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#but I’m literally crazy so I just want to not do anything or make a big stink because if I don’t celebrate it I won’t be disappointed
trulyumai · 17 hours
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Fall Baking
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pairing: eddie munson / gf! reader
synopsis: it was finally fall. more rain, more sweaters. this also meant the return of the infamous, ‘Hawkins Fair.’ eddie could care less about it really, but you were ecstatic.
warnings: none, fluff only!
A/N: im baking like crazy right now so this automatically came to my head. I’m ready to drown in pumpkin bread and warm coffee.
Eddie knew you loved the fall.
When the leafs started to turn, the weather getting colder and sbittier than normal, yeah, that was when that thing happened to your eyes.
They’d get all shiny and well, cute.
He was the opposite. He could do without the hindrance of rain bearing against him anytime he wanted to take out the trash or walk to the corner store.
But seeing you so happy about little sprinkles of condensation made the man weak.
So he detested the cold weather a little less for you.
And you know what the cold weather brought?
Fall excursions.
Aka: The Fair.
“Guys, you’re not gonna believe this!” Slamming your lunch down on the table, your body molded against his in one solid motion.
Eddie grunted out in surprise, but it didn’t stop you from talking about the surprise you had in store.
“The fair is coming back!”
Only stares were given, Gaven looked over at Jeff who was returning the same empty, confused look.
Eddie jumped in with a clearing of his throat, being the best boyfriend ever he had to save the day, right?
“No way, baby!”
“Way!” You giggled, relaxing into Eddies hold as you dug out the celery sticks in your little box.
“And, the school is accepting student stalls, that’s gonna be so much fun!”
“Why is that fun— ow!” With a harsh kick to Gavin’s knee, Eddie changed the subject.
“That’s cool babe, you could do a baking themed one. Your treats are to dieeeee for.”
“Oh yeah! Been a while since I got the iconic Mrs. Munson brownies,” Gavin sighed out. Already imagining the pillowy, chocolaty goodness that was always oozing with warmth.
“That’s not what I named them.” You laughed, “Buuuut if you boys help me out with the stall I promise to bake one thing if your choosing!”
This garnered the attention of the hellfire club fast. Eddie was almost jealous at how entranced you got everyone.
“Anything?”
“Can you do cakes?”
“Ooooh the brownieees!” Almost everyone talked over one another, already fantasizing about the treats they’ll ask for.
“Uhhhh babe?” Eddies rings were cold against your thighs, your dark green skirt rid up against the tops of his legs, showcasing your pretty and soft skin.
“Mhm?” You replied, already turning towards your wild haired boyfriend.
“And what do I get? I mean I love your baking, obviously! but I can get that anytime.”
That was… true.
Damn it you thought you had everyone sinched into the plan. But of course Eddie would try to sneak something else into play.
“Well ummm,” he stumped you this time.
Furrowinf yoyr brows you bit lightly on the inside of your cheek, racking your brain for anything Eddie might approve of.
Clothes? No, Eddie only wore his favorite staples anyway. Maybe you could offer to clean his room? No, you just did that last weekend when he was snoring on the couch.
Think, think!—
“I know what I want.”
You knew that tone. That deep drawl that makes his voice come out in a low, teasing hush.
Eddie indicated you closer with just a wag of his index finger.
You felt the weight of his breath hit the side of your face, warm and light.
“I want,” he breathed in this time, dragging his lips closer and closer until they brushed against the side of your jaw.
“You, to spend the night, every nite this week.”
“Eddie!” Rolling your orbs you pushed his face away. “That’s kinda impossible. You know how my parents are—“
“Pretty please, sweetheart? It’s been forever!”
“I just spent the night on saturday!”
“That was literally forever ago.”
“Eddie.” Your fingers brushed with his temple, lightly pushing against them.
“That was two days ago.”
He only shook his head in rebuttal, moving his legs until your frame was once again close to his.
“My point still stands. Forever ago! And you need my help, who will keep these idiots in check?”
“Hey!” A few club mates responded back, but quickly went into their own baking conversations.
“Not all week. Two days,”
“Three!” Eddie challenged. With a mocking squint to your eyes you huffed out a breath.
“Fine! You win. Three days.”
“Yes!” Eddie cheered, smothering a sloppy kiss on your cheek and raised a hand to high five Gavin.
What a dork.
“You won’t regret this baby. I just got new snacks, cleaned my room—“
“You cleaned your room?”
Eddie cleared his throat and his long fingers came up to play with the loose hair around your neck.
“Well.. no, but it’s still clean from when you did it— ouch!”
Grabbing the man’s soft cheek, you began to pull.
“Hey hey, easy easy, I was just joking!—“
“You’re such a dork, Eddie.” Laughing, you watched as his fingers came up to the pinched spot, rubbing it with a soft tenderness like you had plucked the skin right off his face.
Grabbing at your celery you joined into the groups conversation. Trying to remember each and every goodie the gang wanted you to bake.
This is gonna be a long week.
But at least it’s fall, right?
….
Right..?
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hedgiwithapen · 7 hours
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Leverage: the trampoline job
(Sometimes the titles of these jobs is literal, and sometimes it’s a metaphor… this is the latter. AU of the Big Bang Job!) “There’s just one problem,” Moreau said, the tip of his polished shoe pressed against Hardison’s chair. “I don’t believe you.”
He kicked, sending the chair backwards into the pool with a splash. Eliot kept his face blank, a grift to make even Sophie proud.
“Eliot, you really think I’m that stupid? That I didn’t look for you after you ran?” Moreau chided. “In Serbia two years ago, at that orphanage…Moscow last fall. So I may not know exactly the game you’re playing, but I know you’re no middleman.”
Eliot’s throat tightened. This was why he’d brought Hardison, not Sophie. His plans burned, one after another till he got to L. 
“That’s Alec Hardison,” he said. “And if you’ve ever believed anything I’ve told you, believe that you want him alive.”
He jumped into the water, hoping the intrigue would be enough to stay Chapman’s trigger finger and still expecting a bullet in his back. 
Hardison was sputtering when he got him above water, choking on the chlorine. Eliot dragged him to the side of the pool, using the ladder for leverage to boost Hardison and the chair both out before clambering up himself, keeping in front of his friend. 
"I'm listening," Moreau said. "walk me through why, exactly, I shouldn't let my man here kill you both."
"Eliot," Hardison warned.  Eliot ignored him.
"If you know what I've been up to, you know who he is." He kept his voice even. An act, but one he'd perfected. 
"A hacker," Moreau dismissed. "But one you'd die for."
"Not just a hacker," Eliot said, ignoring the back half of the statement and hating how easily Moreau read it. "The best."
He could feel Hardison behind him, pride and confusion at war. He pressed on. 
"Vector's out, and he was never much of a player. Keller's gone.  They can't hide your money, can't move it either. Hardison can move it like a kid moves checkers on a board. Not a chance anyone catches on, if he's working for you.  You won't have to pay out in bribes, either.  You want him."
"And He came here looking for a job?" Moreau asked. "I find that hard to believe, too."
"He'll do it." Eliot said. The bitter sharpness in his voice isn't all for show. "He's a geek. Half of what he cares about is proving he can do it. The other half is staying alive. He's not stupid. He knows what you can do."
"Yeah, I'm learning all kinds of new things today, traitor," Hardison spit. 
Eliot took the barb like the blow it was.
"Well. Color me intrigued, then." Moreau's smile curdled Eliot's blood, but there wasn't anything for it.  This was why he brought Hardison.
There was always a chance things broke down, and Hardison was the one he could keep alive. Chapman grabbed the back of the chair, dragging it and Hardison through the door the models went through. “Let’s chat logistics,” Moreau said. Eliot eased his heart rate, trying not to picture the look on Hardison’s face. Fury and… god. Heartbreak. There wasn’t another word for it. “Let’s,” he agreed, like it was the easiest thing in the world to say, and not poison in his mouth. 
The team always recovered, bounced back, like Parker on a trampoline. They figured out a new plan, a new trick, something last-ditch and crazy. They'll manage it. Hardison's the one they can get back. 
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bigtreefest · 15 hours
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Ugh, mini rant about work so it’s going below the cut
You ever feel like coworkers put you down because idk, maybe they’re jealous? Intimidated? I just feel like at work, no one really knows me. And it’s fine, because tbh, I don’t want them to. But like, everyone around here is so odd.
My bosses think I can take on a thousand things at once, but also think I’m never doing anything.
My coworkers think they’re the only ones with crazy schedules.
And people who have more education than me (aka pharmacist coworker) think that I’m spacey?
Like, sorry my concentration was in inorganic chemistry, not radioactivity. You’ve literally been in this field for half my life!! How dare you think I’m not smart because this is all new to me and I’m learning.
And then I essentially get accused of not learning because I don’t pay attention by another coworker. She’s asking me to take over a responsibility she’s shown me twice in the multiple months I’ve been here. And it’s everyone in the lab’s responsibility, so why isn’t she asking anyone else in the lab to help!?!?
This all really just made me peeved yesterday to the point I cried the more I thought about it. Like, I know a lot, but this is literally so far off what I’ve learned. Haven’t I proven my wide breadth of knowledge from cooking to entertainment, to general trivia!? Well, no, I guess, because no one bothers to ask me or talk to me. No one knows about my life, the things I did growing up. It just sucks sometimes.
Ps. I was there for ELEVEN HOURS yesterday. No one really knows. No one really cares or sees what I do. Like, I’m not asking for overwhelming praise, just some sort of acknowledgment that I’m having to make something when it wasn’t all handed to me like some other coworkers. I really wish I had friends around here. Truly in Misery.
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imaybe5tupid · 3 months
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if you see absolutely anything that has kabru in it. And are unable to stop yourself from making it about L/abru (even when Laios doesn’t even appear or is irrelevant to the content in question!) and reduce kabrus entire deuteragonist-level character into wanting to fuck laios. I’m stealing something out of your house!!!!!
disclaimer: If you ship l/abru and gaf about kabru and don’t do this then this post isn’t about you 🤓
#I love kabru so much but finding content of him is so painful bro I cant#Flames flames flames up the side of my face!#I constantly consider just nuking my account and forgetting I ever read or cared about dungeon meshi many times bc of this lol#I care him so much. More than I care about dungeon Meshi as a work as much as I respect it and it’s fun to create for#I can’t be normal about this genuinely I never get like this but I turn into A.M from I Have No Mouth And I Must Scream#Laios and kabrus connection is really sweet in the end and I don’t ship it but like the ship it’s so inoffensive in abstract just not for m#But in reality every day I get jumpscared by the things people are doing to my angel#Like just do laios self shipping that’s clearly what you daft cunts actually want why puppeteer kabru free my boy#I promised I would never post like this but like it really makes me so mad lol. And want to just go back to not looking up anything online#And I already specifically curate my experience to a crazy degree.#But the way that this fandom revolves around babying laios is crazy dude#Like every single thing is about poor poor laios#like he’s the main character but it’s insane even people who LIKE him have to put disclaimers when saying even jokey mean things#Because then 1000x idpol white autistic people will descend upon them otherwise#And I say this as an autistic person of colour it’s annoying asf lol I do not respect any of you! To put it mildly!#If the only way you can engage with characters or stories is through vectors which You can personally project onto and relate to#I’m doing a lot more than fucking stealing something out of your house!#It’s the most normal thing on earth to not like the main character of a series but I feel if you genuinely hated laios#And are not just “guilty” of criticising him or appreciating his flawed character. Then the legions of cornballs will descend on you#The only good spaces are small pockets of people engaging with each other together. The rest lol nuclear devastation#but I suppose that’s the nature of fandoms lol why complain about clowns at the circus 🚶#Like there’s literally characters whose main purpose in the story IS their relationship/dynamic with laios. Kabru is NOT JUST THAT!!#He is a deuteragonist!#Treat him like one!#Like why are people talking about labru on my freaking kaburin and kabushuro posts dude free me
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tariah23 · 4 months
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Noooo…… first it’s Yuuta and Shoko, now they’re yo-yoing back around to Megumi.
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#no they’re bashing megumi even more than ever now…. sometimes some characters aren’t built for all of THIS AND ITS OKAY#he’s forever traumatized bro he just lost his sister in front of his eyes and his body was the one that killed her#same situation with Gojo who took care of his sister and he from when they was toddlers and up#megumi doesn’t want to live anymore and yuuji has already tried getting through to him he’s completely broken and even if he’s saved megumi#might not ever be the same#I feel like fans keep on forgetting that these are kids going through all of this stuff that even some of the hardest adults wouldn’t be#able to handle#they bash him but a lot of these same ppl forget what happened to getou and love him unconditionally#they’d say “’well other characters have lost a lot as well and they’re still trying!’ and I just have to#restate that again; simply not every character is built like some hard boiled shounen badass jjk is not the usual shounen that a lot of#fans still refuse to see tbh like it’s kind of built different 🗿#it’s core genres are literally horror/psychological horror like no one if gonna be bouncing back like Naruto bro#and in Naruto’s case he never got to see anyone precious to him die in front of him#who knows what Naruto would’ve went through if sasuke was killed in front of him#but then again#Naruto was already a crazy ass#he vowed to kill sasuke and die with him so nvm#but megumi ISNT crazy like that that’s the difference ajsjsjsj#he’s always been one of the more rational characters amongst his peers#he’s so normal!!! everyone else is fucked up or got larger personalities than he does#maybe ppl are pissed off at the fact that megumi simply isn’t fighting back… it’s frustrating but he’s in pain bro#I don’t see him making it out alive at all either if I’m being real#Yuuji might be one of the only characters to survive at this rate I doubt Yuuta is even going to pull through after the techniques 5 min#are up either…#rambling#the point it…… as sad as it may sound all of the characters fighting so hard now are doing so because they simply have to#Sukuna is literally a calamity and these are the only characters left who will even stand any chance against such a great entity#they don’t have much of a choice man#Gojo tried to prepare his students for the future so that they’ll be strong enough to fight back anything together. not alone#Everyone is doing what they can now
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cve-th3mvsic · 5 months
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HFFJFJDHGBGBGFHKSKZ
i wanna be social, i can be social. if i tried, i could totally be social. but DUDE
WHY IS IT SO DIFFICULTTT SJSHFJFJDN /nm
why is it so difficult for my brain to handle social interactions. HOW DO I- WHAT. WHAT DO I DO ABOUT THIS BDJDJDJD HOW AM I SUPPOOSED TO FIX IT
do i even need to fix anything.. nah actually i don’t
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sexynetra · 9 months
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I am on a mission to learn how to draw can you believe these are literally only 4 days apart I’m feeling so pussy pussy cunt cunt rn
#also I know it doesn’t look like Marcia I literally today learned how to draw facial proportions I can’t fuck around too much yet#also I liquified her she wrong so it’s a lil fucked up but#I’m v proud :)#didn’t even touch hair or body or anything but that’s fine I just want to learn to draw Marcia’s face right#that’s goal one#I will not rest until I get this down#I will become the expert in drawing Marcia’s face#also do you love that I can’t remember any makeup look except the red and white one#I’ve used it for like 6 drawings of her now#anyways it’s crazy what a single 10 minute video on how to properly proportion a face can do#also I don’t know what my style is yet bc I just started so obviously that factors into things#anyways!#artist advice is always welcome critique might (will) make me cry :)#encouragement is always… encouraged 😉#anyways I’m v happy with myself#even though I opened the canvas and lost track of time and blinked and it was 2 am#also can I just say it took me a few tries but I’m loving the lettering on her name :)#okay that’s it I’m going to brush my teeth and fall asleep#also I’m still trying to figure out all the secrets of procreatepls aid#marcia#marcia x3#marcia marcia marcia#drag race fanart#my art#also there’s only a one hour difference between how long it took to do these that’s so funny#wow#also in my defense!#I was trying out different styles so I was trying to copy a more cartoonish style#but still :)#also it looks so warm on my phone rn bc I have night mode on but the colors are so pretty on my iPad :) and presumably here once night mode
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bo0zey · 2 years
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anyone else ever get in those silly goofy moods where u just hate urself sooo much that u instantly feel physically almost violently ill just thinking abt urself and also even tho u worked a 12hr shift w no breaks or water running off of the 2 cups of coffee u had for breakfast 20 hours ago, the thought of eating instantly sends bouts of nausea coursing thru ur soul while churning in ur stomach bc ur brain hates u so much that its convinced ur body that u don’t deserve sustenance or anything else that’s life sustaining or promotes ur physical well being because u subconsciously convinced urself that ur such a shit excuse for a human being that u neither deserve nor have any right to anything regarding maslow’s hierarchy of needs bc u r such an awful thing u deserve to be neglected n treated like the nonliving object ur own brain sees ur living body as or am i just mentally ill lol
#laying in bed everytime i think abt myself i feel literally nauseated n like it’s so weird#this feeling comes in waves intermittently just even .01 sec of ‘hm i’m hungry’ FFFFFNOPE HRRGRHFFF VOMITTY#i want to curl up in a ball and die forever i don’t care about me i don’t want to take care of me anymore i’m not even good at it#whyyyyyyyy did i stop taking my meddsssssss i guarantee y’all this is why i’m being such a crybaby on the dash lmaoooo#i have a headache i’m def dehydrated from crying n sniveling n barely drinking any water today while sweating like a mf at work#imma go to bed 🛌 if i don’t wake up i will be soooo pleasantly surprised y’all have no idea FINGERS CROSSED🤞#real talk tho can someone tell me why my body is literally reacting this way for like no real reason#like am i truly that disgusted with myself i make myself nauseous just thinking abt me#ok yeah the answer is yes lol BUT LIKE WHY THATS SUCH A DRAMATIC BODILY RESPONSE TO MY BRAINS DUMBASS THOUGHTS???#ik the body and mind have a super powerful link n the brain influences the body like crazy but like#why this why does my brain literally want me to berate and degrade myself and isolate me and make me cry alone n starve me that’s so mean#i’m not starving btw i’m literally always eating just these past 2 days i’ve been such a fuckup my body won’t let me do anything#i had a chocolate poptart for dinner last night (thurs) n threw myself to bed#i hope i don’t end up hurting myself that would be so lame#i literally don’t have time for that like i am Not doing wound care duty off the clock for my damn self lol#also don’t want to take care of myself so i wouldn’t bandage myself up properly sooo yeah i’m not gonna do anything actually#cleaning ur wounds r super important ok yall ur literally playing god if u don’t do good aftercare snfjfbdj#i can’t believe i’m in this nasty ugly depressive episode i hate this so much i don’t have time for this i hate this cycle#i hate being bipolar 2 n my moods n meds have been so fkcdd up lately that i don’t even have the rlly fun hypomanic episodes anymore#i’ve just been constantly having mixed episodes im unbearable to be around im so sorry for everyone that’s ever spoken to me im insufferable#ok that’s enough im done being dramatic lmao#im gonna give myself a bolus PRN dose of clonnie then i’m going tf to bed#ramblings#shut up cianna
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katierosefun · 9 months
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obsessed with harvey in season 7 because you think that man can’t be any more disastrous but then he’s dating his therapist and inventing a new job for his boyfriend (cough) former employee who he hired illegally the first time around and he’s stressed and having a bad time and also his abandonment issues are still kicking and screaming in the background
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sourkitsch · 8 months
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Two things that are true at once:
I am not nearly as mentally ill as I’ve convinced myself I am
I am far sicker than I’ve convinced my friends that I am
#:(#my friend and I were talking about post grad plans and we were talking about how our friend is gonna move in w them + their partner#and eventually we got onto how I’m not confident on my ability to pay rent on place by myself#and then they were like omg wait we were actually just looking at a place w 3 bedrooms and thinking about who else we would want to live w#and I literally brushed them off by saying ‘oh no I’m a nightmare to live with’ and they were like no omg it would be so great!!!!!!#it would not be great. and I am hoping whatever these plans are fall through so I don’t have to say anything about it#because I cannot have roommates. my friends have only encountered my ptsd twice and I managed it well enough that I’m pretty sure#no one noticed. but it’s because the vast majority of my triggers are domestic. when I sleep over my moms house I sleep in a bedroom#all the way down the hall away from everything because I cannot hear people’s footsteps by my door or I freak the fuck out#and just the idea of people drinking or doing drugs in a place I live makes me feel like I’m gonna throw up#I’ve tried living in a single dorm before and that was bad enough that I had to move off of campus my sophomore year#I just really really really don’t want to be serious and tell them I can’t#because I know it would be unfair to all of us#I hate that I view myself as a punishment for other people but I know it’s because it is. I would be that crazy roommate that’s brought up#for years afterwards. and it sucks because I like this people even if I know not to trust them#it’s also now a pattern that when I bring something up about me not being normal people think it’s a joke. which maybe it’s my fault#I really need to go back to therapy but do not have the bandwidth to go over the incest thing with a new person right now
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hellshire-harlot · 8 months
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Never go to Louisiana. Worst mistake of my life
#So yeah#I just beat#Resident Evil 7#It’s so fucking surreal getting that hopeful shot of Mia and Ethan while knowing how 8 ends :(#No clue how many endings there are but I’m honestly not looking forward to saving Zoe#Like yeah she’s cool and I really do like her but I came here for my WIFE. MIA.#If anything I’m kinda wondering if Zoe is better off in the Strata with her family now that they’re not crazy#Except Lucas. Fuck Lucas#HE WAS GENUINELY SO CREEPY LIKE I GOT SO UNCOMFY#’do whatever you want with his girl’ I am going to shoot you#Ngl tho man knows how to make an escape room#Also the wrecked ship was an INCREDIBLE setpiece#And getting to see Mia fight tooth and nail to get Ethan just like he did for her was awesome#I feel conflicted about Eveline. I relate a lot to her but it doesn’t excuse the things she’s done#It explains them. It doesn’t excuse them.#She literally knew nothing but violence her entire life. She was created to be a weapon. She grew up as a specimen.#All she wanted was a family and she gave herself one in the only way she knew how.#The only way she’d ever been SHOWN.#and that’s so fucking tragic.#Especially knowing Miranda initially wanted Eveline to be a vessel for Eva and then REJECTED HER.#The reason for your being deciding you aren’t good enough and casting you aside like nothing#SO. FUCKING. HEARTBREAKING#A perfect mix of insanity humor horror and tragedy#I like to think that somewhere in the Strata of the mold the Bakers can live in peace. Lucas can heal from whatever is wrong with him#Zoe can rest. Marguerit and Jack can be together.#And Eveline can’t hurt them anymore.#Honestly the Strata as afterlife is a very fun concept. Maybe Alcina and the girls are there too in a Strata-castle#Maybe Donna and Angie peacefully knit and make dolls together in the Strata#Maybe Moreau is finally free from his pain and can live somewhere peaceful. Unbothered.#Maybe Karl can find some peace knowing that at least Miranda too is dead. Maybe he can find Ethan.
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kendricksendrick · 11 months
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if this goofy little lets be a little bit more than best friends thing goes south who do I sue?
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rosesradio · 1 year
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#actually i am really sick of my family for making me feel like ‘being liberal’ Or Whatever is my only personal trait#because like i used to voice opinions on things until they made me feel bad/crazy for it#but now when they whip out the most batshit insane take on something & i’m just like ‘um i dunno…but to each their own’#& they still act like i’m crazy i’m so 💀#like my only cousin who’s into p/j/o was talking about how the new book (& while he ‘doesn’t care’ that Nico’s gay it—#‘came out of nowhere’ 🙄) the new book is written by two authors—one of them being a gay man because Richard wanted the input—#because he didn’t feel qualified to write it as a straight man or something idk#but my cousin. said. that if a straight man ‘can’t’ write a gay story then a woman can’t write a man’s story & vice versa#which. oh my god no#for one thing i do think anyone can write any story even/especially if it’s out of their depth but they should absolutely reach out—#if they want firsthand accounts of experiences like what it’s like to be gay etc#but also. of course a woman can write a man & vice versa what kind of take even is that? like yeah some people do it really weird—#(‘she boobed breastily down the stairs’)#but that doesn’t mean people shouldn’t be allowed if anything people should learn about the experiences of others#in general his takes of ‘i don’t Care i just wish it wasn’t Every Character that’s not how it Used To Be’#like 1.) if richard wrote lgbtq/poc main characters in 2005 he probably wouldn’t have sold many books#and 2.) it’s Greek mythology. you get what you sign up for#anyways yeah i’m really quiet at family functions but even when i just quietly disagree i’m made to feel really bad about it#& the next function is literally my grad party like next week ://#but after that there shouldn’t be anything for a while#rose.txt#tw vent
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tariah23 · 2 months
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Oh………….. 😵‍💫…
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the-somwthing · 4 months
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My brain’s on a bit of a flower husbands kick rn. I wanted to do more scott/joel but hey. Maybe I’ll do some fh before I get back to that.
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milo-is-rambling · 1 year
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I think I’m in between food hyperfixations and it’s spooking me
#need to stop eating everything in my sight when nothing makes me happy but it’s so much easier to eat everything in my path than it is to#sit and not eat bc I always want something to chew on I want chips I want fruit I want meal after meal I need to stop !!!!#I haven’t even been that excited about cherries recently I think I need to let them come to room temp before I truly like them like them#idk everything reminds me of something else and idk what I like and what I can’t stand to look at anymore and it’s making me feel crazy#anything can set my emotions off and I hate it I don’t want to eat frozen grapes anymore bc I ate them every single day last summer while in#a discord group full of ppl I don’t talk to anymore and now grapes make me upset and sad#it’s just like idk little things like that like why must everything I do have layers can’t I just fucking enjoy things like a normal person#ughhhhhh#anyways just had a serving of microwave French toast sticks and now I’m sitting in front of my ac smoking and thinking about what I want to#eat next#I mean to be fair it’s noon and I went to bed at one or two so like it’s been hours and five small French toast sticks probably wouldn’t#hold an adult over but also I hate myself and my needs and my wants I want to never eat again and also never stop and I hate myself#but also I’m the best person on the planet and everyone wants me and food is my oldest friend#I think I’ll go get my garlic triscuts and hummus and fancy cheese#and grab the cherries#and then set up a Walmart order and see if literally anything speaks to me#that isn’t completely junk
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