#but I am unemployed for a while and considering opening commissions

[kurogane2512]

Here's a suggestion for you, sis. How about boss Jade x assistant reader(male) where she gives you a lap pillow while stroking your shaft and gently squeezing your balls till you cum.

Also, I really feel like giving you a donation since you write so much good stuff for us. Feel free to drop a donation link if you're comfortable with it.

That's very thoughtful of you man, thank you for that. I have thought of doing commissions in the past so as to have some savings while I'm unemployed, but the issue is the payment method. I tried looking into Patreon but it doesn't seem to work well here, my country imposes stricter laws on these online international payments so idk if there's a good platform. If you have any option then I'll very likely accept the idea since it'll help me a lot! And here's your request below~

NSFW AHEAD || Jade x male!Reader || Smut and Fluff

You rushed through the IPC's corridors the entire day, fulfilling all your tasks and requests as assigned by your boss. Finally, you had a moment of rest now. You were about to go to the rest area when you received a text from your boss asking you to come to her office as soon as possible. You sighed and texted her back saying you'll be there in a minute and made your way over, hoping she wasn't going to assign you another mountainload of work.

"Lady Jade, it's me." you knocked the office door before going in. Your boss wasn't seated at her table as usual, instead you found her sitting on the couch on the right with a cup of tea in her hand.

"Ah, Y/n, as punctual as ever. Come here, have a seat~" Jade softly smiled and patted the place beside her. You blushed for a moment then nodded and walked to her side then sat down keeping some distance between you two. Your boss was beautiful and alluring, and nobody knew the special relationship you had with her as on surface you were just her assistant.

"I gather all the tasks have been completed for the day, hm?" Jade asked while sipping on her tea.

"O-Oh, yes ma'am. I already made a report as well. Should I show—"

"Shh~" Jade placed her index finger on your lips, stopping you from speaking further. Your heart pounded in your chest feeling her intense gaze at you, a pair of light blue eyes looking at you with lust. The same finger now slid down your body, tracing your skin intricately.

"You have done everything as I wanted, not disappointing me in the slightest...." Jade leaned close to you, speaking in a hushed tone. Her finger teased as it roamned over your abdomen, finding the right opportunity to slip inside your shirt.

"I think a reward is in line, a well-deserved one...." her finger now grazed your crotch before palming it, a muffled groan leaving your throat.

"You fulfilled my desires, it's time I fulfill yours~"

This meant she was letting you choose instead of doing what she felt like. Many things occurred in your mind, there was so much you could ask for but only one thing continuously came in your mind. It was an embarrassing request and you felt she'd be disappointed. Jade sensed your inner turmoil and gently placed her other hand on your face, lightly caressing it.

"Are you really feeling shy at this point? Well, I am good at being patient but I don't think you can be considering your state down here~"

You looked down to see a prominent bulge in your pants and Jade's hand still palming it, gently rubbing it up and down. She came even closer to you making her body press into yours, her breasts squishing against your chest as she leaned near your ear to whisper.

"Come on, say what's on your mind like a good boy~"

Your dick twitched at her words and the way she said them, straining in your pants and begging to be freed. You finally gave in and confessed your thoughts. You expected Jade to disagree and send you away, but she simply chuckled and kissed your cheek in response.

"That's all? I can't see how that is a fair reward for all your hard work, but if it'll please you then I have no problems. Come here~"

She opened her arms and you practically lunged forward to embrace her, breathing in her relaxing sweet scent and burying your face in her chest. Frankly, you were tired and wanted to rest. You too had more things you desired but for now, just being able to rest was the best reward your could ask for. You then let go and moved down to place your head on her lap, your eyes looking up at her smiling face.

Jade certainly didn't expect you to ask for something so....simple, she was prepared for a rough evening but she found this quite pleasant. Her left hand roamed down to unbutton your pants and zip down your flyer to fish out your erect shaft, some pre-cum already staining the tip. She smirked and licked her lips at the sight before gently grasping your length.

You stared up at her breasts then pulled down her coat followed by her bra to expose them, kneading the mounds of flesh while she fisted your cock. Her right hand caressed your head, ruffling through your hair and petting it in soothing motions. Her left hand moved up and down your shaft in slow and languid strokes at first, smearing the pre-cum all over for ease of movement.

You leaned up slightly and placed your lips around her nipple, a soft sigh coming out of her. Her right hand now placed under your head and supported you as your tongue flicked over her bud and sucked it. She grasped your cock tighter now and stroked it faster, noticing the way it twitched and was ready to burst. Her fingers moved down to massage your sac, gently rubbing your balls and feeling how full they were.

"Mmm.... quite pent-up, weren't you? Is it because of all the work I gave you today?~"

"N-No, I don't mind the work.... But yes, I haven't got much time for rest, ngh~"

"You should have told me. I have said to speak about your worries and problems to me, haven't I?"

"Yes.... aah.... I just didn't want to burden you in return, I like working for you...."

"Hehe, always a sweet talker. If words could be exchanged for credit then I likely wouldn't be able to pay you back~"

You groaned as you sucked her breast and kneaded the other one, her hand stroked you faster now and in no time you bucked your hips into her palm and released spurts of cum all over. You let go of her breasts and panted on her lap as your cum shot out, staining her hand and some drops falling on your belly. You were about to apologize but your eyes widened as you watched her lick away all of your cum on her hand.

The sight was erotic, the way her tongue licked up every drop and savored it made you turned on more than anything. Her eyes stared back at you as she licked, a lustful gaze staring right into your soul and making you entranced. She looked at how hard your cock still was and smirked.

"Well, shall we indulge in more of your desires tonight?~"

[babblable]

Haha. Welp!

So this year has been abhorrent for me and my household in many different ways! However, to keep a long story short:

I had a horrible meltdown at work last month due to a build up of stress, severe fibromyalgia flares, positively SHITTY managers and quit my job. I just couldn't do it anymore there. Especially not when said managers responded poorly to my distress and it took a manager from a different shift and another manager from a COMPLETELY DIFFERENT STORE to finally calm me down enough for me to be safe going home.

I am now unemployed.

My household and I are moving to a better, more spacious and accessible place of living.

That said....

My bills for October are paid and I don't have to worry about being homeless or hungry while I look for another job or get other accommodations figured out. However, November bills onward are not feasible for me right now with.... 38$ in my bank account, especially not when I still have to pay for getting to and from job interviews. Bus fares ain't cheap and apparently our bus fare system here is changing???? god. And syringes for my Testosterone cost money too. not much, but it all adds up.

I'm primarily worried about my phone bill, as without that, I cannot get transportation to my doctors appointments, which means I can't get the medications or mobility aid I need to keep my disabilities managed nor can my providers contact me in case of changes and vice versa. It also means potential employers can't contact me.

I do have to pay back what I owe the rest of my household members for my portions of rent, down payments and loan payments that they're covering for me until I find a job or other form of accommodation. I'd like to keep that as small as possible so I can build my savings back up. ;w;

How to help!

During this time, once I've applied to a slew of places, I'm spending the rest of my free time finishing the commissions I've had queued for a while. I'm also streaming a variety of content and doing art in general that I post here after each piece is done! I write too, but not quite as much. Still, if you like any of what I do, be it art, videos, streaming or writing, consider helping out a disabled genderqueer lil guy by buying me a coffee!

Once I'm done with my current set of commissions and update my sheet, I'll open up commissions again and keep you all updated on that!

It's also totally okay if you can't help financially! believe me, I get it. It'll help just as much to spread this around! Any help is appreciated, ;w;b <3

[tyzzieee]

opened an artistree so commissions are more convenient on both ends! please consider checking it out and reblogging to help me out, i am currently unemployed so art will be my only source of income for a while

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[trixree]

Re: My Fanfic & Commissions

I have to come clean gang... I made a big massive stinking fucking oopsie.

Last summer, I took on a 25k word fanfic commission that I still haven't finished because my life exploded on me and just would not stop exploding on me. A masters degree, two dearly missed deceased pets, multiple major medical emergencies, and one move later, I have the space to be a Human Person again with Hobbies, hence my return to tumblr and to fandom spaces.

My thoughts at this time are as follows: I fucked up with this commission. I did not complete it as promised. I am going to finish it by the end of this month. By golly, I fucking will. Not only do I WANT to finish it because I think it slaps, but I owe it to the commissioner to follow the fuck through. And going forward, I don't think I should be taking big commissions again. My health and my life are too unpredictable and it isn't fair to you folks to jerk ya around to the silly little jester tune of my failing corpse.

I considered just saying blanket that I won't be taking commissions at all ever again, but honestly? I'm currently unemployed and disabled. Writing is one of the few skills I've got. So I wanted to solicit yall for your thoughts:

(Also feel free to make any other suggestions in the replies)

Something else I'm hoping to do within the next week or so here is to go through the backlog of comments on existing fics (about 700 or so since I last checked). Thank you immensely to anyone who has commented on my shit in the past year. While I haven't been in a place to really read your comments without feeling like a fraud in absolutely every way imaginable, each one of them is very important to me and I love you all dearly for leaving them.

To that commissioner last year - I messaged you on Discord with the existing draft - I owe you such a big apology. I hope the eventual product will be at least partially worth the wait! For others: it's a One Piece non-traditional soulmate dreamsharing AU, Luffy/Zoro/Sanji, rated E. Keep your peepers peeled for it!

[newtwhisker]

URGENT HELP NEEDED TO GET MYSELF AND MY PARTNER OUT OF OUR TOXIC HOUSEHOLDS

I only ever made a post for a fursuit that is already taken but I’m in a pretty desperate situation and I hate to be begging for help but things are getting bad.

For those who don’t know, my name is Alex, I’m a 23 year old trans and latine vet tech student. I am currently working as a receptionist at a vet hospital, but I am still studying for my technician license. I was unemployed from February to June, I was let go because my last job was so traumatizing I had to be driven to the ER due to suicidal ideation, and my manager was not cooperating with my mental health needs. Due to being unemployed for those months I basically have no funds in savings. And now, in the start of July (of course on my birthday) I had to have a $890 car repair, and then towards the end (July 27th) I had gotten into an accident that took $2,000 to repair, and I am also attending weekly physical therapy sessions to manage the pain from that accident (I also have a concussion to top that off).

In addition to this all, I am quickly losing any support I had from my family. While I am lucky enough to still be housed by my parents, they have been extremely damaging to my mental health. My therapist has told me she considers them to be emotionally abusive, as do my friends. My parents are manipulative and guilt-tripping at their best and it’s getting to the point that I no longer feel safe in my own home. Despite dealing with anxiety my whole life, I did not start to have full blown panic attacks where I could not breathe until the last 2 months, and on all occasions they have been caused by my parents. My partner is also living in a very toxic home environment, and we are both looking into getting our own apartment potentially with roommates to cut down on rent costs.

As a result I am selling two of my full partial fursuits, I have commissions open on Ko-fi, and if you do have any inquires or questions you are more than welcome to DM me. I am really trying to get out of this environment and have all my debt paid as soon as possible, so any shares are greatly appreciated.

[stanchez-sloppy-seconds]

Hi! I was wondering if you do commissions at all?

Not currently, cause things are a bit too busy for it for the next month or so. But I have been considering it for in the near future if enough people would be interested in that? Leave a comment and let me know?

[hoverdreamer]

Emergency Commissions!!!! (Final Update: January 1st, 2023; Closed!)

FINAL UPDATE:

Sorry for the long silence, it’s been hard to make this post with the state of my old laptop. It’s been a long road, but we’re finally doing alright! We recovered from covid, got jobs, and now everyone has moved out of the house we were in. I can’t thank those of you who helped out by commissioning, donating, and reblogging enough. While I am closing all commissions for now (I’m getting a desktop computer I can draw on in soon), my regular-priced commissions will make a return this year! I still have a few emergency commissions to post (including a big one for my bf that I’m still finishing, bless him for his patience) but otherwise am over this hurdle. The original details of the post will be under the cut. Wishing you all a wonderful new year! c:

I’ll keep this as short as possible: I just recovered from covid, but (although it doesn’t seem any of them caught it from me) the vast majority of my household now also tested positive. My mom has MS and couldn’t work even beforehand, and my brother is the only one with any sort of reliable income at the moment. I have a job interview in a few days, but our bills are past due and utilities could shut off at any time. A room in our basement flooded with sewage and contractors have been in and out of the house basically ripping up the whole basement... it’s just been a lot. 

My sibling and I are opening emergency commissions to see if we can help make ends meet this month (his post is here, check out his tiered commissions!). Any donations would also be appreciated, but I will draw something for anyone who gives $5 USD or more. If for whatever reason I don’t feel comfortable drawing what you’d like to request, let’s talk over what I can draw for you instead! Please DM me or email me at tks.fritz@gmail.com for questions or to communicate what you’d like! I can also accept e-transfers, though I’ll need prior communication so I can give you the correct email! Thank you so much for reading! 

Paypal: tks.fritz@gmail.com 

Some sample art (more available at my art blog, @potetheart​): 

UPDATE: My mom made a gofundme page, please consider reading more here! 

UPDATE 2: 

This morning our car got t-boned in an intersection and no longer goes. This also means that our secondary (read: should always have been primary) source of income is gone, as well as our main access to groceries. I am still unemployed and waiting to hear back from a couple of jobs, but am practically helpless from my end. I’m still working on a few commissions, but if you’re able to help in any way my family and I would greatly appreciate it. 

UPDATE 3: 

A lot has happened over the past month, including another covid case, but now a few of us are employed (though I won’t actually be working for another week or two). While I’m not convinced that we’re on solid ground yet, I am feeling more hopeful thanks to the generous donations and commissions we’ve received so far. Once my job starts up I won’t have quite as much time to dedicate to doing commissions (and if the demand gets too high I’ll shut them off and update this post) but for now it’s still about the only thing I can do, so if you can and are willing to commission me or my sibling (see the link to his post above in the main part of the post) we’d love to draw you something! If you’d just like to help, my paypal is above the pictures in this post and my mom’s gofundme is below them, but you can contact me to get a picture out of it too! 

[twotiime2]

Hi there! My name is Sin and I’m gonna do some e-begging.

I AM OFFERING $10 FULLY LINED AND COLORED (NOT SHADED) COMMISSIONS LIKE THOSE BELOW, so that I have any money while I am unemployed for the next month and my final paychecks are going toward COVID treatments.

Please consider commissioning! My asks are open but not for anons, let’s trade discord handles or DMs for details. (Pictures below include skeletons, alcohol, tricksters, clowns, shirtless AMAB individuals, eye strain.)

[sheepwithspecs]

Hello everyone:

On November 16, 2021, I left a toxic job. This employer was not only ruining my mental health, but also actively encouraging its employees to ignore state laws by pressuring us to work overtime without pay and forgo our paid breaks. Although I have been unemployed since November, I recently was able to obtain a full-time position in my hometown. While I had hoped that my financial situation would remain stable until I received my first paycheck, that is unfortunately not the case.

Normally, I would open commissions to help cover the costs of bills, groceries, etc. But this new job is going to take up 40+ hours of my time each week. I will no longer have the free time needed to fulfill those commissions—at least, not without charging exorbitant prices for small word counts. I hate to sound desperate, but I am in need of funds for at least 2 weeks’ worth of groceries and gas!

If you have ever read and enjoyed the work I create, please consider donating! Even as little as 1-3 dollars could mean the difference between a full stomach and an overdraft charge.

Thank you for reading, and I hope that you have a great rest of your February! Bless!

B.

Ko-Fi Cash App

[grifalinas]

Hey guys! I’m currently unemployed and opening up commissions while I look for a new job!

Examples of my work can be found on my Pillowfort @ grifalinas, or through my art tag on tumblr pirate draws stuff.

I offer headshots, upper body, and full body, color and no color, basic and complex backgrounds, and book covers both full cover front and back and small album-style covers.

Price listing:

Headshot: No color 15$ || color 2o$ Upper body: No color 25$ || color 3o$ Full body: No color 35$ || color 4o$

Add a background: Basic 5$ || Complex 2o$

(If you’re wondering about the disparity, this is because a basic background takes like five minutes and a complex background is a full drawing in its own right)

Want a cover for your book or fanfic?

Album-style: 15$ Book cover: Front cover 2o$ || Front and Back 25$

(Back cover will require you to provide a short 3-8 sentence summary. I can offer both standard digital and wattpad cover sizes. There is no difference in price between the sizes.)

I am willing to take on nonhuman figures; prices may be higher for a figure type I have less/no experience with. This will be negotiated at the time of request.

I do not offer nsfw or gore. I reserve the right to refuse any commission based on factors I have no previously considered.

If you have any questions or comments, feel free to contact me here, or through one of my other available channels.

[w-e-r-e-wolves]

Hey guys

So, I would like to start thanking everyone who’s been reblogging my art and my commissions post, it really means a lot and warms my heart, thank you all very much.

Now I need to tell you whats been going on with me in hopes of getting help.TW: I will be talking about suicide.

 So in the start of 2020 I was living in another state and I had a job after many years of being unemployed, after a couple months the pandemic hitted and the factory closed for a week and a half (other countries closed for months and my partner stayed at home for a month and then worked only part time) I was terrifiyed, both because I was affraid of the virus and also because the majority of the people I was working with either didnt care or belivied in it (the very owner of the place refused to wear her mask over her nose), we were forced back to work after that, i developed severe anxiety because I was working in these conditions, I was tired all the time, didnt sleep and was always crying, I had anxiety attacks while working and couldnt stop what I was doing, I was in the middle of a factory floor crying, feeling like I was going to pass out from 8am to 6pm, it felt like hell, so I talked to my partner and I quitted, but the damage had been done and I’ve never been the same anymore, the anxiety still here along with depression, I can’t go anywere without somebody with me cause I have anxiety attacks and still (with someone acompaning me) I get extremily nervous, I had to exit stores multiple times because I feel like I will passout. I came back to my home state a few months ago and things have not been good, we came back jobless with few savings and me in need of treatmeant. Since I’ve been here i’ve attempted suicide two times, the most recent attempt was a couple days before the commissions post, my partner of almost 10 years left and i’ve been really lost since. He was helping me with my treatmeant and accompanying me to doctors appointments and he was all the financial support I had. After he left, I got really desperate, like I said, I have 5 dogs and 3 cats, luckily I dont pay rent, but I have utillities to pay for and a mom that i need to support (she’s almost 60), so I opened commissions despite being something I said I would never do, drawing to me was a hobbie and I didnt want to make it something like a “”job”” to feel pressured and to be judged by, and as much as it makes me really happy that you reblogged and liked my art unfortunally its been like a week and I have no requests and my situation is getting direr, so if you didnt like my art but maybe you can help please, I will take any donation at this point, a dollar comes a long way in Brasil, so if you can help please message me so we can figure out how to do it, for some reason I dont have a paypal.me link or cant figure out how to make one, so maybe I can send you a invoice, if I there is no commission requests I will be selling my computer (I already listed my phone for sell) I need to be able to hold things off until I get a job and right now I am pennyless. If you read til here thank you, please consider reblogging and boosting if you can.

[ladygwyndolin]

Rachel’s Emergency Writing Commissions Are Open!

Hey, it’s me! Rachel! That one girl who co-wrote Heart of the Woods!

Sooooooooo...long story short, I’m unemployed right now, which isn’t great. while I look for a new job, I’m going to try and rely on commissions to keep me afloat! As such, I’ll be switching to emergency pricing this time around and reducing costs across the board because I really can’t afford to turn anyone away right now. I’ve provided all the juicy details below, but feel free to contact me here or on twitter (twitter.com/cybirdpunk) if you have any questions or want to purchase a slot! Otherwise, a signal boost would be very much appreciated!

IF YOU’D LIKE TO SUPPORT ME BUT DON’T WANT A COMMISSION, KO-FI DONATIONS ARE ALWAYS APPRECIATED: https://ko-fi.com/cybirdpunk

PRICING:

$40/1k words for fanfic, OC writing, or purely original content

NO EXTRA CHARGE FOR 18+ CONTENT (but tips are always appreciated regardless of content!)

Minor research fee for unfamiliar properties or characters may apply (but won’t come to more than $5 at the absolute maximum)

$20-30 per hour for consultation work; workshopping, editorial overview, proofreading, etc. (I really wish I could put this lower, but I can’t afford to charge below the base industry rate)

Maximum of 4k words per commission!

Payment via Paypal, Venmo, or Ko-Fi is accepted!

Availability:

There will be 5 writing slots open at one time. Once all 5 are filled, commissions will close until I’ve cleared all 5 of them out.

Consultation work is not limited to one of those slots, but is decided on a case-by-case basis depending on time commitment.

First come, first served!

Content I am willing to write:

Heart of the Woods fanfic (although it won’t be considered canon)

OCs

Furry

Kink NSFW (if portrayed healthily)

Gore/Horror

AU

Original Work

Nonfiction

Extra familiar with content from the following series: Dark Souls/Bloodborne/Sekiro (my personal favorite) , Hunter x Hunter, Death Note, PMMM, Sailor Moon, Half-Life, Fallout, The Elder Scrolls, Dragon Ball, Sonic the Hedgehog, DC Comics, etc. (I’m probably forgetting some, so feel free to ask!)

Content I am NOT willing to write:

Noncon

Incest

Pedophilia

Bestiality

Abuse

Scat/Vomit

General bigotry

IRL People

Whew! That was a lot, so I hope you’re still with me! If you are, thank you for taking the time to read up on the details! If you’re interested, just shoot me a message and we can figure something out!!!! Otherwise, signal boosting is greatly appreciated! Have an awesome day :D

[sunnflowershowers]

Writing Commissions!!

Hello! This is the first time I’ve done this on my blog, but I gotta come up with 30$ so I can keep my car, and I’m currently unemployed while trying to find another job and dealing with my depression, so here we go!

I am opening up 3 slots for writing commissions. My rates are 10$ per 1k words, with a 10$ minimum, and NSFW is a 20% increase in price, as that tends to take more time. I am comfortable with most ships and kinks, as well as content. If you would like me to write a fic for you to post and claim as your own, the minimum price is 30$ as I would be giving up my rights to my work. 

I am comfortable writing CanonxCanon, CanonxOc, or CanonxReader. If I am not aware of a ship or character, just give me a rundown and i’ll be happy to learn about them to suit your needs. 

My AO3 account can be found Here. Lavender and Napalm is what I consider my best work right now, and I am well aware that I need to update my fics, but due to my past work schedule, I have been unable to.

You can also find a link to one of my NSFW works Here. Just a warning, this is heavily NSFW and it involves some monstery stuff as well. 

I hope to hear from you soon! I will update this once my slots are full, and close up my commissions. If you want to commission any sort of cross stitch or crochet project, you are always welcome to message me, but those have their own pricing range that changes, so those have to be handled individually. 

[robogreaser]

This is a Long Time Coming...

It’s been a relatively hard task to sit down and make sense of, well, a lot of things as of late. I could chalk it up to the state of the world, but it’s been troublesome for significantly longer than that.

Long Story Short Version: I’ve been in a hell of a place, mentally, physically, and otherwise.

The proper story is a hell of a lot more involved than that and I know damned right well it’s going to take me a fair bit to explain myself and my various professional and social failings over the past... while. I’m gonna try to contain this under a read more, of course, but I apologize to mobile users if tumblr fucks that up.

Okay. That took a fair more bit of effort to figure out than I remember. Which, I suppose, is a fair enough bit of a segue into one thing that’s happened to me.

Tumblr has been deteriorating.

Whether I like to admit it or not, tumblr has been my go to social media platform since... 2011. Yeah. I’ve spent the vast majority of the decade here. I’ve seen a lot. Sure, I’ve lurked elsewhere, but I really cannot stand the interface and nature of a lot of other social media, especially the likes of twitter. Unfortunately for me, this place has been in constant decline for years now at this point. It extends well beyond the porn ban, but that’s a whole separate discussion.

I’ve lost touch with a lot of people I care about, some vanishing into the ether, some ghosting me, some just drifting into other communities or onto other sites. I’ve come to terms with the majority of this. It’s been happening for a while. It’s the very nature of digital relationships. It hurt, and I do think it’s contributed to a fair bit of stress and depression that has resulted in my... withdrawal from online spaces. It’s not a major factor, but its here, it’s present, it’s a factor in all of this.

I’ll be honest in that, well, I’ve tried to make this post several times over the past several weeks and months. It’s hard. Talking about my issues, using ‘I’ and ‘me’ so much in a post... it’s a bit jarring. But I’ll try to suck it up.

It’s been ten years (god I fucking hate time) since I’ve graduated high school. Yeah. It’s a fair thing to say that, on reflection, that’s incredibly jarring. The vast majority of that time has been... relatively unstable. I spent a fair few years working on my book and my publishing journey, now all but scrubbed clean from this blog (more on that later) and... well... Trying to be an adult. I’ve applied to, gotten accepted, and had to withdrawn from my dream school twice in this time. I’ve had a fair few jobs, nothing worthy of my resume, and lost all of them in one form or another, whether being fired for retaliating to my shitty work conditions, or, well, quitting for the sake of my own health during this pandemic. There has been a lot of family troubles. I’ve been through a lot of... ‘varied’ living situations, some horrendous, some just stressful, some, like now, actually really good compared to the others. And for the past few years in particular, it’s been constantly one thing after another, nonstop.

In short, progress is slow, but it’s happening. I don’t care to delve into a lot of these sorts of personal details lest this get to a ridiculous length, but that’s the short of the stuff I’d rather gloss over.

I’ve been on a health... Let’s call it a journey. I’ve been on a health journey. Over the past few years I’ve gone through the long processes of being diagnosed with ADHD, discussing my options regarding my depression and anxiety, and finally getting myself on a medication regimen that works. And then, because the health care system is a joke, I was without insurance. I had been off my medication, an absolute lifesaver and release of burden on my garbage tier brain, for eighteen months. Until last week. I think it’s fair to say, between my revolving door of living situations, employment, and then being un-medicated in a continually more stressful environment... That this is the main reason I’ve been absent. I’ve had no focus. There were weeks where I had no drive to do anything outside of routine that others depended on. I had not only gone back to how I was before situating my mental health, but in some ways, found a worse state.

Finances have been slowly eating away at me. I had been working a part time retail job until November, which made decent enough money, but not nearly for the amount of work and responsibility I was handling. I got fired. I found work with one of the big, corporate postal services. The pay was phenomenal, but it began to actively destroy my health, mainly physically, but also mentally, especially considering I was working a graveyard shift. Eventually when I began having prolonged health issues there, and then a whole lot of the symptoms of covid-19, on top of them turning me down for an entry-level position outside of the package handling, I had to quit. This was shortly after the lockdowns, in early April, and I refuse to look back despite people like my parents insisting on me trying to get work there again. Sure, the pay was phenomenal compared to anything else I had until then, but I cant continue to sacrifice my health. As of now, I’m unemployed, and... well...

I’m working on my commission queue. It’s art. It’s stuff I’ve owed friends (luckily those who are incredibly understanding and good to me) for an embarrassing amount of time, even before moving to and from Oklahoma at the end of 2016. I’m terrified of being the person who is known for taking commissioners’ money and running.

I know, I’m not good at giving updates. I’m not good at a consistent work schedule. I’ve had numerous tech failings over the past few years that constantly slow my roll on any progress I have made. Hell, I’ve had files corrupt despite being two thirds of the way complete when transferring from one computer to another. I’ve lost my cable for my external hard drive. I’ve had my tablet go to hell and back multiple times. But I am working. I am trying. I am sitting down as often as I can between looking for work and managing family nonsense to try and get my workload tidied up.

Which... brings me to my next point. And one I’m rather... ashamed about.

I have used trello, infrequently, since taking on a large load of commissions, and despite not being faithfully updating it and checking back on it, and using it to it’s fullest potential, I had kept, at the minimum, a list of all the work I did owe people using it. Well. Dumbass me attempted to use a mobile app. In short, in an effort to try and make myself tech literate and allow me easier access to my queue, I ended up deleting it. Somehow.

I’ve gone through and slowly flagged all my paypal notices and various emails concerning my commissions. I’m putting it together again. I’m trying. Granted, I am damned sure I am going to be missing someone, somewhere, somehow. I know it. I’ve got a shit brain, and despite my need for organization and minimalism, I don’t put it past me to have missed something along the way.

If you have commissioned me, please, do not hesitate to reach out and contact me regarding your commission. I owe every last one of you a massive apology for my continued failure to produce what you have paid for.

More likely than not, I have a wip already started somewhere, and if not, I have a slew of reference and thumbnails already compiled together somewhere on my computers. I am not ignoring this work. It’s been painfully, embarrassingly slow. It’s been one obstacle after another. But I have every intention of doing this work, and, likely, upgrading the quality of the finished piece past what my commissioners have paid for simply because I do feel bad about the wait time.

I have been inexcusably unprofessional. I know this and I am working as best I can with the time and resources I have to correct it.

In a similar vein, as I mentioned before, I have slowly been cleaning up my rather unimpressive publishing attempts. I’ve gone through and cleaned this blog recently, deleting reference to my work by name and the process of trying to get myself published. I may have missed a few posts here and there, but for the most part I would like a clean slate in regards to building a social media platform surrounding my written work. And this is the part where... I am probably going to be the most upfront and honest with you reading this than I have been publicly before.

I am not ashamed of who I’ve been online these past ten years or so, but it reflects only a sliver of my personality, a sliver of who I am as a whole. I catered to a very specific subset of who I am in pursuit of finding acceptance in communities much larger than myself. I’ve learned a hell of a lot about myself in that time. I figured out what’s important to me, my health, my sexuality, my relationships and my long term goals. I’ve found a very important group of friends. I’ve found people who understand and empathize with a lot of the things I have been through, experience, and am at my core.

But the fact of the matter is, this hypersexual, sci-fi aesthetic-oriented, very open person is only a singular facet. And it is not nearly enough of a reflection of who I am, or who I want to be as a professional, public adult. Will I always be gay for robots? Yes. Will I, when time permits and creative energies are present, continue to make nsfw art? Absolutely. Will I always have a toe dipped in erotic literature and the like? Most likely.

But a lot of me, a lot of my emotion and strife and feelings regarding most things in the world, are completely separate from this. It’s separate from me liking porn on twitter or having a homestuck roleplay blog. It’s separate from who I am in real life, with my boyfriend or with my family or with my work. And I have been dwelling on this, sincerely, for a while. I need to allocate more energy into my life. The separate life offline and online too, where I am pursuing an actual professional career, because, at the end of the day, I want to be an author. I want to have a career telling stories. And, in my time online, I’ve found a lot of skeletons in authors’ closets, the kind that really put mine to shame, and the kind that will always be a footnote to their work. You know the ones.

I want my creative work to speak for itself. I want people to be able to enjoy what I do without a specter, without my time and energy having to explain to a future audience why it is I had explicit thoughts about x,y, and z. I want to be able to write a book, write many books, and have people enjoy them without a footnote about me, a person with a sexual life and a history exploring it through years of depression and isolation, clouding it. It’s not fair to my work. It’s not fair to a future reader. It’s not fair to me.

I’ve got several social media accounts made and slowly coming to life that I need to spend more time with as I try and pursue this new, second leg of a very long journey into publishing. I’m not going to link those here, now or in the future. It’s likely a few people I know and trust have access to them. But I am, effectively starting over from scratch trying to build a platform as a writer. And it’s hard. Juggling that, alongside all of the things in the world today, alongside family and my relationships, alongside my commission queue? It bears down on me and if I didn’t have experience handling more than one thing at a time, I might trip up more frequently. Hell, I forget to post and use those new accounts regularly.

But I’m trying.

I’m not moving away from my current social circles or hobbies or anything like that. I’m not abandoning any fandom or friends or communities. But I am going to be trying to balance myself more thoughtfully moving forward, past just commissions, past just writing.

I’m here. I’m moving forward, slowly but surely, and I am making an effort to improve.

[victubia]

I have decided to end the Victubia comic [Please read <3]

I have decided to end the Victubia comic. Please let me explain why.

As some of you know (those of you who has been a part of this from the start), Victubia started as a simple wallpaper project for some of the YouTubers that I loved at the time.

I was unemployed for long periods of time, and depression and anxiety hung all over me. There were times when I didn’t want to get out of bed because I had no good reason to do so. My confidence in myself and my abilities was at rock bottom… but then I started watching youtube.

And I suddenly had a small (but fun) reason to get up and do something. It gave a reason to laugh and smile. Victubia mixed a lot of things I liked at the time, and eventually, I came up with a story set in this universe, staring the YouTubers.

Victubia started as a motion comic, but when I realized it took me way too long to create each chapter, I made the decision to make Victubia into a regular comic.

The Victubia comic has been going on for almost 3 years. And it has been 3 amazing years!!

Before I continue, I wanna thank all of you who’s been part of this journey!! It’s literally meant the world to me, and it gave me back some self-worth and creativity when I hardly felt anything.

So why am I ending it? Well, there’s a lot of reasons, and in a way… I’m not ending the story here. Let me explain.

The last year or so I’ve had thoughts about ending the comic. It came sneaking up on me, but I kept pushing it back down. I didn’t wanna accept the fact that I wasn’t as happy drawing the comic anymore. And more than anything I didn’t want to disappoint the fans and readers of the comic!

You guys have ALWAYS been the reason I kept going! This project started because of the YouTubers, as a thank you for brightening my days, but it continued because of you who read the comic and was invested in the world!

In an attempt to make the comic a bit more fun for me to draw, I tried to work in more original characters (Alma, Edrea Stern, Ryder, Porter etc), because I love making original characters and I felt that they fleshed out the story in a lot of good ways. But I quickly noticed that the interest for original characters in this story (unless it’s a villain) is pretty small and that most people only cared for the YouTubers.

Which OF COURSE isn’t strange at all! This comic is about YouTubers after all! But I couldn’t deny that there became a rift between what I wanted to do with the comic, and what my readers wanted to read.

While I still had a lot of fun with the comic, I felt less and less joy working on this project, which I guess also got reflected in the fandom, because there were fewer and fewer people interested in Victubia. Less fanart and fics, and fewer people going to my art streams or talking in the discord. And you know, that’s okay <3 As someone who’s been in a lot of different fandoms for the last 15 years, I know that fandoms come and go. Interest fade and you move on to something else. I know that’s the reality of it, but let me tell you, it was a bit difficult to come to terms with this when it’s your own fandom, haha! But I HAVE come to terms with it, and the bitter feeling I used to feel is mostly gone.

Another reason is that drawing comics inspired by real people is never a good idea. Part of me knew that going into this project, but I was just too naive and too ignorant to accept it. People change. Relationships and friendships change. And that will always be a difficult thing to adapt to when making a comic about real people. And as much as I still love a lot of YouTubers, I don’t always agree with them (as is the case for most people), but I don’t always wanna feel that I endorse them. Even if I state my own opinions, actions speak louder than words, and the fact that I make a fan comic speaks volumes in a way I don’t want it to. Victubia was always supposed to be a fun and silly fan project, but because the characters are inspired by real people, it’s bound to get difficult at times. And that made the project become filled with anxiety at times, and it really wasn’t good for my mental health. I felt almost trapped in this project at times.

I also don’t want to be known as the woman “who only draws YouTubers”. Which leads me to my next reason to stop the comic;

I want to do more things.

Victubia takes up a lot of my time most days when I’m not working on my part-time job as a preschool teacher or work with freelance jobs, leaving me with almost no free time.

And as a creative, it really brings you down after a while.

I almost never draw anything for myself anymore, not even sketches. I have so many things I want to study! I have so many amazing original things I want to draw, and also fan art. And I have a lot of other projects I wish to make a reality.

I wish to take more freelance jobs and commissions! I want to make my own children's book series! I have an original comic project that I’m dying to spend more time on!

But time is limited.

Looking over my story notes I’ve slowly realized that the Victubia comic would take YEARS to complete, and that’s just too much for me to spend on a fan comic.

“Are we never gonna find out what happened in the story?”

I don't wanna leave you guys hanging, and despite the fact that the comic is ending, I’m still gonna share the complete story with you guys, as I’ve decided to post the rest of the Victubia comic story in script format.

Doing story scripts takes MUCH less time for me to write (compared to drawing the comic), and you guys will still get the whole story. It’s still a story I wish to tell.

I’m going over and writing it as we speak, and it will be released in parts. How many I can’t say just yet.

“So what happens to the Patreon?”

I will still keep my Patreon, but it will transition into a Patreon for most of my creative work.

The Victubia scripts will still be posted on Patreon first before they reach the rest of the public. And I still have a few things I want to post (like a Late Night Bar map).

But eventually, I want to fill the Patreon with original art and fanart, studies, blog posts and sketch requests, to name a few. I will explain more when the time comes.

If you are signed up to my patreon for Victubia only, I totally understand if you want to cancel your subscription. I won’t hold it against you! <3

I will, of course, be eternally happy if you stick around and see the changes that will happen <3

“So is the Victubia Party over now??”

Not for me at least! XD

Honestly, I’m not ready to give up this universe, because I still love this world and all the characters that have been made for it. My own and others and I don’t see a reason to end Victubia as a whole because the comic ended.

The world of Victubia is bigger than the comic, and if people still wanna visit it, it’s always open! <3

I will still create Victubia related work even after the comic script is done, but it will be work I truly want to work with <3

Lastly, I wanna thank so many people! I want to thank all the fantastic people who've been in the fandom for so long! Some of you joined from the very start and made this community so warm, creative and welcoming! All of you who created your own characters and stories and art inside this universe! You are also the reason I kept going with this project in the first place, and without your love and enthusiasm for this project, it would have stopped as a “wallpaper project”.

I want to thank all my lovely, amazing and wonderful Patrons, new and old, who helped make a dream come true and let me work on a project that is so dear to my heart!! Without you, Victubia would have ended a long time ago! <3

Despite the ups and downs, I am SO PROUD of the fact that this project has managed to inspire so many people to draw and write and just be creative in general! <3 It’s so beautiful! I’m also so damn proud that this community brought together so many people, and that people found friends for life, and even love! Many years into the future I hope people can think back on this project and the community with joy. <3

I wanna give a warm and grateful thanks to Vini and Felix for putting so much work into the Victubia Wiki! <3 Thank you for all the time, energy and passion!

I wanna thank all the YouTubers who appreciated this project! You are forever Victubia royalty! <3

Finally, I wanna thank my AMAZING MODS! Old and current!

Who has supported me through it all, and who gave so much of their time and energy to this project! I can never thank you guys enough! You are truly amazing people, and I’m so thankful that you wanted to be a part of this for so long. Asa, Mishy, Jo, Raz, Panda, and Arc... I’m so grateful I can call you guys friends! <3

The last final and very special thanks is to Raz, who not only was my biggest supporter from the start but who became someone so dear to me, someone, that I want to spend the rest of my life together with! <3 Raz, you’ve given so much to the Victubia world that I consider it yours too! So many wonderful stories and characters that always inspired me to create more! Your love and support brought me out of my worst moments and kept me going even when I didn’t think I could. I love you so much and I’m so glad this project brought us together! <3

If you read until the end, you deserve a medal! XD Thank you so much for your time!

If you have any questions or opinions you can leave them in the ask box on Tumblr or send me a message on discord. I will try to answer as many as I can <3

Be on the lookout for the Victubia scripts, and thank you once again for making this something truly special <3

I love you all!

[theewrites-tf2]

{OPEN} Writing Commissions!

Because college textbooks/fees/the-general-experiences are INSANELY expensive, and being unemployed means I have to seek out additional/potential unusual sources of income:

I'm opening up writing '5 for 500' commissions!!!

'5 for 500' meaning that for the low price of ONLY $5.00 USD, you get 500 words of writing from ol' Theewrites-TF2 herself!!!

Below are ALL potential questions, information, contact information and anything else that you may be interested if you are searching for a commission by yours truly!!! 

Additional Questions can be sent via my contact information, which can be found below!!! I look forward to hearing from you, and if you don’t have the resources to ask for a commission at this time, reblogging and spreading this around is JUST as beneficial for me! Thank you very much!!! 

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"What fandoms will you do?"

While I am primarily a Team Fortress 2 blog, I am well-versed in a wide variety of fandoms! And, of course, I am happy to write original content, and I'm even willing to do some research for fandoms I am unaware of!!!

"What are you willing to write?"

I have certain personal boundaries, that one may inquire about in private messages, but I am open to initially anything, and hold no judgement! 

From professorial-articles, to fandom pieces, to one shots, scripts, to personalized content, i’m available to provide any kind of writing material!

 As I am over 18, I am also willing to write NSFW material, so long as it is within my personal boundaries of writes, AND the person covering IS over 18.

Not 17 and 11 months, no, if you will be ordering NSFW writing commission, I will INSIST that you are over 18. This is not just a professional and legal boundary I refuse to cross, but it’s also something that personally effects my own code of ethics, and I cannot jeopardize those personal feelings for the sake of a paycheck.  I will NOT be writing any form of NSFW content for minors, but I have plenty of SFW writing experience that's more suitable for those under 18!!!

"What if I want more than 500 words?"

500 words is my writing base, and for a dollar per 100 words, I believe it is a suitable, affordable offer! However, for those that enjoy the initial 500 words of writing so much that they want more, my fees DO go up, from $1.00 USD per 100 words, to $1.50 per 100 words!

Ex: 1000 words= $12.50 USD

"Payment options?"

PayPal, an invoice will be send from my personal Gmail account once a commission deal has been decided on! However, I am also considering opening a Ko-fi site or other, so for those who want to donate instead of commissioning, they are able to do so!!!

“How long will you take to write commissions?”

As soon as a price/word-range is agreed upon, I will begin the first draft of the piece! 500-word pieces will take be finalized and presented exactly 5 business-days following the payment! 

Larger pieces can take up to 7-10 business-days to complete, with ample updates and sneak-peeks if so required!

I will be requiring payment before I begin my work, and I will also offer the opportunity to be sent updates/sneak-peeks! This will not only provide the commissioner opportunity to go over my work so far and comment or suggest changes, but it will also allow the commissioner to see my writing style and what the finalized project will look like! 

Please don’t hesitate to comment or critique my writing, my goal is to provide entertaining writing pieces to those paying for my work, and I am willing to change my material for the sake of my clients entertainment!

"What about your dozen other writing projects?"

A bit more personal, but I hope you guys understand when I say I am SO. CLOSE. I am less than TWO semester away from earning my college degree in English, this is a DREAM for me, not to mention how beneficial it is for me to obtain it!!! This is the first REAL step for me to gain credit in the writing world, gain a reputation and, dare I say it, earn money by doing what I LOVE.

And don't misunderstand, I LOVE Team Fortress 2, and I want nothing more than to expand, and give y'all some of the BEST stories my mind can conjure!!! But, for the moment, my Team Fortress 2 fics will be placed on TEMPORARY hold, though don't be shocked if you get the random update!!! Right now, however, Thee's gotta go and get her diploma!!!

Contact Information:

GMAIL: Theewrites.TF2@gmail.com

TUMBLR: Theewrites-TF2 (Private Messages ONLY!)