#but if you're acting that way intentionally and you're proud of it then i hate you

[rustedleopard]

In reference to this post.

@twothpaste​ The especially rich thing about people who justify their cruelty by saying that “The world is screwed up anyways” and “People who are kind are actually stupid, I’m just seeing the world as it is and acting accordingly” (or whatever excuses they conjure up so they can act like an asshole with no sweat off their conscious) is that it’s self-fulfilling.

Like, yeah, sure there are things in the world that are terrible and unavoidable like natural disasters and disease. There’s no amount of “being nice” that can make cancer stop existing. But people’s actions are controllable and if you’re being a terrible person, then you’re part of the reason why the world is terrible. What you do impacts the universe around you, and there is nothing you can do to isolate your actions from the rest of the world, so if you’re being a dick then: Congrats! You’re feeding into your stupid worldview and making everyone else around you miserable, you Ouroborus motherfucker!

[animeyanderelover]

What would inuyasha be like as a yandere?

Tw: Yandere themes, unhealthy mindset, unhealthy relationship, possessive behavior, obsession, clinginess, abduction, death

Yandere Inuyasha Hc’s

🔴My god, the denial is strong with Inuyasha when it comes to his strong feelings he keeps in his heart for his darling. You can't fully blame him though. Shunned by humans and demons alike for his heritage and troubled past, he has about zero social interaction skills and is very wary. Inuyasha doesn't want to trust you for he fears that you'll push him away for his blood just like so many before you did. Why would he need you after all? He tries to play it down and intentionally acts mean to you. Does it work though? No. Instead his heart trembles after he's spit rude words at you and watches you walk away. Do you hate him? Will you leave him? Such intrusive thoughts trouble the half-demon through days and night yet he's also too proud to appear before you and apologize. It results in the possibly worst attempts to stalk you which always embarrass him as he just has to always say something in a loud and aggressive voice when he witnesses you spending time with someone else. He's so jealous!

🔴I'd say his strongest traits would be his very protective instincts, his very childish possessive streak and his jealousy. Inuyasha will always be around, whether in terrible disguises in order to stalk you or by really just trailing visibly behind you, yelling at you that he's free to go wherever he wants to go. He's not following you, you idiot! He's just walking into the same direction! He's acting like a brat most of the time but the moment he does sense something bad, he will fight with his teeth and claws to protect you. He's already lost enough in his life and protecting you becomes eventually a basic instinct. Whilst I see Sesshomaru being possessive in the sense of being downright territorial, Inuyasha shows a more 'harmless' way of being possessive. That is not to say that he can't act more scarily possessive in certain situations but most of the time he's just acting immature with his temper tantrums when you ignore him or don't want to see him in favor of meeting with someone else. Oh, he'll absolutely crash every activities of yours so he can be included.

🔴Inuyasha's jealousy is probably the part that will give you permanently headaches. Because he'd probably get into a brawl with everyone who does as much as looking at you for too long. Just imagine a dog who barks at anyone loudly until they're out of sight and you know what it's like being accompanied by Inuyasha. His childish demands to have you for himself really come through during such moments and if you think that he's been rude to you in the past, just wait until you hear him cussing and disrespecting at whoever irked him. The type to get into a physical fight if someone talks back, although he'd rarely really hurt someone. It's only to scare them away a bit. Literally will drag you away or even carry you away when his not existing patience is at an end. You always feel sharp nails dugging into the skin of your waist or hips before you're either dragged away or lifted up into his arms and he makes a run for it, still yelling at the person that this isn't settled yet.

🔴Inuyasha seems to value life a lot, surprising considering that most demons don't think too much about it. He is certainly someone prone to get into physical fights but most of the time those are evoked by his raging jealousy. That said he throws away all common sense if someone should ever dare to hurt you in which case he goes rather violent which can cause some serious damage to the culprit if he lets his feelings get the better of him. If someone seriously tries to kill you though? He completely loses it and maximum destruction will be achieved if he doesn't have his Tessaigan with him since his sheer wrath alone triggers his demonic blood to take over him. The aftermath is always terrible as he's destroyed in his sheer and suffocating anger the landscape around him and has torn the enemy to shreds, blood covering his hands and coating his mouth. You don't get away unscarred either as you end up getting injured in some way but Inuyasha, even in his full-fledged demon form that only wants to destroy, still makes sure that you're alive. Even in such a savage state, keeping you alive remains his core instinct.

🔴A part of me thinks that he wouldn't be fully willing to kidnap his darling since he probably has some common sense, especially if his darling has the happy family and life he never could have. Thinking about ripping that away from you has him recoiling a bit in disgust as this is a level he doesn't want to sink to. What happens far more often is that Inuyasha sometimes just whisks you away for his own purposes, specifically if he's feeling neglected or has noticed that you've spent very much time with someone else recently. He carries you somewhere away where you won't know the way back home and have to forcefully rely on him and I just know that he'll rub it into your face how you need to have him as your protector now. Considering that Inuyasha has never been someone who could hold back his emotions which oftentimes lead his actions. So it is likely that within the heat of a moment, he might grab you out of overwhelming anger and frustration and bring you somewhere far away from your original home. After he has calmed down a bit, he can't ignore the twinge of guilt but he's too proud to admit it.

🔴He's probably really acting like a dog at times, although he barely notices. Don't you even dare approach him reeking like someone else because it is disgusting. If he could have it his way, he'd burn the clothes right away. Scenting is a thing and whilst he doesn't calculate that humans don't have such enhanced senses as he has, it still satisfies a primal part of him. Your scent is also the one thing he will always detect even amongst a million other aromas. He loves it if you scratch him behind his ears, if you find the right spot his leg is actually stomping. He's instantly embarrassed about it as soon as he snaps out of it though. It's safe to assume that Inuyasha is constantly in a bad mood when other people are around since he sees everyone and everything as a threat that might steal your attention. Those feelings are harmless for the most part though. He usually avoids you during every new moon as he's too ashamed to be seen in his physically weakest state and it is likely that he doesn't even tell you and you have to find out by yourself.

[luneariaa]

so uh, latest ep inspired me somehow to complete this,, and just an imagine that i have to let out.

implied angst and cussing happened once. yes. idk if it's angsty enough tho.

. dividers by @/cafekitsune !! 💛

Nanami has always been so protective, especially to those whom he cares deeply about. During those assigned missions with you together, he watches over you every so often-- keeping you in his line of sight at each possible moment.

He hates to see you cry because of him. He doesn't mind it actually, but if he was the main cause, it would hurt him so much.

But you knew that he would never, intentionally hurt you.

So on that exact same day when the Shibuya incident occurred, he would place his hand on top of your head as if to provide some comfort.

"Love.."

"Don't cry. I know you're strong, and you'll get through this. Not as much as I do, but still."

"I'll protect you from everything, okay? Even this." He tenderly wipes away your tears with a small smile of reassurance. One that he still managed to muster up even in situations like this. Even paying no heed to his own injuries, but you.

He's already bloody on one side of his face; blinded an eye, and wounded, even. But how does one still manage to stand strong like him?

You feel powerless; and useless, despite having your own place as a Jujutsu sorcerer. Is this what you've learned after all these years?

You feel like a mistake-- a failure.

"Hey.." Nanami spoke with much care and affection in his tone despite his current condition. "You didn't fail anything, okay? Not in a million years, no. Don't look at yourself that way."

But his words did very little attempt to soothe your worries away within your chaotic mind, so he sighed softly while his hand caressed your head tenderly.

"You still did a very great job back there, and I am still alive, with you here."

"Don't berate yourself over this, you just can't predict anything that's about to happen. And that's okay."

"You did more than enough. I'm proud of you." He whispered at the end of his words, almost begging for you to actually listen to him by at this point, you actually looked so out of it.

And so, Nanami held you close to him, just in case. The bitter truth might await you two; he simply couldn't risk it.

You finally gave a small response to him not too long after, wiping your eyes a bit and trying to stay composed. "I'll try."

He's completely trying his best, yet you feel like a selfish, foolish person to act this way-- but you couldn't help it. How you wish to stay 'blinded' by the mere truth; refusal, denial, to face everything after this.

Nanami is so, so patient with you, not once feeling angry at you. The man seemed so understanding that you're currently mentally unstable to even process everything at once, and believe it or not, it actually saddens him to see you this way; even when he might not show it.

Slowly, but surely, he begins to cover your eyes with his hands gently, as if he's trying to shield you from witnessing anything further. One could say this can be seen metaphorically, but it works, at least for now.

"We'll go somewhere, alright? Just me and you."

"Away from here-- anywhere you want."

"Where though..?" You murmur out despite not being able to see anything. But you feel safe, with him. "Is there such a place that we can go?"

"How about the beach, hm?" He suggested in a soothingly sweet tone, brushing his fingers on the side of your face lovingly; his other hand still covering your eyes somehow.

"We get to enjoy the sunset, the crystal clear waters of the beach, the sounds of the waves.. No cursed spirits, no fighting at all."

"And let me guess--" you finally giggled upon realization of his suggestion, "--Malaysia?"

He chuckled at your correct assumption, slowly removing his hand away from your eyes. Now becoming more uncaring of your own surroundings, and a warm smile decorates your features as he caresses your cheeks; eyes not leaving your own.

"We'll go there, okay? Just-- stay close to me."

Everything will be fine.

Just don't turn your head and look behind; you'll be fine.

Don't look back.

Don't look back.

Don't look back--

Silence.

It feels like your own world; everything came crashing down on you at once. It's crushing you so hard that it feels suffocating, your legs feeling heavier with each step you take.

It never happened, did it?

The borders of your senses between your own fantasy and reality becomes blurry, and your eyes widened at the sight in front of you.

"KENTO-!!" You screamed at Nanami's name as he got burned off by Jogo's flames, before being thrown away toward other parts of the abandoned building-- glass shattering almost everywhere that some of it even hit your delicate skin.

Everything was a blur for you after, and silence filled your hearings even just for a split moment. But what you've just witnessed is indeed sending you into a state of pure shock and disbelief.

Reality is often cruel after all. Mercilessly making you as one of the people to witness such a sight.

It feels unreal, and you refuse to believe it. This has to be a dream, and you will wake up from it soon.

But no.

The impact of the throw is so hard that you're now just lying on the ground painfully; struggling to even make a proper stand.

"Must be quite a sight, eh?" Jogo asks out of the blue while a smug smile is plastered on his face, slowly approaching your helpless form.

"How does it feel to see the man; that you looked up to, being burned off? A scenery-worthy picture perhaps?"

With gritted teeth, you spat at him with all your strength left rather quickly. "FUCK YOU JUST FUCK OFF!!" All your pent up anger and frustration filled those words up with no hesitation. The audacity-

"Is that all you can do?" He mocks you, a loud laughter following after. "You're so weak."

"A time waster. This is getting boring anyway."

He then proceeded to burn you off just like what he did to Nanami without any mercy being spared.

imma just sleep i got sleepy after wrote this- :p

© 𝚌𝚊𝚜𝚜.

[purplenidoqueen]

why did you read “let’s hold transmisogynistic trans mascs accountable and not humor their bigotry” as “i hate trans men”? come now. the post only criticizes transmascs who engage in transmisogyny. nowhere does it say that transmascs are a threat or danger to trans women, just that they’re capable of being shitty to us and shouldn’t. you have to learn to read trans women in good faith.

Sorry for the wait! I have too little free time and too much to say on any given topic.

The reblog that garnered these messages can be found here.

Since this was split into two messages I'll have to respond in two parts, so bear with me. While I don't have much of an audience, it's important to me to head this off, so I'd appreciate it if anyone who reads this and agrees with my stances here also walks away with the message of patience and solidarity, and doesn't send messages her way for whatever reason. This isn't a callout and I don't believe in callouts; this is just how the inbox function works.

Anyway! First:

I can understand your rush to send off these messages, considering the amount of pushback you seem to have gotten, but as I said at the end of my reblog, I'm a trans woman myself; I've been out and proud with my she/they pronouns for over a decade. It's not about learning to understand trans women, is it? It's about the communication of ideas in the midst of a disagreement, itself in the midst of one of the most volatile and socially violent moments in our corner of the platform.

First, and perhaps most confrontationally, you didn't start with transmisogynistic trans mascs. You started with how this is our fight, and this isn't about them. That's the bit I take issue with. You say we have to stop excusing this behavior, and stop getting defensive and generalizing this shit, and that we cant be afraid to recognize their bigotry just because they’re also trans, but you are the one who started generalizing, and this is me recognizing it. You're lumping the guys who said "this is why we have to care about trans people, listen to trans siblings" in with the trans mascs -- including those which are profiles worn by the dedicated terf brigade that has been antagonizing Rita and other trans women for years -- who are spreading callouts and being part of the problem. We can't go into this acting defensive against our allies. I'll double down on this: You're playing the game the terfs want you to play.

To clarify a related point, this isn't about whether or not you hate men. I'll admit that I did check your reblogs, and that I give a little nervous side-eye toward some of the content you've posted, but that's honestly not my business and it wasn't the point. The point is that, whether you hate men or love them, whether you're helping to sow discontent among the community intentionally or unintentionally… you're still playing the game the terfs want you to play. This isn't about feelings; it's about the results.

"Nowhere does it say that transmascs are a threat or danger to trans women, just that they’re capable of being shitty to us and shouldn’t"…

Sure, but it does say

"it’s kind of fucking annoying as hell seeing transmascs watch all the insane recent transmisogyny and go “this is why we have to care about trans people, listen to trans siblings” no. this is about trans women."

And isn't that the point? This isn't just about trans women. This is about the BLM protest, and all the black bloggers who got called russian bots and were terminated. This is about every sex worker who straddled the line of post-porn-ban TOS as best they could and still got banned for presenting wrong, from trans women posting their faces to trans men posting their nipples. This is about every voice that has consistently been eradicated from Tumblr, and Rita's is the latest and the loudest explosion heard but hers is not the only one we should be talking about, and her situation and ours is not the only one that matters.

I did read the rest of the post before I responded, and I'll give the same note here that I give when "journalists" front-load their articles with falsehoods because they know that the first few sentences are the most important ones: if you don't want your work to be adversarial, don't start it adversarially.

Part two here, and since we're on to the second message I promise it's less about personal presentation of the message and more about the greater topics.

[crusherthedoctor]

💫 favorite Sonic game(s) in terms of aesthetic <3

I guess The Aesthetic Guy has become one of my calling cards next to The Green Horsie Guy and The Eggman Guy That Hates Eggdad, huh? Well, I wouldn't have it any other way.

Unfortunately and/or fortunately, there's a lot of Sonic games with top tier aesthetics, which makes it very hard for me to narrow them down. Most games in the series have at least a winner or two: SA2 has the pyramid and A.R.K. levels. Unleashed has Eggmanland and Jungle Joyride. '06 has Kingdom Valley. Black Knight has Misty Lake. Secret Rings has Sand Oasis and Night Palace. Rush has Water Palace and Mirage Road. Rush Adventure has Coral Cave, Sky Babylon, and Pirates' Island. 3D Blast has Rusty Ruin and Volcano Valley. ShtH has more than you'd expect for a game like it, such as Digital Circuit and Circus Park. Even the Rivals duology has a couple of good ones. But if I must decide on a personal top ten for which games I consider to have the most consistently strong aesthetics, then in chronological order...

The Genesis games. They started things off, so they had to establish Sonic's world as a fascinating one. Well it worked for me when I played them on Mega Collection back in '03. Despite playing Advance 2 first, I never thought these ones were uncool by comparison. I loved Marble Zone's juxtaposition of the grassy outdoors with the lava temple. I loved how opulent Casino Night's lights were to offset the night. I loved how funky and quasi-Arabic in architecture Launch Base was. I loved how the already ominous background in Death Egg Act 1 doesn't even move, subtly emphasizing just how massive the spaceship truly is. Even when they had to reuse assets to cobble together a zone, it still looked great!

Sonic CD. I already love the visual storytelling in the game as is, and its aesthetics make me love it even more. My favourites tend to be the Pasts for how they get away with being no less pleasing in spite of their intentionally murkier palettes (I too adore the sunset canyon of Wacky Workbench), and the Good Futures for how unashamedly loud and proud they are, including the way they show nature and technology working together. They're all so good. (Also, shout out to Chaotix for having a similar vibe, even if it can sometimes be hard to tell what you're looking at cause of how trippy it is lol. It's like the physical manifestation of the 90's.)

Sonic R. The neanderthal "I wish Sonic R had more than five courses so the game was longer" VS the intellectual "I wish Sonic R had more than five courses so there were more for me to stop and gawk at".

SA1. Lost World is so pretty. Twinkle Park is so pretty. The At Dawn section of Speed Highway is so pretty. The cave in Ice Cap is so pretty. Beta Windy Valley is so pretty. Red Mountain is pretty from a certain point of view. SA1 may have started the focus on "realism", but it never felt anywhere near as in-your-face as some of the later games that indulged in it. Not just because there were plenty of more whimsical environments to balance it out, but also because even the grounded ones still had an equal amount of colours and fancy Dreamcast lighting trickery. Hell, Final Egg is meant to be a gritty, grungy kind of Eggman base, and it is, yet it still manages to be as visually interesting to look at as the other stages. I can't really say that about Crisis City, or the islands in Frontiers.

The Advance trilogy. C'mon, you know I love me some good pixel art, so I'm never going to stop gushing over how gorgeous Ice Mountain and Twinkle Snow are, or how cool Techno Base is, or how upbeat Music Plant is, or how striking Chaos Angel is, or how-

Heroes. People always say this game had some of the most Genesis-style environments in a 3D installment, and I definitely don't disagree with that. Because of this, it has a very similar appeal to SA1, with levels like Grand Metropolis, Frog Forest, and Hang Castle most likely managing to fit in with the SA1 group without sticking out like a sore thumb. And it's a small detail, but I love how in Egg Fleet, the upper part of the skybox is completely clear. All the clouds are down below. It's a subtle thing, but it really goes a long way to emphasizing just how high up in the atmosphere you really are.

The Riders trilogy. Metal City has one of my favourite city aesthetics in the series. Gigan Rocks is like a more vibrant Dragon Road, and Gigan Device has a beautiful nighttime palette. Dark Desert's eclipse-induced darkness contrasts with the colorful circuitry during the indoor sections. Aquatic Capital is like a high-tech water park, with Tempest Waterway being the sort-of-Bad-Future equivalent that's still pretty in its own way. Digital Dimension is Digital Dimension. Even Crimson Crater, despite mostly consisting of greys and silvers, remains compelling due to how alien the landscape is. There were even some visual highlights in Free Riders despite being Free Riders, like the very first course, Dolphin Resort.

Colours. After Heroes, this game's environments are among the most Genesis, which you know at this point is always a plus in my book. Each of them have their own thing to say about Eggman's theme park and the man himself by extension, with the public announcements giving them even more personality. Aquarium Park is undisputedly my favourite of the lot, doubled by the catching red and blue contrast (and also because underwater tubes is one of those video game tropes that always captivates me; thank Roo's Tubes from CTR for starting that fascination).

Generations. This one's sort of cheating since it's just Old Levels DX: Director's Cut, but it deserves to be mentioned for its version of Sky Sanctuary alone. I really like Generations Sky Sanctuary...

Mania. The older levels have been remixed so heavily that they feel new regardless, and the twists it spins on the actual environment side of things is no exception, like the cavern in Green Hill, or the machinery in Lava Reef. But of course, the new levels are S-tier eye candy as well. I particularly love how Titanic Monarch manages to be dark and spooky while also having every colour under the rainbow at the same time, and the snowy forest backdrop of Press Garden is just... wonderful. <3

And although the game isn't out yet, Superstars looks like it'll be another consistent winner for me. While another Mania-esque pixel art game would have been really nice, I can accept the Sonic 4 But Better approach if it's like what we've seen so far.

You'll notice some running themes with my favourites. The obvious one is a generous amount of vibrancy and character, because no matter how bright or dark, good or evil, hopeful or hopeless the environment is meant to convey, it should never be boring. I also apparently get excited by technicolor stuff, because I never stopped being six years old. And if realism is a thing, I prefer it to be something that compliments an otherwise whimsical land, rather than be at the forefront and eclipsing all other attributes.

But I also like it when they get a bit ethereal, especially if it can provide a contrast with Eggman's handiwork. That's why I marvel at levels like Radiant Emerald, Night Palace, and basically everything in CD. As such, when writing for Stellar, I wanted to emphasize this aspect as a way to help Viridonia stand out as a setting compared to the likes of Station Square. (This was true for the original Beyond the Stars as well, but naturally I wanted to go even further with it after the transition.)

[pesterloglog]

Jake English, Autoresponder

Act 6, page 4184-4185

golgothasTerror [GT] began pestering timaeusTestified [TT] at 5:57

GT: Bro.

GT: Ahem.

GT: Are you there?

GT: I hate to be a pest about this and i know ive made a hearty trouble of myself a good deal lately...

TT: State your business, Jake.

GT: I should preface this request with an overture of appreciation.

GT: For how much your cool and brotherly friendship means to me.

GT: It has just been...

GT: Absolutely *bully* having a standup gent like you in my corner.

GT: Just a grade a dude whos a cut above the others in class and camaraderie.

GT: Phew... *gropes for fresh kerchief.*

GT: I hope this shit isnt coming across as platitudinous. I really mean it!

TT: Take it easy, bromide.

TT: Just about the only way I could salvage endearment from this perilous slope of horseshit would be to discover, really fucking soon mind you, it was a preamble to some floundering invitation for me to rush to your vicinity as nakedly as possible.

TT: But since we've already shot that wad's eventuality on so many dry runs of flustered ambivalence that were as hilarious as they were one sided,

TT: That leaves only one hope for this message to avoid spiraling toward qualification as a critical fucking defect in the hull of the Mach 10 rocket that is my precious spare time.

TT: And that hope lies in the extent to which you were practicing artful insincerity.

TT: Now's your opportunity to pretend that's what you were gunning for. I suggest you seize it.

GT: I...

GT: Oh. Yes! But of course.

GT: The ironies!

GT: Good grief how i was bandying them just now. You know me dude.

GT: *Blows smoke off red hot irony pistol.*

GT: *NONSUGGESTIVELY!!!!!*

GT: Um.

GT: Yeah.

TT: Ok, nice.

TT: Now that your obsequious preface has been established as indisputably entertaining for all the right reasons, and intentionally so,

TT: Let's bear down on these dire as shit needs you've got.

TT: I'm guessing you're probably jonesing for uranium about now. No?

GT: Pshaw! As if i would be so reckless with the stuff.

GT: I would have to be mighty irresponsible to run out already.

GT: No no im all set in the uranium department and really when you take a look at the big picture youll find i am *sitting pretty* when it comes to just about any radioactive isotope you could mention.

GT: However...

GT: My backup reserves that i keep strictly for emergencies are running a little lean!

GT: You know what my grandma taught me about preparedness. *Tugs at colorful lapels.*

TT: You are out of uranium.

TT: It's basically mathematically impossible that's not why you're contacting me.

GT: Christ what an insufferable awesome friend you are.

GT: Ok can you please just sendificate me some more already?? Im in kind of a hurry!

TT: You do know my offer still stands.

GT: What?

TT: You know. I've offered to construct the rabbit for you many times before. I would craft a much deadlier model.

GT: Oh i know you would its just...

GT: Damn it man ive told you this is just something i have to do myself.

GT: Its a promise i made to jade and im going to live up to it even if im not the best or even second best robosmith i know!

TT: Yeah, I know this is your policy. You've done a good job and you should be proud.

TT: But it's my responsibility as your friend to offer one last time.

TT: Just as it's my responsibility not to just fork over a bunch of uranium just because you ask me in a moment of weakness.

GT: Frig!!!!!

GT: Why not???

TT: It's too easy.

TT: And you yourself are the one staking pride in this.

TT: If you were half-assing this project and made some slovenly plea for it, I'd just say, fuck it, here's a lot of green rocks dude, go nuts.

GT: Ok then! Im halfassing it!

GT: Look. See? Only a bisected bottom is present! Where is the other half you ask?

GT: Why... it is nowhere to be found. I didnt use it!

TT: Nope. Not buying it.

TT: I know that every ounce of your premium behind can be accounted for in that rabbit, and there's no goddamned denying it.

TT: And you know perfectly well where some more uranium can be located.

GT: Jesus christmas you are such a fucking douche.

TT: It seems you think I am a fucking douche.

TT: That's your opinion, I guess. That's cool.

GT: I knew you were going to suggest this. I dont know why i bothered asking!

GT: Strider why must you always be such an obstinate stick in the mud???

TT: It seems that you consider me to be, no less than one hundred percent of the time, an obstinate stick in the mud.

TT: I unironically respect your position on this matter. Hey, let's continue to exchange ideas.

GT: Wait...

GT: "It seems"??

TT: What?

GT: Oh for fucks sake.

TT: Is something the matter, Jake?

GT: This is your auto responder.

TT: Look at that statement you just made.

TT: It's time for me to respond with some words, ideally chosen and arranged in a way that will wreck your shit, in a subtle and psychologically devastating way.

GT: Har har har!

GT: Just soooo "*irooooonic*!!!" Quotes quotes quotes.

GT: Im laughing my caboose STRAIGHT OFF THE TRACKS! A lot of families just died in the tragic derailment.

TT: Ok, the caboose remark was actually pretty funny, Jake.

TT: If I truly were what you say I am, I wouldn't be able to feel the human emotions of joy and laughter. No?

GT: Laughter isnt an emotion dickprince!

TT: I think you should back your claims up with proof before you go heaving around such accusations.

GT: Man its so flipping obvious.

GT: You start getting kind of extra technical and vague and automoton like.

GT: And kind of aloof and brusque.

GT: I mean...

GT: Even aloofier and brusquier than usual!

GT: Also you use the phrase "it seems" a lot. Its so silly it really blows the AI immersion man.

TT: Bullshit.

TT: I'm being like, the perfect dude right now. A fully fucking legitimate human being.

GT: Ok then check this out mr legit human dude.

GT: Excuse me sir not to be a bother but could you please tell me all about this strider fellows auto responder?

TT: It seems you have asked about DS's chat client auto-responder. This is an application designed to simulate DS's otherwise inimitably rad typing style, tone, cadence, personality, and substance of retort while he is away from the computer. The algorithms are guaranteed to be 96% indistinguishable from DS's native neurological responses, based on some statistical analysis I basically just pulled out of my ass right now.

GT: You see!

TT: What if I was just fucking with you there?

TT: Would it really be so unthinkable for a human to type that?

GT: Because you always say shit like that after i catch wise to your games.

GT: You as in the auto responder!!!

TT: Unimpressed.

TT: Logical fallacies are as pervasive throughout your argument as your antiquated verbal tics.

GT: Oh yeah?

GT: Hey. Tell me about the auto responder. Make it snappy shitknickers!

TT: It seems you have asked about DS's chat client auto-responder. This is an application designed to simulate DS's otherwise inimitably rad typing style, tone, cadence, personality, and substance of retort while he is away from the computer. The algorithms are guaranteed to be 93% indistinguishable from DS's native neurological responses, based on some statistical analysis I basically just pulled out of my ass right now.

GT: Gee dude you sure typed that exact same thing pretty fast.

GT: Are you still fucking with me??

TT: It could be a coincidence that I typed the same answer.

GT: You always type that answer!!!!!

TT: It could be a coincidence that I always type the same answer.

GT: Uuuuuuugh.

GT: I cant stand this. Every time we do this and i just wind up whistling sweet dixie out of my bum hole!

GT: This is pointless im not having this conversation unless its with my REAL LIFE FRIEND. THE ONE WITH HUMAN FEELINGS WHO ISNT A PRETEND PERSON INSIDE SUNGLASSES.

TT: Ok, but I'm pretty sure he's going to share my position on the matter.

golgothasTerror [GT] ceased pestering timaeusTestified [TT]

[deviantartdramahub]

It seems anything you do today will get someone to call you manipulative. A few days ago I (one of us anyways, this is a collaborated post because two of us are involved in this experience) was setting up my commissions page to mention I will only commission people if they are subscribed to me, and someone said "eww no, you're just getting people to subscribe to you, that's manipulative".

At one point, I went around asking how "manipulative" is defined. Because there is A LOT people can argue is "technically manipulative". I wanted to see what definition could both apply to everything someone has been accused of doing manipulatively as well as be considered bad. I got a bunch of different but unsatisfying responses, they fulfill it partially but either overdo what I'm asking or underdo it.

I'm just about to block out the word, as in block anyone who uses the word. I do have a set code I go by.

...for example, would I "manipulate" things dishonestly? Not sure what the word means, but I always aim for honesty. I might intentionally withhold something but even I know there's a difference between creativeness that doesn't necessitate dishonest elements and examples that do. I have never, as the word "two-faced" might imply, treated two people with different faces; the closest I get is acting different due to mood, but that's not being "two-faced".

...would I do anything like I'm accused of with selfish intentions? No, I am satisfied with being confined by the intentional interpretation of the rules when it comes to myself. If I do "manipulate", who says I do it for me? Sure, for example, it's "technically manipulative" for a celebrity to endorse a product to get people to buy it, but the celebrity isn't doing it for themself.

...would I cause death? No, not at all. I'm not a mafioso or a dictator just because some schmuck called me manipulative, and imagine being so bad at dictating that you had to erase a large number of people in order for your ideas to look like they make sense. Imagine Mao Zedong being called the best at dictating despite having such a higher collateral damage before he could reach his goal. An effective manipulator, I'm pretty sure, would actually be measured by how little decision-making they have to do to achieve their goal (and how few rules here they have to break to achieve what they achieve... some people stop short of breaking any if they feel they'll have to). I am therefore proud to say I never felt the need to have someone poof, thank you very much.

...would I excuse my own hypocrisy? Everyone is a hypocrite to some extent, what matters is you try to better yourself every day. Someone told me it seemed hypocritical I opposed police being a union and not having body cameras and supported teachers being the same way, and I realized I agreed. I have never (and see no reason to) done anything that requires a "I believe this here and this there" approach.

...would I encroach on someone else's "manipulativeness"? No, even despite maybe disagreeing with what they're doing, I am inclined to offer a chance for collaboration if they have the restraint I describe here. If anything, more questionable things should always be discussed beforehand. If it so happens you are manipulative, I would say, consider those who follow the decency I describe as brothers and sisters and non-decent manipulators a part of fair game.

...would I be "the manipulative gal everyone hates" when the thing I'm trying to have accomplished doesn't actually necessitate anything that involves manipulation, and similarly, would I drag anyone into something I've been trying to do if not necessary? Why would I? No I wouldn't. It's like how countries have promised to never drop a nuke if they were never hit with a nuke. You know, those things that as https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UVl7lxk0HhI mentions follows the trend of pacifists of all people inventing more and more severe weapons in order to "prevent war" only for those weapons to be used IN war (and nobody calls THEM manipulative, like holy frackadoodle). So yeah, I'm even less manipulative than the actual pacifists we all like to quote. This rule applies even more when it's a two-sided conflict you wish to do it in.

I actually have a list of ten points but it ended up becoming six the way it was typed.

Today, we have such a thing called a "white hat" approach (e.g. white hat hacker, meaning a professional "good hacker" who hacks for the good of all, or white hat sorcerers, since sorcery was once taboo), and it surprises me people use the term "manipulative" and imply it means "nothing good" while they're at it, like are there no people identifying as "white hat machiavellians" and go by "white hat machiavellian norms" (as discussed)?

Not sure if you just went full philosopher at the end or something, or if you wanted to add to this list and the lists it links to. I only fully recognize the group-relevant part.

[britts-galaxy-brain]

Pathetic as always, move on from me already.

I'm actually pleasantly surprised you were brave enough to admit this is you, again assuming this isn't a random anon pretending.

Believe it or not, I wanted so much better for you. I don't know if you bothered to read the open letter I posted when I first made this Tumblr. I originally wanted to check up on your channel because I still cared and I hoped you were happier and doing better overall. At first glance, I thought that was true and was proud and happy for you.

Then I found out that wasn't the case. You were still blowing up at your friends and fans. You were still posting and encouraging others to post content that is extremely inappropriate for your audience demographic, and in certain cases inappropriate in general. You were using the same control tactics in your discord that you used on me, Blake, and Cassie. You were still making fake accounts to create an illusion of legitimacy (hah, get it? Rather Vocalized Illusion?) You were still confidently spreading misinformation while refusing to do any real research on what you were saying. You were still manipulating and coercing people into sexual acts (including the artwork) they didn't want to do. And you were vehemently refusing to listen to anyone trying to tell you that doing these things makes you a danger to people. You didn't even want to listen when we tried to explain that you'd have a lot more respect as a creator and likely have a bigger audience if you took a step back and took a hard look at yourself and what you've been doing.

You don't have to continue doing these things. At any point, you could make a statement owning up to everything, give a genuine apology to the people you've hurt, maybe take a break from the internet for a while to get your head straight, come back and do something you actually want to do. Whether that's continuing your YouTube channel or something entirely different. You could take constructive criticism about your writing instead of having to feel like the smartest person in the room all the time and make something you don't feel the need to defend with the fervor you do. There's hundreds of things that are in your power to do that would make your relationships, your career, your hobbies, and your overall self-worth so much better.

The reason myself and others are still talking about you is simply because, up to this point, you have chosen to remain the same. You have chosen to feed your need for control over the wellbeing of others. You have chosen to expose an audience consisting of minors and other vulnerable demographics to graphic, sometimes hard-core content. You have become the very thing you claim to hate in others and you either genuinely don't realize it, or you're doing it intentionally. Despite everything I've seen from you, I still don't want to fully believe you're intentionally hurting people. I still want to believe there's hope for you if you were willing to put in the work of introspecting honestly, and maybe even finding a good therapist that can help you work through what's kept you in this hole for so long. There's got to be a reason you keep telling the same story on loop.

If you continue the way you've been and choose to remain the danger you currently are, I will continue to warn others about you. Because your behavior over the past ten years is predatory, whether you intended to be or not. Believe me, I know what it feels like to have to turn and look at the uglier side of yourself and accept that it's you. It's soul-crushing. I can't even imagine what it would be like for you given the history you have. But let me ask you something.

What would you have to lose if you did? If you took an honest, objective look at yourself and decided to start changing things for the better, and trusting people outside of yourself. What would you lose if you worked on letting go of this addiction to feeling in control of everything all the time? What would you lose if you brought your more deep-seated issues to a therapist you've vetted and determined to be a good fit? It won't be easy by any means and it will hurt like hell for a while, but healing an infected wound is always a painful necessity.

I don't hate you, Lily. I see you for what you currently are. You have the power to change that any time you want. I can guarantee you will never have the fulfilling relationship you crave if you don't start doing some serious work on yourself, and it will be nobody's fault but yours.

[vegance]

hi,, i wanted to ask something that probably lot of vegans can relate to. I am ashamed to be one, but not for the reasons u think! I am proud of myself, but I feel so bad when I say that i am. People are like "oh, so you're the typical lesbian with the buzz cut who preaches about veganism and feminism? Lool" and it makes me feel so, so bad. I don't know how to start being confident about being one. I'm never aggressive or confrontational. Idk why people attack me. I try not to talk abt it irl..

(resent to make it anon)

i definitely agree that a lot of vegans will relate to this. its so surprising when you make the change to veganism and realize that the hardest thing about it is....other people. and their reaction to your lifestyle. its really weird and often hurtful how some people genuinely hate vegans. and that makes a lot of vegans be very reluctant to share that they are vegan. which is ironic, considering the stereotype that all vegans always tell everybody they are vegan

and then there comes the added discrimination you face for being lesbian. its so weird, when you do something or are something that society sees as “other”, everything you do is seen under that lense. “of course you shaved your hair, ur gay lolzz” .... ???? thats such a mean thing, because it basically takes away your individuality. you cannot possibly have made a decision on your own, for your own personal reasons. no it definitely must only be because youre gay, vegan, a feminist etc.

and of course. our life experiences do influence our actions....because they make us see things from different angles etc. but that doesn’t mean that our decisions are always a given, or meaningless. and the way it is usually said is so intentionally derogatory.

it doesnt give you room to express yourelf, it immediatly puts you in a box and closes the lid. and that sucks!! its carnism, and homophobia and sexism.

as for how to be more confident about it..thats definitely difficult.

i do think one important thing to realize is that not everybody reacts like this. i feel like sometimes we are surronded by a certain group of people, and they make us think that everybody will act like they do. and then you stop and think and realize...its literally the same 10 people that keep treating you like this. so i would definitely try to be on the lookout for new people, new friend groups (vegan and non vegan) that respect you more!!!

and when you have someone talk to you that way, it can definitely help to retaliate, calmy. act like you dont understand what they mean. tell them you think that putting people in a box  like that is pretty wrong. it depends on the people, but many do get shamed pretty quickly when you actually confront them with what you are saying.

lastly, give it time. i dont know how long you’ve been vegan, but i’ve definitely noticed myself become more and more “confident” in my veganism over the years. when you are a bit more used to it, have been able to gather more information and have been in more vegan spaces(forums, cafes, groups), followed vegan (online) discourse, that really helps with feeling more sure of yourself, and it shows you that there are so many diverse vegans out there.

[vidaflxwer]

Hi, it's been a while since we catch up, i hope you're getting well soon! Anyway,for the writer's ask, may i please have the honor to know your journal, o'connor, narrator, parchment, and trope? :3

oh my god hi! i hope you’ve been well! i always miss seeing you interacting with my posts so it’s nice to see you in my ask box! and thank you so much, you have no idea. i have a lot of stuff to do this week in terms of school so i need to get better and fast!

as for the asks, you may absolutely have the pleasure of knowing my answers!

journal: *nervous laughter* y-yes i do but most of those pieces none of you will ever see because they’re um... they’re very personal, if you know what i mean. i did wind up posting one of them on my ao3, you can probably guess which one it is just by the nature of it. and if you’ve already read it, i’m sorry. 

o’connor: miscommunication is a no-go for me. just general petty drama caused by misunderstandings i absolutely despise, it makes me so uncomfortable to read about and anxious in the worst way possible, so i tend to avoid it. i generally don’t like writing romance, actually. fluffy romance, i should say. but i guess it’s not really surprising since i just don’t like reading fluffy romance? i like things that make me cry, which fluffy romance hardly ever does. it’s really the only genre i dislike. 

narrator: this is where you get to see me be a massive writing dork because i love experimenting with different points of view, since it’s just fun to try! recently i’ve grown to love writing in second person, though i don’t get to do it often since i usually only write it when i’m working on an x reader fic or certain horror stories, but it’s so much fun. and it’s complicated to write, in its own way, because you have to really get the reader to be a part of the story instead of distanced from it, which is an amazing experience. third person’s my go-to though. i used to write in first person and i realized it’s just not for me by any means - my characters wind up sounding really weird if i do try to do that, plus i like describing certain things that first person doesn’t let you. 

parchment: oh all of the time, you have no idea. since i use my writing as a means of coping with my anxiety/depression, lots of my inner struggles will show up in my writing, intentionally or unintentionally. i’m not the type of person who likes venting to others, i absolutely hate it in fact because it makes me feel so guilty, so i usually let everything out in my writing. 

trope: this is going to be the weirdest pet peeve ever but i absolutely hate how i cannot write anything happy to save my life. or just generally light-hearted. i made a joke the other day that the only three genres i can write are angst, horror, and smut which is pretty much accurate (that third one i am not proud of by any means but my friends have said that i’m rather talented in that area which makes me crave death). i’ve tried so many times to write something fluffy! to not have it get sad! but it always does! and it’s super frustrating because i love how everyone else is able to write soft fluffy pieces and post them like it’s nothing! and they’re always so good and still full of emotion and yet here i am, failing miserably at it. at this point i think i’m just not cut out for it which is fine but it just makes it that much weirder to people in my personal life when they read my writing because i look like someone who would write fluff. i don’t dress or act like a horror author by any means and it always catches people off guard when they actually read my writing and it’s just sad to me. i love writing what i do but it’s just kinda hard to explain to others without getting weird looks. 

[ao3gingerswag]

hoho I got a whole TWO new lil ideas you're in for a treat today

FOR THE FIRST - on the vein of Cas's Adventure Of Making Sam Not Hate Thorougly Detest His Guts one day the boys are at the market and sam spots an absolutely horrendous piece of clothing. I don't know how it would work with the kinda sorta medieval thing we've got going but I'm imagining a god awful piece of knitwear (made by your grandma for a christmas present you hate but have to smile and thank them for anyways kinda ugly) and being the little shit he is, Sam is immediately like 'heyy casssss....' and the thing the next thing you know cas is wearing the ugly accessory from hell. sam is cackling maniacally like the little demon child he is and dean is a cross between annoyance (at sam for potentially making cas mad) and amusement (because dammit cas does look stupid in that hat). cas of course is just like :DDD I love it sam your right! it's so soft! anyways flashfoward to when they get home and sam and dean are thinking that cas'll just toss it in one of the closets and thatll be it but no. cas keeps wearing it. bc of course he does dean!! sam wanted him to wear it!! he's not taking this responsibility lightly!! and this goes on for a few weeks and cas is still serving customers and this point and so he's definitely getting quite a few weird looks. I feel like this could end in either one of two ways, one, the lighter version, is where sam eventually gets so annoyed at cas wearing it he actually gets outstubborned and reluctantly goes to cas and is like..... 'stop wearing the stupid hat'. cas is like :o but he does. the other version could also end with that but also has the interim of cas noticing the looks he's getting and it slightly stressing him out so he goes to dean all agitated bc he doesn't fully know if he's acting wrong/missing a que and then when dean tells him it's bc of the hat he's like :(( but I don't want to upset sam and take it off I promised :(( and then dean is like 'alright enough is enough' and they clear up everything and sam apologises for what he originally planned to be a harmless lil prank and the hat is retired.

(cas still finds it soothing to touch though and uses it sometimes in the future to calm himself down when he gets overwhelmed. sam, when he finds out, can't decide whether he feels proud or annoyed. (it's definitely proud))

awwwwwww!!! i feel like Sam is only really intentionally nasty to Cas when he's lashing out/being defensive, he doesn't really premeditate being nasty unless he's trying to protect himself or Dean...That being said, I can see this happening as kind of an in the moment thing that sort of spirals and Sam is too resentful to deal with. Like I feel like I could see them being at the market and Cas seeing the hat and being like hm. That is an interesting looking hat. Like not really liking it just sort of curious.

And Sam who is Not a fan of Cas at this point being irritated and grumpy and sarcastically being like yeah it would look great on you. You and that hat would get along great. You're both so ~interesting~ and ~unique~ >:(

And this is obviously an underhand insult and Dean is like :O Sam! But he doesn't say that outloud he just gives Sam a Look, bc if Cas didn't catch that Sam was being a jerk he doesn't want to draw attention to it and get Sam in trouble. And Sam is all >:( >:P at Dean.

But Cas does not pick up on this so he is like :O why thank u Sam! How nice of u to say! And he buys the hat even tho he personally doesn't care either way for it bc he wants Sam to feel validated. And both Dean and Sam are like :O but neither want to admit that Sam was being sarcastic bc then Sam might be in ~trouble~

Cas def does start wearing it all the time bc he wants to show Sam that he appreciates it!! And Dean is like :/ bc he doesn't like that people r giving Cas weird looks and he is Not Happy with Sam, but he's also still too scared that Sam will be hurt to say anything. For a while Sam is like >:( good. whatever I don't care. About Cas wearing the hat and getting weird looks. But he is a good kid at heart and deep down he feels really guilty, especially bc he knows Cas only keeps wearing it bc he wants Sam to be happy.

I feel like Sam would eventually feel bad enough to tell Cas that the hat looks really stupid and he was being a dick saying it would look good on him. Maybe he sees some people making fun of Cas and blows up at them, and then stomps over to Cas and admits the truth, and is all angrily/defensively like "so if you're gonna hit me about it just fucking do it whatever!!! Just stop wearing that stupid hat!" and Cas is like :O sam ofc I'm not gonna hit u!!!!!!! and Sam is all ??? but starts trusting Cas a little more.