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nghy for today’s mv announcement plsplsplsplspls—
#chu! im sorry for being d e l u s i o n a l—#auauauauauauauauauaaaaaaaaa nghy i miss youuu#w. what if ymk kimikawaii mv on friday. w h a t then#but man. i’ve been thinking about what would happen if they randomly dropped a nghy novel lol#i hope it’ll have a cover like daikirai’s where nghy are like back to back wearing their date outfits or their hoodies or sth…#i just wanna see hiyo fall for nagisa aaaaaaaaaa#and i also wanna know what their weaksauce-looking friend’s name is bc i’ve been calling him ‘aaron’ in my mind#he just looks like an aaron. or a javier. maybe a sebastian if you squint and tilt your head 30 degrees#b u t if they randomly drop an idol sengen s2 announcement later today i’m all for it too~~~~~~~~~#in any case!!!!!! kimikawaii mv tomorrow plspplsplspslplsplspls
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Everyone in here seems to be so cool with this news except me LOL. I'm so gutted Lizzies character arc is over in canon. A lot saw it coming by the looks of it except me, I thought it was definitely left unfinished with all the promises and closeness they shared. Haiz. I read it all wrong perhaps.
I know you have plans to write post S6 among other things, like divorced Lizzie with Charlie, Honeymoon etc. etc. You also said you will wait for the movie to write some of them. Will any of the WIPs be effected/plans change with knowing T/L fate in canon?
This is an ask to make myself feel better if you can't tell XD. Thanks!
Heh: the fanfic brain says it would be pleased if Lizzie and Arthur aren't in the movie because that's most of what I want to look at post S6. I don’t usually get into fanficcing for a media unless the media is finished, because I always feel I need to see what the shape of the Canon Thing is to work out where I want to play/extend etc. I genuinely thought PB was done before I decided to write the Thing, or I doubt I would’ve started to write. Over time the movie was making the fanfic part of me increasingly irrationally anxious XD.
Every further movie announcement makes it sound like something further and further from s5 and s6, a fairly clean break and almost a new thing. So I do feel released/able to play with that post s6 space more, because I’m assuming there’ll be just another peaky-style time skip and we’ll be left to decide for ourselves what happened in between. Which is, ironically, where a lot of the Tommy Lizzie dynamic lives anyway - the offscreen spaces is when their relationship happens, what we see on screen shows Things Happened Since Last Time but what exactly is left to the imagination. A silence in the movie isn’t necessarily a nullification of what happened previously, it’s just that whatever happened isn’t relevant to the slice of life currently on show. Out of frame etc. (though, i assume Tommy will heavily carry the emotional consequences of prior events forward, as he always does)
And I’d always assumed t and l would never get back together in any traditional sense of marriage or domestic HEA - my post-show headcanon as it’s evolved over time sees them drift together and apart over various instances and times with meaning, but no dependence/obligation or imposed societal structure. So either of them having other love interests also doesn’t bother me.
I have yet to work out if this easing means I feel like getting back into those parked stories you mentioned any earlier than the movie or not…one is all Lizzie and Arthur funnily enough…but I am so slammed by combo work and study and family things my brain feels itchy with irritation (worst feeling) so I’m avoiding putting too much deep thinking on at the moment.
Sorry i can’t help with much comfort or fic offerings! But yeah I think the way pb does time skips will leave it up to the audience to work out what happened, and that’s always been so much more interesting to my fanfic brain than being told. Maybe some comfort in that?
#Of course the part of me that looks forward to more of Tommy’s canonical story is a different part to the fanfic brain#Containing multitudes etc…#that said the part looking forward to a movie is also relieved because less cast means a more focused purposeful story in the movie#However I do think it’ll be…not like what I liked in s5 and s6 though#I mean I didn’t like s1*…and they have the s1 director so I sort of went ‘ah well not for me’ way back when#so I suppose my feeling gutted/trepidacious happened a few months ago XD XD#*except much later as metatextual context for s5 but goddddd I’ve tried and can’t make myself rewatch S1 :/ :/#s5-s6 was just…something so special to me
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I made a callout for the bird that has been stuck in the building since thursday :’(
#I trapped it in one room so I can’t go to the rest of the store#It literally only has to fly through one entrance and then it’s out#And it’s a huge entrance where we get all of our deliveries#I’ve supplied it with food and water and a place to hide#I’m hoping it’ll fly out tomorrow when it sees the light from the outside#nothing gives me more anxiety when I work then having a bird trapped in the store 😔😔#delete later#it happens way too often and I hate it
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Great googley moogley it’s all going to shit! Every day becomes exponentially more terrifying!
And all perfectly timed to just right at the start of what’s supposed to be my adult life where I get my shit together and be useful and productive!
#we’re cooked#we’re doomed#idk the end is nigh or whatever god damn#I just wanna be able to live in my own house and draw a guy sometimes without the ever present threat of the horrors is that too much#apparently yeah cause houses aren’t achievable anymore but man#m a n#especially if you didn’t/couldn’t go to college and aren’t capable of working most jobs#doesn’t help there’s the chance some part of my existence might be suddenly illegal or extremely dangerous yippie!#the options are literally 1. people die 2. people die what the hell do you even do man#how the fuck is this the election I’m gonna get forced to be a part of we’re living in hell#and nobody around me believes it’ll get bad yay great oh so wonderful#I can’t wait to lose rights and cause millions of deaths regardless of who gets chosen#I think one of these days I’m literally just gonna die of stress#it’ll either be a stroke or a heart attack or cancer or uh well ya know#we’re fucked#we’re screwed#I wanna have some kind of an actually visible break down but ive suppressed everything so much that I don’t outwardly emote much anymore :)#and the constantly dissociating thing too I guess#if you ever think ‘oh yeah I can just think of guy in a situation that’s so cool’ don’t it’s a trap—#although tbh this would be significantly worse without it so uh law of equivalent exchange I guess#fuck fuck fuck anyway#not putting this in the main tags#definitely deleting this later#if anyone in my house got any hints that I may or may not have different opinions than them well uh I’m financially dependent on them so um#literally wouldn’t have anywhere to go if anything happened#oh we’re really in it now Simon#hell world#there’s like what 7 genocides going on too I hate everything I hate everything I hate everything#I can’t do anything to help anyone either cause I don’t have a job and I could get kicked out or treated badly at home for it#not that anyone thinks very highly of me at home anyway I am kinda family disappointment number 2 I pretty sure
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ugh my tummy has been soooo loud lately that’s becoming a problem, I can no longer skip breakfast in peace bc it keeps growling every ten minutes and my colleagues are no longer giggling and asking me if I want some snack… they’re getting annoyed and legit offering me their lunches and it’s getting uncomfy
#It’s happened TWO days in a row#I guess if I want to endulge now it’ll have to be by going hungry later in the day
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Democrats stop sucking Israel’s dick challenge fucking impossible
#delete later#israel: if you criticize us it’s antisemitic#Jewish people who have no connection to Israel: 😬#literally what the fuck is wrong with them#if harris loses the election it’s on fucking her and the biden administration#maybe having trump again as president would be a good thing#because it’ll either utterly destroy this shitass country or cause the second civil war to decide our fate#it might as well happen like idec at this point#I’m venting man leave me alone
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#i’m at the point where i literally don’t trust my boyfriend anymore and feel so insecure in this relationship#and a part of me understands and knows he is allowed to have thoughts and process the idea of us together forever#but the other part of me is expecting him to dump me any second now#and i can’t even enjoy myself around him anymore (which is ALWAYS bc we live together and both work from home)#honestly i’m getting close to jusf ending it and saving myself the embarrassment of getting dumped like six months from now#not that i know for sure it’ll happen. but i feel more sad than happy at this point and i’m just tired of feeling this insecure and anxious#i don’t wanna lose him i really don’t. i keep treating every moment together like it’s our last.#i couldn’t even enjoy my birthday bc i kept thinking this is our last together bc he is gonna leave me soon#i don’t wanna lose him i love him so much but i’m just so tired of this weighing on me#i’ll delete this later. just had to get it off my chest bc i can’t talk to anyone about it#if my parents and brothers knew this was happening they’d be so angry#we’ve been together almost three years. i don’t think literally ANYONE around us would expect this.#whatever. i’m just tired.
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gonna become pepe slivia charlie, while trying to write the plot for this fic
#i have figured out a title but honestly watch me change it later#i’m not gonna reveal it until i know i’m not gonna change it#or you’ll find out when post it either way#tho it’ll probably take a while to get posted imao#i’m easing back in bc i’m rusty i’m not setting myself a deadline or anything#but i would like to get it done and posted at some point is all#tho i’ve only just started it so either way it’s gonna be a while before it’s anywhere close to done#but she fun!#really gotta figure out plot points tho#bc like i have the outline and i know what i want to happen (mostly) it’s just putting it together and making a coherent thing#i’m rusty!!#tho also i am just like this™️#wanna just take fics fully formed out of my head and they’re perfect and then i just post them#job done 👍🏻#but nopeeeeee#starting is probably the hardest part#bc once i get into the flow i’m like okay now this happens etc#idk different parts can be hard for different reasons but i just need to get to a certain point and the fic will come together ✌🏻#manifesting 🕯️🕯️🕯️#gwen rambles#gwenposting
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For the yes/no ask game: If you were interested in picking berries and learned all the good spots in your area to collect from, of which there happened to be many, and you found yourself falling into a little community of berry pickers, where you trade locations, recipes, and knowledge of berries, and one day you heard of a little local legend about a lost grove that's supposed to have some of the most delicious berries but no one remembers the path since the markers for it were washed away one particularly strong storm, only a general area of where it might be is recalled, but you're intrigued, so armed with what little information you have and boatload of determination, you pack yourself a little picnic and decide to make a day of it, hiking out to the spot, and it takes the better part of a morning, mostly because you keep stopping to check for berries, but by noon you've reached a place you're pretty sure must be it because the bushes are so high and thick they seem to be trying to drown out the sky itself and the berries (which you one hundred and ten percent recognize 'cause you're cool like that) are plentiful as expected, so you get to work filling your basket and while you're collecting you stumble across a couple little neat trinkets you decide to pocket as well (a spinning top, a key, a dog tag, and an old useless walkie-talkie) and before long you've filled your basket and you start your trek back following your markers, only to see a door halfway back, standing in a frame in the middle of a clearing of a thicket, so, obviously intrigued, you wander over to give a closer look, it's old, vines climbing the brick around the frame, it's closed and the door is painted black, when you try the handle you see it is locked, when you go to the other side you see the door is white, and when you try the handle the same applies, even when you rattle it nothing happens and while you chew on a berry and think on this problem you remember the key you found earlier, and having nothing better to do you dig it out and try it, to find to your delight that it does indeed open, you take the key back out and step through the doorway, closing the door behind you, you try the key on the black side, but it doesn't work, so you shrug and pocket the key once more, returning to your journey out of the woods, only...where are the path markers you tied on the way in?
You wouldn't say you're lost quite yet, but you hurry along the path you're sure you took anyway and you make it out, but your way home is missing, you let out a noise of frustration, you've been robbed, but you have no cell service here so you start walking, luckily home isn't too far, but it is tiring, and by the time you make it to town it's mid-afternoon, you're tired, yet satisfied with your haul, but as you walk into town you make a very disturbing observation, this is not your town, the streets are strange, the architecture too, you make it to where your house should be and there is no building, instead the place is a garden, there are people, tall with long dark hair, and you wave to them to ask where you are, obviously you've made a wrong turn somewhere, but as they come close they seem confused by you and your words, when they speak the language is harsh and punctuated by chirps, like nothing you've ever heard, you can't understand them, so you politely apologize as best you can and try to speak to the next person walking down the road, but with the same results, you try again and again, each time you fail to communicate a sense of unease quickly turning to dread fills you, you can't even find common words in any language you know or gestures with those who try to communicate with you, eventually you find yourself sitting alone outside of town, evening will be here soon, you put away your phone, which you noticed earlier hasn't had service all day, and your fingers brush against the key from the Door, despite how bizarre it sounds, you are struck with the hypothesis that it may be the source of your current mishap, after a long bout of debate, deliberating your options, you decide to try going back to the Door, while it might be a waste of time, it couldn't hurt and maybe you'd solve this problem while walking anyway, so you head back, much more direct than the first time, but it's still dusk by the time you make it, the doorway is just as you left it, you try the key in the lock on the black side of the door again, to no avail, you bang on the door, kick it, try to pick the lock, eventually you circle around to the white side, this time when you try the key, it opens, but when you look through you are certain that is not your world, do you walk through?
No.
#This is the sort of thing I’d end up in on some Thursday. Might as well happen I suppose. Step one is searching for another key.#We found several object in the brambles right? We should take a look at all of them. Explore the bushes see what else we might find.#Also: the walkie was useless in the my world. But maybe it’ll do something in this world?#Maybe it will connect us to someone who speaks our tongue or translate for us or explain something#Stepping potentially farther and farther away from my world right away in not necessarily the best move though it might be later#Take note of any other difference visible in the world. Are the only differences in the “man” made buildings? Is anything mirrored?#Do the berries still taste the same? Do they look the same? Are the plants the same? Sun? Sky? Clouds? Sunset? Is there anything new?#If the berries appear the same one course of action could be to bring them down to the “people” of the village to try and connect with them#I however do not have the nerves for that. At all. Becoming a berry witch might be in my future#Also: are there any animals around? Birds chirping?#Also I’m keeping the cell phone off to conserve power- also keeping the basket with me#Thanks for the ask#I love this game<3<3<3#And I love anon#Let’s go get trapped in a berry world together
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wait noooo would u be willing to let someone take over the project ,,,, u can transfer side blogs if this happens to be one but i am very sorry im not trying to be presumptuous 😭 i just loved this place so much
I don’t think I would ever be comfortable enough to allow someone to take over this project, but I highly encourage anyone to start their own inspired by mine or any other blogs!
#🦴: asks#If I ever happen to gain interest on this blog again it’ll be probably later this fall just because my summer is already full of birthdays#and moving and babysitting and just anything else life throws my way#I started this blog because I had far too much time on my hands and could do anything I wanted when I wanted but now my life has become bus#Also I have suspected STPD so the not comfortable enough thing will not change any time in the near future
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#hi#I’m dumb#and I miss you so much#I don’t even understand how I can miss you so much still#there’s something everyday that makes me think of you#like it’s stupid how frequently it happens#but I just have to let the waves of grief pass and it’ll get better with time#delete later
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Oh lads. We are Going Through It
#guys who’s been going through it for the last 8 months with no break from the It:#I’m fine! I’m okay! I can help you I’m so good I’m offering help to YOU#one of the plentiful Its is ofc dysphoria and when I messaged my friend he was nice enough#but ‘oh you’ll get there’ and ‘you’re ALREADY a handsome chap!’ like no I’m not#I look like a 12 year old#I look like a stereotype#I had to shave off what facial hair I did have and. yeah#and I know it’ll never happen for me too#I don’t have transition goals anymore just empty hopelessness#besides I’d lose my family what little left there is of it#like. my mum. my grandmum. tbh I’m not even sure if my cousin would talk to me as often#or she’d get in trouble for supporting me if she did#idk man. I’m grieving. depressed and just sad and lonely and I spend all my emotional dollars on other people bc I’ve convinced myself I’m#not worth it#there’s too much going on and so little of it j can control#vent post#delete later
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#Seven’s Public Diary#vent post#vent#cw vent post#cw vent#cw health#cw medical#cw medication#cw death#death mention#after nearly 2 weeks of unexplained pain and Symptoms and working myself up into the worst panic attack of my life#i finally caved and went to urgent care :)#it’s not lost on me that the same thing happened a little over a year ago. not bc of the same symptoms but it’s the same fear of dying#smthn smthn if i had a nickel smthn smthn weird that it happened twice. i rlly hope this doesn’t become a pattern#i can picture it now. every spring i walk in and they’re like ‘ugh it’s the neurotic hypochondriac with 4 anxiety disorders again 🙄#wonder what they think they’re dying of this time!’#sigh. anyways i’m fine. probably.#the consensus was ‘no you’re Probably not gonna have a stroke and die. you’re just Very stressed and in a lot of pain.’#got diagnosed with Stressed Guy Syndrome so now i take ✨painkillers✨ and ✨muscle relaxers✨ 🙃#they wanted me to take a steroid shot too but that felt like overkill. it’s also a big step for me to be willing to take anything at all#not bc i’m scared of getting a shot in the neck i’m just. scared of medication in general. the side effects. the potential for dependency.#it’s only for a week but i’m still uncomfy with it. but it Is nice to be in less pain. tho i have my doubts that it’ll help long term#time will tell. but i still can’t shake the fear of the tiny chance that it Could be more serious. but it’s not big enough for them to test#for it so. just gotta live with the fear. which in turn is making it hard to relax. which is what i’m supposed to be doing. so.#anyways. i Hope the meds work and i don’t end up back there next week spending More money and seeking more treatment#sighhhh i just can’t catch a break these days. it’s Always Something#at least the electricity and internet are back on after the tornado last week. and at least i’m not in much pain for now. silver linings.#sorry to everyone i’ve unintentionally ghosted but it’s been hard to think through the pain and now the meds are making me eepy#hopefully i’ll recover and recharge my social battery sooner than later. bc i do feel v bad abt it#and it’s So nice to sleep without much pain so i’m. taking advantage of that this week. Seven Try To Relax Challenge 2024
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ok i survived yom kippur. but it took every single scrap of strength in my body and i’m not completely better yet
#purrs#food#ask to tag#got my period thursday… bad cramps friday and saturday to the point where i had to go home early saturday (we were working lol 🤪)…. woke up#sunday with a. headache that got worse and worse throughout the day… 5-6 hours into the fast was in agony and felt like i was going to ****#so i… broke the fast and ate something at like 1am. then woke up in agony at 5am and then again at 9am and had a breakdown / fight with my#mom and then spend the whole rest of the fast deathly nauseous and my head hurting worse than ever. broke the fast an hour before everyone#else did (only ate a tiny bit) and then during the fast breaking dinner i started freaking out bc eating wasn’t making my head hurt less so#my grandpa told me to go lie down with a heating pad on my head and i did and slept for like 2 hours and it helped. finally feel better but#my head still hurts faintly and im scared it’ll come back. also i didn’t do my homework and missed class today to fast so im fucked#ive had headaches like this before but this is the worst one in a LONG time. it wasn’t a migraine bc those are in one specific spot iirc but#this was like… my ENTIRE face and the source of the pain migrated from my jaw to my temple to the bridge of my nose to the back of my head#etc etc and it kept moving around and was so sharp i didn’t even have the strength to open my eyes or walk around. and i think it was making#me interpret hunger as nausea. also i took my temperature bc i was flashing hot and cold and was like 2 degrees under normal body temp and#felt so weak and shaky and had body aches too. lol 😍 hpefully the worst of it is over but my head still hurts a little and im so scared itll#happen again. that was by far my worst fasting experience ever#delete later
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#im gonna be a butthead for a moment#it’s really dumb but it’s making wanna cry :////#i understand wanting to get cc you use updated for the new patch i get very understandable#but if your going to do so for yourself and want to upload it yknow maybe ask#like im going to update my stuff i just need al little time it’ll happen i promise#just ask please i don’t know if its the autism but i need to do the things it ask to be just so ok my cc is incredible important to me-#bc its like the one thing i can really do well and have the need to do it myself#any this is definitely not deep and i probably shouldn’t get upset about something so trivial#but i needed to get it out or it will eat me i’ll delete this later#hugs and kisses :-]#i am regretting this but i feel like it should stay up to think before i post something dumb#my therapist literally told me to think before i speak not 2 days ago 🫠
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God fuck god I don’t listen to a lot of Lemon Demon but DAMN they really hit it out of the park with Touch-Tone Telephone. Like I’ve been obsessing over this song for years now, how good it is at story telling and like, character building?? Which is WILD for a song to accomplish, yet the vision is so clear in my head. You can really hear all the layers to this character the song creates. The wild rhythm. The manic, almost (definitely) desperate tempo, gives you the image that someone is running, chasing something, on the verge of something incredible. The dramatic flare of the strings melding with the odd sound effect or vocalization to create an image of someone brilliant but downright crazy. The flipping of the emotion in the delivery: confident, yet desperate. Like, without getting too much into the lyrics themselves, the delivery of “And like you I’m a genius before my time! Disbelieving, that’s the real crime!” gives me chills every time; the POV trying desperately to reach out to ‘you,’ the one they’re speaking to, trying to get you to understand, to see what they see, please, please listen to me I’m not crazy, they’re after me, you have to listen to me please!! Please!!! Try to understand!!!!! It’s all there, don’t you see why can’t you just see?!!
#dont mind me im just rambling#I might come back and polish this up later w more thoughts because HOO BOY do I have thoughts#but it’ll have to happen later :((#maybe tonight idk#anyway this song gives me qcellbit vibes but everything does that now adays dhdjdjkk#just thinking abt:#running. desperate. ive almost got it figured out. haven’t slept in three days i cant afford to they’re after me but ive almost got them#listen to me. grabbing you by the arms dirty fingernails curling into your sleeves folding in on my self LISTEN TO ME. PLEASE.#just look it’s all there. begging falling to knees begging. why does no one else see it?#ANYWAY. great for character creation#now! how could i possibly make this about archivists[CROWD BOOING] no no no! it can work! i swear!!
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