#but im tired and the library is 30 mins away

[wings-of-angels]

The executive dysfunction is going hard today 😔

[yatsugareboyf]

awh those hc for atsushi & tanizaki hurt me in all the rights ways but they were also rlly soft and those are the writings i love the most, i kept on rereading it hehe

and i never realized how much i loved tanizaki until i came across those hcs so i thank you for awakening that for me <33

this request might seem to similar to the one the anon asked for so you don’t have to write this if you don’t want to, but can i ask for atsushi and tanizaki (separately) accidentally standing up their s/o on a date?? smth like they’re there for hours and the boys just don’t show up and their s/o just goes home? or they arrive just as their abt to leave?

and pls pls take care of yourself author-san we love u💗💗

sorry this might come late aaaaaaa anw thank u sm for this req (i never thought tht the tanizaki + atsu post would do well) i hope u enjoy, take care too ^^

hcs for atsushi and tanizaki accidentally standing up their s/o.

nakajima atsushi

like i said in the other post mentioned in the ask, he isnt the type of guy to forget dates or stand you up

he'd feel guilty and sad if he did yknow, esp if its on purpose. he wouldnt do tht to you

so let's say tht he had an urgent matter to attend to that popped up unexpectedly

he couldn't tell you over the phone because his phone is dead, and he couldn't borrow anyone else's because he'd only be rushed out of the agency to do this task

"im so sorry, y/n. ill try and make it on time." he says to no one in particular as he speeds up his pace to finish this mission as quick as he can

you, on the other hand, are all set to go to this new cafe down the block

it's been a while since he's taken you on a date, and it just so happens to be at a friday afternoon after your work/school and his work hours

usually he's the first one to arrive, but you show up first, and you didnt think much of it, he could be caught up with dazai again

aaaaand its been 30 mins and he hasnt shown up so you order something and decide to wait for him more, you know his work and how it can be.... weird... at times

you've finished your food by the time the sky turns dark and the cafe slowly loses its customers as its almost abt to close

its not tht late, probably around 7 pm, you lost track of time anyway

you were sad, but also confused because atsushi, the atsushi nakajima, had stood you up. out of all people?

since you dont wanna be kicked out by the employees, you left by yourself, leaving a tip for ur waitress who so kindly gave you an extra drink ("hey, i saw you kinda sad, so its on the house.")

on your way back home, you saw atsushi running towards you with a tired expression

"atsu? are you okay?" you worry abt his appearance, his shirt sleeves ripped up to his biceps and pants also ripped

"you're worrying abt me when im 3 hours late to our date? :("

"of course i am, who cares abt the date?? are you okay, are you injured?" even if you were bummed out abt the date, his well being came first to you, which made atsushi lowk tear up

he pulls you into a hug and keeps apologizing for being late, saying he'll make it up to you and whatnot but ur here fussing because he won't let you tend to him

y'all ended up watching a movie at home after he reluctantly let you patch him up and feed him

hes so happy tht you weren't mad at him like fr he was like "what if she hates me? what if she thinks im cheating?" on the way to the coffee shop 😔 my poor baby

tanizaki junichirou

i keep using naomi as his excuse but i really cant think of any other thing that can keep him away

naomi probably needed help for a project in school, so he left a bit earlier to go to help her in the library. 

when u woke up, juni wasnt there anymore, so you thought he was preparing for your cute little picnic date

u imagined him setting up a cute little blanket with fairy lights and candles like omg so romantic

so u were sooo excited !! u sent him a quick text saying that ure getting ready and u got up to heat up the food u both prepared the night before

with the basket in hand u walked to the park where u planned to set up

aaaand he wasnt there, like nothing

there were no fairy lights, no blanket, no candles, nothing

poor u, u thought he would already be setting up the date :((

so u called atsushi to see if he went to the agency 

“tanizaki-kun? he hasn’t been here since yesterday, i dont think he has a shift today, y/n-san. why do you ask?”

“oh... thank you, atsushi. i was just looking for him..”

“have you tried calling him?” 

“yeah but i think he has his phone turned off...”

ok anw

you waited like around 4 hours for him to show up :((

like u tried not to eat the food but damn u havent eaten so u ate like a few sandwiches and one of the yogurts you packed

until the sun went down and he still hasnt arrived

but he called you! 

“y/n, where are you? i just got home from the library...” 

“library? what were you doing in the library?”

“i was helping naomi with her project, i thought i told you?”

“well you forgot, and you also forgot we had a date today, im guessing?”

“... a date? what do- oh.. the picnic date we planned??? omg y/n i-im so sorry-”

“it’s fine, junichirou,” you sigh “ill just go home-”

“nononono! im coming there, wait for me, okay?”

“juni, it’s fine, really, ill just go home”

“nope, stay there, baby, im coming”

and he arrived with candles and fairy lights and take out from your favorite place :(((

so yeah he really just becomes clingy and apologizes a lot and makes it up to u :((

“y/n :((((( im sorry :((((((”

“i told u, its fine” 

[shytiff]

Small Dec Wins

i cant believe its December already tf?!?!?!

1 - poli KIA today. saw a mother who cant feel the movement of their baby. the senior midwife tried to find the baby’s heart beat but not finding it. she said she hopes she were wrong. fell asleep at 3pm-ish, woke up super hungry. ate. i swear i feel like my weight when i measured it this morning was ~52, but after eating its close to 54 lol. eating banana and chocolate nextar is yummm. dalbang today is hella funny as always and suuper endearing. fell asleep after dalbang, didnt study hufttt

2 - today im at igd but joined azkia at vk for a bit to see partus. its not that im scared (maybe not consciously) but when the mom was being stitched i felt lightheaded, nausea, cold extremities, and i even had to squat multiple times because i couldnt stand. But i felt better after the partus so maybe seeing it was the cause. I did not feel scared at all honestly ._. and i’ve seen multiple partus before. i dont know why. i can literally feel my symphatetic tone giving out lmaoo. tried matcha latte with Cy matcha powder. it tasted more milky and grassy. mom thought it tasted like nori. i prever cocodeli alll the way (although Cy is cheaper). i think it also has a bit of caffeine that made me feel awake like a normal person should be. 

3 - today is vk but there’s no patient so thank god i saw sumn yesterday. did some cicil ukmppd in the morning accompanied by matcha latte. tried to order dufan tickets and i couldnt find my damn ktp...... fell asleep after worrying about said ktp

4 - matcha latte in the car, swab at lmk, went to dufan by tj with willy, had quite some funn with atikah nila willy amel pupuy. first time trying kereta misteri, quite fun. it rained after ashar so we didnt ride anything after that. turns out my ktp was at barel’s fotocopy lmaoo thankyou ara for picking it. went to solaria ancol afterwards, picked up by mom. i didnt tell her in the morning that i was going to dufan lmao. plenary @ zoom 19 pm. rapat nemo. fell asleep.

5 - went to lmk by tj to surprise clara. went back home and fell asleep. didnt rly do anything afterwards because this ragged body gets tired easily and i dont eat much recently. i can feel the difference before and after eating and there’s actual energy after eating. its not that im hungry though, but i feel less energized. felt annoyed terrible and just wanna lay in bed (this is unrelated with the less food in my system). even though i met up with friends

6 - after LOTS of sleeping i feel somehow better but not to a ‘normal’ amount. watched kimbab family videos. did power vinyasa by doogether with fianti. took a shower and ate indomie and i felt quite normal, except i slept again wtf. i thought i would have the second half of the day but nah. did self tryouts with fianti, 150 FDI questions. I got 96/150 right. huft. such a great reality check

7 - poli lansia with dokter isip, matcha latte in the afternoon rly helps me not sleeping the day away, packed up for depok

8 - poli umum with dr gita (helped doing phys exam), packed the rest of my stuff, ate some risol and matcha lattteee in the car, took swab results, picked up hazmats etc, zoom discussion with FT PKM Kalideres (dr gita) on the way, and i finally arrived at tamel. dinner is granola with vsoy. Taste like a slightly wet granola bar, nutty fiber-y vibe

9 - walked in ui with ara, managed to jog from the trees near st ui until kuburan bikun wow. i reached that point where my leg and heart were going in a steady unburdened pace and my willpower to keep going on was tested. tried the signature steak in Double U Steak by Chef Widi, while ara tried ribeye. the ribeye was more tender than the signature. but the seasoning in the signature is quite delish, salty and oily without being too much (like futago ya). read poppyland fast pass from ara’s phone omg season 1 is finally complete! went to coftof (omgggg i miss this place), it looks different now. ordered matcha latte and it tasted weirdly like a soy milk although ara doesnt feel that way. the matcha tasted weird. wont repurchase. read chainsaw man, its so entertaining, funny and deep at the same time. denji mess around and be too naive sometimes but hes lowkey hot lmaooo. aki is lovvvvve.

10 - first day at rsud budhi asih. had moesli combined with granola + vsoy for brekkie. went back to tamel at 3 pm. it rained when i got back. bought warteg lugina worth 32k. walked to sbux for tumbler day its been a while since i had their matcha latte. it tasted quite good, but not as good as i remembered (?) maybe bcs i asked for non fat milk. sbux closes at 8 pm for now hikss

11 - left tamel at about 7:10 and arrived on budhi asih at 08:54 yalll the traffic. Icu. Bought eatlah double and ate the salted egg part. Nap. ICU discussion with dr Dedi @8pm. I presented from my phone to save data hehe,,

12 - woke up at 8, eatlah brown butter for brekkie, symcard, saladstop's caesar salad for lunch (quite 'eneg' because i didnt eat the cheese evenly so the chicken and cheese were eaten last after the vegs are out. The vegetable's not that variative, and the non vegs make the salad taste delicious (albeit maybe not THAT healthy). Evening jog @UI and i realized i can get wifi sitting near the lake n library. Stared at the night sky from my room, i swear the sky seems super clear. Saw tiny fireworks in the distance

13 - ate muesli and saladstop’s banana walnut cake, symcard, bought moon chicken and saladpoint. lunch was egg salad and the wings. the original tasted so good like??? maybe i havent had msg for a while. also tried big bang, not too spicy which is nice. cicil ukmppd. put my laundry at buih barel lmaoo. try out with fianti. got 70/100

14 - breakfast was salad and leftover chicken. today was bangsal with angga armand. the geriatric patient has a loud murmur yall (and scoliosis, so much that the heart looks distorted). went to margo city to see sales, but when i think about it id rather just thrift stuff lmao. bought lugina. slept through kuliah guru besar. writing this in yellow truck coffee, that had 2 customers on the 1st floor including me. tried banana milk. yall after trying to drink less sugar the beverage tasted super sweet. my headache just goes away. sugar is magic but unhealthy whyyyyy.

15 - igd siang with indah. This body sure is frail. Did cbd with dr afifah AND rescheduled pleno. Rip mobile data i have to use for hotspot.

16 - ok today. Inserted goedel and did bagging. I bagged the patient the wrong way at first (too much). Thankfully the nurses were kind and taught us a lot :) watched some bts content. I feel like after reading househusband my tiktok page is now immensely funnier. Dalbang is also hilarious as always. Put on ginseng sheet mask (smells quite strong)

17 - bangsal. snacked on fried chicken. matcha latte starbucks (turns out its quite full here) and liqo about keeping our tongues in check

18 - arrived at icu. And then opened line. Turns out hadin's swab is positive, so agung kak iman and me have to isolate and swab. So i went back. Ordered kanayam chicken and fish and tempe. Nasi liwet tasted goood damn. Sleptt in the afternoon. Pleno at 4 pm (entered the room 4:30). Had no motivation to do anything. Azkia is getting married! Spent 20 mins formulating words to congratulate her lmaoo

19 - osce simulation, kak nanu was so kind and encouraging. Did try out solid. Lunch is fish bite pasta with melted cheese (cause i had to reach the minimum amount for promo). It got cold so its not that good (pairing it with self made mentai sauce, mixing the mayo and chili, is way much better). Jogged in ui (and searched for wifi). Approached by someone selling haraus coffee (25k), saying that some earnings will be for charity. Its basically sweet. Can barely taste the coffee.

20 - had kanayam for lunch (brekkie is almost always muesli lately). The nasi liwet tasted much better the first time. Walked to yellow truck coffee in the pouring rain. Got banana milk. Saw webinar ksk (electrolyte correction and dr nadhira talkshow). What i got from it is that, dr nadhira is a different person from the first place. Shes visionary, knows what she want and not afraid to reach it. The mindset is different. Even if i try as hard as her, her propensity to growth is different. Cicil ukmppd. Try out with fianti (got 72/100). Talked for an hour about love and marriage and engagements (there are so much of it lately)

21 - leftover kanayam for brekkie, also ate roti salman in cikini st. swab today (met kris, nessa and others). muesli for lunch. i thought my body felt a bit warm, so i decided to find sumn to eat. tried kedai abu bakar’s spaghetti brulee. its okay. maybe because its not too cheesy or meaty, mainly bechamel sauce. the one pupuy made is much tastier. finished the whole 10x20 portion in 2 eating sesh. cicil ukmppd @ bed in the evening (somehow felt refreshed enough to be able to concentrate in bed)

22 - went early to icu to put dops form. lugina for early lunch. i feel like my metabolism is faster? or my body is not so much in calorie deficit mode anymore and it got greedier lmao i used to just ignore hunger but not now, for health. starbiiies tumbler day. ordered black tea latte with non fat milk and vanilla syrup (because raspberry syrup is no more). did cbd geri ppt. 

23 - finally knew the swab result bcs kak iman asked kak farras. thankfully negative. igd with jordi. quite a few chances to do iv line, but i failed 2 times. managed to do iv injection to insert 2 drugs. saw the worst cpr ive ever seen in my life. its too slow, with maximal interruption. fish bite for lunch. wasted the rest of my day

24 - originally intended to run but i cant bring myself out of bed. packed up my stuff. picked up by mom. got the paper result of swab, got ksk from kelvyn @ capitol. can finally drink self-made matcha latte again, but it tasted horrible. i know cy matcha doesnt have that much going on, but even this is low even for them. previously i was starting to get used to the grassy smell.

25 - my lil bro remarked “maybe shes depressed because she doesnt have her chair”. fuck yall. this “depression” that im in is caused by this very place and the people. and im supposed to still muster the strength to study for ukmppd AND get my face together for solid book photoshoot. that shit is too much. this is why the money that goes to cafe, and the bike ride there is worth it for my sanity. after showering, things felt a bit better. had absolutely no will to study today. ate muesli with a bit of matcha latte.

26 - muesli for breakfast. matcha latte is lyfff ive probably said this before but it ~somehow~ makes me feel normal and not in a slump. like im a regular person. with normal moods. and not wanting to sleep all the time. i try to do ukmppd exercises but the pace is so fucking slow, bcs im distracted by get rich haha,,,. the latest potn update (64) is omgggg the mixed feelings? love? hate? anger? everything and nothing? the ~tension and passion~? im obsessed. watched a ton of bts content today and yesterday lmao.

27 - nasi kebuli for brekkie. went to flavola, im the first customer lmao. tried kopi susu coklat, tasted quite close enough to janjiw’s kopi soklat. had the same ~improved mood and concentration~ effect. tried to read ksk. bought milky banana 1L from puyo to give dajen (its his bday yesterday) (i feel prompted (?) to gift people when theyve given a present to me) (because my love lang is not gift giving at all so i barely think abt gifts lmao). talked with sum 33 ipa guys @ dajens house. yay appropriate amount of social battery charging. tryout with fianti, padi this time. got 67/100. 

28 - ate muesli with matcha latte after breakfast. cicil ukmppd. Listened to yoongi's vlive until i fell asleep lol. 2 burger and salad for dinner. omggg hansol revealed his gf. 

29 - spent half of my day tidying up the mess that is my room. figured out what to wear for solid book photoshoot with fianti, ara. matcha latte terosss. phd for dinner. 

30 - breakfast is muesli with cimory choco hazelnut. mom made matcha chocolate brownies. tryna study. slow pace terosss. read some padi materials. dalbang.

31 - bought vsoy low sugar and multigrain. moved my body a bit to youtube videos. showered. felt better. it also rained (which i love). the pleasant mood only lasted til the evening. did nothing from 7pm even though im not sleepy. cant tell when did i start to sleep

and just like that, 2020 kkeut. its sad to say i dont rly remember much remarkable things this year. other than the trip and memories with minor rotation friends. i just remember wasting my life away in my house. i guess that’s the danger of living a monotone life. sometimes you gotta invest some time to have fun, to have motivation to live on and do things. not doing this makes it difficult to live day by day. and friends. meeting friends, seeing new stuff. that helps me live. 

[dearlinong]

college student!ziyi

[hi! can I request a ziyi college/university au ?? thank you so much + ily ❣️❣️]

(A/N: THANK YOU SO MUCH ANON FOR REQUESTING THIS OOF. i had so much fun writing this au uGH my heart is fluttering. and this was longer and better that what i expected so i’m so happy. i hope you guys enjoy!)

genre: flaf

requested: yEAH BOI

you are the top student in your english class

and the final exams are nearing

actually it’s two weeks from now

so after your english class ended your prof asked you to stay for a while

‘y/n since you’re already the top student in my class you don’t need to take the final exam in english’

you internally screamed because it was your first time being exempted in something

‘but i have to ask you a favor’

he mentions that there is some guy named ziyi in the batch and that he’s really behind the subject, so you have to tutor him so that he wouldn’t have to fail and redo the subject

oh and you’ll get extra credit if he passes the exam

SO YOU WERE REALLY UP FOR IT

you didn’t know who this ziyi dude was, or how to contact him excactly

so you ask your friends if they knew who he was

and apparently he’s in a group who calls themselves nine percent????

and that they’re so popular around the campus

yeah

they also gave you a tip that they always hang out behind the school, near the old tree after school

so after school, you went there

when you saw them you were like

wOW, all of them look so cool and handsome

THE VISUALS BRO

anyway

‘h-hello excuse me may i speak with w-wang ziyi’

all of them just stared at you

then this SUPER FUCKING HANDSOME DUDE stood up and said that he was ziyi

‘come lets talk in private’

he lead you away from the others so you two can have a little more privacy

‘whatchu want baby girl?’

you almost gaged at the name he said

‘im y/n, and i hope mr. chou informed you that i will be your english tutor for the finals’

‘well i hate to break it to you babe but, i don’t do english nor do i study for any exam’ he scoffed

you were currently in a ‘BOI IF YOU DON’T PASS THIS EXAM, MY FIST WILL FLY TO YOUR FACE’ kind of mood

‘but if you fail, wont you repeat the whole subject again?’

‘i don’t care, im-not-stu-dying, period’ then he went back with his friends

you went home so damn sad

bc you weren’t gonna get the extra credit

but you weren’t giving up just yet

all the free time you had you tried to persuade him into you tutoring him

but he would always ay no

BUT YOU WEREN’T TAKING NO FOR AN ANSWER BITCH

so you followed him until he was going home after school

‘y/n aren’t you tired already?’ he asked

‘nope, i’m not gonna give up until you allow me to tutor you.’

‘fine, let’s make a deal, if i study with you and pass the exams, you wont bother me or be near me ever again.’

‘uhuh, and what’s in if for me?’

‘if i don’t pass then i’ll study with you everyday’

‘PSSHHHH DEAL’ then you held out your hand to shake his to seal the deal

you two then go to his house to start the tutoring

the first day went okay i guess

i mean he did fall asleep while you were teaching him all about verbals and shit

and he did waste 30 mins of the time just to get some food for you two

but all in all he did know a bit of what you were saying so thats good

day 6 ( oof stan day6 guys ), he has already learned so much and you personally think that he can pass the exam and even get a high score

but there was one problem

not only did ziyi’s english skills developed

but also your feelings for him

since every break time and even when you go home you’re with him

you saw his good side

he’s different from what people say he is

he would always look out for you

and put you first

at first you denied your feelings for him and saying that it was only temporary

but eventually you realized that you have a fat crush on ziyi

on the day of the exams you told him to do his best and that he should remember everything you taught him

while you were in the library waiting for the bell you literally prayed to every god and saint you know just to tell them to guide ziyi on his exams

when the bell rung you dashed through the hallways to find ziyi and ask him how did it go

eventually you did find him and he told you that he thinks he did great

and out of sheer joy you hugged him

not realizing that you were just making you feelings for him go crazy

‘are you available later?’ you ask

‘nope, why?’

‘well i just wanna treat you something because you did well during the study sessions.’

‘really? wow sure! i’ll pick you up in front of your room okay.’

after the last period ended, you saw ziyi leaning on the ledge in front of your room

you heart started racing uncontrollably

‘you ready to go y/n?’

you nod and then you two went off

you went to the nearby coffee shop which served almost every type of desert you can name

you ordered for yourself and ziyi ordered with you

you were about to hand the cashier the payment but ziyi was faster and handed his card instead

‘what are you doing? i thought i was the one treating you?’ you whispered

BUT HE JUST SMILED AJFNVD

the smile killed you internally oops

you two then sat down and chatted of a little while and talked about yourselves

since you two didn’t have time to actually catch up and to know each other well because the two of you were studying for the exams

he also talked about how there was one question that he really didn’t know, so he just guessed lol

until the topic of the bet came forward

‘remember the bet i told you?’

‘you mean the ‘if you pass the exams i wont be in a 10 mile radius near you’ thing? then yes’

‘can we call it off? because i really wanna know more about you’

you can’t help but blush in this moment wtFFF

and you just played it off cooly by saying ‘yeah, we can be friends, i don’t see why not :)’

after that day you two still study together

and still go to that coffee shop together

and now you two hold hands?? anD KISS???

yeeeeaaahhhh

you two are definitely together now ;-;

OH AND BTW

the english test ziyi took

HE GOT 99%

yeAH, he didn’t get that one question

BUT THATS OKAY

[unmanageable-day]

Meet Ha Sungwoon

Yuri spent the rest of her day wandering around Insa-dong, where her best friend, Jimin, told her he will meet her there after his routine finished. She couldn't even say no to this sweet, kind guy who always exudes positive and bright aura with his eye smile. Everyone, including Yuri herself some times just didn't understand why Yuri and Jimin couldn't be together as a couple. She just didn't feel it, she said long time ago. And so did Jimin feel about this girl with complete criteria just like his ideal type. Then both of them realized that the concept of ideal type is actually flexible in real life. Tired of walking around without any destination, Yuri chose a coffee shop with mini library to relax while waiting for Jimin to show up. She also sent a text to him and got no reply until the next 15 minutes. He usually replies back in no time, as if his phone got stuck in his hand. She tried to call him too, but still got no answer.

Her lips pouted. She put her phone back to the beige satchel bag she was carrying while sighing in annoyance. It had been 30 minutes since she tried to read a random novel book she picked, yet she couldn't concentrate because her best friend was somewhere she didn't know. Probably he was still teaching in his dancing class at one of his studios (he had like maybe 5 studios in Seoul). Or maybe he was already on his way to Insa-dong. Or maybe Taehyung, Jimin's bestfriend too, kidnapped him. After finally succeeding reading 3 pages of that novel titled Behold the Dreamers, her single-lid big eyes caught this figure that she had no doubt who he was. Yuri immediately got up from her seat to approach him. A friendly slap on the shoulder just landed on this guy with all black outfit. "Ya! Where have you been? I've been waiting-" she stopped as he turned his head to her surprise. How on earth?! He is not Jimin, but looks like Jimin. A lot. "Oh. My. Gosh," Yuri gasped. "I am very sorry. I'm really sorry. You look like my friend. I'm sorry." She panicked and bowed to him several times. This Jimin looking like guy flashed a smile. A smile that even reminded her of Jimin too. One thing that caught her attention instantly was his lips. Thicker than Jimin's, but as plump as Jimin's. Even more luscious. "It's okay. I get that a lot." Yuri bowed again, still apologizing before she decided to set off from that cafe. She rushed walking out, abruptly took her phone out of her bag and searched for Jimin's contact. Jimin would need his ears all open for the rants coming out of Yuri's mouth. ◎ 3 weeks had passed and Jimin invited Yuri to come to his house, celebrating his 5th year as a dance teacher and senior coreographer. Of course she said yes. She even prepared a customized speaker shaped like a dancing silhouette as a gift. Yuri was welcomed by Taehyung when she arrived at Jimin's house. There were not many guests, probably around 10 people in total. Yuri went straight to the kitchen where Taehyung said Jimin was in. "Ji~min~ah~" Stomping towards the kitchen, she sang as she put both her hands on the guy's shoulder with intention to surprise him. And like deja vu, Yuri had to find herself beyond shocked when she realized it was not Jimin again. It was the guy from the cafe before. Jimin innocently appeared behind her and greeted his best friend who was still in shocked state. "Hi, but I'm Jimin?" Then he just got a smack from Yuri. Yuri was so close to death from being embarrassed. She could feel her face was burning red everytime Jimin brought up about how she mistook this particular person for him. Two times. And the climax was the truth that he was Jimin's friend as well. "Anyway, Yuri, this is my friend. His name is Ha Sungwoon." Jimin stood up between this Sungwoon guy and Yuri, resting his hands on both Sungwoon's and Yuri's shoulder. "Sungwoon, this is Im Yuri, my friend since elementary school." "Hello," Yuri greeted, bowing 90 degree to Sungwoon. "I'm terribly sorry for mistaking you again." The natural reddish blush on her face still hadn't faded away. Who knows such a thing could happen. "Hi. It's fine." Sungwoon let out a little chuckle. "I hope we could meet often in the future. It might help you to tell which is Jimin and which is Sungwoon." Yuri was still lost at words. She was too shy after what happened. Meanwhile Jimin only laughed it off, giving his friends some loving pats on the shoulder and said, "So, all is good, right? Get along, you two." ◎ Ever since then, Yuri was being more cautious every time she saw someone who looks like Jimin. Especially when she was about to meet him. Besides, she felt like she bumped into Sungwoon quite often these days. Her natural reaction was to run away before Sungwoon noticed her. But having Jimin as mutual friends eventually would make them meet again.

Like today. Yuri was dragged out of her apartment by Jimin this morning. He said to accompany him, being his plus one at an acquaintance's wedding, where Sungwoon would be there to sing for the bride. Yuri, again, lost at words. She even got stoned for a moment that Jimin had to 'help' her to choose the dress to wear and pick out some make up stuff with shades that matches the dress. Yuri must say he does have a good taste. When she came out from the bathroom she already found a knee-length, peach colored, sleeveless dress on her bed, along with flower shaped necklace and simple earrings. "You owe me one," Yuri said as she tied her hair into a bun. Jimin chuckled. They just arrived at the venue and Sungwoon was already standing by the entrance of the hall. He waved at Yuri and Jimin with a wide smile on his face. Yuri could feel her cheeks heating up and she started to rant in her mind about why she agreed on accompanying Jimin. "Yuri, hi~" Sungwoon cheerfully greeted her. Yuri awkwardly smiled back and bowed to him. She hurriedly followed Jimin to find their seats after Sungwoon excused himself to prepare his stage. "Let's bet, you're gonna fall for Sungwoon right after you hear him singing," Jimin whispered in her ear when all the guests were in awe appreciating the moment of the groom kissing the bride. Yuri only gave him a piercing gaze in annoyance. But Jimin was right. Her ears were spoiled by the sweet and emotional voice of Sungwoon who sang whole-heartedly. That made her can't stop looking at him. And of course Jimin caught her. "You owe me one?" He grinned mischievously. "No, I don't," she quickly denied. After singing 3 songs, Sungwoon joined them outside the hall. Yuri spent most of her time in silence being out of the loop meanwhile the 2 boys were chattering excitedly. Until one of them finally left for a drink. And the other one was left in an awkward silence with Yuri. "So, Yuri, you've been friends with Jimin for a pretty long time, yeah?" Sungwoon started the conversation. "Well, yeah, I guess so." Another awkward silence. Sungwoon's eyes started to wander around. Jimin also didn't seem to be coming back any sooner. "Do I look like Jimin that much?" He finally brought this up again. Yuri covered her face with her hands in embarrassment. "Yes, you do," she answered as she fanned herself using her hand. "But now that I see you both at the same time, I guess, not really?" Sungwoon's smile got wider. "Yeah?" "Jimin has this cute and innocent look. And you are... more manly, I guess?" Yuri couldn't believe herself she just said that. She let out an awkward giggle. Sungwoon blushed instantly and also let out an awkward laugh. "Anyway, is it okay if I ask you out some time?" "Eh?" Yuri couldn't believe her ears. Sungwoon bent down his head, groggily scratching the back of his head. "Ah, it's just.. I'm wondering if it's okay if I ask you out some time." Yuri gulped. Her lips was pursed. She slowly nodded and said, "Yeah, sure." Hopefully the peach shade on her cheeks was able to disguise her real blushing. ◎ Jimin had been teasing Yuri all night long until the following day once he knew Sungwoon asked her to watch a concert. Jimin got himself very excited that he wanted to devote himself as a stylist for both Yuri and Sungwoon. Yuri herself almost blocked Jimin from her contact because he was being too noisy. This time Yuri refused Jimin's offering to help her styled up. She decided to keep it simple and comfortable: black shirt, broken white cropped pants, and 3cm heeled black suede shoes. Surprisingly Sungwoon wore matching outfit like hers. This successfully made her blushed. Thanks to Sungwoon's extra ordinary choice of concert - acapella group concert - Yuri really enjoyed every single second that she finally could relax and be her true self around Sungwoon. He was glad he bought one extra ticket when he ordered it long time ago, and not giving it to Jimin. "The concert was super great. Thank you," Yuri happily told him. "Oh, no, I thank you." Sungwoon beamed. "Let's have dinner?" Yuri nodded and followed him from behind. It seemed now he didn't look like Jimin that much. Except his height. Both of them had this tiny giant concept. And Yuri found it cute that her lips curved into a slight smile without her realizing it. "Ah, I'm hungry.." Yuri talked to the menu book as her eyes got busy scanning all the menu and her hands kept on turning the pages. Sitting before her, Sungwoon's eyes were locked on Yuri's face instead of the menu book he was holding tightly. How he admired her that probably his eyes were able to shoot little hearts. "Hey, I've been wondering," Sungwoon suddenly talked. Yuri turned her head up at him. "Are you... and Jimin, perhaps..." "Oh my gosh, no." She quickly cut him as if she knew what he is going to say. "I've been with him for a quite long time, and maybe I know him better than I know myself. But, no, we don't have that kind of relationship." Sungwoon's mouth shaped an O while nodding. A grin grew on his lips. They came back to their menu and ordered the food. "Can I be honest with you?" He groggily asked, and got a nod from Yuri. "Actually I've been wanting to get to know you since... well, since Jimin showed me your photos." Yuri squinted her eyes, not so sure what he meant by that. "He brags about you a lot," Sungwoon continued. "That's why I asked you, if there's something going on between you guys." How unexpectedly nice of Jimin, she thought. Who would have thought he would do that. And to meet Jimin's doppelganger like this, it was not a bad thing after all. Maybe she did owe her best friend one. Yuri cleared her throat. Now she was getting nervous. "Well, I had no idea Jimin ever did that. I thought I'm gonna be single forever because he always acts like my guardian." Yuri let out a sigh while rolling her eyes. "A little bit too much," she added. "So... that's why I'd like to promote myself to be your guardian. Your supporter. Maybe, your personal entertainer, singer, dancer, even comedian." Sungwoon wore his smile as he talked firmly, quite ambitiously, and pretty persuasive actually with his modest amount of confidence. "Basically be your partner. 24 hours per day. 7 days per week." Yuri could feel her jaw almost dropped if she didn't have her hands to support her chin. She used her fingers to cover half of her face, at least her blushing cheeks. "How's my offering?" He pierced his eyes into hers. "I get to know you better, and you get an extra guard who can entertain you and will be there for you when needed." Yuri got speechless. How she hated Jimin for being right. "Well.. how do I say this..." Sungwoon chuckled. "Okay, I'll make it short." Sungwoon cleared his throat before continuing. "I, Ha Sungwoon, am asking you, Im Yuri, to walk the path ahead, hopefully a beautiful and flowery path, by my side and have a journey with me. I will take care of you, guard you, and always try to make you happy. So, may I have your answer, yes or no?" Still covering half of her face, from the nose down, Yuri secretly smiled. Her heart raced due to happiness.

Hello, there! This is my second time posting fanfiction on tumblr. I usually post on AFF under the name joyful_joy (https://www.asianfanfics.com/profile/view/1051231).

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45 Days

I kept dozing on and off as Dr.Carol was rambling on and on and on about microbiology. It was 4 p.m. I was tired as fuck and was so not in the mood to hear another aspect of performing a gram staining. I sighed and looked back toward the clock on the wall 4:30, yallah 30 min to go till 5 p.m and I’ll be done with this shit of a class. I leaned my head on my arm, as the monotonous voice of Dr.Carol was boring me to death, she was basically sitting on her chair and reading the headlines of the power point presentation that was displaying on the projector. Even though I don't pay attention much in class and ditch most the times, I had made sure to keep my GPA 3 and above. My legs that were freshly waxed for later today were shaking anxiously as I waited for the clock to hit 5 p.m. I felt my phone buzz on the table, Dr.Carol gave it no regard as she was so into explaining the differences between gram positive and gram negative bacteria. My phone buzzed again and I reached out to it casually, with no worries as Dr.Carol was to involved listening to Aysha the annoying smart ass in class to care about me checking my phone, my god Ayshas voice was annoying. I looked at my phone and a smile reached my eyes as saw a new text from Ahmad.

Baby ana bara3 gate 2

My smile got even wider at a the news and Dr.Carol glanced at me with a raised eye brow, I looked away from her as I texted him back.

yallah coming I’ll ditch, I miss you too much

I gathered my empty note book and laptop, and pushed them into my bag, I gave up on taking notes long time ago. I pulled my bag over my shoulder and looked to my side and gave Maitha my friend a knowing smile and wink. I pushed away from the table and stood up making my toward the door, I was sitting the very front of class so the door was few strides away. I honestly believed that sitting in the first row in the lecture hall would bring you from a B to an A, in addition to the occasional stupid visits to the professors during office hours. As I made my way toward the door, I gave Dr.Carol an apologetic look and she nodded at me understandingly. Dr.Carol, the rest of my professors, my classmates all know me as the nerdy goody two shoes, I have this act up and I made sure the all swallowed it. This reputation comes in handy when ever I reach the absence limits for attendance, as a smile and a stupid excuse from me always works like magic. Behind this act is a girl who is nothing like the classic Emirati girl.

 I absolutely hated this girl, the girl who wears her all black sheila and abaya that she was socially constructed into thinking she had the choice to wear. The girl who thought her body was only made to please her husband. The girl who would often feel the urge and ache between her legs but would ignore it as she had no idea how to relieve herself. The girl who was taught that her private parts could not be touched and if she touched it, she’d be good for nothing. She's the girl who wanted to dance in parties, but couldn't because her family told her its “3aib”. The girl who begs her parents to go to concerts, but the reply “t7lmeen” is what she hears. The girl who sees her brother coming back home at 4 am in the morning, without no one scolding him for being late. that girl was me, her innocence impersonated me, made live in a reality of fear, I pity her, she thought her family was right, she thought it was her fault, born a female into a patriarchal society.

I walked as fast as I could down the university hallway,  45 days, it has been 45 day since I last heard his voice, it has been 45 days since I last saw his smile, it has been 45 day since I last felt his lips, it has been 45 day since I felt his fingers tracing the most sensitive parts of me, 45 days since I last came with him on top of me. Before Ahmad got accepted in police academy, he used to go to the university next to mine, as we have met in the public library that was located in the academic city. He was struggling with his research and I was the only around. He noticed I was rapidly typing my research in english, and asked me to help him with his english paper. It had been a year together, meeting up secretly in locations I knew no one would know me at. I met him at the age of 20, while he was 22. And I could say in the one year we’ve been together he changed me and brought out the Dalal I am today.

As I reached gate 2 I pulled the handbag from over my shoulders and rambled through the bag searching for my university ID card in order for me to scan through the security guard. I felt my whole body tingle as I walked out of the gate door and saw Ahmeds army green Jeep parked in front of the gate, I lost control over my body as I ran toward his car. My body was rushing with adrenaline as I opened the car door and jumped into the car. I didn't even see Ahmads face, as I threw my body against him and hugged as tight as I could. My face was snuggled into he neck, the smell of his perfume made snuggle even tighter against him, I didn't want to let go, I was by now almost snuggled into his lap. Ahmad drove toward a parking a bit further from the gate and stopped the car.  He turned of the car and pulled me into his lap. I felt my eyes water, I tried to hold my snuffles, but as I smelled his scent, I lost control of my tears and cried against his chest, his soft maroon sweater by now was stained with my tears.

 I felt his arms pulling me as he whispered with laughter in his voice into my ear “baby baby its okay, Im here now” I pulled back and looked into his eyes, his thick eyes lashes and light brown eyes looked at me, with a comforting smile in his face. I couldn't talk, my voice felt heavy in my throat so I just pulled my body tighter into his body and tried to calm down. I took a deep breath and kissed his neck slowly, tracing the line of his freshly shaven beard, I kissed him even hard and heard him whisper my name slowly. I felt fire and ices within me making want to make him mine, to mark him with my kisses, to show other he belongs to me, I sucked harder at the spot beneath his ear as he whispered “ no Dalal not again” while laughing slowly. I remembered our first encounter, in the back seat of his car, I didn't know I gave him a hickey until he walked into the store and someone pointed it out, I pretended to be sorry but I was secretly happy that he had my mark on him.  I stopping biting his neck and looked at the bright red mark I left behind. I smiled at him as I leaned to whisper in his ears “Your my god baby”.  Those words were like fire on gasoline, and Ahmed took hold of my hair and pulled my face toward his as leaned into my lips. The taste of his lips, made me moan in hunger, my body was on fire, I pulled him closer but it wasn't close enough. I had his lower lips in my mouth and I was sucking on it gently, but I was I still hungry I wanted more. He pushed his lips hard into my own, and I felt his tongue licking my upper lips slowly, tantalising me with a need for something more. The kisses, the need, the fire, it was like our first kiss again.

He let go of my lips and kissed me down my nick, as he pulled my shiela away from my neck and pushed me into the back seat, with him above and my legs around him. No words spoken, our bodies spoke louder than we ever could. He had my back against the back seat, the heat was to much, I needed more. I pulled my arm free from my abaya and let it drop into the floor of the car. I pulled him back into my body and moaned loudly as our lips touched again, the heat between my legs was making my eyes roll back into head in desire. We kissed feverishly, almost too rough, he winced as I bit his lips into my mouth, and Ismiled and bit even harder. Ahmad traced his hands down my legs, I was wearing a mini skirt on his request, with a pair royal blue thongs, his favourite colour. His hand traced the rims of my thongs and his finger lightly teased my clit, I gave a moan, as I pushed my hips up into his hands. He chuckled at my reaction and whispered “shu feech baby”, I couldn't talk I’m in too much heat my body was his, he could do what ever he wanted with me, I’m his.  He pushed me back into the door of the back seat as he pulled my thongs away from my body, down my legs and took hold of them into his fist. Ahmad took his fist closer to his face and took a deep breath of my thongs “ree7tch” I perfumed them with my favourite perfume before hand, I smirked. Ahmed dropped the thongs down with a growl as he roughly pushed my skirt up my body and leaned in and gave me a rough kiss on my lips, my hands were in his shirt scratching his back, as he we went lower and lower in to my most heated spot.

I opened my leg as he took hold of both my legs and pulled them over his shoulders and leaned his face closer toward my pussy. I gave a loud moan as his mouth latched it self into my inner folds, I welcomed his tongue with moans of my own, he licked my clit slowly but faster as his hands digged deeper into my thighs as he pushed his tongue harder in to me. My moans were getting louder and loader, my thighs squeezed against him as he pushed into me even harder. I looked down at him and saw his eyes staring intensely into mine as he pushed one finger deep into me while his mouth was still sucking my cunt, I felt myself reaching the edge and was moaning even louder, he came back up and kissed my lips while he was still fingering me, I was moaning against his lips while he whispered my name again and again and again until I threw my head back and moaned loudly as I felt my body compulse into an orgasm.  Ahmad pulled his finger out of my pussy and pushed it into my mouth, I licked his finger clean and moaned at the taste of my pussy. We hugged while my legs were wrapped around his waste tightly and his head was resting on my chest for what felt like an eternity. “I love you” I whispered as ran my finger through his hair. “I love you more baby” he mumbled into my chest as he played with my nipples.