Need those engineering skills apparently  

CMON BABY DO THE LOCOMOTION 💃🏼💃🏼💃🏼

Yess the music is lit

Trixie’s turquoise dress 👌🏻👌🏻 I want it

Tims leg braces! I actually noticed them and was lowkey proud because I rarely notice shit in the background

More Shelagh being adorable, as always

Get those vaccinations💉💉 f*ck shots though lmao I hate them

What is Patrick whispering to Shelagh? 👀👀

That’s almost right up there with what in the actual fuck did he write in those letters to get her to ditch the habit and wimple 😉😏😉 NO BUT FOR REAL WHAT DID HE SAY? We’ll never know *sigh*

I’m here for everything Trixie wears lets be real

LOL SISTER JULIENNE BASICALLY TELLING BABS SHE CANT BE FOOLING AROUND WITH HER MAN OVERSEAS

don’t even argue that she’s making a big deal with any of that “he’s a vicar, she’s a vicar’s daughter, they don’t believe in premarital sex” either cause they were making out in public before and he was grabbing her ass in a CONVENT Lmaooo (good for him he’s not letting god stop him😂) jk I’m going to hell for all the jokes I’ve made through out this show anyway

I feel though, so im letting them live

But still the married couple barely touch each other 😂 so I’m a little salty *pretend there’s a salt shaker emoji* Fu*k it though

Also Patsy and Delia have been together for a while and haven’t kissed either as far as I remember

BEATRIX FRANKLIN SLAYING AS ALWAYS 😍😍 love her coat and glasses and everything she is

And yikes that swimsuit babs lol

There’s Patsy! With the horrible horrible wig :/

Sister MJ with the Christmas cake 😭😭 aye bendito she just wants to share it

How rich with alcohol is it sister? Pass it over

By guys🙋🏼 we out this Bitch ✈️🚢

The music makes me so happy 😭❣️

“Look at you Barbara! brussel sprout green” Lmaoo ew I hate Brussel sprouts and also throwing up in general😂 sorry babs you’re gross rn

Legit I have not thrown up since I was like 8, I refuse to let myself 😭😂and 3 semesters in to university and lots of parties and drinks I’ve never actually thrown up (been pretty close though haha) *knocks on wood so I don’t jinx it*

I love Phyllis. Have I said that yet??

“..do you have anything to stop my mascara from running” lol I am Trixie

but was there no waterproof mascara yet?

uh oh here comes the asshole sergeant (I think it’s the same guy as later on?), and Tom is so reasonable lol

 Shelagh’s hat with the flowers lol, but yes her cute summer dress love it, glad she only took one cardigan 😂

Lol when the sergeant tells Trixie don’t smile 😂😂

yes Dr Myra pulled up, I thought she was kinda bitchy at first and still kinda do but she’s tough and badass so I’m here for it

“I can see the caption now, English Roses dash African Skies exclamation mark!” .. “this is a new camera” LOL AGAIN PHYLLIS IS A GEM I LOVE HER SHE’S SO FUNNY

And again Trixie’s dress, it’s so pretty I want it😭😭

And again I’m Trixie, talking about needing a face mask 😂

lol Babs you smell like grajo 😂

Phyllis sniffing her 😂 “you’ve had enough barley sugar and sympathy”

The spider 😂 I don’t like spiders so I relate lol & Barbara killing it and coming at Phyllis with the clapback “there’s venom on it and some backbone”

Why do I find the linen habits funny?

Aw Shelagh “it’s at times like this I wonder what would Sister Evangelina do” I’m so glad she brought her up

Rip sister E 😰

I feel like Patrick would still feel hot in that linen suit, like it’s still a suit lol? same with the nuns but like they have no other choice

Alright I’ll give Dr Myra that though asking about radium treatment was naive of Patrick

Fred is so funny though 😂 leaving his mark by shaving lol

Throwback to Shelagh’s og bri nylon nightgown’s first appearance 😉  

“What’s all this” LOL about to be the cause of this miraculous conception that’s what 😂

“It’s made of a new material called bri nylon..” Shelagh is so cute and genuinely wanting to explain 💕

Lol like cmon u know Patrick probably doesn’t give a fuck and is gonna take it off

Of course Trixie would be mad she didn’t get to set her hair

“That hat covers a multitude of sins” that’s legit one of my fav Barbara lines 😂😂

Shelagh is the only one who brought the belt to her uniform because she’s Shelagh & has to look calm, cool, collected and professional lol

Phyllis’s kink: rolodex systems 📇

lol I really do like Dr Myra, making Patrick feel dumb and I don’t care

“..and they live in a society that is gradually stripping them of any dignity or freedoms they ever had..” again I like Dr Myra a lot. I didn’t really think she had a white savior complex as some people thought because she wasn’t trying to change anything just to help. She even says later on she does it for their need not her beliefs

Proud of Babs for learning xhosa phrases 

Just watching this man run makes me tired & he has like tb right? yup

LOL PHYLLIS IS LIKE DO I LOOK SCARED? kicking Fred out the drivers side 😂

“I’m all for persistence in the face of adversity” I loved this scene between Trixie and Roza 😭💕 too bad I didn’t know I was gonna end up sobbing later

Did the nurses and everyone know how bad Apartheid was?

“We have to bloom where we are planted” VANESSA REDGRAVE SAID A VARIATION OF THIS IN THE SERIES 2 CHRISTMAS SPECIAL WHEN MY BBY SHELAGH WAS GETTING READY BEFORE THE WEDDING I REMEMBER  

Damn tho Dr Myra didn’t have to yell at the lady :/

THE SCENERY THOUGH, I WANT TO GO TO SOUTH AFRICA

Phyllis learned some xhosa too and im not surprised, she does it all

“Do you have the means to protect this mother and myself” no, “Then I don’t wish to hear anymore about it” PHYLLIS IS HARDCORE SHE DOES NOT GIVE ANY SHITS I LOVE IT

Aw Tom watching babs with the baby

lol I’m not ready for them to have a kid so I hope they wait a series at least

“NURSE BUCKLE” im cryin laughing 😂 I need more of the Phyllis and Fred dynamic

She just had a baby IN THE MIDDLE OF NO WHERE, YES THE MOTHERS ARE HEROINES

“Hells teeth” lol Patrick tried to make hells bells a thing but we know it can’t compare

Trixie serving another look, but whats new? But yes girl you watch those c-sections you’re up to the plate soon!

Haha she’s gonna teach Babs how to smoke

“They aren’t good for you, and the pair of you should know that” YES PHYLLIS WHY DOESNT TRIXIE KNOW OR CARE?

LOL SISTER WINIFRED we know you’re a red head

Idc, sister W used to smoke. I know it 😂 she was living it up before joining the order and lowkey while she’s been a nun, I just want to know her real name?

Of course Shelagh is worried about the lack of records but aye there’s the dress from 6.03 that magically fit even though her uniform didn’t 🙃?

“Typhoo, we brought it with us” YES I HAVE IT & I KNOW WHAT IT IS NOW & CAN RELATE

This scene with Roza & Constance & the nurses + sister W was so sweet I loved it 💕

“Why you should never be sorry, just be glad” 😭😭 there must be something in my eye that’s why it’s watery

Lol aw Trixie saying sister Winifred don’t go yet

Sister Winifred dancing 😂 go to compline

I lowkey have the sister Bernadette unhappy with being a nun vibes from sister Winifred except she’s never really unhappy? You get me? Like she’s annoyingly enthusiastic (in a cute way) most of the time but you can tell she wants to do thing nuns can’t do

“I just want to get it started so I can run him over”  DO IT FRED ILL GIVE U $5

“I’m here on a missionary basis, I’m trying not to think uncharitable thoughts” LOL DONT WORRY TOM, SHELAGH’s GOT YOU COVERED

“I’m perfectly happy to think them for you” and she pushes her glasses up 😂 I LOVE The sas. I love her. & then Patrick is like “that’s my girl” & it’s cute af

Dr Myra you’re in pain, I see you

LMAO SHE MAD THAT SISTER FELICITY DIED LIKE SHE MADE THE CHOICE?

“I don’t believe in any of that” how do you tell a nun you don’t believe in God lol?

CHURCH LIT 💃🏼👏🏼

SHELAGH & SISTER WINIFRED TRYING TO COPY THEIR DANCE IS THE CUTEST THING 😭

All of them in the back of the truck is  the second cutest thing 😭✨

I cherish the two seconds Shelagh and Trixie sat next to each other 😭 I just want them to be friends!! give me a cute scene between them pls, I won��t stop asking till I get one

yikes @ the water, STILL RELEVANT IN 2017! even in the US in flint

THE ELEPHANTS! ah love it. I want to go on an African safari 😭 guess I have to settle for the fake on in Disney’s Animal Kingdom.. it’s lit though I won’t lie

Mathias and Able 💔💔 and Patrick explaining “man to man”

“All medicine is good, usually” UGH THE THALIDOMIDE

No Dr Myra!!

It’s not liver cancer!! Ah now to wait till they realize

“There’s never no hope at all Patrick, it’s 1962” YES SHELAGH, THERE IS ALWAYS HOPE. ESPECIALLY CAUSE YOU’RE HAVING A FREAKING BABY, #LETSGETIT1962

Don’t worry Tom, leave it to the pros. Sister Julienne is gonna handle Mr Stark(e)?

SHELAGH WITH THE GOATS IM DEAD, why is she scared of goats but delivered fucking piglets in series 1? I’d be more scared of pigs?

Shelagh talking to sister MJ on the phone 😭💕 THEYRE BOTH PRECIOUS

fuck it’s Roza, brb im gonna cry now

😰😰💔💔 phantom pregnancy

Trixie hurting me more

beach time 🌞🌞

SHELAGH TURNER AKA SISTER BERNADETTE SERVING LOOKS ON THE BEACH. I’ve seen this 3 times and I’m still shook like The hat, the swimsuit, the sunglasses, I am d e a d once again😍😍 when will your fav ever??  She’s sunburnt and still killing it

LOL spicy sausage.. 

Phyllis in trousers >>

Also Phyllis had her camera where are the photos when they get back?

BEATRIX FRANKLIN SLAYING IN the black two piece and clubmasters AGAIN, when will your fav ever?

HOW DO I GET TO LOOK LIKE THAT? 😭😭😍😍

How am I so attached to Trixie and Shelagh’s characters like wtf?? Everything they do and say and wear, I’m just shook all the time. It’s not normal

Like Laura Main and Helen George could literally punch me in the face and I’d thank them

Why did Barbara get so mad on the beach with Tom? I feel the stress was real but damn

lol shoutout to everyone on Tumblr for pointing out that Shelagh and Patrick were being cute in the corner watching the sunset or whatever

I loved this scene between Tom and Trixie💕

MY BBY HAS COME SO FAR, SHE’S GROWN AND SHE IS THRIVING. LIKE SHE’S ABOUT TO PERFORM A DAMN C-SECTION 😭

also she looks so beautiful, I want to look like that ah😍

Shelagh with the picture of Tim and Angela 😭💔💔

THEN SHE TOOK IS TO THE HOSPITAL UGH, so glad that is over it was too much

“I knew that yearning once, I was lucky because it left me when we adopted our daughter..” UGH CRYIN AND NOW SHE’S HAVING A BABY ANYWAY

BUT I LOVED THIS SCENE AS WELL

Shelagh is understanding & not judgmental of Dr Myra and I just love seeing her nursing & well I love everything she does but I’m so glad she had such great screen time

FRED DOING THE HAND MOTIONS FOR WHAT TOM WAS SAYING LMAO

“Medicine isn’t about doing what’s easy, it’s about doing what’s essential” yes Patrick, we have come full circle

there’s always a moment when I watch ctm and I’m like “I should’ve tried to become a nurse” then I’m like LOL NAH. The nursing program is so intense at my university I wouldn’t pass it anyway 😂

my mother’s a nurse though, I’ll leave it to her. After watching this episode it reminded her of how she always wanted to do a mission trip or like nurses without boarders and was trying to tell my dad she still wants to go 😂

too bad I’ve ruined her plans because my university’s tuition is ungodly & I didn’t get one damn scholarship

“No anesthesia” DR MYRA IS NO JOKE, kick ass woman.

Patrick, Shelagh and Sister J aka the dream team

How did they fake this? So crazy

“When people have no love to live for, it’s so very easy to fill that void with hate” 💔💔 something is in my eye again😭

“ Look where we ended up” “WE HAVEN’T ENDED UP ANYWHERE..and I’m not going to say anything else because I’m afraid I may speak sharply and no matter how high the stakes you don’t deserve that” HELL YEA SHELAGH, I’m so proud.

Sister W casually trying to not look at the handsome but sweaty Tom

Oh shit Dr Myra’s down

CORRA SHELAGH

Shelagh holding the umbrella and laying in the back with Dr Myra >>

Now Constance’s going into labor

Mr Stark I know you think you have a reason to be an asshole but wtf she’s a nun? Like you don’t even feel slightly disrespectful?

“I know what is it to have nothing but a photograph or two..” UGH THAT EPISODE WITH SISTED J’S OLD BOYFRIEND KILLED ME

I love Sister Julienne, I hope we can see hear more of her past.

Lol pbs cut that scene of Babs singing but why?

“Then we have no choice. We have to operate ourselves.” YOU CAN DO IT TRIXIE

the first time watching this my anxiety was on 1000

Phyllis tying up Trixie’s gown up like they’re suiting up for battle

I KNOW WHAT HAPPENS AND IM STILL NERVOUS

THE BABY IS STUCK LIKE I WOULDVE FREAKED TF OUT

this is also why I won’t be a nurse or doctor lol, I’m always panicking

BABS PUSH THE BABY BACK UP

AYE GRACIAS DIOS, ALL IS WELL

“Well done Trixie, I couldn’t be more proud of you” 😭💕 me either

Yea I say you earned a cigarette

Better late than never to make amends I guess, but get that clean water going asap no rocky

The Turners are back 👏🏼

THE CAKE TIN 😭😭

& Able and Mathias 😭😭

Aw Tom proposing ☺️ I don’t really feel anything for them as a couple but this was a cute moment 😭

SHELAGH AND PATRICK GIVING TIM’S LEG BRACES TO MATHIAS AH MY HEART

And they got the water 😭

I LIED BEFORE EVERYONE JUMPING UNDER THE WATER PUMP IS THE CUTEST THING😭💕👏🏼✨

“Not all gifts come tied in ribbons, or at a special time of year. Some blessings surprise us arriving unlabeled and we embrace them in a blaze of joy” DAMN IT VANNESSA IM CRYIN THANKS (also now it seems like foreshadow for baby Turner)

Roza as secretary!! My heart again

I bet Trixie took over like a badass while Dr Myra was recovering

THE GOATS HAHA

PHYLLIS TAKING ALL THOSE PHOTO’S AT THE END IS THE GREATEST PART 😭💖 IM SO HAPPY AND MY HEART GROWS LIKE THE GRINCH EVERY TIME I WATCH THIS SHOW

LOL THE NUNS GOT PHOTOBOMBED BY A CHICKEN

AND CUE REDGRAVE

“But though they’d given their labor and their love, they also took and they learned and they went home wiser, enriched in ways they could not count”

The End 😭😭💕💕😰😰

Ugh I don’t care, that special was spectacular and I loved every minute.

[ehlersdanlo]

All the questions you want to answer

Spotify, SoundCloud, or Pandora? spotify duh

is your room messy or clean? my room is horribly messy

what color are your eyes? green

do you like your name? why? my name is okay, i guess

what is your relationship status? single

describe your personality in 3 words or less. stubborn and curmudgeonly

what color hair do you have? dark brown!

what kind of car do you drive? color? i normally don’t have a car, but when i’m home, ya girl drives a beige toyota avalon

where do you shop? i mostly shop online and at aerie

how would you describe your style? i would describe my style as comfy/casual art ho! my usual outfit consists of a pair of black leggings, a graphic t(or a plain t shirt), w a long sweater, colorful socks, and black doc martens

favorite social media account? tumblr probs

what size bed do you have? at home, i have a double, at college i have a single

any siblings? i have one sister

if you can live anywhere in the world where would it be? why? probably amsterdam, paris, madrid, or barcelona!!

favorite snapchat filter? the star one!!

favorite makeup brand(s): concealer: narsfoundation: urban decay nakedmascara: diorbrows: anastasia beverly hills eyeshadow: too faced

how many times a week do you shower? probably 5-6 times

favorite tv show? futurama, rupaul’s drag race, mystery science theater 3000, stranger things, planet earth, htgawm, etc.

shoe size? 9

how tall are you? 5"5

sandals or sneakers? neither! boots

do you go to the gym? no, but i’m gonna start!!

describe your dream date! we smoke weed, order pizza, then we have sex tbh

how much money do you have in your wallet at the moment? i have no money i’m poor

what color socks are you wearing? tie dye

how many pillows do you sleep with? as many as possible

do you have a job? what do you do? nope, i’m a student

how many friends do you have? 7 that i love

whats the worst thing you have ever done? my dad and i got in a fight and some things were said by both of us and i still think about the result of that fight all the time

whats your favorite candle scent? vanilla, lilac, and apple!

3 favorite boy names: Simon, Leo, Max

3 favorite girl names: Ava, Mollie, Zoe

do you have a nickname? what is it? my friends call me liv and ollie, my cousin calls me kickflip

how many times have you been to the hospital? twice

top 10 favorite songs? not in order btw1) cocoa hooves/glass animals2)springtime in new york/watsky 3)sugar water/cibo matto4)two weeks/grizzly bear5)diamond heart/lady gaga6)the less i know the better/tame impala7)buzzcut season/lorde8) don’t be nice/watsky 9)surfin/kid cudi 10)blue/marina and the diamonds

do you take any medications daily? zoloft, luvox, zyrtec, and adderall

what is your skin type? (oily, dry, etc) i have extremely dry skin

what is your biggest fear? spiders, i hate cliffs/edges w no railings, that everyone i love will stop loving me

how many kids do you want? currently none

whats your go to hair style? i leave my hair down or in a messy bun

what type of house do you live in? (big, small, etc) my dorm is tiny, but my home is average size

who is your role model?

what was the last compliment you received?

what was the last text you sent? i texted @artichokemesexuallythat her niece is gonna have good music taste

how old were you when you found out santa wasn’t real? 8 years old

what is your dream car? a red/black rav4 with good gas mileage

opinion on smoking? i’m fine w it, i understand that people need the habit, and i’m not gonna judge anyone who does it

do you go to college? yep

what is your dream job? ideally i would help charities or possibly political candidates get their message across

would you rather live in rural areas or the suburbs? i’d rather live in the city but if i have to choose i’ll live in the suburbs

do you take shampoo and conditioner bottles from hotels? yes

do you have freckles? i have a couple of them sprinkled all over my body

do you smile for pictures? w family yes, w friends, no

how many pictures do you have on your phone? 524

have you ever peed in the woods? yes lmao

do you still watch cartoons? yes

do you prefer chicken nuggets from Wendy’s or McDonalds? mcdonalds DUH

Favorite dipping sauce? ranch bc i’m white

what do you wear to bed? a t shirt and undies

have you ever won a spelling bee? yeah i was that kid

what are your hobbies? i draw!

can you draw? yeah i think so

do you play an instrument? nope

what was the last concert you saw? tea or coffee?

Starbucks or Dunkin Donuts? starbucks

do you want to get married? not really

what is your crush’s first and last initial? i don’t have a crush

are you going to change your last name when you get married? idk if i’ll get married

what color looks best on you? black, gray, and forest green

do you miss anyone right now? yes! i miss riley so much!!

do you sleep with your door open or closed? closed

do you believe in ghosts? i don’t not believe in them if that makes sense??

what is your biggest pet peeve?

last person you called? my mom

favorite ice cream flavor? cake batter from coldstone

regular oreos or golden oreos? both

chocolate or rainbow sprinkles? rainbow

what shirt are you wearing? my el coyote restaurant shirt

what is your phone background? my dog 💕

are you outgoing or shy? i’m outgoing when you get to know me

do you like it when people play with your hair? YES

do you like your neighbors? yeah they’re cool

do you wash your face? at night? in the morning? night 🌙

have you ever been high? … yes

have you ever been drunk? yeah but i don’t have as much fun compared to when i get high

summer or winter? winter

day or night? night

dark, milk, or white chocolate? milk

favorite month? november

what is your zodiac sign? capricorn

who was the last person you cried in front of? either laura or riley i don’t remember