#but I needed to get this out

[reliablejoukido]

So how about that PV, huh?

[honeycreammilkshake]

say what you want about this final chapter but i'm taking it as confirmation that yuuji was the one who finally taught sukuna about love.

this whole time sukuna has been trapped by his own thinking, his unshaken belief, that he was just as much a curse as someone like mahito.

but it's very telling that right after we see yuuji's face, his words that everything will end up alright, that sukuna appears. and more than that, he looks far more at peace than i would have expected him to be after losing.

yuuji is the only one to have treated him like a person, to open up with him, to show him true kindness and empathy. and unlike everyone else who saw sukuna as nothing but a monster, yuuji said sukuna could have a new start. that it was only a matter of chance that sukuna was the monster in all this.

yuuji humanized sukuna. he saw something inside the king of curses that nobody else could understand. yuuji saw himself in this monster, that they could have been two of a kind.

and it really did get to sukuna. not only did he fully acknowledge yuuji by calling him by his full name and not just "brat" but he also referred to himself as a "curse" as he died in yuuji's hands.

he chose death because he saw himself as only inhuman, but now in the afterlife he's reflected on yuuji's words. he finally realized that he has two paths he can go on, he has a choice. and yuuji was the one to give it to him.

and i think this change in heart is all owed to yuuji, who cradled sukuna even in his final moments and awoke that understanding inside sukuna. because yuuji out of everyone was the most sincere and understanding of sukuna, perhaps the only one who ever showed him real love. and in death, i think it comforted sukuna. he's gone "soft" and he's accepted it, because yuuji was the one who impacted him the most, who finally broke down sukuna's philosophy. (which is ironic considering how sukuna threatened to break down yuuji's). out of all the people who thought they would teach sukuna love, yuuji was the only who really could and really did.

this chapter was by no means fully satisfactory to me, but it's not what i fully expected and more than i could have hoped for, given the direction i feared we were going in.

sukuna's character finally being able to show that growth, learning what love is from yuuji, being able to accept everything because of yuuji's warmth even at the end... we won. yuuji really did teach sukuna how to love, and it started with making sukuna realize that he was capable of such a thing, that fulfillment was what he needed after all.

and just maybe this isn't the last we see of the both of them. i still have this crazy hope that their story isn't fully over yet. and even if it fully is, than it's far more of a happy (and hopeful) ending that i could have imagined.

[idontmindthat]

Tim Key in Taskmaster Series 1

[eclipse-darling]

Still can’t get over these specific lyrics

Because I know exactly who he’s talking about

Every time I see someone react to sleep token on YouTube or something, a commenter will tell them about the band but like they’ll fully name them and when confronted they’ll say something like

“well if they didn’t want us to know they why do they put all these easter eggs referencing previous projects with their names??”

And like yeah sure, whatever, but they purposely removed their name specifically from sleep token, specifically left that part out of this so we wouldn’t focus on them

It was for a reason, just because they reference things they’ve done before, doesn’t mean you get to attach their identities they purposely left out and basically reveal their names unexpectedly in a public YouTube comment where some people intentionally avoid knowing these things

And honestly it’s stupidly easy to find out on your own if you really wanted to know

And what really gets me is that he sings these lyrics about how “if you don’t believe me then I get it, I’m glad your still listening, keep enjoying this”

He might not necessarily forgive them

But he understands

[misty--nights]

Here's a short silly thing inspired by this convo with @anshares (you really have to stop giving me such fun ideas). I wrote this in like 30 minutes with no regards for historical accuracy. Enjoy some silly ghost kings banter and He Xuan being down bad for Shi Qingxuan because I have a brand and am incapable of writing his pov without making him pine pathetically ^^

“Is this what you spend my money on?” Hua Cheng asks from his side. He Xuan rolls his eyes.

“What do you care?” He Xuan finally asks. The glass bottle in his hands feels far too frail, like it could shatter with one wrong movement. He Xuan very carefully doesn’t think about what else—who else—feels too fragile under his hands. “I’ll pay you back either way.”

“I’m sure you will,” Hua Cheng mutters. His attention is fixed elsewhere, though, eye caught by a little box decorated with delicate white flowers. One track mind, He Xuan thinks, but doesn’t say.

One can find just about anything in Ghost City. There are many sketchy, and even downright dangerous establishments, but there are also genuine shops, with rare products that are nearly impossible to find elsewhere. It’s just a matter of knowing where to look. He Xuan has had centuries to familiarize himself with the place. He knows exactly where everything he needs can be found. And right now, what he needs is a new hair product Shi Qingxuan has been raving about.

He Xuan opens the bottle in his hands and takes a deep breath. The product inside smells sweet. Like a meadow, he thinks, and the summer breeze. It’s a familiar smell, the same one his mind has come to associate with Shi Qingxuan, the one he always catches when the Wind Master throws his head back to laugh. He Xuan closes his eyes, and he can almost hear that precious laughter. His treacherous chest clenches at that and he knows if he were still alive his whole face would be blushing.

Hua Cheng is looking at him when he opens his eyes again. He raises an eyebrow at him, and He Xuan has to resist the urge to growl. He still has products to buy. It won’t serve him well to anger Hua Cheng before he pays. A silver butterfly flutters down to land on Hua Cheng’s shoulder and his mouth twists into a sharp, dangerous smile.

“What?” He Xuan asks, closing the bottle again and setting it down on the shelf he took it from.

“Nothing,” Hua Cheng says, but that smile is still there, sharper by the second. “Just wait until the next time you complain about my face when talking about His Highness.”

He Xuan feels a shiver run up his spine. He won’t ask, won’t give Hua Cheng the satisfaction, but he knows whatever face he was making when smelling the product will be a blow to his pride for years to come.

“Whatever,” he mutters. He tries to sound indifferent, but he knows it’s not very convincing. Hua Cheng, thanks to some miracle, doesn’t call him out on it. “There’s supposed to be a new scent from this manufacturer. Help me find it.”

“You think I’m here to do your work for you?” Hua Cheng asks with a scoff. He still sets the little box down on the counter and turns towards the hair product bottles. He Xuan doesn’t call him out on it. “Why do you need a different one, anyways? I thought you always used the same.”

“Shi Qingxuan mentioned the new scent reminded him of me,” He Xuan replies without much thought.

He realizes his mistake a second later. Hua Cheng has turned to look at him with an intensity he doesn’t like, both eyebrows raised in surprise. He Xuan holds his gaze for a long moment before he has to look away. Once more, he feels like he would be blushing if he could.

“Well,” Hua Cheng says. He Xuan waits for him to say more, but he doesn’t.

There’s an odd look on his face when He Xuan turns to look at him, one that feels too knowing. In the silence that settles around them, he debates the merits of just puffing out of existence. He doesn’t know how he’ll be able to look Hua Cheng in the eye again after this.

“Just help me find the damn bottle,” he finally manages to bite out after what feels like an eternity.

Hua Cheng just hums and turns back towards the shelf. He lets the topic go for now, but He Xuan is not so naïve. He knows Hua Cheng, and he knows he won’t let it go forever. This conversation will come up again, at the worst possible moment. He will brace himself for that. Until then, though, he will do his very best to pretend he never said anything incriminating, pretend nothing has changed since he first took Ming Yi’s place as the Earth Master. After all, he has become truly amazing at lying to himself on that matter.

[ganondoodle]

i do feel unworthy/ungrateful of the kindness you have shown me, you have been so nice and supportive to me yet i keep having these spirals down into the old depression i hoped to have left behind

[for-thee]

ok but what if gabriel just doesn't have a title in the act 3 fight. like we have "judge of hell", "apostate of hate", but what about just "gabriel"

[wildemaven]

I have thoughts and hurt feelings this morning that I’ll put under the cut…

I was so so excited to share this next chapter of Strangers. Is it perfect, no and I accept, but nothing will ever be perfect and that’s okay— especially in a fictional world I made up.

When I started this series, I made a point to say that a lot of what the reader deals with throughout the series were feelings that I have felt in my own marriage— even as I was writing this series. Things that I have to work through regularly in therapy— I’m fully aware of how unhealthy my thoughts are. I made that disclaimer in hopes to let others know who might deal with same feelings that they aren’t alone. But I’ve had so many wonderful conversations around about how reader has felt at different points of the series.

So to wake up to a comment of “meh” regarding how chapter 5 played out was a little disheartening. I get that not everyone is going to like what I write, like I’m very aware of that. But if you didn’t like it, you could have just moved on from there instead of dissecting all the things you think were wrong with Dave, Reader and Jacey.

And the fact that you didn’t even give me the courtesy to share chapter 6 or finish the series in general is so fucking ridiculous.

I’m guessing based on the only other comment you left on the series insinuating that Jacey and Dave might be hooking up, you probably wanted cheating or something scandalous to happen. Why you chose this chapter as the only chapter to reblog too boggles my mind.

It’s like you skipped over all the parts where she said they would talk and dave takes accountability for the part he played in her feeling how she did.

I’ve spent the better part of this morning questioning the series and my writing in general— so if that was your intent, well played.

I’ve been having such a hard time getting back into a writing headspace lately and now I don’t know if I even want to write anything again after I finish this series.

I don’t know. I feel like my words are a mess right now and maybe I’m overreacting to the stupid comment that was made.

Anyway. Instead of being a dick, just scroll past the shit you don’t like. Or go talk about with your mutuals behind a dm or discord server. Or I don’t know, go touch grass because it’s a fucking made up story.

😘 🖕🏻

[nicky-jr]

im gonna be so real yall i HAAAATE how willy was handled as a villain in s2. like aside from the fact that i dont think he should've been a villain at all, let alone the main one, he's somehow become less threatening since becoming god? somehow? like in s1 he was terrifying because he felt real. yes he had powerful magic but the basis of what made him effective was how grounded in reality he was. he was dominating and self-absorbed and unpredictable and clever in ways that felt reminiscent of actual abusers. throw in his magic and unwavering fear of death and you have a terrifying, but interesting, antagonist. and i really think he should've been left behind in s1 because his ending was perfect. a man lusting after immortality and power is left in stasis in an empty room forever. his wish, twisted.

bur sure whatever he shows up in s2, alright. but i'll give him credit, he had a good start! his relationship with scary was interesting! he still had some bite! but once she breaks free of that and his motivation is suddenly... become god? remake the world? huh??? i can understand his goal to capture the doodler and thus become all powerful and immortal again but it just leads to him becoming a caricature. he's just another generic villain who wants to take over the world and i don't care. he has no charm. hes boring. hes more powerful than ever before and yet im not afraid of him. him killing off the kiddads and such just feels like a lazy, artificial way to make him feel like an actual threat again. and it just adds to the fact that i dont really care what happens in the finale because im so fucking bored

[areyoudoingthis]

it isn't about the crew finding out for me. the crew will eventually forgive ed because they'll see that he's changed and stede will want him back home, plus this is a comedy about found family after all

i need what izzy did to come out because ed isn't a crazy man who went insane and violent when his boyfriend left him. he's a man who keeps being revictimized over and over by the angry men in his life and who has never been able to fully escape that, because even as an adult the only way he found to escape was to build himself a facade of violent masculinity that effectively became a prison. and the one time in his life when he found softness and thought he could be allowed to be who he really wanted to be and not who everyone else has been forcing him to be since he was a kid, izzy stepped on him and showed him he wasn't safe at all. I need izzy's abuse to be addressed because i need to see ed heal and that bit's kinda crucial to it, to ed finally embracing the softness he's always wanted and learning that he is, after all, capable of giving and receiving love, that he isn't broken and the violence he suffered was never his fault, was never caused by anything being fundamentally broken in him

[fangemorose]

Pray tell, how the flying fuck am I supposed to go back to my old routine without you by my side and then pretend everything is fine when everything reminds me of you? This feels worse than a breakup.

[sirlancenotalot]

I need to make a meme for nov 5 and I need screenshots from that scene and I finished 15x16 yesterday and I'm gonna watch 15x18 on nov 5 like planned but every time I open the episode I want to throw up or have some similar visceral reaction. I'm obsessed with making memes and I can't even do it for a meme 😭 literally let out an inhuman screech when I saw the scene for a split second. how am I actually going to get through this (I have so much respect for people that were actually watching it while it aired and everything that came after it)

(i started watching the show last june knowing all the spoilers and having watched multiple compilation videos fyi but i have never allowed myself to read/watch that scene. I see the familiar words and my brain immediately skips. why did I do this to myself. i'm here utterly and thoroughly gone for cas since before I started the show and now I'm mentally preparing for cas' last scene, I know in hindsight the scene might not be as terrifying as I've hyped myself up for but it's still CAS)

[buddiesronance]

i honestly think the whole point of whatever was happening with st*ncy in S4 was to prove that they just aren’t compatible with each other (romantically at least)

like what steve wants in life is what nancy DOESNT want and it’s been said before

idk how many times it needs to be said

[the-ghost-in-your-walls]

Me⬆️ because i went to the doctor for knee and hip pain and somehow it turned into a conversation about my bad sleep schedule as if i don't already know it's terrible.

And then they basically went "Oh your pain? Well i didn't find anything so just hope it goes away ig. But anyways the fact you don't sleep enough is 100 more important than that you're in pain every day."

And of course as soon as I said i was on my computer reading instead of sleeping they just assumed 'this is a typical internet-addicted teenager who doesn't realise you need to sleep' and never bothered to find out if maybe, maybe there's an actual reason i do that, but just continued to talk about me like I was dumb and don't understand what i'm doing is bad. Of course i know, i'm not 5.

The only thing i got out of this appointment was the doctor telling my mom to take away my computer in the evening. Did i find out why i was in pain? Nope.

And apparently i'm going to a psycologist, which is kind of a relief, but i'm also nervous as heck about it.

[vintagedean]

Malcolm and Martin are as compelling to me as Dean and John because Malcolm, like Dean, wants nothing more than to be able to love his father. That is all he wants. But things have happened, their fathers have done those things, that make it so loving each other is fraught and complicated and really fucking hard. and like. Malcolm is not Dean. He is not dedicated to Martin the way Dean is to John. Their dynamics are not exact mirrors. But the god/disciple angle is still there. The confusing mish mash of love and hate from son to father is still there. Having to grow up too fast and contend with the cold, mean realities of the world because the man who was supposed to protect you from them is the person who most often exposes you to them…that’s still there. The blurred lines and crossed boundaries and inimitable intimacies that should not exist and yet do…still there.

I don’t see Martin and Malcolm having sex the same way I see Dean and John having sex, but I see Malcolm as finally submitting to being Martin’s play thing in body as well as mind, and that resulting in basically the same thing as sex. Letting Martin cut him, letting Martin explore him, letting Martin play with his blood or burn his skin or choke him out. Getting hard together and coming together while Martin drags a scalpel down Malcolm’s chest. Never penetrating with his penis because he’s not an animal. Martin would never rape his son. Their shared arousal is just a natural physiological reaction to the pleasure that pain brings, whether giving or receiving. Malcolm is like Martin—of course he’d get hard. This is sexual, it’s sensual, and it’s a part of why they’re so alike and so attuned to one another.

so many excuses and explanations to keep Martin from confronting that he doesn’t love his son at all, he just loves possessing a thing he thought he’d lost, a thing that for years he couldn’t control. And Malcolm knowing that’s what’s happening but no longer caring because all he’s wanted since turning his father in to the police is to atone and return to him.